#so might write some now but post later? would that be ok @ mods

[where-the-kissing-never-stops]

Never thought that it would end like this

Here it is! My piece for @merwainefest day 7: free day.

Here on ao3 for those on there!

On the training ground, Gwaine gets distracted as Merlin walks past.

Gwaine was feeling rather stupid. He had been too distracted during training to focus properly on the blows Leon was raining down upon him, and now had a nasty gash on his arm that needed looking into. Now, he was sat at the side of the training field as the others kept at it. But, the reason for his distraction was the one tending to the open slice on his forearm.

Merlin.

It wasn’t Gwaine’s fault that Merlin’s arse was the meaning of ‘perky’, and the way his hair caught in the sunlight was too hard for Gwaine to miss. So when Merlin had walked past the training field and bent over at the crucial moment, Gwaine’s eyes went over Leon’s shoulder instead of focusing on the sword that caught Gwaine completely off guard, and blood running down his arm.

Leon hadn’t stopped apologising, even though that’s the whole point of training, Gwaine had told him. But Leon was Leon, and wouldn’t stop fretting until Merlin had come over and told Gwaine to follow him, heading over to a nearby tent, which inside had a basket of bandages and other medicinal items that he stocked for the training ground every morning for these exact moments. Fortunately, Gwaine walked off the field neck-and-neck with Merlin, so he wouldn’t be ‘distracted’ again.

Gwaine felt guilty. It wasn’t right to ogle when Merlin wasn’t aware, and Gwaine knew it. Maybe he’ll say something. Just maybe.

Merlin pulled the basket and asked Gwaine to sit, which he did. Gwaine rested his injured arm on his lap and stared at Merlin’s hand. The young man was working with such dexterity and Gwaine could only watch patiently. His arm hurt, that was true, but he could wait a little longer to watch Merlin at work.

Gwaine thought he heard Merlin mention something, but shrugged and ‘hmm’d in response. He was still watching Merlin at work, collecting bottles, bandages and something resembling a spoon?

“Gwaine?” Merlin was smiling when Gwaine looked at him, and that almost did the knight in. Merlin’s toothy grin was his weakness, and in this close proximity to it? That smile was a lethal weapon. It could bring anyone to their knees.

He snapped back into the world, and nodded, “Yes?” He responded, not meeting Merlin’s eyes.

“Can you hold this for me?” Merlin held a jar of a sticky, amber-coloured liquid. It had a faint scent.

“Is that honey?” Gwaine asked, and went to dip his fingers in it to taste it.

Merlin’s smile widened as he withdrew the honey jar. “It’s not to eat,” he said softly with a small laugh, “but yes, it’s honey.”

Gwaine felt his cheeks heat up, as he did when he heard Merlin laugh, but hoped Merlin was too occupied with the jar or the cut or something else to notice. He held his hand out to take the jar, from Merlin, and as he did his fingers brushed Merlin’s. It was an innocent gesture, until he heard Merlin cough awkwardly. Gwaine looked up. Merlin’s face was also flushed.

“Merlin.”

The pair looked at each other. Gwaine swam in Merlin’s blue eyes for what felt like eternity and felt himself leaning forwards.

Merlin couldn’t take his eyes off the knight, but snapped out of the daze, shook his head, and looked away.

Gwaine leaned backwards. It was now or never.

“Merlin, has anyone ever told you…” Now or never, Gwaine, “…how blue your eyes are?” Merlin looked at him incredulously. “They’re more blue than the sky.”

“Um, thanks?” Merlin spoke quietly, spooning honey out of the jar and smearing it on Gwaine’s arm. “Honey is good to clean the wound, that’s good advice for you.”

Merlin kept talking, listing the medicinal properties of honey and other common plants and herbs, but Gwaine wasn’t really listening. He felt like he might explode. He was staring at Merlin’s lips.  Gorgeous and lovely and inviting and kissable-

Gwaine leaned forward and kissed Merlin mid-word. It was a peck, nothing more, nothing less. Gwaine noticed Merlin had stopped moving and was staring right at Gwaine.

“What…?”

Gwaine breathed a very nervous laugh. Since when did Gwaine get nervous? “I was going to lose my mind if I didn’t do that.”

A pause. Neither of them moved, spoke, breathed.

“Was that ok?”

At first, Gwaine wasn’t sure if Merlin would respond at all. Merlin opened and closed his mouth, then finally said. “That was nice.”

Nice? “Nice?”

“Yes,” Merlin continued, “It was unexpected, but it was nice.” They looked at each other for a few more seconds before Merlin spoke again. “I really need to finish dressing this.”

“Yes, of course,” Gwaine held out the honey towards Merlin, but his sweaty palm wasn’t helping, so he held it balanced on his leg. His heart was racing. That was not a reaction he could have predicted. What would he do now? Merlin said it was ‘nice’, which was about as useful as a one-legged man in an arse-kicking contest.

“Gwaine,” Merlin spoke as he took a bandage and started wrapping up Gwaine’s arm. “Is this how you truly feel?”

“Yes, Merlin, for a while now.” Gwaine paused, wondering how to say exactly how he felt. “You have no idea how hard it is seeing you every day around the castle with your perfect arse and gorgeous eyes and soft hands-”

“I think I do, Gwaine,” was Merlin’s response, and before Gwaine could even form a confused frown, Merlin’s lips were on his.

This kiss was longer, deeper, yet still soft, and full of desire and longing and wanting, from Gwaine and mirrored by Merlin. It was over far too soon for Gwaine’s liking and he was left wanting more.

Merlin pulled away and held a finger to Gwaine’s lips to stop him from protesting.

“Before you say anything, we can continue this later,” Merlin started with a smile on his lips, “but you need to get back out there or people might talk.”

“Oh, let them talk.” Gwaine swatted away Merlin’s hand and took Merlin’s chin with his good hand and kissed him deeply. Merlin, however, could only laugh and pull away.

“I would love for this to continue, but not now, Gwaine.” The knight pulled his best puppy dog eyes, but Merlin did not fall for it. Accepting defeat, Gwaine dropped his head and stood up. Merlin tidied the place and stood up, faced Gwaine and expressed, “You have no idea how happy I am that this happened, Gwaine, and I can’t wait for it to continue.” Gwaine couldn’t believe it either, and the fact that he was speechless made it much more apparent. He couldn’t remember a time he had been more lost for words.

“Now get out there, and show them all that your arm hasn’t fallen off. And, please put Arthur on his arse at least once.”

Gwaine beamed a huge grin across his face. “After you, my dear.” Gwaine bowed as Merlin laughed and walked past. Now was his chance.

Gwaine smacked Merlin’s backside as he left the tent.

Merlin looked back, rubbing his behind.

“Oi!”

#merwaine #mergwaine #merlin #merlin bbc #sir gwaine #merwaine fest #merwaine fest 2023 #merwainefest2023 #i hope you enjoy this!!! #i discovered merwaine fest far too late so this is my one entry in on time #however the other prompts look v ~tasty~ too #so might write some now but post later? would that be ok @ mods #or do i need to write them asap be included in this fest #anyway #merci #where_the_kissing_never_stops #wtkns #op #my works

[writingwithcolor]

Jurassic period alien interacting with key cultures and historical figures in Middle East & Asia throughout history

@ketchupmaster400​ said:

Hello, so my question is for a character I’ve been working on for quite a while but wasn’t sure about a few things. So basically at the beginning of the universe there was this for less being made up of dark matter and dark energy. Long story short it ends up on earth during the Jurassic Period. It has the ability to adapt and assimilate into other life animals except it’s hair is always black and it’s skin is always white and it’s eyes are always red. It lives like this going from animal to animal until it finally becomes human and gains true sentience and self awareness. As a human it lives within the Middle East and Asia wondering around trying to figure out its purpose and meaning. So what I initially wanted to do with it was have small interactions with the dark matter human and other native humans that kinda helped push humanity into the direction it is now. For example, Mehndhi came about when the dark matter human was drawing on their skin because it felt insecure about having such white skin compared to other people. And ancient Indians saw it and thought it was cool so they adopted it and developed it into Mehndi. Minor and small interactions though early history leading to grander events. Like they would be protecting Jerusalem and it’s people agains the Crusaders later on. I also had the idea of the the dark matter human later on interacting with the prophets Jesus Christ and Muhammad. With Jesus they couldn’t understand why he would sacrifice himself even though the people weren’t deserving. And then Jesus taught them that you have to put other before yourself and protecting people is life’s greatest reward. And then with the prophet Muhammad, I had the idea that their interaction was a simple conversation that mirrors the one he had with the angel Jibril, that lead to the principles of Islam. Now with these ideas I understand the great importance of how not to convey Islam and I’ve been doing reasearch, but I am white and I can understand how that may look trying to write about a different religion than my own. So I guess ultimate my question is, is this ok to do? Is it ok to have an alien creature interact with religious people and historical events as important as they were? Like I said I would try to be as accurate and as respectable as possible but I know that Islam can be a touchy subject and the last thing I would want is to disrespect anyone. The main reason I wanted the dark matter being in the Middle East was because I wanted to do something different because so much has been done with European and American stuff I wanted to explore the eastern side of the world because it’s very beau and very rich with so many cultures that I want to try and represent. I’m sorry for the long post but I wanted you guys to fully understand what my idea was. Thank you for your time and hope you stay safe.

Disclaimer:

The consensus from the moderators was that the proposed character and story is disrespectful from multiple cultural perspectives. However, we can’t ignore the reality that this is a commonly deployed trope in many popular science fiction/ thriller narratives. Stories that seek to take religious descriptions of events at face value from an areligious perspective particularly favor this approach. Thus, we have two responses:

Where we explain why we don’t believe this should be attempted.

Where we accept the possibility of our advice being ignored.

1) No - Why You Shouldn’t Do This:

Hi! I’ll give you the short answer first, and then the extended one.

Short answer: no, this is not okay.

Extended answer. I’ll divide it into three parts.

1) Prophet Muhammad as a character:

Almost every aspect of Islam, particularly Allah (and the Qur’an), the Prophet(s) and the companions at the time of Muhammad ﷺ, are strictly kept within the boundaries of real life/reality. I’ll assume this comes from a good place, and I can understand that from one side, but seriously, just avoid it. It is extremely disrespectful and something that is not even up to debate for Muslims to do, let alone for non-Muslims. Using Prophet Muhammad as a character will only bring you problems. There is no issue with mentioning the Prophet during his lifetime when talking about his attributes, personality, sayings or teachings, but in no way, we introduce fictional aspects in a domain that Muslims worked, and still work, hard to keep free from any doubtful event or incident. Let’s call it a closed period: we don’t add anything that was not actually there.

Reiterating then, don’t do this. There is a good reason why Muslims don’t have any pictures of Prophet Muhammad. We know nothing besides what history conveyed from him. 

After this being said, there is another factor you missed – Jesus is also an important figure in Islam and his story from the Islamic perspective differs (a lot) from that of the Christian perspective. And given what you said in your ask, you would be taking the Christian narrative of Jesus. If it was okay to use Prophet Muhammad as a character (reminder: it’s not) and you have had your dark matter human interacting with the biblical Jesus, it will result in a complete mess; you would be conflating two religions.

2) Crusaders and Jerusalem:

You said this dark matter human will be defending Jerusalem against the Crusaders. At first, there is really no problem with this. However, ask yourself: is this interaction a result of your character meeting with both Jesus and Prophet Muhammed? If yes, please refer to the previous point. If not, or even if you just want to maintain this part of the story, your dark matter human can interact with the important historical figures of the time. For example, if you want a Muslim in your story, you can use Salah-Ad-Din Al-Ayoubi (Saladin in the latinized version) that took back Jerusalem during the Third Crusade. Particularly, this crusade has plenty of potential characters. 

Also, featuring Muslim characters post Prophet Muhammad and his companions’ time, is completely fine, just do a thorough research.

 3) Middle Eastern/South Asian settings and Orientalism:

The last point I want to remark is with the setting you chose for your story. Many times, when we explore the SWANA or South Asian regions it’s done through an orientalist lens. Nobody is really safe from falling into orientalism, not even the people from those regions. My suggestion is educating yourself in what orientalism is and how it’s still prevalent in today’s narrative. Research orientalism in entertainment, history... and every other area you can think of. Edward Said coined this term for the first time in history, so he is a good start. There are multiple articles online that touch this subject too. For further information, I defer to middle eastern mods. 

- Asmaa

Racism and Pseudo-Archaeology:

A gigantic, unequivocal and absolute no to all of it, lmao. 

I will stick to the bit about the proposed origin of mehendi in your WIP, it’s the arc I feel I’m qualified to speak on, Asmaa has pretty much touched upon the religious and orientalism complications. 

Let me throw out one more word: pseudoarchaeology. That is, taking the cultural/spiritual/historical legacies of ancient civilizations, primarily when it involves people of colour, and crediting said legacies to be the handiwork of not just your average Outsider/White Saviour but aliens. I’ll need you to think carefully about this: why is it that in so much of media and literature pertaining to the so-called “conspiracy theories” dealing with any kind of extraterrestrial life, it’s always Non-Western civilizations like the Aztec, the ancient Egyptians, the Harappans etc who are targeted? Why is it that the achievements of the non West are so unbelievable that it’s more feasible to construct an idea of non-human, magical beings from another planet who just conveniently swooped in to build our monuments and teach us how to dress and what to believe in? If the answer makes you uncomfortable, it’s because it should: denying the Non-West agency of their own feats is not an innocent exercise in sci-fi worldbuilding, it comes loaded with implications of racial superiority and condescension towards the intellect and prowess of Non-European cultures. 

Now, turning to specifics:

Contrary to what Sarah J. Maas might believe- mehendi designs are neither mundane, purely aesthetic tattoos nor can they be co-opted by random Western fantasy characters. While henna has existed as an art form in various cultures, I’m limiting my answer to the Indian context, (specifying since you mention ancient India). Mehendi is considered one of the tenets of the Solah Shringar- sixteen ceremonial adornments for Hindu brides, one for each phase of the moon, as sanctioned by the Vedic texts. The shade of the mehendi is a signifier for the strength of the matrimonial bond: the darker the former, the stronger the latter. Each of the adornments carries significant cosmological/religious symbolism for Hindus. To put it bluntly, when you claim this to be an invention of the aliens, you are basically taking a very sacred cultural and artistic motif of our religion and going “Well actually….extraterrestrials taught them all this.”

In terms of Ayurveda (Traditional holistic South Asian medicine)  , mehendi was used for its medicinal properties. It works as a cooling agent on the skin and helps to alleviate stress, particularly for the bride-to-be. Not really nice to think that aliens lent us the secrets of Ayurvedic science (pseudoarchaeology all over again). 

I’m just not feeling this arc at all. The closest possible alternative I could see to this is the ancient Indian characters incorporating some specific stylistic motifs in their mehendi in acknowledgement to this entity, in the same vein of characters incorporating motifs of tribute into their armour or house insignia, but even so, I’m not sure how well that would play out. If you do go ahead with this idea, I cannot affirm that it will not receive backlash.

-Mimi

These articles might help:

 Pseudoarchaeology and the Racism Behind Ancient Aliens

A History of Indian Henna (this studies mehendi origins mostly with reference to Mughal history)

Solah Shringar

2) Not Yes, But If Ignoring the Above:

I will be the dissenting voice of “Not No, But Here Are The Big Caveats.” Given that there is no way to make the story you want to tell palatable to certain interpretations of Islam and Christianity, here is my advice if the above arguments did not sufficiently deter you.

1. Admiration ≠ Research: It is not enough to just admire cultures for their richness and beauty. You need to actually do the research and learn about them to determine if the story you want to tell is a good fit for the values and principles these cultures prioritize. You need to understand the significance of historical figures and events to understand the issues with attributing the genesis of certain cultural accomplishments to an otherworldly influence. 1.

2. Give Less Offense When Possible and Think Empathetically: You should try to imagine the mindsets of those you will offend and think about to what degree you can soften or ameliorate certain aspects of your plot, the creature’s characteristics, and the creature’s interactions with historical figures to make your narrative more compatible. There is no point pretending that much of areligious science fiction is incompatible with monotheist, particularly non-henotheistic, religious interpretations as well as the cultural items and rituals derived from those religious interpretations. One can’t take “There is no god, just a lonely alien” and make that compatible with “There is god, and only in this particular circumstance.” Thus:

As stated above by Asmaa and Mimi, there is no escaping the reality the story you propose is offensive to some. Expect their outcry to be directed towards you. Can you tolerate that?

Think about how you would feel if someone made a story where key components of your interpretation of reality are singled out as false. How does this make you feel? Are you comfortable doing that to others?

3. Is Pseudoarchaeology Appropriate Here?: Mimi makes a good point about the racial biases of pseudoarchaeology. Pseudoarchaeology is a particular weakness of Western-centric atheist sci-fi. Your proposed story is the equivalent of a vaguely non-descript Maya/Aztec/Egyptian pyramid or Hindu/ Buddhist-esque statue being the source for a Resident Evil bio weapon/ Predator nest/ Assassin’s Creed Isu relic.

Is this how you wish to draw attention to these cultures you admire? While there is no denying their ubiquity in pop-culture, such plots trivialize broad swathes of non-white history and diminish the accomplishments of associated ethnic groups. The series listed above all lean heavily into these tropes either because the authors couldn’t bother to figure out something more creative or because they are intentionally telling a story the audience isn’t supposed to take seriously.*

More importantly, I detect a lot of sincerity in your ask, so I imagine such trivialization runs counter to your expressed desire to depict Eastern cultures in a positive and accurate manner.

4. Freedom to Write ≠ Freedom from Consequence: Once again, as a reminder, it’s not our job to reassure you as to whether or not what you are proposing is ok. Asmaa and Mimi have put a lot of effort into explaining who you will offend and why.  We are here to provide context, but the person who bears the ultimate responsibility for how you choose to shape this narrative, particularly if you share this story with a wide audience, is you. Speaking as one writer to another, I personally do not have a strong opinion one way or the other, but I think it is important to be face reality head-on.

- Marika.

* This is likely why the AC series always includes that disclaimer stating the games are a product of a multicultural, inter-religious team and why they undermine Western cultures and Western religious interpretations as often (if not moreso) than those for their non-Western counterparts.

Note: Most WWC asks see ~ 5 hours of work from moderators before they go live. Even then, this ask took an unusually long amount of time in terms of research, emotional labor and discussion. If you found this ask (and others) useful, please consider tipping the moderators (link here), Asmaa (coming eventually) and Mimi (here). I also like money - Marika.

#alien character #historical fiction #science fiction #pseudoarchaeology #Middle-Eastern cultures #South-Asian cultures #Islam #writing with Islam #mehendi #cultural appropriation #areligious perspectives in writing #asks #WWC

[shegairowmyamo]

Yandere Turbo x Reader headcanons

ok so im done waiting to try and get a second tumblr account so i'm just gonna post it heer and bicehouse i know that there are gonna be those who are STARVING for content like this and i'm one of those so i decided to make it myself. I'm dipping my toes in the diper end of the pool now but you know, baby steps. Besides, I'm thinking of doing more things like this but this has all been for fun but i will warn you that i'm not used to writing a lot of lovey dovey stuff. I hope you enjoy it.

If you're sly enough maybe you can get this guy rapt around your finger but believe me or not, Turbo is smart but his jealousy can get the best of him. If the backstory that Felix told Calhoun told us anything is that Turbo will do anything to get rid of computision, so who isn't to say that he would go at the same lengths for you too.

He doesn't trust you with ALLOT of the residents of the arcade, some of the onley few is Felix and “maybe” the Twins™ and perhaps even Tapper for whatever reason.

If he ever sees you talking to another person he will 1. Assume that the one who is talking to you was the one to start the conversation: and hopefully 2. Try and restrain his obvious jealousy and rage with a strained smile and and not going all out yelling at the purson: 3. “Calmly” walk up to the heathen who dares come close to his prize possession. Now this is fun and all to imagine but what if the heathen was hitting on you… In which this bitches jealousy will go true the roof and all logic goes out the window he will go in, engines roaring his car to life (idk how cars work but this sounds cool) as he sweeps in.

Oh you could smell the burning hot jealousy from a mile away, and now that i think about it… It smells like burnt rubber… Basically what i'm getting at here is that Turbo would totally run this jackass over. He will receive a death glare everytime Turbo sees the ass hat. Menttoly declaring him as a threat and putting him on his bucket list of games to unplug.

The aftermath of all this would either be just him having an arm around your waist for the rest of the night and when someone comes too close for his liking He will pull you closer to him “for protection” as he puts it. Or you would have to go into one of your games and calm him down because Turbo is having a full blown attack of some kind. He's repeating words and sometimes sentences, he's holding you close while his vision is blurry from the amount of rage he feels. Being mad at that no good loser for daring getting close to you yada yada. He demands and expects to be cuddled and kissed while being told how great he is and how you're never leaving him.

This (gremlin) man would unplugged any game for you even if its just “because that character was mean to me :(“ and he will be like (idk how to write a character with a lisp) “don't worry babe you don't need to worry about that asshole for mutch long” cue evil laughter. But as silly as that sounded we both know his intention, and they are far from silly.

Turbo sometimes has a hard time hiding the 8-bit hearts that pop out of into the air surrounding him and in his eyes, especially the time he realized he was “in love” with you. And then it turned into an obsession and became overly possessive over you. He will do like that thing where he will just ask for a hug out of nower to get your attention and out of your line of sight he will stare down the person you were talking to. It is creapy as fuck but also cinda hot.. I mean like yah having someone wanting to be with you 24/7 can sound kinda exhausting but the image of him being so protective over someone just makes me swoon you know what i mean.

The first person you're going to see when you exit your game is obviously Turbo, he will be just casually leaning on a wall asking what took you so long in a playful manner. And then he will casually just ask you if you want to go to Tappers or some other game to hangout in while ignoring any protest or excuses that you tell him. But don't be fooled by his careless demeanor because he will store those little protests in a jar of grudges.

If i had to guess this man's love languages it would be words of affirmation and his close second being receiving gifts. So inflating his ego might not be such a bad thing on your part. But on everybody else's “whistle”. If anything it would help you survive this guy from anything getting out of hand if you were to refuse him too many times. One day right after closing time he will insist that you must be so tired and that you should hang out in his game for the night but after you both get there and Turbo make sure that there are no witnesses he will knock your lights out. And even if there were witnesses it would probably be just one or both of the twins. But they both have noticed the change in Turbo and his increased aggressive behavior and they didn't wanna get involved so they both agreed to keep quiet. Man it seems that everyone in Turbo Time is a selfish git.

The absence of you in your game forste Litwick to unplug it for good which makes your home just a memory of the retro past. Turbo with a sinisterly joyful smile on his face watches as your expresion turns even more sorrowful and helpless when he tells you the news. The twins have this sinking feeling ever since the day they saw you get kidnapped and after your game got unplugged it got even worse but it made them more determined to beat Turbo in the races they have as their own revenge. But a part of them feared that all that anger was gonna get taken out on you and it was confirmed one specific day when Turbo went to mod knows where and came back a few hours later with blood on his knuckles. After that they backed down with the whole winning thing a little just for your sake.

One day tho one of the twins were looking for something when he heard heavy breathing coming from one of the places in Turbo Time that he usually didn't go to, whoever was there heard him and abruptly stopped. It encuregd him to wallck kloser to the noise and when he did, oh boi. The piercing eyes of a tied up purson (aka you) stared at him in disbelief and fear. Thinking at first that they were Turbo but when you realized that it was one of the twins your eyes soon changed to desporation. Releasing now what the twin had stumbled upon he quickly retreated, the desporet cry and anguished scream for his help still haunt him especially those eyes. What did Turbo do to you…

Turbo at this point only sees you as an object, his prize possession but he would never harm you at least not physically. He wants to keep his winners cup spotless, that includes any dents or bruises. And the bloody knuckles are just from him punching the wall right beside your head to scare you and to get his point across if it wasn't obvious from the start.

#wir headcanon #turbo x reader #yandere turbo #yandere #yandere x reader #wir turbo #my writing #yandere wir turbo #yandere turbo x reader #wir

[quotes-of-dreamland]

Mod Lor, *please* take this as an excuse to ramble, what you've written is *awesome* so far

Mod Lor: OH BOY ok in that case I'll explain sorta what happened after RtD and Lor's relationship with Magolor because it's what I've thought about the most... I mean I did write what was technically 2 ficlets about it, but they're the same event from Lor and Magolor's perspectives. However I'm nervous so I haven't posted them anywhere outside Discord...

Anyways, so. I already mentioned that Lor woke up after/during the collapse of Another Dimension. I say that because it's the first time Lor is seen acting on her own without any influence from Magolor, because he fucking died and dead people can't tell a strong and independent boat what to do. That isn't to say living people can, because Lor still does whatever she wants, and it just so happens that maybe sometimes what she wants is what she's being told to do.

So, this leads to one of the more interesting times in Lor's life, which lasted maybe a couple weeks to a few months. I'll get to that later.

She's been woken up in an unfamiliar place, and also in a completely new era by this point. See, Lor was initially put in the Haldera volcano somewhere around 100 years of age, probably a bit younger. By this point she's closer to 30,000 years old. To get an idea of that sort of time frame, Nova is closer to 70,000 years, while Galacta Knight is only a few centuries older than Lor.

So, as someone's Dark Meta Knight very eloquently put it in an rp, she's old as balls.

However, she's barely spent any of that time conscious. She wasn't aware of how much time had passed until attempting to go back to Halcandra with Landia, and the first thing she noticed besides "wait what the fuck, Landia has visibly aged" was the fact that Egg Engines was visibly degraded and rusting over. Now, that wouldn't have meant much to most; exposed metal rusts when exposed to rain over time. Simple oxidation. Here's the thing, though:

Lor was put in the volcano before that island of Halcandra had a proper water cycle. She'd been unconscious long enough for the place to develop weather patterns.

So, that was a pretty big shock. Then Landia basically explains "yeah so, uhhh, funny story, you can't live here anymore, times have changed and not for the better" before they go back to their roost. So, y'know, that's just great, and Lor goes back to Popstar to try and figure out what to do with her life. She's alone, everyone she ever knew is dead except Landia (but they don't count because they've now had a whopping single one-sided conversation), and she doesn't even know where she is beyond the name of the galaxy and planet.

That's where she finds herself for a bit of time following RtD. But then, a very interesting thing happens. Lor's chilling, still coming to terms with Everything, and then suddenly an unconscious egg she's never seen in her life just. Manifests in her equivalent of the living room. You know, because that's just a normal Tuesday occurrence apparently!

She initially doesn't really grasp the severity of the situation, because she doesn't know this is Magolor and that he's been dead for as long as she's been awake post-volcano. After sorting out the mutual feelings of "what the fuck?", Magolor passes out again, and Lor realizes "oh wait this kid ain't doing too great" and gives him medical attention. Which is good, because if she hadn't, he probably would've met Morpho again and maybe not been yeeted back into the world of the living for a second time.

So, initially, their dynamic is pretty different from what it is now.

Lor looks at Magolor as suspicious, but she has standards and isn't just gonna abandon him while he's still recovering from some event he can't even talk about without panicking. Basically a reluctant "ok fine you can live here and I'll look after you until you get better and we can figure things out after that". There was some confusion about the fact that apparently everyone seems to hate him for no apparent reason, but she took it as him being in a similar situation to her where he just didn't fit in with what society wanted from him.

Magolor doesn't really know how to feel about Lor at first. She wasn't exactly the most polite when he woke up, but wasn't really mean to him either. Interestingly, she also didn't seem to remember him at all or know about what he did. He knew things that she didn't, and he wasn't really able or willing to tell the whole story.

He wouldn't be until years later, and even then it was because he was put in a situation where he didn't have much of a choice. Thanks Meta Knight! Needless to say, that was a rough time for them both.

Still, it didn't take super long for Lor to go from reluctant caretaker to "I've decided this egg is now my son because he accidentally called me mom once when he was really tired and on pain medication" and Magolor subsequently deciding maybe the real source of limitless power is the found family he got along the way.

Also if you asked Magolor about any of that he would deny it. His mom is NOT a boat, no sir, this relationship is purely for mutual benefits, and not because he doesn't have any way to go back to his "real" family but still requires love and care from someone he can trust and be open with. Pay no mind to the affectionate nicknames Lor gives him like "my little peach boy" or "resident hazelnut" because they mean NOTHING to him and do not help to fill any type of emotional void. This is all extremely true, he is not lying, he has never told a lie in his life, he doesn't even know what that word means.

Needless to say, it doesn't take much to see through that. Even if your vision is as bad as Lor's.

Lor cares he and there's nothing he can do about it. Not that he would do anything about it in the first place. Again he wouldn't admit that.

However, all of this does lead to shenanigans. Despite the age and life experience difference, Magolor gets to take on the role of being the voice of reason, while Lor, being a research ship, likes to test things, like Meta Knight's patience, or Magolor's sanity, or the law... you get the idea. She might be a parental figure now, but that doesn't mean Lor's become wholly mature or stopped being impulsive.

#not quote #mod lor #anon ask #long post

[thatmomentwhen345]

Ok ummmmmmmmmmmmmm

These last two weeks have been very emotionally exhausting because of finals and what I’m about to tell you and I don’t really know how to sum it up so I guess you’re getting the same treatment as my Facebook (this is copied directly from the post on there and was posted on December 12th for context)

(This is the beginning of the Facebook post)

You guys, I don’t know what to do.

You might have gathered from my last few posts, but I’m not okay. And it will sound like such a stupid reason to the majority of you. But I made an irreversible mistake back in 2019 that has been haunting me for the past week. This is the first time that I can remember regretting a decision this much. Was it my stubbornness, my closed-mindedness? Was it my see-it-to-believe-it tendencies? Was it my inability to learn from my mistakes?

For those who don’t know, on November 13th of this year, the YouTube channel Unus Annus was deleted from the platform forever. After one year of daily videos by Markiplier and CrankGameplays, it was all gone. The point of the channel was to remind us to use our time that we have alive wisely, because Memento Mori. Remember that you must die.

The channel started on November 15th of 2019, and, well, I don’t know anything about their beginnings. I just saw their introduction video in my recommended or on trending or something and thought, “Is that Markiplier? Shouldn’t he be focusing on his own channel? Who’s this other guy?” and moved on without a second thought. I occasionally saw their videos in the trending tab but ignored them. I didn’t even know they had such a big following. I thought it looked stupid and didn’t think about it until, well, the end.

A few weeks ago, my brother was watching the final livestream that would mark the day that the channel was deleted for good. I was in the room with the livestream on the TV, watching their final hours tick by, still not thinking about the channel at all. Just like, oh hey that thing that people were talking about, wasn’t it like, a cult? I didn’t think about it at all until... the fifth of December? Was it really only a week ago? That feels like a lifetime away now...

The YouTuber FootofaFerret released a video called “Pretending Unus Annus Isn’t Over” and I saw it in my reccomended. https://youtu.be/8SMpCbI9U00 I was like, hey, yeah, I remember that thing that ended. I trusted Foafy’s judgement because of his previous videos about saying goodbye to Steven Universe. So I watched it and don’t really remember how it made me feel. I just remember him saying that the Unus Annus fandom was in mourning and I was like “aw poor guys I’ve seen on TikTok some people are sad about it”. Foafy also suggested that people who were wanting more of the Unus Annus vibe to watch Mark’s Markiplier Makes playlist. I watched some of them and, again, moved on.

The timeline is fuzzy from here on. I’m still processing it, honestly. I think I might have looked up the Unus Annus theme (Turncoat by Michael Rothery) first? Then I think I found some compilations or clips from their videos and was like wow this stuff is funny. And then I realized that there are archived versions of all of their videos (that’s against the rules of Unus Annus for those who don’t know) and... don’t hate me... went looking for them. I watched two in full. I won’t say which two but just know that the second one I specifically searched out because I knew that they did a lot of random stuff on there and that there was a chance that they would do it too. And they did! It was a funny video. I realized how much of a fun dynamic that Ethan and Mark had and looked for more compilations. The more I watched, the more I realized that I had made a terrible mistake in 2019.

I had missed out on so much. And I couldn’t take it back without breaking the rules. The concept of Unus Annus intrigued me so much, all of the people involved on the channel worked so well together, they were all so funny, but now I could never experience it in full because I was stubborn and, well, thinking about other things this year. I could have jumped in at any point between then and November 13th of this year but I chose not to.

Monday was a rollercoaster. 1st stage: denial. I was like well this doesn’t matter, I’m not even in the UA fandom, it’s gone and I don’t care. But it wasn’t that simple of course. I kept watching the Markiplier Makes videos and the UA compilations and became particularly interested in Ethan. He seemed very genuine and sensitive and his on-camera chemistry with Mark was really entertaining. 2nd stage: anger. I was furious at myself for missing out. Those two videos I watched in full were just small teasers for what the entire channel was like. I hated that I couldn’t take it back. And I hated that if I did, I would’ve broken the rules and gone against Mark and Ethan’s wishes, which I also wouldn’t be able to take back. I was horribly conflicted. 3rd stage: bargaining. I desperately went after any content surrounding Unus Annus that I could without breaking the rules, and was still considering watching the illegal archives. I haven’t watched any more of them in full, but sometimes I watch parts of them in incognito mode when it becomes too much to bear.

Tuesday was... Tuesday had to have been the longest day I’ve had the entire year. 4th stage: depression. It was slowly sinking in, the gravity of my mistake. I was starting to realize how much of a phenomenon Unus Annus was and that it was so unique and had such a cool message and that it made so many peoples’ 2020 just a little bit better, but not mine. I then did what I always do and found my comfort in music. I put on a bunch of good songs that I hadn’t heard in a while and just... sat there painstakingly doing my math homework. I couldn’t concentrate on anything the whole day. Monday, either. The song Goodbye to a World by Porter Robinson came on and I was like hey, this song perfectly suits the way I’m feeling right now. I wondered if anyone else had made connections between this song and Unus Annus and looked to see if there had been any AMVs (animated music videos) about the idea and the end of UA. Lo and behold, this popped up and I watched it! https://youtu.be/-q-oByQWdlM It hit all the right spots and I just started bawling. What had I done? Why had I missed this opportunity to improve my 2020, just a little bit? Why had I missed this opportunity to get to know Mark and Ethan better? Everyone who had watched all of their videos could feel peace after the end, like Mark and Ethan. But I couldn’t. I could only forever regret my mistake. MY mistake.

Terrible things have happened this year, but all of them have been out of my control. This, however, was my fault. And I can never take it back. And I am having a very hard time handling that.

I don't know how many times I cried on Tuesday. The next song to come on after I watched the AMV was As the World Caves In by Matt Maltese which of course broke me even further. This song also perfectly encapsulated my dilemma. Later I finished my tribute drawing of the channel logo and felt the smallest bit better. The rest of the day is a blur.

Wednesday was better, I guess? I thought I had made it to the 5th stage: acceptance. I was still very sad and mad at myself but I was starting to realize that there was nothing I could do. I subscribed to Ethan’s channel and started getting to know him better. He’s so sweet and talented ☺️

But no, acceptance is still far away. Thursday and Friday were barely better than Tuesday. I painted my nails black and white as a way of coping. I went to a livestream on Ethan’s Twitch and it was really fun! I started watching more of his streams and on one of them he mentioned that his Twitch chat mods had TikToks. So I wondered if he also had a TikTok, which he does! I looked to see if he posted one on the day UA ended. The answer was no but he did post one the day after asking if someone with the skills required could make a mashup of the song Cancer by My Chemical Romance and As the World Caves In. https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJqgyrkR/ I was like wowie this guys got taste! And so I looked up if there was a mashup. As a matter of fact, there was one by Clem Turner on YouTube that came out only three days after the end of Unus Annus. https://youtu.be/a5RTVoreSAY I cannot express how much I love this, what it made me feel, and how much it hurt/helped. So I commented on Ethan’s TikTok about it and only a few hours later a new comment appeared on Clem’s video. Ethan had seen it! So I’m just gonna assume I was responsible for that... not only that but half of the comments on the mashup were about Unus Annus as you can see below. I realized how big of a following UA had and felt bad (because of course the people who had actually been with UA the whole way would be grieving a lot more than me), but also, comforted by the fact we could all connect over the loss of something important to them, if in a lot of different ways.

I’m far from getting over this. I’m far from being okay. I’ve never really felt like this before. I feel like a different person than I was last week. But I wanted to write all this down to let it out, process it a little bit, and maybe get some comfort from you guys. It’s completely understandable if you didn’t read this all the way through so...

TLDR: Memento Mori.

(This is the end of the Facebook post)

What I just described really shifted a lot of things in my head in a way I didn’t expect and in a very short amount of time. So, long story short, my Steven Universe hyperfixation ended very suddenly because of an outside factor and I probably won’t be posting a lot about it anymore. Hope you understand.

(art by me but I used the official UA logo as a reference)

#personal #long post #my art #please read if you are wondering about the change of atmosphere

[once-upon-a-scenario]

Breaking Point: Dabi/reader

(Warnings for pure angst, slight mentions of violence/character death, and manga spoilers!) *Reupload because idk why but the post wasn’t showing up in any of the tags? It doesn’t matter how you feel about Dabi; Twice is gone, you’ve lost a friend, and you’re not willing to let yourself hurt any longer. (Or: essentially, reader breaks up with Dabi.) (Hmmm kind of a vent fic, of sorts? So the writing quality is really not the best;;; to clarify, just in case I made it too confusing, reader is basically upset because they just want some stability and to stop losing people they love, so Reader: can you please stop Dabi, his willingness to sacrifice people for his goals, and his personal lack of self preservation: lmao...you wish? also apparently I hate Dabi because I have another breakup fic planned for him??? It wasn’t intentional, just that everything I write for this guy inevitably turns into angst lol -Mod Eve) ___________ This isn’t the first time. If it was, you wouldn’t be here right now. If you thought that everybody would get out of this alive, you wouldn’t be one of the bad guys. If you’d never lost anything before, you wouldn’t have gone to the lengths you have to protect what you have left. This isn’t the first time. But, in spite of it all, in spite of the horrible naivety of it- you hoped that Magne would be the last. You’re standing at the top of the stairs now, watching the clouds. The sky’s clear, the weather’s warm; it’s a good day for killing. In the distance, you can make out the bird-quirk kid from U.A, a black speck in the distance as he makes off with the Number 2 Hero. They’re still in your line of sight, and your quirk is a ranged one. You could, theoretically, make that shot. See if you can avenge Jin. It’s the least you could do to try. Instead, your hand falls limply to your side. A shadow falls over the cracked stone floor, and you stay silent, eyes trained on the speck that is Hawks and his savior, growing rapidly smaller and farther away. “Hey.” Dabi’s voice is scratchy, hoarse from smoke and screaming. A little frayed around the edges. As frayed as you feel, maybe. He calls your name; you don’t respond.

“You could’ve gotten him- what’re you waiting for-“ “You know,” you cut in, still staring up at the clouds and the blue, blue sky. “I always thought Hawks was a pretty nice guy.” Sudden silence. Well, as long as he’s listening. As long as he knows what’s coming. You have a feeling he does; you and Dabi, you’ve always been close like that. “I didn’t lose just one friend today.” You inhale, exhale, slowly. Try to keep yourself stable. Try not to think about Hawks staring you down, telling you not to interfere- “I just need Twice to stay put. This doesn’t have to be any harder than it already is. Neither of you has to get hurt.” But one of us did, and whose fault is it, in the end?  “And I guess you knew all along, huh. You knew…” The bloody half of Magne’s body falling to the ground. Kurogiri, captured and gone. Twice, melting away before your eyes. He knew that this might happen. “This,” and Dabi sounds strained, in pain, like he’s falling apart and it’s only his stapled skin and his pride keeping him from losing every shred of nonchalance he has left, and you won’t look back at him because if you see the look on his face right now you know that’s going to be the killing blow- “This wasn’t planned. Shit, what do you take me for? You think I’d throw away a power like Twice’s just like that?” “No, you wouldn’t.” Your nails are digging into your palms but you barely feel the sting. “Because that’s what it was about- power. Winning. It was a gamble.” The U.A kid is out of sight now. You suspect Hawks might live, if he just gets medical attention in time, and maybe you should be angry, but you meant it when you let him go. There’s no point in revenge anymore. Not now, when there’s a war raging on the ground below, one of your best friends, your only friends, is dead, and another’s a traitor, while your leader is gone, and Dabi- You don’t want to kill anymore. You don’t want a fight. You just want Jin back. You want to go to Dabi and let him hold you like he’s done in the past, tell him it’s ok, but that would be a lie. You’re so tired. “The league’s been home to me, you know.” Dabi isn’t like you, in that regard, and some part of you has always understood that this might happen, sooner or later. All you’ve ever really wanted is a chance to survive alongside the people you love; Dabi has bigger goals, and he’s willing to take risks for them. So this is your breaking point: your moment to let him go before he leaves. You turn, hands in your pockets. There’s a sharp intake of breath. “Where are you going?” You shrug. “Down. To Toga.” “You’re going to get yourself killed,” his voice cracks, breathless, on the verge of hysteria, and the sound is like a knife through your heart. You grit your teeth and keep walking. (You can love Dabi all you want, and he can love you back, and none of it will matter if his games don’t pay off, if his grand quest doesn’t end in victory- if you’ll be forced to watch more people die. If he might end up among those people.) “Toga needs me,” you reply as you begin your descent down the stairs, choosing your words carefully, blocking out the sound of his harsh, ragged breathing. “You can go. Make a few more gambles. Whatever you need to do.” It’s a cruel thing to say, isn’t it? Because you know he’s hurting, still reeling from his own miscalculation and the loss of Jin. He hides it well, but he’s suffering. He probably doesn’t want this any more than you do. The only problem is that pain won’t stop Dabi. So- you’ll go to Toga.  You hear him call your name, once, like a drowning man making his last fruitless reach above the waves before they swallow him, but you bow your head lower and walk. One step. Two step. You’ll be outside soon.  (You’ve never claimed to not be selfish. You’re only human, and you’ve lost enough. If you’re not prepared to let him leave you, then the only option is for you to leave first.)

#BNHA #Dabi x reader #Dabi x you #Dabi imagines #Dabi x y/n #Dabi #BNHA reader insert #scenario #Mod Eve

[lgchunji]

✧ .・゜゜hello, lgc admods!

     chwe hunji and jin eunji’s leaf wants to say: “hey admods! i know this may look a little sudden and a little weird but by the time you see this, i’ve been going around asking all the members what they want to say to you guys to show their appreciation! i know admin e probably already told you, but i used to do theater for about two years and i volunteered my time. i probably worked fifteen-thirty hours a week at a theater and i did not get paid and barely was thanked but i always put in effort. i gave them one hundred percent of myself and, if i was lucky, i would get a five dollar starbucks gift card in return. i was so exhausted and even stopped writing because i could not handle how much of myself i was losing every day. i gave a hundred percent of myself away and got five percent back. now, though, with legacy, everything has been flipped! you guys put a hundred ten percent of yourselves into this amazingly fun and honestly complicated place and i feel like i never get to give back. i know the joy of it all is in watching people write together but for me, just having fun was not enough, i wanted to compile something together for you guys! you do so much for us so i thought it was time i give just a sliver of myself back to you. so! under the cut is a lot of people’s messages that i’ve gathered. a lot of members were unable to send in something in time so i do apologize that not everyone is here, but i added a space in the bottom for anyone and everyone who wants to add something at a later date, so admins and members, be sure to check that often! in the meantime, though, you guys are so amazing and this place already means so much to me, i really hope legacy can continue to grow and flourish beyond your guys’ dreams because you really deserve it! p.s. the below notes are not in any particular order of length or alphabetized, they’re just random C:”

     han insoo’s al wants to say: “thank you for your kindness and dedication. you guys are troopers. i’m not very vocal about things publicly out of shyness but also bad experiences. i hope you guys know i appreciate to be here and that you guys have kept this up for so long despite the setbacks. it’s been a while since i felt comfy in a directory. much hugs and kithes!! thank you for being so open and welcoming!”      kang yonghwa and choi daehyung’s muffin wants to say- "thank you so much for all of the hard work! legacy is not an easy rp to run with all these career branches and events going on. i appreciate all of the mods for making this rp extra special by celebrating birthdays, holidays and other occasions. I love you all muahhhhhh~"      liu jiao and ok miyoung’s faye wants to say- “i disappeared from the rp scene for awhile and was kind of lost when it came to fitting back into everything. but joining legacy helped me along and i am so glad i decided to put my muse here. thank you to all the mods and for all of their hard word. i felt so welcomed by not only them, but the other members of the directory as well. so thank you for the lovely community you’ve brought together here. i am happy to say that legacy holds a special place in my heart.”      yoon shinha and pongsak, tee's simone wants to say: “when i first joined legacy it was because i had some friends here and i had read about it a lot on twitter. i was nervous and scared, which is how i usually feel when joining a new place. working on my own points page from scratch was a first but i was proud of myself and i felt accomplished when i finished it. i joined as a connection and it gave me a boost when it came to plotting. everyone was so nice and welcoming and i honestly love that when joining a new directory. the events were many and i was both excited and scared at how many there were. even if i couldn't understand something i knew i could ask an admin or mod and would get a quick reply. i love how kind and supportive the staff is. i've been here for a few months now and i always recommend it to others. i know that no matter what, i can go to a staff member with a question and i don't need to feel stupid for asking something bc the staff are so helpful and understanding. the thought that goes into this roleplay and the events are amazing and i am honestly so amazed every time a new event gets posted. they give sufficient time frames for events and i know they try to make it as fair as possible. i honestly love it here and i love the hard work and the time that is put into legacy.”      park taekyung and heo jane’s bobbi wants to say: “thank you for taking the time to create this awesome community! the time and effort you put into this rp is what makes it such a fun place and i hope that this post brings you just as much joy as you bring us! <3"      mayura nana’s cc wants to say: “i’ve been on and off in the group, seeing the first time it opened and how hard working the admins were to coming back and seeing the amount of growth in just a few months. i truly appreciate all that you guys have done for your members, the patience and love you put into every little thing you do so everyone can develop and enjoy themselves. you guys make this rp fun and safe and i’m forever grateful to have found a true home for my muse. keep up the good work and i can’t wait to continue being here and witnessing even more love and growth from the team ❤️”       park seojin, im hana and kang seyoon’s sara wants to say: “hello lovely team. it's been a great ride thus far and i'm so happy to have been here from the beginning to see the community grow. you've built a really nice and wholesome place here and it's been one of the best roleplays i've been in so far. it's hard running things but always remember that people love and respect you and so many of us are rooting for good things every day. you're human too and if you make a mistake, never beat yourself up over it. you keep things so much fun. truly nothing more i could ask of from a team. i’ve sent other messages in the past but there's really no limit to the praises and support i can offer to you guys. keep up the good work!! ♡♡”      wu aaron and kim alex’s em (aka the awkward cookie) wants to say - "to the amazing admins of this rp, i haven't been here nearly as long as others but i really enjoy having my muses here! i love lgc so much and you're all amazing admins who work very hard to keep this place running with amazing events! keep up the great work and i can't wait to see what else you all have planned! (please torture alex as much as you can. xD) i don't think i've really talked to the admins here much but still, i love you all and everything you do! <3 please don't let any negative comments or reviews get to ya'll and just know you're all doing great!"       choi jongsuk, son jieun, and kim jinah‘s jen wants to say -  "@ the mod team from your resident meme! you guys know how much i love lgc. i'm not shy annoying y'all with compliments and praise. every sunday is a highlight because there is always something exciting being posted- be it just a date lottery update or new events; you never fail to surprise and spoil us all with fun and creative ideas! also the way you manage to keep things as fair as possible for everyone and still manage to not make anyone feel left out or left behind. the quick replies to any kind of questions are just so nice to see and it makes me personally not scared ever to ask anything at all no matter how stupid the question may be! i probably annoy y'all with how often i said this already but i love this rp. i love the graphics, the concept and the execution of it all. thank you for creating this amazing space for all of us to write and hopefully to many more years! true to my name i shall exit on a meme~"      hwang subin and han allie’s nic wants to say - “hello admins!!! it's me, a nic. i know that i've said a lot of this in the past but to sum it all up, i love you guys!! thanks for giving me a place to feel a bit more comfortable when i don't feel that way in rp a lot lately. i love that you guys are always gracious and accepting of criticisms, questions, and critiques and i hope you continue to always be that way because i think it's important for rps to listen to their members. i also want you to know that you don't have to stand for rudely stated words just because you do that, either!! i appreciate the time you take to answer my questions, whether it be through the manager blog or through discord and for all the opportunities you've given my muses ( even if ONE of them might not be so grateful. i'm lookin at u subin ) so yeah ;u; i hope u all are having a lovely day, pls take care!!!”      tsai sunisa, park sarang, and jung jihye’s the ghost rper wants to say - “number one, thank you for making legacy an rp! i'm having a lot of fun with all of muses! especially since it's given me a chance to bring muses i've played before alive in another rp. two, they're [the admins] awesome for all of the stuff they've managed to do for the group and how many options you have to be apart of the industry and do more background related stuff! third, just stay awesome and remember to put yourself before rp! since without ya'll we wouldn't be here!”      min soyoun and kim jinseo‘s clara wants to say - "hi mods! thank you for making lgc a fun and safe haven for us. i appreciate the love, thought, and effort you all put in every single mission/event that happens in the roleplay. you guys are doing amazing!"      kwon sihyun‘s shinobi wants to say - “thank you for making me feel welcome!”      park iseul and ahn dohyun’s nine wants to say - “thank you so much for all your hard work! over the months i've been at lgc i've always felt like the admods have kept every single muse in mind when creating events and moulding the rp to fit the members. i've never felt as in love with an rp as i do now. keep up the good work, i can't wait to see the rp grow more and more!”      choi max and im nari‘s jada wants to say - “hi there mods !!! i didn't want this whole appreciation to go by without saying some words of my own, so here i go ! when i joined legacy a few months back i was hesitant to even join, doubting that i'd want to stay to make it even past the next activity check. it was an act of pure impulse, but perhaps the best thing i could've done ! alongside the many great friends i've made along the way, if it was not for all the hard work you do, the roleplay would not be nearly as lively of a universe as we've all made it to be ! i always compliment legacy for the dedication you all clearly have to making it enjoyable - from events going on all the time, to in-character posts that liven the spectrum of our creativity, to your speedy responses and patience whenever we have trouble ! i think me and the rest of the members can agree that what you do makes us enjoy the roleplay even more, and we always will be appreciative of that !! i think you guys run the roleplay SO smoothly at times that we forget the hard work you put in and the bumps you might encounter along the way, but it's times like this that make me realize how much more we should thank you. because of the team behind it all, i've once again found my place in a roleplay that's made me feel at home, and always ready to write and have fun !! i'm extremely grateful for the passion you've shown us and i hope that i too can do my best to make sure your hard work pays off and give thanks ! i'm looking forward to writing with all of you and giving a voice to our muses for as long as i'm able to type, haha ! <33 “      ahn yeoreum’s kay wants to say - "my first experience with krp wasn't exactly the best. i didn't land myself in the most welcoming environment and was planning to never join another krp. but i took a chance in lgc and didn’t regret it. since day one, everyone has been so welcoming and i loved playing yeoreum here. the admods have worked so hard to make this such a nice environment to rp in and i love how well thought-out all the events and activities are. thank you so much, admods !! we are super lucky to have such a talented and hard-working team. <3″      ji haneul’s maddy wants to say - “to legacy admods uwu, thank you for your endless hard work! seeing how the community has grown over the last few months, as well as the tons of opportunities for character development has made my time here absolutely amazing. i just want to say how much i love the rp, and how inspiring it can be in churning my writing muses. keep up the good work, and i hope you guys would also be able to have as much fun as the work you've put in in maintaining the rp! take care, stay safe, and stay awesome >:D *flings plushies in your directions* ♡"      lee seungjae’s fifi wants to say - "hello admods!!! i just wanted to say thank you for everything that you've done for lgc! i haven't been here long but everything about it is great and i can tell you've put in so much work to make it the great place that it is!"      kang dana‘s jay wants to say - “thank you so much for working so hard on this roleplay and allowing all of our characters to develop however we like! i have never enjoyed a rp as much as this one <3"      hwang jaerim and im hyunjin’s jia wants to say - "hello admod team, yall know im always here to bother u all with my weirdness and you guys are all great to talk to. i've been lucky enough to have been here since day 1 and to see this place flourish and see all the efforts you put into the rp, makes me glad to be here. thank you!!"      oh max and park viggo’s lyn wants to say -  "as one of those muns that has been in legacy from the very beginning, i've witnessed this rp grow and i can’t help but to feel extremely proud and happy for the admod team who works tirelessly to make sure that the progress isn’t only with the rp but genuinely with the muses within it. the admins take it into their own hands to celebrate the achievements that muses have obtained and put them on the spotlight, personally i've experienced screaming and getting emotionally overwhelmed with some of the mods at how happy and ecstatic i felt with some of the results for my muses. with that said i want to make it clear that my muses don’t always get what they want, when it happens, i do share some down time with said mods as well- not to complain but to just talk. the same happens vice versa, when the mods' muses don’t get a spot in future dreams or didn’t get the center of a group, or when they land a cf spot or has made progress by moving on a different path, i'm able to witness their reactions as muns as well- which quite frankly is humbling considering that it reminds me that their muns too and not just mods. essentially what i'm trying to say is that based on my experience and mine alone although i have no doubt i'm not the only one who feels this, clearly this post proves it, that the admod team is not just there to provide us with countless numbers of events or answer our endless amount of questions and woes with admirable patience or guide us in the right direction when we misplace a point or two in our submits, but rather to present us muns with a safe and progressive platform to comfortably establish and allow our muses to flourish in a highly entertaining environment. so thank you legacy team for your heartwarming and admirable work, i know this hasn’t been easy for you guys but hang in there, a lot of us got your backs ♡"

these are the folks who wanted to add something after this post was first published:

no one at the moment! if you want to say something to our lovely admins please either message them through the lgckrp askbox or, if you’re more shy, send me an IM or send it to lgchunji’s askbox with your message in quotations, which blogs you run, and your name/alias!

#lgckrp #( oof hope they see this lol ) #✧ .・゜゜leaf talks

[logans-chestnuts]

As You Are, Part 8*

A/N: Finally posting this replacement part that the Nipple Police deemed too naughty for Tumblr. 

I am also replacing my awful banner with this gorgeous art by @giggleberts. Thank you, dearest!!!!!

Logan had sneaked away and called you just before your alarm was set to go off again. You only spoke for a few minutes but it reassured you that he was taking whatever you had seriously. This would have been the perfect time to cool things off and reconsider the cons of being together without the incredible heat that existed between you distracting you, but if he was weighing his options, apparently there were more pros than cons at this point.

And you were as infatuated as ever, but now with a little more knowledge of who he was and genuine affection added in to the mix. Logan was unlike any man you had ever met. He was funny, smart, sexy and so inappropriate. You should probably be offended by some of the things he had said to you but he was so damned cute about it. He could charm the panties off a nun with that mischievous smile, and if he added a wink the Mother Superior would probably join in for a threesome.

Yeah, you were in deep and getting deeper.

The morning flew by. You were busy with work and that was how you liked it. You had sent a few texts to Logan throughout the day but for the most part you had been buried in your cube with headphones on, researching and writing.

You had no plans for the weekend because you hadn’t returned calls or texts all week as you had been completely engrossed in Logan. That would need to change, of course. You had good friends and your life couldn’t be put on hold for a man, he would need to fit in with your friends and…oh my, your family. Could Logan behave around family?

You decided to do some grocery shopping and laundry that night. You couldn’t live on Chinese leftovers forever, though statistically they would spoil before they ran out.

Logan had said he would probably have to go out drinking after meetings as it was a cultural thing, so you figured you either wouldn’t talk to him much or he’d drunk dial you. You were kind of hoping for the drunk dial as you had a feeling Logan was hilarious when plowed.

Your phone rang as you had settled in on the couch with a book and you grabbed it and saw Future Husband. Why hadn’t you changed that yet?

“Hi Logan,” you answered happily.

“Hey, what’re you doing?”

“Reading and doing laundry. How’d you sleep?”

“Lousy. Weird dreams. You doing anything this weekend?”

“Nope.”

“Too bad you’re not doing me.”

“That is too bad. But there’s plenty of time for that when you get back,” you said cheerfully.

“I don’t have to be anywhere for a couple hours. Video chat?”

“I am not having video sex with you, Logan,” you answered matter-of-factly.

Logan laughed. “You know me so well. And we’ve only been together a couple months.”

“Four days.”

“Like I said, couple months and we still haven’t had sex.”

“I bet we have in your mind.”

“Like we haven’t in yours. Remember, I know what a dirty girl you are, now.”

“This is true. You do inspire some pretty lewd thoughts. In fact, I’m guessing that you’re doing one of my lewd thoughts even as we speak.”

“And what do you think I’m doing?”

“Hmmm whatever could you be doing?” you said as if you didn’t know perfectly well what his long, sexy fingers were doing.

“Oh no, gotta say it if you wanna see it.”

“Well, this isn’t video chat. And I wanna see it in person. So I can see up close and personal. And taste.”

“Y/N,” he groaned. “That is so hot. Your mouth has been driving me crazy. I keep picturing your lips wrapped around my cock and I get a hard-on wherever I am. And the way you rubbed your tongue…ughh it felt so fucking perfect.”

“That was just a quickie. Not my best work, to be honest.”

“Then I might die with my cock in your mouth.”

“Like hell. I have a lot of other plans for you, babe.”

“Oh God please tell me,” he said, his voice getting breathless.

“Rather show you.”

“I can’t believe I’m fucking stuck on another continent. Hop a plane. Seriously, I’ll buy you a ticket.”

“Do you know when you’ll be home yet?” you asked hopefully.

“No. Hopefully Tuesday or Wednesday. I need to play fucking etiquette games and they haven’t even told me what the problem is yet. I am so fucking frustrated.”

“I can’t imagine. So you should relax now. Talk to me. About anything.”

“Anything?”

“Yup.”

“Tell me what you’re wearing.”

You laughed and said, “Baggy t-shirt and gym shorts.”

“Panties?”

“Yes.”

“Describe.”

“Logan…”

“Youuuuu said anything. I wanna talk about your panties.”

“Fine. White cotton granny panties.”

“Bullshit, I didn’t see a single pair of white cotton in your underwear drawer.”

“Logan Delos! You went through my underwear drawer?”

“Y/N Y/L/N you thought I wouldn’t?”

“Eh. OK, good point. They’re purple boyshorts.”

“Nice.”

“And you, darling? What panties are you wearing?”

“Ha! I’m not.”

“OK underwear.”

“Still not. I don’t wear them to bed.”

“You did at my house.”

“What would you have done if I slept naked?”

“Run screaming.”

“So I kept ‘em on.”

“That was very considerate of you.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“Show me your tits.”

“Not that considerate.”

“It’s almost like you don’t care that I have my hand on my hard cock, stroking it and –”

“Logan!”

“Hmmmm?” he asked innocently.

“Did I mention that you have the biggest cock I’ve seen in person?”

“Noooo,” he groaned. “Good to know.”

“Yeah. You are going to stretch me out, baby.”

“Fuck yeah, you’re gonna be so tight.”

“I’m going to lick, kiss and bite every inch of your body.”

“I can’t wait to eat that pussy of yours. I’m gonna make you beg for my cock.”

“Mmmm how about I beg now?”

“Yeah lemme hear that, baby,” he groaned.

“Please, Logan, please fuck me with your big, hard cock. I wanna feel you inside me deeper than I’ve ever been fucked.”

“Aaahhh fuck Y/N baby gonna fuck you so hard,” Logan moaned, panting.

“I’m going to wrap my legs around you and hold you in me until I cum all over your cock.”

“Oh yeah baby, I wanna feel you cum while I pound that pussy.”

“Then I wanna feel all that hot cum inside me when you can’t take it anymore and you shoot your load in my wet pussy.”

Logan came then with a shout of your name and a series of loud groans.

“Goddamn Logan, you are so fucking hot. I have never wanted a man like I want you.”

“Fuck. There’s a load of cum all over me that says you’re the hot one.”

“I want it.”

“You’re going to get more than you can handle.”

“Now I wish it had been video chat. I want to see. What are you doing to me, Logan?”

“Hopefully making you as fucking horny as you make me,” he said, still a little short of breath.

“Well that goes without saying.”

“I didn’t hear you get off.”

“No, I want you to feel me get off the first time.”

“You trying to get me hard again?”

“You said you had a couple hours,” you answered mischievously. “And I do have this fantasy of riding your cock…”

“Scratch that, I don’t think I’m going to get soft to need you to get me hard again.”

“Mmmmm yummy,” you sighed. You listened to his breathing even out, could feel him relax after his orgasm.

“Was that true? About me being the biggest?”

“Oh God yes.”

“I’ll also be the best,” he said arrogantly.

“Of that I have no doubt.” you replied. “So we’re in bed together, you just came, I’m sure I did…what are we doing?”

“Shower. Possibly shower sex.”

“Then what?”

“I’m not a cuddler, Y/N.”

“You aren’t?” you asked in complete surprise.

“Nope.”

“Thennnnn…what was watching TV on the sofa with my head on your chest? And what was sleeping together without sex?”

Logan didn’t respond for a moment. “Huh. You turned me into a cuddler.”

“Really,” you said skeptically. “You seemed pre-loaded with a cuddle mod when I got you.”

“Nerd.”

“Cuddler.”

“I will cuddle with you after sex, but if you tell anyone I’ll deny it.”

“I can live with that. Nobody else has to know that you’re sweet.”

“Sweet?? Fuck that, I am not sweet. I’m a cold-hearted manwhore,” Logan said, sounding offended. “If you think we’re gonna sync up our periods or something, you got the wrong guy.”

“Um, OK.”

“I gotta go clean up. Call ya back.”

“Ok –”

When your phone rang a bit later you let it go to voicemail. You weren’t in the mood for Logan’s constant resistance to any kind of feelings.

You texted a couple friends and found that they were out at a club celebrating a promotion. You quickly tossed your phone on the table to charge while you went and got dressed for clubbing.

You chose a skin-tight black mini skirt and red draped backless top with criss-crossed spaghetti straps in back and sky high red heels. Your makeup was perfect with winged eyeliner and bright red lippy. Your hair you left down in soft waves.

And just to be a bitch you took a full length selfie in front of your mirror and texted it to Logan with the message, Going out with friends. TTYL.

Logan’s first instinct when he got the text was to throw his phone across the room. Controlling that urge, he looked at you making a kissy face at the mirror and drew the conclusion that you were done with his bullshit. So much for ‘probably.’

Were you going to go find someone and bring him home to fuck because Logan had hung up on you? Logan’s next instinct was to go find someone to fuck and send you a pic. Two can play the selfie game.

Except…he didn’t want to go fuck someone else. You were in his blood, he wanted you. And he definitely didn’t want you fucking anyone else.

L: I’m sorry I was a dick and now you’re going out with your friends instead of talking to me. I deserve it. Have fun. You look beautiful.

You got the text in the back of the taxi on the way to the club. You would rather be home with Logan, or at least talking to him. But you knew that Logan would trample any woman who didn’t stand up to him once in a while. You refused to be a doormat no matter how crazy you were about him.

Y: Not here to serve you. I will have fun. Thanks for the compliment.

L: Babe…I don’t know what kind of temper you have yet, but I know what I’d do here and I’m gonna ask you not to.

Y: I know exactly what you’d do. And you’d send me a selfie while you did it. Right?

L: Yeah

Y: I’m not you.

L: I know

Y: TTYL

“Fuck!” Logan screamed in frustration. Why was this shit happening when he was 10 time zones away? He looked at the time and realized he had to get ready for a barbecue at the Aoki CEO’s home. He wanted to get on a plane and go grab you and drag you off to a deserted island so no other man could touch you or look at you.

He decided he needed to move the etiquette bullshit along. He needed to get home to his life now that he had a chance at one.

You didn’t have fun. You tried to dance with your friends and had a few too many drinks, even danced with a guy for a minute when he started dancing with you, but when he put his hands on your hips you pulled away and sat back down. His hands were wrong. You only wanted Logan’s hands on you.

You only wanted Logan.

Which was completely impractical and just begging for a broken heart. Why would you fall for the least suitable human on the planet to give you what you dreamed of: someone who would love you and think of you first thing when he wakes up and last thing before he goes to sleep, and all the rest of that romantic crap? He would never settle down with one woman.

It might be time to accept that and put him in the past.

“Hey,” your friend Kate said. “You’ve been quiet tonight. Who’s the guy?”

You smiled a little. Kate had known you since high school. You had roomed together at college and you were as close as sisters. Needless to say, Kate had been through every relationship you’d ever had with you and she could read you.

“I met him earlier this week.”

“And you’re already this sad? Honey, that doesn’t sound good.”

“I know.”

“Who is he? Where’d you meet him.”

You walked outside together so you could hear each other talk and you told her everything, ending with Logan’s diatribe of being a cold-hearted manwhore when you called him sweet, followed by his subsequent request that you not go fuck someone else for revenge.

“Well he sounds like a hot mess,” Kate said after a moment of silence.

You laughed way harder than the joke called for, letting out some of your pent up emotions. Then you walked over to another girl and paid her $10 for a cigarette and came back to a disapproving Kate.

“I’m completely, head over heels mad about him, Kate. I look at him and I see forever. And it’s ridiculous! I’m not like this!”

“No, you aren’t,” Kate said speculatively. “You don’t do impulsive. You never have. But this guy got to you.”

You nodded and said, “I have no idea what he sees in me. I am nothing like any of the women he usually dates. And he says that’s part of what attracted him. And I’m as mean to him as everyone else, so he knows I’m a smartass. He’s gorgeous and smart and funny and sexy and his smile is just perfection. He could get any woman he wanted. And he told me he’s been an asshole to women in the past. What about me would make him change that?”

“What about you wouldn’t? Maybe he sees what I do. You’re beautiful and smart and funny and brave and real! Plus I’m guessing he sees a few things I don’t. Coz I don’t want to have sex with you.”

You laughed a little at her joke.

“Sweetie, you’re more than enough for any man. Any issues that he has are his, not yours.”

“Thanks, but if I want to be with him and he pushes me away, pretty sure that’s about me.”

“No, not really. I mean, you said his family is messed up right?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, we all know boys with Mama issues are nightmares.”

“Ha. Yeah we’ve both had our share of Mama’s boys.”

“But this is the opposite. He’s not running because nobody can love him like Mommy…he’s running before you can leave him, like Mommy did.”

You shrugged, “The results are the same. He runs and bangs any of the dozens of women that are available to him at any given time and I wind up with my heart in a million pieces because I actually care for the jackass.”

Kate put her arm around you and you laid your head on her shoulder. You still didn’t have a clue but at least you weren’t alone.

You decided to head home. Kate stayed outside with you until your Uber got there and hugged you and put you in the car with a promise to come by for coffee tomorrow.

You looked at you phone for the first time since you had arrived at the bar. There were a couple texts from Logan and one had an attachment. You opened the text and saw a selfie of Logan pouting with his lower lip stuck out

that had the caption, “I’m sorry :(“ and the body of the text said Unsolicited dick pic.

And you laughed.

L: Don’t give up on me yet

Y: Let me know when I should, OK?

Logan grabbed his phone from his pocket when he felt your text and relief flooded his body. Despite the faux pas of looking at his phone at a social event, he tapped out an answer.

L: Can’t say that I will. I think you’re too good for me.

Y: Don’t be a dumbass. I might love you some day.

L: I got downgraded from pretty sure, huh?

Y: When you get home I’ll let you make it up to me.

L: I plan to. You’ve been upgraded to pretty sure.

Y: Damn, shitty timing for you.

L: I’m sorry. I don’t mean to push you away.

Y: You do a fucking dead-on impression of it.

L: Are you still out?

Y: On my way home.

L: Already?

Y: This guy I really like hurt my feelings and put me in a shitty mood. Didn’t feel like dancing.

L: My girlfriend had a similar issue earlier.

Girlfriend?

Y:  WTF Logan you have a girlfriend??? You fucking asshole. I swear to Christ you keep finding new ways to destroy me. If you can tear me up this much in less than a week then your girlfriend has all my sympathy. Go fuck yourself. I am so done with you.

You powered your phone down and put it in your bag, utterly disgusted with the tears streaming down your cheeks.

L: Jesus Christ Y/N I meant YOU!! You are my girlfriend!!!!

Your Uber pulled up in front of your building and you climbed out and stormed into your apartment. You left your phone on the charger in the living room and then got ready for bed.

Your pillow smelled like Logan. You flung it across the room and slept fitfully without it.

[transgenderteensurvivalguide]

Urgent: i'm getting my wisdom teeth out on Friday and i'm really scared of outing myself accidentally after the surgery. do you know of any way to avoid this, or if it's even a thing that can happen?

Lee says:

I don’t think it’s likely, as I haven’t heard about anyone accidentally coming out while wisdom teeth are being removed, but even if you did, you could deny it after and say it was just the drugs making you say it because you were confused or thought it’d be funny and it was on your mind because you saw it in the news or something. 

When I had all 4 of my wisdom teeth out, I didn’t do or say anything weird. I just asked for anesthesia for my wisdom teeth, no laughing gas, and that might be part of it. I also didn’t do or say anything weird after top surgery or my hysterectomy. I just was tired, I didn’t say much, and when we got home I went to sleep. That was pretty much it. Nothing to write home about.

I think that a lot of the time online or in TV you do see people doing embarrassing stuff, and that’s because it’s interesting or funny, not because the majority of people respond that way. For every viral video of someone acting silly, there’s probably many many more people who didn’t react that way so there was no reason to film them or their video didn’t get as many notes. Similarly, in TV shows they act funny because it’s a plot point- if the character got their wisdom teeth removed and nothing happened, then there’s no reason to include it, so they have to make it interesting. 

Sidenote- don’t bind during anything when you’re under anesthesia!

Here are some reassurances I’ve gathered from the followers and answers other mods have previously written:

Fox says:

You don’t have in-depth conversations. I was quiet, for the most part, and when I did speak, it was about nothing– sometimes gibberish. You sober up pretty fast, too. Seriously, you wake up, they drag you to a room and sit you down for awhile, you feel really weird and your mouth is awkward, your parent(s)/guardian(s) come(s) to get you, and by the time you get out to the car, you’re almost well enough to actively make thoughts into words.

Not a big deal like in movies or on the internet. At least from my experience and ones I’ve witnessed and heard from friends and family. You shouldn’t have anything to worry about.

Kii says:

If you look up post-wisdom teeth videos on the internet, you’ll notice that no one is going to take you seriously while you’re waking up from sedation. I’m pretty sure I woke up and immediately started crying and asking if they could put my teeth back. If you say anything that alludes to you being trans, everyone is likely going to laugh it off.

Followers say:

Anon said: @ the wisdom teeth anon, i got my wisdom teeth out a few years ago and was scared of a similar thing, but even with the anesthetic i was still able to think clear enough to be able to slightly process what i was saying so you should be fine. then again anesthetics can work differently for everyone

pascalethegenderfluidprince said: Chances are you’ll just be sleepy! When I got mine pulled I was just sleeping really long and when I woke up I was a little confused but also tired, so I wasn’t in the mood for talking.

blue-and-bronze7 said: I had my wisdom teeth out a couple months ago, and I was coherent two minutes after first waking up and never said anything weird.

keshiik said: hey i jst got my wisdom teeth out and they dont always give you the drugs that make you loopy!!!!

goshua said: right after I woke up I started talking about lightning mcqueen bandaids. after I got out of the room though I was aware of what I was saying, you should be ok

how-tobe-him said: Best thing to do is to play it off, when I got my wisdom teeth out I said some stuff that made my nurses wrinkle their noses, when asked about it later I laughed it off like a joke.

transgenderadvicegroup said: Hey there! I had the same concerns when I got my wisdom teeth out. Luckily, the stuff that they use to knock you out really doesn’t make you so loopy that you’d come out. When I woke up from surgery, even though I was still under the influence of the drugs, I still had my inhibitions and could remember what I shouldn’t say in front of my family. All I really wanted to do was go to sleep after surgery, and when I woke up afterwards, the drugs had completely worn off, and I hadn’t said anything. So I wouldn’t worry about it, anon, you’ll be more than okay. :)

iaintapartofnosystem said: It also affects everyone differently. Had mine taken out today and I thought I would be out of it, but I was aware of everything and sounded eloquent so don’t stress too much. All that happened for me was that it made me super tired at random times so I took short naps.

istudyhumanhope said: Not to be dismissive about the situation, good luck to the asker… but it’s still so wilde that in America and other countries you get like a full on anesthesia and not just a local one…what are your dentists doing that you need that - sincerely, a european with one wisdom tooth left

sevan7 said: This is for the anon who’s getting their wisdom teeth pulled: I just had mine recently pulled (around April), and I had the exact same fear. Now, you may be prescribed different drugs than me, but it’s not going to make you loopy like the videos on Facebook. They don’t put you on enough drugs to make you that loopy normally. Laughing gas just numbs and relaxes, and the pills they prescribe you after are mainly just for pain and antibiotics. The worst it should do is make you sleepy.

theeverlastingworldiswaiting said: Yeah, I wouldn’t worry too much. I woke up, and the only thing on my mind was ‘ow’ really. You don’t really start spouting anything but nonsense if you want to talk at all, and you’ve got gauze in your mouth so no one hears anything. And I was able to form coherent thought almost right after I woke up, so no accidental outing. I hope it goes well!

little-gay-crouton said: This was my fear too but my girlfriend told me that it really isn’t secrets reveal juice, if something is very important to you and you don’t want other people to know, laughing gassed up you isn’t going to spill thr beans

matcha-boy said: If anon still lives with their parents, you could also tell the dentist you don’t want them in the room until you’re fully off your laughing gas. That’s what I did and everything went smoothly

ragtag-rowan said: Also, I know that I was pretty in control of myself and could stop myself from saying things that I didn’t want to. Not everyone is going to be like that, but if you’re really worried about it, you should be okay!!

reinalagarto said: You could also be sedated via IV instead of Laughing Gas in which case that won’t be a risk at all bc anesthesia doesn’t make you babble afterwards

lihangins said: I was scared of the same thing but even on the drugs you retain some sense of control (at least in my case) so there’s no big worry.

#kii says #medical #surgery #sedation #Anonymous #Lee says #wisdom teeth #accidentally coming out #wisdom tooth removal #transgenderteensurvivalguide #trans #transgender

[nikatyler]

2018 continues in all its glory. And by glory I mean...yikes. Just yikes. It got slightly better, but still...yikes.

But there are good things too, I’m sure. I just can’t think of any right now. One reason why I can’t think of any at the moment is that I’m going to open my game soon and my favourite sims will probably age up.

Are you? Because I’m not.

It’s currently 9th January, 5 pm as I’m writing this rambling. By the time you’re reading this, twitter might have seen the pictures already. Casually plugging my twitter @ simmeronnie is kinda my thing now, sorry.

Regarding my favourite topic of “idk when i’m going to switch saves lol send help”: I still don’t know when that will happen, but we’re getting there. Slowly but surely. The fact that my favourite sims are aging up has a lot to do with that.

You might have noticed I’ve changed my theme recently. And if you’re lucky, you’ve seen me break my own blog for a few minutes, fun times :D Life lesson: if you only know the most basic basics of html, don’t mess with it. Seriously. Don’t. I mean, I got away with it every single time. What happened now? No clue, but anyway, crisis averted. Everything works the way it should, at least for me.

I made changes to the menu too. Instead of having a super long list, there’s only the ask option, archive, something about me, both my legacies (written only as Rose and Raven because it looks cool), list of resources and the rest is hidden under the “More” option. I like it that way. I don’t think I’m going to make it shorter. Maybe I could, but we’ll talk about that later.

I have to warn you, the Resources list is a little bit outdated in its Sims 4 part, as I’ve stopped using some mods and cc, but I don’t think anyone cares about that. Ooh, also, I updated the About page a little, in case you are interested. It makes even less sense now. But oh well. I could act all normal and stuff, but I have to be that way in real life and it’s exhausting.

Alright, adding this piece to the rambling! It’s currently 12th January, noon. I promised to talk about how my event with kids went. It was great! I didn’t mess up as much as I thought I would. And I’m going to take part in other projects now. I’m really looking forward to it. This is a school year full of surprises, when have I ever agreed to help with something like this?

Replies now.

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photo “I HATE 2018 THAT IS ALL Just kidding, replies below. I’m not kidding...”

Oh yeah 2018 truly sucks(

I’m so sorry to hear 2018 isn’t treating you well either! :(

simsandthensome replied to your post “I got this weird idea... Would you list 10 facts about Esme?...”

please don't make me feel bad for esme ��

I mean, she might be a monster but she’s still a human. Terrible one, but she is.

littlemicrocosims replied to your photoset “Adam: my fiancée slept in this bed asdfhlfaklgj”

Siiigh why are your sims always so cute ��

Thank youuuuu ♥

jackssims replied to your photoset “Ed: “Billie, are you mad at me again?” Billie: “Me? Mad? Upset?...”

I’m Billie tbh

Me too, quite often, and it’s kind of a problem.

melien replied to your photo “i forgot how relaxing it is to just draw something while binge...”

 I'm in love with your style!

Thank you so much! ♥

tiny-tany-thaanos replied to your photoset “Sorry, still too pure to provide an actual nsfw picture.”

Im almost 20 and I still don't want to post nsfw. I guess it's OK and everybody decides themselves to post or not to post. Age doesn't matter :D

I don’t really mind seeing a good sims nsfw picture, to be honest :D Sometimes they make me feel suuuuper uncomfortable, yes (in which case I scroll down and try not to think about what I’ve just seen), but if they’re done well, I don’t mind it. God this is so weird to talk about. I even downloaded some poses (boy, what an adventure), but that’s it, I’ve never used them. I didn’t even put them to my game because yikes. Even when I was downloading them, I felt super weird. But hey, never say never, maybe one day I’ll be okay with this! :D

blurrypxls replied to your photoset  “I got BILLS I gotta pay So I'ma gonn’ WORK WORK WORK every day I got...”

I WAS JUST LISTENING TO THAT SONG

And I haven’t been able to get it out of my head ever since I googled the lyrics. 11/10 would not recommend

#tiny-tany-thaanos #simsandthensome #littlemicrocosims #jackssims #melien #blurrypxls #replies

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Theme Music: Sims - Makin’ Magic - Build6

“Dear Heinrich, I’m so sorry, but this is my last letter. These are the last words, I’m writing to you. We failed at our mission. And I’m to weak to hold on anymore. Nobody survived, but me... your dear grand-father is also gone. This rough coast has to be cursed. Whatever evil force lingers in this deep forest... No, this isn’t true. We weren’t prepared. Our resources are gone. We shouldn’t have been settling here... I know, I requested more settlers and more supplies, so we can survive out here, but it’s vain. Please, return home! Stay away from this wicked place. Whatever knowledge the big head holds, it not worth it. Say good-bye to the family. I love you all.

Your pathetic, but loving grand-ma, Pandorya von Grünbrunn”

When Heinrich found the letter of his grand-mother, he was shattered. The news of Pandorya stopped some weeks ago and it has been making him feel sick ever since. Pandorya was always adventurous and wanted to explore the ancient place, where a mysterious cult built many stone-statues, looking like heads. The gouvernment supported her efforts to establish a camp for explorers. The news of the explorers were confident at first, but as the weeks passed, fear lingered between the lines. And now Heinrich and the other seven settlers were standing in an abandoned camp. Nobody was there, not even a ghost. They brought some resources with them, but their ship was crashed after the first night. The grim winds of the winter were brushing through the pines already... A cruel reminder of the fate of the last settlers... (Gameplay-notes under the cut)

Uuuh, this introduction is pretty dark, isn’t it? Sorry. :p So, as mentioned above: Gameplay-notes. I’m going to follow the rules of nepheris (or at least I’m trying...) I created my founder and settlers with the help of the Sim Randomizer. Nepheris rules include a randomizer for the amount of sims. Since I got just eight sims, I decided to move them into a camp, where they have to spend some time together. This was the moment, when I created the back-story of Pandorya and her company. And I thought: “Hey, wouldn’t it be cool, if the camp was haunted by Pandorya’s ghost? And why would they all stay together in one camp? Unless there is a long dark winter full of despair at the horizon??”

Yeah, I’m such a person...

The seasons of the yet unnamed “neighborhood” are: Winter, winter, spring and autumn. There is no summer, because it’s a cold climate. And that’s why there hasn’t been any sims there. Makes sense, right? This makes it difficult to grow crops. So, I allowed myself to add Sun&Moon’s Giving Tree Set and Garden Crops Set to my downloads. Don’t want my sims to starve.

Basic restrictions

No running water, no electronics. To unlock them the founder has to be a Lobbist. And there has to be a power plant as well as a water source (e.g. a well or a sewage work or something like this. I’m going to figure that out later.) At first I wanted to restrict phones, radios and computers as well, but this is pretty harsh. My BACC assumes there is a working society somewhere far away, so if the settlers have a radio mast, they can watch TV and listen to the radio. (No cable tv for my sims though >_< ) These devices will be unlocked with the power plant. Computers and the might of the internet are restircted however. There has to be an internet-café first. Cars are unlocked, once a car dealership is built. There won’t be any newspapers. I can’t imagine a single company, who would make the effort to deliver a newspaper to the middle of nowhere. Newspaper and Magazines are unlocked, when there is a post office and a journalist in town. All services have to be covered by playables. Christanlov’s All-in-one-NPC is going to be handy (for maids and gardeners etc.) Adoption is unlocked, when an orphanage is built. There won’t be one unless a couple wants to adopt or a child has to live in an orphanage. No foundations or upper floors are allowed. Who could build houses so stable, they won’t get demolished in the rough climate? Excactly, an architect. :) But to become one the founder has to be lobbist. (He is the one, who convinces the goverment to invest more resources and such.) No townies are added. The founder has to be campaign manager first. No buy/buildmode-usage. Let me explain: When I build a house, it will have the necessary items. And when a family desperatly needs furniture (e.g. for babies, new roommates or because of a fire) I will use these modes. But for “luxury”-items like additional paintings or stereos or bars, only on day one of a rotation the modes are avaiable. (The time, I imagine, when new supplies come.) Unless there are 3 diffrent owned businesses in town. (Or maybe just one shop for furniture? I don’t know. Maybe... We will see.) No pleading with grim reaper is going to happen. I always thought, this opption should be restricted to sims with a special ability. I also read a couple of rule-sets for an apocalypse-challenge. I liked the idea, that pleading with the grim reaper is only allowed, when a sim reached the top of the paranormal career. So, I copied it. Hopefully I won’t regret that... No community lots (also No home-businesses, that sell anything other than produce or craftable items etc.) To unlock them, the founder has to become Campaign Manager. It has to be eighter bought by a playable sim or built with city funds. (I figured it out like this: The founder buys the community lot. With Cjon’s mod he is able to donate the lot back to the community. Like this the money is going to the right place and I don’t have to keep track of prices and stuff.) No downtown/hobby lots are available. Once the founder becomes mayor a proper connection to the city is built. It costs 500.000$. No university can be accessed. The teacher of the town has to reach the top of the education career. It costs the town 500.000$ to access further education. Students will pay a loan to city funds each semester costing 2.500$. (10.000$ in total) Students also have to have an internship in their future profession. (Meaning: The student has to go to a community lot in their last semester before graduation. And stay there at least 10 hours. He/she doesn’t have to work there, just befriending staff, getting to know the place etc.) No shopping districts can be added. The population has to reach 25.000 sims to start construction. It costs the town 1.000.000$.

Career restrictions can be read in nepheris rule-set. I added a few custom careers, which I liked, but I will wait until there is a sim for the job before I explain the restriction. This post got to long already XD

Taxes

Households are divided into tiers based on their total funds. Again I copied nepheris, but in my first attempt the money flow was so slow, I decided to double the taxes. Hey, free roads in the long winter have their price! :p I also added another tier for super rich sims. Families with funds over 300.000$ belong to the Richi-rich-society. (Am I not creative...?) Taxes are paid at the end of every season. Based on the number of sims in that household, taxes are:

High society: 2.500$/Sim

Upper Class: 2.000$/Sim

Middle Class: 1.000$/Sim

Lower Class: 500$/Sim

Poverty: 200$/Sim

Population

+1 for every community lot

+7 for downtown

+7 YA for university

+12 for shopping district

The Sim Multiplier is a concept I really like! Though it takes some effort to keep track of it...

Ok, that’s it! I’m good to go... JFC, that took way longer, than I expected... XD

Happy simming!

#sims #sims 2 #sims 2 maxis match #ts2 #nebelheym

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Cleaning up

Hi! Mod Scix here! We’re trying to cut our way through the inbox, and I’ve compiled a few similar asks. This post will be a lot of ask and very short answer. Please understand this isn’t me being rude, I’m just trying to be efficient so we can get less behind. (hee hee, “behind”)

The first category of questions are errors:

Anonymous said:

(nb 2/3) They’re feminine, but choose against HRT/surgeries (maybe later?) bc they’re on PREP and the combination might lead to lower bone density (they’re a MedSchool stdt, they’d know). And they’re on Prep bc their boyfriend, the protag, is Poz, but their relationship isn’t healthy (constant arguing and protag trying to decide NB-char’s career for them). But NB-char puts up with it for years. Partly for love, partly bc protag accepts their gender, and they think they won’t ever have that again

Anonymous said:

Clarifying a few things about my ask (I'm the anon with the love triangle): 1. Gender/sexuality is of minimum importance in this story. Tough to explain, but the MC doesn't really have a concept of those issues? She's afab but agender for all intents and purposes. 2. The relationship between the two men is way healthier/happier than that between the MC and her ex. 3. There's no animosity between the MC and her ex's current partner.

Sorry, the rest of your questions are missing. If it's still a relevant question, please resend.

The next set I call research:

@teal0cean said:

Hello!! Love you guys! I wanted to ask if you know about the history of HRT for trans males. As in. What was or wasnt available or how the process of transitioning was during some historical period or other (im interested in early 20th Century!)

@yevie said:

Do you have any information on what sorts of resources/information would be available for a (lower-middle class, 20 year old nursing student in a metropolitan area) trans man in 1995? [Resources in terms of both social transitioning, especially in his academic and work setting and also resources in the whole LGBT community aspect and having access to the language to describe his experiences.] (He's also gay and ace, if that's relevant.)

Anonymous said:

I heard theres discourse about the terms FTM/MTF/etc. whats that about??

Anonymous said:

So I've always wondered about this, but I don't to seem like I'm insulting anybody. :( I just really want to know how it works... but I'm to scared to ask so I'm going to drop it here, because I think you will understand! :) (1/2)

You see, If a female decides to do the transision to male. How will she get the male genitalia and loose the female one? I really want to know. Does it hurt? (2/2)

Anonymous said:

How and when do people realize they might be homosexual?

Anonymous said:

Can you think of any really good ideas for a short LGBTQ film? Thank you!

Anonymous said:

Do you know where I could read a bit more about lgbtq+ stereotypes so that I don't do it myself?

Anonymous said:

What is bi/tri/polygender

Anonymous said:

I am making a documentary so i need a good script on it in hindi, would you be able to provide it?

So these are all research questions. Not actually what we are here for, though we do sometimes dive in. The first couple may be tougher to find using google, but the rest are pretty easy to dig up. Or else need to be reworded to narrow the focus. And sometimes the questions we get have built-in assumptions that kinda make it impossible to answer fairly.

Like the assumption that we write Hindi.

If anyone wants to answer these, please be civil.

The next section is the quick answer:

Anonymous said:

Do any trans men choose not to take hormones, even if they're available to the person? I know this answer would really vary from person to person, but I'm thinking of writing a trans man who doesn't want to take hormones, and I'm not sure if that would be considered unusual or not really understanding of the desires most transgender people have.

@pan-at-thedisco said:

Is it plausible for a trans boy who can definitely afford transition surgery to choose not to? Is this something that happens often?

Yeah, transfolk sometimes choose not to get surgery or take hormones. Don’t worry about “often,” it’s fiction.

Anonymous said:

Hello there, I have this male character that I wrote a long time ago and only recently have I been seeing him as bi, now he has crushes on guys but he still ends up with a girl. I can't help but feel like I "cheated" in a way by making a bi character have a hetero relationship but I don't want to change his relationship. I just want to hear your opinion about this.

It's not a hetero relationship, because he is in it. Just don't write it that the new relationship is fixing him, or more real, or anything like that.

Anonymous said:

I want to ask about usage of the word "queer" not in reference to a person or their gender/sexual orientation. Its original meaning meant "strange." It later became a slur, and has now been reclaimed by some in the community. I'm wondering if it's still okay to use it in its original meaning (i.e. "In front of him was the queerest fog he'd ever seen.") or has the evolution of the word has made that no longer acceptable, even if you're writing period/a specific atmosphere?

Go for it! Just be aware it sounds kind of old-fashioned.

Anonymous said:

hi! do you think it would be considered ok for a nonbinary character in a historical setting to use their language's equivalent of "it/its" pronouns? i'm cis and i'm worried people will take it the wrong way, but the character just wants to be convenient as their language only has one set of gender-neutral pronouns and it's for inanimate objects

No. If it's a fictional language, then it can have a gender-unspecified pronoun that doesn't only refer to objects.

@dreamwishing said:

I have a rather odd question. Odd enough that I'm not sure where to ask. This may not be the right place, and if it's not, maybe you could point me in a direction? That would be great. Everyone asks how to avoid stereotyping lgbtq+ people, but...how do I avoid stereotyping homophobes and the like?

...make them rounded, complete characters with more than one thing in their life.

Anonymous said:

I have a villainous character who is a combination/amalgamation of various people of different genders/sexualities, and they don't have a gender. I'm planning to refer to the character with they/them pronouns, and it just doesn't feel right to give them a gender. But since they're a bad guy, would it be... what's the word... transphobic (I guess? you know what i mean) to portray them as agender? I have other agender characters, if that makes a difference. (It's fantasy btw)

Having other agender characters -- well-represented -- solves the issue for you just fine. Also, make the villain interesting. I love a good villain. 

Anonymous said:

Will the mod/s be monitoring the comments at all? I've seen quite a few hateful replies and reblogs toward nonbinary and demisexual people. I would love to keep following, but it sucks having to be subjected to people invalidating my gender and sexuality in the comments.

There is nothing we can do about comments. "Never read the comments" is often a good idea. Alternately, block the blogs that are evil, and you'll soon find it was the same few all along. Anything really terrible, let us know so we can block them ourselves, and let our readers know.

That was a lot of work. I know it doesn’t look like much, but it took me a few hours and I’m wiped. Some kinds of work are more labor than they appear, and this is that kind of labor.

Still and all: love you all! Just not that way. 

~~Mod Scix

#answers #writing advice #lgbt #<3 #:P

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WEEK 13, 14 & 15 (Part 2)_ MASCULINITY and IDENTITY: the male experience with self-image

London January 2019

                   GRAYSON PERRY exploring the male experience

Grayson Perry is an English contemporary artist. Known for his work with ceramic, tapestries and his cross-dressing passion, as well as his observations of the contemporary world and art scenes. I was first introduced to his work by our tutor Luke when trying to find some references for the topic of  THE MALE EXPERIENCE with IDENTITY and IMAGE. Although, I don't recall ever learning about him and only properly inspected his work recently, still his work has a familiar feeling to me. Maybe I have experienced his art before as a child as I would regularly go on exhibitions with my parents. An maybe this is the reason why it might be,  subconsciously, stuck in my brain.  Nonetheless, I found my self very interested in his work as I am an advocate and lover of DRAG. As with most movements related to self-expression through fashion in combination with androgeny. I am also a big fan of the '60s and '70s with all their bright colours, MOD movement and POP ART.

The artist explores themes such as Identity and Self-reflection. Most of is work is connected to some kind of introspect or reflection on modern society. Specifically the modern MAN and as a subtheme, he tackles subjects such as Masculinity and questions if this concept is outdated. He is also known to work with topics that deal with populism, the celebrity and modern Britain.

For this post, I read three different books by Grayson Perry. The first one titled The Most Popular Art Exhibition Ever!, 2016.  The book focuses on explaining and inspecting the thoughts behind the exhibition with the same name. The author goes to explain the nature of this name and how it became first than the content itself.

For many artists, the word POPULAR is "a bit of a dirty word". Most people first reacted to his exhibition with "laughter". Many think that art is not for everyone, Grayson Perry strongly disagrees. He wants to "widen the audience without dumbing it down". He goes on to explain that in the artist world POPULISM and POPULARITY is bad and tasteless. The author questions why does popularity threatens the art appeal. He writes about how Artists like exclusivity. When creating an exhibition entitled "The Most Popular Art Exhibition Ever!" people found very od to have an event bosting itself in such context (Perry, 2017).

In Perry´s words, an exhibition is "like creating a world or a club that people only get in if they GET art" (Perry, 2017) as in, one must understand it. This a very classical ideal as later contemporary artist support the idea that one must FEEL and experience art, rather than understanding it.

He goes to explain that education, especially art education, used to be for a small privileged elite. And that the relation between POPULARITY and EXCLUSIVITY “reflects something fundamental about us humans”. We are in the end animals that work in packs. We want to belong in a group. It's our nature. HOWEVER! We strive to create a strong INDIVIDUAL IDENTITY. This creates tension in our existence as a species (Perry, 2017).

“ Part of a reason we choose to consume culture is how it might reflect on our status"(Perry, 2017). This seems to be a common statement from people that are interested and study human behaviour in connection to identity. And one that seems to create disagreement and insurgency, as proven in our in-class conversation. I think some people are too afraid to admit that us humans are flawed and very much self-created. Personally, I don't see this statement as a bad thing, ultimately. It means we are able to shape our selves to be the best version possible. But, I come to understand that it represents a threat to some people that like to think of us humans as this perfect and harmonious beings.

A few days I heard this quote but I can't remember from who or where. It goes like so: " Human beings are a broken mess, in a variety of ways. That is one of the things that actually unify us all". I think is very much true. We need to admit and understand we are not perfect and that is ok instead of repressing our fluid and creative ways.

Coming back to the context of art and being a "sell out" the artist says that he disagrees with such a concept in relation to POPULARITY. However, that is sad how “ what starts as a creative revolt soon becomes corrupted as the fastest way to make money” (Perry, 2017). And that just shows the society we are inserted in with such capitalist ways.

Then in one of his ceramic pieces, Perry comments that it is a “funeral urn for outdated masculinity” (Perry, 2017). A big part of his work and a recurrent motif is masculinity and questioning it. I will add on to it later on this topic and with some other texts from this author we understand where his passion for this subject comes from. 

“My Job is to notice things that other people don´t notice”.

In the book Grayson Perry: My Pretty Little Art Career  I will be mainly analysing the artist work and style and some of his principal stylistic characteristics and themes.

First of all, I want to address the presentation of the book. Aesthetically and the way the content is presented to us. The exterior os the book show amazing design and craftsmanship. It is very appealing as it is a great representation of the art style with all its bright colours and many textures. However, it is done with great taste and its not overpowering to the reader. It also reflects a good representation of the artist work throughout the year providing a lot of images references in time and some explanation to the artwork, similar to the last book. The design pays great attention to detail as it carries interesting and intelligent use of symbolic references to symbols notorious in Perry's work - such as the golden bear.

The artist represents an interesting mixture of the Old and the NEW. The classic or even prehistorical with his works with mediums such as tapestries, vases and intricate objects that retain something similar to artefacts. However, upon further inspection, we realise it is, in fact, contemporary art. His work with ceramics and vases- ar first glance- reminds us of classical objects but the usual images from mythology are no replaced with the westernised world, technology and pop culture.

The modern and contemporary ints of POP ART and the use of elements from graphic novels in his work, alongside some references to pop culture and advertising, create this perfect parody.

His illustration work is a twist on what, at first, might look like a Victorian etching but the themes are now modern. Perhaps some of his characters and symbols, for example, THE DOLL might help to create this illusion and taking us back to the INDUSTRIAL REVOLUTION.

    THE DESCENT OF MAN book review

In connection to the first book, we see that Grayson Perry has a passion to make his art accessible while keeping it meaningful and proposing a comment on society. He wants people to think about these topics and perhaps help in changing mentalities. For this reason, it is understandable and actually smart how he tries to make is work so approachable and apeling.

The main topic of the book is without dought MASCULINITY and the modern man. This book is much more personal to the author as he shares his own childhood stories and feelings.

I will be mentioning some of the titles of the different chapter for this book. I found them very catchy and personally interesting in the user accessible language and popular sayings.

“ What sort of man would make the world a better place for everyone?” (Perry 2016)

The main goal of this book is to QUESTION what is masculinity and weather is working for us as a society. The artist what to bring awareness to toxic masculinity. He says finds it VERY IMPORTANT because it's "the tool used to hurt so many minorities". It is "so destructive"  to him that he claims that "most bad things in the world can be traced back to toxic masculinity". Crimes, toxic relationships, abuse, Sex crimes, Suicide, Corruption, Racism, abuse of power, child abuse and trauma (Perry 2016).

He then claims he’s not blaming  MAN directly,  but blaming the way society shapes man. The then says “ beneath… men are naked and vulnerable- humans even" (Perry 2016). He explains that in our society many people say that examining masculinity is a luxury and that he strongly disagrees. He thinks it is very important to bring light to this topic and that by thinking its a privilege to address this issue we are holding back society.

"Masculinity is a straight jacket keeping MAN from being human and being themselves" (Perry 2016).

“I am not against man _ neither against all masculinity” (Perry 2016). Perry then talks about GENDER and SELF EXPRESSION. And says that they are NOT singular. People assume that because he is "travesty" it gives him an insight into the opposite gender. He says “that’s rubbish! How can I as a man, know anything about the experience of being a woman". Claiming that would be an insult to women.

He talks about IDENTITY as an ongoing performance. Has seen in many other texts that I have reviewed this is as a popular opinion and many artists in different rams have commented on this. Even Shakespeare himself famously said:

“All the world's a stage, and all men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances, and one man in his time plays many parts, his act being seven ages” (William Shakespeare).

This brings us to the interview with Gonçalo where he compares lives with being on stage, in his case quite literally as he is an actor. The same thing applies to all of us as we creat portrait of ourselves daily and our identity is very much forged although it might come to us very naturally.

In the introduction If it ain´t broke, don’t fix it,  he talks a lot about his upbringing. Shares stories about this childhood as well as introducing us to some main characters in is live. Also, the relationship he was with male figures in his childhood hand his relationship with his teddy bear. This specific character later transforms into a very important symbol in his work. 

In the INTRODUCTION part of the book, I question MASCULINITY a lot but also shares some experiences. He says “Men don’t know how to deal with pain so they transform it into hanger!”(Perry 2016). He mentions this when recalling an instant from his childhood. He describes this moment in the 3rd person. A passage says “ Sobbing. He is crying for help, but he is also in a boiling rage”, this particular quote reminded me a lot of little brothers behaviour. And we realise how this instant put into the world seems so sad and harsh, when in reality it happens right in front of our eyes. 

The author then comments, “I  can't help my self to say: I hope your son can afford a good psychotherapist when he grows up”.  He criticises these types of behaviours and the ways we teach young boys. Future man.

My analysis will end here as my reading, for now, is mainly focused on the introduction chapter of this book. I haven’t finished the book yet. I decided to continue my reading as I found myself truly interested and immersed in the text and Perry´s standpoints. It stood out to me how he answers questions that I didn’t know I had but felt like I was looking for. I strongly recommend this reading and I really enjoyed learning more about Grayson Perry as an artist and author.

 “The truth will set you free, But first it will piss you off” (Gloria Steinem) 

                           REFERENCES

Perry, G. (2017). The Most Popular Art Exhibition Ever! Penguin Books. Perry, G. (2016). Grayson Perry: My Pretty Little Art Career. Perry, G. (2016). The descent of man.

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The following is a copypasted submission from my inbox

hello. this is a year overdue and i personally doubt that anything about this blog is still active but i hadn’t really cared to write anything out until the other day. i don’t care about anonymity seeing as i’m already mentioned on another submission here so i go by tara currently and i’m an at the time 29 year old member of a system. i tend to be long winded but it’s a bit more coherent than the other system member’s was and skips straight past providing context for our living situation and is strictly edel relevant only

my memory isn’t exactly ‘good’ but if i can remember correctly i met him when he approached devon and seemed really excited to meet me because he thought i was nice. he was flat out told that i wasn’t exactly social or super openly friendly but he insisted anyways. i don’t know why i said hello after that but i guess i must’ve been lonely or bored. i don’t remember what i said but the conversation couldn’t have lasted more than ten minutes. this was some time during the general end of year 2015/new year 2016 i’m pretty sure in hindsight he probably thought because i was a 'fictive’ i’d have to like him. other people have agreed with me that they think he thought that because i’m a 'fictive’ who isn’t afraid of confrontation he’d get an excellent attack dog out of this. i’ll never know the truth about this either way

honestly i barely remember talking to the guy. one thing i remembered was asking him what was wrong only to find out he was having a breakdown over some 14 year old posting ship art or something and making fun of them for jokingly calling themselves trash. i didn’t want to get involved so i mentioned that the kid was 14 and being twice this kid’s age but that i didn’t quite get it and moved on with my day. maybe a comment or two in passing. i keep to myself he still has this odd insistence that i’m actually a super nice and friendly person. even if i’m the one who says otherwise. as if he knows me better than i do. he also tells devon, who is 17 and pretends that he’s not, that he finds it admirable that i’m not afraid to call people on bullshit and can be blunt if i have to be i make a twitter at some point. according to the records it says that it’s february 2016 he asks to follow it so i let him. it’s a small thing with 20-30 followers. i have that i might softblock at any time in the bio. at some point i softblock him, along with a small handful of other people, because i don’t care about idol games and this was the one thing that i knew i could have as mine and mine alone. i go out of my way to message him about it and say that it was nothing personal because i saw that was what he had asked his reaction was a little… disproportionate. he went on to threaten suicide and forced everyone into comforting him even when he admitted that he was being manipulative. i was shittalked for this in plain sight and everything that he said happened just wasn’t true. which is fine i guess, personally i have better things to do and i couldn’t give half a shit about it. what did bother me is that it wasn’t just me that saw it but devon, because we were cofronting more often at the time. he had seen the context of everything and had a breakdown over watching edel’s breakdown i give edel a 24 hour cooldown period before messaging him asking for an apology for the 17 year old he set off. i said that i didn’t care for one and wasn’t going to say anything else. or i guess i phrased it as 'withholding my comments’ which might’ve sounded harsh i guess but i was on edge for an unrelated reason and that’s just kind of how i talk. other people said that i deserved an apology but it’s in the past either way i got to watch him specifically @ someone begging them to kill him because he had made them promise to at some point. i got front row seats for this whole shitshow and was lead to believe it was my fault. this went on for several hours. this had all started over a softblock. talk about asinine when he eventually calms down, and this whole thing takes forever. i get this nice little message “oK now that i’m calm, I will apologize for upsetting Devon but its unbelievably distasteful asking me to apologize for having a breakdown over something that someone left me for a few days before. How am I supposed to react when I feel like people only care about my interests, not me as a person? I don’t hate either one of you. Not even you. I don’t hate anyone. I was upset but I got it out of my system and calmed down. I’m very sorry for upsetting anyone. I really am. But I really dont appreciate this wording, or the implication you have something nasty to say to me.” firstly i had had no clue that someone had softblocked him recently and i apparently had pushed him over his weekly unfollower limit or whatever. even if it weren’t my space to do what i want with how the hell was i expected to know that. secondly i never expected him to apologize for having a breakdown, it was that he did it where devon and i could watch it when he had to have had other accounts. i wasn’t super thrilled about having my personal business thrown around to begin with but there was nothing to do about it at this point. lastly that “i don’t hate anyone line is full of shit” and i didn’t really need to be chastised for telling him to own up to hurting someone or be treated like i was being given some sort of pass and i hadn’t earned it. regardless i was tired and didn’t care to try and argue so i apologized for being 'rude’ and explained that i was tense about something else entirely and that there were no hard feelings and moved the fuck on with my day

according to the archived dms this was around april 2016 i’m fairly sure

this is where devon starts seeing everyone talking about being treated like shit on top of personally witnessing it happening to me before he loudly cuts edel off

at some point i find out that edel is dating a minor under wraps and there’s a set up with bunch of middlemen to talk about things. that was all him. we’re both reassured that things will be broken off and he 'didn’t know better’

i have no way to keep an eye on the situation devon has been effectively given a gag order after a mutual friend did something of their own volition and he assumed that it’s because devon has been talking. devon hasn’t even been around and people have told edel that. having no point of contact with anything on that end on top of having things offline be in a crisis of sorts i take everyone at their word and expect that it’ll be done. something that i’m not proud of to this day

this was around may-june 2016 months down the line and 3000 miles later i find out completely on accident that that’s not the case. i have no way to get in contact with anyone and i’m absolutely fucking horrified. if i try and talk about any of this i’m risking someone who was manipulated by edel at that point being hospitalized due to the stress of it all. i try and do what i can to keep the kid anonymous, hoping that it’ll keep him at least a little safer than they would be otherwise. including finding out devon found out he knew a systemhop mod and personally sending a message asking them to take posts with identifying info about them down because i had heard they hadn’t consented to being outted like that and that edel was checking the blog. i really wish i could’ve done more and had known exactly how the hell to handle that situation. edel had still been discrediting devon and i both months later and i had no way to even keep an eye on anything without spying on a teenager, which i wasn’t willing to do

estimated around september-october 2016 apparently we were always referred to as a package deal. even in the 'apology’. it was pretty heavily implied by how he treated other 'fictives’ that i didn’t have my own free will and opinions in this. that was even more obvious when devon was the one listed on the 'do not follow if you follow’ list next to outted abusers and pedophiles and i wasn’t even mentioned despite having separate accounts and him knowing the username. i had to message him personally to get that removed anyways once he was called out so some fucking apology that was. two lines for the both of us despite getting massively different treatment. devon, the younger and less 'fictional’ of the two of us, was cornered into apologies and i was talked down to and shamed, not taken seriously from the beginning

after i saw the apology i messaged him and other than telling him to remove the username i told him i didn’t want an apology or even a direct response and that he wouldn’t hear from me again. as far as i’m aware we haven’t had any sort of contact since. i don’t know why i’m submitting this really but it gives a semi solid timeline/backup for other people’s submissions so why the hell not

this was october 2016

#testimony