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satansindexfinger · 2 years

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Giving the Brothers the Cold Shoulder After an Arguement

Warnings: self-deprecation and allusions to depression (Levi)

Summary: After getting into a heated arguement with your demon partner, you decide ignoring them is the best way to handle it. When do forced to interact you remain cordial but it's obvious to anyone you aren't letting up.

Lucifer; Mammon; Levi; Satan; Asmo

Lucifer

Two can play that game. If you think Lucifer, the representation of pride himself, is going to break and come crawling back to you? You've got another thing coming.

He's more than willing to reflect your withdrawn attitude, and he does it exceptionally well. If nobody knew about your relationship prior they would think you're just mere acquaintances.

Of course, he will keep up the appearance of formality by engaging in minimal conversation like, "MC, would you pass the salt?", "Diavolo mentioned he wanted you to attend today's council meeting.", "Don't you think it's too late for you to be roaming the halls?"

But nobody can miss the ruby glare, that he convinces himself is subtle, he sends your way every time.

Unfortunately it will take awhile for Lucifer to get over his ego enough to properly address the situation. The more stubborn you are at ignoring him, the more irritated he gets, and the more determined he is to keep the apathetic facade up.

It's the accumulation of small things that eventually get him to reconsider. How empty his bed feels when you're not in it. How listening to music isn't nearly as relaxing without his human leaning their head on his shoulder. How the coffee tastes bitter when not prepared by you. How your avoidant gaze makes his heart sink.

His brothers, and even Diavolo, can feel the anger seeping through his skin as they would get the brunt of it.

After a surprisingly long amount of time, Lucifer will break. He'd make up some valid excuse that involves you visiting his study, and once you go in he will make sure you are not getting out. Not until you hear him out.

"How much longer are you planning on handling this like a child?! Is this how you deal with confrontation? By avoiding it?"

The demon catches himself and his stern glare almost instantly turns into a regretful pout. He recognizes it's his pride and ego that got you both to this point with a shake of his head. He stares at the floor for a few beats before lifting his head up with furrowed brows.

"I... I'm sorry. It's not your fault. I never thought I would be affected by some human ignoring me but this only made me realize you're not just some human to me. I should've insisted we talk about this properly before resorting to this. So, would you allow me to make things right? Let's talk... I can't bare to be apart from you like this."

Mammon

He's quick to pout and exaggerate how much he's ignoring you back. Verbally.

"Pfff, as if I'd care if MC doesn't wanna talk ta me. Can someone tell them how much I'm ignoring them and how I dont wanna see their stupid face ever again? 'Cause I don't!"

It only lasts for a day. It takes Mammon going up to your door, about to break in and excitedly drag you out somewhere, as usual, until it hits him that oh shit. You're still meant to be mad at each other. His hand hovers over the door knob for a bit until he sulkingly leaves.

Getting ignored by you is honestly killing him. As much as he tries to act like he doesn't care, it's beyond obvious how much he's trying to get your attention back. The lingering looks and his overall childlike whining is more than enough to indicate he is missing you. His brothers are beyond tired of his complaning, too.

He can't restrain himself from busting your door down and demanding you stop giving him the cold shoulder. It's been three days! Surely you aren't mad at him anymore and you can go back to cuddling, right?!

"C'mooooon, MC! I'm sorry I made ya mad, I'll make up fer it! Anythin'! So just stop ignorin' me already.. I miss you."

He's aware of how desperate he's being and it makes him red from embarrassment, but he'd rather be honest than go through this torture. He'll keep one in mind to be more considerate in the future so it wouldn't resort to him being avoided by you ever again.

Leviathan

Levi's the one who would take it the hardest out of everyone. Boy's self-esteem is fragile enough as it is and getting ignored by you would just shatter whatever remainder he had of it. Don't expect to see him out of his room for awhile.

Henry's getting a front row seat to Levi's self-deprecation galore. Of course he made you so mad you don't want to talk to him! He's surprised you even spent time around him in the first place! Why did he ever think you'd stick around his gross, annoying, socially inept otaku self? He did this to himself, right, Henry?!

At this point Levi's forgotten what you two even argued about; he's too busy holing himself up in his room and trying to distract racing thoughts with games and anime. It doesn't feel the same without his player two though. He's just going through the motions without paying full attention to what he's playing/watching.

It goes on for a week or so until one of the brothers has to step in and convince you to go check up on him. As mad as you are at him still, everyone knows you're the only one Levi will answer the door to. He's been falling behind on his assignments, not even coming out for meals (thanks to his snack stash).

You're surprised to find his door unlocked. You spot him in his bed/bathtub, clutching at a pillow, looking absolutely miserable. He lifts his head up to chew you out for bargning in until he realizes it's you. He gets up so suddenly he almost falls over.

"M-MC?? What are y-you doing here?! Did my brothers send you here...? Because I know you'd rather die than see me; I screwed up so you're finally tired of me. You don't have to try to make me feel better. Just go tell them I'm fine."

Just looking at him makes you feel bad, no matter how pissed you were. It takes a lot of convincing that you do not wish he was dead and that you just want to talk. Levi will be apologizing every few words, possibly cry, but after a thorough conversation he will calm enough to reevaluate what started this.

Satan

Satan will be furious enough during your heated exchange as it is; so much so he would force you out of whichever room you're in so you don't have to witness him tearing it to shreds. He's already feeling guilty for losing his composure around you but after you start ignoring him completely??

Man's going to need a two hour session of letting out pent up rage in his room every day this goes on for. Of course, he will not let any of it show in public. Especially around you.

Much like the eldest, he will remain cordial with you. Not so much to save face as to prove that he is a-okay without you, and that this doesn't bother him at all. Even though he is absolutely not okay and it bothers him to an absurd degree.

Unlike Lucifer, however, it takes him much less time to swallow his pride and talk to you. He recognizes you're both dealing with a silly arguement in your own childish way and have to deal with it by having a civilized conversation.

Definitely not because he looked up heaps of books and resources on couple disagreements and how to fix them.

"Listen. This has gone on for far too long, so don't you think it's about time we settle this? I'm sorry I lost my temper. It wasn't right of me. I don't like this distance we have right now.. let's fix it. I will hear you out properly this time. As long as you can do the same for me."

Surpsingly very mature and understanding about not just the cause of the arguement, but why you chose to avoid him. He promises to do better and give you both time to cool down if you were to ever have an arguement again so it doesn't end in you taking these drastic measures.

Asmodeous

This is just a phase, right? You were just being overdramatic in the moment and you'll be back to showering him with attention soon! Right? How could you stay mad at his beautiful face for long?

Asmo will delude himself into believing the above so strongly. He will continue to act as he normally does around you, all cuddly and affectionate, thinking your attitude is you just playing hard-to-get.

"Awwww, cmon, MC! You can stop acting upset now! Although your pouty attitude is really cute~"

When you keep making it clear you want nothing to do with him for the time being, the avatar of lust is internally shattering. He thrives off of your attention. Having it taken away is worse than withdrawal. Not that he will make it obvious the first few days.

Seeing that clinginess isn't helping him, he will attempt to make you jealous by alluding to his fanbase and how lucky any one of them would be to have him. Ironically this backfires as it turns you even colder to him. He is at a loss and at his breaking point. What else can he possibly do?!

It all boils down to Asmo getting tipsy at a party one night and seeking you out. Crying, clinging to your clothes, blubbering about how lonely he is without you, and what he would do to get your grace back.

"Darling, please!! I miss you so much, I don't think I can take it! I love you so so much, just please look at me in the eyes again! You still love me more than anything, right? Whatever I did to make you mad I'll show you I didn't mean it! Just let me. I want to feel your love again... can't be myself without it."

It's a shame he has to be under the influence to spill what he's really thinking, but it manages to soften your resolve enough. Expect to get pampered and spoiled to hell for weeks as that's his way of making things right.

#obey me #obey me imagines #obey me x reader #obey me x mc #obey me headcanons #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me levi #obey me satan #obey me asmo #lucifer x reader #mammon x reader #leviathan x reader #satan x reader #asmodeus x reader #obey me shall we date

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girlwithalotoffeelings · 11 months

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Anymore more A/B/ O Bakugo brain rot? I too have contacted it

Sis I have plenty, I think it's contagious.

A/B/O Bakugou Katsuki

Insecurities

Bakugou, the alpha courting you, is pissed. You've have been avoiding going to the gym with him for forever and he's sick of it. You always come up with some excuse of why you can't...

"Sorry, I've gotta help my mom with something."

"I have some paperwork I'm behind on."

"I'm really tired today."

"I think I pulled something on patrol earlier."

And today, he's finally sick of it.

"I'm going to the gym, do you wanna come?" He says from the kitchen counter as he fills his water bottle.

"I'm sorry Ki I have t-" you start, not even looking up from your laptop until you hear him slam his bottle down on the counter, making water droplets fly.

"What?! What else do you have to do that's so fucking important that you can't spend two hours with me at the gym?" His hands were braced on the counter, his jaw tensed, and his shoulders squared.

You were both silent, both of you not knowing how to break the tension. You got up off the couch and walked over to him behind the counter, releasing a calming scent into the air. You heard him take a sharp inhale through his nose and exhale it, letting his shoulders relax a bit.

You slowly ran your hands up his sides under his tank top to feel his skin, coming to wrap around his waist as you lean your head against his back.

"Do you not like spending time with me?" You hear him say in a firm tone as he stares straight ahead.

"That's not it." You whisper against him in a voice smaller than normal.

He shifts, bringing you to his front so he can look at your face.

"Then what is?" He looks down at you, resting his arms on the counter behind you, effectively caging you in.

You don't look up at him; this being the only time you were less than game to make direct eye contact with the man that has been courting you for the past 6 months.

He could tell it was something serious, his usually feisty fire cracker, now looking uncertain. He leaned down more, bringing his head over your shoulder, placing the scent gland just behind his ear, right by your nose, giving you no choice but to inhale him each time you took a breath. He raised both of his hands to rub up and down your arms, trying to soothe you.

"What is it, baby?" His voice is soft, calm, and patient. A complete 180 compared to how he is with everyone else. This side of him is reserved just for you.

"I don't like being watched..." Your voice trails off. He pulls back from you just enough to look into your eyes that are now looking up at him through your lashes. He silently urges you to go on.

"When I'm working out, I don't look... pretty. I look like a drowned mole rat most of the time. My cellulite shows, I sweat profusely, I don't look good." You weren't looking at him anymore; your head turned to the side. To your surprise, you hear a deep bellowing laugh from the man in front of you. You felt strong arms wrap around you as he continued to chuckle softly under his breath.

"Baby, I dont think anyone's supposed to look good while working out. I'm sorry for laughing but, I thought it was something a lot worse, so this is kinda a relief..." He pulls back with a small smile on his lips.

You feel your cheeks heat up in embarrassment as you look away from him, suddenly finding the lamp next to the couch very interesting.

"I thought that you were drifting from me..." you hear his gruff voice whisper. The declaration making you forget your shyness instantly, eyes snapping to him.

"What? Why?" Safe to say you were a little more than very concerned, what had you done to make him think that?

"I don't know," he was looking everywhere else besides your eyes, afraid he might divulge all his biggest insecurities if he wasn't careful.

"I guess I thought you realized you didn't like me as much as you thought you did. That maybe you'd..." There it was, the big seedy underbelly of his small but bountiful list of things he was less than happy with himself about "I don't know" He shook his head with a sigh letting his gaze drop down, giving up trying to put it into words.

"Katsuki, I dont just like you. I love you." You voice was gentle and calm as you spoke. His eyes snapped up to meet yours immediately. What the hell did you just say. You just said that you loved him, and he was losing his absolute shit. That was the first 'I love you'. You had said it to him. His lips slightly parted in shock as he listened to you speak.

"Yeah you get on my nerves and sometimes I wanna strangle you. You can be rude and standoff-ish, but that's what drew me to you in the first place." You lifted you hands to lock then behind his neck.

"You liked that I was rude?" He said with an amused and almost breathless scoff that turned into more of a chuckle.

"I liked that you were unapologetic. That you don't care what anyone thinks of you. You're... real. You're tenacious and determined. You know exactly what you want, and you fight to get there. You're ambitious and honest in everything you do." Your thumb have found homes at the edges of his jaw under his ears as you rub against his stubble. "And even though you are a bit mean sometimes," He's dumbstruck, completely speechless, how have you been watching him this closely all this time. He was sure that he wasnt that serious to you as you are to him. It almost brings him to tears just hearing you talk about all the things you love about him. You lean in to place a gentle ghosting kiss on his lips, that leaves him wanting so much more. "You can be soft and sweet when you really wanna be." You pull back slightly and rest your forehead against his. "And I'll go with you to the gym if it means that much to you." You chuckle lightly and run you hands through the hair on the back of his head.

"Nah, you don't have to. I don't want to you feel uncomfortable. Even though I think you look beautiful all the time." A small smile lazily graces his features as he wraps his arms around your back pulling you closer against him.

"Maybe we can workout together at home sometime?" He says into your hair, enjoying the feeling of you against him.

"I'd like that." You say into to knook of his neck.

A couple beats of silence goes by of you two just holding each other before he speaks again.

"You just said that you love me." He says pulling away slightly to look at you.

"I did, and yes, i did mean it." You were looking up unto his eyes enjoying this close intimacy that is only for you both to know about.

He moves a hand from your back to the back of your neck and pulls you in for the most amazing kiss you've ever had. It was slow and gentle but so full of passion and love. You separate but don't pull away completely, still holding each other close. "I love you, more than you know." He whispers against your lips.

You adore this side of him, the side that only the two of you know exists, the side of your relationship that only you two understand. It's out of the public eye, no pictures taken to capture the moment. It only lived on inside your shared memories together.

Gosh, all the feels for this man. I headcannon that he would crave this sort of soft intimacy from time to time. Bro istg I need me a man like this.

In any case I am back from my unintentional 3 month hiatus. I am so ready to write again, SFW and NSFW so if you would like to request my inbox is always available. And for those who have requested while I was away I'll be going through and pumping out content from there during the next few days.

May the next good dick you receive also be attached to a good man 🙏♡

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woncherie · 1 year

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Thank you for replying about the rules!

Then I would like to make request for the blue lock boys : bachira, chigiri and kunigami, please!

May I request how the boys would try to confess to a painfully oblivious, yet affectionate crush please? Like they enjoy hugging the boys and all, but everything flies over their head.

Thank you for your time!!!

HELLO!! ( ✧≖ ͜ʖ≖) I'm sorry for it to take to long, I was drowning in uni work. I wanna apologize for this mess that I produced. this kinda got longer than expected so I left out chigiri,, I'm so sorry grr

genre: fluff

Reader: Gender Neutral (if I did any mistakes please tell me!!)

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confessing to oblivious reader:

Bachira:

You always appreciated Bachiras easy and ongoing character, not taking everything that you say to him seriously. you two could just sit around for hours and hours without getting bored, just laughing and joking around together.

His love language is physical touch. He loves having his arm around you, being close to you, his hands on your shoulders, just touching you in any way. he also speaks his mind, not thinking twice before dramatically confessing to you every few days, jumping on your back and hugging you while laughing.

When you began your (now very close) friendship to him, you were confused by his behaviour, but after a few weeks you got used to him and his way of acting. you dont even take these words serious anymore, even though it seriously hurts you. you'd love to hear them come from his mouth and meaning them. (at least you believe he doesnt mean it.)

Some of your other friends might even ask you two if you were dating. You shook your head, Bachira nodded.

"Huh?"

"What?"

"What what?"

You looked at him with wide eyes, wondering why he just nodded. It wasn't unusual for the both of you to get asked this question, but usually both of you would dismiss it with a quick hand or headshake.

You loved Bachira, and you loved the close friendship you two had, but at this point it was getting more than frustrating. it feels like he knows about your feelings and is just playing with them.

"Why would you say that?" You bit the insides of your cheeks, trying to ignore the pain in your chest once again. you couldn't do this anymore, it just hurt. You didnt want to tear up in front of him, but you just needed to tell him about his behaviour just breaking you.

"(Y/N), I told you about how I felt about you around five hundred times already." you heard bachira speak up defeated and discouraged, his normal joking behaviour being gone. instead, a serious looking boy stood in front of you, looking deep into your eyes, taking your hand slowly and gently. "But all you do is laugh and change the topic. I can't stand this anymore. are you doing this on purpose?", he let out rather frustrated.

"... HUH????"

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Kunigami:

Kunigami is literally just a big ass fluffball. He is nice and patient to everyone and anyone as long as they are the same to him.

This is probably why you never realised the special feelings he had about you. yes, he is nice and helpful and gentle, integrating and patient, but with you his behaviour goes up another level. he's constantly looking out for you, making sure you eat properly and stay hydrated, he's even walking you home every day with the excuse that his home is in the same direction anyway, acting unbothered and cool when in reality he should've turned to the right halfway through the way home. (but you don't know. he doesnt let you find out.)

he's inviting you over to him every other day, meeting up and probably playing football with you. it doesnt matter to him that you aren't a good as he is, he would even gladly teach you, as long as it means to spend more time with you.

in order for you to realise he really thinks you are more special to him as the other people in his class, he would probably take you to a nice scenery to confess his feelings. which means him forcing you to spend time with him again, not that you would mind though.

you noticed him being more silently and into his head the whole day in school. after school was over you head to his desk, trying to find out if everything is alright.

"Hey, do you need to go home right now?" he asked you, looking up from his desk and right into your eyes, making you feel a bit shy under his glance.

"No. Is there anything you wanna do?" you answered him. He stood up from his chair, throwing his bag around his shoulder. "Lets go for a walk."

You both walked around the city, hands brushing up against one anothers every few minutes. you could feel him trying to hold at least a few fingers of yours, but kunigami always shyed away right afterwards. you didnt say anything, just hoping for him to just take your hand.

The second you two stood at the bottom of a small mountain you started complaining a bit. "What the fuck, do we really need to go up there?"

"Just shut up and follow me" he said with a grin on his face, stretching his hand out for you to finally take.

you placed your hand in his and he grips it tightly, starting to lead you up the mountain. his hand spread warmth through your body and you could feel your heart racing a bit. stop feeling this way, he is just being nice, he's like this to everyone, you tried to downplay your feelings.

once you arrived at the top it was already late in the afternoon and the sun started to set. you both threw yourself onto the ground, looking up into the sky, talking and watching the sky turn from blue to yellow to orange to black, stars beginning to shine brightly all over it.

you did admit that the scenery was amazing from up here, but you didnt say it out loud. you just know kunigami would grin and say I told you so after you complained the whole way up.

instead, you turned your head to him and looked at him, surprised that his eyes were already on you. (they were from the very beginning, you just didnt notice.)

his hand came up close to your face and he put a few strands of your hair away that fell over your forehead. you couldn't help but turn red at his small gesture.

he opened his mouth, wanting to say something before changing his mind and closing it again.

"is everything alright?" you asked him.

"(Y/N). fuck. I really like you."

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Here is an insurmountable amount of garbage. It disgusts me as well. I apologize in advance.

#blue lock #blue lock x reader #kunigami rensuke #kunigami #kunigami fluff #blue lock kunigami #bachira meguru #bllk bachira #blue lock bachira #bachira x reader #kunigami x reader #bachira fluff #bllk #blue lock scenarios #blue lock reactions #blue lock imagines #blue lock headcanons

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pommunist · 19 days

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I really appreciate coming to your blog, to be honest for me its like a healing balm after even just skimming and scrolling others feelings on all of this. I feel like sometimes people are so unreasonable and it hurts to see people "taking sides" at all with this situation.

All Ive ever cared about with this issue is the facts. The fact that a lot of workers got screwed over and instead of buckling down and talking to people QStudios would rather it all just stop happening, make changes and not acknowledge what they did. Honestly they dont have to say anything that even takes blame for it! All anyone was asking for at first was a goddamn DM man. Like they didnt even care if they got fired they just wanted a message SAYING that. But somehow they "cant talk about it" otherwise they would be "complicate" as if they were expecting people to sue them before anyone was even suggesting that?

Everyone is acting like legality is so important as if the people who first stepped up about all of this were instigating lawsuits when thats only happening NOW because they refused to say anything! Its like...why did they have to be "careful with what they say for legal reasons" when no one was threating to sue them. Almost as if they KNEW what they were doing was considered illegal and DID have grounds for legal recourse. If not then why not make ANY statement? Why be so scared to say anything at the beginning? It just dosnt make any sense. I mean even the Union was like "we dont wanna sue you just talk to your workers" at first!

It just feels a bit like a lot of this is being blown out of proportion and considering in his last stream Q ONLY talked about himself getting doxed (not saying that Q is "over reacting" from getting doxed by the way, of course, but rather the community seems to want to use this as a reason to exempt him from any wrong doing), the Brazilians (which by the way the fact that it took ALL OF THIS SHIT for him to BARLY EVEN mention the xenophobia is just….wild ill say), and that hes not gonna be the CEO anymore and like….okay cool dude not what anyone wanted a stream from you about but like pop off I guess. It just feels like every stream hes done about this situation never clears up anything and gives vague promises that dont seem to be held or at the very least is giving us basically no info and just promises.

Amen to all of that anon ! Like everyone (including myself i’ll admit) is saying how it’s difficult to speak about these things because it could lead to legal consequences but also… You want to avoid a lawsuit ? You truly have a desire to make things right ? Then go talk to your workers. Give them the answers they’ve been waiting for. Listen to their experience, listen to their demands, listen to what they want from you. Release a statement with full excuses on the behalf of the whole company to them, thank them for what they did. Pay them the fair compensation you owe them for the months of labour they did for your project. Demand that your community and everyone else leave them be in peace, and condemn everyone who doesn’t.

Like sure, that may need you to admit that you did wrong which could be used against you in court but lets be for real. Lawsuits are stressful, can cost money and are time consuming, so who, especially young people without a lot of money and ressources to their disposal, is going to want to go through that whole legal process after getting everything they wanted and deserved from you ?

This isn’t talking about the Q vs the higher ups who refused to pay the admins and mistreated them btw thats a whole different legal affairs but still then, wouldn’t ex admins have be able to provide you screenshots of payments and conversations that you could then use in your favour in court ?

Also my blog where all I talk about is workers exploitation is like a healing balm to you anon ? You sure you’re okay ? /j ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

#qadmins situation

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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Do you mind dumping all of your thoughts on ebina for us?

i dont even know where to begin on ebina he just sucks major horse cock and i cant be swayed on this but ill put it under the cut for everyones sake. this is rambly as hell too idc i refuse to spend any more time thinking about ebina more than i already do

like what is his purpose. like i KNOW his purpose but it sucks- him being a Plot Twist baby is the dumbest shit in the world and they dont even ATTEMPT to do anything meaningful with it i do not care what anyone says

why even HAVE HIM be related to ichiban if he never even interacts with ichi in a meaningful way, esp when ichi's whole theme is family-- WHEN THE GAME IS LITERALLY ABOUT ICHI MEETING HIS MOM (or it was until they decided they didnt care about akane in the plot anymore)

like we mentioned it before here but if you have to have ebina related to a yakuza from the past for his ol Bring Down The Yakuza gig then why not make him an orphan from kazama's orphanage ???? literally nothing wouldve changed except it would've made more sense with how much kiryu deals with him instead of ichi. it wouldve been a great way to round things off with kiryu's saga too, what with having to confront the consequences of kazama's actions directly and finally and officially burst that fanatic bubble of his (i dont wanna HEAR nothing about gaiden that's not enough for me im GREEDY). theres something in here too about kiryu and daigo but i cant articulate it... i just know that wouldve been better too .... something something kiryu brought daigo into this life and now that he sees kazama 'bring' ebina into this life hes projecting ... idk ..

the game def didnt seem to give a fuck that ebina was arakawa's son considering they fucking revealed it in a bland-ass in-game cutscene FROM DAIGO OF ALL PEOPLE daigo respectfully why the fuck do you know this

i dont know how many people watch my streams but i was so obnoxious about ebina's villain monologue before his fight because its just ...... it just SCREAMS Hey You Guys Remember Aoki Right. fucking Masumi Arakawa Had Two Sons: One Who Loved Him And One Who Hated Him LITERALLY SHUT UP AND DIE I HATE YOU MASATO ARAKAWA WAS RIGHT THERE AND HE DID IT BETTER THAN YOU fucking stealing his bleach japan shit too. you might be able to steal bleach japan and piss me off about it the entire time because fucking everyone and their grandmother besides zhao seems to have forgotten fucking bleach japan but you can NOT steal Number One Hater Son from masato arakawa GET AWAY FROM HER 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 'why did masumi arakawa have to get himself killed' BECAUSE HIS NUMBER ONE HATER SON HAD HIM KILLED BECAUSE HE WAS A BETTER HATER THAN YOU SHUT UP

another thing that pissed me off to no end was the sawashiro shit fuckin Oh He Kept Him Alive Because He Wanted Him To Stop Him SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I HATE YOU . i really wouldve preferred if they just killed sawashiro like old man why are you here- WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR EYE GET GOUGED but im getting off topic. NOTHING bout what we've seen from ebina could convince me he Wanted To Be Stopped like absolutely nothing i dont want to hear this bullshit excuse. it is MERELY just reminding me of ichi being like 'i wish i couldve been there to stop you' @ aoki and its making me pissed

like im the only person who cares this intensely because im the only person who likes aoki enough like this and im trying NOT to mention him so much and just focus on ebina but its just so annoying... like its impossible NOT to see the parallels, especially when the game is practically bashing it into my brain every three seconds. like if we're talking aoki/masato-adjacent antags then i like eiji so its not the fact that HE IS aoki adjacent that pisses me off its just that he has no agency OUTSIDE of being a ghost of him. like there's nothing interesting about him in the slightest and he's barely even on screen why are you forcing me to give a fuck about this twat. if anything the one aoki thing i wish they did mirror onto him was dying at the end i do not care about this man

#iw spoilers #spoilers #snap chats #i think these are all my thoughts. or at least the very basics #point is Resident Aoki Fan Hates The Guy Reminiscent Of Aoki more at 11 #its like .... aoki was an interesting antagonist for his reasons you cant just frankenstein them onto this rando motherfucker #most deviantart oc ass backstory too literally kill yourself #OK IM DONE FR NOW. i wanna DRAW TODAY #maybe ill finally update my ichi blog cause ive had a post sketched for weeks but i keep getting distracted on sundays #im also driving back to school later so .... heres to hoping i have energy tonight vjeLVKERJ #im drawing other bullshit rn .. lol..

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teardew · 1 month

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im thinking about making a patreon because i .. uh .. i cant justify drawing for myself anymore and its killing me lmao

it takes me really long to draw so any time i hav should be spent on comms... iv been trying to fight off burnout by drawing things i like inbetween commissions like that sv anatomy practice and vampire/werewolf mngling was just for me but it still ended up setting me behind schedule because i had to rest my eyes and wrist afterward. but not only that i also wanna like. make a lot more things ...

like i wanna do animal, insect, architectural, jewelry studies and fashion and character design explorations and try designing icon packs and branch out trying embroidery with mixed media and clothes making and get into making like 3d things with clay and soft sculptures. i wanna make historical fashion coloring books with việt phục and fashion zines ...

also theres a lot of stuff i dont post bc im not sure if anyone would be interested in all the design concepts and notes i had for example the homestuck dreamer outfits or the various sha hualing designs and sketches i had before getting to the thing i posted? like i hav a bunch of different sqh outfit and hair designs but theyr more clothing based and not detailed character/face art ...

idk !! it sounds like an excuse. its like, who cares just post it ! i know i shouldnt value my art by the amount of numbers i get from posting on social media and i dont mostly but its kinda unavoidable ? to me ? i know i only post fanart and ppl follow me for that and its not a bad thing ! being realistic i just dont think anybody but me would be interested in it ??

i dont know. god. i dont know what this post is about. ''i dont think anybody would be interested in the things i really wanna make'' but im thinking about making a patreon for things i really wanna make anyway because thats the only way i can justify it is if i can profit off it in some way. i dont really want to, but with my financial circumstances i dont know. i never wanted to make my livelihood off my art. i dont even consider or call myself an ''artist'' really, i just want to MAKE art

i dont know why i still cant find a steady job after 5 months applying to everything and its making me miserable. its embarassing, they say to be persistent with jobs but calling and even walking in to check on applications and watching employers awkwardly try to turn me away without just flat out telling me no even though none of them hire me is an exercise in public humiliation. how bad do you want a job? bad enough to make a fool of myself with nothing to show for it. and i want to make art for myself to cope but it takes too much time and time is money

maybe this post is about my art anxiety under capitalism. i dont know

i think im safe enough now to admit my friends gofundme i was posting about months ago about helping their friend escape their abusive household was actually my gofundme because i was worried about them finding out and preventing me from leaving or internet stalking me afterwards. i did hav a scare when i got a phone call i thought was from my brother but ended up being a police officer, whos my mother's friend ...

but anyways. me admitting this is just to give context that. i ran hundreds of miles away from financial security and everything i ever knew and im still struggling to find steady income nearly half a year later. i just dont understand what im doing wrong. is it my name? is it because im not from here? iv been working continuously ever since i could legally my resume isnt BAD. am i just stupid? should i have just tried to make peace with my lot in life?

i thought getting away from my family would let me be in a better place to create more art, thats one of the things i was so excited about but this feels just as stressful as when i was the only earner supporting my family during covid. i just want a stable job so i can make art. i dont want making art to be my Job. i dont want to be a ''starving artist'' begging for people to care about my art i just want to make art. but fuck i dont know how to sustain any of this

sorry for this mess. insurance is different out here and i havnt been able to find a psych either so its not like i can talk about this in therapy instead of venting on my art blog. all my life i wanted to make things without the fear of it all being destroyed. the main reason i havnt branched out from illustrations is because its entirety can be saved digitally even if its physically ruined. my sketchbooks were thrown away or ripped apart by my family either from carelessness or anger to hurt me but now that im finally enough safe to have them again or make something i can hold in my hands without the fear that someone will come in break it and make me clean up its corpse i cant afford it

i dont know what to do. is it worth it? is making art worth it? i mean. its worth the rent this month. and i still love drawing god this is probably bad for business because i dont want people to feel bad for commissioning me or anything but not to be dramatic why does it feel like im fucking dying

#long post #i keep trying but idk why tumblr wont let me put this under a read more im sorry

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mr-aizuwu · 5 months

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dabi headcanon of the week: he is a very picky eater and always has been.

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(please keep in mind im american without much access to non standard usa foods so i can't really comment on more popular foods and ingredients in japan)

after leaving his old home and becoming dabi, he hasnt been able to really be choosy with what he eats since his next meal isn't promised but when/if he has somewhere to fall back on and always has food available, he will be picky with what he eats.

theres also two ways i wanna go with this part as well lol first one is he has very little feeling in his mouth so he is the king of eating spicy and sour things even if he didnt like the taste/feeling of them before

i also hc he doesnt like anything sour, bitter, spicey nor most veggies lmao he isnt a fan of mushrooms or peas because of the texture and will refuse to eat them and pick them out. he also doesn't like bananas for that very reason too.

alt hc if you like some angst like me, his teeth and gums probs arent the best anymore from years on the streets and constant damage to his body so soft foods like peas and bananas are some of the only things he can eat without pain.

putting aside the fact he has very little feeling in the rest of his body theres also the hc of while dabi is constantly putting himself through unimaginable pain and destroying his body, I like the idea that he has a sensitive mouth that doesnt allow him to eat or drink harsh things so if he is able to he will avoid them at all costs. for example he also can't do carbonated things without pain and discomfort. pineapple is one of his his worst enemies.

as a kid he would always want to whine if meals were things he didnt like, that being said he didn't like to disappoint his father and would try to choke it down anyways.

i like the hc that end*avor had planned meals for his kids, they always had to be healthy and balanced and they had to finish it all. if touyas meals werent always planned and scheduled tho than he would try to get his mom to not add or make things he didnt like.

dabi x reader section: he will always make you buy things he likes to have on hand even if hes not always around. if you don't have a lot of money and don't mind him stealing, then dont be supprised when he comes home with lots of his fave snacks and things to make foods he prefers.

dabi would always be hesitant or straight up unwilling to try anything that he doesn't find visually appealing or really many new things in general. if you like experimenting and trying new foods make sure theres always something he likes around or else he just,,,, won't eat. not in a throw a little kid tantrum way but a he just says he doesn't feel hungry at the moment or straight up says the food doesnt look good

if you make something specially for him but add something he doesn't like or is iffy on without knowing, he will still at least try it, using the excuse he isnt very hungry right now or is busy and will eat it later if he really doesn't like it.

i like the hc he has a sweet tooth so he will be more likely to try new things with sugar or sweet foods like fruits and pastries. he hates dark chocolate tho and no amount of coaxing will talk him into eating it.

don't try to lie about or trick him into eating things either, for one that's mean and you shouldnt do that with anyone, and for two he is amazing at telling when someone is lying and he WILL find out and get pissed off at you, not so much about the food but the fact you lied to or tried to trick him when he explicitly set a boundary.

he will be more lenient in trying new things if you eat them with him or its your first time having it too. if you offer him a bite of something like you are just casually eating it and are seeing if he wants some too he will be more likely to try it.

'want some?'

'nah im good'

'you sure?'

'mh, fine, if it gets you to stop pestering me'

since he is a known criminal and can't blend in as easy because of his scars, going to restaurants aren't really options for you guys anyways, so he doesnt have to worry about getting there and finding something on the menue he likes, if you order in he will be more inclined to ask if you want something else for dinner if that place doesnt have anything he likes.

i dont think he would know how to cook very well seeing as he didn't really have many ingredients nor anything to cook with before he pretty much moved in with you. so he will always stand in the kitchen and pester you when youre cooking, especially if its something he doesnt like.

'you shouldnt add that'

'why?'

'because'

'???'

if you tell him to make his own damn food he will get all huffy lmao

if you try teaching him to cook or you arent very good at it either, than he will def always only make things you both like unless its a special occasion for you, like your birthday or youre celebrating something. if its something he doesnt like but you want it, he will make a little something on the side for himself if yours didnt take too long to make, or he just eats leftovers/snack foods instead

things like ramen, cereal and other quick prep foods are always good to have around with him.

its not uncommon to see him picking out parts of or eating around places its touched others he doesn't like, for example; if you have a fruit platter, he will only eat pieces that didnt touch ones he doesnt like.

hes the picks off and gives you the pickles lmao

#dabi x reader #this is more me just wanting to scream into the void my dabi hcs but yall can see them too if youd like

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plushii-gutz · 8 months

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Aaand here's part 10. I love writing these goobers, but I think it's time to have a change of pace.

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Glaishur only now returned to his bedroom. It was late, definitely past midnight. Having slept in so late the previous days, his sleep schedule was all over the place, and unfortunately, it was enough to wake up his partner as well. He knew he'd fall asleep again eventually. It may just take a bit.

He had left to get himself and Attmoz some water, running into Furnoss on his way. Neither spoke a word to each other. Nothing more than a nod of the head as they returned to their designated rooms. Glaishur chose not to question it. Now, he was finally back in bed, neither he nor Attmoz dehydrated anymore.

"Why can't I ever be big spoon?" Glaishur asked.

"Well, one, you're shorter," Attmoz started.

"We're th' same height!"

"And two, you drool in your sleep, and I just washed my hair."

"That.. ok, I ain't got an excuse for that."

"You do not."

The two shuffled the blankets around, settling themselves back down to sleep. The room was cool, enhancing the comforting warmth from under the covers. The chattering bugs outside the window were quite loud - louder than they ever would have been back on their previous island. It was a tad bit annoying, but they would learn to adapt eventually. It was better to.

"Attmoz?"

"What's up?"

"Are you feelin' alright?"

"What'cha mean?"

"I mean.. are you ok? I know you're real cool 'bout everything, but.. but we've been through a lot."

The critters filled in the silence. Attmoz rested his chin on Glaishur's head.

"Frosty, you've been through more than anyone.. you died, man. You got hurt, you got trapped in that weird snowy world, spent years thinking of yourself as some kind of failure, which obviously isn't true. I don't think it matters all too much on my end."

"Just 'cuz I've been through more doesn't mean you've been through nothing. You still watched th' castle burn. You still lost the only home we ever had. You still lost Galvana's trust. You lost me, too. I can't imagine that feelin' too good, even with how tough you are."

The air Celestial held his breath for a moment.

"You're back now. It's ok."

"But I was still gone. You didn't know I'd be comin' back - no one did. I ain't in the fire anymore, but that still pokes at me every day."

The memory was haunting for both of them. For everyone. The feeling of flesh and blood that wasn't his own sticking to the cloud monsters hands, the heat from the fire in contrast with the coolness of the rain. The sorrowful, empty days that followed. Glaishur rolled over to face his partner.

"I know you don' wanna talk about it, but.. maybe when th' doctor comes back around. Maybe you can get some stuff off your chest. I dont wanna make anyone feel like they aren't allowed t' talk. Especially you."

Attmoz's hug grew a little tighter, the cold monsters face being smothered in the fluff around his neck. He still carried the smell of a sugary scented shampoo.

"How did you ever stop hurting?" Attmoz asked.

"I didn't."

Glaishur silently promised to return the care and support he had been given for these many years. Starting with a night of comfortable sleep. He let Attmoz cry, having to hold back some tears himself. Glaishur hummed the same tune they had learned over the years, lulling both of them to a comfortable slumber.

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Neither bothered to leave the bed the next day, even less so the room. Furnoss seemed to have the same situation, still sleeping off the previous nights adventure.

Strombonin and G'joob had agreed to swap roles today, Strombonin returning to Cold Island temporarily, while G'joob made sure to protect the castle and its residents. It wasn't too hard to simply warm up some leftovers from the previous breakfast and serve the kids, so long as they didn't get their hands on the syrup. Hornacle was provided with their needed antibiotics unknowingly, the medication mixed into a cup of yogurt with a bit more sugar sprinkled in than usual. For flavor.

Furnoss appreciated the help. Though falling back asleep before fulling stating his thanks, he was able to get the point across.

"Alright, um. What first, what first."

G'joob took the kids outside, knowing their enjoyment of the outdoors. They themself was quite fond of it, too. He did a count of heads, keeping track of everyone.

"How 'bout we, uh.. get some knowledge in your brains, yeah? Learn a bit 'bout nature."

Blasoom perked up at the idea with excitement, which seemed to rub off on the others. Galvana nonchalantly kicked a rock, seeming a little less up to the trip than the rest. With the mostly positive response, G'joob began the walk into the trees.

"Plant Island has a lot'a different kinds of plant life. There's uh.. Piney trees, which surround most of ya castle. That over there is a Saggle tree, but I wouldn't recommend eating from it. Tastes like rocks."

"What's that one?" Scaratar asked, motioning to a distance tree with golden yellow vines that deepened to a firey orange. Its branches moved at her acknowledgment, almost as if it were striking a pose.

"Beeyoot tree," the Mythical answered. "They know how pretty they are. Don' look too long, or it'll get all mad that it isn't the center of attention."

While the rest carried on, Scaratar's curiosity got the better of her. She made sure to keep them in view, herself leaving to inspect the plant further. It stood tall over her, letting its branches hang low enough for her to reach for. The poison monster gave an enchanted "wow.." lifting an arm. It felt soft to the touch, still gleaming with its brilliant colors.

Suddenly, the ground below her grew distant. Scaratar gave a scared yelp, feeling herself be lifted by the backpack over her shoulders and her limbs grabbing for anything to hold on to.

It was a Fuzzle tree - a mischievous plant that had a record of stealing from monsters picnic baskets and backpacks.

"Put me down!" She yelled, kicking the air. "Syncopite! G'joob! Help me!"

Her words were heard quickly, the group of monsters racing back. G'joob didn't seem to know what to do, not exactly having a manual for this situation.

"Did you bring any treats? Maybe it wants one!" They gave the idea.

"Just take the backpack off, Scaratar," Syncopite said, almost annoyed.

"No! It's mine!" Was all she would yell back. The crystal monster rolled his eyes.

"Can we wait until it loses interest?"

"Fuzzle trees nowadays expect food in exchange," G'joob explained. "We could go back to the castle and -"

The ground below them shook. One of the trees behind them seemed to be moving closer. The kids ran behind Syncopite and G'joob, the former lifting stones from the ground in preparation for a fight. Scaratar felt the branch holding her let go, but instead of falling down, she was lifted up.

"Those damn Fuzzle trees have no manners anymore! Oh, you poor thing."

"Sage! The poison monster cheered. "You're back!"

The plant wubbox sat Scaratar down onto the grass away from the tree. She smiled, the lights dangling from her antlers brightening with her mood.

"Oh, look how tiny you are!" She squealed, scooping up the new monsters with Galvana included. They held onto her arm, glad to see her.

"Tiny, tiny little shorties! Itty bitty little babies! So small!"

"Sage," G'joob interrupted. "Put 'em down."

"G'joob! Haha, how have you been? We haven't spoken in forever!"

She scooped the Mythical up in her other arm, more than glad to add them to the mix. She took a seat on the ground, giving every held monster a little boop on the head to show affection.

"Sage! Down!"

"Right, right."

The wubbox sat everyone down into the grass. The kids were quite shaken up at the encounter, but they enjoyed her already. She seemed fun! Galvana stood with Sage, and she plucked one of the yellow flowers from the vines growing around her limbs and put it in their hair.

"Ok," G'joob caught their breath. "No more Fuzzle trees. No more trees. Uh, kids, this is Sage. She's a Wubbox, which is.. it's like.. uh, this is Sage."

She introduced herself, glad to meet more of the Celestials. She chooses not to ask where Attmoz is, having become all too aware of his mischief a few nights ago. Her Mythical friend explained what they were out doing, as well as questioning why she didn't seem all too surprised to come across literal gods.

"Oh! Well, I.. I didn't know these were the Celestials! I mean, look at them! They're just little monsterlings! Besides, you know we never got to meet them."

"We?" Scaratar echoed.

"Oh, that's right!" Saged gasped. "I have a lot of siblings! There's Coal, Coral, Lumi, Disc, and Robin! Also, Score, but we don't talk about Score. Oh, you should meet them one day! We've been told all sorts of stories about you guys! They'd love to see you!"

Galvana seemed to like the idea. Unfortunately, G'joob slowed the wubbox down. Not anytime soon would anyone be meeting the Celestials. They can't be seen. The kids gave one another looks, confused as to what the adults were talking about. They were able to piece together that they were Celestials - that was obvious. They knew they weren't allowed to be seen, though that rule they didn't understand.

"How about.. we jus' go back to th' castle an' play there instead."

"Can Sage come with?" Scaratar asked, eyes growing round. Damn it.

"Fine. Sage can come too. Jus' try an' keep quiet. We don' want too much attention."

With a new companion, the many monsters returned to their hidden home. Sage rested on her 'stomach', using one arm to support herself up and the other to play with the rest. Of course, Galvana still by her side. Her, Torrt, and Hornacle were able to dig up another hole again, starting up a new soil statue. Blasoom and Scaratar wanted to start a new garden, getting Sage's advice as to where would work best and how to start. Syncopite tagged along, mostly wanting to have a say in what fruits and berries would be planted.

Torrt mashed the muddy ground with water until it had a more clay-like consistency, digging up stones to use for small details on the future sculpture. Hornacle had already begun to make a wobbly silhouette, not sure which of their friends to recreate. While they and Sage started to brainstorm, the Earth Celestial lost their attention to a small yellow butterfly. Galvana watched them run off, sliding down from their spot to follow along.

The butterfly settled on Torrts head, crawling around his hair. They giggled at it, trying to catch it within his hands. Again, it took off. Galvana followed it this time, waiting for it to land. It settled on a flower this time - a dandelion, it seems. Carefully, the two got ready for it to lift off. With a flutter of its wings, Galvana hopped forward.

"You crushed it!" Torrt yelled, grabbing at his hair. "You crushed it!"

The younger monsters rolled back, terrified by the sudden loud voice. In the grass, next to the crushed flower, the beautiful insect twitched its legs. Its golden wings were crooked, bent the wrong way on parts, and hardly moving. The ruckus caught everyones attention, apparently. Just then, the front door to the castle opened. Attmoz stumbled out, Furnoss and Glaishur behind him.

"What happened? Torrt, are you ok?"

The earth monster carefully scooped up the butterfly, holding it up to Attmoz. He took it in his hands, Glaishur looking over his partners shoulder to see.

"Can you fix it?" Torrt asked. If Attmoz could bring back one life, why not another?

The two teenage monsters looked to one another, clear discomfort and unfortunate sorrow deep in their eyes. Furnoss held his tongue.

"We can't fix it," someone finally spoke. It was Sage, accompanied by G'joob, taking the lead. Her energetic voice softened drastically, offering a hand. Attmoz placed the now dead creature in it.

"Why not?" They asked. "Glaishur came back!"

The plant wubbox wasn't sure what to say to that.

"Living is different for butterflies and monsters," G'joob moved in. "You're too young to understand, but.. it's different."

Torrt lowered his head. Sage closed her hands, hiding the scene, and held Torrts hand in the other.

"I promise to explain everything once you're older," she assured. "This was all just an accident. A horrible accident."

Galvana looked over the group, still too stunned to really speak or drag any attention to themselves. They killed something, they weren't thinking - it was an accident! Their eyes looked from their hands to Furnoss.

The wubbox and Mythical took the butterfly and Torrt aside. They made a small hole, letting the deceased rest in the ground. Like flowers, Sage would say. The others remaining took a bit of time to think, but soon enough, they carried on their game.

"This.. is going to be rough," Attmoz sighed. He made sure Glaishur was OK. Other than the both of them still having bedhead, they seemed OK.

"It always has been," Furnoss sighed, wiping the sleep from his eyes. He still hadn't fully processed what had happened.

"Who's th' the robot?" Glaishur finally asked the same question the fire monster had. " 'Moz, do you know 'em?"

"Irrelevant."

It didn't take very long for them to return. Torrt went back to playing with Hornacle, Blasoom, Syncopite, and Scaratar went back to making a new garden. Vhamp attempted to play with Galvana again, but they simply weren't interested.

"Wanna jus' sit with them?" Glaishur asked. Furnoss and Attmoz nodded in agreement.

They were reminded every day of the different life they would live, a life they were never supposed to have. They were well aware of the difficulties that will come with it.

But they were ready. They were ready for a new future, a new life. Even with the sacrifices that had to be made. They couldn't - they wouldn't - return to the past.

They were no longer gods. They were no longer fallen stars. They were just monsters. Walking a new path.

#fallen stars msm #my singing monsters #msm #fallen stars au #msm au #fanfiction #msm oc

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nalaniisthebest · 1 year

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hey girly pop if you’re still taking requests can you do one where jack is in a relationship with like an extremely small celeb i was thinking a painter and she wants everyone to know he’s in a relationship but doesn’t want a public one 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾💕 hope this makes sense 😭

i gotchu girl!!

( i made this a while ago so dont mind if it’s bad. i’m sorry that i haven’t been active, i’ve been so busy w/ school and my mental health rn. but just letting y’all know i have like three jack harlow stories and a couple austin butler ones that im working on rn so just be ready when they’re done!!! but enjoy this one while y’all wait!!!)

lemme know if y’all wanna part two??

materslist

request are open!!!

“you won’t even fucking consider it.” i yelled as jack rolled his eyes. getting up from the couch, he walked off to our shared bedroom. jack and i have been dating for almost a year and still refuses to hold my hand on public. we’ve had this conversation a couple of times, but it’s always ended with jack saying ‘the public doesn’t need to know everything.’

“excuse you!” i said following him “i’m not done!” he sat at the edge of the bed with his face in his hands. i slammed our bedroom door shut behind me. “why won’t you even consider it?” i asked softly. there was a big pause before jack looked up from his hands. “you know why..” he mumbled in response. “ the publi-.” “don’t say that.” i said cutting him off. “you’ve been saying that for the last year and im tired of it.” i said crossing my arms.

“give me a real answer jack.” i asked. “i-i don’t know y/n. maybe i don’t want everybody in our business.” he said with a frustrated tone, looking up at me. “it’s not like everybody is gonna know how our relationship works.” i said in defense as he shook his head. i stood there shocked on how somebody could be so stubborn about one thing, until realization hit me.

“i-is it because you’re embarrassed of me?” i softly asked mumbled, choking on my words. jack quickly looked down running his hands through his curls. “are you fucking serious right now.” i chuckled to myself. tears forming in the corner of my eyes as i quickly turned around, facing my jack towards him. “y/n..” jack started, he stood up wrapping his arms around his waist as you quickly pushed him away.

“don’t fucking touch me.” i said with tears stained on my cheeks. i quickly wipes them away, finally up at him. “i’m not anyone’s fucking secret, jack. not even yours.” i mumbled with tears dripping off my cheek. i quickly wiped my tears, once again. waking straight out the room. i heard jacks heavy footsteps behind me. “y/n, where are you going?” he asked as i grabbed my keys.

“away from you.” you said opening the front door. you turned around looking back at jack. he had this desperate look on his face, telling me not to leave, to stay with him and try to understand his point of the story. but i couldn’t, not after this. “i can’t fucking look at you, anymore.” i mumbled, before shutting the door behind me.

i walked as fast as you could outside to your car. i hopped in the drivers seat in complete silence before an uncontrolled sobs floods out your mouth. you were crying so hard, you’re lungs felt as if they were gonna explode. your eyes red and puffy, you started your car pulling out the parking lot. you didn’t know where you were going.. but all you knew is that you had to get as far away from jack as you could.

#jack harlow #jack harlow smut #imagines #jack harlow imagine #jack harlow concepts

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unfunnyaceartist · 1 month

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Vent post ahead that may change your view on me and that may sound dramatic (NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, THIS IS JUST IN GENERAL) Mostly just to get out my feelings. I only ask that if you look, to be kind and understanding and patient. Also the tags are silly and id appreciate if you read em. id appreciate if you didnt ask me anything on it

I feel toxic sometimes because i can get so jealous i borderline gatekeep things and I always feel so bad because its never intentional but then I end up hating myself because I know its unhealthy and irrational but I cant help it, and I know im so lucky and have a lot in many senses of the word, but at times it feels like they can be taking everything, because when I like someone or something, they tend to matter a fuck-ton to me. Im sorry to anyone ive lashed out at a bit for them wanting what I have, I really am. Its not coming from a place of hostility, rather a place of trauma responses and hyperfixation that stem from my adhd and autism but like when I try something and it goes great, and then someone else is like "OOH thats awesome I wanna do that too" It feels almost like when Im finally happy or excited or proud to have something, someone comes and takes it. Usually Ill play it off as a joke, but in reality, its complete honesty that im trying to soften so I dont upset anyone, especially when its over fiction or a person, because I do NOT own them and I know that, but it bothers me when someone swoops in to do the exact same things or even one-up especially when its really soon after me, and since my self worth is already abysmal, it just makes me feel worse, like I should be lucky to have what I do to begin with, but I feel the need to hold it close to me and protect it so I dont lose things that make me really happy.

Recently Ive even started reverse gatekeeping in response to others, where ill just tell myself I cant or dont deserve to have anything special because I'm not, and only others can enjoy this. But thats why people making me ship content makes me so happy. Its dumb to get jealous over others selfshipping with a character I like. Its dumb to get upset over someone I know copying or taking heavy inspiration from one of my ideas. Its dumb to get possessive over someone else trying to befriend my new awesome friends or wife/wives. I rarely selfship anymore due to my reverse gatekeeping and instead serve the others who simp or enjoy content. I provide since I feel I cant take. It makes me happy and distracts me. But the moment someone else does something similar to what is my toxic coping mechanism for my toxic coping mechanism, it only hurts worse. Thats why sometimes, for example, I get a bit snappy when someone else provides gummybunny (that and also shipping jealousy sometimes). Thats why I get snappy when I make a friend someone else super cool and then another person comes in and wants to befriend them (No darken, this wasnt directed at you, its happened more than once with more than one person but I know how you tend to assume). I LOVE giving but I hate sharing, because all my life whenever I shared, I lost something.

Introduce a friend to a friend? They leave me behind for eachother. Let someone wear my fitbit because they wanted to feel "rich"? It got stolen. Give money to someone in a "rough spot" who promised to repay me somehow? Never saw them again. I was always so trusting and understanding, and I always made excuses for others. Always so naive and gullible. So much so, in fact, that in elementary I kept letting my bullies pretend to be my friends when they claimed they changed, and let them destroy any ounce of worth I had whatsoever. Things that make me happy I CHERISH because of all the things ive lost and all my experiences. Ive never been hit, not once, but the abuse all my life came emotionally and mentally, and I only recently realized through therapy. Now its hard to trust people in certain situations. Sorry for my probably hard to follow and melodramatic rant.

sorry im dumb haha

#tw vent #By the time I finished writing the post I was no longer a mess about it but im still gonna post it #I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF I SEE ANYONE APOLOGIZING FOR MY OWN ISSUES IM GONNA BE PISSED #yall read all the tags its beneficial lol #Ngl SOME of this jealousy hits hardest with Gummy #because Ill FINALLY get fed some simp food for myself #and then yk #theyll kinda show up and ask to receive the same stuff #or act jealous #gummy #babe I love you #BUT DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY PEOPLE YOU HAVE FEEDING YOU GUMMYBUNNY CONSTANTLY????#Like mine is rare and far between #and I dont draw much selfship unlike you #LET ME HAVE SOME THINGS DAMMIT #And then Darken over here when I get a cool new friend just like:#... is for me? 🥺👉👈#/nm for both things #im the embodiment of envy and greed arent I...#I hate upsetting people #I just keep it to myself and internalize my emotions mostly #haha now you guys know how possessive and jealous I am #its giving yandere 🥰💅✨🗣💃🕺😍😘😼🤠🤭😇🙄🤩😜😝🤑🧐😈#i regret my life choices right about now

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meviesdust · 6 months

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things i noticed while thoroughly rewatching d2

i found this in my notes from back in july 2022 and stand by it. mostly mevie, including core four, ben, ben & harry, umal exes & a hint of lonnie appreciation

- at the curl up n dye, not only did mal let evie have her moment with dizzy, but as soon as dizzy said it would make her so happy to know that evie is wearing something of hers in auradon, she stopped dead. she immediately looked at evie to check on her, she knew that statement would have an impact on her. as soon as she saw the heartbroken look, she put herself back into the convo . "e, we gotta go." then when dizzy left she took evies arm and guided her to the side. she let evie have a moment to get herself together. "she's gonna be okay." when she caught evie feeling bad again, she tapped her arm and took her arm, leading her away, starting an easy conversation so lighten the mood.

- after mal says "and i am, and will always be, the girl from the isle." her eyes water and when evie looks away she looks up so she doesnt cry. then she finds a distraction by pointing to the sign

- carlos and jay making fun of evie i cant do this . "you know how spontaneous she is bro" it starts off as an excuse but its pretty fucking accurate so jay just goes "right???" and i just know evie has done some stupid fucking shit before and the boys are annoying ass brothers but wbk

- no straight man grinds his way up the king .

- i'm looking at you harry

- bens into it

- "she's not my gf anymore" yeah ben u go . make sure ur pirate crush knows ur available

- ben is the definition of :]

- EVIES CARRYING MALS BAG FOR HER :(((((

- lonnie looks like a scary dog from the pound being held on a chain lead taking a few steps back growling ready to pounce on her enemies no i will not elaborate

- i also just decided that lonnie has adhd

- evie jay carlos and lonnie looking behind mal when shes saying the plan bc they know shes in a vulnerable position with her backturned and need to be aware of every movement . lonnie is glaring in a threatening manner and standing in a position that shows she means business . jays eyes are flickering between mal and the pirates, showing he's listening but still watching for any movements. carlos is looking straight into mal's eyes. theyre communicating via body movement. evie is angled closer to mal, she's there to protect if anyone lunges at mal and watching closely for any danger

- as soon as mal turns back, evie's stance soon relaxes. she rests her arms against the sides of the bridge knowing mal no longer needs protection

- evie leaping through the air behind mal doing her little dancy dance while everyone's fighting

- evie was the one who noticed dude. after carlos went "we're dead." she subtly leaned next to him and whispered in his ear, when mal looked back for help, that's when he nodded to dude. evie saved her gf whats new

- ben getting held off the plank: :] vs ben when uma finally gives him back: :0

- mal after pinning uma "you miss me?" oh u wanna kiss so bad .

- harry is using sword fighting as an excuse to flirt with every vk such a pansexual pirate

- evie vs her heels being her best and favourite weapon

- mal i am in love with you

- descendants vs having the hottest fucking characters

- ben you dont just compare ur gf to her worst enemy and ex gf like that someone get this man a book on dating

- jay and mal being the emotionally stunted ones of the group and it works bc they understand each other and even though they bicker they love each other immensely i'm gonna punch through a wall

- "so ur not seeing happys son or anyone else." ur girlfriend is gay

- id love to go to auradon prep . like imagine the drama dude like . omg did u hear the king serenaded the new vk girl while his gf watched and then asked her to the coronation AND THEN his now ex kissed charmings son in front of him . then the kings new girls mother crashed the coronation and new girl cried and killed her with the power of friendship but then she got sad and ran away and king ben got KIDNAPPED and then at cotillion he cheated on new girl with an octopus and then they fought in water and then they kissed and kings ex was jealous of new girl so she terrorised the kingdom and turned us to STONE

- MAL CHECKING ON EVIE BEFORE TURNING TO A DRAGON

- JAY AND CARLOS CATCHING BEN WHEN HE SLIPS ON DECK IM CRYING

- EVIE MAKING JOKES :( "just a little bit"

- mal tracing patterns on evies back <3

- i started this movie four hours ago this is what happens when someone with adhd watches descendants

#i cut some parts off for length #comfort movie #mevie #core four #mal bertha #carlos de vil #jay #evie grimhilde #king ben

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violet-919 · 9 months

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Daily reminder to not listen to Destiny 2 streamers and content creators’ “criticism” (AKA whining and bitching). They thrive on the negativity and hate they create for their views.

I don’t really know precisely what Bungie’s done to piss them off (and i intend to keep it that way cuz i like to stay mentally sane) but for as much shit-talk they deal i can ASSURE you that they will still buy every single new piece of Destiny and Bungie content that gets released without hesitation. They’re hypocrites who talk too much harmful shit nobody benefits from.

I’ve heard stuff about the monetizing of the game getting “greedier” and maybe they have a point about that, maybe they dont, i dont care. If they really thought the game was doomed or bad in whatever way, they’d stop playing and do something else or play another game, but they dont. Dont listen to them, period.

“But it’s valid criticism!” No it’s fucking not. I dont care how good of a point anyone makes, no criticism is valid when it’s used as an excuse to generate hate instead of actually giving feedback. I dont think this can even be called criticism, it’s just straight up harmful speech.

If you yourself think the game is gonna go bad in some way and don’t wanna play anymore, that’s fine, you do you. But dont stay and start saying hateful things about it, you’re only causing harm to yourself, the rest of players who enjoy it, and the people at Bungie themselves (because some people somehow seem to forget that Bungie are still human beings)

#destiny 2 #destiny #destiny the game #destlny drama #bungie #fuck streamers

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magnoliamyrrh · 10 months

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i find the whole conversation around self-dxing to be interesting too because while self-dxing can indeed be dangerous and bad, on the other hand i am also quite anti-psychiatry, if youve got something youve obviously got it without a diagnosis, and getting a diagnosis can be hard af

like idk i think way too many ppl push this "go get therapy go get professional help and evaluation!!!" thing all the time. as if many therapists and psychs arent stupid af, as if they cant be wrong, as if they cant further traumatize someone, as if they can't be smart and kind ppl but Still get things wrong. and as if the entire psych system for the most part isnt fucked in manyyy ways...... like... yea, if you can and find a good one go i guess depending on circumstance... but you better take everything they say with a grain of salt too, wtf

.... yes teenagers and in general young ppl self diagnoing themselves with 2000 things is harmful. they may be doing it either for attention, because its cool and trendy, bc theyve actually got histrionic or mauchausens, bc theyre pathologizing normal human reactions, or bc theyve not done enough actual research and went off of articles which explain things in such a way that frankly most humans would relate. or they may confuse disorders among each other, or they may not be pragmatic enough abt it. yes this is a huge issue. weve got 20000 teenagers and young adults and even some adults running around saying theyve got turrets or did or autism or bpd or ocd or whatever the hell is trendy. psych wards for symptoms and conditions (which are themselves often imperfect) have been watered down to an extreme and are thrown around. therapy talk is being used to make excuses for behavior which should not be excused

...... at the same time. yea self diagnosis isnt inherently harmful all the time. the ppl who say otherwise and are 2000% certain only docs can tell u shit arent skeptical enough of docs. with some things its obvious. i didnt need any doctor to tell me i had anorexia nervosa or bulimia lmaoooo that shit was obvious and clear as day. i didnt need to be told i had bpd, i caught on at a young age i had it, and bc i neither could go to therapy nor wanted to, i spend years understanding that disorder on every which side and way and recovering from it myself. it saved my life. i dont even wanna know how bad things would have been if i didnt accept i had that and understood it - and yea, i didnt need no doctor to tell me to know. and low and behold, docs agree i used to have bpd, still hsve some symptoms, but have mostly recovered from it. funnily enough i caught onto having some sort of osdd/did years ago, than denied it completely to myself for years, than i couldnt ignore it and deny it anymore. ended up getting a diagnosis for that too. :/ i figured i had adhd for years on end but docs either thought it was something else or i wouldn't bring it up much. low and behold i have a diagnosis and the high doses of adhd meds i can handle without feeling st all "drugged out" are proof that i do actually have adhd

if anything lmaoo i have personal experience with having a crazy psych. a woman who mistook cptsd&osdd/did for bipolar disorder, gave me drugs literally illegally which ate at my body and told me not to tell anyone, and also yelled at me that i was crazy. had a therapist who thinks being molested makes ppl homosexual and that step-parent sexual attraction is normal on some level.....;;;; like;;;;;;..... yea. the psychs and therapists arent some sort of final say people. they can be crazy and they can be wrong

and the idea that Inherently someone with bpd, or did/osdd or whatever else Cant Know of their disorder before being told (tho the latter was actually suggested to me many yrs ago by someone) is just. wrong and harmful frankly. yea in some cases pls dont know, or theyre in extreme denial (like with anorexia). but not with all. not with all. 👀 my psychs found it surprising how self aware i was, impressive, but they did not think this was some sort of disqualification

idk. yea. like. theres definetely issues around self-dex especially in the hell were living today but acting like its Always Inherently Bad and Will Never Help and docs are some sort of authority who are the only ones with some say... ,,,, yeaaaa. no. that's also dangerous

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sturnioloshacker · 2 months

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i have some major shit to talk rn

THKS STUOID BITCH WANTS TO GO BEHIND MY BACK AND SHIT TALK ME AND SAY ‘she’s making me not feel good’ BLAH BLAH BLAH LIKE HOW DID I CAUSE YOU TO HABE PANIC ATTACKS N SHIT?? AND SHE GETS MAD OBER ME LIKKNG THE SAME THINGS AND THEN SAYS IM DOING IT ON PURPOSE BUT WHH WOULD I WANNA BE LIKE A STUPID BITCH WHO REVOLVES HER LIFE AROUND HERSELF. LIKE LITERALLY FUCK YOU YOI STUPID BITCHCJHCJSJWKZOAOWKDKZKWE I HATE HERRRR I WANT HER TO JS STOP CONTACTING ME ALREADY BC SHES SO ANNOYING AND I DONT THINK I COILD HAYE ANYONE MORE THEN I HATE HER

excuse my grammar i’m literally on the verge of tears but i’m also so mad but i’m also so sad bc she was my best friend but it turns out she js hates me and wants to block me already 😐

oh baby i’m sorry! that bitch is definitely not your best friend if she’s gonna talk shit about you that is not even true. just block her babes and stop all contact with her, she’s not worth your time anymore. she’s irrelevant to you now, not even worth talking about her anymore.

she’s done and dusted, swept under the rug where she belongs. don’t cry over her, save your tears baby. she can fuck off and stay the fuck away from you. she deserves nothing. you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect, not bitchiness and anger.

i love you so much, chin up baby. don’t worry about her anymore. keep being your strong and loving self 🩷

#asks ❤️#mutual asks #mutuals 🤍#veronicafishersleftboob 💕

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hugheshugs · 2 years

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Ok… dbf!Thomas thought. You wanted a tattoo but Brendan’s always told you no. So you try to convince Thomas to talk to your dad (and maybe even try to get Thomas to take you to go get one).

(Or do you go get one and then need Thomas’ help hiding it/explaining it to your dad?)

not canon bc i dont think she'd ever want to get a tattoo but this what could happen if she needed thomas' help convincing bren. also, he's kinda nice in this. weird, ik

"bren, she's an adult," thomas reminded. "she can get it even if you don't want her to, you're lucky she's asking for permission in the first place."

your dad rolled his eyes, crossing his arms to copy thomas' stance. "i don't care."

you sighed tiredly with your chin resting in your palm, wondering when this would end. you'd told thomas a couple days ago that you were planning on getting a small tattoo near your wrist. the appointment had already been booked too, and you hadn't planned on telling your dad.

it was thomas who insisted that you tell him, scared you'd get into an insane amount of trouble after finding out you went behind his back and made such a big decision. you knew this probably wouldn't end well which is why you told thomas that he had to tell him, not you—which thomas found odd, because he was your dad, but he didn't question it.

"it's literally just a small one, isn't it, y/n?" thomas looked at you.

"yeah, it's just like, a little flower," you told them quietly.

"see!" he exclaimed. "it's nothing big, nothing too crazy. i mean, c'mon, i have like a thousand tattoos."

"and that's exactly why i dont want her to have any," brendan glared.

"excuse me?" he asked offended, putting a hand over his heart. "what's that supposed to mean?"

you held back a laugh, watching as they continued to bicker. after a couple more jabs at each other's egos, your dad finally had enough.

"i don't want her to have any tattoos, thom. that's it, i don't want to talk about this anymore," brendan tried ending the argument.

"no, we're not done here," thomas continued. "she's going to go do it no matter what you say. so just say yes and we'll be done here, she just wants your approval."

"well, she won't ever have it so that's asking for a lot."

thomas groaned, throwing his head back. "god, i wanna punch you so hard right now."

as much as brendan didn't want to admit it, thomas was actually right. he appreciated that you had the guts to ask him even though he always told you no, but unlike thomas, he knew that you wouldn't get that tattoo anymore, not if he says no after this ordeal.

he hated to admit that he was willing to let you do something so big, especially because it was his best friend that convinced him. thomas does have a ton of tattoos and yes, he turned out fine, not that he thought tattoos would make anyone go astray. he thought it would play a big role in your maturity, however, he thought you were old enough to handle it now.

"okay, fine," he gave in, causing your eyes to spark.

thomas grinned and you quickly stood up from your seat, almost knocing the stool over with your speed.

"hey, slow down. i have some conditions," he spoke slowly.

"anything," thomas agreed, urging him to go on.

"you show me the design before you get it done. if i like it, you're in the clear."

"done, easy," you said immediately, nodding your head.

"and thomas has to go with you to the appointment, okay? you're not going alone, no arguments on this one."

that's it? you thought to yourself. if only he knew.

"done," thomas replied a bit too quickly. brendan raised an eyebrow, causing him to sputter.

"i-i'm always free. you know unlike you with.. with hunter and stuff so, whenever it is," he chuckled nervously. "i can take her."

"thank you, dad!" you exclaimed happily, wrapping brendan into a tight hug.

he let out a breath, running a hand up and down your back as he kissed the top of your head. he didn't want to think about it but he really liked the feeling of having you in his arms, something he wished he'd had more often.

#thomas bordeleau #brendan brisson #thomas bordeleau x reader #thomas bordeleau imagine #thomas bordeleau blurb #dbf!thom #dbf!thomas #dbf!thomas x reader #dad!briss #dad!brendan #daddy issues au

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