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lollixp0p · 3 months

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Pairing: Best friend!Hwang Hyunjin x afab!reader

Genre: Smut (MDNI), bit of feelings

Word count: just under 3k!

Warnings: Idol!au, subby!Hyunjin, slightly perv!reader, recording, (maybe a bit dub con because he doesn't mean to send it but reader watches it anyway), mommy kink, masturbation (both but separately), Hyunjin fantasizes about reader, reader fantasizes about Hyunjin, lmk if I missed anything!!

Summary: Hyunjin finally gets some alone time after weeks of hard work and decides to use his time to... relax. The next day he ends up sending you something on accident that sets off a big change in your lives, with or without either of you really realising.

Note: My first ever fic!! :3 Inspired by a video I saw on phub. (@cbini (Ems isn't on Tumblr rn she still wanted to be tagged so I hope it's ok), @comet-falls, @hyunsvngs, @mnwrld and @skz-hell lmao hello everyone, writing blog reveal!!😁 here's this fic I've mention to all of you as an anon<3 (depending on who you are I'm either ❄️anon, 🐾anon or sounding anon😳)). To anyone reading this please give me literally any feedback (comment, reblog, anything!), I want to know if this is good or not since it's my first fic🙏😣

Please do not under any circumstance copy, translate, or repost my works!

It's been exactly three weeks since Hyunjin's had any time for just himself, though it feels like months at this point.

Recently everyone's been running around like headless chickens and between vocal trainings, dance practices and the studio, there hasn't been much time to just relax and recharge. Preparing for a new album really is the busiest time of an idols life.

There hasn't even been time to see family or friends, which is common during busy spells like this, but always dissapointing to think about. Now even more so, with how much he's been wishing to spend time with you, one of his closest friends... who also happens to be his crush. Not that he'd ever let you know though, not in a very long time.

It feels almost like a blessing, getting back to the dorms from practice late in the evening and realising... he's got the place all for himself, at least until his roommates get back from the studio.

Changbin had messaged him earlier, telling him that they'd probably be there well past midnight, so there was no use waiting up for them. To him though, this was the very opposite of an issue. With that much free time, he'd definitely be able to... make himself comfortable, so to speak.

See, not having time to relax also means he'd basically had no time to get off. The best he'd been able to do had been quick little sessions barely once a week in the shower right before passing out on his bed from the exhaustion of working hard.

The realisation that he'd be able to do anything he wants during his time alone is enough to get his dick twitching in his jeans and he decides the shower can wait until later.

Hyunjin goes to his room and locks the door after himself even though he's alone, it's just become a habit after so many years living with his members. He sets his bag down next to his bed and thinks through his plan.

Hyunjin has a little secret, which is that he loves recording himself do dirty things that range from more vanilla to much less vanilla. Something about the thrill of being recorded even if no one will ever see it just... makes him so fucking horny.

He opens the camera of his phone, puts it to video mode and presses record. Moving his hand off the lense and setting it down where he normally sets it, on the carefully placed pile of books on his desk, he sits down on his bed.

"Hmm... I hope the angle's good... It's been so long since I've had time for this", Hyunjin sighs with a pout and brushes his hair out of his eyes. He knows the camera won't see it though because he's made sure the stand, his pile of books, is at a level that cuts off his head perfectly.

Hyunjins hands run down his body slowly and he exhales deeply, just loud enough to get picked up by his phone. Once they reach his jeans he unbuttons them, unzips the zipper, then pulls the jeans down just enough to expose his underwear. Hyunjin pulls his shirt up over his stomach to be held in place under his chin, rubs his hand over his bulge and hums.

It's been so long since the last time he's been able to take his time making himself feel good. It's almost embarrassing how quickly he's getting hard.

He takes his dick out his boxers and then spits on the palm of his right hand. It's dirty and wet but it just turns him on even more. He grabs his dick with the hand and slowly moves his fist up and down, to spread the saliva and precum all over his dick to make the slide easier and wetter but to also get himself to full hardness.

"A-ah, ohh... that's so good... Feels-fuck, feels so good", Hyunjin sighs. It really won't take him too long to cum, he just knows it. He's been pent up for far too long.

He tries to think of something to help his issue and immediately thinks of you, no matter how embarrassed or dirty it makes him feel.

When you first started showing up in the dirtiest corners of his mind he felt so ashamed. Now it doesn't matter to him anymore. You'll never find out so why feel bad?

He continues to move his hand on his dick while thinking of you. The last time the two of you had time to hang out together you'd worn the lowest cut shirt he'd ever seen on you. He had tried so hard to act normal around you but whenever you bent down he'd been able to see into your shirt.

"Haah, fuck..." , he squeezes himself a little harder at the memory. Everytime you moved he could see your bra poking out from the top, black and lacy. The entire time he'd been doing his best to not bust in his pants. Oh, what he'd give to be able to see your tits. They always looked so soft and they'd probably fit perfectly into his palms.

Whenever the both of you would hang out at yours, watching movies and just hanging out, you never bothered to wear a bra. Why would you? It is your house where you want to be as comfortable as possible.

The feeling of laying down on your couch watching a movie with you on top of him, in just a t-shirt, will end up driving him mad one day. Everytime he'd felt your nipples poking into him he'd almost moaned out loud.

"Hngh... Oh my god, please... m-mommy!", he lets out pathetically, moving his fist faster. God he just wants you to use him, to do anything you want to him. The thought makes him whine desperately.

One of the most common fantasies for him is you on top of him using him to get off, not caring about if he's close or not. You'd sit on his face and ride it until you cum. He could probably cum untouched like that. All he'd need was tasting you and seeing you cum, just for him.

All the sudden he remembers the phone recording him and he shudders. He imagines what your reaction would be to seeing him like this. Would you be disgusted or delighted? Would you tell him what to do and how to touch himself? Maybe you'd touch him... He hopes you would.

"Mommy... please touch me, aah- oh!", he runs his thumb over the head of his cock just right and his thighs twitch but he keeps them open, in perfect view to the camera.

Throwing his head back he imagines you riding him. You'd be so tight and wet around him. Maybe you'd tie his hands behind his back so he wouldn't be able to touch you... he'd really like that. You'd feel godly around him, Hyunjin thinks.

"Fuck, oh fuck! Mommy I'm-haah, I'm so close, please!", his dick twitches desperately. You're so gorgeous, to him you're the sexiest person he's ever seen. He feels himself getting so close that tears spring to his eyes.

"Ah- 'm gonna... mommy, gonna cum...!", he whines out long and loud. It takes Hyunjin two more strokes to let go and he cums the hardest he's cum in weeks. He doesn't even register whispering your name. Hyunjin leans back on his left hand and keeps stroking himself through it.

The feeling is overwhelming, so much so that his thighs start twitching pathetically and the tears in the corners of his eyes fall. He's getting incredibly overstimulated but he keeps going, wanting to keep enjoying the feeling, just a bit more.

He squeezes himself one last time and suddenly everything on him feels gross and dirty. He's just had the best orgasm in weeks so it's no surprise that he came a lot, everywhere. He even managed to get some on his chin.

"Fuuck... Did you-haah... did you enjoy that?", he chuckles to the phone. It takes a while for him to come down from the high, the twitchiness and the feeling of euphoria lingering in his body. Once he's capable of standing up again he stops the video.

With his body feeling like jelly, he takes off all his clothes, drops them into his hamper and prepares to shower, at last.

Hyunjin wakes up to his alarm the next day feeling more refreshed than he's felt in weeks. He shuts off the still ringing alarm and quickly gets up from his bed to get dressed and go eat breakfast.

Checking the calendar on his phone to make sure he knows his schedule for today, he makes a note of one thing; he'd have a lot of time alone at the dorms today too, since he's only got a dance practice and a recording session today, which obviously means 3racha will stay behind to stress about their songs while Hyunjin can return early. Maybe this time he should continue the latest piece of art he's been working on after he gets back?

Hyunjin gets through the day well enough.

After eating breakfast he messages you a "Good morning pretty <3 please remember to drink water!" like every morning when he has time for it. He gets to the practice room only five minutes late, which is a record this early in the morning, because usually he ends up sleeping in at least ten minutes (which makes Chan scold him for being such a heavy sleeper).

He does well at practice, even though he ends up a little exhausted. That's nothing new though, with how hard they always work to be the best they can be.

The rest of the members leave to take a break but Hyunjin decides to stay behind to film the solo choreography he's been working on for fun. Once he's happy with how it's turned out, it's time for him to go record his lines.

The recording session goes smoothly, without hundreds of retakes and everyone's satisfied with the result. Afterwards they decide to order some take-out, as a reward for a job well done... and also because they're all feeling too lazy to even think about going to the dorms to cook.

While eating Hyunjin finally realises to check his phone again. "Good morning, take care of yourself too!! :)" is your response to what he sent earlier. It's nothing more than a kind response but it makes him grin to himself like the fool in love he is.

"Yaaah!! Hyunjinnieee, what's making you smile so beautifully?", Changbin leans towards him with his signature flirting-with-Hyunjin grin, mouth half full of rice.

"It's nothing," Hyunjin responds back to him cheeks red, "and don't talk with your mouth full hyung... Do you not have any respect?"

Changbin decides to drop it in favor of eating more delicious food.

"Oh come on... we wanna know!!", Han pouts at him from his seat on the couch in the room. Hyunjin shoves another mouthful of food in his mouth to avoid the embarrassement of explaining how a single text messaged from you manages to make his heart beat out of his chest.

Once Hyunjin's done eating he's free to go back to the dorms and just like he suspected the rest of his dormmates stay behind to work some more, although they all whine at him to stay to explain the previous mystery. He declines and they all keep their sad puppydog eyes on him until he's out the door.

He keeps texting you during his ride, all the way to the dorms. Once he's in his room Hyunjin decides to just change into some clean clothes. He's too excited to talk to you and get to painting, he can wash up later.

He lays in his bed to keep texting you and at some point your conversation changes from how your day's been going to talking about dancing and he mentions how he just today filmed a new choreography bit he's made for fun.

❣️:

Can I see what you've been working on? :)

I'm sure it's really good, you always are!!

Jinnie:

Well... since you asked so nicely😉

[video sent]

Quickly sending the video Hyunjin exits out the messaging app, feeling so giddy he can't help but squirm around on his bed. He still can't believe someone like you could be interested in seeing him dance.

It might seem like a small thing for most but he feels himself turning red just thinking about the way you look at him while he talks about something so important to him. It makes the butterflies in his stomach every time you're near go crazy. It's so attentive, like you actually care and are interested in his interests... and maybe even...?

'No' , he thinks to himself. There's probably no way you could ever actually be interested in him, not in the same way he's interested in you at least.

He leaves his phone charging and finally gets out of bed to go to the kitchen for a cup of coffee. He'd need it if he wanted to stay up late to work on his newest art piece.

Hearing the familiar 'ping' notification of receiving a message makes you open your phone again and just like you thought, Hyunjin had sent you the video of his latest masterpiece of a choreography. Not waiting a second you press the video just to see.... Hyunjin take his hand off the camera and set the phone down on the desk in his room he draws on. He sits down on the edge of his bed and says something, you aren't really sure what, because the volume's too low. In confusion you turn it up more.

Hyunjin sighs and reaches up to move his hair out his face, probably. You can't see it though, because the camera cuts his face perfectly off frame. Suddenly his hands run down his body to the button on his jeans. He opens it and starts undoing the zipper next. You just look at the video in shock. 'He isn't about to... to take them off is he?', you think to yourself, just as he pulls the jeans down enough to expose his white boxers and then palms his bulge.

Should you stop watching? Keep watching? How long has it even been playing? How long does it keep playing? While you wonder this you almost miss Hyunjin pull his hard dick out of his underwear and spit on his palm and... Oh God...

You've now done something you can never take back. The downright sinful view of his cock is something you don't think you're ever going to be able to forget. How do you even face him after this? After watching him grasp his dick in his hand and pump it a couple of times to spread the spit and precum around.

You exit the video, panting and absolutely soaking through your underwear. Your other hand rushes to your face to feel your cheeks. They're burning and feel like you've been standing out in the sun for hours, when in reality all you've done is accidentally watch your best friend play with himself.

You struggle to decide what to do with the video and in the end save the video without much thinking, then delete the message of it and decide to notify him of his mistake. As long as he doesn't know you saved it, it should be fine, right?

It takes Hyunjin less than 10 minutes to make and get the coffee. He returns to his room humming the tune of a song he's had on repeat recently. Setting the coffee down on the desk and taking his phone off from the charger he notices new messages from you.

❣️:

Uhm...😕

Hyunjin, I don't think you meant to send that.

He looks at his screen confused. What did you mean by that? He...

Oh God.

Did he send the wrong video?

Frantically opening the video he sent earlier he sees himself, in video, move his hand off the phone camera and set it down the desk near his bed and sit down. Oh no...

"Hmm... I hope the angle's good... It's been so long since I've had time for this", video Hyunjin sighs and reaches up to move his hair from his eyes. His head may be out of frame but he clearly remembers pouting while saying this. He watches himself slowly unbutton and unzip his pants, adjusting them so that his boxers are clearly visible in frame. In the video his hand drifts towards his crotch slowly, teasingly.

He quickly exits the video and promptly shoves his head under his pillow and yells. He'd accidentally sent the wrong video while hurrying to get a cup of coffee. How could he have messed up this bad? In his panic, it takes him a moment to respond.

Jinnie:

Oh god

I'm so sorry!!

Please don't watch that!

❣️:

Don't worry!!!

I stopped watching the moment you started unzipping your pants😖

I saw nothing, promise!🙏 It's been deleted already!!

Little does he know though, you'd kept the video. You're not really sure why, but subconciously your brain keeps screaming' to finish it later, of course'.

...

Fuck it, you don't think you can wait until later.

Taking a deep breath, you open your gallery to find the video he sent you. You hesitate for a second but press play anyway. You can feel how you're already soaking through your underwear but pay no mind to it yet.

You watch him do the things you've seen already, all the way until he spits in his hand... and you pause the video. 'Is it right to watch this? I mean, he didn't mean to even send it...', you think to yourself.

But the thought of seeing him touch himself, to hear him make the sweetest noises you could ever in your wildest dreams imagine him making drives you on.

Pressing play again you dip your fingers into your pants. You rub yourself over your underwear and oh my god... you can't believe the wetness you feel after less than a minute of watching the video. You focus on the phone you're holding in your other hand and finally move your fingers into your underwear to directly touch your pussy.

On your screen you see Hyunjin start to stroke himself faster, the head of his dick a dark pink, you can feel his desperation through the screen. Without thinking you move your fingers to your clit and start rubbing it in circles, aided by the wetness of your leaking pussy.

He moans out loud and even though you can't hear it through the fog in your head, you know he's desperate. You move your fingers down to your hole and dip two of them in. You're so wet you barely need to even stretch yourself out and then he does it.

"Hngh... Oh my god, please... m-mommy!"

You push your fingers deeper and your pussy lets out he lewdest squelch which in turn makes you close your eyes desperately in pleasure. 'Mommy? When he masturbates he calls out for mommy??', the thought makes you lose your mind. You think about what it would be like if he called you mommy in the throes of pleasure.

You want to make him follow every command you give him. The way he'd look up at you on his knees with you standing above him. Maybe you could make him suck on a strap? He'd look so ridiculously delicious with his mouth full, drool dripping down his cheeks.

You add another finger and start rubbing at your clit with your thumb at the same time. The feeling makes you whimper and imagine his hands on you, teaching him how to touch you perfectly. You're getting so close and you remember to focus your screen again.

Hyunjin looks absolutely disheveled. His dick is red and throbbing, you can tell he's getting close. His voice is another thing that gives him away. He's whiny and his voice keeps cracking every time he opens his mouth. Hyunjin bucks into his hand and moans.

"... mommy, gonna cum...!", he strokes himself twice more and then finally cums. You're so close it's maddening. All the sudden you hear him... whisper your name?

It makes you go off the edge and your entire body clenches and seizes while you silently cry out from all the pleasure you're feeling. Your walls suck in your fingers with how you're clenching around them. On the screen Hyunjin twitches violently, working himself through the end of his orgasm.

You pull your fingers out of yourself and slump down on your bed exhausted, but the last 20 seconds of the video that's now over haunts you. Did you hear him right?

You gather strength to pick up your phone again and rewind the video to the part where he cums and turn the volume almost all the way up. Admittedly you end up fixating on the way his dick looks and face twists in pleasure when he cums and then he says, or more like whisper your name. Your brain blanks.

"Fuuck... Did you-haah... did you enjoy that?", he chuckles to the phone, sits in place for a bit to properly come down and then gets up to stop the video.

You're wet, confused and you can feel your heart beat out of your chest. What do you do now? How can you ever face him normally after that... Does he feel the same way you do? Is he sure he didn't mean to send it?

It's all too much to think about, so you decide that instead of thinking about it you'll clean yourself up and... crawl into a hole where no one will ever find you. Probably. The only thing you know for sure is you definitely won't be sleeping tonight.

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derangedanomaly · 6 months

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Sans x Fem! Cat reader 🐾

Hi! So, this is gonna be a little different than it sounds. But I thought that it's an interesting concept. Enjoy :)

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Silence..

nothing could be heard from inside the house, as you sleep on the bed of Sans The Skeleton. You would be lying if you said it wasn't nice.. you've never felt this peaceful before.. As you laid there, sprawled on the bed in your small, petite little cat form, your thoughts were cut off when a certain skeleton teleports back to his room, finding you on his bed.

At first, you both just stare at each other, not uttering a single word. Well this is awkward... You could hear Sans chuckle quietly, until sitting next to you. "Hey..so, ya stayed, huh?" It is true you didn't want to stay with him, and plan an escape.. but something inside you made you stay, and you have no idea what. "..." You could only stare back at him, your yellow eyes shining. "Well..guess you're staying with me now, catnips" this is gonna be an interesting year...

:HOW HE FOUND YOU:

Sans found you laying on the snow near Grillby's dumpsters. He didn't want to take you home with him, so he just left you a bit of Grillby's hamburgers.

This cycle repeated many times. Sans went to Grillby's, took home food and fed it to you. The reason Sans didn't want to take you home, is because he doesn't know how to take care of cats.. he's also lazy. (Mood)

This kept on repeating until Papyrus found out, and immediately wanted to take you home. Throughout the whole ordeal, Sans tried to talk Papyrus out of it, but Papyrus was having none of that. "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU JUST LEFT THIS POOR FELINE HERE!" Sighing, Sans knew he couldn't do anything at this point, so he just followed Papyrus, with you, home.

:BEFORE SHAPE SHIFTING:

A menace. You were such a menace everywhere you went. You have any idea how many things you already broke? And you were with the skeleton brothers for only a week! "Wait, I wouldn't do that, kitt-" bam. Another broken vase. Papyrus ain't gonna be happy..

It was normal for you to randomly go missing, finding something that catched your eyes and trotting towards it. Papyrus screamed bloody murder when you first went missing! And all the other times... "SANS!! WHERE'S THE CAT?! I'VE LOOKED EVERYWHERE!" Sans only stayed quiet, thinking about Papyrus' question.. "SHE'S MISSING?!"

You never ate the cat food Sans bought, but what you did enjoyed, was Papyrus' spaghetti! Papyrus was overjoyed that someone enjoyed his cooking, even if it's an animal. Sans on the other hand, got soft when he saw you happily nimble on the spaghetti. Now he knows who to give his portion of the spaghetti to....

You really enjoyed Sans' bed, as you often laid on it. One day, this eventually led to him laying on the couch. You wouldn't let him sleep on his own bed! It was actually really ridiculous. He wanted to use his telekinesis on you, but figured he could hurt you..so he avoided that outcome and decided to just sleep on the couch. "*Sigh* so we're gonna do this again?" You only silently purred, closing your eyes. Sans sighed and teleported to the living room. "I'll get my bed back one day."

:AFTER SHAPE SHIFTING:

You and Sans got really close over the 3 months. You trusted him enough to actually show him your true form. The humane form.

You mewled at him to look at you. After awhile of Sans sleeping your nudging off, he stirred awake. Staring at your form, he chuckled. "What is it Catnips?" you jumped on the couch, laying next to him. Safe to say, you were nervous. How can you not be?! You bit the bullet and just shape shifted in front of him. He stared at you with wide eyes. "Hi....Sans? Um.. name's Y/n, and I'm a shape shifter!" Another silence ensued, getting you nervous. "Going to Grillby's...see ya...I guess?" He scurried off, being at loss of words. You sighed and closed your eyes..oh boy...

Poor Sans was so confused 😭 he literally had no words. I mean, his pet cat just turned out to be a human! To be honest, he said he's going to Grillby's just so he can be left alone with his thoughts..

Sans eventually got over the shock and treated you normally. Sometimes throwing little jokes here and there, but that's all, really.

You were close before, as an owner and a pet, but now... you're closer than ever! Sans doesn't treat you like his pet anymore, but more like a friend. Which was nice, you were getting tired of the 'pet treatment'.

You still use your pet form to get your way. Basically a bribery. It's very effective though. (Sans couldn't resist)

:AFTER FRISK'S ARRIVAL:

Sans was so clingy towards you. it was basically weird if you two weren't seen together. (Alphys has found her new favorite ship)

Sans and you were walking together in silence, feet crunching on the cold snow. It was comfortable, but you two were cooking up a plan. Sans nodded at you, a secret sign for you to transform into your cat form. Deviously smiling, you did as told and sat on his shoulder.

"Human. . . Don't you know how to greet a new pall?" The small human child seemed frightened, which made you wheeze a little. "Turn around and shake my hand.." the human stood still, but decided to trust the voice and do as told, shaking his hand...a sound of fart was heard as you couldn't help but laugh at the sight of the human's dumbfounded face.

The human yelped when they saw you transform to your human form, laughing your ass off and getting off Sans' shoulder. Sans couldn't help but smile endearingly at you, finding joy at hearing you laugh thanks to him.

"Heh, guess I really tickled your funny bone kitty, huh?" Snorting, you looked at the child before you, who was just staring at you with opened mouth. "Hey kid, I'm Y/n!" Sans also looked straight at the child and introduced himself.

After awhile, the kid, now known as Frisk, made it to Sans' puzzle. You snorted when Papyrus found out Sans' puzzle was only a quiz. Sans was always looking at you, to see your reaction, and was always really happy to see you laughing and smiling. The thought of you being happy around him made him feel extremely warm...almost like his soul shook within him.

After the puzzle, Frisk came up to you and Sans, pointing at you two. Frisk asked if you two were a couple! This question made yours and Sans' cheeks light up. "What?! I- huh?!" You had no words as Sans only awkwardly chuckled. "Uhm... where'd you get that idea, kid?" You nodded along to Sans' question. Frisk only smiled in response, saying that you two looked really adorable together. This was too much for you, you transformed to your small cat form and sat on Sans' shoulder. Sans seemed to get the memo. "Why don't you go solve another part of my brother's puzzles, kid? We'll see ya later." You both left the smirking child. How embarrassing...

-GENOCIDE- (WARNING: ANGSTY)

After the first genocide started, Sans had barely gotten a wink of sleep. Anytime he would close his eye sockets, he would see your and his brother's form on the ground, slowly dying by the hands of that child.. he partly solved this by snucking you into his room, and holding you close to him, letting him hear your heartbeat. He found comfort in knowing you're still alive and breathing..

As for you, you weren't aware of the reset, or why Sans was acting different than before. You two were walking through Snowdin, laughing together just yesterday! What happened? You would always ask him this question every time a reset happens, he always responded with 'I had a nightmare.' but nowadays, he only responds with; 'I don't know..' He didn't found a point in telling you anyways, seeing you were also affected by the resets.

He actually told you in one of the many resets, feeling the frustration pent up inside him. Safe to say, you were shocked to hear all this information from him. Does this mean I've been experiencing the same day for 7 years? You asked him, but all you got was silence, confirming your question.

After the internal shock, you looked at him with sadness. "How many times...?" Sans looked at you with confusion at this question. "Huh? Y/n-" you cut him off, demanding an answer. "How many times have you watched all of our friends die by the hands of that monster...?" He stayed quiet, pupils disappearing. Tears ran down your cheeks, as you went towards him, laying your hands on his shoulders. "How many time did you had to suffer..?" The air felt suffocating, Sans looked at you with sadness washing over him. "Too many times..." Your breath hitched in your throat, looking him deep in his eye sockets. "Sans... I'm sorry..." It was as if time had stopped at that time. Sans felt more confused than ever. "I'm sorry I wasn't there for you in your time of need.. I'm such a terrible friend..." You quietly weeped, your hands shaking while holding his shoulders, looking down.

Sans felt terrible now..he didn't want this..he didn't want to make you feel this way.. he didn't utter a single word as he wrapped his arms around you. "It's ok Y/n...you didn't know. It was not your fault.." you let out a shaky laugh, hugging him back.

After awhile of you two comforting each other. You felt rage wash over you, thinking about this puny human that thinks they can just hurt your friends. Determination took over you, looking at Sans. "Sans, let's team up against this human.." he thought about your request, until shaking his head. "No." Widening your eyes, you looked at him again. "What?! Why not..?" He darted his gaze away from you momentarily, until looking at you again. "I just can't...I don't want to drag you into this." You wanted to retort back until a loud sound made its way to your ears, feeling shocked.

You looked down to see a red slash across your chest, making you chuckle weakly. "H-Heh...guess I was too late, huh?" Your feet couldn't hold you up for too long as you crashed on the snow, Sans gasping and rushed towards your laying form. He held you close to his chest, with widened eyes. "N-no...no..no, no, no, no, NO, NO! Not again! I-I can't lose you AGAIN." You could only chuckle weakly and hold out your arm, hand resting on his face. "S-Sans... I love-" dust. Only dust was left from your form, as Sans sat there crying. The human only smiled maniacally, and left.

Sans never felt so much rage. He wanted to make the human suffer. Suffer just as much as he did these past 7 years. Safe to say, the fight between the two was so much brutal than ever.

After this reset, Sans never told you again, fearing for the same outcome. Guess he just has to lie to you forever..though one thing still bothers him to this day...

What were you about to say while dying in his arms that day?

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Yo yo yo! This took a sad turn. I planned this to be all cutesy, and it ended up really depressing 💀

Anyways, hope y'all enjoyed! I actually had a blast writing this!

#sans undertale #undertale #sans x reader #sans #sans x you #sans x y/n #classic sans #undertale fandom

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se1f · 4 months

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hayyy self hope ur doing fantastamazing💗💗💗💗 having plenty of rest for ur self and plenty of love love lovely nights and days🌌🎁💗💌 , I know ur inbox is so very full atp but I hope to be your 🐾 anon possibly :3 , I had this crazy realization and I wanted to share with you!

for a while I had in the mind this specific qoute

You fail to do the works of God, because you take the body to be God. - Ada B. [4dbarbie]

first I was like , whaaatt…tryna get it like intellectually so hard literally burning the mind over it stressing… crying shaking ahh…like (ahh I gotta get this now 😡😡😡NOW!!!) I used to beat myself over fear and other stuff… but ever since I befriended fear and became fearless and lovingly indifferent with all the emotions🫂(yall be patient with urselfssss ,everything is perfect i pinkie promise…im hugging u tru the screen fr)

ND NOW I FINALLY GET IT OMAYGAD… realized sitting at a the table that I didn’t even expect it..lollol

like you fail to do the works bc your depending on a illusion….somethings that’s not you….. 😯😯YOU ARE NOT THE BODY OR MIND YOU ARE FUTHER AND BEYOND TAKE IT SO LITERAL YALL LIKE I MEAN IT. I was literally this emoji “🤯🤯!!!” IT CLICKED , my mom was like “what did you get” and I was like beyond words, gobsmacked even…I was like “duuuuhh… errrrmmm🧍‍♂️”

Like…. I experienced it and now I get when u gotta experience realization.. I was like(WUH, OOOOOHH🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️I’m soo sillyyyy) 😭😭..lolzies anyywho I wanted to share bc I thought it was so interesting ♥️and for everyone struggling , dare you go beyond the mind and the body who knows what you’ll discover 😊like really … take it literal…(hope I didn’t say anything false! correct me if needed highly appreciated 🐇🥐🫶🐾)

Sincerely ur 🐾 anonie ,sending hearts and hugs🫶 hope to send another crazeeee epiphany…🫂 (be patient and leap!! who knows what you’ll find or even “discover” within… who? your self🌌🌌oooo

tehe i love "fantastamazing". you're so creative, anon!! i'd be more than happy if you would be 🐾 anon <33 this was so heartwarming to read!! it truly is such an "aha" moment. you didn't say anything wrong 🐾 anon, however, i would just like to state that there is no experience of realization! only the seeming appearance of it. for THAT, there is no realizing THAT. you only seemingly realized/remembered the nature of illusions!

good job on utilizing the mind to help direct/point you back to THAT!! even though the body-mind are just simple illusions, they can serve as great pointers :) i do also hope you have been getting plenty of rest!! i wish you a wonderful rest of your day, anon :) thank you for sharing this with me, and i cannot wait for more epiphanies!!

#asks #experience

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catneedssleep · 2 months

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Cat / Tigers new intro post!??! >:3

☆★☆★☆★

“Down on your knees you just don't look so tall !!!! ”

^ Viking Death March — Billy Talent

more under cut!! 🌾🌾

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Names?

Cat/Tiger (No preference!)

Pronouns?

Any/Fluctuating!!

Gender + Sexuality?

Genderfluid/MusicFlux, Xenogender + Omnisexual, Demiaroace, T4T

Uhhh other stuff??

AuDHD ( Autism + ADHD) , Dyslexia, GAD/SAD (Generalized + Social Anxiety disorder) BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder), Depression, Hypersexual

Ik. It's a lot lol

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I'm a Furry, Otherkin andddd therian!!

List things:3

theriotypes!!

- House Cat (Flame Point Siamese or White Cat

Otherkin types??? Idk how to name this :'3

- Tiger (Siberian Tiger or Bengal Tiger !!! I can't exactly tell but it's definitely either one of those:3

- (New!) Dog (Samoyed

- Eye? Eyekin? Just. Eye.

- Devil

- Angel

- Zombie

- Vampire

A lot more!!!!

Personally, my furry sort of.. Suit? Type? I'm a cat furry lol.

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More!

Do I have a special interest?

Yes! I have multiple:3

Spooky Month / Candy Dealer + Regretevator / Wallter

I also have a lot of hyperfixations and I'm in a lot of fandoms! :D

alright now.... DNI

sigh

- Hazbin Hotel / Helluva Boss fans (I'm extremely uncomfortable with the shows and the creator:I the only exceptions are Bee & Spade)

- Proshippers ect, I do not support you guys in any way. I am very anti against illegal ships!!!!!!! ^_^ (edit; WHEN DID SHIPS SAY SHOPS??? LMAO... anyway that's fixed

- Endo / Mixed origins / Not Tragumentic (I SPELLED THAT SO WRONG I'M SORRY) “systems”. I will not support you all until there is heavy amount of scientific evidence that you can exist. Go eat a frog>_<

- anti fur, anti otherkin, anti therian, anti LGBTQ+ ect ect, GO AWAY!!!!!! YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!!!!!!!!

- Ablists. Yah.

- all the stuff in my old dni 🌀🌀

- other basic dni 💥

Interact with literally anything else!!!:3

Unless uh

You suck!

teehee

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Self promo section lmao

Discord server!!!!!!

:3🧪🧪🧪🧪

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Things you might see from me :

Mad Scientist type of vibe‼️

Wallter & Candy Dealer loving

HEAVY REBLOGGING

random arts/doodles

Speaking of art and doodles I'm taking emoji requests now! I want to improve my art style, and I want to have experience. Honestly I don't care what you ask but I may ignore it if I don't like it / cant do it. (Nsfw, headmates, ocs yada yada)

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Tags you will see from me!!!! (Eventually.)

- #catneedssleep

My general tag! I use this whenever I post anything such as art, emojis, random rambles ect

- #science experiment

Art tag!!

- #failed experiment

Silly tag :3 just for shit posts or something of the sorts

- #test tube

Ramble Tag :3

That's all the tags!!!! Yay!!!!

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Buh bai!!!

#:3 #intro post #teehee #beginner artist #regretevator #spooky month #wallter #candy dealer #therian #otherkin #furry #giggles and runs away #catneedssleep

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critterzpace · 7 months

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🎄 juztaweekaway Follow

Critters scare me not because of anything really about them but because of the fact the prefer night time in dark places and their eye glow, there have been several points where I have accidentally wandered into their territory and having 50 fucking eyes suddenly turn and look at you from the darkness is fucking horrifying.

🌛 moonzhaunted Follow

Fun fact!

The god of death (Oculantheus) for the Flora is literally based on this exact thing. Dying Florals would often accidentally wander into Critter Folk Villages and have that happened and if they managed to find their way back, they’d tell other florals about it. Those that didn’t were brought back by the critters or, if the critters couldn’t find the floral’s garden, would be properly buried by the critters village.

They legitimately thought the worried critters were Death.

🐾 pawtism Follow

metal as hell.

🥀 vanzhearth Follow

Equally fun fact, critters have their own myths based on these dying Florals (because they had no idea why the fuck Florals kept wandering towards them while dying).

Verilorn (God of lost things) was their explanation of this. He would lead the lost dying to the critters in myth.

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Why did the Florals always go there?

🥀 vanzhearth Follow

They wouldn’t always, but the reason why a lot did is actually because most Critter villages do have the same scent and feeling as Floral Gardens, because critters love flowers. So they'd get confused and wander over there.

#unreality #roleplay #i am non human i’m just pretending i’m in a fantasy world for comfort :]#actually autistic #autism #autistic #autistic community #alterhuman #nonhuman #otherkin #therian

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drdtnsfw · 9 months

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hey guys xanvid petplay anon back and for now I’m just gonna identify myself as “🐾” from now on lmao

I stg Whit canonically being the best cook has done things for my hypersexual boyliker brain you wouldn’t BELIEVE. Charles will never admit it out loud, but in his frilly pink apron is literally the hottest fucking thing to him and is probably the subject of quite of a lot his spank bank fantasies

Ofc, Charles doesn’t need to say /anything/ out loud for Whit to catch on, since he’s so good at reading people

I love the idea of them living together and Charles coming back home from a long day and Whit decides to surprise him by making dinner in JUST his apron. His perky ass and /gorgeous/, soft thighs on full display as he bends down to take something out of the oven. Charles is deadbeat tired but his mouth is WATERING and it’s not just over the food, lemme tell ya.

Whit’s literally the ultimate matchmaker (and 100% has an onlyfans, let’s be real here) so he knows a thing or two about flirting and most of all: seduction.

With just a few teasing wiggles of his ass as a couple more buttons pushed, Whit is bent over the counter being plowed within an inch of his life by a very pent up Charles while the food cools down, who can’t get enough of That Fucking Twink He’s In Love With

Charles is longer than he is thicker so Whit literally takes it Long Dick Style and loves every second of it. Usually Whit would tease him more but all he really wants right now is Charles deep inside him, filling his cunt up until they both run out of energy, and then to snuggle up with his man on the couch after eating the food that will definitely be cold by that point ❤️

- 🐾

OH MY GOD. i love you anon this IS SO GOOD. Whit is the only snack in Charles's mind when he sees that <33 I FUCKING LOVE THIS SO MUCH!! petition for Charles to absolutely rail Whit over the counter. that Fucking Twink He's In Love With (tm) knows exactly what he's doing when he pulls shit like that. I love this. Thank you anon.

#mod whit #whit young #drdtnsfw #charles cuevas #charwhit

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crypticcodexcreations · 9 months

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Hello hello! Ready the Dice of Destiny because here we go. 8) 8) 🪓, 🐾, and 🫁? :D

The Dice of Destiny are here and really having a good time with picking interesting characters it seems! I will once again being doing a different character for each question!

🪓 - does your character have an axe to grind? a need for bloody vengeance against someone who wronged them? why?

Possibly the funniest option the dice could have given me for this question tbh, I got The Devil from Lost Divinity. The fun thing about him is that his motives are always private, he never explains why he does anything to anyone, although his son does seem to know the reasons, although Greed never tells either. He has the image of being self serving though, and he meets those accusations with a polite smile. He's not typically one for bloody vengeance though, but no one wants to wrong him anyways, likely because. Well, who wants to make The Devil angry?

🐾 - what would your character do if they were turned into a werewolf or some other monster? would they fight it, embrace it? lose themself?

I'll be honest, I thought about rerolling this one, but it's too funny. Only Human features a small group of werewolves. I got the youngest brother of the group, Damien. Although, I think if he found himself turned into some other sort of monster, he'd be happy. He's the youngest of four and still trying to figure out who he is other than his siblings' baby brother, the youngest pup. If he were something else, then he would know what makes him truly unique as a person, something he's struggled with all his life. He would embrace the chance to be different in a heartbeat.

🫁 - would your character cannibalize someone? would it be for survival or because they like it? is it for religious reasons? something else?

This one depends on how we want to define cannibalism, if I'm being perfectly honest. The character I got is another I haven't talked about, Fiore's contracted demon, Marcellus. In that universe, demons often eat people's souls. It's just part of what they do, but the literal definition is human flesh. At which point, he might just to try it, although I don't think he'd find much pleasure in it and only do it once. If we instead take it to mean eating one of his own kind, though, another demon? He'd be unlikely to even think of it, being a weaker demon that's still trying to prove he has the strength to make something of himself. If the opportunity was presented to him though? I doubt he would take it. He has nothing to gain from consuming another demon and things like that just aren't his style. He prefers to keep himself neat and orderly and there's just not a good way to stay neat and orderly while digging into demon flesh.

#ask games #The Devil Lost Divinity #Lost Divinity #Damien Only Human #Only Human #Marcellus the Demon #The Demonic Magical Girl #I don't think I've used the same tag for that WIP but that's what happens when I haven't named something yet

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touyyes · 2 years

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˖⋆࿐໋₊𝐀𝐁𝑶𝑼𝐓 𝐌𝐄

#TOJI : "sorry, you're not my type. baki on the other hand? yeah, that woman's definitely my type."

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learn about me today! (psst don't be a stranger, stranger.)

☼ nov scorpio ↑ libra ☾ scorpio. intp-a. lesbian. half filipino–canadian. 19. any pronouns.

+ i love making new friends/moots so dont be afraid to interact or joke around with me! idrc if you call me any petnames or shit like (bitch, whore, slut) AS LONG as u make it clear ur not being fr and not meant to insult me 🤨

+ im taken! meaning i wont flirt with you (even in a platonic way), so please don't try to flirt with me !!

+ i have a type for big beefy men 💋

+ villain fucker. villain apologist. villain defense attorney.

+ i love anything to do with makeup n fashion. ive got whole pinterest boards dedicated for it. same with piercings

+ i love my cats very very much 🐈🐾

+ i like astrology & manifesting 🔮

+ im truly a whore for horror. watching horror movies is my comfort, i will literally play that shit in the back while i clean, write, shit, anything i need to get done basically. if you like horror, i am immediately following your blog

+ along with horror, i love horror games. and just video games in general.

+ i hate cold weather. im a warm weather gyal thru n thru 🌴🥥🐬

+ i hate fake woke bitches. especially ones who try n earn brownie points or try to sound "progressive" when they're not.

+ if ur rude, or a bitch just for the sake of being one. get off tumblr and get a job. and if u have a job, i pity ur coworkers.

+ ppl who like being in drama, starting drama, or sending their lil fanbase to drag other blogs down

fave mangas !! : chainsaw man + kny + blue lock + pumpkin night + tokyo revengers + bnha + brutal + lady k and the sick man

fave video games !! : resident evil, devil may cry, outlast, sallyface, uncharted, tomb raider, hitman, persona 5, fire emblem, ace attorney, stardew valley, otome games

fave animes !! : free! iwatobi swim club + akatsuki no yona + attack on titan + jujutsu kaisen + owari no seraph + devilman crybaby + kill la kill + demon slayer + haikyuu + yuri on ice

fave characters !! : gojo + toji + getou + naoya + rin matsuoka + sousuke yamazaki + kishibe + reze + quanxi + kunigami + bachira + nagi + itoshi brothers + crowley eusford + giyuu + muzan + yoriichi + douma + dabi + shigaraki + jaeha + suna + tendou + leon kennedy + carlos oliveira + dante + sal fisher

#✩ — navigation!#✩ — about me!

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the-type-a · 1 year

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Get to know me!

Thanks for the tag @catastrophicmind and @duncans-unibrow !! 💜

I wasn’t expecting to answer all of these but tbh this makes it more fun lol

🖌 - Do you have/want any tattoos?

I have one tattoo on the right side of my waist. It’s of my zodiac sign in cursive writing and the symbol above it. I do want more though!

💚 - What’s your favourite colour?

Purple! 💜

🍕 - What’s the last thing you ate?

Pancakes, bacon, and eggs. It was at like 1am but I was literally starving so Marcus cooked it all.

🕰 - What time is it where you are rn?

1:21pm (coming back to update that it’s 2:02pm now and idk why it took me so long to finish this 💀)

🌟 - What is your zodiac sign?

I could tell you my whole chart, but I’ll just stick to my big three. I’m a Pisces sun, Virgo moon, and Leo rising!

🌍 - What is your favourite accent?

Honestly have no idea. I could say English because of Harry, Liam, Louis, and Zayn. I could say Irish because of Niall. Or I could say country because of Marcus. 😂

⚡️ - Do you have any scars?

Nope!

🌺 - What’s your MBTI type?

ESTJ ✨

🥀 - Favourite animated movie?

The Little Mermaid 🧜🏽‍♀️

📺 - Favourite show?

I have more than one: total drama, grey’s anatomy, friends, game of thrones, the umbrella academy, euphoria, that 70s show. There’s probably more that I’m blanking on right now too.

😂 - Are you ticklish?

Yes, and I will physically hurt you if you try to tickle me.

💍 - Do you ever want to get married?

Of course! Fun fact: I was supposed to get married in November of 2020 but then covid happened. NOW we’re trying to save up on our own because our families keep trying to take over. Still want a Fall wedding though 🫶🏼

😳 - Do you like your name?

I love it! When I was younger I hated it, I have no idea why.

💙 - What colour is your bedroom?

Cream, kinda boring lmao

🤓 - How did you get your name?

My mom loves reading the Bible, Saint books, and Angel books. She told me she always loved the archangel Gabriel, so there you have it! She also said she liked the nickname Gaby.

🎓 - When did/do you graduate?

Graduated college in 2020. Never had a graduation ceremony or anything. Thanks COVID.

🍄 - Do you have/want any piercings?

I’m Latina so you already know my ears have been pierced since I was 4 months old. Then when I was 17 I got my bellybutton pierced. Idk why but I did want to get my nips pierced lmao but not anymore. Sorry that might have been tmi.

👀 - What colour are your eyes?

Dark brown. They almost look black but in the sunlight you can see the brown come out.

👱🏻‍♀️ - What is your go to hairstyle?

Just straight down. I never really do anything with my hair unless I’m going out to a special occasion. My hair is also naturally straight so I’ll just wash it, brush it, and go.

🥂 - Have you ever drank underage?

Unfortunately I did succumb to peer pressure with this one. Although I did try (and throw it up) beer in high school, my freaking DAD gave me beer in my purple and yellow SIPPY-CUP when I was like five. Then you know, drinking in college. It was a “dry campus” even if you were 21+ and everyone hated that.

🍾 - Have you ever gotten drunk?

Again, unfortunately. I’ve only blacked out twice though.

😱 - What’s your biggest fear?

Don’t come for me… but I genuinely don’t have one. There are things I don’t necessarily like, but not to the point that I’m genuinely afraid and can’t function around it.

🥵 - Would you rather be too hot or too cold?

Too cold. I absolutely HATE being hot. It’s easier to warm up if I’m cold too.

🌦 - What’s your favourite weather?

Sunny with a light breeze. Nothing too hot and not cold enough to need a jacket. (I freaking hate jackets btw)

🍂 - What’s your favourite season?

Autumn!!! 🥰

🐷 - What’s your favourite animal?

Polar bears 🐻‍❄️

🐶 - Do you have any pets?

A dog and a cat! Ranger and Nala! 🐾

😴 - What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

Maybe like 2 days? Not entirely sure but it’s around that.

🎨 - Any hobbies?

The gym, reading, writing, music, art.

🛩 - If travelling was free, where’s the first place you’d go?

Bora Bora!

🎇 - What’s your most searched thing on Google?

I always delete my Google search because I hate how cluttered it looks, sooooo idk what to tell you lol

📱 - Favourite app on your phone?

Tumblr, my beloved 💜

🤠 - Are you more of a city person or a country person?

100% a city girl! Born and raised in it, and when I tried to give the country a try I got extremely depressed.

Tagging: @aprincessnotaqueen @art-by-mira @courtneyenthusiast @doitcody @elskamo @hollowboobtheory @marshunter06 @ragamuffin-bites @sentimentalslut @straighttxhell @sugarlesswriting @unawarer @withjust-a-bite @xwhatababex

#the-type-a #get to know me #tag game

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shopcat · 1 month

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there is, Obviously, fundamentally a difference between headcanon and an analytical reading of text, and treating the two as exactly the same is not only wrong but devalues both, but funnily, i've found people tend to forget that both of these things are the product of referencing our real life experiences and applying them where we see fit to make a more interesting way to interact with media. and you can't just like, forget that it's not JUST about headcanons and meta analysis and whatever, because people in real life also still matter. and in real life, there are different stakes and EXPERIENCES, and those experiences lead to thinking the way we do because that's how you Be a goddamn person, which is why it's ironic is all 😭

like, saying zuko atla has to be cis in order to be "properly" gay in order to be Truly Compelling narratively is fucking ridiculous. textually, zuko is not actually gay. he never was intended to be, he never will be intended to be, he was never even subtextually. the assumption otherwise is already rooted in fantasy, and the tongue in cheek assertion that it isn't, which means it has more credence, is ... dumb? childish? admitting to at least yourself that the things you talk about wrt character analysis aren't the intention of the creator is literally half the point of doing said analysis – you're MEANT to throw away the intended interpretation in order to give it a new life through different keyholes without entirely divorcing itself from the text. (in the same breath, insisting the creator truly meant One Thing when they absolutely would not have/don't care at all, and ignoring that the people who made the piece are going to put their own biases and experiences and background into the media itself and actually MUST be taken into account for things like this is just ... well. Stop That.)

i've personally never been someone to ever claim that The Writers All Along INTENDED to do something that they obviously didn't, like make a character from a 2005 cartoon lgbt+. this doesn't mean that reading doesn't have any substance or cannot possibly hold any meaning, or that it's wrong. if you can't be objective about your own readings what's the damn point... leaning into it being fiction, which changes just by being observed by a different person, is why it's fun or interesting to do in the first place. and yeah there are some basic cookie cutter headcanons people like to fling around, and there can be criticism for that otherwise, but claiming headcanons themselves AREN'T an offshoot of this way of thinking is fucking stupid. like it's plain wrong.

our own thoughts on why a character acts, what they do, what their presentation is, why their personality is what it is up to and including their sexuality, gender identity, religion, JOB, whatever, are made to fill the gaps the text can't or won't provide, and in the case of lgbt ones as long as it's not actively harmful (as in like insisting a lesbian character is bi or something) it is literally harmless seeing as it is fairly solidly a "won't", along with a whole bunch of other hc material that usually don't see the light of day on-screen nonstereotypically. people seeing themselves in characters isn't new but more than that, saying that you know this but then pushing it aside because The Analysis Means More when it's Realistic And Plausible is fucking dumb. and rude. bc the entire point of drawing the line of connections this way is how WE see them. being all like "oh well, your own personal identity is still valid otherwise, don't get your feelings hurt bc it doesn't matter," is moot if you've already asserted there's only One real way to be... plausible 🤨. which is to be NORMAL ! duh.

like, the read that zuko IS gay (and cis) relies on extracting parts through the lens of our own gay perceptions and is why cishet fans don't pick up on it, but you can ask pretty much any other lgbt fan and they'll agree. zuko's narrative arc IS compelling with the read that he is gay, from the way he is ostracised by his family, neglected and abused, the "punishment" he receives and then continues to become his own warden of, the order of his death and the banishment itself, sozin criminalising homosexuality, his inability to connect with others especially his own age, his inability to seamlessly interact with girls, his literal externalised viewing of seeing himself as someone with Two Sides, them being good vs evil, realising he can change the damn world through love and acceptance, striving for peace, being the face of change for his nation, relearning what it means to be who he is once he is free from his past, the shame and humiliation rituals, the claim of his father that he is worthless as a prince and person, AND MORE... and i cannot express enough here how fucking little it matters if he's specifically gay or WHAT THE HELL EVER 😭.

to claim in no small way that it's impossible for a trans person, or a bisexual person, or anyone else lgbt, could ever line up his narrative with their own personal one is so beyond ridiculous it gives me a headache. no, "plausibly", i don't think zuko is like, transmasc. yes, plausibly, he could be gay. plausibly, he could be amab nonbinary but no one seems to actually give a fuck about that for some reason (i wonder!). nothing would change in both cases, because he's not actually either, so i really don't see the point in making fun of or being frustrated by one to lift up the other because you want cisgender boot soles to brush the back of your throat THAT badly. the implausibility of thinking any way about a fictional character should be taken into account to an extent, sure, but at the end of the day neither of us are doing anything truly worthwhile, and no one is claiming that it's the intent from the beginning to say otherwise, so what's the point here. why are we doing this. let's go skip in a meadow together before i kill someone with this rock.

#🐾#tldr i am actually just so sick of people saying the word plausible #it's not plausible for this character to be trans. well OKAY. THARS NOT THE FUCKING POINT IDIOT #not every fucking thing people do is for the sake of furthering the fucking plot holy shit what is wrong with you #these people will never know joy or happiness and forever be miserable bc they're just OBSESSED with trying to rationalise.. art?!#LIKE ITS NOT GONNA HAPPENNNN 😭#even if it is a plausible trans read people will pick it apart. I Know. i've been there. people do not and i hate to break it to you #like trans people. even other trans people. SHOCK HORROR. jesus christ #this is a real torture dungeon of my own creation #also my two cents personally i think the sum of who zuko is as a person is first and foremost autistic and gay. and everything else is as #an abuse victim. and i honestly don't care if he's trans bc it doesn't matter in the way ppl need to be tantruming over #but it still would be just as significant if not more so. acruallg definitely more so what the hell. my family doesn't hate me bc i Like #Boys .. OR GIRLS.#and YEAH sokka does read more trans sure. but he also is the one who got made fun of for at least like matching his belt and bag #or liking shopping or being feminine ..#is this what people mean when they say that... that katara would be transphobic to her own brother 😭#well probably not. anyway.#if we're being textual sokka literally IS the one with some sort of gay subtext just FOR being the victim of the charming 2000s lightly #homophobic joking. not zuko. no one gives af about zuko #it does not break my arm to say zuko got banished for being too much sowmrbing and not enough something and got to be himself afterwards #in the slow journey that that took. this could mean literlalt anything. so who cares #he's lgbt all at once. There. bitch #also these ppl bc it was a whole bunch ofc. seemed to just mostly be mad bc zuko got the hc more #like how is that everyone else's problem now. just make sokka trans more ... idiot #☆

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🐶 ✊️ 🐾 for any or all of your ocs!

Also 🔪 lol

🐶: Helena, who runs during all hours of the day both to avoid her problems and because she genuinely likes it, the freak, would start running and not stop until she gets to somewhere the dog can't follow or until it gives up, whichever comes first.

I think Arin starts running until she sees something that she can climb and the dog can't and then scrambles up there and hopes that if she waits long enough it'll get bored and go away. I'm just imagining her crouching in a tree yelling at a dog that's barking like it wants her dead.

If she could get away with it and not immediately out her identity I think Ella would freeze its feet to the ground but she feels so bad about it and frees it as soon as it's calmed down enough that it won't instantly attack her. Otherwise, there's a non-zero chance that she also ends up in a tree pleading with it to try and get it to leave her alone.

✊: Ella does her usual tactic of incapacitating her enemies by encasing them in ice, which works. She then calls animal control. Helena and Arin try to electrocute and fire blast it to death, respectively, which works, but not without significant property damage due to the fires they keep starting due to poor aim and ostriches being wriggly bastards. they would not think to call animal control at any point, even if the ostrich was still alive.

🐾: I picture Helena as one of those big dogs who are just so grumpy and will not do anything unless they want to do it. Arin is one of those medium-sized, yippy dogs that are so excited about everything. she would always want to play. Helena would not. Ella's an Arctic Fox. snow/ice associations, cheerful, smart, unassuming appearance, can take down animals twice their size. It's perfect.

🔪: I'm thinking Arin would be either an amazing impostor or an absolutely god-awful one. she'd be a great actor and would be able to get a lot of people on her side but she'd probably forget a small but really important detail that brings down the whole charade. Helena's just not the type of person who's good at subterfuge but she'd do a lot of damage very quickly before she's caught. Ella would consistently last very long before she's caught but she's just not cold-blooded enough to kill more than is absolutely necessary. the most likely to lose because the others complete all of their tasks before she kills them. Luna would get voted out first because she is so suspicious all the time and literally every person there knows that she lies all the damn time both for fun and secret-keeping reasons and is good at it. if she manages to survive the first emergency meeting she wins every time. It's a bit of a coin flip for Cecilia because her main tactic is to just not say anything unless spoken to, which is just how she usually is, so no one finds it suspicious, but when confronted with evidence her excuse usually just boils down to "none of your fucking business," which is obviously not effective. Terra kills a lot and usually gets away with it because no one finds her suspicious, but she can get sloppy and leave witnesses if she's not careful.

#helena lichtenberg #arin royston #ella branwen #luna mara #cecilia rayner #terra valentine

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3.47pm

What a difficult time ..

I pray you .. all are doing ok.

My therapy..counseling.. whatever ya wanna call it. Was good. But difficult & made me think. My counselor is teaching me emdr skills & techniques, such as a container. And also asking me the hard questions. Such as why do I need the relationship with my mom. She is toxic to me. She is the root of all my issues. I've been looking for a bond with her my whole life that's never gonna be there. My sisters get her affections, but even that's not a good parental relationship. But I traded her tyranny for wh. And yeah, even though I've been writing in my journal & using the skills today.. this still makes me teary. Feeling unvalued by a parent really has a devastating impact on a soul. There's never gonna be validation there. And honestly, I need to get my worth from God. Because He Created me to be just as I am. He has the purest love for me. I have value. I am worthy. To be loved. I am a good woman. I am not less.. I am not a whore. Yes. It's been a difficult one for me. ... I didn't get the things done I needed to today. Because.. wh also in a mood. So when I got back..here, I realized just how much a negative impact ...here..is. I literally felt my whole body tense, my guts clench & just awful the last couple of turns until driveway. It has been quiet though. Chuckle. I wrote several entries in my diary, to remember, record, deal. And then I went to utilize the skills. At which point my body decided that I had had enough, I napped for ~1½hrs. I really don't like such, but I think it was needed to cope. To heal. I was feeling you during this time. Thank you. I love you. Bowed head. I will get away from wh & his toxicity, but I am still trying to figure out.. does God want me to totally remove myself from my blood family.. it hurts. Wobbly. It really hurts. But.. I will not be broken by someone who hasn't the ability to love me. When she is supposed to. My gosh, it's my biggest fear! If God so blesses me.. I do not want to be anything like her! A mother .. is supposed to love .. bowed.. teary wobbly. Yes. I gotta work on this. It's the root. Yeah... I knew this was gonna rip me up to write.

I have been feeling you.. I feel your love & arms wrapped around me as I deal. It gave me solace in the midst of my storm. My safe harbor. As I pray that I'm giving you the same..

I pray that you are ok.. that life & work stresses aren't bogging you down. Just know.. I love you. As you are. And I miss you .. fiercely.

I will get thru this. Get back on my life's righteous woman path. The one God Created me to have after strengthening me thru such..

Because I believe.

In God's Plans, Hands, Wisdom & Love.

That He has Created a magical & beautiful love story..

I believe wholeheartedly.

I will work this mtn crooked path..

As I work.. I await.. God. You ...

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Your humbled, bowed, listening quietly, loving, caring, complex, warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

😥😖🤓👩🧘‍♀️⚓🙏🙇‍♀️☔🌂🔗

💡⛓🧰⚙⚒🛠⚔⚖🗽

🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵

🥧🍁🧣🥾🥤🍋🍯🍼🍫🥮🍎🍑🍒

⌚⚡🌠🚀🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🕯🎶💋

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rainbow-arrow · 2 years

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day five of lukadrien february is writing. an excerpt from what are the odds? bc wato my beloved

((wato is my post-show breakup! au-- where adr*nette happens for a solid six years post defeat and begins at their downfall. here’s from the first chapter!))

Luka woke to the sound of knocking on his front door, waking him enough to notice his phone vibrating, screen illuminated, “Fucking hell--” he mumbled, pushing himself up, squinting at the screen that read Incoming Call: Kitty 💌🐾. Catching his attention, he sat up, pressing accept; the blond’s late night, often inebriated calls were beyond enjoyable to witness, “Hey--”

But unlike the times past, he wasn’t met with laughter or an enthusiastic echo, he heard knocking echoing through the speaker, “Can you let me in?”

“Oh-- that’s you?” he responded, sighing as he stood up, “Yeah, hang on--” he hung up, tossing his phone back on his bed before folding his arms, his hallway much colder than the comfort of his bed, the knocking albeit faint, grew louder as he approached, “Hey– what’s wrong?”

“Mari and I--” he mumbled, shaking his head, covering his face, “I’m sorry-- it’s just with Nino out of town, and Chloe doing her thing, I really didn’t know who else to go to, but I know you really don’t want to talk about problems we have--” Luka sighed, pulling him into a hug, closing the door behind him, hoping his knocking didn’t wake his nosy neighbors, who would definitely bring it up the next time they ran into each other, “I’m s-sorry-- this was a stupid idea, coming over like this--”

“Shhh--” he hushed, placing his hands on his shoulders in hopes to calm him. No, he didn’t want to talk about their relationship. It seemed like every single time he saw Marinette in the past six months she had something to say about Adrien, despite his constant request to discuss literally anything else. The only thing he wanted to hear at this point was they were over.

“Marinette broke up with me.”

Luka sighed, closing his eyes for a moment, hoping maybe this was a dream. If not, fate definitely had an odd sense of humor, leading Adrien to seek out comfort in him. “No, she didn’t-- you two are fantastic together. This is probably all a big misunderstanding--”

“No, I thought that the last four times-- but we’re over, Luka. She said so.”

Adrien had a flare for the dramatics. And while most of the time Luka was beyond entertained and honestly, quite enchanted by them, 3am and half-awake was not how he wanted to handle them, “You can talk it through with her in the morning--”

“It’s just, all we’ve been doing is fighting about the stupidest things for months-- she has this vision of me that’s just-- it’s not me, Luka-- she’s always had this grand, far off idea of what I am, and it really reminds me of my father and-- and-- I just told her that and she didn’t like it--” Luka couldn’t blame her on that, to be compared to Gabriel Agreste was the worst kind of insult that could be dealt. But in a way, he understood where Adrien was coming from. All he heard during their relationship was just how amazing the blond boy was, it was only time before her idealization of him had to face reality, and it was genuinely shocking it took nearly six years, “I just want to do what I want. I want to make my own life choices-- it’s my life, fuck--”

Luka nodded sleepily. He was used to it at this point. From both ends of the couple, technically Marinette’s friend, he definitely couldn’t deny his preference for the other, “Hey, let’s get you some water--” he suggested, turning towards the kitchen, noticing Plagg had joined a very sleepy Sass, floating nearby, “Sorry I don’t have much cheese, but you’re welcome to whatever--”

The fact that Plagg was relatively unbothered by Adrien’s emotional state showed that this was, unfortunately, normal for the kwami to deal with, “Always my favorite miraculous holder,” he smiled, disappearing into the fridge to investigate.

“How’d you get let up?” he asked, looking back to the blond, hoping to get his mind off Marinette for a few minutes.

“No one asks a lot of questions if you’re pretty and crying--” he mumbled, watching the cup fill before sighing, “All I wanted was to be happy-- she used to make me so happy, Luka, what happened?”

Definitely not wanting to get into it, he shrugged, offering him the cup as he leaned against the counter, “Time passes, people change, I guess.”

Adrien took a sip, shaking his head, “It’s not fair–”

Luka sighed, running his hand through his hair, “It is life, though,” the blond pouted, opening his mouth, “Drink the water, kitty. I know you’re upset, but getting worked up again isn’t going to help anyone,” nodding, he took another sip as they watched his kwami emerge before eating through the remaining bit of cheese, “Glad to see you’re doing okay.”

Plagg shrugged, sitting on the counter next to Sass, who looked as tired as Luka felt, “They’ve been fighting a lot– they’re going to make up in the morning–” Adrien sniffled, shaking his head at his claim, “Oh come on, kid– you two have been fighting like this long before you two were dating– it’s just a lovers spat–”

“No, it feels different–” he mumbled, focusing on the liquid in the glass. Luka didn’t want to get his hopes up in any way, but he did hate seeing Adrien so upset, “It’s too much again–”

Clicking his tongue, Luka stood up, not wanting to hear any of it, “I don’t want to make the couch for you, kitty, so come on, let’s go to bed--” he yawned, holding out his hand as though there was even a chance the other would take it. He got a grumbled response, making him smile as the other followed behind him, “You got somewhere to be tomorrow? Hopefully not too early–”

“No-- a meeting at noon, but I need to talk to Mari before then--”

“Yeah, yeah, of course--” he mumbled, turning off the hallway light, “But you’re going to sleep first.”

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