#it kills me every time!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

some misc Barn & Wally doodles from the past week or so <3 i heart them

#i read 'barnaby bites wally out of affection' exactly Once and it imprinted in my brain forever #its so damn cute... what the fuck... who authorized that.... #one thing about me: yes i Will exaggerate size differences. no im Not sorry #listen one thing i love more than the big guy & their lil buddy dynamic #is big guy & their lil buddy 'rough-housing' #where it looks vicious but the big guy is actually being so so gentle and careful <3 #it kills me every time!!! #AND THESE TWO ARE PERFECT FOR BOTH BABEYYYYYY #the bestiessssss themmmmm them them them #i have so many thoughts / feelings about them and many of them Directly Conflict <3 #scribble salad #welcome home #wait when. when did i start drawing barnaby so damn much #every other scribble is Him #uh oh! looks like hes Blorbo!!! #anyhow sometimes i sit on doodles for Days and Days #until it occurs to me that hey. i can post these #i havent been scribbling much bc ive been chipping away at comms when i have the free time to do Art #the only non-comm stuff have been silly warmups riperoni #BUT! AHA! last week's me (early this week???) was in their Barnaby & Wally feels!!! #providing current me with Crumbs to post!

[fleshdyke]

"just ate half of this i'll finish the rest later" is like my favourite tiktok trend ever

#its so stupid but they fucking kill me every time #rambles #100 #1k #10k

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[adiodont]

”Oh I’m not leaving”

(siblings)

#adioart #17776 #17776 nine #17776 ten #17776 football #what football will look like in the future #pioneer 9 #pioneer 10 #siblings #goddddd this kills me every fucking time #the future of college football #possible eyestrain #but GOD I am proud of that starfield #i woulda kicked ass working for George Lucas in the eighties istg #10k

[ahhrenata]

when you catch your crush very obviously staring 🤭

| these two melted the shit out of my heart |

#binged the movies with my dad #every time Thorin smiles at bilbo it kills me #this is post-botfa..no sadness here! #just longing stares and blushing faces #I’m erasing the sad feels the movie has left me with #the hobbit #lotr #thorin oakenshield #bilbo baggins #bagginshield #lotr fanart #bagginshield fanart #I’m entering a phase #misc fanart

[caruliaa]

staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%

🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%

grace image os i get to look at her

#edit: edited the og post to what i want but to set the record straight i edited to the post to be mathematically correct right after the #first person pointed it out which was like ten mins after i posted the og post. now fuck offf !!!!! the rest of the tags r from the og post #for some reason i feel very immature making your mom jokes about tumblr staff. which i shldnt !! #bc they suck nd they still havent given me polls. but i ig i feel imature bc it a your mom joke 😭 but still i tihnk its kinda funny #EDIT: edited the post to what i want bc yall were getting annoying . but to set the record straight i edited to post to be mathematically #also its *mum* not mom okay i am NOT !! an american . but if i say mum everyone will j be like 'omg british' like i dont know i am #anyway. i want polls please. give me the rigght to force my mutuals chose between the most inane things #also i tihnk it wld b cool for the cs weekly blog. like w each episode #i cld do a poll of like. out of five stars what do u think of this ep #and it wld b a cool thing of which eps r ppls faves #also i cld have like. whose ur fave in team red whos ur fave in acme etc #id prob just have to go with vile faculty bc theres more than 10 ppl in vile. and ppl wld kill me if i didnt include nel the ell or whoever #it wld b fun !!! #oh btw csweekly thats i thing i want to start. prob on uhhh the 11th of feb ill post abt it more but its basically #a tag/blog for watching cs one ep a time watching one ep every saturday #ya !! :3 #flappy rambles #inaccessible #ask to tag #(<- idk. just in case)

[barawrah]

beloved

#THEMMMMMMM #finally drawing them & colouring it #i always end up with fafa alone somehow #this actually started as xl alone for once and then fafa magically found his way into it idk how #but !!!!! them 🥺 #my wife and . guy i squish and he kills me #multiple times a day we do that #i adore these two with every fibre of my being i really need to draw them more #maybe its time to reread the novel its been ages #art tag #tgcf #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #mxtx #mxtx novels #tgcf fanart #tgcf xie lian #tgcf hua cheng #mxtx tgcf #tgcf donghua #tgcf novel #hualian fanart #crimson rain sought flower #天官赐福 #天官赐福动画

[ariminiria]

remember to do your part by giving Amazon's Rings of Power show the Morbius treatment

#hey there Blaze victim! check the notes for extra context #tl;dr: egregious disrespect for the source material and -more importantly- workers rights abuses #also theres a chance that we could kill amazon streaming if this flops so #happy morbing! #rings of power #its morbin time #every single 'ooh new first look' fille me with unbridled rage #anti rings of power #lord of the rings #tolkien #lotr #it's morbin time

[cozylittleartblog]

autism shrimp man (i love him)

#tadc #the amazing digital circus #kinger #doodles #art #tadc fanart #HAD to draw him. love drawing him. i love big stupid eyes i draw my sona like that ALL the fucking time #(he got them autism raptor hands. i hope that doesn't sound like an insult whjbdsfhbj) #there's some screenshot somewhere of him curled up on the ground exactly like that and it kills me every time i see it #WORM MODE #i only have like two more pieces of tadc fanart in my brain currently but it's nice drawing and posting semi regularly again wheeee

[criticalsyourroles]

now i've watched a fair amount of d&d i've started to pick up on the differences between dm style i think

like brennan IS all the bad guys. every game he dms is brennan vs the players. he makes npcs and battles that make his friends throw things at him and he smirks the whole time. he makes them tell him their worst fears and then he makes them do it. and it's awful and amazing and really funny

matt IS exandria. his characters and battles never feel written or constructed, they just feel like things that already existed in the world. it's all about verisimilitude with him, and he's amazing at it. he tends to fade into the background and let the players react to the story and it makes everything he does incredibly cinematic

aabria dms like she's just another player at the table reacting to the story, right up until someone gets lulled into a false sense of security and tries to fool around and THEN she throws a curveball by making them deal with the consequences of their choices. she's like oh you think that's funny?? then i'm about to be hilarious, bitch. and she keeps getting away with it bc she's just that good!

basically, brennan's an evil bastard, matt's the world, and aabria's the queen of consequences

or:

brennan - fuck

matt - around

aabria - find out

#brennan lee mulligan #matt mercer #aabria iyengar #sorry but this made me laugh agdjgsjsgs #petition for a d20 series dmed by brennan w aabria as a pc where a couple eps in her pc kills brennan's bbeg and they swap seats #revealing she was the dm all along #i also really want a round robin series. all dms at the table and they take turns controlling the narrative #whether it's in order or just like. every time one of them kills the dm's npc they become the dm or smth #it'd be really fun i'd love to see what kind of mangled mess of a story we'd get #i haven't listened to that much taz but griffin seems to be a mix of brennan and aabria where he does things for the bit #and then eventually he's like oh btw the bit is immense emotional trauma. whoops!

[yrsonpurpose]

RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE — Casey McQuiston, page 104

#rwrbedit #rwrb #red white and royal blue #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #rwrbgifs #mine* #firstprince #usernuria #usermaloune #usersteen #lgbtedit #lgbtq #yeah.gif #he talked the big talk at the gala just to be constantly man handled by henry #the way alex always has this shocked look on his face too #kills me every time

[greghatecrimes]

exhausted local man bullied ruthlessly by his husband and stepdaughter

#the way he's like 'no one-- *look at me*' cracks me up #and house's very specific wording of 'from this moment on' #thirteen looking over her shoulder to see if wilson's freaked and then looking so pleased with herself when she opens the door LMAO #diagnostics department diabolical schemes im sure #the 'look at me' is the best part in the whole scene LMAO it kills me every time. they are soooo married #6x15 #rewatch lb #james wilson #greg house #hilson #remy thirteen hadley #house md

[inkskinned]

did you really let them ruin that for you?

when i was younger i worked on a farm for 3 years. during late july and august we would have unfettered access to the strawberry plots. they were all warm and ripe and fresh. i think i ate a pound of dirt back then. i think i picked enough seeds out of my teeth to build a temple. the summer hours are long; i'd come home with the bruising stain of juice running in a seam along my cheeks and fingers and jaw.

why didn't you protect your precious things from other people? you knew this could happen.

i can't eat strawberries from the store anymore, they don't taste right. something about the florescent lights and the chill of them and the way they are absent from the vine. they feel bleached and bland, a wasted party dress. i watch other people eat strawberries and miss enjoying them. none of the store-bought strawberries will have mold or bugs, okay. they will be big and bright red and perfectly shaped. but they are not the ugly and real strawberries of my summer, awarded by the soil and the hot sun up ahead and hours spent crouched, plucking.

i didn't mean to let it get ruined. i wish it hadn't been. i miss having it. but i came back to it afterward and it just wasn't the same as it had been. i know love is never wasted. but it feels like - love did this. it's not that i never loved it, you know? it's that i did.

#writeblr #this is both about strawberries #and also not about strawberries #i love that other ppl love strawberries but i legit got spoiled out of loving them #warm up #i doonnnt . like this #me every time i post a warm up: im legit just doin this to warm up so i write at least like a few times a week. but also. ew. #the ppl in the notes: raquel if u don't stop hating ur own work i'll actually kill u #(ty ty ty ty ty ty . literally wouldn't write without u)

[forecast0ctopus]

struggled

#tears of the kingdom #legend of zelda #legend of zelda: tears of the kingdom #link #link fanart #totk comic #loz link #loz purah #totk fanart #totk link #totk purah #i had no fucking clue where lookout landing is and struggled my way to zoras domain. paragliderless #every fucking guy one hit killed me i died so many times

[sexhaver]

Tribes Ascend is/was a game that theoretically looked like this at launch:

lots of ambient lighting, bloom and motion blur out the wazoo, you name it. the issue was that the gameplay was based on flying through the map at speeds literally >100mph, while trying to hit other players moving equally fast, using projectiles that inherit your momentum. the amount of sheer brainpower it takes to connect just one shot is astounding, and doing it with anything less than 60fps is effectively impossible. this was an issue in 2012, so eventually people figured out that you could manually edit a specific .ini file in Notepad to get graphical settings far lower than anything you were allowed to select in-game.

i present: minecraft.ini

#i know cranking down settings for performance is nothing new but the contrast kills me every time

[evankinard]

911 writers are so funny cause they have every opportunity to frame buddie's actions as normal best friend stuff and every single time they instead decide to add two extra lines or framing/lighting/music choices to be like OHOHOHOHOHOHO looks who's being weird and intense about their good male friend again

#the dramatic lighting and buck reveal after eddie comes home from the date with ana kills me every time #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #weewoo brainrot #911 abc