#it is eating my brain alive

[thewinterraven]

I just read your older fan fic about the star trio getting lost in a forest and The idea of Jecra calling his friends “Darlin’” IS THE CUTEST SHIT EVER AND IM STEALING THAT FOR MY VERSION OF HIM IMMEDIATELY. 

Ah! I'm glad!

He loves pet names! The other two have mostly given up trying to get him to stop using them

#Help I am having thoughts about doing another adventure type fic with them #I say as if I haven't had a mostly fully written version saved for ages #it is eating my brain alive #I just wanna have MK and Jecra yell at each other for a moment because they're both idiots

[cringeghostking]

this is going to be extremely rambling but what immediately struck me about the will of the many is that my first impression was that it's drawing inspiration, as near as i can tell, from an often poorly adapted segment of roman history: not the roman empire itself, but the fall of the roman republic and its transition into an empire. (there's always the off chance that the civilization that preceded the Calamity was meant to be the republic, but that has more etruscan vibes than anything---ok that was an extremely off the cuff comparison don't hold me to that) there's this period of increasing social unrest, political tension and division, and gradual decline of the "order" of the republic so often idolized now, that culminates in the establishment of the roman empire under caesar augustus. the late republic is characterized by extreme social unrest, with divisions between both the ruling oligarchy and broader, deeper issues in the fabric of the republic itself. there's the social wars and the question of citizenship, which can be related to birthright---but more interestingly, you have the three servile wars, mass slave revolts, the first of which begins on Sicily (and involves taking over a city on the east coast of sicily named Catania, but that's just a fun anecdote). i'm not really willing to dig through my whole archive of roman republic notes, so from wikipedia:

The Roman conquest of Macedonia, in which thousands of the conquered were sold into slavery...as well as the oppression of corrupt Roman provincial governors...all contributed to a constant supply of new slaves at very cheap price, which made it more profitable for their masters to wear them out by unremitting labor, harshness, exposure and malnutrition, to be cheaply replaced, than to take proper care for their nourishment, health, and accommodation. Accordingly, the plantation system which took shape in Sicily led to thousands of slaves dying every year of toil in the fields from dawn to dusk with chains around their legs, and being locked up in suffocating subterranean pits by night....The Roman Senate failed to take measures to curb this dangerous tendency, which converted one of the most beautiful and fertile provinces of the Republic into a horrible den of misery, brigandage, atrocity and death.

first of all: that really happened! terrible! second of all: hey that sounds fucking familiar and not to predict the arc of the series (there's a lot of unionization themes you could read into it, and a lot of "oh my god everyone has normalized this hell so we dont do anything about it NO more death isnt the answer but hello?? does no one care?? fr??" baked in), but like...check out the summary of the third servile war on wiki if you wanna 👀

listen, everything i learned about roman history i learned against my will, but if i had to learn it then by god i will be so silly with it

#the will of the many #this is the most niche + useless post ive ever made #hope you guys enjoy my descent into madness #i think there's literally 4 people in this fandom on this site #fandom is a strong word im not sure how long the interest will last #for me we're on [checks notes] month 5 goin strong #it is EATING MY BRAIN ALIVE #oh yeah we should talk about the zombies #jas jabbers

[kim-woonhak]

i love shiny things :)

#my art #wip #ten #wayv #nct #ten work in progress ! ! ! like 90 min in bc i keep changing my mind abt things ! anyways i haven't stopped listening to nightwalker #it's like a parasite in my brain eating me alive from the inside out ! ! ! #normally i do highlights at the end but i couldnt wait ! the weird sickly skin color combos n violent highlights r making me so excited !!! #the hand pose is so weird tho he looks like hes picking his nose hahaha

[idridian]

i only exist within the warmth of your gaze

#2001 a space odyssey #dave bowman #hal 9000 #gifs of mine #file under ''gifsets i had to make because the idea of them was eating my brain alive''

[dangoulains-devotion]

caution tape kinda teen

#aitsf #ai the somnium files #ai the somnium files nirvana initiative #aini #mizuki date #mizuki okiura #my art #<- i am moonlight elegy on twt #you guys get this one a day early bc at least this site doesn't eat me alive for posting at 11pm :-) #as usual this was. a warmup that escalated bc i had neon colours on the brain #my partner said 'it looks like mizuki just found out date took the last capri sun' and honestly. yeah #run for ur fucking life date she's gonna GET you

[petite-gloom]

have so many ideas for things but cant seem to form any of them into anything solid. so many thoughts and things i want to make but when i sit down and try to think about them properly or make a start, everything is like sand ! literally just disappearing when i try to touch it

brain broken dunno how to fix

#i want to make a mini zine for my filofax? #like a lil printable autistic self care thing? #when i try to collect my ideas or what that might call for all i get is fog #not to be very sherlock but without The Work i'll die #my brain will eat me alive #delete later

[misspoetree]

+ The worst crime of them all:

KinnPorsche + Text Posts: Anniversary Edition

FAVOURITE VILLAIN | POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW - Vegas

[many more text post memes]

#Vegas is my most beloved poor little meow meow #so I obviously had to make two versions for this occasion (gonna post the second one in a little moment 😁) #kpappreciation #I'm still so haunted by the pool pants DEAR GOD 😭😭😭 #work has been eating me alive those past weeks and will continue to do so in the next weeks #so I'm extra proud of these text post memes and I hope you enjoy them too 🥺❤ #kinnporsche anniversary #kinnporsche the series #vegas theerapanyakul #text post meme #thai bl #because the kinnporsche brain rot is still real #kinnporsche + text post

[loversandantiheroes]

Not to put too fine of a point on it, but if you're any sort of creative artist that struggles with mental health and the way it affects your ability to create the way you want to (and perhaps feel you need to), please play Alan Wake 2.

Sam Lake gets it.

#alan wake #alan wake 2 #I'm trying to make this spoiler-lite if not spoiler free #but also saga's way of getting out of [REDACTED] is like straight up a great therapeutic method of dealing with brainweasels??? #like I brought that up to my therapist who was super into it #but yeah #game good #sam lake does not even pretend there is any glamour in the creative process #it's feverish and ridiculous and sometimes it's like trying to move a mountain with a garden trowel #so yeah if you want a fantastic horror game about how the darker parts of your creative brain will eat you alive if you let them #please play this game

[the-jordas-trials]

[rises up from the deep holding a milkshake and fries] i L I V E

and i bring fanart of a fanfic, while this isnt based on anything that happened (or possibly anything that happens later), i felt like i'd just crack my fingers anyway! behold the Scrimblos! No Significant Harassment, Looks To The Moon and Five Pebbles the fic the designs are based off is Taking It As Is by @nerdydowntherabbithole which if you adore rainworld, read it because OUGH emotions, if you like Moon experiencing Violence, Pebbles being picked up like a child or Sig just about ready to snap the both of them in half like a twix? that fics your best bet!

#Jordas’ art #rain world #rain world iterator #no significant harassment #looks to the moon #five pebbles #i didnt want to slam this in the discord because uuahghgug new discord smell SPOOK the anxiety brain and i didnt want to cause issues- #-with dumping a fully rendered thing in there as like my second post #but hgfhfghgfhjfg rainworld has been EATING me alive so badly #i love the scrimblos and the beebos and the blorbos #and i cant WAIT for the rag tag bunch to claw their way to SRS because WHOOOOGHHGHHGHGHGHGHGHG

[mumblesplash]

the fact that doctors can just Recommend Weight Loss with no instructions beyond ‘eat healthier/less’ is actually insane to me, i lost weight on purpose ONCE and it took me like 6 years to recover a semi-normal relationship with food and hunger

#uhh #disordered eating cw #just in case #mumbling #like jfc i know i’m not the first to say it and my experience is relatively SO tame #but it STILL fucked with my head for YEARS #and most people don’t go nearly that long between weight loss attempts at all for basically their whole lives!!!!! #and we’re so blasé about it like yeah just eat less to lose weight #and so few people talk about the really weird shit that phase of my life taught me even though they seem like pretty universal things #like when you lose weight deliberately by denying yourself food you get COLD #you get cold and you get in your head and you get sad it’s like being less alive #the times i’ve lost weight/recomped on accident (by doing smth that makes me move more‚ getting better sleep etc) #it’s been WARM #burn hotter move freer feel happier #and also the way hunger feels when you’ve been denying yourself food for an extended time is NOT the same as baseline hunger #it’s actually kind of wild that we use the same word to describe both feelings like that shit is NOT the same #that shit is not ‘being really hungry’ it’s a fuckin. blood curse or some shit you feel straight up unhinged #and i should disclaim here i am not talking large amounts of weight #i’ve fluctuated over i think a 20lb range max since reaching close to my adult height and that’s a guesstimate #but even in my relatively unremarkable little experiences here the way deliberate weight loss fucked with my brain is absurd to me #i’m fine now have been for years but seriously thinking back on it the fact that this is routine medical advice. unreal

[gearbroth]

[concept-dump] Space-au - (main(?) Antagonist) Skal, enemy of sun and mentor to iron

#spaceau #tf2 space au #gordon freeman #ironstar gordon #skal the chimera #my ocs #myart #yes theres homoerotic tension yes youre reading that right #skal was initially a one-off antagonist to 100years ago/pre-team sol and boone #but i decided to keep him alive and he somehow got involved with gordon and now theres so much stuff between them aksdjhad #skal helps indirectly shape gordon into his own person while gordon breaks skal down from his skyhigh ego #human helps alien accept he's not human and thats okay while alien helps human accept he's only human and thats okay #you dunno what they do to my brain was possessed by them the whole ass move #he also changes the most throughout the whole story like visually i mean x'D this is all the same guy i swear #he's just veeeeeeeeeery old and goes through a lotta ego death jkhfdsfd #he's originally an outcast astronomer from the 1500s #turns into a deranged alchemist who figures out how to eat celestial cores in order to make himself into a star #yknow how it is khsjdffsd #anyway i told my friend about skal and they said he reminded them of an owlhouse character #and now ive watched the show and im lookin back on this guy and im sdjfkhfsgd yeah yeah he does have that vibe #also he's dutch and his voiceclaim his sigma(overwatch) bc that guy was squandered and i love his voice still #a lot of these pics are panels from a lil voiceline compilation thing i didnt finish kjhdsfsk #maybe ill post it if i can finish editting it

[m-eltdown]

#2:22 #another saturday spent snuggled up watching threes' company n playing solitaire (i'd say that's a pretty nice saturday) ((at least my brain #doesn't feel like it's literally eating itself alive as often or intensely as it's felt here the last couple of weeks)) #i ended up cutting my bangs again because i was tired of seeing my forehead lmaooooo but i like how they came out #they just need to grow in n adjust a lil n they'll be just how i like em :-) #(my hair is also freshly washed so it's a lil poofier n less tame than it should be tomorrow or so heheh) #myself #me #my post #mine #my photo #my face #no makeup #felt cute #curly hair #redhead #blue eyes #nose ring #septum piercing #septum ring #alternative #alt girl #alt #cozycore #grandmacore #warm and cozy #cozy #messy hair #2:22am #late night post

[askthebadkidz]

Riz would kill the other Bad Kids in a heartbeat for any reason (possession, evil, etc) and it’s considered (one of) his form(s) of love this is not a joke post this is canon.

-Fig Mod

#fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #I need to remind everyone that Riz is a knight that is very solemnly doing his job #He puts a gun to Adaines head when she’s reading from a book in the nightmare forest btw #It’s semi a joke but also it’s not and it’s been rattling around in my brain #His lack of social skills aren’t the problem it’s the fact that he doesn’t actually care in a way anyone understands #To him caring is killing or hurting people or doing something terrible like eating someone alive shooting someone’s fingers off biting #An eye out of a man’s head. To him care and love is brutal and unforgiving and gross. #I know I’m over analyzing but man. Riz Gukgak. #Riz Gukgak and love being painful for everyone involved

[jamevaa]

They accepted their father's death. They killed him a second time, in a way.

They accepted their friends' deaths (in Castiel's case, multiple times).

They accepted their mom's second death, and this time they had a choice about it.

For each other, they took the phrase "I would do anything" literally and salted the earth.

#too long a day to do much more for wincest Wednesday so #happy wincest wednesday #wincest #these boys are eating my brain alive #i could ship a rock with a stick but #anything else than wincest is like trying to see a candle flame against a supernova #spn #wincest wednesday

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Drawing from class two weeks ago, prof was introducing us to photoshop because not everyone had used it before, so those of us that were already familiar with it were goofing off lol

Small update; I have recently been given courage to come out and say that this blog will be temporarily put on hold. I'm not falling behind in my studies per se, but they've become such a massive source of stress that I can't focus/don't have time to draw for myself lately. I can confidently say my mental health is the worst it's been since last year; guilt for not talking to people and for not being more active on here is eating me alive, so I think it's best if I take at least one of those pressures off of myself.

When I'm back I'll likely have some classwork to show off, and maybe if the stars align, some personal drawings too haha. Until then, I'll still be somewhat active on my alt (@dawntheduckrb) and might even post some doodles there, so feel free take a peeksies if you want :D (posts are all over the place there though, so don't follow if you don't want dash clutter lol)

Sorry for any worry I caused; see y'all in May :)

#sorry for up and half going away like that #am not doing well at all #and its been a while since ive actually posted #(ive actually made two posts since the cat one but privated both bc silly brain) #so i wanted to formally say i am stepping away so people dont think im like #dead #so uh #im alive #my brain is just eating itself alive right now #and i gotta prioritize the could-leave-me-in-debt-for-the-rest-of-my-life event over the beloved hellsite (regrettably) #not that i wasnt already prioritizing it (my upload rate has plummeted since january) #but i want to let yall know what is going on #I've noticed more people on my alt lately that dont follow me; so if that was yall checking in on me #then thank you so much #it didnt go unnoticed

[the-purest]

help girl, im already coming up with valentines day outfits for qphil

I don't know whether or not to go down the cupid route, but it feels dangerously close to stepping on cuteguy territory.

heart shaped phiddies window is mandatory, and maybe maybe a feather boa...

fuck it, in making a qmissa valentines design too. the power couple of the century

#q!philza #q!missa #deathduo #fucking help #ill start posting sketches soon but it's eating my brain alive #ill have to make a cloakless design for missa tho bc he is just cloak for me usually #oh to be a modern malewife crow with a feather boa awaiting their husbands return from the war #los sillys