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Midnight | Chapter 19 | SR

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A/N - a slight jump forward in time here. For the sake of this, Spencer’s mom lives back in Vegas.

Chapter Summary - after finding a new place to settle down, things finally seem like they might be looking up for you and Spencer. Meanwhile Luke refuses to rest while he continues searching for you.

Pairing - unsub! Spencer Reid / Fem! Reader

Category - dark angst | smut | very eventual happy ending

Warnings - cleaning up a crime scene, burying bodies, fingering, handjob, swearing, vomit, brief mention of depression, penetrative, unprotected sex, lying.

WC - 5.7k

Chapter 19 - Stitch Me Up

Two Months Later

The desert city of Twentynine Palms, California was located in the Mojave Desert and sat on the northern side of the Joshua Tree National Park and promoted the motto “a beautiful desert oasis”.

It wasn’t small but it was huge either, with a population of around twenty five thousand, making it a great place for two people to hide in plain sight. And given its desert location, the temperature this time of year was over one hundred and five, a stark contrast from tiny little Colorado mountain towns.

Samuel and Violet Truman of Arizona had moved out west and rented themselves a little fully furnished three bed, single storey home on Chia Avenue in a quiet suburb of Twentynine Palms. They arrived two weeks ago after spending some six weeks travelling the states with their travel companions Jack and Lily Waters.

From the outside their home left a lot to be desired, with its rickety metal fence and lone palm tree in the sandy front yard. But the inside was so modern and sheek that the couple had signed a lease on the spot.

From the outside looking in, you and Spencer were the idyllic all American couple. And admittedly, from the inside you were also pretty damn happy.

Since fleeing Crested Butte in the middle of the night two months ago, things had changed dramatically. That night you’d waited until Luke had stopped patrolling your cabin before getting Mary’s body into the trunk of the Nissan. You’d scrubbed every single inch of the house until it was cleaner than when you’d arrived, tweezed the bullet out of the wall and filled in the hole left behind, before gathering all of your belongings and getting the hell out of dodge.

On the way out of town you had begged Spencer to make one last stop. He wanted to refuse, you could tell, but he was trying so hard to make you happy, to make up for the way he’d been treating you that he agreed and pulled the Nissan to a stop on the street outside of McGills.

It had been late and all the lights were off so you’d ducked down the side alley towards the door that led up to his apartment. You’d had no idea if he’d be there but you’d prayed with every fibre of your being that he would. And by some stroke of luck, he answered the door after you’d knocked twice.

“Rose,” he folded his arms across his chest and leant against the door jamb. “Or should I say, Y/N.”

“I heard Luke spoke to you.” You gnawed on your lip as Jesse regarded you like the stranger you were.

“He did. I have to say, I did not expect you to be FBI.”

“Yeah.” You nodded. “It’s a long story. I just wanted to come by and apologise for everything. I probably really shouldn’t have let myself follow you out of the Nickel that night.”

“I’m glad you did.” He nodded, dropping his arms to his sides. “Even though it didn’t work out between us, it at the very least got me out of my slump. Maybe now I can actually put myself out there again, you know? Now I’ve gotten over that first hurdle.”

“You’re going to make some woman very happy someday.” You smiled, subconsciously taking a step closer.

“It’s a shame it couldn’t have been you.” He shrugged wistfully.

You swallowed thickly, glancing down the alley and noting that you couldn’t see the Nissan from this position, or more importantly, its occupant couldn’t see you. You stepped even closer to Jesse and cupped his cheek.

“In another life maybe.” You whispered. “I’m leaving town.”

“I figured as much.” He nodded as your hand wandered down from his face to bicep. “You could stay, you know? With me. You don’t have to go just because he wants you to.”

“You have no idea how tempting that is. But I can’t.”

“I know.” He sighed, suddenly gripping the back of your neck. “I’m going to miss you.”

Suddenly he’d slammed his lips against yours in a kiss so passionate your legs had buckled. If Spencer knew how you’d said goodbye to Jesse, he most likely would have gone back and killed him. If he’d known you’d let Jesse finger you in his doorway while you jerked him off in return, Spencer would have certainly murdered him and probably enjoyed it.

But clearly you had a better poker face than you realised as Spencer simply drove off as soon as you were back in the car. And on the drive the only thing you’d thought of were Jess’s last words to you.

“I wish I’d gotten a chance to love you, Y/N.”

But at some point you had to let that go.

Mary’s final resting place had been a hole in the ground in the Beaverhead-Deerlodge National Forest in Montana, almost eight hundred miles north of her hometown of Crested Butte. The Nissan met the same fate as Spencer’s Volvo a further five hundred and fifty miles east just outside of Medora, North Dakota.

Spencer purchased three pairs of bus tickets: one down to Texas, one out to Minnesota and one to Iowa, the latter being the ones you actually used. It took the better part of an entire day on a sweaty, smelly bus before you arrived in Cedar Rapids.

You checked into a cheap and dirty motel under the names of Jack and Lily Waters and spent almost the entire night having sex. Thoroughly exhausted in the morning, Spencer found a used car lot and using his Arizona licence in the name Samuel Truman, paid cash for a black Chevy Impala.

For the six weeks that followed you travelled up and down the country in much of a zigzag, alternating between your two pseudonyms, back and forth so the BAU would never find you. You spent six weeks in multiple different cheap motels, fucking like rabbits every step of the way.

You’d never felt so intrinsically linked to someone the way you did to Spencer in those six weeks. And it seemed he’d finally found his bliss as he didn’t kill once.

Eventually when enough time passed you’d choose to settle down in California. But unfortunately the mundane realities of life would ultimately be your downfall.

You stood up from the bathroom floor with a groan, wiping the back of your hand over your mouth and padding over to the sink. You stuck your mouth directly under the faucet and drank from it to wash away the taste of bile on your tongue.

You’d been throwing up on and off for some weeks now but you simply put it down to the residual stress of being on the run. You exhaled heavily before shuffling back out into the bedroom where Spencer still lay naked on top of the sheets.

“I’m mildly offended.” He offered you a wistful smile.

“I’m sorry.” You grumbled, flopping back to the bed next to him.

“It’s ok. Just never had anyone need to throw up whilst sucking my dick before.” He chuckled, wrapping his arm around your shoulders.

“It’ll teach me not to eat hotdogs from a gas-and-go.” You sighed. “I can try again if you’re still in the mood?”

“After I just listened to you puke your guts up? I’m suddenly not very horny.” He pulled you closer so your head was resting on his chest. “But seriously, are you ok? You’ve been getting sick a lot lately.”

“Yeah I guess it’s stress or something. I’ll be fine.” You nuzzled against him, placing your hand flush against his chest over his heart.

You smiled as the ring caught the light and found yourself moving impossibly closer to Spencer. His grandmother's old ring had been upgraded, as had the one he wore, for newer silver matching bands inscribed on the inside with partners in crime.

One of your stops on your travels before you’d made your way to Twentynine Palms had been in Atlantic City at a seedy motel just off the main strip. After a few drinks one night as you walked by a little drive-in chapel, Spencer had a proposition for.

“What would you say I said we should get married?” He pulled you to a stop on the sidewalk.

“Married?” You glared at him.

“Right now. Partners in crime forever.” He grinned at you.

“You’re joking, right?” Your brows furrowed.

“I’ve never been more serious about anything in my life. Before we get swallowed up entirely in the lives of Samuel and Violet, I think Spencer and Y/N need to do this one last thing.”

And really there had only been one answer to that. You and Spencer had been bound for life the moment you’d left DC with him, you were as good as married, so why not make it official?

If your old team were to ever find one last trace of Spencer Reid and Y/N Y/L/N it would be the signing of marriage licences in a little Atlantic City chapel.

Spencer purchased you the new rings as a surprise and that along with your rose gold heart necklace, were your most treasured possessions.

“You don’t need to be stressed, sweetheart. It’s over, we’re safe now. I’ll never let anything bad happen to you.” He cooed, kissing your head.

It really was amazing the difference a few months could make. Of course things weren’t ideal, you’d always be on the run, never able to return home but things with Spencer were as close to perfect as they could possibly be.

Since fleeing Butte he’d been wonderful, the Spencer you’d known was still in there somewhere. You may be on the run but as long as this was the Spencer you woke up to every morning, you didn’t mind at all.

But Spencer was wrong, things were far from over. At least you’d always have these moments to look back when everything came crumbling down. But for now, despite the stress within you, you knew Spencer was all you needed to feel whole. You and Spencer were two broken halves but maybe together you could patch each other up and finally feel complete.

***

Two days after Luke Alvez arrived back from Crested Butte he received a phone call from the diner owner's son.

Jesse McGill had informed him of the mysterious disappearance of the girl Mary, whom Luke had met at the diner, which was followed in quick succession by you and Spencer’s sudden departure from the town.

It really didn’t take a genius to put two and two together. But unfortunately for Luke it did take a genius to pull it off and Spencer was sure to leave behind no trail, no scrap of evidence. And two months later and Mary still hadn’t been found and the BAU had no leads on you and Spencer’s whereabouts. You’d well and truly outsmarted them.

In his spare time, which was very few and far between these days, he poured over the Duncan Green case file as well as images of the sparkling clean cabin you’d left behind in Butte in the hopes that maybe he’d missed something. He stayed late in the office every single night and looked for any reports of sightings of you and Spencer as Emily had officially registered you as missing persons. He scrolled through police databases for any other occurrences that might point to where the hell you were.

He’d discovered two bodies buried in woodlands across the country which were similar in MO to Green but with no pertinent links between them, the BAU couldn’t investigate.

Lyle Smith was found in a shallow grave with his throat cut in the Hoosier National Forest just north of Jasper, Indiana. The body of Brett Carlisle from Wichita, Kansas was found in the Rita Blanca National Grasslands in Texas. Both bodies had been subject to the elements but deemed to have been dead since before that little Nissan was picked up on Elk Avenue for the first time. So maybe Spencer had been on some kind spree since he’d left DC.

And that brought him onto the discovery of the burnt out Nissan, near identical to how they’d found Spencer’s Volvo. They’d spent three days searching the area surrounding where the vehicle was found for Mary’s body only to come up short. Of course, Spencer wasn’t stupid, he wouldn’t dispose of a body anywhere near the car.

The only lead Luke had really had in the last two months was the filing of a marriage licence in the state of New Jersey. It was like a big middle finger in his face, clearly you’d both wanted him to find it. He’d driven to Atlantic City on one of his rare days off and canvassed the area near the wedding chapels, showing your photographs to anyone who would look. But he knew you’d be long gone.

If he could just find a way to connect any of these crimes to Spencer, or to find Mary’s body then maybe he could convince you to come home. He was sure you had nothing to do with any of this and if had solid proof that Spencer had murdered one of these people maybe it could be his way to form a wedge between the two of you. No matter what happened, Luke would never stop trying to protect you.

But god if it wasn’t taking its toll on him.

Luke Alvez was, in no uncertain terms, coming apart at the seams. The stitching holding him together had been removed thread by thread and at this point there was barely anything holding him together. Emily had expressed her concerns for his mental health, suggesting he seek medical help for what she had dubbed a depressive spiral.

His response had been simply, “you’d be depressed too if your best friend had married a murderer” which had pretty much shut down the conversation.

He knew he was devolving, he’d seen it hundred of times before. His apartment was a mess of case files, innocuous accounts of possible sightings and potential victims of Spencer. He barely slept, running mostly on coffee and energy bars. He was almost certain he was getting an ulcer.

But he wouldn’t let this go. He couldn’t shake the feeling that you weren’t safe and he couldn’t rest until he knew you were. Maybe this obsession would eventually kill him, but it would be worth it to be able to free you from the clutches of Spencer Reid.

***

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” You scurried back to the car with your best apologetic smile as you slid into the passenger’s seat and Spencer pulled a face.

“Did you puke again?” He frowned at you.

“No.” You shook your head.

“You were peeing again? You went when we got here.” He started the engine.

You weren’t exactly sure where you were headed, Spencer had simply told you that you were going out for the day and with nothing better to do you’d followed along. You were somewhere along the I-15 heading north about two hours away from Twentynine Palms, at a gas station. You’d only stopped long enough for Spencer to fill up the Chevy and have a coffee and you’d used the bathroom twice, which was very unlike you.

“I know, I think I drank too much coffee this morning.” You mused, putting on your seatbelt.

“You always drink too much coffee, but that’s an entirely different conversation.” He chuckled, putting the car in reverse and pulling out of the space.

As he merged back onto the interstate you twirled your wedding band around your finger, watching the way his caught the sunlight through the windscreen and you smiled to yourself.

“Where are we going, Spence? Not that I don’t like a spontaneous road trip but I thought we’d settled now? Driving long distances usually only equals bad things where we’re concerned.” You rolled your bottom lip between your teeth.

Spencer removed one hand from the wheel and brought it to rest on your knee while he smiled at you softly.

“We’re going to see my mom.” He spoke happily.

“Oh.” You nodded with a soft laugh. “Ok, good. You had me worried for a second.”

“I told you sweetheart, you don’t need to worry about anything. Not anymore.” He gave your leg a squeeze, the adrenaline pulsing through his veins.

His bloodlust had been sated for the past two months but now it had come back with avengence. He needed to kill and he had a particular target in mind who he was sure would satisfy his urges more so than any that had come before.

But it was better to keep you in the dark. You were so happy lately and Spencer loved it when you were happy. He’d use visiting his mom as a distraction and he’d sneak off and extract his plan solo. You’d never need to know and your blissful little bubble didn’t need to be popped.

It was a win-win.

He ran over his plan in his head as he drove, making sure he had all the little details secure in his mind. There was no margin for error here, this had to be the perfect kill.

The two of you mostly stayed silent until he’d made it about another half hour up the interstate and you huffed out a loud breath.

“Goddamnit,” you grumbled. “I need to pee again.”

***

Visiting Spencer’s mom had been pretty safe for the two of you given that if anyone ever asked her if you’d been here, she most likely wouldn’t remember. You spent a few hours with her upon your arrival in Vegas before Spencer took you for a three course meal at the very expensive Capital Grille on Las Vegas strip.

After he walked you down to Caesars Palace in which you expected to be having drinks and were extremely surprised when Spencer strolled up to the reception desk stating he had a room reserved under his other alias Jack Waters.

A bellboy led you up to one of the top floors and showed you to the Palace Premium Suite. You stood in the middle of the grand living room while Spencer tipped the young man and once the door was closed and the two of you were alone, he sidled up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist.

“You like it?” He spoke as he kissed the side of your face.

“Wh-what is happening?” You laughed, still in awe. “What did I do to deserve this?”

“Consider it a belated, one night honeymoon.” His lips trailed down your neck. “And I guess just a small token of my gratitude for everything you’ve done for me. I know I have a hard time saying how I feel but I love you so fucking much and I am the luckiest man in the world to call you my wife.”

“Spencer,” you sighed happily in your arms. “I love you too. And I’m the lucky one.”

“Ok, now we’ve got that out of the way, tell me Mrs Reid, where would you like me to fuck you first?”

You moaned at his words, turning yourself around in his arms and attaching your lips together.

“What are my options?” You spoke against his lips, feeling his dick growing hard as he pressed into you.

“Well there are multiple couches, a four poster king sized bed, a pretty decadent bathtub, or there’s my personal favourite option…” his hands wandered under the hem of your shirt and over your back.

“Which is?” You took hold of his lapels, tearing your lips away from his so you could look at him.

His pupils were already blown out with his lust, his lip quirked up into a sinful smirk.

“We’re way up high, with some of the best views of Vegas.” He tugged your shirt up, quickly getting it over your head and tossing it aside. He took hold of your biceps and turned you back around to face the huge floor to ceiling windows overlooking the strip, his lips moving back to your ear. “My choice would be to fuck you up against the window. But that’s just me.”

He was already leading you towards the windows, lips sucking the flesh of your neck, his free reaching between your bodies and unhooking your bra. He quickly got it off your arms and dropped it on the floor, and you made no protest when he pushed your front up against the window. You hissed slightly at the cool glass as it touched your nipples and Spencer smiled to himself.

It was all a part of his plan. He would render you dumb with sex then run you an indulgent bubble bath with a large glass of wine to soothe your post-coital muscles. Then he’d tell you he’d left something at his mother's facility which was purposefully on the other side of town to buy him some time.

He’d tell you he hopefully wouldn’t be gone long, but traffic on the strip at night could be a nightmare and he’d be back as soon as possible. He’d inform you of the bar and the spa downstairs if you wanted to use either while he was gone.

And while you were preoccupied having a drink or getting a massage or whatever, he would seek out his target, slice his throat and be back before you knew it, with any luck rejuvenated enough for round two.

He continued kissing your neck while he started unbuttoning your pants and you helped him wiggle them down your legs and kick them off. You could see Spencer in the reflection in the window start to work on the buttons of his shirt. You caught his eye and he smiled at you.

He shucked his shirt off and pressed his bare chest against your back, caging you against the window with his hips, his hard cock pressing into your back. His lips moved back to your neck and worked on sucking deep bruises into your flesh whilst one hand wandered over your stomach and quickly dipped inside your panties.

You closed your eyes as two fingers were soon pressing inside of you, his thumb massaging your clit. You rolled your ass backwards, grinding against his erection but you wobbled a little on your legs at the feeling of his fingers inside you.

With your eyes closed your mind wandered of its own accord. There were times when you and Spencer were together that you found yourself thinking of Jesse, most specifically the last time you’d seen him when he’d fingered you in his doorway.

It was entirely involuntary, you certainly didn’t mean to think about him and his strong tattooed arms and the large vein in his forearm that pulsed when his fingers were inside of you. You didn’t mean to imagine his wiry beard scratching your face as he kissed you. And you most definitely didn’t mean to picture him fucking you whilst Spencer was. Sometimes it just happened.

Spencer was by no means an idiot and he knew you still thought about GI Mountain Man. He knew exactly what you looked like post orgasm and he’d known what the two of you had been doing when you’d said goodbye to him, even if you’d tried hard to hide it. There had been three, maybe four times when you’d said his name under your breath when he was fucking you but you’d never seemed to notice.

Of course it bothered him, a part of him wanted to drive back to Butte and kill Jesse just to make himself feel better. But he was trying to be better for you and so he ignored the occasional slip of the tongue.

Your hand snaked around his wrist, holding him firmly in place in your panties. He knew you were thinking about Jesse now, call it intuition, or gut instinct, but whatever it was Spencer knew.

He used his free hand to relieve himself from his pants and move them down his thighs enough so they were out of his way. He was almost positive that Jesse wasn’t as big as him, couldn’t fill you up the way he could.

In one swift move, he removed his fingers from inside of you and hurriedly plunged his cock between your legs, causing you to gasp and fall flat against the window. Your eyes sprung open at the sudden intrusion and you made eye contact with him in the reflection.

“Jesus Christ, Spence.” You panted as he bottomed out. “A little warning next to him.”

He chose to ignore you, placing his hands flush on the glass either side of your head as he started thrusting into you. He kept eye contact through the glass, not letting you close your eyes for fear you would start thinking of Jesse again.

It’s not fair. I’ve done everything for her, I fucking married her and it’s still not enough. What makes him better than me? Why is he still on her mind?

He tried not to let his anger cloud his judgement and had to rein himself back from fucking you too hard. He forced himself to slow down, thrusting you languidly against the window. You moaned in sync with one another while the Strip below illuminated you both in its chaotic glow.

You kept your eyes on his in the reflection while he fucked you and all thoughts of Jesse left your head. When you were clenching around him, legs shaking from your impending orgasm, he took hold of your left hand and ran his fingers over your wedding band.

“You’re mine.” He mumbled, his face contorting as his own orgasm snuck up on him. “Mine. My partner in crime, my wife, my…fuck.”

He groaned the last word, head falling to your shoulder as he suddenly came inside of you. You whimpered as he filled you up, pushing you over the edge and your legs almost gave up with the force of your orgasm.

You fell back against Spencer’s chest, his arms holding you up right even though his own legs were shaking. As you fought to catch your breath he peeled you away from the window as he slid out of you and helped you over to the couch.

You collapsed onto it, panting heavily and pulling Spencer down with you. He laid his head on your chest and listened to the sound of your erratic heartbeat.

You laid like this for a while until you were both breathing at a normal rhythm and Spencer untangled himself from your arms and got to his feet. He tucked himself away and tugged his pants back up before buttoning them.

“I’m gonna run you a bubble bath.” He smiled softly down at you.

“You gonna join me in it?” You smiled back sleepily.

“Sadly not, I realised I left my wallet at Bennington.” He went to head towards the bathroom but he didn’t get far.

“You had your wallet at dinner.” You sat up, frowning at the back of his head.

Spencer froze in his tracks. Oh shit, oh shit, oh shit.

“Uh,” he turned back to face you, quickly trying to think on his feet, which would be a lot easier if his head wasn’t still hazy from his orgasm. “Not my wallet, I meant the burner phone. I should go and get it.”

You scrutinised him for a moment but thankfully for him your own head was also bleary and wouldn’t allow you to think too much into it.

“Ok.” You shrugged, flopping back to the couch.

Spencer exhaled heavily, continuing on his way to the bathroom. He started the water, pouring in an ample amount of bubble bath and leaving the tub to fill.

“There’s a bar downstairs and a spa, even a casino. If you get bored with the bath and I’m not back, go nuts.” He spoke as headed back into the room, locating the bottle of red wine he’d had sent to the room before you arrived.

He made quick work of the cork and poured you a large glass before coming back over to the couch and dropping down next to you. He handed you the glass and you sat yourself up against the cushions again.

“Hmm I like honeymoons.” You smiled, bringing your glass to your lips and taking a small sip.

Moments later your face fell and you gagged, thrusting the glass back at Spencer before leaping from the couch and running as fast as your legs could carry you to the bathroom.

Spencer heard the toilet seat slam back against the cistern and then the distinctive sound of vomiting echoed around the room.

Realistically he was smart enough to figure out what was going on, as were you, but both of your heads were clouded by other thoughts and so you both missed the obvious.

Spencer padded back to the bathroom and found you on your knees, wiping your hand over your mouth. You looked up at him with large, sad eyes.

“The wine turned against me.” You whined. “Goddamn gas-and-go hotdogs.”

Spencer smiled sadly at you and slid to the floor next to you, wrapping an arm around your shoulders as the bath continued to fill behind him.

“Are you going to be ok if I pop out?” Please god say yes, I need this, it has to be tonight.

“Yeah, I’ll be fine. It’s passed again now, I guess I just won’t be drinking any wine tonight.” You sighed. “You go, do your thing.”

“As long as you’re sure.” Spencer pushed himself back to his feet and then held his hands out to help you up.

“Of course. Do you think you’ll be gone for long?”

“No idea, traffic at this time of night will probably be a pain, but I promise I’ll hurry.” He stroked your hair back from your face.

“Ok.” You nodded, lowering yourself to sit on the edge of the tub. “Go, I’m fine. I can run a bath.”

“I won’t be long.” He went to kiss you but then thought better of it as your breath smelt like vomit. Instead he kissed his first and middle finger and then placed them on your lips making you chuckle.

Soon he was heading out of the room in search of his bag so he could change into jeans and t-shirt. The weapons were in the Chevvy’s glovebox, ready for their next assignment.

He dressed quickly and got his shoes on, throwing on a hoodie before grabbing the car keys and heading to the door.

“Be safe, sweetheart.” He called as he reached for the handle.

“Love you.” You replied and it made his heart swell every time he heard you say that.

As he opened the door, his wedding ring caught his eye and he rolled his lip between his teeth. He forced open the door, ignoring the way his heart practically exploded when he looked at his ring. He had a job to focus on.

But the truth was, you were the only thing keeping him together. He was lost and you’d found him, taken him in and patched him up. His scars both mental and physical didn’t phase you, if anything you’d loved him harder because of them. You’d fixed him up in ways you’d never understand and he hoped he wasn’t making a huge mistake in what he was about to do.

He was fairly certain you’d never walk away from him, that nothing he could do could be worse than the things he’d already put you through. Because he was sure one day all that thread keeping him together would come unravelled and if he had no one there to stitch him back up again he would be torn so deeply there would be no repairing him. And god only knows how quickly a broken man would devolve.

No, it's no wonder I feel broken,

Are you the one to fix me up, patching up the work they done?

Try and sew me,

So thread the needle, tie it off, teach me how to trust someone.

Really hoping that you stay,

That you never walk away,

Every word I shouldn't say, I shouldn't say, I shouldn't say it.

Do you feel the stress in me,

Steady bursting at the seams?

You're the only one I need to make me complete, yeah.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, don't tear me apart,

I've been stuck in the rut, patched up in the dark.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, there's pins in my heart, oh,

Pardon all my precious scars.

No, it's no wonder you've been feeling,

Like a doll in lost and found, so mistreated, thrown around.

Who you kidding? (You kidding),

Every flaw and every fray, that's what makes you sexy to me.

Really hoping that I stay,

I could never walk away,

Every word we shouldn't say, we shouldn't say, we shouldn't say it.

Do you feel the stress in me,

Steady bursting at the seams?

You're the only one I need to make me complete, yeah.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, don't tear me apart,

I've been stuck in the rut, patched up in the dark.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, there's pins in my heart, oh,

Pardon all my precious scars.

Elegant and broken, tasteful, tattered clothing,

I guess we've been caught in the middle of love.

Motive through emotion, damaged but we're golden,

I guess we've been caught in the middle of love.

Elegant and broken, tasteful, tattered clothing,

I guess we've been caught in the middle of love.

Motive through emotion, damaged but we're golden,

I guess we've been caught in the middle of love.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, don't tear me apart,

I've been stuck in the rut, patched up in the dark.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, there's pins in my heart, oh,

Pardon all my precious scars.

Really hoping that you stay,

Pray you never walk away,

Pardon all my precious scars.

Stitch me up, stitch me up, there's pins in my heart,

Oh, pardon all my precious scars.

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Only a Badge

WARNING: ANGST, MENTIONS OF VIOLENCE

Part 1, Part 2

Summary: Sweetheart gets sent out on a mission, however it’s been several days and they still haven’t returned…

“Hun, I’m heading out to work. They’re putting me on the field today so I’ll probably be home late.” Sweetheart called to Milo as they secured their belt. Their loving partner had a long night before and was still resting in bed. However, they knew he heard them.

“Hang on Sweetheart.” They heard his tired voice echo throughout their new house. The padding of his footsteps came closer from behind them as they heard their bedroom door shut.

“What’s going on Mil-“ Before they could finish their sentence he wrapped his arms around them and fastened their badge in place with seasoned skill. He put it just the way he knew they liked it, they were very particular in making sure it didn’t fall off so when they showed him how to put it on them, he practiced quite a few times.

They placed their hands over top of his as he tucked his head in the crook of their neck. He peppered a few kisses there as they giggled out loud. The sound lighting up the dimly lit room. This felt so domestic, so sweet, and warm. It was nearly impossible for the stealth to pull themself away…but they had to. They lightly tapped his hand a few times to signal to him it was time for them to go but he just clutched them tighter.

“Milo, I gotta go to work hun.” they turned their head slightly to see his dark, tired orbs. The curls of his hair tickled their cheek as they smiled down at him, kissing the top of his head.

“Can’t you stay for a little longer?” He mumbled face now pressed into their shoulder. They were wearing the new scent he got them. It touched each of his senses with hints of bergamot, cardamom, jasmine, violet, and just the perfect drop of musk. He absolutely loved it. The polyester fabric of their shirt reminded him of their soft sheets and almost had him drifting off to sleep.

Almost.

That was until, of course, they cloaked and phased through his arms. Offering him their signature smile as he stumbled forward, the cold counter he grabbed onto a poor substitute for his partner. He offered them a glare that held no real malice before they walked to the door.

“Love you Honey~” they said said in a teasing tone as he rolled his eyes.

“Yeah yeah, get on. I’ll have dinner ready when you get home Sweetheart.” He offered them as they shut the door. He shook his head and padded back off to the room, that was until he realized he never told them “I love you.” back. He burst through his bedroom door out to the front. Just as he saw their car pulling out of the driveway.

The all black Nissan Rogue halted in its tracks as the stealth saw their partner running to the car at full speed. They gave him a confused look as they rolled down their window right as their partner appeared next to it.

“Milo wh-“ they were cut off by a kiss. It was sweet and surprising catching them totally off guard as they separated far too soon.

“I forgot to say it.” He panted as he held their cheek.

“Say what hun?”

He offered them his signature shit eating grin. “I love you Sweetheart.” He smiled as he kissed them one last time before sending them off. They tried to hide their smile to no avail. He laughed to himself as he stood in the driveway watching them drive off.

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That was two days ago. Since then he hadn’t received a call. Text. Or any kind of word from his stealth. He was pacing back and forth in his living room as people passed in and out. After the first day of them being considered missing by him he notified David and the rest of the pack.

His mom had set up in the large kitchen and had been cooking for any guests that stopped by. David would come in and check on Milo every few hours, and tank had taken up to sleeping in Milo’s living room so that he would never be alone. Asher had been going out to the store to get whatever Milo wanted/needed and accompanied David to the department building to put pressure on the search for their stealth.

“Milo you have to eat something.” Marie called from the kitchen. Milo had done so much worrying and pacing that he practically for for about eating drinking or sleeping.

“How can I mami?” He asked his voice cracking a bit. “It’s not like they were dispatched on a mission. They were just supposed to be looking into some loose ends on a case. They aren’t here and I can’t breathe.” He put a hand to his chest and pulled at his shirt like it was suffocating them. Tears began to prickle at the corner of his face. “I can’t breathe without them here.” He began to fold in on himself and Tank immediately shot up from the couch. They held him tightly and brought him over to sit on the couch with them and just kept him close.

Tank was not one for hugs and often hated physical contact, but they hated seeing, who was essentially their brother, like this more. They rocked him back and forth and comforted him softly. The door creaked open and every eye went to it, falling in slight disappointment when Asher and David walked in. They shook their head signaling that they had no new information. Once they both made their way to the couch David decided to check in on his friend.

“Milo.” He said kneeling on the floor. “They will be okay.” He said putting his hands on the side of his friends face. “They will come home to you.”

Milo sniffed and whipped roughly at his eyes to get the tears to stop from falling. “Thanks David.” The sound of the doorbell ringing caught them all off guard and everyone stood in silence. The air suddenly felt very heavy, like there was something on the other side of that door to be afraid of. The door bell rang again.

“I’ll get it.” Asher said beginning to make his way over.

“No no I got it Ash.” Milo said standing up. He hoped that maybe it was Sweetheart and they forgot their keys. But normally if they did that, they would just call him, or phase through the door. But hey maybe they were tired. He tried to silently reason with himself.

By the time Milo reached the door it rang for a third time. Suddenly, the large oak door seemed much more intimidating. He wrapped his hand around the cold golden door knob and twisted it open. Standing right there, on his porch, were two department agents. He could tell by the lanyards they were wearing that had their badge handing from it. They both looked tired and shifted their weight awkwardly.

“Are you Milo Greer?” The larger one asked struggling to make eye contact. By now everyone in the house was listening in, Tank even standing in the hallway so they could be there if he needed them.

“Yes.” He said shortly, his tired eyes glaring daggers into the man.

“Ahem.” The smaller one cleared his throat. “We are frie- Co-workers of… stealth. We thought it’d be best if we…” he stumbled all throughout his words struggling to complete a sentence.

“We…” the larger one cut in. “I… We completed our search.” He said with a tone of finality that had Milo’s stomach turning.

“And?” Milo said his hands shaking and his voice wavering ever so slightly. He gripped the doorframe to stabilize himself but by now it was beginning to splinter.

“We we’re only able to find this…” he spoke holding out Stealths badge.

Milo snatched it from the man and looked it over. His eyes tearing up. No this can’t be right. He put it on them the right way. They wouldn’t separate from their badge unless… but that was impossible. They were still alive they had to be. However, the blood that stained the golden badge in his hand suggested otherwise. A shaking hand that Milo recognized as his own came to hold over his mouth. His stomach turned as his world began to spin. Suddenly he was falling back and a pair of tattooed arms caught him.

“I’m so sorry.” The smaller one spoke. “As of now they have been declared Presumption of Death and KIA.” He said sorrowfully before retreating down the steps back to his all black department grade van.

Tank picked the man up and set him down on the cushion as he clutched the badge to his chest. He began hyperventilating and shaking his head. No one in the room knew how to react, how to comfort him. He kept muttering words before he stood up and went to the wooden coat rack.

“No. This… I can’t…” he said as he grabbed his coat. He began slipping his arms through the wool sleeves when his mom stepped forward.

“Milo. Papi. Where are you going?” Marie asked as she grasped Milo’s hand.

“They are out there Ma. Alone and cold and hurting. I can’t just sit here while they are.” Everything seemed to hit him right then.

“Milo come sit down…” his mom pulled him from the door. She was able to get him out to the living room but before he could make it back to the couch he pulled away and ran to his room, locking himself inside.

He kept the light off and just sat at the edge of his bed, looking around the room that now seemed so much lonelier. Reminders of his Sweetheart sat all around the room. Even when he laid back on his bed, the scent he bought them still lingered behind. Even though they weren’t there… he couldn’t escape them. He needed them home now more than ever.

***Pt 2???***

#redacted asmr #redacted audios #redacted darlin #redacted david #milo redacted #redacted asmr asher #redacted shaw pack #redacted asher #redacted milo #redacted milo greer #milo x sweetheart #redacted david shaw #redacted marie #redacted fic #redacted fanfic #redacted dump #redacted sweetheart

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hirocimacruiser · 20 days

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20th century

NISSAN

MOTORSPORTS 1958-2000

'80~

WEC championship,

And to participate in Le Mans

Group C flourishes.

In the early 1980s, the FIA (International Automobile Federation)

The rules and classification of competition vehicles were changed.

Group C vehicles that are racing sports cars

is not classified by displacement as in the past,

Only the total amount of fuel used is specified (good fuel consumption is essential);

What type of engine can you use if you clear this?

It is a challenge for manufacturers as they are willing to participate.

It has become a very important category. The same regulations apply from the following year.

The world championship match “WEC Japan” by Fujis

Since it started at Pedeway, Nissan also started

Developed a carbon engine and mounted it on a foreign chassis.

Start participating. As an extension of that, to the Le Mans 24 Hours.

Participated in the race, the first challenge was in 1986, and the best in 1990.

Although it became a fast machine and won pole position, unfortunately, the battle ends without victory. In the 80s-90s

Also in WSPC (World Sports Prototype Championship) he participated full-time and finished 3rd in the series in 1990.

At that time in the United States, a category similar to Group C, IMSA-GTP, which is a popular cars actively participate in the race, Nissan GTP ZX-T

He was the champion from 1988 to 1999.

Nissan has been in the WRC (World Rally Championship) for 7-8 years.

Although he was able to take second place in the series for three consecutive years, the new vehicle In the era of Group B (starting in 1983) and Group A (starting in 1988) after the regulations came into effect, they often played supporting roles. However, there are still marathon raids such as the Paris-Dakar Rally, and popularity in the United States.

At stadiums, off-road races, etc. that collect

Often achieved good results.

In Japan, in 1985, Group A vehicles began

The Japan Touring Car Championship has begun, and Skyline RS Turbo and GTS-R were part of the winning front. And boasts the strongest Group A machine

R32 Skyline GT-R appears.

On the other hand, the Saurus Cup, March one-make race, or an amateur with many Silvias and Pulsars.

Races for beginners were also widely held nationwide.

Also, the first F1GP race in Japan in 10 years will be held in 8 years.

It was held at Suzuka Circuit and has been held every year since then.

With the introduction of F1, there was a sudden F1 boom in Japan.

/The motorsports boom was ignited.

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Local Kenyan expert Shehkar Mehta and his beloved PA10 Violet achieved the feat of winning the Safari Rally four years in a row from 1979 to 1982. Among the many international rallies, the Safari Rally is far more demanding than the events held in Western Europe, and it became an ideal venue for Japanese cars to demonstrate their excellence.

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The "Silhouette Formula" car, which was born in Germany in the late 1970s, is a heavily modified racing car that retains only a slight silhouette of the production car. It is equipped with a trendy turbocharger and captivates fans with its overwhelming straight-line speed. In Japan in the early 1980s, Skylines and Silvias spewed flames and raced around Fuji Speedway and other places. Its power is 570bhp

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Group C competition, 1985 WEC Japan. More than 80,000 spectators packed into Fuji Speedway in heavy rain. The works Porsche 956 on the first row of the grid withdrew early, and Kazuyoshi Hoshino, driving the March B5G Nissan (No. 28) that qualified third, won the race, which was shortened to two hours due to bad weather. Although bad weather was on their side, it was the first time for a Nissan car and the first Japanese to win a world championship race.

#DR30 #R30 Skyline #Skyline Super Silhouette #PA10 Violet #Safari Rally #WEC #Grp C

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paris-writes · 9 months

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to whom the violet blooms

They were a child. Strange and bright, Forever a violet bloom. They were a child. Filled with delight And endlessly a tune.

They were a child. Dressed like a man. Sharp and cleanly cut. They were a child. Scared of demands Ready to grow up.

They were a child. Trying out new things To see how they grew. They were a child. Gathering cuts and dings Like a Nissan Crew.

They were a child. Gifted a new burden While too young to refuse. They were a child. Crushing their garden And all the violet blooms.

They were a child. Despite all else Naive to words and rhymes. They were a child. It was never their fault Not a single time.

They were a child. But not really anymore Because who can claim childhood When you haven't had one before.

#writing #poetry #poem #original #original writing #okay so it seems long winded #but it's essentially how you try hard and you make mistakes #but people love to treat children like adults #without giving them any training or respect #then get mad when the child messes up #or fails #because it wasn't “in the plan”

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kurtjmac · 11 months

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Really liked the shape of this Nissan Violet/ Datsun 710 at the show yesterday. Not sure I've ever seen one before this! #oldschoolreunion2023 #datsun — view on Instagram https://instagr.am/p/CtZV7Oapnab/

#Instagram

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driftnoob3 · 8 months

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Here it is, the car that appeared the most in my blog and that never told anything about it.

W. Bonnie's Nissan Skylane GTS R33 (the cheap rwd version of the GTR R33)

Color: Midnight purple metallic (in the pucture is just purple, I couldnt find how to replicate the color).

Exterior: BBS LM rims (silver), Nismo 400R body kit and front conversión in painted carbon fiber, Nismo 400R hood in exposed carbon fiber, Nismo N1 exhaust, wing blade and side caps in exposed carbon fiber, side custom stripe vinil (400r stiled but with the text "Withered Bonnie" on the side-rear in black. Vinil color is violet and black).

Interior: automatic transmision interior, Recaro baket seats, Sparco 6 point black harness, Sparco MOD 345 3R Calice MSN steering wheel, aluminium adapted pedals.

Mecanics: engine swap to rebuilt RB26DETTN1 (500hp), custom 5 speed automatic transmision, HKS turbocharger, AEM ECU, Mishimoto intercooler, HKS air filter, Brembo racing brakes (red calipier), Nismo suspensión.

I really enjoyed doing my fav character's car desing.

#fnaf #fanart #cars #five nights at freddy's #withered bonnie #jdm #gtr r33 #bonnie #info #mecanical specs #specs

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roadxperience · 9 months

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Tata Nexon Facelift Test Mule Spotted In The Wild Once Again

● Tata began testing the Nexon facelift in early 2023.

● It is the second major refresh while the first facelift came in early 2020.

● Exterior updates include a new alloy wheel design, vertically stacked LED headlights and connected LED taillights.

● Inside, it will have a new steering wheel, updated upholstery and centre console.

● Likely to get with a 10.25-inch touchscreen, up to six airbags and 360-degree camera.

● Expected to be launched in early 2024 with prices starting at Rs 8 lakh (ex-showroom)

Since the early months of 2023, there have been ample sightings of the Tata Nexon facelift undergoing testing, with the camouflage slowly reducing as time goes on. We have now spotted another test mule of the updated SUV on tests – although still draped in heavy camouflage – suggesting it’s inching closer to being production-ready. This will be the second major overhaul for the sub-4m SUV after the 2020 update.

Design Details Revealed So Far

Its profile is unlikely to get any major design changes save for the revised alloy wheels. At the back, the updated Nexon will have a reshaped boot, a tweaked bumper and connected LED taillights. The facelifted Nexon will also come with dynamic turn indicators as seen on a test mule recently. All these design changes will likely make their way on the Nexon’s EV versions as well

Design changes on the Nexon facelift will be carried forward inside the cabin as well. Some of the interior revisions include a Tata Avinya-like steering wheel (with a rectangular display in the centre), violet upholstery, and a slightly redone centre console.

Features on board the facelifted Tata Nexon will likely include a digital driver’s display, a 10.25-inch touchscreen system, paddle shifters, wireless phone charging, ventilated front seats, and auto climate control.

Passenger safety is expected to be taken care of by up to six airbags, 360-degree camera, ISOFIX child seat anchorages, and a reversing camera.

We are expecting Tata to launch the Nexon facelift sometime early next year at an expected starting price of Rs 8 lakh (ex-showroom). It will continue to compete with the Maruti Brezza, Renault Kiger, Kia Sonet, Nissan Magnite, Mahindra XUV300 and Hyundai Venue, while also taking on crossover SUVs like the Maruti Fronx and Citroen C3.

#chevrolet #mercedes #porsche #ferrari #bmw #lamborghini #audi #ford #motorcycle #classic car

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tomikingdiecast · 1 year

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TLV Nissan Violet! $32 shipped, normally $36. Check out that emerald green fleck paint! Also that contrast white and yellow interior. This car has a DONK on it. Stunning! Comment to claim and purchase. (at TomiKing) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClkC_PrvQcn/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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kenyaash20 · 2 years

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Axle Transmission, 418 Ads Of Second Hand Axle Transmission For Sale

The hybrid system’s battery is guaranteed for up to 10 years conditionally if regular servicing is maintained. There’s a Power and EV modes you can select, but neither are all that necessary in normal driving situations and most owners will leave them untouched. The hybrid system does a fine job managing the petrol-electric shuffling without dropping any driveability balls, or the need for much driver intervention at all. Sure, hybrid drive favours relaxed driving and does get slightly unruffled and a little gruff when called to arms.

To boost fuel efficiency, reduce emissions and lower operating costs, the DAF CF includes an extended set of Eco Mode options.

So, as you wait, have the engine in 1st gear and keep the motor speed from increasing.

Use the tool at the top of this page to find out which oil is right for your engine.

You maintain most of this goodness by keeping the hybrid 2WD powertrain and dropping down a trim level or two for maximum value.

Depending on the intended field of operations, you can order the Econic with either the fully automatic Allison 6-speed transmission, or the semi-automated PowerShift transmission. The vehicles and products displayed on this website may differ in terms of shape, design, colour and scope of supply. Some of the images may include special equipment, accessories and decorative elements which are subject to an additional charge. The technical features and equipment of the vehicles described are merely examples and may differ, in particular on a country-specific basis. “The EMAX’s subsystems communicate over two CAN networks, one of which is a powertrain CAN bus running between the inverters for control of the traction motors, and the other is a vehicle interface bus,” Knieper says. SPT’s software manager Dan Knieper explains, “Every clutch has an embedded speed sensor that monitors the differential speed across the races. When a threshold speed differential is realised – such as 50 rpm for static clutches or 100 rpm for dynamic clutches – the safety MPU turns off the H-bridge to the actuator controlling that clutch. This ensures no clutch is set to ‘on’ in a potentially damaging, non-synchronised state. Six independently controllable H-bridge circuits run to the clutch actuators and are actively managed by the safety MPU.

Air Operated Oil Pumps & Kits

The tally is now nine hybrid variants in the fulsome 13-strong medium-SUV stable – it appears a good fit for Australia’s thirst for Toyota’s turnkey, hassle-free petrol-electric car. If you do float gears and you’re not getting your technique right, you’ll put more wear and tear on the gearbox. If you don’t have a clutch brake, you’ll have a countershaft brake which is a button on the side of the gearstick. The Navara is no shrinking violet in the styling stakes with its aggressive front end and dramatically flared wheelarches. At 5,220mm in length and with a 3,200mm wheelbase, it's a substantial vehicle too, significantly larger than the previous generation Nissan Pickup. That means there's plenty of cabin space, even in the halfway-house King Cab version with its backwards-opening doors and occasional rear seats. It was pioneered by Ferrari, which was also the first racing team to use this type of gearbox in F1. All of the different types transmissions detailed below are variations of the automatic gearbox. You own a semi-automatic car, you have the option to shift it into manual and make driving at low-speed or low revs easier. Bishop reckons that an automated transmission in a 7.5-tonner can offer a fuel saving of up to 3% over a manual ‘box but stresses that a lot depends on the driver. “What it should certainly do though is improve your average fuel economy across your 7.5-tonne fleet,” he says. For a truck that won’t shift into gear, you might need the help of a professional to locate anything.

When And How To Check And Change Your Gear Oil And Filter

https://www.sitelike.org/similar/transmissionunits.com/ I learnt to drive in a Leyland Roadtrain with a 10 speed spicer crash box, took some learning but once you mastered it you could change like a knife through butter. Also, I noticed in National Express coaches that rev counter contains red/green marks, probably to indicate optimum rev range for performance/fuel economy. Semi-auto boxes were popular in the 70s and 80s but full autos are less vulnerable to abuse. They may not have had the kudos of a European truck, but they were more economical, far more powerful , and IMO more satisfying than the syncromeshed and usually woefully underpowered foriegn vehicles.

Thus, the truck won’t move in any gear, whether automatic transmission or manual. When the truck is shifted into drive, all gear ratios available are engaged for forwarding movement. Essentially, this implies that your transmission can shift through the whole spectrum of forwarding gears. 5140 alloy steel could be used for the input shaft, as it might be more cost-effective than 8620. Integrating the components into the housing starts at the motor input side. First is the assembly responsible for third gear, which consists of a stator assembly, then a dynamic clutch assembly and a notch plate. This plate is made from a toothed ring, sintered to shape using powdered metals, and a hub, which is forged, before being sinter-brazed to the ring in a furnace . Any play in the drivetrain will be taken up before you release the brakes which could mean quicker acceleration. Also more braking power means easier wheel-lock during the brake check. It also means, however, higher un-sprung mass and the need for flexing brake lines which have to be protected from anything the suspension might hit. Due to low high-temperature viscosity (6 мм2/с at 212 F) hydrodynamic losses in automatic transmissions are minimized and fuel consumption during car operation is reduced. I remember with embarrassment buying an ERF tractor unit, with a Fuller Eaton gearbox. I found this a little disconcerting because I was taught years ago that high revs waste fuel. Shift "progressively," keeping engine speed low until you really need the horsepower that comes at higher rpm, the old pros told me. And you really don't need a lot of horsepower until you're on the highway. You can only drive a car with a manual transmission unaccompanied when you have passed the driving test in a manual car.

#semi truck transmissions

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