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saintslewis · 1 month
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𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐎𝐅𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐅𝐀: 𝐒𝐎𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐋 𝐌𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐀 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐒 🪩
𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 | 𝐋𝐇𝟒𝟒
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pairing: sir lewis hamilton x fem oc; Nadia Hamilton
summary: social media posts from the most recent chapter! <3
warnings: twitter environment, cussing
saint’s team radio 🎀: 2 for the price of 1 😝. did not mean to take so long so here’s a little gift 🫶🏽
pic credit: pinterest and ig!
fc: @/unclewaffles_ on ig
plastic off the sofa: chapter 7
renaissance: the masterlist
Twitter!
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Instagram!
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nadiahamilton versace x dua lipa.
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nadiahamilton guys my back tat looks so delicious
loriharvey YOU’RE JOKING? NADIA
nadiahamilton hello 🤭
user and what if this causes my hospitalisation?
dualipa i was so lucky to see this in person
nadiahamilton thank you for such an amazing show!
versace 💗
lilymhe i fainted a couple of times
arianagrande WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU JUST WAKE UP AND LOOK LIKE THIS
nadiahamilton i don’t, i swear 😭
kehlani can your man fight
haileybieber you look like a dream 🥹
user whatever your affirmations were, hand them over!
sza that ass is SITTING
francisca.cgomes i am begging for one chance
alexandrasaintmleux me too omg
user i don’t think you understand what you’ve done now
nataliatheedon you’re actually unreal WHAT
latto777 it’s actually so unfair that he gets you to himself
iamcardib like it’s actually pissing me off rn
amaraonmars this is insanity. do it again
jackharlow oh you was serious
user white boy, what are you talking abt? 🤨
user probably something at the party
user and dare i ask who took the photos….
user there could only be one selfish man who did this
user not you calling him selfish 😭😭😭
lewishamilton had to take a breather
charlottieee we’ll give you your pump, grandpa
fencer THIS IS SO CRAZY???
nataliatheedon CHARLOTTE YOU CAN’T SAY THAT 😭
lewishamilton hi mrs hamilton
nadiahamilton hi 🤭
user they had to remind y’all REAL QUICK
nadiahamilton
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nadiahamilton hello monaco! (can we pls focus on how good he looked)
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user publicly thirsting over him, aren’t you embarrassed?
user girl that’s her husband…..
carmenmmundt we need to get together like that soon, it was so much fun!
lilymhe i felt like i was in a chick flick
francisca.cgomes not when you tripped and your ice cream fell ‼️
alexandrasaintmleux kika let’s be nice but YES tinkerbell, i need another girl’s day or else i will combust
user YOUR SHIRT??????
nadiahamilton super cute right?
user it’s so iconic!!!!
user nadia liked and favourited an edit of mine, just wanted to flex 🙏
user now why would you expose that girl’s secret like that (share the edit)
nataliatheedon monaco isn’t a real place, hope that helps!
nadiahamilton if i were you, i’d keep quiet 🫵🏽
nataliatheedon 😧
user i have the slightest feeling that you can cook, can you?
nadiahamilton yes?
user since no one is talking about it, yes he looked so good that day Nadia
nadiahamilton THANK YOU LIKE SOMETHING WAS IN THE AIR THAT DAY
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f1femmepost bumping into nadiahamilton was the highlight of our Monaco Grand Prix weekend! Tell us what your favourite interview moments were!
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user “is this one of those tiny mics?? I LOVE TINY MICS”
user “i promise you, go up to one of these white people and they will give you a paddock pass. i’ve seen it.”
user “sorry i gotta fix my nose ring hold up”
user “there are days where he sounds incredibly british and it’s just so interesting to hear.” “but he is-” “and that’s what makes it better!”
user “these are my ladies, those drivers couldn’t stand a CHANCE!”
user a dog and its owner walk by: “omg look at it, i wanna squeeze that dog.”
user “i won’t hold you, i’m craving a big ass bowl of pasta rn.”
user *sings in the most angelic voice you’ve ever heard*
user “i’ll never stop being a teacher, it’s so much fun.”
user “if you’ve got extremely blue eyes, do not stare at people, it’s so scary. i’m talking about you, pierre gasly.”
user “omg you’re craving cupcakes? let’s go get them!”
user “you like that bag from gucci? let’s go get it.”
user “i love laying on the floor so much.”
f1femmepost because of all these posts, we love Nadia Hamilton so much! 🫶🏽
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saint’s notes 🎀: this took so long yoh, hope you enjoyed!
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soleilnomoon · 10 months
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hey miss kaia 😼 I wasn’t sure if I should message you or send it this way butttt I’d love a strawberry-mango mai tai (crocodile or shanks) w/ songs 12, 15, and 23 from the playlist 👩🏾‍💻
hiiiii bb 🥰️ ty for requesting! i am so so sorry this took so long, but it’s here at last. also this was my first time writing crocodile, so i was v excited and wrote more than necessary but lbr i’m a long-winded mfer ok, that’s just how it is there’s no cure unfortunately; anyway i like how it turned out and if i kept writing we’d be here forever ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡
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2.1k words (don’t look at me), fem reader, nsfw, 18+ mdni; fluff if you count him not choking her as fluff & smut (and angst that u didn’t ask for but i gave it to u bc i’m unwell like that 😊; feat. post-time skip crocodile in denial (he’s king of it clearly), reader who is (rightfully) in her feelings abt everything, smoking, established relationship, exes 2 lovers bc that’s my jam, a lil bit of miscommunication, crocodile is bad at emotions and reader is too emotional — they’re perfect for each other obvy — rough sex, is it considered knife play if he has a hook (asking 4 a friend), a lot of kissing (hello romance), probably other stuff but idr. crocodile comes w. his own damn warning tbqh. reader sippin that clown girl juice like a champ, i’m proud <3
(if u see spelling/grammar mistakes no u didn’t 💕)
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it’s late at night when he arrives at your doorstep; you’re in the middle of flipping through a magazine, the ceiling fan silent and slow, the heat a little more than tolerable as you sip a cool drink. you have no intention of entertaining anyone, but when you recognize the heaviness behind the loud knocks, you make an exception.
of course, you do, there’s no other choice but to do so.
sir crocodile is a man that takes, and takes, and takes without remorse; there’s an insatiable greed — hunger, rather — that he can’t seem to satisfy. or maybe it’s that he’s been denying himself for years and it’s finally become too much for him. a small, quiet buzz infiltrates your body when you yank open the door. you half expect to find someone else there, so you stare openly, disbelief and shock holding you in place.
he peers down at you when you stand there and don’t bother to invite him inside. he knows his presence is probably more than you can handle, but he’s a selfish man and his time is very limited right now. with a subtle nod of his head, almost as if he’s telling — no, commanding — you to let him in; he’s always been like that, wordless commands that he expects to be followed without question.
if you had more sense, you’d slam the door in his face. but sadly, you don’t.
you try not to appear too affected, but as crocodile walks inside, dark eyes taking a sweeping glance around your modest living space, you suddenly remember how to speak.
“h-how did you find me?” your voice is much too soft and timid, something he clicks his tongue at, annoyance slightly bubbling underneath his skin. maybe it’s because he hasn’t seen you in so long, or maybe it’s because he’s much too taken by your beauty — something he tried to forget but was wholly unsuccessful.
he doesn’t spare you another glance as he hangs up his coat, doesn’t bother asking for permission before he rummages through the cabinets in your kitchen to pour himself a drink, and doesn’t think anything of his overly familiar actions in a home that doesn’t belong to him when he makes himself comfortable on one of the plush armchairs in the living room.
you scurry after him, steps soft and hurried, the smoke from his cigar wafting towards you the closer you get. he tilts his head back and exhales deeply, eyes closed as he blows smoke above him — a heady, intoxicating scent that triggers memories of the nights you spent with him before.
not that it matters, but crocodile’s nerves got the best of him before he arrived; he hasn’t seen you in two and a half years, and he always wondered if someone finally snatched you up. he told himself, a long time ago, that he would wreck whatever relationship you found yourself in anyway, but the uncertainty still lingered.
do you still care for him like you claimed you always would?
it’s a question he refuses to ask you because he’s convinced that the answer will ruin his plans no matter what your response is.
when you finally snap out of that momentary stupor, you stand in front of him, eyes glossy, as if you’re holding back years’ worth of tears. but somehow, you both fall back into the same routine you swore you’d never go back to — you straddle his lap, shorts riding up your plush thighs, his golden hook cold as he uses it to lift your chin up.
you remind yourself to keep focused, to not fall for his charm again. you don’t tell him that you’ve stayed single this whole time, mostly because everyone who came into your life after him didn’t compare.
“i hate the smell of smoke,” you declare boldly, voice strained, and maybe a little needy — even though you closely press yourself to him, even though you’re shamelessly rubbing yourself against him with slow, deliberate rolls of your hips. an inescapable, irritating heat passes through him, threatening to burn him alive; already his cock gets stiff when you move on him like that. if he had a bit more sense in him, he’d just leave right now.
but old habits die hard, and for some reason, your presence alone throws him off completely.
in a good way. even though he claims otherwise.
he reminds himself that he’s only here to talk as he runs his large hand along your thigh, admiring the smoothness of your skin — the sensation oddly calming to him. the feel of his rings along the back of your thigh triggers a vivid memory that makes you inhale sharply — you remember that the last time you saw him, you were on your knees and gagging on his cock. that night he fucked you like he knew he’d never see you again; you remember how you felt like melting into him every time he buried his cock deeply in your cunt.
you want to hate him all over and never think about him again.
except you can’t, can you?
there’s a brief pause before he takes another drag from his cigar; and when he lets the silence hang for longer than necessary, you find it hard to breathe.
“and i hate liars,” crocodile says finally, conveniently forgetting that he’s a notorious liar himself. you blush and turn your face at the hidden meaning behind his words — a poor attempt to deny it — but when you look back at him, he blows smoke above your head and fixes you with a pointed look.
an absurd thought occurs, making you curl your fingers as you tug on his shirt and finally question his reappearance. jealousy coils itself tightly around your legs, making your movements sluggish and ineffective. unbecoming, utterly childish, and unavoidable — but you know he won’t listen to that sort of rhetoric. not after being away from you for so long.
you lick your lips and muster enough courage to say, “i wrote to you.” several times, in fact. you figured he was either dead or didn’t want to speak to you. a part of him wants to ask if you’re serious, but from your demure demeanor, he already knows the answer.
crocodile lets out a humorless, pitying laugh.
“it must be nice to live in delusion,” he says bitterly. you look at him, confusion evident in the way you press your lips together as your brows slope down slowly — so he just sighs, defeated by your genuine naivety that he finds terribly charming. when he drags the curve of his golden hook along your jaw, your starts beating faster than necessary, the noise so loud you can barely think straight.
he knows that when he talks to you, he has to… mind how he phrases things, and while it annoys him, he does it anyway. “do you think impel down just allows former warlords the luxury of personal mail?” it’s a rhetorical question, but you shake your head no anyway, teeth sinking into your bottom lip as you grab onto his shirt again.
guilt has a nasty habit of making him more considerate than he’d care to be, especially if that guilt comes from you. it has him putting out his cigar and tossing it onto the floor; he’s not sure who kisses who first, but his lips slant against yours and move with familiarity.
your soft whimpers are a honeyed, melodic experience; they wrap around him possessively, driving him to tear through your clothes with his hook, shredding the fabric into large, unusable pieces that languidly slide off your body. a flush settles on your skin, making you feel lightheaded — each kiss more electrifying than the last as he licks inside of your mouth, tongue stroking against yours hotly.
crocodile pulls away suddenly, already feeling like the control he’s kept is practically nonexistent because your mouth is much sweeter than he remembers. your fingers tremble slightly and a breathy moan tumbles out of you when he slaps your ass hard.
the impact is a surprise — one that has you whine pitifully, arousal dripping from your slit in a way that should be embarrassing, but you’re too far gone to care. a lust-induced haze circles around him, nearly clouding his vision as you unbutton his shirt, fingers roaming against his stomach, exploring the dips and grooves between his abs. your touch is much too gentle for a man like him; he knows you deserve better, but he’s too selfish to tell you that. his cock is stiff and heavy in his pants; you relieve that ache as soon as you tug his zipper down and wrap your soft hands around him.
he watches you, amused at your focus and determination when you stroke him faster; and while he’d like to take his time with you, he doesn’t have that luxury tonight. he grabs onto your wrist, halting your movements quickly before biting your lower lip and kissing you greedily; it’s all-consuming, scalding, and possessive.
you should ask him why he’s kissing you like that when he has no intention of staying, but you know it would be an unfair question given his circumstances.
still, your curiosity eats you alive, although not for long.
he lifts you with ease and you sink down onto his thick cock, pussy tight and warm. part of what kept him sane while he was in prison was thinking of you and how much he missed being with you like this — another truth he refuses to reveal, deciding to suffer through the consequences of another failed confession on his part.
you scratch at the skin on the back of his neck the moment he bucks his hips against yours, burying most of his cock inside of you. his thrusts are quick and brutal; you do your best to match his movements, moaning loudly as he wraps an arm around you. he kisses down the length of your neck, teeth grazing your skin roughly as he bites and sucks on your skin harshly. you know there’ll be bruises and marks in the morning, but you don’t care.
all you care about is enjoying this moment with him, one that you’ll commit to memory forever.
his name comes out of your mouth sweetly, like a rhythmic and lyrical poem you crafted for him specifically. he shouldn’t care about any of that, but he can’t stop himself; and maybe he’s just tired of denying it. he tells himself that when he fucks you harder, breasts bouncing and rubbing against his hard chest; he tells himself that when he angles his hips, thrusts frenzied and powerful.
sweat glides down your skin and the heat threatens to suffocate you, both of you are panting and moaning in between kisses. you doubt your poor little heart can take much more of this, but you power through anyway. and maybe it’s because you’re tugging on his hair roughly, almost impatiently, but he takes that as a challenge, holding you steady as his cock bullies into your wet cunt. between the lewd, squelching sounds coming from your pussy and the way he simply can’t stop kissing you — like there’s a thirst he can’t seem to quench, no matter how many times he fucks you — a warmth spreads through your chest.
unbeknownst to you, though, he’s going through something similar; he realizes, belatedly, that he might not be able to let you go after this. impossible thoughts pummel through his mind, ones that he desperately tries to shove aside. intimacy and vulnerability are deadly, in his opinion, but he decides to make an exception for you — and only you.
you cum unexpectedly, hips bucking against his wildly, pussy clenching around his thick girth without remorse. you actually feel your heart skip a beat, like you’re in some romance novel, when he calls out your name — his own orgasm finding him shortly after, thrusts slowing, his cum thick and hot as it spills inside of you.
your legs turn to jelly, making it impossible to move right away, so you slump against him weakly and take deep breaths to calm yourself. he closes his eyes briefly and runs his hand up and down your back; here’s another opportune moment to say something, to say anything, but he swallows back the words, instead opting to kiss your forehead softly.
“you’re an impossible man,” you say with a sigh, blinking as you look up at him; he raises a brow at that, but doesn’t offer a rebuttal. “don’t break my heart.” you jab a finger at his chest, but your features soften when he chuckles at your demand.
another long silence follows, before crocodile speaks again, voice low, but certain as he says, “alright, i won’t.”
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lace-coffin · 4 months
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Hello 🤗 I was wondering what kinda rules do you think Asa would have set for one of his pets? I imagine he'd be really particular about them giving him respect and being submissive, but do you think he has a concrete set of written rules or more of a general guideline of what he expects. Idk of that made sense lol.
What rules does Asa have for his pet/SO? (NSFW)
Asa Emory x gn!Reader
Trigger warning for power/bdsm dynamics and general Asa Emory things.
Requests are open!
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This is a super fun ask omg! I love love love talking abt what kind of dom Asa is so I’m so happy with this request!
Honourifics- honourifics are always to be used when addressing or replying to asa. Sir, master are used regularly. If you really want to rile him up then daddy or Mister work prefect, the perversity of it doing something animalistic to him. Calling Asa God or “my God” will draw out his more sadistic egotistical side, tell him how you’re only committed to him, your life is in his hands and you’re nothing but the ground beneath him. Lave over his heavy leather boots in worship.
Collars and marking- collars are worn daily, taken off at night so you can sleep comfortably and not risk choking (he wants to be the one doing the choking ; ) ) if you’re uncomfortable with a full collar then a daytime collar can be worn, usually a chain of some sort with your name tag and return information on it. “Cricket, property of The Collection, if lost return to Asa Emory”
Respect- disrespect will not be tolerated, talking back or lashing out will end in punishment, it depends how severe the offence was. Ignoring him or muttering a rude comment under your breath might earn you a single slap to the ass to correct you in the moment. Having a smart mouth the whole day will have worse consequences and may require a scene to be planned and negotiated prior.
Scenes - your BDSM relationship with Asa is a 24/7 dynamic, this means all the planning and communication comes with it. You use the traffic light system, green for good/continue, yellow for slow down or take a break and red for stop. Asa would never do anything you don’t want or consent to, he may be strict and domineering but your safety is key to him. If your mouth is restrained or you’re not feeling up to speaking in sub space then there are non-verbal safe words in place for you to use.
Clothing and inspections - all clothing is to be approved by asa before you get ready for the day, you can either pick out an outfit on your own and have it approved or let your master choose one and lay it out on the bed ready for you. He’s more than happy to aid you in getting dressed, loving the sense of dependancy you show him.
Bodily inspections are done once a week, Asa prides himself on keeping you in the best physical health he can, this doesn’t end at just an ordinary checkup however. Slipping on his latex gloves (unless ur allergic!) and prying your holes open, delving his fingers into you as your squirm against them under the guise of checking you’re healthy. Filthily commentating the entire time. “Look at that pretty pink hole, stretched open all for me”
Scheduled meals and bedtimes - Asa likes routine and can get antsy when running behind (totally not me projecting my autism onto him) this transfers over to your routine too. Lunch and dinner (and dessert < 3) are served at the same time every day, asa expects you to be ready and waiting at the table. A strike will be added to your chart if your late. Three strikes and a punishment will be given. Sir will decided where you dine everyday, if you’ll be joining him at the table or eating on the floor from a personalised bowl. Breakfast isn’t at a set time, he knows the amount of sleep you get/need will fluctuate so he’s happy to let you sleep in until you feel ready to get up.
Bedtime is usually also at a set time, around 1 am, he knows you’re not a child and won’t make you sleep early but still wants you in bed at a reasonable time, usually ushering you into bed at 12 and giving you an hour to read to watch videos. Usually you either share a bed with asa or sleep in your kennel/cage, sometimes in a combination of the two you sleep at the foot of the bed.
Language- Asa discourages the use of swearing but he won’t punish you for it, he might give you a stern look but that’s the extent of it.
Chastity - your sir has a dainty key hanging on a chain around his neck at all times, your body is his as is your sexual pleasure and your genitals. Chastity devices are worn until he decides it’s time to play, attempts at touching will result in punishment, he does however like the desperate look on your face as you rut against the fabric of the sofa like a pathetic mutt in heat. He won’t let you know that though. Sometimes he’ll bring you to the edge of orgasm, panting and whining as your body shakes, only to remove his hand/cock or toy and slide the device back on. The pitiful cries and “it’s not fair”s from you after are even more beautiful than seeing you cum in his mind. Don’t lash out or act out after otherwise the time spent without release will be extended just to spite you.
Relating back to food and drink Asa expects you to drink a minimum of 500ml of water or juice a day, he knows 1-2 litres is unrealistic and doesn’t want you needing to pee constantly. He’s happy as long as your hydrated, if you have particularly bad days with fatigue or depression he’ll help you drink by bringing the straw to your mouth as he holds you. Medication needs to be taken at the correct time, both your alarm clock and Asa’s watch has an alarm set on it so you don’t miss it.
Whilst Asa can be sadistic most of his rules are for your wellbeing along side your obedience, only wanting the best for you whilst you’re under his control.
I hope u like this!! Was literally so fun to write! I love this chunky bug man and ungodly amount <3
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mblue-art · 18 days
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Sorry for that question but I really curious!
What made you fell in love with Cross and Lust?
Tell us more!!
😳😳😳 hhuh what rreally,, , ,,, 😳 u wanna hear me yap abt my sillies, my beloveds,,, (i appreciate the enthusiasm tho omg 🥺🫶🫶🫶)
i want to have the yuris with lust and the yaois with cross I I MEAN HWHWAT 🧍‍♂️
UM.
haha anyWAY,, (oh gog this ended up long)
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cross checks so many boxes for me it makes me go insane. too good to be true. versatile(??)— like it's somehow way too easy to put him in Situations. (he's bf and husbone material??? just -20hp me now; that already kills me) he's. hh. gawddamn there's reasons why he won a utmv sans sexyman poll.
he's like a crush that you can't get out of your head no matter what you do, i'm so freaking down bad for him it's not even funny anymore. ever since simping for cross i have not been the same since. the man has changed me. the attraction/simp feelings hit me like a bat out of nowhere and i don't understand why it's so intense— i. hh.
,,i like when ppl make him dorky. stupidly silly (absolutely love shitpost shenanigans and would absolutely LOVE to get into silly shenanigans with him and with/without his bestie epic). fun to be around when he's deemed you as a good friend. stars, he'd give good hugs. strong, solid, and warm, the kind of hugs u don't wanna pull away from so soon. a little endearingly cringe. fanon simp cross is adorable and fun to mess around with. tsundere cross is adorable and fun to mess with. cute anxious guy under all that intimidating aloofness. when i say his smile is an absolute treasure, i mean that. his blush making him look like a grape or a glowing bulb is adorable and makes me wanna tease him more. anime protag/character vibes so strong i wanna have a cute bl/shoujo manga romance with him type shit yk.
then there's times when he's The Hot Dude and i think it's illegal if he's all confident and smug and dom actually (/hj) cause that makes me wanna fucking fite him HELLO? SIR? ILLEGAL????? (<- the fight or flight response of a tsundere towards a milder tsundere LOL).
-hp every single time. mf gets successful d20 rolls w/ rizz on me and i get a critical hit every time. it's a 50/50 either i fluster to death and become weak or i wanna fite his dumbass
i'll. i can fight him. i'll lose but i can fight him for sure. (why is he so cool⁉️‼️💢💢💢RRRRRRR)
he makes me feel things. lots of things. (mostly fluster but when i'm feelin sooper soff i jst wanna shower his skull in keeses. ima kissy lil guy)
tired cross makes me just wanna take care of him. want him to come home to me without any worry because he thinks i'm his safe space.
when he's being stubborn i want to tell him to chill out for a little while, take a break and watch some funny stuff while drinking choccy milk or eating his fav foods and be cozy. bapping him if he's gonna try to get out of this too soon. he's gonna get the free time he deserves n relax n get cuddles n kithes.
the way he can gently hold my hand and look at me with a sincere look in his eyelights and say something genuinely affectionate feels like cupid shooting an arrow through my soul, but also feels like a balm. (a promise of loyalty and faithfulness.) (a kiss on the forehead? a cherry on top.)
well now i can't be mean to him with all the nice he's saying and doing. i just want nice things for him o(-< (even if he's a bastard sometimes lol<3 all circles back to the silly) (silly is always important)
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i love lust. so so so much. the fanon interpretation of him, anyway.
(don't get me wrong, i absolutely adore the feminine slay content of lust; but am i wrong for yearning for more masc lust content?)
i like my lust sans respectful, goofy, sans-like, an absolute sweetheart, and a caring, wonderful life partner. under the flirty personality and charm(ing looks), is a sans behavior that made me fall deeper. (he makes me feel very gender too) (ohmygofd yeah no he actually makes me think of gender sometimes rauauagrrgh<3/pos). i don't have to worry about showing my cring, weird side to him, because he's also a gremlin,, o(-< he doesn't have to present himself all nice and pretty all the time (although he's always pretty in my eyes). he can be comfortably himself; with me 🥺
i want to be his safe space.
i want to see him heal and be happy and be happy with me and give him all the love i can give and care for him and make him soso happy i just want him to feel SO sosososo loved, he deserves so much more
he's the only one who's able to get a certain reaction out of me; to pull flowers out of my heart. to pull out words of love and devotion and appreciation, heart bursting with affection only for him.
for him, i would try. i would live for him. i wish someone like him (the him i've created from interpretations and headcanons) was real irl.
i want to not care i don't care if he's a gorgeous well-known person that people fawn over, or if he's a campus crush, etc.,
i want him to think i'm worthy enough to keep in his life. for him to know how special he is to me, for him to know how much i want him in my life as much as i want him to keep me in his.
my immediate reaction when i think of him is: 😊💕💜💜💜eeeee kicks and giggles and flaps hands teehee
i love him so much i get a heart-on for him (/silly but it is true sometimes; love him so much it aches (in a good way))
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saturn-sends-hugs · 9 months
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HOLY SHIT IT ONLY GOT BETTER
Good Omens s2 ep5 spoilers under the cut:
i started writing out reactions like halfway through the episode because i literally couldn’t handle it so here’s some play by play thoughts lol:
dID HE
DID CROWLEY JUST
DID THIS MAN JUST ASK GABRIEL IF HE WANTED A HOT CHOCOLATE
holy fucking shit this episode is doing things to me i have sO many feelings omg
first Nina asks abt them being a couple and Crowley practically chokes on thin air, fumbles his way out of it, then downs an entire bottle of wine by himself
then he confronts gabriel all mad because he tried to kill his only friend, realizes “oh fuck, he’s actually gonna do that,” stops him, and tHEN
HE ASKS
IF HE WANTS
HOT CHOCOLATE.
i am in tears.
“you’re really nice” “don’t thank me. and i’m not. …oh, no one would believe you anyway,” sTOP I LITERALLY CANT. he is nice he just needs people to think he’s not but he doesn’t care rn cause who’s gabriel gonna tell?? holy shit i love this man
aziraphale you jane austen loving nerd
oh come on why didn’t crowley’s outfit get all fancy 🥺
THEYRE DANCING THEYRE GONNA DANCE HOLY SHIT THEYRE DANCING
THEYRE
DANCINGGG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
exCUSE ME, they were dANCING. CANT YOU SEE THIS IS A BAD TIME, GET UR NOT-QUITE-LEGIONS OF THE DAMNED OUT OF HERE, THEY WERE DANCINGGGGGGG
holy shit gabriel’s coat omg he’s such a ken they’re so right honestly.
T O S T. E.
aziraphale what are you doing with the heaven circle thingy
“he’s so happy when he gets to rescue me,”hmMMM aziraphale why aren’t you dating already.
um? crowley? is this a good plan?? sir i am scared????
also there was that thing abt the church being consecrated ground and thus painful for Crowley to walk in, and how that must be equally if not more so true abt heaven??? and ur going there again????????????? stop calling aziraphale your friend right now, you’re not friends, you don’t even like each other, youRE IN LOVE. GO. KISS. NOW.
anyway, can you tell i really liked this episode? cause i really liked this episode.
and i’m terrified for the last one because hello????? we haven’t figured out like anything abt gabriel??? something terrible is gonna happen to him and we know nOTHING YET??????? i am. freaking out.
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screampied · 19 days
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I’m reading your stretch me out fic and I am NOT WELL. the way you write has me in absolute shackles YOU ARE MY FAV BLOGGER FOR A REASON IM MELTINHG
TOJI. “fuck are you even talkin about?” HE SOUNDS SOOOOOO 😻😻😻😻😻 AND THEN THE “bend that ass over” YES SIR. I love how the readers like “I think it’s some scientific” like I started laughing and then I READ THE WORDS “okay girl don’t piss me off” LIKE I BIT MY HAND??? HAVE MERCY ON ME VEGAS ITS 2PM.
not to mention that daddy commentary my eyebrow raised and I GIGGLED N WAS LIKE “OH WE DOIN THAT?? MKAYYYYY”
the talking through it. “listen to her with me” I WANT AND DESIRE THAT. “can’t fucking orgasm my ass” YEAH I JS CAME RIGHT THEN N THERE :333333
I’m writing as I go and I’m abt to read sukuna :3
OHH?? “shut the fuck up n gimme that orgasm, woman” GASP!! THE WOMAN WAS TOO STUNNED TO SPEAK?? HELLO?????
that reassuring.. “don’t gotta be shy, it’s just you and me here” I’m gonna marry him ☹️ WHYS HE SWEET AWEEEE AND THE I LOVE YOU TOO BRAT I LOVE THIS
??? “say ah” I have no dignity. AHHHH!
GETO AND GOJO?? Im Done here. I actually CANNOT do this anymore. I’m not giving my opinion. the noises I just made were vile I’m not doing this.
if Choso whimpers I’m cooked. MAMA MIA HE DID EVEN MORE IM NOT GONNA SURVIVE THIS.
coughs
i liked your post vegas (I’m frothing at the mouth uncontrollably) and I hope you have a great rest of you day :3 (this will be running through my mind all day, ty 🙏🏾‼️)
— pearl anon 🤍
PEARLY BAE OMG U FLATTER ME u get me so geeked everytime 💔💔 i adore u my sweet 😋💟
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BAAJAIFOOVHHKH i love making toji sassy it’s just canon to me in his eyes <3 LOOOOOL reader kills me bc wdym scientific that u can’t orgasm 🧖‍♀️ ?? toji’s like girl bye LOOOO i should have made him said that i would have been ROLLING.
AWWWWW i knoooow right, i love kuna bae sm even tho he’s just as much as an ass like toji PLS. me irl i’d fold instantly with them dirty talking me like that idk 🗿🗿🗿🫸. BYE UR SO SOKFHKBK. gojo n geto’s part i’ve been thinking about writing it nonstop so im glad i did 🌚
THANK YOU PEARLY !!!! 💟🪩☝️you too ! this was soooo sweet to wake up to, i hope u have a great rest of ur day also !!
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raspberrysmoon · 2 months
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(U do not have to post this one btw 😭😭😭 I have read ur intro post and I am the same w new people do plz don’t think I’m trying to be invasive and I’m talking in brackets so I’m whispering but genuinely. If u still have those notes. I would absolutely love to see them 😭😭/g/nf!!)
i ABSOLUTELY still have those notes !!! heck yeah!!! directly copied from my notes (no worries abt being invasive dw :] i actually wrote them with the intention of putting them as my comment and then they got long lol)
"A denim jacket very kindly bought for him by his favourite colleague (who logically should have a higher rank than him...)" HELLO ?!!???! interesting 👀
"Besides. Things were... from his dog." YES? I LOBE TJIS PARAGRAPH TO DEATH OMG?????
oh :((( jack leading to john :((( oh thats so sweet :((((
"...doesn't matter, sir." WHAT IF I TOLD YOU IM SOBBING???? OH MY GOD ?????
thick french accent ??? 👀 okay slay king
"The only person I live with is my girlfriend, and she’s not even there half the time…she’s a magical woman." YEAHHHHHH SLAY OKAY KING !!!!!! BAGGING THE MOST GORGEOUS WOMAN EVER ?!?!!???
awwwhhhhh he chose his own room :(((( and his own towel :((((( thats so sweet for some reason. wilbur and halloway (sick little name trick btw i see you) are ???? adorable??!?? cuties. halloway disappearing right as wiley appears... hm.... 👀
awhhhh the promises D:
"He was no father figure" hehe. if only he knew
this is the second fic ive read today where maxs middle name has been andrew. fascinating
no. no stop. are you gonna kill him ??????? stop. stop it right now. they live happy ever after stop
STOP IT STOP PLEASE 😭😭😭
"meekly" is not a word i ever wanted to read with john 😭😭😭😭 youre destroying me
HELLO!!??!?????!!??
"Oh fuck, his dads….how would they ever forgive him? Would they ever forgive him? He’d been such an awful child." OW?????? OWCHIE
and from there on out i just gaped at the screen like a zombie. i had thoughts, but i couldnt stop long enough to write them down 😭 so yeah :]
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hychlorions · 2 years
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hi hello do you have any totally not self projection (haha twirls hair) headcanons for apollo thee justice or klavier babygirl gavin,,
hahaha…. oh yes…. all of my headcanons are totally. not self-projection…. so let's start with saying i've already posted some here and here (the first one isn’t really hcs specifically but there are some sprinkled in there)
anyway. i have no idea how to. yk. format any of this so i’m just gonna give a list (with pictures also).
this got long so under the read more once again !
so first up are the ones for apollo. we have a lot for him bc he’s just like me fr 🥴:
i am finally going to elaborate on the boxed milk that’s mentioned in the second link
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used to cry at seeing strays bc he felt sorry for them and wanted to take them in
just absolutely hates cucumbers. can't stand them at all. he even remotely tastes one and/or bites into it and feels cucumber texture he will Gag
what is apollo justice’s greatest achievement and why is it getting the highest score in his class on his philosophy exam on only two hours of sleep
usually forgets he’s scared of needles until he needs to get a vaccine or a blood test and then it’s too late—
scared of mascots. usually forgets about this too until there’s a mascot in front of him and then it’s too late—
scared of frogs. he wasn't always though. he's still not sure why he developed the fear
would actually genuinely want to dress like klavier but never really has the time or the eye for picking out the wardrobe and is honestly scared abt buying styles that aren’t tried and true on him (bc if it DOESN’T LOOK GOOD then he WASTED MONEY). but once he does get the right clothes and he goes out like that it’s like. oh god why did i do this. then he gets home and it’s like. why was i so worried. i’m HOT
he definitely just got into astrology bc he confused it with astronomy as a kid trying to relate to clay. actually he doesn’t even really believe in that stuff it’s just something interesting to read about when he’s bored
THIS ONE. there’s actually more to it but it’s more klavier-focused than apollo so that’s between me, god, and my friend
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some gender things bc i ended up elaborating a lot on this once: • here’s a quote from something unfinished, said to trucy and athena as they talk about things they never got to do as kids (such as sleepovers and makeovers, which they wanna drag apollo into. inevitably.): “I mean… after growing up in Khura’in I never really thought about makeup,” Apollo admits. “But then I moved here, and I got older here, and then it used to feel like something I had to learn so I could fit in. Then, you know… I didn’t need or want it anymore. So I’m decent! Out of practice, but decent.” • i like to think that apollo's trans experience has been largely rooted in gender euphoria rather than dysphoria? as in he's never felt connected to his agab so being referred to as such before he transitioned (socially or otherwise) has been :/ at most but when a store clerk called him sir by accident once it was like a eureka moment
ok now klavier time:
when they were kids kristoph once made up a game where he would throw rocks at klavier. that’s it that’s the whole game. like this
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he had. so many teeth problems. he got braces as a kid and he ended up almost needing them again in his early 20s but nah he ended up just getting like. veneers and retainers.
will spend half an hour picking bell peppers out of his food if he has to. just to get rid of them all. terrible stuff and the taste is always so overpowering
absolutely obsessed with food as a metaphor for love
collects soaps and perfumes and colognes. basically anything nice-smelling he will absolutely love so it's easy to get him birthday gifts when you don't know what else to get him
you can put him in a situation where all of the signs will point to a very obvious conclusion regarding another person (can be about anybody) and he’d be like “unless they confirm that themselves i’m not gonna act on it >:(“ this has always led to more situations. naturally. he's not stupid for this btw there's just a lot of self doubt going on
scared of restringing guitars. those high-e strings are no joke :”)
“so what instrument do you play?” “well guitar of course. a recorder if it counts. i taught myself some songs on the piano, i know a bit of bass, the ukulele, some violin training, the melodica but that’s just because i know piano—“ “okay, okay, i get it.”
for his highschool music class he aced a hearing test and people thought he had perfect pitch. it was actually because he was comparing all the notes to the opening g note in welcome to the black parade—
oftentimes he picks up hobbies that kristoph tries out bc he thinks it’ll make kristoph think he’s cool. ends up being better at it than kristoph lol
when he first found out he was bi he cuffed his jeans soooo much bc he thought it was a cool identifier. no babe it’s just a dumb thing people say……
accidentally figured out gender in the cemetery once. then like. only realized he did that about 10-ish years later? yeah 🥴 has anyone else been both everything and nothing and something else entirely all at once. klavier has. and he still is
u didn’t ask, but klapollo all together:
apollo: why does my back hurt so much i am so young and so healthy… also apollo: sleeps like this
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(side note that while i may have drawn klavier but even if you remove him from the equation apollo will still sleep like that. klavier does hog the bed a lot though)
this one.
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klavier has this hair routine once a week where he has to sit in the shower and wait for the product to set for like 10-15 minutes. before they move in together he'd have apollo to text while waiting bc he's the only other person who's awake since klavier likes to shower early. when they move in together... klavier still texts him lol he has no shame
jacket-stealing/giving is something that can actually be so personal. sorry i've just been obsessed with klavier giving apollo his jackets lately. later he'll find out he can steal apollo's hoodies too bc he buys them in XL (they're comfier)
one last. discord screenshot.
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thepublishingpress · 5 months
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sunboi > Artemis Agrotera
sunboi: don’t you think something was… off about hades?
Artemis Agrotera: yeah
He wouldnt look at me
sunboi: ikr? when zeus asked abt the dead that have escaped, hades brushed the question off, gave a vague answer, and moved on
EVEN WHEN HE MENTIONED THE SOUL THEY CAUGHT HAD THAT INFO
Artemis Agrotera: he’s totally hiding something
sunboi: ill get some of the others on board for Operation Make Hades Spill
Artemis Agrotera: thanks
sunboi: …tomorrow :) 
Artemis Agrotera: i hate you.
~*~
sunboi made a chat
sunboi renamed the chat to Operation: Make Hades Spill
sunboi added Artemis Agrotera
sunboi: ok so who do we add
Artemis Agrotera: what i thought u were in charge of adding
sunboi: yeah and ur in charge of picking!
Artemis Agrotera: oh my god
Ok u know what
Fine
sunboi: :D
Artemis Agrotera: u should add athena and hephaestus and aphrodite
Athena can draw info like its nothing
Hephaestus has access to hades’ cams
And aphrodite can be quite convincing if athena fails
Aphrodite never fails
sunboi: true true
wb hermes tho?
He can sneak into the underworld for us when hephaestus cams fail or smthn
Artemis Agrotera: yes you can add him
sunboi: okkkk
sunboi added messenger pigeon, Prettigoddess, machines <3, Athena Parthenos
Athena Parthenos: Okay, why do we have another groupchat?
sunboi: here
(screenshot.png)
Athena Parthenos: Hm. Fine. I will assist in your mission.
sunboi: yEah!
Hephaestus??? We need ur cams!!!!
Prettigoddess: he’s offline rn
Pretty sure he had something to do w/ Aglaea
sunboi: aw man
sucks
Can u text him later?
U still have his number right
prettigoddess: yeah
Sure
sunboi: hermes?
messenger pigeon: here here sir!
Yeah i can sneak in 4 u ;) 
sunboi: operation make hades spill is in order!!!
Artemis Agrotera: we should shorten it
Operation: MHS
sunboi: think of a name later
Lets just celebrate!!!
Artemis Agrotera: fine :/ 
sunboi: ur all invited!!! Im ordering pizza <3333
Everyone liked this message
~*~
machines <3 > Prettigoddess
Prettigoddess: hey hephaestus
Can u check the cams of the underworld
specifically hades’ palace?
machines <3: … why are you asking me of this, aphrodite?
Prettigoddess: (screenshot.png)
machines <3: oh
I see.
Very well.
I am suspicious, too.
~*~
messenger pigeon > goddess of spring
messenger pigeon: hey 
Ik it’s off sched
But im coming to visit
Can u tell hades
goddess of spring: oh
Ok yeah sure
messenger pigeon: ok ty
Operation: Make Hades Spill
messenger pigeon: got approved, y’all!
sunboi: YOOO 
LET’S GO
Artemis Agrotera: ok so when do we put the plan in action
sunboi: uh
rn 
I thought that was obvious ngl
Artemis Agrotera: you said literally nothing to suggest that.
sunboi: well my APOLLOgies 
Artemis Agrotera: oh my god that was awful
messenger pigeon: worst pun ever so proud of you
sunboi: <3
Artemis Agrotera: ugh
Lets get on with the plan.
machines <3: yes. 
I have already started
Artemis Agrotera: looking at the cams???
machines <3: yep
Looking
Artemis Agrotera: do you see anything?
Hello??
~*~
machines <3 > messenger pigeon
machines <3: help
i found something
messenger pigeon: what’s this abt?
machines <3: artemis
messenger pigeon: text apollo???
Or artemis herself???
machines <3: no???
If artemis sees what i saw she’d freak out
Same with apollo.
messenger pigeon: …
hephaestus
What was in the video
machines <3 has sent a video
machines <3: orion
Hes been brought back
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esidolmail · 5 months
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for undead!
hi!! im Echo (still waiting on the little sister proposal Adonis) and js wanted to say that i think youre all really really REALLY cool
for Koga: i think yr the coolest (dont tell Kaoru) and i also find it funny that we both know how to play guitar!! i learned from the instrumental arts teacher and he’s also really cool like you :3 i hope someday that i can be somewhat like you and reach the level that you are even as a highschooler
for Rei: hehehhehehehe pretty man
anyways, hiiii, i js wanted to ask how do you get yr hair like that and also. erm if you have any undead dinners can i be invited and act like the annoying little sister who was dragged along (stares at you with my autistic eyes). in all honesty im an only child and with the way you are with ritsu makes me think about how one of my friends is with me bcs he sees me as his baby sister (he’s graduating this year tho 💔). anyways wanted to say yr also very cool and very very handsome and please tell me yr hair tips
for Adonis: hello SIR (stares up at you with my 5’1 height) how r u :3 i hope u know that saql faith is my fave song and also your voice is very relaxing to me and have fallen asleep to saql faith abt 7 times now (oopsies….) ANYWAYS. i think that you and Koga are competing for the coolest person in undead for me because you are also very very cool. you seem like you would like shakira idk im js a very big shakira enthusiast but yk what else i am? an undead enthusiast 🫡. anyways wanted to say how cool u are if u didnt know it and im still waiting for the little sister applications
for Kaoru: HELLOOOO im very energetic with you even tho u arent a fave but your personality reminds me of my best friend (he doesnt get any play lol) and i also need to know. HAIR TIPS. i hope u know that people think yr plain but i think yr js a zesty pale guy that knows how to handle spice. also i need advice ……. roses or tulips…….stares. anyways i just wanted to say you remind me of a friend, youre also VERY cool, and i think you are also very handsome
and a final question for all
Beyoncé or Taylor Swift
(there is a right answer)
-Echo
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gepazu · 6 months
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GEP, GEP, GEP, ARE YOU SEEING THIS????
NEW CLARENCE SSR DROPS ON NOV 23RD
Look, at him, srsly....
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MAN CAN GQNDVMWBZMAVXM ME, I'D SAY SORRY. LIKE.... SIR????? SIR???????? Hello, sir, I think I can hear our wedding bells ringing, my man..😩🙏✨
I'm so normal about this istg
I AM AND IM BARKI— i mean IM BLUSHING SO BAD HES SOOOOOO
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NO BC I CAN SEE THE WEDDING NIGHT UNFOLD JS BY LOOKING AT THIS PIC HOLY LORDS IM SO UNWELL
we r so normal abt him fr! not like we daydream abt this man for hours on end!!
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woesunf · 7 months
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Hello everynyan!
I’m reintroducing myself lol.
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Anyway yeah, so I was unhappy with my first intro so here I am… fixing it.
Let’s get into it
So, hiiiii.
My “name” is Ivory, but I’ll respond to any of these:
Vampie (Vamp-ē)
Ivy
Ivory (Obvi)
I’m into kinda niche (or dead fandom) things that have little to no fandom, I’ll get into what those things are in a sec, but it always made me sad before I started to posting to see like no fan content for the things I’m into, so I decided to start posting on the most niche social media platform at this point in time.
So I make content for myself and for the people who are also into the things I’m into, to make the fandom seem more real to me.
I’m super into fashion, art, video games, some anime’s, some manga’s, creepy stuff, vampires (😍), aesthetics, the whole shebang.
I’m a minor btw, I’ve never said that before lol.
A more detailed list of my interests:
Danganronpa *sighs* specifically the super niche content (Kirigiri Sou, light novels, the random manga releases) Kyoko Kirigiri, Celestia Ludenberg, and THH, anything but DRV3 tbh. Side note, but I recently got back into it after a 3 year hiatus of my interest in it.
Project Sekai but only N25 sorry not sorry
Royale High on good days
Star Rail when new stories come out
Music I’m a huge fan of Sir Chloe, Elita, d4vd, and many others.
Cult Party Kei
V-Kei
Gothic Lol!ta (IDK if that term is flagged like it is on Pinterest)
Dark Mori
Snow core/winter idk how else to put it lol
Psychological Horror
Internet anomalies
YouTube/ Video essays
Internet horror
Anime’s I’m into: Death note, Mieruko Chan, RWBY (does that even count?), Violet Evergarden (😭❤️), Little Witch, others that aren’t really that important.
Edit: Realized I never actually shared my niche/dead interest, so here they are:
Girls last tour 
Gakkou Gurashi
Future diary (it’s a nostalgic for me OK 😢)
School girl supervisor
 only Mayu Sakuma from im@s
Mieruko Chan
Made in abyss 
Kakushigoto
And things I need to watch that are niche/dead:
Song of Saya
Higurashi
School days
Tasogare Otome x Amnesia
Magical girl site
Kageki Shoujo
You and me and her 
White clarity and the tears that became you 
Ookami Kakushi
Blood C
Haibane Renmei
Maybe I’ll add more later
I think that’s all that’s important abt my interests.
As for my personality, I think I’m a nice person (?), I try to approach people with kindness, unless they don’t deserve it lol,
I’m weird and I like weird things.
I’m actually super unfunny but I think I’m hilarious.
I don’t really curse… it’s just not in my vocabulary and I’m super prestigious (/sar), but if a funny meme uses curse words I’m going to use it lol.
Chronic maladaptive daydreamer.
I’m lowkey an irl vampire (/hj)
Yeah 🤷‍♀️ idk what else there is to me.
I’m trying to watch certain anime’s and video game play throughs, but if I don’t have one thing it’s a consistent train of thought, so it takes me awhile.
Tanks for reading if you actually read this chunk of text |( ̄3 ̄)|
- Ivory ♠️
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ofmermaidstories · 1 year
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😭😭 i found your blog bc of andypantsx3 and was Intrigued by a feral goblin princess and i liked it and whatnot but i thought that was it. BUT NO. I KEEP THINKING ABT IT!!!!! I KEEP THINKING OF SIR IIDA!!!!! HELP MEEEEE AAAAAAAAAAAAA (anyways ill probably read more of your stuff after finals but. yeah that au has been giving me brainrot ngl thanks for putting it into existence i am Destroyed)
LOL, hello!!! there’s no pressure to back-catalogue anything, if u wanna stick around for Sir Iida shenanigans then u shall have them. 🏰 🌄 🪄🐸 ✨ i just!!! i just think that Iida would be such perfect foil for a character that’s relatively unsocialised/sheltered (because they’ve been locked in a tower since they were like, idk, 12) and might otherwise miss all the social cues and silent rules someone like Iida would follow. Like he’s going to be like, “why are you…. digging a…. hole…….” and our Reader will be like, “im burying my rocks” and when Iida is like, “But why???” FGP will just be because “because they like the dirt and they miss it” LOL AND THEN, because i believe in men accomodating us at all costs (and wanting to ✨), i think Iida should eventually make her up a lil baggie of dirt so the rocks don’t have to be buried every time they make camp. i just!!!!! Sir Iida is a good boy who will do good boy things. 😌 dig a pond for our froggies! help catch bugs for them for the ride! eventually bring us interesting looking rocks for our collection! (they’re ugly but either interesting shapes or “perfect for skimming across water”, and he’s trying hard so we’ll keep them anyways).
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cubedmango · 1 year
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NAINA. it’s the delusional cm anon here and ohmygod. It took me so long to come back because I had no strength in me to try and organise my thoughts into words that actually make sense I. Even now I can’t actually express my feelings about all of it to you without talking for years but can we please. Talk about the beach scene can we.please the way kurosawa so easily said that when adachi said he loved him his heart almost stopped and the fact that in the scene w his parents you could literally See his eyes change like something changed within him he almost passed out and then the way he just pulled out the ring and then. The most Fucking. Extra most Romantic proposal scene I have ever seen in my LIFE NAINA LIKE WHAT THE HELL? THE WAY THEY HELD EACH OTHER’S HANDS LIKE THEY WERE HOLDING THE MOST VALUABLE FRAGILE MATERIAL… THE WAY THEY THEY TURNED EACH OTHER’S HANDS OVER WITH THE LIGHT GLINTING OFF THE RINGS… THE WAY. THE KUROSAWA. THE WAY HE RUBBED HIS THUMB OVER ADACHI’S HAND I FEEL@SO UNBELIEVABLY SICK
CM ANON WELCOME BACK !! ALSO BIG MOOD i am just . i dont know how to express my emotions abt this movie in words its not possible . all i can do is scream. Literally. send help please
THE BEACH SCENE. LETS TALK ABT THE BEACH SCENE. BC I HAVE THOUGHTS . SO MANY OF THEM.
1. the magic
THE GROWTH . ADACHI HAD. him going from relying on his magic and being assertive thanks to it, to going from being glad he doesnt have it anymore and being assertive despite it is. . it is. Hello. how he went from knowing what to say bc he knew what ppl were thinking to how he spoke what he truly thought himself no matter what the person expects him to say is so. . . Hello!!!!! and its that determination in his own words and his own conviction that he could prove her wrong abt regretting it that got through to kurosawa's mom that i dont think wouldve worked had he read her mind and told her what she want to hear. Augh. augh........
2. the proposal
kurosawa was so happy to hear adachi loves him that his heart almost stopped ...... also what u said abt his eyes changing in the scene w his parents like Yeah.
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ITS HITTING HIM. i dont know the like . terminology for it but those Tiny Changes In His Expression That Mean Everything To Me . mr machida sir can i send u a care package and flowers just for this scene. please
another thing about the proposal is that. there was nothing asked. no question of 'will u marry me' or anything like they just . They Know. but also because it didnt have to be asked? theyre already engaged?? the silent acknowledgement that the pengagement really Was the actual proposal, and this is just then making it official to the world once and for all without having to hide it anymore. im gonna chew glass
3. the rings
kurosawa had the box on him the entire time. rings for good luck, which maybe Did work ... but i think he intended on proposing no matter how their talk w his parents went?? just thinking about That. Ough. but how he presents them just like that ..... no grand speech. no big huge romantic gesture. just the deserted beach and two of them like...... he doesnt try so hard anymore to be perfect or cool and plan a whole proposal, he just thinks about how much adachi loves him enough to declare it to his parents and Goes For It, almost on impulse i feel like ? but like in a good way like he Knows this is the moment™️ for it. anyways that left me pretty unwell also so that was fun
4. the hands
every single word u said anon......... i have no words left to say abt the hands its just. the. the. Theyre. the. i thought the manga's whole hand kissing deal after the proposal had killed me but this. the tenderness. the lighting. the Rings. the fucking gentle thumb rubs.......... I Am Never Going To Recover On God
5. the 'i love you'
listen they muted it . And That Was Extremely Evil Of Them. but i know kurosawa said i love you. i know this. and that too he said so quietly adachi couldnt hear it at first, and then whispering it to him bc he wants only adachi to be able to hear it ........ rlly felt like we as the audience are like. Intruding upon smth incredibly sacred that we're not supposed to see or something . 10/10 scene though like adachi nodding and then kurosawas SMILE and HUG and him taking the fall (AND HIS FEET WHEN HE DOES . idk why but im obsessed w the way his shoe shows up on frame for a bit its just . its so silly. theyre so silly i love them)
6. the hands, part 2
GOD. THAT PARALLEL TO THE DRAMAS INTRO IM TOO WEAK FOR THIS ??????????? why would they Do that to me. the way all their hand movements are in sync..... the way theyre smiling as they look at the rings......... I am normal about this (not)
7. the sillies
please look at my new favorite shot of kurosawa of all time
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HES SO GIDDY. HES SO HAPPY. HE IS SO SILLY!!!!!!!! mans measured adachi's ring size while he was Sleeping !!!!!!!!! where is the deleted scene of him sitting there at like 2 am with a thread in his hand and quietly trying to measure it !!!!! I Demand This !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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ADACHI TOO ????? HES SO HAPPY ....... and how he knows what to expect from kurosawa by now like . this is the same guy who got so freaked out over kurosawa thinking abt his mole that he had to run away to the bathroom about it . but now just the plain and simple acceptance that Yeah. Kurosawa Is A Little Weird About His Love. And That Is Okay And Endearing And I Love That About Him that adachi shows here. ............. i am fine :)
ok thats it for beach scene thoughts. for now. but ill probably think of more stuff later as i slowly start to process this movie so like ......... look forward to it perhaps??? also anon pls if u have more thoughts abt the movie i would love to hear them too 👀 i need to talk abt it as much as possible its the only way i can cope
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neonstatic · 2 years
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i have sooo much relational trauma like it's crazy that i manage to connect to ppl on a personal level. some of the most important, deepest emotional bonds i've ever had were w ppl who were just plain toxic to me. ppl who were passive aggressive, manipulative, sometimes downright mean. and in order to maintain the relationship and not lose myself, i had to develop all these habits: being a mind-reader, choosing my words wisely, using the right tone, having to read between the lines all the time, keeping a mental note of the big points of every single conversation, having to remember word-for-word so that a twisted version of my words can't be used against me, downplaying my emotions ...
even now that i'm dealing with a lot less of that garbage (given that those around me have either changed or been cut off completely), these habits are still ingrained in me. they are at the centre of my personality. every person i meet, i see thru the filter where i am hyperaware of my "ability" to anger or offend. even when i demand an apology from someone in the process i will be reassuring them 😭 "oh yeah you rly hurt my feelings when you did this but i'm not saying you're a bad person! or that you were wrong to do this! you can! it's totally ok! you can do it again if you want, i'm not the boss of you! but yeah you hurt my feelings... but it's my fault i'm just sensitive" like hello????? where is your spine, sir. you're embarrassing me.
and like. idk. i know i'm not the only experiencing this and i don't mean to say that "i'm more sensitive than most and i'm a victim of my big heart </3" cus fuck all that lmao but it's just. every time i get close to someone, it feels like its own very tragedy, bc i will most certainly slip into this cursed mindset again. and i know consciously that not everyone sits down and considers every possible interpretation of their words before they hit the send button. and normal ppl say things just to say things and you have to take their word at face value. but i always end up trying to read between the lines and trying to decipher tones and it's Always A Thing whenever i start caring for someone beyond "pleasant acquaintance" it's so exhausting and it hurts and this is one of the main reasons why i've never been in a relationship bc if friends and family can make me feel this on edge i don't wanna think abt the kind of damage a partner could unwillingly inflict on my delicate psyche
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ventismacchiato · 1 year
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I am once again barking at childe in the new smau hello good sir i wanna lick u i mean whay
Anyway do you think he would be a competitive swimmer 👄 him in swimsshorts
(This is not abt the smau btw just in general cuz i was remembering free! And then this fanfic i read and i love swimmer childe)
it’s okay anon speak ur truth
YESS IVE THOUGHT ABOUT CHILDE SWIMMER SM HES SO SEXY HED ROCK THOSE UNDERWEAR ONES I FORGOT WHAT THEYRE CALLED
omg hello drop the link also omg free i haven’t seen it yet
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