#one-sided conversation

[peace-and-light-poetry]

“I know that I’ve hurt you.”

It was a gray day And those two were alone With little besides raindrops

And silence

Perhaps, the time had come When they'd talk about that day Or, perhaps, it wasn't the time

Regardless, it would be acknowledged

She told her "I know that I've hurt you."

The younger girl didn't make eye contact Instead, she just froze, a pause in her actions Perhaps, her sister just thinking aloud

(something she'd try to convince herself of)

She continued, "I know that I've hurt you and I am sorry."

Memories of that day haunted them like ghosts

Gray became splashed with A river of red

And the silence was replaced with white noise Staticky white noise, with the faint whispers of screams

"It's alright if you don't forgive me....."

She was shaking

"....I don't forgive myself either. Not for that, no."

A pause The world stood still Ebbing, in loud silence

Aside from the rain falling "I won't ask forgiveness but I do want you to know....."

Time started up again

"....that I am sorry."

Time seemed to be going faster now As the younger girl contemplated what to say She was trying to stifle her sobs

Her wails Just like that day She was trying not to break down

      —further

The older girl wasn't asking for forgiveness No, she was just thinking aloud Right?

The day was gray Gray and quiet, aside from the sound of raindrops And these two were alone

Silence came again Another pause, time slowing Before resuming

"I love you."

#kill la kill #fanfiction #post-canon au #mental illness #No Trigger Warnings! #ryuko matoi #satsuki kiryuin #one-sided conversation #melancholy #maladaptive coping #acknowledgement #some allusion to canon #suicide attempt #big sister satsuki #short poem #free-verse #written on the fly #healing process #appologies #completed 4/1/2023

[youngchronicpain]

It is okay to need pain medication to function with your chronic pain. It is okay. I promise. I know everywhere you turn pain medication is demonized. I know that it is scary to talk about. It is okay to be grateful that you have access to pain medication. Pain meds have greatly improved my quality of life and I wouldn't be able to live my life outside of my bed without them. And that's okay!!!

#of course i wish i didn't have to take meds to function #but I'm so grateful they exist and I have access to them! #I am able to live much fuller life #they are one of my pain management tools and they have made my life better #chronic pain #of course this is not everyone else's experience #and that is okay too #there is space for both sides of the conversation #I just feel like this side is very often left out #pain medication #meds tw

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #WWX really was unhinged for saying he was going to always be at JC's side and then immediately asking about LWJ. #The D in ADHD stands for Distractible. The second D stands for DooowawawaWaaaah (ADHDers know what I mean) #Their conversation is such a knife twist in this flashback. WWX truly and genuinely does mean it when he says he wants to support JC #And that JC hopes for that too! Tragedies hit the hardest when you can feel the lost futures characters would have together #And I feel it here in this scene so painfully. There's complicated feelings between them but it wasn't what broke them apart. #The rumours and the twisted family dynamics that tried to pit them against each other likely wouldnt have worked. #It set the stage for JC to have an inferiority complex which then grows into his responsibility complex. #WWX even calls it out! That JC has to be the responsible one in the dynamic. #And it sucks to be in that unequal position with a sibling or a not-sibling. #You don't get the love *or* acknowledgement but you do get the pressure to be the 'better one' in the face of the other's misbehaviour. #But I digress. There was a world where they did became the twin heroes of yunmeng jiang and stayed together. #And we'll never see it. That world is gone now. And just like Lotus pier -even if they tried to rebuild it - they will never be the same.

[maplemaplemaplemaplemaple]

dogens !!!!!!! (plural)

#i missed drawing him hes so fun to just doodle a bunch of #him and elka's one sided conversation might be my favourite bit of between-level camper dialogue;;; the sillies #psychonauts #dogen boole

[patheticgirlsteve]

people will be like “lol yeah eddie’s totally a freak” and then make him act completely normal and not at all freakish. hello? if you’re gonna call him a freak you’d better commit to it. make him do something odd and unsettling. give him a mannerism that is strange and perhaps even unpleasant to observe. do it you coward

#examples: #eddie bites people for no reason with no warning. just CHOMP. beware his teeth #eddie talks to himself in public. like just straight up conversations with himself. he is both sides of the conversation #eddie collects weird shit. like used cigarette butts he finds on the ground. idk just something kinda gross and fucked up #the stray cats of hawkins follow him around like the pied piper and no one knows why. not even him #either make him a real freak or stop calling him one. the choice is yours to make #he is so fun to make up freak things for #eddie #anya.txt

[hindahoney]

Wild and revolutionary concept: maybe don't treat converts like trash just because they're converts? And also don't ask someone if they're a convert in a public setting?

#having lunch before shabbat and had to remind my friend not to do this to people #like i get it might be a hard concept for some born jews to understand but one thing jumblr has taught me #is that its a sensitive and private topic #you dont just.bring it up. especially not in front of people? #because i have seen other born jews get all Different when they find out someone is a convert #and its crazy disrespectful #side note you can disagree w a convert about their opinions on certain things #and still not go after them for being a convert #thats a dif topic though #anyway unless the convert is openly inviting that convo #dont fucking bring it up???? #jumblr #judaism #jewish #jewish conversion #like it prob feels like how i do when someone treats me dif for being baal teshuva #its just a shitty thing to do in general #dont bring it up? #if you have to ask they prob havent told you for a reason #yes even if its from a movement you don't think is vaid #like what do you expect them to go back to their rabbi and be like 'is like to return this conversion and exchange it for orthodoxy' #thats not how it works they already converted to that movement what is the point of you trying to make them feel bad about it #like what do you change or affect by doing that #same w being baal teshuva #you want me to get in a time machine and tell my parents to move to a jewish community? #whats the point of saying anything just shut up

[jamstreak]

based off an actual thing that happened to me

#my art #stardew #stardew valley #stardew sebastian #so the story is #i was in this antique store because I wanted to browse the place #and i eyed this jar of seashells that was labelled 1998 #it looked cool #the lady at the counter saw me and said oh those were handpicked from #some beach on the east coast #and i #The idiot stick riddled with social illness #said oh haha nice #and then we had a painfully one sided conversation on said jar of shells #I was the only person in that store #so i felt stupidly obligated to buy them #and I did #now they sit on my desk and I don’t know what to do with them

[vaguely-concerned]

merrill dragon age really reverse engineered an eluvian from first principles in a cave with a box of scraps and one single blighted shard. and STILL she gets no respect for it from anyone but potentially hawke, at least in a confused yet well-meaning 'are ya winning son' sort of way on the friendship path. dark days for women in STEM

(really though it seems the equivalent of a person in the middle ages putting together a nokia phone from rocks and sticks (and one coaching session from a spirit, fair enough) and then just not being able to figure out how to turn it on even though it is fully functioning. magically at least merrill is inarguably a genius. the tony stark of kirkwall. well not really that comparison falls apart pretty quickly but you see what I'm saying here lmao)

#dragon age #dragon age 2 #merrill #of all people aveline actually seems to pick up on just how brilliant she is #but she only ever tells merrill so out loud so that she gets to tell her she's also an idiot with the next breath fhsadkfhsa #ah would it really be DA2 if that wasn't how that conversation went tho #anders has his head way too far up his own ass (affectionate) about anything she does to really consider what she's achieved #but one day I'd love to see some mages studying merrill's work like 'how?? how in the fUCK did she do this it shold be impossible' #hawke standing over on the side like a proud yet bumbling older brother like 'uh. it involved some sort of really special knife. #I punched a varterral about it. do not ask me any more questions'

[houseswife]

EPISODE OF ALL TIME

#I literally hollered reading through the script #somehow it’s funnier when it’s formatted like a textpost #idk why the nightmare one got me but it did #especially w/ the context of wilson unintentionally yet adamantly taking side ‘conversion therapy works’ later on #house md #greg house #gregory house #hilson #james wilson #house/wilson #hatecrimes md #remy thirteen hadley

[sergle]

There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious. and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!" Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible. You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester. Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it? So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.

#I FEEL LIKE COMPLAINING RN in the context of this alternate universe these posts live in. that makes me evil rn. I may not even keep #the post up. but I Needed to complain about these bc I hate seeing them #really funny and good because it very much feeds into that part of the brain where you go wait am I stupid? am I horrible? am I annoying? #before you express any kind of personal feelings. from feeling insecure alll the way down the spectrum to feeling like your life is over #before anyone How Dare You Say We Piss On The Poor-s at me YES there is a nuanced version of this #which is. you can make someone feel like shit (A Fellow Sufferer Of The Mental Eelnesses) by using them as your dumping ground #in excess and usually with no regard for how they feel and without Regular conversations inbetween #and in a one-sided way where they can't do the same and complain with you as a sounding board in return #don't tell new friends you hardly know abt THE MOST personal shit you can possibly think of. there are steps being skipped here #right? we know this. we all know it. setting a boundary is a thing. overwhelming a person is a thing #on the other hand there is such a thing as a friend who IS okay to listen and wants to help. and friends who relate. #maybe talking abt personal stuff makes ppl feel closer sometimes. just a thought! maybe not everything is Emotional Labor. maybe just maybe #but like come on. these are almost intentionally unhelpful posts #long post

[archi-pelago]

post frenzied champion au. new noble, new warden, new problems. welcome to being loved by god, volo, you’re gonna hate it

#my art #legend of arceus #legend of arceus au #frenzied champion au #volo #arceus #long post #based on that one post about god cruelly asking its creation to endure agony #a one sided conversation from all angles #volo likes this trainer because she also hates god #but in a much more direct way lol #too bad arceus likes her a whole bunch

[thebad-lydrawn-sanses]

Mermaid killer looks like he would go pspsps at me

Killer: PSPSPS

Killer: PSPSPS

Killer: damn

Killer: maybe

Killer: PSPSPS, C'MERE

Killer: damn :[

Killer: why is this dock so high i regret. everything

#killer sans #mermaid au #he's impatient #maybe don't leave after 5 seconds of one sided conversation and you'd actually catch something sir #queue

[astral-schools]

enjoy your stay!

#w101 #wizard101 #w101 fandom #wizard101 fandom #dasein #sal art #finally did a full-body piece of his post-canon fit for his and aedan's verse! #in their canon things go a bit differently at the end of novus #which means wallaru doesnt happen #so for a while dasein just kept his Pajamas Form (the blue smokey one) #but i decided that was more of an interim look than anything else and he needed something a little more permanent #and made this one! #right side crystal-esque pattern of his outfit is mostly based on the aeon armor #as is the blobby bits on his sleeves (which move!) and his rings (which mimic the gems on the hands on the back of the robes) #(since as far as im concerned he created the aeon gear and the hands are meant to be him literally 'having our back' so theyre His hands) #left side is based on both his canon post-wallaru fit as well as the gmod missing texture pattern #its a little too small to see but he has a collar chain that's got little eyes as the pins :] #he keeps the blue-grey color but gets his wings back and also isn't constantly shifting anymore #and he also keeps the old one's converse those are a permanent fixture-- #the little eye fellas are like scouts/messengers and let him keep track of multiple parts of novus at once #without getting too overwhelmed #sighhh i could talk about this guy forever #one day i'll actually finish his and aedan's fic

[superchat]

this brave anime dares to ask "what if a cute girl was head over heels for a totally milquetoast, cardboard personality guy and she did literally all the work maintaining a basic friendship with him"

#always so one sided #''hey! lets hang out later!'' #''lets trade phone numbers!'' #she texts first. carries the conversation. pushes to hang out again (which he EVENTUALLY says yes to) #the guy just stands around waiting for someone else to do osmething #thsi isnt abt a specific anime its just a common trope im thinking abt

[exhuastedpigeon]

✨Inspiration Saturday ✨

The Buddie road trip AU was partly inspired by a few cross US road trips I’ve been on (I've spent way too much time driving across the US or up and down it and seen a lot of goofy and delightful stuff). These are some of my photos from those trips. I love a roadside attraction so much and I think it's a fun way to road trip.

“Let’s skip the tour and just walk around outside for a bit,” Buck decided for them as they walked toward the building and Eddie was grateful. “This is pretty cool,” Eddie said, nodding toward the arch. It was relatively new, built in the late 90s according to the free pamphlet he’d grabbed.  “Hey Eddie?” “Yeah?” Eddie stopped and leaned against the building to face Buck.  “Why don’t you let yourself want things?” “I thought I was getting better at it,” Eddie said and it was true. He was getting better at it, but only about little things. He let himself drive the extra five minutes for his favorite cup of coffee in L.A. He let himself look at Buck more than he used to now that he was single again. “But I think I just haven’t in so long that it’s hard to rebuild that muscle.” “What do you want, Eddie?” Buck asked him, his voice more intense than Eddie expected.  “I want Chris to be happy,” He said, because that was the easiest answer in the world. That’s all he’d wanted since the moment he found out Shannon was pregnant.  “Eddie, I’ve known you for over a decade and almost every choice you’ve made has been for Christopher. What do you want?” Buck’s face was half in the shadow of the massive roadside archway, his eyes squinted against the bright sun that made the other side of his face look like he was glowing.  “You. I want you. I think I’ve wanted you for a really long time,” Eddie said in a rush, like if he didn’t get the words out now he never would.

Tagged by @monsterrae1 and @disasterbuckdiaz

As always, no pressure! I'm tagging - @honestlydarkprincess @daffi-990@spotsandsocks @wikiangela @devirnis @cal-daisies-and-briars @diazsdimples @fortheloveofbuddie @loserdiaz @eddiebuckley-diaz @eddiebabygirldiaz @evanbuckbuckley-diaz @ladydorian05 @thewolvesof1998 @rosieposiepuddingnpie @wildlife4life @malewifediaz @spagheddiediaz @butchdiaz @911-on-abc @rainbow-nerdss @jeeyuns @watchyourbuck @steadfastsaturnsrings @organizedstardust @puppyboybuckley @underwater-ninja-13 @jesuisici33 @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @actualalligator @acountrygirlsfun @theplaceyoustillrememberdreaming

#Buddie #buddie WIP #WIP: Buddie road trip #inspiration saturday #I love road trips okay??? #and i love a deep conversation at a road side attraction #this is actually kind of inspired by a conversation I had on one of my road trips #not a love confession but a really deep conversation about what my friend and I wanted in life under that giant peach lol

[ingravinoveritas]

You know what's kind of wild to me? Anna just confirmed they've been together for 6 years. People forget she's still 29, and isn't 30 yet. So they met when she was still 23. Not hugely different from 25, but notable I think. Idk where the narrative that she was 25 came from and how that stuck.

Hi there! So I am still catching up on Asks, and I wanted to make sure I addressed these (grouped together due to similar themes). For those who might not have seen, what is being referred to are two separate incidents that occurred in the days after Anna posted the t-shirt story on Instagram. On Tuesday, she posted this story lashing out at a Swedish publication for sharing a story originally from a UK publication (The Independent) about Michael's answer to the age gap question on The Assembly. The story was originally in Swedish, but the English translation is on the right:

Then on Wednesday, she did the same thing again, this time with another Swedish paper:

Since so much of this hinges on what Michael said in his response, I will post a short clip of that here, so we have the visual:

When AL's stories were first posted, I noticed a few comments on a post from @nightgoodomens from someone who speaks Swedish, and after reading the article, their observation was that all the magazines did was literally translate what Michael said, word for word (which we can then also further confirm by watching the video above).

So Michael's words were translated directly, and on top of that, Anna was not tagged by these papers, or contacted by reporters "for comment"--she seemingly sought out these news stories and shared them on her own social media. What's strange is that most of us would never have even seen them otherwise, and yet she chose to draw attention to them. And if these articles truly are meaningless clickbait, I'm confused as to why Anna would lash out so hard at them, especially if she feels as secure in her and Michael's relationship as she has wanted us to believe.

The other thing for me is that the one voice that is (again) noticeably absent here is Michael's. Nearly every post Michael has responded to/shared in relation to The Assembly was about a moment between him and one of the interviewers, Leo. Not only has the clip of Michael's answer to the age gap question gotten much less circulation/attention than the initial clip of the girl asking him the question, he has not said a single word about it since the show aired on April 5th.

He has especially not said anything about being misquoted (either in UK magazines/newspapers or international ones). And this becomes even more glaring when you realize that Michael immediately jumped on someone Twitter the day before AL shared that first story and corrected them for misquoting him (in regard to his comments about Welsh actors and Welsh roles). So it's very clear that if Michael thought he was being misquoted, there is no reason why he wouldn't speak up about it. And yet...complete silence.

I also find it interesting that for months, Michael was being attacked on social media, first in the aftermath of his comments about the situation in the Middle East, then more recently after recording a video saying hello to Good Omens fans in Russia. In both cases, he was defamed over and over again, accused of supporting war and genocide, and in general had his comments twisted and distorted beyond recognition--in other words, he was repeatedly misquoted (to put it mildly). Not once did Anna defend him against any of this. Not once was there an Insta story or anything speaking up in support of Michael. But as soon as it was something about her/their relationship, here she was posting these stories and letting us know exactly what her priorities are.

To your comments @lookforthelight97 about AL inadvertently saying the quiet parts out loud, that was also something that caught my attention. We could be here all day talking about the narrative and who is trying to change what, but for those who don't know, the narrative of her being 25 came from every media outlet stating that Michael and AL met in May of 2019...despite the fact that she gave birth to Lyra just four months later, in September.

It was this discrepancy that gave a lot of us the feeling that something was off even back in 2019 (and I would urge folks to check out @problematicwelshman, who covered a lot more of this at the time). In actuality, Michael and AL would have had to have met in late 2018 (when Anna was actually 24, as her birthday is in August) for her to then become pregnant and have the baby in September. All of this to say that if the official PR line for the last five years has been that they met in 2019, it makes you wonder why AL is suddenly publicly contradicting it, especially to show the lack of contentment she seems to feel about the relationship even after five (pardon me, six) years.

In any case, my incredulity is and continues to be at AL so readily showing her insecurities in this way, because all these two Insta stories have done is to draw more attention to her response than to the articles that are mentioned. Articles that again, none of us would have known about if she hadn't shared them. Yet as was said above, I don't think there is anything that anyone could post or write that casts doubt on Michael and AL's relationship the way her own social media posts do.

And to what you @vaguelyomens and @angelsadvocate96 said about Michael mentioning that his greatest fear is being alone, I feel like maybe Michael has such a fear of being alone because he already knows what it's like to feel alone. To know deep down that you are not remotely on the same page as the person you're in a relationship with. To know that they don't understand you and never will, but feeling responsible for them nonetheless, and not knowing how to reconcile those two things. It's difficult to imagine anything that would make someone feel more alone than that.

So, those are my thoughts on the Insta stories AL shared earlier this week. As I have said before, I know that I could be completely wrong, and I'm happy for folks to share their perspective, whether you agree or disagree. A heck of a lot to think about, for sure...

#lookforthelight97 #vaguelyomens #angelsadvocate96 #reply post #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #the assembly #this is cringey all around tbh #and if this is just one thing about Michael and AL's relationship that has been fudged/manipulated #it's hard not to wonder what else has been left out of the story. and why #curiouser and curiouser #also her posting those stories and attacking the media outlets with no comment from Michael feels like a one-sided conversation #the more i think about it the weirder this all seems #choices #not all of them good #but i will leave it to my followers to make up their own minds #anna lundberg #relationships #discourse