#life is so short! life is so long!

[soldier-poet-king]

Wahhhhhh

The tldr is my boss couldn't go to this meeting today so I got sent to represent our archive, and I was the only archivist there in a group of professors and PhD students (whose research is tangentially related to the contents of the archive) and I'm just ahhhh

On the one hand, it was great, sitting around a table talking research for a few hours over lunch, it's all the best parts of grad school seminars and I've missed having those kinds of discussions IMMENSELY and it feels like a missing piece of myself has been returned. Even just from mostly listening for the duration.

On the other hand. The sense of imposter syndrome not being a Real Academic. And the sense of loss and regret. Yes yes I didn't go for my PhD because health, finances, awful job prospects for classicists. But I LOVED grad school. I love my MA and learning and studying and being a student. I miss it terribly, even though I'm good at and enjoy my profession.

Even had health/finances not been a concern, I'd never have been able to decide on a focused research topic for a dissertation. My interests are too broad. They're not even limited to classics. I'm bouncing between life changing academic interests constantly, and each one is foundational and obsessive, in its own way. I joked to Atlas this week that I was supposed to be born a foppish renaissance dilettante, but it's not even really a joke.

I know. I KNOW. My unlived lives aren't real. They shouldn't haunt me. The me that exists is de facto the best version of me because it's the ONLY me that exists. And life doesn't have to be perfect it just has to be Good. And it is good. But also. Why can't I be a full-time student just learning, never having to publish, but also an archivist and information professional, but also a mutual aid volunteer and praxis oriented person, and Also have time for hobbies like crafting and novel reading and video games, and things like cooking and gardening and strength training.

I'm aware that harmonizing and coming to peace with the multitudinous aspects of the self is the work of a lifetime but also I want it to happen /now/

#the duality of fran #your probably asking. fran. can you got THREE DAYS without the navel gazing obsession with your own selfhood and realization as a person #and without obsessing about the purpode and telos and fulfillment of ur own existence #the answer is. no ❤️ #ahhh itll be ok im just. boooooo reminded of all the things i try not to think abt #life is so short! life is so long! #i am so tired. too tired for even a fraction of the life i want to live #yknow the usual typical person who didnt think they would live this long and would definitely kms before this #so now its like. i gotta learn to live. i have to find out what i want. and the answer is apparently. i want everything #yes its part pride and ambition #but its also wonder and joy and awe and curiosity #why do i have to pick ONE thing. where there is SO much out there #life is too short for all the marvels of the universe #and i am too much a dilettante for it all #oh it is a good world and good life #some days i am just. afraid of the hunger for it all

[lotus-pear]

bsd rewatch w my friend means obligatory art of my fav found family ever

#WAAAAAAAAAUUUUGHHHHHHHH I MISS THEM SO FUCKING MUCH YOU GUYS GENUINELY DON'T UNDERSTAND.............................................. #LIKE. NOT A DAY GOES BY WHERE I DONT THINK ABT THEM UEUUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #bro i didn't mean to make atsushi that short LMFAO it's ok tho bc he's their little boy. their son #literally was in the trenches drawing kunikida bc i've been drawing twinks for so long i forgot how to draw actual MEN😭😭 #when will my family return from the war..................................................................... #rewatching bsd made me realize its just a rly shitty slice of life romcom featuring ml dazai and his tired work partner/husband #and the story of how they got their first kid. sopping wet pathetic kitten of a boy they picked up off the riverbank #anyway theyre all so dear to me you don't understandddddd i love these dumbass partners and their little tiger boy :(((((((((((((( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #atsushi nakajima #nakajima atsushi #doppo kunikida #kunikida doppo #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #kunikidazai #knkdz #lotus draws

[bloggerspam]

Danny Phantom Masterlist

I realized I've accidentally become a Danny Phantom fic writer and I don't know what to do with this information...other than make a masterlist, i guess.

I add on parts via reblog, so I will put the lastest date when i update the link in MM.DD.YY format! (*) denotes completion, for now. Extras (ie. ** or ***) denotes bonus updates I hadn't planned on!

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Magician!Danny AU - 9.27.23*

Danny learns sleight of hand and goes through Hijinks and Shenanigans. There are some DC offshoots where Zatanna is involved, with some inevitable angst from another user.

In the Interest of Medical Attention Addition - 10.02.23*

DCxDP - Red Hood goes missing. Danny, an eldritch horror tourist, just wants to be helpful. These two things are, unfortunately, related.

De-Aged Danny Angst Addition - 10.06.23*

DCxDP - Danny, having been capture and experimented on, gets de-aged with memory loss and some...physical complications. One of the Bats finds him. Dad!Dick Grayson implied.

Booo-merang Trouble Addition - 10.10.23

DCxDP - Jason gives off an ecto-signature, and tries to find a runaway/hiding/injured Danny in Gotham.

Baby Danny vs. The Joker Additions - 10.16.23*

DCxDP - De-aged Danny in a bat onesie wreaking havoc on the Joker for Funsies, and sort of getting adopted by Jason. There are a plethora of other reblogs that aren't included in the link, but this is where I've mentally stopped the AU at (personally). Highly recommend going through them for the fanart!

Candy Crush AU Additions - 10.31.23*

DCxDP - Additions written for @long-live-astronerd-ghost-king's Candy Crush AU. Dead on Main. LOTS of other reblogs that aren't included in the link, but this is where I've mentally stopped the AU at (personally).

Luck Rush AU Additions - 12.02.23*

DCxDP - Additions written for @virgamsysxvolumes's Lucky Rush AU. Please go read it, it's so good!!! I've also designed some stuff for this AU, but Vivi has released some official art for the AU in the masterlist too!

Phantom Siblings and the Batfam - 12.05.23*

DCxDP - Prompt fill: Danny and Ellie are de aged. Dan and Jazz are co-parenting as the older siblings. Completely unrelated, half the batfam are flirting independently at Jazz/Dan, and the other half are dealing with the chaos gremlins.

Super Strength Shenanigans - 12.10.23* [AO3]

DCxDP - When Danny gets an internship in Gotham, concerned for his and his identity's safety they figure out he has super strength he can't control for human-standard fights. Shenanigans ensue.

Horror Movie Child!Danny AU - 12.18.23* [AO3]

DCxDP - Danny is adopted into the batfam having a coming of age movie, whilst the Batfam are going through Summer Horror Special.

Puppy!Danny AU - 12.28.23* [AO3]

DCxDP - Danny is Ace the Bathound AU! With Bonus Dan as Titus, Dani as Haley/Bitewing, and Jazz as Sparky and Dog. There have been multiple tags for this, so please be warned you WILL cry at part 3. Now with meme post. Any additional non-story posts will be under "phantom pups" tag!

Villain!Jazz AU - 04.07.23* [AO3]

**Disclaimer, NOT Jazz centered and heavily DP leaning** After lots of thought this AU will be exclusively updated on AO3 from now on! Please subscribe to it on AO3 instead of following it here :)

He’s fine… right..? - 02.05.24** [AO3]

Two-shot psychological horror based off some fanart of Danny crying melty tears.

Casseroles and Confrontations Additions- 03.10.24

DCxDP - Batman sends a few of the Batfam to Amity Park to investigate the ghost sightings. When they get there, however, Jason refuses to step into the town due to some instinctual feeling he has. Check "#casseroles and confrontations" tag for non-story lore!

NOW WITH AMAZING FANART by @animal-123-crazy

MORE CUTE FANART by @jamiethebee

Kon-El and the Phantoms - 02.07.24

YJxDP - Young Justice, specifically Kon-El, meets their newest member, Phantom's clone. Who just so happens to be a big fan.

Mama Canary AU - 04.23.24 [AO3]

JLxDP - Suddenly de-aged Danny meet Black Canary and accidentally ghost-wails at her...except all it does is push her back a couple feet, and make her think he's the cutest lil' canary in the world.

Preschool Teacher Danny AU - 02.18.24 [AO3}

JLxDP - Clark comes across a meta-teacher with a class of seemingly meta toddlers. He asks if there's any room for Jon. Not sure if I will continue on Tumblr or continue on AO3, or both. Will update when I decide--this will probably be mostly ongoing as Naynay gives me more stories of her gremlins!

Sunshine and Stardust - 02.16.24 [AO3]

YJxDP - Danny is a clone of Superman AU, but he's a failure, a test dummy. Amidst the days of pain and experimentation, he hears another clone is being made.

Teen Titans and the Lost Boy Addition - 04.11.24

TTxDP - "After being on the run for a long time, Danny somehow stumbles his way into the middle of a fight. This leads to him joining the Teen Titans (much to his confusion)."

Thoughts about Death - 03.27.24*

"Do you ever think about how sacred life must be for Danny?" Oneshot.

Grunkle John AU - 04.23.24

JLxDP - Batman finds out that John Constantine is basically Danny Phantom(high level threat, ghost king)'s weird uncle. I tell you the story of how that came to be.

Not so Little Merperson - 05.02.24*

YJ/JLxDP - Superboy gets Prince Eric'd by Space Whale Danny, and all Kon wants to do is find the smoking hot not-so-little-merperson that saved him. If he has to pester Aquaman for it, so be it. Oneshot.

Phic Phight Phics:

Forgotten Fire: A little bit on who Ember McLain was, when she was alive. Complete.

Open Secrets: Everyone knows AU. (except, Danny doesn't know they know). Complete.

In Front of My Cereal? Crackfic for the prompt: Danny shuddered. The old man yaoi energy at that table was insufferable. Complete.

#my writing #danny phantom #masterlist #very short when i lay it out like this #but then again each one is p damn long #dpxdc #<- i wrote those tags when I first started #look at me now #why is this so long #what has my life become #i really shit them out really fast huh

[suntails]

fallen

#KICKS OPEN THE DOOR. HIIIIIII IM BAAAAAACK. TWIRLS MY HAIR AND STARES UNBLINKINGLY AT U #okay so long story short i need to speedrun if i wanna draw ANY lore art this time #bc i go to NY w no computer for 2 weeks on thurs and i wont have nrainrot anymore after. so i need to draw FAST things #so yea. she um. she. died. sniffles. ngl i thought she was already dead from the prev update so this STUNG #the fuckign GRIEF the way lilia collapses down in mourning her loss. she falls to the humans. i am SICK it HURTS #silver was so devastated in 7.5 without even seeing the death firsthand and being like 'how could i ever be loved' #lilia looking at malleus. the future of the kingdom. the treasure of his two closest friends (loves?) #and is like 'how can i ever love him enough' and proceeds to spend A FIFTH OF HIS LIFE SEARCHING FOR A SOLUTION #dealing w prejudice from humans. kicked out of the army Disgraced. all while mourning. he keeps going out of LOVE #twst #twisted wonderland #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #hes an egg he counts #ch 7 spoilers #so yea blah blah blah im not as eloquent as u geniuses i will just draw a silly little dramatic art to capture my misery and move forward #suntails

[clown-eating-pig]

Always remember that, if Jonathan Sims went from having short, serious hair to long, flowing locks over the course of tma, then at some point during those five seasons he had to have had….The Bob.

#tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #F.A.B. jonny #that’s what they call him #he most likely would have been in the coma tho with his funky little bob #so sad #imagine your uptight boss goes from having super short hair to being in a coma #and it’s growing out #one of the few signs of life #he’s lying there battered and bruised #you may never hear his voice ever again #but a few months in and he has a BOB #and you’re NOT supposed to laugh??? #just a little??? #I can say all of this bc I used to have a pixie cut #and had to go through the months long Awkward Length phase #and the idea of serious Jon with Awkward Length bob is SOOOO FUNNY

[lyctorism]

going insane thinking about the paralleled relationships of palamedes’ fondness for harrow and camilla’s fondness of gideon. and their respective simularities! harrow being jealous of gideon mooning over dulcinea. camilla being jealous of palamedes being in love with dulcinea since he was 8. camilla being fond of gideon after realizing gideon also has a melodramatic necromancer. palamedes and harrow’s “necromantic pissing contest”. gideon and camilla’s love of swords. palamedes “I'm the greatest necromancer of my generation”, harrow “like hell you are”. palamedes suiciding detonating himself to take out cytherea. gideon suiciding throwing herself on spikes to send harrow full lyctor to take out cytherea. palamedes “i miss harrow terribly” sextus. harrow “i can’t envision a universe without you in it” nonagesimus, camilla “life is too short and love is too long” hect. gideon “you’ll know what to do” nav, palamedes “she knows what to do” sextus. crazy! crazy insane! thinking about them

#the locked tomb #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #they're my forever loves sorry #there's more i could go on but like. lol! #SO much more #ableist slurs or whatever (lol) but they're necessary to me ! #also reread parts of GtN and HtN and i must have missed the part #the first time around where palamedes HUGS harrow and LIFTS her off the ground #AND kissed her brow before she left the projection bubble #i'm in tatters........... #life is too short and love too long.......... #thinking of palamedes seeing harrow in the river and then seeing harrow (nona) after the incident with john and the miraethium #'i miss harrow terribly'................ i'm going to start crying #how palamedes takes care of nona (harrow) and loves her............... please #how camilla treats nona (harrow) so tenderly and considerately and fondly #i'm going to start ripping and tearing and killing with my teeth

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

must be fall

#my art #eye contact #tw eye contact #scopophobia #scopohobia tw #furry #sfw furry #oc #let me know if i need to tw tag this more or give me the proper tags if im not using the right one!!! #i do not remember my oc tag bc when i went to look NOTHING would pop up . so maybe i'll edit this later and see #I HAVENT DONE ART FOR [ME] IN A REALLY LONG TIME which is why ive been working up to posting this AHBDFKU #BUT YEAH i am really happy with this. im having a fun time switching between the first sketch and the final product #im also eating a bag of blue raspberry sour patch kids like my life depends on it theyre so good #my hair is also getting pretty long i think and im debating on just letting it grow out or buzzing it again or a Short haircut #we'll see i'll probs figure out by the time october is over #ive been stalling the last 30 minutes to post this LMAO

[catharusustulatus]

Steve runs hot and Eddie is always cold, but Eddie is the sun and Steve is the moon. Steve exercises every morning to keep in shape and Eddie can eat whatever he wants and not gain weight. Steve loves to make big romantic breakfasts and Eddie is barely hungry until 2 pm. Steve is horrible at board games but competitive and Eddie is laid back and always wins. Steve cooks full meals when he’s hungry and Eddie eats a bell pepper like an apple. Steve loves to sit on his roof and look at the stars and Eddie loves to sit on Steve’s roof and look at Steve.

#stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #stranger things headcanon #steddie headcanon #stranger things headcanons #this short little diddy is dedicated to brain rot #imagine Steve and Eddie on the roof and they’re smitten with each other #and steve turns to look at Eddie and finds that he’s been looking at him the whole time #how long have you been staring? Steve asks #long enough says Eddie and then he dives into Steve’s lips #and then they make out in the cold until it’s time for bed #and Steve’s bedroom has never felt so good before in his life #also you know Steve is making like eggs Benedict out of a cookbook Mrs Henderson gave him for his birthday #and Eddie is like thank you I love it but also wet eggs??? #anyway they’re married now so there

[shuuenka]

It's been awhile, couple hundred of years.

Give or take.

It's not that bad, Cyno.

Just a bit of ache. A bit of yearning.

Ah, and missing you for all of the eternal life I was cursed with.

Selfish desires of the heart that was once moved.

#haino #cytham #alhaitham x cyno #cyno #alhaitham #cyhaino #immortal alhaitam and cyno who is long gone #this is one of the au's that are rattling in my brain #alhaitham as history keeper and immortal being #never minding his immortality #just gaining knowledge and observing and noting down #until he meets cyno #cyno is a warrior #a general that is a vessel for a god #challeges him and fascinates him #and alhaitham for the first time becomes part of the history he used only to observe #because cyno fights in the war because of his loyality and conviction #suddenly theres so much meaning in small things that alhaitham never discovered before #so much meaning in life #but human life is short and ficle #and for cyno it also ends #neither peacefully nor of old age #he dies by blade and blood spilling #but he is remembered by his kin #they build him a statue #his name will be remembered in books #as for alhaitham - he will continue wandering history #missing him deeply #maybe immortality is in fact a curse

[elfsyellowflowerzart]

take two of yesterdays little doodle, using the ref this time

#flight rising #flight rising art #flight rising gaoler #gaoler dragon #fr gaoler #hes one of my sonas 👍 #yew art #dragons #its not the most splendid drawing because ive been up since pretty early in the morning #but i had fun with it and thats what matters #my passion in life is making dragons way too fluffy #still pretty scribbly but thats ok i draw for fun #im trying to expand my lair rn but im short like 85k (dies) #gotta make that in like 6 days cause i have nests incubating lol #i know eggs dont rot and you can keep them in the nest as long as you want #but i want to see my special babies as soon as i can #i love seeing the new babies its my favorite part of the game tbh #im slooowly figuring out genes and keeping them in my memory #also if anyone wants to be flight rising friends my username is yellowflowerzzz #ive only been on it a few weeks so i dont have much experience at all and im mostly fumbling around doing my daily tasks #but my lair is huge now bc when i was newer a few incredibly kind people sent me a bunch of treasure #which still makes me tear up strangers can be so so so so kind i love the world sometimes

[oceanwithouthermoon]

long as fuck nails always painted with at least a clear coat club:

saiki kusuo

teruhashi kokomi

kaido shun

saiko metori

imu rifuta

nail biters club:

kuboyasu aren

yumehara chiyo

arisu makino

suzumiya hii

nendo riki

aiura mikoto (with fake nails over top)

(formerly) kaido shun

(formerly) toritsuka reita

(formerly) akechi touma

normal short nails 🙄:

hairo kineshi

mera chisato

satou hiroshi

toritsuka reita

akechi touma

#idk why i made this its just funny to me #i was just looking at how long my nails are rn and this came to mind #i think akechi bit his nails as a kid and then learned how much bacteria is there and snapped out of it so quick #ur gonna have to trust me on aiura cuz i just know. #she has to constantly resist the urge to bite off her press-ons but theyre a little tougher than normal nails so she still chews on em a li #kaido used to bite his nails BAD but he broke the habit a while after he started painting them #cuz swallowing nail polish constantly is really annoying and gross and DEFINITELY wasnt making him choke or anything noo shhh #im not rlly sure of my reasoning with toritsuka.. i just know #i couldn't decide for kusuke tbh cuz i feel like he just doesnt give a shit #but for him does that mean he would just let them grow out forever or that he would just bite them tf off ? #he would probably need short nails for all the hand work he does though so #maybe he maintains them normally but only for that reason #we all know he doesnt take care of himself so he wouldnt do it if he didnt need to #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[suckdickforcoin]

#qsmp #qsmp fanart #walter bob #qsmp forever #its that time of day where i miss walter bob.. #can i just say i love walter bob #HE IS SO AGGGHH #his backstory is so cool and sad like #he was a father and husband…. HE HAD A NORMAL LIFE BEFORE #its so GRGRGRGRGR #I love him #i could go on about him being a tragic character for hours but tags can only be so long.. #so ill cut it short #side note #this guy NEEDS more fan content #im BEGGING

[mmm-asbestos]

GUYS. SHORT HAIR ACHIEVED🫶🫶🫶

#i know. it took so long. life getting in the way yadda yadda but yippi short hair at home!!! daisy did it and she did such a good job v happ #salons can SUCK IT🫵

[wis-art]

When I was a kid (maybe like 6-12) i was very often """misgendered""" as a girl by doctors, cashiers and general adults. Once we had a picture day at school and had photo of me sent back with girly border cause photographers thought of me as a girl lol

I guess all the signs were there I just didn't know what transgender is cause nobody told me

#my parents let me wear long hair because i just liked it that way #i had short hair for maybe like total of 3-4 years in my life #very unpleasant #always enjoyed hanging out with girls #i had this huge crush on this girl who always hanged out with all the boys #we would ride bikes together and skate #we went on like those little four wheeler bikes together a few times #fhdhd i mean nothing ever came from it we just were friends #i heard from my mytual friends that she's lesbian now #makes so much sense honestly #stories from a little rural town in poland #honestly i miss my childhood friends #some of them know im trans and theyre like wow... #so cool... #also i secretely very enjoyed the girl border on my picture #but my classmates were like looooool look at this loser #so i tried to play it tough #hehe

[odysseys-blood]

i wonder how much longer the devils' lifespan is compared to a human. because the kings have been around for AGES when you take into account the fact that they were all full fledged adults with their countries well established by the time solomon first made contact with them. but also what's been messing me up about the longevity of their lives is the fact that the mc meets children! (from satan's bath card preview)

and from this conversation with sitri and ppyong devils are no longer being born because lilith, mother of all devils, has disappeared along with god and solomon. (ch3)

of course we know solomon is dead but the other two's existences are kinda up in the air at the moment. and with the fact that they all disappeared a long time ago its been. a few millenia which means any devil children have been babies and children for. a VERY long time from a humn perspective. and in that time many generations have sprung up between solomon's death and the mc being born. but also time passes differently in hell (likely slower from the fact that mc wasn't aware that the anniversary of their parents' death approached and passed (in ch4), as well as the fact that sitri says solomon spent a century in hell when solomon only made it to his 50s on earth (unles pretty busy has changed this for the story but i dont think they have)

with how all the devil's act you really would think that solomon disappeared just yesterday to them! thousands of years have passed on earth but theyre still heartbroken like they last spoke to him just last week! how short is the life span of a human to them. is it just like a blink and you're gone. are they aware of how limited their time with the mc is. because even with hell being so technologically avanced there's death every day. there is no cure for death. you will die and they still haven't even coped well with the death of a man that lived so long ago.

#cliffnotes/.txt #whb #what in hell is bad #whb spoilers #its just. AUGH. #i know theres also a likelihood that mc will go back to earth long before they die #or at least thats the plan #but would their entire time in hell just feel like a week to the demons? #its just sad to think about #and then they'd be getting sucker punched twice losing solomon and his refraction in what feels like a short period #of time for them #also thinking abt if the mc were to have a child with one of the 72 upper devils or kings #its likely that they'd die pretty early on in that chil'd life yknow #regardless of whether that child grows up in hell or on earth considering unholycs i believe also live long #(ik that tie in was likely just done for fun but im using it anyways) #so like. idk. #has pretty busy put that much thought into any of this and the cohesiveness of their own narrative? #most likely not. #will i overthink it anyways? #absolutely i have adhd and anxiety all i do is overthink #so sorry for long media analysis in the tags #it will happen again. #edit: nawt me being vagued in the tags w/ a point i wasnt even making lmao #the bit abt minhyeok's substory in ch4 was abt being disoriented bc of the difference #to the point where the mc did not notice the approach of such an important date tho there is a lot going on also #not 'oh i think its been a year'. thats stupid. #id give the events of ch1-4 like. a span of a week in hell tops. barely even that if im bein honest #if itd been a whole year i dont think mc would still be trying to adapt

[notedchampagne]

nona the ninth has helped me to romanticize the impermanent which is equally healing and horrific

#its really fascinating because ive had such a vast history with losing people + moving around ive become quite desensitized #like what really was the point of me making friends in university if i leave in 3 years #and then it hit me like damn... thats life isnt it. no matter how long or short these interactions will stick with you forever #even less than a minute in a body where your souls meld you have affected each other forever. so short but the effects are until death #you can fear someone departing from you but you can never take the love away and trying to avoid it to relieve yourself of the pain- #-you might as well not live. theres no connection that is guaranteed permanent and forever. you just have to hold that moment in your heart #forever and ever. and understand that you carry interactions with you like a quilt and the goal is to become a massive fucking heirloom #chat #nona the ninth