#kinda proud kinda hate it

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

Merlin: *says something almost flirty as part of their usual banter*

Arthur: Don’t tease, Merlin.

Merlin, still joking around: It’s only a tease if you have feelings, Sire.

Arthur, really not having a good day: …Don’t tease, Merlin,

#this is from one of my wips #and considering I usually hate dialogue with a vengeance #I’m actually kinda proud of not hating this #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #merlin bbc #merlin fanfic #current wip #one of them anyway #ao3 fanfic #fic writer #i’m bad at tagging #incorrect merlin quotes

[zeatna]

"I always believed, if I could make you whole again, perhaps some night we could fly together. I still want to know what it's like."

png & background:

inspired by this funky looking statue of Eros and Psyche I found:

#hades game #hades 2 #melinoë #Icarus #waxwitch #hades 2 spoilers #y'all this is the first piece of my art that i feel comfortable posting so be nice please :) #considering i hate drawing digitally i'm kinda proud of how this turned out #my art #my post

[neymiiie]

Aigis

#persona 3 #fanart #persona #aigis #p3 #persona 3 reload #p3r #artists on tumblr #sorry for not posting I have been ~stressed~ #also my art was kinda going through an ugly phase lol so didn’t post even what little I did draw #anyway the playthrough Ive watched of a newcomer playing the game ended recently so I felt emotional so have an aigis #I tried a painterly style which I usually hate but this time it was super fun??? I love how it turned out as well #win win I guess #I am really proud of her hair

[somegrumpynerd]

Killer goes stage 3 when Nightmare isn't around, so the boys have to contain and calm him down themselves. Luckily they know what they're doing and make a good team, so nobody gets hurt.

And, because I can't make anything serious, bonus from the next day:

#UTDR #UTMV #Killer Sans #Cross Sans #Horror Sans #Dust Sans #My Art #Truce au #Look I cleaned up those sketches! #And added some new ones because I was having fun with them #If you're wondering about what happened #Killer always seems to go for Dust first when he loses control so Dust is the one that gets the knife away from him #After that Horror restrains him since he's the strongest physically #And Cross tries to talk him down since he's had training in the royal guard to stay calm in dangerous situations #Dust stays on alert to blast him if things get out of hand #(Not because he really hates Killer and sees a chance to hurt him #but because Killer had asked him to make sure he doesn't hurt any of them like this. He would never forgive himself) #After Killer calmed down they had a little quiet movie night since everybody was kinda drained #And subsequently forgot to tell Nightmare when he got home (oops) #It's fine he's proud of them and only mostly stressed out by this news

[secretdazedragon]

“No big deal. You can share my ear buds.”

#the quarry #dylan lenivy #ryan erzahler #rylan #the quarry fanart #i hope u like it bc this is so cheesy i hate myself #also be proud of me bc i drew a car (kinda) and it's pretty cool from me considering i dont know how cars look and work #ship art

[starry-bi-sky]

Ideas of what clone^2 duo looks like! The full body photos are before they got their suits, then with their suit designs below in a more cartoony-look

I thought anout giving Danny a jacket with his pre-suit look but. I didn’t wanna risk ruining the pose with an attempt to make a jacket

#dpxdc #dp x dc #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #danny fenton is a clone #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpdc #clone^2 #honestly not bad. im really proud of how danny’s mask turned out #and bby dames looks great #danny’s supposed to be battinson bat and i think i did a pr good job capturing it #starry hates drawing the other eye so danny doesnt get one #his hair is usually pulled back when he goes out as phantom #i wasnt sure what to make damian’s mask so i kinda made it look like dannyms #danny’s #it didnt turn out as good as Danny’s but i still like it #it only covers half his face #so red huntress can see when he’s scowling at her #their torn capes are meant to kinda look like the torn edges of a stereotypical ghost #drawing superhero suits is HARD #danny looks exhausted. perfect. thats exactly the look i was going for #damian looks like a little angel and i love it. a cutiepie who is going to commit unimaginable war crimes /j #danny’s wearing elbow pads if anyone’s wondering #i used pose refs for both #danny’s suit symbol are two lightning bolts connecting at the tips #danny’s aesthetic is ‘disheveled teenage vigilante who has just been handed a murderous baby brother’

[eve-pie]

Welcome to the Cuphead show neighbor!

The residents are all here from the splendiferous neighborhood of Inkyhomes! Having a grand ole time in the sunshine

Even the Devil and Dice are happy! Today's a day where the residents all come together unfortunately no today is not June 13th but! It's still a flourishing day anyways

Reference: artwork by @//frillsand here on Tumblr!

And here's the banner

That's all I have for today

Reminder I do apologize for the lack of my au content I know you lot actually loved my au and I did too but I simply couldn't bring myself to draw it lack of motivation I guess I'll try harder to make more for you neighbor's!

Maybe for lore wise I'll try and copy and paste stuff from my document to here to save time yep! That's right because I'm the way I am I have a document to help type out lore and ideas for my OCs and Au so I won't forget anything I just modify and add changes here on Tumblr

That's all I had to say

Until then don't forget to wave up high!💐

Maybe even double down! What does that even mean?

#*pulls this out of tophat and offer it to you* here you go! i worked hard #i think this took like a few hours? i don't know #but what i do know is that I'm actually proud of it! expect for the background #I kinda hate it backgrounds were never my specialty #but neighbors can not be choosers I'll have to roll with it! ha ha ha #welcome home puppet show #wh cuphead au #welcome home oc #patches bashful #howdy pillarind #sally starplay #miss joyful #mugman barnaby #cuphead wally #frank dicey #eddie devil dear #elder partridge #poppy partridge #julie joyful #howdy pillar #frank frankly #eddie dear #sally starlet #wally darling #cuphead au #welcome home

[delulluart]

Nothing ever lasts forever / We will go softly into the night

slightly disconcerting wip stage below the cut

leaving the black parts white gives him a whole new disturbing look

#The Band Ghost #Ghost #Papa Emeritus IV #Popia #Copia #Ghost BC #i actually? kinda like this?? like im really proud because i left my comfort zone for once by adding color #ive never used water colour pencils and watercolours on any of my drawings bc i was scared #theres still a bunch of things i hate (like i messed up the line on his right cheek and stuff like that) but..all in all a pleasant surpris #also i made myself very sad with this one i hope youll join my suffering #portrait

[luck-of-the-drawings]

DISTRACTIONS sometimes its the drive to help and save our friends that pushes us to learn and to succeed. unfortunately its normally ''unethical'' to replicate that in a classroom setting. I ONLY JUST FINISHED THE LAST PAGE HERE, THE FIRST TWO WERE LITERALLY FROM LAST YEAR, N A FEW MONTHS APART. LOOOOK AT MY EVOLUTION. im very proud of this and bled REALLY HARD FOR THE LAST PAGE. PLEASE ABSORB THIS.

#gillion tidestrider #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #the last page honestly just took super long bc i dropped it for a long while. only recently wiped the dust off o it. #IM RLY PROUD OF ALOT O THINGS ABT THAT LAST PAGE #LIKE THE PERSPECTIVE N THE WIDE SHOTS OR WHATEVER #IT WASNT EASY BUT I MADE IT LOOK GOOD!! IM SO HAPPY WITH IT #I ALSO just really love drawing gillion as soooo small #just a little guy with the weight of the world bolted to his tiny tiny shoulders #n yknow what while im here ill talk abt the first two comics aswell. i like taking inspo from JTHM for this kinda stuff #more specifically SQUEE n the way his dad was just sooo honest and cruel to him. 'yeah its your fault my life sucks' n all that. i imagine #that gillion prolly dealt with alot o that too. i know weve already seen the elders #but i did initially imagine them to be very much like the Tallests from invader zim. they just hate this little guy. hes so small n lame #hes prolly had teachers like that im sure. i like thinkin about gills experience in school!! #i fell in love with him the moment he said that he wasnt good at being a student like girl ME TOOOO WAAAAAA #HE SUCKS In school and everyone is just sooo tired of him but they gotta put up with him bc hes the Chosen One #but GOD they wish they had someone more competent i bet. it was prolly a relief when they banished him #could u imagine being that? someone so insufferable that people sigh in relief when youre gone. poor poor gillion #ANYWAY THATS ALL MY THOUGHTS #TALK ABT UR THOUGHTS IN THE TAGS TOO DIPSHIIITT CMAAAHHNN

[basiltonpitch]

dustin "hellfire lives" henderson and lucas "normal's just a raging psychopath" sinclair in st5.........oohhhhhh

#and mike trying to be 'normal'....... #need to know where will fits in in this. assuming he's still going to be hated by the town then i'm thinking byhenclair banding together #and mike distancing himself from the party while he's back in his conforming era.... #this is all spec loosely based off a few bts pics like i'm not claiming it's true but it's what i'm kinda hoping for #i want party conflict!!! i want henclair to be loud and proud freaks #and mike to distance himself #and for will to be caught in the middle!!!! AHHHH #s.txt #st5 #st5 speculation #henclair #stranger things

[itstaisstuff]

What's the difference between Tango of the Tek variety and spider from Minecraft?

Red glowing eyes

Usually found underground

Blind

Stupid

#fun fact: i hate spiders #but oh boy. #!!!!!!!! #kinda proud of this #tango tek #art

[henrybelly]

honestly when i tried to figure out why some fans are so mad at ivypool these days i was looking through avos and. the scene where ivypool apologises to twigpaw for not supporting sending a patrol for skyclan is genuinely very sweet??

i actually saw someone characterize this as "ivypool forcing twigpaw to forgive her". is it crack you smoke. is that what you smoke. you smoke crack?

#she apologises THREE SEPARATE TIMES #she acknowledges that dovewing and tigerheart's situation made her ignore twigpaw's feelings #she reassures twigpaw that this is the right thing for the clans. she tells her she's proud of her & tc is lucky to have her #you guys do understand that to apologise you have to Do Something Wrong?? or is that the part that's so unforgivable? #i am fASCINATED by the treatment of dove and ivy by the fans in recent years #i'm still pondering it but i think there are a few root causes #1) I think a lot of people read oots as kids and hated dove & identified with ivy because of the underdog storyline #maybe this fandom worship of dovewing is kinda part of that? wanting to feel like you've grown out of fandom misogyny? #but i also feel like 2) tigerdove has really increased dovewing's popularity #and i think because ivypool is so staunchly opposed to their relationship people then have to villainise ivypool #3) is maybe too spicy of a take but to be honest #i think people are subconsciously way more comfortable with a woman whose story ends in heterosexual marriage and childrearing #dovewing's mom role in TBC to shadowsight probably helped her popularity #so ivypool whose relationship w Fernsong & her kits is much less of a focus. and is mUCH less maternal #and who still exhibits Ugly Female Emotions like anger and hurt #and who God Forbid now holds a position of authority... #is too complicated to fit into :) she's such a good mom :) she's such a good mate #dovewing is easier to like because she tends to be a victim of circumstances (🤫 and often lacks agency in her storylines) #since ivypool regularly uses her agency to Fuck Up #fans revert to idealising dovewing because not only is she too good to do bad things. she also doesn't do Things in general #never mind that ivypool is the one who sacrifices and apologises #anyway <3 i think if i made a full analysis of ivy and dove post OOTS i would get too many spicy anons so i will cower in the tags

[kazuaru]

ᴋɪʟʟ ʙɪʟʟ

#ts4 #sims 4 #my sims #ts4 edit #simblr #idk i kinda hate it :\ #i do like the logo thing i did i'm proud of that & the sim #also hi!!! i'm talking in the tags like i said i would do in 2023 :)!!!

[funkyphonophorae]

can you believe that the furry anime got me out of art block

original screencap under the cut

#kinda hate the anatomy in this but oh well #rlly proud of the colours though hhhhg #funkys art #beastars #lougoshi

[karda]

same mirror four years apart

#almost never post my face but thought this was cool. #sometimes i miss my short hair hut i always hated it 99% of thr time #i was a very sad kid four years ago. im very proud of myself for how far ive come #also lmanberg flag on the phone case 😶😶😶😶😶😶😶😶 #rambling #also i cut my bangs!!!!! they looks kinda shit but its alright

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard? #i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug? #i would. a million times over. #anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal