#love me wrong - allie x/troye sivan

[ask-sebastian]

TL;DR. Allegra's villain arc is a rollercoaster: Angst, survival mode, heartbreak, more angst, hope and change, a massive betrayal and the point of no return.

(I apologise for the huge blocks of text + unnecessary character lore, everyone! Please skip it all - I got carried away.)

A life for a life. A birth at death. While it was never said outright to her, she heard it through the mutterings of their house-elf when she was four. Of the way, his mistress had perished at the hands of the young miss, the screams, the blood and the anguished, heartbroken wails of his master. 

Her father had named her after his late wife, a forever reminder that she was merely a trade. Afraid of his resentment, Allegra lives tirelessly to measure up to his expectations: to be the perfect daughter, in the hopes that one day, she could emulate even a sliver of the witch that her mother was

After her mother's passing, her grandparents, too grief-stricken, moved to America with the rest of their family to start afresh. They left her alone with her father, who overbore her with stories of how magnificent of a woman her mother was. Without the Picquery name to uphold his status in pureblood society, her father took on an unyielding determination to establish his family name. In pursuit of this, he relentlessly pushed his daughter into the limelight, parading her out to foster connections with the next generation in high society. 

Though she knows that her father loves her in his own twisted way, she is never sure whether this love is for her, if it's for who he thinks Allegra should be or worse, if only because she's the only reminder of his beloved wife. 

Allegra has never known what it is like to be loved wholeheartedly and unconditionally, which translated itself into a deep mistrust of others. She can never be sure whether someone sought her out for her or for what she represents.

Her years in Durmstrang further fed into her insecurities as it was very much "only the strong survive". Known for teaching the Dark Arts, the rest of the curriculum was based on a "sink or swim" mentality, pitting students against each other.

One shining light (she had thought back then) was that she met someone who showered her with affection. Starved, she latched onto them, ignoring all the red flags until she overheard them bragging to their friends that they had their prospects settled because of Allegra and her father's connections. She still wonders if it was a self-fulfilling prophecy on her end, but the worst thing is that she still loved them despite their deception.

With that deceit, Allegra withdrew over the summer, prompting her to question everything in her life. Even as a child, she had disliked the path her father had set out for her, and with adulthood approaching, was there a point in pretending to be someone she was not? 

It was not until she was reunited with her childhood best friend, William (@ask-elland-n-will) and started her final year at Hogwarts that she realised there were genuine people with no hidden motives. Her friends' sincerity, love and support give her the courage to change. 

(Yay! Happy ending!)

(lol, she wishes)

Just when she's learnt how to trust and let her guard down, if she is ever betrayed in the worst way possible (think a lover, Will, or even her father ), that will send her down the path of no return. She will kill any semblance of emotion and arm herself with enough power to make life a living hell for those who have wronged her. 

By then, she will see herself only as a mere cog in the wheel that could be easily replaced and will singularly seek out the power to protect herself from further hurt. With Durmstrang having equipped her with knowledge of the Dark Arts (though not necessarily to use it), a lifetime studying her father's manipulative ways, and her own vindictiveness, nothing will be beneath her in her quest for vengeance. 

#sebastian's musical owls #villain era #adallegra #love me wrong - allie x/troye sivan #beautiful liar - x ambassadors #what was I made for? - billie eilish #courage to change - sia #you know my name - chris cornell #weight of everything - ill factor/katie garfield

[poprocklyrics]

I'll never be how you'll remember me, so I'd rather be in your memory

Love Me Wrong, Troye Sivan & Allie X

#troye sivan #allie x #love me wrong #cape god #music #lyrics #alternative #rock #pop

[surroundedbypearls]

10 Songs (Tag Game)

Thanks for the tag @the-grim-and-sanguine and @fallinginlovewithbeingaliveagain - You can find their posts here and here!

Rules: Use your WIP playlist and put it on shuffle. Write the first 10 songs that come up and quote your favorite lyrics from each song and/or the lyrics that fit your WIP best (they might be the same lyrics), then tag 10 people.

I was tempted to do this for one of my newer WIPs which I haven't talked much about on here yet (currently outlining) and also To Catch the Sea because that's my biggest/favourite playlist, so I decided to do 5 from each! Here we go~

To Catch the Sea: (queer love by the sea)

Marjorie - Taylor Swift The autumn chill that wakes me up / You loved the amber skies so much / Long limbs and frozen swims / you'd always go past where our feet could touch I'd Pluck a Fair Rose - Poldark soundtrack Red is my heart, a-wounded and forlorn / And your heart needing Cosmic Love - Florence & The Machine I took the stars from my eyes and then I made a map / And knew that somehow I could find my way back / Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too / So I stayed in the darkness with you Wild - Troye Sivan You make my heart shake bend and break / But I can't turn away / And it's driving me wild Lover Dearest - Marianas Trench It hurts me to say that it hurts me to stay / And it might be alright if you go / It hurts me to say that I want you to stay / But it might be alright if you go

Untitled Vegas WIP: (Sister and Brother reconnect, also mystery)

Hurt Like That - Katelyn Tarver Broke my heart I thought I'd never get it back / I want you to hurt like that Love Me Wrong - Allie X and Troye Sivan You tell me I'm special, so special / I know you love me / Cause you want the best / But you love me wrong Northern Lights - Kennie Brighter than the Northern Lights / You're in every color / In this star-speckled sky / And I just want you here with me Young God - Halsey I'm the king, and you're the queen, and we will stumble through heaven / If there's a light at the end, it's just the sun in your eyes / I know you wanna go to heaven, but you're human tonight" Reckless Heart - Josh Ramsay We all need a fantasy / I just need somewhere to go / Somewhere to stay, somewhere to be

Tagging @thatndginger, @florraisons, @yors-truly, @andromeda-grace and anyone else who'd like to do it!!

#my tag games #10 songs tag game

[merylodrama]

Cape God — Allie X

2020 — review — ★★★☆☆

This is the second time I listened to this album. The first time being back in 2020 when the album dropped, right when covid-19 started to get serious. First listen didn't manage to grasp me and is one of the reason I started to distant myself from Allie X's music.

This time isn't very different. I really tried to enjoy it as much as I could but the songs are so far away from what I liked about Allie X's music. Gone is the fun synth pop she's so good at and with that a lot of, if not all of her personal touch.

The songs aren't bad by any means. But it feels like they lack personality and purpose. The first 3 songs are good and showcase how she can try different things than before. Unfortunately this change doesn't let her go all the way and ends up sounding too safe. You can still hear some of her usual touch at times on some songs but that's not enough. The production feels too secure, she doesn't take any risk while changing her sound removing most of what made her music hers. Even the collaborations with Troye Sivan and Mitski failed to move me.

Unfortunately, I ended up feeling bored by the end of the listening experience. I'm happy that she ditched this sound for the next era, at least it seems like it. I'll probably won't go back to this record anytime soon.

Fresh Laundry — 9/10

Devil I Know — 7/10

Regulars — 8/10

Sarah Come Home — 5/10

Rings A Bell — 6/10

June Gloom — 5/10

Love Me Wrong feat. Troye Sivan — 5/10

Super Duper Party People — 6/10

Susie Save Your Love feat. Mitski — 6/10

Life Of The Party — 6/10

Madame X — 7/10

Learning in Public — 6/10

#music #review #album #album review #throwback #pop #allie x #cape god #2020

[fieurissons]

here to provide all the support for orion!! song recs: Feels Like - Gracie Abrams, Superhero - Lauv, See you later (ten years) - Jenna Raine (please this one might just be me projecting my orion trauma), So My Darling (Acoustic) - Rachel Chinouriri, Love me wrong - Allie X, Troye Sivan, Jasmine - DPR LIVE

thank you!!!! I appreciate this very comprehensive list -- sincerely apologies about the orion trauma, happy love to talk about it if you need HAHAHAHA

#q #song rec

[nymphpens]

"I'll never be how you remember me, so I'd rather be in your memory"

- Allie X & Troye Sivan

#brontestic #brontesticism #dark academia #dark aesthetic #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #brontëstic #brontësticism #poems #light academia #lyrics #music #love me wrong #allie x #troye sivan #cottagecore #poems on tumblr #romance quotes #hopeful romantic

[animasmusicdiary]

#love me wrong #allie x #troye sivan #cape god (deluxe) #indie pop #26.09.2020

[sadsexysag]

Allie X - Cape God [2020]

#allie x #cape god #fresh laundry #rings a bell #regulars #love me wrong #devil i know #troye sivan

[grey-oceans]

I'll never be how you remember me So I'd rather be in your memory

#music #spotify #love me wrong #troye sivan #allie x #lyrics #love

[lyricallymnded]

love me wrong // allie x & troye sivan

#lyrics #allie x #troye sivan #song: love me wrong #album: cape god #artist: allie x #artist: troye sivan

[midzie]

you...you just know a song is good when it actively puts you in a trance and you’re not even aware of it

#love me wrong by allie x & troye sivan #i just clicked on it randomly and #im not disappointed #downloaded. #i just caught myself staring into the distance #auri.txt

[writingpostmidnight]

“i’ll never be how you remember me, so i’d rather be in your memory” is such a trans rights lyric 

#arys rambles #love me wrong by allie x & troye sivan #wait hold on #the whole song can be a trans metaphor if i squint #'heard you talk about me in the kitchen you didn't know i was listening but i was there and that isn't fair' #when ppl misgender u behind ur back ;/ #it's already about parents loving u for someone ur not bro that is PERFECT for trans metaphor #'but u love me wrong' #LIKE THAT'S WHAT IT'S LIKE

[pocritics]

Allie X - Cape God

01. Fresh Laudry - 90/100 02. Devil I Know - 91/100 03. Regulars - 93/100 04. Sarah Come Home - 87/100 05. Rings A Bell - 92/100 06. June Gloom - 89/100 07. Love Me Wrong - 100/100 08. Super Duper Party People - 100/100 09. Susie Save Your Love - 97/100 10. Life of the Party - 80/100 11. Madame X - 95/100 12. Learning in Public - 88/100

Nota - 92/100

Best Track: Love Me Wrong

#allie x #alliex #love me wrong #Troye Sivan #music #album #album release #new album #album review #albumrelease #review #release #new music #new release #indie #pop

[a-dork-for-troye]

#troye sivan #troye #sivan #love me wrong #love me weong lyrics #allie x

[loveislyinginthecorner]

“I'll never be how you remember me

So I'd rather be in your memory”

Love Me Wrong, Allie X + Troye Sivan

#love me wrong #lyrics #allie x #troye sivan #loveislyinginthecorner #my post

[iconicpopstar]

Allie X - Love Me Wrong

“Love Me Wrong is a very personal song for me, which deals with the confusion and hurt associated with familial love. Mostly taken from feelings I had when I was younger, this is a song about being misunderstood by the ones closest to you. You know that you they love you, but you feel it isn’t for the full person you are.The relationship between a parent and child is so intense and layered, that it was liberating to put it into the simple phrase ‘you love me wrong’ and repeat it over and over in the chorus. I hope that those of you dealing with similar feelings can find solace in this song.“ - Allie X via Instagram

#currently going insane over this song #allie x #love me wrong #cape god #troye sivan #raul lima #piano #cover