#my brain just dont work right no more

[assless-chapstick]

Hellooo! Just wanted to say I love you’re Fics. You’re writing is so damn good, along with the smut. (Very hard for me to write) is very impressive! Any more fics in the pimple line?

feller I'm so glad you enjoyed them!! I really enjoyed writing and sharing them and I'm tryna get that fire back !!

since my Kîyanaw series turned 4 this year, I was brainstorming some ideas and was thinking about another part...

like 8 years on Arthur and Charles have made good, they've got a herd of cattle now and have hired on a couple hands (the sons of the old spinsters what helped them get their start) and they ain't just homesteaders no more but real ranchers. They're comfortable - maybe Arthur has even seriously started working on illustrations of herbs and wildflowers, fixing to get them published as a field guide or something...

anyway they're comfy and happy and living a charmed life... the RCMP come around some times, and it still gets their hackles up, but they're ok.

And then one day they get a letter.

Charles had been at the post office, picking up some parcels, sending out one of Arthur's illustrations to the publisher maybe, making smalltalk with the postmaster. And the postmaster he goes like "hey you fellers employ drifters and the like up at your place, right? anyone pass through by the name of Tacitus Kilgore?"

and that's how they get word, a sneaky letter from Sadie, that she's alive. That John and Abigail and lil Jackie - who must be what, shit, fourteen? - are still alive.

and shit happens they head down there and Arthur and John have a super emotionally fraught reunion cuz like, John is so happy to see him but so fuckin angry because he thought Arthur had died, and then because he feels like Arthur abandoned him like, why didn't you look for me? You say up there on your fancy fuckin ranch for eight god damned years and you never thought to look for me?

And this is at the point when Abigail and Jack aren't around and John is tryna build that house... and just such a super low point so it's very emotional and hard on him and he's mad but only cuz that's how all his emotions present themselves djbdbdbd

and then Charles and Arthur help him build the house and there's one night, just one where John is drunk(er than usual) and lamenting the loss of his family and he turns to Arthur for comfort the same way he always has and then John is kissing on Arthur's neck by the light of the fire and Arthur's hands are on John's hips to push him away but he looks over John's shoulder at Charles and they communicate in that quiet, sacred way they do...

and Charles is a sex freak who loves to watch so he watches as Arthur fucks John in this way where it's like, this is a relationship that is so unnameable... it's not just friendship not just fraternity it's like there's this connection where Arthur is the only person in the world who knows John the way John knows Arthur... so he fucks him and Charles watches and then they all make out

and in the morning John pretends it never happened like "I'm gonna get my wife back... I'm just not the type to share. Sorry Charles" and like it was just this one time thing and it gives John the willpower to carry on and hustle for his family dhhfhf idk that's just my idea

and then I had an idea too for just a fun one shot of John/Arthur gunplay where Arthur takes the cold barrel of his revolver and runs it along the bony jut of John's hip bone where it peeks over the waistband of his pants.... and he calls John the ugliest sonofabitch he's ever seen and spits on his face even as he so gently gathers John's hair up in his hand so John can open his mouth so Arthur can gently gently fuck it with his gun and then maybe also his dick

idk mister I'm just in a fun goofy mood that's what's been on my mind lately!! thanks for asking!!

#thats why i started replaying the game #so i can get to the epilogue and remember the series of events so i dont contradict canon too much jsjjshs #cuz kiyanaw is nothing if not accurate!!! #tho idk if getting any of this written is a realistic goal #ill be real with you fellers im Kinda Disabled #and i been working full time for a couple months in order to train for a new position im taking at work #a better higher paying less demanding position #but idk when im working i get so burned out i just cant write the way i want #i cant make the words come out good #i wrote most of kiyanaw when i was at university and had a lot more community around me too #and wasnt so fuckin exhausted from social interaction all the time #ill do my best but i really can't promise ill ever write nothin #i was like a man possessed back then #its a shame tho cuz i really really enjoy writing and do legitimately want to do it #my brain just dont work right no more #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2

[dandelion-roots]

No matter what you do, you just can't shake him off, can you, Chūya?

[lyrics: Florence + the Machine | id in alt]

EDIT: I made a whole ass janky animatic to this song, enjoy!

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #soukoku #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #nakahara chūya #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #ok so uh. i had so many thoughts while drawing this (for TEN HOURS my hand...) but then it came time to post it #and i considered srsly an emily bronte quote (pls dont shoot- if wuthering heights has anything going for it its violence and intensity) #but it didnt fit quite right so i left it out #i have so many thoughts and feelings i have no more words #my fave is the second drawing but i think the fourth is the best #dazai's* collar on chuuya (*possibly related to dazai and the whole dog thing. dont ask what going on in my head) #and chuuya's hand on dazai's throat #what was it someone said in tags of my gon charov bsd drawing?? im eating drywall or smt similar?? thats me rn #double black #also to ppl who know the song- shake it out- yes i removed one lyric i just couldnt make it work #i considered putting it as the caption but didnt work there either rip #also removed the (shake him off) that's part of the lyrics but i did put that in the caption. galaxy brain am i right #also the poses in drawing 1 and 2 are purposefully v similar #edit: fixed image 1 so the text is the same as in all other images fear not u did not imagine it hypothetical person im talking to rn

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos...... #watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits! #i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

[cirrus-grey]

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck the goddamn music-

I don't know the name for the technique but there's this thing that was in there that's the string players, like, tapping the instrument with the bow to create a more percussive sound and normally I wouldn't think too much of it but I swear to god it sounded like creeping spider legs. During the case set at Hill Top Road. With the very obvious references to the Buried and the Stranger and all the rest. Which dropped about a hundred Achives references including Jon's fucking name???

I have always respected the soundscaping they do at Rusty Quill but they're really going above and beyond for this show.

#i dont know if ill have any more coherent thoughts for this episode thb #my mind is just circling on 'celia knows celia KNOW tapes and manila folders??? doing her own research??? anything SPECIAL about #the ones that get read aloud????? #celia tma didnt know that much how does celia tmagp know did she talk to georgie and melanie after it all does she have news about them- #jon jon jon jon jon #lena worked for starkwell didnt she #jon- #did colin just fucking punch sam????? #j- #oh gwen you are in way over your head #dark coat does this worlds gerry work for starkwell too #celia KNOWS #JON #i hope people dont get too annoying about 'its really him' yall know it could just be an ai #SAM TALK TO CELIA ABOUT THE EMAIL FROM JON #i can send email - no shit really??' #...yeah. my brain's a mess right now #this is what i get for listening at 1am #the magnus protocol #7 give and take #tmagp spoilers #tmagp audio #my magnus protocol stuff #original post #queue cause i'll be at work when the episode airs

[whiteheart7]

i really really really like that elora, bear, willie jack, and cheese are all still friends in the end. none of them got together romantically. theyre really close and they love each other so much and theyre friends. i was so afraid that when bear and elora had that moment in the chapel they were going to confess feelings for each other but they didnt. theyre friends and they love each other and arent afraid to say it. they hugged!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and theyre friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#i just finished catching up with rez dogs and the series finale #oh man #i am sososososo glad theyre all just. one big happy family #THEYRE FAMILY!!!!!! AND THEY LOVE EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!! #sorry my brain doesnt work right now so have what i can offer #i am feeling very acearo right now #reservation dogs #willie jack #elora danan #bear smallhill #cheese reservation dogs #rip cheese he doesnt have his own tag #also good for big and bev #also also i Did Not expect uh. bear and jackie to get together but good for them too #sorry more rambling but #i am so grateful that we got a show about family and friends and community and that there was no overarching or even side plot about romanc #not only that but the main characters arent siblings and i dont even think theyre actual cousins #so the fact that EVEN THEN none of them got together is a blessing and i love you sterlin harjo thank you for this #i know theres other shows where theres an overarching theme of family but like #it ends up being a given because theyre related and it would be weird to ship them #but AGAIN #4 characters. not related. same age. sexualities never discussed. stay friends. and then become CLOSER FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! #achshdhskfjdh im just repeating stuff please just take this

[pepperpixel]

got to see the total eclipse in person!!! heres some art commemorating that! cuz getting to watch 2 celestial bodies make out sloppy style was inspiring what can i say, also it was just rlly beautiful and cool and amazing to get to see ghg- but also! its like?? basically the moon finally getting the suns undivided attention... and thats got some vibes to it,, some energies... that i could not ignore lol.

#original art #eclipse #solar eclipse 2024 #total eclipse #doodles #original #artists on tumblr #ok sorry these r probably kinda sloppy looking. 1 paintings very difficult. #and 2. my brain wouldnt let me work on other shit before finishing these but i have other shit i NEED TO DO #so im deciding they r now finished i dont wanna spend any more time on them lol #i think they turned out ok tho #i recorded the process of me drawing them too so #there might..be a speedpaint. possibly #last time i said a picture would get a speedpaint was like 2 years ago and it didnt get one cuz my computer hated me lol #but! i have a new computer now... #if i find the time / energy to make that speedpaint.. then there might be a speedpaint #we shall see lol #i kno the height difference i gave them isnt acurate at all to actual sizes. the sun is bigger #but... this is what i wanted to draw gghgh- #if it makes u feel any better i did come up w a headcanon while drawing that they can just shapeshift freely n be whatever heights they wan #right now the moons just taller #cuz i said so #also sorry they kinda resemble my tak and gaz a bit… that wasn’t intentional… I just wanted the moon to be gothy and the sun be spiky #but #they kinda do look a bit like them ghg-

[turtletoria]

a mask of my own face

#turtlearts #dr two brains #scopophobia #body horror #sharp objects #let me know if theres anything else that needs tagged! #anyways. thats supposed to be a mirror btw #also i tried so hard to fit a lot of symbolism and random shit into it. i am so willing to pick this drawing apart so if youd like that send #an ask or smth!!!! #for real i sank so many hours into this... it was supposed to be a simple colored sketch lmao #i just kept adding onto it for weeks and weeks. and all for what #looked up so many references and had to learn how to do things and tried out new brushes for this omg #like i need to emphasize that this was so hard to do and for what!!!! a silly little halloween spooky month drawing??!?!?!?!?! #even now when i look at it i hate it so much i want to keep adding things to it #i have to post it NOW or else i will be working on it for the rest of my life #pls give me nice words so i dont regret all the time i sank into this drawing </3 #if u think im fishing for complements and looking all the more pathetic and desperate for it. ur right </3 im sorry

[skitskatdacat63]

More matador!Fernando! Ferrari this time :D (I can't help myself.....)

- facial hair

+ closeups

I really wanted the vibe of this Nando pic, I think I did pretty well??

#GUYS THE BULL DO YOU NOTICE WHAT BULL DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE SUBTEXT DO YOU UNDERSTAND MY IMPLICATION #lmao tho i mostly put it there cause i saw this rly cool pic w the shadow of a bull on a matador's cape #i dont understand how i ended up making this one more intensive and detailed than the other #but im not mad cause i really like it aaahhhhhh #but i think this one took more than 6 hours and the other one was 5½? #and both i ended up working until an absolutely horrible time. dont ask me what time i wrote this post #okay btw i didnt draw that embroidery. thank you medibang pattern brush now beloved 🙏 #i think it suits him!!!! i was thinking of doing stars anyways so I'm glad it worked out #two people id like to blame: #thank you 005 for accidentally reminding me of the sword!! im glad his other hand is not just idle :) #and thank you suzuki-ecstar for asking me at some point if id ever draw facial hair on nando #^ particularly the 3 Musketeers look. so thanks. i suddenly remembered and i had to draw it 😭 #it kept shocking me how baby faced i drew him every time i took that layer off #also every time i worked on the suit red genuinely ceased being an actual color to me #its bright red right?? like very fluorescent?? but my brain kept going: is this too orange?? this isnt red right???? #anyways happy with this!!!!! there were a lot more roadblocks than the other but it all worked out #but wow wish i had this level of diligence for yknow. schoolwork. #i can spend 6+ hours on a drawing straight but school? nah i give up every 20 mins or less fjfkkfl #also not abandoning my other aus or anything but i have a lot more ideas for this honestly #i think the ref pics are a lot easier and more interesting to find than for my other AUs #<- cause its so much more modern lmao. so i have a lot more inspo than trying to find ultra specific 18th century paintings #i wanna draw 3 things rn: #nando w the ceremonial cape. seb in a matador suit. and of course some silly vett//onso in this AU #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #matador au

[koko2unite]

I'm so mentally ill I can only draw in my cheaply bought pre-owned tablet from 2015 using my computer in my silly little room in my house and not anywhere else

#what the hell #also idk how you guys can do it but drawing in ipad is so difficult #screen too tiny every button is so tiny half of my shortcuts doesnt work #sobbing #i wanna go home #oh i never told people but im at my parents house right now and i cant go home until uhm indefinitely #so not only my work commute is much more longer i also cant game #but also #i cant draw #even though i brought my ipad with me #because???? idfk #my brain suckssss #and if i push forward and keep drawing the result ended up looking shit and my mood just got worse and AAAAA #Also everybody here is on diet so no snacking!??? #im gonna cry #also i have 2 comms right now in the work but i didnt upload both in the cloud so i dont have the files rn and im crying and aaaaaaaa

[micromime]

LEAST profitable day

#wes #wes dst #wes dont starve #dst #bro just got off work and now is uh #working again #preconstant wes had to work 7 days a week to me #do you understand my vision #he was a line cook and did mime shit for fun (and some extra coin) #then when he got locked in a box for like 10 years he went mental #he was fucked up before right #but hes extra fucked up now #do you UNDERSTAND me #look at my art boy #my art #he lived in a shitty little apartment that he can hardly afford only because he wanted to live in the city #STUPID #big ass forehead and no brain to show for it #you would get more tips if it didn't look like you wanted to end it all weslie kins

[transformers-synergize]

Comment characters I've redesigned that ya want to see more art of, and I might draw a quick thing of them.

I'm currently working on some bigger stuff for this project, but I don't wanna leave this blog postless while to do so

#text post #i got 3 big things im doing #i just started the decepticon redesigns #im working on a lore post with a bunch of art all about cybertronian “”biology“” #and the main thing im focusing on right now is my plot outline #i know i dont have to figure out everything im doing plot wise but theirs definitely some key thing i want to figure out #main thing i struggle with is the start like i got most the early plot downs its just the first 2 chapters that are giving me brain damage #not posting the story outlines here because massive spoiler for everything #i mean even if i did start the comic i prob wouldn't finish it but still #no limit on how many characters you can ask for #more likely to drawn one's i haven't before #you can also anon message me who ya might wanna see me draw

[pineappical]

what are some your hc’s for tedtrent!! go crazy please!! :))

oh man oh man i know i have a whole bunch of them that i cannot for the life of me remember on the top of my head rn, which is why this ask is taking so long for me to answer but HMM...

i know that people like to make Trent out to be this, experienced Elder Gay type of guy but in my heart i know he's just as inexperienced to it as Ted (who, in my head, is bisexual, recently found out during his time in london or during the amsterdam episode even) and they're just two people falling in love in the most "I don't know how to do this, but I want to atleast try" way and at times get soo so so overwhelmed that someone loves them as much as they love the other. maybe their communication is absolute shit, maybe Trent doesn't even realize they're on their 3rd date and thought it was something similar to the indian restaurant where Ted just brought him along for dinner, i just think it could all be very silly, very intimate, just all around driving me up the damn walls!!!!!

oh also Trent absolutely hates Ted's whole, open jar peanut butter left on the counter for him to dip his finger into, thing. wishes daily that Ted would just use a darn spoon like a normal person 😭

#pn.ask #i wish i could go on and on and on because i have SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM but everytime im faced with this type of question my thoughts #blanks out so bad. i might probably go back to this to add more though if i thought about it enough <3 #like very silly headcanons like ted absolutely adores trent's daughter and brings her sweets (which trent loathes because crimmlet would #be bouncing off the walls for the next 3 hours) is just a (head)canon that most people already Have which i love too so i dont really want #to repeat what others are already saying LOL #if you go back to asks ive answered similar to this one i probably left similar ramblings like this in the tags... i know im def just #repeating myself because this One Thing of tedtrent being unexperienced but wanting it to work just itches my brain SO MUCH #something something higgins' whole. ''If you're with the right person. even the hard times are easy.'' thing. AGGGHH!!!!!! #I WANT IT I JUST WANT IT SO BAD!!!! RAAAAHHHHH

[dallonwrites]

i love you scrivener composition mode -- love from guy who got 700 words he did not expect to get tonight

#im working w new characters so i think i wrote more than i needed just bc. exposition and LEARNING!! discovery! but it was fun to just #figure them out #i did not write until 9pm which is when my brain stops functioning so i kinda just played around w it #which was what i needed i think cause new characters also i wrote so much yesterday !!!! #i know what needs to be written next and its from something i already wrote so im going to save that for tomorrow #so i have an easy starting point. and will probably play w what i wrote so its less exposition-y #i love using exposition purposefully as a discovery writer to learn as i go but i dont think exposition in this way is the right vibe for #this moment. but glad i had fun with it i love discovery writing characters!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#its weird. ive been feeling mostly ok #which i mostly attribute to the medication working but everything still feels hollow #which i guess i would associate with a lack of enrichment and human connection #but i dunno what i would even b looking for there. i dont kno how to feel joy #so i guess the medication isnt working that well #i dunno. sometimes i think my brain just doesn't work right. things dont connect in the right places #im also grappling constantly with the knowledge that i need to put more effort into reading #i know i bitch about it constantly but i cant express how profoundly frustrating it is to not be at the same reading level and everyone else #at the age of 26. its just gutting every time i cant carry out a conversation on a paper #like genuinely i might have to rethink my whole future bc i dunno. i dunno it just doesn't seem reasonable with my lack of basic #reading skills. im already opperating far above my head. ill read a paper 3 times and not understand. its so frustrating #its stupid. but whatever. im supposed to cultivate gratitude. ill try again tomorrow #im just frustrated bc i kno it wont get easier. i just have to work harder #unrelated

[toytulini]

terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.

#toy txt post #this was meant to be a quick post it got a bit longer and more in depth than i planned oops #i just hate when ppl act like All Dogs have Inherently Correct Judgement Of People #like from every angle. its funny to joke about but i know theres ppl out there who might be feeling like #very fragile in their gender or smth and seeing a post like that if they meet a dog that normally hates men but not women but it doesnt #recognize your inherent true gender im sure seeing shit like that post can be a horr #got interrupted by a phone call while typing it and the post is glitching so i cant see where that tag is cut off so uh #dogs are like ppl in that they can develop biases and have bad judgement and they dont always get it right #they are not like ppl in that it is not possible to ask a dog to examine its biases. you cannot make a dog take a class on #critical race theory. you have to work to socialize and desensitize them against those biases or at least make sure those biases theyve #developed dont negatively impact ppl. in this sense i guess im morally obligated to try to learn more spanish to see if it helps my dog #chill. shes nervous around all new ppl but parents have anecdotally noted she extra dislikes men speaking in spanish. she was a stray so we #dont really know her history. she also does Not like fire pokers outside. weirdly even tho its basically the same tool she is unfazed by #the indoor poker for the woodstove? but ig she wouldve had less exposure to indoor woodstoves as a stray in Louisiana? #but i can see like ppl having a little backyard barbecue and threatening the big mastiff looking stray dog with a fire poker and i think #that region of the country prolly has a higher number of spanish speaking ppl than our current residence so the odds of her running into a #spanish speaking guy who isnt very nice are prolly higher just due to a denser population as a whole. and we think shes part mastiff which #i think is a breed already prone to disliking strangers that probably cooked up into a little cocktail in her brain #luckily shes bad enough with All Strangers that i think honestly it would be hard to even notice her bias? but. ig i need to see if i can #desensitize her? idk. sighs but im scared to open duolingo now 😭. but i could maybe do it. when other ppl wear hats she fucking hates it #i wear a fucking face covering mask that looks like a giant eyeball she looks at me a little quizzically but is fine. jester hat? fine #i am like that video of the person desensitizing that horse except thats just like. living w me. minus the cat thing. id never do that to #the cats or dog. everyone would hate that. squirrel already cant tolerate being held while a dog is out cos he THINKS im going to do that. #it would traumatize the dog cos he'd injure me escaping and then prolly her trying to scare her off to get past her and shes just minding #her business. solo i cant hold that long but is less likely to injure anyone. shadow. first of all all 3 are way too heavy to be holding #like that #im getting lost in the tags again sorry im chewing caffeinated gum. i should go try to buy some catnip #ive made my Phone Calls. im gonna try to go get dressed and buy various catnip products. maybe lure him with a toy this time. need my #parents to help me but not be so visibly Ready to help me next time cos i do not want to chase his ass again...

[soldier-poet-king]

I need to go thrifting and overhaul my wardrobe I need to go thrifting and overhaul my wardrobe sososo bad

#the duality of fran #yes im whining and being vain at work #but like. im just. burdened with guilt abt clothes for various reasons #and i would rlly feel better about life and myself if i dressed the way i wanted #i miss being close to things! i want to pop into thrift stores on a whim and find perfect pieces and be me #im tired of making do with things given to me that i feel obligated to make use of. or that dont sit right #or that are hyperfeminine and never my style anyway #where are the earth toned masc clothes for short broad hipped round tummy people #i did round 1 of a purge this weekend. if im still feeling antsy ill do round 2 tonight #problem is i always feel guilty and end ip keeping shit i know i wont wear #i have to. kondo it. in the sense of. does this spark joy #at least for my clothes. its the only way to fight the brain guilt #no i do NOT want this sundress in fact if it were up to me i wouldnt own more than 1 summer and 1 winter dress #that's it!! where are my fuckin pants and button ups