#since this post is now getting notes I will specify I am aware that it’s gumshoe throwing the confetti according to the official comic

[wrightandco]

the confetti for a not guilty verdict is actually the funniest fucking thing about ace attorney

it’s like they inherently know their system is fucked to the to the extent that they’ve got the celebration confetti at the ready when they don’t wrongfully incarcerate someone

edgeworth never lost a trial until he faced phoenix wright so the confetti goes off and he’s probably like what the fuck ppfthh pffth phhh that last bit is him spitting the confetti out of his mouth

#ace attorney #glitter conspiracy solved the world’s largest buyer of glitter is the japanafornia legal system #since this post is now getting notes I will specify I am aware that it’s gumshoe throwing the confetti according to the official comic #I just think it’s much funnier that the actual game implies it’s a feature of the court room #and explain how apollo gets confetti then #I gotta commit to the bit

[kalims]

Hi, there! :D

I don't know if my request will be taken into account but you mentioned that it's okay to try.

I am not throwin' away my shot >:D (sorry my indoor theater kid comes out from time to time)

Type: Headcanons

Reader: Neutral

Scenary: The NCR boys see that a student from Noble Bell College or RSA who has been trying to flirt with the prefect, in a bold move steals the prefect's (first) kiss. How would they react and what would they feel?

I feel like it would be a rollercoaster of occurrences and complete chaos in NCR xD

If my request does not convince you, you can discard it without problems, but if not, take your time and without pressure, thank you 💐🌼✨👍✍️I love your TWST fics they always make me smile .

whisk away

premise. despite your many efforts of evading your seeming admirer, they remain persistent in their pursuit. you've considered just leaving them in the dust without an explanation whatsoever but you're too stunned to process the fact that they've just kissed you without a warning. next thing you know there's a murderous aura approaching.

characters. silver, jade, deuce, kalim, vil

note. you didn't really specify which characters jhshs so I took the liberty of scouring your blog and just put the ones you seem to like ^^ and I kid you not, used a wheel for the other 2 lol (so sorry, was gonna post this earlier but got busy since presentations came up so I only finished now.)

silver

has a mixture of shock and anger. which is mostly for your sake honestly, he wasn't gonna intervene cause he felt like you would wanna deal with it on your own so he feels the absolute mortification slipping into his bones. if he wasn't fully awake, then he definitely is now!

fully ready to talk some sense into that idiot who has no sense of space, hello?

last time he knew, you weren't really dating anyone. silver would know if you did, cause you both talk practically everyday and a lover would be something he should be aware of... unless you didn't talk? I mean, who else would just kiss you like that?

someone unpleasant. he decides. one look at your face and he knows immediately that it wasn't something you expected as well.

just pulls up with a rare look of anger directed to the student, brows furrowed, shoulders tense and all. everyone's used to the serene, calm look on his features so seeing him look so different probably put off said student so they scampered after a promise made by silver if they dared to stick around.

"leave, or find out what happens if you don't."

gone is the anger *poof* and is fretting over you now. are you okay? do you want him to knock some sense into that idiot? literally tell him anything, order him to do anything, and he'll do it (within reason) my guy is just here for your sake tbh.

kinda gloomy cause damn, that was your first? he wanted both of yours to be first and some grade a hole just decided to shatter all that. it makes him all the more irritated so if he can't have your first kiss, he'll just take your second, and every single other kiss you'll give.

jade

take the murderous aura and multiply it tenfold!!

jade doesn't really need to reach you and make his presence known by a few words cause it seems like everyone but you within 10 feet radius of him is sensing the murderous aura he's emitting. if it's not feeling that, then it's seeing the eery dark smile present on his face.

and he seems to be having a death march towards a specific direction so everybody knows where to avoid atleast. cause it seems like anyone on his path is gonna get trampled and no one likes a messy hall.

student in front of you pales, deluding themselves that maybe he's just heading somewhere behind them to vent out that rage or something but they glance behind and almost piss their pants when there is in fact, no one present near anywhere and he's getting closer.

so... they wanted to live so they just bolted out. an experience with one of the tweels won't be good news, and if jade is the one who has them in his sights... they'll take the head start thank you very much.

with the students face memorized and tucked into a corner of his mind he smiles almost innocently at you when you spot him and strike the most casual of conversation.

well, that's under the guise atleast. he's shooting you subtle questions about that person to which you reply innocently. oblivious to the grave you're digging for them yourself.

oddly enough jade started being strangely affectionate, a hand on the small of your back, maybe on your shoulder, arm, or a pat on your head as gratitude. but he seems to like kissing the back of your hand a lot...

*turns his head in their direction after kissing your hand*

deuce

I'll be perfectly honest. he doesn't really have much of an impact in terms of the intense aura that should have been felt. he looks a normal degree of angry, that's why the person hasn't gotten chased off even with the clear signs that deuce will be swinging a fist at probes.

unfortunate that's exactly what the person does. despite your clear reaction of disgust they still use you to rile up deuce. cooing at him while reaching for you, and chuckling about how they didn’t even know him, nor is it any of his business to interfere between two... lovers?

oh so they wanted to impact? they're gonna get one right now 👊 since it seems like they want to get to know him so bad they can get well acquainted with his fists, you know?

he made a promise to himself not to get involved with these type of mishaps! or at the very least resort to more peaceful methods than using violence as a sort of communication. the guilt eats him up a little but he thinks he'd never stand for someone who would disrespect you so blatantly!

almost comically, he looks like he spouts a pair of ears that of a dog's and turns to you. looking more apologetic compared to the fiery look he had a second ago, if he had a tail it would be tucked between his legs out of shame or something.

"I'm really sorry," he says. sulking. deuce apologizes to you, not for his choice of knocking out this random in the middle of the street but because of the fact that he did it in front of you. (also he's kinda jealous...)

if asked, he can, and WILL do it again.

don't blame him though! discreetly whisks you away to grab a bite. having literally no regards to the body looking like it's soul got knocked out laying, and looking out of place on the ground. maybe someone will check on them but definitely not him, they deserve it!

kalim

gasps loudly. "noooo!"

which is like a public proclamation that seeing that did everything but please him. which also means he's basically admitting he's jealous in an indirect way, might as well just say he likes you or something (he probably will if asked because he thinks it's nothing worthy of hiding.)

bounds up to you asking who that is quite loudly to the point where it would seem like he just stumbled upon you cheating on him. it doesn't help that he actually looks sad, teary and all. jamil is off, having paused in his trail since he was previously chasing the boy who ran off.

now he isn’t sure if he wants to get involved now. this is so embarrassing.

lowkey other student would just look back and forth to you, then to kalim. the latter in question unintentionally ignored his existence to be honest, since he was too busy shaking your shoulders and probing the answer of you.

"why would you kiss a stranger...?" he trails off, you did answer. kalim is genuinely wondering to himself if it was that easy cause damn, he scratches his head. that made no sense (says the guy who is making no sense.)

he makes it so obvious that he's pondering with the finger under his chin, eyes lost pointed at the air and the unnecessary loud humming... at this point the atmosphere became more awkward because you and the student is staring at him in bewilderment.

drag him off please, and explain it to him elsewhere. public is NOT a good place. so instead of him saving you out of a situation like this, you save him? talk about being built different...

vil

what in the sevens... he surely hopes his eyes are working correctly lest he needs contact lens, or glasses for that matter. either way he'll positively be as beautiful as he ever was.

although he's very pleased that someone notices the extent of your beauty, there are... other ways to express fondness admiration for you, and vil just can't respect someone who doesn't seem to have any shame for themselves for pressing on boundaries.

so this... fool clearly is a mere taint on your image!!! rid of them immediately! you needn't dirty your pretty mouth, rook does love cleansing the world of dirt like them so it's for the better good if they just never dare to appear to your face ever again.

what better way to hurt someone than aim for their pride? *trash talks so good about their attitude that they actually be pondering their life choices*

don't get him wrong. he doesn't like them, like at all. vil can full well do more damage by nit picking details about them they probably aren't even aware of but he'd never willingly give another person a reason to be insecure about themselves, even if they did terrible things.

plus, there's better ways to teach someone a lesson. they'll learn.

who wouldn’t be scared of an angry vil? they scampered away pretty quickly from a few words, even quicker when he mentioned rook but it's their problem to be paranoid whether the hunter is following them or not to be honest.

frets over you right after. living the dream.

#ㅤ◜◡◝ . . signed ! #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland #twst #twst fluff #twisted wonderland imagines #twisted wonderland headcanons #twisted wonderland scenarios #silver x reader #twst silver x reader #jade leech x reader #jade x reader #deuce spade x reader #deuce x reader #kalim al asim x reader #kalim x reader #vil schoenheit x reader #vil x reader #x gn reader

[onelocket]

hello!!

i hope you’re having a nice day, whether you’re back or still not back. though i would like to ask, when you can, can you please do another of your selective mute reader x fyodor? but selective mute reader is upset and sad since i myself am hsjejhehe.. i’d like it in headcanon form but do what you’re comfy with!! — your new 💫 anon

hello 💫 anon! i’m actually still conflicted with returning or not since i still have entrance exams, but when i saw this i just had to reply right away. i’m glad you’ve found fondness to my selective reader x fyodor and i hope this post can make you feel at least a bit better. you didn’t specify much, so i wish nothing here offends you. thank you for requesting ♡

your lover needs a hug! fyodor d. x selective mute!reader

involves -- relation to this post, high school au

headcanons

The moment he saw you that one afternoon,

All down and low, a hand pressed against the classroom’s glass? It sure caught his attention more than he initiated it. He was simply walking by after returning a few books to the school’s library, but this wouldn’t be the first time he’s seen a glimpse of you suddenly all gloomy. Fyodor is always able to catch your presence even in the quietest and emptiest of rooms.

"(Name)." Fyodor spoke quietly as he picked his limit to his words. He slowly glides the sliding door shut, trapping you both in a more private situation. But before he steps any further, he knocks on the door to alert you again — "…It’s me."

Well supposedly, you should knock first before entering. Fyodor knew that enough, but part of his heart just couldn’t shake the worry to walk into the picture as agile as he could, no matter how many times this would happen. So can he be blamed, really? It’d be a discomfort to see your lover all sad about something you know they won’t be able to voice out.

A side the same, but a bit nicer now

He wouldn’t want to pressure you, that’s something all can agree to. If you were anybody else then perhaps he might consider the fleeting amusement to your vulnerability — but you weren’t. And he was going to make sure you knew that.

"Come here." He whispered, taking a few calculated steps to your direction as he stopped at a smaller distance.

He was undeniably trying to get you out of the easy view anyone can take of in the window, but as he sees you thoughtless, he’d just let out a small sigh before taking his words for himself rather than repeating it. Normally would he find it slightly irritating, especially since he asks the same thing each time you did so by a window; or anywhere public really, but he knows being mad at you wouldn’t help it go away.

He kind of already knows what would’ve bothered you…

Because you are his important person, simply put. He wouldn’t have to require you to inform him what happened, even if it was something nobody else knew at all. Not to say he’s always aware of what’s specifically bothering you, but he will have an idea — a guess or two.

"It’s okay.." Fyodor says, his own school uniform making a quiet shifting sound to turn your attention to him slightly, his hands gesturing an ask for holding you.

When you allow him, he takes it as slowly as he can, wrapping his arms around your waist as he gave you a tiny smile. "You don’t have to do anything. I know what happened."

He wouldn’t also mind if you did talk about it though. Whether it be with notes or sign language. Bonus if it was your voice, but hey, he would never force you about that, allowing yourself to be assured by the facts that you weren’t required to talk. Your presence was to suffice.

Quiet whispers and gentle kisses

If there’s one thing he wouldn’t forget during the act of comforting you, it’d be kisses and sweet whispers. Public or not, Fyodor would try to give you at least a soft kiss. He’ll tuck a few strands of hair away from your face as he gives you kisses on your forehead, keeping his fingertips light and graceful — whispering you some questions that might aid you in calming you down.

"Would you like me to excuse us to our last period, milaya?" He suggests, to which you deny by slightly, and albeit reluctantly, shaking your head. ..Alright. I love you."

In amidst the silence would he warm it up with his touch, the seconds elongating into minutes as you also denied the realization of this moment to end. His soft whispers in your ears to ease and soothe you down were always his path to calm you, but if you didn’t feel like it, Fyodor always has his physical touch to help out as well.

Your acceptance to his hold would be enough

Since if you can’t find a reply through words, your actions fulfill the Dostoevsky more instead. Your body turning to face him would be one of his favorite things to see or feel if he was holding you, especially when your hands submit to take or press against his skin.

"There you are." He cooed, pressing another kiss on your forehead before pulling away, keeping the proximity intimate and comfortable. "Look at me, (Name)?"

"..Lovely. You’re so lovely."

Sometimes he asks you to look at him, and although it is also to let himself indulge in the pretty sight of your eyes; it was also to read your expression better. He’ll admit that you never speaking had its own ways for him to understand you, but it was never going to be difficult for him anyway. Nothing will be, especially when it’s for you.

If you’re crying, he’ll let you

Besides, what kind of boyfriend doesn’t? If he was holding you as you cried, he’d subtly tighten his grip on you, a careful expression on his features as he listened to your sobs, holding you close to him without a care now if people saw you two from the window.

"You’re fine now. Stay with me and you’ll be safe, okay? Let it out."

While it’s not easy to deny that he could be a bit irritated by the damp spots you could leave on his uniform, he could always wash them after class. His uniform has an easy fix anytime, meanwhile you always had a chance to lose that fix. And he wasn’t going to let it slip away.

If anyone walks inside the classroom?

Fyodor would just stare at them. Usually only when you aren’t looking into his eyes, though. Let’s say, perhaps you’ve had your head resting on his shoulder. The moment somebody takes a longer stare at you two more than should be — your boyfriend would simply stare back, his purple eyes almost threatening its own mind to glare, but kept his calm and quiet as he held you. He’d keep staring till that persons gone, to which, usually is the resort to his wordless reply.

Above all, you are his priority ^^

Whether the issue be something big or small, if it affected you this much for it to be involving itself in class hours, Fyodor will always be there for you. To him, having a lover like you is so endearing and special, like he has to protect you with what he has. And he pretty much does what he’s thinking of. Need for his touch? Need for his words? He’ll know, and he’ll give it with as much emotion as you could handle from him.

⚘

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[dragoncxv360]

Aight, makin a new pinned post

I'm sorry for the lack of image IDs on most of my art, I just don't really have the spoons to write them most of the time

Any nsfw posts will now go on a sideblog. Suggestive stuff will still go here (with tags of course)

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You can find my art on here under the tags my art or ellery's art

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Update 2/7/24, asks are going to be off until further notice because of the fucking spam bots

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Info post on my security sun au

Info post on You're Everything I'm Not

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Making fanart of my aus and/or ocs/stories is totally ok, just please keep it sfw and free of heavy gore. I am aware my fics and/or art often includes such topics but I'm not currently comfortable with other people drawing those things for me. If you would like more specific rules for my characters, you can check my artfight

If you are heavily inspired by my story/stories for one of your own fics (by heavily inspired I don't mean stuff like wanting to write a genderfluid Sun too or even wanting to write a fic with a similar plot such as a fic with Sun dying and Moon dealing with the grief of that loss, I mean stuff that copies multiple and very specific aspects of my stories) please send an ask or a dm to me, I'd be happy to discuss what is and isn't comfortable so that we can work something out. Please note though that I may say something is too heavily inspired to be comfortable for me. I'd most likely be happy to help give you pointers on changes you can make so it's comfortable for me though.

Fics are listed in the order they’ve been posted (based on the first chapter for multichapter fics). Please look to ao3 for reference to which au each fic belongs to and what order they’re in (they’re listed in chronological order unless specified otherwise but you don’t need to read them in that order or read all the fics in the series)

Blood and Oil

Explicit

Major character death, graphic depictions of violence

Sun x Moon (past, sort of), Moon x Monty (there are other background ships but these are the main ones)

Incomplete, ongoing

This fic deals with or eventually will deal with: death, murder, grief, ptsd, trauma, nightmares, hallucinations, self harm, dissisociation, and toxic relationships and coping habits. It will also deal with sex and sexual themes, including sexual hallucinations. While this fic will deal with complicated feelings around sex and self worth in relation to sex, it will NOT deal with rape/non con. Please use caution when reading this story

Moon is patrolling one night when he comes across an intruder with more violent intentions. Things go downhill fast and just when he thinks he's going to die and this is the end, Sun sacrifices herself and saves Moon. Now left in a world without his lifelong partner and other half, Moon must figure out how to survive alone.

Good Girl

Explicit

No archive warnings apply

Sun x Moon, Sun x Moon x Monty

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 5,081

Sun accidentally calls Moon a good girl during daycare hours and Moon likes it more than he thought he would

Don't Cry, Firefly

Explicit

No archieve warnings apply

Sun x Moon

Complete, 3/3 chapters

Wordcount: 10,904

He felt his face heat up as he realized what was going on. He was about to walk away to give Sun some privacy when he heard them whimper, "M-Moonlight, I need you."

Moon froze. It wasn't the first time he'd walked in on Sun masturbating, but it was the first time he'd ever heard them say his name during it.

Claws and Teeth

Explicit

No archive warnings apply

Sundrop x Moondrop x Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 4,447

Eclipse couldn't believe how he'd ended up in this position. Everything had started as a normal night with his partners, watching a movie and playing games, and now they were making out with him on the couch and biting him.

Eclipse has a fun night with his partners in a role he doesn't normally take, the sub

Stitch Me Up

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 1,565

After being sent to the hospital for a bad panic attack that resulted in self harm, Nova comforts Eclipse with some soft sex

This fic mentions depression, anxiety, and self harm. Please don’t read it if you are sensitive to those topics

Sunflowers and Stardust

Mature

Graphic depictions of violence

Sun x Moon, other relationships to be added

Incomplete, ongoing

The main fic for my security Sun au

Starting a few months after the virus has been fixed, this fic will explore Sun and Moon's future over the next 11 years, and delve into what the prior 10 years were like for them. There will be lots of shenanigans and lots of self discovery as they grow and heal. The glamrocks, Foxy, and DJ will be in the fic but won't be focused on as much as Sun and Moon. There will also be lots of relationships explored in this fic as most of the characters are poly in some way. I will update the relationship tags as needed.

Any smut will be contained to separate fics so that people who don't like that stuff don't have to read it. However, there are discussions of Moon’s sex repulsion and Sun’s lack thereof, meaning there are vague mentions of how Sun feels. There will not be any explicit sex or masturbation scenes in the fic though, merely discussions of boundaries on these sorts of things.

Making Starlings

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sundrop x Moondrop x Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 3 chapters

Wordcount: 9,941

Moondrop plans a fun night of movies and sex with their other partners, Nova and Eclipse, for Sundrop, but gets worked up before the movies even begin.

This fic will deal with the begining of pregnancy in later chapters so be aware of that

Why Am I So Hot?

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon x Monty, Sun x Moon

Complete, Chapters 3/3

Wordcount: 6,747

Sun goes into heat and Moon and Monty help him

Chapter 2 is Moon's heat, chapter 3 is Monty's heat

Sometimes Things Start With Love And All We Get Is What's Left Over

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Sun and Moon and reader (platonic, not romantic or sexual)

Incomplete, ongoing

Fantasy au where Sun and Moon run an odds and ends shop and meet y/n when they come in looking for lavender. Moon is instantly smitten and Sun teases his partner endlessly about it.

Lune and Moon

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Moon x Monty, Moon x Moon

Chapters 2/3

Warning: contains spoilers for the end of Blood and Oil

Completely non canon thing where the two different versions of the security sun au cast meet and both Moons fall for each other

Lune is the Moon from Blood and Oil, she's transitioned and changed her name

Language, Darling

Explicit

No Archive Warnings Apply

Sun x Moon, Sun x Moon x Eclipse

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 3,011

Eclipse gets worked up after Sun and Moon tickle it and they end up fucking it

Wreck and Recovery

Explicit

Graphic Depictions of Violence, Rape/Non-Con

Eclipse x Nova (oc), past Eclipse x Monty

Complete, 2 chapters

Wordcount: 4,633

The first chapter does not deal with rape, the second chapter does. Please heed the tags as the second chapter is violent.

A prequel of sorts to the Organic/Recovery au's current fics, explaining Eclipse's past with Monty and initial relationship with Nova

(Also, I shouldn't really have to say this but no I don't condone this shit, and this is likely the only time I'll write it actually happening instead of it being an attempt and being stopped)

Aftermath

Explicit

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Eclipse x Nova (oc)

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 2,460

I wanted to write a bit more detail about the aftermath of Wreck and Recovery so I wrote this

CW: mentions of past abuse and mentions of past rape

Set 3 or so months after Wreck and Recovery, Eclipse and Nova are working through the complex emotions they're both feeling and trying to talk to each other about new boundaries

And I'll Love You Softly

Explicit

No Archieve Warnings Apply

Eclipse x Nova (oc) x Sundrop x Moondrop

Complete, 1 chapter

Wordcount: 9,148

“Did you wake up like this?” he repeated his question from earlier.

They nodded. “Y-yeah. I was really hot and—ohhh,” they moaned as their clit slid at the perfect angle across his thigh, “a-and really horny,” they finished. “Nngh, just wanna be bred,” they whined, wiggling their hips in circles.

He frowned, brows furrowed in a mix of confusion and concern. “It's almost like you're in—” he cut off, eyes going wide. “Oh…” he said quietly. “I…didn't know that would happen.”

“Th-that what would happen?” they asked, unable to stop the whining building up in their throat at the spike of anxiety and confusion coursing through them.

He bit his lip, blushing and looking away. “Y-you're in heat,” he finally said, cupping their cheek in his hand as he glanced back up at them.

...

Eclipse goes into a pseudo heat

I also have a handful of short stories that I wrote in like 2019 on there

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[i-like-gay-books]

long post so i GUESS i’ll put it under the cut

so i’ve been really reflecting lately on my self diagnosis of autism, especially since i’ve been really coming into myself and managing my anxiety better than ever before, and ive been wondering whether it might be that the symptoms i thought were attached to being autistic are just how anxiety manifests in me and the things about myself that i thought proved that i dont have adhd in any way may also just be how anxiety manifests in me. because also even though ive really related with autism and the social symptoms, i’ve never really been sure i have sensory processing issues, at least not to the extent that the dsm specifies in order to be autistic. and what i really HAVE related to is the inability to just sit down and get shit done. so i took another self assessment with this clearer knowledge i have of myself and how i really function as a human being when im on my own and living as an adult and

the only ones that arent high levels are literally the ones that i can directly pinpoint as one of my biggest concerns with my anxiety. impulsivity is the one that makes adhders more likely to butt into conversations or keep going on for a long time or make decisions and later regret them. as you may have noticed i am particularly long winded when im typing, but is that true of me in real life? like at all? not really. i struggle to get two words out sometimes. i was selectively mute in my childhood. i can say for a fact that the reason for this in my hyper-awareness of the potential of making a faux pas or embarrassing myself in social situations. and i have decision paralysis due to the same phenomenon. im very aware of the potential of disappointing other people if i make a bad decision. im not sure if impulsivity would manifest itself in the “typical” adhd way if my anxiety wasn’t there, but i have no way of ever knowing that because it is.

and forgetfulness. i beat that shit out of myself when i was younger. i can clearly remember a time in elementary school, then in middle school, then in high school (before i started writing sticky notes for myself) when i would get myself in trouble just simply because of forgetting about assignments. my family is very academically oriented. my parents wouldnt be SUPER mad at me if i was trying my best and didnt get good grades, but i knew they would be disappointed if i didnt try my best. i have so many systems in place so as to never ever forget about schoolwork any more. you have no clue how revolutionary it is for me that college professors actually put all of the assignments for the semester of the syllabus. one of my biggest gripes about high school was that the teachers would just assign homework seemingly at random? it was easy to forget if you werent writing it all down, ok? and for appointments? same deal. my parents kind of took care of the remembering appointments part before i got older and by now i do have these systems in place for myself. i do often forget to make calls, mostly because i dont make a point of writing it down as a task for myself because making calls gives me anxiety. yeah.

also i sat here and took this assessment and wrote all of this instead of working on my 2000 word midterm paper due next tuesday for which i have exactly one sentence written. listen, procrastination is a universal trait, but i just felt like it was relevant.

#not saying this necessarily proves anything #and of course i know professional assessment is the only true way to know #but i have anxiety #and possibly adhd #how do you think i handle the medical system? #i really shouldve had therapy at this point in my life but thats too difficult to get started lol #OH #also #i am fucking SHIT at creating habits for myself #i have to physically force myself to even go and brush my teeth every night and every morning #and washing my face only gets done half the time because its easier to not do it and i get bored if im in the bathroom too long #i have to make every task i do more interesting for myself or i wont do it #i used to hate taking time out of my day to even shower before i started listening to music in the shower #and i like to watch shows or videos while i cook or wash dishes or fold laundry #damn i maybe shouldve considered this more seriously sooner #i forgot to consider the world in which all social anxiety does not automatically equal autism #i need to stop typing now #i really have work to get done #ugghghhghghghhhhh #cloudy rambles

[solarsavoy]

WIP Wednesday, Magic Shuu yet again

So, my muse really likes this idea and wants to run on and on with it, which is fine, but I'm going to take it one work at a time. That doesn't mean I don't have plans though.

List of works:

1 - Magic Shuu, based off season 1 of Sailor Moon.

2 - Magic Shuu the movie, based off the filler created with Ail and An and the Makai Tree

3 - Magic Shuu R, based off the rest of season 2 with Wise Man

4 - Magic Shuu R the movie, based off the Sailor Moon R movie with the evil flower lady

5 - Magic Shuu S, based off season 3 of Sailor Moon focusing on Saturn

6 - Magic Shuu S the movie, based off the Sailor Moon S movies focusing on Luna and the ice queen

7 - Magic Shuu Super S, based off Sailor Moon Super S focusing on Pegasus and Mini Moon

8 - Magic Shuu Super S the movie, based off Sailor Moon Super S the movie about dreams

9 - Magic Shuu Stars, based off season 5 with Sailor Galaxia

The "movies" would be much shorter than the works based off of entire seasons and I may call them something different than "movies", but I haven't decided yet. Maybe interludes, since the movies don't always line up with what's going on in between the seasons, or something else entirely. I also have plans (at least for Magic Shuu S) to make an "opening/closing" video to go with the season based fics at the end instead of my usual credits. No idea if I'll be able to go through with it, but in the case of Magic Shuu S, I'm gonna have a hard time not doing it, so I sincerely hope I get at least to that point.

Added later: have an opening planned for Magic Shuu Stars now. Fully planned out like Magic Shuu S.

I'm also considering going from Magic Shuu straight to Magic Shuu S instead of doing all 9 works because I haven't planned much out for season 2 of Magic Shuu, but we'll see. Anyway, if I pace myself and it all works out, this could be like a 9 year project. For fanfiction. 😑 My muse drives me insane sometimes. Oh, be aware that I'll be using other fandom references occasionally. I can't specify what, but for example, me borrowing Terada-sensei from Cardcaptor Sakura. This will happen and they will be more involved then simply mentioning them in the future. Other fandoms will be used, but I'll make sure to point out the references in the end notes and make sure that you don't need to know the fandom going in.

The long plan doesn't surprise me. I plan on following the Life in Retail/Kristmas Karma universe for at least 4 years so I can get through the first year in college, and I also have other interacting fics planned out for each year along the way. (Two of them story driven, the rest are one-shots.) But I can explain that in another WIP Wednesday. 😏

And then there's my whole Krystar series. I really wanted to release one book a year, but maybe it's for the better that I improve my fanbase a bit more so it performs better. The Krystar series consists of 12 books in total, by the way.

So yeah, the length of the plan doesn't surprise me. Doing it at the same time as everything else does. But whatever. My muse clearly knows I'm a workaholic and plans on taking full advantage of it.

...

And then there's the 7 works of Pandora's Box...

Anyway, if you have questions or curiosities about Magic Shuu, feel free to ask. I won't give away spoilers, but I'm more than willing to be forthcoming about certain aspects of the Magic Shuu world, like what I did with saying which Sailor Moon episodes I'm honoring for Magic Shuu season 1. The only thing I'm not sharing are my own twists for things (gotta have some surprises), but if you want to know if I'm using the Sailor Moon badguys in a certain season or an Assassination Classroom stand in, I won't reveal who, but I'd be happy to tell you if I am. 😊 So let me know!

And I feel super awkward about this, but I really need to get used to this kind of thing... If you'd like to support me as an author and artist, become a Patreon today! I post the sketches and linearts of a lot of the images I do which available to Patrons for free and also have the Pandora's Box WIP cover available under Tier 1. Anything I've already posted will be free and Tier 1 are for pics that haven't been posted yet. Soon to include chapters of Krystar First Fragment as well. ^^ *Please note that my fanfiction is and will always be free and that Patreon is meant to support me as an artist and a writer in general.

See you for the Magic Shuu chapter 4 update on Friday. Thanks for reading!

#daily delivery #WIP Wednesday #Magic Shuu #assassination classroom #sailor moon au

[ariiluvsyou]

|♡| RULES AND REGULATIONS |♡|

|♡| Hello Everyone! This post will keep all my rules for requests, necessary explanations for my content, and examples of what can and cant be requested! Please read this list thoroughly if you plan to make a request or want to ask me any questions!  |♡|

♡ Most of my posts will lead up to some sort of smut or NSFW scene. As of now, I do not plan to until I get a little more comfortable using Tumblr however it is a goal of mine. If you do not wish to see this, my NSFW stories will be clearly marked on my masterlist as well as will have the #devil’s tango by ari which you are encouraged to block if you are uncomfortable!! 

♡ All characters (both of my own and from other sources of media) are of age and are strongly hinted to be in their mid-20s unless specified. This statement of course is exempt if the story has scenes from flashbacks or from childhood. 

- I strongly believe that smut written about characters, particularly in anime, is perfectly fine as long as they are realistically aged up, even if they are not cannonly over 18 in their source material. Majority of these characters do not in any shape or form have pubescents bodies or looks realistic to their age as they are meant to be attractive to the eye. Similarly to that, characters who come from pedophilic sources, or do look like a minor (without a age up or alternative look in the source material) WILL NOT BE WRITTEN! 

Example: 

- BIG FAT HARD NO! This is  great example of how head-size, body proportions, and many other things effect the look of a character! Boobs are not inherently sexual, however the intention with a character who clearly looks like a child is disgusting! ♡ My Y/N has a AFAB body and if pronouns are mentioned they will be She/Her. Keep in mind majority of my stories are from the 3rd perspective and use You/Your/Yourself to address the reader so pronouns are rarely used unless by being addressed from another character. The reason for this is because I do not know how AMAB bodies function or work since I am a AFAB myself and I don't want to create a cringe, unrealistic portrayal. 

♡ You can say anything through my asks!! I usually address my asks as “requests” out of old habits however I am also open to discussions, chats, and any long drabbles you want to throw my way as long as they are respectful to my rules. Please be aware that if I am uncomfortable, if you ignore my rules, or if I don’t know how to respond I may not respond at all! I may also use your ask as an example for this post so other people know what not to do. No offence is intended! 

- As a side note, my dms are always open! I know sometimes I get nervous to ask in peoples inbox and sometimes dms are the more comfortable way to express my love for something. If you want to know about a future update for a series or something of the like, DM is my preferred way. I will either respond individually or make a post based on demand. Also questions about my universes, prompts, drabbles, and many other things are encouraged to be asked in my inbox if you are comfortable.  ♡ I write about a vast majority of my interests! It may not always be consistent to one particular fandom! I mostly write fluff and smut, however I LOVE writing angst when I’m in the mood. I love reading angst to fluff / hurt comfort (if you have any good recommendations send them my way) however I don’t know if this is a writing topic I do often. I also have a BIG soft-spot for established relationships and being sensual while having sex so my writing will reflect that. 

- One of my other interests is Exophillia, which is “’a attraction whose object is the sexuality of extraterrestrials.’ In other words, it is a desire for extraterrestrial, alien, or other non-human life forms.” For me this includes werewolves, demons, shape-shifters, mermaids, and many other monsters! You have been warned!

♡ If you would like to see more of a character, a plot line, or of a particular post you can dm me, or ask. Again, not guaranteed I will respond if I don’t feel up to it but don’t be afraid to add your own ideas or tell me what you want to see more of. 

♡ and to state the obvious... NO HOMOPHOBIA, RASCISM, XENOPHOBIA, PEDOPHILLIA, HATEFULLNESSS, AND BULLYING. 

[booksnstuff58]

Welcome to Books 'n Stuff!

Welcome to my kind of reading/writing journal! Here I will be posting book recs and reviews, and maybe writing tips and other fun writing things I find!

Some important things to note

I read all genres, but my favorites are romance, fantasy, and mysteries.

I do need to mention that I prefer clean books. Now, what I mean by that is, I try to avoid smut and anything with gore. If it's violent, that's fine. If there's swearing, big whoop. If there's kissing, also fine. Like I said, I love romance, I just don't see the need to fill it with sex. I much prefer the romance part of a romance story. I am aware a lot of people love that kind of thing, and that is fine, it's just my personal preference. I may eventually add some recs and reviews for some of those, if I can find someone willing to read them and write the review for me 🤣

So, for the most part, the only romance you will see here will be clean. I will list in every post any possible triggers that readers may want to avoid, since I love it when other people do that for books I'm interested in!

Same deal with the Mysteries. I mostly prefer cozy mysteries, but will read others.

I try to keep my shelves as sweet, clean, and cozy as possible!

Another thing is, a lot of the ebooks I read I got for free. Either an ARC, or just a free book. I will specify which ones were ARCs. NONE of the reviews are anything but my personal honest opinion.

Here's a little bit about me:

My name is Eli, I have three beautiful children, Dusk, a black lionhead mix rabbit, Hoggle, a leopard gecko, and Ziggy, a curly haired tarantula.

I used to hate reading because I was so slow at it. Then my mom and I went and stayed in a camper for a week with nothing to do but read. Apparently all I needed was to be forced into reading, because now I LOVE it! Still takes me longer than I feel like it should to get through a book, but it's more enjoyable now and it doesn't feel like such a chore!

Other things I enjoy doing are, spending time with friends, family, and pets, listening to music, watching tv and movies, and playing The Sims 4. And speaking of playing The Sims 4, if that's something you are also interested in, you can check out my other page Here.

#welcome to my blog #booklover #bookworm #book review #book recommendations

[evieveronica]

To really set the intention of manifesting things, I’ve made a checklist each week of things that I’m going to manifest and for each week only one thing didn’t present itself to me in the 3D yet. Not that that matters or anything you know. But here are some success stories I got from this. I guess you can consider this a form of scripting since I’m making a list of things I want to manifest. I’m just not setting the intention of my desires manifesting because of doing so. Anywho, on to the success stories!

*these are directly copied and pasted from my notes app since I use it to journal along with an actual journal so the speech sounds different if you know what I mean???*

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Seeing an orange butterfly (June 2nd) 🍊🦋

So, I was just scrolling on Pinterest and I started thinking about the butterfly and how I haven’t seen it yet cause I know that even if I think about a desire from lack I’m gonna see it, so I was like watch me see the orange butterfly now that I’ve thought about it and not even two seconds later this ugly ass shirt pops up cause I was looking at clothes like always but now it decides to pop up because I manifest instantly 💅🏽 and what makes it even better is that it’s an ad and not an actual pin so it just decided to pop up. And I’ve been looking at clothes on Pinterest a lot for the past few days and I didn’t want to specify how I wanted the orange butterfly to show up because I didn’t want to search the 3D for it but I just had a feeling it was gonna be on Pinterest so I gave way to how I wanted it to go and boom. My eyes instantly landed on the shirt. I did that in what like, a few days and I wasn’t constantly affirming. I literally thought of it from “lack” and still got it because whenever I desire something, it has no choice but to present itself in my reality because I bring awareness to it.

Having at least one lucid dream (June 2nd)

I just woke up and I had a lucid dream. The dream itself was insane and like nightmarish but the catalyst that got me to lucid dream was jumping paper mache looking buildings and racing some dude like he was going really fast and we were trying to get to New York City and anyways, I said I am dreaming out loud and I didn’t really secure the dream like I’m supposed to and began to affirm for the void immediately like last time 🤦🏽‍♀️ I felt myself falling slowly and imagined my arms in the air and everything went black. I affirmed not too crazy like last time “I am in the void” but started having intrusive thoughts and was thinking if I’m having intrusive thoughts then I ain’t in the void and began to affirm again. Then I started having the dreams when I’m having sleep paralysis that are hella vivid and the sensations were weird. Less tingly and more floaty??? I should have shifted instead bruh 😩

Fin.

I have more from last week that recently happened that I’ll post later but yeah. I realized that last week two, when my desires manifested it was at least two on the same day. Who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

See y’all lovelies later 💋

#loassumption #manifesting #loa success

[arabellaflynn]

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Packages continue to arrive. The Amazon guy must be so confused by now.

I am intentionally not trying to figure out who's behind it. I do know a few people IRL who could pull it off, but the reason I know them is because they're very public supporters of the arts -- I'd be aware that it was them, because they'd also be forwarding me grant applications and pitching me into networking meetings. At least two people were involved at some point, because one of the early anony-mice chose a pseudonym instead of using the default 'enjoy your gift!' message. Amazon lets you put a name on gifts, so if they wanted me to know who it was, they'd have said by now. I do keep sending thank you notes.

Nobody would keep it up this long if it wasn't fun, so good for you! I'd probably do the same thing if I had the resources. When I have money and other people don't I pay for lunches a lot, at least. I get to spoil the rats because the things that give them joy are very cheap in human terms. Right now one of them has shoved his fat little arm out through the cage bars and is trying to pull the Valentine's garland in, because it's shiny and make rustling noises and he wants it. They're very like toddlers, where the only value things have is how interesting they are, and how long it keeps them occupied. Plus they like to throw Cheerios all over the floor.

I don't have the money to get drunk right now, which narrows my options for entertainment down to 'YouTube' and 'overthinking things', so I've spent a lot of time trying to figure out why I have such mixed feelings about having an anonymous benefactor.

Most of it is very generic. When you're raised as female, especially if you turn out conventionally attractive, you're socialized to be suspicious of strangers who give you things without specifying what they want in return. Everyone wants something, when they give you a gift; even in the most innocent case, they want you to have a happy reaction. The presumption is that it's probably a dude, and he probably wants to bang you, or at least see your tits. This is a sexist and generally gross way of thinking that persists mainly because there are still some shambling choads out there who think this way, and get super mad when they hand you things you didn't ask for, and you still don't have sex with them.

I also find this line of thinking irksome, because it rests on the presumption that trading stuff for attention is somehow immoral. Why, exactly? I mean, it's uncool to assume you can just buy someone's time and focus without asking if they're for sale and negotiating prices first, but if two adults give informed consent to the arrangement, what exactly is wrong with this? And yes, you can take this to its logical conclusion. I don't do full-contact sex work, but I'm also not teaching ballroom dance or going to massage school -- I don't like strangers in my personal space. You can do whatever you want with your body. I have done boudoir and glamour modeling, and I've stripped on stage, and I'd be just fine working in someplace akin to one of Japan's famous 'hostess clubs'. It's an acting job like any other.

The rest, I think, is just that I live in a dourly Calvinist country, and I've been bombarded with 'nobody owes you nuthin' messaging since birth. Whatever you get for the work you do is supposed to be the reward for earning the approval of a higher power -- if not God, then at least management. Even artists are traditionally supposed to be concerned with the opinions of "critics", as if people with printed opinions magically control how much some other random yahoo is willing to pay to see, hear, or experience something pretty. I create things, and someone out there has decided that's worth making the Empire of Bezos mail me 30 lbs of pasta. Feels like making an illicit end run around the System.

In this case, I'm pretty sure whoever is sending stuff just wants me to have stuff, because stuff makes my life easier. And I appreciate it. The Wish Lists are about evenly split between things that seem bafflingly mundane, like socks and toilet paper, and stuff that looks like cool toys but is actually for work. Whoever sent the shoes, you should probably know that you've also provided the rats some most excellently comfortable places to sleep. Those were the boxes that got wrapped for the Valentine's Day cage set. You can see Casper's cage, la cage des Fromages, and their snack bowls on my Instagram. 

(The improved picture quality is courtesy whoever sent the Amazon gift card. I hate replacing phones, but the previous model was starting to get pernickety about the exact angle at which I was allowed to press the power button. I upgraded to "whatever thing wasn't enormous but had a half-decent camera", which turned out to be a refurbished Samsung Galaxy S10e.

It's in a pretty red case. I give it about three more days before a rat puts some wee little teef marks in it. Phone cases are tasty, apparently.)

The stuff for work is a lot of fun, I suppose, but only because I like what I do for a living. I just applied to perform at another even in April for some percentage of the ticket sales, probably with one of the LED hoops. The bulk of the Electronics Wish List was the contents of a digital content creation setup. I already had a cheap ring light from being bored during lockdown, but thanks to the Amazon gifter(s) and another Patron who offloaded a bunch of ex-business computers into one of my wheeled suitcases the other week, I have a portable kit that fits in a computer bag and runs entirely off the laptop. I'm sure I won't get the full advertised 8-hour battery life with an audio capture box and a desk mic and so forth dangling off the USB controller, but if I'm streaming something for eight hours I'm going to demand a wall plug anyway. I'm using it to Zoom someone's wedding for their out-of-town guests this weekend.

I am sadly running out of things that I need which can also be bought on Amazon. I buy my contacts from the UK, rat medications from farm suppliers, rat decorations from the local Dollar Tree, some of the more esoteric supplements from a lab in Chicago, and transit fare from the vending machines in the T. Pretty sure the Apple Store would laugh at me if I asked whether the internets could pay to have my MacBook repaired. 

At the moment, what is worrying me most is rent, phone service, and dance classes, not necessarily in that order. I think the rent and phone things are pretty self-explanatory; my grant money won't be here until March, because government. I've applied for the federal phone service stipend but I need to snail mail them some documents, also because government.

(I had to mail in my grant papers, too. They needed a voided check to set up the electronic transfer. Why, in anno domini 2023, would I have any idea where my checkbook is? I Venmo my rent, ffs. My other bills are paid online with a PayPal MasterCard. Hell, if I cared enough to set up Google or Samsung Pay, I could buy things at CVS by strategically whacking my phone against the POS terminal. The bank gave me a pack of 25 starter checks when I opened the account, and I finished them eleven years later. I did finally find the fucking thing, but I don't have any idea why it was necessary when I could give them the routing and account numbers just fine without it.)

The dance classes are probably more important to me than they ought to be. One of the reasons I have held onto the volunteer position I have at my home studio is that they compensate us in credit, which continues to exist on their system regardless of my own financial situation. I could be living in a refrigerator box under an overpass and still take class. (Admittedly, it's easier to work this in than a lot of other things -- there's a lot of dead time at the desk, and I usually bring in some other project to work on while I'm in. Some of it is the unrelated paid IT jobs I take care of for them, so technically I'm double-billing those hours. They know and don't care, because I'm a very good receptionist even when I'm only using a quarter of my brain for it.) I am deeply unhappy if I cannot be in class. I had to take the weekend off for a head cold last month and I was miserable, even beyond the part where I used several trees' worth of tissues.

I tend to follow individual teachers rather than styles, and several of the ones I like taking class with now also work at Boston Dance Studios, a new space downtown. I've applied to their workstudy program but received no answer yet. A 10 class/30 day package covers 5 weeks of classes for me, if I'm clever about timing it, and BDS sells gift cards. It's local, non-profit, and run by a woman of color, so I'd be inclined to support it even if I had to find all new teachers there. Her personal specialty is dance heels, so if you're also local and ever harbored fantasies about being a video vixen, you can take a look.

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[itsacrowd]

I posted 187 times in 2022

That's 187 more posts than 2021!

82 posts created (44%)

105 posts reblogged (56%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@secondhandmckie

@depictedblue

@erncst

@vcritable

@nanlanmo

I tagged 160 of my posts in 2022

Only 14% of my posts had no tags

#secondhandmckie - 24 posts

#q - 23 posts

#m. frank castle - 20 posts

#i. molly mckie - 19 posts

#depictedblue - 17 posts

#meme - 12 posts

#i. cassie howard - 12 posts

#au. sweet virginia - 12 posts

#m. eric northman - 11 posts

#nanlanmo - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#i 10000% will take any feedback on this bc the whole point of having the thing is to make my list make sense to people wanting to interact

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

@secondhandmckie​ is getting a thing bc i don’t know when to stop ((i am a menace))

It had been a long time since Frank had gotten in a fight- a few years is a long time for a man like him. Something had gotten under his skin; it was the anniversary- typically, he’d drive up to the mountain, scream, cry- get it all out so he could come back again and be the man he’d become.  With the past now being so close, the mountain wasn’t cutting it- he’d made the mistake of driving to the nearest town. What started as a night with the intention of drowning his sorrows, ended with his knuckles, and nose bloodied. With not so much as a beer in him, he’d drawn blood. 

Finally, the sun set and he figured it was as good of a time as any to return to the inn. Most people would be sleeping, and he could clean himself up. No one was really in the habit of asking him questions, which he was more than grateful for- of course, that didn’t include Molly. She was bound to have questions- and just as the thought crossed his mind, he heard footsteps approaching.  He’d barely gotten his key in the door.

7 notes - Posted December 7, 2022

#4

I’m not really back, but I am up for short things for the next week until I start the final three month trek that is my six-day-a-week-two-job-having bs

SO. with that said, like for a one liner? (just pls specify muse(s)

9 notes - Posted November 19, 2022

#3

@secondhandmckie | CONTINUED.

No shit.

Molly lifted a hand to the stinging, split skin and gently dabbed at her brow, her lip. "Huh. Wouldja look at that?" She replied, as casually as if she'd been spotting a funny looking cloud in the sky. She held up a the crimson-tinted finger for him. "You're right!"

"Just a scrap, Castle, don't worry your sweet little shaved head over it." She reached in her bag for a leftover napkin--some fast food place she'd hit up before this happened--and bent to use the truck's side mirror to clean herself up. "I pinky-promised to not be a mess around the baby, and I fully intend on keeping my promise. Pinky promises are sacred and not to be taken lightly." She hissed as it stung, making her eye water slightly. "Sonofabitch. I had this cleaned up before, but they must've opened up. Ran out of bandaids."

A flutter of amusement reaches his features at her response. He watched her with a skeptical look on his face as she tried to stifle the bleeding. Frank was no stranger to blood, and he knew a more severe cut when he saw one. Chances were it didn’t need stiches, just a better job of first aid to keep it clean, and closed. 

“Oh, I’m aware,” He replied in regards to pinky promises before he took a step closer to her, holding out his hand. “Let me take a look.” His eyes met hers, wondering if she’d try to brush off the help. 

9 notes - Posted December 7, 2022

#2

@nanlanmo​ liked for a one liner/short starter

“If you’re here, something must be going on. Spill.”

13 notes - Posted November 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

  FRANK wasn’t used to this- being caught off guard. Maybe running away from his past wasn’t as sustainable as he’d hoped. It’d been a year, and he’d thought he’d dealt with all the ghosts; he’d killed all the demons- but what should of brought him peace only brought him another type of war.  There was no one left to blame for the constant ache, and despite all the anger and violence, he still had more in him. It hit him the hardest in the early mornings, just before the sun would rise on a new day; and in the middle of the night when he’d wake up clenching his pillow-   The Inn had given him some kind of balance; Work that kept him more occupied. A steady, light stream of interaction with others that kept him from entirely breaking away into the whirlwind of the past his mind refused to let go of. It had become mundane, which was what he needed.    That is until @secondhandmckie​​ showed up. Out of nowhere, a familiar face walked unsuspectingly into the inn, and against all of his wishes, she recognized him immediately. It had felt like all of the air had been sucked out of his lungs, and it was all he could do to proclaim that he’d never met her before excusing himself. 

  Now, he finds himself sitting at the bar, restless with the images from his old life swimming around; still coated in blood. The blood never left, now. He was deep in his thoughts when he felt a presence behind him. Shit.  “Look, whatever it is you want, I don’t got it.”

20 notes - Posted December 4, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #I should really stop reblogging myself huh

[spoops-screams]

| Short MC

Character(s): Muriel, Lucio

TW: Self doubt (?)

Notes: Gender neutral MC || Short (like 4'11 or sm) mc bc it's really not that hard to be shorter than these two ;-; || I am going to kill someone if I'm stupid enough to delete my post again I swear- I spent only like 10 minutes on the other one but still, it was good 😭😭

Muriel

You think he was scared of accidentally hurting you before? Now he's down right terrified

There's an almost two foot difference between the two of you and it's so painfully obvious to him which he would find adorable if not for the fact that it was mortifying for someone like him who hated the very thought of hurting someone accidentally it without reason

He's aware of his own size and his own strength so he feels as though he might accidentally injure you without meaning to since he's both large and has more strength than he already looks to have which makes being around you down right terrifying to him

He doesn't want to exist too close to you because he feels as though any wrong move and he'll swat you like a fly so just about everyone can see how he's basically walking on eggshells and treats you like you're a fragile piece of glass

Once he realises that he won't accidentally squish you like a bug, he actually finds it really adorable

Absolutely had a heart attack whenever Inanna goes and smothers you but even he can't resist seeing you and the wolf cuddled up with each other what with you being practically hidden amongst the wolf's fur and size but he does make sure that they don't out too much pressure on you

He's just worried about you, please help him

Lucio

Oh you poor soul, he is not going to let you live it down

He absolutely will exaggerate the differences in your height to get in your nerves, that's guaranteed, as if you're both children, he actually finds the difference between your height and his hilarious

"You're practically only half my height."

Throw the whole man in the bin, he's so cocky about it

Initially he only sees it as another way to exert his status and power over you, practically towering over you with you not even being able to reach his shoulders which he no doubt uses to intimidate respect for him into you, magician or not, thanks to his ego and pride

He does come to very much like your height later along the line

With his height in comparison to yours, he finds it so easy to protect you and hide you, he actually starts finding it endearing

He's still absolutely insufferable though

Do expect him to use your head as an arm rest, that's just how this man is, but he's the only one that's allowed to bully you (affectionately) about your height

He will definitely join a Melchior and Mercedes in a cuddle pile if he ever manages to find you

In that moment, your height is the biggest disadvantage, the three of them are massive and you absolutely will not move, completely hidden from everyone

Tags: @rurifangirl bc I feel rly bad for deleting the other headcanon before you could even see it 😭😭 I WILL DO SOMETHING TO FIX THAT THOUGH!

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[minecraftrelatedrandomness]

Dream SMP Essay: c!Quackity's Conflicting Backstories

Notes: 

Some of you may already know some of this, because I have already posted part of my findings on c!Q's DSMP wiki page. And to members of the Flycord, you might have already found me ranting about this in his loveposting channel a couple of days ago or so.

Everything in the context of either characters (c!) and content creators (cc!) are labelled as such. The unlabelled names would refer to instances where the situation is ambiguous and apply to both.

Citations and links to VODs will be provided as required as evidence.

Content warnings: Death, dehumanization mention, injury, mental health, trauma, violence, etc. If further tagging is needed, please message me by asks or DMs.

Currently, c!Quackity has 2 potentially-contradicting known canon backstories, the first one being juvenile prison and the second one being MCM. I will elaborate more below the cut.

Backstory A: Juvenile prison

c!Q was allegedly in juvie for either 10 or 41 years before joining the SMP. It is unknown how he ended up there in the first place, e.g. what he did to be sent there, and there is very little context to what exactly happened there, other than it being an unhappy and possibly traumatic experience for him.

From what we know, he apparently broke his legs somehow during his second night there, and possibly even every night there. He might also be claustrophobic as a result of this. Since this backstory was mostly dropped after Q's first couple of livestream appearances, and it was mostly played for laughs than for drama, it is unknown how canonical this backstory is.

There are 4 main mysteries related to this potential backstory:

As mentioned above, what did he do to get sent to juvie in the first place?

How did the leg-breaking thing even happen? There is literally zero context to how that could have happened. And every night? Who is doing this? What kind of juvie is this? Can someone please shut it down?

If this backstory were to be played dead-seriously in the current lore and plotlines, how could this have impacted him? Especially because of, you know, the Pandora's Vault arc that we have going on at present?

How was he able to contact the Triple Ts to do their "drug cartel" thing before he even joined the server? Since he was apparently, you know, in jail at the time.

Backstory B: Minecr@ft Mondays

(See video version here.)

As far as I am aware, MCM was first mentioned in the Manburg Festival stream (a year ago to this day, i.e. the day I am posting this), when c!Q explained briefly how his fear of c!Techno to the point of having a breakdown came to be. Later the same day, i.e. the same stream, c!Schlatt mentioned how he and c!Techno "go way back", citing MCM Week 6 as part of their shared pre-SMP backstory.

Later in November (real-life time), c!Q clarified how he and c!Techno first met through MCM Week 1, explaining how he hadn't heeded JunkyJanker's warning about c!Techno's rightful reputation in PVP and then getting slaughtered to the point of allegedly having PTSD. Some of you may know that stream as the one where c!Techno had his infamous 'hunters and prey' speech, by the way.

In December (real-life time), c!Q cited MCM-trauma as one of his more personal reasons for hunting c!Techno down as part of the Butcher Army. The content creators then joked about them making MCM canon to the DSMP, and while the content creators were lighthearted about it, MCM therefore became a dead-serious, fully-fledged part of the DSMP lore.

I'm not 100% sure if other Weeks of MCM are considered canonical (they might be), but there's solid confirmation to how Weeks 1 and 6 are specified to be canon. cc!Q participated in Weeks 1, 2, 6, 8, and 12 of MCM, but since I cannot find the kill records of Weeks 8 and 12, let's hypothetically take those off the list for Q-and-Techno encounters (for now, I might return if/when I get more data). In MCM Week 2, the two did not actively interact (i.e. kill each other) at any point, which leaves us with Weeks 1 and 6, and wouldn't you know it — those are the two Weeks where Quackity got murked "so many times".

Week 1: Q's deaths in Rounds 6 and 8 are both attributed to Techno, but the one in Round 8 was actually death-by-border, which doesn't really count. Round 6, however, Techno just hunted Q down to the point he had no way out, border or enchanted diamond sword to the torso. (Techno POV + Quackity POV)

Week 6: Unlike the earliest MCM Weeks, this one only had Hunger Games in Rounds 1 and 9 (beginning and end), and not every single round. Q also happened to get knocked out of the game by Techno in both rounds. (Round 1: (Quackity POV + Techno POV) (Round 9: Quackity POV + Techno POV)

I was a little skeptical at first that one encounter would lead to enough trauma to have a PTSD diagnosis, but after remembering and looking up Week 6, then taking that into consideration as well, I am not quite as skeptical of the PTSD claim anymore.

And here are an additional 6 mysteries, or details that make the MCM encounters angstier (excluding anything related to inter-worldly canon life-counts):

Schlatt was teamed with Techno during Week 6, meaning c!Q also knew him at least in passing before all three of them joined the DSMP at different times (excluding the possibility of SMP Live being canon, which opens up a different can of worms that I am not equipped to deal with). Now recall c!Q and c!Schlatt interacting again on the DSMP… no, I am not happy about this. Especially bearing in mind Schlatt during Round 9 of Week 6 (see link).

During Week 6 Round 1, after spotting Q + JunkyJanker, Techno decided to go after them and avoid Yammy and her teammate because the latter two were "sentient players". In other words… ouch.

On a funnier note, right after killing Q (in Week 6 Round 1), Techno got border-killed. TAKE THAT! Karma went and collected his debt, I suppose. /lh

Q getting bonked in Week 6 Round 9 took place in the water. If we are going with the Duck Hybrid theory that canon has provided crumbs of possible supporting evidence… ouch. Again.

On a side note, could MCM and related tournaments have caused trauma in other characters in the DSMP-verse?

Also, multiple other content creators who are now part of the DSMP also participated in MCM, e.g. Philza, Connor, BBH, Skeppy, even Dream at one point. Would MCM be counted as part of their backstories as well? How can we explain their participation in the event while still adhering to their respective canon backstories?

Compare and Contrast

It is unlikely for both of these backstories to work at the same time, due to their overlapping time frames. There is one exception to this, however, it's that c!Q was either let out of jail early, or was let out temporarily to participate in MCM for whatever reason.

The only thing that these two backstories have in common is that c!Q allegedly had PTSD from both (A and B), though we don't know if that was an official diagnosis or a self-diagnosis (for better or worse). So either way, cc!Quackity decided that he was gonna give his character canonical trauma the moment he stepped on the SMP, and then just rolled with it until the boulder was hurling unstoppably down the mountain slope.

#quackity #c!quackity #dream smp #dream smp analysis #cw trauma #cw mental health #tw death #tw injury #tw dehumanization mention #c!technoblade #technoblade #my post #17 october 2021 #it is 1am by the time i post this i need sleep ffs #aqua analyzes c!quackity from the dsmp #dsmp jailbird backstory

[sweetpeawriter-tm]

SHOULD I WRITE A CHARACTER WITH DID ?. A GUIDE

As I've been on this site over the years I've noticed here and other places a increased social general awareness for DID and other dissociative disorders. People want to learn more and also help when they can from your average person to a doctor or therapist....

I also know people are gonna wanna write us in the rpc.

That's what this post is for. Should you, someone without a dissociation disorder, write about something as fraught with complexity and social/academic controversy as DID/OSSD etc?

Let's jump to the cut and find out!

Few clarifications

1. Yes I am a system. I do not remember my exact dx because I received it a year ago and I....well I am a system so i forgot. But it exist and I've known I was a system since 2019. I also am getting my degree and psych and half on and off contact with the 'did community'.

2. As I am only one person, please do extra research besides this post and listen to more people then just me! I can't know everything.

3. TWS: small mentions of abuse and csa (mostly near the end).

Now that that's outta the way. Here's my answer.

Probably not.

Shock, horror. I know.

Now before you grab your pitchforks. Notice the probably there. Like...most of the time I personally do not believe people educate themselves properly about DID and co. (short hand here). To write these characters without being borderline offensive.

Question, when reading this..Do you know what OSDD means? If not, then you should probably not write a character with dissociation disorders until you do more research. (It stands for otherwise specified dissociative disorder BTW. No shame in not knowing its just something you should be aware of if going down this route).

Also DID/OSSD is a very....stigmatized disorder. There's MRI proof we exist and people still do not believe us. Because of that I am very nervous about people writing it with little research and making the shit we face even worse. I still get asked if my alters hate people...often.

This has increased because of tiktok especially and like..everything happening there. So..I'm cautious. Sue me.

Of course, I can't stop you. So here is what I'm going to suggest you do if you want to take this route (and I'm not shaming you for it either. I just am personally a overly nervous person when it comes to rep.)

1. RESEARCH. @this-is-not-dissociative *is one of the best places to start for research journals and learning about how it all works. INCLUDING recovery!

*note that that blog is closing soon due to real life situations. I would suggest googling or searching it in the tumblr bar and seeing what you can find from there if you can’t access the blog’

2. NO TRAUMA PORN. Do not make someone have DID for the 'whump' and a ship. Yes I've seen it. Yes it was for BTS. I live in a dark dark world. If you give a character DID...be normal ya know. Don't romanticize us.

3. DID/OSSD IS NOT A ALTER DISORDER, ITS A TRAUMA DISORDER. DID and co. is not just about the 'ooooh switching!' its about flashbacks, it's abuse, it's torture before most people even learn how to count. To understand DID you have to understand CPTSD and other trauma disorders. It's at least half if not more of our disorder.

Lastly. Read the haunted self (TW for csa, rape, and other abuse mentions in the book). It discusses all the things I mention in number three in a pretty to easy to understand book format.

Okay, really hope this helps, and I'm always open to suggestions! Thanks for reading. Mwah!

#WHEW #ROLEPLAY. GUIDE #RPC #RPH #DID #OSDD #roleplay

[rightnowyoucanttell]

2 & 12 from the sappy prompts!

SLIGHT SPOILERS FROM S3 but not really

Sure! You didn’t specify who, so imma write for billy since I haven’t done that before (and I have a soft spot for him ngl ✨🥺🥺) I’m sorry if this isn’t who you wanted, feel free to resubmit it and I’ll write it again

NOT MY GIF

#2 please don’t leave me

#12 I want you only you

Yes, I am aware this if from sappy prompts. But, idk I’m weird, I’m a weirdo. I hope this is ok, if not please let me know, I’m not even sure I like this one

⚠️: angst, cheating, ect. (This is before the flayed, ect. Pretty much in the space between season 2, the only difference is that the reader kind of catches him with mrs. wheeler and three)

Billy was acting different, way more than the usual. Billy moved to Hawkins about a year ago it was your anniversary. You waited at the mall food court four an hour, upon your request you were going to eat some shitty food court food and stop for ice cream. But he never showed. Billy, your Billy, never showed. He always showed it didn’t make sense. You got all dolled up though. The earrrings he bought you for your birthday months prior, a low cut red dress, with a jean jacket and heels. You even curled your hair because you knew he loved it most of all.

You sihed loudly, getting up from your seat, and began walking towards scoops, having decided to get some ice cream solo, you strolled to the counter and made gloomy eye contact with Steve, he too had the same drained expression on his face, “aho-“ you lifted a finger to silence him before he continued.

“Strawberry with sprinkles, and a vanilla to go..” you drifted off,”please. Steve.” He pursed his lips before turning around fixing the cone and dish. Scenarios played through your head. Who, where and why. Then a scene played in your head.

The pool had just opened a week ago, just folllowing the grand opening of the mall. Billy got a job for the summer as a life guard, you came by on your day off, you noticed the older women starring which wasn’t out of the normal. You noticed the flirtatious look between him and Mrs. Wheeler.. they were more than stares...oh. My. God.

You suddenly imagined, Mrs.wheeler with her hands in his hair, his hands on her, some cheap ass candle in the background burning to cover the smell of the sex and cigarettes. It all clicked, the ringing of the bell infront of you brought you back to earth, “you good Y/N?” You took a deep breath prepping to respond to Steve, you didn’t want to elaborate knowing Steve already hated billy.

“Uh, yeah. The vanilla is for Robin, keep the change,” you fingers dragged off the twenty you left on the counter, not caring. It was way more than you needed, you took the ice cream and left, head hung low. Leaving the vanilla, Billy’s vanilla, leaving it behind.

Like he left you behind.

You passed max, Lucas and mike on your way out. Your hand slipped sadly as you threw the untouched ice cream fell into a green trashcan, your hand dragged as you continued walking, ignoring the kids. There childlike voices echoing in and out as anger fogged your brain. You didn’t say anything. You didn’t want to accidentally tell mike his mother was sleeping with Max’s stepbrother. That would be crazy, it sounds crazy. You had a little hope however. Maybe he was innocently teaching her, maybe it’s all in your head, maybe you lost your mind. But, you couldn’t be too sure.

You knew where you were going but you walked zoned out, past the people, past the record store, past the benches, past the surplus of minivans in the parking lot, and then out onto the open road.

You arrived at the motel six, luckily not having an accident, the one with the big pool, you knew what he was doing. If he was doing it. Billy pulled the same thing with you a month prior, wanting to teach you a night Neil was home. Neil didn’t approve of you. For whatever reason he hated a deep hatred for billy being happy. And you were part of that equation, instant hatred. You slammed the door shut of your shitty car in the shitty parking lot of the shitty hotel, where your shitty cheating boyfriend was, and there it was. The blue camero.

It was cold, the lights were on inside, and you could see the relegation of the pool in the window, but not enough to see inside, it was dark the sun had finished setting on your way there. You gritted your teeth wanting to storm inside.

Evil thoughts clouded your brain, you couldn’t at first imagine why Neil hated his son, but you had a feeling or a sense of why now. He was selfish, rude, and inconsiderate. But, it was Neils fault he was that way in the end, You felt bad, maybe it was your fault, your fault he felt deprived of whatever Mrs. Wheeler was giving him.

Even though you knew it was wrong, your mother taught you better than that but you did it.

You wrote on the back of a receipt.

Billy,

I know what you did. I’m sorry, I don’t know what I did wrong. But, please don’t leave me. I want you only you. Please, let’s talk it out.

- Y/N

You left the note under his windshield wiper, you hoped it wasn’t going to rain so he’d get to see it without the ink being smudged. You drove home, leaving the scene of infidelity and the blue camero behind. You waited up for a call for an hour before drifting off to sleep, you woke the next morning to a tapping on your bedroom window. Did he get your desperate attempt in ridding him of responsibility?

A/N: I hate this, but imma press post anyways,

#billy hargrove #billy hargove x reader #billy hargrove angst #cheating #sappyprompts #stranger things #steve harrington

[higuchimon]

[fanfic requests/BTHB Bingo]

I'm thinking about my Bad Things Happen Bingo & my original plan was a number (25 to be precise) of long, chaptered works, ranging from roughly 9,000 words to nearly 400,000. But I would like to complete this challenge preferably before the end of 2022.

So, I have made a decision. Here are the prompts below. You, the readers, may request what I write to fill each prompt. But I do have a few requirements.

01: Specify which (if any) AU you want or don't want to see your suggestion written in. Breeds, Reversal, Healer/Firestarter, wing-fic, let me know the options.

02: Specify the fandom & characters, just like any other prompt list. Ships are allowed, but keep two things in mind: what I write/don't write & this is "Bad Things Happen Bingo". Fluff isn't often an option.

03: Please be aware that since I crosspost to tumblr, ffnet, & AO3, I seldom if ever write explicit anything (sex, violence, etc).

04: I'm trying hard to work on finishing my current Digimon Ken x Daisuke WIPS in July (Choice To Protect went & developed a plot on me!!) therefore your request might not be filled right away. Once I finish those, I should be able to work on prompt suggestions in a more timely fashion. Which doesn't mean I won't write it when I get it. It will depend on what you request.

05: If you have an existing prompt I haven't filled yet, feel free to pair it with any of the Bad Things Happen Bingo prompts. You're getting a 2 for 1 deal! Current unfilled prompts listed under the Bingo prompts in case you don't remember your prompt. I've taken so long on some of these that I wouldn't be surprised if you did forget. Also, if you want to combine a BTHB prompt with any of the prompt lists found under "higuchimon prompts", go right ahead.

06: Fandoms for this are: Digimon Adventure, Digimon Adventure 02, Digimon Tamers, Digimon Frontier, YGO GX, YGO Zexal, & YGO Arc-V. Those are the ones I know the best & feel certain I can write a one-shot or brief (no more than 10,000 words) chaptered piece for.

07: please be reasonable in your requests. No one has ever asked me to write something I am opposed to (including ships such as Ken x Miyako, Takeru x Hikari, Taichi x Sora, Asuka x Juudai, Selena x Yuuri, etc). Let's keep it like that, ok? Also, please be aware that these may end up pieces of stories instead of beginning, middle, & end.

Now, behind the cut are the available BTHB prompts & existing unwritten prompts. As each is filled, I will mark it off the bingo square. This lasts until I either achieve blackout or I'm not capable of writing.

Now, the unfilled prompts are as follows:

taking the hit or I have a complaint to file with you: Hikari & Ken [submitted by cityescape4]

drink me: Yubel x Juudai x Johan [submitted by anon]

please, put it down: Edo x Ryou [submitted by zexal--arc-v-1412]

please listen to me: Johan x Yubel [submitted by anon]

Look at me - just breathe, okay?: Taichi x Daisuke [submitted by anon]

soulmates see the date of the other's death on their wrist: Edo x Ryou [submitted by zexal--arc-v-1412]

soulmates share extreme physical sensations: Yubel x Juudai x Johan: [submitted by anon]

Arc-V universe: Yubel x Juudai x Johan [submitted by anon]

"I told you not to fall in love with me": Yubel x Johan [submitted by anon]

Summer Camp AU/Bathtub fic: Yubel x Juudai x Johan [submitted by anon]

Obsession: Kaiser & Daisuke [submitted by ano]

heart growing three sizes, the grinch-style: Kaiser x Daisuke [submitted by anon]

it's a christmas miracle!: Ken x Daisuke [submitted by anon]

the nutcracker: Ken x Daisuke, with breeds [submitted by anon]

fire, flames, or excessive heat: Edo x Ryou [submitted by pierrotguru]

on the verge of conscciousness: Juudai x Johan [submitted by anon]

As a note: if you sent in a prompt & it hasn't yet been posted, but you know it's not listed here, then I already have started writing it & just haven't finished it yet.

I look forward to seeing what you all suggest! One more thing: if two or more people send in suggestions for the same prompt but different fandoms/characters, it's first come, first served. Depending on the requests, I might do an unofficial fill, but only the first will count for the bingo.

#higuchimon posts #higuchimon prompts #Digimon Adventure #digimon adventure 02 #digimon tamers #digimon frontier #ygo gx #ygo zexal #ygo arc v #bad things happen bingo