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Dripping in Gold | Chapter 9

synopsis: finding a job was never easy, and why even bother trying after you meet satoru gojo, a man with mysterious and exorbitant wealth, who wants nothing more than to spoil you with it? the only caveat to your little arrangement is that it can never, ever, become personal.

pairing: satoru gojo x f!reader

themes/content: non-curse modern au, sugar daddy gojo. language, smut. kissing, praise, fingering (f receiving), oral (m receiving). 18+, MDNI

word count: 2.6k

a/n: y'all idk what happened i swear i was in heat or smthn writing these last two chapters i promise we'll get back to plot soon enough

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You awake the next morning to Satoru softly snoring, his arms wrapped around your body and your cheek pressed against his bare chest. Tilting your head up at him, he looks truly angelic: the sunlight casting a glow over his white hair like a halo, his face flushed a soft pink in sleep, his lips parted ever so slightly through peaceful breaths.

Almost as though he could sense you, his eyes flutter open, long eyelashes batting against sleep as his gaze focuses on you.

“G’morning, sweetheart,” he purrs through his low morning voice, his arms tightening around your body and pulling you closer to him.

“Morning, ‘Toru,” you whisper, leaning up to kiss his warm cheek.

The two of you have shared a few mornings together, but always in the unfamiliar setting of a hotel room, never daring to stay at your homes. And yet, here he is, in your bed, looking more perfect than ever.

His free hand reaches across you to run through your hair, stroking your head while you lean into him. The arm that wrapped around your body moves to your hip, inching further down ever so slightly.

Seeing you like this, all cozy and warm, waking up in the morning sun, does something to him: he simply can’t help himself when you look so sweet. In the past when you’ve spent the night with one another he’s planned something early the next morning, whether it be breakfast, picnics, massages, or any other way he could think to pamper you. Yet, today, your only responsibility is to soak in each other’s presence. He smiles to himself, knowing he can take his time.

Burying his head into your shoulder, he kisses along your neck. The faint scent of vanilla hangs on your skin, drawing him in as he nuzzles his face further into you. While he starts with soft, fluttering motions, they quickly become rougher as he sucks and nips against your skin with enough force to leave pretty little bruises.

“‘Toru?” you try to stifle your moan at the sensation through gritted teeth. “What are you doing?”

“You just look so pretty,” he coos.

Before you can quip at his non-explanation, you feel his fingertips brush between your legs, eliciting a gasp from your lips.

However, his hand stills with nothing more than a faint glide over your panties. You whine at the lack of stimulation, moving your hips down to try and grind against his palm.

He chuckles at the action. “So needy already? You went months without me, and now can’t even go a few seconds?”

You want to taunt him, glare at him, prove him wrong, but your body has other plans. Instead, you just continue attempting to get any sort of friction from his hand, imprecisely rubbing against him.

Pulling away, he shifts so he’s looking down at you through his long white eyelashes, his forehead pressed against yours. “Don’t worry sweetheart, I’m not that cruel. All you have to do is ask,” he smirks, knowing how much he loves to hear you beg for him.

“P-please,” you whisper, voice shaky as you squirm in his hold.

He cocks his head to the side. “Please what?”

Trying to roll your eyes sarcastically, they instead nearly roll back as his thumb presses against your clit.

“More,” the only word you can moan at the sudden pressure.

He sighs through a smile at just how easily you lose yourself under his touch. Of course, he knows he’s not much better - he couldn’t even try to count the number of times you’ve grazed his crotch while on a date and immediately gotten him hard, having to take you to the nearest bathroom to fuck you then and there - but it still makes his heart flutter to see you this needy for him.

“As you wish, princess,” he breathes before roughly inserting two fingers into you. He enters easily, your insides warm and wet, all for him.

Your back arches off the bed as he fills you, his fingertips curling up to that sweet spot that has you seeing stars and makes you shut your eyes tightly in pleasure.

His voice is airy above you as he speaks. “Open your eyes.”

Complying, you are met with the sight of him smiling down at you, his white hair falling over his forehead and nearly covering his blue irises.

“That’s my girl,” he coos, the praise making your cunt flutter around him.

He pumps his hand into you, his slender fingers reaching into deeper places than you ever could. Soft moans and gasps continue to leave your lips as you stare up at him, eyes becoming increasingly glossy as he continues.

While he watches you, a sudden pang of jealousy hits him; he can’t believe he went all those months without this, without you. He’s angry at himself, and angry at anyone else who dared touch you, when you should have been his.

You sense the shift in his demeanor as he gets rougher, faster, his wrist moving irregularly as his palm begins to rub against your clit.

“M-mm, ‘Toru,” you whine, trying to grab his wrist but unable to steady his motions.

“Can anybody else fuck you like I fuck you, hm?” he asks, his voice low and gravely.

Shocked at his question, you try to stutter out an answer. “N-no, no one,” you answer truthfully.

In the time since you met him, the only other person you hooked up with was Toji, and it wasn’t nearly as pleasurable as anything with Satoru. He had that tender roughness you loved, the way he always and easily took care of you like it was second nature to him. While you were seeing each other he learned the intricacies of your body, knowing exactly where to kiss, rub, suck, press, to get the sweetest little sounds out of your mouth until you were both left panting messes.

While you were apart, you were only able to think of him on those nights where the throbbing between your legs became overwhelming. You’d think of his hands, his lips, his cock, anything that reminded you of the way he’d bring you wave after wave of pleasure. In fact, the only way you had been able to get yourself off was to imagine his fingers inside of you instead of yours. You couldn’t seem to replicate the way his fingertips pressed into that perfect spot, and having him here now was better than months of your imagination had proved.

Yet, Satoru didn’t know this: all he knows is that he never should have let you go, never should have let you be with anyone else. You were his best, you always would be. And he needed to hear you say it.

“Bet no one else makes you feel this good,” he growls, trying to hide his desperation as he awaits your answer.

You shake your head, biting your teeth into your lower lip as you look up at him with watery eyes. The pressure pooling in your stomach was almost too much to bear as he beckons you closer and closer to your release.

“Say it,” he hisses.

“No one, f-fuck, no one like you,” you choke out through moans. “N-ngh, the best, only finished, a-ah, thinkin’ about you,” you confess.

His eyes light up, sensing the truth in your words. “Yeah?” he whispers breathlessly. The idea makes his cock twitch, knowing that you thought of him just like how he thought of you.

“Mhm,” you nod, trying to cling to the conversation as you feel yourself getting pulled to the edge.

With new fervor, his fingers inside you speed up, bringing you closer and closer to your orgasm. When he feels you begin clenching around him he knows you’re close, and his mouth crashes into yours, locking you into a passionate kiss. Sucking gently on your lower lip, his tongue slides against yours.

Your nails dig into his arms as you feel yourself come undone on his fingers, moaning into his mouth as your vision goes white from pleasure, body shaking beneath his.

He separates his lips and looks down at you as you pant, desperately trying to fill your lungs with air as your head spins from the power of your orgasm.

He grins proudly, recalling your words. “So, you really thought about me when we were apart?”

Thoughts still fuzzy, you can only nod in response, staring into his mesmerizing blue eyes.

“Well in that case, guess I better give you somethin’ else to remember,” his smile becoming more devious as his gaze moves down your body.

Your eyes widening in surprise, you shake your head weakly. “C-can’t, ‘Toru, s’too much.” You still feel spent after last night, but you know that once he starts he can’t stop, especially now that he’s making up for lost time.

Tilting his head mockingly, he coos, “Aw, c’mon now sweetheart, you’re the one who asked for more, remember?” He shifts so his face is above your chest, trailing kisses across your breast as his tongue flicks against your hardened nipples, eliciting a moan from you. “I know you can take it, such a good girl, like always,” he whispers before continuing his path downard, settling between your legs.

His breath is hot against your core as he places his lips teasingly along your inner thighs. Your hands move to his hair, unknowingly pulling him towards you; your mind may not know it, but your body understands it needs him.

A chuckle escapes his lips as he feels you tug him in, his tongue licking a wet stripe up your folds. An unashamed whimper leaves your throat as you arch off the bed, holding him against you as you grind up his face.

“See, ‘knew you wanted more,” he whispers into you.

He once again dives into your sopping cunt, desperate to please you. As he coaxes an immeasurable number of orgasms out of you with his tongue and fingers, he laps up every ounce of your essence, slick coating his mouth and down his chin. He relishes the way you moan each time, chasing the high of hearing his name leaving your lips.

What feels like hours passes with him never relenting until you both are sweaty messes. Your grip in his hair is loose, barely holding onto any piece of reality, when he finally pulls away from you.

He adjusts to lay next to you in bed, taking in the sight of you as he peppers your face with kisses. Your pupils are blown, nearly black from lust, mouth hanging lazily open in a fucked-out grin, drool pooling at the corners of your mouth, too weak to wipe it away.

As he looks at you, his heart swells with love - how lucky he is to have you next to him, so content, all thanks to him.

“‘Toru?” you whisper, his name the only word you’d been able to utter, hell, the only thing you’d been able to think, for the past few hours.

He brushes hair off of your forehead as he gently presses his lips against your skin, hot and covered in a thin layer of sweat. “Yes, princess?”

It takes all of your concentration to find the words you want to express, wanting to make him feel as good as you do in this moment. “You didn’t get to finish,” you manage to choke out, voice hoarse from moaning.

Laughing softly at your concern for him, he smiles, continuing to stroke your hair. “It’s my only job to make you happy, don’t worry about me, sweetheart.”

You pout, knowing that you’d be even happier with his cock down your throat, the desire to please him becoming overwhelming.

He chuckles again until he’s cut short by your hand reaching down, your fingertips gently stroking the underside of his dick as he inhales sharply. “S-shit,” he breathes shakily, not realizing just how sensitive he had become while going down on you.

Looking up at him with wide, hopeful eyes, your hand grasps weakly around him, gingerly spreading the precum that had pooled at his tip down his length. “Please?” you whisper.

God, he needs you.

Without another word he adjusts in bed, sitting so your head rests against his thigh, his back hot against the cool wood of your headboard.

Now level with his cock, you loll your tongue out, lazily licking up the smeared precum. Parting your lips, you slide his flushed red tip into your mouth, creating a gentle suction against him.

His hands find their way to the back of your head, guiding you further down his length. He’s normally not this needy, this desperate, but with the taste of you lingering on his tongue, the warmth of your mouth around his cock after months without it, he can’t help himself.

When you near his base, he thrusts his hips up into you, pushing his tip to the back of your throat. A helpless whimper escapes his throat at the feeling, holding you in place.

“T-that’s it, just like that, sweetheart,” he whines.

You hum in response, the vibration along his sensitive cock almost enough to send him over the edge.

Slowly pulling your lips up his length, your tongue slides along him, his legs shaking as the cool air hits the space where your mouth had been.

However, your lack of urgency drove Satoru crazy. “Can I…fuck…” he barely manages to choke out, his entire body begining to tremble from temptation.

Your half-lidded eyes flit up to his, and the sight of you, lips parted around his cock, drool now making its way down your chin, the pure filthy mess you are, makes him shudder.

Understanding what he was asking, that he needs more control, that he needs to fuck your throat, you hum again in confirmation. You barely had the energy to get this far, so it was truly a blessing when he grabs the back of your head and neck, steadying you in place.

He bucks his hips up into you mindlessly, only knowing that he craves the warmth of your mouth. The lewd sound of hills balls smacking against your chin, coated in a mix of saliva and his precum, echoes through your apartment.

The only other sounds are his pathetically sweet whimpers, praises falling from his lips as he leans his head back against the wall. “Takin’ me s’good,” “S’perfect,” “Mouth was made f’me,” the constant stream of words filling the air.

Without warning, his movement stutter as a guttural moan escapes his throat. His whole body trembles as he pumps thick ropes of cum into the back of your throat, holding you against him as you swallow it, grounding yourself to reality as you savor the taste of him.

His shaky hands release their grip on you as he collapses into the pillows, eyes half-open, staring at the ceiling. Your lips finally separate from his cock as you lean up to him, his chest heaving under your hand as you rest your body against his. Your fingers trace along his jawline and he shivers at your touch, opening his eyes slightly more to look down at you.

Both of you now absolutely fucked-out messes, glazed-over eyes scanning each other’s faces as you melt into the bliss of the moment. He kisses you softly, breath still unsteady as his arms loosely wrap around you, holding you to him.

This is what you had been missing for all those months without him - the warmth of his embrace, the tender love, the peace in your heart. As you drift back into exhausted sleep, you hear him whisper something as he places his lips against your forehead, something that sounds an awful lot like “I love you.”

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harus-simp · 1 year

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R.I.C.H

-Ricky x reader-

Warning:none

Requested: Helloo! can you maybe write smthn about rickyy, like ricky buying almost anything for his s/o like expensive thingss ykyk (@wtfhyuck)

Author's note: Hi anon, I made a little drabble because I didn't know if you wanted headcanons so i hope you are fine with that

Anyways thanks for your request, enjoy it <3

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Young and rich, tall and handsome, charisma boss baby ricky goes into action again because he can't help but buy you the whole world <3

"Ricky, baby, you can't just buy me everything I lay my eyes on!"

"I can and I will"he said leaning in and giving you a short peck while he chuckled

Yeah ricky had done it again, he had bought something for you for the 5th time that week. It was not that you didn't appreciate it, because you truly did, but you didn't like when he spend that much money on you.

So here you were on the door of your apartment as the bell had rung suddenly. To say you were confused was an understatement, you weren't waiting for anyone right?

As you got closer and opened the door revealing ricky with your favourite flowers your heart skipped a beat, smiling shyly at your boyfriend that was staring at you with the sweetest smile ever.

"Just a little something for my baby"he said as he entered inside.

However what you noticed is that he had something else that he was hiding on his back.

"Uhm, babe what is that?"you asked pointing at the little box he held in his hands.

"Oh, you'll see"

Yeah that sounded a little bit suspicious in your opinion.

As he gave it to you and you opened the little box it revealed a delicate and precious gold necklace with two letters hanging ever so gently. And I am not judge but just by looking at it you could tell that it was not the cheapest thing...

"Ricky, you didn't have to"you whined

"Of course I had to, you are really special to me y/n"

Blushing by his comment and hitting lightly his chest you answered back: "i know that, but there are plenty other ways of showing it idiot"

But actually this was kinda more special to him indeed because he hadn't just bought it for you, he had the time and the dedication to order a custom made gift for you. But you didn't know that yet, so curiosity getting the best out of you led you to ask him another question.

"But why are the initials S and Q? Those aren't my initials" (if they are let's just pretend they aren't for the plot to continue ahahshs)

"But they're mine, so you can always have me by your side" (yeah from shen quanrui if you are wondering)

And that's when you felt a literal festival of emotions exploding on your stomach, you had never seen this side of ricky. I mean the one where he spoiled you yes, but not this kind of more personal and close to his heart one, he almost felt kind of vulnerable and unprotected here but everything he did came from deep inside his heart so he hoped you treasured his efforts.

The blush on your cheeks gave away the state you were at right now, and your eyes full of love did too.

"You can't just go there doing that to me y'know?"

"Doing what?"he smiled giggling at your behaviour

"Spoiling me that much, I feel bad. But this one was really cute of you to do, thank you"

"You don't have to feel bad love, that's just my way of expressing my love, I do this because all these little details remind me of you"

"That's kinda cheesy..., but I'll take it"

He then grabbed the necklace and helped you to put it around your neck positioning himself behind you while you held your hair high to make it easier for him. After he finished, he pressed a small kiss on the back of your neck lovingly and made you twirl to see how it fitted you perfectly.

That literally made him fall in love all over again,making him the happiest person on earth.

Now looking back at the first time he gifted you something,you probably wouldn't have guessed how much he would spoil you in the future, but if he truly wanted to be like that you would accept it BUT drawing the line of course, because we all know this man would most definitely buy you the moon and all the stars if he was capable of so. He is really whipped for you.

"Now that that issue is covered, you remembered the bag you liked the other day and that it wasn't on stock?"

"Ricky don't tell me-"

"Yeah, it should be here by tomorrow"

"Ricky, you can't just buy me everything I lay my eyes on!"

Yeah, you should definitely work on the drawing a line part from now on...

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tojisun · 6 months

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giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair screaming into my pillow !!!

so i walked to the food spot wearing his jacket nd he brought me a small bouquet of daisies with these mini flowers n leaves around them !! we ended up getting noodles (he gave me an extra slice of his pork cause i said how good it was :(( !!) and talked for a couple hours before i told him i had to get ready for work soon..

nd omg omg.. he walked me to his bike where not one.. but TWO helmets were locked on and he helped fit it on me (it was a lil loose cause it was another one of his but its ok !!) and helped me onto his bike teehee...

i was lowk so so scared cause it was one of my first times on a bike but i trusted him cause it seemed like he had lots of experience with bikes (i mean who has several helmets, tattoos, muscles for months, and a sports bike without at least a few years biking) so i just clung onto him rlly tightly

AND HE WAS LAUGHING AND HOLDING BOTH MY ARMS WITH ONE HAND WHILE THE OTHER STEERED US...

nd he drove pretty slow cause he knew i was scared :(( i directed him to the building i live at and he waited outside while i got ready for work and then drove me there :(((( ND THEN CALLED ME OVER SO HE COULD ORDER SMTH :(((

"gotta make sure 'm your first customer"

IM GONNA WAZZ MYSELF...

OH MY GOD MY LOVE THATS!!! OHFKSJDOR

(ok so my response got too long wow im sorry)

THE BOUQUET :((( OH MY GOODNESS!!! tiny flowers with little petals? omgomf are they babys breath?? or or forget me nots? WAIT IDK ENOUGH ABOUT FLOWERS TO BE ASKING THIS BUT AWW SWEETHEART THEY SOUND LOVELY

HIM GIVING U THE EXTRA SLICE OF PORK BC U SAID ITS YUMMY IM COMBUSTING THATS SO ADORABLE

ok whew so now that the lunch is outta the way, THE BIKE? THE TWO HELMETS?? I WAS HOLDING MYSELF BACK FROM SAYING THIS BUT YOU TWO MIGHT JUST BE READER X BIKER!SIMON FR MY GODDRD IM SO GIDDY FOR U MY LOVE

i think u all probably got it from my many many posts of biker!simon but the two helmets and being the backpack is always what gets me :(( because not only does he wanna drive u around, but he put effort into making sure ur safe!!! im a puddle rn, petal. literally a melting w the rain ahhhhhhhhhxhshs

HOLDING YOUR HANDS WITH ONE HAND WHILE HE DROVE- oh sweetheart im so choked up im giggling so hard

but yes!! riding a bike first time is quite daunting n im so proud of u for trying but also so happy that u were w someone who was very diligent in making sure ur first ride was going to be safe <333

n then when i thought it wont get any better-

he wanted to be ur first customer AAAAHHHHHHH my goodness what a charming man!!!!

i cant even begin to explain how envisioning this alone got me smilin so wide, my cheeks are strainin or smthn!! i hoped that he will spoil u and pamper u and be silly w u and then he did!!! oh sweetheart if i could, id hug u so tight and spin u around bc im truly, genuinely, so happy for u!!!

im bouncing on my feet rn giggling to myself and i might look like a fool to other ppl but!!! i cant contain the burst of joy yk??

it sounds like u had a blast, petal!! heres to more dates w mr pink leather jacket!!!

teehee take care <333

#pink leather jacket anon #ask #putting my response under the cut bc some might only wanna see the update n thats fine!! i ramble sm qnxjjsjd #the update we truly needed!!#truly what makes me believe that love is real ‼️

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scribble-dribble-writes · 10 months

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hi!! could i request smthn w miguel o’hara based on vampire by olivia rodrigo?? 🙇‍♀️ it can be gn or fem

Interesting, very interesting

*rubs hands together to make the most tear jerking piece ever*

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Dream crusher

Word count: 1000

Warnings: angst, lot of angst, antihero x assassin reader trope 😏😌🤭

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The argument had gotten to its peak, as he stepped to reach for you, to console you but you took a step back.

The last six months had been tumultuous. Filled every high and every low, stuck in a loop of wanting his affection and trying to convict him for his crimes because that was why you were here. To eradicate him, to end him. And here he was with those dark brown eyes that turned into honey, only for you. And now you were at a crossroads.

But you put out your reasoning, that if you could somehow flip this scenario onto him, if you could get him to break then what you had to do would become easy, to stick the dagger and vanish into the multiverse.

“How’s the castle built off people you pretend to care about?”, you asked him. Gesturing to his lab and the screens that were lit behind him.

“Look at you, cool guy, you got it.”, you huffed to see his emotions flicker across his face even though he did his best to remain placid.

“Six months of torture you sold as some forbidden paradise.”, you let the remark out and it was taking effect. It was breaking him down.

“Why are you doing this? Don’t self sabotage.”, he held himself together. And it cut you deeper because he had caught on to exactly what you were doing.

“I loved you, truly. Todavía te amo.”, his fingers fidgeted for you and it amazed at how much power you held.

“You gotta laugh at the stupidity.”, you huffed as you wrapped your arms around yourself.

“How couldn’t you see why I was here, Miguel?”, you furrowed you brows but the anger with which you had arrived vanished. Now, the love you had for him was holding you back getting you to say words you didn't entirely mean.

“Did you think you could live here with such comfort around you? when I have to mourn my world, the one you destroyed.”, you marched towards him and with every step you took, he began to shrink. Till his shoulders were arched, his face downcast.

“I’ve made some real big mistakes, sure.”, you continued with your rampage.

“But you make the worst one look fine.”, you lashed out and he stood there, taking it.

He was letting you pummel him, and you were going ahead with full force as the anger surged but along with it was a voice begging for him to do something. To fight back, to react, because seeing him like this was breaking you down simultaneously.

But you had to do this. For revenge. For all the people who had lost their home. But as you paused, you heard him speak.

“Everyone I talked to, told me you were bad news.”, he said and it made you freeze.

“You called them crazy, Ah dios, I hate the way I called them crazy too.”, his eyes found yours and all your plans crumbled, cause tears were streaking down his cheek.

“How did you lie without flinching?”, he asked his eyes roaming across all the places he had kissed on your face, as he was hurting from not seeing the signs, for loving you without doubt.

“Qué fascinante, paralyzing tragic little thrill.”, he held his gaze, it softened as he said it and with that he looked away.

“Can’t figure out just how you do it.”, he mumbled as he looked defeated.

You mustered your courage. You had a cause. You were doing this for justice. You wanted to touch his cheek.

Justice.

You wanted to turn his face towards you.

Justice.

You clenched your fist as you resisted.

“I should have known it was strange.”, you said it but your words were beginning to lack their prior punch. Now they seeped with feeling.

“You only come out at night.”, you didn’t have the strength you thought you did.

“I used to think I was smart.”, you zoned out, all your strategies and plans now failed.

“But you made me look so naïve.”, because his love had transformed you. He had shown you his true self and the wounds he harboured from what had happened.

And as you stood there in the silence, your eyes flitting to his lips reminding you of all the nights he had whispered sweet nothings or the soft longing kisses he gave you, especially the one time he was so happy to have you with him that it had caused his fangs to nip the edge of your lips by accident. But it was you who had sunk your fangs of vengeance into him now and he was bleeding all over.

“You said it was true love.”, he turned to you but his eyes now red, filled with hurt and sorrow.

“but wouldn’t that be hard?”, he laughed cynically.

“You can’t love anyone, because that would mean you had a heart.”, he pushed away from the desk, slowly resuming to stand to his full height to look down on you.

But it wasn’t true what he said, you held your head high to face off against him but in truth you were holding back your tears. The damage you wanted to do to him was useless and somehow with every word he said with his broken heart, it wounded you much more deeply. Because you loved him and you couldn't uphold your cause.

“I have made some big mistakes.”, he reached for you slowly and this time you couldn’t move away. So you stayed, to feel his finger trace your cheek.

“But you made the worst one look fine.”, he said with a sad smile. Because the worst thing you had ever done was what you did now. You broke his already shattered heart.

“The way you sold me for parts and bled me dry of all my feeling for you.”, he didn’t let you go and your body craved his warmth. This plan of yours had failed and now you dealt with it’s torturous aftermath. He was never going to let you get close again.

He leaned down, almost as if he was going to kiss you but stopped as his lips hovered over yours.

“I was going to ask you to marry me.”, he whispered and it sent a chill down your spine.

Instead he clicked his tongue as though he had been met with misfortune.

“Dream crusher.”, he said with a weight and it broke your heart. With that he moved away, taking with him all the love you had only ever dreamed of.

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bimiio · 6 months

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tell us abt the sex plss<33

got a few requests 4 it so i will tell :3 here’s da lead up if u haven’t read it already n ur curious!! stuff abt da actual sex is under da cut:

so we moved into her room but it wasn’t one of those like desperately kiss as u walk n try 2 find ur way 2 da bed as u go kinda things like we just got up n went normally. when we got in there she had sum stuff on her bed so she started clearing it off n then realized her vibrator was under her pillow so she was like “i’m so sorry i forgot that was there” n i’m ??girl u r abt 2 fuck me do u rlly think i care?????😭 but regardless she put it in her closet n then lifted her blankets so i could get under them cuz she knew i was cold n was like “warm enough now? see? i told you”. then she got under w me n laid next 2 me n was like “c’mere” n pulled me into her n started kissing me again <33

after kissing like dat 4 a little she rolled me onto my back n climbed on top of me n we kept making out like dat until i started (n dis is kinda pathetic i know😔) pushing my hips up against her so she stopped n was like “tell me what you want” n i was like “i dunno :0”. n i wasn’t even sayin it 2 b difficult i prommy i just rlly didn’t know wut i wanted!! like how could i?? ma’am i have never done dis b4!!!!! so then we go back 2 forth 4 a lil n she’s tryna get da words outta me but i truly do not know so then she was like “do you want me to try to figure it out?” n i was like “yeah🥺”. so she’s like “okay baby that’s fine, i’ll figure it out. just tell me what feels good, tell me if you want me to stop” which honestly i appreciated SO much. n bc we had already had da conversation abt my boundaries w being stone n everything i felt comfy enuff dat i knew i could say stop or ask 4 smthn without feeling weird or guilty abt it :) i also was like “i haven’t shaved is that okay?” n she literally LAUGHED AT ME n was like “you don’t even have to ask that of course it’s okay”😭

she goes back 2 kissing me n groping me but sorta shifts herself half off me n starts undoing da button on my jeans n in dat moment i was like. omg!! dis is real dis is abt 2 happen 👁️👁️ but i wasn’t scared i was just excited :3 she was like “is this okay?” n i nodded so she put her hand down my pants n started rlly gently rubbing me over panties while she kept kissing me n my neck n my chest. she was like “does that feel good?” n like it did but she wasn’t QUITE in da right spot so i was like “a little higher” n then she like stopped n smiled at me n went “that’s good, i like feedback” n i was like🫣🫠 then she moved a little higher n started rubbing again n it felt a LOT better. it made me make an embarrassing little sound dat ig riled her up cuz she started rubbing a tiny bit harder n got rougher w her kisses n pulled down my top so she could get 2 my tits. after a little more rubbing on my clit she started dipping her fingers down n sorta pushing my panties 2 da side so she could push inside me

dat made me make more little sounds n then after a little bit of shallow fingering she was pulling herself off of me n moving da blankets off of us so she could take my jeans n panties completely off. we did dat cute little thing where she pulls em off n i lift my hips 2 help her :3 n we both kinda giggled cuz my legs r very long n my jeans were a little too long on me but they were also tight so it felt like it was taking 4evr 2 slide em off😭

once she had everything off my bottom half (atp i was just in my top dat was pulled down under my tits n her unzipped hoodie) she rubbed my pussy a little without any panties in da way n then put her fingers in me all da way😵‍💫 honestly it hurt da tiniest bit cuz i wasn’t dat wet or open yet but dat wasn’t 4 lack of enjoyment i think i was just a little nervous n in my head cuz it was my first time n were just getting started

dis is where everything sorta starts blurring 2gether 4 me in terms of chronological order so i’m not gonna attempt 2 write it all out da way i have been i’m just gonna give y’all my fav parts i rmmbr :3 lemme first say dis 2 establish da vibe tho.. ik i already said she was super dominant throughout da night but dat RLLY carried over into da sex too (nothing kinky just general dominance) n she was also STRONG. so even tho she was shorter than me once she realized i liked when she would take control n move me around she was literally manhandling me. like putting me into different positions n pulling me 2 her n dragging me 2 da edge of da bed etcetc. it was all very fun >:3 anyways here r da highlights

her nose started bleeding!! ik dat’s not like a Sexy thing but it was silly 2 me it was like we were in an anime n she just thought i was so hot her nose started gushing blood. she was fine btw!! she had accidentally got hit in da nose like da day b4 so it had been bleeding on n off a little but she wasn’t in any pain <3

she didn’t have a strap bc her ex took it n her harness when they broke up (evil😔) so we had 2 suffice 4 her fingers but she got DEEP. n she was rough too😵‍💫 like hard deep strokes dat were literally pushing me up da bed

before she went down on me she was fingering me n kissing my hips n thighs while i gripped her hair n scratched her head <33 n then when she DID decide it was time 2 eat me out she DRAGGED me down da bed n against her face

she had me ride her thigh 4 a while cuz i told her da fingering/head was getting 2 b too much 4 me cuz i was too sensitive n while i was she asked me if i liked being called a good girl🫣 i was so excited when she asked bc Y’ALLLLLLLLLLL. da fuckin DIRTY TALK??? dis woman had a MOUTH on her my god. everything she said was so hot n she just kept praising me 4 every little thing

she was thorough as FUCK she had me in every position imaginable n she was rlly testing my flexibility😭 there was one point where she was laying sorta half on top of me half on da bed n then she hiked up my leg dat was further away from her so it was resting on her SHOULDER!! like i was literally knee 2 my ear while she was fingering me n my pussy sounded so wet it was soooo hot embarrassing😭

when she was eating me out n i would get too sensitive n b like “it’s too much” she’d go from sucking on my clit (which she was good as FUCK at btw idk wut she was doing w her tongue it was making me so sensitive my legs were trembling like a leaf in da wind around her head) 2 just gently licking my pussy w a flat tongue n massaging my thighs n hips w her hands <33

omg i just remembered i DID feel like i was gonna pee (i knew i didn’t have 2 actually PEE tho i already had like 3 times in da past few hours n right b4 we started) so dat’s y i kept telling her 2 slow down when i was too sensitive but i think i mighta just squirted all over her if i had given into da sensation. i’ve never squirted b4 tho so i didn’t wanna take da chance in da bed of a girl i had just met y’know?

ik i already mentioned da dirty talk but she kept saying shit like “that’s right baby, do what feels good” n “that’s a good girl” n “you taste good”. or like when i would close my legs cuz i was sensitive she’d gently nudge em open n b like “open up for me” GODDDDDD😵‍💫 OR OR!!! when i would cover my mouth she’d pull my hand away n go “let me hear you” or “talk to me” WHEN I TELL Y’ALL DAT WENT STRAIGHTTTTT 2 DA PUSSY MY GOD🫠 n just anytime she didn’t have her mouth on me she was in my ear encouraging me n talking filth

i told her during dat i have a hard time cumming w other ppl like it’s easier 2 cum on my own n she was like “that’s fine, cumming isn’t the end goal of sex i just want it to be pleasurable while it’s happening” which was so nice n reassuring but then also lead her 2 ask later on how i do it on my own n if i could show her🫣 she was like “i like watching people feel good. do you wanna show me how you do it by yourself?” n i was going INSANEEEE in my head but i denied her request cuz i literally would’ve died of embarrassment. she DID still make me rub my clit while she fingered me tho <33 i felt bad tho cuz my nails were so long they kept bumping into her hand n i was like “i feel like i’m in ur way :(“ n she was like “you’re not in my way, just keep going, make yourself feel good”

at one point she was like “i was gonna ask you something but nevermind don’t worry about it” n i was like “no what is it? ask me” n she was like “i don’t want you to feel pressured” n i was like “you’ve made me very comfortable and you’ve shown you respect my boundaries and my feedback so the worst i can say is no” n then dat convinced her so she was like “yeah okay you’re right. no pressure at all, but do you wanna finger me? i’m asking for YOU. i know what it feels like, i don’t need you to. i just care about you right now, so i’m asking in case you want to try it” n i said no bc i didn’t want 2 but it didn’t kill da mood AT ALL she was very understanding n not disappointed n was genuinely asking 4 me not her. idk i just rlly appreciated dat considering she wasn’t stone or butch/femme at all. yeah :3

there was dis one point where she did smthn dat felt SO GOOD but it only lasted 4 like two seconds n ik i coulda just asked her 2 go back 2 it but once it stopped she was going IN on eating me out which also felt good so i was like ykw it’s fine. basically she’d had me on my back or side da entire time but at one point she flipped me onto my tummy so i was laying flat on her bed like dat n then started fingering me from da back n oh my GODDDDDDDD it felt so good. i was literally whining into da mattress like a little bitch. i think dat’s WHY she flipped me back on my back 2 eat me out tho cuz she wanted 2 hear me😭

i did tell her i came which honestly i don’t think i did. n it’s not dat i felt like i had 2 lie 2 her or she’d b offended if i didn’t cum cuz we’d already talked abt how she didn’t care abt dat but it was all just becoming a lot 4 me n i kept getting rlly close 2 cumming but not being able 2 get over (mental block more than physical i think probably just first time nerves). i’m kinda glad i told her tho bc after i said it she like hiked my leg up n told me 2 open up 4 her n started fingering me so rough n so deep n she was like “if you can do it once, you can do it again. you’re mine now, i’m not letting you go” n LORDDD dat made me tighten around her fingers enuff dat she laughed n was like “you’re tightening around me”😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

anyways yeah i’m pretty sure dat’s like everything :3 ik dis is super messy n incoherent i hope it is still readable enough!! hope y’all enjoyed dis silly little TMI storytime pls lmk ur fav parts n if dis was satisfactory mwah <3

#didn’t proofread shit either just hitting post n calling it a night atp #no editing we did like men #asks #anon #0ut #long post #nsft #st0ryt1m3

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shaymiens · 4 months

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💛Smoshblr December Asks Day 23💙

What are your top 3 favourite books (/comics/manga/poems/etc...) and/or top 3 you would recommend to others?

despite my best efforts, i've struggled to read through entire books as an adult and instead have made fanfiction my bestie. thus i don't really have fave books suited for adults. but FUCK IT let me talk about formative books from my childhood.

ellie mcdoodle by ruth mcnally barshaw - the closest book to my heart i think. THE book that spurred me on to start journaling. ellie was a lot like 10yo me, now that i think about it. just a girl but not someone who could succeed at being a 10yo girly girl and she's sassy but not frivolous and she's smart and she wears glasses and she has feelings that are too big to keep in her head but not big enough to share anywhere but a notebook. and ellie was such a different girl's name to me back then too! like, i think 10yo jazel needed to read a "girl's book" about a girl named smthn other than sarah or katie or [insert white american girl name here].

luv ya bunches by lauren myracle - this book felt so cool when i first read it, because it felt rare and new. a book featuring someone OTHER than a white girl with a white-ass family? astounding! a book where a lot of the story is formatted as Online Instant Messages? revolutionary! a book where the conflict isn't always just "boys!" or "little brother stinks!" but maybe something deeper like cultural differences leading to misunderstandings and a wanting to fit in with others? didn't know that could exist in a book! truly another book i didn't realize until now that i needed at the time i found it.

the five people you meet in heaven by mitch albom - a book my aunt gave me before she became estranged from my family. a book that, now with my current views and wisdom, feels a little too religious and moral-preachy and fetishizing of POC. however! it was the first book that made me feel a little grown up, and proud of it. it made me think of the afterlife, of the meaning of life, and of our impact on each other. now i LOVE pondering the metaphysical in really brutish, grotesquely-unpoetic ways. death is more difficult than life because god will make you answer for the choices you made when your existence was finite. and is that fair? is that deserving of the banal perfection of heaven, or the unimaginable cruelty of hell?

anyway. god bless the scholastic book fair

#smoshblr december asks #replies #wallpaper-inside-my-heart #i feel like these questions keep exposing my penchant for 'something amiss'. imperfection and the bittersweet #simply my brand!

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hiyaitssans · 11 months

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Do you have any headcanons on Carmy undergoing top surgery? That euphoria would probably be one of the happiest things he’s ever felt and definitely holds onto that memory and the feelings he felt, in comparison to the stress and anxiety he faces on a daily basis with the restaurant. Carmy just deserves to be happy :’)

OHHHH MY GOHD

okiokikkehshe

i think when he gets top surgery its when hes in new york but like ,,, maybe he hasnt been there *that* long where he loses complete contact w everyone in chicago so he just tells sugar, fak, richie, n mikey [in that order and spanned across multiple days cuz he probably feels a little bad abt 'bothering' them] w like ,,, a text or smthn n then at some point they all head out 2 new york cuz they supported him !!!! they care abt him like . sm its not funny

n i think mikey showed up 2 new york last, n didnt stay 4 that long, maybe on the day carmy was supposed 2 go under 2 talk 4 a bit n then he dipped after carmy went in 4 surgery n went low contact again [praying 2 gohd theres more scenes w mikey n y mikey was so ,,, mikey ig ?? PLEASE give us more home life carmy PLEASEEEEE HULU]

ALSOOO when carmy was explaining how top surgery works in the operating room 2 everyone n he said they have 2 keep the arms spread out [n he demonstrates by spreading his arms out] [i think thats how it works ??? CANNOT find a clear source 4 the life of me] richie says smthn along the lines of carmy getting crucified n its like . the ultimate mood lifter

i think carmy was mildly worried abt how top surgery would go, cuz he was excited !!!! obv !!!!!!!!! cuz hes gonna b flat chested and look like a guy n hed been on testosterone long enough 2 sound remotely like a guy n the new packer he got works WONDERS

but he was just worried abt drains n how hes gonna get money [sugar n uncle jimmy took care of that] [he was a lil apprehensive but gave in after some convincing from richie and fak]

i think carmy considers the day his scars healed n he could finally look at himself properly in the mirror the happiest day of his life. like absolutely NOTHING could compare 2 the rush of euphoria he felt in that dingy full sized mirror the old tenants of his apartment left behind.

obv that didnt change the fact he was severely depressed and he probably could never step back in his childhood home without some hurtful comment from his mother, but he decided that for once? he was happy. truly and irrevocably happy.

ALSO i think carmy liked cooking bcuz chef is like . the most gender neutral term so it felt nice not holding his breath 4 the occasional ma'am from some retail job he worked 2 make money on the side b4 throwing himself fully in2 cooking

hes also never been 2 a pride parade like . ever .

mostly cuz he either a) hadnt come out 2 his mom yet and i think his mom is mildly homophobic or b) was 2 busy w culinary school 2 actually go out n have a good time

at some point when he was back in chicago he decided 2 actually go 2 one w some ppl from the bear [4 catering n also cuz . hes trans . he deserves 2 celebrate] n actually had a fun time !!!! now owns a lil trans button [like the LITTLE little ones, jus 4 subtlety] a flag he got 4 free, a pair of silver studs [jus simple ones, like a flat circle], n a shirt that says eat puss. its organic [richie bought it 4 him n as much as he hates it, its also one of the most comfortable shirts hes worn 2 sleep like . ever]

OKI all the stuff i can come up w rn, enjoyyyy :D [yes i think the new bear season releasing during pride month is significant .]

#the bear #carmen berzatto #carmen carmy berzatto #sydney adamu #nathalie berzatto #natalie berzatto #PLEASE other ppl make hcs . there is proof i am not the only one out there #trans carmen berzatto

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mrscarmenbearzatto · 4 months

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Hello !! I’ve been a fan of The Bear for a while now, which then progressed in me reading Carmen x reader fics. As I read more and more, eventually I found ur blog, the writing was very distinct and became smthn I rlly enjoy scrolling thru and pouring over when I had the time. Cut to me searching for the posts to continue where I left off to find ur new blog !

I wanted to say that I’m happy to have found you again; I think ur writing is truly smthn special, ur characterizations of everyone is just like so spot on to me and very fun to read even in the short span of time of me reading it, but moreover I’m glad to hear that you’re doing even a little better ! ^_^

Kind regards,

A fan 💕

aw honey. this is just… you’re too sweet. i appreciate you so much, you have no idea. i love you. i’m so happy you like my writing, that just warms my heart, angel.

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ur-favorite-basil-enthusiast · 1 year

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we need more chubby trans guys in media. desparately.

it bothers me a little less now, but especially when i first realized I'm transmasc being chubby has made me really dysphoric ! some of it is general body insecurity but a big part of it is just that I. never see chubby or fat trans guys in media ! and if you search 'transmasc' or smthn into pinterest ! guess what ur gonna get. skinny white guys with fluffy hair whose chests bind completely flat. i just watched fanfic on netflix, and I really emjoyed it ! i think the transmasc rep is really amazing and im so glad the movie exists, it made me super happy. but, the main character is a skinny white guy.

and there is nothing wrong with being a skinny white transmasc, obviously. but that cant be the only rep. we need transmascs who are chubby and fat, and who are POC and who wear their hair natural ! we need transmascs who dont 'pass'; we need to show the different transmascs that exist because if we dont, people think their looks invalidate their identity.

it sucks, truly---and im white, with fluffy hair. i just have a big tummy and thighs that touch and a chest that doesnt bind all the way.

just. please please please, we need to show more people than skinny white guys with fluffy hair

#transmasc #transmasculine #trans #transgender #ftm #chubby #chubby transmascs #fat transmascs !!#poc transmascs #trans rep

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oooocleo · 2 years

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dude I love your art so much you're honestly one of the few artists I can look at that make me want to keep going and get through my burnout

have you ever struggled with something similar? how do you manage to keep making art and being creative when the world seems to be falling apart all around

honestly i think being creative is the way i manage 🧍 it distracts me a lot from real world issues to draw/write/think about fiction (im sure a lot of ppl feel like that too) when it becomes overwhelming/too depressing

burnout wise my issues lie more in the realm of comparing myself to others too much/feeling like other ppl r doing it Better than i am which has been v demoralizing for me in the past, but in the past year (rip younger me) ive rly managed to wrangle my brain about that - ive started to feel that artists are all uniquely The Best At What Theyre Doing imo.. its such a special thing to be able to create in whatever ur medium of choice is 🥲

i still have periods where i feel bad about my work but i know now that i just.. need to not look at other ppls work and draw smthn easy and self indulgent - truly make the process as easy/fun as u can for urself

ig i think its not helpful to anyone to be paralyzed by how shit the state of the world is and im much more able to attend protests/donate etc when i can draw my little elf people another day 🥲

#cleo talks #pngjpeg #i will say im i was not able to do this when i had like #direct external shit frying my brain into charcoal #i started being able to deal w things a lot better once i started freelance w.o having to do other shit

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daydadahlias · 2 years

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2, 11, 20, 32, 49 👀

hello amanda i am also mad at u but i will answer these asks anyway

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

ok, so i said previously that I'm obsessed with mini solo cups. I am also obsessed with... uh... looking around... thinking. OH I GOT A CACTUS PEN that i am really into. hold on lemme take a pic

i just think he has so much character and pizzazz.

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

Boston! lol idk... I'm not a very traveled person. But I think if I could go anywhere, I'd probably teleport to one of my lil internet buddies. sorry if that's a lame answer. Yali is sick rn so I think I'd like to go to her house and make her some soup or smthn.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

fuck i have to talk about MORE things I'm obsessed with??? omg the pressure is immense and overwhelming, you know how much i hate talking about things!! I'm so unpassionate and shy. uhh, I'm also really obsessed with Rhett and Link today. I've been watching through their sextember segment in their podcast and that's been a lot of fun! My internet dads <33 I also just love hearing people talk openly and positively about their experiences with sex and how their viewpoints have matured as they've grown older. Rhett had a little recording of when he gave his 9 yo the sex talk and it made me laugh a lot <3

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

idk, man, I really like This World, actually, even with all its flaws. any other world would just have so many too... like, immediately i went "ooh superheroes" and then I thought of someone killing me with their laser eyes and i was like "maybe not"

49. Who do you text the most?

Fuck, I dont know?? I'm a chronic over-texter. Molly has said I basically livetweet in my friends dms and she's right. Like I just make conversation with the air. There's a lot of friends I talk to daily or almost daily. I talk to you a lot! I think we talk pretty much every day. And I talk to Yali every day!! I talk to Maya every day I think or almost every day. I usually catch her at 2 am before I go to bed. Only after I've said "good morning" to Maya can I truly sleep peacefully. I talk to Monse pretty much every day! I talk to Ashley almost every day. I annoy Anna most days. I livetweet at Molly almost every day. I talk to my irl friends Grace, Monroe, and Brilynn every day. Yeah, basically ig what I'm saying is I that I have a ton of super cool nice funny friends because I'm also so cool and nice and funny and we just cant get enough of each other day in and day out :/ yknow how it is. a real burden.

I think if we're measuring this numerically, the person who has gotten the most texts from me ever is Molly. I text her about dicks a lot.

for context, most of my other very close friends have about 20-30k messages from me.

nosy asks

#purposefully not tagging any of my friends #so they just wont see this #are these good answers #probably not but that's life #luv u amanda #and all my friends!!#shoutout to the people that deal with me on a daily basis my god #and also i apologize for the severity of these name drops #i dont mean to brag about having friends but #i have a lot of really great friends #except for anna who is mean #pigeon #amanda

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castielmacleod · 2 years

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OH and as if there weren’t enough things in this show to make me pissed about late seasons Crowley. I will NEVER forgive the stupid fucking backstory they gave him for how he became king of hell.

Crowley is SMART! It’s a unique thing on this show, intelligence, but he truly has it in the early seasons. He’s ambitious, and he’s an opportunist, and he knows how to play the game, and he’s always one step ahead of everyone. I KNOW he had his neat and tidy insurrection already underway the instant Lucifer’s arse hit the cage. I know he sent his demons in first to clean out the old regime and by the time he himself actually got there he WALKED into hell, uncontested, wearing that smug self-satisfied smile of his. Stepped over a few corpses, picked off some stragglers with a few nonchalant flicks of the wrist, maybe. And then he sat down on the throne and immediately started to reorganise. Bring me this, see to that, from now on we’ll be doing it this way, etc. Everything already thought through and decided literally years in advance, with contingencies. His demons rush around like busy ants as he sits back, fiddles with his pen, drinks the scene in. The Winchesters up top are none the wiser that he helped them so diligently across the chessboard only so they’d get rid of his Lucifer problem, thereby paving the way to this exact moment. Boy, does he love it when he’s right. So begins the reign of King Crowley, long may he reign.

At least that was what I liked to imagine in my head. But oh no! 12x12 came along, wherein Mr Perez thought, “hm, you know how Crowley became king? He tried to make some other guy king. But that guy was like, ‘Eh no thanks, someone else can have the throne. You take it or smthn idfk lol’ And Crowley was just like ‘😳😳😳😳😳wuah what?????? Me???? 😳😳😳 Well…. omg 😂😂 if you say so😂’ and boom! That’s how he became king.” Like what in the fucking idiocy

Not only is that supposed to be Crowley, it’s supposed to be Crowley circa season 5, when he was more or less at his genuine peak as far as his character writing goes. And that’s how he, that guy from season 5, is supposed to have become king of hell. Not because of his own cunning or charisma, not because of anything he carved out for himself, not even because he saw an opening and took it, and certainly not because he’d won over any actual supporters or key demonic political figures to back up his claim. Nope, it was pure happenstance on a silver platter. I mean the sheer disrespect??? The sheer defanging of a capable ambitious character?

Like is it really any wonder, then, why nobody liked or supported Crowley or his rule canonically. 12x12 revels he was just the annoying crossroads guy installed on a whim by an absent abdicated prince—a prince who, by the way, gave so little of a fuck he only cared enough to pick his successor out of the two demons standing immediately in front of him and was just as ready to hand the throne to Crowley’s random unnamed aide had Crowley turned him down. I mean, wow. What a stellar endorsement for Crowley’s kingship. Like, Ramiel knew neither of them, and nothing against Crowley’s aide in particular but at least Crowley had a position as king of the crossroads? But this guy was still like “well if you don’t want it maybe your aide does? Idk. This is equivalent to me.” Hi?????

Anyway tl;dr this show is just fucking inimitable. There’s not a single other show this fucking stupid I think. This stupid fucking show

#Crowley spn #12x12 #I’m normal btw #My posts

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vyragosa · 1 year

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Valk Double Face is good not just because of how just, great the ShuMama dynamic is but also because Mika, too, would commit egregious acts of violence if given a reason to

But fr tho Valkyries trials and tribulations in ! and them fully coming into their own in !! all the while with Double Face still finding their footing, it almost feels like theyre passing on the torch, of growth and forgiveness, of self worth and what it means to find yourself

Dont get me wrong theyre all still growing and healing and bettering themselves but theres just, smthn about it, especially coming from Shu who knows how much u can hurt someone u care about unwittingly in pursuit of what u believe is right, who has crashed and burned for it, who has grown from it, looking at Mama square in the eye

The dynamic I never knew I needed but desperately do now ft. They would also be a very funny comedy duo on top of it

LITERALLY........I WAS SHAKING WHEN MIKA REPLIED TO KOHAKU SAYING BUT I KIDNAPPED YOU AND I SCARED YOU, MIKA WAS LIKE, ACTUALLY THANKS I MIGHT HAVE ACTUALLY GONE BERSERK.......SCREAMED A LITTLE...

i literally love both valk and df so much i think they're truly the absolute best and that we actually get to see them passing off that torch like you say, it's just truly amazing writing to me

need more shumama like right fucking now....

#anonymous

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shuckstruck · 2 years

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For the ask thingie!! For Ramiel, 1, 2, 10, 51, and 65!

1. what drives them? what’s their ultimate goal?

Ramiel’s driven by an all-consuming sense of self-importance or like. The sense that there’s something your supposed to do but you haven’t done it yet, and you can’t remember what it was- but gods does it eat at you, keeps you awake at night, leaves you never feeling truly satisfied with your accomplishments.

RAMIEL’S CURRENT INTERPRETATION OF THIS FEELING MEANS 1V1-ING THE GOD OF WAR AND BECOMING A GOD HIMSELF. If he can claw his way to the very top of the ladder surely THEN he’ll be satisfied with the people he’s proven wrong and the respect he’s earned and the power he’s gained. (This goal is NOT going as planned tho, for Ramiel)

2. what was your original concept for this character? how did playing them change that concept?

Ramiel actually hasn’t changed much at all from his concept and actually playing dnd! Mostly he’s just been like. Streamlined. For my dnd campaign- we actually ended up rebooting it after like. three-ish(?) years of playing! IT WAS GREAT TO BE ABLE TO TAKE MY FIRST DND PC AND BE LIKE ‘time to make him even BETTER now that I know how dnd works and in general have a much more thorough understanding of collaborative storytelling.’

Ramiel’s personality and character motives/flaws/tropes have all stayed really consistent between Godskeep 1.0 and Godskeep 2.0- but his backstory changed a lot and I was able to develop him to be much more rooted in the world he lives in! In 2.0 he started with a handful of relations to important npcs which has been a lot of fun…

Honestly what maybe changed the most is he went from having a 100% bonafide god-complex in 1.0 to having an ‘unusual amount of arrogance and self-importance for someone so clearly insecure’ in 2.0.

10. what inspired this character’s creation?

I listened to this specific PMV on loop while i drew the FIRST picture of Ramiel…. It was suggested I make a paladin to fill the martial class slot- and I knew I wanted to make an ambitious, self-assured white and gold dragon-kin. “Young God” BY HALSEY, FALLEN ANGELS, TOXIC RELIGION, GLADIATORS, AND TIGERSTAR WERE ALL HUGE INSPIRATIONS.

51. what element of their backstory are you proudest of?

THIS ONE IS HARD TBH. Honestly, I loved talking with my friend (who dms the game) and like. Fleshing out the little things that establish that Ramiel was never going to be ‘nice’- but even with his ruthless upbringing and bullying persona, he has a genuine capacity to love and do good :’). IDK PUTTING THE LITTLE THINGS IN THERE IS PROBABLY THE STUFF THAT MAKES ME HAPPIEST. Like his friendship/mentor vibes with one npc who’s known him since he was little, or how Ramiel genuinely likes babies and children, or how he met his best friend/future husband :’)

65. what would their go-to karaoke song be?

This one is actually the hardest. When I answer questions like this the correct answer is always one I also hate. Like he would pick “Eye of the Tiger” or something equally cringey. LIKE SMTHN A COLLEGE FRAT BOY WOULD PICK.

#do i tag this as ramiel. is the real question #asks #IM STILL AEAKE IM IN HELL SO I FIGURED #EH MAYBE ILL AMSWER ALL THESR IN THE NOTES APP #and then i did #THANK U SRTY FOR THE QUESTIONS!!#*ARTY #SORRY IM SO TIRED AND THE TAG FONT COLOR IS SO BAD ON MY EYES

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rewatching lost girl and i now realize why middle school me didn’t root for the sapphic love interest..

i just don’t believe their chemistry bc ig het ppl were writing it and don’t know how sapphic relationships work is one. everytime they have sex or lesbian sex is happening they still got like mad clothes on even though in the het scenes they are butt NEKED is two. and i’m telling u that this love interest in moving like the most toxicist lesbian ever. also f4f is totally cool but like would’ve been mad interesting if she was butch. but lemme tell u this lady is CRAZY toxic. FIRST, the first time they sleep together it’s bc her boss tells her to do that so she can be kept from saving someone from being unjustly convicted to death row. and she find out after they had sex and she basically taking it personally that this girl basically is kinda owned by her boss. but little does she know that she chooses to be there. why? BC SHE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. oh okay she’s in a coma oh it’s been 5 years. i’ll give her some leeway some GRACE. BUT NO. NOT ONLY. not only did she not find out from her but from someone else that she worked like a bitch for to get something to get her free of this boss BUT SHE SUDDENLY DECIDES SHES PLATONIC WITH HER AFTERRRRR SHE FIND OUT. whattttt??!!,?:! like u’ve gotta be kidding me. then she go out the country and back liek three times to relieve this girlfriend of the coma. and when she come back, THEY EATING EACHOTHER FACE. like what happened to thank you???? and then she finally get home after a long day..her BIRTHDAY btw to a surprise party yay!!! NO! she come WITH HER GF to the party and give her a wack as impersonal ass gift. GET OUTTTTTTT!!!!! THENNN the gf obvi sees like things are weird but she attached to her hip cause it’s been five years yada yada and this girl ASK FOR HER CAR to go to a lake house with her gf. WTF IS WRING WUTH YEW???????? and u expect me to believe that they still like each other. THEN they’re back from the trip and this gf is sick whatever and later find out she POSSESED. and she end up having to kill the gf. which was like a pity kill. but like my sis got her lick back anyways so whatever. like it’s not her fault but like idc. also while this girl was possessed she was tossing ppl around and shoving knives into ppls face. GO TO CHURCH!!!! anyways gf is dead she feels back cause she killed her even though the gf was literally asking to like don’t be selfish this girl is goin thru ur let her die. but after she hasn’t seen her for a few days she goes to her house askin for smthn cause they work together and she wanna catch and attitude!!!????? like girl ur gf is dead it was short lived but like not the move…..truly. and then she gon show up to her house askin to sleep in her arms????? WHATTTTT????!!!!! and then when she come to her house she’s like oh u need to heal let’s have sex, cause she a succubus, and she’s like no….i just need an aspirin…GET OFF OF HER LIKE DAMNNN. and her friends are like go be with ur girl….who’s girl. bye.but also she’s being so complacent in this like STAND UPPP. SHES TREATING U LIKE CACA

MEANWHILE the male love interest is a wolf shifter (bonus points) who was deeply in love with her and only her until he traded his love for her so that she could survive some final battle type….knowing that he only could love one person ever in his life…DAMN. THATS GOOD. and he was like not whole without it like damn. po thang.

like i feel like it has the sapphic plot line (BIG REACH) and the sapphic toxicity…but not the emotion or execution..and i’m not really a big fan of toxic relationships. like yearning is alr okay.

#lost girl #rant #i realize the might be confusing cause i didn’t use their names

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