#gonna hyperventilate bc I got to talk about him

[bobthedragon]

Is Kid a escaped lab experiment kind of thing ? if too spoilery to answer right out then that's fine if you'd rather not! <3

going to shriek bc I love you anon but yes

I don't know what to do with Kid's story because he was planned for a comic idea that got scrapped, so now he just haunts me perpetually. He was part of a lab experiment where they tried to create The Ultimate Weapon (tm) in the form of a sword, using children's bodies as the catalysts. It worked! he's the result! he killed everyone involved and ran off naked into the wilderness like wolverine.

the scars he has, though, and the fact that most of his organs have been replaced with clockwork, are not from that :|;;

#replies #oc: kid #eye contact #gonna hyperventilate bc I got to talk about him #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #also that number is not his number I never chose a number for him #anyway I hate him #(jk i love him)

[crossbackpoke-check]

I was reading through your old reblogs and sage to say the tags you put on the Oilers shower post are amazing and I would love to read something like that!!

Copying and pasting the tags here (the blue text is the part I was talking about but I left the preceding tags for context if that makes sense?):

#there's another shower right next to the sitting shower 9 is it in the front corner of the picture? is that little glass alcove the entrance #to get in? like there's also horny potential for somebody in the big empty open space & somebody waiting to come in hesitating but you can #see their shadow & their silhouette in the glass the one outside the door knowing that the other is inside all alone showering but still not #coming in because they're giving them privacy etc being the last ones out & this doesn't feel like a connor/leon thing so maybe it's going #in the vague yamo pile but whoever's in the big shower room all alone jerking off & narrating & god knows sound would carry inside that #space & it could be that whoever's outside the door forgot something in there (left soap etc etc) & just happened to walk in on it (and/or #on whatever is going on in the shower stall) & can hear but can't see them but they can see them & can tell that they're watching/listening #through the frosted glass anyway ALSO what i was trying to get to with nuge/yamo (Imao i don't even think i said nuge at first) was like. #omega yamo who goes into heat/is playing through it & yamo gets ejected from the game with the narrative of nuge five for fighting for #defending him (maybe it's the end of the third maybe it's the second & nuge gets a 10 minute major & yamo gets pulled for a concussion check #because of the hit & then the doctors are like Imao stupid no you can't go back out you're in heat [yamo saw nuge fight for him 00] so the #two of them end up in there alone i like the middle of the second bc then nobody's there & wont be for a minute actually) but it's yamo in #the big open space & nuge outside the door checking to make sure he's okay & thinking that he'll be fine he can control it yamo won't smell #because he's in the showers nuge'll just bury his face in soap nuge waiting politely outside the door & yamo is being a MENACE. ohhhhh we're #gonna have to do research but what was the injury that yamo was out for be the original gifset that started this... this is the inciting event #yamo has been bullying nuge for AGES & by god he's gonna get what he wants even if it takes jerking off in the oilers home showers to bait #nuge into doing it. nuge like 'you ok?' has a conversation with yamo etc nuge: 'you gonna be ok to make it home' & yamo says yeah but not

If you were referring to the time Nuge fought Holl, it was a because Yamo took a bodycheck up high and he had to be taken back for concussion protocol just to be safe

^^^real life footage of me receiving and reading this ask 🥺🥰 i would ALSO love to read a fic like that akdhskdjak, but getting this ask made me actually start a doc for omega yamo being a nuisance so thank you (also if you wanted more vague thoughts, here’s the original gifset i reference)

i think i know exactly which fight you mean!! and i think it is saved in my drafts with unhinged thoughts waiting to be released 😇 if i’m right, this is a video that i had to save multiple times on multiple platforms because it was Important To Me

#liv in the replies #thank you for context thank you for nice words i’m!!!! #🥰🥺😭😊🥹❣️ <- me getting this ask & hearing you like reading my tags (smiling kicking my feet giggling) #also ​me rolling up to this ask like five days late at an unreasonable hour (sounds like me normally on tumblr) #i will say!!! i am the slowest writer in the world!!!! this fic will not be coming ANY time soon #kailer yamamoto #edmonton oilers #ryan nugent-hopkins #GOD BLESS ME FUCKING WAITING TO POST THIS BECAUSE KAILER YAMAMOTO IS A DETROIT RED WING BAYBEEEE I’M SO HAPPY I LOVE HIM MY LITTLE DUDE #i need everyone to know that i saw a sad fancam retweet (didn’t watch the video just saw a comment talking about a lyric that got them #didn’t hear the song either and went WIAT HOLD ON HOLD ON i’d heard rumblings?? in the tags?? about yamo leaving edm but i didn’t really #know what was going on and i scrolled to the original tweet and in the resolves somebody said best of luck to yamo in detroit and I WAS #FILLING A 30 GALLON BUCKET WITH A HOSE AND LITERALLY DROPPED crouched to the floor and died right there oh my god why do these #things always happen when i have my HANDS FULL OF A FUCKING HOSE) i’m gonna. hyperventilating shrieking yowling YAMOOOOOOO #update. the spiral i have experienced. DETROIT BOUGHT YAMO OUT AND NOW WE DON’T HAVE HIM 😭😭😭😭 ARE YOU FOR FUCKING REAL RIGHT NOW I CAN’T #the only reason i was okay with the yamo trade was bc i was like ‘my sincerest condolences to edm fans. but yamo is coming to ME i love him #we will take such good care of him AND THEN THEY BOUGHT HIM OUT WHAT THE FUCK the brief and glorious joy of having yamo on my team so abrupt #i was once again filling up a bucket from a hose so like. @ hockey gods can you stop doing these things while i’m at work & have to pretend #to be normal. it is a personal crime against me actually & is direct retribution for the terrible thought i had yesterday wherein i was #imagining how yamo would fit onto our team (god bless omega yamo having another huge bonded omega to lovingly bully him like warren would mo #would do such a good job & can you just imagine 6’4 mo standing next to tiny little yamo? immaculate) <- that’s the important part but #actually hockey-wise it’s like. yamo is kinda exactly what we need a gritty little dude who’s gonna bring the energy & intensity & vibe #everybody up & the terrible terrible part of my brain was like :( but now that we have yamo does that mean we won’t re-sign bertuzzi because #yamo also fits that spot​ (yamo’s a right winger but still) & ALSO somebody said something about us signing tk which 😭🫡 i love him so much #but please don’t. ALSO I DON’T FUCKING WANT ALEX DEBRINCAT which is so mean & i feel bad because he’s a hometown boy & normally i would love #him but also. i just want bert back & if kitty comes at the cost of not having bert i’m so sorry bro you lose ANYWAY i had to think about #the gremlin energy of the wings having yamo tk & tyler in my ideal little brain & it was very pleasant to imagine but then i got struck down #lmao. remember when i said i was like five days late. sorry to have lied i am finally posting this &also noting i Cannot Handle free agency #the nuge defending yamo’s honor video will likely be coming out of the drafts as soon as i hang my laundry up & also finish making dinner #also also also!! if i am not Right & if you have made it this far can you send me the nuge fighting holl video if you have it 🤲

[bimb0fy]

If you're willing to take freddy requests could you do some headcannons/blurbs on what its like to travel with him? Like plane, subway, car rides etc. Also preferably from the first movie if thats alright :)

TRAVELING WITH FREDDY!

REQUESTED BY: ANON

Pairings: FREDDY FREEMAN X READER

(PROBABLY GONNA WRITE DOWN SOME OF THESE AS DRABBLES AS WELL BCS WHY NOT.)

PLANES

bros terrified of planes, and i mean terrified, like would rather kill himself then ride a plane.

He read a blog about the dangers of planes and has been terrified of them ever since.

He read it when he was 8.

You once had a Europe trip and the destination was at France, so obviously you were excited to go to France with Freddy. He was so anxious and nervous my god.

He kept shaking and hyperventilating. You had to hug and comfort him just so he would get on the plane, and the whole ride, oh my god, he was sooooo anxious.

"Hey! Excuse me miss! But we're are the nearest exits?" "Hey! Excuse me sir! But if the plane crashes, are there enough parachutes for everyone here?"

"Babe, the seatbelt won't close." "Babe, it isn't tight enough!"

"AH!" "It's just some turbulence Fredbear." "OH MY GOD WE'RE GONNA DIE!"

After a while he just passes out. It's literally impossible to wake him up, and he was so nervous so he's deep asleep. He's so cute tho. He's snoring and mumbling he whole time.

After a while, he wakes up, only to find you reading a book, or drawing or watching a movie on the built in Tv. He then starts to panic again then stops when you hold his hand. You had one of these headphone adapters and decided to watch a comedy movie to pass the time.

Once the plane lands, he does not, i repeat, does not leave your side as an apology, since your first stop is Paris, he takes you to the Effiel Tower, and you have a picnic under the stars. He also managed to convince his roommate to sleepover at someone else's room for the night. (for cuddles and movies obvi, bros 15 what were u expecting 🤨)

SUBWAYS

bros a huge germaphobe, he never takes the subway since its too dirty and digusting.

Once you took the subway since you had missed the bus to the mall, and you wanted to go on a shopping spree with him. He refused to sit, or let you sit, on the subway benches as you wait for the subway. You started complaining so he literally CLEANED the bench THEN placed his jacket on their so you would sit on the 'bench of grossness.'

Once the subway appeared, he hated it. So many people in a little space, and he was pretty sure he say a drunk man hurl over the seat he was in. He stood up, but refused the hold the pole and handles, but got too scared and just held it with his sleave.

"Yeah, I'm gonna sit down." "YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO SOCIETY!" "MY LEGS HURT!" "I won't let you sit on the bringer of sicknesses, I shall sacrifice my Jacket once more." "I RIDE THE SUBWAY HOME EVERYDAY?!" "YOU MONSTER! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELF?!"

ROAD TRIP (CAR OR BUS)

Bro surprisingly LOVES roadtrips. He brings a bag full of Comics, has his laptop, phone and tablet fully charged, with a powerbank and so many snacks, 2 bags full. He has all his favorite, and your favorite movies downloaded, he also has movies hes been wanting to watch and movies you've been wanting to watch. He watches horror movies and superhero movies the whole time, all of it.

If you ever get bored or want to sleep, he volunteers to be your pillow, matress or blanket. He. Does. Not. Care. What you want, you get.

Will literally yell at anyone who wakes you up if your asleep, or bothers you. He. Does. Not. Care. He could be yelling at his own mother. He simply doesn't give a damn.

If you just wanted to talk or listen to music while reading, he was okay with it, in fact, bro would take one of your headphones and read along with you. Like i said. He. Does. Not. Care.

SHIP

BRO DOES NOT LIKE THE OCEAN. AT ALL.

"Hey babe? Do you think a shark can jump up this high and bite my head off?" "Y/N NO! WE DO NOT GO BESIDE THE LEDGES LOVE!"

He can not sleep at all. He gets to sea sick and throws up 24/7.

HE HATES SEAFOOD ASWELL. He complains about the food everytime you go to eat something.

"Hey babe? Do you think we're gonna be the Jack and rose of this ship. I'd glady take rose because i'm not swimming in freezing water to get frostbite, like if it happens I do not care, I'm not drowning, you are."

(He's lying he would gladly sacrifice himself without thought just for you)

#freddy freeman x gender neutral reader #freddy freeman x reader #freddy freeman #shazam fury of the gods #shazam fanfic #shazam movie

[jovenshires]

Hey so remember that band au

Do you have any brainrot scraps I could eat

i dont have anything like Publishable but yeah absolutely i got some scraps!! here is the tag for anyone seeing this and is like. What is she Talking about LNDFNFNLK

here is a quick social media edit for the chosen that i ended up not using in the overall edit

i dont think i've revealed who explicitly is in what band yet so have a fun lil guessing game as i give you a sneak peak at ftc's tracklist ! (easy mode xoxo)

and as a bonus some random headcanons under the cut bc why not:

courtney and spencer are long-time childhood friends, and they've been making music together since they were like. 7 and 11 respectively. spencer met shayne and damien in college and they've been in a band ever since!!

if you walk into any of the dressing rooms of every member of the chosen, they are listening to such different music to get ready it would actually make your heads spin. out of their botb fellow contestants, damien is most likely to listen to conventry (bc he's literally never been wrong), courtney is bumping kolivition, spencer is playing some classic smosh, and shayne is listening to ftc!!

i have in my brain what all of the songs are like. About ya know. so for example damien did the backing vocals for augustus and i have this idea in my brain that like. augustus IS this universe's manifestation of the character augustus. so like i think all of the chosen has a hand in writing the songs and damien co-wrote this one and it's just like. about a lonely lost kid who's awkward and doesn't fit in. like obviously it's a much less joking interpretation and more of a serious one but anyway it's still about him. is this making sense? i have No idea anymore!

courtney has also done some co-/backing vocals, and is the most likely to be featured on a track! she's featured on nuclear rain, and she also does a fun lil harmony for 'shoot dood.' shayne is the only one that has not sung and their fans keep begging but he REFUSES

'down bad' is their first like... love song? although it's technically just about how embarrassing being vulnerable and being in love are. smth smth the overwhelming ordeal of loving someone.

anyway it also opens with a snippet of a voicemail from kiana to spencer (probably from like years ago not about anything relevant) telling him to 'get up girl'. kiana is Not here for the fame, in fact she would rather no one knew who she was but unfortunately life be like this. after the ep drops the media goes fucking Nuts with rumors of whether or not they're dating.

they have fans who love the whole band but the amount of damien girls is of course insane. the other three mock him relentlessly for it. there is an entire instagram dedicated to updates about his hair.

lisa has put spencer on twitter timeout several times especially from the band's twitter bc he is Terrible for publicity. the order of worst to best for tweeting are: spencer, shayne, courtney, and damien

courtney takes selfies at EVERY live show they do; they have a collage of them as their phone background!!

as soon as courtney hears jackie is gonna be one of the judges for botb. hyperventilating. she loses her god damn mind. THE jacklyn uweh? famous recording artist? that's her shower sing-along playlist. lisa has explicitly banned them from any fangirling until the battle is Over

"up & coming" is like a netflix reality show about small bands really trying to make it, and they were featured after kiana got in contact with the showrunner. it basically followed them as they made their third ep and interviewed them and people they know. it's very much a 'before they were famous moment.'

damien bet shayne $20 that he wouldn't stare into the camera in every single shot. shayne committed to the bit. no one said anything and they kept every single shot in and NO ONE knows why.

#ask #asks #anon #anonymous #fic #au #rpf #botbau

[my-castles-crumbling]

Swiftie Anon

Hi guys! I got an ask from an anon that might be triggering so I'm copy-pasting it here so I can put a 'read more' button. I'm naming them Swiftie Anon because they said Taylor really helped them.

TW: SH, SI

Hi Cas, hope you’re ok, because I sure as hell am not. Trigger warning, like mentions of self harm and stuff like that I think.

I’m a seventh grader and recently I’ve been thinking about killing myself a lot more than I usually do. During the pandemic I was in 3rd grade and I kinda realized how much life sucked, but when I went back to school in 5th grade, I realized that this hadn’t occurred to anyone else. I kind of brushed it off bc I’ve always been sort of a pessimist but then I sixth grade I started having suicidal thoughts, I think. I just felt really done with everything, I didn’t want to draw or read or write, and my parents were pissed all the time, it felt like my friends were bored of me (I have abandonment issues from all my friends in elementary school leaving me) (I think)and I thought it would just be easier to not exist anymore, it wasn’t that good. I discovered Taylor, the angel that she is, she just felt…like a friend, like she was right there, you know, and I’ve been mostly okay-ish since. But school fucking sucks and in 7th grade I had to do a presentation in front of my class and I started crying and hyperventilating, I couldn’t even stand up. I think I have anxiety idk. I’ve always been shy, and I’ve hyperventilated before when my parents were yelling at me about stuff and my arms started bleeding because I was digging my nails into them. My parents found out at conferences and I got grounded. my brother knows bc he walked in on me crying and hyperventilating once but he’s leaving for college next year and idk how the fuck I’ll stay together without him. My younger sister and I are really close, but I don’t want to drag her in onto this stuff. And ik once I get to high school it’ll be even worse bc high school sounds horrible and I might be all alone again bc I might not go to the same high school as my friends

I haven’t said a word about this to anyone voluntarily and I know I can’t tell my parents. I always lie on those surveys you get at the doctor, and my parents are always saying I should have a more positive outlook on life and try to be happier and it makes me so pissed bc I am trying as hard as I can to be happening but nothing fucking works.

idk what do with myself anymore, a teacher mentioned college today and I almost broke down sobbing bc I don’t think I’ll let myself live that long. It’s just…really hard and everyday feels like years. Should I tell someone? I’m not as bad as I was in 6th grade, but I know I should be getting help somehow. But I suck at asking for things and I can’t trust any adults.

sorry for the rant, I just need some advice. And a virtual, pat on the head or something, idk.

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Hi hon!

First, (with your permission), I'm like to give you a virtual hug, because it sounds like you're dealing with a lot <3

I'm gonna be really real with you right now: You need to ask for some help. You have a lot going on, and some really heavy feelings, and you don't deserve to be dealing with them at ALL, let alone by yourself.

You're young, and you have SO MUCH life left to enjoy, and suffering through it like this isn't fair. So I'm going to share something about myself with you, okay?

When I was younger, I was very depressed. I was in a bad relationship and I felt very trapped, and I got to a point similar to you.

One day, I got so overwhelmed that I sort of realized that I either needed to ask for help or I would end up making a really bad decision. So, I asked for help.

Again, I'm going to be real: It was SUPER scary. I had to see a lot of doctors and I cried a lot. But after a lot of work, I was able to get better, and now, years later, I am in a (different) healthy relationship, and I have a job and a pet, and I'm here talking to you.

I know this sounds stupid because it's like some feel-good story and right now I'm sure you feel less than great. But I say this because you NEED to ask for help, even if it is difficult. Because there are real things past this feeling. A future job, a future relationship (if you want), a future pet, future kids (if you want). They're all very real and achievable and this feeling is temporary, even thought it feels so permanent right now.

So I'm going to give you some options, since it seems like you don't want to talk to your parents:

Talk to a doctor. Doctors are trained to help you, and they have a lot of resources.

Talk to a trusted teacher. Teachers can sometimes be amazing resources as well, and a lot of them want to listen when you ask to talk.

Talk to a different adult (aunt, uncle, coach, someone!) that you feel close to that will help.

Call/text/message a hotline. Here is an example of a hotline you can talk to via messaging, text, or phone, depending on what you prefer.

But you need to ask for help, because you DESERVE to be happy and living your best life.

It would make me super happy if you message/inboxed me an update, whether you're doing better, worse, or the same! I'm so proud of you for reaching out and I'm cheering you on!

#ask #asks #ask cas #tw: sh

[localfandomweirdo]

"Sorry..." (FNaF D.C.A.)

-There was a four way tie,so I'm gonna write all 4 bc I have no moral code :D-

Tw: Angst, panic attacks,swearing, hateful speech(Kinda?), fluff, sibling arguing-

-NOT INCEST-

"What the hell is wrong with you?!SERIOUSLY! Can you just shut the fuck up?!" Eclipse yelled.

"Me?What's wrong with ME?!You're the one being ridiculous!" Moon shouted in response.

"How am I being ridiculous?You started this whole shit-show!"

"Maybe if you and Sun stayed out of my god-damn business, you wouldn't have had to worry!"

"OHHHH.I should just not care about my brother?You need to stop this nonsense and listen to me!" Eclipse rubbed the sides of his head in frustration.

"Oh,why should I listen to you? You do nothing but mess me up!Do you know how hard it is to be me?!"

"Hard?HARD?You're being so fucking dramatic!You have it made!You barley have to work,you're beyond lazy and arrogant,and Sun does literally everything for you!He worries about you constantly! You have the easiest existence ever!"

"What do you mean?I work just as hard as you two!" Moon's voice rose 3 octaves as he spoke.

"You do not! All you do is stand in the dark,scare people,and make sure kids don't sleepwalk away or whatever!Me and Sun work tirelessly.Every.Fucking.Day."

"I wish you knew what it felt like!You asshole!" Moon spat.

"Oh,yeah?I wish you were never my brother!Me and Sun would probably be better off without you!" Eclipse hadn't realize what just came out of his mouth until a thick,deafening silence fell across them.

Then a sound.

Hyperventilating.

Moon's hyperventilating and choked sobs.

"I-i...Moon,I sw-swear- I didn't-"

Moon was trembling,sweating,and choking all at once.Eyes unfocused and dizzy,tears falling down his face.

Eclipse gently rested his hands on Moon's shoulders,

"May I hug you?"

The only response he got was a nod.He pulled Moon closer to him,running a hand through his hair,gently shushing him.

"I-I'm SO sorry,Moony.You...have an equally, if not more, difficult job as me and Sun..."

"A-and I'm sorry f-for starting t-the fight i-in the first place..." Moon whimpered, voice muffled by Eclipse's shoulder,still shaking and crying.

"Hey,hey...shhhhhh,in out,in out...just listen to my breathing, okay?" Eclipse softly instructed.

Moon leaned against Eclipse,taking deep,shaking breaths followed by trembling exhales.Calming down slowly but surely.Eclipse tucking Moon's head into the crook of his neck.

"Love you, little brother." Eclipse said,rubbing the back of Moon's head gently.

"Love you too." Moon yawned,dozing off.

-END-

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Ty for reading.

Real talk tho,some people say hugging isn't how you calm someone during a panic attack, but it honestly works on me,I kinda did project onto Moon a lot😭

Bye😌💅

👁👄👁

#fnaf #fnaf security breach #fnaf au #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sundrop #fnaf eclipse #fnaf moondrop #fnaf human au #fnaf sb #fluff #angst #angst with a happy ending #light angst

[horsegirlalexkralie]

...tell us more about this au and jay being passed around like a blunt. If you dont mind.

absolutely i love my bullshit nonsense aus thank u so much for asking . gonna put it under a readmore bc its long and it gets raunchy. kids dont look

i see it like a hills have eyes/texas chainsaw sitch where brian and alex "inherited" a house somewhere bc they lizzie bordened their way out of the town they grew up in and got married legally w alex on the books as the wife - they raise livestock and kill for fun and eventually take tim in bc brian finds him out in the fields stumbling around covered in blood. amy hires them to have her parents killed and ends up sticking around to murder dudes who beat their wives.

jays an independent journalist on a roadtrip to research like. god even fucking knows what. but his cars a piece of shit so it breaks the fuck down of course in the middle of nowhere and he stands around kicking it and yelling in the rain until a truck stops and the most handsome guy jays ever seen steps out and offers to help haul it to his place. he'll at least give jay a ride, theres no service out here. (he doesnt really give room to refuse.)

so jay rides out to this guys brothers? place? brothers? wifes? the guy doesnt really talk. and theres a girl on the porch, and shes pretty and blonde and she tells him to come in and have a drink- jay asks if shes the brothers wife and she laughs and tells him shes the sister in law. "or something like that". and he didnt really ask what the drink was, but its like? sweet tea? but wrong? but these nice people in alabama wouldnt fuck up sweet tea. jay smoked a joint in the car. thats it. and the brother comes out and hes better looking than the guy with the truck, almost, which like where the fuck did he go? he said he'd get jay a phone- but theyre taking him out to the kitchen- the brothers wifes cooking and she wants to meet him, and shes pretty too, tall and smart-looking, deep voice- big fucking knife in her hand- and is it jay or is it getting kinda fucking dark in here.

idk i think it wld be fun if they made a game of "letting him go" and just letting him get halfway down a hallway before somebody else drags him into a bedroom lol . brian lets his darling little wife and her meat cleaver wear him out and cuts the rope on his wrists- thats enough for tonight, isnt it? he oughta be going. and jay crawls, stumbles bleeding and disbelieving out into the hall - clutching the railing and hyperventilating and putting one foot in front of the other and - amy snags her arm in his. you arent going so soon, are you mister? oh gosh youre hurt ! come here, let me clean you up- and she ties him back up and asks if hes ever tried makeup and asks if hes ever tried s&m and asks if he wants to see a dead body and when his mascaras running and the dead girls dress she put him in is ripped and stained and half-on she tells him if he really wants to go that bad ... she cant really stop him ..... only for tim to scoop him up in the hall and pull the skirt up to fuck him over the railing, stoic as anything, knife at his throat

and theyre gonna kill him but they all keep putting it off bc hes cute and maybe stockholm syndroming the tiniest bit and maybe definitely was a freak to begin with and keeps getting hard when theyre doing fucked up shit to him and complimenting the human furniture

#g.txt #marble hornets #welcome to my twisted mind #nsft #the angel on my shoulder says this is excessive. the devil says write the sex scenes and post them now

[mourninglamby]

Alright the angry mob appears to have died down a bit and I’m a tad calmer than I was when it first came out so I’m gonna. Talk about my thoughts on that stream a bit. Tw mentions of suicide bc that’s. What the arc was about (looks at Wilbur with bloodshot angry bleeding glazed over eyes and explodes his liver with my mind)

First things first I still can’t rewatch that lore stream like regardless of my opinion on how poorly done the end of that arc was it is so legitimately (I hate this word sorry) triggering to see ctommy say that stuff to him I can’t do it brah… and the fact that he didn’t add the trigger warning until midway through the stream is laughably irresponsible (I was not laughing I was hyperventilating but I’m laughing now). So my memory of the stream might be a bit faulty and I’m sorry if I get shit wrong pero oh well.

I don’t know how any of u are making jokes out of this I genuinely can’t fathom how this is funny .. maybe I’m just a hater but the Utah shit was just so insanely stupid like hey I’m gonna bait u guys into thinking my character is understandably and realistically suicidal again for months with red flags and mentions of ‘leaving where nobody can find me’ popping up in every damn apology stream mixed with mentions and confirmations of his previous mental health issues. and then we’re gonna. throw away any nuanced message about any of that and the process of choosing to heal and stay in this world for your loved ones who are literally BEGGING YOU NOT TO LEAVE out the window for some half baked immersion shattering “joke.”

Disagree with my reluctance to see this as lighthearted and “not that deep” all you want but the trigger warning was added (albeit late) for a reason. If you make an arc that makes people so nervous your character who has ALREADY COMPLETED A SUICIDE ATTEMPT ONCE might do it again that they’re making hundreds of meme images and pictures to act as some kind of uncomfortable lulling reassurance that we might get SOME semblance of a good ending then …. U may not want to like idk treat it like a joke.

I didn’t want him to kill himself. I think if he had conveyed to the audience that someone telling him “stay, I need you, I love you,” meant enough to him that he decided to change his mind, and then told ctommy he was going to get better somehow before he saw him again, I would have been fine with that. That’s like. The perfect outcome for me. I know c!crime are codependent. I know they have work to do. But can you like … srsly sit there and tell me what we got instead was ANY better.

Don’t even get me started on the fact that c!dream is still out there brah… cwilbur essentially poked the bear with the inconsolable differences stream and then bounced. like also dreams initial goal of reviving Wilbur solely to torture tommy worked. It legit just worked lmfao. WILBUR DIDNT EVEN APOLOGIZE FOR THE PIT THAT HE CONSISTENTLY BROUGHT UP. you guys… please tell me I’m not just a hater and ur all joking to make urselves feel better abt how awful that was… PLEASEEEE

#rant #I’m not gonna main tag lol

[steverodgerslater]

Co-worker's wife

So I met my coworker's wife at a Christmas party last year briefly. We all talked and had a few drinks together and that was that. Not gonna lie, she is hot and my type but I didn't think anything of it considering the circumstances. Sometime around February I get an anonymous IG message request from some random account, the message says that it's her and she has this secret anonymous account no one knows about. I'm super suspicious so I don't respond for like a week but the curiosity got the best of me and finally I replied asking her to prove it's her so she sends me a selfie and voice msg. She's pretty straight forward and tells me she wants to get to know me, that I seem like a nice guy and that she knows I'm married but if I'm ok with it so is she. She encouraged me to also get a fake IG account so we can talk safely (which I do). She basically flat out tells me she loves her hubby but isn't satisfied sexually and would be open to having an affair with the right guy, and that she has a thing for married men. Obviously I'm intrigued so I tell her we should grab a drink and talk and see if there's chemistry. We definitely do, and we start talking about our past experiences. She's doesn't seem to have had too mcuh exprience before getting married. Meanwhile my past experiences with married women are basically what she's been fantasizing about. She's intrigued by some of the bold things I've done in my past and wants them to become realities for her.

We finally get a hotel for a night. I told my wife I got stuck working a overnight shift for a guy on vacation and I buy her a fully refundable plane ticket so she can show her hubby she has a flight itinerary. But instead of going to the airport, we meet at a hotel by the airport. Our sexual chemistry was incredible. We fucked 4 times that night before calling her hubby to let him know the flight was cancelled and to pick her back up at the terminal.

Since then, we've been fucking at least once or twice a month, sexting constantly. She's sort of become addicted to "pushing the envelope". She insists on keeping her wedding ring on during sex. She's called her hubby mid fuck just to "feel that rush". We've fucked in her marital bed while her hubby's away. We've fucked in my marital bed (her favorite). I don't feel bad because the amazing sex outweighs the guilt but I am hoping this all slows down as I know the longer we play it out the higher the risk of us getting caught.

More: Hell yeah that's the best sensation. For me personally I like fucking at her place better. Just knowing her hubby slept in that same bed just a few hours ago and will come back and lay down right there a little later right where i fucked his wife...amazing. And she makes such a nice home too, it's almost surreal. Her house is so neat and homely and there's pictures of them all over. Meanwhile we're fucking in her bed like animals and she's begging me to cum inside her and get her pregnant (although that's just fantasy, she's on BC but she loves to role play that scenario lol).

More: She was riding me and paused for a second and grabbed her phone, I was like what are you doing? She just said shhh and put her finger to my lips. Then she dialed him and just kept riding me slowly and asked him if he could pick something up on the way home. She was holding her breath so much she couldn't stop hyperventilating after she hung up with him. Oh she's also into me sucking her ring finger while we fuck...she keeps slipping that particular finger into my mouth lol

More: She did mention that she wanted to meet my wife in some way one day though. Like introduce me as a co-worker or something. She said it would turn her on even more if she and my wife ended up knowing each other and we were fucking behind her back.

#perfection #betrayal #dangerouslyclose #confessions

[frecklystars]

How do you want to handle Transformers going forward? You follow me, do you want me to softblock you if I post Transformers? What do you need us to do?

Thank you so much for asking, that's really sweet. There is nothing that you have to do!

I'm not going to blacklist every single Transformers Thing, because I still love Transformers so dearly and I want to reclaim the F/Os that I lost, Starscream especially. Avoiding it entirely is gonna train my brain to believe that it's a genuinely Dangerous Thing that I have to avoid for the rest of my life. I'm not gonna force myself to look directly at it 24/7, but I'm not going to turn away from it all either, if that makes sense

There's a few characters that I definitely have to blacklist, like Predaking/Skylynx/Darksteel might be permanent bc I have nightmares about them the most. Dreadwing and Breakdown I've had to blacklist as well, I don't know when I'd be able to reclaim those two again, but I notice that I have physical reactions when seeing these specific characters bc my ex-friend was so heavily associated w/ them, to the point of going to the hospital having rly intense panic attacks just from seeing her commissioning her S/I with them so often. I've also blacklisted all of TFA bc it was her favorite and I associated her with, like, everybody there. But TFA doesn't feel like a huge loss at all bc I never got into TFA in the first place. I'm sad I'm unable to ship w/ TFA Starscream (all Starlights are on the F/O list after all!!) but maybe one day I'll be able to change that. He's still gonna stay on my F/O list even if I may never interact w/ him.

I noticed that these characters are the ones where I'd be having the most intense reactions to, like getting rly sick/unable to keep any food down for full days, breaking out into hives, hyperventilating and shaking and crying, a total mess. Other characters that I used to feel SO comforted by, like Starscream and Bumblebee, I just get super sad and cry a lot bc I miss them so much and I wish I could feel safe around them again, but it doesn't give me a violent reaction... as often. It still happens, but not every single time like it did before. If I see her commissioned w/ them though, then yeah, that's the worst thing I can possibly see, is her S/I or OC with these characters. That's when I am inconsolable for days. My brain and body react as if I'm in danger. I automatically block anyone who interacts with her now.

I believe I can reclaim these characters if I associate them with people I trust... which is hard too, because I did trust this person who hurt me, and it really backfired on me. I still have a voice in the back of my head saying "don't trust ANYONE they're ALL gonna hurt you" but I'm ignoring it 99% of the time. I have some friends who LOVE to talk about Knockout, I think if I saw them posting abt Knockout on my dash, it would make me feel better. So in a way, seeing my friends talk about Transformers is actually helpful! Baby steps.

If the triggers get really bad I will just step away from the computer/phone for a while + binge cartoons that have no association with anyone whatsoever just to give my brain something else to think about. I've burned through sooo many shows this way. I have a lot of other triggers that aren't TF related but I associated w/ the person who hurt me, like the color pink was her Cybertronian OC's main color, and like... my walls in my room are pink. I got them painted that way for Bee and Puppycat just before the ptsd started and it was too late for me to repaint. I have so many pink clothes. I have some Princess Bubblegum and Pinkie Pie merch that's, well, pink. But I'm handling it better than I was months ago. On my worst days, I will leave my room so I can't look at my walls and I'll sleep on the couch. On my days where I'm not feeling as fragile/shaken up, I'll be able to sit in my room -- I'm sitting in my room right now! I'm sitting in my pink room and I'm just, not looking at it but I see it in the corner of my eye and I'm a little bit shaky but I'm not on the verge of a very horrible attack or anything. In a little while I'm gonna have to sit in a non-pink room for maybe an hour or so before I feel safe enough to come back to my bedroom. I'm going to eventually cover these walls with Cowboy Bebop posters and framed pictures of Spongebob characters.

What I'm trying to say is... I'm able to somewhat control what I see, I'm able to use grounding techniques if I get triggered by the "smaller" things (pink, crop tops, green eyes, etc). I'm blacklisting what I can, and if I need to, I'll block people who reblog her. I don't know if this is really a solid plan because I don't really know what I'm doing just yet, but like. I'm trying. I'm really trying, and if I need to change something then I'll surely figure it out over time. I've made it this far.

#anonymous #asks #thank you for asking!

[introspectivememories]

I want more of jam give me more of jam

JAM LORE TIME!

he's originally from metropolis

so like he was failing badly at living in gotham when everyone else meets him

j: hey im heading out. gonna get some groceries

everyone else: like that? where's your emergency gas mask? your crowbar? your stun gun? your taser? your-

jam starting to get a little freaked out: do i need all that?

the group takes a trip out to metropolis for a month every summer

yes bear has tried to back out every time. no, they don't let him

bear is the first friend he makes in gotham. despite living together, all 3 of them didn't really talk. and then bear and jam have a class together and it's like all the pieces fall into place

bear is the one who picked him up after hia first rogue attack. jam was hyperventilating and sacred out of his mind and bear sat with him until he calmed down

jam is the best at talking bear out of his hallucinations. mainly because pain is the fastest way to take bear out and the rest of them are really opposed to hurting bear even more. jam's reasoning is "seeing his dead best friend bleeding out on our dining table hurts infinitely more than me punching him in the face"

anyway they use jam's method as a last resort

jam is studying astronomy and whenever someone in the group has a bad day, he takes them to the observatory and points out stars until they feel better

he wants to become a professor. he doesn't know that everyone with a phd gets put on a watchlist in gotham and his friends don't have the heart to tell him

in the earlier drafts of this character, i had him be in a one sided love with mori but i scrapped that bc why would i want to create more drama in the group

i also thought about just pairing up mori/jam and khadija/chinna but like that felt too easy to me

but gay people tend to attract other gay people, going by like every friendship i ever had, so maybe that'll work? idk

his parents were really against him moving to gotham but he decided to go anyway

he's an august baby. august 17 to be exact

that's all i got for now! thanks for the ask! <33333

#introspective.txt #timbern #asks #i am so excited to talk about these characters #also imagine them like the one piece crew where there's no set family roles but they're family nonetheless #like yeah i guess you could call jam the little brother but why would you? #they're just family #khadija lore! her mom is dr. farah who's head of the ER's night department. she and her mom love each other but it's hard sometimes #they just don't get each other on a fundamental level. but they both love bear. that they get. #chinna lore! she's south indian! she's got daddy issues! she's been lying to her parents about getting a degree in medicine! #she graduated hs at 16! she's their baby. she's just like me fr

[troglobite]

OHHHH ASDLKFMASDFY CUKGINF ASDLKFJLURAGLKJDFJ

more abt the shows i'm watching ONCE AGAIN please do not judge me for the shows i watch

okay ted lasso spoilers for the newest episode

OH MY FUCKING GOD I FUCKING KNEW IT I KNEW KEELEY AND JACK WERE GONNA GET TOGETHER IN SOME WAY AHHHHHH I LITERALLY SCREAMED AND FIST PUMPED IN THE AIR AND STARTED HYPERVENTILATING HOLY FUCKING SHIT ALSDKJFA LSDFHLASDFHLAKSDJF;AOSDFHLIAUSDFKLASJD FLK

okay also

TRENT HAD A FUCKING RAINBOW MUG IN THE OPENING SCENES

AND HE WAS HOLDING IT WHILE TALKING TO THE COACHING TEAM AND HIGGINS

AND THEN ROY WENT ON HIS GIANT RAGE BIT ABOUT WHAT YOU DO TO BULLIES

AND THEN TRENT OUT OF SHOCK AND TERROR DROPPED THE RAINBOW MUG

i mean it was frustratingly not a PERFECT gay rainbow, but it WAS a rainbow and it said IT'S THE RIGHT THING TO DO

WHAT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO, POSSIBLY GAY TRENT MUG, PLEASE ENLIGHTEN ME

also the looks at colin when ted mentions shame

colin talking about musicals and the others joining in

colin refusing to partake in saying that anastasia is beautiful

trent walking around with higgins just for some reason i'm like !!!!! OKAY!!!! PART OF THE TEAM/FAMILY!!!!

also i am VERY COMPELLED abt rebecca's journey

i KNEW her main closing journey was going to be abt becoming a mom

and now it's not possible for her to carry or conceive HOWEVER!!! GUESS WHO HAS A FRESH BABY!!!

BEX

do it, rebecca. DO IT. GET HER TO DIVORCE RUPERT, SELL HER SHARES OF THE CLUB, AND CO-PARENT THAT LITTLE BABY, DIANE!!!!!

also compelling that the green matchbook and shite in nining armor were about past relationships, not abt the "RIGHT" one!

it's reflective!

and it's moving BACKWARDS.

which makes me think--

further backwards yet again is BEX

so raise her baby with her!!!!

okay once again i would like to FUCKING SCREAM ABOUT KEELEY AND JACK GETTING TOGETHER FUCK YES!!!!!!!!!!

I KNEW FROM THE SECOND THAT SHE WAS INTRODUCED WITH A "MAN'S" NAME AS A BAIT AND SWITCH

AND THEN WITH KEELEY IN THE TOILETS

AND THEN THEY LOOKED AT EACH OTHER AT THE BAR DURING THE GAME

i am.

EXPERIENCING HAPPY QUEER FEELINGS

THANK FUCKING CHRIST

I'M SO FUCKING THRILLED

KEELEY CONFIRMED BISEXUAL!!!!

JACK CONFIRMED BISEXUAL OR FORMERLY-DATED-MEN-LESBIAN!!!!!

i guess technically the same for keeley as well! but it seemed like she really loved and was very much into jamie and roy, so i'm definitely on Team Bisexual over here.

okay anyway

HINTS OF TRENT

that sleeve roll and his little bracelets so fucking gay, my dude, especially WITH THAT FUCKING MUG

and then jamie and roy still committed to working hard together i am LOOKING. WITH INTRIGUE.

okay that was a fascinating episode.

i also i called it as SOON as ted got that text abt henry that HENRY was the one who bullied the other kid.

i was anticipating MORE abt that storyline, but apparently it was just to show how far ted's come in terms of managing his anxiety and his panic attacks, which like, okay, sure. i appreciate them showing henry learning from his mistakes and trying to do better. that's lovely.

i WAS anticipating more. i was anticipating henry to have participated in like homophobic bullying or something. bc tbh we still don't know what he did. to some kid named doug. we didn't really learn anything. and i am INTRIGUED by that lack of detail.

anyway.

also yay for nate! i didn't actually expect him to end up dating restaurant girl--what the fuck is her name again? i legitimately forget even though i JUST watched the episode, which is genuinely hilarious considering her bit abt not remembering nate's name, etc.--but it actually kind of. makes sense.

nate does need someone who can keep him in check--but also they sort of know each other, and the restaurant is special to him. it's not like they have NO history, or their only history is her being rude to him.

quite frankly she's like the classic "be mean to the person you like" bullshit from childhood.

which is funny considering nate's like. behavior and modus operandi.

ANYWAY. i hope that gets more compelling and interesting, but yeah they've both been rude to each other and it's. interesting.

it's a good ego check for him.

and it was really nice for him to be able to recount all the good things that've happened to him! the fact that he ENDED that sentence w talking abt being promoted at richmond! that's really nice.

i don't have incredibly strong feelings abt him but i find the story is being handled p well.

nuance and critiques abound for various parts of the show, including nate and his storyline.

BUT.

that was. a really fucking good episode.

also bye zava! lol

i was really fucking worried that he was gonna out someone or say something shitty abt richmond, but truly, he's a self-important wishy-washy dickhead, but he's not a cruel person. and i appreciate that! very interesting character, v fun for the time he was there.

and unfortunately i can understand exactly how dani ends up hero-worshipping him. lol he speaks exactly the kind of language that dani would find super compelling. lol

anyway holy SHIT there are still seven episodes left AHHHHHH FUCK!!!!!!!

this was a good episode and FUUUUUUCK MEEEEEEEE KEELEY AND JACK ARE TOGETHER!!!!! well, they're fucking. who knows what any of it means. BUT FUCK YEAH!!!!! CONFIRMED BISEXUAL KEELEY!!!!!! FUCASDJFLKA SKLFJHAELIUAHDLSFHAILS EFJADSKFLJ

no. fuck. wait.

the next episode title and summary:

sunflowers

a friendly match takes the team to amsterdam, where one night out unlocks truths for many.

for MANY?!

HOW FUCKING MANY?!!

[SWEATS IN STRESSED OUT LESBIAN]

FUCK!!!!! AIDJ GKADHGCKAEHRLFGKADHKJGHCF ADLDHFKJFSD LKFJAD LFKJ DSOH FMADFYASD LFAJDLFKJASFLJ

[minkkumaz]

favorite anon,, hehe. ur my fav writer!! im so happy i discovered ur fics,, interactions with you are always so sweet!!

but

YOUR OT6 MASTERLIST. I GASPED ONCE I SAW IT. twirling + swinging my feet. this feeling reminds me of waiting for the bonedo comeback.

first of all, CUPID SUNGHO. CUPID SUNGHO ⁉���⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ firm believer cupid sungho wears glasses just because!!! before shooting his shots he definitely pushes up his glasses to get a precise shot.

medusa reader and human riwoo has me tearing up. the amount of angst that could be made up will BREAK me. like what if reader just wants to watch riwoo dance and perform but they cant get too close because they dont want to make riwoo loose his bright future ☹️☹️☹️

ZOMBIE READER? me and jaehyun could be zombies together 🤞🤞 stop but what if jaehyun was a scientist who could really help out the reader.. or like jaehyun and the reader were childhood friends when a zombie apocalypse appeared and watching his best friend get turned into a zombie made him dedicate his life and future to turning them back.. scientist/researcher jaehyun 💭 (i just wanna see jaehyun in a labcoat tbh)

VAMPIRE TAESAN HAD ME JUMPING UP AND DOWNNNNN. hes literally THE vampire ever. i 100% love the mysterious, weirdo social outcast taesan who’s secretly a vampire… (thinking abt how the reader could be a total geek and nerd when it comes to supernaturals)

PFKFKKDKD MERMAID LEEHAN. leehan and his fish pals :)))) LMAO but like ur so true leehan is legit the 🧜‍♂️ emoji. I CANT STOP THINKING ABT HOW BEAUTIFUL HE’D BE UNDER WATER LIKE IK HIS HAIR IS GONNA BE FLOWEINNGG. (plottwist, leehans a siren and ends our life </3)(its okay cause its leehan)

BUT OUT OF ALL IM SO SO SO EXCITED FOR ALIEN READER AND WOONHAK!! ACK i keep thinking about how Woonhaks a regular highschool student, and his new alien friend helps him study at night using their antennas as a nightlight HAHA. imagine the two just tucked under a blanket reading a book together with the light source as the antenna.

im seriously so excited for all of them it really feels like a bonedo comeback LMAO. the things i wrote were just little ideas. im definitely excited for anything you’re gonna be putting out!!

-🍉

ditto! interacting with you has been my fav i love hearing your opinions on my works and stuff you're so sweet :,< i'm so glad you're excited for my series omg i feel honored that i'm on the same level as waiting for a bonedo comeback ><

i giggled so hard when you said sungho adjusts his glasses to look at his shot LOLL that thought is so funny to me bc hes so majestic but the idea of that is so nerdy HAHSKHSB

trust me.. riwoo's will have a lot of angst. THAT IS ALL I WILL ELABORATE ONE! shoutout to woonhakist aka my bae for the medusa and cupid idea :3

zombie reader w human jaehyun was probably one of my smartest ideas like i literally have the plot on lockdown and i'm expecting tears from everyone that reads it because i'm having trouble properly breathing at the mere idea of it. LET ME COOK!!!!

i'm gonna base vampire taesan off of a kdrama i watched! NOT PINPOINT ACCURATE TO THE PLOT BUT THE IDEA!! not saying which one quite yet, but i'll probably namedrop in the a/n portion once i actually publish it :) if you know which drama im talking about when you see it, you might have an idea of what the ending will be so i kinda hope people don't know ^^;

and no fr literally this whole series wouldnt exist if i didnt start working on mermaid leehan like a month ago. i was thinking about it.. then i wrote it.. and im like halfway done and the wordcount is literally sickening its so long.. but i can confirm that leehan is described very beautifully bc hes just THAT majestic. got me hyperventilating n shit. (i will not confirm nor deny your plot twist) (anything that happens is okay bc its leehan)

I AM ALSO SO SOSOSOSO EXCITED FOR ALIEN READER AND WOONHAK I'M BASING IT OFF OF 'I DO'!! so honestly most of what you're thinking about is pretty accurate (i might steal that antenna nightlight idea thats actually so cute and so smart wtf) (with credits to my sweet melon anon)

i'm even more inspired to write this now hehe you gave me motivation!!! get your tissue boxes ready for october because HINT!! they will all be very angsty :3

#∞ ₒ ˚ omi's chats #༊*·˚ anonymous peoples #🍉 anon ·˚ ༘ ✎

[kkumahearts]

february 13, 2023

i haven’t updated since december… oops! so many things have happened since then. this is so weiiird!

maybe a month and a half ago philip dmed me blablabla chicken and rice blablabla and we got food. it was cute and we walked around a lot. i've also realized i don't enjoy processing feelings i think i tend to ignore them until they go away or just mold into me. anyways and then new years eve happened and he asked me to come over and we could go to a party. he was like i wanna see you again and all that. i took half an edible and he was kinda fucked bc he took a full one and had a brownie and some shots. the party was literally all upper classmen and i was sooo out of my element. we sat on a bench literally the entire time after he talked to a bunch of guys. oh yeah also!! man party!! ratio was 3:1 guys and girls. so i was REALLY out of my element. and since i was so out of it i started drinking those seltzers like crazy. i had like five like wayyy too many definitely not one my brightest choices. but what can i say. i kissed his cheek somewhere along the night and he said oh u wanna kiss and then kissed me. super messy kisser btw. after that i mean there was the new years kiss duh and emma was texting calling omg my dad called and i was like bruh and also texted perfect viet to him like i was genius in that moment my brain was working so hard.

emma swooped in and i bonked my head on the car. seriously not one my best moments because i kept saying bye to philip and he was really fucking high and emma thought he was pissed. jack and julia were there. oh and before he came to pick me up from beas to go to the party and his house before. i was hyperventilating in the house and jack was like "just go with the flow...?" and i was like ARGHHHAAAHHHHHHHH

wow this is gonna be one long ass entry. anyways. we meet twice after that. the next time i just go to his house for a little. i bussed and we walk his dog enzo who really hates going on walks like the amount of resistance that dog put up was crazy. and then i laid in his bed which made him hop over and cuddle me from the back. and then we lay there and talk for a little but its mostly him talking bc my brain goes blank when i talk to him. he told me so much about farm subsidies. i like the way he thinks.

and then i was like i gotta go philip! and he was like just let me kiss u first ;DDD and i was like yo. this crazy. and it was like heavy we had to take pauses to breathe and i was breathing all over his neck god i rly like his neck. i kept telling him youre so messy and he was like giggle giggle "youre...not" and then he walked me back to beas and i waited for my mom and then bea came rolling up blasting music in her car.

this is literally a whole ass essay but i feel like i should update. i think i use this blog to vent mostly so when i look back at it itll just be depressing. why do i even care if its long... not like future amy will gaf. anyways i was prepared for that to be the last time i saw him for a while because mr is in eugene. but i was talking to emma and mimi and they were like amy there is a whole ass four days we can make this happen!~~ and i was like ur right.... let me beg my parents!! there was tiny drama bc we couldnt go with bea and julia to the market and they ignored us when we waved but moving on...

and then i got to his houseyyyyy and i was so super nervous and emma and mimi were hypign me in the car. i had to be back at like eight so we were on a tight sched. i think he led me up the stairs and held my shoulders but I'm gonna be honest i don't remember. anyways i brought him canes and he put that in the kitchen and we went upstairs and just sit on the bed... and i was like do you wanna eat? like the food is there lets go and he was like nope no no nah nah no. and then i was like okay.... idk put in some filler sentences there and then he said "i feel like i should make a move..." and i said "no pressure...i mean i can make a move... nobody needs to be making moves here.." and then he kissed me while we sat on the edge of the bed. then he takes off his shirt and he's like smirking and in my head im like this has rly escalated.. and we fuuuuucc ccccccckkkkkkk. i’m happy my first time was with him, and it was perfect. we were laughing and silly and he was oh so cute. i am too lazy to. continue updating bc i have memories so it’s not necessary.

[dumbkatsu]

.......hello!

once again, your writing is a m a z i n g :)

may i request......any hcs to your liking,,,but with qi rong...? i haven't seen people request somethin for him on Tumblr yet?

[you don't have to do this request, if you don't want to-]

-anon, who managed to somehow misspell 'xie lian' in a request.

Hello again anon!!

kdfvhgdif it's ok it abt the misspelling happens to the best of us dw.

OMG, you really know how to stimulate my brain juice and bring me a new challenge!!! I've never written for a character like qi rong, let's do it!

I'm just gonna do some hc bcs idk how this will work out. I'm just gonna go with the flow but I'm excited to do this!!

TW: panic attack

Ok so this ancestor has the tagged tsundere slapped on his forehead so imma add a bit of that.

So you met when you were delivering water chestnuts to puqi shrine

Xie Lian wasn't present at the moment, only qi wrong, gu zi, and Lang Ying.

The two kids were playing outside and when they noticed you Gu Zi led you inside so you could put the heavy bag near the kitchen.

You heard some muffled screams and when you turned around a man was tied by some white bandages and he was thrashing violently

You approached him carefully and gently removed a strip from his mouth

Safe to say that qi rong was a bit held back because no one had touched him as gently as you in a long time

Especially in such a delicate place.

Your hands were softer than the most vibrant orchid petals. And your single touch so gentle

The feeling was fleeting and so his stunned face quickly changed to his usual demeanor

"WHAT WERE YOU WAITING TO UNTIE ME YOU UGLY HAG?"

To say that you weren't expecting such a sweet face to say those words is an understatement.

You kinda panicked so you swiftly swept the strip to cover his mouth again

Not changing the gentleness might I add.

You patted the two kids' heads and went on your way.

A couple of days later you returned to deliver a bag of rice as a payment for the help that Xie Lian and Hua cheng gave when helping your father's fields

And there he was again, but this time he was sleeping. He didn't have the strip of cloth on his face

After you carefully put down the rice you got near him.

It did make you think that his features were refined. Maybe he could have been a prince in another lifetime

You pushed away some of his hair away so you could have a better look.

Qi rong opened his eyes but for a second he thought he was still dreaming

You were so close to his face

He let out a scream

You screamed in fright and landed on your but

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING? ARE YOU TRYING TO SEDUCE THIS ANCESTOR BY FORCE, YOU WRETCHED MORTAL?!?!"

You were hyperventilating a bit. Your chest was getting heavy and the room was spinning.

"I'm s-s-sorry I- I didn't mean t-to." your breathing was getting labored by the second and you started to lose focus.

"Dad Xiao Jie is not feeling well don't scream!" Gu zi said with a worried tone " Ha! Even you dare to order me around?! What an ungrateful son I have!!"

He threw a look at you and couldn't help but be reminded of when he was weak and powerless against the splendor of his cousin. When he tried to cultivate but ended up paling in comparison to even his cousin's servants.

He sighed "Aiya, hey look at me. Try to follow my breathing. Breathe in....breathe out.".

After a while, you calmed down and bowed to him " Thank you. I apologize for this."

His mouth was agape. No one has ever bowed to him out of gratitude and respect. Who were you? Why did you make him feel these new things? What did you want from him?

"Meh whatever, you look too weak anyway for me to have a satisfying meal" he said under his breath

"What?"

"What!?"

You huffed with a smile on your face " Well I thank you again gongzi" you bowed and left

Every week you payed a visit to puqi shrine. Bringing the kids and Qi Rong treats made by yourself.

You odly enjoyed listening to Qi rong talk and boasting about his deeds. He was a very funny narrator. He would go on tangents to trash people he didn't like and somehow he knew all of the gossips in the village.

Guess that sitting in the shrine all day doing nothing bettered his hearing skills.

He was also a pretty good listener. He gave great advice.

Although a bit extreme and dramatic, you knew the meaning he tried to convey.

And qi rong would never admit it but the best part of the week was when you came through those gates

Even Xie Lian started to realize that his rambunctious cousin started to be a bit calmer.

One day you were listening to him reciting a poem.

Yes I know it's odd but you were pestering him so much about it when he told you that he remembered a couple of poems from xianle that he conceded to your pleas just to shut you up.

And you did bring douhua...his favorite desert...

It tasted so much like the one his mother used to give him...

Qi Rong’s voice was soft as the autumn breeze swayed the leaves outside. The red, yellow, and orange tones mingled with the afternoon sun.

You couldn't help but fall asleep. You had done so many errands today. You were very tired. And his soft voice just lulled you to dreamland

Qi rong felt something hit his shoulder.

His breath was caught in his throat.

How could a measly mortal human look so ethereal and in peace as you looked now? Your lashes, your chubby soft cheeks, your hair swaying with the breeze. He couldn't bear to disturb you from sleep.

He huddled closer to try and provide you with more support and tried to give you a bit more warmth.

and without thinking, he pressed his lips to the crown of your head.

He realized what he did and sighed " Aiya what are you doing to me? I can't be going soft or else I'll be as pathetic as cousin crown prince..."

"But this is not that bad"

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#so my cousin found out what josh (my crush/co-worker) looked like nd i was so nervous????? #like the thought of her knowing what he looked like scared me bc ??? i knew she wouldnt find him that cute nd i guess i want her approval #for who i like or date ??? idk but she digged like she always does whenever i tell her about a guy i like #and after a but she finally found him nd she was like ....hm he's not that bad tbh #nd i was just sitting on the couch cringing so hard nd she ended up showing her bf nd he looked at me nd was like ...girl what???? #and it made me so upset bc i find josh so cute?????? but thankfully my cousin was like shut up #he has charm!! u can see it in his eyes that he has charm so that makes up for the fact that he isn't the cutest #nd she notcied that his front tooth was a lil crooked (like jimin's!) nd she was like awwww his tooth! #his smile is rly cute nd i was like thank u! it rly is the cutest!! #nd then she lowkey made me have a panic attack she was like i hope u know now that im going to go to ur work nd mention u nd maybe or #maybe not tell him u have a crush on him but im not going to striaght out say ur name im gonna make him think about who im talking about #nd when she told me that i literally started to hyperventilate nd tears started to well up in my eyes #nd i was like oh my g o d..... #like that is one thing i hate the most like im so scared she's actually going to do that #tbh idk if she was serious or not....i hope she isnt #anyway if u got down this far i love u nd ur the real mvp #sorry for ranting like this i just needed to get it out #idk if any of this made sense but like....yeh #hanna.txt