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watcher0033 · 11 months
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Mega thread of AO3 on the DDoS Attack situation:
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unlikecharlie · 11 months
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every comment or post that I see yelling about sympathy, empathy, and reminding us that those people are humans with lives and families only makes me wish they're dead even harder. matter of fact, I hope they all suffer as much as possible and then go to hell and suffer even more. there
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andthebeanstalk · 8 months
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the average person doesn't expect you to be a perfect ethical consumer, that's not possible for the vast majority of us. but what youre saying is it's better to do nothing at all and choose the worst possible options (sweat shops, overseas shipping waste, idea/product theft, all wrapped up in SHEIN) than to put even the tiniest effort in where you can.
[they are referring to this post]
What I said was "some people are doing literally everything they can to survive and have no extra bandwidth to spend extra time and money on their purchases, and it is cruel and therefore un-punk to gatekeep punkness and add additional shame to these people's lives based on that fact."
I think it's still a good thing to try to ethically consume; I literally never said it wasn't. I had never even heard of SHEIN before. Rather, I am much more concerned about what I saw as arbitrary gatekeeping based on ability and income.
And frankly how dare you claim that I am supporting sweatshops and abuse by saying that this additional work you are demanding (in this case, presumably, vetting every clothing company you buy from) is not always possible for people. It is not a light accusation to accuse me of supporting abuse.
"How dare you say we piss on the poor", Etc. 🙄 this isn't Twitter. You are determined to enforce moral purity, but you are failing to see the nuance.
Because when I say "no extra bandwidth," I mean no extra bandwidth. This is not the "car shows it's on E but actually secretly it has a lot of gas left" situation that abled people constantly assume disabled people mean when they say they are at their limit.
This is "the car has stopped moving, and to move it I'd have to break my body pushing it." This is "at a certain point, people will hit a wall in terms of money and time and energy, and any energy spent after that comes directly out of their life force."
So the argument "okay but just spend a little more time money and energy actually" is not a valid one.
And the argument "if you are not able to do this specific task, then it means you're not doing anything else to make the world a better place" doesn't exactly impress me either. You said yourself that it is impossible to be a perfectly ethical consumer for most people.
How do you know what else people are doing to resist oppression? How many hours per week until your standards are met?What if someone works 3 jobs? Does that mean it's harder to be a good person if you're poor?? Why do you get to decide what specific avenue of bettering the world is the most morally repugnant or acceptable? What kind of proof of goodness and effort would make you satisfied enough to lay off on the shame?? Who are you helping??
Clothing is a fundamental human need, and some of us have to buy cheap fucking clothes quickly. Billionaires are buying their seventh yacht this month. The people who own fast fashion companies are abusing their workers and putting local affordable clothing stores out of business - and this applies for basically every company with price points that low because governments are failing to regulate corporations to enforce basic human rights.
I have $300 to spend on a new wardrobe as my old clothes have fallen apart or become too small. Do you have a way for me to get a new winter coat, 3 flannels, 10 shirts, 3 dress shirts, new sandals, 10 pairs of pants, 5 bras, 12 pairs of socks, and 10 pairs of underwear within that budget and also definitely 100% ethically sourced, with free returns in case it doesn't fit? Or will I simply have to use the cheap stores?
I have about an hour to spend on this per week. Many mainstream stores doesn't make clothes in my size, and I am now in *year 5* of needing an electric wheelchair and being unable to get one; plus I live up a flight of stairs, so I can't even bring my walker out with me - so thrift shopping is not gonna cover this. Should I continue to wear small and tattered clothing until I have the time, money, and energy to meet your standards?
Did you know there are more empty homes in this country than homeless people? If I decide to splurge on only 100% ethically-produced products, and I can't make rent, and I become homeless, are YOU going to be there for me?? Or are you too busy litigating the endless tiny shames of poverty in your own community?
So I ask you again, are you SURE this is where you want to direct your punk energy?
Because there are a whole lot of rich people relying on people like us punching down and to the side instead of looking up to see where the money is going.
Because energy and time, as it turns out, are limited resources. And I would never expect you to secretly have more than you claim to have.
#original#punk#hopepunk#cripplepunk#i swear to god#reading comprehension website#how dare you say we piss on the poor#jfc 'what you're saying is we should do nothing' - what I'm saying is YOU are doing nothing by enforcing this boundary#you have to give people more credit than this. i believe you want a better world too. and it would be cool if you used your energy to#instead ask 'how do i fight for the people in my community to be clothed and have the time and income to shop ethically?'#or 'how do i support activism that pushes for regulation that could control these companies?'#monitoring how poor people spend money is a supremely Republican thing to do. as is demanding clear moral purity from every scenario.#you want a better world too. you want to demand your peers do better. - fine. good.#but you need to be asking if you have remembered and included everyone's needs when making statements like this.#capitalism is all for forgetting about poor and disabled people and refusing to believe their limits.#shame is a necessary weapon in fighting greed but it IS a weapon. be so careful where you point that shit. enough shame can kill a person#and a lot of us are already defending from it from all sides.#shaming a person who is already at their limit for not doing more is an act of cruelty. think very carefully about what that means please.#i literally don't even know what SHEIN is lol i just know classism when i see it#but I've had friends whose clothes were visibly falling apart with no income and so much so shame so deep in their hearts they were dying#and if they had seen that post it would have made them even sicker and gotten them no closer to the dignity of being properly clothed#shame is a weapon and /you need to be careful!!!!/
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ferretwhomst · 2 months
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asking a gravity falls fan their opinions on mabel pines is like a litmus test for seeing how they behave around people with personality disorders
like oh you hate when the 12-13 year old girl has emotional outbursts and is oblivious to people's emotions at times? you hate when she acts Irrationally? tell me more!
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cairoscene · 3 months
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i think a hugely important and often overlooked counterpart to "curate your online experience" is that even when you block and mute and filter, you are still going to see things that upset you and make you uncomfortable. you just are. and just because you were upset or felt uncomfortable doesn't mean you should never have seen it; sometimes things just happen that make you upset. the counterpart is that as well as curating your online experience, you have to learn to manage and deal with your emotions. how you feel is your responsibility and no one else's.
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"it's okay to hate kids as long as you're not mean to them" *EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER* still weird sorry!
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mylovelyrainblog · 7 months
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Germany: we did a Holocaust so now we are supporting another one to atone for it!
How does that work for you? The world will hate you for it.
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astrxlfinale · 2 months
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One of these days I'm going to get into deeper detail about Caelus's Stellaron nature, how it coincidences with angles of his personal values and characterization as a whole.
Details such as-
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Now I'm not saying it's actively speaking to Kafka's desire in this segment, it's moreso how the essence of Decisiveness is wired into blood and being. (Her words in this vein was to EMPOWER that certainty, and to never let doubt be that foe, and to only make foes of anyone or thing against his reasonable choice.) Caelus is someone who intends to advance his steps with his own choice desire being the host influence. That said, I believe this extends as to how strong showcases of desire, strong wills, beings that intend to make their mark resonates with him.
He wants to ensure it's answered, and in ways, be a part of that growth even if it leads to bright or horrific ends for the person in question. (There would no hesitation in getting their way, in this case, being more of a form of respect.)
This here was the lil scene I discovered that brought this to my attention.
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While it could be arguable this plucks more at his soft spot for children (which he does have), in the wider arc it could genuinely be anyone who's willing to shake the world in the essence for their 'wish.'
This is one of those matters where the facets of his creation benefit from his sense of character. In many ways he still enacts the 'Will of the Stellaron' and Destruction at large in the form of his own written code. He'll become the Destruction against all Disasters. If this part of his lost 'family' of the hive intends to make cruel and twisted test that can make or break the fate of those souls? He'd be within the corner that shatters such madness, and those taken under it's wings with his own will.
Its why I can't stress enough how much Akivili's path of the Trailblaze feels like such a positive variation of the Stellaron's journey. So to have him embark on this will not only let these sides get properly fed in learning, realizing and truly holding a willing hold with humanity, but it allows him to just be that version of free that serves as a core foundation as to how he intends to live his life.
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mylittleredgirl · 1 year
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What is your Hogwarts house?
kind of a suspicious question to ask a stranger in the year two thousand and twenty three
i don't have one, because i was never into harry potter. if i did, i would have renounced it by now, because so many trans people in our community have specifically said, repeatedly, that identifying ourselves by hogwarts houses on tumblr either marks us as unsafe people or makes us indistinguishable from them.
asking a tumblr user who has never mentioned reading harry potter about their hogwarts house feels like offering a terf secret handshake.
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raayllum · 1 year
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Plot, Theme, and Pacing :: 4x02 Fallen Stars
As part two of my Establishing Theme series, I’m continuing with my thesis of “S4 writes to establish, set up, and build upon Theme first and foremost” now onto Chapter Two: Fallen Stars. 
Themes from the previous episode to keep in mind are stagnated grief, separation and reunion, partnership (or lack thereof), and life-death symbolism. If you are interested in the full 4x01 analysis, it is linked down below. Particular bonds, such as Callum’s lack of partnership in response to Claudia-Terry / Janai-Amaya, the Viren-Callum’s foil relationship, as well as building upon the Terry-Viren-Callum trifecta
Ch1: Re-Birthday
With that out of the way, let’s dive in. 
Impatience 
Episode largely introduces the theme of patience with one character placed within each subplot group. For Karim and Callum, they are defined by their impatience at seeming stagnation over their situation and that their resources are limited (both are, coincidentally, brother-mage-advisor to the current monarch of their peoples). 
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For Karim, this is an introductory character trait that he was initially going to keep to himself until Jana pushed him to admit his concerns. For Callum, this is a reaffirmation, and it’s no wonder the mirror specifically is what’s driving him crazy. He’s always wanted to know things (“So does it mean something, your binding?”) and consistently pushes at things until he gets an answer ( “Should we trust you? Have you told us the truth about everything? / “But I don’t see why I can’t make my own connection”). So to be completely stagnated is frustrating and not how previous pursuits, particularly secrets and magic, have panned out.
It’s also not like him for his temper to come out so strongly over something so comparatively low stakes, so it’s the strongest hint that magic and the mirror has largely been a distraction and a balm from the pain of Rayla’s absence and his worry about her. 
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Additionally, it’s interesting that Callum is seeking out the mirror rather than the cube. He should have more incentive to be inquiring into the cube in a lot of ways, but instead, Callum is both more dedicated and more hesitant in dealing with what he’s inherited from Viren, not from Harrow. But more on that later.
In contrast to Callum and Karim’s impatience, we have Terry, who is exceedingly patient even in the face of doubt. 
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Despite being the only one on a cognizant time limit (30 days to help Claudia permanently bring her father back to life), Terry is chipper about the climb, optimistic amid Viren’s dry attitude, and content to help plants grow just a bit faster, as it seems worthwhile to him. As the previously linked meta, this builds on the Terry-Callum parallels that the season consistently comes back to; the previous episode put emphasis on their relationship to names and titles.
And we know that patience VS impatience is one of the core themes of the season and in some ways, the series. Change, Sarai stated and Janai will later reaffirm, is something that takes time. Whether you get the time to change (or heal, or both) is what’s up in the air. 
Speaking of change and patterns, let’s turn our attention to
Reflections 
Viren and Callum both retread Viren’s steps in this episode directly, albeit at different points of Viren’s life. Viren is now climbing the Spire for a third time, with the prior two being at decisions that directly led to him falling in a few ways. The first time he climbed the Spire was with the intent of killing Zym, only for him to lie to Harrow and spirit away both the egg and the mirror in the first place (and taking Lain and Tiadrin captive in the coins). Stealing / ‘killing’ the egg is what led to his and Harrow’s friendship breaking down and the inciting incident for much of the first arc; this is where Viren, emotionally, started to ‘fall’.
The second time Viren climbs the Spire, he ices Rayla in the antechamber and is then tackled off the Pinnacle, seconds away from achieving his goal and at the cost of his life. We see he’s already regretting the toll his mistakes have taken on Claudia in this episode (we’ll get to his big speech in a minute) and the trauma that death has wrought on him. That was his second and more literal fall.
Then you have Callum getting closer to cracking the mirror. The Tome of Translation being literal “recognition of self through the other” in being a translated reflection of whatever you write on one side feels particularly apt given the way Aaravos has an identical mirror on his side of the prison. Getting closer and closer to that Fallen Star. 
So Callum and Viren are both retracing Viren’s steps, inevitably heading towards the same end and same pattern, the same cycle over and over again - until they don’t. 
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Let Go (Claudia, Viren, and Rayla)
I want to write a whole separate meta about this theme and honestly, question, of “Can you let go?” and how it pertains to the series as a whole, particularly in S4, but I want to start laying my thematic / meta basis here first, and now is as good a time as any.
While this question encompasses more characters later on in the season (Aaravos, Karim, Callum) it starts primarily with Claudia, Viren, and Rayla, one of my favourite trifectas and foil relationships in the show precisely because of the interlocked tragedies they experience due to each other, their similarities in motifs / personalities, and most of all, their inability to let go. That is, mostly. 
Claudia, as we all know, flat out refuses. She cries, then steamrolls over her father’s wishes, asserting her own as more important, and that Viren can’t let go, not as long as she is there by his side. This reaffirms what he said to her in 3x09 as well, only on her end of things now. 
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Just as Viren said he had to stand by Harrow through death (or presumptive death) too to Claudia in 1x03, she has now actually stood by him through two long years of death to revive him. Of course she can’t let go - she’s already in far too deep.
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For additional thoughts on Claudia this episode, please refer to this meta regarding her “It’s a sign” line because what a doozy / why I think she makes Viren take the trek up the mountain the first place as a nice bit of consistent characterization.
This differing stance of Letting Go vs. Not Letting Go of course asserts Claudia (narrative of strength) and Callum (narrative of love) in oppositional roles to each other (even as S4 begins to complicate / muddle that dichotomy further), but to talk about that (and again, I think that’s for the meta deep dive of this theme that deserves its own big sectioned meta) we have to start talking about Rayla.
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I don’t think anyone would say Rayla was actively trying to move on in Through The Moon. Yes, she was doing her best to regulate her emotions. Yes, she wanted a life with Callum, and no, she didn’t want to feel stuck in grief and uneasiness. She didn’t event want to leave. But she was still unwilling to let go of the hope of seeing her parents again, her utter frustration that she couldn’t, or to even consider that Viren may be dead before she had any sort of real proof. Then, when she has what she considers proof, she chases right after it... until she, seemingly out of the blue (even in the few lines of dialogue we get about her choice to come back) returns to Katolis and to Callum.  
As reflected on in my Rayla’s Characterization in S4 breakdown, one of the biggest differences between her in S4 and prior seasons is that in S4, she doesn’t have a same sort of relentless purpose driving her. This is a parallel she shares with Viren as well in S4, both of them taken to a sort of passivity we’ve seen in other characters (namely Claudia and Ezran), but never them, before.
Season four is Rayla seeing and asking the question of “Can I let go?” just like Viren. 
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Can I let go of what I’ve been chasing the past two years, or my entire life? Can I come back to a sense of home and spend it with the person I love the most? Can I accept that I am who I am, and that I failed in my past goals, and can I be someone slightly new, or different, or better, or happier? Can I at least try?
V: I’ve spent my whole life striving to be someone different. Maybe it’s time to accept that I am who I am for the days I have remaining. And when I reach the end, I will be at peace. And it... It will just be my time to let go.
Viren wanted power and knowledge; he had a martyr complex because he believed he was special. Rayla wanted to be an assassin but could never commit, having a martyr complex because she believed she wasn’t special. We know Viren is having this epiphany because of both Rayla and Claudia’s actions, although we’re less clear on what caused Rayla’s, beyond her going after Viren in the first place two years prior to the start of S4. But in addition to the clear parallels to 1x02 when Callum and Rayla meet for the first time, I don’t think it’s coincidence that Rayla returns in the same episode Viren has this epiphany, especially given the way these specific arcs mirror each other in the season finale (but more on that when we reach 4x09). 
However, Rayla’s return also brings in one of the bigger themes of the season, which is
Reunification and Second Chances (Ezran, Viren, Janai, and Rayla)
So let’s talk about Ezran. This is a facet of S4′s thematic makeup we’ll talk a lot more about once the Dragon Queen / Zym are actually in Katolis next episode and Callum and Rayla actually get to have their reunion in full, but the layers absolutely start here and are built upon from 4x01 previously with the Dragon Queen. 
Ezran hopes to help reunify Xadia and the Pentarchy through the Dragon Queen’s visit, as we know from Ezran’s dialogue he has likely visited the Spire and sees Zym fairly often, stating, “It’s been four months since I’ve seen him,” as though that’s longer than usual. Alternatively, we have Janai and Karim with their opposing views on both her marriage to Amaya and humans’ place in the new Sunfire elf settlement.
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Just like in 4x01, we see Karim be more cautious (and more prejudiced) than Opeli, and we get out first hint at the “Two cakes” duality theme the season is going to run with. 
Corvus: Is it really about changing the world, or is it just an excuse to get Zym to come visit?
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Then, of course, you have the continuing thread of last episode beginning with Viren’s reunion with Claudia (after two long years for her and no time at all for him) and this episode ending with Callum’s initial reunion with Rayla, the shots even brokered similarly (Viren and Claudia’s taking place and being cut off the by end of S3 / S4 intro vs Callum and Rayla’s taking place and being cut off by the end of 4x02, opening back up in 4x03). Again, we’ll talk a lot more about it in the next analysis, but it’s fun to see that it’s a continuing theme, as well as Janaya vs Karim and Clauderry vs Viren highlighting the theme of skepticism amid close partnership. 
In Darkness (Light and Darkness motif)
I want to do a proper meta about Callum and the mirror and its motifs / parallels with his season four arc, but for now, I’m going to appreciate the way we see it highlight his frustration, anger, obsession, love of magic, and begins to bring the light and darkness motif that had been more quietly in the background of the series until this point.
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As we see even in the examples above, it’s not as simple as the Light always being a good thing and Dark always being a bad thing. After all, even something called Dark Magic can do good things and renders the user’s hair more white, not black, through continued usage. 
However, as stated, the show has taken this undercurrent and brought it to the forefront, beginning most notably this season. We see Callum gazing into the mirror of Aaravos, stating “In darkness, gaze upon a fallen star,” and we have Karim’s statement that the Sunfire elves are losing themselves; “the rising sun has now become a fallen star.” This associates the cosmic concepts of sun and star as linked, with Callum likewise turning away from the mirror to face a moon - or rather, his moon. 
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Cue set up for Aaravos being his darkness, Rayla being his light to lead him out of the brainwashing (even if he can’t perhaps fully disavow Aaravos’ plans and manipulations, since the Startouch elf has to get out). The fact that Rayla has the cube on her shoulder glowing the Star arcanum (thanks to Stella) when the cube didn’t need to be in this shot at all and Stella could’ve been revealed to be connected to the Star arcanum in another manner, and Callum has the cube in his hand during his 4x04 Aaravos pawn intro... But again, more on that later, particularly when we get to 4x07.
All I’ll say for now was that this shot in the trailer made me scream because I didn’t think they were going to take Rayla and Callum’s background “light to darkness” motif and bring it like, textually to the forefront, and I don’t think I’ll ever be over it.
The Cycle (1x01-4x01, 1x02-4x02)
One of my favourite things about S4 is how much it harkens back to the previous seasons in terms of callbacks, framing, and theme, but the most overt is by far how much S4 borrows structurally from S1. It is for this reason that just as 1x01 kicked things off with a king and high mage on the king’s balcony discussing Moonshadow elf assassins, 4x01 ends with another king and high mage discussing a Moonshadow elf on the king’s balcony (and given Viren and Harrow’s note of speculation, ironically enough you could make the case they are also outright discussing Rayla as well, at least a little). 
The biggest parallel between 1x02 and 4x02 probably is the Rayla-Callum first meeting / reunion parallel, which is all I could’ve asked for and more.
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But beyond that, we see Karim and Janai splintering in a similar manner to Viren and Harrow. Viren and Karim are pushing their respective monarch sibling to make a particular choice or realize a particular danger, with their brother / sister (respectively) shutting them down on the basis of disagreement and wanting to move forward rather than perpetuate the cycle. The rest of the season continues this inversion pretty, although not exactly well, of characters diverging from S1 origin points or certain ones being reconstructed, so this will be an additional thematic aspect we keep a pin in from episode to episode.
Closing Notes: 
I don’t have too much else to say about this episode except 1) being tickled pink I correctly guessed that Lux Aurea may be the other fallen star referenced back when the episode titles were released a week or so early and 2) I wanted to include this screencap because it’s the scene I resonate the most in with Karim possible:
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It’s about the Symbolism.
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omegaphilosophia · 13 days
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The Philosophy of Courage
The philosophy of courage explores the nature, value, and significance of courage as a moral and existential virtue. Courage is often regarded as the willingness to confront fear, danger, or adversity in pursuit of a noble or morally worthy goal. Philosophers have long grappled with questions about the origins of courage, its ethical implications, and its role in shaping human behavior and character.
Key aspects of the philosophy of courage include:
Definition and Nature: Philosophers examine the concept of courage and its various dimensions. They explore different definitions of courage, considering whether it involves the absence of fear, the ability to act despite fear, or the presence of certain virtues such as resilience, determination, or moral integrity. Philosophers also explore the relationship between courage and other moral virtues, such as justice, temperance, and wisdom.
Moral and Existential Courage: Courage is often divided into moral courage and existential courage. Moral courage involves standing up for one's principles, values, or convictions in the face of opposition or adversity. Existential courage involves confronting the uncertainties, challenges, and existential threats inherent in the human condition, such as mortality, meaninglessness, and existential angst.
Ethical Perspectives: Philosophers analyze the ethical significance of courage within different ethical frameworks, such as virtue ethics, deontology, and consequentialism. They explore questions about whether courage is inherently good, how it relates to other moral virtues, and whether there are moral limits or constraints on courageous action.
Psychological and Emotional Dimensions: Philosophers consider the psychological and emotional aspects of courage, including the role of emotions such as fear, anxiety, and resilience in shaping courageous behavior. They examine theories of emotion regulation, emotional intelligence, and moral development to understand how individuals cultivate courage in the face of adversity.
Social and Political Courage: Courage is often manifested in social and political contexts, where individuals challenge injustice, oppression, or wrongdoing. Philosophers explore the role of courage in promoting social change, defending human rights, and resisting tyranny or authoritarianism. They examine historical examples of courageous figures such as activists, whistleblowers, and revolutionaries who have risked their lives for the greater good.
Cultural and Historical Perspectives: Courage is influenced by cultural norms, values, and traditions, which shape how courage is understood and practiced in different societies. Philosophers study the cultural and historical roots of courage, tracing its evolution across time and cultures and examining how it is depicted in literature, art, and mythology.
Philosophical Exemplars: Philosophers often cite examples of courageous individuals or moral exemplars who embody the ideals of courage. These exemplars may include historical figures such as Socrates, Gandhi, and Martin Luther King Jr., as well as fictional characters from literature and mythology. Philosophers analyze the virtues and qualities that make these individuals courageous and explore the lessons they offer for moral and existential courage.
Overall, the philosophy of courage provides a framework for understanding and evaluating the significance of courage in human life, ethics, and society. It raises important questions about the nature of courage, its moral implications, and its role in promoting human flourishing and moral integrity.
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high-voltage-rat · 1 year
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Vyvanse is such a silly little drug. I get up at 11, take it at noon, what's a normal sleep phase I don't know her.
The first hour passes and I'm like "dude nothings happening except me getting sweaty and my heart's going a bit faster" and then I blink and it's another 2 hours later and I've just blitzed doing every chore available to me, organized all my shit for the day, read through 500 tumblr posts, watched some random-ass YouTube clips, and made myself food I don't want to eat because my appetite is suppressed but I know food consumption is a task. It's like all of my ADHD bullshit for the entire day happens at light speed over a few hours.
Then I sit down and can do The Big Task of the day for 5 hours or more and, unlike with a hyperfocus, can remain focused on it even after taking breaks to go do other stuff.
Then the end of the day hits and I'm tired and need to go to sleep but I still feel the Productivity Need so for some reason I watch 50 more "Educational" YouTube videos until it subsides and then finally fall asleep at 2am.
Like. Does it cure my ADHD? Absolutely not. Does it make me less chaotic? No. But does it allow me to consistently channel my ADHD energy productively? Oh, yeah. I'm not 100% sure that's what my doctors were going for when they prescribed it, but I gotta be honest I kinda love it.
#not video games#late nights with ali#nd blogging#actuallyADHD#I'm pretty sure my docs were intending for a bit more... how you say... stability?#but a lot of my ADHD traits don't go away. just the most important one- activation-based executive dysfunction#And honestly without that I think I like the way I function with the rest? usually anyway#If I'm in control of it. I love my hyperfocus. I love my bouncing around chaotically. I love being impulsively spontaneous#don't get me wrong. there are days where I do hate my adhd. when the emotional regulation problems kick in it's hell.#rejection sensitive dysphoria is a bitch. I can forget self care in lieu of 'more important' things. my working memory can fuck me over.#but in comparison to how I lived before medication? it's amazing. and I've learned to be fond of aspects of my disorder#and to live with the ones that are inconvenient. it's so nice honestly#I could do without the sweating and appetite suppression. but it is SO worth it to like my own mind again.#before I was diagnosed I knew I had it. so my only options were self medicating with caffiene and developing an anxiety disorder.#the thing that bypasses the dopamine-based activation is adrenaline-based activation#so I literally just. got so anxious about stuff I needed to do that it would trigger the adrenaline activation where dopamine failed me#I don't think I actually 100% KNEW that's what I was doing per se. but I do think some of my anxiety came from intentional doom spiralling#anyway moral of the story. Vyvanse helps with ADHD is some truly strange ways but at the end of the day it's a fucking miracle#New River Pharmaceuticals developers of lisdexamfetamine I am kissing you on the mouth
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milimeters-morales · 1 year
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okay going nap so imagine in the ACAU Miles hides and falls asleep somewhere and when he wakes up he’s covered in a few blankets and has a jacket on top of the blankets because a few citizens managed to find him and they saw he was shivering really badly
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dallonwrites · 8 months
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beau is sooo messy i'm obsessed with him. him being happy to see felix seemingly flourishing and being more confident etc but also feeling weird and almost jealous at the fact that it used to be just him that got to see felix that way. that he used to be the only reason for it. and like he KNOWS that's a messy and kind of fucked up way to think about it but he also knows he's in a really weird spot emotionally and can't help it
#one question i am obsessed with at the moment is what makes a person/character 'toxic'#i don't think it's a simple yes or no a character either is or isn't#especially with grief and complicated emotions like...#i have had some UGLY thoughts about people. even about people i love and consider friends#and i have had times where i've had to question myself and wondered if i'm actually this spiteful and meanspirited person#but i realised all of those moments were happening in very difficult and dark times in my grief#which was making it harder for me to regulate emotions and being much more sensitive and quick to take something personally#even though i would know logically that i did not feel that way AS I FELT THAT WAY#it was a mind fuck and it took so long to figure out how to process and unpack all that...#anyway im obsessed with grieving characters having sensitivity and messy feelings and being easily triggered into them#and feeling them even though they know logically that's not how they actually feel under 'normal' circumstances#all this to say i dont think beau is a toxic person. but i do think he is grieving and his is the fleshiest/rawest character ive written in#a while LOL#hes competing with felix and dorothy. who imo were actually being toxic to each other in RR LOL#but then it's like. a character that is toxic at times is not necessarily a bad person to me!#im specifying character because i dont want to get into a discussion about irl morality. but like.#oughhh i love characters who are hypocritical and suck but are also full of love and a desire to be better but its hard to be
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swamp-world · 1 year
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like i think that we really really really need to actually gain the social literacy and compassion to understand that. not tipping your server isn’t praxis, but the fact that it’s expected that the customer pay the wage of the server also doesn’t mean that the customer (often also stiffed and a victim of wage theft) isn’t obligated to do so, and that while this is within our own economic system a great injustice and act of violence that needs to be rectified, it is in fact not the greatest injustice in the world and seeing people comparing getting screamed at for war crimes to not being tipped demonstrates a drastic lack of any sense of proportion. this is me speaking as both a service worker and someone engaged in organizing. let me be absolutely clear that I am not saying that not tipping your server is praxis. if you are able to tip i think that you should. i also think that “it’s the social contract in america to tip your server” needs to be read as “the structure has been built so that resisting it is tantamount to being a class traitor, and there are no winners in this situation”. i make less than 1k a month. tipping at 15% is straight up not viable all of the time if i want to pay rent. that’s not praxis, that’s me trying to keep a roof over my head, same as the service worker who i can’t always tip. so much analysis of this matter on social media tends to boil down to brute utilitarianism that causes further fragementation among the working class, and not for unjust reasons.
but just as not tipping my server isn’t praxis, tipping my server also isn’t praxis. not because it doesn’t help the individual (it does) but because it functionally validates the extant system in which the customer directly pays the wages. especially in the digital age: whereas cash tips are often considered nontaxable income, digital tips are administered as directly taxable income by the employer. when tips are paid out as wages i think it’s a little unfair to consider them to be “gratuities”.
again: not tipping isn’t praxis, but i wonder often about how many people who parrot this point are engaged in labour organizing or support in any way other than tipping. everyone deserves to be paid for their labour. but likewise, putting the onus on the working class customer to do so doesn’t actually help anyone except for the employer.
if you’re getting pissed at other working-class people for not tipping high numbers, especially impoverished and/or marginalized people, i hope that you are also engaged in literally any form at all, no matter how intense or dedicated, to any kind of action or organization that supports increasing minimum wage and shifting this responsibility from the customer to the employer (i.e. working class to owning class).
#vent of sorts#i keep seeing that post about ''not tipping your server isn't praxis'' with the addition of#''i was a server who got yelled at by a european for being american at an american tourist memorial for 9/11 because of the iraq war''#and again i say this in a sense that isn't meant to diminish the legitimate trauma of service work#trauma in a very genuine sense#(brief reminder that this is what the term ''emotional labour'' was coined to describe is being expected to regulate and perform emotions#for your job but only being paid minimum wage because the only ''labour'' you're doing is physical/mental and keeping a smile while being#berated isn't ''labour'')#but without directly comparing and weighing traumas and experiences in order to invalidate another#i'm so tired of seeing ''not tipping your server doesn't help anyone'' specifically being backed up by the idea#that tipping and paying into the tipping model (no pun intended) is a morally neutral or net-positive action#without actually considering the widespread consequences of tipping culture as a whole on labour wages and employee rights#of course not tipping isn't going to solve anything#nothing is solved on an individualist level#but the idea that NOT tipping is a non-solution that individuals take#being refuted by the idea that tipping as a buffer that individuals engage in#rather than it leading into any discussion about organizing#is absolutely fucking infuriating#because believe me i WANT to tip servers i WANT to make sure that everyone is paid#but if i walk into a local brewpub and buy a beer at the isolated beer shop next door by a till worker i am prompted to tip as if it were#a full service establishment and transaction#and i think that is evidence enough that tipping is not a ''thank you'' to your server but rather the employer offloading the expectation#of paying their employees proper wages onto the customer#anyways as ever the solution isn't individual action but collective organizing and community support#if you're going to tip then tip in cash and if you're not going to tip then be as kind as possible#and if you're acting as if tipping your server is the ONLY morally correct action in this situation then please#look around at your local community organizations and labour organizations and housing organizations instead of yelling online at people#who often are not being paid enough to be able to pay rent let alone pay another person's wages#mutual aid is great and important but i straight up don't consider it ''mutual aid'' if it's filtered through an employer's income
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garyfischy · 7 months
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the ai art discourse is so fucking stupid man (remembers like half my friends go to art school) (clamps a hand over my mouth)
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