#much needed conversations

[stray-cattt]

the pain is gone, but all your scars remain

A Nimona (2023) hurt/comfort fanfic, if you'd rather read it on A03, here's the link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48475993

Summary: Basically, Ambrosius and Ballister are getting ready for bed and things are still a bit awkward and tense between them so they talk about things.

Content/Trigger Warnings: None that I can think of

Ballister carefully disengages his prosthetic arm and sets it on the table across from his and Ambrosius’ bed. Sometimes it’s like it's still there, his arm, he can feel it. The pain comes and goes, sometimes aching, other times more like a quick sharp pain, there, then gone. Ballister stands there deep in thought as his gaze is fixed on his prosthetic as his mind replays it all, without realizing it his breathing becomes shallow.

A knock from the bedroom door interrupts his thoughts and slowly he tears his gaze from the table. The door slowly opens to reveal Ambrosius dressed in his pajamas, fidgeting with his sleeves that are slightly too long, before lifting his gaze to meet Ballisters.

“Everything alright? You haven’t got dressed for bed yet.” Ambrosius asks, concern laced in his eyes. Quietly he shuts the door behind him and inches a bit closer to Ballister, placing a hand on his right shoulder, the action seems to pull him out of his mind.

“Yeah, I was just thinking about things and got a bit distracted,” Ballister lets out a weak laugh only meeting Ambrosius’ eyes for a brief second before his eyes linger on the table again. Ambrosius follows his gaze and lets out a small sigh as guilt begins to plague his being. Before Ambrosius can get a word in, Ballister continues, looking him in the eyes.

“I’ll go get ready for bed now, I’ll be back in a bit.” Ballister gives Ambrosius a small smile before grabbing his PJs off of his side of the bed and heading toward the bedroom door. Ambrosius nearly grabs his hand to stop him but stops himself and lets Ballister walk through the door. 

Ambrosius feels a weight crashing onto his chest as Ballister softly closes the door. A shaky breath leaves him as one of his hands grasps the front of his shirt. He sits on the unmade bed as his thoughts begin to race about all that he’d done to his lover, it had only been a month since everything had all happened. Neither of them had really talked in depth about what happened, yes there were the rushed apologies right off the bat, but they hadn’t really expressed to each other how it had all impacted them emotionally. Maybe tonight would be the night they could talk about it, tonight, tomorrow morning, sometime soon, they needed to talk.

Ballister tossed his dirty clothes in the hamper in the corner of the bathroom before taking a look at himself in the mirror. The bags under his eyes were heavy, and even after returning next to his lover's side, and stopping the director he still didn’t feel at rest, he couldn’t. Thoughts of Nimona often plagued his mind, if maybe she would return by whatever magic that had created her. He hadn’t gone back to their ‘evil lair’ yet, it still seemed too painful.

Of course it wasn’t only the thought of Nimona that haunted him, it was also scars left over from what had all happened in those few days, weeks maybe? Everything had happened so fast time seemed to slip his grasp. The scars, mental, emotional, and physical all had yet to heal completely, at points Ballister worried that they never would.

Ballister took his hand and ran it through his hair. He needed a shower but hadn’t found it in him to take one, at least not tonight. Sighing, he dropped his hand from his hair and quickly brushed his teeth before leaving the bathroom.

Ballister didn’t knock before he entered his shared room with Ambrosius. He expected Ambrosius to have already been laying in bed, but the bed had yet to be made and instead, his lover was standing in front of his prosthetic. His fingers lightly traced the wiring and metal with a sense of melancholy. The closing of the door caused Ambrosius to jump a bit, pulling his fingers away from Ballister’s prosthetic. Startled, he turned his head towards the door making eye contact with his lover.

The silence between them was heavy and dense, the unsaid words threatening to choke them as they stared into each other's eyes. Ambrosius was the first one to break the silence as he cleared his throat and took his eyes off of Ballister, now looking at the bed.

“Want to help me make the bed?” Ambrosius suggested, scratching the back of his head. For the most part, they had been behaving as they always had, but sometimes it got awkward and stiff as if the air molecules in the air had stopped moving. Ballister blinked for a second processing Ambrosius’ words before nodding and walking over to their bed. They both fixed the sheets together standing on their respective sides of the bed. With the bed made, Ballister turned on the lamp on the right side of the bed as Ambrosius turned off the main lights of the room.

Neither of them said a word as they lay down in their bed getting situated. Given that they were both in bed now, Ballister turned off the lamp and all that illuminated the room was the lights of the city filtering in through the thin curtains covering the window. They were quiet for a few minutes more before Ambrosius finally spoke up.

“I wanted to say that I’m sorry, I know I’ve already apologized to you before right after it happened and a couple times after but I feel like we haven’t really gotten to talk about it that much with everything that’s been happening since the queen died. I am so genuinely sorry for how I treated you and your friend Nimona,” At the mention of her name Ballister stiffened a bit, he knew that eventually, they’d have to have a real conversation about it, but he didn’t expect it to be this night.

“I treated both of you unfairly, and while I never believed that you had actually killed the queen, I didn’t say anything to stick up for you and in staying silent I sided with those who were hunting you down. While everything turned out okay in the end, at least… for the most part, I shouldn’t have stood by their side. I should’ve questioned what the director was telling me and not seen Nimona out to be what she wasn’t. While I’ve apologized hundreds of times for your arm, I will apologize for it again, even though it’s what we were trained to do, I took a part of you that you can’t get back and have caused you pain and harm. Sometimes all my mind can do is replay my actions toward you at that moment and the moments following. I wish I could change my actions and go back and know what I know now back then, but I know I can’t. I just want you to know how much I love and care about you, Ballister,” Ambrosius confessed, a few stray tears making their way down his face as he reached out to brush away a couple of tears that had fallen from Ballister’s eyes.

“I know Ambrosius, and I love you too, and care about you so much. I really appreciate all that you’ve said, and I want to acknowledge that you were being manipulated while this all happened. You don’t have to carry the weight of it all, let some of it fall onto others. I would’ve probably responded the same way had our positions been switched. In the end, the person you are now is not the person you were back then, and that’s what matters. I’m in love with you, not your mistakes. While I’m glad you were able to acknowledge them, they don’t define you. While they’ve left scars, scars will heal someday, even if they feel like they won’t. I know I feel that way sometimes. Someday the pain will be gone, and all that will remain will be the scars and the stories they hold. I’m not sure if I’m making a lot of sense here, but I want you to know that together we can grow and move past this. You don’t have to feel guilty, you’ve suffered the consequences enough.” Ballister responded gently to Ambrosius, now caressing his face with his left hand. 

A weight had been lifted off the both of them, even if just a little bit, things were more manageable. Together they held each other and cried for what seemed to be an eternity but wasn’t quite nearly as long. They lovingly stared at one another, the filtered light highlighting the tear tracks that had run down their faces like rivers.

They talked a bit more after the tears had died down, being honest with each other about what they had been feeling. Talked about things they’d only ever share with each other, and by the time they had reached an end to their conversation, the majority of the city had fallen asleep.

In silence they held each other, Ballister held onto his lover’s waist and laid his head on his chest as Ambrosius traced patterns into his back. Together they lulled themselves to sleep to the sounds of the city of those who stayed awake in ungodly hours. Tomorrow would be a new day for them, things would be different for the better. Plus, maybe even Ballister would stop by his ‘evil lair’ and run into a friend. But who knows, that’s tomorrow, and right now he’s sleeping by his lover's side, content.

#angst #fluff and angst #nimona #nimona netflix #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister x ambrosius #much needed conversations #ptsd #mentioned ish #healthy relationships #men crying #mentions of phantom pains #cuddling and snuggling #comfort #hurt/comfort #crying #angst and feels

[leonardcohenofficial]

literally nine would have treated martha so right i don’t even wanna TALK ABOUT IT

#they would have had thee biggest big brain conversations and constantly challenge each other and also i KNOW that sex is good I DON’T WANNA #TALK ABOUT ITTTTTTTTTT #doctor who #nine #martha jones #someone write that fic i can’t express enough how much i NEED THIS #also just need freema and eccleston to do a project together

[elodieunderglass]

#swan comics #a swan in a santa hat #🦢 #I thought about posting this in response to someone #but that would be a bit too much I think #no harm done #least said soonest mended #but this is a conversation I have in my home as well so #perhaps we need a visual shorthand #where the FUCK is my CUP #this is the response to a) kids not putting their socks on but coming downstairs dressed as crocodiles #b) spouse mishearing something but gallantly giving an opinion on it that was so in depth I didn’t have the heart to interrupt #and c) someone explaining to me about the discworld reading order #on a post about the saddening lack of risk-taking and support for creators in the content-gatekeeping industry #none of those are crimes not even the socks #I can strongly understand the Considerations that beset and bedazzle you when you go to put socks on and how the best response is to put on #a fuzzy crocodile onesie #but it’s not what I asked. #like this is a good response to a different thing #please recall the input here - the assignment if you will - was about socks. I love what you’ve done here though #good contribution. you know what we’re keeping it. love it. #just don’t present it as if the original incident report can be marked closed now okay? #do not close the support ticket #the support ticket remains unanswered. #no I completely agree. the outfit DOES need green face paint too. a topic we can add to the queue when oddly enough you have socks on

[skelemi]

Some Dick 'n Willy sketch dump because hell fucking yeah dickface

#my art #metalocalypse #dick knubbler #william murderface #dickface #oh and don't mind their conversation it's pretty much nonsense #there needs to be more content on them

[elitisim]

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#ts3cc #s3cc #ts3 cc #ts3 download #ts3 #s3 cc #ts3 dl #s3 dl #sims 3 #4t3 #sheabuttyr #black simblr #black sims cc #i wanted to do a huge conversion dump of a bunch of locs for black history month but life got in the way 😞 #i'll be dropping like 10 or so hairs before the month is over tho #sidenote: ya'll say hi to my new model: Virgil! #he still needs tweaks #his side profile leaves much to be desired but we'll work on it #elite posts #[MINE]

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 247

Danny grumbles, going limp as the Spirit plucked him up, holding him out like some sort of stray cat. Their golden eyes stared across him, white hair shimmering and bloodied feathers rustling as they tilted their head. 

“You sure he’s not somehow ours?” Bludhaven asks again, setting him down once more to circle. Amity laughs, wild hair the color of wheat fluttering in a non-existent breeze and portal pulsing like a heart as she rests a hand on his head. 

“Well darlin’, I am asking if you would be open to adopting,” the Spirit laughs, the sound as familiar as the birds outside his window in the mornings. “Well, I suppose I could always ask your dear sister Arkham-” 

“No no, I would be honored,” Bludhaven smiled a literally sharp grin, something mischievous and violent about it in a way Danny was slowly growing used to. “I’m just- look at the little ghostling! He looks like he could be from ours! My hair, your eyes… he’s just missing markings…” 

“Markings he’ll get once you give me an answer darlin’...”

“OH- Yes, of course! Sorry, I got whelmed there.” 

“You have been stalking your vigilante a bit too much there Blud.” 

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Amity Park x Bludhaven #I need to come up with a name for that lol #City Spirit #Danny gets adopted by Amity Park & Bludhaven #Danny is very tired while this conversation is happening hence his quietness #Why yes dcu IS in another dimension #That does not stop the City Spirits from visiting each other & meeting #Bludhaven is Gotham’s son & Arkham is Gotham’s daughter #Gotham is now grandparent & also questioning if they missed a wedding #while Xey were killing curses because What When & Where #Gotham is the city spirit equivalent of an Ancient #Which now makes Danny almost like a prince & no one has told him yet #He just needed his Core stabilized via adoption #And Amity volunteered because he’s her bby already- died & was reborn within her & everything #Space core Danny #Doesn’t have much to do with the prompt but does slightly effect his appearance after adoption #I have art of Bludhaven & Amity somewhere on my blog #Bludhaven #Amity Park

[opheliasam]

god he (dean) used to be so different my chest hurts

#early seasons dean was such a complex character who was ultimately good. seemingly careless bad boy who actually cared ! so much ! too much #he was perfect early seasons dean my everything <3 #like this was such a healthy and good conversation im actually breaking out in hives #he used to be so good and sweet and thoughtful !!! he was willing to offer himself up for blame make to make sam see the truth !! #he couldn’t stand for sam being wrongfully sad or guilty he wouldn’t allow for it he needed for him to be okay #later seasons dean would never do that...Especially IF it was his fault like the man fr forgot how to apologise/ take accountability #early seasons spn #early seasons spn my beloved #spn #samdean #sam winchester #dean winchester

[lemonduckisnowawake]

You know, it's a tragedy that there are no (or very little) Vampire x Christian stories out there, not for angst or theology or forbidden seductiveness or whatnot but for the sheer comedy of it all. I mean, the Christian would technically be immune to all of the vampire's shenanigans, like for example...

Vampire: Fool, I am the most powerful vampire in the West. Nothing but the force of an entire holy temple could even deign to scratch me Christian: Idiot, I AM a holy temple. 1 Corinthians 6:19, fear me and the Spirit inside that can burn you to ashes

#this thought was brought on by a conversation i saw on the km shea discord #and also my need to theologize everything #it would be so funny to me too if we added the fact that the human Christian was also anemic #(not because anemia is funny. especially not if it's chronic. just the fact that the vamp couldn't bite the human) #truth be told it doesn't even have to be a romance to me. just a chaotic comedy duo #lemon duck quacks #lemon duck tales #yeah this is funny #for the words! #one day i will write all my deranged supernatural story ideas that involve way too much Christian imagery and comedy #but for now.... #anyway how to make the most unbiteable human that you cannot help be drawn to as a modernized vamp? #Christian and likely chronically iron deficient #i am very sorry if this is offensive #but you know #vampires

[angst-and-fajitas]

I think loveless aros deserve a thousand dollars for every time someone claims that love is the meaning of everything or love makes us human etc etc

"by love we mean all forms of love, including nonromantic!!1!" You clearly Do Not understand. Return to start, do not pass go, do not collect 200 dollars.

There is no center of the universe, there is no unified meaning of everything, and there is no social or biological trait that "makes us human" besides the literal being humans thing, and any attempt to assert otherwise will other and alienate more people. There is no one emotion that you need to feel in order to be a good person or even a person at all

#i also think they deserve giant medieval spiked maces but y'all aren't ready for that conversation yet #i ain't even a loveless aro but man will I go to bat for them #such a big part of dismantling amatonormativity is decentering ALL love #to end this eternal pressure for people to feel and identify their feelings in the same ways as others #we don't all need the same outlook.... we don't all need to feel the same things in order to be good people #aromantic #i dunno man. i just Keep Seeing these stupid posts..... and I know people just don't even understand #but they should make the effort to understand!!! #i listened and I learned and I stopped talking like that! because I saw what that does to people and how much it hurts!

[ryuucae]

A dialogue on heroes

#ffxiv #ff14 #elidibus #emet selch #art #illustration #posting this at 2 am cuz I tried and put so much effort into this but a little shy to show #it was just an idea I had where I wanted to draw the two just having a conversation on what their theories and logic behind heroes #cuz elidibus has wolidibus and emet has innocence #and i think in his own way innocence / vauthry saw himself as a hero as well #so i thought it would be interesting but meh #storytelling is hard #also i need to stop drawing tiny characters and making pikachu face when I can't see their expressions lmao #edit: if y'all saw the error w/ the layer mask...no you didn't...

[cinamun]

All the luck we can get | Next

#ts4 #indya #black simblr #welp #there you have it folks #a much needed conversation #an upcoming wedding #and Charlie finally got his dance #see y'all back on Sunday! #ts4 story #sims 4 story #simblr #ch24

[royalarchivist]

Ramon: we need to find Cucurucho again

Fit: Yeah, that's really weird that he was just watching us -

Ramon: so Pac can adopt me

Fit: Oh yeah– Well, you know– I mean, maybe we can like– Maybe we can have it arranged where if Pac gives you a cookie, it counts for the full amount instead of half. And then maybe the same for me for Richarlyson. Right? 'Cuz I mean, like– We're... basically a family. I mean we have– I mean, let's be real, we have been for a while, but it just a little bit– it's just a little more official now.

Ramon: yeah but Pac wanted to throw a big party

Fit: Oh, a big party?

Ramon: adoption party

[ Transcript Continued ↓ ]

-

Fit: Oh, an adoption party. Ohhhhhhhhh, I see. Yeah, well– I won't interfere with those plans then. Yeah, well I guess– um. It'll be a party for you, and then I guess it'll be a party for Richarlyson as well. Yeah, that'll be cool, that'll be cool Ramon. Are you- are you excited?

Ramon: [Nods]

Fit: [Laughs] I'm glad.

Ramon: Two dads

Fit: Yeah, that's right. Yeah, instead of just one!

Ramon: i appreciate u a lot >:(

Fit: Aww, Ramon, I kn– And I appreciate you too, Ramon.

Ramon: [Ramon bounces around happily, then gets shy / embarrassed and hides in the corner of the room]

Fit: [Laughs] I know, Ramon. It makes me happy, seeing like– You– you seem like you've been in a better mood the past, you know, couple weeks, especially with everything that's been happening. You seem like you're in a better mood. Yeah, I'm glad, I'm glad, Ramon. I'm glad.

#Ramon #FitMC #QSMP #Hideduo #FitPac #Fit #January 10 2024 #FitMC for the love of god please get something for your mic that helps with the pops #I COULD probably fix that but it's not in my wheelhouse so I can't be bothered #Other audio stuff? Sure #This specific thing? ehhhh #I should probably look that up sometime but it's not usually too much of an issue #It's just Fit's mic #Anyways. This was a cute conversation. I probably didn't need to subtitle it but I edited it down since there were pauses as Ramon was typi #and I just kinda. Did it automatically for a few sentences and went ''oh what the heck'' and kept going #I'll try and do the other multiple POV edits now but might not have that done by tonight #I'm procrastinating on something for work because it's stressing me out. lol. #Edited #Subtitles

[sualne]

(wip) a comic about a haircut im procrastinating

#undescribed #my art #my comic #secret modern au #this is nearly word for (translated and slightly adjusted) word conversation i had with my dad. #working on the modern au i was still trying to figure out how to go about sanji's transness. then one day i had a #meltdown where this convo happened and i thought it was kind of fascinating how even though the context is different. the meaning of the #words too it's still very much the exact same 'i can't be how i want and i hate it' the difference is sanji doesn't understand why #he feels this way. it's a 'had a breakdown. bon appétit' kind of comic tbh idk if i'll get around finishing it #but it helped me figure out this version of sanji. #i need to go cut my hair

[aesthetic-gem]

“That’s true, Pomme. Our memories are what make us who we are. And without them, who are we? So hold on to your memories, Pomme. Try- try very hard, as hard as you can to remember. ‘Cause those memories, that’s who you are. And you shouldn’t give up on who you are that easily, okay?”

-

“Death, on one level, is easy. It’s one thing and it’s done. But living, Pomme, living, that’s hard. But for some people, it’s worth it. You’re one of those people, Pomme.”

-

“I think you guys are my favorite adventure so far. I’m gonna cherish it for as long as it lasts.”

#I cherish these parts of bad’s conversation with his daughter very much #I just needed a place to save these little quotes #A reflection of his thoughts #I already know bad just loves setting me up for misery #qsmp #q!badboyhalo #badboyhalo #qsmp pomme #pomme the egg

[poorlydrawnslenderman]

who are all you people.

#okay i love yall but no more reblogs. its so much. the jokes have been made #but full conversations are happening between other people on the reblog thread and i do not need to be notified of them all lmao

[pharawee]

A few notes on Pat and Chot's conversation:

🔹Ke (เกย์) is a neutral expression that is the phonetic adaptation of the English word gay.

🔹Tut (ตุ๊ด) is a vulgar and pejorative expression used to refer to a very effeminate homosexual man and can have multiple translations, as sissy, queen, [or in this case: tootsie] etc. 

🔹Je (เจ๊) is a Thai honorific from 姐 for “elder sister”. Chot uses it to refer to himself. Pat later uses it to address Chot.

🔹krap/kha (ครับ / ค่ะ) are gender-oriented particles. Chot uses the traditionally female particle for himself.

🌈Sources: LGTBIQ+ Enciclopaedia, Thaipod101

#step by step #step by step the series #bruce sirikorn #ben bunyapol #stepbystepedit #thai bl #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #my edits. #i added some notes and explanations that imo make this conversation easier to understand #because a lot of the nuances are lost in translation #which isn't the translator's fault - it's just how language works #i love it so much #and i love bruce #and we need more fem gays in bl #who are allowed to be loud and proud and are celebrated for it #Tud/tut might come from the movies Tootsie but I'm not sure #(false friends are a super common thing in linguistics and i haven't checked the word's etymology) #it's a term that chot has very obviously reclaimed for himself