#if you are spiraling start here

[sleepfight]

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#roe v wade #abortion resource #if you are spiraling start here #very simple and to the point

[taxinealkaloids]

i love the tower princes. i love that there’s absolutely no way in hell that this friendship is even remotely good for either of them. love that they assuredly are making each other SO much worse with every second they spend together. 

#tlt #the locked tomb #ntn spoilers #my art #anyway ever think about how the empire of the nine houses is pretty much singlehandedly being run by ianthe #and not only are the 2 people who are supposed to outrank her no help at all #they're actually actively detrimental to the empire's functioning as they are both deep in their depression spirals #and won't stop trying to start the apocalypse like they wanna start the apocalypse so BAD!! and ianthe doesn't even want to #be saving the world. girl wants to be villainous. she's stopping the apocalypse with an air of 'UGH i have to do EVERYTHING around here' #you really can't blame her for needing a chew toy. luckily kiriona is right there and she's basically a professional chew toy. #she's used to it. who knows what she'd even do with herself if no one was chomping on her. so it works out!! (not)

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

3x9 | 5x8 

#screaming #oh my freaking god #still spiraling #started from the bottom now we're here #im not crying you are #growth #sobbing #chenford #chenfordedit #tim x lucy #tim bradford #lucy chen #melissa o’neil #eric winter #the rookie #3x9 #5x8 #i cant #gif #gifs #gifset

[evelynn-writes-nsft]

oh no, she's too big to fit in my pussy? their favourite strap is too long for me? her cock's too thick? the head's too big to get between my teeth? she wants to try a toy we know is too large for certain acts to be possible?

i'm definitely not drooling at the thought of all the ways we could work with or around things like that ^_^

what a shame, oh woe. they'll just have to settle for fucking my soft thighs while i sit on their lap and whisper encouragement and praise and bite their neck. or for enjoying my hands or a fleshlight or wand i'm holding. or getting to watch me kneel and letting her fuck my breasts and kissing the tip when it's close enough because "darling you're so big~~~".

that totally wouldn't be amazing for them, would it? 💝

deeefinitely not going to make someone feel like a god, hmm?

#i feel like some pre-op and early-post-op trans women get too anxious about depth and width and potential partners. #because there are a tonne of insanely hot and intimate ways to please your partner even if penetration is impossible! #this one also goes out to my oomfies who have chronic pain and sometimes have difficulty opening our mouths enough on a lot of days <3 #and to any people with natal vaginas who can relate to anxieties about pain and depth and tightness too. this isn't unique to transfems. #so here's some positivity about that! love y'all. don't encourage those anxiety/dysphoria spirals when they start. you're perfect. #our worth to someone else isn't defined by whether or not that person can penetrate us- #-and if anyone treats you like it is then they don't deserve you! #nsft textpost #trans nsft #sapphic nsft #lesbian nsft #enbylw #enby nsft #genuine #queer nsft

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet! #here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress! #you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better' #i Immediately started doing Worse! #i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now! #okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um. #i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually. #love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me. #perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that! #with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!! #gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

[lollytea]

I do love the netflix avatar in my own way because it provides me with enrichment in the same way brain puzzles do for chimps. Like something is WRONG here and it's your very special job to figure out why! And then you will get juice reward!!

#its been making me think about the cartoon a lot lately for the sake of comparing and contrasting #so thats great #it was a very good cartoon #i do actually think that its stupid to complain about how its objectively bad when an adaption makes changes to the original #because that SHOULD be the point of an adaption. to try things in a new way and somehow improve on the story #but i think its funny how this show is constantly like ''we're gonna take a DIFFERENT route with this character'' #and then the DIFFERENT ROUTE leads to them driving the car off a cliff #we will not get to our destination this way bestie #out of all the changes theyve made to the original i think the most misguided and overall dogshit is how theyre portraying Azula #it annoying when people say ''theyre ACTUALLY writing her as a victim of her father's abuse this this'' #''shes ACTUALLY sympathetic this time'' #girl i hate it here #netflix show is a COWARD for showing Azula this way in season 1 #not that its not somewhat in character. if ozai started playing mindgames with her she probably would start spiraling like this #the problem is that we shouldnt be SEEING IT!! #avatar is regarded as Baby's First Media Analysis for a lot of people #and boy oh boy there was a lot of analytic meat to Azula's character #but the netflix version? this is a skeleton!! bones!!! #like obviously if you were watching the cartoon as an adult it would be immediately apparent #that this 14 yo girl acting not only like a grown woman but a calm calculated genocidal tyrant is very concerning #and it makes her sympathetic by defualt on the grounds of being a child #but a kid isnt going to realize that!! Azula is supposed to be polarizing!! #youre meant to buy into the narrative that everything is easy for her. that no effort troubles her mind #her unflappable nature is meant to unsettle you. intimidate you. she has no weaknesses shes unstoppable and shes pure evil #as a kid who is still learning how to think deeply about things thats how youre to perceive her #and then. AND THEN!! then the show pulls the rug out from under you and makes you question everything #Azula's gradually unraveling sanity in book 3 is jarring and unnatural and it forces you to challenge your own opinion of her #you become uncomfortably aware that shes a victim too. after all this time youve spent hating her #just like zuko. just like the fire family child that you had already come to realize was ''actually good'' #after that first watch its hard to decide how you feel about her. as a kid anyway. but its sad. its all so very sad

[ox1-lovesick]

hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow) #is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER) #I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

[zukkaoru]

grace would u care to share more about what u think the tsumikirara dynamic is like 🎤 (ur a visionary btw)

(manga spoilers under cut)

YES okay so. i think what's most important to me at the core is that they help each other grow. tsumiki teaches kirara about makeup and other girly things, she invites kirara to slumber parties and spa nights with her friends, she gives a kirara a chance to just be a normal girl, which is something kirara never got since they started transitioning after transferring to jujutsu high. and in turn, kirara helps tsumiki see that she doesn't need to be the Perfect Golden Child. she doesn't need to be megumi's perfect role model, or the straight-a student who has never done anything wrong in her life. she's allowed to be a person just as much as kirara is, just as much as megumi and gojo are. and they also help tsumiki falsely see that being a sorcerer doesn't have to be as tragic as megumi and gojo seem to think it is. sorcerers can still have meaningful relationships, and it isn't always doom and gloom - because kirara is happy when they're with tsumiki. and of course, there's still the underlying knowledge that sorcerers tend to die early deaths and the higher ups don't like kirara because of their technique, but kirara is quite a bit more optimistic about everything than gojo and megumi are, and at least for a little while, both kirara and tsumiki believe they can be happy together.

i imagine gojo introduces them either in kirara's first or second year bc either they want to learn how to do makeup and gojo's like i know just the person!! or gojo just. senses that kirara is wanting more friends who are girls bc kirara's never really had any friends who are girls before so he's like hmmmm i happen to know a girl who is about kirara's age!

so anyway gojo introduces them and they really hit it off. they both like stars/outer space and it's nice for kirara to have a friend who isn't a sorcerer and is just a normal girl and tsumiki is excited to have a friend who is a sorcerer bc megumi and gojo are both pretty tight-lipped about sorcerer stuff around her (bc they don't want to worry her.. it's not exactly working) and originally, my thoughts were "and then they become best friends ❤️" but the sapphic rarepair enthusiast that lives in my mind was like ".......but what if they kissed about it? 👀" so. i think they should kiss. and no one really knows they're dating and they don't exactly put a label on it but like.. the feelings are There. megumi is Not a Fan and he pretends it's because he's not a fan of kirara but the truth is he doesn't want tsumiki involved in jujutsu society any more than she has to be bc he doesn't want her getting hurt. but he knows they're dating-not-dating and hakari also knows and they're. the only ones.

canon compliant tsumikirara would be tragic bc. what relationship isn't tragic in jjk? i imagine kirara is one of like. three people who visits tsumiki while she's in a coma. megumi of course visits her all the time, gojo does sparingly bc he feels guilty when he doesn't but he also feels guilty when he does. kirara tries to visit as regularly as they can and talks to her about everything that's happening and what she's missing out on etc, etc,, and they visit tsumiki one last time before they and hakari leave jujutsu high and apologize for leaving - they don't regret leaving jujutsu high but they regret that they'll have to leave tsumiki too. they reunite after "tsumiki" wakes up, and kirara can kinda tell something is Off, but they write it off as the fact that it's been over a year and a half since they've Actually spoken to each other and the fact that the world is in shambles and the fact that they're dating hakari now so like.. Awkward, right? it's supposed to be awkward? this is normal yeah this is normal everything is fine--

BUT! then there's the potential for non-canon compliance and this is where things get fun. this is where i take all the jjk characters and make them barbie dolls with which i play out a soap opera sitcom.

SO in an au where the culling games never happen (maybe shibuya never happens also) and tsumiki wakes up from her coma as herself, there's an adjustment period bc kirara is dating hakari but like.. they never truly got over tsumiki and both them and hakari know that. tsumiki thinks kirara has moved on and is sad but also like yeah that's fair i was in a coma for a while i can't blame them. but eventually they work out the fact that kirara has two hands and then hakari and tsumiki end up being besties too so tsumikirara and hakira can co-exist ❤️

megumi hates this. so much. solely because of all people, hakari is involved. it's very important to me that hakari thinks megumi is the cringest person to ever walk the earth and also he thinks tsumiki is the coolest. this is true in every universe; i know it in my heart. also it's so funny and jjk is a comedy if i play pretend hard enough. so megumi and hakari have the dynamic of that one scene in gravity falls where dipper and robbie glare at each other while wendy's back is turned but the Moment she looks at them, they pretend they're besties. that is megumi and hakari. they will throw punches when tsumiki isn't looking but as soon as her eyes are on them, they're best friends who enjoy each other's company very much thank you :)

anyway at the end of the day tsumiki and kirara are just two girls (gender neutral) who look at the stars together and help each other grow and even if the ending is tragic, for a little while, they made each other happy. for a little while, they were twinkling stars illuminating each other's worlds

#thank you for coming to my tedtalk #tsumikirara #jjk #tsumiki fushiguro #kirara hoshi #listen i just think the tsumiki kirara hakari dynamic would be fun and give megumi daily aneurysms #but also i truly do think tsumiki and kirara would get along even if it's strictly platonic #this started after a one-off comment in a fic i have yet to finish where megumi tells kirara that tsumiki would teach them how to do #makeup if they wanted and kirara is like 👉👈 yes please #and it has since. spiraled. as you can see #hello grace here #anyway don't mind me answering this ask at work sdfghjk #moth tag #asks

[theteapotofdoom]

Going through something hella specific at the moment

#penny dreadful #IM CRAZY IM CRAZY IM FUCKING CRAZY YOU DON’T EVEN KNOOOOOW #HOW WAS IT SO GOOD AND SO BAD AT THE TIME #THE THEMES!!! THE MOTIFS!!! THE ACTING!!! THE COSTUMES!!! THE SETS!!! AND YET!!! SO MANY BAD EPICALLY BAD WRITING MOMENTS!!! #that’s not even going into the final season because that was honestly a crime 😔 and yet it had its moments BUT STILL A CRIME do you see wit #honestly still THE best Frankenstein adaptation of all time like everything with Victor and The Creature was just so 👌✨ no notes #and Vanessa Ives my beloved forever and always ❤️❤️❤️ #anyway I’m normal again #the spiral started because I visited the Natural History Museum of Lisbon and I was like #hmmm crazy Penny Dreadful vibes here

[stergeon]

Rating: Mature (horny)

Fandom: Fire Emblem: Three Houses

Relationship(s): Edelgard von Hresvelg/Byleth Eisner

Words: 11.5k (2 chapters out of, theoretically, 3)

There's a new professor of the Black Eagles house, but it's not the one Edelgard and Hubert had planned to take on the role—and to make matters worse, Edelgard knows her. She could never forget her, or a single moment of that hot summer night when they met in Enbarr.

Worst of all, the professor doesn't seem to remember Edelgard.

AU in which Byleth and Edelgard meet by chance a few months before the start of White Clouds.

#fe3h #fire emblem #fire emblem three houses #edelgard von hresvelg #edeleth #byleth eisner #byleth x edelgard #fire emblem fanfiction #fe3h fanfic #my loathe letter to the past perfect tense #hubert's here but only in chapter one and like for five seconds at the end of the story that is as of yet unwritten #this started out as an earnest attempt at writing smut but it ended up becoming almost 20k words before anyone even kissed sooooo #if we're being honest this is two character studies in a smut trenchcoat #with a dumbass framing device that just exists to twist a knife #fun fact: this actually was like the third fanfic i ever wrote. i started it not too long after wrapping up shared space #then it spiraled out of my control so i've been sitting on it #i dunno i think ~12k words of preamble to agreeing to have sex is fine. if that's not your scene that's on you #someday i might work up the courage to post the next part #but if you thought the purple prose and self-indulgent pseudointellectualism were bad in these two chapters i will warn you #i'm just getting started #i have not even scratched the surface of how unsexy i can make a purported sex scene

[whatthefuckisasweep]

if you or a loved one share a blorbo with me, you may be entitled to financial, emotional, spiritual, and physical compensation

#my art #LOOK AT ALL OF THEM #THEY ARE ALL SO IMPORTANT TO ME IN LIKE. A LOT OF DIFFERENT WAYS #i just started doodling some lil guys and then it spiraled into this #NOW I HAVE ALL OF THEM TOGETHER HERE AND IT MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY #look how different they all are in pERSONALITY BUT ALSO HOW SIMILAR AND !!! A AA ! !!! LOOK LOOK LOOK LOOK #i urge you all to draw your blorbos in a line -up . its healing for the SOULLLL #ill name them in order . #dexter grif... connor kenway...stanley uris... amir blumenfled(character)...matt(eddsworld)...vaughn (borderlands)... guillermo de la cruz #and the floating guy is beetlejuice FROM THE MUSICAL SPECIFICALLY!!!! #these represent my fixations for the past like 8-9 years SLDKGMSDLKMSDGSDG #try to “your type” me . i dare you #also if you share ANY of these with me . we can be friends. i will bite you (affectionate) #if you share 2 you are legally allowed to get free art from me . im handing you a coupon

[bitchthefuck1]

We as a society need to acknowledge the psychological toll of being the only woman in a friend group willing to argue back when the guys start saying sexist shit. I deserve financial compensation.

#I'm out here in the trenches with zero backup and the only prize i get is a text from a girlfriend after the fact saying i was right but she #didn't have the energy to argue it #someone give me a fucking medal #like in any other context I'd straight up stop hanging out with these people but i can't for Reasons so instead every few months i have to #undergo psychological terrorism over a group meal #it has actually been such a good demonstration of how men will prioritize patriarchal alliance over anything else bc this is a group of #people ive known for years and that i see weekly and the way they will throw me under the fucking bus to agree with a random guy someone #invited that none of them actually know is genuinely insane. good to know exactly how little you value me as an individual 👍 #actually tho I can't describe to you how fucking depressing it is to watch a male friend say something lightly misogynistic and then when #you provide the slightest bit of pushback they just all start to join in and double down and then because none of your other female friends #are willing to speak out they start to get more emboldened and the situation spirals a bit and you're literally standing there getting #dogged on as you're forced to confront the fact that on a fundamental level they dont see you as a real person

[jmrothwell]

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#yelling into the void #thinking out loud #may delete later #probably being a little melodramatic #but on evening where I feel the brink of a spiral #it is a considerable fear that once this project is complete #I will have nothing left to cling to and am more likely to succumb to to the whims to just vanish into the night #not in a kill myself sort of way but in a lets have another unprompted hiatus sort of way #these are all completely unfounded #I have more now than the last few times I did #actual friends more than acquaintances who I would not so easily justify a sudden dissapearance #it used to feel as though my impromptu projects were all that drove me #but that isn't true anymore #I only wish I could do more to show the gratitude for saving me more times than you may be even aware #That last one def sounds very melodramatic especially considering Ibjust said I was not actively suicidal #but I remember what it felt like the last time I even got close to it #and it all started with the small thought of what if I just vanish from this site...would anyone even notice? #Anyway......long rambling is long #Thank you again whether or not you read or see this but thank you for keeping me here

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[samsspambox]

Captain, you are a child of the universe.

No less than a tree or a star, you deserve to be here.

And whether or not it's clear to you, no doubt the universe is playing out as it should.

-Burt

#iswm #in space with markiplier #in space with markiplier 2 #spoilers #iswm spoilers #in space with markiplier spoilers #WHEN I TELL YOU I JUST ABOUT STARTED SOBBING #see i use space to fuel my anxiety spirals but sometimes i forget how much #of a mathematical anomaly it is that we're here #sam rambles

[lululeighsworld]

time for oc x canon week!! in addition to wanting to write GunterLeigh sickfic, this was inspired by the day 4 and 6 prompts, 'Caring for one another' and 'An intimate moment' (among other ideas that have been steeping in my brain for these two)!

Read the story on AO3

#gunter #fire emblem heroes #summoner oc #summoner leigh #summoner leigh/gunter #knightea #if you heard me screaming about random askr headcanons over the last few months it was probably related to this fic #was having many lightbulb moments while i was write this fic (if i see an opportunity to add in lil details then im gonna do it) #CUZ WHO KNOWS WHEN THE CHANCE WILL ARISE TO INCLUDE THEM AGAIN #initially this started out as purely sickfic but it quickly spiralled into 'okay i also want to include other characters' and also #'okay but there's so much relationship lore i can add to this beast' #ANYWAYS. HERE WE ARE. OVER 5K. that's the longest oneshot ive written in a hot minute. #if you read thank you so much <3 #gunter (fates) #fe heroes #my writing