#im going to be at work and i won't be able to post it tomorrow

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

I feel like actually shit like the entirety of last week getting to me. I wish I could have a moment of actual relaxation and not just me forgetting I have shit to do.

(Tag warning-> depressing talk, dark topics)

Might delete this idk..

#vent post #tag rambles #I have over 60 different things to fill out that I need to do by tomorrow and I forgot to do them. I feel so stupid #I actually hate having adhd #people try to make it out to be just a quirky thing that its not that big of a deal or anything #but it's not #it impairs on relationships #I struggle to remember important things that I need to do and even WANT to do. I struggle so bad #I even have fights with people about me being a “liar” even though I'm not #I just have a shit ass memory I feel useless 90% of the time and shit #gods and I doubt it's just me having adhd. Im pretty sure its my possibility of having bpd and autism #i show all symptoms of bpd and I relate far too much with autism videos #like this is stuff active in my daily life #people don't see it often due to have carefully Ive crafted.. this is going to sound a bit fannibal of me but literally a person suit #i swear a person suit #it's not even funny #gods i just wish I could function without getting all up and arms about how much of a pos I feel #if I don't get attention from.. basically.. my fp I get all sad and melancholy. i spiral #I'm pretty sure I have at least three fps #if I even have bpd #but gods #just so stupid how I can barely fucking function without all of these crutches #I'm not in a certian program anymore for a thing and now I can't fuction and work how I use to since it was a slower environment #I'm failing #like I won't be able to make it I feel like #not suicide or anything #just in things I wanted to do #feels like my future is doomed cause life keeps throwing curve balls at me #someone with at least two mental disabilities #i definitely have more

[arolesbianism]

So I may or may not have spent a good chunk of my day trying to learn how to look into onis code and while I may not have yet succeeded I will likely keep fucking around with shit tomorrow and if I manage to succeed it'll spell great doom for my sanity as oni becomes the interest I've officially poured the most effort into analyzing

#rat rambles #oni posting #for now I must sleep but hopefully tomorrow Ill figure out how to decompile files #the real question is going to be if Ill be able to do this on my shitty ass laptop or if Ill need to figure smth else out #I just want to be able to view stuff so ideally it won't make my laptop chug too bad but rly Im more worried abt space #I might have to try to do some cleanup and delete some shit maybe Ill go scan through the shit that came pre installed #and hey maybe if I can get this to work I can go mega hacker mode and tweak some stuff for funsies #probably wont since I don't wanna break my game and I dont trust myself but yknow #itd probably help if I actually retained any information from the Two programing classes I took when I was younger but alas #one of them was even specifically a video game programming class and lemme tell you I remember absolutely nothing #also from what little I was able to view without fancy applications I have no new info but I can finally fully put jean in the we 100% know #their last name zone cause while we definitely already 100% did Technically we only got jea- for first name confirmation #but theyre referred to as jean in a note in a bio bot story traits file ty whoever added the notes there #god I hope theres other notes in the files I want to read those so bad #btw this was all spurred by that one nails log that disappeared cause I have found a file that looks like it but I cant fully view it #and I desperately need to view it I need to view it #also if I can look in the code then in theory itll make copying down all the lore logs easier #also the datamining thread of the forums hasnt been particularly active so who knows maybe I can become a proper dataminer #(<- will not do that probably unless it turns out to be easier than I thought) #but admittedly I am interested in hunting for potential future update content even if I probably won't hunt too hard for it #again Im mostly just hunting for lore #hey maybe if Im lucky Ill find some genuinely new and usable information in that department #maybe the secrets of b363 and dr. holland lie in the files ooooo (they probably dont) #man it'd be nice if I had a proper pc itd make my life so much easier and my desk feel less enpty lol #in a world where I get to play videogames at a higher framerate than 10fps #I mean we do have some older computers laying around the house although theyre probably also crusty pieces of shit #idk maybe I can see if I can salvage one itd be nice to have a proper computer to fuck about with #Im sure my mom wouldn't mind as long as its one that hasnt been touched in years #which tbf I dont know how many options thatd leave me but we at least have one computer that could theoretically be usable #albiet its definitely packed with viruses from me and my siblings being dumb kids

[monstersqueen]

no seriously how am i supposed to resist this mix of resentment and hope and heartbreak and loyalty and history and trust and also murder attempts.

#myposts #bed ! now! i have work tomorrow ! i mean in the morning ! #also if i wait too much longer my teeth are going to start aching again and then i won't be able to sleep ! #so ! bed ! NOW! #:((( i want to cry over dazai and ango and dazia and odasaku and ango some more though :(((( #work tomorrow though:(( i mean in the morning :((( #also fuck im tired... #but.... #so fucking tired... #should hit post and go to bed .... #:((((( good night :(((((

[ria-starstruck]

for something that i only just figured out how to add the audio to properly so i don’t have to play song on my phone with one hand and start animatic playing with the other, this animatic looks surprisingly synced up with the audio so far!

#who knew i could trust my hand eye coordination that much huh! #i wonder how most ppl do workflow w animatics...i did thumbnails first ofc because they r my besties and i cannot without them and then i #drew the first part which while it needs to be synced up to the music it's not nearly as important as the next part(s) #but instead of starting on the next parts i started messing around w the syncing and stuff? and the like...hold vs key frames or whatever #but this is actually way easier than i thought it would be #it gives me much hope for other animatics i want 2 do like the mili one!! #and ofc my personal oc animatics i am sooo excited to put my blorbos to music #it's funny bc one of them is literally what im doing a whole webcomic about go figure. i finish the webcomic then i'll post the animatic and #be like tl;dr hdsflsfdkjsdfj #anyway #not art #idk when i'll be able to work on the animatic again bc this was my rest day so i could get a lot done! but that won't necessarily be possibl #tomorrow

[lucy4-ever]

nsfw headcanons about tom kaulitz

!all NSFW!

loves teasing!!

he's the horniest guy you've ever met

as he said, he doesn't really like girls that overthink every single things, espicially in bed

so depending on your relationship with you, he'll fuck you differently

if youre his serious gf, he'll keep praising and moaning

he'd enjoy giving you head and you giving him head

and he'll be wayyyy more romantic

if youre just fuckbuddies, he'll just do the job and wont make any sounds except some groans, cause he doesn't want to be seen as vulnerable

and he'd just be a receiver, not much of a giver

anyway

he likes every position

but he really loves positions where he has a great view on him fucking you

cause he really likes to see it, it turns him on :)

he'd kinda priviledge his pleasure though

now if we're being honest, he'd be a great shot in both casual hookups and couple sex

like you'd cum very hard multiple times in both situations

has a size kink FOR SURE

would love when he sees you struggle to suck because of the length

loves the clapping sounds 😧

when HE'S HORNY, HE'S A FCKING BEAST

he's always asking again and again for more rounds

he loves anal too

he loves seeing you on your knees, naked chest and innocent eyes

he'll pull out and ask you to say what you want, like :

"baby, tell me what you want? you want me to fuck huh? are you sure you want to? i don't want to hurt you"

he'd smirk while jerking off and would put it back in once you answered

he lovesssss your ass

now as you know, he has a LOT of experience

so he knows exactly how to eat out, how to finger and how to fuck you

now, i think one thing that made you his serious gf is that you made him feel better than he ever had in bed

he loves making out and getting touchy

like out of nowhere, when youre bored or when he's bored

you'll come to him and just sit on his laps while he's working

knowing him, he'll immediatly gets distracted and would happily fuck the shit outta you for being a tease

he lovessss brats

you love provocating him with tight clothes, when you implicitely want to tell him. you need to fuck

you love playing the hard to get even tho you're in TOTAL HEAT

just to tease him

if you just say the words "im horny", "i need you", "fuck me" you won't be able to walk tomorrow

he's going FERAL when you ask him randomly to fuck you, and would gladly

it turns him on SO MUCH, he'll fuck you all night long

you definitly already sucked him off at the cinema and in tons of innapropriate places

bathroom sex's somthing you two love because of the adrenaline of being caught by members of the group

he doesn't always do aftercare

but if it happens and you get to clean yourselves

you are definetly fucking again in the shower

you love bothering him during work, in trying to get him to fuck you

like, he was working and you just came in lingeries at his desk

he had headphones on and was on a call with band's members

you slipped under the table to start giving him a handjobe

and he loved it, espicailly that he had to hide it

he ended up giving up and just leaving the call to take you on his laps and he kept calling you a whore for it

"what was my favorite bitch (like he has other 😒) doing to me under the table uh?"

"that's very cunty of you"

"what is it you want from me, whore?"

"you want my huge cock right? yeah you dirty pretty slut"

and well, you fucked all night

litteraly

you didnt go to college and he took his day off to the studio, excusing a sickness

but everyone knew why tom took days off, because he had too much fun the night before

overall he's a great horny bf 😙

author's note : that was funny to write, kinda want to do a part 2 :D

thank you so much for the likes on my other posts, you guys are so sweet!! and if you have any ideas pls give me IM CRAVING!!

love yaaaa!! 💕

#tokio hotel #smut #tom kaulitz #headcanons #reader x tom kaulitz #tom kaulitz smut #headcanon #tom kaulitz headcanons

[bunnystalker]

this is just a little domestic blurb, i don't really have titles for things like this or really any fanfic that i write. as i post more that will change as i continue writing and expanding my master list. anyways.

cw; fluff, domestic fluff sort of, lap sitting, reading, books mentioned but not really read, touchy wesker, non-specified romantic relationship, alcohol, alcohol mentions, written under the influence (im going to be honest most things from here on out will probably be written under the influence...)

pet names; dove, dear, my darling (reader receiving)

albert only asks you to sit on his lap after a long day. at home, he'll try to brush off his exhaustion, but you can see it. his shoulders are tense and his posture is slightly slouched. he does try to hide the fact that he gets tired, embarrassed that he's even gotten tired at all. he should be better, right?

he'll take his overcoat off and hang it up by the door as you ask him about his day, and he'll give you the same response as always.

"work was fine, dove." despite his want to tell you everything, he can't. that would jeopardize you, and he simply won't have that. so he compartmentalizes, saves it for later knowing that "later" is never.

he'll sit at the bottom of the steps to remove his shoes as you lean against the dark wooden railing and tell him about your day at work. hearing of your own endeavors makes his heart clench. after all, he's told you time after time that you don't need to work, that he'll take care of the both of you. of course, you want your own safe haven and truthfully, you'd feel out of place without a job or some kind of career, even if you don't need it.

the two of you will eventually find yourselves in the cool atmosphere of your living room. albert would have gotten himself a glass of wine- Louis Latour Beaune Pierreres Primier Cru, aka very expensive Pinot Noir- to sip while he sits and reads. you grab a glass as well, as he'd offered you some when pouring it, and who are you to say no?

he doesn't ask you to sit on his lap, more often than not it's that he'll guide you to when you go to sit down.

"dear," he'll say as you approach the couch, you in a dress shirt you "borrowed" from his closet and comfortable lounge shorts that leave your legs on display, and set his glass of wine aside. he holds out his hand for you to take, which you do because he's trained you well enough by now, and uses his other hand to gently pull you by the hips on to his lap. the action itself makes you melt. you know nothing is expected of you when you're sat on his lap. he enjoys the weight of you, how it makes him feel more human and less distant from reality.

he does, however, want to keep reading, so he always has you sit so your back is against his chest. his chin comes to rest on your shoulder, his arm wrapped around your waist, and he grabs his book once more to continue reading. like a doll, you stay there while sipping your glass of wine, a muted warmth in your chest. his fingers play with the hem of your shirt, slipping under it to feel your warmth. you'd shudder and that would earn you a soft smile. he's hardly paying attention to the book in his hand, instead focusing on the beating of your heart and the soft flesh of your waist. he'll press his face against your neck and inhale slowly, savoring your scent. he'll set his book aside and press you flush with his chest, relaxing back into the couch as he breathes you in.

"bad day?" you'd ask, a soft smile playing at your lips. he presses a kiss to the nape of your neck and hums.

"not anymore, my darling." he says against your neck, his other arm snaking around your waist in a secure grip.

this, this intimacy and ability to let things go, to be able to relax with you, is something he's been missing for a long time. he's never so affectionate, so this is a nice change of pace. you know to savor it, as tomorrow he will return to simply holding your hand, even in the privacy of your own home.

#albert wesker x reader #resident evil #albert wesker #albert wesker x you #fluff #albert wesker fluff #albert wesker i love youuuu #resident evil fanfiction #resident evil 1 #writing #resident evil i love youu #bunnystalker ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡ #bunny's blurbs✧˖ °

[liaximagines]

Could I request Midori x gn reader, like where he has a soft spot for the reader? Well as ‘soft’ as Midori could really get,, thank you!!!

SOU 'MIDORI' HIYORI HAVING SOFT SPOT FOR HIS S/O

👗So at the very start let's settle a small little thing. Midori HAS a heart, just a cold one, but he's able to be soft once some bond is between the two of you.

👗I feel like he was spoiled rotten by "mamadori" (nickname i use for his mother LOL) when he was little and overall very loved by her. Same goes towards her, he ADORES his mom. In conclusion, if Sou were supposed to be soft to you, you'd probably remind him of his mother a bit!

👗Now let's get straight to the point. Midori's behavior won't change completely, he'll still tease you, lovingly bully you or play some silly pranks on you, BUT he'll have more mercy for you than for the others he "bully".

👗If you two move in together, expect him to be ALL over you. Sou might follow you around yours place like a lost puppy hdshs. His hands will probably hold your waist, hip etc. so you "won't get lost" in your own home ofc.🙄🙄

👗In public, Hiyori might hold your hand as you walk around together! On fancy dinner dates, once he slides his hand under the table, he might even trail his fingers over your leg gently.🤭 (Just to see ya flustered tho..)

👗If you're feeling down don't expect him to do much shit..he's kinda bad at cheering people up lmao. BUUT if he's feeling genuine enough, he'll sit down next to you, rub your back ond go like "Oh you poor thing..Worry less now! Life's gonna just get worse tomorrow ahaha!" So uh yeah lol.

👗If someone's talking shit about you, Sou's already getting ready to give 'em a consent form. He down bad for you frr.( off topic but I'd piss my pants tbh if a lettuce head bitch walked up to me and was like "do you know the asu naro vow?!??!?!" but hey at least hes cunty and hot)

👗If ya'll sleepin' together, he'll cuddle you like a teddy bear. Wherever and how you turn in your sleep, Sou will find a way to cuddle you just how he likes it. ^^

👗He may not seem like the type to enjoy being given orders to, but when it's you, HOHO HE LOVE IT!! Lettuce haired bitch will give you princess/prince treatment if you order him to.(Might even use ma'am/sir if you want ;3)

👗BUYS.YOU.GIFTS. From spoiled to spoiling. Name a thing, he'll get it. Midori's rich anyway so why not. Even if you not ask him to, he'll buy you clothes he thinks you would look good in. Makes you do a fashion show for him lmao.

👗Did I mention he loves to touch you???(ANY WAY POSSIBLE LOLL) Like hear me out, this man will pat your head everyday, not to mention that he kisses your cheek everytime before he leaves to work. While sitting next to each other he rubs your knuckles with his finger tips etc. So yeah, physical man lol(IN BED TOO JK JK)

HIIIIII, IM SORRY FOR NOT BEING ACTIVE BUT I WAS LAZY ASF LAST WEEKS LOLLL. BUUT IM GETTING SOME FREE TIME SOON SO I WILL POST MORE OFTENN. TYY FOR REQUEST YTTD CUZ I LOVE THESE REQUESTS<3 LOVE YOU!!🫶💙

#your turn to die x reader #yttd x reader #midori yttd #sou hiyori #sou hiyori x reader #your turn to die #yttd #your turn to shine

[milkweedman]

Thank you all for responding to the poll, it was very helpful ! I am going to put up a few things; I actually don't have a ton of handspun bc without my wheel I'm spinning much slower these days, but I do have some.

So im gonna put together a listing of

-some handspun

-some fleece

-a few handspun crochet or knit bags

-a couple of handmade spindles

-probably more rolags and batts than the other stuff

I'll be tagging it as "milkweedman sells" if you want to track or block these posts.

Also, please DM me rather than send asks if you're interested ! I likely won't accept commissions but you can ask if you'd like (I'm very busy but I may be able to make it work). Also, I will only be shipping to the US.

Thank you all so much for the support ❤️ gonna try and get a listing out today or tomorrow.

#milkweedman sells

[lunargrapejuice]

hello luna my love <33 how are you? i would love to participate in the blooming love event, it's so adorable!! also the diluc fics youve been posting recently are chefs kiss im eating them up hhh

info for the matchup event:

gender preference: male pls 🙏

about me: i'm rather introverted in general but lively in familiar company! it can take a bit for me to be comfortable but when i am i make jokes every other minute and i try my best to be the life of the conversation <3 i LOVE stoic men with my whole heart and i have a deep seated desire to be some guy's wife that he won't shut up about :")

prompt: either sundress or sunlight would be wonderful!

i match you with..

✿ alhaitham

“wait! grand sage, we - we weren’t finished.”

“acting grand sage,” alhaitham corrects, stopping in his pursuit to leave this conference room as quickly as possible. he would have thought by now they’d have learned that he doesn’t work outside of office hours and he had almost made it to the door but still they stopped him. “we will continue this tomorrow, during my office hours. my wife is waiting for me.”

he knows he doesn’t need to add that last part, he’s said it every time they wanted to keep him longer, nearly as much as he’s corrected those who keep forgetting the ‘acting’ part of his title but he just couldn’t help himself. and as he turned back around, making his way out the door without another word, he feels the corner of his lips tug upwards at the thought of you actually waiting for him.

it had become routine, he’d say. walking you to work in the morning before heading to the akademiya just for you to find your way there later in the day to walk home with him. the best part of a long work day as sage. life was so much simpler when he was just the scribe, it was easy to slip out of his office and head to wherever you were but as acting grand sage, that so many needed the attention of, it was much harder to get away with.

he hardly pays any mind to those he passes by on his way out the painted glass doors, shining bright blue in the sunlight, and heads down the path leading to where you always wait for him, near the flowerpot a bit away from where the researchers usually stood and argued. like every day, there you were leaning against the railing, admiring the flowers that had begun to bloom as spring set in.

at the sight of you in the blue and pink light, in a sundress he had yet to see you in before, he felt a flutter in his rib cage, like gentle satin wings knocking against him and drawing warmth from his heart. it wasn’t unusual for you to do this to him, not that you’d be able to tell by looking at him, but today it felt.. wilder. like the heat blossoming under his tight shirt was going to reach his ears.

“i see they had you for a bit of overtime today. a whole two minutes, how did you ever survive?” you tease the moment you look up and see him only a few steps away, making your way to his side and accepting his extended hand.

to your surprise he tugs you closer, enough so that you can smell the lingering scent of rose water and hibiscus clinging to him from his morning shower, feel the rise and fall of his steady breaths.

“it was easy knowing my beautiful wife was waiting for me.”

authors note: aaaaaaa rae <333 💕💖💓💞💖💕💕 i was so excited and giddy writting this🥰💕💖 im still feeling all gooey inside heheh. i've been doing much better, i hope you've been doing good!🥺💖 it always makes me so happy to see you in my notes and on my dash - just why are you so amazing fjdkdkdkdkd

thank you for waiting for me to do this🥺 i appriciate you and i really hoped you enjoy it! xoxoxo🥰💓💞💗💕💖💖

main masterlist | blooming love match ups

#blooming love match ups #was this enough emojis to show I adore you or nah lmao #al haitham x reader #al haitham #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact #alhaitham #alhaitham x reader

[whinlatter]

Any hint on when the next chapter is coming? cause IM SO EXCITED AND THIS NEEDS A COUNTDOWN !!! 🫶🏻

ok so! chapter 11! thank you sm for being excited! i'm excited, too!

i have had a few Qs in the inbox about when it's coming, so will give you the lay of the land here. basically i've got good news and bad news (depending on your perspective)...

the good news is - the plan is to share it next week at the latest, and possibly earlier, if i get the stuff done tomorrow that i'm hoping to. if the last chapter was the party, this chapter is the hangover, and it's all blowing up, babyyy. this chapter has some of my favourite scenes i've written in it, including some that have been written for absolutely ages, and it was an absolute treat to write it. the only reason it isn't out already is that i got cold feet about how well it worked as a standalone chapter having cut the original chapter ten in two and posting part one as chapter ten. i felt the part of the original chapter that became chapter 10 worked much better as a standalone chapter (including with a crescendo to a cliffhanger), but the remaining part needed a bit more shaping and restructuring if it was to work as a proper chapter in its own right. so since posting chapter 10 i've been rewriting and reshaping what was the second half of chapter 10/now chapter 11 so that it works better on its own. i think it's much better for it, and also has given me more space and breathing room to add some new scenes and develop others.

the bad news is - after i've posted chapter 11 i'm probably not going to be able to guarantee an update for chapter 12 until january. i've been updating with long chapters pretty regularly once a month since march, and i don't want to hang onto chapter 11 arbitrarily when it's basically done/just to post it mid-december to stick to schedule. but this does mean i won't be sharing another chapter (chapter 12) in december, in all likelihood. this is mostly because i've got a big real life phd dissertation full draft deadline at the end of the year (still amusing to me that in both my job and in my hobby i am just scrabbling to put together overdue chapters i misguidedly promised people), so want to make sure i can make that deadline while still keeping the beasts train moving. it does also mean that in the timeline of the fic, we'll be at new year as actual new year happens, which is sort of satisfying to me in its own way. i hope this is a good enough deal - chapter 11 early (and it's a meaty one too) as a trade-off for having to wait a little bit longer for chapter 12? that's the plan in my mind at the moment, anyway.

thank you for asking anon & thank you for being all aboard the beasts train. can't wait to share chapter 11 with you very soon! 🫶

#beasts #chapter 11 #it's coming i'm just letting it soak #slash i'm just making ginny's hangover extra horrific

[sea-jello]

I WAS FUCKING STUPID BACK THEN THIS IS AN IRRELEVANT ANNOUNCEMENT WE CAN RELEASE IT BUT ILL KEEP IT UP ANYWAYS

dont mind anything beyond the line

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BMCBLR ANNOUNCEMENT

alright hey guys so due to copyright and licensing/money issues im frankly not very willing to deal with and neither is anyone else + a LOT of work for the music department if we rewrite the sheet music for the entire show, we'll be using some sheet music from the internet, which is another copyright issue in and of itself, and we most likely will not be able to release our remake to the public. i understand if you don't want to do this project if it's not going to be released and you can absolutely back out if you want, you don't have to feel obligated to give me a reason. i promise i won't judge you and im sure no one else will either

i probably would put it on a google drive and send it to the discord server, then post the server invite for whoever wants to see it, so they can join and leave after if they want. that way i think it's still technically private use between friends, as long as no one posts it. i know it's unfortunate but it's really the easiest thing we can do

speaking of i probably will be making a bmcblr discord server today or tomorrow, and another form sometime to make sure everyone is on the same page and to count the number of people for sure participating, so watch out for that

EDIT IGNORE WHAT I SAID WE MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET AROUND IT I DONT KNOW YET

#bmcblr remake #if i can get enough sheet music and okays from the music department then we should be good to go #still have to confirm things with potential visual editing and producing/directing departments and wait for future responses #and lord knows i don't have to confirm with the acting department #i might make a bmcblr blog too just so people can go there without having to scroll through my stuff #bmc #be more chill #bmc musical #be more chill musical #i feel so professional #look at us go evading the law

[osatokun]

went post

I woke up with a single thought in my brain - I got to get better in art. I have to draw more, think better and faster. I want to draw something better than my last year's kitchen family picture.And then better than this new picture ( if only I had ideas for something more detailed..)

If vampires is the only theme that made me want to have at least some ambitions, wanting me to grow as an artist, I'll stick with it as long as I can.I don't want to go back to the pit I were before. Drawing is the only thing I do,without it I don't feel like waking up even.

On the side note, oh my god I'm sick of being in debts. I don't want to constantly ove money anymore, want to keep everything in check. Want to be able to have vacations and want to have saving for expenses. Don't think three times *can I buy myself winter boots or I better don't go out for a whole winter?* . We're having first snow today, by the way.

Owning a few commissions at once also fucks me up. i want to start new ones as soon as I get paid.. I have four(and one very small) in list rn, but it's still too much. Im angry with myself for bad managing.

On the brighter note, tomorrow (im overstressed help) we might to finally discuss the ending of the Charlie's chronicle. Ofcourse I wanted to bring justice to the mummy-rapist who dared to touch Monica, I wanted to feel victory. But considering state everyone in, just a discussion is a much better option. And it's much better than just drop such a big and wonderful story and never talk about it again. We wont have a lot of time so its gonna be bare minimum but at least well figure out if these poor idiots died or survived. i know my friends are good people and they like me, but being unable to trust anyone , I'm constantly circling the worst endings in my head..

Yeah, trust issues. I have to work it out too or I won't be able to create a family of my own. Means I have to keep going on psychotherapy, means I have work more. Cmon Osa, time to wake up and draw commissions.

#A

[mvsicinthedvrk]

hello, this is very TINY post-event-15 starter call (because i'm going on hiatus for a 2.5-week vacation out of the country fairly soon & i know i won't be around a ton until the end of july). for that reason, i will probably be going through to request only a couple of post-event starters from other people for the time being, since i know my time will be limited over the next month.

but i do want to get some post-event plot stuff going for characters who have changed memory statuses!

xie lian -- newly unaware!

xie lian got dismembered (rip) and is waking up newly unaware. he lives in an apartment building (i'm still looking for a roommate for him, by the way!) and will still be working at sophie's flower shop, and will still remember your muse if they only met here in the city, but he's unaware of xianle, as well as being unaware of the heavenly realm & and everyone he met as a heavenly official.

7/7 starters for -- hua cheng, feng xin, xiao lanhua, josh washington, sophie hatter, claire redfield, shen qiao

wei wuxian -- newly aware!

wei wuxian was the first fallen (rip) and is waking up aware after having been killed at valentines day as well. so i'm mostly looking for him to be able to talk to his friends and family & be able to know them again, lmao, unless ur muse also died, in which case he will either bother them into remembering, or be a menace, one of the two. i should also mention that now he's fully aware thru end of series!!

8/8 starters for -- wen ning, lan jingyi, lan wangji, wen qing, elliot alderson, jin ling, nami, victoire weasley

**pei ming's newly-aware starters are unrelated to the event since he only got murdered normally (by a friend! how nice!), so i'm working on those tomorrow, and those will get posted asap.

for pei ming, from discord, i owe (8/8): shi qingxuan, rachel green, yushi huang, shi wudu, ling wen, bianca di angelo, ban yue, patrick blanco commerford.

and if you have a request for a starter from someone else given the happenings of event-related events, just send me a message on discord, im not opposed to doing other starters, but wei wuxian & xie lian are my focus at the moment. thank u for ur consideration

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To Raise Children: Chapter 28

Chris Evans X Daughter!Reader, Grandpa!Chris Evans X Flynn and Felix Evans (OCs) Tom Holland X Single-Mom!Reader (Slow Burn)

Series Masterlist

OC List

Series Summary: It's been 4 years, your sons are starting kindergarten, you're starting junior year of college, a lot has changed.

Chapter Summary: Getting ready to go to Virginia to see the Bennets.

Series Warnings: Age gap (Reader is 20, Tom is 29), absent father, mentions teen pregnancy, mentions abortion, if you see anymore please let me know politely.

Chapter Warnings: Sibling agreements and insults.

Sequel to "It Takes A village"

It's June. Not much has happened except the twins graduating kindergarten. On to other things! You have planned a trip to Virginia to meet the bennets. You were excited for the boys to meet their sister. You hoped they'd get along cause even if they don't know their dad you want them to know their siblings. They're excited too they've been talking about it for weeks. You're just happy you have one less stress now that school is out for a little while. You still had work obviously but now you have time to spend with the boys. You found them a free day camp that they'll go to until you're done working.

You wished you could spend every day of the summer with them but you need to work. You did have weekends off though. So you planned to have a lot of fun on them. Going to park, swimming, zoo, you also wanted to teach them to ride their bikes without training wheels.

"Mommy why didn't you put us up for adoption like Amelia's mom did?" Flynn asks as you begin packing their bags. You look at him unsure of what to say. You've talked to Amelia's bio mom. You like her she's really nice and you've gained a friendship with her. She's told you her story, you told her yours.

"Well, uhm I had your Poppy and everyone else all there to help me with you two, while Amelia's mom didn't have that. She wanted to give her baby a good life though so she gave her to Janet and Kevin because they could give her that life." You try to explain in a way that he'd understand. It wasn't a lie you really did have more support in your life. She was going to be kicked out and unlike you she didn't have another place to call home.

"Well why didn't she give her to you so that we could have a sister?" Felix asks.

"Because she didn't know about me or you two." You put your hands on their knees. "But gran did and she connected us so that you two could meet your sister!"

"Gran is the best!" Felix grins.

"She really is." You smile. "Okay your bags are packed!"

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"Dad we're meeting in public at a park. Multiple people will be there with us." You say into the phone as you drove to work. "I know your worried but even if we don't get along with them. They live close to washington DC we can go sight seeing."

"I know but Im just worried about you guys. I wish I could come with you." Chris says from the other side of the phone.

"I know."

"I wish you really would've taken Scott up on his offer to join you guys. I know you can take care of yourself but it is still dangerous." He says.

"I know... But it's too late the flight is tomorrow. It's only a week."

"Okay well keep me posted. How are the boys anyway?"

"They're so so excited. They can't wait to meet their sister." You say parking the car. "Oh dad I've been looking online at houses... I found a really nice one in Clinton. I won't be able to get it but when I don't have enough for a house I might look over there. I know the boys will have to change schools. But it really isn't far from you only like thirty minutes. And I looked at houses in Sudbury but they're so expensive."

"Okay. I am putting money away for it but I'm gonna wait till after I get a job at a salon. I need a steady income." You knew there was no rush. Chris didn't mind you there. He actually felt better having you there. Especially when he wasn't home. He knew someone taking care of his house and he knew you and his grandbabies were safe.

"Well when you are ready to buy a house I'll go with you to tour them!"

"Thanks dad. Okay I better get into work I'll call you later."

"Bye sweetie love you."

"Love you too bye dad." You hang up and climb out of your car. Luckily due to a shift change for the summer you're no longer working "rush hour" aka the time when everyone finishes work and school and come to Walmart to get last minute things for dinner. It's almost as bad as the weekends which you also got out of.

Except one, father's day weekend. You traded shifts with this older gentleman who you have worked with since you started here. He always spends father's day with his kids and grandkids. Normally he has it off and so do you but this year he got scheduled that day. Since your dad wasn't one you traded the day. Your grandma was going to babysit the twins for you so it should all work out.

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One night and a terrible flight later and you're in Virginia. The boys were terrible during the flight. First the fought over the window seat, then wouldn't agree on a movie, you had to switch seats with Flynn cause they kept fighting. It was only an hour though luckily. If it was any longer you probably would've snapped. They've been at eachother's throats all day though. Which is odd for them. Sure they argue and all but those don't last for hours. You're hoping they're just hungry. It was nearing lunch time and they haven't eaten since breakfast. You guys ate about an hour and half before your flight so it would make sense if they are.

"Stop touching me." Flynn pushes his brother away. You sigh looking at the two of them.

"You were touching me!" Felix argues pushing back

"Boys." You warn.

"He started it!" Felix says frowning.

"I don't care who started it. Go sit down while I get us an Uber." They nod and hurrying to sit on a bench.

"Now we're in trouble because of you."

"Nuh-uh! It's your fault." You looked back at them and they shut up looking at the floor.

"See." Flynn mutters before he plays with the toy he brought with him on the plane.

"Shuddup."

"Okay are you boys hungry?" You walk over to them.

"Yeah!" Flynn nods. Felix shrugs.

"Okay sweets we'll go to lunch after we get checked in at the hotel!"

"Are we meeting Amelia today?" Felix asks you standing from his seat.

"Yeah we're going to dinner with them!" You telling taking his seat and letting him sit on your lap.

"Yay."

"Now boys. Why have you been at each other's throats all morning?" You ask them.

"He's annoying!"

"Well your a butthead."

"No! You are."

"Enough."

"Sorry mommy."

"Sorry."

You can tell that this is going to be a long day.

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tips for dealing with chronic illness that i wish someone told me when i first got my diagnosis:

as a general rule, people aren't supposed to feel pain or distress every single day. try to compare your pain levels with other people's. even if it's "not that bad". even if you think something is normal

talk to other chronically people. find your community. reddit forums >>>> webmd

i cannot stress this enough check with your doctor if and or how your meds interact with each other, especially if you're starting a new medication

put your meds where you can see them, whether it's your bedside drawer or your desk or the kitchen table. stick post it notes everywhere you can see. set an alarm. set three alarms

for the love of fuck don't drink if your meds don't mix with alcohol. or at least drink responsibly. personally i find that im okay if i have one glass of wine or a beer after a full meal; if you do prioritise drinking over whatever side effects you will potentially have, drink responsibly

that being said, you're allowed to have nice things sometimes, whether it's drinks or a food you can't really eat, or going to bed later

if you need to spend a lot of time in bed, invest in a bedside drawer, or just put a spare chair next to your bed. stuff i try to make sure is always within my reach: water, pain relief cream, tissues, charger and headphones

big water bottle or just straight up a huge plastic bottle near the bed and/or your pc. if you don't like drinking water, juice or soda work just as well

coke zero has anti nausea properties because they put too much artificial sweetener in it and have to counteract it

sleep schedule. lack of sleep can make your pain levels a lot worse

you need to eat. if you don't have energy to cook, ramen and instant soups/instant mash potatoes are a godsent. there's all kinds of dry instant meals. snacks aren't the same as a full meal, but if you have issues with eating a bag of crisps is better than nothing

learn what your body needs. try to notice if there's any patterns. how many hours of sleep do to need? how many spoons do you have on average? what makes your symptoms worse? what makes them better?

mental illness is just as much of an illness as a physical syndrome. you wouldn't expect someone with a broken leg to walk as fast as someone without one. if you're dealing with depression you shouldn't expect for yourself to do the same amount of things as a person who isn't depressed

you can and should ask your doctor as many questions as you need. ask your doctor if you can contact them outside appointments. from experience, most psychiatrists are okay with being texted if you're in a crisis situation and need help/advice immediately

sometimes you're just not able to do something or perform at the same level that people without your condition can. it's really frustrating but you shouldn't have to push yourself to do something which is harder for you than it is for others

write shit down. as someone who is dealing with memory loss, often if i don't write something down it's gone from my brain forever. whether it's notes app or a cute notebook or just a random piece of paper that's lying around, developing a habit to put something down in writing if you notice it is helpful. if journalling is something you enjoy, keeping a mood/other symptoms tracker is a great idea. there's also journalling apps, and different kinds of trackers

half assing things is better than not doing anything at all. wash one plate instead of the entire dishes. clean one part of your room. eat one bite

your body is your friend. don't do things that are bad for it, or at least try to aim not to

that being said, sometimes you do end up choosing to do something that you know you're going to regret later. plan it ahead so you have time to rest after. f e if i do a lot of walking i need to clear my schedule for the next few days because i know i won't be able to get out of bed tomorrow

learn your patterns. what makes you feel better? what alleviates your pain? if you feel bad right now, or on the contrary your symptoms are more manageable than usual, is there something youve done differently today?

sometimes dealing with illness is like taking care of a small child. sometimes the child is throwing a tantrum. sometimes you want to strangle the child

self dx is valid. that being said, if you have an opportunity to see a doctor, absolutely go do it. even if you don't think you actually have the thing. even if it's not that bad. even if it's not disabling. it doesn't hurt to have a medical professional look at your stuff

most importantly, be patient with yourself. most likely you have limitations other people don't, and that's okay. some people can run a marathon and for some walking from their room to their kitchen is a challenge, and neither is better/worse/more valid. physical weakness is not a personal flaw

#pls tell me if theres typos i double checked but yknow #long post #chronic illness #ref #not putting this under a cut btw #advice column #ira talks