#i don't belong anywhere

[downfalldestiny]

Idon't wanna be here any more 🖤 !.

#i don't belong here #i don't belong anywhere #Mood #Vibes #downfalldestiny #life #downfall #magic destinations #magical world #magic moments #حياة #Pain

[rey-jake-therapist]

Bad karma

I must be cursed.

I left the Star Wars fandom because there was no longer discussions about the lore but just endless, sterile shipping wars. I join the Sandman fandom thinking it will be different... no luck.

I guess I should leave social media for good, because it seems my karma is shit. Or, more realistically, it's not for me.

(before someone asks: yes, I just muted everything, like I did on Twitter. It didn't help much on Twitter so I'm not sure it helps here either, being in a bubble... is rarely a good idea *sigh*)

#i don't belong anywhere #shipping discourse #fandom #I guess I should just go down a hole and stay there

[bonpourbruler]

I Don't Belong Anywhere: The Cinema of Chantal Akerman (Marianne Lambert, 2015)

#i don't belong anywhere #chantal akerman #marianne lambert #filmlog #french cinema

[krishmet]

The Lone Wolf.

#krishmet #lone wolf #sketch #my art #I don't belong anywhere #I will always be a lone wolf

[monsterparade]

chronic loneliness really fucks with my head and self-perception

#i don't belong anywhere

[howifeltabouthim]

Home to your own people. How nice! I have no people to go to.

Anthony Trollope, from Phineas Finn

#alone in the world #displaced #family #alone #sad #on your own #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #classics #i don't belong anywhere #no home #anthony trollope #phineas finn

[automatic-overdrive]

#october drift #insects #i don't belong anywhere #music #** #ellis' playlist

[silence-in-the-crowd]

I've fucked up my life beyond repair. Excuse me while I go die in a hole somewhere.

#I want to die #i want to disappear #I disappoint everyone #I don't belong anywhere #mental health #fml

[kulvefaggoth]

.

#people are so nice to me and i'm such an useless piece of shit #i really really really don't deserve their kindness #they shouldn't have me in their lives #i'm a curse #i'm a drain #i'm never gonna amount to anything #my life was over before it started #the best i could do is just roll over and die #i wanna disappear #please please please just let me vanish and not be remembered #i don't want to cause more problems #i just wanna go away #i don't belong here #i don't belong anywhere

[myheartisonthetrain]

"it's okay noa, it's okay because you try."

tw slur + venting

what does that mean. do you admire me because i try? can you see the pain in my face every day trying to keep up with you? why do i keep failing despite my trying? i don't need to try harder, do i? harder than everyone else, yes, but surely i'm just doing it wrong. i'm focussing on the wrong thing, i'm criticising myself in the wrong way and it's in the wrong part of my brain and i'm internalising it. i know, i know. why can't i just be made for it? i don't mind fake friends, so why can't i just be friends with all popular people even if everyone else says i'm better than them? they always do better than me anyways, they always talk, they always laugh and make fun of each other and fall out and make up and they're always so hard on themselves and they always succeed. and if they don't, they cheat and nobody ever says anything, not even them. they don't show their guilt, they know how to push their feelings aside and they can support themselves. i want to be that self-substantiating, i don't want to rely on others anymore and i don't want to just 'try.' i don't want them to be nice to me just because i'm nice to them.

in my experience, all the nice people are the most critical. 'why are they doing that?' 'why isn't everyone nice?' 'how come i'm nice but everyone treats me like shit?' and that's what draws them to me. they tell me i'm nice and i'm pure, they ask me why more people aren't like me. i would hate if everyone was like me and insufferably reliant on the affection of others. mean people aren't like that. mean people live for themselves and use what they have, whether that's their own shit or someone else's; they're not always manipulative, they're resourceful, and when they're critical they do it to push people, to turn their trying into success. i am restrained by what others deem 'socially acceptable' because i'm not confident in those guidelines. if i knew them off by heart and could recite them backwards like a mean person sure as hell i'd take that and be the boss of everyone, i'd bend the rules and still succeed. i am so very envious, and i will get nowhere unless i continue to dramatise myself for the company of others who pretend to care about me and who use me to refresh their mind from the cruel, outside world. i am not like them. i was born mean, i was born angry, and i was born a retard in a society i've tried fuck everything to adapt to.

#i don't belong anywhere #rant #actually autistic #late night thoughts #tomoko kuroki #is literally me #i don't have or believe in morals loolll #angry vent #autism vent #i hate society

[foggfrogg]

man I wish I just evaporated rn I don't wanna do this anymore I failed

стихи все еще в силе бтв

#daily thoughts #i don't care #i don't belong anywhere #meaning I'm useless #i love people unironically

[purplepollywog]

I'm exhausted I'm too tired for this shit I just want to never leave the house for the rest of my life

#nothing I do makes a difference #I don't belong anywhere

[sydneykaine]

Following fat positive accounts is hard for me bc 90% of them don't apply. 45% is "Ya, we're fat and we're gorgeous!" but they're really just average sized people. The other 45% is actual plus size accounts, but I'm still too fat for it to feel like it applies to me. I'm beyond their scope. The last 10%? They're the feeder/feedee blogs. I'm not fat enough for them, and I don't want to be. I just don't think there's a place for me in the fat positivity space.

#shit sydney says #personal #diary post #fat positivity #body positivity #i don't belong here #i don't belong anywhere

[unwatchedfadeout]

oh look nasty new reminder that all my feelings are wrong and ill be punished for sharing them. thank god, i was starting to think i had value to someone, good thing you corrected that.

don'tmind me imma just take a sec to figure out who you want me to be so i can put that face on for everyone's comfort. :p its cool, you can stop pretending to care now.

#tw ana diary #disordered eating thoughts #why can’t i just be okay #i want to be weightless #always alone #tw ed rant #i don't get to have friends #i don't belong here #i don't belong anywhere

[mimipunk]

I don't know where to go and what to do...this place is full of people...and I'm not one of them...i don't belong to their species but who would believe that?....I'm trying to pretend I'm normal and not show who i really am but i get headaches and anxiety , i hate pretending, it's not coming out naturally and i can't stand it.... it's better if i die.. honestly..... Fake it till you make it doesn't work if what you fake is a whole different species lol Sometimes i just embrace my social anxiety and don't talk at all ... I used to be quite cause i was unable to talk , now i also do it on purpose sometimes....i realised what destroyed my life is what will actually save it in the end.... Talking makes me feel stupid.... Because not even a single soul will get what i have to say

#text #my thoughts #thoughts #mine #vent #i don't belong anywhere

[whosafraidofvirginiawoolf]

I Don't Belong Anywhere: The Cinema of Chantal Akerman (2015) dir. Marianne Lambert

#i don't belong anywhere: the cinema of chantal akerman #chantal akerman #*mine: sc