#maybe this is a me problem tho idk

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

Lunch meat companies really made the smartest business decision for keeping customer loyalty with their packaging. It doesn’t matter which brand is slightly cheaper than the others because if I want my Tupperware cabinet to not be a clutter I have to buy the same brand I always do

#I mean I could also buy the stuff in bags. but I love getting a free container with the meat #maybe this is a me problem tho idk

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i use dissociation more than anything i’ve ever learned in my 10yrs of therapy

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #dissociation is my favorite coping mechanism #that and avoidance #i love avoiding my problems until i can’t take it anymore and have a full blown breakdown about it #it’s easier to go through life ignoring everything that’s bothering you until it all just explodes one day #idk maybe that’s just me tho #right after every breakdown i feel like shit tho cuz i usually freak out everyone around me but i don’t know how else to cope #even tho i’ve had 10yrs of therapy nothing else worked for me #so dissociation it is babyyyy

[frankenfossil]

you're never going to be the most popular magical girl when your colour is orange

cassidy from sleepless domain

#i love orange #and i love creepy powers! #and i love cassidy's design the most of all the characters!!!!!! #tho i did not draw her outfit particularly accurately!!!! #sleepless domain #sd #art by ira #fanart #orange and blue #image description in alt #tarot #tagged that bc i was vibing w two of swords for composition even tho the symbolism i dont think works very well for her #you could force an interpretation that matches but nah. thatd be boring i think. i just like the pretty #i don't know which is the biggest problem when I try to scan coloured pencil drawings... #the scanner? the driver? me and the settings i have used? #they never look right and i don't really know how to fix it in gimp either #or any other software (that i don't currently have) #ah well #might try photographing things with my camera instead #idk #and NOT my phone camera like the nona drawing #my proper camera. but it's so many extra stepppppps sigh and i should do it when the sun's out but it's 10pm #whatever. posting now #if i ever take nicer photos of my drawings maybe i will post them but in the meantime have another picture with weird saturation levels #swords suit #tarot other #two of swords

[bigsharkguy]

if not yaoi why autism x adhd???

#persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 ryuji #persona 5 yusuke #persona 5 ryuji x yusuke #ryukita #is that their ship name #i cant find anything of them help #i need more ships outside of joker x anyone PLEASE #p5 has a problem withnot giving characters outside of joker and anyone much of a dynamic #like. futaba and yusuke + ryuji and ann r the only actual like friendships outside of joker i can think of #maybe i have shit media literacy tho idk #i love these guys tho #the two biggest losers in different ways #yaoi #i would think their ship name is ryusuke cuz. it makes sense #idk i had to look at the SHIPPING WIKI to find anything for them #and even then they literally only had the ship name #i wouldnt even think this wld be a rarepair like theyre two main characters #idk maybe i just dont know how to interact with fandoms #theyre the sillies and i wont let anyone take that from me #exploding

[milkweedman]

Hi, you said in your bio that you're chronically ill. I was wondering if you had any tips for knitting with chronic pain (assuming that's your flavour of chronic illness)? Or do you know anyone who could give me advice?knitting/sewing is my sanity-saver.

I use compression gloves, only knit with specific weights of yarn (the ones that are the least painful for me), and try to take frequent breaks, which for me looks like switching hobbies every 30 minutes or so (knitting to spinning to knitting, etc). I also do my best to be very gentle on my joints when i can, altho i honestly rarely have the choice at work.

Personally i have joint problems and migraines, so thats what im correcting for/trying not to make worse. Helpful advice probably varies depending on what youre trying to correct for. Really my only general advice is "when it starts to hurt, try to stop" and "if possible, save the painfully difficult stuff for when youre doing well, and make the easier stuff your usual work"

If anyone who sees this has got other tips please feel free to comment them

#i havent knit socks in a while and i realized my last wrist and thumb issue flare up was the last time i did socks #and also right now when im doing socks again #which is making me think maybe my wrists are better than i thought generally speaking but knitting just destroys them #socks specifically i tend to zone out with and ignore pain signals #idk what to do with that info tho. i guess knit fewer socks :( #anyway there may be some things like that which you can save for when youre feeling comparatively well #but chronic pain isnt actually my issue and i can and will work thru pain to the continual degradation of my joints #so rly the joints getting worse is what my problem is #so i dont know how much if any of this is helpful to you #sorry im replying right before i need to leave for work and thru a migraine so. might try and think of something more helpful and update #my answer #chronic illness

[lord-squiggletits]

Speaking of Tyrest. A lot of people forget that he treated Pharma with absolute disdain, not only using him as a test subject for a clearly painful mass murder machine, but talking to Pharma like he saw him as nothing but some henchman to order around that was nothing more than a 'diseased cripple' if Tyrest hadn't come to rescue him.

Like it really is an interesting background dynamic with some curious implications, but when you look at fandom posts from around that issue/the years after, for some reason people just saw "Pharma worked with Tyrest" and concluded Pharma is a card carrying bigot ksjfnskxkd. Like yeah Pharma didn't do anything to stop Tyrest but it seems his main beef with the Autobots was with Ratchet in particular and maybe a general disdain for his ex-comrades. As well as continuing to hate Decepticons which like, not even the "good Autobots" are immune to (even in Pharma's introduction, First Aid says in his journal something like "yeah we all hate Decepticons, but Pharma REALLY hates them"). And despite what fandom likes to construe there's really no evidence in IDW1 that Autobots and Decepticons are different "races" or "types" of Cybertronians, so Pharma hating Decepticons really isn't a bigotry/robot racism thing. And instead probably has something to do with, idk, the 4 million year long galaxy-spanning blood feud war, or maybe being blackmailed and tortured into insanity by the Biggest and Most Decepticon-y of Decepticons.

Tyrest treated Pharma like trash, the other Decepticons working for Tyrest (how come no one ever brings that up btw) also hated him, so if anything it seems that Pharma was more of a rogue element only staying with Tyrest bc he was his best option and probably had no way to even escape.

I'm glad that at least in recent years the fandom has acquired a keen reading eye and good taste to finally recognize Pharma as the (accidentally) complex character he is instead of making him some posh, racist Starscream clone SHSJDGSGDH

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #yeah i'm apologisting again i guess my mental health is somewhat okay again dkdkkxckkddkd #(my followers seeing me post about pharma) nature is healing #there's also that line where pharma says 'maybe i can help' and skids is like #'fuck off and hope we don't beat you to death after this is over' #they didnt know that pharma was a test subject of the killswitch but wow #that's prolly one of the most out of pocket moments of the story that ive never seen anyone mention #honestly that moment is why i think JRO didnt intend pharma to be That Deep #i feel like that sort of 'not even other autobots like him' treatment is something #that comes up a lot in JRO's villain writing. or like asshole behavior towards some characters #is just plot events proceeding as usual. nothing to see just villains getting their due #tho tbh pharma's character in general suffers from the problem that he's so closely related to a main/major characyer #that it wouldve made way more sense for him to be written in earlier #so all his connections w/ ratchet and the plot had to be established retroactively #also speaking of 'asshole behavior excused bc it's towards a villain' #all those times when people are like (fucking amazing piece of medical research by pharma) #'then he started murdering his patients. what a piece of shit' #like idk it could have been intentional but imo all my readings of pharma were not really intended by JRO #and i'm fully just headcanoning and constructing theories on my own #like pharma was simply not important enough or a major enough character to get fleshed ojt #so basically we get enough pieces of him to establish continuity and a general timeline of his life and thats all

[mirrorhouse]

.

#maybe i am a little annoyed or. whatever over stuff i put some effort into getting right clicked and saved and cropped and posted on twitter #or pinterest or wherever #even tho its not really '''art'''' technically so ? am i allowed to feel like that? idk #it feels silly to get frustrated over.. screenshots and gifs and little mods i never even published #but things do take time to make and then seeing them posted by someone who talks about how much they like thembut not where they found them #or who put that effort into making them......... ahh #And. because i dont know how im supposed to feel im definitely not gonna roll up to people like 'hey i made this credit me now' because #i tell myself who cares its not that big of a deal. but then it is . but it isnt. #i have bigger problems but when its late and my brains getting empty i think too much about nothing #★

[wantonlywindswept]

me: hmm who to romance who to romance

me: gets to the party scene

me: wait why is everyone all ready for sex now I BARELY KNOW YOU

#bg3 #ace problems #i know bg3 is all about catering to the people #infamous bear scene made that obvs #but like #i need a romance first! backstory! history! #it should take more work than this to enter a relationship with companions! #why yes i did romance fenris in da2 why do you ask #also kaidan in mass effect including no romance in me2 #look i'm too ace for this shit #anyway can't get over gale talking about his ex all the time #(tho he did compare me to his cat so point in his favor) #so i'm def gonna go karlach and maybe?? halsin? #cos apparently there's poly #larian how am i supposed to decide if i wanna sleep with halsin when i've said .5 words to the man #honestly #maybe i've missed out on a bunch of companion interactions?? #idk man #EDIT TAGS: OH APPARENTLY YOU CAN'T SLEEP WITH HALSIN YET #okay that makes more sense now #edit again: ALSO WHY IS 'SHARING SOME WINE' AN INVITATION TO SEX #LARIAN PLEASE I'M WAY TOO ACE FOR THIS #this party is a minefield #EDIT 3 THERE IS NOT NECESSARILY SEX AT THIS POINT IN TIME

[moonshine999]

Lucemond

#house of the dragon #lucerys velaryon #aemond targaryen #aemond x lucerys #a very very intriguing ship #it does have many problems tho lmao #but it’s fun #not that describing the entirety of team green. #the angst potential is so real #don’t know if I like this moodboard #maybe it looks a bit too basic idk #or it’s just not mooding properly #oh well #lucemond moodboards #burn for me ; i'd drown for you : adjacent

[bunnihearted]

🏥🦷

#damn my teeth on my left side reallyyyyy fkn hurt #last night it started hurting so bad i couldnt fall asleep #i took some regular over the counter pain pills nd they brought down the pain a bit #so it at least didnt hurt as bad as it did first #but now after sleeping a few hours it still hurts :// #idk what to do... bc i've googled but it is like impossible for me to know what this is. could be anything rlly #nd w physical health stuff im not as terrified bc i can just go to the ER. when i was there it only cost $15 lol #but dental care is so fkn expensive i dont even have that in my account #anyway. i could get an 'urgent appointment' which i get financial aid for... probably. thats the thing. it's not 100% certain #idk what i should do bc like i could wait it out nd see if it'll pass nd then wait on my appt the 6th may #or maybe i should call my dentists nd ask them what they think nd if they can give me an urgent appt.. #i hate calling tho. i know that sounds ridiculous esp when im dealing w pain but my avpd makes it so so hard for me. i'd almost rather not #if i was smart nd normal thats what i would do. just call them nd see what they decide for me. maybe i'll wait nd see nd call tmrw.... #nd idk abt the pain. like it rlly hurts but it isnt extreme i think.. but when i press one tooth it hurts a lot nd makes me worried it's #dying 💀 nd like u can actually die from teeth pain nd complications... nd infections nd stuff. it's scary af 😭 #idk if my tooth is dying nd i need to contact a dentist rn or if its smth that can wait for a bit #i mean if i had a job nd a salary i'd book an appt for tmrw nd get it checked but i have to discuss w myself bc i cant afford lol #ugh this is the reason im terrified of dental problems. the pain is awful nd theres nothing u can do if you're poor #my head keeps spinning idk what i should do abt this 😭 i csnt make up my mind. just want it to go away on its own but i know it wont #nd it hurts so that i can barely sleep or eat or concentrate. so i rlly dont know..... #oh if only things were easy

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing about the body's response to not eating is when you're so hungry you feel like you're gonna throw up. this does not make it easier to eat food actually

#literally thanks it did not help #my body sucks so bad at eating #i literally am not hungry until im so hungry i feel sick?? #also #even when i remember to eat on a schedule all food makes me queasy i literally cannot win #maybe the so hungry im about to puke thing is just a me problem idk but it is NOT helpful #im also starting a medication that i cant eat anything for two hours before or after that's going to mess up my digestion today 😊 #and make me feel awful #but its an alternative to eye surgery so hopefully it will be worth it #but i havent even started it yet and im so queasy just bc i didnt really eat breakfast #its not like i had Nothing i had three bites of cheerios and a coffee.... #i would have eaten the cheerios but i was late for an appointment lol #anyway #my digestion sucks and i already cut out gluten and almost all dairy 😤 #wtf else is thereee #also somehow magically even tho all food makes me sick and i barely eat regular meals i am putting on weight??? #lowkey wondering if im diabetic or something bc this is not normallll

[todayisafridaynight]

I’ve seen you say that u like that mine is a mystery til the end of yakuza 3 when asked abt a minedai saga i completely agree , so i feel like it would be better if kiwami 3 did happen the saga would be unlockable agter u finish the game

//sagely nodding// you get it.....

#snap chats #it'd be so funny playing as the antagonist after the game tho lmao #on that note tho i always forget mine is. technically an antagonist #LIKE I KNOW HE'S AN ANTAGONIST BUT it just doesn't feel the same as the other antags #maybe its cause he starts to do heinous shit only after daigo goes under. in that case it's just really funny #idc if we all seen the joke its still funny that Area Man Makes It Everyones Problem Pookie Wont Wake Up #to go back on topic tho. itd be so funny flvkejlLVKEJLV #at the very least they could adapt mine's character story if not all of them yk like i wouldnt EXPECT all of them. despite my selfish ass #idk. if not the rggo stories at all i dont know what a hypothetical mine saga would consist of #cause its veyr true i like mine being a mystery and to add on to that i kind of like what we see as is #maybe its just the thought of playing as him is weirding me out. not that i wouldnt kill to play as him of course #maybe its just cause thatd mean mine became playable as part of the a main game before daigo himself vjaKLVJAELKJ #AND I SAY THAT EXCLUDING GAIDEN CAUSE THAT'S DLC AND SIDE CONTENT #tho ig you colud argue a hypothetical mine saga WOULD be side content but it'd be story-relevant side content yk what i mean #im rambling. anyways. i just want the gay bar seen in 4k mk thank you.

[starrynightsxo]

Did I read 30 chapters in one day? Yes. Did I then leave that book for a week? Yes. Why? Because I am literally just a girl in the world.

#a girl in the world #i am literally just a girl #just a girl #sorry guys but this is me #i forget to post #i love posting tho #i dont really post my thoughts but idk maybe you guys needed to know #men dont understand us #girl problems #go on girl #girls rule #its giving sorry #but still we slay #idk what else to tag this with #moots pls just like this or ill cry I need validation #ill shut up now #sorry

[duskbats]

eden became a vampire & moved to moonwood mill for the drama.

#ts4 #the sims 4 #simblr #ts4 gameplay #ts4 legacy #*eden james #alright so little whatever in the tags #i REALLY wanna play but i have little motivation #so this is all i've done so far #and it makes me sad #but yeah to preface #i don't have the motivation to dress eden up in their usual style rn #so she basically became a vampire #idk how yet maybe i'll go back to that #and changed their style to fit in more with the locals #they're not being very subtle about being a vampire tho #but she lives for the drama #so she's there to cause problems #and hopefully eventually fall in love with a cute werewolf ladie #the whole enemies to lovers trope #u love to see it #ts4 vampires #*v legacy: g1

[orcelito]

Went skimming thru late trimax For Reasons, got caught up reading the Legato fight, realized things about the fight that I never had before & went WOW, I kind of want to write an analysis post right now!

Felt the same kind of insanity grip me, however momentarily, that fueled all my analysis posts however many months ago. Too tired to actually word things coherently right now, but...

I May or may not have a full(ish?) analysis of the Legato & Vash fight a la style of This post analyzing the Trigun: Multiple Bullets fight that got unexpectedly kind of popular. People seemed to really appreciate that one, & I even had some ppl saying it could be cool if I did that for others?

So. Legato fight. Maybe. Feel free to remind me later if u see no mention of it again for over a week lol

#speculation nation #ive been wanting to go back into reading the manga again #ive only slowly (VERY slowly) been puttering along with where i am in my fic #for research purposes with the fic. #i do want to go back through the manga bc i STILL havent done a full reread of it #ive just reread so many different parts of it for assorted research that im probably getting to some 10 or so reads total lmao #i wanna reread it in full tho front to back to sort out any stray details and remember any timeline things i might have slightly skewed. #the problem with reading the manga though. is that every fucking time i look at it. i am consumed by a drive to research EVERY little thing #so me reading turns into 'hm thats interesting. that reminds me of this thing that i know happens in volume 8. let me just check that now--' #and i end up so dreadfully distracted every damn time. bc i end up with all my wires crossed and my attention pointing a million ways #it's exhausting. and so i havent been reading the manga outside of random research dives. #im very good at that. i know every volume of the manga and can find Anything within 1 or 2 mins (at the Most) #which is also kind of the problem lol. fingers in too many pies. so many things to think about. #if i get back into Actually rereading the manga tho you can bet ur ASS ill find more things to make posts about #every time i open up the manga i find new things that i could analyze. #i just havent. bc i dont have time. but. ykno what. maybe i Could get back into it... #remind me later. this is one of my favorite fucking fights with my favorite Fucking panels #and i realized smth about the shit Vash is doing that was making me lose my MINDDDD #later tho. ive been sleep deprived today. and it is time for me to rest. #& yea yea ITNL is still the main focus. but idk i have such a mind for details and i remember So many things about the manga #i wanna show that off to people again. and thus. Analyses!!! :D #later. goodnight for now

[addoves]

staring directly at my incoming homework assignment as i draw luke instead

#.text #his asteria outfits did NOT have to be so good btw #if one of them at LEAST isnt in abyss remake.... 😒 #i hope they give them legacy costumes too. hang on let me think of a lineup for them #im not sure abt natalia but id Love to see her in leons outfit. idk why but i would. shed rock it #anise as elize xillias or rita. bc she would be a good rita. #guy as asbel or. rokurou. #jade as eizen or ludger i cant choose. either is funny. i honestly dont think anything fits fits him. u could put him in like literally any #one elses costume and hed look funny in it. cant explain that #tear as. hm. mint or raine. the healers. but also bc they look professional and to ME tear is a professional gal #luke as judas sorry i decided that ages ago. literally forever and ever ago. i dont even know who he is his design is just rlly good #tho i think yuri or lloyd would be funny too. aka lukes besties #oh my god i forgot asch #any of the traitor characters would be funny for him i think. maybe richard #the problem with asch's costumes i think. or costume. is that i think itd be the FUNNIEST thing if you gave him like a joke costume #and he had to keep it on for the rest of the game. the devs wouldnt allow it but itd be funny. #anyway thats my list ill be emailing it to bandai namco soon