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flaminggoddesstemple · 1 year

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Teddy’s NSFW Ask Game:

Answering them all, just for fun:

1. Have you ever gotten off to a mutual before?

Yes

2. Least favorite interaction with a tumblr dom?

Haven’t had any

3. Was your blog URL your first choice? If not, what was?

It was, yes

4. What’s your favorite thing about kink/nsfw tumblr?

There aren’t many places you can be so…free.

5. What’s your least favorite thing about kink/nsfw tumblr?

Remembering how it used to be lol

6. Why did you join NSFW/kink tumblr? Why did you stay?

Because I love to explore kink and sexuality and share my interests, and this is a great place to do exactly that

7. Is there anyone on here you wish you were IRL friends with?

Not yet, pretty new here

8. What is your biggest pet peeve in mainstream porn? (Besides all the known problematics and ethical failures within the industry)

As a bi sub male it’s hard to find non-degrading/humiliating femdom and bi porn. I just wanna get fucked and be encouraged to push my boundaries

9. What is your least favorite part of how sex is treated in Straight™️ culture?

It can be pretty…formulaic

10. What is the funniest porn intro you’ve ever seen?

Any one where the woman gets “stuck” in some ridiculous position like the laundry machine lol

11. Name an album you want to have sex to. Any one of Miguel’s albums

12. Name a song that makes you want to fuck.

Woman- City and Colour

13. Favorite underwear you own?

Red boxers

14. Does your personal favorite color match your favorite color lingerie/underwear for a partner to wear?

Surprisingly, no

15. Is there any fictional characters you’d want to fuck? (Humanoid)

Can’t think of any right now, but I’m sure there are a few

16. Are there any monsters/monster characters you’d want to fuck?

17. If you own stuffed animals, do you turn them away when you have sex/masturbate?

Don’t have any

18. Do you have a squishmallow collection?

Nope. I’ll have to Google that sometime

19. Does grinding do anything for you?

A little

20. Is sex hotter when it’s not in a bed?

It can be, but I like the bed too

21. Car sex: overrated and uncomfortable or believe the hype?

I’ve never done it, but I always assumed it’s uncomfortable

22. Could you ever have sex with someone with the same name as you?

Sure, why not?

23. Could you have sex with your doppleganger?

Yep!

24. Are you scared of being told you’re bad in bed?

I’m not scared of it; if I ever hear that then I’m willing to learn how to get better

25. Has anyone ever told you you’re bad in bed?

Thankfully no

26. Favorite thing to be called during sex? (Names, titles, petnames, etc. )

I haven’t been called many things in bed, but “good boy” really did it for me lol

27. Best season/time of year/weather to have sex?

Autumn/Winter. Get that body heat!

28. Creampies: hot or gross?

INSANELY hot.

29. Were your sex education classes in school thorough?

Not at all

30. Girth or length?

I’m not sure, I’d have to have some experiences and compare lol

31. Do you have any friends kinkier then you? Any more vanilla then you?

Both! I don’t think I’m all that kinky actually, but I am enough that I’m kinkier than my vanilla friends

32. What’s a sex toy/kink product you wish existed but doesn’t?

Hmmm….I’ll have to think about this more.

33. How do you feel about Discord voicechat fantasies?

no clue

34. Werewolves or Vampires?

Werewolves!

35. What’s a petname/title you really like that isn’t popular?

Woman, Mine

36. Does your partner need to have the same sex drive as you?

No. It’s more important that we’re compatible when we do have sex

37. Are there any sex scenes in movies that made an impact on you growing up?

Nope, grew up too sheltered to see anything like that lol

38. Is there any sexual activity that you know is unsafe and will never do, but still wish you could? (ie anal penetration to vaginal penetration)

Nothing that I can think of

39. What is the oddest outfit that you find hot when people wear?

I don't know how odd it is, but long dresses really do it for me

40. Any fantasies featuring bluetooth/discreet vibrators?

Doesn't everybody? I'd love to try it in public at least once.

41. Are nudes overrated?

Not at all

42. If it was genuine, would you take part in a sugar daddy arrangment? (Either role)

Probably

43. Do accents do anything for you?

Absolutely

44. What is the most romantic sexual thing someone can do to/for you?

I'll do basically anything for someone who's being sweet and encouraging to me

45. What’s one popular bdsm concept/activity/toy that you just don’t like?

Humiliation/Degradation

46. What is the smallest bed size you could fuck in?

I guess a twin?

47. What’s a porn scenario/plot that you wish existed but doesn’t?

Any scenario where someone is caught in the act and the person who catches them simply joins in lol. Also bored and ignored.

48. What is a safety lesson/tip for sex/kink that wish was more common knowledge?

I don't have any, so I'm open to suggestions!

49. What’s a porn category you wish existed but doesn’t?

hmm...mmf bi threesomes where the woman is praising and encouraging the men to explore their bisexuality. No humiliation or cuckolding, just everyone enjoying themselves experiencing something new

50. What is a hot tumblr post you’ve seen that lives in your head rent-free?

This one: https://finalgirlinpink.tumblr.com/post/678121464208195584/okay-but-like-a-soft-dom-who-tells-you-to-ask

gothteddies

Extension Pack:

51. If you were to start your own high budget porn company right now, what would be the first film you would produce? Be as incredibly detailed (plot, scene, set, talent, genders, body types, etc.) or as vague as you want.

I'd make a film about a bi couple getting getting tied up and gangbanged together by an assortment of people- men, women, women with strapons, etc. Together they get covered in cum, all their holes used, and the whole time they're being groped, caressed, squeezed, praised, and complimented.

52. Do you like to sleep in the cold or in the heat?

Cold!

53. Favorite position/angle for nudes? (For either receiving or sending)

over the shoulder?

54. Would you fuck any of your exes?

Nope

55. What was the most relaxing sexual experience you’ve had?

Lying back for a very slow handjob. I do love those. It's nice to just lay back and enjoy sometimes

56. Do you enjoy the idea of your partner carrying around lewds/nudes of you in their wallet? Or vice versa?

Not particularly, no

57. Least favorite kink you’ve witnessed on tumblr?

Not sure

58. Is the “doms in suits” looks overplayed?

A bit, yeah

59. What’s an objectively bad song you unironically enjoy?

After Googling "bad songs" i can confidently say I have bad taste in music lol

60. LED light strips on or off during? If on, what color?

Sounds fun! I assume red would be best

61. If you had a partner that was a music producer/artist, would you let them discreetly mix audio from a clip of you cumming into their tracks?

Sure

62. Would you enjoy a calendar of just lewd photos of your partner(s) each month? Would you give you partner(s) one of you?

I would love that lol. And I might give them one

63. Is there a sexual or kink related tattoo you want or have?

I would actually love to have one but can't think of what I'd get. It'd have to be subtle.

64. Do in person kink events and conventions interest you?

They do, yes

65. What’s something stupid that’s turned you on?

Unexpected head pats

66. How did you masturbate when you first started to, and how do you masturbate now?

Jack hammer speed when I started, slow and steady now

67. Do you prefer your tumblr persona or your IRL personality? Which do you think your friends/mutuals would prefer?

I prefer my Tumblr persona, but I think it's only really going to be a hit here on Tumblr lol

68. Were you on preban tumblr? If so, what do you miss about it and what are the biggest differences you’ve noticed between then and now?

I was on preban Tumblr, and it was a lot easier to find what you were interested in back then

69. Do you enjoy the idea of using ice sexually?

I'm neutral on ice, if my partner's into it then we'll be using it

70. Is there anyone (on here or otherwise) you wish you could take nudes/lewds with?

absolutely

71. Are there any kinks or fantasies you have that you wish you didn’t? What are they?

no, I like all my kinks, even the ones that I have no intention of actually experiencing

72. If you were having a threesome and there were two of you in your role (2 dominants/2 submissives), would you be willing to wear matching outfits with them? What would you wear?

That could be fun! I'd probably wear very little lol

73. What are your preferred petnames/titles to call a partner?

I usually call them darling, woman, or babe

74. Would you fuck your clone?

yes

75. Would you have a threesome with your partner and your clone? Would you have a threesome with your partner and their clone?

yes and yes

76. Any fantasies featuring supernatural elements?

A few, yes lol

77. What’s the hottest thing you’ve ever watched a stranger do?

not counting porn, probably that clip of the woman swirling her tongue to eat pasta lmao

78. Ever had a dirty thought in reaction to seeing an attractive stranger?

hasn't everybody?

79. Any sexual fantasies featuring strangers?

Yes

80. What outfit would you want a partner to wear to seduce you in?

A dress, or something with lots of straps on it. Or a strapon lol

81. Do you like when a partner wears gloves?? If so, what type of gloves do you like them to wear? (leather, latex, lace, etc.)

I'm neutral on gloves

82. What’s the hottest scene in sexual media you’ve ever seen/read? (porn, hentai, erotica, etc.)

a gentle femdom hentai that made me realize I was into gentle femdom

83. Are there any non-sexual scenes/moments in movies that turned you on??? What were they??

Not really, no

84. What would your pornstar name be?

Pendleton Steele lmao jk that's terrible

85. Do you have a favorite pornstar? Who is it?

Lance Hart, Maddy O'Reilly, or April Olsen

86. Are there any professions you find attractive?

Nurse (most healthcare professions, honestly)

87. Is possessiveness hot?

88. Pick one: a partner with a big truck, a fast car, or a motorcycle.

Big truck. Roomy for fun times, and functional otherwise.

89. Have you ever tried to seduce someone and they didn’t notice? What happened?

Nope, the few times I've ever tried they always noticed lol

90. Do you enjoy sexting? What’s the hottest text you’ve received while sexting?

I enjoy it but I'm not very good at it lol

91. Do you have a favorite kink blogger on here? Who is it? Why?

Goddess Ignited, because she was my favorite before we even made these blogs

92. Morning sex or evening sex?

I can't decide!

93. Switches: do you lean more towards domming or subbing? Why?

Subbing. I'm very submissive, but I do think domming would be fun and I'm interested in trying it sometimes. I think I'd just need to be extremely comfortable with my partner to be able to. Variety is the spice of life!

94. What sort of kink related objects are in your dream house? (Sex toy closet, pet bed, bondage anchors, cage, etc.)

A whole room with bondage anchors, a variety of toys and equipment lol

95. Do you/would you enjoy making sex tapes with your partner?

Makes me anxious but I'm also intrigued

97. Would you ever get off to your own nudes/porn? Have you?

No, I'm not my type lol

98. What’s your go-to movie to put on when you’re going to “Netflix & Chill” with someone?

I've never Netflix & Chilled to have a movie just for that lol

99. Is there a sexual act you feel particularly talented at? What is it?

Cunnilingus. Because I love to do it.

100. Have you ever sent a sexy anon to someone on tumblr?

Nope

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kryannoy · 2 years

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things they would buy you as a gift

genre: fluff

characters: mikey, draken, chifuyu, baji, kazutora, mitsuya

dorayaki or taiyaki with your favorite filling

or candies and snacks that you like

this boy would also buy one dorayaki for himself while he's at it

just one! this is his way to show that it is a gift and that it wasn't the usual 'i go to the store to buy us some'

maybe even have a little picnic just the two of you at the docks where you guys can watch the ships sailing, entering and leaving

if he buys you pocky, he will ask you to do the pocky challenge with him

not just he gets to eat the sweet snack, but also because he takes this opportunity to teasingly kiss you instead

would also purposely break the pocky in half a few times so you guys can do more

"do you want the boring side or the strawberry side?"

"oops! i broke it~<3 let's do another one."

"chu... hmm! you taste like pocky."

this man is a gentleman

may not look like it but is one

he'll buy the things you really want

he sees you ogling at a stuffed bunny, he'll get it for you the day after, as a surprise

then he'll give it to you, and leaves

he just doesn't know how to handle a situation after he buys you something

that's just the way he is

might be because he's embarrassed of the 'thank you's you keep giving to him and how you really appreciate it

"here's a little something for being my girl"

"hope you like it!"

he'll buy the cheesy gifts kind lol

like a necklace where you can open the heart charm and there's two pictures inside

he reads shoujo mangas so he'll be all about couple's goals and stuff like that

he'll be innocently walking around the streets and saw the necklace and immediately thought of you, ideas overflowing his mind

bought the necklace in the colour you like and sticks a picture of him on the left side of the heart and you on the right side

"can i put it on you?" he eagerly asks, poor him, let the boy fulfill one of his couple's goals

"you look perfect, beautiful!"

"look! it's a picture of us!"

matching scrunchies!

he loves his hair and so do yours

matching shirts? that's so overrated

why not scrunchies or hair ties?

he would pick out two scrunchies of the same solid colour and another two with the same checkered pattern

gives one of each to you and immediately you guys try it out together

"can i tie it up for you? i wanna tie it up for you!"

"haha! i love it"

"why do you look cuter wearing it?! that's unfair!"

a really cool luminous star pillow

it's a pillow shaped like a star that can light up

he picked the one with your favorite colour and the led light of your second favorite colour

he loves seeing your reaction when he presented to you that it can light up

he softly throws the pillow in his hands and say, "look! it's a shooting star."

"make a wish."

let's say he got you that pillow before he went into juvie, so when he saw the same thing lying on your bed when he visited you for the first time in years...

it almost put him into tears!

it may be identical but it's all dirtied up a bit from the use and sadly it couldn't light up anymore

"you still have that...? :'( "

those cute earphones or airpods case

ones that are really cute or cool that he thinks you would like

or a case referenced from your favourite game or anime or drama

sorry to say but he had to find them in a cheap price due to his issue

he was really happy that you didn't care nor ask about the price, you just truly appreciate what he gave you

"i got you something. it's kinda small but..."

"what do you think?"

smiles brightly when he sees you immediately try on the case and coo at it

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the-lottie-diaries · 2 years

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Leo Sun. Slytherin Primary, Models Hufflepuff. Hufflepuff Secondary with a Gryffindor Model.

Basic Character Questions

First name: Charlotte Surname: La Bouff Middle names: Anne Nicknames: Lottie Date of birth: July 30th, 1995 Age: 26

Physical / Appearance

Height: 5′7″ Hair colour: brown/blonde Hair style: normally straight, spends a while curling her hair Eye colour: Green Glasses or contact lenses: neither. She has 20/20 vision Distinguishing facial features: her eyes usually stand out the most Which facial feature is most prominent: eyes Which bodily feature is most prominent: hips Other distinguishing features: n/a Skin: pale Hands: small and smooth Make up: uses a light foundation and eye shadow that matches her outfits. mascara always, and lipsticks change depending on her mood. Scars: one under her chin after a graceless fall Birthmarks: a mole on her butt Tattoos: none Physical handicaps: none Type of clothes: stylish, posh generally How do they wear their clothes: nicely, carefully considered fashion What are their feet like: nice and kept neat, nail polish always, usually in heels but if the weather is rough then some nice boots. Race / Ethnicity: White Mannerisms: Are they in good health: yes! Do they have any disabilities: none, unless you count being undead

Personality

What words or phrases do they overuse: golly, sugar, Laissez les bon temps rouler, cher Do they have a catchphrase: None known yet Are they more optimistic or pessimistic: optimistic Are they introverted or extroverted: lol extroverted Do they ever put on airs: yes but not in an obnoxious way hopefully What bad habits do they have: meddling in things she shouldn’t What makes them laugh out loud: oh so many things honestly How do they display affection: giggles and hugs, lots of blatant affection and kisses. She is all about pda. Mental handicaps: none How do they want to be seen by others: as a charming belle of the ball type How do they see themselves: a bit of a mess but a charming one How are they seen by others: tbd. but most likely as a lot lol Strongest character trait: kind Weakest character trait: loud How competitive are they: not very, except for when it comes to LOVE. And even then if she sees someone else is happy she won’t get in their way. She’s a good loser. Do they make snap judgements or take time to consider: it depends on the situation How do they react to praise: She thrives off of it. How do they react to criticism: lousy. see tears. What is their greatest fear: to never find love What are their biggest secrets: She’s a VAMPIRE!?!?!? What is their philosophy of life: all you need is love When was the last time they cried: when she realized what she’d become What haunts them: her ex What are their political views: who knows. She doesn’t usually pay attention What will they stand up for: her friends, those she loves Who do they quote: Taylor Swift probably, Miley Cyrus, the big pop girls Are they indoorsy or outdoorsy: indoorsy lmao What is their sinful little habit: hook ups What sense do they most rely on: sight How do they treat people better than them: with kindness and a little bit of sucking up probably How do they treat people worse than them: with kindness and love What quality do they most value in a friend: honesty What do they consider an overrated virtue: Generosity If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be: to no longer be a vampire What is their obsession: love What are their pet peeves: people talking with their mouths full. EW. What are their idiosyncrasies: too many to list.

Friends and Family

Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of: It’s just Lottie and her daddy What is their perception of family: She pictures the nuclear family even when that’s not what she’s grown up with. She wants that in the future. Do they have siblings? Older or younger: none Describe their best friend: Smart, brilliant, owner of a RESTAURANT!!! Oh my god Tiana is amazing!! Ideal best friend: already has her thanks =] Describe their other friends: tbd Describe their acquaintances: will do eventually Do they have any pets: a warmblood mare Celeste, a little pug named Baby Who are their natural allies: tbd Who are their surprising allies: tbd

Past and Future

What was your character like as a baby? As a child?: She was sweet and curious. She loved dress up games and playing with dolls. She wanted to be a princess as a child Did they grow up rich or poor: rich Did they grow up nurtured or neglected: nurtured and spoiled What is the most offensive thing they ever said: but vampires are disgusting! they literally suck! - five minutes after realizing she’d turned What is their greatest achievement: graduating with honors from uni What was their first kiss like: super awkward in a closet playing seven minutes in heaven What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved: ripped their shirt What are their ambitions: To marry someone gorgeous and have three kids and live in a beautiful home What advice would they give their younger self: don’t fall for that jerk What smells remind them of their childhood: cinnamon, honey, lavendar What was their childhood ambition: to marry a prince What is their best childhood memory: learning to ride a horse What is their worst childhood memory: when mama died Did they have an imaginary childhood friend: yes. Her name was Cynthia When was the last time they were crushed with disappointment: when she woke up a vampire What past act are they most ashamed of: hooking up with one of her professors What past act are they most proud of: graduating!! Has anyone ever saved their life: no Strongest childhood memory: baking cookies with daddy and mama

Love

Do they believe in love at first sight: absolutely! Are they in a relationship: tragically single ;-; How do they behave in a relationship: she is all ABOUT the relationship. She gets lost in it When did you character last have sex: about a month ago What sort of sex do they have: that’s for her to know and you to find out Has your character ever been in love: yes Have they ever had their heart broken: tragically yes ;-;

Conflict

How do they respond to a threat: shrieking and looking for help Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue: tongue if anything, though she’s also more likely to run What is your character’s kryptonite: bullies If your character could only save one thing from their burning house, what would it be: a picture of her dearly departed mama How do they perceive strangers: as potential friends What do they love to hate: tea What are their phobias: thunder What is their choice of weapon: her fangs are pretty good now she supposes What living person do they most despise: her ex Have they ever been bullied or teased: yes, though her daddy made sure to put a stop to it Where do they go when they’re angry: she hides in the closest closet or small space to try to calm down Who are their enemies and why: she doesn’t really have enemies

Work, Education and Hobbies

What is their current job: none. she is unemployed! What do they think about their current job: n/a What are some of their past jobs: she hasn’t worked a day in her life rip What are their hobbies: horseback riding, showjumping, writing in her diary, dancing Educational background: college graduate Intelligence level: highly intelligent Do they have any specialist training: no Do they have a natural talent for something: talking lol Do they play a sport? Are they any good: no she does not. She does horseback riding What is their socioeconomic status: formerly wealthy, trying to figure it out now

Favourites

What is their favourite animal: a horse! Which animal to they dislike the most: any manner of bug! What place would they most like to visit: Versailles, France What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen: her beloved horse Celeste What is their favourite song: What Makes You Beautiful by One Direction Music, art, reading preferred: music! Followed closely by art What is their favourite colour: pink and purple! What is their password: LoVe4me Favourite food: fried chicken What is their favourite work of art: Any of Monet’s works Who is their favourite artist: Monet What is their favourite day of the week: Friday!

Possessions

What is in their fridge: tbd What is on their bedside table: tbd What is in their car: no car What is in their bin: tbd What is in their purse or wallet: phone, keys, driver’s license from Louisiana, make up What is in their pockets: lol nothing, you think women’s jeans have good pockets? What is their most treasured possession: pictures of her, her mama, and her daddy

Spirituality

Who or what is your character’s guardian angel? mama Do they believe in the afterlife: yes What are their religious views: probably minorly religious What do they think heaven is: she pictures it the christian way What do they think hell is: fire and misery Are they superstitious: yes What would they like to be reincarnated as: horse How would they like to die: in bed in the arms of her love What is your character’s spirit animal: tbd What is their zodiac sign: Leo

Values

What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person: to be raped, to be stripped of their humanity What is their view of ‘freedom’: to be able to choose the life you want to lead When did they last lie: a week or so ago What’s their view of lying: sometimes it’s necessary to protect yourself When did they last make a promise: a year or so ago Did they keep or break their last promise: keep

Daily life

What are their eating habits: eats regular meals for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Or she did. As a vampire she’s kind of a mess. She’s figuring it out Do they have any allergies: not that she knows of Describe their home: tbd Are they minimalist or a clutter hoarder: in the middle, reasonable amounts of items What do they do first thing on a weekday morning: listen to music What do they do on a Sunday afternoon: hang out with friends or watch a movie or go shopping What do they do on a Friday night: go to a bar or a club to meet someone What is the soft drink of choice: dr pepper What is their alcoholic drink of choice: strawberry margarita

Miscellaneous

What is their character archetype: The Ally Who is their hero: Daddy What or who would your character dress up as for Halloween: Princess Peach, or Zelda, or some form of royal character lol Are they comfortable with technology: yes! If they could save one person, who would it be: her mama If they could call one person for help, who would it be: Tiana! What is their favourite proverb: none What is their greatest extravagance: her dresses What is their greatest regret: not telling her daddy what’s happened to her What is their perception of redemption: being able to come back better than ever. it should be allowed! What would they do if they won the lottery: give to charity and use just enough to live a good life What is their favourite fairytale: Cinderella What fairytale do they hate: Hansel and Gretel Do they believe in happy endings: of course! always! What is their idea of perfect happiness: to be in love and married and have a family What would they ask a fortune teller: when will she meet the one? If your character could travel through time, where would they go: she would go to the 70s or 80s and party What sport do they excel at: horseback riding What sport do they suck at: anything that requires more coordination with balls If they could have a superpower, what would they choose: reading minds

#about lottie

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shortpplfedup · 3 years

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Shots! Shots! Shots!

I feel like this episode the cinematography really took a backseat to the acting (apropos in an episode all about acting). That's not to say there's nothing to see here, but this episode was really shot very straight and to the point without a lot of flourish, I think so as not to compete with or get in the way of the amazingness the actors were putting down. Also, the costuming had a LOT to say this ep so this is more a shots and looks post...lol.

Also, there are so many callbacks to ITSAY in this ep that I really want to do side-by-sides...maybe in another post.

MESSAGE! Meen and Koi really said 'at this moment subtlety is overrated'. They hung a lampshade on the elephant in the room like 'HI YES THIS IS THE MOMENT IT ALL GOES WRONG REMEMBER THIS'. I hope I'm wrong in my analysis here, but my first instinct in this scene as soon as Oh Aew said the word 'promise' was to yell out 'NO NO NO DON'T PROMISE JACK SHIT DON'T DO IT!'

I may be a bit invested in this story.

I'm using a GIF for this shot because the way the camera moves here is an integral part of its awesomeness. Khim is portrayed here like a warrior, the angle and sweep of the camera are almost epic. You're meant to be blown away by Khim's raw talent here and that objective is certainly achieved.

The way Teh is framed here makes him look small and trapped, but the door is wide open to the outside. It's all in his head.

There is SO MUCH unspoken happening in the birthday party scene. Teh does not fit in here at all, from the clothes to the body language to his drink. They're all having fun and he's the wet blanket but they're all trying to include him nevertheless. Somebody said he looks like somebody's dad got invited along for kicks and...yes. Also, Teh and Oh Aew are not conversing costume-wise...

...while in contrast, Q and Oh Aew are definitely having a conversation in colour and pattern. Not matching or even that similar, but definitely in the same family. Something is growing there, though I think only on Q's side. Look at the framing on these shots. The first shot is so conspiratorial, like they have secrets together. In the second shot, not only is Q between Teh and Oh Aew, facing Oh Aew, but he and Oh Aew are also framed together by the doorway while Teh is on the outside of the frame alone.

Once again, Teh underneath, supplicant to Oh. And Oh is holding on to that Teh substitute doll so tight.

In both of Teh and Khim's heart-to-hearts, Khim is dressed as a high schooler. Khim is Teh's senior, but when she is being vulnerable with Teh, seeking his support and understanding, they put her in a subordinate position.

Teh can't even look at Oh Aew directly. It's hard to understand spatially, but he is looking at him via the bathroom mirror. Teh cannot face what Oh Aew is trying to tell him.

I Promised You the Moon

Director: Meen Tossaphon Riantong

Cinematographer: Koi Boonyanuch Kraithong

#translate my love with your heart #i promised you the moon #ipytm #ipytm 2: super objective #itsay ipytm cinematography series #costuming: a language #bl meta series

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i-like-5sos · 3 years

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for you music asks game ☺️ 💓

the lumineers

see through - the band CAMINO

CALM - 5sos

Hi Gemma ! <3 Thank you for the ask!!

Band: The Lumineers

Do I know them already?: yes | kinda | no *I only know Ho Hey*

First song youtube took me to: Sleep On The Floor First Impression: It was a very mellowed out song, not really anything to complain about :) but that music video???? W O W my heart hurts from the last 10 seconds... Ouch lol Do I like it?: It’s not really my type of music but I have nothing against it :) def something I could vibe with at a friend’s house Would I listen to more from them?: Maybe I would give a few other songs a try Rate (from what I heard): 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10

Song: See Through - The Band CAMINO

Album: CALM- 5 Seconds of Summer

Opinion on cover design: *sorry I’m extra and have to review each cover*

Basic album cover: very cute and totally matches the vibe of the title (both calm the feeling and C.A.L.M the boys) very spot on imo.

Target edition cover: I love the look and colours of this cover: it’s really a great contrast from the basic cover

Ashton, Calum, Luke, & Michael individual covers: they’re all very cute (duh) and I like that they all went with the same colour scheme - but I do miss the individually coloured covers ngl

Favourite song: No Shame, Not In The Same Way, Kill My Time there’s no way I’m choosing just one lol

Least favourite song: Red Desert (don’t come at me okay)

Underrated track: Lonely Heart

Overrated track: Red Desert (again don’t start)

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10+

Send me an artist/band and/or a song by them and I’ll tell you how I feel about them!

#wastelandcth #asks

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beatles-lover24 · 4 years

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some very random asks that no one asked for

1. how many pillows do you sleep with? i sleep on 1 pillow, but there is usually 3 other pillows on my bed. otherwise i feel like the bed feels empty lol

2. do you believe in soulmates? yeah and i believe we don’t just have 1, and it’s not just a romantic partner.

3. would you ever kiss a stranger? i’ve kissed someone i only met like an hour prior

4. describe your dream house enough room for a piano and all my music stuff

5. do you usually use cash or card? both

6. do you enjoy driving in general? yes

7. do you like your name? if not, what would you change your name to? yeah it’s fine i guess

8. what’s your favorite cuisine? Maltese

9. how often do you get massages? the first and last one i had was 2016

10. do you play video games? if so, what games? nope. some would say i’m a fake autistic for this

11. do you prefer to colour with coloured pencils, crayons, or markers? crayons are a mood

12. what other fandoms are you in? the beatles, radiohead, queen

13. do you have a signature in your style/everyday outfits? band merch tshirts, cool socks, scrunchies, earrings that match

14. do you have any pets? if not, do you want some in the future? 2 cats

15. do you give objects you own a name? (car, house, plants, etc) i named my car and my guitar

16. do you like the weather where you live? yeah i guess. the weather where i live is known to be very temperamental

17. if you could wear one color for the rest of your life, what would it be? blue

18. do you like making small talk? no #autistic

19. what’s your favorite social media platform? facebook

20. have you ever been to hawaii? no

21. name a fashion trend that you absolutely hate oversized sports leisure clothes

22. name a fashion trend that you absolutely love doc martens and converse

23. what was the last text you sent? “no. the cats will eat it” (my sister wants to get a rabbit)

24. when making plans, do you like to organize or go with the flow when the time comes? i organise #autistic

25. what do you want to name your future kids? Elsie, Freddie

26. do you have a type? girls

27. when was the last time you kissed someone? saturday

28. how often do you cook? daily

29. do you think __x__ is overrated or underrated? modern ‘musicians’ are overrated

30. do you always remember your dreams? sometimes

31. do you believe in ghosts? nah

32. would you ever want to move outside of your country? if there was a music opportunity

33. describe your first love i don’t think i’ve really been in love

34. more peanut butter or more jelly? equal

35. do your irls know about your tumblr account? my irl friends don’t care lol

36. do you prefer hot or cold beverages? depends what it is

37. when was the last time you finished a book? year 12

38. what would you want your wedding colors to be? lilac and something else

39. how long do you let your nails grow? i play the piano, so not long at all

40. if you could stay at a certain age, what age would you pick? i haven’t hit an ideal age yet lol

41. who do you think has it easiest: older siblings or younger siblings? youngest (aka not me)

42. how often do you post on social media? about once or twice a week

43. do you enjoy big groups? no way

44. do you like it when you’re awaken by the sounds of birds chirping? eh yeah i guess

45. which hand is your favourite? both because i’m a musician

46. how many people do you follow? many

47. how many followers do you have? not many

48. how many drafts do you have? none

49. do you hang or fold your sweaters? fold

50. even numbers or odd? even

#me #questions #ask

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unimpressedperson · 5 years

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ishin-denshin

(I found that picture in @seoulicons . Thank you for posting that)

Genre: Fluff, Angst

Warnings: I mentioned Expensive Girl and sex, so yeah, nothing here is pure. Also, there are mentions of self-harm, so please, if it’s triggering tell me and I’ll change it :) Your mental health should always come first :)

Pairing: Min Yoongi x @emerson-moonchild, Min Yoongi x Reader

Word Counting: 6.2k

Synopsis: Min Yoongi and Emerson had a profound connection, so deep and supernatural that not even themselves understood it. However, nothing is pure bliss and flowers, when everything seems wrong and the connecting fades with time, then their love shall be proven with no otherwise.

A/N: Hey Em!! It’s finally here! I finished your oneshot + poem. Yes!! I mentioned The Chaos Club and paired them with BTS, but tried not to focus on them. Even though it finished with over SIX THOUSAND WORDS, I had to stop myself and not include random and unnecessary stuff, like interactions between characters without the starring roles presence (Yoongi and Emerson). Oh, before I continue, I changed the band’s name, it’s shitty, but I even wrote one verse of ‘Clarividencia’ (the BTL song mentioned). Hope it’s good! You deserve the best Em, or should I begin calling you ‘cutie pie’? Lol Sorry for my bad grammar and hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing :)

- x - x - x -

Min Yoongi took a long sip on his coffee, dark and, ironically, sugar-free. He enjoyed small ironies and always drank from them, maybe it worked as fuel to his personality. Despite from the cute face and artistic name, Yoongi enjoyed how people were amazed about the personality flashed: rebel, serious, sarcastic, a human with a stone cold heart pumping blood and rage to his organs.

Well, that's how outsiders saw him, reality was insanely different. Emerson knew it, she dig down so deep in Yoongi's emotions, finding a butter heart with so much love stored. Whilst drinking tea from a ridiculously adorned cup, she analyzed his soft expressions and occasional wrinkling nose whenever the bitterness hit his taste buds.

– Tea is just leaf juice, you know, right? - Yoongi asked, not glaring straight at Emerson.

– So what? It's delicious. - Emerson answered, taking a long and loud sip from the salmon and cream coloured cup, raising her pinky. - Coffee is just juice from beans. Water is juice from ice cubes.

– You are so british sometimes. - The man said and turned to look at Emerson, grinning slightly at her cuteness and rosy cheeks.

– Well, my identity backs you up on that. I'm british, living in London, drinking tea in a british coffee shop, listening to british news on television, presented by a british journalist, graduated in a british university, working for a british television broadcast channel. You are the foreigner here, love. - She said serious, but smiling, fingers stuck around the cup, steam warming her face.

– I know. Everything is so british. Even our songs are getting british. - Yoongi said and finished his cup of coffee with a short sip. - Yesterday Taehyung sang with british accent, even the verses in korean. We were surprised and Namjoon almost collapsed cuz one of the words sounded like 'yadong', which is porn in korean.

– I'm surprised one of your songs never mentioned 'yadong', since it's a rock band with pretty explicit musics. - She giggled remembering the first time Yoongi allowed her to listen 'Expensive Girl', their first song that exploded in SoundCloud, and as soon as Bangtan Lads made a career outside Korea, the track was deleted, only officially existing in personal files from every member.

– Don't you throw 'Expensive Girl' at me, it was Jin and Namjoon's idea to release it. - Yoongi said and raised one of his eyebrows slightly.

They were sitting on a table close to the window, sun shining bright outside, breaking through the typical whitish smoke accumulated all over London's atmosphere. The cafè was one of those overrated places, charging abusive prices for a cup of plain coffee, walls painted in a very dirty shade of cream, matching the fancy cups (the owner would never admit it, but Emerson knew they were bought in Walmart, part of a special edition paying homage to Duke William and Duchess Kate wedding), wooden floor well polished, and secondhand machines.

– Why do we insist in coming here anyways? There is nothing special or marvelously tasty, and the prices are salty, even for my rich ass. - Yoongi said, listening the annoying creek sound from the old, and possibly thriftshopped, brown chair.

– Because it's small, quiet and mainly because your fans won't flash boobs outside the window, since they would never imagine rockstar Min Yoongi having a coffee with his girlfriend in a place like that. - Emerson said, staring the street along with Yoongi.

– Yeah, that day we went to Starbucks was insane. Who would imagine someone is actually willing to lift the blouse and get arrested in exchange of an autograph? - Yoongi said and chuckled.

– That day was intense and weird. Her boobs were beautiful, though. Round and symmetrical. Your face tattooed on the nipples also looked good. - Emerson said and smirked in a dorky way, leading Yoongi to chuckle even louder. - Who would ever guess that your nose has the exact shape of a nipple? The fan was a genius, we got to admit.

Yoongi left all the weight from his upper body heavy on the chair back, staring at the ceiling and inhaling deeply, exhaling and repeating. He swallowed a puddle of spit pooling on his tongue and looked back at Emerson, finishing her tea with a short sip and folding back the napkin.

– Fame is so good sometimes. Don't take me wrong, I love making music, being rich and travelling around the globe, but the occasional harassment bothers a lot. - Yoongi said tapping his fingers on the table.

Emerson reached his arm and caressed lightly the skin covered with a sweatshirt. Yoongi inclined to the side, laying his head on table, feeling his girlfriend's fingers petting his black hair. Sometimes words weren't required, silence had a lot to say, loud, actions could hold even more significance.

– I love you, cutie pie. - Yoongi mumbled, cheeks squeezed against the wood, but words still bright and clear.

– I love you too, Yoongles. - Emerson replied, still feeling his smooth wires against her skin. Soft touches coming from both sides.

Whoever saw Min Yoongi up spitting on a microphone, saying raw words about political struggles, sex, mental health, life and a few songs based on stories, possibly thought of him as a rough person. No one would ever imagine his soft side, everyone always glanced over and focused on Suga, not Yoongi. The opposition between personality shown and stage name enchanted and intrigued.

Yoongi only allowed a few people to witness his actual personality.

Opening up and letting someone unknown in his personal space, oh it always represented a problem to Yoongi. A lonely soul that hardly had friends, only close to a few people. Bangtan Lads represented friendship and family.

Namjoon, Hoseok, Jungkook, Seokjin, Jimin and Taehyung flew from Korea to England with him after achieving worldwide success, for the sake of their fame moving to a place rather connected to alternative rock sounded as a clever change. Seven korean boys, carrying a bag with worn-out clothes, instruments and golden discs. Simplicity and luxe. Millions of fans, artists and new faces, yet Yoongi only felt truly comfortable around his bandmates.

After a few months living in England, conceding daily interviews and working like horses in new musics, Yoongi decided to try and join a dating app. Hoseok met a few women through Tinder, but happily found Taylor, friends with benefits at first, but a few months later his girlfriend. Witnessing one of the lads glad in a relationship inspired Yoongi, he even paid for Tinder Gold, regretting immensely after two dates and realizing sex could be good, but lacked connections. He needed to connect with that person, deeply to a point where her heartbeat felt like music.

Lonely and slowly giving up, Yoongi felt his heart flutter when Emerson appeared like a butterfly on his eventful yet boring life. Emerson emerged from a calm life working as music critic for Rolling Stones, to the love of Yoongi’s life and his main inspiration.

Everything began when Emerson went to work and received the task of interviewing a korean band. Apparently someone was sick and everyone else had more important stuff to do. She accepted and decided to use the original agenda, adding a few questions and studying every member.

Those who believe would say it was love at first sight, a connection between souls. Not even a word flew across the room, but Yoongi felt butterflies on his stomach and heart beating faster. For a single moment, he even considered the idea of end having a heart attack, because in years no one ever made him feel like that. Emerson lost words and suddenly, there were only Emerson and Yoongi in a room, not the whole Bangtan Lads.

That same day they had dinner together. Chatted, danced and traded cellphone numbers. Instead of going back to his place, Emerson took him to her home and they watched a movie.

For the first time in a almost a whole year living in England, Min Yoongi felt a connection.

- x - x - x -

– I swear that Zeus’s nutsack is the best position ever. - Namjoon said and threw the notebook in Jungkook’s direction, watching him grab it and read all lyrics written down.

– And why should we sing about that? - Seokjin asked raising one eyebrow, expression deadly serious, grabbing his can of Coca-Cola and sipping from the white straw. - I love doggy style, but would never write a whole goddamn song about it.

– I agree with Jin, the world doesn’t need to know what you and Bárbara are up to. I never wanted to know. - Taehyung said and nodded in Jin’s direction, whilst curling a lock of brown hair on his fingertip. - Honestly, I think you need vacations, your ideas are getting cornier, hornier and grossier.

– Let the man live, you guys! - Hoseok said and took the notebook off Jungkook’s hand, being punched in return. - I don’t even know how the fuck is Zeus’s Nutsack, but if our smartpants wants to write about his experience, allow him to do so. - He gazed down at the lyrics on his hands and chuckled. - Sorry Joon, but this time I’m with Tae and Jin, I won’t sing it.

– Please guys! We are an alternative rock band who has three songs about sex, we need something to bring sexy back during the concerts or fans will feel bored. It’s been two tours since Jimin showed his abs during ‘Clarividencia’ for the last time. People are commenting on Twitter. - Namjoon said and pouted.

– Let’s vote. It’s a democracy, isn’t it? - Yoongi asked, emerging from his big and fluff chair and bending down, his upper body supported by the elbows firmly planted on his skinny thighs. - I vote to burn that shit and never mention it again.

Everyone in the studio laughed, except for Namjoon, he shrunk on his spot and turned the page, sketching and randomly drawing circles, looking for inspiration in something other than intercourse. Yoongi watched everyone leave the studio and sat beside him.

– Remember when we first recorded a full-length album and korean managers wanted us to become a pop? They saw potential in every single one of us, but wanted a profitable artist. - Yoongi laid his head on Namjoon's shoulder. - Thankfully we took our content and moved to an indie recording studio. Can you possibly imagine us as Bangtan Sonyeondan? BTS not BTL? We discussed the idea, and the first sketch of success wasn't the right one. Maybe that song is like BTS, a bit more of thought and time may turn it into BTL.

– Are you saying that I should focus less on the movements itself? The song is pretty explicit, so should I use better metaphors? - Namjoon asked, still not looking at Yoongi, but the older man saw a sparkle run through his eyes, like a lightbulb shining with new ideas flowing through his synapses.

– We can work on it later, right now I want to prepare a surprise to Emerson. Can you believe we've been together for 5 years already?

– Yeah, half a decade. - Namjoon said, sighing deeply. - What do you have in mind?

– I'm gonna propose. - Yoongi smiled, a gummy grin with feelings running off the edge. - I've been planning it for two years now. When we completed our third anniversary, Emerson wrote a post on her personal Tumblr about our relationship, mentioning a few situations and funny moments from day to day. That same day I wanted to make a song, but it's easy, within hours I could finish a masterpiece and the effort would be almost none, so I decided to step up my game a little and began writing a book. Poems about her, our partnership, my feelings, everything.

– It's really thoughtful of you, Yoongs. - Namjoon wrote a few random lines on his notebook and turned to look at his friend. - And some folks still dare to claim you are not a romantic guy.

In fact, not even Yoongi saw himself as someone surfing on romance, usually writing about politics and books. Focusing in feelings and matters related to relationship never appealed. He became responsible for most tracks talking about issues of immigrating from Korea to England, emphasizing that fame changed how they saw him, but xenephobia still existed. Bangtan Lads received a Grammy Nomination for ‘Golden Borders’, a whole album shoving in people’s ears how shittily they treated immigrants, but still wished from heart to live in USA.

Using ‘Golden Borders’ as the soundtrack, Emerson made researches and released a documentary about immigrants, showing the ridiculous racism and highlighting double-standards in how right-wing parties treated foreigners victims of war and those just running from economic crisis, but still wealthy. She also reported how politicians like Donald Trump vertiginously changed the meaning of “immigrants”, not differing someone legal from the illegals.

Yoongi was possibly the proudest boyfriend ever accompaining his significant other during the premiere of ‘Invisible: The Truth on Immigrating’. Emerson invited a few famous people who immigrated from their home-countries, along with “common” folks.

Maybe he wasn’t the most romantic boyfriend ever, but still knew how to encourage Emerson. During their relationship, Yoongi convinced her of writing two books, one script for a movie, produce two documentaries and demand her own column on Rolling Stones site. Whilst she inspired and gave ideas to two albums which earned them four Grammy Awards, abetted him into trying something solo, and produce for different artists aside from BTL.

Even though both of them worked massively with media, Emerson and Yoongi never thought about conceding interviews as a couple. Daily invitations for appearances in shows together popped up on their e-mails, but without discussing it they already knew the answer: No.

When asked the reason, Emerson and Yoongi agreed to keep their personal life, well, private. They already shared a few cute moments on Instagram and Tumblr. Why would someone want to dig more into the relationship? Snooping isn't good.

- x - x - x -

– In conclusion. Communism wasn't planned for over populated countries, or planets. - Jade said and chopped in two the turkey sandwich she was holding, taking a bite from one half of it.

Emerson shrugged her shoulders and nodded, agreeing with Jade. Accompanied by Shmailah and Zariah, they were waiting for the reunion with some other journalists from Rolling Stones. The weekly meeting for coming up with ideas to articles, reportages and new ideas for photoshoots to use in scheduled interviews, was about to happen, but only a few professionals were already there.

Usually, the boss bought some goodies to complement and cheer every meeting, but that day in question had food and sandwiches provided by a new diner across the street. They were lolling on burgers, sandwiches and chips, also milkshakes and cherry fizzy drinks.

– My article about nigerian culinary is going smooth. - Zariah said and took a sip from the vanilla milkshake in front of her. - That restaurant I contacted to ask for primary informations, the old lady sent me fried yams. I’m totally sending her a Christmas card and gift, and candy canes for her grandchildren.

– Great! It's so nice when someone values our work and spoils us with small, yet adorable gifts. - Emerson said and dipped one chip in the ketchup sauce. She was sitting curled up, knees touching her chest, not very excited. - By the way, mine about Bollywood is almost done, but I need some new informations. Can you help me, Shims?

– It's not right to assume I know a lot about Bollywood, only based on my bangladeshi heritage… But yes I’m a fucking Bollywood nerd and would love to help. - Shmailah grinned perversely, caressing Emerson's cheek with love, noticing that she seemed a little down lately. - What's up, Em? You don't seem very happy, not even surrounded by your best friends and a whole lot of free junk food.

The parallel conversation between Zariah and Jade quit, suddenly all three pairs of eyes were gazing at Emerson, who felt her cheeks getting warmer. She took another chip and started talking, whilst shaking the potato around, like a wand, before taking a bite and continuing.

– I don't think Yoongi loves me anymore. - She sniffed, swallowing the growing knot in her throat with chips. - We've been together for five years now, but in the last few months he's been a little distant. I know, I know, Yoongi sometimes loses himself inside his own brain, but not distant like that. Far, you know? We used to be so connected, now that connection seems a little faded.

– Oh Emerson. I don't see that happening, ever. - Jade said, bending over the table to grab her fries-less hand. - Yoongi seems so passionate about you. Whenever we go out in group, he only has eyes for you. Like, when Yoongi notices you barely had the opportunity to speak, he always tries to bring you into the conversation. Jimin already witnessed your boyfriend getting distracted and spend several minutes staring at his lockscreen, which is you.

– Totally agree with Jade. Not even dead Yoongi would stop loving you, he would probably find his way back into our spiritual plan only to make sure you are aware of his love. - Shmailah said, watching a shy tear run down Emerson's rosy cheek

– It's so complicated. In the past two months he spent days without showing up at our place, and not caring to tell where he is. Whenever he is around though, the office's chair receives most attention, since Yoongi locks himself there and if I try to get in, he scouts me outside saying it's something related to work. - Emerson tried to swallow the knot again, but now not even milkshake worked, and she sobbed. - Why couldn't I see if it is about work? When he was recording and producing his solo mixtape, I slept on the studio's couch for four days straight, trying to support him. I'd never do anything to ruin whatever he has been working on. We had coffee today at a cafè, but the experience felt so shallow. Small, verging insignificant, talk.

– I’m so sorry to hear that, baby. What if he’s been working in something for you? Like a gift and doesn’t want you to see and spoil the surprise? - Jade asked, raising one eyebrow. - You shouldn’t conclude always the worse, sometimes it is just something you can’t put immediately put together. Consider it and give time to time.

The conversation silenced in the moment everyone else invited to the meeting showed up. Seven other journalists gathered, including the boss, whose appeared holding another tray full of cookies and cupcakes.

– For what it seems like, that diner also has bakery goodies. - Jackie, also know as The Boss, said pushing the tray up on table. - I love so fucking much my job. Whoever don’t can totally stand up and leave, more cupcakes and chips for me, há!

- x - x - x -

Emerson had no time to think about her situation with Yoongi during the afternoon. Work consumed every disposable piece of brain cell, fulfulling a whole week of articles for her column and completing one reportage about self-made millionaires.

However, after leaving the building and heading home, the empty apartment made her shatter out and cry, sobbing and feeling a sudden urge to destroy something. Not only a random object like a glass cup, but something stiffier and harder to fix, like herself. In years working, dating Yoongi and being friends with so many great people, she never felt that need again, honestly, considering the idea of hurting her own body sounded weirdly appealing, after so much improvement, going back felt like a failure.

Maybe the past years left her brain so occupied with every new information, that negative thoughts had no actual space, a little tab in the corner that was muted by Yoongi’s voice. Now, without his presence and strong connection, Emerson silenced all other tabs, only listening to the one where haters were loud, depression and self-harm spoke freely.

Years of self-improvement faded within a pinch, a thin drop of blood coming from her thigh stained the beige pants, and Emerson left the small, yet painful, piece of skin go from between her long nails.

Weak and sobbing, she reunited all forces and stood up from the front door, walking slowly in bedroom’s direction, wishing only to lay down, curl up inbetween the duvets and sleep, ignoring any bad temptations, observing them disappear along with conscience.

Old monsters, some she saw as teenage ghosts, showed up. Emerson felt stupid for harming herself over such a small reason. Independent woman, smart, successful, amazing close friends, and yet the major breakdown in years was happening because of a man. What kind of mean joke could that be?

She wished so hard to pull herself together again, living happily and not getting to precipitated conclusions over small situations. That's it, maybe she was only overreacting. What if she is not? What if the connection between them is, indeed, fading? What if? What? What?

What was their mistake?

What was her mistake?

Was there a mistake?

Cruel trick her own brain was playing. Blackjack with sanity. Poker with happiness. What did she had to bet? Of course, Emerson conquered a lot in years, how much of that could she lose? Golden Globe? Literature prizes? All had her name embedded in wood. Friendships? Weekly night-outs proved that their bond didn't change within years. Why then only Yoongi seemed to slip through her fingers? The only thing she would miss the most, fading like smoke on the water.

Sometimes, the smartest, strongest, toughest people can go through menaces with delight and peace. Though, their inner monsters exist, and can seem small for whoever witnesses from outside, but a spider is a huge matter to a fly. Struggles and fears, perspective changes them.

Judging someone's feelings and fright isn't up to us.

- x - x - x -

That night Yoongi meant to crash down at the studio, but Namjoon showed up close to midnight, accompanied by his girlfriend, a small and chubby woman with wild brown hair, and also followed by Jimin and Jade, Jin and DiLayla. Their Instagram revealed that everyone had dinner, sponsored by a fancy restaurant trading food for audience.

– Why is everyone here grating me with the grace of your presence? Is there a party happening in my studio and I'm not invited? - Yoongi asked sarcastically, saving the new poem written before anyone could ruin it.

– Cut it out, Yoongi. - Jade said taking her thick beige coat off, leaving it on the black couch. - Don't you think you've been spending way too much time working? Stuck in your office or studio?

Her tone seemed mysterious, as if she meant something more than what was actually voiced. Yoongi felt intrigued watching everyone getting comfortable. Were they intervening?

– What is that? An intervention? I don't do drugs. - Yoongi joked, only him laughing, everyone else seemed morosed.

– See Yoongs, we were having dinner and suddenly Emerson became a subject of discussion. - Jin spoke trying to look chill, but very tense. - Jade mentioned that Emerson has been feeling a bit… Ignored lately. Bárbara and DiLayla agreed...

– Let me speak, love. - DiLayla touched Jin's shoulder and stood up. - Emerson mentioned to us that you’ve been working way too much, even at home, and she thinks you don't love her anymore. Basically, she feels like your connection is slowly vanishing.

– Namjoon told us what you've been planning for proposing to her, and honestly, I will take note and use a few of your ideas someday. - Jimin gave a side grin to Jade, watching how she blushed and continued. - But maybe, just maybe, you focused so much on something to her, that kind of forgot her? Not literally, we know you love Emerson with every beat of your heart, your maeum [마음, something like feelings], but you know, you can't starve a man before feeding him…

– What? Emerson is feeling neglected? - Yoongi asked, chocked and feeling his heart breaking.

Yoongi turned the chair around when tears verged to fall, not wanting to face his friends whilst crying. Jin, Jimin and Namjoon only saw him emotionally shattered in two situations. Feeling raw and vulnerable always made him uncomfortable, mainly being stared by people he had no intimacy, like his friends’s girlfriends, they were cool, but not close enough to watch him with guards down.

The young man hated this aspect of him. He despised how inadvertently his mind let things pass without noticing, facts around that could vastly affect his life, personal or professional. Having Emerson always picking up on him about unhealthy habits made it easier to don't die after spending three days living off hard liquor and olives, and overworking.

He wasn't someone mindless, or easily distracted, but Emerson helped him to focus in more than one thing at once, like working, but still resting enough, or channeling the best from every situation. Hiding something from her, avoided the warnings. Without realizing, Yoongi evicted his girlfriend from working aspects of him.

Maybe Jimin was right. He focused so much in doing something for Emerson, that he forgot to live with Emerson.

Goddamn it, Yoongi!

Namjoon looked around and politely asked everyone to leave the studio for a moment. He pulled a chair and sat beside Yoongi, caressing his trembling shoulder.

– I don't think I ever saw you crying over something so simple to solve. - Namjoon whispered, still petting his friend's shoulder. - You know nothing is lost and what to do is actually easy. The solution may ruin a huge surprise, but it is going to soothe a small injure caused by itself.

– What if Emerson has been considering to break up? Oh fuck, Joon! What if I ruined it all? - Yoongi used his sleeves to dry off his tears. - What if everything is so lost that not even all poems I wrote could fix it?

– See, a few weeks ago me and Barbs were talking about couples that gathered together along the past years. - Namjoon said and stopped caressing Yoongi's shoulder. - First, Hoseok and Taylor, then you and Emerson, Jade and Jimin, Di and Jin, me and her, Zariah and Jungkook, and Shims with Tae. I think we created an equilibrium in universe. Everyone is such a great and right match that if at some point one these couples break up, a new Big Bang would happen, cuz the mutual decision could ruin the universal balance.

“I'm not being far-fetched, I swear in the name of Stephen Hawking. - Namjoon spoke and made a cross in his chest. - Sometimes a long-term relationship can go through challenges. Two different people sharing a life of experience cannot live without occasional fights, bickering or arguing. We are human, even the most rational ones can be stubborn. All you have to do is insist. Although, it seems like Emerson loves you as much as you love her, so the only struggle here is distance.”

– You are right, but I’m still feeling like a sucker. - Yoongi snuffled, cleaning the coryza from his runny nose. - But as Emerson already told me, I should learn from my mistakes, then use it on an inspirational song, making my fans wander on what actually gave me the idea to it. - He grinned passionately and turned his cellphone screen on, staring at the lockscreen: a stunning picture of Emerson in Japan, smiling, using a flower crown and surrounded by cherry blossoms. - I love her so much.

Next thing processed by cameras around the building was a very hurry Yoongi grabbing his stuff, leaving a group of friends behind. A determined face, quick steps and then driving fast through the parking lot, tyres screaming like Robert Plant in the beginning of ‘Immigration Song’.

- x - x - x -

Emerson woke up in a startle after hearing the front door banging loudly. Still sleepy, she had no energy to stand up and check what was happening. Sleep whilst crying is exhausting, you wake up psychologically weary. After a few minutes and heavy steps, she heard someone calling her name, more specifically, Yoongi calling chanting her name.

She stood up, bringing one of the duvets along, and walked to the room, where Yoongi was crouched down, sitting on his calfs, typing something on the laptop he settled on the coffee table. When the man side glanced Emerson, he got up on his feet and hugged her, feeling his heart shatter with the small, yet present, dot of blood staining her beige pants.

– I’m so sorry. Forgive me, please… - Yoongi whispered, trying not to cry again, not before actually accomplishing his new goal for the night. Also, his mind was worried about the blood on her leg. - Did you hurt yourself, baby? Oh fuck, did you?

– Why? What did you do? - Emerson questioned feeling his arms around her, resisting before letting the duvet down and hugging him back. - I pinched myself a little too hard, but I swear it wasn't serious. Sorry...

– I was distant and absent from your life, and now you are convinced I don’t love you anymore. - He swallowed the knot on his throat, still trying not to cry. - It’s so dumb, because the only thing I love more than you is my music, but you are the inspiration for my work, so you are my music… And I made you hurt yourself.

– No, please Yoongles, it was a small relapse. Not worth of a fuzz. It won't happen again. - She felt his uneven heart beat against her ear, touching his chest. - Who told you that? Who told you how I was feeling? - Her arms quit hugging him, a tension running through both bodies.

– I don’t know, today I was finishing a project for you in my studio and Namjoon, Jin and Jimin showed up, they were accompained by their girlfriends. They told me how you were feeling and made me realize how far I’ve been, and how cold I acted earlier. - He seemed uncomfortable revealing his sources of information, but the truth would end up appearing anyways.

– Wait a second… - Emerson dried the single tear left running down her cheek and stared Yoongi. - Have you been working in something for me? Like, a surprise? A gift?

Yoongi shrugged his shoulders and nodded. His mind was hazy and the urge to just kneel and propose to Emerson without previous background was slowly taking over his guts. He couldn’t predict her reaction, since every brain cell were occupied on finding the right words. Fortunately, the woman grinned shyly and blushed, gazing down on the laptop.

They sat down in front of the open laptop, his arms around her shoulders. Yoongi sighed and pressed the ‘enter’ key, watching Power Point opening and a clear book cover appeared, mint coloured like his hair.

The book Yoongi worked for two years was almost ready. Whilst looking for good names and aesthetics a japanese word loomed from his pre-teenage memories: ishin-denshin (以心伝心) and his book title fitted like a glove. A compilation of poems and the last one, in Yoongi’s humble oppinion, the most majestic one was named after the piece itself. He planned on proposing whilst reading to Emerson.

– You asked me nothing, but I feel the need to explain what’s in front of you. - Yoongi cleared his throat, watching Emerson’s eyes scanning the screen. - My gift for our fifth anniversary was a book. I’ve been planning it for two years now, and in the last two or three months I reached the final details, which were cover and last poem. I never allowed you to see it, because I wanted it to be a surprise. I guess old habits never die, because during the time spent working on that book, I isolated myself from you and gave a wrong impression. Sorry.

– It's so beautiful, even though I don't even know what the title means. - Emerson said and sobbed, smiling through tears. - If the whole book is in japanese, then it would be good if you taught me how to read.

– Oh, cutie pie. I love you so much. - Yoongi snorted and kissed the top of Emerson's head, whose felt so loved, more than she felt in months. - It's, indeed, in japanese. Ishin-denshin, it's a kind of interpersonal communication, unspoken, but the understanding is still mutual. Something like, heart transmits what mind thinks. That word was a trend back in my pre-teenage years, never thought I would use it.

Emerson turned to look Yoongi. His eyes were watering, but no tears falling. She smiled, happily and kissed him. In months, they kissed plenty of times, but none of them had the same meaning as this one. It wasn't sexy or teasingly, if we are going to be honest, the kiss was salty with tears and, well, coryza. Emerson and Yoongi were slowly reconnecting.

The kiss stopped when their lungs claimed for air. After a few smooches, they got back to stare the screen.

– I love you so much, Yoongles. - Emerson felt a magnetic force making her back look for support on his chest, diminishing the space between them. - I know it's dumb, but I firmly believe we are soulmates, there is a supernatural connection between us, and considering the idea of losing you… it made me so desperate and sad. I know I would keep living, but my soul would never feel completed again.

– I know baby, I feel the same way, but instead of voicing my feelings, why don't you read a few poems I wrote? -Yoongi leaned and wrapped one of his arms around her shoulders again, smiling passionately whilst seeing skinny knees touching the chest, covered by a fluff light pink sweatshirt with ‘Treat People With Kindness’ written in a plain white font. He remembered the day they bought the piece of clothing after a Harry Styles concert in London. What a fun night, hanging around with him after the event. As Yoongi said earlier, being famous has its perks.

Emerson felt immersed in deep feelings, some of them not even voiced during their relationship. Yoongi wrote small poems about every aspect of her: from her cute moles, to how he loved petting her hair before sleeping, or how her voice was sweet like honey and face cute as a mochi. Everything, he wrote inspired by moments they shared, like the trip to Japan during spring, or New Year’s Eve in China. The first time Emerson tried kim chi and how her nose puckered when the spicy taste finally hit her taste buds. When she first attended to Bangtan Lads concert and fanchanted along with ARMYs, taking a few of them to backstage. Travelling to Brazil and messaging Bárbara instead of using Google Translator.

They lived so many precious moments together. Yoongi made sure over 100 of them became art through emotional poems.

The last one, named ‘Ishin-denshin’. She took a deep breathe, still sobbing with happy tears running down her face. The silence only broken by occasional snorts and chuckles. However, Yoongi was getting more tense, staring at her eyes.

Ishin-denshin

Once upon a time in the far land of England

A woman gave birth to love impersonated in flesh, blood and gold

No one knew how important she was and how lucky they were

Until chaos from Korea arrived and trapped her in maeum.

Connections can cross the border of space and time

Voices and signs

Touches and sights

You and me, hands holding tight.

Love is a matter of ishi-denshin

Ability to communicate from mind to heart

Open up on a gaze

Not a sound to be heard from mouth.

Thankfully chaos and peace mingle and complete each other

Yin and Yang united by their differences

Perfecting what was already sculpted with dust and water

Remodeling and always improving, resulting in brand new peculiarities.

Love and connections are the result of fighting

Nothing good comes easy

Nothing easy is good

Once you find balance, universe rewards you with love.

Continents separated us for most part of our days on earth

Wandering uneven, looking for the half that best fit our soul

Happily odds were and allowed what resulted in balance

Only imagining myself without you, even my brain in plain conscience feels afoul.

Don’t you dare saying you are not good enough

Cutie pie, you are unique like flakes of snow

Every drop has its own shape

Unique, you never see two looking the same.

My heartbeat is in sync with yours

Slow like when we sleep

Or when we kiss after a long period apart, tumbling in ribcage, rhythm vigorous

I thank everyday for finding my soulmate in a sweetheart like you.

Stay for as long as you want

I feel lucky only by having in my life as a constant

Luckily it won’t change much

When I finally make you a Min like me, everything mine will be ours.

When Emerson finished reading ‘Ishin-denshin’, Yoongi didn’t quite gave her time to think broader and stood up, pulling the woman together. Standing side by side, he kneeled in front of Emerson and proclaimed, among tears and sobs, holding one hand whilst looking for something in his back pocket.

– Emerson, after all those words you’ve read, would you give me the honour of becoming my Mrs.Min?

– The only possible answer is yes.

- x - x - x -

P:S I purple you <3

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