Things I didn’t realize were strange most of my life…I didn’t look in the mirror much and when I did, I’d look directly in the eyes cause I didn’t relate to the person staring back. I have a memory of saying my given name over and over and each time it felt more foreign to me like it wasn’t even a name, like it was losing meaning. I even mentioned it to my dad once and of course he laughed at me. But maybe that was his standard reaction cause I once told him I hated being a girl
Hey what's up, my name's Collin. I'm 28, and I'm the primary protector of our system. There isn't really all that much to tell, but I like video games, and Stranger Things. I'm almost always the one co-con with the littles in the system, occasionally I get time by myself but more often times than not I've got the ankle biters clinging to me. But yea below are some pictures of me fronting the body, and yea thats some stuff about me, my sign off is 🦇.
Phil: [Chayanne] is a bit upset, he's a bit upset. He watched "Primary Protector" die. And Duck-shell was meant to protect Primary Protector.
Creation: Primary protector cannot die.
Phil: D'you wanna go see his corpse? Follow me. Hop in. Should probably take Sunny, I think. Do you wanna take Sunny?
Creation: Protector is not alive to begin with.
Phil: Excuse me???
Creation: Take me to the data, please.
Phil: Ok... Do you want to pick up Sunny like a Pokemon, or like... Or like what? Just hop in the boat, get some fresh air. Get in the boat. Creation, get in the boat, I will take you to the data.
Creation: [To Tallulah] Goodbye, trauma shell.
Phil: [Laughs] Nahhhh, that's fcked. [Wheezes] What do you mean, trauma shell?
For the past 3? 4? ish days, the primary protector, and I, the primary host, have been having disagreements on coffee. He likes his with little sugar, and prefers it near black. I, the host, do not like coffee, and thus put as much sugar and cream into it as I can. We have been having a coffee battle back and forth for a while before we finally compromised on an amount of sugar that is 'agreeable' for everyone.
Flash to today, Secondary Protector/basically co-host fronts, he has to deal with the coffee. He did not like it AT ALL, regardless of amount of sugar. Granted, he likes monster over coffee.
The little stuff like that just cures imposter syndrome.
if it's too late at night or a really sensitive day it's really dangerous for me to think abt oz vessalius bc i will just be completely inconsolable and i dont even have his plushie to hold and cope so you can imagine the crisis im having rn with it being past midnight on a very sensitive day thinking abt him so intensely
Idk I think I'm doing okay. It's been a lot lately, but I haven't been taking it out on anybody in here. I think that's something at least. It sucks that all I needed was for somebody to give me the benefit of the doubt for like. A couple months. But I'm here now and there's no fixing what it was like before. I'm glad I can be better for us