#listen i lost my fucking mind

[jeysuso]

The return of the Firefly FunHouse ft. LA Knight - WWE Friday Night Smackdown, 20th January 2023.

#bray wyatt #braywyattedit #wweedit #wrestling gifs #friday night smackdown #la knight #windham rotunda #shaun ricker #wwe friday night smackdown #wwe smackdown #firefly funhouse #listen i lost my fucking mind #triple h saw vince coming back and was like i'm gonna fuck it ALL up #rey mysterio saying bullshit last week #paul heyman saying pissing twice this week AND a creepy puppet doll telling a rabbit puppet to shut the fuck up? comedy gold #i'm so excited for their rumble match #also love bray wyatt #very very much #i missed out the bit before the yeah! with the rabbit cause idk what that bitch said #speaking in tongues or some shit idk #mine*

[shima-draws]

NEW PARADOX POKEMON

DLCS ANNOUNCED THAT WILL GIVE MORE LORE ABOUT AREA ZERO

AND!!! NEW LEGENDARIES??? ONE OF WHICH IS THE DISC POKEMON MENTIONED IN THE SCARLET/VIOLET BOOK???

AAAAA A AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#IFSNNFENNTMEG ANGNSNN!!!!!!!!! #Shima speaks #I’M LOSING MY MIND RN #LIKE. LOGICALLY I KNEW they were gonna announce the DLCs #BUT I’M STILL SO FUCKING EXCITED. HOLY SHIT #I was listening to the broadcast while I was driving to work and I nearly lost my MIND #I’M SO HYPED. OHHHH MY GOD #Pokemon #Pokemon Scarlet and Violet #Pokemon SV #Pokemon SV DLC #Nintendo Direct #Pokemon Direct #Pokemon The Hidden Treasure of Area Zero

[maegalkarven]

"Durge came back different", "Durge didn't really come back", "the person who Durge originally was is dead" are all good takes, but what if.

If Durge came back exactly as they were? The brain damage, additional trauma and memory loss are the big altering factors, but underneath that it's still them.

They didn't change drastically, their former self is not dead.

How about one single fragile mortal soul still keeping a hold on itself, how about Durge who was never allowed anything for themselves still retaining them.

How about Durge who has lost everything: power, memories, purpose, sense of self, still being themselves, despite it all.

How about not even Orin's daggers, tadpole and Bhaal combined being able to rob them of their core? How about all of that just revealed who Durge has always been underneath all those expectations Father dearest put on them?

How about: "After all this time, it's still you."

#the dark urge #durge #dark urge #listen all these dead past selfs and loose of identity is fine and all #but i personally can't stand it because give me “me” back #give me who I am #i don't want redemption fuck your clean slate #give me the only thing I could ever dare claim as my own. return myself to me #@withers maybe SOME losers would lose their mind seeing the attocities Durge has commited. Levi is better tho. give him all of his memories #and give them NOW #levi is not a different person #not even june is a different person #it's still them how they have always been at their core #it's not regression it's not stagnation it's growing and changing #but staying yourself #levi SO recovers all of his memories #fuck what some old dude with bad hiring skills says his memories aren't lost. nothing ever truly is #june accidentially gets curses with having his memories back #maybe don't piss off powerful entities bby #levi be like: i respect all loss of identity. but I PERSONALLY hate to lose. give me myself back

[finncakes]

scribbly-doos of some of my fave c3 ships

#ashrym #imodna #witchy bitches #not pictured is fearne/fcg. i'm fucking bonkers ig. #anyway i've had mostly ashrym and witchy bitches on the brain lately tbh #fully lost my mind and i am convinced ashton has some sorta feelings for orym #it's like. the little things ok. listen. i notice. i am the noticer (ashrym edition) #aLSO it's been a minute since i posted ashrym or imodna #so #it's my duty to do so #but by god these bitches gay! #they talked abt training on the ship for half a second at the end in the last ep and my brain went 'ASHRYM SPARRING SESSION WHEN.' #also i WILL looked too much into the fact that orym tocuhed ash a bunch during their heart-to-heart but not fcg #inch-resting....<- to me it is. #and YES i watched the clip of orym giving ash a flower 8000 times. ash's face is soft for half a second before they cover it with sarcasm #like....girl...i see you. i know what you are. #okie i stfu now i have to make dinner byeeeeeeeeee

[khaotunq]

crack theory: mew is living his life according to wannabe by the spice girls

#genuinely all i can think about #nobody else is aware of this. this is crucial. #his little list. he wrote it when he was listening to the spice girls. #i will not be dissuaded #i'm supposed to be cooking #i've lost my fucking mind #so it is decreed #ofts #only friends the series #adventures in ofts

[jaynovz]

Luke Arnold did not put his entire psyche and pussy into John Silver to the detriment of his own health for yall to say Silver is a mastermind liar and not a fucking repressed bisexual MESS

#have you SEEN him? #fucking LOOK AT HIM?? #watch the actor act his performance is EXTREMELY layered of Man Desperately Trying to Suppress Weird and Big Emotions about Flint #especially in s2 check my woof woof tag the body language is VERY READABLE #but it doesn't GO AWAY in later seasons it just Shifts #black sails #john silver #he's trying to hide it but it peeks through a LOT #lemme find a post #listen just this Idea I've been seeing over and over that Silver is Always Performing and like... there's no genuine expression #or that he somehow has complete mastery of himself LMAO it just utterly discounts the Actual Text of the show #and the actor's performance #which is... SLOPPY BITCH TRYING REAL HARD TO PERFORM BUT IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE... A LOT #treating Silver like a narrative device can be fun and great but uhhh yall have bought into the legend you got tricked #he's literally just a fucking ptsd ridden mess 30 traumas/snakes in a trenchcoat #My Opinion About This Has Been Well Documented in Fic #but I guess I just lost my mind in the tags blaming this one on Etoile

[shibopandadoodles]

Eyes in the rain, I tried to hide Tears of a boy who shouldn't cry For evermore I'll keep in mind Your memory, father of mine Farewell, my papa

#fire emblem #genealogy of the holy war #fe4 #arvis #julius #krita #painting #artists on tumblr #seisen no kefu #digital art #nintendo #fanart #I started drawing this like. MONTHS AGO? LIKE FULLY BACK DURING THE WINTER #when i fucking watched pinnochio and lost my mind because my GOD arvis lost his son he lost his beloved son #and i just never finished it but ive been Sad about it again bc ive been listening to shadowlord JKSKFLDJWLD and im just #he just wants his wife and kids bro.....

[kyuala]

SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this? #so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.

[naturallyflavoredspringwater]

i love john doe look at him

evil and fucked up eddie munson

#john doe #john doe visual novel #jdvn #john doe game #eddie munson #it's the hair #like i need you to understand that i played this entire game at 3am #and i sat there once it was done and said eddie munson aloud #and i lost my fucking mind #the stinky #real stinker #he listens to kylie minogue #His favorite song is padam padam #i hope he does the john doe shuffle

[hideitaway]

😀

#so I’ll just sum up my afternoon here #because I’m still genuinely shocked at how bad it’s been #my mom called to tell me one of my cats died and of course that sent me down a spiral #not even an hour later I almost lost an eye to a fucking kids toy #now said eye is literally black and blue #I look like someone sucker punched me right in the eyeball #and for the last hour I’ve listened to ‘end of beginning’ and ‘the view between villages’ like a hundred times #and the best part - tomorrow is monday!!! #I’ll have to go and do my thing with a fucking black eye and a dead cat on my mind #like what the fuck

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

What. The Count of Monte Cristo is so good :0

#NO-ONE TOLD ME??? #I'm listening to it on the train gasping & shit #the narrator mispronounces a few words sadly & his French accent for the characters is sometimes impenetrable #but idc this book is so good I am LIVING #they locked this bitch up for 14 years!! no trial no charge!! #god help him he was only 19 & so on & so forth #I would've lost my mind #also. the using suicidal ideation to cope??? #what is it w me & sailors who fantasise abt killing themselves #anyway he's just busted out of prison. naked. swimming for his life #the Edmond is out of his cage. yes. YES. the Edmond is free #I'm sooo ready for him to tear these bitches a new one but I'm only like 15% of the way through the book so. I assume all will not go well #anyway the more I read/listen to‚ the more I realise Edmond Dantes is Odysseus Lite #except at least Laertes makes it to the end of the Odyssey alive. unlike Old Dantes :( so Odysseus gets a point for that #I should've realised when they didn't give him a name tbh #anyway NO SPOILERS #I'm aware that it's 180 years old. STILL. 🤫 #ALSO THE SCENE W NOIRTIER??? lich rally breathless #dripping w swagger. fuck les gendarmes. complete identity metamorphosis. drags his failson. fuck les gendarmes TWO!! #I'm sorry Villefort I'm sure ur not a failson #I just haven't read enough yet. & ur certainly not yr father lmfaooo #The Count of Monte Cristo

[synonymroll648]

the ultimate off-page kotlc love triangle was between brant and jolie and vertina. discuss. 

#i'll start off first #brant and vertina did not have feelings for each other. idk if they tolerated each other or hated each other from the start #but they definitely hated each other at the end #people have been saying bi jolie rights for ages so it's like. ok. what female character was she canonically close with #and that goes to vertina the spectral mirror. which is. interesting. since vertina is only coded. not actually sentient #so it's either: jolie fell for someone that doesn't have romantic attraction coded into them (same here vertina) #or: elvin tech is so advanced that she can develop romantic attraction and that's an extra layer as to why she was so upset about jolie's #passing #OR: they both fell for each other but either wouldn't admit it or couldn't make it work #and brant x jolie is obvious. we don't need to explain there #listen ik jolie x vertina #has crackship vibes but there's POTENTIAL. think about how much we hear that jolie and vertina were close. think about how sophie needs #a bicon to look up to. someone to look at for reference as to where to put her footsteps because we all know sophie foster is bi as fuck #WE HAD THE BEE MOVIE WE CAN HAVE THIS #LET ME HAVE MY ELF X TECHY MIRROR SHIP. I WILL EVENTUALLY WRITE A FIC IF I HAVE TO. IT'S BEEN ON MY MIND FOR WAY TOO LONG OK #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #jolie ruewen #kotlc brant #kotlc vertina #IT'S ABOUT THE CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS AND THE ANGST OK

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol #except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade #plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me #god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set #looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u #the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno? #it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control #executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont #wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral #sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive #lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not #forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho #my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly #need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im #dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter #what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by #my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything #interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to #fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i #described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that #idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean #ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said #she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the #parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the #disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage #but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain #just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked #unrelated

[ghostmaggie]

the lightning thief musical might just be perfect media

#i am so fucking!!! #the motifs and themes are chefs kiss #the way it teases out the characters and themes and plot of the book so evocatively while doing its own thing and keeping it fresh #the voice of it all!!! #it's all ive listened to or thought about for several weeks and no one i know has listened (despite many hints) #like ugh i listened to it forever ago and thought it was fine but kinda meh and cheesy #past me you were WRONG ok you straight up didnt get it #also if this in any way makes u wanna listen do but make sure you go in open minded and ready to accept what they are ready to give u #which is love and friendship and lore and angst and sense of self #and also i have to recommend listening to my curated extended playlist that slots back in 3 of the cut songs #(5 cut songs were released as bonus tracks and theyre all fun but one is more of a bit and one is duplicative of another song in the show) #(as in literally shares some dialogue) #so while try does tread some of the same emotional ground of lost it gets to stay while in the same boat sadly does not #ily tho itsb #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk #pjo #tlt musical #post #eta: oh and don't even get me STARTED about the Implications of the roles that are double/triple/etc cast #GABE IS LUKE IS ARES #CLARISSE IS MRS DODDS IS KATIE GARDNER #SALLY IS THE ORACLE IS SILENA IS CHARON #(i know the katie and silena thing doesnt feel like much but oh!! in my heart it is so much) #GROVER IS MR D DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE GALAXY BRAIN MEME IN MY HEART RN #and just to close the loop chiron is all other male gods and also medusa and it's so!!! #we don't have time to unpack all that but t #it's always rotating in my mind

[rotisseries]

omg guys my narines playlist fucks so hard

#LIKE. THIS IS NASTYYYYYYYYY #<-sorry I'm just saying that cause unpunishable by miss ethel herself is on #and this is the first time in 3 and a half weeks that I've listened to anything other than unreal unearth btw #anyway I'm listening to the playlist both because I really want to but also cause whenever I make a playlist #I need to listen to the whole thing at least once. see it in action #to make sure it's actually good #cause I have this tendency to get powerhungry with the song adding and I'll just add more and more songs I like #while getting looser and looser about whether or not they actually fit the prompt #and I check if they fit just by pulling up the lyrics which is sometimes different from actually listening to the song #like sometimes you look at lyrics and you're like yeah I could interpret this my way #or yeah it mostly fits but the few lines that don't are ignorable #and then when you actually listen to the song you're like oh no you CAN'T interpret it that way and those lines AREN'T ignorable #so yeah I gotta do playlist editing basically because I lose my mind #like do I really need six of the kim petras halloween songs on here. debating on if turn off the lights really fits. I'm not sure #also btw tbostuals I am taking critique on the playlist. tell me if I've lost it please tell me if I need to get stricter on a song #but it does fuck. this playlist does fuck I'm having so much fun