#these tags

[noodles-and-tea]

Whoops!! *accidentally klances your firstprince*

#red and royal blue yknow what I’m sayin?? #I woke up in a cold sweat needed to draw this #idk whether i should apologise for it or not lol #maybe I won’t #my art #firstprince #rwrb #red white and royal blue #alex claremont diaz #henry mountchristen windsor #klance #Voltron #vld #THESE TAGS #I TYPED THEM IN AND THEN NEEDED TO TAKE A 5 MIN BREAK HOLY HEVK

[gillianthecat]

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Although I hadn't been particularly following Build or the Kinnporsche actors in general, that show was my entry point into BL fandom and I still see a lot about it and the actors crossing my dash. I tend not to seek out behind the scenes or "real life" information about actors (with occasional exceptions of hyper-fixations on specific people) and stay well aware that I know next to nothing about what actors and their relationships are really like, that what they show about themselves is crafted and intentional and may or may not reflect reality. And so I was slightly surprised to find myself feeling emotionally discombobulated by the news coming out about Build and Poi.

I do not know what happened, and I offer no opinions and guesses on what actually happened, and who in their circles knew what. This post is about me, not them.

I have the urge, always, to know what's happening, to seek out information, to understand the truth of the matter. I thought could stay "neutral" about this, that is, not seek out information but calmly consume what came across my dash. But I just now filtered all the relevant tags I could think of. I want to understand, but the truth is simply not available to me right now. And may never be. And while a part of me feels like it's disrespectful to the victim, whoever they maybe, to not want to know the truth of what happened, the fact is my knowing or not knowing doesn't change a thing about their lives. They don't know me, I have no power over their lives, and that is how it should be.

I think I find this upsetting for a couple reasons. First, I did like Build as an actor. He was the one in the cast who's acting I found most compelling, who seemed the most skilled to me, and I have been curious to see what he does next. So there is that feeling of loss, or worry about loss, that if these allegations turn out to be true, I will not get that. Because even if he gets to keep acting (although the climate for a relatively unknown Thai BL actor is very unlike that for someone like CK Louis so I suspect if the allegations are true he wouldn't get more work) I would not be able to watch him anymore, and so that would be a loss. And, even though I hadn't thought I'd had expectations for him as a person (and even less so after I'd heard bits and pieces about previous bad behavior of his) I am surprised to find I do have a sense of betrayal about it. He does seem like a nice guy. I do like the way he presents himself, at least in the little bits I've seen.

And of course, abuse is just unpleasant. Thinking about real people hurting each other of course is going to make me feel unhappy. In fiction, it's safely contained, there's a narrative arc, and no real people were actually harmed, so I can analyze it, get in my feelings about it. But with rumors of abuse by real people, there is no catharsis available.

And then lastly, there is the confusion of it all. They both have bad reputations in some way or other, there is evidence presented that may or may not be credible, I'm getting everything third or fourth hand and through at least one layer of translation that may or may not be accurate. Fans have strong opinions on either side, "she is a known awful person and so she must be lying," "she posted photos so he must be guilty," and I get overwhelmed by the certainty they show, the stregnth of the connection they seem to feel for these actors and writers they don't know personally.

Most of the people I follow have much more measured takes, recognizing that we (that is, everyone outside of Poi and Build and their inner circles) don't actually know what's happening, but it's only natural to have opinions and guesses about it. And I'm finding that even reading those makes me feel like I too should know what's happening, even though I don't need to and in fact it's impossible for me too. My internal tension between, believe victims, accusations are rarely lies versus everything I've read about her makes her sound like an abusive harasser versus of course that doesn't mean that she's lying and abusers can also be abused themselves versus I don't know what stories that I've read about any of them are actually true. And perhaps a few of the facts I could verify, but, as I said above, it wouldn't help me understand much more and only make me feel worse.

I was reluctant to post anything, because I don't want to add to the speculations and unfounded opinions about this, or clutter up the dashes of anyone else trying to avoid the topic altogether. But I decided for my own sake I needed to get this stuff out of my head and onto the page, so here it is. Not sure if any of the words make sense or manage to convey what I'm feeling, but at least its not rattling around in my brain poisoning my mood.

You are all welcome to come talk to me about your feelings about this news, and how it's affecting you personally, although I'd prefer not to get speculation about what happened, or opinions on who is telling the truth.

#thoughts on current fandom events #bl actors #tw abuse #this is basically a diary entry #i don't want #these tags #to show up in searches #but i do want #people to #be able to filter for them #so hopefully #burying them this far down #will allow for both those things #sometimes my brain is weird #that's just a categorization tag at this point i don't think i'm weird for thinking like this #build jakapan #boc #be on cloud #poi #kinnporsche the series #kinnporsche

[centroverted]

This blog will not be a Shadow and Bone spoiler free zone!!! It will be full of spoilers!!!! I will be tagging everything with the fitting tags so either unfollow me until you watch s2 or block the shadow and bone/six of crows tag until you do!!!

#six of crows #shadow and bone #<- #these tags #block these tags #if you do not want spoilers #i will not be using a 'shadow and bone spoilers' tag #just the regular tags

[0-n0th1ng-0]

I had another edblr acct in like 2021, and legitimate question

why did we get rid of the cool emoji tags?

like we're back to censoring shit as horrendously as possible, just use emojis wtf

#these tags #🦋tw #🦋spo #🦋diet #why did people stop using these #tw ana diet #ed tumbler #ed but not sheeran

[sirompp]

hi. i made some images.

feel free to take them and use for whatever you may need them for. no credit required

#me tag🍭 #i might make more if anyone asks for them #EDIT: no im not lol #aro #aromantic #aroallo #alloaro #aroace #aromantic asexual #ace #asexual #<-WOWIE!! thats a lot of tags!!!

[ra3kiv]

sea, swallow me

#my art #art #digital art #original character #digital drawing #oc #original character art #ocean #sea #artwork #artists on tumblr #art tag #illustration

[theredtours]

why yes I AM making boop gifs from screen recording

#they're transparent and i'll post them when I am finished. #I won't even tag them because everyone should have them #boop #text

[snakesinsocks2005]

Pin for survivors

#snake hisses #Not putting this in my art tag #boop #scheduling this for midnight #edit: huh so its still going huh. oh well have it early

[tastylemonbread]

a post about when someone tags someone else on your post

#art tag #another silly ms paint thing

[lotrmusical]

never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

#was calling beckett and scouring the works of eliza cook looking for lesbianism #good amounts of lesbianism in evidence but unfortunately very little in the way of good poetry #APART from this worm one which DOES NOT MISS #eliza cook #is there a thriving eliza cook tag on tumblr. somehow i doubt it #the hand of the giant and the heart of the brave / must turn weak and submit to the worm and the grave! #not an original theme ofc but GOD the treatment is delightful. so fresh so gleeful some rlly nice use of sound. rlly solidly constructed #words #gay belligerence

[keepcalmandcarriefischer]

My friend just sent me the greatest home listing I think I have ever seen

I mean, check out this beutiful riverside home! Double garage! Upstairs access from the outside! Lets check out the inside

Open concept kitchen, nice, nice

Oh, the whole Floorplan seems to be open concept. Okay! That floor is a little odd, but not a deal breaker.

That bathroom could use an update

Need to change out that curtain

Okay, let's go take a look at the back yard!

Oh

#enter tags here #house listing

[darubyprincx]

"it's so fucking over" yeah dude it's 11pm it's the end of the day it's time for you to go to bed. and tomorrow you'll be so fucking back because you'll be awake. go tuck yourself in dude you'll be ok

#lance's tag

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[somesecretpie]

Greetings bugs and worms!

This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)

If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.

The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!

Reblog to teach your followers about OCD

(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)

#actually ocd #ocd #ocd tag #obsessive compulsive disorder #mental illness #mental health #neurodivergent #infographic #informative #comic #webcomic

[notbecauseofvictories]

A customer contacted our team with questions, and then finished their email with: "I am daunted by the complexities and unknowns." I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since.

#no wonder the company has to secretly manipulate you #(which is my career tag; it is a quote from a tv show fyi) #(there was some confusion about that! it's from better off ted. just. so you know.)

[t4tails]

this is the best album release of all time because where else are you going to get unironic takes like this and then even get a few hundred people to agree with it

#og post #THE TS TAG IS SO FUNNNYYYY