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hannahxhoney · 9 months

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we don't talk anymore - e. munson

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eddie munson x female!reader

summary: after years of not talking, you see eddie at a party and things get heated. i suck at writing these lol

warnings: kinda angsty, a little bit of asshole!eddie, cursing, use of y/n, and arguements

fic is kind of inspired by the song “we don’t talk anymore” by selena gomez and charlie puth

also this was written on mobile so sorry if the formatting is off! thank you for reading!!!

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You and Eddie have always been friends. Ever since you were kids, you and him were inseparable. Long days at the trailer park during the summer, being outside and playing make believe with him. Cold nights in the winter where you would make hot cocoa and watch Christmas movies on your family's beat up couch together. Everyday you spent with him, was always your favorite. Him being about two years older than you meant that all the other kids at school your age would leave you alone, since you were always hanging out with the older kids like Eddie. But you wouldn't have it any other way. Eddie was fun, kind, and so brave that sometimes you felt that his courage would get him in trouble one day. He was your best friend and you were his. There wasn't a day that went by when you wouldn't see Eddie and his goofy smile.

Until now.

It was the summer before you started high school and Eddie was already going to be a Junior. You were excited to go into such an intimidating place already knowing someone. You knew Eddie would help you with whatever you needed, and would even let you sit with him and his friends during lunch. But as the summer went by in a blur, so did that excitement. You didn't see much of Eddie during that summer. He always said he was busy hanging out with his friends or planning his next campaign. You understood, but you still felt disappointed that you didn't get to hang out much during those two months. Before you knew it, it was already August and school was starting in three days. You were still excited that you wouldn't be completely alone going into it, but it all felt weird because you haven't really talked to nor seen Eddie in two weeks. He was never at his trailer when you went to see if he was free and he was ignoring your calls. On the off chance that you did see him, he was still regular Eddie. He was kind and always cracking jokes with you, but your conversations with him were always a quick "hi" and "bye" before he left. Because he always had something to do these days, other than hanging out with you. You started to think that maybe you did something wrong, or said something to upset him.

It was the Friday night before school started, and you were re-reading The Lord of the Rings for the third time, until you heard your mom calling and saying there was someone on the phone for you.

When you got to the phone you were a bit confused, because who would be wanting to talk to you this late at night? Until you heard his voice.

"Hey y/n."

You were surprised to hear from him right now, but happy that he called.

"Hey Eds! How are you?"

There was a beat of silence before he replied.

"I'm fine, but I wanted to talk to you about something."

You were confused what he wanted to say, since you haven't done much talking to him recently.

"Ok, what did you want to talk about Eddie?"

"I just wanted to tell you that I think it's best if we don't hang out anymore."

"Wait what-"

"I don't want to be friends with you anymore, y/n."

It felt like you got hit by a two ton semi truck in the heart when he said those words.

"What do you mean? What's wrong Eddie?"

"I mean that I don't want to be associated with some stupid freshman that follows me around like a lost puppy all the damn time. It's annoying y/n. You always want to hang out with me, but I thought you would get a clue by now since I've been ignoring you. We aren't kids anymore y/n. Yeah we were best friends at one point, but I don't want to be friends with you anymore."

"Eddie, I don't understand. What happened? Did I do something wrong? I-I don't know why you're changing all of a sudden?"

"Look y/n, please just leave me alone and stop trying to call me. I don't want to talk to you anymore."

"Eddie please I-"

"Goodbye y/n".

He hung up. He broke your heart and just hung up the phone, like it was nothing. I guess it was nothing, to him at least. You spent the weekend crying and trying to prepare yourself to see him on Monday morning. You always loved seeing him, but now every time you see his face you're reminded of the time you lost your bestfriend.

It was now your senior year, and Eddie's second. Freshman year felt like hell for you. Having to see his face everyday felt like pure torture, but by winter break you were starting to feel better about it each day. And as you entered your sophomore year, you had made some friends and joined the photography club at Hawkins Highschool. But now, sometimes it feels like you never knew him. He got taller, grew out his hair, and started growing into his rock star look. If you were any other girl, you would have a huge crush on him. But you're not, you know who he actually is. And sometimes you feel stupid that you ever fell for his act and actually liked him. But you grew up too. Puberty hit you hard the summer after freshman year, and you grew into yourself. You developed your own style, learned how to do your hair and the occasional makeup, and developed a wall of confidence that no one can break through. Not even him. You ended up becoming really good friends with Jonathan Byers through your shared love of photography. And when he started dating Nancy Wheeler, you guys got closer too. You would hang out them during and after school, and sometimes even Steve Harrington would join you guys. Since Nancy's little brother is in Hellfire club, you occasionally cross paths with Eddie. He always seems to ignore you, but every once in a while you catch him staring at you. You don’t understand why though, it was his decision to cut things off. Every now and then when it’s late you think of showing up at his door, to really ask him after all this time if he still feels good about that decision but you know that would be wrong. Of course he feels good about it, especially when he has his hands all over a girl at a random party.

Just like right now.

One of the popular jocks at the school - probably Jason Carver - is hosting the usual friday night party tonight and you, Jonathan, Nancy, and Steve all decided to go. Steve already found his girl to take home tonight, a pretty blonde girl who is putting it on pretty heavily by laughing at the jokes Steve is telling that you know aren’t funny. Nancy and Jonathan are outside talking about who knows what, but they always seem to be having fun with each other know matter what they’re doing. That’s why you’re alone in the corner of the room sipping on a mixed drink that is slowly making you feel that warm feeling through your veins. That is also why you catch Eddie’s eyes as he dances with some girl. She’s pretty, skinny, and her hair is dyed a dark blue color. A girl you would typically think Eddie would be attracted too. So why is he still staring at you, when his hands are on her? You don’t care enough to find out, so you walk away looking for something much better to do. To your surprise, you actually end up finding it. So now you’re the one dancing with a random guy. He’s cute, at least cute enough to distract you from whatever was happening between you and Eddie. Plus with the alcohol fairly well into your system by now, you’re even thinking of asking him if he wants to go upstairs. As you’re about to ask said question, you’re suddenly pulled away by the arm by a strong hand.

“What the fuck-“

It wasn’t till you got a look at the long curls of the person dragging you out of the house then you really lost it.

“Munson what the fuck do you think you’re doing?”

Once you were outside, you pulled your arm away and faced the person that all your anger is directed at right now.

“What am I doing? What the fuck do you think you’re doing?”

“Dancing? You’re mad at me for dancing at a party!?”

“No! I’m mad that you’re throwing yourself at some guy that asked me if I knew anyone that had coke at the party!”

Well you didn’t know that. But that doesn’t excuse what he’s doing right now.

“That isn’t any of your damn business anymore, Eddie! Or did you forget the fact that you haven’t spoken to me for years?”

He got quiet after that. You finally looked at him. Really looked at his face and how much he’s changed over the years. You never allowed yourself to really do this before, afraid that it would open up the wounds that took you so long to heal. Suddenly you were a kid again. Waiting on him to say something. You didn’t know how to describe the way he made you feel at the time. But now you do. He was like a drug. After every time you saw him, you wanted more. But then you overdosed.

“Y/n I-

“I don’t want to hear it, Eddie. You were the one who cut things off. You were the one who left me hanging. You don’t get to care about me or stop me from dancing or doing anything with anyone.”

“I just wanted to stop you from doing something you’ll regret. I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“I don’t understand why you even care, Eddie. We’re not friends, and we haven’t been for years. It’s your fault. You’re the reason why we don’t talk anymore.”

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authors note: i know the ending is kind of bad but I just wanted to write something. If you read it all, thank you so much!!! I appreciate you all <3

#eddie munson #eddie munson fic #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson angst #eddie munson x fem!reader #angst #beginner writer #stranger things

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milkycottoncandy · 1 year

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Give Yourself To Me And More

Attuma of Talokan x Female!Reader

Warnings: SMUT, 18+ content, obsessive behavior, somewhat dark!Attuma, rough (consensual) sex, choking, tit slapping, breeding kink, dirty talk

Minors Do Not Interact!!!

Summary: Attuma liked to think he was a patient man. Being Talokan's commanding general has taught him how to stay composed in stressful situations, and for the most part he knows patience is a virtue. However, you test his limits everyday with your lingering touches, bright smile, and kind words that make it hard for him to hold back, to leave you untouched and still pure. But like all the strongest of men, eventually they must fall.

Word Count: 2,895

Skip to the three *** if all you want to read is the smut (I'm not judging at all lol).

Translations:

Ma', in querida- No, my darling

In yakunaj- my darling

Author's Note: Hello my Attuma sluts!! Decided to give you guys this and I hope y'all enjoy it. This is my first time writing smut so please, be nice! I will only accept constructive criticism and no hate will be tolerated. Besides that, please enjoy!

Do not steal, copy, plagiarize, or repost my works. Reblog's are fine.

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It felt like Chaac himself was testing him.

He was solely focused on making the surface world and all who inhabited it, who forced his people into the dark, cold, unforgiving depths of the ocean, pay for their crimes, all while being confronted by the dangers that were at every corner. Dangers like you.

To him, you were a radiant goddess, and this world was unworthy of your existence. You were always beautiful from the beginning, and it seemed like each time you both interacted with each other, his feelings became even stronger. What made it worse is you always focused your attention on him. You would bring him homemade lunches, offer to massage the aches in his body after he was done training, be the first to welcome him back after a successful mission, and so much more. It was a miracle he hadn't died from a heart attack with the way it always swelled when he was near you.

You were the light in his life, and it didn't help that you started to appear in his dreams and late-night fantasies, making him feel shameful the morning after. In his mind, he had taken you many times, taking pleasure from you like a lover. You were begging him, touching him, letting him touch you, making him feel less lonely when you weren't near him. You were the reason to keep Talokan safe. You were something worth fighting for. In his mind, you were his, and he was yours.

But reality would reel him back in, like a fish attached to a hook, and he would remember you were simply being the kind person you always were. You laughed and smiled with everyone, you were amazing with children, and you never hesitated to offer help when asked. It's like you were taunting him with your gentle affections, always holding his hand and pulling him to somewhere more private so you both could indulge yourselves in each other's lives. He loved when you would hug him, you felt so soft in his arms, and he would kill a thousand men if that meant never having to let you go. He adored you. If you told him to jump, he'd say how high.

You were enchanting.

You were mesmerizing.

You were a danger to his sanity and beyond distracting.

Attuma wondered how long this would go on. How long he would pine for you, yearn for your attention, for you to say his name like you loved him, pretend like the thought of someone else sweeping you off your feet wasn't possible. That was his worst fear, waiting too long and someone taking you from him. He would kill that person with no hesitation. Would there ever be an end to this madness? Was he doomed for eternity to feel this way about you? Would he be forced to act like you weren't the first thing on his mind when he woke up and the last thing when sleep would finally overtake him?

One night, he decided it was enough. You pushed him to the limit, and he was going to be honest with you about his feelings. On the way to your house, his mind was a sea of questions and doubts.

What if she doesn't feel the same way?

What if I ruin what we have?

What if she thinks I'm unworthy?

What will I do without her? Without my light?

By the time he got to your front door, he had thought of everything that could go wrong. For a moment, he wanted to turn back. He didn't want to lose you. He didn't want things to change in a way that would make you feel uncomfortable around him. Despite his uncertainty, he gently knocked on your door and waited.

You swiftly opened the door, and it was like all his thoughts drifted away into nothingness. You were wearing a blue silk nightgown that outlined your body perfectly, and Attuma had to control himself from staring at your cleavage. Your eyes brightened, and that smile that made him feel weak slowly adorned your face.

"Attuma!" you squealed in excitement and hugged him, digging your face into his neck. You smelled amazing, like vanilla with a hint of cinnamon.

He hugged you back and, for a moment, felt like maybe the world wasn't so bad since you were in it. He felt you pull back, and he looked to see you admiring him. You both stilled, and, in a way, were speaking to each other with your eyes. You both had been friends for so long that verbal communication wasn't always necessary.

"Please, come in" you slide your hands down his arms to his, gently pulling him into your house. He followed willingly, and once he was fully inside, you closed the door behind him.

Attuma loved your house. The beautiful decorations, the smell, the atmosphere. Everything.

Your light touch to his back shook him out of his thoughts, and you led him to the familiar couch you both have sat on more times than he could count. You relaxed into the cushions while facing him with a smile, which he returned.

"What brings you here, my warrior?" you asked, taking his hand and delicately tracing his palm while you waited for his answer. Namora and K'uk'ulkan were right. You were going to be the death of him.

Attuma felt like he had fallen into ice water. He remembered the reason why he was here, to tell you how he felt. At this rare moment, the fearless general was scared. A part of him wanted to lie, come up with an excuse that he wanted to simply talk with you, and that was all. But you didn't deserve that. No, you deserved everything and so much more. He quietly swallowed, and he braced himself for all the possible scenarios that could happen.

"Y/N, I have to tell you something," he stated, taking your hands in his and scooting closer toward you on the couch.

He never took his eyes off yours, and you felt your body tingling under his gaze. He could sense your nervousness and continued with his confession.

"I have strong feelings for you, Y/N. Feelings stronger than love. Feelings I can't hide from you anymore."

The room was silent. You looked at him with a mix of shock and surprise. His face was serious and unchanging. Attuma didn't like this, and the doubts started to rear their ugly heads back into his mind.

You idiot, you really thought she would feel the same? Now she's gonna hate you forever, and there's nothing you can do about it.

Attuma wanted to leave. Leave and never come back. He knew this was a bad idea. He shouldn't have let his selfishness get the better of him. And now he was going to lose you forever. He was going to lose you, and it would be no one's fault but his. Why would he ever thi-

"I feel the same," you whispered. He thought he was dreaming. He had to be. He was going to wake up in his empty bed and realize none of this was real.

Oh, but it was real. Here you were, looking at him with nothing but love and understanding. You smiled, not in a mocking way, but in a genuine way. You had felt strongly about Attuma since the day you laid your eyes on him. You dropped so many hints that, to you, went unnoticed. The soft touches, the persisting looks, the sincere compliments, and so much more. In your mind, he was yours, and you were his. Your body felt like it was on fire, excitement slowly bubbling inside you.

Attuma didn't know what to say. The girl of his dreams admitted that she felt the same about him. He was like a deer in headlights, still and unmoving.

Say something, you fool.

"…You do?" he breathed, his eyes slowly softened.

Chaac, you're hopeless.

"I do," you answered, your tone was nothing but sincere.

The sight was laughable, two love-stricken fools gazing into each other's eyes like lovesick puppies. But you and Attuma didn't care. He loved you, and you loved him, and that's all that mattered.

Attuma paused. He didn't think this would happen. He knew every battle strategy, where and when to strike the enemy, how to keep them in a position where they couldn't win, but being with you, it's like he forgot everything. But he did know one thing. He wanted you.

He wanted you bad.

"May I kiss you, Y/N?" he pleaded desperately. Of course, he was a gentleman, and if you said no, he would be perfectly fine with that. For you, he would wait as long as you believed he needed to.

"Yes," you replied, ecstatic and smiling so hard your mouth started to hurt.

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He gently grabbed your face, and your lips collided with his, moving in perfect sync like waves against the shore. It started off innocent but gradually became more animalistic and primal, and soon you were straddling his waist while his large hands cupped your ass. You decided to tease him by grinding on his manhood, causing a low groan to emit from his throat that made your pussy shiver. He teased you back by pulling your hair, revealing your neck, and started to litter the area with kisses and love bites, going lower and lower. You uncontrollably moaned, unaware of his hands drifting up toward the straps of your nightgown. He suddenly yanked down both the straps and massaged your breasts, uttering a groan while massaging the soft skin in his hands.

"So beautiful for me," he praised, his large hand wrapping around your throat, making you whimper.

You moaned like a whore. A dirty, filthy whore. And Attuma wanted all of it. He wanted all of you.

"Attuma," you whispered, eyelids growing heavy as you struggled to stay conscious. It felt like he was squeezing the life out of you, and you felt your vision start to cloud until he roughly pulled you towards him.

"Ma', querida, you're not getting out of this that easily," he slapped your breast, making you scream. He then kissed your hot skin as an apology.

Suddenly, you felt yourself being lifted by the giant brute and quickly wrapped your arms around his neck and your legs, somewhat around his large waist. He swiftly made his way towards your bedroom, eyes never leaving yours. When he reached your room, he gently laid you on your bed, and you shivered, questioning what his next move would be. Silently, he slid your nightgown off your body, leaving you in your blue panties that were soaked with your arousal. For some reason, you felt self-conscious, and your hands were attempting to shield your body from his gaze.

"Don't you dare," he warned, and you listened without hesitation, your hands retreating back to your sides.

Attuma then made his way on top of you, touching and kissing every part of your body. He eventually made his way to your underwear, and he bit down on the material, slowly pulling them off and revealing your wetness. You gasped at the sight. You couldn't believe this was happening. Without warning, he raised your legs and rested them upon his shoulders, his mouth only inches away from your pussy.

Just as you were about to beg him, you shrieked as he licked your cunt. Your eyes widened, and you screamed as Attuma clamped his mouth around your clit and sucked relentlessly, rolling the bud with his tongue and making your legs shake. You were instantly wet, juices gushing out of you. Lewd noises filled the room as he devoured you, mixed with your vulgar profanities while you desperately grinded on his tongue.

You trembled under him, reduced to nothing but a panting mess as you could do nothing but take it. You held onto the bed sheets for dear life and sobbed as he gave you the best orgasm you've ever had.

Attuma drank every drop of your wetness, feeling your pussy shake against his lips. He could've stayed between your legs forever, but he had bigger plans to get to.

Begrudgingly, he released your clit from his mouth and laid your legs down. He slowly moved back to the edge of the bed and stood tall, admiring his work. He wiped his mouth and started to undress, and you caught a glimpse of his battle scars covering his body. He truly was magnificent.

Your eyes moved further down to his cock. It was hard and girthy, and you noticed precum oozing out of the tip. You swallowed. This was going to be a night to remember. He climbed back onto the bed and hovered over you, rubbing his dick against your pussy. Nothing could brace you for what was about to happen next.

You screamed as he slammed himself inside you, stretching you open and filling you up. You looked to see your belly bulging with the shape of his cock, it was completely obscene.

Attuma groaned; you were so deliciously tight around him, your soft walls pulling him in as he rutted up against you. He grabbed your hips with a bruising force and pulled you impossibly closer, your tits flushed against his chest. He fit inside you so perfectly, and you took him so well, it made him wonder why he had waited. He should have done this a long time ago.

He set a brutal pace as he repeatedly pounded into you, causing the bed to shake and your eyes to roll back. He couldn't take his eyes off the way your pussy engulfed his dick with each thrust. You looked so dumb and pretty, just like in his fantasies he imagined and touched himself to in the late hours of the night. Your moans were sweeter than any siren song, and Attuma wanted to hear you sing for him more.

"You're so wet," he grunted, pulling out and slamming back in.

"You're a little slut, aren't you? This is what you wanted all along, isn't that right?" You shook your head and cried, it was too much, and you screamed as his dick continued smacking against your womb.

"A-Attuma, please slow down. You're going to break me!" You wailed, trying to push him away.

"I. Don't. Care", he snarled, pounding hard into you after every word. You felt a hand on your throat, and your pussy squeezed him even more.

"Naughty little girl," he teased as he kissed and sucked on your neck. "Wanting my cock like the dirty slut you are. I'm gonna make sure you're pregnant with our babies. That's what you want, isn't it?"

"No! N-No, please!" You begged. That wasn't true. You marveled at the thought of having his children. You felt so horny, feeling his dick pounding into you. Attuma leaned forward and held you in a tight embrace, forcing you to look at him as you slowly surrendered to your desires.

"You're mine," he growled. "Only mine. Say it!"

"I'm yours!" you shouted. You didn't care if everyone in Talokan heard you. You only cared about who was on top of you, who was worshiping you, who was inside you. You were so painfully close to another orgasm, and Attuma knew it.

"Cum for me, in yakunaj," he pleaded, resting his forehead against yours. You could barely speak, barely form a coherent thought as that familiar ache started to build up in your core. You were getting closer, and you loved it, the feeling of coming undone in front of him.

Attuma bit into your shoulder and you threw your head back and came. Your pussy squirted around his cock, and you almost passed out from the pleasure. Your back arched as he came inside you, filling you up with his warm seed. You moaned his name as your body twitched against him, trying to regain some sense of normality. That was the best sex you've ever had in your life.

For a while, you both stayed like that, gasping for air while he remained deep in your warmness. Sadly, he pulled out, and you whimpered at the empty feeling. His cum felt dangerously good inside you, and you shivered, basking in the fact that he claimed you, ruining you for anyone else. You looked up to see your lover, who was also coming down from his high.

Attuma looked beautifully wrecked, his hair a mess and sweat glistening on his body. You didn't look too bad either, but you weren't complaining. You pulled him down for a kiss which he gladly reciprocated. You were both tired but happy.

"Attuma," you sighed exasperatedly, "that was amazing," you praised. He smiled and caressed your cheek with his hand. You giggled and kissed his palm, running your thumb over where your lips once were. He returned the action and held your hand to his heart. You felt your body heat up at the gesture. You sat up and started peppering his face with kisses, and he did the same to you.

"I love you, Y/N."

"I love you more, my warrior."

And at that moment, Attuma's world shined even brighter now that you were his.

End.

Thank you so much for reading!💙

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uchihaharlot · 3 months

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I didn't mean to break their hearts, I was just curious, srry!😭😭 (but Itachi's one was kinda funny-)

But anyway, now I'm wondering about how they would react if they found out that you can draw really cool and beautiful.

(I'm an artist, so😎)

Nonny 🥹🥹

That put me in an really good mood; lol. That was way too fun to write; maybe I can one day write a super angsty break up (but I love them too much!!!).

I love all artists 😭😭😭 Painters, writers — digital or paper. Anything that expresses the inner workings of someone’s mind and the fact that they can manifest it to reality is so so so beautiful. I hope I’ve secretly seen your art, I’d probably simp over it. Always simp over art. 😂😂🥹🥹

N/SFW; very cute Uchiha men adoring your artwork! 🥹🥹🥹 (ooc Madara??); Simpy Obito; …Scandalous Shisui; abnormally observant Itachi 😂 suggestive themes rolled out the further I got. For some reason, I just had to. (P.s. I should not be allowed to write when tired??? Half of this was done while my eyes rolled shut in bed).

Madara:

It’s not everyday that Madara is blown like a leaf in the wind. When you mentioned being a patron of the arts, he thought maybe the art of battle?? Didn’t expect your weapon to be a paint brush with some acrylic paint. Thought it was some weird jutsu infused shit.

And then you just had to go above and beyond and do a portrait of him for his birthday!!!!! It’s hung on the living room center wall so that it’s the first thing anyone sees! Honestly, this man is a brute, but your art envokes his softer side! A side that he hasn’t been in touch with for…well, a long time.

Makes sure that everyone and I mean, everyone, is aware of your talent! Still, he tries to find the side hussle in it, soliciting customers for you and all. 😭😭 Will trash talk the chalk art children make on the sidewalk, which ‘…that’s not nice, they’re children..’ you say. He shrugs, nobody is as good as you.

Obito:

Finds out and tries to ‘secretly’ commission you lmao. Makes it totally obvious too, his handwriting is shit and eveeeerrryyyyone knows who Tobi really is…. Plus how can you even begin without discussing what he wants done!! Duh, Obito! Unfortunately for him, you are more interested in drawing matters of the flesh. He’ll only show his chest, nothing more.

‘That’s fine.’ You shrug, and get to work. Obito, however, does not have the resolve to sit still! It’s frustrating to no end, but alas, after what seems an eternity— its done. Sort of. Still much to add, but the basics are there and you’ll work better when he’s not asking how does it look every twenty minutes.

Eventually you do finish this beautiful piece of him, and Obito cries. You made his scars tolerable and beautiful with your mind’s creativity, he feels less self conscious about them, only a little.

Shisui:

Is the least normal about it when he discovered your sketchbook — more like snatched and played keep away. Had to fight him for it, literally. Will ask you to paint/draw him naked…many times lol and you respectfully say no... Not that he likes people to see him naked (ok maybe a little?) but he secretly hopes it might happen one day. It would be a private thing for the two of you, cause he wants that ass.

And when you do cave to his whim, just to satiate him. He’s nervous lmao. Had this oh so macho man idea of rocking a hard on but Shisui simply maintains his usual semi. It’s nice though, you make sure it’s extremely detailed..as he asked for.

But, ‘(y/n)… this is chibbi!!!’ Lol, jokes on Shisui!! He didn’t say how to draw his pp.

Itachi:

Is the most normal about it. Though he still will praise you every time you finish a piece and show him, he is still massively impressed. How does your wrist not get tired? …maybe this is why your hand jobs are so good. 😈 Just watching you try a new technique (pointillism, which is my favorite style) makes his wrist hurt. Enjoys when you ask him for ideas! He has lots of them! Mostly…obscure and derelict landscapes though.

Would not be opposed to having his portrait done, but it’s really not his style. He is disciplined enough to sit still but doesn’t see the value in it. Not until the final product is revealed, does he truly understand how important this piece was. You’ve captured his personality in a new light.

#madara headcanons #obito headcanons #shisui headcanons #itachi headcanons #madara x reader #obito x reader #shisui x reader #itachi x reader #madara uchiha #obito uchiha #shisui uchiha #itachi uchiha #uchiha clan #uchiha family #uchiha headcanons

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xshybutdeadlyx · 2 months

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Questions for the demiromantic and demisexuals out there

Ok, so I've recently found this term thanks to an aroace character from a show I watched. I knew of the sexuality but I didn't really know the specifics because I always thought I was bi but now looking into it I didn't know how aroace was like a literal umbrella and there was so much more to it then meets the eye. Which I'm 30 I feel like I should know more than what I do. But with doing research into it trying to understand it better, I learned about all the terms, and I learned about demiromantic and demisexual and it really resonated with me. But I wanted to ask for advice, I guess? Like I like romance I love reading it seeing art and what have you but when it comes to romance for myself I'm not a big fan? And maybe it's because I literally have to unlearn so much romance equals a, b, and c when that's not really true. I literally been in only one relationship in my life and it consisted of hand holding small kisses (no tongue, honestly I have an ick with spit and the only reason I "wanted" to do deeper kisses with the boyfriend I had at the time was because I felt like it was a requirement) but I honestly didn't feel attraction towards him until after getting to know him and being friends with him for months well into almost a year. And he's the only one I ever felt that way for I hardly ever had crushes or when I did I almost kinda forced myself into having them if that makes sense? It was "natural," and every kid was supposed to have crushes. Nothing ever came from the "crushes" though.

Now, like I said, I'm well into my 30s, and the relationship I just mentioned was the only relationship romantic wise I've ever had. I have had strong feelings for two of the friends I have but one friend is straight as they come and the other is married lol the one that is married though we have a strong bond that I wouldn't trade anything for. She tickles my hand, and she lets me cuddle her all the time, and we just spend nights just playing games together, just like when we were in high school. I love her so damn much, and I'll cherish what we have even when we are both dead and gone. She is my forever person.

Sorry, I went into a mini rant about my platonic love, but she's the best, and when I start talking about her, I have to gush lol, but anyways back to my sexuality crisis

So anyways, when there is even a chance of someone having an interest in me, I honestly kind of freak out. Or like if someone tries to set me up with someone, red neon flashing warning signs pop up for me. I don't know that person, and honestly, I get put off by big romantic gestures. Like, I appreciate it, but I don't think it's necessary? Can we just go get McDonald's, sit in the parking lot, and just shoot the shit? Play some games? We can watch movies or shows too.

I've also been on the dating websites and such as well, and I'm just always immediately put off. "Hello beautiful," ugh. "Insert pickup line here." please God why. "Unsolicited romantic or sexual advances right after a day of talking." Haha, no. There was literally one guy I thought was cool and we kinda flirted but it was really just talking everyday about the games we were playing I feel like if given time a connection could of been built but he ended up finding someone else immediately. Which honestly was fine I was kinda bummed but like if he wanted romance immediately, I wasn't gonna be giving that to him. I wanted to still be friends, but apparently, we had "too much history," so he ended up blocking me. lol oh well.

I've also literally only have had two "crushes" in like in a 5 year time span (only because this is what I can remember lol) one of em was so goofy and seemed so fun but then it seems like they turned out to be very self absorbed instantly done the other had baby mama drama wasn't into that. Honestly, those things seem to be things that could be worked through? Maybe? But once I just see something off-putting, it's all I see, which seems more like a personal thing because of past traumas.

As of now I'm honestly content with no romantic relationship but I feel like I do want one but I don't want one with just anyone and it just doesn't seem like many people out there are willing to wait or willing to be friends first and want to hop into relationships immediately when I very much don't. It takes me a while to be comfortable with people, and I want to get to know them as a person.

For a long time I felt like I just wasn't doing things right or that I had to actually change something that I was doing. I thought I was wrong or that I should just force myself into the uncomfortable situation of being someone's girlfriend immediately but then if it turns out I just don't have those romantic feelings then there the whole process of hurting them which is just anxiety inducting.

Also, with all that I'm saying, it does go into the demisexual portion, too. I've still never been with someone sexually because even in the one relationship I have had, I haven't met someone I've trusted to give myself to. The thought of one night stands or anything of the like just makes me wanna crawl into myself. I don't mind anything sexual but I want to be with someone sexually that I trust and care about with my whole being, not some dude Craig or some chick Wendy from Tinder. I'm content with that, but a lot of the times, I'm almost made to feel bad because I haven't done anything sexual. But boy, can I read all the smut on Ao3. Like it all in theory, but dunno about in practice lol I just don't have much of a drive in general, but I don't know if that's just because I've never been with anyone before? I keep getting told, "As soon as you're with someone, your sex drive changes," and like, does that shit really happen? Lol

All in all, I really feel connected to the terms demiromantic and demisexual. Even when I just said I'm bi, it just never felt right, but for once, I feel like I finally found something that I felt connected to and finally found me. But I guess I also wanna feel like I'm right in assuming so? I dunno I feel like it'd be disrespectful in using a label that isn't really you? Which doesn't sound right because everyone has the right to find themselves, and sometimes people go through a list until they finally find themselves, which is what's happening to me right now. But my feelings also just get jumbled up and I have a hard time distinguishing what's been conditioned in me, like how you date, you get into a relationship, ya do couple things, then you get married ect. When all I wanna do is get to know you, really know you, then actually date but even then I feel like a lot of my stuff is more on the platonic end? Like, I like cuddling and kissing, and I do like romance but on a more tame level? I kick my feet when reading "he bought her all these extravagant gifts then he swept her off her feet and dipped her into a kiss" so cute but like if I was actually in that situation like bro put me down for real and I'm so awkward when given gifts lol

I dunno I'd just would really like to discuss this with others who have found themselves because I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this. I've talked to my friends and they of course support me and love me but I feel like they don't really get it? And my family just chalks it up to " Ya just don't have a lot of experience it'll all change when ya get out there and mingle with people"

Thanks in advance for reading all this if ya made it this far I know it's a lot of word vomit as I like to call it but I don't have very organized thoughts and I just kinda write what I'm thinking in the moment lol

#aroace #demisexual #demiromantic

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cosmicstarlatte · 3 months

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could you make the virginity obey me prompt with mc being the virgin one? it justs feeds into my corruption kink— (and honestly they would be so so careful and have so much after care with them after, the thought of it just warms my heart)

nsfw 18+ // minors dni

[OG] // ah this has been sitting a while, I managed to do Lucifers and Beels. The 3 others are half finished but I don't think I'll ever complete them so I'm just gonna post what I have lol.

tags: incomplete, nsfw 18+, virgin gn mc, obey me, luci, mam, levi, beel, dia

Lucifer: "Shh...you're doing so well."

When you admitted to him in hopes he'd take your virginity, he was more than willing. It's not everyday a human virgin would like to sleep with a demon. Besides that fact, he felt honored you would want to him to be your first. You, who changed his life. Lucifer loved you and was already planning a night you wouldn't forget.

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How could he not let out a soft groan as he thrusted into you when you looked and sounded so lewd? You looked so perfect underneath him, even with tear filled eyes. He watched as he slid his fat cock in and out of your tiny greedy virgin hole, sucking him in. As much as he tried to be gentle, he started getting rougher, faster with each thrust. You were just so fucking tight. He kissed your forehead, "do you know how perfect you are? Youre doing so well..." After he made sure both of you came, he placed a kiss upon your forehead and asked how you were feeling. He gave you some water & cuddled with you for a few minutes before excusing himself to go start a bath for you two, promising more warm cuddles for the rest of the night.

Beel: "...f-fuck so good...talk to me okay?"

In all honesty, Beel wasn't prepared for this. He's never slept with a virgin before, plus a human one? But if there was one thing he was sure of, it was that he was going to take his time with you and make sure you were okay.

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Beel hissed as he felt your warmth clench around him, he tried so hard to not move further until you adjusted more to his size. The two of you could feel his cock twitching, begging for more friction, desperately wanting to go deeper. He heard you whimper and kissed your forehead letting you know you were okay and safe. He felt you ease up a little more and when you finally gave the OK, he growled. Small grunts escaped him as he started rutting into you. He checked frequently to make sure you were still doing fine. (He's a big boy!) After you both finished he cuddled up with you for a few minutes asking how it was. He excused himself a moment to get you both snacks to re-energize and rehydrate before coming back to snuggle with you.

(These next three are half finished & unedited)

Mammon: "T-that's it, just like that."

His brain short circuited when you asked him if he could officially be your first. There was no way he was going to say no to that.

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It was a new experience but one he wouldn't let you down on. He's never been the best with words but he'd be damned if he didnt get his heart across to you. He wanted you to feel safe and comfortable. Giving yourself to someone can be scary but he didn't want you to feel that way. "There we go...perfect, you're doing, hah, great,". Slow deep strokes and kisses to your face, he praised you all he could.

Levi: "Haah!...i-is this okay?"

You wanted him to be your first!? Levi nearly passed out at your confession. Okay that was a lie, he did in fact pass out. Can you really blame him!?

~~~

After sex he cuddles up with you and can't stop kissing you, making sure you feel all the love and appreciation he has for you. He takes a moment to pop a fun simple game into the tv for the two of you to play, making sure to give you a kiss on your head every so often~

Diavolo: "I got you, it's okay, shhh."

It's safe to say he never imagined you giving up your virginity to him, but here you are, the giant demon looming over you with his swollen cock poking at your prepped entrance.

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That's it lol sorry 😭

#I'll probably repost it *if* I ever do change my mind on completing it but for the foreseeable future I can't see it happening lol #I don't think I'll put this in main tags either #this is like directors behind the scenes cuts lmao. tbh I don't like this very much. I wrote this monthsss ago and I know I can do better 😒#But I'd be haunted if didn't reply to this before leaving lol 😭#◇˖・ﾟ— › cosmic obey me . ⊹#✩ — the star: anon!

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ahmazingsam · 1 year

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I Feel it coming

Ok, this is my first ever post - I'm so scared but so excited too. There is smut, don't know how good it is, so enjoy! lol :)

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Standing with her back against the bar, Charlotte let out a sigh. A small smile graced her lips when the bartender handed her a freshly poured glass of wine. Her manicured fingers circled around the stem of the glass, and she nodded her head in appreciation before bringing the glass to her lips. In one sip, Charlotte downed the liquid and handed the now empty glass back to the bartender, who was already holding his hand out. The shock from Charlotte’s actions wore off the poor guy’s face after the third glass. On a normal night, she would care about how she acted and wouldn’t be on her fifth glass, but tonight she didn’t even bat her eyelashes in shame.

As she waited for her new drink, her brown eyes surveyed her surroundings. The ballroom was filled from corner to corner with partygoers, talking and dancing with each other. There, only a few feet away, her friends sat around a table enjoying each other's company. And she wasn’t surprised to see Kim sitting on Adam’s lap. It took them a few years, and a few too many close calls, to realize how right they were for each other. While dating in your same detective unit is frowned upon, per se, Intelligence was different; Voight made the rules, and if he said it was ok, it was ok - no one questioned it.

Charlotte couldn’t help it and smiled when Adam’s hand rubbed the bottom of Kim’s back, which made her smile at him. They were the definition of relationship goals.

“Shit,” Charlotte said.

Leaning too far to the left, she felt herself trip over the bottom of her dress. She quickly caught herself and looked around to see if anyone saw her almost falling on her face. No one did, thankfully, but then she stood still for a moment thinking about if she would actually care if someone did – and with the amount of alcohol in her, she didn’t. Charlotte pulled her dress carelessly and turned towards the bar.

The bartender - Derek - stood in front of her with her now full glass. Suddenly, Charlotte was surrounded with Kim and Hailey on each of her sides. Charlotte smiled small and took the glass from his hands.

“How many glasses have you had?” Kim asked.

She shrugged and looked back at her cup.

“This is my fifth - no sixth glass,” she said.

Hailey and Kim looked at each other before looking back at Charlotte.

“I am fine, so stop worrying,” Charlotte said. “How long have you known me? For, what, like, six years? You guys know I need to take the edge off at these things.”

Hailey frowned.

“We know when your anxiety is getting the best of you,” Hailey said. “Like you said, we know you.”

Charlotte opened her mouth, but Kim cut her off.

“It’s been a rough year for you and don’t even try to deny it,” she said. “But it's a special occasion! Everyone is dressed up and having fun. It is not everyday the city of Chicago throws the entire police department a party. You should be dancing, not sitting over here looking like a creep.”

Charlotte laughed and bumped Kim’s shoulder.

“I’m sorry,” Charlotte said. “I should be having fun; I am having fun. But I hate parties, especially parties that involve talking to people.”

Kim and Hailey both threw their heads back and laughed.

“Well, as your best friends, we are forcing you to mingle,” Kim said. “Adam, Kevin, Antonio, and even Voight, want to hang out with you too.”

Charlotte sighed.

“I guess I should talk to them. They are my friends,” she said.

Hailey smiled and nodded.

“They are your very good friends, and we should have dragged you over there an hour ago,” she said.

“Well then what are we waiting for?” Charlotte asked.

Hailey and Kim smiled and turned around. With her glass in her hand, Charlotte let them drag her over to their table.

Adam was still sitting but was now in a deep conversation with Antonio, who was sitting across from him. Kevin stood with Voight in front of the table and was talking to some other officers. Charlotte let out a sigh of relief she didn’t realize she was holding.

He wasn’t here.

He is not sitting next to Adam. He is not making some joke; he is off somewhere else, somewhere far away from here.

Kevin was the first person to notice the girls. His eyes got wide, and he smiled big.

Charlotte laughed as his arms circled around her. A moment later, she felt another set, and soon Adam, Kevin and Antonio were all hugging her while Voight just shook his head at their antics. When joining Intelligence three years ago, the unit already had their groove; they knew who worked with who and what everyone’s strength was. They were a family, and trying to enter a unit like this is scary. Kim and Hailey immediately welcomed Charlotte and accepted another woman with open arms. The boys took their time, but after a few late nights working and drinking at Molly’s, they became her older brothers.

“Dude, finally!” Adam yelled, shaking Charlotte’s shoulders. “We have been fucking waiting for you.”

Everyone laughed.

“Are you ready to have some fun?” Antonio asked, smirking.

Charlotte nodded, but she had a feeling she was going to regret that decision in the morning.

The boys cheered and headed to the bar to grab shots from Derek.

Yes, she thought. She was definitely going to regret this.

*******

It was a quarter to two in the morning when Charlotte found herself sitting in the seat Adam was sitting in before. Her friends were in front of her dancing.

After two shots of vodka and another glass of wine, Charlotte could feel how drunk she was. However, she concluded that this was a rare occasion where she didn’t feel sick after drinking that much. Instead, she found herself smiling and more at ease than she thought she would be.

The ballroom was still packed with people, and no one was going home anytime soon. Charlotte listened as the next song came through the speakers, and she smiled when she heard The Weeknd’s voice.

Charlotte watched as Hailey cheered loudly and pointed at Charlotte. She laughed and let her friends drag her out to dance.

Yeah, uh

Tell me what you really like Baby I can take my time We don't ever have to fight Just take it step-by-step

Charlotte let the music move through her as she found her hips moving in sync with the beat. She saw Hailey wink at her before she turned around and disappeared in the crowd.

Charlotte frowned and was about to go after her until she caught a whiff of something that she hadn’t smelt in a while.

Turning around, she stood in front of the man she thought she wouldn’t have to see tonight.

Jay Halstead looked down at her, and Charlotte could feel her heart falling out of her chest.

I can see it in your eyes 'Cause they never tell me lies I can feel that body shake And the heat between your legs

Green eyes met blue eyes as the pair stood only a few inches from each other. Charlotte could feel the heat radiating off his body, and this made her anxiety grow.

The first-time Charlotte met Jay was during her second week of working with the unit. He was in an undercover case, and when he introduced himself to her, she knew she was in trouble. His voice drew her in, and Charlotte couldn’t move herself away.

You've been scared of love and what it did to youYou don't have to run, I know what you've been throughJust a simple touch and it can set you freeWe don't have to rush when you're alone with me

Jay’s hand circled her waist and pulled Charlotte in until their chests were touching. She could feel his suit rubbing against the silk of her dress. His forehead touched hers and soon she was swaying with him. His eyes never looked away from her, even though Charlotte closed hers.

His breath brushed against her face; his hands gripped her waist, holding on like she was going to disappear any second - and Charlotte couldn’t blame him for feeling that way. Their last encounter had her running home and leaving him broken-hearted.

You are not the single type So baby, this the perfect time I'm just trying to get you high And faded off this touch

When his lips touched that spot behind her ear, that spot that makes Charlotte weak in the knees, she knew she had to move out of his grip. Opening her eyes, she saw him frown, and she knew he saw the tears forming in her eyes.

Charlotte took this chance and surprisingly broke out of his hold before dashing off towards the bathroom.

She couldn’t breathe, and she stopped when she reached the small hallway. Charlotte was alone for five seconds before she felt his hands on her face, and green eyes met blue eyes once again.

“You aren’t supposed to be here,” Charlotte mumbled. “I only came because I was told you weren’t going to be here.”

She felt herself getting worked up. A tear escaped, and Jay’s thumb immediately wiped it away.

“Why are you here? I was doing so well!” Charlotte said. “I haven’t thought about you in days, and now you are here in front of me, and it’s not fair.”

Jay frowned.

“Why? Why isn’t it fair? Jay asked. “I am a detective too. I am allowed to be here.”

Charlotte let out a choked sob.

“Because I left you,” she said. “I ran away and left you. I hurt you. I told you I couldn’t do this. God, do you know how hard it was to leave you? Why couldn’t you have just listened to me and stayed away?”

Jay stared at Charlotte with such force that she didn’t even know he had. His thumbs caressed her face, and she almost whimpered at his touch. Her back pressed against the wall as Jay moved until their chests were touching.

And then he smiled.

“Charlotte, I love you,” he said softly. “I will always love you. I knew I loved you when you first spilt coffee on me.”

Charlotte sobbed.

“I know you’ve been hurt in the past. That bastard ripped you open and broke your heart, and you don’t know how badly I want to kill him,” Jay said. “Yes, I was hurt when you left, but I knew it wasn’t you. It was your fear, and you had no control of it.”

Charlotte stood quiet; she let him talk. She missed that voice more than she thought she did - and it has only been a week without him.

“Please let me in. Please let me be the one to help you become you again,” he said. “I know you love me. God, I can feel it right now, Charlotte.”

Without warning, his lips were on hers, and Charlotte didn’t waste a second before wrapping her arms around his neck.

“I love you,” Charlotte said. “I’m so sorry for hurting you. I know I shouldn’t have left, and I almost turned around, but I couldn’t. I wanted to. I wanted to come back the next day and the day after that, but I didn’t think you would want me still. I have so much baggage, and I didn’t want to chance it with you. I knew if I gave in and stayed, I knew if we didn’t last, I wouldn’t be ok. I would never be ok if that happened.”

Jay smirked and pressed his lips against hers once more.

“Baby, we are going to last; you can hold me to that,” he said, making Charlotte laugh. “Kim and Adam may hold the title right now for the King and Queen, but that will be us soon enough.”

Charlotte smiled and nodded.

“Let me take you home,” Jay said softly.

Charlotte bit her lip and nodded with no hesitation.

“I thought you’d never ask.”

*******

The ride home to Charlotte’s apartment was quiet. Nothing but the breeze from the open window blowing on her face, and Charlotte didn’t mind it one bit. From the alcohol and the sudden onset of emotions, Charlotte needed some quiet time to register what just happened.

After Jay kissed her one more time, he grabbed her hand and beelined it for the exit. Just before they made their escape, Charlotte connected eyes with Hailey, Kim, and the rest of their friends. Each of them hollered and cheered as they saw their two best friends happy again. Jay smirked and waved to them before they were out of sight.

Buildings blurred together as the pair drove down the streets. Luckily, Charlotte’s place was only a short drive away.

Charlotte could feel Jay’s eyes on her every once and a while, but Charlotte kept her eyes on the window.

She knew what was going to happen when they arrived at her apartment. It’s been almost four years in the making; she could cut the sexual tension with a knife. It’s not like neither of them were virgins, but this time it’s different.

It’s with him.

Her eyes moved off the window and watched Jay look at the road in front of them. He’s gotten way more attractive since the last time she saw him - how is that possible since it's only been seven days? She didn’t know, but he did.

He’s not like her previous boyfriends, not at all. He doesn’t rush her; he will be as patient as she needs him to be. He doesn’t care that she has had some fucked-up years; he’s had some fucked-up years himself. He doesn’t baby her, he tells her how it is, and while he doesn’t show his vulnerable side a lot, she knows he will if he wants to.

“What are you looking at?”

Charlotte snapped her eyes off him and back to the window. She could see his lips curve, and she felt heat rush to her face as she just got caught staring.

“It’s ok to look, you know. I am rather good looking,” Jay said, making Charlotte laugh. “You know, I am looking at you.”

Charlotte forced herself to look at him. He was smirking at her.

“Shut up and drive,” she said, sending out a smile of her own.

Jay laughed and reached over to squeeze her hand. Charlotte’s heart thumped hard.

She didn’t understand why she was so nervous. For god’s sake, it was Jay: The guy who makes her snort when she laughs; the guy who knows how to push her buttons just when they need to be pushed.

But he’s also the guy that gives her middle school butterflies. He’s the guy who has given her a chance to open up and let someone in again. He’s the guy who doesn’t care about the scars her past relationships left, mental and physical.

“Hey, you ok?”

Jay was looking at her again, and she realized that they were parked outside her building.

Charlotte smiled small and nodded.

Jay looked at her for a few more seconds before opening his car door and coming over to her side. Before she knew it, they were standing in Charlotte’s living room.

The moon was shining through the windows, and Charlotte turned on the small lights she had above her fireplace. Jay stood in the middle of the room, letting Charlotte make the first move. He watched as she started to play with the material of her dress. Charlotte felt the cool silk against her fingers, and she let out a breath.

She could feel the need for more wine, and she let out a small laugh.

“What’s so funny?”

Charlotte almost forgot Jay was in the room with her. Keyword is being almost. His cologne intoxicated her, leaving an imprint on her memory forever.

“I haven’t done this in a while,” Charlotte said.

Jay was confused; she could see it on his face.

“God, I feel like I am in middle school waiting to be picked last for volleyball.”

Her voice cracked. She could feel the tears in her eyes.

“The last time I was in this situation, the last time I felt this way, it ended badly.”

Jay frowned, his heart breaking at the sight in front of him.

“I know you said that it was fear pushing you away,” she said. “But it’s been here for so long, I don’t know which is which anymore. I feel trapped in this fear that I’ve grown accustomed to. I don’t know how to get out of it; I feel like I’m suffocating on stage in front of everyone, and I’m so close to letting it take me under.”

Jay moved so close to Charlotte that she could feel his shirt rub against hers. His hands cupped her face and gently wiped the tears that had fallen from her eyes.

“Don’t do this; don’t close on me,” he said. “If you go under, I’m coming right there with you. This past week has been torture. And when I saw you dancing with Kim and Hailey, smiling and laughing; there was nothing more I wanted to do than run up to you and kiss you.”

Charlotte let out a choked sob.

“I am so proud of you. You’ve grown so much since we first met, but I know the woman I fell in love with is there.”

“How? How can you tell?” Charlotte asked.

Jay smiled.

“Because I’ve seen her. When you thought no one was looking, that woman came out and shined,” he said. “She shined so bright tonight dancing so freely, and I don’t care if I have to dance for the rest of my life, I promise to bring that woman out for you to see.”

Charlotte was speechless. She stared at the man in front of her and felt her heart swell. She wracked her brain, trying to think of something half as good as that but nothing came close.

In a split second, her arms wrapped around his neck and pushed her lips onto his. Jay’s hands moved from her face and down her sides until they rested on her hips. His hands traveled down to her hips, and soon Charlotte felt his fingers gently caress her back.

It was getting heated by the second, and neither of them wanted to stop anytime soon.

“As much as I want to push you up against the wall and fuck you until you scream my name, I think that can wait until round two or three,” Jay said before placing kissing on that spot behind her ear.

Charlotte let out a small moan and tried to move even closer to him.

“What do you have in mind for round one?” She asked, looking up at him.

Jay’s eyes were half closed and filled with lust. His lips were swollen and covered in Charlotte’s lip gloss.

“Round one is where we move to the bedroom, and I can show you how good it feels to be treated like the queen you are,” Jay said.

Charlotte almost fainted right then and there. No one has ever said that to her before. Right then and there, she knew that this was about to be the best night of her life.

With no words spoken, Jay kissed Charlotte’s lips one more time before starting to move her down the hall to her bedroom.

Jay has been in Charlotte’s room before. Because of the close proximity to the precinct, her apartment was where the unit hung out most during off hours. Before Jay asked Charlotte out, just the two of them used to have movie nights all the time. She would want to stay in bed all day with him lying next to her, close enough to feel his body heat. It’s a wonder how Charlotte didn’t realize Jay had feelings for her then.

His mouth was on her neck, and she came back to reality.

“Sit,” Jay said gently, pushing her onto the edge of her bed. Charlotte’s face was flushed, and her breath was ragged.

“These need to come off,” he said, sliding his hands down her legs and gently grabbing her ankles.

Charlotte bit her lip and leaned back on her elbows as she watched Jay slowly slip her heels off.

His hands started to wander up her legs again, and Charlotte knew it was time to take off her dress. Letting out a breath, she pushed him off until he was sitting in the spot she was in originally.

“What are you doing?” He asked.

Charlotte didn’t say anything; she brought her fingers to her hair and took out the few clips that were holding her long brunette hair together.

Watching Jay watch her with that same look of lust on his face, Charlotte closed her eyes and unzipped her dress. With no straps and no bra, the dress easily slid off her body and onto the ground.

Charlotte shivered and opened her eyes. The lust was gone, and something else was spreading across Jay’s face.

She watched his eyes travel down her body, and when she saw his eyes stop on her stomach, her left hand flew to her right side.

“No,” Jay said standing. “Don’t do that; don’t you dare do that.”

He stood in front of her and took her hand off. Charlotte didn’t dare look down. She sees it every day; she knows what it looks like.

But Jay didn’t. He’s heard of it from her and seen it from afar, but not up close.

The scar started from her right rib and stopped a few inches above her thigh. It’s faded, but Jay can feel it when he runs his hands over it.

He knew how it got there. He knew how her ex-boyfriend took advantage of her and got away with it, leaving her something to always remember.

“I’m so sorry,” he said looking into her eyes.

He saw the tears forming, but Charlotte wouldn’t let them fall. She cried enough times over it, and now was not the time.

She didn’t answer him, but she smiled small. Tugging on his jacket, she signaled for him that it was time to discard his clothes.

Pressing his lips to hers for a few moments, he pulled away and started undressing.

His jacket hit the floor first. And then his shirt and pants. Soon, they were both just in their underwear.

Jay stood in front of her with a look of lust back on his face, and she felt it all the way to her core. He pushed her back onto the bed and kneeled against the plush white carpet.

She could feel his breath on her, and she let out a whimper when he pulled Charlotte close until her legs were over his shoulders.

“Jay,” Charlotte said.

He smirked and chuckled against her thigh.

“Yes, baby?”

Charlotte almost came just at the sound of his voice. Her hands went to his scalp and tugged on his hair.

Jay groaned.

“Please do something,” she said.

He didn’t say anything except let out another low groan. Suddenly, his fingers and mouth were on her.

Charlotte’s eyes closed and her back arched as she felt Jay’s fingers slowly enter her. It’s only been two minutes, and she could feel herself coming undone.

“Oh god, Jay,” she moaned.

Her hands pressed down harder into his scalp, and she felt her hips grind against his face. A string of moans left her as his stubble brushed against her, and soon his mouth was sucking on her clit.

“Come on, Char,” Jay said, releasing himself for a second. “Cum for me.”

Another press against her clit, and Charlotte lost it. Her hips bucked until she found herself coming down from her high.

Jay was above her again, just watching, when she re-opened her eyes. Green met blue, and he smiled.

“That was…” Charlotte started.

Jay chuckled.

“I know.”

She didn’t have enough energy to laugh, so she smiled instead. Grabbing his shoulders, Charlotte pulled him down until his body was on top of hers and she felt his lips on her face.

Her hands started running down his chest, feeling every line and definition of his perfect chest.

Charlotte bit her lip when she felt him through his underwear. Jay dropped his head into her neck and groaned. Her hand on him felt perfect, and he wanted more.

Forcing himself away, he stood up and quickly pushed off the last article of clothing. Her eyes widened when she saw how big he was. And she couldn’t help but think that, that is all hers now.

Something came over her, and Charlotte pushed Jay down onto the bed until he was laying in the middle of it. Crawling on her knees, she moved until she was right over his lower half.

“Charlotte,” Jay said before pushing his head into the pillows.

Her hand gently touched him, and she felt him stiffen under her touch. Slowly, she stroked him up and down, adding more pressure as she went.

Jay let out a long moan when her mouth lightly touched the tip.

“No, stop. Stop,” he said before pulling her off.

Charlotte was confused but pulled away.

“But I want to,” she said, moving for it again.

Jay’s hands flew out and fixed their positions until she was under him.

“I want you too, believe me,” he said, smirking. “But if you do that right now, I’m not going to last. I need to be inside you.”

Charlotte bit her lip and felt herself nod. Jay kissed her before leaning over to his pants on the ground.

“No. We don’t need one,” Charlotte said, stopping him. “I’m on the pill. Plus, I want to feel you. All of you.”

Jay groaned and went straight for her lips. His hands cupped her cheeks, and by the second, the kiss became more heated.

Charlotte’s hand reached in between them and started stroking him again. Jay cursed and leaned his head in the crook of her neck.

“Baby, fuck,” he said, placing a kiss on her neck.

Not saying anything, Charlotte guided his tip into her, and they both felt her walls clench around him.

“Oh god,” they both said in unison.

They both were still.

“Are you ok? Are you good?” Jay asked.

Charlotte could tell he was trying his hardest not to move, and that warmed her heart.

“I love you,” she said, placing a hand on his cheek.

Jay stared at her.

“I’m sorry it took me so long to realize, and I’m sorry that I hurt you. But I will never do that again; you can hold me to it.”

Jay leaned down until their lips were touching. As their tongues fought, he started moving in and out of her.

Charlotte was in heaven. He fit so perfectly and stretched her so well.

“Oh shit, Jay,” she moaned.

Jay groaned and sped up.

“Fuck, you feel so good,” he said.

Charlotte whimpered when Jay’s lips came in contact with her breast. Her breasts were sensitive already, so when she felt him bite her, she let out a small scream.

“Do that again,” she said.

Jay was surprised but did it again. And again, until he made his mark.

He could feel himself coming close, but he wanted Charlotte to be there too.

Reaching in between them, his thumb pressed down on her clit and smirked when Charlotte let out another scream.

“God, fuck. I love you,” he said, adding more pressure to her.

Charlotte snapped.

“I’m coming, I’m coming,” Charlotte said.

She gasped and her walls clenched around him before she felt him release inside her.

They laid still with Jay hovering over Charlotte watching her chest rise and fall.

She looked so beautiful, he thought.

“You’re so beautiful,” he said, smiling down at her.

Charlotte smiled and felt the heat rush to her face.

“Can we order a pizza or something? I’m starving,” she said, placing a hand on her stomach.

Jay broke out into laughter. Out of everything she could say, she says that, and he isn’t surprised one bit.

“Can I fuck you against the wall while we wait for it?” he asked.

It was Charlotte’s turn to laugh.

“I thought you’d never ask.”

#jay halstead #jay halstead x reader #jay halstead masterlist #jay halstead oneshot #jay halstead fanfiction #fanfiction #drabble #oneshot #chicago pd #jay halstead drabble #one chicago

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Rules / Master Lists! ♥︎

Not in the best mental state currently. I want to start writing again soon but it doesn't fit into my schedule sadly. With Summer coming up I might have time tho! Thank you for looking at my page! Feel free to still leave requests tho! I'll come back to them🫶- May 18 23

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Hi there! Welcome to my page! Please refer to me as M or mugee! I'm 19! He/she pronouns. You can refer to me as a man or woman but Im not a woman....yeah. I feel like a man but I don't fully wanna be one. YUH. I would prefer to be referred to as dude, man, bro tho. But calling me stuff like girly is fine makes me giggle. Im still new to this app so please bare with me! I have a wattpad if you are interested! (It's the same user name) I'm open to writing anything! But mostly do head cannons:D. I'm plus size and cater to writing for the plus size community since it does get enough representation. If you are plus size please stick around! Id love to be your mutual♥︎! I write as a out let and to make people happy. I absolutely love helping the plus size community feel more loved/ making them happy! Cause everyone is truly beautiful and I want YOU to know that! Feel free to read if you're not plus size though. (I have my eye on you though.... No hateful comments) My blog is a safe place for everyone! Unless your racist, homophobic, fatphobic, etc. You will be blockedꈍᴗꈍ. Feel free to message me! I love chatting with people! Also if you want to me mutuals just ask! I swear I won't bite!!! I talk about random stuff on here sometimes. Like random random. I one made a post about women and how beautiful they are. And it wasn't small. IT WAS BIGGGGG. I love women.

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beansnsoup · 2 years

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Him

Eddie Munson x reader

Request: eddie being friends with a shy reader and she really wants to go to a dance or something but doesnt know how to ask and eddie know so he shows up for her

Tysm for requesting!! I love this idea sm so I'm going to try to make it good lol.

You and Eddie have been best friends since middle school, he'd always been really out there. Talking himself up, making theatrical speeches, and his Hellfire club of course. You, on the other hand, were not.

Being so close to Eddie, you too got shit, but never as bad. You never really talked much in school and hung out with Hellfire, but never played D&D, just watched them.

You did have two other friends, their names were Jessie and Leia. You met them in Freshman homeroom, with Eddie being a year above you, it gave you the opportunity to make some new friends because of him graduating before you, which obviously didn't happen.

Posters around school keep being put up about dance, Leia wouldn't shut up about it, she was ecstatic. "I think I'm going ask Noah." She tells you both proudly at lunch. Noah was the boy she had been crushing on for 2 months but as yet to say anything to him. It wasn't like he was popular, but he was well known enough to be put under that status.

"You've been saying that everyday all week, and you still haven't done it." Jessie tells her. You nod in agreement. Leia looks at the two of you, "Fine. Today, after school. I'll ask him." She says seriously. Jessie laughs then turns to you, "Are you going with anyone?" She asks you.

"No, I'd like to though." You mutter. Leia smirks, "You should ask Eddie, Y/N." She says, rubbing her shoulder against your flirtatiously. You've had a thing for Eddie for a bit, you never planned to tell him though, assuming it'd just pass.

Jessie nodded, "I know you said you didn't want him to know about your little crush, but wouldn't it be nice to just go with someone?" She asked. You shook your head, "I don't know." You say before taking the last bite of your lunch.

When walking out of the lunchroom with your friends, someone comes up behind you throwing their arm around your shoulder making you jump. "Woah there, just me." Eddie's voice says, his hot breath going right down your neck, giving you chills.

"Hello to you too Eddie." You greet him, "We'll leave you guys to it." Jessie says, grabbing Leias arm to pulling her away from you and Eddie. You sigh, and begin towards your locker. Eddie watches you mess with this lock for a bit before speaking.

"What are you doing this weekend?" He asks you, this weekend is the dance. You really wanted to go, but you wanted someone to go with you. Of course you could stick with your friends but they'd most likely be getting dates to go with them. Is he asking you what you're doing this weekend so he can ask to go to the dance with him?

"Nothing at the moment." You respond, getting your locker open. He nods, not asking anything else about the weekend to your disappointment. "You coming to the campaign tonight? It's the end of it and I'd like for you to be there." He smiles at you after finishing.

"Sure." You agree, you had nothing better to do. Your original plan for tonight was to just go to the the video store and rewatch Back To The Future for the 100th time, but some social interaction could be better. "Alright, see you there." He says, then walks off.

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You watch the clock, this is your last class of the day before Hellfire. You don't know why, but ever since talking to him after lunch you've been so excited to see him again.

When the last bell rings everyone starts putting their things away, which you follow. You start walking to the club room and see the lights on, hoping you made in time to get time alone with Eddie.

Your hopes were met when he was in their alone setting up everything. "Someone's here early." Eddie says smirking at you, you just smile and sit down at the small couch against the wall. He finishes the set up and sits next to you.

"So," You start, "So." He mimicks you, you laugh at him for a second. You're thinking about what your friends told you, about asking Eddie to the dance. You're to scared for rejection though, you really don't want to ruin the friendship you both have.

"Penny for your thoughts?" He asks, throwing his arm around you. You just shook your head, "People will be getting in here soon, better get ready." You warn him. He gets up to go to his "thrown."

Dustin and Mike come in followed by the others, you wave at all of them as they go to their chairs. The door opens suddenly, "Come here." Leia demands, you get up grabbing your things and walking out with her, she smiles at the boys, "Sorry."

She shuts the door, Jessie it waiting outside the door for you. "What is it?" You ask them, clearly irritated. "Do you want to come dress shopping with us?" Leia asks, with a guilty smile on her face. 'You have got to be kidding me.'

You sigh, "I guess." Jessie and Leia smile at you and leave towards the parking lot. You open the club door, "Hey I gotta go, I'll call you when I get home." You tell Eddie before shutting the door and running down the hallway to the parking lot.

"You should take her to the dance, Eddie." Dustin tells him before he rolls the dice. Eddie looks at him, "I don't know man, she'd most likely say no because it's not her thing." He says to him.

"Just do it man, she'll be graduating this year, I think she'd want to go to a dance before she leaves." Dustin tells him. Eddie still doesn't know.

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Leia trying on her 4th dress of the night, "Whag about this one?" You look at it for a good bit. "Better than the last three, I'd say." Jessie comments, "Yeah." You agree. Leia smiles at herself I'm the mirror, "Okay, I'll get this one." She says before going to change back into her normal clothes.

"Did you ask Eddie?" Jessie asks, you shake your head, "I tried, but I just couldn't, I was scared if he'd tell me no." You say, your eyes start to swell up. "It's not even that bug of a deal." You tell her, looking out the window.

"It sounds like a big deal to you." She says scooting closer and putting her hand on your shoulder. You sniffle, "He's my best friend, not a potential husband." You tell her. She sighs, Jessie wants what's best for you, seeing you struggle with your feelings for Eddie hurts.

"Get a dress just in case, okay?" She says brushing through you hair with her fingers. You nod and get to look through the rack of dresses.

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You're walking into the gym with your friends, both Jessie and Leia gave dates they're meeting here so you're going to be sitting at a table the whole time.

"You sure you'll be okay tonight?" Jessie asks you as you all get closer to the door, "Yeah." You respond. You never did ask Eddie like you wanted to. Jessie and Leia walk through the doors before you do so your left outside for a little bit. Not like you have anyone to wait for.

When you reach for the door handle you hear a vehicle skid to a stop. You turn towards the noise to see Eddie's van, he opens the door to jog over to you. "You came." You whisper to him. "Yeah, uh, Dustin recommended I ask you but I didn't, then Jessie told me you'd be here so I decided I'd pay a visit." He explains.

"Of course." You laugh, you hug him, "I'm so happy you're here."

The request is from @remuslupinshotestkin

I had fun making this, it also took forever lol

#stranger things #stranger things 4 #eddie munson x reader #headcanon #eddie munson #joseph quinn x reader #joseph quinn

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mera-mann-kehne-laga · 8 months

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To my adorablest idiot,

//पर ये सब सोचना

दिल को यूँ खोलना

सब कुछ कह कर ही

सब को बताना ज़रूरी है क्या?//

I've always wanted to tell you so so so many things but...........i just.....couldn't. Maybe Because idk how to entangle this tangled mess of thoughts in my head and say them out loud as words that make any sense. Because i feel like it won't ever make sense to you. It has never to anyone before.

//अक्सर तुमसे मिलकर मुझको

घर सा लगता है।

फिर क्यों दिल ही दिल में

कोई डर सा लगता है।//

Or maybe bcz I'm an insecure coward. And I'm afraid of being perceived. By my own home. I thought I should let it all out thoda toh bcz it was getting too much to hold in. I know you'll call me stupid. You'll tell me to stop thinking itna. But trust me i want to stop too. I so desperately want to. But i just.......can't.

i sometimes wish you could read my thoughts. So that you'd know how much i love you and how much you and everything you do and say mean to me and how I'm always resisting the urge to kiss you lol. But then i think no. He won't be able to withstand all the darkness in there. He'd get lost. It'd be too much for him. It'll consume him and he'll never be the same. Keep it to yourself please.

But on the other hand i still so desperately want you to reach to those dark cracks of my mind and heart. And plant the seeds of your love and reassurance. And water them with your firmness. And make them bloom into the most beautiful flowers, being the absolute sunshine you are, sunshine.

I know. It's all tedious work. But news flash. Loving someone like me is never easy. You ask me if i'm alright atleast 20 times a day, don't you? Or when I'm staring at you and you say What? And what is my answer everytime? Nothing.

I want to say everything. But everything sounds like a lot doesn't it? And then how'd i explain it to you if you ask kya everything?

Girls like me are not easy to love. We feel everything so very deeply that it consumes us whole at times. We need constant reminding that you love us. Because even the tiniest slightest change in your behaviour would make us think we did something wrong.

i often feel excluded from everything but it's mostly my fault because i distance myself because i think i'm annoying. Then i feel lonely. And soon enough the whole world comes crashing down. And this wave of sadness makes it feel like all friends are annoying, everything is loud, and I'm contemplating why I even exist. This restlessness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well.

I'm jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don't have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don't struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don't struggle to hold friendships and relationships... they don't feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can manage pdhai and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all.

I wonder how do you tell people? How do you tell them that you're exhausted even though you slept for 8 hours? How do you tell them that you need a break from talking and smiling and simply being near them? How do you tell them that you too are human and can make mistakes and can be a failure sometimes? Bc when the heck will this burn out leave me

i'm trying not to make it sound like a plea or an apology, but it should be one right?

//तू होगा ज़रा पागल

तूने मुझको है चुना।//

Aaj when i said that thing about jumping off that flyover on my way back home or when i told you I'll be going away after 11th ends, tujhe kuch sunai nahi diya hoga but my heart shattered into a thousand little pieces. To see how disheartened and concerned and tensed you were. I then went to the washroom and broke down thoda because the feeling of being an unlovable burden worsened all of a sudden. I was also kinda overwhelmed by how much you cared and the guilt of concerning you itna. Because never in my wildest dreams did I imagine ki someone'd ever love me aise. But then i came back and saw your stupid pyaara face and everything felt good again. I'm sorry. For concerning you like that.

Aur sun. Though I may seem at times somewhat distant from you, through the gray mist of my own thoughts and storms, I am never far. my thoughts always circle around you ok? I love you hehe

Yours,

Nishu.

#to him #may or may not send it to him #ok i will send it #not abhi but i will.

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webslingingslasher · 3 months

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bff... i need ur perspective on this :’) this is rly long srry just take ur time! reply whenever u feel like it, or not<3

here goes another 🧚🏼‍♀️ lore from 2023 JSNFNDKJSHS

i had a crush on this guy around may-july 2023.. things were going rly well like he reciprocated my energy toward him, bantering here n there, and he was such a gentleman like yk basic stuff - opening doors for me, picked up n fixed my bag for me when it fell even if he didn't have to lol, always checking on me and helping me with hw (we were classmates), and he also prevented me from being seenzoned in the gc we were both in by telling me in our dm he'll reply to me in the gc ?? like for the sake of not being seenzoned,, i didnt mind at all but ok 🫂 he also mentioned that he prayed for me one time bc i was so stressed out w life and he prayed i won't be stressed anymore, n that i need to look after myself.. my ex-bffs thought it's silly and it wasn't an excuse to like him (??) but that time i thought it was sweet. i didn't have any evidence to think or know if he was lying or anything so.. 🤷‍♀️ i was just happy abt it and i thought, if things fuck up, i'll just deal with it when we get there.

and anw yea we were basically in talking stage, stayed up to talk and he was still the first person i talked to when i woke up haha and we also made time to see each other like we rly planned and included each other in our schedules to hang out.

good stuff right.. but like one time when we were getting to know each other (in person, my ex-bff was there with us), he told us he has a sister. but the next time we hung out, just the two of us, we talked abt video games and told me he'd watch his brother play. so i was like "oh so u have 2 siblings? bc u have a sister too" then he said "huh? no, it's just me n my brother" and i was like "???? wym u said u have a sister.." then he said "really? i said that?" TF DKKSJSJDJS.. even my ex-bff confirmed he said sister when the 3 of us hung out so im not making it up... n all my other friends told me thats just sus bc why be sus about family... i mean he sees them everyday?? and it's basic knowledge to know ur family 😭 my dad even said he might've lied and said he has a sister to make him seem like a green flag (assuming he'd know how to respect and properly treat women)

could be an honest mistake, sure, it happens. my friends and i even considered that his sibling might be non-binary or trans and maybe he wasn't in the position to tell us, that's understandable. but idk he still told me 2 diff things and i can't rly have someone who doesn't stand on what they say or do to me, like telling me one thing then another (i have severe trust issues..)

the thing is, when i start to doubt someone, especially when i think they lied and if i think they aren't genuine people, it's over. like that's my dealbreaker. (goes for my ex-bffs too)

so like... after that, whenever he msged me i became dry until i didn't open his one reply to me anymore. so i ghosted him.. he never msged after that, assuming he felt like he couldn't approach me.

i feel bad. like serious. im more bummed abt him than what happened w my ex friends ngl bc he rly was nice and i liked him, we were good until that. but there's sm uncertainty and i'm sure i hurt him bc he gave clear implications that he was interested in me. i'm assuming he also doesn't know what happened bc obviously i didn't confront him, so it's unfair for him.

i thought abt confronting him and to just be friends with him at least, i did. but i also thought - he would either apologize or say something that will make it okay to solve things.

1) even if he apologized, i'd have to wait for changed behavior. thing is, i only give one chance when it comes to trust, and i feel like that was ruined already, somehow. i mean, i can have disagreements with anyone about anything and it's fine, we can work through that. but if there comes a point where the trust is ruined, i'm done, and i can't wait around for changed behavior. it'll take up my time, and it's kinda unfair bc i never lied to him or gave him reasons to feel weirdly about me. it's not even hard to tell the truth about simple things.. also, why wait around when there's better, honest, and more genuine people out there (this also applies to my ex bffs) 😐 also if i wait for changed behavior, i'd basically be trusting him again to not do anything like that again. but he alr lost my trust to begin with so ?? lol

2) if he would say something to make it okay, i'd be giving him an advantage, and i'd be forced to stay with him, allowing him to think that what he did was fine.

3) i thought about being friends with him at least but i didn't rly want a liar friend or a friend that i'd doubt.. i don't want to have to doubt anyone's character in my circle... i don't need the stress.

my guy friends told me the bar was low and i deserve better, and i probably doged a bullet bc if he lies abt small things.. what about the more serious things? and it's a situation i didn't need to be in. like fr, no one's usually sus with their family 😭😭 so why put me thru that when no one else experiences it.. tf

but anw.... months later, around november actually, he added me in his close friends on ig ?? i only saw a couple of stuff like anime, class stuff, idk, nothing weird or anything. i think he removed me tho later on. but today i think he added me back LOL. i also noticed he'd check my stories once a week 😭

so like.. what the hell does that mean LMFAO we haven't talked nor seen each other in person since july. that's 6 months..

i didn't remove him from my socmeds in case we happen to be classmates again and work together and in the future as well. thought abt removing him but i might need the connection in the future for business bc we're entering the same field after all.. 🙇‍♀️

i'm not even mad anymore but like huh JNBJDSJHS

but anw yes. what do u think of this... is there anything i should do or not. speak ur mind please 🎙️ tysm ily

(this also just gave away that i'm avoidant. sorry. it comes from trauma😂 working thru it though. i believe i made an improvement when i confronted my ex bffs n broke up w them which happened after i ghosted him.. rip)

-🧚🏼‍♀️

oh my god girl.

he didn't say he was derek jeter, he said he had a sister. and then told you later on he only had a brother. if he wanted to lie, he'd continue the lie. instead, he confronted it and moved on. you didn't.

i have three brothers. i have gotten names and ages confused my entire life. it seems like an honest mistake and he acknowledged it. i'd get if it was a big lie, but it seems like this was a slip of the tongue.

maybe he was thinking of a friends sister.

maybe he was thinking his brother was a bitch.

maybe he was nervous.

we don't know. you just stonewalled him. long story short, if you want to at the very least be friends with him, let it go. if you can't, leave him alone.

what does it mean? he liked you. but i don't know if he still does.

#like girl i promise you it's not that deep 😭😭😭😭#🧚🏻‍♀️ anon

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phenomenalgirl9 · 2 years

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Amber x Reader (writing it to get it out of my system)

Summary: Doing a translators job is tiresome, but what happens when you neet the one person you have been in love with for ages and a friendship blooms between you?

A/n:Heh.. ik nobody's gonna read so lol.

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Working for the K-Industry has been a huge dream, and being able to fulfill it is a greate achievement to you. Meeting various famous and renouned artists everyday, still feels like a dream. And you actually count yourself to be lucky to be able to be where you are. Hence, you push yourself as much as you can for every project you recieve.

So when you were sent to other countries for a few months for a couple of projects, you always think that sometime away from Seoul or South K would be fun. Untill you had to come face to face with the lady of your dreams. Amber Liu has been a recurring human you dream of since you've first stumbled upon her songs while looking for new kpop songs, and her songs hit off your head instantly. Her bold and charming personality did play a huge factor in this huge crush you've build up on her. But, the fact that it never faded is something you feel nervous about now that you're supposed to meet her. Loving different projects, this is a huge fashion event taking place in Madrid, hence translators like yourself had a hub. As José explained the various duties you would have and assigned all the translators the artists they'll be incharge of, you got really excited to see their names.

Y/n L/n's list:

Ana Kendrick

Johnny Suh

Amber Liu

J-Hope

Hwang Hyunjin

Eric Nam

"The artists are supposed to arrive are you excited?"

(I'm just gonna code/quote the other languages like Spanish and Korean)

You somehow stopped yourself from squealing, when you read the names. Being a multilingual did pay you well in so many ways. Even though you have met half of the ones in the list before, you still feel nervous, enthusiastic and lucky to be able to be here.

"The artists are about to arrive! Are you excited!" Serene asked, you've met this Russian translator girl before in a few events.

"Excited is an understatement, but I'm also nervous"

"Hey! Don't worry you've done this before"

"No matter how many times I do this, I know I'll still feel giddy"

And you waited, as soon as the artists started pilling up in extravagant cars the translators started getting busier. Johnny was first to arrive and he was seemingly pleasant. You'd be lying if you said you weren't nervous as you've never worked with any SM artists before. But as soon as you saw your familiar ball of sunshine get down a car with a wide smile, you felt all your nervousness wash away.

J- "Hey! Hey! Miss me?"

Y- "Ah Hobi Oppa! It's been a while!"

J- "I know right, you've been one busy girl!"

Y-"Not more than you. I hope your plane and ride were alright. Are you tired?"

J- "Nope! I'm ready to rock!"

You asked your assisting staff to take them to their designated waiting area.

Ana Kendrick was soon seen to climb down a Lamborghini and you rushed her way, you introduced yourself and were making small talk when you heard someone call "Noona!" Surprised you look around to fine to other than Hwang Hyunjin rushing towards you for a hug.

Y- "I told you to not call me that!"

Hyunjin laughed in response and said "You know I love to call you that! But, how have you been, you didn't even text me or Changbin Hyung in like forever".

"I got busy! But Changbin did text and we had like a small conversation. But you're here now"

You apologised to Ana for leaving her alone and asked your assistant staff to take them to the designated place as well.

And almost as if on queue you saw Eric Nam and Amber Liu climbed down a vehicle. You felt like you got tongue tied. Watching her all bold and suit clad in pictures and videos is something. But seeing the person live is something else. And man, did you dig that, you almost felt like all your words left your brain. You stood their dumb for a few seconds, watch them look around to try and figure things out. You suddenly realised that this was your queue and rushed to greet them.

Eric made some wierd joke about something in spanish and Amber bashed him for being bored to death already.

"So your name is Y/n you said?" Eric asked

"Um.. yeah." You answered shyly.

"If you don't mind me asking, where you're from?" Amber asked as the three of you made your way to where the others are.

"I'm from [your birth country]" you smiled at her.

"That's a nice place!" Eric exclaimed. "I've been their!" He added.

"I'm glad. Here we are, please take seats" you motioned them to the others and Hyunjin rushed to your side and said

"Noona, please introduce me to J-Hope sunbae"

"Hyunjin you've been sitting with him for over 10 minutes, you didn't speak?" You asked in awe

"No! I'm too nervous. Please please Y/n please"

"Fine! Fine!" You gave in. Ofcourse you'll give in to Hwang Hyunjin, you glanced at Amber and Ana chatting along with Eric and Jhonny also joining them. You went up to J-Hope with Hyunjin behind you and spoke to him.

"J-Hope Oppa, meet Hwang Hyunjin from Straykids, this kid wants to talk to you, but is nervous"

J-Hope laughed brightening the whole world and said "A Hyunjin ssi don't be nervous"

Soon you watched them both getting into a conversation. You were glad, all your guest were now happily engaged only to fine Eric and Amber looking at you in awe "You speak Korean!”

"Hey Amber's dog can speak chinese! No big deal!" You joked refering to Eric's one of the most iconic lines to lighten the mood.

"You're a Nam nation?" Amber asked.

"I am a lot of things" you said giving her a smile, you cursed yourself in your mind for sounding flirty and cocky.

Soon the event started and you gracefully conducted it translating in English as all the guests understood it nicely and had insisted you to not repeat everything in english and korean. In the end they were handed little hampers. You were kinda happy as they gave one to the translators as well. The event went well, in between you also got to talk to Amber who sat right beside you, with J-Hope on the other side. Eric also seemed to weirdly bond with you quickly, also with Hyunjin and the four of you enjoyed. Even though Ana and Johnny spoke less you made sure that you involved them in the conversation as well. Soon the event came to an end and you found Ana and Johnny thanking you as they had fun with you. With Johnny saying that he's thankful that were engaging and not awkward like a lot of interpreters he's met in the past. As you said your farewell to them cause they had flights to catch that very day, you started looking for the others. And suddenly you heard Amber's voice calling your name, you turned around to find her standing with her coat jacket in her hand and the white dress shirt she was wearing with its sleeves folded, showing her tattooed arms. You gulped looking at her up and down and your mouth went dry, finally asked her "where have you been? Where are the others?"

She laughed and said "They're waiting outside, J-Hope said you might be searching for us inside so I came to look if you seriously were. Which I guess he was right"

"Ah Hobi and Hyunjin they've known me for quite a while now" you said smiling. On your way out, y'all had a constant random conversation which ended up in you finally revealing that you were indeed a fan of her and her music. She actually seemed happy to know that and you smiled to yourself. As soon as their eyes laid on you the three boys seemed to have eager eyes.

"Okay, what do you wanna say? Spill"

"Why do you think so? Y/n ssi~" Hope said in his normal sing song way. "CAUSE, I can read people. Now who will spill? Eric?" You said.

"Okay! We were thinking of asking you to shift to our hotel as we found we're all in the same one and we want you to give me, Amber and J-Hope a tour of the city and a road trip as you promised Hyunjin." Eric said all that in one breath.

"So, why do y'all need me in the same hotel?" You asked as they followed you to talk to your manager about their plan and Eric called the hotel to ask them to arrange for a big vehicle for you guys. "Because then we can have more fun"

"Um. Okay!" You said and heard all the four cheer.

"I really don't know how Hyunjin got you guys on the boat with this, but it won't be necessary for me to move hotels. I'm in the same hotel as you guys."

However, your manager had other plans, he denied you the requests and said that he had already planned your schedule and you can't evade them. "But I had already told you! That I wanted this week off! I haven't taken any breaks in the last months. I've worked even on weekends so I could have this week free."

"Oh! You can have another week free, we have client's advance. They need you in Sevilla for a charity event you ca-"

Before your manager could complete, Amber was seen behind you and said "I'll hire her for the week. What ever this client is paying, you show me the receipt, I'll double it! I need THIS interpreter!"

"Am-" She shushhed you even before you could protest! You couldn't deny, this was kinda hot though. You mentally hit yourself for thinking such stuff, but you couldn't help it. SHE. IS. HOT. But also adorable. And her demeanor intimidated your manager who immediately gave in and said he'll assign somebody else for that job and let Amber "hire" you.

"I thought I told you guys to stand outside" you told her as you walked back to J-Hope and Hyunjin.

"I got curious" she said and winked, you could feel the heat rising to your cheeks and Hyunjin came running to you "Noona! Why do you look so red? You're okay?"

"oh! Yeah she is, she's just flushed due to..... Heat" Amber replied with a smirk. God, this woman will be the death of me- you thought to yourself.

"Okay. So what did I miss?" Eric came back and asked.

"Nat-thing" Hyunjin said and smiled.

"So they'll be sending us a van pronto" Eric said.

"I know a cafe near by lets go grab some coffee. And you" you said pointing at Hyunjin "You'll have your Americano~"

"Choa Choa~" He replied in his signature style.

Eric and the others laughed out loud at that as you all started walking.

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(The next day around lunch time)

"How many times have you been here?" Eric asked as you left the El Prado Museo the next day.

"As a matter of fact this was my first time" you said laughing.

"i loved it. Namjoon would have loved it. I sent him pictures" Hobi said "oh! He replied, he says he missed a huge chance. He regrets not joining me." You all heard Hobi scoff and laughed.

"So! You'all wanna get Tapas and go wine tasting? I have a friend who said any of my guests are his guests and promised special discounts" you said.

"I love discounts" Hyunjin said.

"We all do bro!" Eric said and laughed.

"So we get alot of wine?" Amber asked

"As much as you want" you said.

Miguel was more than happy to have you five, his restaurants has been one of your regularly visited places since you first came to Madrid and befriended him.

Every one was having fun eating and chatting, while enjoying a majestic view of The capital city of España, when Amber said "Y/n, why are you still on your 1st pour of wine? You don't like it?"

"Pfft! Who doesn't like wine?" Eric said.

"She loves it, she just gets drunk easily" J-Hope spoke up.

"You too! So easy on the wine!" You scolded Hobi

Hyunjin has been looking at you and asked if you were okay.

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And hence three days later, you found you guys playing games after having a road trip to Alicante. The roof of the beach house that you guys hired had become everyone's favourite spot, "C'mon? Why wont you drink? Do you feel uncomfortable with Eric?" Amber asked

"Hey! What did I do?" Eric exclaimed and you all laughed.

"Oh she's just afraid she might text her ex if she gets too drunk" Hyunjin suddenly spilled, and smirked knowing very well about you, your past relationship and your current growing crush, earning a glare from you.

(here onwards every dialogue is in korean)

"Gimme your phone" Amber laid her hand out and demanded. You swiftly pulled it out of your pocket and did as she said. "You need to call or text someone?" She asked looking onto your eye.

"Nope. I'm done with them. Why? What would you do?" You asked.

"Confisticate it untill you get sober"She said as she went in the closet to place it somewhere.

"Noona keep my phone too" Hyunjin said and Hoseok joined him. "Okay" she said and ultimately all the cell phones were kept in the closet. And the game begin, truth and dare. Damn this girl had the best ones in the world. And soon You, Hoseok and Eric were tipsy. When the bottle stopped at Hyunjin and he chose dare "Do the pepero with...um... Eric Hyung!" Hoseok said smirking

"why me!" Eric whined.

"Cause I said so" Hoseok pipped "use the french fries"

And then A french fry was seen each end on Eric and Hyunjin's lips. Hyunjin started advancing but Eric almost screeched and stepped back. As a punishment, they were made to dance to baby shark.

Soon the bottle turned to Amber and she chose dare only to see Hyunjin smirking. "Do the pepero with y/n Noona"

"Hyunjin! Do it yourself!" You said whining. Yet you ended up being a tipsy giggling mess.

"C'mon, c'mon. Get up." Amber stood and held out her hand. Which you gladly took and she pulled you up. Looking deep into your eyes, she could find the admiration there, being someone who easily got drunk you couldn't hide your feelings at that moment, but, you couldn't even process so much in your brain at that point either so you just looked back into her eye, almost getting lost in them.

"I don't wanna dance to baby shark, so lets do this" she said and you nodded and you held the french fry in your mouth. You could feel your heart going wild, as you could feel it might leap out of your body at any second. She looked deep into your eyes and bit on the end of the fry, little by little, never breaking eye contact. Even the other three were stunt and quiet, not like you remembered they were there. As her face and her lips came closer, your heart beat quickened even more, and you could feel her breath fanning on your face. A little bit more and then, her lips would be exactly where you'd wanted it and as if reading your thoughts.

She did it.

Her lips were on yours, they were so softer than you've ever imagined. You felt her tongue brush against you lips as she cut of the fry and you just stood their eyes closed, awes struck, heart almost in hand. As the others cat called, but J-Hope stopped abruptly and asked if you were okay. You nodded and looked at Amber who was busy with her drink, you smiled to yourself and sat down.

The night went on as you guys all kept talking about different stories from your lives. You and Hyunjin shared the various moments you've shared while you worked for JYPE for a year and a what not. Through the night you often felt your eyes drifting off towards Amber who mostly was already looking at you and diverts her eyes as soon as she got caught.

You all talked untill all of you dropped sleepy one by one, J-Hope, was followed by Eric and you were next. You never knew what happened then, only a ghostly feeling on your cheek.

The morning found all the 5 of you huddled up. Hoseok was hugging a pillow and Eric was hugging Amber's legs, you got up to find Hyunjin, walking in it an americano and a (your favourite beverage).

"You went out?" You whispered looking at the take away cups.

He nodded, and motioned you to get up. As you went near him he whispered for you to get ready to go for a walk. You found Hyunjin waiting near the door.

"wait. Did you get coffee for the others?" You asked.

"Yeah, I did" Hyunjin asked smiling.

"Your the best" you said side hugging him. It was common for you and Hyunie since you've known him for along time. You both sat on a rock.

"The Alicante sea is just different. No matter how many times I come here it feels so refreshing" it was also chilly so you sat closer to Hyunjin and he hugged you.

"Do you like her?" He asked abruptly.

"What? Who?" You asked looking at her.

"You know who" He said

"I do. I just understood that yesterday during the..." You didn't know what to call it.

"Kiss?" Hyunjin finished.

"It wasn't a kiss" you said pouting. And Hyunjin laughed. After sitting and chatting a bit more Hyunjin finally told you. "You know, She kissed you on the cheek. She might have thought all of us were asleep. But I was awake." He said smiling like a kid. Thats when you realised what that ghost touch on your cheek was from last night. You felt a blush rush to your cheeks and nodded your head as you hid you face in your palms.

"Look at you blushing" Hyunjin teased. And got up looking at the time, you all were supposed to drive back today. You both planned on entering the house silently, incase the three were still sleeping, how ever stopped at the entrance to hear a conversation. You knew the voices belonged to Amber and Eric.

E- What do you mean?

A- Exactly what I said, Eric. Besides, I am straight, it was just a drunk thing.

E- But, what about the kiss?

A- It wasn't a kiss, it was just a STUPID GAME!

You smiled to yourself, and opend and closed the main door again, this time making a noise.

"We're home!" You shouted. Hyunjin just looked at you.

"Hey guys! Thanks for the coffee" Eric said.

"Where's Hobi?" You asked as you fully entered the corridor that they both were in.

"He's still knocked off" Amber said and chuckled. You couldn't bring yourself to look at her and so you ignored eye contact with her and went upstairs to wake Hobi up.

"Hobi oppa! Get up" you called and shook the older man who groaned in response.

"I have Americano~" you sang and be immediately perked up, trying to reach for the cup. And you smiled at him pulling him to sit up.

"You look dishevelled" You told him

"You still look pretty" Hoseok said, making you smile.

"So I sent our pictures to our gang and Jamie and BM are dying to meet you" Eric said entering the room.

"I like BM!" Hoseok said.

"I'll surely tell you when I go to America, but I'll be returning with Hobi and Hyunjin to Seoul. I miss you mom!" You said fake crying.

"I swear next time I go to Seoul, the first thing I do is go to your mom's restaurant" Amber said sitting beside you and you nodded, trying to smile.

The rest of the week, you tried your best to avoid direct contact with Amber, with the help of Hyunjin and J-Hope (who was told everything by Hyunjin). If Amber noticed it, she didn't acknowledge it, or may be didn't notice it.

You've cried to yourself that night remembering her worlds, untill you played some songs to lull you to sleep.

In your way to flight, none of the 3 of you spoke about the woman, who you were trying to avoid to even think of. They both actually engaged you in various topic about their members and practices and how they needed this week.

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(A FEW MONTHS LATER)

Yes, you have kept in touch with Eric and talked often on various media who also introduced you to Jamie Park and BM. You have actually met BM during an M-Net event and became friends quickly. Amber had also spoken to you but it always limited to a few texts and the conversation died down quick. She has also been to Seoul and did come to your restaurant, but you were away for a project and were thankful that you didn't have to see her.

You've met so many artists and actors of different origins, yet you can't take the thought of that certain Asian-American woman out of your mind. And you drained yourself in work, be it at office or in your mom's restaurant. Even Hyunjin, Changbin and Hoseok, Namjoon were tensed, to see you over work yourself. Each of whom have tried to make you take rest. Where Changbin and Hyunjin even resorted to tying you down to a chair, with the help of Wooyoung and forcing you to spend a day doing nothing, with them.

Finally, you gave yourself a break when your manager told that you have an upcoming project for around 1 to 1.5 months in Newark.

As you left the Newark Liberty International Airport speaking on the phone "And why are you here again?" You asked an excited Eric.

"Because I want to see you, Jamie want to you, see you and we have nothing better to do!"

"Okay I'm waiting near Gate 2 come quick" You said smiling and laughing at the elder guy's behaviour.

"Y/n!!” you heard a dound you've heard multiple times over facetime.

"Jamie!!!!” you ran towards her and hugged her as Eric reach for your trolley and hugged you as well.

"Lets drop your stuff at the hotel and then I'm taking you to this awesome burger joint I found when I was here for tour" Eric said with his regular habit of getting over enthusiastic. You've got to know him more over the few moths. Even Hoseok and the others facetime you often.

As you entered the hotel, you failed to notice a slim figure on the side couches keeping an eye at you and the other two. Whom Jamie saw and showed a thumbs up behind your back.

They said they were settled in and will wait for you at the lobby. You went up the elevator and went to find your room. As you did, you slid the key card and pulled your luggages inside. You were about to go and close the door, only to find a very known figure standing infront of you.

"Hey Stranger" she said and entered, your room "Should I close the door?" She asked. You nodded, still too stunt to speak.

"So I guess we need to talk" she said, you finally found your voice back and asked "We do?"

"Yeah" she said walking close to you. And took a seat on the bed and patted the spot beside her. You did as she said and she started "Why have you been ignoring me?"

"I... Haven't?" You wanted to sound firm, but it came out as more of a question.

"Did I do something? Say something to upset you?"

"No Amber. You didn't I was just busy and our timings didn't click"

"Do you like Eric?" She asked

"WHAT? NO! ARE YOU CRAZY! WHY would you think that?" You exasperated.

"May be because you're free for him but busy for me, when we both texted you at the same time!" She exclaimed.

"Its not like that" you said, not understanding what to say.

"Do you not dislike me? Is that why Hyunjin said that if you're not talking to me I should just let it go? Y/n do you hate me?" She asked now serious you can see her eyes get glassy.

And you didn't know what to say except "No Amber I-I don't hate you."

"Really cause the way your showing it seem-" you didn't let her finish

"CAUSE I LIKE YOU OKAY! I LIKE YOU SO MUCH THAT LOOKING AT YOU WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO BE CLOSE TO YOU PAINS ME!" yes, you just poured your heart out. And she kept looking at you, aww struck.

"But- then why-" she stuttered

"Because I know you're straight and you're not into non-idols" you said smiling

"WHAT?! WHO TOLD YOU THESE STUFF?!" she said awestruck.

"You did. I mean not to me, but Hyunjin and I heard you speak to Eric that morning. And you said in the Daebak Show that dating non-idols is difficult. So I figured" you said and shrugged. But Amber just looked into your eyes and suddenly grabbed you by our neck and crashed her lips on yours. Scratch butterflies, you felt a whole damn zoo in your stomach and Amber pulled you closer. And something about the kiss said that she was as much eager to do this as you, she tried her best to let you know her emotions through the kiss, as if your both lives depended on it.

"I like you too you pabo!" She said finally parting "I had a feeling you heard it that morning, I'm sorry, I saw you and Hyunjin get so close I thought may be you guys were a thing and I didn't know if you swing this way. So I lied to Eric and Myself. I wasn't sure of what I was feeling. But, when you stopped talking to me, I knew, I was in deep for you"

"Me and Hyunjin?" You laughed. "I am bisexual, if you didn't know"

"I know!" She said

"How?"

"Hobi told me" she said giving an alpaca like grin.

"That rat!" You said squint.

She laughed and made you look into her eyes using a finger under your chin.

"Be mine" she said

"I thought you'd never ask" you said smiling. And tackled her into a hug which she wasn't ready and dropped onto your bed both laughing as she tried to tickle you.

Untill you suddenly heard a knock followed by Eric's voice "I'd hate to interfere, but if you guys are done making babies can we go for some burgers and beer"

You both looked at each other and laughed. And went out of the room hand in hand.

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