#i think i’d die actually

[nomorethoughts]

tango talking about how much he loves create mod and how well received the create series was, jimmy talking about how he wants to play around with create mod more, I THINK THE ANSWER IS RIGHT THERE.

#from jimmy’s latest crazy christmas episode #i think i’d actually die (/pos) if they played create mod together #also to every rancher duo artist who’s drawn a create!jimmy design you’re so correct actually #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #tangotek #rancher duo #team rancher

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[enha-stars]

okay this has nothing to do with enha (i should shut up) but i have to tell SOMEONE. basically, this guy, a friend of a friend, has been hanging out with my friend group a lot more. he’s cool and funny and okay looking ig (lie) except, one of my friends is interested in him but he is not interested in her. as in, he makes it pretty obvious. he avoids being alone w her (by inviting others) and he often dodges questions about relationships. however…. today… after my midterm, we were all in the library and my friend asked him if he wanted to go with her to get food, and he respectfully declined. but then, after a bit, when i got up to get food, he offered to come with me. i’m not reading too much into it but my other friends have claimed that he’s more inclined towards me than my friend because he’s always the first to invite me and he genuinely has conversations with me. the issue is that this friend is very insecure when it comes to men and IF anything between me and this guy happens, she’s going to end my life probably

#so do i die or do i die #I DIDNT NOTICE #i don’t notice these things #u have to slap my face and yell at me for me to believe that u like me #okay so he talks to me… yay? #he’s a man (a pretty man but a man) idc what he’s talking about #like yes he’s cute and it’s very adorable that he has such a strong passion for economics but like #see #it’s like when u don’t like someone but then ur friends bring it up and then u can’t stop thinking about it #i’m actually concerned for my life though #if my friend even believes that he could like me #i’d have to kms #no joke #this has happened ONCE before and we had this huge falling out but i literally told her to stop being an idiot #because why would a man come between us #however ☝🏽 #after further thought #he does pay more attention to me i think #BUT IN A FRIEND WAY #maybe he’s compensating for paying less attention to my friend #i wish she would get the hint #ok don’t mind me this is me being crazy and batshit #enha!me #end me now ig

[starmist]

Seo Yul fr treated a teenage crush like a 20 year long marriage but like,,, if a pretty older girl with a sword treated MY injury then proceeded to indulge in MY lame ass hobby for the rest of the season I also would never get over her

#like… the sheer fumble too #and salt in the wound when she gets engaged to ur bestie right after both rejecting you & telling you she had also like you back then… #in the wise words of Jang uk: I think I’d rather drink actual poison and die #jokes #sorta #alchemy of souls #mudeok #naksu #Seo yul

[mattodore]

this is matthew and he thinks sex is disgusting

#he would never ask someone to smack him in the face as hard as they can he thinks that's SICK !!! #river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #ts4 #the sideburns levitating an inch off his head lmfaoooooo #the result of me being pissed that i didn't have a single alpha hair that looked good on him bc he's fucked up and blond #this is the only hair that looks okay on him but the blond swatches don't come close to his actual hair color #alpha hairs have theeeeee most fucked up hairlines it's impossible finding one that isn't ridiculously low on his forehead #i’d have to move his features and face in general down for most of them 😐 #i want to give theo alpha hair so bad but can’t bc matthias fucks everything up like always 🙄 #anyway. this is me being like hey. i’m still alive sorry i’m currently deeply obsessed with the passenger 2023 dir. by carter smith #my avpd is also being so so silly and i’m having trouble talking to ppl w/o thinking i should die so 💕 #sorry abt the lack of. like. anything. i will be normal again eventually #really i should just force myself outta the isolation spiral by answering messages at least #only i think i’d sound disingenuous and off so. shrugs #but yeah…….. smash btw

[ithinkiveforgottenaboutyou]

get someone who looks at you the way ross looks at matty

#when will it be MY TURN #actually i think i’d die if someone looked at me like that #like full of love and adoration and shit #i’d probably throw up and die #the 1975 #matty healy #ross macdonald #FUCK ME OMG #anyways sorry lol

[heres-to-all-that-is-mine]

Fun theory of mine I’m sure someone smarter’s thought of before—

Juniper is the way he is, evil monologue and all, in part because he approaches his role in Zoraxis as just that! A role. The role of a villain, specifically. And because of his frankly terrible method acting practices, it started to bleed through until it was just part of him as a person.

#purples rambling #I’m sure I could phrase it so much better but. sigh #ieytd2 #I expect you to die #John Juniper #ieytd theory #this isn’t exactly what I think because conveying what exactly I think would require a novel and a device #capable of translating thoughts and emotions into words #but it’ll suffice I guess #but like. yes. a large part is his vanity and insecurities Zor has dragged to the surface directly or indirectly #(but very much intentionally) #a large part is based on his feelings as a person #but I’d wager a bet starting out he was acting a LOT more comfortable and in his element than he actually was #doing all these things #and it escalated from there

[jackobbit]

Fellas we’ve officially hit that point /lh

I called my mama because I was upset over something, after talking it out she encouraged me to ‘go do something fun’ because the situation really couldn’t be helped so I might as well move on and cheer myself up.

Her suggestion? “Go play with Sun and Moon.”

She was referring to my plushies but the fact that she SAID THAT??

I’m officially at a point in the fixation where my MOTHER, who knows nothing about video games or fandom or anything like that, is able to recognize that shoving these two celestial themed robo twinks in my face is going to make me happy. And that’s insane to me.

“Here kiddo, go play with your jester animatronics you’ll feel better.” And she’s RIGHT. GOD.

#shut up jack #and to think she was threatening to throw my plushies in the garbage not too long ago too #now she knows she can’t pull that card anymore lmao #god my mom doesn’t know about any of my interests so that’s how you know it’s bad #the only thing that couldn’t have possibly made it worse is if she mentioned a specific fandom version #could you image?? #‘hey I see you’re upset and I’m sorry to hear that :(( Sun and Moon show ok??’ #‘Solar Flare and Bloodmoon Sun and Moon Show. ok? no don’t cry harder- KillCode and Eclipse Sun and Moon Show’ #I’d like actually die /lh #‘thank you for reminding me about the cowboy au mom i was feeling real low’ #LMFAO

[confusionmeisss]

i am praying to every god & the universe as a whole that ryan got some clear ass good pics of luke behind those drums

#actually i’m just praying anyone got clear ass good pics of luke behind those drums #if not then i think i’d die #5 seconds of summer #5sos #luke hemmings #ashton irwin #ashton 5sos #luke 5sos #michael clifford #calum hood #ryan fleming #the 5sos show #the 5sos show tour #the 5 seconds of summer show #ali’s thoughts & opinions 📼

[cellgatinbo]

i was just catching up some more on ordem but i’m so sleepy rn i decided to stop before i fell asleep at my computer, only to take out my earbuds and hear my dad watching a video in portugese right next to me

it took me a second to realize that i couldn’t understand the words not bc i was tired out of my mind but bc it was in literally a different language, then the jolt of ‘why the fuck is my dad watching a video in portugese’ fully jolted me back awake

#fully felt like i just forgot the entirety of the english language for a second there #technically i think my dad does actually know portugese but he learned it briefly before i was even born #and never ever talks about it bc it never comes up around here #but i have thought about pulling up some vid and just going ‘hey how much of this can u make out’ #though i think i’d rather die on the spot than willingly share any of my interests with my parents so .

[lilybug-02]

LILY!!!

My doctor says I have to be gluten free D:

AND YOUR BREAD!!! WHATS GONNA HAPPEN TO US?!?!??!!??

DON’T WORRY!! I commune with the gluten-free peoples! We are one.

Plus there’s gluten-free bread >:)

#your good! cauliflower pizzas actually quite nice #bread #ask stuff #bread is my life #I think my greatest fear right now is just having a gluten intolerance when I get older. I think I’d die #bread responds #bread speaks

[hawkp]

Shows that could work as reboots as long as the right creative team was involved:

Farscape

The A-Team

Shows that would never work as reboots:

M*A*S*H

#Farscape ONLY if the Jim Henson company was involved again #and I think it would do quite well with a woman leading as a Chriton-like character #maybe even having the man himself show up as a season one cliffhanger #and the A-Team only if they cast some unknowns #I actually think the hardest to cast would be Hannibal #and I don’t think that Liam Neeson got anywhere close #B.A. and Murdock were close #but Bradley Cooper played himself let’s be fr #I might be an actress and would actually sell my soul to be in a MASH reboot #but for the love of god #Hollywood execs don’t EVER touch it #I’d rather die than ever see it rebooted #career suicide for anyone involved #Farscape #the a team #m*a*s*h

[infestedguest]

I hate how people automatically assume that all people with adhd are low need or that we can mask.

I also hate how so many symptoms that autism and adhd share are seen as autism exclusive.

I’m not just talking about neurotypicals doing this, I see these problems all the time even in neurodiverse communities.

I hate feeling like I’m intruding into autistic spaces when I participate in conversations about symptoms I’ve experienced for my entire life. I hate that I spent years absolutely terrified that something was deeply wrong with me because my body would move itself on its own without my input in sometimes violent ways whenever my mind was particularly active, only to be told by the neurologist I begged my mother to take me to for it that I was just stimming, something I’d known about for years but had always been told was an autism exclusive symptom.

#kind of a vent #this wasn’t ‘neurotypical ppl can stim too!’ stimming I broke two beds doing it and almost once broke my nose #I still stim now (I think I’d die if I couldn’t) but now I just try not do it while on a bed #because for some reason I stim entirely differently while standing up #the ‘assuming it’s autism exclusive” thing also applies to sensory issues #I did not have to wear noice cancelling headphones for most of the school day throughout most of elementary school for you to imply that #mine were basically the type ppl wear at shooting ranges except they were hot pink they were peak fashion #people think there’s always such a hard line between adhd and autism #which I find kind of ridiculous as someone who is either audhd or just adhd entirely depending on which doctor you ask #adhd #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #actually adhd #autism #anna talking about stuff #stimming #seriously #vent

[what-the-fuck-khr]

hot take most writers on AO3 who write reader inserts with Tengen omit the wives bc they’re actually too scared and/or prejudiced against polyamory and they don’t want to admit it or come to terms with it. most fics that omit his wives talk a big game about consent and how they don’t like the idea of him “cheating” or introducing a new wife (cowards, my god just admit you’re too lazy to write a scene where you get introduced lmfao) or all this other bullshit and it’s all to thinly veil their feelings about polyamory as a whole. but I see through it. I see through that veil and I know how y’all truly feel and what y’all truly think. you can lie to yourself in your little authors note and tags as much as you want but I see through it. maybe readers will coddle you but I know. I know.

#I mean this truly actually. I know why y’all omit their wives actually #going on about consent and all this shit WRONG you’re too scared of polyamory #polyamory is all about consent and trust dipshit so your point is moot lmfao!!! sorry!!! #confront your prejudices or die I’m serious #ooc #kny #I just. think about it when I see fics like that. what cowards #he has three wives! you can’t change that! he can have four if you’re not a coward! #just admit you dislike polyamory and only want him to have one wife #or admit you’re a lazy ass writer and don’t wanna write five people in one scene! pussy! #if you just admit you were lazy I’d have more respect for you tbh lmfao #uzui tengen #anyways finally watching season. 3? is it 3? #and I’m thinking about him

[dunkinbublin]

can’t wait til i dump this job and go back to thinking about lil guys all day

#just one week man #one week left #then im free #i should look into commission work but i don’t think people on tumblr actually buy those #and I’d rather die than set up twitter

[shaykai]

What if. Hear me out. It’s not likely. But what if all the scrying eyes in Moonrise belong to Gortash, including the one sent with Balthazar

#look listen I’m cooking #like man is a terrible ally you get into act 3 (spoilers btw) #and immediately have to go deal with the newspapers bad mouthing you because he told them to #and at his coronation he immediately steps between you and your companions (as a Durge. Tav doesn’t have to deal with him outting them) #and he doesn’t tell you about a bunch of shit like the iron throne and the fire works- and while they aren’t necessary I still want to hear #about them >:( #but. and hear me out. it’s heavily implied that the scrying eyes (at least in act 1. cannot speak for act 2) are Gortash’s #man found out his dead partner is alive actually and just conviently kept that to himself (assuming that Durge got caught by an eye) #(also side note this all also goes for a Tav just without the background friendship stuff) #but listen- him keeping the knowledge that durge is alive to himself to keep Orin and Ketheric off of them because they’re weak rn #and then conviently the scrying eye that went with Ketherics right hand man- who is on a mission to secure his immortality btw- just so #happens to die in the Shadowfell #and listen. that could’ve happened legitimately #but also I like to think he let it happen because he is- in a round about kind of a way- looking out for Durge #or trying to help a Tav because he recognizes Ketheric and Orin for the sinking ship that they are #(so were Durge and Ketheric to be clear Orin just sped up the self destruction by a lot) #anyways could be a stretch- (though I’d like to think it does that fun thing where it helps him and the protag so it never really gets #clarified as being straight up helpful for them #I just want him to be a half decent ally to Durge lololol #this was a random thought I had and my brain immediately decided it liked it #bg3 spoilers #Enver Gortash