#like you usually do yknow

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[nuka-rockit]

headcanons my beloved

#saw some people arguing about lore stuff and like #its not real. its all literally made up #have fun do what you want who cares #hc #headcanons #meme #my stuff #ok to rb #i love lore and i usually try to adhere to it #but sometimes you just gotta go for that self indulgence yknow #discourse shit

[acoraxia]

#lego monkie kid #sun wukong #lady bone demon #spider queen #sisterhood hrs #art stuff #boy savior #CACKLES #i had the song blasting for HOURS #and now its jhn mulnaey hrs #yknow? as you do #per usual #Lmao #anyways #i hope u guys like this lne #one* #i cant type im using one hand #requiem au #💐🪷🥀

[alackofghosts]

wolbert week day 1 - ghost

#wolbertweek2023 #Ardbert #warrior of light #fanart #speedpaint #i draw sometimes #Final Fantasy XIV #getting across the um. game canon? state of things is way harder with art alone hence why i usually settle for Not That #but i do like the thought of the wol living for them both + he can feel some part of the weight of complete isolation for a century #but also ardbert's relief at not being alone anymore. and they are together and know how much it means for them both. #so even if ardbert is not really Tangible for him anymore it's still. good and important. yknow? #...honestly no clue what it is abt them that makes me want to see things in brighter colours but there you have it

[catmanbowser]

Help ive succumbed to bman the knight gays—i mean guys—[explodes]

#bruce wayne #minhkhoa khan #ghostbat #batman #ghost maker #dc #scrimblo doodles of men as usual #i’ll be normal abt this one i prommy ^^ #catman's art #sorry i didnt do justice w khoa’s face ;;;; #im figuring out new faces as usual i will study his face further <3 #trying out new brush too bcs im tired of using the good ol procreate pencil #yknow what i like abt bman the knight is how similiar it is with the batman 2022 novel. how they kinda have the same vibe too #its not the same thing but i just felt the same ‘WOAHHH’ when reading it #this comic’s fun you guys im vibrating with excitement

[lorillee]

im really normal about them <- lie

#ace attorney #mia fey #diego armando #miego #lorillee.png #THATS RIGHT BABY. AFTER -um . hold on. *checks notes* - SIX MONTHS. LORILLEE IS BACK WITH PHOTOSHOP ART 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 #every now and again i like to put effort into something just to remind everybody that i can actually draw #well i say that but to be honest i put a lot of effort into those ms paint ''diego fey REAL'' doodles #but half of that is just because humans are a . something. to draw. and urban backgrounds are my worst nemesis #and also trying to work with ms paint to like slightly transform things is an incredible pain in the behind #anyways. yeagh 😎👍 behold the power of miego. getting me to actually finish something in photoshop for the first time in months #anyways. ive discovered the secret to getting me to draw stuff on photoshop. prepare yourselves accordingly #what i need to do is sketch & line something in ms paint. and then directly trace it over into photoshop #and then i can go ham #see because the reason i never did this before was because i would sketch things in ms paint #and try to line them in photoshop and it simply Wouldnt Work. #so i had assumed that if i wanted to draw in photoshop id have to sketch in it first. yknow. which i cannot do for some reason #something about the way the pen feels and the . its like the smoothing setting is on even when its on 0 percent. you know. anyways #but with this one i drew mia in ms paint as per usual . and i wanted to mess around with color & light #and i triedddd to do it in ms paint but unfortunately as you can probably imagine. doing stuff like this without layer filters #can get a little difficult. if you know what youre doing its obviously going to be easier but that being said i do not #when i pick colors i am literlaly just wildly guessing 😭🙏 which is fine for more straightforward coloring/shading #but not quite here. which is why i wanted to take a stab at it in the first place #so anyways i was like FINE WHATEVER and tried tracing the lineart in photoshop so i could take a stab at coloring in there #and i was . enlightened. (no pun intended). it WORKS #so anyways . you may actually be able to expect. some photoshop art from me #well ok thats a lie never expect art from me. but we can all dream together #anyways they really are the star-crossed doomed by the narrative romance ever. everything to me

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Brazilian Grand Prix - Jenson Button

#no matter how many times i have seen him kissing the camera i still combust and fall onto the floor every time i see it #JENSE SINGING WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS ON THE RADIO I FELT SO UNWELLLLLLLLLL JENSEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! #AAAAHHHH HES SOOOOOOOOOO YKNOW???? HES SOOOOOOO!!!!!! #ANYWAYS I LOVE BRAWN!!! BEST TEAM!! BEST UNDERDOGS!!! #i fear that i am dreadfully painfully wholeheartedly in love with him.... #god ive not even delved into the pics from this race bcs i think i will melt into the floor and sob when i do #also i am not immune to a man loving and supporting his son sob sob sob ;;; jense and his dad always make me feel so warm #again ty to lemon for pointing me towards the one clip!! #usually these posts are just moments from the main race archive but these all came from 3 dif videos so that was v fun as you can imagine.. #im not quite finished the season yet but i can still commentate on this bcs now the wcc and wdc are tied up #but its wild bcs this season took me longer than the last one but since it had less races it still felt shorter/faster to me somehow #for the midseason i was practically lined up with the current season(i.e. watching Monaco 09 the same week as Monaco 23) #so it was pretty fun to experience both and see the differences(i think i like 2009 better hehehe) but now i have majorly overtook 2023 #jenson button #jb22 #brawn #brawn gp #2009 brazilian gp #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1

[altschmerzes]

Gav, do you have anymore wriggle up on dry land holiday thoughts to share? I've been thinking non stop about the snippets you posted, the idea of the holiday season being a bit of a jolt to Jamie's standing in his new family unit in his own mind is haunting me

oh yeah i think about this sorta thing ALLLLLL THE TIME it's like... i haven't thought too much about holidays in particular but things like that being a jolt to jamie's standing in his new family unit in his own mind is a great way to put it. it's deeply destabilizing for him every time he encounters something like that, something that makes him think about it and ask himself those questions directly - who am i to them, what is my place here, how long will it last, how much can i take, how much say do i get, etc.

and a BIG one in there is uncle's day, actually, speaking of holidays :) bc i'm keeping that part from season 3 though it's obviously a little different.

this is from when i was talking to another friend (thanks to @jamietxrtt this time, another prominent and beloved enabler of me generally and this au in particular) about the way that like. roy has a hard time with referring to james as jamie's dad when he's thinking about the man at all, because in his mind, that's ted now, and that's something ted earned. (and it's a little bit roy, too. there's a whole like- he's not Jamie's Dad the way that ted is but he very much is Jamie's Parent, and the distinction is a little odd and difficult to articulate but it's very similar to how he feels about phoebe, he's not her dad but he is her parent, etc. but it's still like...... when he thinks about what a father, what a dad ought to be, he feels that inside himself more than he could ever give it to james.)

which led to like. phoebe is the one who articulates this better and before anyone else can, and that's part of the uncle's day thing, which happens when jamie is seventeen and has been living with ted (and has had a room at roy's) for going on a year. when phoebe and sarah are arranging it, phoebe insists jamie has to come, because “he’s your uncle roy too” and jamie is like :? he is not.

and she sighs and rolls her eyes like little kids do when they think you’re being dense, and she’s like noooo i don’t mean he’s your UNCLE but he’s your UNCLE ROY just like he’s my uncle AND he’s my uncle roy and jamie is like. you’re gonna have to explain this one to me in a lot more words half pint.

and she sighs again and goes well. some kids at my school have a mummy and a daddy or two mummies or two daddies or just a mummy or just a daddy or one of my friends has a mummy and a parent - she pronounces this very deliberately - which is cool. AND my friend cecily has THREE mums and a dad because HER parents got DIVORCED and then they both got married again so she has FOUR parents which is NOT FAIR. anyways. i don’t have a mummy and a daddy or any of that. i have a mummy and an uncle roy. he isn’t my daddy but he’s my uncle roy, get it? and jamie nods bc he thinks he actually does get it yes.

and she goes okay. so you’ve got a daddy. that’s coach ted. but you’ve also got uncle roy. because he’s not your daddy and he’s not your uncle but he’s your uncle roy. get it?

and jamie, who is just about on the verge of tears now, nods again because yeah. He Gets It Now.

#gav gab #gav answers #fic: wriggle up on dry land #writing liveblog #boy there is some STUFF in here with jamie and sarah and phoebe that makes me insane to think about #this fic is about how jamie ends up with this enormous family that loves him dearly and two parents who are trying their hardest #to be the best they can for him. BUT. #jamie's coming out of this also with a baby brother and a baby sister. do not forget this. #and i have some scenes with jamie + henry and jamie + phoebe that're gonna kill #(me at least) #long post #listen when i say 'my parents' i am referring to my mother and grandmother usually #so i am like #really head over heels for the family things that theyve done with roy #and that i am expanding on #sometimes you have someone who is serving as a parent for you #but they are not your Mom Or Dad Or Parent Directly #yknow? #sometimes your parents are your mom and grandma. sometimes theyre your mom and uncle.

[creatively-cosmic]

ethans but on a sliding scale of "snow on mt silver source" to "lost silver source"

#ok only one of them is Ethan but you know what i mean #blake #ethan #gold #bonus emotional support creatures for each of us. typhlosion... cyndaquil..... that weird headless ghost thats haunting me...... #yknow the usual #anyways can i say the concept of unknown limbs on lost silver gold is really cool but #i don't understand the chunky Monster limbs with Eyes approach i see like. every time someone does it #yknow what makes more sense as an unknown shape: bones. #does anyone understand. does anyone get my vision. do you hear me. dont you see

[gibbearish]

btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet

#which is ironic too bc if he genuinely did want to prove he understood what he did wrong and that hed changed thatd be the way to do it #yknow like a full list of every single source including ones no one has found on their own or /can/ find anymore would a) be taking full #responsibility and b) make people less likely to always be like 'youre still hiding something' #which in turn makes me super think hes still hiding a lot of somethings #also cant go without stating that the 'request a video topic' thing was only for $100/month patrons after 3 months on that tier #like fucker these people gave you THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AT LEAST and youre trying to blame it on them?????? #no one forced you to make 'let patrons pick video topics' a reward dude like. hello???????? #shit dude even hbombs highest tier ($10 for anyone wondering bc he doesnt see his audience as a money machine lmao) #just says you can vote in polls about future topics #like that makes complete sense to me as a version of this‚ the most dedicated audience members get a say in the future of the #channel while the creator still gets overall control of the direction #also 'patrons who gave me fuckloads of money asked me to make videos on topics i didnt like so i plagiarized those' is i think uhhh #worse than just 'i plagiarize everything without remorse' frankly? #like at least with the second youre just a general shitbag but the first where youre a shitbag specifically to the people #majorly financially supporting you rather than just like. be an adult and say 'hm i dont feel like that topic really works for the channel‚ #do you have any other ideas?' #or dare i say even perhaps yknow. doing what other youtubers do in similar situations and find ways to tie that subject #to what they usually talk about is just. wild #course that last one would take actual creativity and aint that just the crux of the issue #james somerton #or i say cannot go without stating i should say cannot go without restating kwnrkabdkwbrn

[fox-guardian]

hm. maybe i Should go ahead and get an ao3 account

#ramblings with major #i was gonna like. wait. but idk #having one-shot ideas and im hesitant to post here cuz last time i posted writing here it flopped #but maybe it'll do slightly better on The Writing Website #but also it's angst and i hate writing angst it feels so embarrassing somehow #not saying writing angst in general is like cringe or smth it just Feels embarrassing for Me Specifically idk #i guess just cuz it's more Emotional than the stuff i usually end up writing #yknow what i mean #like 'oh that's what angst is to you? what are you some kind of sad person??' idk #im tired i need to sleep im truly rambling ANYWAY

[catboyfurina]

Idk what precisely to call it since honorifics aren't Pronouns but vertin using she/her while routinely being addressed as Lord, sir, etc is soooooooo 🥰 it's like mixed pronouns but not.

#beeep #i love reverse 1999 #like shes not a he him lesbian but like yknow !!! #theres not a quick and easy shortcut for it but shes definitely sapphic and im leaning more lesbian hc than bi tbh !!!! #(which btw bi women can also be gnc and use he him in a wlw way) #(i just think vertin lesbian) #(but i KNOW shes sapphic) #AND HOW SHES USUALLY a my lord SPECIFICALLY when addressed by the girl so down bad for her???? gay as fuck #<- this isnt spoilers bc all the women wont her #well okay thats not precisely true. but a great deal of them do #anyway. i just hope that it isnt a translation error bc goes crazy ahhhh #shes a gentleman..... #and also i think vertin needs to meet a guy who isnt evil bc (possibly nb) lesbian and trans guy bestie duo is one of my favorite tropes #but so far she only interacts with evil people and or girls that wont her 😔😔😔 #which is so valid but also 😔😔😔 vertin u need platonic friends too. friends that arent desperately hoping you will push them out of danger #and land on top of them and gaze into their eyes #(or just hoping to make out) #(there are both types of wonts her in this game) #(along with a secret third kind) #anyway #rhvjvdjgdjvbjdbkrbkdjb vertin #i have to. be a person. i have to be a person but instead my brain is just full of WOW GAME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway vertin has like. fancy oldtimey gentleman gnc going on #not so gnc by modern standards that it would make Certain People mad but enough that it is making Me very happy #and i just !!!!! cannot get over how genius it is to combine sheher pronouns with traditionally masculine terms of address!!!!!!! #shes so gender. not my gender but she has so much gender #i love vertin and i love regulus and i love druvis and i love the fool and i love tooth fairy who isnt out yet but i saw her in that one vid #eo #i was expecting to play this so casually like stick it on my phone and then i can do it while waiting for class when im there a few minutes #early but i do Not feel casual about this at all!!!!!!!!!!!! <- i think i got hyperfixated lads

[romanceddawn]

idk if bakura would be into art displays much but i cant stop thinking about him eventually turning the letters he wrote for his mother and sister and later his father into a piece of art, like a piece about how grief is love persisting and all that but with sensitive and magical details blacked out maybe

i also like the thought of there being a little corner in the piece with letters dedicated to the thief king and atem, both mourning the short time he had with them and the fact that he didn't get a chance to know them in the ways he wanted to

maybe some of his other friends get the ones for atem but wouldn't understand there being letters for tkb, but yugi would get it and stand with bakura to read those letters in particular together and share in their grief over who they've loved and lost

#this isnt a super shippy post so you can see this all as platonic #but i do love me some bakura x atem x yugi x tkb polycule so #i am going to be tagging some of the ryou part of the ships #tendershipping #fragileshipping #heartshipping #i dont usually like angst but yknow #i have my days i suppose #ryou bakura #yugi mutou #yami bakura #yami yugi #headcanons #sorry to spam tags but i need these for my blog navigation #devo speaks

[b4kuch1n]

I'm not gonna screenshot it bc 1/it really doesn't matter that much and 2/the person who made the comment is a kid but: a while ago I made a comic that's supposed to be a genuine study and reinterpretation of someone else's sprite comic (made in the spirit of authenticity too - to recreate the vibes of the sprite comics from that era, iirc very specifically because it's funny) and I got a comment on that comic's post that's like "glow up"

which is a compliment obvs. and the commenter probably didn't mean anything by it, it's a common expression. but I've been trying to find a way to gracefully put that comment away ever since it appeared lol

I just very much don't want my art to be taken as trying to one-up someone else's art when that's not the piece's intention. especially when the piece that inspired my art is perceived as "low effort" or "shitpost" or stuff like that. I did mention in the tags of that post that my considering it a study is entirely genuine, and I can legitimately write pages about the cool stuff I find in it other than and inherent in the haha funneys, but that's not for you guys that's for me. I just think that approaching art competition-first like that is a miserable way to do it, and (tipping into overthinking here if the whole tiny-comment-got-stuck-in-my-brain-for-almost-a-month part hasn't given that away yet lol) I really don't want that to be the takeaway from my own art. at least generally. if I actually think the source material is trash and what I'm doing is genuinely categorically better I'd just come out and say it lmao

#bakuspeech #yeah it's the darkhog sprite comic #honestly I don't love comments that put my art and other artists' art in a hierarchy in general. wherever my art lands on that scale #especially when it comes to character writing and trans 'representation' #which like. idk man I'm writing One character. he's NOT gonna be The Trans Experience. he's gonna be one character. #but yeah I'd guess I'm writing it all out in a post bc it's not really a race that anyone opts in #I don't actively participate but by virtue of how my art is perceived I just end up on the scale anyway #so uh. I'm suggesting that we do not bring the scale into my house at all lmao #there's also the like. Don't Yuck My Yum guideline of looking at art that's like #I like the things I'm aping! most of the times! if I don't say it's shit and I'm drawing stuff from it usually that means I like it lol #and then you kinda come in like wow what you're doing here is better than the thing you like. and it's not like yknow. #really anything. it's extremely trivial comparatively. but you are in fact yucking my yum there #tldr please try not to think abt art u like vs art u don't as ''better'' or ''worse'' and #have grace for the things that don't please u personally. anyways I'm omw to finishing the frog now. just need to fell all the seams down #and put that boy in da spinner for a ride. and then it can live in a gift bag until the day #I really enjoy holding it actually... maybe after this one I'll make something else. tbh slick stretchy fabrics are superior to fuzzy fabri #doesn't pill And cooler to touch. stuffed toys for the subtropical population #I'll get a combilation of pics once the thing's at its new home. but for now. we must finish the job

[inkats]

Hiyori Tomoe + I was feeling weird about drawing and then saw a handsome woman and died a little bit.

#With the way I act and talk about men it’s easy to assume. Sometimes I even think that way. But no. #I actually love women <3 #(too. As well.) #I do not draw ladies loads bc I think. I like real women more than anything ever. And I simply cannot capture a Real Person. Yet. #very fun that this is my first art post of the year and not the two short comics I made. But also #this reminded me about what I actually like. No more silly trope y stuff I’m gonna. work on more soft sweet real people feeling stuff. #hello yes see I draw #traditional art #artists on tumblr #drawing #sketches #doodles #hiyori tomoe #enstars #enstars fanart #hiyori tomoe fanart #Ok cool I also finished my sketchbook w these ladies btw. Finally. I am going to. Bed in 20 minutes I’ll see if I’ll start the next one… #but I also am really wanting to try and practice drawing women the way that. When they. Yknow. You understand you’re all gay too. #I really wanna capture like. The confidence the charm. My art usually looks like. Anime girls (derogatory). #This year we fight misogyny.

[soldier-poet-king]

Wahhhhhh

The tldr is my boss couldn't go to this meeting today so I got sent to represent our archive, and I was the only archivist there in a group of professors and PhD students (whose research is tangentially related to the contents of the archive) and I'm just ahhhh

On the one hand, it was great, sitting around a table talking research for a few hours over lunch, it's all the best parts of grad school seminars and I've missed having those kinds of discussions IMMENSELY and it feels like a missing piece of myself has been returned. Even just from mostly listening for the duration.

On the other hand. The sense of imposter syndrome not being a Real Academic. And the sense of loss and regret. Yes yes I didn't go for my PhD because health, finances, awful job prospects for classicists. But I LOVED grad school. I love my MA and learning and studying and being a student. I miss it terribly, even though I'm good at and enjoy my profession.

Even had health/finances not been a concern, I'd never have been able to decide on a focused research topic for a dissertation. My interests are too broad. They're not even limited to classics. I'm bouncing between life changing academic interests constantly, and each one is foundational and obsessive, in its own way. I joked to Atlas this week that I was supposed to be born a foppish renaissance dilettante, but it's not even really a joke.

I know. I KNOW. My unlived lives aren't real. They shouldn't haunt me. The me that exists is de facto the best version of me because it's the ONLY me that exists. And life doesn't have to be perfect it just has to be Good. And it is good. But also. Why can't I be a full-time student just learning, never having to publish, but also an archivist and information professional, but also a mutual aid volunteer and praxis oriented person, and Also have time for hobbies like crafting and novel reading and video games, and things like cooking and gardening and strength training.

I'm aware that harmonizing and coming to peace with the multitudinous aspects of the self is the work of a lifetime but also I want it to happen /now/

#the duality of fran #your probably asking. fran. can you got THREE DAYS without the navel gazing obsession with your own selfhood and realization as a person #and without obsessing about the purpode and telos and fulfillment of ur own existence #the answer is. no ❤️ #ahhh itll be ok im just. boooooo reminded of all the things i try not to think abt #life is so short! life is so long! #i am so tired. too tired for even a fraction of the life i want to live #yknow the usual typical person who didnt think they would live this long and would definitely kms before this #so now its like. i gotta learn to live. i have to find out what i want. and the answer is apparently. i want everything #yes its part pride and ambition #but its also wonder and joy and awe and curiosity #why do i have to pick ONE thing. where there is SO much out there #life is too short for all the marvels of the universe #and i am too much a dilettante for it all #oh it is a good world and good life #some days i am just. afraid of the hunger for it all