#probably will be forever

[stereopticons]

Thinking about the line “there’s gonna come a day when you feel better” except it’s the day when you get tired of making yourself small, when you get tired of putting everyone else’s comfort above your basic needs, when you get tired of being told to not take up space.

I don’t know if that’s what JD meant but that’s what it’s hitting today.

#yeah I’m still on my sunset tree bullshit #probably will be forever #the mountain goats

[avatar-state-kate]

While Baby Driver was definitely Edgar Wrights music video movie you can really see the lessons he learned there in Last Night in Soho; this movie maximizes it’s musical motifs.

From Puppet on a string foreshadowing Sandy’s career trajectory, the perform marking the turning point from her aspirations of stardom to her reality of being a stage prop

Or Starstruck, which Ellie listens to during the dorm party foreshadowing her relationship with Sandy, at least their introduction where she is completely enraptured by the glamorous star to be- the same star stuck feelings that entrap Sandy to her manager which will kickstart Ellie’s nightmare

The downtempo cover of downtown foreshadowing that behind the shiny promises of city life lurks a dark truth- that behind the brighter lights are darker shadows

Happy house, played at the halloween party is also the only song not from the 60s, fitting in well with Ellie initial excitement at being there when she’s dancing - she’s free from the past- but also it’s sonic out of place ness setting up the turning point where the ghosts and visions appear in her waking life (as well as the lyrics itself, a sarcastic “we’re happy here in the happy house” when it is her home she seeks to escape- not happy here at all)

But really it’s the very first song, A World Without Love, which might encapsulate the expert use of juke box scoring as it sets up e sonic theme of early to mid 60s aesthetic, as well as introduces Ellie’s character, where she is now and defining her journey. “Please lock me away” - Ellie begins as a very isolated character finding it difficult to connect to her peers and her surroundings as she is stuck in the past. “For I don’t want to live in a world without love” in the end, Ellie’s arc and the film is about love, her love for Sandy triumphing over all of the fears and horrors she faces

#yes I’m still thinking about this movie #probably will be forever #last night in soho #edgar Wright #film #movies #so that’s why this post never got any notes #I forgot to post it #lol oops

[liquidstar]

If my mom sees a significant amount of blood she gets lightheaded, and has fainted on some occasions. Once it happened when we were kids, I wasn't there to witness it but I heard the story from my dad. Basically my brothers, around 7 or 8 at the time, were playing outside while my mom was making their lunch, and she accidentally cut her finger. It wasn't anything serious, but it drew a fair bit of blood and she passed out. My dad saw this and rushed over, but he didn't really know what to do so he just sort of started slapping her to wake her up (not recommended, but he had no idea and panicked)

At that exact moment my brothers both came in from playing, and all they saw was our mom unconscious on the floor and our dad slapping her. So, like, without even saying a word to each other they both just INSTANTLY start whaling on him, like, full blown attack mode to defend our mom. Which obviously didn't help the situation, but she did wake up and everything was fine.

Now our dad says that he's actually really glad they attacked him over what they thought was going on, because it means he raised good boys. And I still think that's true, they're very good boys.

#i think about this story sometimes like yeah I'm proud of them for that too actually. good job baby brothers #they're not babies anymore of course they're turning 20 next year which is crazy #but they're still the type of people who'd do something if they saw something of this sort happen for sure #respectful of women and everyone else too. they're good guys #I'm glad I ended up with them living in my house against my will for like 14 years #anyway i have no idea where i was for all this but my best guess is probably a friends house given the time period #i was always at my besties house lol #i hope she's doing well too actually. haven't spoken in forever... #bestie from greek elementary school... if you're out there... let's get muffins and fanta at the bakery across the street again someday 💜☮️

[inkskinned]

in internet posts it is easy to cut them out of your life. they are hurting you! they aren't listening to you!

they held your hair back. they lent you lipstick. they held your hand at the train station and got you home safe. they rounded on your bully, got loud, said get fucked, spitting-mad in your defense.

they also cut the hair off again. told you that you should really think twice before wearing something like that. took you for granted. took your insecurities and threw them in your face again.

you know logically it should be easy. all the internet advice comments always read it will feel better. like an equation - if a person is rotten, you just remove them. you pull the tooth that's hurting.

but it was never a big flare-up moment. you don't live in a sitcom. they never tried to take your boyfriend or steal from your apartment. they showed up to birthdays and they wrote songs about you and bring you water without you asking. once you found out they carry an emergency inhaler for you, even though you haven't had an asthma attack in years - just in case.

where is the line? people fuck up. sometimes they fuck up badly. sometimes people have raw personalities, like a powerline, and being around them is dangerous. addicting. sometimes they can't help themselves, but you know they're trying. sometimes they are just rough-around-the-edges. sometimes they don't even realize how they sounded when they said that. sometimes it's just - you've both loved each other for so long now, the way this thing hurts goes back to the root.

and that's the fucked up part. you have pushed your fingers against the sweetheart of memory. things these days are electric, tense, harrowing. they didn't used to be. there were a lot of good days in there. sometimes you want to just close your eyes and say can this be over yet? do we still need to be fighting?

doing that would give up any chance you get of getting an apology, but you don't always know that you need an apology, you love them. once they flaked on your birthday party. once they told you to get over it, people are always dying. they also let you crash on their couch for a week after the breakup, handfeeding you when you were so sad you couldn't eat. they are also judgmental about everything, occasionally react to banal statements with an attitude that is weird and fiery. they also love you like a lighthouse sometimes, so strong they cut the storm like lightning.

but the problem is that you might be storm. you might be the thing that needs breaking. what if you are two forces who are desperately, horribly drawn to each other, shaped by the other person's passions, and both good for each other and bad in equal measure.

what if you're both just people, and you're no saint neither.

just cut them off! swallowing the saltwater, you catch yourself in the mirror. you've been shaking more than usual. there's an ache in you that is oblique, loud, impossible to soothe. is this what it looks like? when life is "easier"?

your mouth will always have a hole, is the thing, if you remove the tooth.

#spilled ink #warm up #writeblr #this is about someone specific but feel free to blorbo on main. #tbh this is familial for me so that is an element but it's also about childhood best friends #and probably about ur enemies to lovers blorbo #(but i want to specifically say if ur partner is like this. not necessarily a good partnership lol.) #(the dynamics at play in familial/friend relationships feel equally important and in some ways are HARDER to escape. #bc we can see that this is a potentially toxic romantic foundation. #but in family ? ...... it's toxic and it doesn't stop u from loving them. bc u always have. #and i think that makes it harder. by a lot. which is what this is referencing). #but genuinely and really truly forever feel free to tag ur potentially toxic enemies to lovers on this and all my poetry #here i'll do one for u - adora & catra :x

[panstarry]

my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

#pan draws #pan designs #zine #risograph #i'm not gonna lie i don't love how this one turned out OTL and i think the wording is not done but well... a deadline is a deadline #i'll probably touch it up and rewrite it in the future but who's to say.. i need to stew on how to articulate my feelings coherently #anyway my transness is so closely tied to my experience as a person of color. the current political climate is so fucking ass to exist in #but more than anything i am pissed off at white punks & leftists & trans people that refuse to have meaningful solidarity with us. #so yeah anyway. i was stuck on this one forever and only really got anywhere with it after attending 2 punk noise shows in a row where they #actually used their fucking platform to do like. anything. our struggles are connected you need to careeeee YOU HAVE TO CARE........ ok bye #tdov #trans day of visibility #<- i was sitting on uploading this for a while so the stars kind of aligned for it to be today huh.... happy tdov i love you

[chloesimaginationthings]

Michael Afton’s awkward family reunion in FNAF 3,,

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #michael afton #springtrap #william afton #fnaf #fnaf 3 #fazbear frights #five nights at freddy's #spiderverse #itsv #Yknow how crazy fnaf 3 is in retrospect #just a dad and his son meeting up again face to face after X number of years #Michael has not been called his og name in forever so cut him some slack here #just so funny thinking springtrap jumpscaring himself #when recognizing the night guard is his son #tbh probably make him want to end him more 💀 #spiderverse mentioned 🔥

[allrelativefiction]

I realized I have never giffed the 0x1=lovesong mv, only stages and stuff ... so now I rly wanna skdkfkgk

#sid rambles #still obsessed with this song #probably will be forever

[sleepy-bebby]

Reddit • YouTube

#data #top post #statistics #web browsers #chrome #google chrome #educational #Firefox #opera #mozilla #mozilla firefox #internet explorer #internet #statistical data #video #Netscape #data is beautiful #I still use Firefox and probably will forever unless it closes down #switch from your default browser to Firefox and use DuckDuckGo’s search engine #this goes for mobile users too.

[egophiliac]

now that I can think semi-coherently again...whooooo's ready for Friday WEEHOO

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #stage in playful land #stage in playfulland #i've only had gidel for a day and a half et cetera you know the rest #guidel? gider? ah yes. what's that romanization. my favorite game #i'm gonna go with fellow and gidel until something official comes out i guess #anyway HEY it's spooky carnival time where everybody wears hats and then probably turns into puppets or something! i'm excited! #yuu and grim are probably going to be there also which means it doesn't canonically take place during glorious masquerade #which is unfortunate because that really is the most hilarious possibility #ace and deuce in unison: ugh you won't BELIEVE what happened while you were gone #these boys cannot just have one nice day without someone trying to take over the school or destroy all magic forever or something #such is life in twisted wonderland

[stuckinapril]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on #Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that #It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely #Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the #Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing #I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the #Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to #be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr #I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com. #I refuse #I will do whatever I want forever etc

[devouringbodies]

After finishing the show nbc hannibal leaves you with the distinct feeling and impression that will and hannibal fucked absolutely raw and nasty on screen despite there being no such scene. The power it holds.

#the show certainly didn't invent ust and eye fucking but it damn sure REDIFINED IT #sorry for being specifically weird and into the cannibal's sex lives atm it'll pass and I'll be normal for a while again #hannigram #will graham #hannibal lecter #nbc hannibal #hannibal #that second tag was probably a lie I'll be insane about them forever #🪰

[kathaynesart]

THE BOULDER, I mean Replica Leo, is over his conflicted feelings.

Be sure to VOTE for your favorite team, whichever that might be, over at the @tmntaucompetition All of these are big favorites of mine so I'm really excited to go up against @angelpuns @evenmoreofadisaster and @butterfilledpockets with @cupcakeslushie

I found this idea that Angelpuns posted too funny not to respond. Especially considering my last Future Leo/Kid Leo interaction was so sweet and emotional. Oh well!

#the only time I will probably ever draw 2003 turtles haha #it's last minute #but had to make something! #also can we stop harassing Replica Leo about his age? He's 32 atm!!! #peepaw forever #tmnt au competition #empyrean weeping au #kid leo au #bent au #emd au #replica au #rottmnt #tmnt #kathaynesart

[itsdefinitely]

and to you, character i like, i bestow upon you the highest honor i can give. grey hairs.

#i'm probably still gonna draw him 2d #but now he has a human form. for research purposes #definitely not because i need to put him in a Situation #prismo the wishmaster #scarab the god auditor #adventure time #fionna and cake #jake the dog #id in alt text #ough that id took me forever hopefully it's not swamp ass #definitely art #prohibitedwish

[jestroer]

Dream is a total wanker, and I don't even want to mention him on my blog really, but I honestly could never fucking forget the "WHY has GRIAN, who in my opinion is not great at PvP, killed me at least 8 times in PVP games, yet I have NEVER finished ahead of him in buildmart". Still the funniest fucking shit ever

#he sucks so bad but he is also such a fucking clown #i do not know how anyone can take this guy seriously. he's like a 14 year old fr but hes like 24 i think #the buildmart rant will forever be engraved in my brain. WHY did GRI- #shitpost #idk i should probably tag for like dream mention #cw dream #yea

[pangur-and-grim]

it’s hard for me to feed myself right now (just in terms of physical ability), so my mom drove me and the animals to her place. she carried the cats in first, because I had to butt-scoot up the front stairs, and once inside, Pangur got scared and ran. she’s tucked herself away somewhere, and nobody can find her. I probably could, and I could lure her out and make her feel safe again, except that I’m largely immobile. I keep falling on the crutches and fucking my leg up further, and the likeliest hiding spots are up or down a fleet of stairs. it’s been 4 hours, and it’s killing me not to look for her. I’m so tempted to crawl down the basement stairs, broken leg be damned.

#I have bad object permanence and anxiety #so my brain is saying ‘she’s gone forever’ #she’s definitely in the house but I’m getting scared bc worst case scenario is that stress has brought on a medical condition #and that she’s stuck somewhere and needs help but I can’t get to her #I know she’ll probably just come out later in the night once she feels safe. but it’s hard to lie here like a lump waiting

[charlottan]

how do you become tumblr famous

I hear the Blogger's Guild is recruiting... Not a bad way to get tumblr famous... if you've got the stones for it

#asks #just make posts probably #im not Famous but if youre talking about my level ive just been here making posts forever. its a numbers game #but it also shouldnt be a goal you should just wanna be here making posts forever for the sake of it #girlblogger's duty is to make 5 note posts forever and then die at 23