#the biggest things that happened to me are all there both positive and negative

[cinnamon-notes]

the way gilmore girls is my show creeps me out every day

#most of my traumas are there #my behaviors my responses my coping mechanisms are all there #my lil silly habits are there #the people who made me me and the people who fucking hurt me are all there #i have a luke and i have an emily and i have a logan and i have a michel and i have a paris and i have a kirk #the biggest things that happened to me are all there both positive and negative #my dreams are there my fears are there my weaknesses are there my soft spots are there my tastes are there #my mannerism is there #and the fact that the show and i are pretty much the same age and grew old together but when it got cancelled i rewatched at least 4 or 5 #other times and realized that it was still there and didn't go away #it's both a comfort and a curse to have it all there #but it feels like a hug in both cases #cinnamon being cinnamon

[zutarasbuff]

I watched the Netflix adaptation of ATLA today and being a hardcore fan of the OG series who knows every nook and cranny of the ATLA world, here’s my unbiased and truly honest review (It contains both the negatives and positives of the series, so dear reader please enter to read at your own risk).

Firstly, let’s talk about the wonderful additions to the already magical world of ATLA.

1. The depth of the genocide

Well, I always wanted to know how the air nomads were suddenly wiped out and how it would have been for them? Why didn’t they resist? I got my answers in the first episode where we explore how the unhinged power of the comet was “actually” used to create a genocide on a massive level. Before that, I had only heard about it in the OG series. Those few scenes were so powerful that they had left me sobbing uncontrollably and Gyatso’s concern regarding Aang had me bawling.

2. Suki’s Characterization

In the OG series, we do find our Suki the fiercest warrior, but here in the live action, she’s an absolute goddess. She is perfect in every sense. She understands the responsibilities she has being a non-bender and is fearless. Her character is what I believe to be was the strongest one of all.

3. Graphics & Music

We never talk about a film by M.Night (that didn’t happen), but this one is really a visual treat for you can readily set yourself up for some mind-blowing bending scenes, plus the fight scenes are quite impressive. It seems that the VFX team had really done their homework this time. Plus, both Momo and Appa are so freaking cute. I loved the fluffy Appa. Good work over there. The revival of the OG theme is also a highlight plus the sun warriors’ chanting in the end is given a new but intriguing twist. The background music especially in scenes where Aang unravels his Avatar powers is mystical in every aspect.

4. Life in motion

I don’t know about others, but I have always been a sucker for animation as well as live-action where characters are operating even in the direst of the circumstances. Life is there and even after they know what happened a hundred years ago, they are still trying to believe and regain their past confidence. This is beautifully portrayed and I was very much impressed by the way people are continuing their day-to-day activities even in the middle of a crisis.

Overall, the series serves the purpose of an adaptation carrying its unique colors (at least better than the previous live-action disaster that didn’t happen).

Now let’s move to the bad side, and when I say it’s honestly what I felt, you need to take my word on it being a hardcore Atla fan.

1. Weak writing & lots of exposition

ATLA remains at a 9.2 IMDB rating even after years because of its writing, strong plot, and very few plot holes. This time, the writers are the real amateur ones. Despite addicting more to the already flourishing universe of ATLA, sadly, they killed the quest of the viewer to find answers. There is too much exposition. It seems that every character just wants to see the end of the war and keeps on revealing things after things. Plus, some of the OG moments that were the soul of the series are not even included. The way Aang finds Momo and then decides to keep it with him as a last remnant of their bygone air nomad civilization is nowhere to be found. In fact, the replacement of Roku with Kyoshi is the biggest disappointment. I love Kyoshi like no one else but that was unnecessary as per the cycle.

2. Bland acting

Even the worst writing shots can be digested only if the acting appears real good. Sadly, this is another issue that I found with the NETFLIXED version. No doubt the characters must have done a lot of hard work for this, yet, they lack the expressive power. Gordon as Aang is super cute but the goofiness is not even there. Katara seems a nerd who doesn’t like to talk much even when it’s necessary and Sokka’s jokes are forced. Meanwhile, Dallas seems to save the day at one point, but again his over-the-top angry young man attitude ruins it for me. Maybe the actors will learn from the criticism in the upcoming season (if Netflix plans to go with it).

3. Major changes

Yes, it’s okay to change the narrative while you are working on an adaptation, but targeting the loyal viewers who are OG fans of ATLA means that you have to be very careful when you are trying to implement your changes in scenes that are the real soul of the OG. You can’t change the Omashu myth as if it’s nothing when we actually see even the cute animated version of the folklore. You cannot portray Roku more as a perpetrator of the genocide and Bumi as the evil king when in truth he’s the mad king who’s known for his genius ways of teaching. I hated that. Plus, reducing Zhao’s authority and taking Uncle Iroh’s sarcastic attitude is just meh. Mai again doesn’t even seem perfect as a cast. Jet is good as far as the aesthetics are concerned but Jet being in Omashu doesn’t even sit right with me. The amalgamation of multiple storylines creates so much confusion and this persists till the end.

4. Bending at convenience

We all know how Katara’s bending progressed throughout the first season and it’s little effort each day. However, in series, one day she’s unable to bend even a droplet of water and the next day she is capable of producing ice crystals. This was unacceptable for me because I was anticipating her learning strategies. Besides, Aang doesn’t learn much water bending throughout this season and in the end, it’s him being the savior in Avatar state. Thoughtless bending sucks despite the great VFX and that’s one thing at which you can’t convince me otherwise.

5. Forced friendships

We all know how it took some time for Sokka to embrace Aang as a chum. However, here Sokka keeps on calling him “the kid” and remains mostly alienated from Aang. Talking to Katara, then she also seems more interested in helping Avatar fulfill his goal than being with a friend. I hated the scene where Aang comes into the Avatar state and instead of hugging him just like in the OG series, Katara runs along Sokka and keeps on calling his name. How is that going to build any organic friendship? I think the first mistake began right from the very moment when Aang was taken back to Wolf Cove on a boat in his unconscious state. Upon opening his eyes, the first person he finds near him is neither Katara nor Sokka but a tribesman who’s playing guessing games. Writers were really high when they wrote that.

6. Lack of the four nations’ biodiversity

Maybe in live action, it’s difficult to create all the marvels of the four nations when we talk about their natural biodiversity. In the OG series, it is indicated by Aang that even after 112 years, he has still not forgotten the animals that define different regions in the four kingdoms and that’s exactly why he wants to finish those “important tasks” alongside saving the world. His important tasks included keeping a check on the natural biodiversity of the lands and exploring whether the Hundred Years’ War had not damaged the majestic animals. Actually, his first dialogue right after regaining consciousness is to go for an otter penguin’s ride with Katara. When I thought about that I felt that somewhere in Aang’s mind he was always connected to nature and that’s why he wanted to regain that connection by being an avatar. Sadly we never see much of the biodiversity but I hoped that maybe they will.

Also, how come Aang had that silent whistle for one hundred years when in the series he only discovers that accidentally? I missed the OG Yip Yip for our Appa. There are lots and lots of problems with the Netflix version, and no I am not being a nitpicker. I appreciate how the current creators credited the original ones, but now I know why Bryan and Michael bade farewell to this project. On a scale of 10, it’s a 4 for me or 4.5 if I am being too generous.

If I am asked to review the live action in a single line, I would only say this:

“The Netflixed ATLA makes you go back to the OG series and you end up watching the animation to give your mind a much-needed respite from a carefully crafted artistic disaster aimed at the sensationalized generation.”

#atla #avatar the last airbender #atla live action #atla netflix #avatar aang #atla katara #avatar zuko #avatar roku #avatar the legend of aang #iroh & zuko #zutara atla #kataang #avatar canon #avatar review

[synthwayve]

The Micolaurence text post ever.

Shoutout to the people in my replies, I blame all of you in the most positive way possible.

Poorly formatted “essay” about the connections they have that make my brain spin because yes :} new years is a time of lawlessness impulsivity: keep in mind I don’t own the actual game to confirm some things, most of this is compiled from item descriptions, cut content, reading the wiki over and over, and my own analysis. I could be totally wrong about some things + this is just my own analysis/interpretation**, have mercy upon my soul 🙏

The biggest thing about them, and the thing I simply do not shut up about if you happen to hear me talk about them, is that both Micolash and Laurence’s respective obsessions/virtues/main associated game mechanics (Insight and Blood respectively) directly influence each other. Not only do they influence each other, they also relieve the negative effects of the other stat. Why is this such a big deal to me? WELL:

Beasthood, the negative effect of taking too much blood, scales negatively depending on your Insight. The more Insight you have, the less Beasthood, and vice versa. Contrarily, Sedatives, crafted from blood(yes, Sedatives are stated to be thick ‘human’ blood and will reset your Beasthood as well, but this does not necessarily reduce it- more on this later*)

Will relieve Frenzy as their primary purpose, which is the main negative side effect of having high Insight i.e going mad.

I think this is very intentional outside of just pure game mechanics and design: there is a running theme in Bloodborne, that being that every enemy you face has succumbed to one side too heavily. BSB, the half-beast Yharnamites, Gascoigne, Amelia, Laurence, and all the other beast enemies you face have relied too much on the blood and fallen to its curse. Brainsuckers, Rom, Winter Lanterns, Micolash, and arguably other insight-heavy enemies like the Celestial Emissary are heavier on the Insight side. What makes YOU, the player, different? It is your ability to balance both.

The creatures that have gotten closest to ascension are ones that we can assume have undergone the effects of blood and insight, but still haven’t gotten there all the way. Rom is probably the biggest example, along with other Kin/Great One enemies. They are physically transformed, as the blood will do, but they are not beasts. Rather, they often have the numerous eyes that are granted with Insight.

The ending that allows the Hunter to ascend reads to me as an ending where you have successfully balanced both mediums: using Blood to tame the negative effects of Insight and vice versa. What I interpret from this in regards to Micolash and Laurence specifically is that they could have come SO CLOSE to achieving what they wanted!! If they had just worked together, and the schism hadn’t happened, perhaps Micolash would not have gone insane with steady treatments of Blood and Laurence would not have transformed with the help of his Insight being steadily raised.

Maybe it’s just me being insane but I don’t know, there’s something pretty gay to me about being in charge of/cursed by an obsession with something that only someone equally as obsessed with its opposite can cure.

I honestly think Micolash and Laurence might have even ended up in a sort of prisoner’s dilemma situation: they both think their own method is correct, and refuse to give in to the other’s perspective. In doing so, they actually end up royally screwing themselves over at the same time whereas cooperation would have led to the best outcome. Laurence, the general posterboy for the blood in general(and most other blood related things) is not someone who I imagine would be keen on giving up his faith in the substance. Especially when he’s being told this by a man who’s sanity is hung by a thread. But if only Micolash listened to HIM, his insanity would be relieved and he would go back to the mostly sensible man he might’ve been- only of course, Micolash would not see it that way. Why would he take something that is quite literally killing Laurence? I find it interesting that Sedatives are a hint of insanity(like with Edgar) yet Micolash doesn’t drop any. Perhaps he’s not the type to invest in Blood, especially if he had to watch it slowly chip away at Laurence’s health who was too stubborn to listen to him instead. You see where I’m going with this- around and around they go.

*while Sedatives are stated to be thick human blood, I have three theories about this.

1. “Derived” from Byrgenwerth implies to me that the formula has undergone some modifications. I would not be surprised if holy blood is used as a thickener.

2. I imagine most “human blood”, at the point that Sedatives are distributed more abundantly, is already tainted with holy blood. I mean, come on. This is Yharnam. Blood is the name of the game.

3. Sedatives reset Beasthood, but for you the PLAYER, your beasthood remains at more of a net neutral than your Insight which the game relies on to progress the story. I imagine that for a scholar like Micolash, who does not fulfill the role of a hunter or a soldier, beasthood would be less of a concern.

OKAY THAT ONE POINT GOT REALLY LONG I’M SORRY so I’ll rapid fire some other things about them:

-Micolash seeks to abandon his humanity in his boss form, Laurence seeks to retain it in his boss form. Micolash seeks a blessing from Kos like that which was granted to Rom, you know, the giant very not human spider. Laurence wants his memories and his head back. Neat!!

-while there seems to be clear animosity between Mensis and The Healing Church later in the timeline, I think it is often overlooked that they DID work together at some time. I can imagine The School of Mensis to be research and science heavy: looking for ways to perfect ministration technology, understand the specifics of the blood, and research what else can be made of it to further humanity. The Healing Church distributes it, covers. The School’s reputation(presumably), and uses that research to further their own ideas of ascension. Bloodborne likes to do things in threes: Willem, Laurence, and Micolash are respective leaders/founders of Byrgenwerth, The Healing Church, and The School of Mensis. Interesting note that the latter two originate from the former, who is the only still “living” character amongst the 3 as far as I can gather. He warned those morons and it meant absolutely nothing LMAO.

-There is something so satisfying to me in how Micolash is generally associated with the dark and dim: Kos- a goddess born from the watery depths, an infinite labyrinth of dust and old tomes, and dark robes of Byrgenwerth. Laurence, on the other hand, is associated with all that is bright: fire, a bright pale moon, white and blue robes of the Choir, and the candlelit cathedrals that are more wax than they are pews. Parallels! Beloved!

-fellas is it gay if we both destroy a city for our own ends. YES yes Old Yharnam specifically was destroyed by the Powder Kegs- but I have a complete crack theory that Laurence saw the Ashen Blood poisoning go down, thought “ah, that is terrible for our reputation”, and sent the then-still loyal Powder Kegs to kaboom the issue away. The Powder Kegs then begin to protect the very beasts that Laurence is trying to sweep under the rug(because panic never leads to anything good), so the Healing Church Workshop as a whole denounce them as heretics.

…but also crack theory aside I still hold him half-responsible for the fall of Yharnam as a whole. And Micolash fucking obliterated all of Yahar’gul so. Yeah. Do NOT let these 2 work together, I think they would destroy all of Yharnam if they could.

-Consider: academic rivals that end up side-by-side, foraying into the brand new promising field of human ascension with matching ambitions and stars in their eyes. That is, until a cost that neither is willing to pay(the health of the other) shows up, and they end up splitting apart in a violent schism that brings them right back to where they started. CONSIDER. For me 🥺

-The Mensis cage obscures everything BUT the eyes, the uniform of the Choir allows for mobility (even enough to fight- like with Yurie) but it blinds the user. Also: Micolash, weird crazy guy who was probably not adored, or at least not as adored as Laurence, dies surrounded by people. Laurence, the guy who put Yharnam on the freaking map, dies completely alone in a big empty room. At least, that’s how we find their bodies in the nightmare!

- “We were friends! How could you?” Is tragic to me in any interpretation

-WHY DOES MICOLASH HAVE A CALL BEYOND. That is a CHOIR SPELL TO THE CORE!! And also, iirc, shared only amongst the higher ranks. I understand him having stolen it from Laurence is the general interpretation- but I like to think that perhaps it was a gift. A show of good faith, even? 😏 to wield the very stars in one’s hands seems like a very apt gift for a guy who is obsessed with the cosmos.

-Laurence 100% stole some of Micolash’s homework on contacting Great Ones imo and the effects of insight. I don’t actually have anything to back this outside of speculation I just think it’s very funny. Endless loop of copying homework. Micolash has more insight naturally, Laurence uses this to learn of the ritual, Laurence does his ritual, Micolash copies his ritual. No credit in sight.

-Micolash has an interesting line of cut dialogue where he claims he “was the head…of this treatment church”. I don’t have the original Japanese text, but I wonder if perhaps Micolash was meant to be an NPC, still fulfilling his role as both the headmaster of Mensis AND the main scholar overlooking all scientific and arcane research on behalf of the Healing Church? If he was the head of the healing church, did an earlier version have Laurence fulfilling his theorized role as a re-incarnated hunter?

-Micolash’s ritual, which I gather(and this is where my knowledge is the most shaky so BEAR WITH ME) summoned the blood moon, seems to be a direct copy of Laurence’s ritual to summon Flora. Whereas Flora took Gehrman as a host, Mergo took either Micolash as a host, or sacrificed the rest of the school in his place. Keep in mind: The Moon rune(found at the bottom of the stairs in Micolash’s boss arena, also eerily similar to the Communion Rune that I imagine would be a big hit with Laurence) DIRECTLY states that the Great Ones are sympathetic in spirit, and answer when called upon. I don’t think Mergo nor Flora are intentionally malicious. I just think these two idiots didn’t know what they were bargaining for, or with. Fellas is it gay if we both change the sky, both sacrifice something we didn’t necessarily mean to, and both suffer in the Nightmare for our sins? Asking for a friend.

-Micolash’s first move is running away from you, Laurence’s first move is to lunge directly at you. Ah, they would have made such a horrendously destructive pairing if the divorce hadn’t happened.

-bonus note!! I have ANOTHER crack theory that the “Moon” and “Communion” Runes have some neat parallels :smear:

Moon Rune is blood red like Micolash’s blood moon, Communion is pale white like Laurence’s pale moon. Moon allows for more blood echoes, Communion for more vials. Moon focuses on the Great Ones answering when called, Communion focuses on Blood Ministration. Moon has the eye in the center surrounded by lines, almost forming another circle(perhaps, and this is a stretch, even the dias that the catalyst is meant to be at the center of?), Communion is surrounded by 3 distinct dots(Laurence, Gehrman, and…Flora? Still not certain who the 3rd dot would be). Reading runes is fun! “Beast’s Embrace” may be closer to Laurence as a character(I mean, you obtain it from him) but since Micolash has no rune to drop as a counterpart(probably because he isn’t a DLC boss), I went with striking parallels between Communion and Moon instead.

-Fellas. Final question. Is it gay if my mild interest in that which lies beyond humanity (POSSIBLY) turns into a rapid obsession/a race against time to save you from yourself and reverse the effects of this poison you so adore, only to realize you won’t hear me, you will never hear me, and it is too late for both of us to turn back? Just wondering. JUST. WONDERING. Maybe trying to stop the other’s descent got too frustrating, Micolash and Laurence both sort of strike me as stubborn pricks in their own ways. Hence the big divorce. “If you won’t see things my way then you can sit with the consequences” (said both of them, equally suffering from consequences). I can only imagine Micolash did not expect for Laurence to prove him right so soon. (It’s funny, because they’re both dead, so really neither was right.)

**(Also I just like relating my headcanons back to canon for fun, I’m not trying to say how ‘canon’ something is should influence how people make hcs. Bloodborne’s not a very romantic game in a traditional sense so this is all mostly me rambling around anyway x,D)

OKAY SORRY IM FINALLY DONE. HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODY. I THINK THEY HELD HANDS MAYBE. I also think they would actually literally maul each other to death if given enough reason.

#bloodborne #micolash host of the nightmare #laurence the first vicar #micolaurence #bloodborne theory #bloodborne headcanons #I could actually go on for pages I may be insane #I dunno me personally I think it is a little bit gay to have an immoral science guy at your beck and call to do immoral science for you #while you maintain a pristine and holy image that also happens to provide him with materials #imagine you’re some guy in Yharnam and now Thing 1 and Thing 2 want your eyes and blood respectively #personal hc: Micolash is anemic af(sickle cell) and Laurence is so so pissed off that he doesn’t like transfusions #I think they hate each other(bonded together by fate) #okay its 5:00 am goodnight

[aita-blorbos]

AITA for deleting some files?

I (18F) am the president of my school’s literature club, at the beginning of this story we only had 4 members (including me). It all started when one of the members, we’ll call her S (18F) brought along a friend (it’s complicated, let’s just say ?M) to join our club. We managed to convince him with a little bribe of cupcakes from another member of the club who we will call N (18F) and very good tea from Y (18F), the last member of the club.

This new member will be called MC for the purposes of this story. I don’t know how to put this… but I immediately felt drawn to him. He seemed more real than anyone else I’ve ever met. It almost felt like him and I were the only conscious people in this entire reality…

I quickly fell deeply in love with him (or her. or them. it depends… again, it’s complicated. I’ll stick with “he” for simplicity’s sake). I tried to get closer to him, but it wasn’t easy. The other three members of the club also fell for him. I know how cliche it sounds that all of us girls fell for him, but that’s what happened.

S is the one who’s known him the longest, so I honestly perceived her as the biggest “threat” so to speak… I know I sound very… extreme or possessive here, but I promise it’s justified.

The other two weren’t much better though, because they were far more straightforward in getting closer to him. Neither S nor I really had the option to get close to him like they could.

Why?

Well. I might’ve left out the most important part so far. All four of us (me, S, N and Y) are just characters in a video game. They don’t know that, but I… because conscious so to speak. It might be due to my position as the club president, but I’m not sure. I realize how odd this sounds, but even though these three were supposed to be my friends… I felt so distant from them. I felt depressed. All because I realized I was a character in a video game. And the worst part is- I’m the only one who didn’t get the option to become closer to MC!

Oh, I forgot to mention- MC is the player. The player can be anyone behind the screen, but the character they “play as” is depicted as a guy. That’s why I used he/him pronouns, but also hinted at other uh possibilities…

Anyway! It didn’t seem… fair… to me, that the other three all had so-called “routes” that the player could choose and I didn’t- Even though, I’m arguably the most important character in the game. I mean, I made this club after all, didn’t I? And I am the only one who noticed that this whole thing is a game at all…!!!

I had to do SOMETHING about this unfairness, so I might’ve started messing with the game’s code. Now, I’m a prodigy in many things, but not exactly in coding… I maybe should have just created a route for myself, so MC would’ve had the option of choosing me, but… I didn’t do that. It’s been a while, so I’m not sure if I’d say it was due to a lack of skill or a fear that he would still choose one of them over me. So instead, I messed with their character attributes. I exaggerated their flaws and their negative traits and feelings and- Sometime towards the end of the player’s first play-through of the game, I even deleted the character file of S.

I don’t know how to feel about that, since I had still somewhat viewed her as a friend… But getting MC to love me was more important to me.

When MC played the game again, no trace of S was left. A few glitches here and there, but she was gone! In this second play-through it became more and more obvious that I messes with N and Y too. Both of them ended up turning so incomprehensibly wrong that I had to delete their files as well.

Then… I had achieved what I wanted. It was just me and MC now. I even controlled his cursor so he couldn’t exit the game as easily and leave me behind. Maybe at some point he’ll find a way, but… for now I have him.

As I mentioned though, I did have to make sacrifices to get here. But I think, since they weren’t conscious like I was, it’s no real loss that they died, right? They had no consciousness. They were just characters. I know I am technically also a character, but I am different, because I awoke and found out about that.

MC doesn’t seem happy that I deleted S, N and Y though, so I’m doubting my decisions a bit. So, am I the asshole for deleting their character files- and through that, them?

#aita #am i the asshole #unreality

[alwida10]

Do you think there is astroturfing around disney properties?

When Ant-man 3 was release, everyone was shitting on the movie but praised Jonathan Majors's performance but after the conviction I keep seeing statements like 'his acting was clownish', 'he was the worst part of Loki' etc.

You know since the recent poll about Loki, as of now 57.3% has passed on him,even after release of season 2 which was trending for a while got me thinking . Like, what happened ? Wasn't it the most watched show?

I really hated what happened to him so much that seeing him makes me eyeroll. My favourite MCU character ruined since ragnorak.

If Tom says he didn't like the show, would the opinion on it change?

Omg, yes! And thank you so much for coming to my inbox!!

So, first of all, thank you for teaching me a new word. For everyone else who -like me- didn’t know the exact meaning of “astroturfing”:

But I think the whole situation is complex.

1) i absolutly think that Disney has a team that does use shady methods to make the public opinion appear better than it actually is. I think it was @iamnmbr3 who noticed that some 5 star reviews on major rating sites looked like they were bot-generated (but it was quite some time ago. I linked the article in my master post). Twitter (now X) has so many bots on it and the platform allows them to tilt polls massively. So, yeah, I agree. But. I don’t think that’s necessarily the biggest influence on the public opinion.

2) I assume this is the poll you refer to. It doesn’t distinguish between series Loki, TR Loki, and OG Loki which might have biased the outcome in a negative way. I know some hardcore og Loki fans who did not vote at all, because they LOVE og Loki, but cannot give series Loki a “smash”. Others voted “pass” because the pic is of TR Loki which is still a turn-off for some. I assume that some series Loki fans might vote “pass” because there are many that never liked Loki before the show.

3) there are different types of fans. The hardcore fans stay, but during the airing a lot of casual fans come rushing in, consume, and eventually leave. These people are often very enthusiastic, sometimes even aggressively positive. by now they will have wandered further, leaving only the hardcore fans behind (old and new ones).

4) a lot of people loved the SHOW but not LOKI. I see these types of fans mostly on Reddit. They like the time travel, or kang, or the side characters or just the mcu. Those as well won’t care for Loki or even vote on polls around here.

And then there is also this trend to attack people for liking stuff produced by people who are in any way problematic. Majors trial made all those people drop him like a hot potato. Perhaps some are now trying to “atone” for saying good things about Majors by roasting him? Perhaps the people who never liked him to begin with feel now it’s “safe” to publicly criticize him, since his supporters must fear being attacked for “supporting a domestic abuser”.

All in all, I deeply agree with you on the series being very bad for Loki (as in “destroying any chance for a satisfying conclusion to his arc, his feelings about the adoption, and the time with Thanos”) and I fear it might also be bad for both Tom and the MCU (as in “the public interest is going down and while the show WAS praised widely it still contributed to the downfall instead of generating or reviving interest”).

And yeah, I have a post on how successful the show was in preparation. 🙈 sorry for being so extremely slow with that one. I prefer focusing on writing fanfics, these days. 🙂 OG Loki is alive in our fics, dear anon. No one can take him away from us! 🫂

#mcu loki #tom hiddleston #loki series negativity #loki series critical

[justalittlesolarpunk]

this is 2 questions, but they're both a little depressing, sorry

any tips for just keeping up hope? things just seem so awful as of late. ik bad things happen all the time, but it just seems like things are genocide on top of environmental collapse on top of genocide. how can you stay hopeful?

and any tips for enacting change as a minor? i don't have any income to spend on supporting causes, i'm not allowed to go to protests or rallies or anything of the like, i can't vote. i feel so useless. i know there has to be something i can be doing! i just don't know what.

again, sorry if this is. not the sort of thing you'd like to answer, i'd understand completely. feel free to like. ignore this i suppose

your blog seems lovely, it's nice to see someone determined to fight for a better world. i hope you have a wonderful day.

Hi. Thanks for getting in touch, and please don’t apologise for your questions. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been struggling, and I want to start by saying that what you’re feeling is a normal, healthy result of being a caring human being in a world full of cruelty and suffering. This is a really difficult time for the planet and its people and so I’d start by saying you’re allowed to feel dispirited and hopeless, especially as a minor looking around and seeing this is the world you’re growing up in.

This will probably be quite a long answer so I apologise for that, but you’ve caught me on my favourite topic - hope. To begin with, I have a little mantra that I repeat to myself which is that while despair as an emotional response is valid and to be expected, despair as an ideological orientation is not acceptable. What this means is that I allow myself and others slack and compassion at times when the feeling that everything is just too fucked to fix takes over. But I don’t permit myself to stop that from making me act. I take inspiration from people who have survived and are surviving incredible adversity - from the indigenous people who chose to keep living, to keep preserving their language and religion and culture, to keep fighting for their land and bringing children into the world even after everything they recognised about it was gone. We aren’t the first culture to face an apocalypse. Similarly I think of the low-lying islanders and other people in the Global South or the Arctic Circle seeing their means of subsistence or their homes being destroyed by climate change. I know this doesn’t sound at all hopeful on the surface, but I remind myself that these people don’t have the luxury of nihilism or despair. They have to keep trying, again and again, rebuilding the dams and re-roofing their houses and planting again the crops that they lost to extreme weather. If they give up, they die. They don’t need my tears and they don’t want my pity. And so reminding myself of the solidarity I owe them sort of resets my brain into getting-stuck-in-mode.

One of the most important things I have done and would recommend others to do to keep the despondency at bay is to act, to get up each morning and make the choice to do good, even if it’s just being kind and friendly to the people I see that day, or signing an online petition, or planting something in the ground. Sure, these actions won’t change the world on their own, but they contribute. And more importantly, they change you.

The second biggest thing is to control your media diet. That means getting serious about reining in your doomscrolling. The news and social media are full of appalling images right now and I’m not saying you should look away, or pretend it isn’t happening, but you have to remember that you becoming emotionally numbed out and vicariously traumatised doesn’t help the victims of war or environmental disaster. So balance out the negative news by actively seeking out things that are going well in the world. Remember that every day countless people get up determined to make things better. Visit Positive News, The Good News Network, The BBC’s Uplifting Stories Page, and similar sites. Follow Sam Bentley and Zahra Biabani. Read Rutger Bregman and Hans Rosling and Jon Alexander. Remind yourself that the good things happening in the world aren’t cancelled out by the bad ones any more than they cancel out the bad. Look for signs of care in the world around you: see how the old friends at the train station hug tightly when they’re reunited, or how the schoolboy helps his friend with his jacket, or the crowd parts to let the old woman through. These things seem small but they are the groundwork for everything we can achieve together.

I have hope because even in the midst of appalling scenes in the Middle East, aid workers are going in with food and medicine, risking their own lives, journalists are drawing attention to the situation, Israelis (even some with families held hostage) are calling for an end to the bombing, groups of Palestinian and Israeli communities have been working together for decades and will be the first to pick up the pieces when the dust settles, and because thousands are marching for justice and peace all over the world. Sometimes the moments that reveal the worst of humanity show us its best too. ‘Look for the helpers’ is a cliche but it’s genuinely useful.

Hope is also something you work at, a skill to be cultivated like any other, and I have found the writings of Rebecca Solnit hugely helpful in cultivating my own practice of hope. In terms of the environment, solarpunk shares origins with hopepunk, a genre that is all about triumphing (or even just trying your damn hardest) in the face of seemingly insurmountable odds. You don’t have to become a perfect optimist overnight, you don’t even have to be an optimist at all, you can just hope out of spite. Because the last thing that the corrupt politicians and the war criminals and the fossil fuel billionaires and the media commentators want you to think is that things don’t have to be this way and can get better.

Watch the Earthshot Prize Awards Ceremony even though it’s weird and corporate. Get newsletters from MSF or the UN agencies doing good work on the ground. Watch the birds out of your window. Revisit those good news websites regularly to check out the latest stories. Listen to podcasts that imagine a better future (I am working on a resources masterpost so check back in for that). Bake a cake for someone you know who is having a hard time - maybe that someone is you. That’s ok too. We cannot change the world alone but we can hold and soothe some of the pain in it. And take care of yourself - remember that, as Audre Lorde said, self-care is an act of political warfare. Make joy your resistance whenever you can.

This kind of ties in to your second question - how to make change as a minor. I know you don’t have a lot of power but you can still make a difference. See if you can make an environment society or a group of socially conscious students at your school. Talk to your friends about climate change and social justice issues (studies say this is the single action you can take as an individual that has the greatest likelihood of contributing to systemic change - ahead even of giving up flights or going vegan). Talk to your parents if they’re receptive. Talk to siblings and cousins and the guy behind the supermarket counter. Surround yourself with people who want to make things better, if you can. You’d be surprised how much change you can make even just by asking people or institutions to do better - can your school improve its sustainability, for instance? Write to elected officials even though you can’t vote (they don’t need to know that! You don’t need to tell them your age!) and sign petitions if you can’t go to protests. Sneak out to a protest if you feel like rebelling (though make sure a trusted friend knows where you are and follow safety guidelines available online).

Give yourself some grace to mess up and fall short and fail. It’s beyond unfair you have to be worrying about any of these things, but you are, and that’s because you have a big heart. Take some time to cry in your bed if you need it - I know I have over these past few weeks. Then when you’re ready, get up, wipe your eyes, roll up your sleeves and get to work.

#solarpunk #hopepunk #ask #environmentalism #social justice #cottagepunk #optimism #community #climate justice #bright future #you want to help and that itself is powerful #you can’t fix everything #but the trying is the work

[veliseraptor]

I can't stop thinking about the Vegas and Kinn Body Swap AU. How well do you think Vegas and Kinn would be able to act as each other? I think Porsche and Pete would not be fooled for long, but would others notice? What do you think would be Vegas' biggest realization about Kinn's life and vice versa? I very much agree that this trope would make a very juicy fic because god these two are not normal about each other

they are so abnormal about each other and it's what I love so much about their dynamic. incapable of being at all rational when it comes to each other. they're pretty smart boys but 90% of it goes out the window when they have to deal with each other. it's so much fun and also awful.

I think that it would take at the very least some time to figure out how to act like each other, because despite the fact that they spend a lot of time observing each other, Vegas and Kinn's perspectives on each other are so skewed and filtered through their respective feelings about each other that I think they both perceive the other's behavior a little to the left of what it is in reality. specifically, I think they'd both be inclined to amp up the negative traits they see in the other person, basically performing the worst selves that they do kind of become around each other.

that being said, if this is pre-canon/during canon, which is when I personally would want to see this set, I don't know that anyone would identify their behavior as, like, suspiciously Vegas-like or suspiciously Kinn-like (respectively). I think it would just read as weird/like them having really bad days. depending on where in Porsche and Kinn's relationship we are, Porsche might feel betrayed/hurt by what feels like backsliding, but I don't think he'd necessarily immediately think not Kinn.

honestly part of their mutual problem is that they have a lot in common. if they were a little less alike they might get on better. probably not because the family dynamics prohibit it, but at least it wouldn't be quite as much an immediate personality clash.

as far as biggest realizations...for Kinn it would definitely be less about things he doesn't know so much as...experiencing them in a more personal way. like, I figure the fact that Gun is physically abusive is not a secret secret (I think Korn knows, at the very least, though based on Pete's reaction definitely not general knowledge). I think Kinn has probably at least heard rumors. that's still different from experiencing a parent who is both physically and emotionally abusive on a personal level, directed at you, with all the accompanying rhetoric about it being about how he (Vegas) is such a failure compared to...himself (Kinn). and then also things like Vegas's relationship with Macau (which is very different from Kinn's relationship to his own brothers in ways that are interesting to me), and in general what it feels like to be in a position that's simultaneously familiar privilege and also...not that. it's perspective, at the very least. though I don't think Kinn enjoys it. and the shit about Vegas's dad is particularly hard to reckon with and know what to do with.

I can imagine Kinn actually going to his dad about it (as Vegas), thinking he's being helpful, and Korn giving absolutely useless "advice," pretending to be sympathetic but Kinn can tell it's not real, and that makes him feel kind of crazy, and then it makes him wonder if Vegas ever actually did look for help from anyone and what happened, and he doesn't like this at all. >:(

for Vegas...I don't think it would be as clean as "Kinn's life is harder than I thought it would be"; I think for him it would be about Kinn's relationship with Korn and recognizing that Korn is manipulating Kinn. I think Vegas has always perceived that relationship as the opposite of his with his dad (Kinn is trusted, Kinn's failures are tolerated, Kinn is loved without having to do anything to earn it), but because of his, shall we say, intimate experience with more blatant bad faith dad actors, he's more keyed to recognize Korn's bullshit for the bullshit it is. and that's...weird to realize, and also makes him wonder if Kinn knows, and maybe he doesn't, and Vegas is edging dangerously close to "the younger generation is being fucked up by the older generation collectively, it's not just an axis of major v. minor, maybe there is room for solidarity here" though I don't think he's getting there very fast.

#conversating #anonymous #aggressively headcanons #vegas theerapanyakul #kinn theerapanyakul #kinnporsche #i love them <3 and their fucked up selves <3

[switchcase]

"There is nothing inherently wrong with talking about these things, but there is a way that western society currently engages with trauma that is extremely Freudian and rather useless to everyone involved."

I'm very curious about this - please could you explain more?

Freudian psychology is, basically, this idea that if anything is currently maladaptive with your behavior or way of thinking, then it stems from some adverse childhood experience. The term "anal retentive" actually comes from this--Freud theorized that if you were obsessed with order and control then something bad must have happened during the psychosexual period of development focused on your anus that caused you to be like that in adulthood, whether you remembered it or not or whether you felt it was true or not.

Current western culture is very into this idea that anything currently wrong with you must be because of your past and it must have been something traumatic that happened. It frames the human experience as this very stagnant, inert thing that you are simply saddled with rather than something you have any semblance of control over. It devalues positive and negative experiences both by pretending that only trauma could possibly influence your behavior, when every single experience and interaction you have affects you.

Combined with western individualism and it becomes not a discussion of trauma, how to support each other as a community and as people, how to address traumatic events, but instead a fixation on what makes ME different and why I act the way I do and why it is completely ok for ME to behave that way regardless of how I affect others. It is not about actually unpacking experiences, not about healing, but only labelling them because now that is your identity. Add in this idea of the self as a brand, the self as a commodity, the self as an image to sell, and you get trauma as its own brand. This is how you get articles about the president gaslighting the nation, how you get people selling crystals for $300 to heal your inner child, people on Etsy selling DBT worksheets you could have gotten for free, how you get data tracking mental health apps that report your depression to your boss, how you get therapy speak and accusations of abuse if a friend group breaks up, how you get people who decide that anything unpleasant that happened to them was clearly traumatic rather than simply unpleasant because if it's NOT traumatic why would it affect them so much? It becomes competition--in a capitalist society wherein everything you are is a weapon against everyone else, why wouldn't it be a competition for who has it worse, better, whose story is most unique, how else can it be monetized? This is how you get abuse terminology watered down, weaponized, thrown out for shock value and social gain.

None of this is how you actually work on anything, though. The BIGGEST thing that prevents someone from developing long term maladaptive behaviors after experiencing trauma is a support system. But in the midst of all this talk on trauma in the west, because it is all so individualistic and self-serving, everyone is still so achingly alone. This fixation on trauma is not actually preventing other people from being traumatized on a wide scale. It is not helping people who are already traumatized. Talking is a great help, awareness of these things is so essential to preventing more hurt, but this is not what is happening on a wide scale amongst every day people. Because on a wide scale westerners have not formed an actual community, have not formed any community safety nets, do not point each other to community resources.

#ask #anonymous #If it seems like I hold great contempt for all this it is because I do

[neuroprincess]

Tequila, Whiskey & Bloodwine - Kira Nerys/Reader

Major Kira Nerys/Lieutenant Female Reader

Summary: After a drunken night with her best friend, Kira has to face her feelings for Y/N or do the easiest thing, run away.

Classification: Light angst, fluff

Warnings: Alcohol consumption

Word count: +2000

Unrevised

"One, two, three, now!" Kira shouts over another shot of aldebaran whiskey, laughing at her friend's expression as she does the same, totally unaccustomed to the taste.  

"Damn, that's really good, but strong." Y/N mutters, lips becoming numb "It probably wasn't a good idea to drink tequila earlier."  

"Maybe not at all, however, I think your alcohol tolerance is low." the brunette places the glass on the counter and watches the surroundings, there's still a big commotion at Quark's.  

"Or your tolerance is high, darling." she defends, feigning indignation at the accusation "Nerys..." then calls her by given name, something unusual.  

"Yes, sweetie?"  

"Have you ever tried a Kiss On The Lips?" she asks, approaching slowly, the woman blushes and just nods negatively "Do you want to try mine?"  

And everything after that becomes a blur, a fog in the memory.  

If there was a sunny morning with rays and heat beating against their faces through the window, it would certainly bother them. The bajoran moans and tries to move her arm without success, a weight limiting any movement, it's warm, soft and smells incredible, intoxicating all her senses. She smiles holding onto it and hugging the body, feeling every part and curve against her. Strands sweep across her face, the scent intensifies and without even realizing it she inhales, searching for more, lips ajar brushing across soft skin, closing to plant a kiss on the place.  

"That tickles." a familiar voice whispers and she jumps out of bed recognizing who it is.  

"Y/N?! What the hell are you doing here?" Kira rubs her eyes and analyzes the situation "And half naked?"  

"Good morning to you too." she gets up, putting a hand to the temple feeling a twinge, surely just the beginnings of an annoying headache "And we're not much different."  

Nerys gasps as she looks down and finds that they're in the same position, wearing only panties and bra, immediately trying to cover herself with both hands. They stare at each other for a millisecond before she runs to the bathroom, anticipating the shame consuming and her cheeks starting to blush. Finally alone, starts freaking out, a dozen scenarios running through her head, no matter how hard she tries to search in the back of mind for some memory or what happened, how the two of them ended up in this situation, nothing comes up except shots of different drinks and a short talk until everything goes dark. A talk that makes her blush even more, a heat rising up her neck and making sweat out of nervousness. It was the lieutenant who started with a double meaning, she doesn't remember if they continued or what it led to, her body is strangely sore and there's a bruise between neck and collarbone.  

"Rys!" the younger calls from the other room, the nickname making her blood run cold "I can't find my clothes, can I borrow some of yours?"  

"Sure, sure, I'll... I'll take a shower, you can go ahead and meet me for breakfast."  

A few minutes later, she heard the bedroom door close and let out the breath that she didn't even know was holding, the nausea hitting hard, the rest of the drink still in mouth and an imminent headache, announced by a familiar pressure. Despite her age, she had been deprived of a few luxuries as a refugee and later as a resistance combatant. There were few opportunities for her to sit down and just enjoy a social occasion, to indulge a little in alcohol, to experience the normality she had been denied. Even so, it doesn't seem right. Then questions arise, the fear of having done something while out of her mind and someone from the militia or starfleet having witnessed it, or, the biggest question, having slept with her best friend and, worst of all, not remembering it, any of the details or the circumstances. The possibilities consume her as she walks to Quark's and instantly regrets having arranged to meet Y/N for the meal, frightened by the mere sight of her. Wearing her clothes. Earthy tones in loose fabrics contrasting with skin, slightly messy hair and a very cute sleepy face that makes the heart melt as she watches her sip a raktajino, soft lips catching her eyes more than she would admit. She knows she should join her friend, ignore all fears and spend a pleasant morning off, but she can't, it seems impossible. Thinking, hoping, that hasn't been seen, she turns around and runs back to her quarters, unable to face the girl. And, like an embarrassed teenager, runs away from her for the rest of the day with a dozen lame excuses, forgetting that they will have to work together the next day. 

"Y/L/N, go with Major Kira to the docking bays, a klingon ship has been rescued near the station, leaving from here, and needs immediate repairs." O'Brien orders, stepping up onto his platform, and smiles at his pupil's sudden animation, he'd noticed how downcast she'd been since the start of the shift "Is that okay for you, Kira?"  

"Why wouldn't I be?" the Bajoran retorts immediately, a little rougher than expected, without turning in their direction "Let's go before we get some impatient big guys."  

The path is tortuously silent, unlike the way the pair are in everyday life, always cheerful with casual chats and sneaking around the station corridors when they're not sharing a meal. Y/N opens her mouth a few times, trying to start a conversation, but is always interrupted by some guidance, finally giving up when she realizes the indifference of her usually warm friend.   

"Kira?" she calls, a door behind access to the docking bay "Why are you avoiding me?"  

"I'm not avoiding you, Lieutenant."  

"Well, you didn't even say good morning to me and seem to be purposely distancing yourself." her words are almost painful, the weight of the day finally affecting "I saw you leave yesterday and, after that, you avoided me at all costs. Did I offend you in any way? If it's the clothes or that night..."  

"It's nothing, Y/N."  

"So what is it?"  

About to answer, she is interrupted by the passage being opened and Odo appears accompanied by three klingons, well-known merchant brothers from the House of Ral'kur, specializing in the trade of exotic and rare materials, who were passing through the station. The tallest and eldest of them, Jarnok, takes two steps forward, bowing slightly as a sign of respect to the major, who is confused and doesn't know why or how to react, she looks at both friends for answers and they giggle.   

"Qapla, it's good to see you again, Kira Nerys. You've proved yourself to be a formidable woman and worthy of my respect and admiration." he compliments, standing up straight again.  

"Do we know each other?" the brunette asked, squinting her eyes, scanning back through memories in search of something, they had never even spoken.  

"She's humorous." Draxan, another Klingon, laughs and slaps his brother on the shoulder "No need to be modest, it's not every day that someone manages to defeat Jarnok in a hand-to-hand duel."  

"I think we better start repairs so you can get back on route as soon as possible." Odo intervenes and directs them to the other side to check the outside of the ship.  

Taking a minute to assimilate what she's just heard, Kira can't believe she's got it right.  

"Did he really say that or is my brain playing tricks?" she asks when they are finally alone, inside the ship's facilities, and begins to get nervous, a little irritated, sounds like a joke "How did I duel with a fucking Klingon?"  

"Well, it was kind of my fault." Y/N tries to explain, without knowing exactly how "I lost a lot playing strip poker, some of them stared at me, you got angry and thought it was clever to duel with one of them to defend my honor."  

"You? Me? Wait, you were half naked at Quark's?" jealousy burns in the pit of her stomach and she's livid just imagining such a scene, that others have had the privilege of seeing the same thing she saw the morning before "That's crazy, not in a good way. We'll never go there again, those Ferengi..."  

"What about my breakfast?"  

"I'll make it for you, we're just not there anytime soon." she replies quickly "Now, how did I win the duel? It's fucking impossible."  

"It was probably the effect of the bloodwine. That was kind of my fault too." the lieutenant mutters embarrassed "We bet."  

"That I would drink?"  

"That we would both drink, but you were right, I'm weak on alcohol." the younger concludes, ashamed, the memories of that night popping into head and making her blush "I have to say, you looked really hot knocking Jarnok to the ground with just one blow." 

"With just one blow?"  

"Quick and accurate."  

"It explains my sore body. And the bruise on my neck." 

"That was me too." Kira freezes and swallows dry with fear at this affirmation "We fell on the turbolift and I accidentally elbowed you."  

"Oh, for a moment I thought..."  

"That we had slept together.. Is that why you've been avoiding me?" everything starts to click into place and she gasps, feeling the tears choking, the behavior being a clear response to how she feels about this and them "Nothing happened, don't worry, even drunk I know and respect boundarie and limits." she spits, feeling the bitterness of each word like a poison on the tip of tongue "I'll check the control panels, Major."  

She barely manages to take two steps only to be held by defined arms and whirled around so that they continue face to face, the brown eyes staring at her with intensity, there is sweetness which she recognizes, but sweetness mixed with pure fervor, unspoken passion, red lips tingle with proximity and the two stare at each other without words, just keeping the small details of seconds that feel like eternity. Y/N focuses on the firm grip, fingers caressing her over the fabric of the uniform, always amazed at the tenderness to be found behind the wall of hardness that Nerys builds around herself. Her heart beats faster, almost leaping out of the chest, and she can barely control her breathing, air being stolen from lungs as they are inches apart.  

"Rys..." the name pronounced in a whisper breaks the comfortable silence.  

The bajoran smiles at hearing her name and wanders a hand up to the other woman's neck, with a gentle touch pulls her to herself and, without warning, their lips meet. It's exploratory, gentle and passionate, leaving a trail of repressed desire and hidden emotions. Suddenly time is suspended, just for them, so surrendered that everything disappears for a single moment. The drunken night, the worries, the momentary pain of being away, the uncertainties and insecurities that haunted them, all dissolve the moment the kiss intensifies. In human terms, everything is thrown out of the window, nothing else matters.   

Kira reaches for the girl's waist and pulls her even closer, deepening the kiss, intensifying the touch and shouting how much she wants, no, desperately needs this. She feels in paradise, until her brain demands oxygen and realizes she's very alive.  

"So... you're not mad at me?" is the first thing running through Y/N's mind as soon as they separate, mouths brushing lightly "I..."  

"Sweetie, I was never mad at you, in fact I was mad at myself, the idea of having loved you in my arms and not even remembering it was too much for me. Shame, anger, maybe sadness." the brunette confesses, letting a bundle of vulnerability shine through "And fear. Fear that you don't reciprocate my deepest feelings or are just looking for fun."  

"Sometimes you can be really blind, Rys. Everyone knows that I'm hopelessly and madly in love with you."  

This leaves Nerys speechless, stunned, ecstatic, joy crossing every neuron and fiber of her being at the revelation. She can't find the words, doesn't need to. In the next second, their lips are together again in an eloquent kiss full of everything they can't say, the kind that are enough when there are no beautiful words to explain the most intense things. However, this lasts less than the one before, because they separate when the klingons heavy footsteps are heard walking towards them.  

"Well, Lieutenant, in my quarters after shift?"  

"First date?"  

"Of course!" 

Yes, I'm back… with new obsessions.

#kira nerys x reader #kira nerys #star trek #star trek deep space nine #ds9 #fanfiction #imagine #one shot #star trek x reader

[maverickbackalley]

i need to hear you talk about krisnix

What why? I'm totally normal about them ahahahahahhaha..haha.. 😞

Okay so I don't waste hours of my time (Future Mav: LIAR) and yours: I love them, your honour. It's not a relationship anyone should put up with in real life so there is a shock and appeal to their dynamic that none of the other main ships can offer. Krisnix ooze venom, animosity, and this indescribable tension that's fascinating to see blossom in these two powerhouse attorney's dynamic. The pair is just so damn diabolical, manipulative, and ideally comes with so much psychological horror that makes you question your own sanity and realise how quickly you would lose the game if you were swapped out with either of them. Underneath it all though, Krisnix is basically a pathetic pissing contest between two cunning individuals and that's stupid enjoyable for me to watch from the sidelines. I love how many different routes people can take with their actual romantic relationship too. Is it all an act? Rivals with benefits? Do they care about each other? Are they just keeping their enemies close and maybe at some point took the saying a little too literally?? Are there genuine feelings there after 7 years and one or both of them absolutely hate themselves for it??? So many possibilities and it's so riveting to think about. Like, 7 years is a LONG TIME to put up with someone purely out of spite. These idiots routinely ate dinner together in canon for crying out loud! Neither of them seem the type to happily put up with that with zero gain or case development for that long. (For my own reference: My longest relationship was almost 8 years and while it feels like no time at all looking back in the present, if I sit down and truly dissect it so much positive and negative change and development took place during that timeframe that it's actually quite jarring. I think that's one of the things that makes it hard for me to believe that nothing happened between them.) Kristoph is such an enigma and so full of sinister potential that his clash with an established bleeding heart like Phoenix is so compelling. I honestly have a hard time describing their appeal and always feel like there is more that I just.. can't quite put into words. So hopefully even an ounce of this makes a lick of sense outside of my head.

On the flip side, I will say I'm not the biggest fan of every portrayal of the ship. I feel like some people lean too heavy on physical domestic abuse (not talking BDSM. I don't want it misconstrued that I see these as one and the same since I believe there is also a large chunk of BDSM!krisnix out there) and completely neglect the brilliant minds at play. Or focus too much on making Phoenix an absolute pushover like he's too dumb to catch on to even the bare minimum attempts of Kristoph manipulating him. To be honest, some of these feels like throwing Dahlia-era Phoenix at Kristoph and it's like.. hmmm.... noooo. He's not that same person if you're writing for Beanix. I think that would probably be my personal gripes with the pairing if I had to be critical of it. There is a fine balance to their dynamic that's hard to capture, in my opinion. Like I don't even feel I could properly do them justice outside of memeing it up. Which is partially why I haven't done any real art for the pair despite them being one of my personal favourite and being all too aware that they have little to no content. They are like the definition of "It's Complicated" and I love canonically knowing how the story starts and ends. But that 7-year gap is just a juicy wealth of knowledge soup that I and others can throw whatever the fuck we want into it and boy does almost every spoonful taste delicious.

...Well that was more than I expected to write. ENJOY. Feel free to let me know your krisnix thoughts as well!

#asks #roundhousekickingheight #ask game #thanks for the ask! #krisnix #hopefully that wasn't disappointing since two of y'all asked for my take :') #Open to giving my opinions on other ships still but they definitely won't be this long I'm sorry pfft #ace attorney #aa #kristoph gavin #phoenix wright #beanix

[pessiofficial]

barca vs. real madrid match analysis (10/28/23)

i don't know what to say, overall just a really, really disappointing match especially when we deserved a lot more. all credit to real madrid (specifically jude) because they capitalized on the chances they had, something we obviously need to learn how to do.

i wanna start with the positives:

gavi. absolutely ridiculous player, had bellingham, kroos, and valverde in his pocket for the first half until romeu came in and he moved out of the pivot role. he was imo the best player on the field for both sides today, and if we can't take away the three points from today we can at least sleep a little easy knowing that the rest of the world knows how good he is now!!! i even saw utdtrey compliment him which is a win in my book. he's easily barca's best player this season and if we get a little further in the ucl i think he makes that ballon d'or shortlist easy.

okay next up are the players who i thought had good games. gundo of course with the goal, he's so clutch and was very sharp without it too. cancelo was amazing and araujo had vini (don't even get me started on vini today :/ ) in his pocket the entire time, it was amazing. rock solid defending except for those last 20 minutes, but i think there's a reason for our mistakes that i'll get into in a second. also fermin, christensen, and inigo had good games.

in terms of tactics and coaching, xavi coached a 1-0 or 2-0 win today, we just need to learn how to convert more than 1 of every 6 chances. there's no excuse. lewandowski's first touch is abysmal, i barely saw ferran, and joao felix only had that one chance. we just need more. xavi made a really good point about real madrid when he said that they knew how to convert the chances they took and he's absolutely right. we had a lot of unlucky shots but still, just expected more.

now onto the negatives. lewandowski had a stinker, but he also literally just came back so i'll take it a little easy on him. romeu is just not barcelona quality, he's been decent in the smaller games but he's so vulnerable without de jong next to him, it's almost laughable. the winning goal happened because romeu didn't mark bellingham. we need frenkie back and i'm so serious when i say we're horrible without him in that pivot. i didn't realize fully how important busquets was to this team until i saw a new pivot play.

now, the elephant in the room: ter stegen. i don't know about the second goal because it was from such close range, but that first one? any good goalie doesn't let that in, and on top of that any respectable goalie doesn't get shots like that taken against him very often. players nowadays know that if you shoot from distance against stegen it's going in. i've been a neuer truther for a long time and i've always meant it when i said that ter stegen isn't built for the biggest stage. he does this in ucl nights, he does it in clasicos. he had a good league season last year but he's just not barcelona quality in the bigger ucl/derby games. that shot from bellingham wouldn't have gone in if stegen had saved it instead of trying to parry it away. really, truly embarassing. i hope he can acknowledge and fix this.

last thoughts about the other team: i really don't think anyone from real madrid played particularly amazing except bellingham (who i actually don't think played well he just did what it took when it mattered) and modric, who really changed the tempo of the game when he came in. the refereeing was... fine. yes that was a pen for araujo but honestly we're lucky that ferran didn't get a red for that tackle, there are some refs who would've given that. vini was especially bitchy today, i don't understand why. he's genuinely so unlikeable and there was no need for any of the things he did especially when he had a stinker. this being said if he did suffer any racist abuse (as i've heard) i condemn that as well, never any room for racism.

anyway, we move!!! the season is very long and when pedri, fdj, and kounde are back we'll be better. this was a good lesson for us on finishing our goddamn chances and we'll be better. this game has proven that we can compete at a european level and we will for many years to come.

#footy analysis #barcelona #fc barcelona #barca #el clasico #barca vs real madrid #gavi #fermin lopez #ilkay gündoğan #oriol romeu #lewy

[oflights]

Re: relationship headcanons. I totally get what you mean by “not having been in love all throughout school”-thing , to me this applies more to Harry and I do think Draco realized there is more to Harry then what he thought in th earlier books by the end of the war; Because Draco expierences such a profound worldview shift in HP6/7 and Harry as significant moment around that: the moment they share when Draco doesnt identify Harry, Harry literally coming back to save him from a certain painful death by putting himself in danger in RoR,seeing Harry defeating the villain who is the biggest plight in Dracos life with Draco’s wand in his hand no less, followed potentially by Harry speaking at his trails or at least putting it on record that he saw Draco unable to kill Dumbledore/not identifying him/Naricassa saving him etc. Draco is a gay teen and the object of his attention had a literal knight in shining armour moment, I think that boy was fighting some “DM + HP <3” urges there in the end HAHAH

hi!! yeah i totally understand this and do enjoy it when i encounter it, like i can totally be sold on this interpretation more than like "i've loved you since i was 11" which is just like. what.

but i also really like the twisty, resentful place where all this stuff happens and they're def feeling different about each other but it's not necessarily in a positive way (and not necessarily negative, either, just something more neutral) until years post-war when they're more grownup.

HBP does this fun narrative shift for them where draco has more important, higher stakes things to worry about than harry potter, and harry becomes obsessed with him because draco is such a manageable enemy and good focus for his resentment and fear and rage. he can defeat draco, he knows it, and he's right there to be fixated on, as opposed to the very scary war going on outside.

i think they both kind of realize at the end of HBP (harry) and DH (draco) the same thing: my childhood enemy is not the real villain; school is small and real-world stakes are much higher. i can def see draco turning that into "oh he saved me, i might be developing feelings for him" but i can just as much see him being like "oh goddamnit, he's not as bad as i always thought he was and i owe him my life, this sucks so much and i can't even hate him anymore!!" i love working from that post-canon.

#asks #anonymous #figuring out your rival is actually a decent person can be devastating lol #i think draco has to get over his pride to get to a place where he can be anything but resentful of that #tbh this is why i often brush over or outright avoid using the semi-canon of harry speaking up for draco at his trial #it just makes that worse!!! #ANYWAY this has been a fun holiday weekend for meta lol thank you guys for these!! #oflights headcanons

[beardedmrbean]

I don't mean for this to sound rude, but I don't understand the negativity towards Thanksgiving in recent years. Growing up I was always taught that Thanksgiving was about the Native Americans and pilgrims getting together and having a large feast. I always thought that it was generally seen as a positive thing that these two groups of people, who had very different cultures and couldn't even really speak the same language, put aside their differences and enjoyed the year's harvest. Of course, I'm not going to deny all the atrocities that happened to Native Americans, but it seems a bit odd to me personally to say that Thanksgiving is related to those horrible events when to me, it appeared to be about celebrating two cultures coming together. In my mind, it's like saying the 4th of July is bad because America used to have slavery. Or that Veteran's Day is bad because people didn't approve of the Vietnam war. I hope I don't come across as mean spirited, but I guess I just want to understand why people have this sentiment about Thanksgiving.

Not rude at all, polite inquiry is never a issue.

Wasn't as quaint as the simple story you get in 2nd grade or watching the Peanuts special, it did happen and it was a friendly gathering that likely saved the lives of the pilgrims who weren't really prepared for what they'd gotten themselves into.

As for the current year hate, it's not current year folks have been throwing fits about it forever. On of my theories about why it's gotten to the level it has is that the 'activists™' are seeking to out do the people that they've taken the mantle from.

Biggest change is availability of information, which includes false information or shifted narratives.

That and it's popular these days to both shit on white people and infantilize minority groups, that 2nd one is nothing new but it's had a shiny new coat of paint tossed on it that makes it ok for leftists to treat them like helpless little babies.

When in actuality they probably could have held off colonization for a good while if they'd wanted to at the time and they were absolutely better equipped to survive and thrive up there.

Oh they were also really good at killing each other too, did not need the colonists to get that done. Colonists just made it easier since both north and south America, to the best of my knowledge, were still basically in the stone age, don't think they'd managed bronze or copper let alone iron before we showed up. The whole wheel thing is totally different since as the terrain goes there was not really much use for the things.

But ya folks showed up from across the big water with the boom sticks and Algonquins trade whatever for those so the can kill the Iroquois easier, right up till they stopped killing each other and formed a confederacy aimed at killing the various colonists.

Noble Savage shit is so damn racist, they were just as good at killin each other as the folks from Europe, Asia, and Africa were and often for many of the same reasons.

Resources or religion.

#anonymous

[downstairsbar]

Okay you gave us Louis fave positions but I'm curious, what do you think are Louis biggest turn on? Like what makes him extra horny

ughhhhhh this is such a good question I haven’t thought about this as much… I think Louis is into being wanted and being obsessed over and related to that I think he’d really love praise 😵‍💫 especially since during sex might be the only time he can take a compliment without dying a little or trying to deflect. I think he likes lestat having a hand at the smell of his back in public or lestat wrapping a hand around his waist I think he has a complicated relationship to lestat defending him in public but I think when things are good he’d be really smug and into it like in the poker scene hmmmm I think he likes being called pretty and beautiful esp since my friend mentioned lestat is prob the first person to use those words for him like that rewired my brain…I don’t think he’s big on pda but I think little subtle stuff like a hand on his thigh could make him start vibrating. Like no one knows but they could see and deduce that… I think he likes being told what to do and eat, fleabag I want someone to tell me what to wear every morning type jawn which is why he and Armand last so long despite everything else. For more 🥴🥴 stuff, I think he likes being punished and treated roughly, like spanking and slapping, especially when he’s using sex to punish himself which is unfortunately quite often. I can always see him and lestat in modern au accidentally falling into the worst bdsm relationship in the world like they couldn’t even tell you what ssc meant like literally do not know the acronym (and then Louis gets with Armand who makes him sign a 7 page contract and picks his clothes every day and buys him a custom made cartier collar etc it’s in many ways what he needed at the moment even though it also happens to make him miserable). I think Louis really really likes feminization, especially canon Louis, but I think it likely starts off as a direct consequence to his internalized homophobia=misogyny and mommy issues up to here and then lestat initially validates that until things get bad and circles back around to homophobia=misogyny. which is really interesting for me bc even though I tend to be drawn to ships where feminization is a thing, I don’t think I’ve had any where it’s negative connotation to that character? Like I’ve always even made a point to put in multiple a/ns when I first join a fandom that the humiliation and feminization aren’t related and I just happen to like writing both of those separately, but for Louis it really can be both ☹️ BUT I think that in their happy ending, Louis is able to have worked through all that and no longer see his femininity and softness and complicated relationship w gender as a curse and instead something worth celebrating😓 hmmm I think Louis also likes getting slut shamed. I can’t see Louis as someone who is ever publicly presenting fem but I can see him experimenting with lingerie and stuff in private although I also think that would be a like watching lestat watch him thing where it’s fine to him but lestat likes it so much and likes buying Louis things to wear and praises Louis so much that it saiyan fulfills Louis’ aforementioned praise kinks. I think Louis likes getting his nipples played with. Louis does NOT like getting his hair played with—until 1960s that’s bc he already spent an hour hot combing his hair and putting the pomade and u will NOT sweat out his waves omfg and then from around 1965 and on, he’s on wash and go day #2 and his tape is too sharp to be obstructed or he’s already got his durag andor bonnet on so don’t piss me off lestat. But I digress. I think Louis likes being… pressured… into scenarios and situations and so forth I can’t be the first one to type it out in full though so if you know mdzs ch119 then You know. ummmm what am I missing oh dirty talk of course and. breeding kink. yeah sorry

#qs #if this is a/bo he really. really Really. likes getting knotted. sorry #SORRY! #And la #And lact #And

[longjiaojiao]

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The reason I find I need to take a stand on this is that I find myself feeling guilty for not replying to you. So even if you don't read this message, I'm going to do it.

Firstly, I would like to make it clear that this information from you does not affect me in the slightest, and the reason for this is that I have no cultural background in English at all. Yes, I know the content of what you said was bad, but I couldn't feel the emotion behind it. It's as if I'm eating a classic regional dish, a food that may remind someone of their hometown, of their childhood, and whether it's a positive or a negative emotion, there is an emotional value behind the dish. But I can't taste it as such because I haven't had memories of the dish. These words of yours are just like that, with flavour, but without emotion.

Secondly, I would like to say that the current social situation is so volatile, and the well-being of individuals is in the hands of international politicians, that each of us has reason to feel insecure. If you are facing any kind of anxiety and feel threatened by strangers on the internet, please seek help. Political anxiety and personal anxiety are both understandable. I don't think you'll really satisfy yourself by spreading negative language, it'll only carve hate into your own subconscious over and over again.

One last thing, I'm not trying to argue with the hater here. Sloganised vocabulary doesn't require the use of your brain, so by saying that you're not actually thinking at all, you've lost the ability to solve things independently in this action. The less you know the more absolute you are about what you believe, you simply won't have heard of any other solution. So this isn't a debate, I just hope that you really are going through mental issues or life problems in your life, and if I'm not mentally disturbed and also happen to help pry a little bit of your set-in-stone state of mind, it's all worth it, I've even gained a little bit of conceited fulfilment in you :D, so thanks, and hope you have a great day.

[turtle-bun]

Turtleverse reacting to Mutant Mayhem!!!

!!!Minor spoilers ahead!!!

Okay so like in a weird sci-fi universe pocket dimension kind of like Spiderverse where all iterations of the Turtles collectively hang out and can see into each other's dimension via computer screen or whatever.

Each time there’s a new iteration of the Turtles it's this HUGE event where EVERYBODY comes over to have what they call a "watch party". Basically, just jumbles of video compilations they were able to capture and put together in a sort of movie-esque style to get a feel to how the new Turtles are this time round. It's very exciting and fun mainly due to the fact that in most dimensions there aren't any other "mutant turtle" around so they all feel a lot less alone with every new version of themselves they discovered. There’s always a different reaction whenever these events happen, both positive and negative, but they are all united under that fact that at their very core they understand each other in a way no one else in the entire multiverse ever will.

So, they catch wind of a new universe popping up into the cosmos and central hub is all a buzz! As much as there is excitement there is also this underlining anxiousness that always sits at the pit of their stomach. Because sure they could be finding this cool brand new universe with a unique style and story just like the Rise!Turtles or they could find something so completely heartbreaking and dark yet are forbidden to interfere least they destroy the multiverse, like the Last Ronin universe (every Mikey in the Turtleverse was hugged and coddled to death for nearly a week after that event).

The watch party happens and they all get their first glimpse ever at the new universe and the Turtles in it. Within the first few minutes of seeing these new turtles it is then they are hit, practically gut punched, with the realization that these guys…are children. Sure THEY were basically children when they first started out the whole crime fighting thing but for some reason this time it hits different. Like here they are watching these FOUR FUCKING CHILDREN on the screen, out in a dangerous city unsupervised, where is their father?! Oh there he is! Oh no he’s an anxious mess! He’s trying so hard to be good dad tho! Please boys just listen to him! Why are you fighting criminals at night? You are fourteen!

The collective of the Turtleverse were just SO stressed watching these boys fight their way through the criminal underground. Sure, they were impressed by the boys is skills and strength and they can most definitely handle themselves…but also consider that THEY ARE VERY SMALL!! They are all just so small and dorky and cringe and excitable and losers and giddy and so, so, so full of joy!

The Leo’s are all having a fucking breakdown because: “Oh my god he’s such a loser! I love him so much! He’s trying SO hard to be a good big brother and leader! He just like me fr!”

The Raph’s are punching shit due to shear overwhelming over protectiveness and cute aggression, like: “He’s so fucking stupid! He’s so FUCKING STUPID!!! I WOULD FUCKING DIE FOR HIM!!"

The Donnie’s have been collectively scheming on how to: “Wrap him in bubble wrap and put him safely in a jar where he shall be safe and do nothing but eat pizza and watch anime for however long he wants! Dose he need a new phone or computer? Doesn’t matter! We’re already making one for him!”

The Mikey’s are the biggest MM!Mikey hype men ever, like seriously: “Yes babe, you tell that joke! Swing those chucks, mini Mikey! YOU’RE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE!!!”

Meanwhile, in the background, all the Splinter’s have been very calm and quiet, seemingly unfazed, at least on the outside. They absolutely FEEL for this new Splinter on a spiritual and emotional level. Every time one of the MM!Boys goes head first into danger they tense up so bad and are just internally screaming: “MY BABIES!! MY PRECIOUS BOYS!! PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!!”

Then they all just start sobbing because the MM boys were able to have a good ending! They have a large mismatch family of mutants, a cool April as their friend, they were accepted by society, they even got to go to school! Maybe there is a bit of underlying jealousy amongst them, seeing another version of yourself living the life you always wanted, but mostly they were just SO happy for them! They were so unbelievably happy that FOR ONCE some version of themselves got to live a normal life! That they got to be kids!

So yeah, basically the whole Turtleverse is that meme of: I’m crying, screaming, throwing up! I’ve only had these boys for five minutes but if anything happens to them, I will destroy this universe and then myself!

If the Mutant Mayhem boys eventually do mean the rest of the Turtleverse you can bet your ass that they will ABSOLUTLY be spoiled rotten by the others. And like the MM!Boys won’t even realize it, they’ll just think that the other Turtles are just being super nice to them because they’re new. They don’t know the absolute fucking chokehold they have on the entire multiverse!

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #mutant mayhem spoilers #bunny talks #headcanons #mutant mayhem #am i projecting? yes #do i care that i'm projecting my thoughts and feelings onto the rest of the turtleverse? no