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yetanotherdrarrylist · 4 years

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Hi! this isn’t really drarry related but.... i’d really like to write fanfics, and i really like your fanfics and i like the way you write and everything... you’ve been one of my favorite writers for a long time... i was wondering do you have any advices for someone new to this? like what app do you use? how do you get your amazing ideas? how did you start writing? i think i’m bad at writing bc i don’t have a big vocab so...

Hello anon! Awww, thank you!

First of all, don’t worry about your vocab. Writing stories with a limited, easy to understand vocabulary is great! And if you want, say, Draco, to have fancier words, use a thesaurus to replace some words!

(or, look at your favourite fanfics and write down a list of your favourite fancy words)

Advice for people new to fanfic:

Just...write! And post! Don’t worry about plot. Try to write a single/simple scene, so that you can finish. If you look at my earliest stories, they were very short, because I was literally “testing” things out.

If you do want an easy plot, my favourite thing is “5+1″ since you can just write it as six scenes.

That said, remember to check grammar and spelling! And make sure the HTML/formatting of your fic on AO3 is good. I think learning a bit of HTML goes a long way and I wished everyone writing fanfic on AO3 would learn it 👀 [but I may be biased due to my academic background]

Writing [style]:

Given that you must have read a fair number of fanfics already, go back and have a look at how your favourite ones are written. You might not be able to get how it was written (or like me, end up just reading it for enjoyment for the 10000-th time), but hopefully it would still inspire you!

Also, to be honest, my style of writing changes based on the kind of stories I’ve been reading and really likely lately. For example, when I was writing The Standard You Walk Past, I had Lomonaaeren’s writing style at the back of my mind, which I striped down (reducing description, snappier dialogue etc) to suit my laziness.

These days, I like to write more crack/humour, leading to more ridiculous statements being made by characters and even shorter descriptions. My increased reading in long fantasy novels (Embers by Vathara, and xianxia/wuxia novels) has slowly increased my length of description again.

If you like my style of writing, I say do your best to copy! You can look at the (easier) things like:

how do I use dialogue tags

how do the characters talk

the amount of description

the length of my sentences

the size of my paragraphs

how I transition between scenes

[these are the things that I’m personally aware of]

When it comes to ending a fic, I’m personally a fan of looking back at the start of the fic and doing a “modified” scene at the end. i.e., now that Harry and Draco’s lives have changed, what differences now exist in their lives? You can see this most clearly in Lost Among And Falling.

Ideas:

I get inspired by stories in two ways:

Stories that are so good, or do a trope that I really love, and I want to replicate that

Stories that are...not so good, or do something I don’t like, and so I want to reverse the trope

For example, in The Standard You Walk Past, the fact that Draco and Harry don’t speak and ignore each other for a while despite living in the same dorm room is a mini trope reversal. (Not that this was spite, but having something different is cool too.)

The Cake Is Ace is a huge trope subversion of “being stuck in the closet together/party games”, where Draco and Harry don’t do any kissing.

On the other hand, I adored smart Draco in shanastoryteller’s survival is a talent, and that partially led to Draco Malfoy Hacks The Ministry (along with the hacker/auror prompt due to quicksilvermaid)

In actual fact, a fair number of my fics are fest fics (Draco Tops Harry is my fave!), so the ideas are literally not mine. The main Drarry Discord also has an entire channel dedicated to free-for-all fic ideas!

How I started writing:

I started writing back in primary school 😂😂😂 I think writing at that time is good, because you kind of just...don’t care about “conventions” and write whatever you like.

And then I started writing fanfic because I was reading fanfic 😂😂😂

(And I’m writing more original fic because I’m reading more original fic)

(And I used to draw more because I used to read a lot of manga. There’s a pattern 😂)

Because I was reading fanfic, I often have thoughts of, but what if this happened instead [of what this fanfic author had written]. And sometimes there are niche ideas or tropes that I want to see more of, and I’m not perfectly happy with what is out there so...gotta write it myself!

(Also, participating in fandom is nice)

So I say just make an account on AO3--and even post anonymously if you’re really testing out--and post away~ You can slowly learn how the posting-side of AO3 feels like this way. And of course, get some practice writing.

Software:

When I first started out, I was using LibreOffice Writer and Focus Writer. I also wrote some stories or sections by hand (e.g. Hold My Hand was written entirely by hand, and Life Is The Flower had sections of it written by hand).

Nowadays, I use Google Docs, so I can sync it across my two (!) laptops and my phone. And I use the AO3 posting script to paste things onto AO3.

Getting help:

If you are uncertain about your writing ability, you can find someone to read over your work before posting. If you’re on the drarry discord, or really many other writing or fandom discords, then it’s fairly easily find someone to beta your work!

And there are so many general writing resources out there.

Anyway, I’ve basically told you all my secrets. I hope this helps!

#writing #asks #writing advice #fandom

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pettrichore · 4 years

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dunno if i’ll be able to finish this. but so like dabihawks au where like. dabi does his research aka when he was touya he was with his dad once during the whole takami thief thing and met keigo. flash forward he doesnt believe a thing about this hero hawks. sees him for the fabricated person he has become. and eventually hawks sees dabi for who he really is and was and like vigilante-ish dabihawks. bits about the au and the snippet i wrote under the cut.

cause this shit gets LONG af

hawks feels fake. doesnt rlly know who he has even become

the commission kinda forced a lotta habits out of him and completely molded him into who they want him to be

he barely even finds his name to be anything more than a stranger’s name at this point.

anyway so dabi p much knows who he is. does his own digging. and kinda puts some pieces together and sees how fake hawks is

hawks barely even knows if he shows any genuine emotions at this point. he’s kinda at a breaking point where he cant recognize himself and separate keigo from hawks. feeling like hawks has just swallowed him whole

he does show genuine things though. sometimes says or does shit out of line but he tends to have obedience beat into him even if he sometimes has a bit of a mouth on him. it’s mild tho

at the start of dabi working w hawks, hawks was very careful

it kinda progressed into keigo coming out more around dabi even though it was in bits and pieces

anyway dabi puts two and two together and realizes him and hawks are pretty similar and instead of seeing him as a traitor (though he’s sure that he’s not 100% on their side) he sees him as someone who can fit in with the misfits and he can p much fully convince hawks to ditch the bs

so the confrontation happens (see ending snippet) and hawks is like wtf just happened

and p much eventually there’s some tender moments between dabi and hawks and hawks ends up explaining how used he’s felt

he has been molded into the perfect obedient soldier; maybe sorta kinda explains that the commission is having him do double agent duties and instead of reacting badly dabi is p receptive and doesnt just try to kill him. instead he can see how badly hawks wants to break out of his cage and fly free and he deeply feels for that and knows how that can feel and is like aight well fuck them

so hawks kinda double agents on the commission??

and he does end up meeting the LoV and like sees how human they are

but also he’s like damn son but okay i dont agree w everything

and dabi is like yeahhh same ??? idk they are a means to an ends for me but also not lmao

and then there’s some dabi spilling his guts as they get closer and get more intimate and very much boyfriends

and hawks is so livid and he cant help but fuck around with endeavor the next time he sees him. and like he’s just so much more distant to him. he can’t begin to wrap his head around it. and he’s so broken that like.. the one person that he saw as his true hero. that “saved him” is a horrible person behind closed doors

the one person who he was inspired by and agreed to join the commission’s forces for is just horrible

there’s just a lotta solidarity between hawks and dabi and a lotta shared anger and hurt

and they’re boyfriends and it’s great but also like hawks isn’t a horrible person

neither is dabi ??? i mean listen they’ve both killed ppl. they probs will continue to kinda do it. but it’s always just horrible ppl

like listen killing ?? not great folks??? but also like idk man..

they also def leave kids outta this 10000%

anyway p much they end up ditching the LoV too. try to get some of them outta that shit. like toga who has become like a sorta lil sister for dabi in a way

they both just feel so horrible and gross seeing kids get into that shit

also like the girl needs some HELP. some therapy and rehabilitation idk

idk i love the morality shit with the LoV but might not play with it too much here

anyway they end up doing their own thing and the commission is quick to denounce him and just ruin his image

and try to kill him lmao they made him a perfect hero which could be a perfect villain and if he isn’t working for them he’s working against them (i mean he is) and needs to be Stopped Permanently

anyway here’s the snippet. my single brain cell that helped write this has left my body:

At this point, Hawks wasn’t so sure he was even real. His existence felt fabricated. Each smile or joke carefully placed. Each movement was calculated. He didn’t act out of line. His interviews were carefully thought out months in advance if not lies that he himself began to believe after years of telling them. His penthouse had just enough “personal” touches that when he had a spare moment to invite someone over it actually seemed like it could be a home. Hawks’ original motivations were squashed and were pushed aside unless they created an interesting story. His natural mannerisms that came with his mutation quirk were learned to be suppressed. Hell his own name sounded like a stranger’s to his ears. That is if anyone even knew it.

“Is there anything real about you, hero,” Dabi spoke. His back wasn’t fully to Hawks, left side presented to him as he set a framed graduation photo down and fully faced the winged hero. Dabi stuffed his hands in his pockets and tilted his head to the side some, waiting for an answer. Hawks snorted and gave him an unamused look.

“I’m as real as they get, hot stuff.” He kept a casual air about his words, hands spreading out in surrender. “Not sure what else you expect.”

Hawks was on edge, but he wouldn’t let the villain know it. They were supposed to be meeting soon, but once again the villain pulled something unexpected and had been waiting for Hawks in his own apartment. Hawks’ feathers twitched slightly, sharpened edges ready for the command if it came. Dabi leveled him with an unimpressed stare. There was a moment where their gazes met in an intense battle, though Dabi’s look softened as he broke out in a lazy grin.

“Y’know... You might be just as much of a mystery as I am, Pretty Bird.”

“I think I’m a pretty open book myself.”

“I think you like to let people think that.”

“And I think you’re just trying to fuck with me. Can we just get to what you came here for? I had a looong day and kinda wanna get some food and some sleep.” Hawks punctuated his words by stretching his arms up high before shedding off his coat, goggles, and headphones. He tossed the coat over the back of his couch and dropped the gear onto the end table. He hoped Dabi would just drop this whole line of thought, take this as some sort of submission, and be satisfied enough to leave.

Wrong.

“Oh, we can get to that later… You, on the other hand, are much more interesting.” He moved closer, hands coming out of his pockets as he crossed the room to stand a few feet from Hawks.

“I’d love to be a great host and entertain you, but unfortunately I wasn’t expecting any guests today.” Hawks crossed his arms and watched Dabi carefully, eyes narrowing some in challenge.

“That’s too bad. You know, I’ve been doing some research on you. I don’t quite think you are who you say you are, Hawks.” The winged-hero tensed just ever so slightly before forcing his muscles to relax some. He didn’t like the way things were going. While Dabi’s fire was his ultimate weakness, he’s sure that he’s fast enough to put a sharpened feather to his throat and end this all here and now than Dabi would be if he wanted to put the spy to an end.

“And who do you think I am then, Dabi?” He raised an unruly eyebrow. His primaries ached to shoot out and end this, poised at the ready.

Dabi blinked slowly, bright turquoise eyes disappearing for a moment before shining under heavily lidded eyes. His grin stretched a bit wider, tugging on where healthy skin met the grafts.

“I think you aren’t the hero you put out there… Or the person you say you are. You like to say a lotta nothin’ don’t you?” Dabi stepped closer and Hawks’ fingers twitched but his arms remained crossed.

“I think you like to pretend to be this airhead bird. Like to use that name. Like to look like you’re the perfect little hero... You’re good at it, too. You aren’t though, are you… Takami Keigo.”

Hawks had a primary feather in each hand, on pressed to Dabi’s throat. It pressed in just enough to draw some blood from the marred skin grafts. He could feel the heat radiating from Dabi’s skin and particularly from the small flames in each of his palms, but the villain made no move to use it against him. He just continued to grin.

“What’s the look of surprise there, Birdie?” Dabi purred.

“How do you know that name?” He demanded, crowding further into Dabi’s space.

“Like I said, I did my research. Now unless you want to end up on the crispy side of cooked, I’d ease the fuck up,” Dabi’s voice took on a slight bite towards the end and his grin lessened. “And here I was going to tell you that you can meet the boss finally. Thought you might be real League material.”

Hawks instincts and mind screamed to press the sharp feather further or at least hold his position, demand answers. His judgment told him to ease off and soften the feathers once more. Hawks didn’t move too far from Dabi, though the primary feathers in his hands softened and returned to his wings. The heat radiating off Dabi died down along with the flames in his hands. Steam left his skin as he killed the flames.

“Much better… We don’t want any incidents like that when you get to meet the boss, right? You’re lucky I’m a lot more patient.” Hawks wasn’t sure what this was all about but didn’t argue with him on that point.

“Glad to see your fake little hero persona is starting to crack.”

#long post #dabihawks #dabi #hawks #todoroki touya #takami keigo #dabi is a todoroki #dabi is touya #my writing #speaks #bnha au #bnha #boku no hero academia #mha #my hero academia

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tuz-on-ao3 · 3 years

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Hey, I was reading your fic (I really like it by the way! Sasuke's, my favorite character, and I think you wrote him really well :D), and I was wondering, what's your writing process? I know everyone has something different that works for them, but how do you plan out your chapters, or get ideas, or things like that (very vague, I know, I'm sorry)?

Hiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!! Thank you sugar plum for reading Maybe I’m Paying for the Things I’ve Done and liking my characterization of Sasuke, it’s very heartwarming and I appreciate it.

As for my writing process, oof. As you know everyone’s writing process is really different and it has been a joy to learn more about other people’s process to help figure out what works for me. This is something you can absolutely cherry pick with and try things out for the first time.

Timing: some people write better at certain points during the day, some people can start writing at 5am or write till 3am in the morning with a late start. I am a mix of both. I can start writing around 9am because that’s when my internal ticker is like “Let’s go to work now!” It’s just how my school and internship schedule line up. I also just write when I am bored(while in class sometimes) and late at night if I really have the momentum. Which happened for some of the chapters I have written for Maybe I’m Paying for the Things I’ve Done. So figure out what works for you. Also, timing myself sometimes helps, I use Pomodoro as a way to keep track of my work, I don’t necessarily take my short breaks.

Initial phase of writing: I draft first and I backwards outline as I go along and then I hit a wall. The idea circulates in the back of my mind and I either get a sense of a scene or a situation that I want the characters to go into and I start writing. Writing the story informs me where it’s going to go, it comes to me during the process. However, I will hit a wall. The fics I write are rarely short(shoutout to the people who can do short and sweet, your sense of pacing is unreal and I bow to your greatness) so there is a lot of worldbuilding, plot, and character development that needs to happen. Important thing to note, just because you are writing fanfiction doesn’t mean you can skip worldbuilding. It is very important!!!!!! It doesn’t need to be the crazy amount that I do but you need to set your reader up in a place and time so give some context.

Timeline: Things happen at certain places and times, and my characters will be a certain age when it happens, so I need to keep track. One of the walls I’ve hit is that for my current posted fic Sasuke spends time in jail, but how much time was not made clear in my non existent early planning and that changes the way things happen. And how old he is, and how much time should I spend on that prison sentence. If it was a long time then I need to talk about it as a life event that will have consequences throughout the entire fic, or if he was just detained until his lawyers came that changes Sasuke’s character. It also is a good way to talk about the criminal justice system of Konoha that I am making up. So I keep track of everyone’s ages, and birthdays, and sometimes I change them. I mean it is really hard for me to write baby ninja that go out into the battlefield when they are four years old and not make the entire fic about a shitty world like that. I don’t want to do that, it’s too fucking hard, and fluff feeds my soul. Also, seasons!!! That changes the way you set up your environment as well, from what I can tell Fire Country should have a monsoon season since they are so forested and are located near the equator of their world. So when that happens, if I decide to include that, is important for pacing of the story. I mean how long should this go on? Also, romance in the rain *hitn hint wink wink* who knows.

Outlining: I didn’t use to be an outline and to some extent I still am not. I have done a previous post explaining a little bit of it but I backwards outline to keep track of what is happening because it’s a lot of detail and I don’t want to make mistakes. However, spreadsheets are my jam. I didn’t use to be this way but my internship has changed me and now I like spreadsheets as a way to be organized. Huzzah *throws confetti in the air* to being a boring adult person! There are a couple of way to do this but first actual writing notes:

5 commandments of story

Inciting incident

Progressive complications

Crisis

Climax

Resolution

This is something that helped me a lot when it came to structure, because sometimes my plot points are all happening at the same time and I’m like this makes no goddamn sense, what is happening. Story Grid is a podcast, and a book, and a website that can help you talk about structure. They can also talk to you about the Hero's journey. Take or leave whatever works for you because a lot of their stuff doesn’t work for me. But in doing their spreadsheets and exercises I learned what doesn’t work in a story. It’s how I realized pacing was a problem in my writing, and that I needed to take time away.

So they have sample spreadsheets that break down books into scenes, turning points, characters on stage, etc. Take what works and leave what doesn’t.

Back to spreadsheets, I have a story grid one for Maybe I’m Paying for the Things I’ve Done which I will backwards outline for the chapters I have already posted and a weird visual index card thing with the five commandments on my computer to help me figure out what is happening in my story.

It looks kind of like five boxes side by side with the five commandments written on each one.

Sometimes there is more than one box for progressive complication and that is fine, it is also fine if every scene you write doesn’t have a resolution, because by the end of the fic you will have one. I split this up by chapter, expected word count, POV.

Word count: Some people care about this, some people don’t. I don’t write stuff for ‘Maybe’ that is less than 10000 each chapter, there is way too much going on in the fic to do short chapters. For my other works in progress I find that I will be writing shorter, which is both easier and harder because it needs me to be concise and clear. Anyway, I do take notes from Story Grid in this because 50% of my words have to be for my middle build, while 25% each go to the opening hook and to the ending payoff. A scene is about 1200-2000 words.

Wiggle Room: Shit happens, you don’t do as much one day and you do a lot another. It’s okay, your story will evolve at certain points, it will tell you what to do. Don’t worry about it that much.

Struggle/villainy: Protagonists are often defined by their antagonists, and if that is the type of story you are writing make sure you spend just as much time on the villain of your story as you do the hero. They are major actors and deserve the attention. When I talk about the Akatsuki I am thinking that they are an international terrorist organization hellbent on kidnapping people that are systematically treated as weapons. There are a lot of moving parts for this. Also the characters themselves, Pein and Konana are radicalized in my story from peaceful revolutionaries to violent ones because they watched the leader of an institution murder their best friend, that will cause personal and political damage. It informs the way I write them or will.

Sasuke's struggle isn’t necessarily against a person, it is against himself. He wants a home because when he was little the one place where he felt safe was violated by his own brother, that is a hell of a trauma. Then he left his former home to go to Oto. Place has a huge part to play in Sasuke’s characterization and I tag homemaking in my fic because I want to show the process of creating a home for yourself as a process of revival and change and hope and vulnerability. It is a huge emotional labor of love and will be a focal point in the fic. That’s why I spend so much time talking about these goddamn renovations and art deco, it matters. This is a boy who has traveled all over the world and is now trying to put all the pieces of himself into one place, how he does it will be incredibly revealing of his characters.

Character: Emotional arcs are important for everyone. Try to figure out what your character is going to go through. It helps so much. Victoria Schwab asks her characters three questions:

What do they fear?

What do they want?

What are they willing to do to get what they want?

See if this helps. Also, understand that you got to develop your side characters as well, they act as a foil for the main character and add richness to the story, you will notice if they are flat. Understand the dynamics they bring to the story and to the world. Are they a woman in a field that is more socially acceptable for men? How does that affect them? What does gender look like in this world and how does this affect your characterization? Have they gone through physical/emotional trauma? Because that shit will keep coming up in a story, healing takes time. Also this is a fanfic, do whatever you want honey bear.

Vocab: the lovely @slexenskee told me to have a running doc of vocabulary and I am trying to do that.

I also have a running doc for a fic/character where I put all my brainstorming, little scenes, lines, vibes, questions into. And a doc for the synopsis of any new fic ideas I get.

Inspiration: Read, a lot. I read fics, I read fiction and fantasy books, I read non fiction and I read about other people’s writing process. I read the news, I read twitter threads, I read random quotes on Pinterest. I watch tv shows and take note of how they do characterization or pacing or plot. I listen to music, I couldn’t live without it. I am on Pinterest looking for vibes or aesthetics for my fics. When I first started writing, since my fic was inspired by another fic, I was worried it would be too similar, that worry is fading because I am doing more writing, and more reading as well. But you must consume culture in order to produce it. Also take breaks, sometimes you figure stuff out if you leave it alone or talk to friends about it. If you reach out to me about it, I will do my best to help so feel free.

IMPORTANT: DO NOT BE A RACIST/HOMOPHOBIS/TRANSPHOBIC/MISOGYNIST. UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN YOU WRITE A FANFICTION THE CHARACTERS ARE CODED IN A CERTAIN WAY. DON’T GO AROUND MAKING PEOPLE OF COLOR WHITE OR MORE LIGHT SKINNED THAN THEY ARE. WOMEN AND NON BINARY PEOPLE EXIST ALWAYS, IF YOU ARE NOT WRITING THEM INTO YOUR WORLD THAT MEANS YOU ARE MARGINALIZING THEM IN YOUR WORLD AND IN YOUR MIND. IF YOU ARE CISGENDERED BE DAMN CAREFUL ABOUT WRITING TRANS NARRATIVES, PROBABLY DON’T. WHEN I DECIDED TO INCLUDE MY OWN CULTURE INTO SASUKE’S CHARACTER AND PAST I DIDN’T MEAN TO MAKE HIM LESS EAST ASIAN BUT TO ADD PARTS OF MYSELF TO THE WORLD. ACCEPT AND ADAPT TO CRITICISM COMING YOUR WAY IN THIS SENSE. I AM SURE YOU WILL BE FINE, THIS IS JUST A STANDARD DISCLAIMER.

This was really long, and I hope you won't mind. Thanks again for this question, and let me know how your writing goes. Also listen to Deadline City the podcast.

#answers #fic writing #process #naruto

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obsessedbutonline · 3 years

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obsessedbutonline Masterlist

Started: 24/12/2020

Last updated: 24/12/2020

Total works: 9

Teen Wolf

Title: Amateurs

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 1/?

Word count: 4369

Tags: Spark Stiles Stilinski, Magic, Stiles Stilinski Returns, Emissary Stiles Stilinski,Scott McCall & Stiles Stilinski Friendship, Bromance, Alpha Derek Hale, Good Derek Hale, Good Peter Hale,Good Friend Scott McCall (Teen Wolf), Teacher Stiles Stilinski, Roadtrip, Training

Summary: When Stiles is offered a position at a far-away pack to train a young spark, he didn't expect to bring along a certain Peter Hale. Becoming a powerful, nation-wide known emissary comes with certain perks, and also responsibilities- how does Stiles cope?- Written for the Steter Secret Santa

Other comments: This one is a favourite of mine and one I’m super inspired for! It was for the steter secret santa 2020, and I was late for that sadly, but my giftee, archercrow, was AMAZING about it and I got it to them on the 29th (:

Title: Temporary Love

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 3/?

Word count: 3087

Tags: College Student Stiles Stilinski, College, Human, Alternate Universe - Human, Family, Family Fluff, Derek Hale is a Softie, Deputy Derek Hale, Misunderstandings, Stiles Stilinski's Jeep's Name is Roscoe, Stiles Stilinski Returns

Summary: From the prompt: Stiles’ Babcia (grandmother) is fiercely independent and lives in an apartment in Beacon Hills and Stiles used to go over on the weekends and run errands for her. But then Stiles goes to college and can’t make it home as much as he likes, and when he does go home he goes straight to Babcia’s apartment ready to do her bidding and she’s like, “Oh, no, Słoneczko, that nice boy Derek down the hall already got my groceries and fixed my sink…” And Stiles gets really jealous of this Derek guy, but Derek works weekends (Deputy!Derek FTW) so they never actually meet. Stiles nurses this simmering rage that some interloper is bogarting his grandmother. In the meantime Derek is just soaking up the family feels and becoming more and more enamoured of the elusive Mieczysław that babcia keeps showing him pictures of and telling him stories about, “the most handsome, brilliant, caring young boy you could ever meet…” -dr.girlfriend on tumblr

Other comments: Named after the amazing song of the same name by Ben Platt, this fic is inspired by a prompt! It has yet to be finished, but I’m working on it, promise! It’s just slow going.

Title: A Change Of Pace

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 1070

Tags: Empath Stiles Stilinski, stetersecretsanta2019, Fluff

Summary: Stiles has always struggled to contain the effects of being an empath- Peter, like he always seems to do, worms his way through the cracks. My entry for the Steter Secret Santa 2k19, enjoy!

Other comments: Once again, another secret santa entry! For this one, I dabbled into making Stiles an empath, I’m pretty sure that was one of the requests of my secret santa-ee, so that’s what I did! If inspiration strikes, I feel like I could definitely expand on this story, but it works as a short story just as well.

Title: On Christmas Eve

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 5285

Tags: Angst, Fluff and Angst, Post-Nogitsune, Post-Nogitsune Stiles Stilinski, Sad Stiles Stilinski, Pain, Dreams and Nightmares, Panic Attacks, Depression, Isolation, Slow Build Derek Hale/Stiles, Stilinski Christmas, Christmas Eve, Illnesses, Mental Health Issues, Angst with a Happy Ending, Possession, Scott McCall & Stiles Stilinski Friendship, Bromance, Emotionally Constipated Derek Hale, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Pack Feels

Summary: Looking up at the ceiling in exasperation, Stiles shook his head in disbelief. "Great, so now we're taking in strays. Awesome, just how I wanted to spend my Christmas Eve." ... "Yeah," Stiles agreed, breathlessly, "-friends." ... How Stiles' copes with the possession of the Nogitsune over the next five Christmas Eve's. This is my entry for the 2019 Sterek Secret Santa (:

Other comments: This is one of my absolute FAVOURITE fics I’ve written, and it kind of follows the 5+1 trope, but I don’t think there are six different parts. Anyway, this was obviously written for the 2k19 Sterek Secret Santa, and I just want to once again mention how worth it is to join a writing secret santa!! The Sterek one in particular is VERY well set up, so it’s an amazing one to start with!

Title: Missing Parts (In My Brain)

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 1410

Tags: Fluff, Pining, Asexual Character, Asexual Relationship, 12 Days of Sterek, Christmas, Christmas Party, Christmas Fluff

Summary: Pining has always been something Stiles has been spectacularly good at. But really? This is going too far. Christmas parties aren't Christmas parties unless at least one couple lays the PDA on heavy, and it all gets Stiles thinking. Written for 12 Days Of Sterek 2019 (:

Other comments: As I wrote in the summary, this was written for the 12 days of Sterek! I don’t think there was a prompt or anything, but this fic has a heavy theme of asexuality, which I wrote for the purpose of putting more diversity into my fics.

Title: The Peculiarities of Demetrius Blotting and Papers

Rating: Teen and up audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 1414

Tags: Magical Stiles Stilinski, Magic, Faery Court, Fae & Fairies, Nymphs & Dryads, Mythology - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Library, Library, Witches, Nature, Magic, Bookshop

Summary: Working in the most magically profound bookshop is a walk in the park. Until it isn't. When a stranger comes looking for a registry of one of the most well-known wolf packs in America, Stiles finds himself intrigued. And unfairly invested in making the guy smile. And if it takes a bit of sneaking to do that, then that's nobodies business but his own, right?

Other comments: I actually do not remember where this fic was going! But it never got further than the first chapter unfortunately (I hope I can update this, someday). It’s about the fae!

Title: Visiting the Hales

Rating: General audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 1513

Tags: Fluff and Angst, Fluff, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Death, Grief/Mourning, Stiles Stilinski Helps Derek Hale, Love, Birthday, The Hale Family, Tattooed Stiles Stilinski, One Shot

Summary: It's taken years for them to reach this stage.Stiles hurts when Derek hurts, but he will gladly shoulder the pain if it lessens Derek's even in the slightest.It's time to visit the Hales.

Other comments: This is literally just a super short angst-fest, I think I was listening to a sad song when I got struck with inspiration, and this is the result! Enjoy if you want some sad! Sterek.

Title: Us Struggling Youth

Rating: Teen and up audiences

Chapters: 23/?

Word count: 27555

Tags: Mental Health Issues, Fluff, Angst, Fluff and Angst, sterek, Self-Harm, Depression, OCD, Anxiety, Therapy, Boarding School, Alternate Universe - Human, Slow Burn, Slow Build Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Slow Build, Sheriff Stilinski's Name is John, Awesome Sheriff Stilinski, Sad, Light Angst, Triggers, Emotional, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Baggage, Emotional, teenwolf, Isaac Lahey & Stiles Stilinski Friendship, Hurt Stiles, Bromance, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Friends With Benefits, Kissing, LGBTQ Themes, Mental Breakdown, Alternate Universe - Boarding School, Teen Derek Hale, Teen Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Teenage Rebellion, Camping, Nostalgia, Alternate Universe- No Supernatural, Teen Wolf, Bipolar Disorder, Worry, Derek Hale is Bad at Feelings

Summary: Stiles never wanted to go to a school for crazy people, but with his history with self-harm and worsening anxiety, his dad thought it was the place he needed to be. But when the management is at threat, the pupils decide that they deserve some time away, and the camp of the ages was born. What happens when a group of not so well teens decide they want to rebel for one final hurrah?Because when sparks fly in a pit of flames, it can be hard to see past the manic of The Rosedale Academy For Struggling Youth.

Other comments: This is my second longest fic after Only He Saw, and is currently unfinished. Will I finish it? Unknown, but likely not. I got really into the AU Boarding School trope, and this was the result, but then I ran out of inspiration, which is sad because I had a whole storyline planned out. If it ever comes back, I’ll be sure to continue writing it!

Title: The Cookie Incident

Rating: General Audiences

Chapters: 1/1

Word count: 2225

Tags: Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Children, Alternate Universe, Steter Secret Santa

Summary: Stiles goes on a baking spree, with the help of a certain six-year-old, much to the dismay of Peter.

Other comments: This was written for the 2018 Steter Secret Santa, and was written based on the likes of my secret santa-ee. I’d 10000% recommend doing a writing Secret Santa if you want to get into writing fics! You’re surrounded by other people doing the same thing as you, you have a deadline, and you get a present in return! I love doing them, and I’ve been doing both the Sterek and Steter secret santas for three years now. It’s a fluff-fest, that’s all!

Title: Only He Saw

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Chapters: 31/31

Word count: 45,781

Tags: Angst, Eventual fluff, Eventual Happy Ending, Developing Relationship, Slow Build, Slow Burn, Heartbreak, Depression, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Self Harm, Razor - Freeform, Razors, Anxiety, Darkness, Stiles Has Panic Attacks, Panic Attacks, Erica, Derek Hale, Stiles Stilinski Has Scars, Scars, Sad, Crying, Stiles is Pushed Out of the Pack, Hurt Stiles, Cars, Rich Peter, Caring Peter, Peter hale - Freeform, Feels, mansion, Rebuilt Hale House, mean derek hale, steter feels, elastic band technique, self harm alternatives, Self Confidence Issues, Grief/Mourning, Grieving Peter, Blood, trigger warning, Heavy Angst, Neglected Stiles Stilinski, Busy Sherriff, Nurturing Peter Hale, Good Peter Hale, Sheriff Stilinski is a Bad Parent, Torture, Tortured Stiles Stilinski, Peter forgives Stiles, Depressed Stiles, Angst with a Happy Ending, Small pack, Car rides, Revenge, Magical Stiles Stilinski, Non-Evil Peter Hale, halepackareevil, evilhalepack, badderek, goodpeter, Emotions, POV Stiles, Asexual Character, Asexual Stiles Stilinski, Werau.

Summary: When the pack stopped telling him about meetings, Stiles laughed. It wasn't surprising that they forgot to update his number when their phones kept getting destroyed by the monster of the week...right? They just forgot. That happened. All the time! Too often. When the pack stopped giving excuses for forgetting, a deserving prickle of fear and trepidation etched its way into his heart, making his usually cocky and brave smile falter and leave. Only when they weren't watching. When they went out of their way to stop him going to meetings, he stopped smiling altogether. Only where they couldn't see. But it's fine, right? He was part of a family that loved him and just wanted to keep him safe...right? But when Derek used the door instead of the window to get into Stile's house, as small and insignificant a fact that may be, he accepted that something was wrong.

Other comments: This was the first fic I ever wrote, and you can tell! I wrote this story over a long time, but for the majority of it, I’d upload 1000 word chapters every day, which really helped my writing develop. I was in a super dark place when I wrote this, and I think you can tell, but I keep it up because it shows how far my writing’s come. I’m proud of how far I’ve come since OHS!

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loseyoutoloveme · 4 years

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can you do a rundown/review of every song on folklore like you've done for selena? and what your current top 5 are??

considering this is officially one of my top 3 favourite albums ever i’m v happy to 😌! warning, absolutely every single song will be ranked 10/10

thank for wanting to know my thoughts :( i can’t believe anybody would volunteer to read this JDNSKSDJKDS

first of all, my top 5 is probbbbably gonna change (maybe not tho bc my lover top 5 hasn’t really changed a lot), but for now, i think it’s: august > seven > mad woman > illicit affairs > mirrorball

THE 1:

ngl my very first thought was that it reminded me of same love by macklemore skdjdskjdskjsd but not in a bad way!

literally some of the prettiest lyrics, i knew just from this song that this would top red as her best lyrically (best album in general)

honestly just rly sad and sweet and one of those songs that has such a universal sound i feel?

also the simplest song of the album lyrically (also not in a bad way, just like objectively this is the easiest subject matter on the album with the least opaque lyrics), so a really good opener

best lyrics: “we never painted by the numbers baby but we were making it count/you know the greatest loves of all time are over now” and “we were something don’t you think so/roaring twenties tossing pennies in the pool/and it my wishes came true it would’ve been you”

a cute girl, 10/10

CARDIGAN:

i was surprised by the darkish sound of this one

idk what that like clanking sound in the background is but i find it a lil distracting in the first half of the song - but if i ever find out what it is and it has some symbolic meaning/purpose for being there (i assume it does) i’ll accept it sdjknsd

i love the nostalgia that is so present in like almost every song on this album :(

also the music video is stunning and frames the entire album in the most interesting way, metaphor-wise

best lyrics: “i knew you’d linger like a tattoo kiss/knew you’d haunt all of my what-ifs/the smell of smoke would hang around this long/cause i knew everything when i was young/i knew i’d curse you for the longest time/chasin’ shadows in the grocery line/i knew you’d miss me when the thrill expired/and you’d be standing in my front porch light/and i knew you’d come back to me”

10/10

THE LAST GREAT AMERICAN DYNASTY:

love this one bc it’s like a nice lil exhale in an album filled with angst, like it’s cute and boppy without being aggressive

i’m suddenly absolutely obsessed with rebekah harkness, particularly the “bitch pack” thing and her dyeing someone’s dog green

i love taylor’s storytelling and i love how that’s always been a big part of her approach to songwriting. this is taylor at her best narration, like starlight but so much better. this is a type of songwriting that is so underused these days, esp by mainstream artists and i love so much that she has always used it and been so invested in it

the pronoun change made me screech. sooo goooood

taylor’s obv a deeply autobiographical artist which is why it’s so incredible to hear her tell OTHER people’s stories and somehow make them so her own. like i think it’s mostly the english major in me that just gets so emotional over that...... the way that other people’s stories became our own through the way we tell them......

this song is def the one that is most explicit about the album’s theme of telling stories but ones that tell something about her (and about her listeners too), by switching to personal pronouns at the end. it sets up a pattern for the rest of the album, where each song is about one thing (the actual story she’s telling) but also about a bunch of other things.

a good example of why she’s the greatest songwriter of this generation

best lyrics: “there goes the maddest woman this town has ever seen/she had a marvelous time ruining everything”

10/10

EXILE:

bon iver’s voice was a full shock to the system the first time i listened and idk why sdkjnds it is just so deep and i was not at all expecting it esp after the cuteness of tlgad

anyway these lyrics are GORGEOUS

i love a duet where the 2 singers’ lyrics are meant to be directed at each other. is there a word for that type of duet idk but it always makes a duet infinitely better

the miscommunication exemplified in the bridge...... chef’s kiss heartbreaking

out of all the songs this is the one that makes me feel the most like i am in the middle of a forest in winter. i can already picture myself listening to this song in december with the sound of a crackling fire in the background mmmmmmmm my exact vibe

best lyrics: “you’re not my homeland anymore/so who am i defending now?/you were my town, now i’m in exile seeing you out” and “i’m not your problem anymore/so who am i offending now?”

10/10

MY TEARS RICOCHET:

this chorus BRRROOOOKE ME

writing songs presumably about the masters situation and framing them as breakup songs was absolutely galaxy brain

i feel like the image of tears ricocheting has like a million layers to it and is just suuuuch a smart metaphor

also just such a visually rich song ? so is every song on the album but the metaphors of this song are all just so visual

best lyrics: “i didn’t have it in myself to go with grace/and you’re the hero flying around saving face/and if i’m dead to you why are you at the wake?” and “i can go anywhere i want/anywhere i want, just not home”

10/10

MIRRORBALL:

ok so i did like this one on first listen, i loved absolutely everything on first listen, but it didn’t hit my top 5 until like 8 listens later, so it’s def a big grower and i think could be a huge fan fav by next year

the self-awareness in her writing will never fail to amaze me

the way that life is just performing...... yeah

but it’s crazy to me that a person could be like “i’m a compulsive people pleaser and performer and i’ll do anything to get ppl to like me” and that leads to “i am a disco ball” like ???? her brain is so big. it’s such a gorgeous metaphor.... and the circus imagery AHHHHH

best lyrics: “i’m still on that tightrope/i’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me/i’m still a believer but i don’t know why/i’ve never been a natural, all i do is try try try/i’m still on that trapeze/i’m still trying everything to keep you looking at me” and “i can change everything about me to fit in”

10000/10

SEVEN:

this one simply rips my heart out

at first i was like oh this is so weird and then the chorus just would not leave my head

for me personally, nostalgia is literally 90% of my personality and just for so many personal reasons the thought of childhood ending and all of the growing pains that come along with that have been at the forefront of my psyche for the past year. so it just kills me whenever i find a song like this one and it kills me that taylor specifically has several songs about this topic and this is 100000% the best of them all. like it’s the most beautiful experience to have your thoughts and feelings and fears expressed so perfectly by a total stranger, and that’s rly what art is about and i love taylor for doing that for me and millions of other people

i just feel like this song brings up so many vivid beautiful memories of childhood for so many people, like being outside in the summer and screaming and being free. ugh

the pause after “i hit my peak at seven” before completing the phrase........ OOOOOOOOOF IT HITS TOO HARD

and sound-wise, just so off-beat and cool and unique

best lyrics: “i hit my peek at seven/feet in the swing across the creek” and “are there still beautiful things?” and “love you to the moon and to saturn/passed down like folk songs/the love lasts so long” and “before i learned civility/i used to scream ferociously/any time i wanted”

100000000000/10

AUGUST:

i knew immediately that this would be my favourite tbh like i could sense it the second it began

i wrote my first impression thoughts in my journal and you can tell the exact moment i got to the bridge bc i just started screaming sdnjksdkjsdn

i would 100% get a tattoo that said “to live for the hope of it all”

everything about this song is LITERALLY flawless like i have.......no notes......no thoughts.......it’s just an absolutely perfect song

best lyrics: “back when we were still changing for the better/wanting for was enough/for me it was enough/to live for the hope of it all" and “august sipped away like a bottle of wine/cause you were never mine”

100000000000000000000000000/10

THIS IS ME TRYING:

this song is rly good but i keep forgetting it exists omg :/ once i learn all of the lyrics i’ll appreciate her more

the strings are gorgeous

i was rly surprised that this one was done with jack instead of aaron just bc the bridge of this sounds SOOOO the national

these lyrics could be interpreted in so many different ways depending on the listener’s experiences and that’s beautiful

best lyrics: “i was so ahead of the curve/the curve became a sphere/fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here” and “it’s hard to be at a party when i feel like an open wound/it’s hard to be anywhere these days when all i want is you/you’re a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town”

10/10

ILLICIT AFFAIRS:

that soft high note on “down,” “stop,” etc is sooooo nice

i don’t have many thoughts on it, it’s just so soft, SOOOOOO gorgeous instrumentally and lyrically

best lyrics: “it’s born from just one single glance/but it dies and it dies and it dies/a million little times” and “don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby/look at this godforsaken mess that you made me/you showed me colours you know i can’t see with anyone else” and “you taught me a secret language i can’t speak with anyone else/and you know damn well/for you i would ruin myself/a million little times”

100000/10

INVISIBLE STRING:

like i said about tlgad, this is a nice little break from all the angst and pain and anger sdnjksdnskjsd just a sweet little break to remind u there are good things in the world too. so placed really well in the tracklist imo

super super super super cute chorus

so many pretty melodies

absolutely an autumn song btw

best lyrics: “time, mystical time/cutting me open, then healing me fine”

10/10

MAD WOMAN:

i literally lost my mind listening to this for the first time

i have such a thing for scorned women anthems like i will immediately love it whatever it is

the pure rage when she says “cause you took everything from me” gives me full body chills

it is just so eerie and haunting and perfect

best lyrics: “women like hunting witches too/doing your dirtiest work for you/it’s obvious that wanting me dead/has really brought you two together” and “every time you call me crazy i get more crazy/what about that?” and “good wives always know/she should be mad, should be scathing like me/but no one like a man woman”

1000000/10

EPIPHANY:

i find this one so hard to listen to but it’s absolutely beautiful and devastating and so heavily relevant for i think the whole world rn

the heart monitor and the trumpets tying both of the topics in together is so genius and so heartbreaking

i think will be the sygb of folklore where it makes everybody cry so much that it becomes a skip despite being a beautiful song

best lyrics: “something med school did not cover/someone’s daughter, someone’s mother” and “some things you just can’t speak about”

10/10

BETTY:

first of all THE HARMONICA

this made me so happy bc it’s just so debut and so fearless and it made me SOOOOO nostalgic on my first listen, because it really felt to me like i was getting to listen to a song from debut or fearless for the very first time again

it’s just so sweet and cute and simple and yet another very self-aware moment of looking back to her past material/subject matter

best lyrics: “would you have me? would you want me?/would you tell me to go fuck myself/or lead me to the garden?” and “i’m only seventeen, i don’t know anything/but i know i miss you”

10/10

PEACE:

the bass at the beginning is soooooo nice

this miiiiiight be the strongest song on the album lyrics-wise but idk yet

not much to say, it’s just so gorgeous

best lyrics: “i’m a fire and i’ll keep your brittle heart warm/if your cascade ocean wave blues come/all these people think love’s for show/but i would die for you in secret” and “would it be enough if i could never give you peace?” and “i talk shit with my friends, it’s like i’m wasting your honour”

10/10

HOAX:

i have a feeling this one will be underrated/underappreciated bc it’s just simple and dark and the last song, but this is....... a lyrical masterpiece

i feel like i need to be playing this on vinyl with all of the lights off and just a candle burning yknow, like there’s just something so dark and ancient about it

best lyrics: “my winless fight/this has frozen my ground” and “your faithless love’s the only hoax i believe in/don’t want no other shade of blue but you/no other sadness in the world would do” and “you knew it still hurt underneath my scars/from when they pulled me apart/but what you did was just as dark/darling this was just as hard”

10/10

OVERALL: 10000000000/10 literally one of the best albums i have ever heard and (while i wouldn’t put it past her to top it) absolutely the best work of her career. so complex and layered and emotional and painful and genuine and different. not to get ahead of myself but this is/should be considered her blue, her rumours, her abbey road....... god. can’t wait to listen to this album for the rest of my life and play it for my future children and just watch it live on as the greatest work of one of the most important artists of the 21st century

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the-jam-to-the-unicorn · 6 years

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The Little Things - Part 2

Summary: When Gaston asks for your help, you are not happy about it. Because he is an idiot and you are invisible to him. But sooner or later you realize that maybe he isn’t that bad. (Gaston x reader)

Warnings: bullying (not much, but it is there)

Words: 4840

Author note: This started as an idea for a scene in this and turned out in a 10000+ words thing. Well...it just happened.

Highschool!AU and some of the Beauty and the Beast characters have an appearance.

A word about the reader: I tried to keep it as general as possible. At some point I needed details, so if something is not fitting for you, I’m sorry and ask you to change it in your mind.

Feedback is always welcome!

English isn’t my first language and I have no beta at the moment, so please excuse mistakes.

Part 1

Part 3

It was the week before Christmas and you were on your way home and already late. With a sigh you closed your locker, grabbing your bag.

“Hey, loser!”, was the only thing you heard, when you turned around, before something cold and wet hit your face.

You gasped in surprise and could hear the laughs. When you opened your eyes, you saw Dick and Tom and the three girls behind them, all laughing at you.

“Merry Christmas, idiot!”, Dick said and they all went away.

You looked down at yourself. A slushie had hit you and you were covered in it. You fought back the tears and went to the toilette.

An hour too late, you finally arrived at home. To your surprise, Gaston was still waiting for you. He texted you about five times, you hadn’t answered. It was pretty cold outside, and everything was covered in snow, but nevertheless Gaston was sitting at your steps, reading a book. He looked up, when he heard your car and started to smile the moment he saw you.

“(Y/N)! I’m glad you are here. I thought, you wouldn’t come. Is everything alright? You are pretty late and tried to text you, but didn’t get an response and…is that slushie in your hair?!”, he asked confused and tried to touch your hair, but you stepped aside and he grabbed the air.

“Why are you sitting in the cold?”, you asked, clearly avoiding the topic.

“Well, your mom asked me to come inside, but I wanted to wait here and I like the snow and the cold never bothered me anyway.”

You nodded and opened the door, hearing a lot of noises the moment you stepped inside.

“I’m home!”

Your mother appeared with a smile.

“Hello sweetheart, how was school? And what is that?”, she asked, looking at the slushie smudge on you.

“Uuumm…the cafeteria floor was slippery and I…slipped. My slushie landed on me.”

“Oh no! Are you alright?!”

“Yeah, I’m fine.”, you lied and you felt Gastons stare at you.

Thankfully, he said nothing.

“I really should talk with the director. How is it, the floor is always slippery?!”, your mother wondered. “Does this happen to you too, Gaston?”

You didn’t dare to look at him.

“Yes…”, he answered slowly, looking at your mom and back to you. “A lot.”

“What about the noises?”, you asked and changing the topic.

“Oh, we have guests. Can you and Gaston learn somewhere else today? In your room, maybe?!”

“Um, sure. Why not.”, you said and went with Gaston upstairs.

When you two entered your room, Gaston was surprised. He wasn’t sure, what he had expected, but nevertheless, he felt surprised. The room had the same classic, elegant and at the same time cozy taste like the living room. It was filled with lots of books, merchandise and decoration stuff.

“You have a nice room.”, he said, looking around.

“Thanks.”, you said, putting down your bag and walking to your closet.

You pulled out a shirt and went to the bathroom door.

“If you take a look, I will murder you.”, you said as a warning and with a grin and entered your bathroom.

Gaston quickly turned around, paying a lot of attention to your book shelf. He wasn’t sure why, because usually, he wouldn’t miss the chance to get a look at boobs, but with you, it was different.

“You didn’t slip at the floor.”, you heard him from the other room.

“I did.”, you said.

“No you didn’t. I was there too. We ate lunch at the same time. You didn’t slip. Was it Tom or Dick? Or one the girls?”

“You forgot Stanley and that small guy, who always follows you.”

“LeFou. But these two wouldn’t bully you. They are far too nice to do something like this.”

“If you say so.”

“Yes. So? Who was it?”

You thought about changing the topic, because there was no reason why Gaston asked. You gut bullied a lot and until now, Gaston didn’t seem to be interested in the behaviour of his friends.

“It was Dick. Or Tom. I don’t know. Everything happened too fast. Maybe one of the girls. They were there too.”

You were done changing and stepped out of the bathroom, finding Gaston still looking at your book shelf, one of your Harry Potter books in his hand. For a brief second you looked at his ass and of course it was perfectly shaped too, because everything about Gaston seemed to be perfect. You blinked and quickly looked up, when he turned around.

“I am sorry, they did this.”

“Why?”

Surprised he looked at you.

“What do you mean?”

“Why are you sorry? They are doing this since…well...forever. You never seemed to care.”

“I do.”

You leaned against the wall, looking at Gaston and waiting. He sighed deeply.

“Look, just because I don’t say anything, doesn’t mean, I don’t care. I do. And I am sorry. Really. I wish, I could make them stop, but…”

“You have to protect your reputation.”, you added for him.

Gaston seemed to be embarrassed, but nodded.

“Yeah.”

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

“Why do you care so much about your reputation? Why does it matter so much to you, what other people think about you? And do you really think, they are your friends? They wouldn’t do anything when you need help.”

Gaston said nothing and looked at the floor. You had the feeling, that he was fighting with himself if he should answer your question or not. When he looked up, you saw, he wouldn’t answer the question and there was more to this story. There was something, he wasn’t ready to talk about.

“Can I ask you another question?”, you offered.

“Of course.”

“Why do you want that scholarship? I mean, you don’t need the money. I know your car. And your grades are amazing. So, why do you need it? And why soccer?”

“Well, soccer is the only thing I am good at.”, he answered, ignoring the first questions.

“That’s not true.”

He looked surprised.

“Gaston, you are actually smart. Very smart. You could do so many things. You work hard, you could do it. Have you never thought about, what you could do?”

“I don’t know. I suppose…no?! There was always just soccer.”, he answered with a shrug.

“Close your eyes.”

“What?”

“Don’t ask. Just…close your eyes.”

Unsure, he looked at you, but closed his eyes nevertheless.

“Now, think about your life in…let’s say 20 years. Imagine every aspect of your life. And let’s pretend, that literally everything is possible. What do you see?”

There was silence for a while and you watched his face. Suddenly a smile appeared on it.

“I’m having the perfect life.”

“Describe it to me.”, you said, taking a pen and piece of paper from your desk.

“I’m out of this little town, in a big city. New York, maybe. Or LA. Or Berlin or Paris or…”

“Not maybe. Imagine it. See it.”

“It’s Paris.”, he answered and you wrote everything down he said. “I’m successful in my job.”

“You’re playing soccer?”

“No. I did it in my free time at college, but…I’m a vet.”

“A vet?!”

“Yes.”, Gaston said and smiled. “I have a really big and very fancy office in Paris. LeFou is there too. Not in the office, but in Paris. He is…a musical star or something. And we are still best friends.”

You smiled.

“Anything else?”

“I’m living in a very big house. It’s big and awesome, but also very cozy. I see a lot of green around it.”

“Sounds like a house for a family.”

His smile got bigger and much softer.

“Yeah. I have…the most beautiful wife on earth. She is successful in her job too, kicking asses every day. She is a bad ass and probably way too good for me. And she is so beautiful. Not only on the outside, but also on the inside. And we have kids. A lot of kids. Boys and girls.”

“How many?”, you asked with a smile, feeling strangely happy to see Gaston so happy.

“4. No wait, 5. I almost forgot Gaston junior.”

You had to laugh, because of course, Gaston was naming a child after himself.

He went silent again and opened his eyes after some seconds, looking at the floor.

“And I wake up every morning, feeling like the luckiest man on earth and my life is just…perfect.”

There was silence again.

“You can laugh at me, if you want.”, Gaston said after a while. “I know, it’s silly.”

You said nothing and went to him, folding the paper and handing it to him.

“It’s not silly. And I’m sure, you can do this. And just in case you forget your dream, here it is. Black on white.”

Slowly Gaston took the paper and looked at you.

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

When spring arrived, you knew, you would get your Harvard letter. So waiting was torture. Besides that, everything went along as usual. Gaston would visit you most days after school, you would talk about Literature and do homework together, dine with your family and go home. You also started to text with each other from time to time, talking about this and that. You also accompanied Belle and Adam to the soccer matches, rooting for the team and Gaston.

Sometimes, you had the feeling, LeFou knew about the situation, because you caught him looking at you or smiling and he started to talk with you in class, whenever it was possible and wouldn’t be too obvious something was happing in secret. Even Stanley showed you a smile then and now, when Tom and Dick weren’t paying attention to him.

You also started to watch these two and you noticed a really weird group dynamic. LeFou was basically only with Gaston, some kind of shadow. He got mostly ignored by Tom and Dick and the Bimbettes pretended he was air. Stanley seemed to be the only one, who paid attention to him…a lot of attention and after some time of observation you had a feeling, that Stanley’s girlfriend was a beard and he had a big crush on LeFou…and LeFou on Stanley. Stanley was also a bit of an outsider in the group. Tom and Dick seemed to be his friends, but he was different. Tom and Dick were loud, dumb and loved to be idiots. Stanley was shy, quiet and seemed to be pretty nice.

As it turned out, Gaston really was full of surprises, because he actually was a pretty big nerd. He knew a lot of stuff about TV series and films. You two could talk about the differences of Star Wars and Star Trek all day long or he could name all the Game of Thrones character deaths in order, without thinking about it. He also knew his Hogwarts house and could quote “The Hobbit” like you could quote Shakespeare.

To his surprise, one day in spring, your mother opened the door.

“Oh, Gaston. You are here…”, she said, obviously surprised.

“Shouldn’t I be here?!”

“Well, I just thought, she wouldn’t do it today…”, your mother mumbled and Gaston looked confused at her. “She got the Harvard letter.”

“Oh?! That’s great! Congratulations! I’m sure you are very proud of her. I mean, she worked her ass off. You’re probably celebrating and she forget to tell me and now I disturb the party…”

“She isn’t in Harvard.”

Gaston looked at her with open mouth.

“Wait…what?”

“Yes. It was negative reply.”

“Oh.”, was the only thing that came to his mind. “Can I…go to her?”

Your mother nodded and let Gaston in.

“I’m sure, she is happy about a bit company. She was pretty devastated. She is in her room.”

Gaston went upstairs and found you on your windowsill, looking outside. When he softly knocked at your door, your head turned around and looked at him. Gaston didn’t miss the red, eyes, the tear-stained face and the heart-breaking look at your face. He felt awful, seeing you like this.

“Gaston?! What are you doing here?”

“Well, I thought we would meet.”

“Oh damn.”, you said, hiding your face in your hands. “I forgot to text you.”

“Don’t worry. It’s not a problem. Your mother told me what happened. How are you feeling?”, he ask and closed your door behind him, walking to you and sitting down next to you.

You sniffed.

“Well, awful. Devastated. I can’t believe it. I worked so hard for the last years and it was for...nothing.”

“Don’t say that. I’m sure, it wasn’t for nothing.”

“Really? I’m not going to study at Harvard, so it really was for nothing.”

“I’m sure every other college would be more than happy to get you.”

You said nothing. You knew, deep down, that he was right, but at the moment you were to hurt to admit it.

“So, what’s the plan B?”

“I don’t have one.”

“What? You always have a plan B! And C. And D and E and F and…I’m pretty sure all the letters from the alphabet.”

You had to laugh and Gaston smiled at you.

“Better.”

“What is better?”

“You, smiling.”

You felt your face getting red.

“You also have a nice laugh.”

You looked up and realized how close Gaston was. He looked at you and you could perfectly see his green eyes, looking soft at you.

It was Gaston, who looked away and you noticed his slightly flushed cheeks.

“Well…um…I…I wondered…I mean…I know you usually don’t go to such things, because you have a lot to do and learn a lot and stuff, but…um…it’s my birthday tomorrow and…I’m having a party at one of the clubs, so…I wondered, if you would perhaps…maybe…if you have time…would you come?!”

“You are renting a club to have a party?!”

“My parents do. And Tom and Dick organize everything. Something about celebrating the 18th birthday big way.”

Your first impulse was to say “no”. Because he was right. You learned all the time and felt no desire to attend these parties. But now…

“You know what?! Okay. I’m going to be there.”

“Really?”

“Yeah. I mean, I never went to a party. All I ever did was sitting here and learning. And for what? Harvard rejected me. So I’m going to attend at least one high school party and start to have fun and a life. Can I bring Belle and Adam?”

“Sure. That’s…great!”, Gaston answered and seemed to be very happy.

The next evening, you stood in front of the club and didn’t felt so courageous. You even thought about just going home and watching a movie or something. But Belle didn’t want to hear any of it and basically pulled you inside.

And you felt a lot out of place. The club itself was nice. A big dance floor, a stage at one end and a huge bar at the right side. There were a lot of seats. The light wasn’t too bright, but bright enough to see everything and the music was pleasant. You saw the DJ next to the stage and at the stage some girls in underwear wear, dancing to the beat.

You looked at the other guests and you felt even more out of place. Of course you looked nice, in your opinion, you had put on your best outfit and the one that screamed “party hard” the most. But your style was easy, simple. No sexy stuff, no weird colours or crazy patterns. And with a look at the other guests, especially the girly, you realized, you looked more like someone who was attending the birthday party of their grandparents. Even the high heels you wore, where borrowed from Belle.

Before you could turn around and run away, a woman approached you.

“Welcome to the party. Can you tell me your names?”

She smiled friendly and Belle answered her question. She looked at her clipboard and nodded.

“Over there is the wardrobe and please give me your phones. There is a no-phone-rule at his party. Because whatever happens in this club, stays in this club.”

This didn’t calm your nerves, but you handed her your phone nevertheless. She put a sticker with your name on it and took the phones from your friends.

“Thanks. You can get it, when you go. Have fun at the Saints and Sinners party!”

“Saint and Sinners?!”, you asked with a raised eyebrow when you walked with Belle inside.

“Come on. This is going to be fun.”, she said enthusiastically.

“(Y/N!)”, you turned around, when you heard your name and you saw Gaston, making his way through the crowd to you. “I’m glad you are here.”, he finally said, when he was standing in front of you.

“You are talking with me?”

“Yes.”

“You do realize, I’m still the loser?!”

“Yes. And I don’t care and talk with you.”

You two smiled at each other until Belle coughed.

“Hello, Belle. Adam.”, Gaston greeted them, still looking at you.

“Hello, Gaston. Thanks for the invitation.”, Belle said and Gaston finally looked at her.

Adam nodded to him.

“Gaston!”, someone screamed in a shrill voice and you saw Gaston sighing. “Where is the birthday boy?!”

The Bimbettes appeared, obviously already tipsy and in something, that looked more like underwear but was probably supposed to be a dress. They stopped, when they saw you.

“Ew, who invited you?!”

“I did.”

They looked really confused at Gaston.

“Why?”

“Why not.”

“But Gaston…”, one of them started. “She is…ew.”

The girl looked at Belle.

“And this one is so…ew too.”

“You have such a way with words, Paulette.”, you remarked.

“I’m not Paulette!”, she hissed and looked angered at you.

“We need the birthday boy for the cake.”, one of the girls said and she and her sister grabbed Gaston and pulled him away.

He managed to smile at you, before he disappeared.

The third girl, not-Paulette, stepped in front of you.

“Why don’t you go and exist somewhere else.”

“We are invited.”, Belle said and not-Paulette looked at her.

“I don’t care. Just go and…be smart somewhere else or whatever.”, she said with clear disgust.

“You are the only person in this world, who could use intelligence as an insult.”, you said and not-Paulette shot you a dirty look.

“Look, I don’t know why Gaston decided to pay attention to you, but let me be very clear. He is mine and he wouldn’t even touch you or think about it, if you would be the last woman on earth. So why don’t you go back into your hole and stay there, loser.”

With that, she turned around and walked away.

“That’s going to be a great party…”, Adam said with a sarcastic undertone.

“Darling, would you get us something to drink?”, Belle asked and he nodded.

When he went away, Belle turned back to you.

“Don’t listen to these dolls. I mean, look at them. There is basically no difference between them and the strippers on stage.”

You laughed, because Belle was right.

“Don’t worry. I couldn’t care less about these Barbie dolls.”

“Good. But another thing…is there something you want to tell me?”, Belle asked and grinned.

“What do you mean?”

“Well, Gaston talks with you…he looked at you. He almost didn’t notice me and Adam.”

“What are you trying to say?”

“Gaston seems to like you. And when I say this, I mean like you.”, she said with a wink and you felt yourself blushing.

“Don’t be crazy. There is no way in this world or in any other world that someone like Gaston would like me... or like me.”

“If you say so…”, Belle said, but looked at you and you looked away. “But he looked pretty handsome…and hot.”

You had to admit, that this was true. The black trousers fitted perfectly and the red shirt accentuated his muscles. You also hadn’t missed, that Gaston had left some buttons open so you had a glimpse at his muscular and a bit hairy chest. For some reason, that thought made your skin tickle and you felt your cheeks flush more. Belle noticed this too, but said nothing.

The party was pretty great and you had a lot of fun. You danced with Adam and Belle most of the time, not seeing much of Gaston, because he was constantly with the Bimbettes or his friends. You also had a lot to drink and at some point you decided, it would be wiser to sit down. Belle was worried, but you told her, you were fine and she should enjoy the night and dance a lot with Adam.

You walked to one of the seats next to the stage and sit down. With a sigh, you leaned back and ordered another cocktail. Yes, this was probably a bad idea, because you already were drunk. Not tipsy or something similar, but drunk. On the other side, you were so drunk, you no longer cared and this night was all about having fun and living for the first time in…well, forever, so why not another drink. Adam would drive you home, so no need to worry about that.

While you sipped at the cocktail, you watched the dancers and strippers at the stage, trying to dance be sexy and being painfully over the top at the same time. Even their movements at the pole looked ridiculous.

“Obviously, you are not that smart.”

One of the Bimbettes appeared, not pleased to see you.

“Hello, Dumb.”, you greeted her, taking another sip.

“What did you call her?!”

“Ah, and Dumber. Where is Dumbest?”

The bitch look appeared on the faces of the two Bimbettes.

“You are such a loser, (Y/N)!”, one of them said.

You decided to call her Bimbette 1.

“Yes, I am.”, you said with a laugh.

“What is so funny?!”, Bimbette 2 hissed.

“Well, see, there is nothing wrong with being a loser.”

“There is a lot of wrong with that. No one likes you. You are so…smart.”

“Wow, what an insult. I feel like crying.”, you answered ironically and Bimbette 1 glared at you.

“You are so embarrassing. I mean, look at you. You look like a nun or something. No wonder, no one wants to fuck you.”

“Is everything alright?!”

Out of the nowhere, Gaston appeared, looking concerned.

“I’m fine!”, you said and grinning.

“We just tried to take the garbage out.”, Bimbette said and smiled brightly at Gaston.

“I’m the garbage.”, you added and smiled at the Bimbettes.

Gaston looked from the Bimbettes to you, unsure, what to do.

“By the way, I hope you don’t plan to pay these dancers. They are awful.”, you said and looked back to the stage.

“Really?”, Gaston asked confused.

“Yeah. I mean…they try so hard, it’s embarrassing to watch. Whoever hired same, should take his money back.”

“Like you can tell.”, Bimbette 1 hissed.

“Yeah. You wouldn’t even know how to do this.”, Bimbette 2 added.

“Because you are such a boring loser.”

“That’s enough, ladies!”, Gaston stopped them. “Could you…get me something to drink?”

They rushed away like there life depended on it. You looked after them and back at the stage. Gaston sat down next to you.

“So, you think they are horrible?”

“Bimbettes or the dancers?”

Gaston smirked.

“The dancers.”

“Oh. Yeah. I mean…look at that girl in the red underwear. These moves? Totally over the top!”

“That’s a pretty…bold statement.”

“It’s not. It’s the truth. Everyone could do this better. I could do this better.”

“Sure.”

You noticed the undertone and looked at Gaston. A smile was on his lips and he watched the dancers.

“You don’t believe me.”

“Oh, I do.”

“No, you don’t!”

Gaston looked at you, eyebrows raised.

“Well, don’t take it personally, but…you are not boring or a loser, but you are not the most exciting person.”

“Ha!”, you answered and felt insulted. “I could totally do this. I can dance, you know?! I have dance lessons, every week. I not only could do this, I would nail this!”

“Yeah, sure…”, Gaston answered, clearly not believing you.

“Here is your drink!”

The Bimbettes appeared with two drinks, handing them to Gaston.

“Hey, Dumb and Dumber…”, they looked at you. “...you think, I’m boring right?!”

“Yeah. It’s obvious.”, Bimbette 1 answered.

“You are the definition of not being interesting or sexy.”, Bimbette 2 added.

You heard a new song starting, so you stood up. You had no idea, if the talk was to blame or the alcohol, but you felt pretty courageous right now and you had an idea. A stupid one, probably, but you were too drunk to stop you from doing it.

“Well, pay attention and take some notes. I show you, what sexy is.”, you simply said, looking at Gaston who seemed to be really confused and then you walked the stage up.

You walked to the middle of the stage, the dancers a bit confused, but saying nothing. You stopped there, your back to the audience.

You closed your eyes, listening to the music, feeling the beat and you started to move slowly, getting more and more into the music. The people in the crowd started to look at you and you started to move more. When the chorus started, you looked over your shoulder. Gaston and the Bimbettes looked at you, the Bimbettes with crossed arms and angry, Gaston fascinated, with his mouth a bit open.

A smile appeared on your lips and you started to move your hips, your hands caressing your body, a hand pulling the hair clip out of your hair. It felt down over your shoulders and you threw the clip in Gaston’s direction. He caught it, still watching you.

Playfully, you grabbed the skirt of your dress, lifting it a bit. You only heard the music and you only saw Gaston, who looked at you, like you were the only person in the room. It made you braver and your hands wandered to your zipper of your dress, pulling it down slowly. You looked back to Gaston and bite your lip playfully, than the dress slipped down slowly, landing at the floor. You kicked it away and continued to dance in your underdress.

Gaston watched this in pure amazement. He never thought, you would something like this. He didn’t miss the tiniest motion of your body and noticed how beautiful you looked, so free, so happy and like you had the time of your life.

The underdress disappeared too and you danced, showing the hottest movements he had ever seen. He actually couldn’t remember he had ever seen something or someone hotter.

You grabbed the pole and danced at it, sexy and mocking the movements from the unprofessional dancers at the same time. Gaston felt himself laughing and smiling at you. You still looked only at him, smiling and teasingly.

“What is going on?”, Belle asked, when she came back from the toilettes. Everyone stopped dancing and looked to the stage.

Adam looked too, but seemed pretty shocked.

“Belle…”, he only said and pointed to the stage.

Belle pushed some people out of her sight and couldn’t believe what she saw.

“Oh my god…”

She stared at you for some seconds, before she grabbed Adam and pulled him with her.

“We have to get her off there!”

When the music ended, there was a lot of cheering and clapping, but you didn’t really heard it. You only smiled at Gaston, who clapped and had a big grin on his face. The next song started to play, so you left the stage and walked back to your seat.

The Bimbettes looked at you like they would kill you with their stares.

“That was so…predictable!”, Bimbette 1 hissed.

“Yeah?”, you asked and laughed. “What about this?!”

Before anyone could react, you grabbed Gastons face and kissed him. You planned to only give him a quick kiss, but the moment your lips touched his, something happened. You felt even more drunk and you kissed him a bit longer. His lips were surprisingly soft. It felt good, to kiss Gaston.

Gaston was so shocked, he didn’t knew what do to. Because no one had ever kissed him like that. And no one had ever felt so good.

You slowly pulled away, looking at Gaston and he was looking at you, at your lips and back into your eyes.

“(Y/N)!”

Belle appeared next to you, your clothes in her hands.

“We should go.”, Adam said, looking from Gaston to you and back to Gaston.

Gaston still looked at you. You took your hands of Gaston and cleared your throat.

“Yeah.”, you said and looked at the Bimbettes. “You still think, I’m boring?!”, you said, before Belle grabbed your arm and pulled you away.

“Such a slut.”, one of the Bimbettes said.

“Poor Gaston. Our darling had to kiss the loser.”, the other one added and both started to gossip about you.

Gaston didn’t hear it. Because he still felt your lips on his.

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petaldancing · 7 years

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wow guys, i learned about yuletide (a fic exchange for obscure fandoms w <1,000 fics on the net.. like.. hmm.. HYOUKA!!) from @brella and am stoked to take part in it this year! you get to write a letter to the person who’ll be fulfilling your request, so here is mine~

hello (future) friend and (current) yuletide writer!!

This is actually the first year I’m participating in Yuletide! (And also the first year i that i’ve gotten back into writing fic after a 3 year hiatus!) I’m excited, and I hope that my prompts will help spark inspiration for you and that you’ll enjoy writing this piece as the year draws to a close. Thank you so much in advance for this, and I look forward to reading whatever you have for me!

general

i prefer:

gen, het, or femslash

G - M ratings (if the latter: no to underage (below 18 y/o, for me), yes to character-driven, build-up + pay-off! when the sex isn't the highlight of the story but a nice complement.. wow!!)

any length you have in mind for the fic

you to write a story that you've been meaning to but haven't gotten around to! or one that you'd love to have under your belt! (:

i can't deal with/DNW:

drug use, death, gore/violence/assault, dub/noncon, abuse, angst, kinky stuff, unhappy endings

i will cry tears of joy for:

stories focusing on ladies, their r/s (platonic, romantic etc) w other ladies, their characters & motivations beyond just the romance

(but i still thrive on romance ahaha)

characters losing themselves but then finding themselves & becoming stronger (w or w/o someone's help)

(un)resolved sexual tension, unexpected kisses that take both parties by surprise, almost kisses, being trapped in small spaces, mutual pining etc

characters drifting apart over time but then reconnecting and falling in love again

wacky humour

shoujo tropes used in good doses

unlikely pairings that work

platonic fic on unlikely friends/vitrolic best buds esp between a guy & gal

fics about characters who've hardly interacted in canon (!!)

canon divergence (as long as it leads to interesting r/s between characters)

ten years later post-canon fic!! (esp if characters are high-schoolers in canon)

WITCHES! guy witches work too

recurring motifs/symbols

i also love AUs, particularly:

pacific rim AUs

role reversal AUs

I live for AUs that bring out character dynamics you know & love except in a diff universe! but you don't have to write AU fic!

fandom specific

1. Hyouka to say this is my favourite, most precious & treasured piece of fiction would be an understatement!! i give all my heart to hyouka’s themes (finding your identity & place in the world, relating & empathizing with others, following your passion etc etc i could go on) which were told beautifully through a wonderful core cast of 4 characters! the depth and flaws and emotional weaknesses of hyouka’s main cast is Too Much For Me To Bear and i love them in any and all permutations and just WANT TO READ ABOUT THEM ALL THE TIME!! also i’ve written satomaya to the moon & back but let me tell you... i would still read satomaya content any day ehehe. BUT i am very intrigued by satoshi & chitanda’s r/s which hasn’t been written much about in the fandom yet so maybe??? HMM!!

ships: satoshi/mayaka, houtarou/chitanda but would be also open to mayaka/houtarou or satoshi/chitanda because that always intrigues me

prompts (optional, of course!) - Mayaka & Houtarou having a huge falling out, like SERIOUS falling out, and it’s up to Satoshi & Chitanda to work together to get the two to make-up and get the group back together!! - Satoshi & Chitanda working together to solve a mystery without the help of Houtarou & Mayaka, who’re usually the two who are better at solving cases!! - On the flipside, what about: 5 times Satoshi dislikes Chitanda, and 1 time he doesn’t. - Soul Eater AU!! this is a specific AU i’ve had in my head for awhile but would love to read someone’s interpretation of it!! who would be the meisters/weapons, what forms would the weapons take?? a fic where the four find each other and become partners/duos would be worth a BILLION yuletides!! - in the same vein, fire emblem AU! here’s a post i wrote about it years ago but still relevant and feel free to tweak the classes - older!Houtarou/Chitanda who stayed behind for college in Kamiyama visiting Satoshi/Mayaka in the big city/Tokyo (optional as to whether the two pairs are dating yet, but wouldn’t it be wonderful if they weren’t at the start of the fic!!) - any mayaka-centric fic, perhaps a fic about her trying to set Chitanda/Houtarou up? w accomplice Satoshi (+10000 points if she and Satoshi AREN’T DATING! YET! !! COLLAPSES) also i guess it works the other way too!! chitanda trying to get satoshi to confess to mayaka, dragging houtarou along in the process... you know it’s good when both pairs aren’t dating yet

2. Hibike Euphonium

this anime is a good example of me loving the small moments and characters so much more than the overarching plot! i liked s1 more than s2 because of the development of kumiko and reina alongside each other, but i loved the spin s2 gave on kumiko & asuna’s r/s! while this anime isn’t a top fav of mine, the r/s between the ladies in this show is SO GOOD!!! would love to see what you can do with it!

ships: kumiko/reina, kumiko/asuna, am p alright w most other ships too except shuu/kumiko, i’m really not interested in that at all, but shuu as a character? yeah OK i guess prompts - 5 fives they climbed the hill together, 1 time they didn’t (kumiko/reina) - a fic about kumiko chasing asuka down but always missing her!! i.e. following her to uni in the big city (only, her uni is like nowhere near close enough to asuka’s), moving out of home and closer to asuka, trying to join the prestigious band asuka’s travelling with etc etc, and finally catching up to her!! - ten years later fic! reina comes back into town after touring with the national orchestra, kumiko (who stopped playing the euphonium) tries hard not to fall in love with her & the eupho once again... and fails, of course - a fic that examines reina falling out of love with taki-sensei and developing feelings for kumiko would be wonderful for my heart too!!

3. Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun

i am so so fond of this anime and its gags! while the character dynamics are incredibly fun to watch, they also feel very ‘predictable’, not only because of the running jokes but cause their r/s never seem to advance that much. so i would absolutely LOVE if you threw me fic about the most unlikely pairs that don’t interact so much in canon and hence have less running jokes, i would love to see what pans out, and the fic needn’t even be romantic!! ships: nozaki/sakura, kashima/hori, seo/waka, also interested in kashima/seo and sakura+hori

prompts - kashima + seo: i find their r/s v interesting?? would love for a fic to focus on their interactions, esp since i vaguely rmb seo being a bit wary of kashima at first - hori + sakura: i think they would work as wonderful partners in anything they do and would love anything that explores their r/s! maybe sakura has to help the drama club for a performance? - ten years later fic would work wonderfully for GSNK! what’s everyone doing now? wouldn’t it be funny if all the r/s were p much the same, but also kinda different? - Akatsuki no Yona AU! (whether yona is sakura or mikorin, you decide! haha)

4. Fune Wo Amu

this is more of a wildcard pick because um, I REALLY LIKED THIS SHOW! i loved the attention paid to the world of dictionary publishing but specifically, the seemingly insurmountable ocean of words & meanings & the desire to bridge the gaps that so naturally form between people... this show calmed my heart so much and i would love fic which brought me back to that calm and reflective atmosphere & those lovely characters prompts - over the years working, majime learns the definitions of words through his interactions with the people in the office - nishioka becoming a dad leads to everyone in the office inevitably taking turns parenting his kids!! either because they need to babysit, or because he brings em to company functions etc - sasaki on her first day of work vs last day of work - any fic that explores how majime & nishioka influence and change each other’s lives would be nice as well ahh...

thank u again dear writer, may you have a wonderful end to the year and i hope that whatever good things and bad things that happened this year, you’ll carry on strong and even better in the next!! happy writing and please eat well and stay warm (:

#*personal #!!! m excited to write something too!!#fics will be posted on 25 dec on ao3 and author reveals on 1 jan i believe

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obdurare-archive-blog · 7 years

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how do you feel about dmtnt?

Lmao oh. Oh, gosh, anon I. /sweatsOkay, yeah, no. I’m glad it’s breathed life into this fandom that I hold nearest and dearest to my heart. I’m glad to see more people in it and talking about it and drawing fanart for it (like this one bc I am not a Sparossa fan at all but the art is lovely and it’s still cute even it’s not my thing and I now subscribe to the headcanon of Hector with full-body freckles). Like I’m glad to see new people come in, and old people return. Feels like home again. I’m glad it’s made so many people happy.ALSO LET ME PREFACE BY SAYING: These are my feelings on the film. In no way do I feel this way about any DMTNT rpers or their interpretations on my dash. You guys are all fucking fabulous with what you’ve done, and I am here to play with you all, no matter how I feel about the source material. You’ve done an amazing fucking job with what you were given and I am in awe of every last one of you. Which goes to show how I feel means not a fiddly fuck, because you guys are giving pure gold. And know that if you wanna ever do a thing, just hit me up. Because I don’t give a good goddamn, we’ll figure it out. I want to write with you. Keep rocking the fuck as hard as you do, and know each of you are here because I want you to be.HOWEVER I have a lot of issues with this film.

I haven’t been shy about my issues with characterization and canon non-compliance within the film. And I’m not about to start now. Me? I hated it. There were a couple of things that rang true to me, that sounded IC to me, but on the whole I felt like it was a tangled, disjointed mess of a movie. But also understand I’m looking at it from a I really love my boy and how does this even work in actual canon standpoint. I think I’d be a lot happier with it if it were treated - in fandom - like a soft reboot with no bearing on the original trilogy? It could work that way. But as it stands, there’s just so much that directly contradicts 14 years of standing canon, I can’t love it, and I can’t really use it.So from a Hectormun perspective:Hector is hollow in this movie. I know a lot of people have feels about him, but from a squinting at his character from every angle view that I have, he doesn’t sound like himself. The Hector Barbossa I know and love would never hide in his cabin with a private band. The Hector Barbossa I know and love is an active, working captain, who is boots on deck at eight bells and out and about amongst his crew. Because he understands that his position as captain only lasts as long as they want him to be captain. He’s vain, but he’s not really flashy. His biggest physical vanity is his hat, and even then it’s feathers in muted, natural colors. He wears old and tattered clothes because that’s not what’s important to him. He doesn’t trim his beard because fuck what Jack thinks, have you seen Jack? He’s a walking disaster.From a character perspective, I have a hard time believing a man who baby talks his pet monkey could leave a daughter of his at an orphanage. Especially an orphanage of the 18th Century. I have a hard time thinking that he would let other people take the experiences from him of braiding his daughter’s hair and reading her bedtime stories. Say what you want about Hector - he’s a hard man - but once he loves, he loves just as hard. And if you don’t think he’d love his baby girl more than anything on the planet you are wrong. It would probably be the first time he’d experience the want to put someone else before his own desires and wants. I’m sorry, I just literally cannot buy he’d do this. Maybe it’s wanting to believe he’s better than what he is, but I don’t think so. I’m eyes-open on the things he’s done for survival. Aware of how terrible he can actually be. But as attached as he gets to his pets, and how the compass pointed to her the entire time he held it, I cannot believe he wouldn’t have had her literally strapped to his fucking side the moment she was born.I have issues with Jack. I have issues how we go from “I’ve never actually been that drunk,” to slurring his words, when Jack has never been like that. Ever. In four movies, and about twenty books. I have issues with Jack demanding tribute. @pearlsparable has written a great thing here about it, you should go check it out. Pirate captains do not demand tribute, or they do not remain captain for very long. I have issues with the production value, too, but that’s another thing entirely. I have massive issues with the change in how Jack got the Wicked Wench. It’s so integral to who he is I feel like changing it cheapens his character so much. It takes away so much depth the original storyline gave him. I have a lot of PoF love, y'all, you’ll pry it from my cold, dead hands. I also have issues with the compass giving. This whole thing has been built around him bartering it from Tia Dalma, and it cheapens her and him to rewrite it because…I haven’t figured out why. I feel like this whole script could have used a cursory wiki check.I have issues with Will and his being a morose bastard about things. Will knew the duty. Will knew he was more suited than Jack to do the duty. Remember that talk on the Pearl? “You have to do the job, Jack. Or end up just like Jones.” Will was meant for the duty. “A touch of destiny.” Tia Dalma knew, too, I believe, when she she laid eyes on him. Also lots of issues with how Henry (I’m sorry, babes, they should have kept with the Williams and this one should have been Willie, Henry jars really bad for some reason) is kind of. Left to swim back to his own boat. I have problems with Henry not being given any depth when he could have been so much more. Like there was so much potential in this film and it all feels flat.I feel like Salazar was so much wasted potential. As is, he’s still great, those special effects are hell unnerving and fucking zombie sharks, I am always here for zombie sharks. But I feel like he could have been expanded on so much more. Look at Hector from CotBP. That’s how you write a sympathetic villain. And Salazar tries to reach that same level of writing craft, but it’s not a fault of Javier Bardem, who is fabulous, but a fault of a shitty script that left him filling in too many details. I’ve seen rpers here who do a much better job of giving him depth and feeling and a solid feeling than that script did. So kudos to you guys for being awesome, too. You’ve made him into what he should have been, and I’m so grateful to see so many talented people picking up the slack there.I’m disappointed in the handling of this romance of Hector’s. She’s a name. A throw away line. If she’s someone Hector Barbossa fell in love with, then she was someone worth remembering. That I promise you. She should have been more than that.I’m angry that the writers can’t seem to write an intelligent female, apparently, so everyone else feels a bit dumbed down to compensate. I’m angry, because this is Hector Barbossa’s fucking daughter and they wrote her so blandly and I saw nothing at all of him in her and I wanted to. I wanted her to be as witty as she’s supposed to be. I want her to be everything she was supposed to be. I’m fucking pissed they give Hector this backstory that 1. doesn’t really jive with original canon and 2. do nothing to actually explain it, on top of short-servicing what should have been the two most important people in his life. You don’t give my boy this and tear it from him two seconds later. You don’t. I’m so glad to see so many good Carinas out there fixing this, making her everything she’s meant to be and more. I’m so glad. I know I can count on fandom when the official source fucks up.I’m super fucking pissed a lot of this with Hector was for a tortuted metaphor. I get why it’s supposed to be super feelsy, but for Hector’s character in totality it makes no sense. I’m angry his death was actually pointless as hell. I know it’s Geoffrey Rush bowing out, he’s said he’s done now, but I’m still mad.I’m just mad, anon. I’m mad I waited this long for this movie, and this is what I got. One that doesn’t even make sense with the rest of the canon and treats all the characters like cardboard pieces that can be moved with no autonomy. One that could have been amazing with a cursory continuity check and some better writers (we also almost had Russio back and I’m salty af about that, too). This movie is an example of something that could have been a wonderful chapter ending, that ended up a goddamn disaster. I’m mad for all of us, because I feel like we all deserved better.Now that I’ve said all that, lemme say this. You DMTNT rpers? Keep doin’ what you do. Because you guys are 10000% better than the writers of this movie. You’ve actually given these characters some life, so I’m so glad to know each and every one of you. I may not be canon compliant for your guys for all of the above, but that never means I don’t want to write with you. Like I say in my rules, hey. My Hector won’t really have a clue who you are, but he’ll roll with it. And so will I. You guys are 100% welcome here, always. In no way is this a reflection on you, or your quality. Because I wouldn’t be following you if you weren’t quality, and you can take that to the bank like money.

#anonymous #what is it that you want ( asks )#[i mean it]#[i enjoy each and every one of you]#[and your passion for your characters]#[don't let my opinion make you feel like you are less]#[because you are MORE]#[you've done a fucking fantastic job]#[i can't express that enough]

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wo w ee i am so excited to see where u take equilibrium! tbh i really like how u r writing jungkook (not in the obsessive relationship sense but like) because it feels like u r really giving us an insight to his mind and how complex of a character he is and like what drives him.. idk if that makes sense lol but i really enjoy the entire story and cant wait to see how it develops !!

Here are the rest of my equilibrium asks under the cut! I am so truly sorry that I just simply do not have the time to answer the rest of them (besides wouldnt you guys rather have me expending my energy on writing ch 12? ;)), but be assured that i have read each and every one of these messages multiple times over and appreciated them all

bonyg said:Equilibrium is really giving me mixed feelings, it's so complicated that I don't know if I want oc with Jungkook or Jimin. It's just not healthy to be in this relationship :"( if I were oc I'd definitely left them both even if I'm gonna die without Jimin :'( it's getting more exciting and I can't wait to know what's gonna happen between oc and Jimin. Thank you for updating ^^

jaaneman-s said:Hi, I don't if this sounds or rude or not, but I'd like to thank you? or idk, I was born in a very manly culture? I know (on my own) how certain things that look okay in this culture but are not in equalness and respect to the woman happen but reading equilibrium has like, opened my eyes a little bit? When I read ch.11 I just sat down and spent a while thinking about everything and how different you view stuff from my point, and how this is actually right? anyway keep the great work ily ♥

Anonymous said:pls read equilibrium at my funeral🙏🏻

Anonymous said:oh oH OH is it going to be one of the cases where the boy "misinterprets" the girls basic human kindness for flirting?!!?? If so, @ the character: go to hell

Anonymous said:Well, it seems like JK (and a little Y/N) has tipped the balance and now everything is coming crumbling down. Who does JK think he is?? I can't imagine Y/N could let the weekend go by without getting close to JM, especially since he needs her. I'm just anticipating the moment when jimin realizes and everything is out in the open. I really loved this chapter! You can see how bold JK is getting knowing that Y/N will do anything he wants, just for his cooperation. Suspenseful!

Anonymous said:me rn: *prays for a joon hyung to sweep OC off her feet and abandon JK and JM* (seriously i'm such weightlifting fairy trash it hurts) (also do you know where i can find my very own joon hyung 😭😭😭😭)

Anonymous said:Reads part 11 Equilibrium -insert jungshook meme here-

Anonymous said:Don't be bothered by those ungrateful readers who thinks you're obligated to write them more than 3k words. Seriously, did they somehow get the impression that they're paying you for this? Just write at your own pace so you can produce quality stuff.

Anonymous said:Finally got around to reading Chapter 11 & if I'm the oc I'd be on a plane up outta there so quick! Set Jimin up with some soup & a blanket, & scoot skedaddle my way out of dodge. Jungkook isn't about to talk to me like that, thinking dick isn't abundant & low value. Shit... Also bless your writing, each Equilibrium update has me on pins & needles~

Anonymous said:I just like... What if Jungkook comes home unexpectedly and finds y/n and Jimin getting it on and then flies into a murderous rage, severely injures Jimin and kidnaps y/n. The second part could be Jimin feeling all guilty and trying to find her while she tries to escape

Anonymous said:Holy shit I'm convinced that Jungkook poisoned Jimin because he's going to be away for the weekend and he's paranoid and crazy as shit that the OC might do something with Jimin so he made sure he's unable to do shit with her 😵 cuz when he called to ask her where she was for his graduation, he didn't even seem all that surprised that he's sick, he just cared about where the OC was.

Anonymous said:Twist end: OC learns boxing and kicks Junglebooks ass

Anonymous said:theory: part two will be titled monogamy and Jungkook and OC will have an abusive relationship. Cause you seem pretty adamant on the idea of abuse (which is 10000% not a bad thing for obvious reason) so i feel like you are taking this story as a lesson for girl to see the warning sign. and part 3 will be about her leaving him finally and becoming single or whatever

Anonymous said:I don't want to defend the oc by saying this but in equilibrium she clearly is right now the one who is fucked up The other 2 get what they want after jk's scary possessiveness and if she wouldn't be controlled by her feelings towards jimin then maybe she would've already left She has also fault but earlier they took advantage of each other's feelings and everyone got something that they wanted but rn oc is like trapped in a cage & can't even touch jimin Idk maybe I'm the only one who thinks so

Anonymous said:I don't understand equilibrium??? Like I thought it was sweet that JK wanted her all to himself but after chap. 11 I think it's just plain creepy with his possessive obsession towards her... like WTF! I kind of want to see Jimin's side of the story like why is he in love with JK and what is with JK not giving a f**k about Jimin at all like when he was the one who initiated this relationship anyways WHUT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED!

Anonymous said:I mean it Jungkook will kill them both. Like this boy has the makings of a serial killer. Why the fuck does the oc not love herself?? Why are you trying to create your happiness from the sparse attention given to you by a man??!! Why the fuck are these people so dysfunctional?? Even Jimin and Jungkook they're basing they're entire happiness on people who they know don't care!! If there's ever a lesson here its self love first before you can love someone else.

Anonymous said:Just read the new Equilibrium chapter (11) and wow JK is absolutely terrifying in there. I'm so glad there are stories out there that portray abuse the way it should be portrayed and not romanticized. I really just want the OC to get the hell out of that house and faaaaar away from this messed up relationship ): she needs to run away from him asap like forget Jimin he ain't helping you either just run while you still can girl!!!!

Anonymous said:iF JUNGKOOK GAVE JIMIN SOMETHING IM ABOUT TO GIVE HIM THE BIGGEST WHOOPING EVER

Anonymous said:Regarding Equilibrium, I reread some chapters after I was done with 11. The necklace bit in 11 makes the sex scene in 4 kinda freaky. The way Jungkook yanks on OC's chain and how he got angry when OC said that she didn't know where hers was. It's like Jungkook finds security in the couple necklaces because he associates it with OC being his and when OC doesn't wear the necklace, he feels that his possession has been taken away from him. Maybe I am thinking too much but it was such a cool detail.

Anonymous said:I have a feeling that jimin's going to witness something that's gonna break his heart bc if you look at the situation then jimin should be happy bc he gets his alone time with jk who he loves and he doesn't have to pretend to love the oc that often bc jk doesn't let her go near him and if jimin sees something that breaks his heart(jungkook&oc)then maybe he would leave both and so they would all go their own ways(?)none of them would have a reason to stay but maybe jk will become even scarier idk

Anonymous said:You should just have the OC in Equilibrium go full on Bruce Lee on JK and JM

Anonymous said:Chap 11 in Equilibrium freaked me out btw. Especially after the sex scene when OC watches Jimin sleep. You wrote "tug" so that implies that OC used her hands. So when OC finds her hands restricted by Jungkook, that honestly scared me. Also in that scene, it was interesting for OC to say that she would do anything to comfort Jimin but seemed to take back that statement when she was restricted by Jungkook. It's like OC has become more afraid of Jungkook than she is in love with Jimin.

Anonymous said:In ch11 of equilibrium it was really sad when she compared herself to a pet... like girl, you're a functioning human being, an adult that can take care of herself. You're able to get out of this cage that's been created around you. It's scary what manipulative people can do to someone but at least she knows what messed up situation she's in now and not like... being attracted(?) to the crazies JK is pushing on her

zeloandhobiaremyhubbies said:Hi there ^^ I'm a new reader, and can I just say I love your writing skills and the story line so far. With that being said, coming from a person who has a close friend in a manipulative/almost borderline abusive relationship, I can honestly say I hope the OC get out of that relationship, especially with Jungkook. There's a thin line between being jealous/slightly possessive and possessive and pretty much controlling. Ugh! I want to know what happens next, but I'm also scared to know as well.

Anonymous said:What do you mean you don't know where is the chain OC(me)?! How can I be so careless?? What if Jimin will find it, no I am sure he already did 😑 and now probably the person I precious the most hate me cuz I took his love of life... This shit (relationship) is not falling fast enough huh? Good job me, good job 😒😒

holdingbackforsnow said:I've read equilibrium 11 and somehow I have the feeling that Jimin knew. Even before Jeongguk showed how messed up he is for us readers. I feel like, that's why Jimin entered the relationship. Maybe he was worried for the OC and wanted to act as a buffer in between her and Jeongguk (including his feelings for Jeongguk) that would explain his phone call, when he was gone on business and even how he wanted the OC to go to graduation so badly. I feel like Jimin knows more than we think...

Anonymous said:As much as I anticipate every update, I hope you are taking care of yourself too! Even as an undergrad, I still get stressed & overwhelmed with my workload so I really worry about your well being since being a phd student is so much more stressful and you still give us great content. Thank you so much & I hope you can take some time for yourself as well! ik remembering to take care of yourself is the last thing on your mind with a huge workload but please please don't neglect your well being!

Anonymous said:Oh god Jungkook in Equilibrium is really a psychopath. The fact that he's so manipulative and lacks empathy for others; it's quite terrifying to think about how long he's been manipulating everyone without anyone realizing it. As a psychology major it's really interesting to read a character like this but it's scary how so many people see his behavior as okay esp since there's so many real cases of abusive relationships like this, it makes me really sad. Ty for shining light to issues like these

Anonymous said:Wow, jk has really started to go crazy-something's gonna blow up soon.love the tension you are building though. It's really appreciated the time you take to build an intricate storyline. and not to focus on negative stuff, but for real, if any misogynistic messages pops up now, then... While I think most readers (but apparantly not all) saw the possessive traits of jk in earlier chapters despite it being somewhat(but not very) subtle, this time you rly spelled it out

lastshadowmonkeys said:to stay with Jimin. Everyone's being manipulative as fuck and it can never end well in my opinion...This is so...Wow, and it all comes out of your brain and imagination, that's amazing! I'm so excited to see where this all will go and if Jungkook will just lose his shit (or any of them really, someone is bound to lose their shit) and to see where Jimin stands with oc now and wow so many questions! I'm intrigued! Amazing job, thank you so much for writing this piece of art!

lastshadowmonkeys said:after that, but woops boy was i wrong. He just turned full on psycho, and i have the impression Jimin is not even interested in her in that way and never has been. That leaves OC to be in a relationship with men who don't love her at all, in the end, which is so so sad and i just wish she'd get over her love (or is it obsession, really?) for Jimin, so she could get the hell out of that toxic situation. She's being manipulative herself, going through all that misery to somehow be able (3)

lastshadowmonkeys said:blowing my mind and i have immense respect for that. I'm not lying when i say i'm trying hard to improve my plot skills haha, since my mind tends to be too chaotic to ever get any structure in anything. I enjoy your stories so much. As for Equilibrium, shit's about to go down man and i just can't fucking wait to see what will happen. At first i was rooting for Jungkook and the oc since it seemed like he just had pent up frustrations from being misunderstood? I thought it would get better (2)

lastshadowmonkeys said:Hey Lu! Even though my asks get lost a lot of the time, it doesn't stop me from telling you how much i appreciate the fact you make time to write such wonderful, intriguing stories to make us actually think about important matters. Equilibrium has become one of my top favourite fics ever, and i just love how you can make every chapter like a little piece of a giant puzzle. You write so well, and they're actually plot goals! To imagine you're a grad student on top of all that is just (1)

got7boystobang said:I feel like (in fact; i knew it due to the fact that u hate nochu so much) the end of Equilibrium is going to be such a downfall for jk just like what happened in jjk must die and that crys drabble idk how tho but u just always have ways to kill jkook cause i bet you've millions of pictures in your head on how to😂😂😂 i love your dedication!!!!! lol

Anonymous said:Ugh, Jungkook is threatening people now? Yeah, it's time to call the cops. That's scary. I felt uneasy the whole chapter. I asked myself several times while reading, "Yo, what's wrong with this kid? And what's up with Jimin? Is he just CHOOSING not to acknowledge some of the fucked up shit that's going on around him?" And actually, homegirl is holding up a lot better in this chapter than I thought she would. Interesting. Thanks for another chapter! Looking forward to the next. :)

Anonymous said:Omg so intense!! Gosh I just don't know what to expect anymore, I'm glad there'll be alone time with Jimin but then what if Jungkook finds out, and what if-what if-gah! Can't wait to see what will unfold next, thank you once again for updating even though you're busy~

Anonymous said:WTF OC JUST FUCKING DROPKICK JUNGKOOK IN THE FACE AND GTFO!!! HOMEBOY IS CRAZY AS FUCK

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