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kendrixtermina · 2 years

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An attempt at an actually good explanation of the head types

Let the takeaway be this: Curiosity, imagination & inquisitiveness is a shared characteristic between all of them.

With some 6 it gets shut down cause they get too bogged down in anxiety or superego correctness, kinda like those really numbed-out 3s sometimes, but the natural disposition is curious & imaginative as well. I mean, how would you concoct all those worst case scenarious without at least latent imagination?

Same for a tendency to want to analyze, understand and "track" what's happening, automatically looking for patterns. Also sometimes characterized as the funny triad, though, ive met some plenty funny 9s and 8s.

Another thing to note is that its not just "logic" that lives here but speculative imagination, future planning & conceptual thinking. What is logic but imagination that is disciplined by rules?

This is especially worth keeping in mind when you consider mbti combinations - ovsly Ts will be more overtly intellectual, Fs might show the imagination side more or be drawn to humanities-related concepts such as art, sociology, psychology... - though of course, both can have both. A xSFx who is a 6 will be more 'concepty' than a 9, in that sense that's a well-balanced combo.

All three tend not be noted for their perceptiveness, but immature individuals can also share the possible weakness of thinking their noggin is god's gift to mankind. (though the 6s are less obviously braggarts to avoid being targeted - more like, "people who share my politics are smart" or "its just common sense")

The fact that scary situations can stimulate planning is kind of an interesting hint at how the capacity for imagination evolved. With all 3 you can see a tendency to 'speed up' if something unforeseen happens that distinguishes them from the other triads, though it shows somewhat differently in each of them.

Now I have no clue about this at all as I don't really pick up on that sort of thing, but another commonality you sometimes hear mentioned which sounds kinda fascinating is a tendency for the eyes sometimes not quite match the rest of the expression or a lot of the expressiveness being in the eyes generally. Like someone acting aggro or cheery but you can tell from the eyes they're inwardly freaked out, or that's how I've heard it described.

So, now that we've established the commonalities and that no single one of them is "the" learning interested type, how do you nail which one you are? For this, it pays to keep in mind both the specific thinking style as well as the temperament that typically goes with it.

Soo... what kind of information can't you get enough of?

7 - the latest new stuff that is full of cool, exciting possibilities. Novelty, technological innovation, avantgardistic art & fashion, anything exciting adventurous & cool, working on a new project or skill every couple of months. Often very good at quick thinking, improvising, and talking people into almost anything. - this is most often an extrovert and usually an active, optimistic, confident, fun-loving and dynamic but not always all that reliable or responsible person. ~ sort of like an inventor or explorer who sees the potential in things. As a thinking style, it's the most associative & open ended, considering how all the multiple frameworks available could be used to solve your problem. Quick at concocting new plans on the spot. Like a mind map or web of loosely connected concepts. Focussed on securing good outcomes, can get anxious that they're not gonna get those good things. Tends to assume they're going to win, sometimes to the point of overconfidence or denial. Tends to discard ideas that are no longer useful or entertaining them & look for ever newer & better ones.

6 - keeping up with politics & important happenings, what is going on with the people in your circle, not missing any potential dangers or important developments, tests & questions everything not easily fooled by scams, looks for the truth behind everything & its trustwortiness - most often introvert but still somewhat sociable, but extrovert is possible - character wise, can be sceptical, argumentative, and a big worrier but also likeable, perseverant, funny, brave, and good team players. - a bit like a detective or journalist, looking for truths. As a thinking style, it's systematic and context-sensitive. Information is related to relationships, morals, political contexts, power dynamics etc. and categorizing things - but not in a simplistic way, but with awareness of how categories can intersect or contradict each other. Like building a map or grid. Focussed on preventing bad outcomes, can get anxious about those bad things happening. Tends to expect a struggle, sometimes to the point of overpreparation or combativeness. Tends to be concerned with whether to adopt or resist ideas, which should be adopted & which resisted, which are "correct" or "certain".

5 - indiscriminately retains all manner of unrelated random stuff just because, for its own sake. Will obsess endlessly over and absorb every last detail about anything that personally interests them even if its something totally obscure, completely theoretical, gross/disturbing, esoteric or of no practical use. Usually very strongly introverted. Blunt, cynical, eccentric and rather sensitive in disposition, but since they're so reclusive they can tend to be known only as "that weirdo who only talks about [current obsession]" - like a collector or philosopher. As a thinking style, its about looking for contrasts, underlying principles, and to try to look at things from as much of an unbiased perspective as possible. Like a decision tree or filing cabinet. Doesn't tie themselves to particular outcomes but rather to anticipate what's going to happen & how to navigate it. Can get anxious that they can't deal with what's coming. Tends to have low expectations, sometimes to the point of being defeatist or doomerism. Rather than rely on outside ideas, try to synthesize their own version, phrasing everything in their own words.

Addendum: I find a lot of confusions come from shared traits in triads being more emphasized in some of the typical descriptions - that's how you get 9s and 5s landing on 4, 6s landing on other reactives, and 6 and 7 landing on 5.

Doesn't help that there's been this shift in the later authos to discuss mostly the temperament for 7 and 6, but you gotta dig out palmer, maitri or naranjo to learn what that actually makes them mental types, whereas with 5, the nerd stuff stayed but all the specifity was lost in regards temperament - The defeatism angle alone would sort out all the mistyped 6s and 3s real quick if it was more emphasized.

Maybe this is in part cause 6 and 7 have roughly even F/T ratio whereas 5 somewhat skews toward T, though by far not as much as 8 or 1, or as much as 4 and 2 do the reverse.

#enneagram #7w8 #7w6 #6w7 #6w5 #5w6 #5w4 #enneagram 7 #enneagram 6 #enneagram 5

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original-character-championship · 1 year

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Bracket G Round 1

Poll 2

Skater & Kronos (@kratt09) vs. Lucy (@blazernot)

387. Skater & Kronos (@kratt09)

Both use They/She

I put more bio stuff here since I can't figure out words if that's ok

Skater

-are korean and autistic -Mom died in a car crash. skater was present and was 11 at the time -Dad was deemed unfit to be her guardian (I'm working on it but just ignore how possibly unrealistic that is) -She is 15, lives with her uncles now, and is slowly working through her trauma and growing as a person -after the crash she sort of latched onto skate boarding as a coping mechanism and uses the nickname skater, which she is changing her actual name to -the name skater fits with her last name park, which is a common korean last name and they love to see people's expressions when she introduces herself as skater park -Also likes graffiti and using spray paint -mildly good at parkour?? bad but not super bad -Morally ambiguous. she tries hard to be a good person but strays from that frequently -clever. absolutely thrives on vibing with friends but ends up being sort of a weirdo -a bit.. intense. would not hesitate to stab someone and then proceed to never mention it again -"i would kill for you" but genuinely would. Without hesitation - apparently the clone of some old, corrupt time Deity that was intended to be a vessel for them to return to the world but things went askew so now Skayer has to deal with someone who looks almost exactly like her floating around and talking to her and distracting her by talking about death and asking about how she'd feel about letting good ol Kronos take over for a bit -Goofy and immature but Old and Tired at the same time -asks "you need me to kill someone for you?" With a completely straight face -sort of dark humor -walks with a fancy strut and fans her fingers out for dramatic tension and all sorts of movements -fast w running and escaping -smooth talkerz/a bit manipulative -self preservation instinct is strong and they end up in situations where they're forced to betray their friends to survive -actually pretty chill w being a pawn for the villain since they're useful at least -she's trying to be silly and light hearted but ends up very confused when people stare in shock at her when she tells a story they THOUGHT was funny but was actually messed up -they've been running through my head since 2020 -very afraid of turning out even remotely like Kronos -pretty scary when she hs genuine confidence since everyone is reminded of kronos -ts is Everything Moves by Bronze Radio Return

So summary:

Traumatized aroace lesbian with impeccable skating/graffiti vibes that is also kinda sorta an eldritch abomination

Kronos

-Thousands of years old -Identical to Skater, but taller and with a fancy green uniform and glowing green eyes -Sarcastic and comes off as deranged with the way they smile -it's very clear they're corrupt with power -Immortal and very divorced from the concept of mortality and empathy. They have difficulties thinking of other people and beings as anything more than a piece in their personal chess game -Charming. I can't figure out the words but think of them as having a very similar personality to Loki -time Deity, ability to rewind specific things. She is capable of knocking a few years off of someone's life or straight up winding them until they turn to dust -yea she's overpowered but in a "they have issues regarding that" way -uses a scythe as their main weapon -generally has an older sibling relationship with skater -violent and ruthless. Genuinely has fun fighting and getting injured since it seen so long they've had a physical form and could feel things -was trapped in a pocketwatch by other deities, so it's been a while since they've been out -very manipulative -doesn't care about risks since they can just rewind time to make them no longer exist. High pain tolerance -"scout's honor!" Minutes later, "I was never a scout" -Very little loyalty to anyone other than Skayer -they have a soft spot for Skater and want what's best for her but it's not exactly genuinely good stuff -sort of a ghost?? They're not physically there and won't be unless they possess skater's body. Powerless without a vessel -ts is cabinet man by lemon demon

Skater:

-tall and sort of skinny -tanned golden skin -dark brown eyes -black, short gnc haircut (https://f2.toyhou.se/file/f2-toyhou-se/images/59092318_RcWPKVUyyTdzmps.png) -wears a muted green jacket and jeans normally, as well as alchemist goggles

Kronos:

-identical to skater but taller -similar haircut but there's a bun at the end?? Idk I haven't figured it out yet -wears a uniform similar to this but green (https://m.media-amazon.com/images/I/51IV9Xox+eL._AC_UX522_.jpg) -scythe weapon. it's almost as tall as her -better posture than skater ngl -glowing green eyes

388. Lucy (@blazernot)

She/her

Shes a witch, a college drop out, a secretary for a shady government program, she likes frogs, she can summon magical frogs, she does not want to be here, she is very tired.

#oc championship #tournament poll #round 1 #bracket g #387 skater & kronos #388 lucy

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lonelyroommp3 · 20 days

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context for the swiftie matty healy thing. i never really saw anyone on tumblr say it but my sister sends me a lot of ts tiktoks. and when they broke up there were a lot of tiktoks celebrating the fact that taylor clearly did it in reaction to the backlash because she cares about her fans.

not to generalise an entire social media platform but of couuurse it was the tiktok swifties. if it wasn’t them i’d have my money on twitter bc the glimpses of that universe i sometimes get on my timeline… scary stuff

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meowticta · 10 months

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yk how some autistic ppl have a community irl, as in, i have many friends who are autistic, i have family members who are also autistic,

yet i am the only one with tourette's, and it feels so fucking lonely? yeah, people get in someway what is autism, my high school is rlly supportive and stuff, friends r too, but when it comes to tics.

it's just different, i've always had this jealousy for people who could actually control themselves, i dealt with the ''im not normal, im different, and i hate it'' thought for soooo long.

autism and tourette's impact me on my daily life, they're so different though (obviously) but in the way people react to me, you can tell a person you r autistic and they'll be like ''okay!''

i tell people i have TS and they're like ''what's that?'' ''I thought it was a made up condition'' ''but you don't tic 24/7''

sorry can't explain my point bc words are not really formulating in my mind in a well written way,

its just so scary and lonely to have tourettes, and i which i could meet someone, who deals with the same shit i do everyday, laughing at the tics, with the consent of the other, trying to help eo in tic attacks without being... weird about it, not being JUDGED.

#rant #tourette's #tourette #actually tourettic #tourette's syndrome #tourettes #i cant rlly explain my point #idk why #i just feel lonely #chilean people w ts pspsps

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stormofsharpthings · 1 year

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15 questions

well @christinefromsherwood, you tagged me - you deserve what boredom may come from this 😆

1. Are you named after anyone? internet name? nope, just a wild hair descended from an in-joke about programming naming conventions lo these many years ago. real name? yep

2. When was the last time you cried? yesterday

3. Do you have kids? not human children, although I make a delightful aunt to all my family's and friends' kids, so I'm told. never found any partners I wanted to raise children with. many many critters though, and they are always properly adored

4. Do you use sarcasm? absolutely, with cats and characters and idiot drivers

5. What is the first thing you notice about people? online? sense of humour 😁 IRL? body language and smile usually

6. What is your eye color? green-ish/hazel-ish, depending on what I'm wearing, my surroundings, the time of day, etc...

7. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings, every time! I like scary movies just fine, but there's more than enough tragedy and sadness in the world, I don't need much of it in my entertainment

8. Any special talents? not sure - is this abilities? stuff I'm good at? let's go with writing and reading, archery, firearms, riding horses, sailing, DIY, troubleshooting, various martial arts, and IKEA furniture assembly

9. Where were you born? in a tiny rural hospital while my mother cursed my father for eating brussels sprouts in the room

10. What are your hobbies? fanfic, sharp weapons, dabbling with art (I'm not good but I have lots of fun experimenting), cooking (I'm pretty good and I have lots of fun experimenting), SCUBA diving, adoring the cats, and planning ways to install cat shelves and trails and climbing stuff in an apartment and still get the damage deposit back somehow

11. Do you have any pets? currently only the two cats (only, as if they're not a mighty handful on their own) - Nicodemus, the Sweet One, our darling void cat and underfoot bane of existence during 3am bathroom runs, and Eliot, the Bitey One, snuggler extraordinaire unless it's past meal-time and then it's FEED US OR THE TOES GET IT, LADY. He's named after the poet T.S. Eliot for numerous reasons but his TS stands for Total Shithead

12. What sports do you play/have you played? soccer (sorry, I'm in america), broom hockey, rugby-according-to-rules-made-up-on-the-spot, baseball (less boring than just watching but let's face it I played a phone game and no one noticed), laser tag and paintball (entirely too much fun), and the form of golf that involves tearing around in a golf cart with a disabled speed governor while arguing whether you could jump over an alligator sunning itself on the course... er, so not actual golf per se...

13. How tall are you? taller than average 😉

14. Favorite subject in school? archaeology and anthropology, biology, some of the computer sciences but not all, and bribing the librarians to let us play laser tag in the less-used portions of the huge university library building, AKA Real World Negotiations and Bargaining Skills: Special Research

15. Dream job? not to have to have one

as far as tagging people - have fun if you feel like it!

#ask game #questions #silliness

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passerine-writes · 1 year

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Silent Sparks - Volt 5

Warnings: Descriptions of past abuse, Tsukare has a small panic attack, mentions of child abuse Word count: 1920

Notes: Italics - Tsukare signing Bold italics - Family member/friend signing 'Italics with apostrophes' - Thoughts

Masterlist

Volt 4 | Volt 6

After a long four hours at the mall and sixteen bags brought home, two of the three were exhausted. Yamada and Aizawa bought Onryo plenty of new clothes, new bedding, new knickknacks, shoes, art and music supplies, some books per the child's request, a new backpack and other miscellaneous items. When the three were unpacking all the bags and organized what needed to be, Aizawa noticed Onryo was particularly protective of his bed and not letting the two anywhere near it without a watchful eye.

"Can I sit down real quick?" The child hesitated at his question but slowly nodded. "I wanted to ask you something." His heart weighed down at the fearful look on his sons face. "You're not in trouble, I just wanted to ask you something. Are you hiding something from us? You've been really protective of your bed and you don't have to tell us what it is, we just want to make sure you're safe and it's nothing that might hurt you."

It's just my really important stuff. The other kids would try and take them sometimes so I keep it hidden. Sometimes other foster parents would take them if I broke a rule.

"We won't take them from you, it's your stuff little listener. If you want you can show us so we know not to touch them." Tsukare took a shaky breath before getting on the floor and crawling under his bed, retrieving a small box. He sat on the floor, holding the box tightly in his lap before opening it.

Aizawa joined the two on the floor, silently jovial about Onryo opening up so soon. He watched quietly as the box was placed between the three, allowing his kid to go at his own pace and comfortability. First, he pulled out a rare Present Mic trading card, a small blush of embarrassment on his face.

I always looked up to you because you have a sound quirk like me.

Yamada melted a little at this, not expecting his kid to look up to him that much. He tucked his knees to his chest with a soft smile on his face to try and hide his giddiness.

The next item he pulled out was a card and a chain necklace with a ring on it.

My birth mom left this for me when I was born. Apparently the ring is an heirloom or something.

He then pulled out a tattered, string bracelet, clearly heavily worn and cherished.

This was from one of the kids at the center before he got aged out. He was one of the only other kids who learned sign language for me and treated me like family. He gave me the trading card, too.

Next, he pulled out a small compass on a chain. It looked like it had been scorched at some point and the heroes minds immediately went to the worst possibility.

This one is from a stranger. I got lost in one of the big neighborhoods after running away once. He had a lot of scars and was kinda scary but he was nice. He gave me this so I wouldn't get lost again, it didn't really work but he tried.

Finally, he picked out a fidget cube. An odd find but clearly something valuable to him.

This one I use a lot, it helps me focus on things when I need to. It's also really fun.

The two were touched, knowing he was already starting to trust them.

"Thank you for showing us, Onryo. If you want to put them somewhere out in the open, we'll make sure not to touch them." He nodded slowly, putting his treasures back in his box for the time being but setting it on his bed side table now. "We wanted to ask you something else and remember, you don't have to do this if you aren't comfortable." Rather than concerned, he looked perplexed at Aizawa's precursor to his question. "Hizashi was in the same foster center that you were when he was a kid, and after today and seeing they haven't changed, he wants to file a police report against Kasumi. Would you want to give a statement and potentially provide evidence?" Tsukare's mind was flooded with different questions and scenarios, not knowing what path to choose. It was up to him but he felt lost and confused.

They sat in silence for a few minutes as he thought, clearly weighing his options diligently and heavily, something both heroes admired, respected but were also concerned about.

I'll do it.

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A few days passed, the heroes wanting to give some time to Tsukare to adjust before meeting Tsukauchi. Thankfully, the young detective is allowing the questioning to happen in the safety of their home rather than the police station or hospital.

"Hi Tsukare, I'm Tsukauchi, it's nice to meet you. Would you rather sign and have one of them interpret, or do you feel comfortable talking?" The young detective asked softly as they sat in the living room. Onryo looked to Aizawa in a way of searching for permission and receiving a singular nod in response.

"I- I'll talk." The three adults smiled softly, proud of the child in front of them.

"Alright, if talking gets to be too much you can switch over to sign whenever you'd like. You call the shots today kiddo, the second you say you're done or you just want a break, we stop. Okay? And is it alright with you if I record this to take back to the station?" Onryo nodded again, consistently using his fidget cube to keep himself grounded. "Alright, so Eraser and Mic have already given me some stuff, they gave me a copy of your file and copies of your medical reports from when you were in the foster center. Can you tell me who was in charge?"

"Kasumi, she's an old lady with grey hair always back in a bun, tiny rectangle glasses, and uh, she had a weird thing with bugs and stuff." His voice was barely above a whisper, keeping his head down so he didn't risk accidentally using his quirk. It only happened if he looked at people he realized.

"That is weird, Tsukare can you tell me how she treated you when you were at the foster center?"

"She didn't like me, if I spoke too much or accidentally used my quirk, she would put a weird thing on my face that held my tongue really tight. Sh-She would let other kids hurt me, sometimes they'd lie and say I used my quirk when I didn't just so she would put the thing on me." Yamada listened to his son intently, similar memories vividly instilled in his brain now repeating while Aizawa held his hand.

"Did it look something like this?" Tsukauchi held up an evidence bag with the muzzle in it, watching Tsukare's reaction. He curled back into the couch with wide, teary eyes, the worst thought coming into mind. He confirmed it with a nod, his breath getting caught in his throat while fear completely consumed him.

I need a break.

Thankfully, while Mic looked away, his husband kept a close eye on their child.

"He needs a break." Tsukauchi nodded and paused the recording device on the table, guilt filling him while he watched the kid panic.

A tear rolled down Tsukare's cheek as he feared getting muzzled again. The detective left the room, giving the new family a moment to recoup before they continued.

"Onryo, hey you're alright." Aizawa tried to soothe him but realized this was a little out of his expertise.

Please don't let him put it on me, dad. I was good, I didn't use my quirk! I promise!

Mic got off the couch and crouched in front of him, hoping that getting on his level would help. Aizawa was too concerned to even notice that one of them was already called 'dad' for the first time.

Hey, hey, hey, little listener, breathe. Nobody is going to put that thing on you ever again. I know it's scary seeing it again, but it'll never be on you again. I promise. So let's breathe, calm down a bit and go from there. Okay? With a sniffle and another tear, Onryo nodded and took a deep, shaky breath.

After half an hour of consoling back rubs, fingers running through topaz curls, and reassuring words, Tsukare was ready to talk again.

"I'm sorry Tsukare, I should've brought a picture rather than the actual thing. Are you feeling alright?" He nodded once, not completely soothed from earlier but still substantially better. "Are you feeling alright to continue?" The kid nodded again, destressing largely with his fidget while Tsuchauchi started recording again. "Okay, would Kasumi do anything else to hurt you?" He slowly nodded his head and swallowed the lump in his throat.

"S-Sometimes she wouldn't let me come out of my bedroom, or I wouldn't be allowed to eat. She w-would always tell me nobody would want me and if other kids hurt me she didn't care. Sometimes she would hurt me, b-but not a lot." Tsukare slid a little closer to Mic, subconsciously finding comfort in the blond.

"And how would they hurt you?"

"One day she was really mad at me and bumped me down the stairs, I broke my ankle. Sometimes she would slap me or kick me. The other kids would hit me more then her though. Some of my old foster parents would use b-belts and stuff." Aizawa grimaced at the thought, memories now resurfacing for him from his own gruesome childhood.

"How old were you when she broke your ankle?"

"Uh, six." Tsukauchi nodded, not quite understanding why the eight year old wouldn't meet his eye but he shrugged it off as general shyness.

"Alright. Thank you, Tsukare. I'm gonna talk to these two in the kitchen for a moment then I'll be out of your hair." The parents followed the detective to the kitchen, both awaiting what his news could be.

"Okay, so everything matches, which is good for the case. The hard part is going to be getting a court mandate because almost none of those kids are of legal age to talk without an adult. I might be able to get her out of there with this alone but I'm not sure. I know you two probably already know this, but he's traumatized. I think you need to get him in with a therapist of some sorts so that he doesn't deal with this on his own. Yes, he has you both now, but that kinda thing he's probably going to try and keep bottled up. By the looks of it, he has anxiety and probably some level of depression, plus what his chart says. He may need to be medicated and I want you two to be prepared, he's going to need a lot of help and a lot of support, and he's already starting to trust you two which is a great sign. So just have patience. I know this is hard, and I know this brought up a lot of old wounds for you both, but there's no doubt in my mind that you two are going to be great parents."

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kinetic-elaboration · 2 years

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May 26: Work Day

Just going to write about my day again tonight because I’m not sure what else I want to talk about. But I do want to get in a shower and then go back to sleep.

I’m supremely exhausted. Which, I know, is the usual. I feel like everyone else is, too, though. I’m bummed about it because I want to do more things with my non-work time, and also, I have a 3-day weekend and I’d rather not spend it just asleep the whole time, trying to catch up.

I can’t even say that my energies have been well spent because I literally did almost nothing today. The law school sent out a survey form that I and at least some other people took way too seriously... spending time both filling it out and discussing it with each other. I am way too prone to complaining. I am trying not to do that anymore. Sometimes I almost succeed and then it sucks me back in again. At any rate, I had some stuff to say. I hope it’s read and lessons are learned but it probably won’t matter in the slightest. But I sure did spend time on it.

I also had a longer than usual TS meeting that was truly all over the place. The future of repository work came up and I got that kinda scary feeling I get when I feel, irrationally, that something is being taken away from me. I’ll barely have to do journals anymore, I guess, which sorta bums me out. I have responsibility for one and then others essentially only “as needed.” Tomorrow I’m giving a lesson on fac pubs and I’m going to try to grab onto as much of that work as possible because I do really like it, it’s my favorite part of repository work, and honestly... it’s a fairly easy carve out for me and it’s something I can do all year round, which seems more in keeping with how repository work is written into my job description. I don’t know. Obviously I’m very worried about this. I’m sure it will work out fine but I’m just... worried. I’ll have to make my case as well as I can for it.

I did some book shifting also, probably the most productive I got all day certainly in a sustained productivity sense. Today’s books were incredibly dusty. I felt like I was scraping the dust off them more than anything else.

Tomorrow is a retirement party for two of my co-worker’s and it came up today that we could bring guests. So I invited B. I hope he can come. I know it’s fairly last minute but it shouldn’t be a problem unless he has, for example, work obligations or something. He said he would check but hasn’t gotten back to me so...yeah, another thing that doesn’t warrant worry but which makes me worried.

I don’t know. I was tired after work so I took a nap and since then I have not done much. I haven’t thought much either. But writing this has brought up thoughts and attendant anxiety. Now I feel more awake than I should and full of circular worries I can’t turn off.

It’ll be fine, though. I kinda give up on this week but I’ll try my best to get stuff done without distractions tomorrow, then I’ll party!! whooo, then I’ll go home and simply be quiet for a while.

#the year 2022 #2022: rl

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only-lonely-lovers · 3 months

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08.24.2022

notes: silly crossover conversation lol? But it devolves into other things... *Shrug!*

Bird is あ / Avvy is つ

つ：[talking about TS nene-chan] she's such a special girl. its like proportional to amane in the opposite direction

あ：Harmonious in this way

つ：the sheer degree of sexless little nerd and so she becomes hypersex everyone feels so shifted on the scales

あ：[brain shrinks more and more every day due to the salt]

つ：twintails whore. special vibe. feels like such a cringe girl

あ：amane's cringe gf

つ：like a true shame of the school in a way. such an interseting nene. so liberated. but still a virgin its rly funny to have so cringe a gf

あ：but youre like FRIENDLESS AND A TECHIE NERD...

つ：i think if normal amane could see this nene he'd like be really scared of her like what…. [becomes frollo]

あ：ah like jesus thats a girl whose gonna grab me by the zipper first thing

つ：i think it would be too scary for the pervert to meet his like equal

あ：he likes being the most sexual one in the room

つ：yes. and good for him. that is what he typically is.

あ：meanwhile so funny to think about hanako seeing himself be such a sexless little virgin itd be like god what is the DEAL.

つ：he'd be like omg no. wtf YOU'RE ALIVE YOU CAN'T BE WASTING IT LIKE THIS

あ：what happened to me

つ：YOUR STUPID ROMOTES

あ：YOU HAVE A HOT BLOODED COCK AND YOURE JUST…

つ：YUO'RE ALIVE, SHE'S ALIVE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!!!!

あ：i think he'd honestly want to kill him

つ：I'M GOING TO KILL YOU

あ：🤝

つ：im gonna toukan koukan

あ：its not fucking fair He has to watch footage of Amane just opening his mouth and Tsukasa shoveling rice into it

oh so THATS WHAT HE'S BUSY DOING!?tf/G.F getting fucking babied all day… KILL YOU

つ：he's out here like pushing tsukasa with his socked foot like tsukasaaaaaa turn on the faaannn…

あ：its wretched

つ：this AU tsukasa seeing hanako: a

あ：poor tsukasa seeing a fucking. nasty dirty amane it's like he has never prepared his whole life for such a thing

つ：if you swapped out amanes i think it'd be a dual problem of like WHAT'D YOU DO TO MY BABY WHERE'D HE GO but also hamina

seeing this creep kabedon nene. stares. anyway uses magic to pull my boy back from the aether at all costs eventually i will be calm when i have both amane… but unfortunately you cannot they will kill eachother

あ：you're literally not ready for him....

つ：NO!!!!!!!!!

absolutely not ready for him. but amusingly i dont know how this one interacts with tsukasa. awkwardly, probably he's like im just here to fuck whore nene

tsukasa sortof like twiddling fingers not needed. staring at you. maybe amane ushers you out of the room [uses magic to get back in but invisibly]

あ：just uhh think of it like, you have the afternoon off. okay? I don't need my food shoveled into me i'm not a mental patient. uhhh…. you just.. [claps hands] dismissed.

つ：blink.

あ：

a little out of it. but you have to worry about your boy TSUKASA experiencing the -- oh my god roachie

つ：well the reality is his amane can't do shit anywhere else so he's in the fetal position in the bathroom

あ：sucking his thumb

つ：he's crying

あ：It's like wahhh i;m havnfin a nightmare where's my animal crackers….

つ：nene trying to come in but the bathroom is locked. he recognizes her voice but he's like still scared i imagine its like [wails] tsukasaaa…. [CRYING BECAUSE HE DOESNT HAVE HIS DRONE]

あ：someone stole all my stuff what if i've been kidnapped

つ：kou's gonna break open the door w his caveman foot and amane is gonna be a disaster

あ：its like OH GOD ITS THE GUY DCON'T COME ANY CLOSER

つ：nene trying to assess but its like ???? hanako ??? hanako-kun???? why are yuo-- dressed-- wh>??? tt-- YOU WANT US TO>?? GET??? TSUKASA????

あ：it's like, he's going to have a panic attack and throw up a litlte bit

つ：he'd recognize kou after a second is the thing. just your classmate though. its like no my classmate was insane?

あ：right it is like. oh god i know him does he know where i live!?

つ：one of them could watch amane while the other runs off to like. shout for. tsukasa like hes somewhere in thia school right thinking tsukasa is somehow. needed. for this

あ：this tsukasa

つ：?????? oh coming out of the broadcast club cluelessly. beig dragged to amane

あ：he summon me

つ：and just. staring. amane like scrambling up to him to grab

あ：⁉

つ：clutch…. hold…. but also like [sobbing sniffing] why aaore [coughs] you dressed so weird

あ：what's happening… is it some………. historical..r ecreation… day!?

つ：[air]

あ：[wind rustling] 1 sense at a time sort of deal. itslike ah. he is warm

つ：…………… pets… pets

あ：smells alive

つ：detecting with my sonar that this is a different amane.

あ：

[vibrating] [can sense your bones]

つ：alive boy….. initiate… coddling mode

nene and kou staring watching like what the fuck is going on why are they hugging whispering

あ：Did something happen

つ：shuld we do something? is hanako crazy

あ：who do we call. tsuchigomori. like! literally who do we defer to. its just like [headache]

つ： you just get very earnest cuddles on the floor at least amane is just like hhuuuuu…

あ：[beleaguered] i barfd…. my tummy hurts………

つ：oh no!! thats not good….

あ：Do you have anything for me...

つ：RUMMAGES IN POCKETS

あ：procures like a horrible eyeball

つ：pulls out. some . things truly some spirit bugs. butterfly wings. string. rubberbands. bubble wrap you know. things. we have. in my kimono sleeves

あ：[just wants like a tums.] 🥺……….. is this like a magic trick…

つ：being like… this is a dream right….. you're different too…. aren't you? sniff…

あ：[dejected] [sinks to the ground]

つ：helpless creature. its ok. your tsukasa will like correct things. he shall pluck you from the air and bring you back i like to think before he sends hanako boy back he takes a second though

あ：You must trust him. he's just fiddling with the technicalities

つ：i like tsukasa getting to look at a more relatively 'independent' boi like. hmmm.❤️ you're interesting…. nice to see. holds you by the jaw

あ：Appraises you like a fine stable horse

つ：mine needs me back…. but… it was nice meeting you.

あ：Hehe......... ❤️

つ：

tsukasa: do you have any questions for me, before you go back….? hanako: what the heck was that back there. with. the-- me. here. for real. what is that. tsukasa: [lying for fun] 🎶we are lovers❤️ BYEEE [THROWS YOU INTO THE PORTAL]

あ：just make hanako turn into a withered husk NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

つ：make hanako return like he just faced the balrhogg

あ：well tsukasa is here.

つ：face down on the bathroom floor oh it'll be like nene and kou rush to him and he's like mngnngh.. [looks around] [SEES TSUKASA] [SCREAMS] FLIES OUT THE WINDOW

あ：

つ：poor nene and kou. they don't benefit. the other nene got like. shmoozed and groped perhaps. i feel like tsukasa wouldn't let him take virginity its like ohh no❤️ thats for MY boy

あ：YOU'RE NOT MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!

つ：GOD HANAKO!!!!! not with that attitude💔

あ：you dont deserve it

つ：nene and kou like. i guess you can. go now tsukasa. he seems. back to normal ?

あ：> poor nene and kou. they don't benefit. the other nene got like. shmoozed and groped perhaps. i feel like tsukasa wouldn't let him take virginity its like ohh no❤️ thats for MY boy

so funny to think about this being interrupted before tsukasa actually has the spell figured out to bring his boy back. like. UHHh hold on there [freeze] [sleeps her]

つ：simply puts it on hold. funny if his magic doesn't work on ghost boy nene just freezes and hanako is like oh shit hell yeah

あ：NOFJDSGDHF

Now I dont have to hold back

つ：SCRUFFS YOU is like-- jkesus [getting the vapors] amane…. now, now……

あ：You should know better….❤️

つ：tsukasa would really have a moment mentally of. [griffin voice] he looks really nice.

あ：[inhales deeply.]

つ：trying to be respectful though. he wouldn't want his boy molested while he was swapped. i must resist

あ：It's like Tsukasa has the eyeballs to drink in your design. the bright red accents that guide you to look at his cock

つ：the only person capable of truly percieving the sex mmmmmred socks… nnnice shiny black shoes….. gold buttons, sakura detailing….

あ：[bites hand.]

つ：you are like sports car. so fancy maybe i can buy amane a gakuran…

あ：temptations. you're like, i wish i could just do it. ahhhhhh but muri muri……………………. but. if the he is so horny you know. AHHH but no no no. my morals

つ：maybe I've earned. one favor from amane, after all this time… when he gets back… perhaps he would try one on for me… maybe

rly goes back and forth for a minute just compulsively its like tsk tsk. weeell. no. mmm.. hehe.. no. ah. its too bad….

あ：Youre trying to not be like. "IF youre so impatient…" [clutches rosary]

つ：this temptressssszzz

あ：this will just be a lesson like. whet the appetite. i want a treat, says tsukasa, for once

つ：its funny but yes. its like ahhmmmm… welllhlhlhl maybe a treat when i have my boy…. i'msure i can find a classic gakuran somewhere…

its . like amane comes back. you know and is like TSUKASA WEEEEEP i had a weird dream… snfsfh ana, a…. you were… there, sortof, you… looked…. different……

tsukasa like… ^^ OOOHHH i had a dream too….! haha… hehe… you were in different clothes, and you acted differently…❤️ isn't that so weird…. ?❤️ I wonder why that would happen…

あ：[completely cluelessly] oh, weird………….. ……………………………. 6.6 ……? because we are twins.

つ：[loves this logic] i guess so…! [KAWAIII] mm really nuzzle and rub my boy….. amane asking for tums….. and tsukasa getting it… simple.

hanako will. be okay. eventually. tsukasa had to release 1 demon into him i was a good boy i did not suck your cock❤️ so i tell little joke you were so rude💔 you can handle it

あ：you deserve a little something. for being so… sexy.

つ：mmmminx

あ：stupid rude sexy boy… at my doorstep…

つ：its funny to imagine tsukasa being like ruined for a bit actually. with desire. hes' not meant to have

あ：🤪im ngh kdfh !!_ ghf

つ：actually does have a dream about 2 amane going at him wakes up like ah. this is bad

あ：😔This is going to distract me………….🥴

つ：the confident body language…… the haughty expression…

あ：I couldn't have dreamed of such a boy, in reality.

つ：the lurid gaze at nene.... the cavalier confidence.... decked outin all black..... hhhhhhh

あ：so toe to tip hansy boy… what's all this flair for….

つ：If He Had Pinned Me And Not Nene I Would Be In Trouble Ha Ha hnnnggh no i belong to this amane…. help

あ：Put in a position to DENY Amane…. for, Amane…….. NO!!! break my brain

つ：oh it would be fucking. aroauruogurhogrugh

あ：But my loyalties

つ：my sexual tension blows up the apartment

あ：starts sweating bullets but if my little boy comes home and im all. FRESHLY FUCKED. no icannot but this is where your brain is trying to be clever like "but ah, if it was both…"

つ：mmngnhhh… ah but its like truly a pipedream💔 that amane……………………….. he didn't seem so interested [thinking about a truly 100% straight amane💔] ah well….. I'm only me. I wonder what his tsukasa is even like….

あ：All fucking titties out

つ：all fucking. luxuriant. a god

あ：nice big skirt. it'd be like oop. 🤔………………..🤐.

つ：like oh sure this tsukasa is a pwoerful wizard. but literally. a God. over there

あ：like oh my. in this world people can just BE weezards

つ：in his finery. when i was looqing into kimono and hakama stuff it was that tsukasa's set-up is really something only common for like shrine maidens and shinto preists …..

あ：melded with a GOD…. maybe that's just what it takes to match THAT Amane

つ：like ohhh god you have your adversary lol… me and my HUMBLE boy. sheesh

あ：We're just in our sweaters

つ：our lil matchies

あ：I truly was not meant to taste this opulance a sip of something with gold leaf in it

つ：if only to peer thru the veil later and see amane cutting open his mouth and fucking his thighs lol

あ：One day looking into my crystal ball

つ：get electrocuted

あ：like as a treat. wonder what that one is doing [struck by lightning]

つ：watching it like an anime occasionally while amane is asleep

あ：Ahhh oh no MY LARGE BOILING FLASK

つ：AAOAOUGOGDFGJFKL!!!! boiled my eyes out gets so horny I throw up

amane watching tsukasa rush to the bathroom and yartz: -FEAR. HAS NEVER SEEN THIS. OH GOD NO- tsukasa. is ill. oh god. oh god no. roachie. oh god. what is this. no. it cant be

あ：no not like this

what a hubris it feels like at the end of this your body is going to feel like its fighting off an infection ahh the ciguatera poisoninggg

つ：i have tampered. with dark magics and i have. been burned

あ：[is like. crying on the bathroom floor]

つ：i can't cope with having seen such a brutally. hot thin. g indeed poor amane this is horrifying for him seeing tsukasa like this

あ：all the manuscripts warned me.. literally

つ：literally i was told to not dark knowledge.. why did i think. i was above it i've been filled with the crazy urge to be stabbed…. ohhhhhh I NEED TO BLANK MY OWN MEMORRRRYYYYY

あ：ITS THE ONLY WAY

つ：THE TIME HAS COME I HAVE TO DO THIS

あ：I cant live life wanting to be stabbed

つ：I KNEW IT WOULD COME. i cannot. be trusted with this… desire and all my. powers i cannot…. i am too powerful to want something this badly

あ：There's a gd timer ticking down

つ：ineed to hurry. before something takes HOLD i was not meant to have this sort of desire it isj ust like… i'm sorry… amane……💔 freezes you💔

such a dramatic scene of like getting his shit ready to wipe it out but shaking hands and stopping and starting like mgmghmgnhgmmhn no maybe i cccc. maybe i can rrresist… noooo NO

あ：the goofy movie devil red lighting

つ：can't i just have one thing . [dark evil voice] once…. NO

あ：stages of grief. oh bargaining. ahhh but i just want to have this memory inside of me please

つ：pleeaakse the peace of knowing there is a version of me that would beg amane while being cut open AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

あ：ohhhh what if im good…. don't take the mental image from me its the most beautiful image i have ever seen

つ：I KNOW HE COULD DO ANYTHING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOWWWW!!! SLAMS FIST ON THE GROUND

あ：OHH like a bandaid Tsukasa COME ON But this is one of thos emoments where its like why did i trust myself to be the wielder of all this with no one keeping me in check😩

つ：I need some checks and balances…… sigh

あ：ughhh…. BORIng………!!!!!!

つ：..maybe I should finally….. tell Amane……

あ：time to get all wistful

つ：i should finally… tell amane….. about… my magics…. and i should….. give him the power….. to stop me…. [gets horny] hmm. yes this is the right course of action [thinks] wait no. is it?

あ：Now that is doing it right!

つ：NO i was supposed to blank my. memory. …. well, maybe I can do both? I'll write a note… to myself

あ：Yes. ah…. okay.

つ：saying…. tsukasa. you've made the choice to share your secrets with Amane. you need him to hold his own power over you. you need a system for this.

You've just removed something important from your memory. Trust me, it was imperative. It really was. And what that thing was, taught you that this is the next necessary step.

You can never know what it was, but you must hand Amane some sort of tool. You cannot be trusted. You're not infallible. You are weak to things.

あ：There was a draft of this that was like. you saw something far too. incredible-- no. crumples paper

つ：disappears paper

あ：this is like trying to make warnings for radioactivity in the future

つ：it is like that SOOOOO AMAZING SOOOO MIND NUMBINGLY DELICIOUIS

あ：Something that would ruin you foreve You stupid… slut

つ：why can't we just be normal what, can't just walk back fromgm,, seenig amanegm sssztab us>?

あ：Be normal. be normla for once in your life tsukasa… OOHH

つ：mgr,gthm…. hhover abov us pinning….

あ：ahh the perspective… [thinking about it through 1st person POV]

つ：whiels we….. wiggle and plead…,. eagelr,, for mor legs give out

あ：It would be so good to beg.

つ：WHINEs OOOHHHHHHH!!!! stupid. fuckgin

あ：Whjy did you get so distracted conjuring porn in your large boiling flask [has a psychotic break]

つ：fkl;gkfld;hdklh [nakamura screaming over and over above takao but its tsukasa]

あ：[blurred from motion]

つ：Anyway tsukasa waking up on the floor having erased it reading the note is just like ….🎶things have gotten so interesting…!

Aha, okay…. if it was really so severe. I must have meant it. There is evidence all around of a struggle… his hair and clothes unkempt, pulled at… things strewn about. Looks like I really wrestled myself down.

あ：Its funny to wake up like. Tehe. it seems i. went somewhere i shouldnt. well! i must have really been out of my depth if I can no longer be trusted with my own secret… ^w^ … onwards…

つ：A lesson was learned🎶

あ：If I have decided to trust Amane… then I will ❤ But its like smacks lips. idk its not as worrisome as you'd think. somehow amane havijg the control is like………. yes ❤ aw well… it can be lonely you know.

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つ：Anyway. This is all funny actually bc I think at the end of this all amane is given essentially a word command which trigger shuts off Tsukasa’s powers at will and offers him complete control and tsukasa cannot reverse it like he sets it up to be very simple and easy for amane. But then Amane has this in his brain and one day tsukasa is just like finishing a paper or some shit and amane gets to do “stop the post.” But extremely manually and tsukasa is like .

Like . Well I can’t do anything about him just using it now can I. Can’t argue back like “amane that’s not quite what I had in mind…” because it’s …. interesting he is thinking about it AND it’s good he get in the habit of using it… then he won’t be hesitant in the future

It’s good to get accustomed to it casually first really… oh yeah I was also thinking it like compels tsukasa briefly for the first command said. It’s a whole system he rigged to BUT REALLY give amane reigns even despite Tsukasa’s powers

あ：You gave your spoiled toddler the master key unfortunately

つ：I do whatever you’ve said and then they’re gone until you permit them back. Yeah The end result is the spoiled brat has power to compel you

あ：Amane wants mac and cheese NOW!!!

つ：Some day Amane just like. It only compels you for a little, right? And it’s like mhm. Why? Make it longer What if I need you to do more things than one or two

あ：tsukasa coughing like he has black mold in lungs: ahah…. i guess you're right…

つ：That could happen. Hakk Why do I feel an ominous sense of danger…

あ：Somehow this isnt… Safer feeling…❤️‍🔥

つ：Surely isn’t what my past self had in mind

あ：This is like going to teach Amane to have even less tolerance for things than he already does

つ：It is scary and overwhelming but as well like paaants woof Indeed no more seconds of delay

あ：But also i feel like a side effect is whwn Amane is entirely alone its like mghgg… I HATE BEING ALONE!!!! (throws shit) I dont want to tolerate anything anymore [kicks desk] god the stupid tyrant boyking particle simply alive and well

Idk where this terminates but i do think you set Amane up for a real tantrum any day he is just like fed up w everything… i think the most paltry use case would be one day just realizing he can make Tsukasa say specific things and it's like a day you want to just hear something said aloud. like mghhhh tell me i dont have to go to school tomorrow…. like oh just say the words to me

つ：It’s like whoa. Scary to feel the compel make him talk….

あ：(insecure) Tell me you always want to take care of me

つ：PAIN

あ：must feel weird

つ：almost sad to feel the compelling take over like NOOO LET ME SAY IT WITH MY OWN BRAIN AAAAAA

あ：NO BABY JUST ASK!!!!! XU!!!!!

つ：OF COURSE I WIULD ALWAYS SAY SUCH A THING!!!!!! Well the spell doesn’t make me do flourishes I can make sure I say I will always want to take care of you directly in your ear….

あ：must embellish shudders dramatically it's like wait. keep going

つ：What are we doiinnggg💞 I love taking care of you….

あ：[grips your sweater]

つ：I would never want to do anything else. Nothing else is as important…. If this was the only thing left, that would be all that I need

あ：[reduced] … really.

つ：Of course❤️

あ：hueeee….. simmers

つ：This is all any of it is for….

あ：baby needs to hear it. the soothe.

つ：I only want you to be happy. Anything that makes you happy, Amane….

あ：[nods while tucked against]

つ：That’s all I’m ever really trying to do.

あ：… I like that. About you.

つ：Melts

あ：…… I like that it feels… like you're never thinking about anyone else…

つ：Mmmmmmmmmm

あ：👉👈

つ：Screeeee

あ：It's ummm easy. everything else is hard…

つ：You wouldn’t like me tied up in too much else…..

あ：[grips] NO. nooo never ever never.

つ：Heehee….

あ：Don't ever get tied up !!! In other stuff-!!!

つ：Okaaaay❤️ you know I have to do whatever you say…..<3

あ：u…………. yes.

つ：I think the compelling spell is taking me over… maybe magic can get worse, like a virus….❤️

あ：Really.

つ：I think soon, I’ll do anything you say, always, no matter what.

あ：Oh……. ………………

つ：(Not really but he’s so cute I need to make it true xD)

あ：fucking… experiences tongue lolling emotion actually??? looks like. normal hanako for a second its like hm….. …. i like…. the sound of that I hope you get sick.

つ：Ah, you do…..? Ah.

あ：It would be fun.

つ：it would.

あ：n_n …🎶

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つ：I was idly reflecting upon the AU tsukasa rly seeing the normal hanako like a fucked up sex beast It’s just funny for someone to look at hanako like ahhnnng…? Sex BOY

あ：He has wandered there mentally now and again. it is still like… stimulating conceptually it is just funny for someone to be able to perceive the whole look & demeanor as accostingly sexual like jesus…

つ：Nene and tsukasa are just young and innocent in canon Nobody mature looks at hanako

あ：They look at their guy and their little peanuts like vibrate but it can't be so conscious

It's like if Tsukasa wasn't. stunted by such crazy events. and his Amane is so humble that fanciful boy with all his embellishments. gold buttons and whatnot. is just like [tilts down sunglasses] but like the thought of. managing to get your dweeby amane ina gakuran is a funny step 2 like. some real octavius rex shit

つ：We respond unconsciously to it

あ：all done up. but like Meep.

つ：Maybe you put him in the gakuran actually and he’s like damn I feel hot

あ：I think once he looks at his reflection he will feel it actually

つ：Sticks tongue out

あ：but i like to think the first few seconds are like [clueless]

つ：Why did tsukasa want me to try this…. Stands in mirror. Oh hey

あ：Stares Turns around hmmm… [grasps brim of hat] Uah. cool. it looks cool

つ：Kakkoi

あ：kakkoi na....

つ：He is a lame little guy he can simply find it edgy

あ：All black…

つ：Tsukasa, you really just had a dream I wore this? No mouth looking at Amane

あ：Tsukasa in after school hanako kun like 👉👈 about the tea set

Amane is just muttering, wish I could've seen your dream now… sounds fun Does a stretch sits down on a surface and kicks leggies

つ：Hnnnbgngg

あ：If only our uniforms were so stylish we could match.

つ：(Rudely) it wouldn’t really suit you though…. (Amane thinking) you know in.. my…. (chooses to bury immediately) nvm Don’t wanna think about the tsukasa I dreamed about actually

あ：lmao rude… but yes forced to dwell like ah he was ina different……… wait.. nevermind. You cant even begin to crystalize the thought of Tsukasa wearing fanciful pleated things

つ：Like THIS tsukasa? Lol….

あ：She would be interesting

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あ：Fsr this is like a train of thought I've been having like, half-formed before bed for a few days, it's just arbitrarily picking up a sort of "in media res" situation between AU yugi8, where Tsukasa has already set up Amane to get laid and this is the circumstance etc. and Nene is just on the wild ride. The first time Amane puts it in there's this completely wordless acceptance about him finishing inside like. I mean there would be no negotiating it, he's holding Nene extremely tightly in place and buries himself as deeply as possible before doing it. Tsukasa like doesnt, care, because its like [internally] I will just make Nene-chan infertile it's fine. [dismissive] … but it's funny bc Nene herself is also like 💭 it's fine i'll. find a spell. her. what-EVER. everyone's just like swallowing this down whatever. except Amane really who isnt having a single solitary thought about any consequence.

… no one in the situation is really prone to thinking about meaningful consequences of nut inside (not a braincell between you all wrt this stuff) but BUT, I think Nene could feel a way about… like… what the gesture itself means coming from Amane… like, even if it doesn't scare her, I think the subsequent instances of being nutted in will make her a little more "." …. quietly thinking about this… in the simple sense of, 'ah… Amane-kun really doesn't… think he ought to, ask or, anything, d-does he…' It's kind of scary lol, he's so serious during sex each time actually, and she's already seeing a degree of ehm. Passion. that hasn't existed elsewhere. She's been totally flipped on and ensnared and this is crazy and all. Scary. but like //// i mean accepts. Oh I'll do whatever I have to. [gets on all fours]

and like in general thinking about Nene having to really load in. digest. Amane's selfishness. really feeling like a piece of meat. It's the complete lack of conversations or asking if things are OK before doing them

つ：the charm of amane being the Normal Boy and therefor you read his actions like he's just normal, not aware you have an extra layer of relative control due to magic and don't face mundane problems so much….

あ：Uhuh. like from HIS perspective…

つ：Amane-- in all realities. shall never even be a pull-out king, much less a condoms boy. he's so far from it. he's far too indulgent of a person….

あ：Not gonna do it. and not going to open a dialogue about how you feel about it

つ：its funny, most boys (especially shy ones) are like aahh no wait not my… gross come in your mouth… tries to pull out…. but Amane will definitely just shove to the back and come down your throat. he is not thinking about it

あ：it's just like, baseline, this is the sex we are having pulls her forward by the hair as he does it

つ：in the moment he is only: FEELS GOOD FOR ME

あ：it's like OH GOD I NEED IT DEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!! not going to compromise even a fraction of it w but this is a Nene that can really appreciate being reduced to like her pussy . SUPREMELY OBJECTIFIED….

つ：I think Amane's problem in all realities is this inability to resist a vice

あ：a sort of negative self control base stat

つ：deep down all nene are down to be reduced this one just. will have less of a crisis about processing it and already knows she is a skank

あ：simply leaning into it. oh let the bodies hit th flor I think his rudeness is just stunning but in a way that leaves you fascinated. like finally Amane has some gumption to pull you both out of the middle of class but its because want to fuck. in a closet or something. and it's like jesus….

i think a lot about the scene in oyasumi punpun where aiko is liek nnno my period… [stopping hand] but this just means it fluidly transitions to a blowjob I really imagine its like. this kind of wordlessness

つ：its like oh i see. [changes course]

あ：if its like ohghmh fh im sore…. its like blink. okay.. [tugs down]

つ：mouth is fine tho

あ：nothing wrong with that [still unzipped and all]

Tsukasa lauds her graciousness with it all. nene-chan… faito

つ：he's like awe what a good girlie… I thinkt his is waht canon tsukasa feels about nene too, really! like just pleased with her gumption and her commitment! its all like… ah you really DO like Amane❤️

あ：i think the funniest circumstance is one though where Nene is like doing small spells to like do basically a plan b style kill da sperm. but Tsukasa has wordlessly made her barren

つ：I already have everything set in place girl its funny if she can actually notice this. and then later tsukasa is just like grin❤️ [FEELS.. VIOLATED. BUT FINE]

あ：winks its the most unchill thing ever liek you know how the world generally regards fertility

つ：its like lol you cannot entrap my prince a moment nene is just like … aware even if she was insane and wanted something. tsukasa is the. more potent wizard so. m

あ：😜 tsukasa is like. the ref. like.💔 I'm sorry. but my baby doesn't need that stress He'd just get all nervous. poor thing. Our priority is Amane… naturally.

つ：she's gotta submit .. it is… probably a good thing amane has tsuaksa there… if it was another girl, you know… someone ah, crazy in a different way… well, you can see how amane is. vulnerable

あ：

I think in moments like this Nene feels quietly put in her place. not like it's what Tsukasa is trying to do, its just that, sometimes you can forget there is this element going on and then you are reminded and it's like "ah…." 🙇‍♀️…

other things i thought about briefly was like. well in general this Amane confronting urges like, in real time with himself, this whole forray is such a case of activating sleeper cells. that i like the thought of not even meaning to, but being a lot rougher with Tsukasa one day, and this entrances everyone in the room to witness.. like it's a first time thing. we've gotten acclimated to Amane being kind of uncouth and rough from sheer eagerness, but not with like, something as pointed and unprompted as just grabbing Tsuaksa by the throat while he was speaking. not even saying something he didn't like -- i mean, if anything, saying something he really liked…… it's like everyone goes quiet because of how different the energy got. for a second. but it's like flying too close to the sun for a sec and amane releases while feeling mystified like… 6.6

?? ………… ?? [guy who doesnt watch porn voice] what the…

つ：Amane who is usually not… stopped by anything. and tsukasa as well is not typically altered in expression-- ah I feel like.. nene typically in fleeting moments during sex with Amane… looks around the room, and, it feels like tsukasa is a static figure-- just with a ^^ expression always, pleasant and watching. you fade in and out, you sometimes forget he's there, you sometimes are so focused on amane….. but when he fades into view, he's never any different, whatever is happening-- however rough or easy amane is being

あ：The baseline serenity this Tsukasa kind of maintains

つ：I think it adds something… mm I think she'd actually… come to like this… feeling, subconciously, of being the 'disadvantaged' one… once she completely understands how Tsukasa is with Amane… you know that… if Amane wanted to do something… anything… Tsukasa would not stop him. He would stop you, from stopping him.

she could fight Amane 1 on 1, she has magic as a trump card, as well as Amane not being-- er--strong or particularly capable physically, she's squirrely and wiley and somewhat trained in self-defense as a witch… and yet, that sort of proactivenss about her safety… doesn't mean anything if Tsukasa is here

but subconciously that feels…. good. feels good to be bottom rung you sortof… dont know about your own, fetishes

but it would be a little sad to be able to overpower amane objectively. this nene is a self-possessed person, she has skills and confidence and is a skank, she is liberated….. but that's not her true heart's desire, to be Amane's cool witch gf

あ：One couldn't even say Tsukasa "balances" things as much as he completely skews things entirely in Amane's favor only. This isn't like things even out 50/50, it's… more like all points get put in Amane's basket. Perhaps before this Nene thought Tsukasa was more self-motivated and wanton, doing things for his own sake, and not afraid to string along his brother. futsu little Amane. but in reality all of Tsukasa's whims are like irrelevant in the face of whatever Amane desires. and… in reality, most of his magic, attention, effort, revolves around Amane.

I like that one has to think of Tsukasa as clever in this world, there's no other way to word it. like 5 steps ahead of you and totally disaffected by anything you pull. just like hehe ^^ cute of you. … you know if anything happened, he'd have a better reaction time than you ever could

the sheer loyalty also means there's just 0 hesitation about anything. this is someone who would disregard your autonomy to any degree in an instance. if it is what Amane wanted.

… but idk i think it must be interesting to be aware of all of this… but also know there's no ill intent towards you he does like you

つ：he has the world's most pristine sublimation of flight or fight reflex and can think on the fly and it will be all means be in Amane's favor every time so 'trying anything' is only asking for yourself to get dunked

あ：You cannot fight it sometimes i think the optics are kind of cute, it slike…….. in truth………………….. tsukasa is like the "familiar"……… but being a slave to someone who has no magic skills and doesnt even know you do magic. idk it all seems so cerebral doesnt it like damn tsukasa

つ：I wish Nene in canon could. like understand this is also her circumstance you know

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