#this is what ive learnt throughout the years

[mountain-lion-gremlin]

I have a question! You have stuff saying you practice p-shifting in your bio, could I have more info about that? I've heard it mentioned before but know very little.

Of course! Recently I havent been practicing as much, and Im currently going through a phase of reteaching myself certain important values (yet again lol) but I'll try my best to tell you a bit more.

P-shifting is basically the form (or practice) of physically changing into an animal. Its widely believed to be taboo, but if you know where to look you will find plenty of help if you are looking to accomplish it.

I practice physically shifting into an animal, and theres plenty of structured ways to go about it. (Such as PhMP, Blaze's method, etc.) I currently have been practicing more therianthropic ways of mentally shifting and sort of lost touch with physically shifting, so Ill be getting back to it as soon as my power turns back on and I have the time to delve deeper once again. (Currently my whole city has no power, im currently at a casino writing this-)

Theres this idea that its very harmful and dangerous, but in honesty I personally have never had to deal with it being very harmful and/or dangerous to me or my mental health. In fact, before it I was very mentally ill, so its been a journey of healing and self-discovery. I feel like its taught me how to care for myself, accept myself and how I look, and be present to who I am and where I am in the moment. (Sounds counterintuitive, but after all of this time I have gotten here lol)

I have read that its very cult-like, and teaches people to do horrible, nasty stuff - but I've been lucky to never have to deal with it. Im so, very sorry for anyone who has. As long as you critically think, take the time to understand and conceptualize what you are doing, and take it slow, most likely you wont hurt yourself by practicing it.

People can be very misguiding and can hurt you if you arent careful, but know that physically shifting shouldn't hurt you in such a way that you will have to heal, put you in danger, or go to the hospital. You do not need anything to physically shift either. (No spells, no eating raw meat, no cutting yourself, no starving yourself, no getting bitten or meeting up with strangers, etc. Anyone who tells you anything of the sort is wrong, or is trying to manipulate you.)

Of course, not everyone can have bad intentions, but please be weary and keep your head screwed on tight when you are learning new things about p-shifting in general. Fantasy and the real world can be very, very easily blurred together with this sort of topic. If it seems dangerous, then listen to yourself and simply don't do it. There is always another way.

Its kinda difficult to necessarily explain it in a way for anyone to understand well - its really your journey and is something that you have to go and find out yourself from finding other resources. I guess you could say its like therianthropy, but we physically shift instead. Of course, theres more differences, but thats the most basic way to explain it.

I hope this answered your question!

#p-shift #p-shifting #physical shifters #physical shifting #nonhuman #tw physical shifting #werewolf #p shifting #pshift #this is what ive learnt throughout the years #do your own research #think for yourself #i hope this helps in some way

[hyper-berry]

More sonic writing ideas!!! Sonic boom this time :)

1. Ive been into the like prince sonic idea so like what if when sonic was younger (around 7-8) he was a prince in a kingdom or whatever but ran away to get away from the responsibilities. He was mute during that time, it was only when he found bygone island and started living there that he learnt to talk. He fought eggman throughout the years and learnt to talk and all that jazz. He still remembers his past though. Eggman creates a weapon one day that causes the person hit to become their past self. Sonic gets hit and his past comes to show. He doesn’t remember anything of his future and is shocked to find himself out the kingdom. He sadly still is unable to talk though the others find his past surprising (obviously) as Sonic in the past seemed much more prince like or whatever.

2. More prince Sonic au grrrr. Just a quick oneshot idea. Sonic was just training with his sword casually but the others were shocked to see it, he seemed so elegant and smooth with his movements. They ask him about it the next day and he just shares a bit of his past. Something happens (idk) and the rest of his backstory comes to light.

3. Sonic is fed up with how the villagers treat him. He saves them everyday, and for what? Just for them to get mad at him for every little thing? He has an outburst mid battle after the villagers overhear him casually trash talking eggman mid battle. The villagers somehow find that extremely rude as they berate him. During the outburst Sonic tells the villagers that he has always held back during these battles, he could destroy the village quicker and worse that eggman could ever do. Stuff after that happens or whatever and Sonic becomes a villan.

4. Yk the episode where Sonic becomes Evil because of the mech suit? Eggman wants to take over the island, the closest he’s gotten to it was when the mech suit made Sonic evil so he wishes to recreate that. Using a machine he made, the same evil energy that caused the hedgehog to become dark that one time was blasted into him. Sonic was once again evil, though it was worse than last time. Completely wrecking everything in his path eggman regrets what he has done. Will they be able to stop Sonic? (Jsjsjsjs more evil Sonic)

5. (Ooh shadow now) needing a way to get Shadow on his team, Eggman looked through old files that his grandfather had. Seeing something named project shadow, eggman found out that he had a close relation to Maria. Enlisting Steve to help him. He tricked shadow with the shapeshifter. Sonic and the crew are fighting shadow, he doesn’t come to fight often. Though it’s always nice for the team to have a change. A blonde girl walks by with a blue dress. Asking nearby villagers if they know someone named shadow. The latter pauses as he sees her. He’s shocked and stuff and team Sonic is confused af on why he’s acting so soft around a human girl. But that’s how eggman tricked him and stuff but make it shadow angst idk.

That’s all I got for now, if anyone writes these ideas please like link em or tell me the name of em and stuff !! Luv yall n take a free tails!!

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic boom #shadow the hedgehog #maria robotnik #angst #sonic angst #villan sonic #shadow angst

[dandelionwhisp]

Deals With Devils

A Floyd Silver Bullet Mafia AU fic

Silver Bullet AU by @jackplushie

this was so incredibly fun to write- my brain exploded at the idea of sb!mc losing it and who better to snap at then one of the most canonically unhinged characters of twst?!!? thank u jackplushie for another amazing au and i hope ive done it justice!! it might not be as yandere as others have written but i hope he’s still the crazy boy you know and love.

CW?: yelling, a bit of swearing, mentions of corpses, mentions of violence (nothing super extreme for the last two i promise) and a tiny itty bitty suggestive bit at the end you might see if you squint

enjoy!!

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You leaned forward- grabbing his loosely unbuttoned collar roughly- face inches from his own. “Listen here, Leech.” Pissed. Oh you were beyond pissed. “This is the one place where you don’t get to make your own rules.”

And if your words were about to put a silver bullet through your skull then so be it. It took all the years of built up patience to not slam this person’s face into the tabletop. “I don’t give a rat’s ass about your mood swings if you disrupt my bar. I’m not interested in compromise—“

Tilting your head slowly with purpose, breath low and scalding with anger against his ear, your voice rang clearly for him to hear. “—cause’ I have no interest in making deals with devils.”

Letting go of his collar, and straightening it the best you could, you widened the distance between you and the man. Your face returned to a neutral expression, as if you hadn’t just threatened one of the most dangerous individuals amongst the ‘underworld.’

“Here, you’re allowed to have all the fun you want as long as my bar and its patrons stay intact.” His eyes blew wide in surprise at the fierceness of your gaze and complete fearlessness in the face of someone who has probably taken more lives than you could count on both hands.

You slammed his most frequently requested drink in front of the stunned gang member and let out an exasperated breath. “On the house-” shock passing, Floyd’s expression grew into one of unsettling delight. “-as long as you don’t cause any more trouble for the rest of the night AND take care of the damages you caused earlier.”

Reaching under the bar top, you pulled out a mini aquamarine umbrella and placed it in the beverage, returning his... disturbing smile with your own seemingly unbothered one.

You could tell he’s had a bad couple of days, and you knew they were his favorite.

He let out a childlike laugh and sipped his drink happily. “Alright Shrimpy I’ll behave~” Though you were obviously unconvinced. “As long as I’m allowed to squeeze you whenever I want!”

Ah. There was the catch. “Yeah yeah alright. Just don’t make me mess up any drinks.”

Smile unwavering, he blinked in surprise. He didn’t expect you to actually let him! (Not that your protests would’ve stopped him from squeezing you in the first place)

But damn, you were so interesting, always providing something new for him to prod and pull at, always a new button for him to press to see what your limits were.

You weren’t easy to break and were often level headed to a fault, but when you snap, Floyd has learnt you bite back hard.

Yet... you’ve always let him and many others stick around, whether you can’t bother to or can’t afford to toss them out completely, even when they leave behind a broken chair or shattered glass in their wake.

Floyd was known to have unpredictable and sudden mood swings, dangerous and feared throughout, including those within his own gang- save for his brother and boss.

People know to ‘stay away’ or submit to his wants in these moments where it got particularly bad. After all, no one wishes to be left behind with their organs mangled and ribs shattered. Well, no one except perhaps you.

Today was one of the worst days for the exuberant leech twin, being yelled at by Azul for losing a few of his prey along with a lecture from Jade, as well as having been unable to give a good squeeze to anyone in days after breaking his arm in a prior conflict.

Too irritated to chase those who bolted at the first sight of him, he’s found that corpses, while also soft and squishy, aren’t warm and cozy nor do they squirm delightfully like living people do. They were limp with no fearful, pounding heartbeat to soothe his frustrations.

So naturally, he found himself at your bar to let that anger out.

Too bad your mood was just as sour as his with the terrible weather outside, and with the way he forcefully yanked the door, leaving behind a loud screech which let you know something definitely broke and would have to be fixed by you later, it only got worse.

Within ten minutes, all twelve patrons previously seated in your bar scurried out the broken door, three of which did not pay for their drinks and four who left with something fractured, probably never to return to your establishment again. He broke two glasses and was nearly about to tear through your countertop when you finally had enough.

In an explosive bout of anger, you forced the Floyd Leech to shut up and listen to your demands, even throwing in a minor threat in the mix.

Now usually, he wouldn’t take such treatment lying down. However, your reaction was exciting to him. In fact thanks to you, his mood has improved significantly!

Floyd doesn’t really care that much about deals and contracts or whatnot. With how their organization runs, that’s mainly Azul’s job and Jade helping with the persuasive side of things. His role was to give out the punishments when asked, though his brother would often tag along in the process.

But you? Oh what Floyd wouldn’t give to see you sign upon a golden paper, binding you to his mafia.

The rest of his time spent at your bar is him slurring out half-hearted apologies for breaking your furniture and chasing out patrons, promising that he’ll pay for the damage (because you both know he has the money for that- or rather, Azul does.), with arms wrapped around your waist despite still being kept at arms length with your vague answers to his too-personal questions.

As it approaches closing, Floyd leans forward and tilts his head slowly, breath heavy and searing against your ear. “Thanks for the drinks, n’ I’ll see you ‘round soon, Shrimpy~”

Pulling his loose arms off you, you let your face split into a mocking yet familiar, unsettling smile. “You’re welcome, and I truly hope not.”

Lazily making his way back to where Azul and Jade were definitely waiting for him, Floyd twirled the mini umbrella between his fingers.

While remembering your outburst, he laughs to himself and decides,

‘he’d like to see you lose your shit more often,’ but perhaps it’s the rarity of it that makes it all the more fun.

He’ll admit that smile of yours he had once only seen in his own pictures and reflections had his heart thumping and mind racing with thoughts beyond the boundaries of what would be considered ‘socially acceptable’.

And it makes him think of all the ways he could open you up and break you down next time, and eagerly looks forward to what adorable expressions you might wear then.

.....

My dear, you may have no interest in deals with devils, but beware, cause’ you’ve got devils wanting to make deals with you.

#disney twisted wonderland #yandere twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland imagines #twst x reader #floyd x reader #floyd leech #yandere floyd x reader #twst floyd #twst mafia au #silver bullet au #twisted wonderland

[pippyparty]

Hello I've love your art so much bc your art and your artstyle is so very amazing and very wonderful and very marvelous and very magnificent the colors are just so very amazing and the aesthetic are just so pretty to look at and anywho keep it up the fantastic work bc you are the best and very amazingly talented artist and a wonderful person and question how did you draw so good?

AWWWWW OH MY GOD THIZ IS SO SWEET??!??!?! THANK YOU SO MUCH I APPRECIATE THIS SO MUCH I WILL FOREVER HOLD THIZ DEARLY TO MY HEART anywho, i've been drawing and doodling ever since i was little, ive learnt from other artists i enjoy and doodling as much as i possibly can :3 what has helped me a lot throughout the years is to draw wherever and whenever i can, whether than be a few lines or a full drawing. it helps my brain get used to it and eventually get better :3 im still improving on my anatomy tho but online tutorials have helped me in both creativity and skill ^_^

as for my colors , i improved a LOT bcuz of @starrysharks coloring tutorial thingy :3 im not the best at explaining my experience or process so hopefully this all makes sense ??

anywho good luck on ur art journey !!! im sure ur gonna do wonderful :3

#asks #THIS MADE MY DAY AAH

[jennaissantes]

the cut that always bleeds — p.js [teaser!]

PAIRING: besf!jay x fem!reader

sypnosis: maybe it wasnt always like the books. life was definitely not a movie. even if it were, youre sure yours would be the saddest. now add park jongseong to the equation.

GENRE: heavy angst, little fluff. friends to strangers to best friends , bittersweet ending [kind of]

WARNINGS: a lot of heavily angst scenes, a lot of talk about mental health, depression and anxiety [su!c!de is also mentioned at places], mentions toxic family household, and some really just sad stuff man ; some abuse, quite a lot of bullying [nothing physical just a lot of mental bullying and manipulation]. this is in general just a very sad story. jay and reader dont end up together but reader is quite content. will add more in the actual fic i promise.

teaser doesnt rlly depict much of the story lol but idw make it super sad in the teaser so i will give u guys what i have.

RELEASE DATE: april 18th

EST WC: i think 10k [im hoping lol]

AUTHORS NOTE: hello everyone!!! so… this might just be like the saddest most gruesome fic ive written. except its mainly based on my life. surprise? im actl rlly scared no one will want to read it haha. im fr hoping im able to include some happy scenes in it so you guys dont end up crying. story of my life in short words basically. it took me a lot of courage to write about this because i go pretty deep into the problems ive had in my life. so this is kind of my way of telling you guys this is my life. please seek help if any of the given stances apply to you. like genuinely. if any of you are facing any mental health issues or any sort of problems in your life, please dont hesitate to talk to someone about it. my inbox and dms are also always open if youd like to chat with me ❤️

TAGLIST: please send in an ask to be added to the taglist! permanent taglist need not ask

TEASER:

Love is a ship which at a distance has every man's wish on board.

Or womens. Didn't matter, really.

But that's all it was now. Love was beautiful, you had learnt, from a distance. Quite ugly from up close, once you found out that love isn't for everyone, not even those who had faced some of the worst struggles.

Okay so maybe you were pushing it a bit with the whole ‘Love’ thing, but you needed some way to express yourself.

Your entire life, you were told that you were a golden child, a prodigy. As a kid, you loved the praise.

Singing was not a talent many possessed, at least not singing worthy of a broadway star. You took pride in your talent. Most kids being jealous of you was really cool, you could always show off your voice to them. At the age, it didn't matter to you, or any of the kids in fact.

Your mother too, took much pride in your talent. Although your sister, who was 8 years older to you, was also a singer, she loved that the younger child was also a singer, if not a better one than the first child.

Growing up in the same small state for your entire life, and going to the same school throughout the years had its ups and downs. There were always a bunch of people who were constant in your life. Even if they didn't play a big part in it.

Including him.

The first time you met Park Jongseong was in preschool. He was the epitome of trouble, for a 3 year old at least.

You had always been very outgoing, from your tender age. That bubbly, genuine personality which present you so selfishly wish for. You were always good at making friends. You wish you weren't.

He was a troublemaker. You being a child, attracted by his stubbornness for not following rules, decided to become his friend.

And thats how your friendship with Park Jay began, only blooming as the years went by.

He was a troublemaker. You being a child, attracted by his stubbornness for not following rules, decided to become his friend.

And thats how your friendship with Park Jay began, only blooming as the years went by.

#— the cut that always bleeds #enhypen #enhypen fluff #enha fluff #enha #enhypen smau #enhypen headcanons #enha smau #enha hcs #jay park fluff #jay angst #jay enha #jay x you #jay fluff #jay scenarios #enhypen jay #park jay x reader #jay x reader #enhypen jay scenarios #park jay enhypen #jay enhypen #jay enhypen fluff #park jongseong scenarios #park jongseong #park jay #park jay x you #park jongseong fluff #enhypen socmed au #enhypen x you #enhypen x y/n

[ren-from-mars]

I’ve been doing some reflecting on this past year, and I really truly think it is the most artistic improvement I have made in any span of time. Of course, I’m going to be completely insufferable about it and have collected my best piece from each month with a few personal notes, so why don’t we go on a sprint down memory highway together?

January

At the start of the year, I was both adrift between fandoms and art styles. I was mostly aiming to find which style I could keep using, finish pieces quickly yet still feel proud of. It certainly worked in the moment, but as I pushed my boundaries more it didn't stick. Still, I look back on this style fondly! also proper throwback to my old username that i had for far too long

February

This was the start of me working on colour palettes. I lay down my main colour in the background and fit the rest of my colours around that. It was a good way to start experimenting!

March

Then the shift back to finding my style- I particularly like how the hair turned out in this piece! I also started trying more interesting poses here, and actually properly attempting hands.

April

I didn't finish any pieces in april as I had started working more hours and didn't quite know how to balance myself creatively at that point. I did lean into this style of sketch much more, which was good fun while it stuck around but ive leant away from it in more recent times.

May

Not much to say about may in particular, lots of the same things as the past few months with improvements here and there! just some steady progress :)

June

Cue the crunch of getting character refs done before artfight, and then only actually finishing one (which isn't actually complete, even to this day). But hey, more solid reference for My Guy ! I also leaned into drawing furries a lot more and have improved heaps in the difference of proportions!

July

artfight baybee!! no artistic differences, but it was a lot of fun scouting out other peoples character designs! I do hope to participate more this year :3

August

back to colours, though this month felt like a bit of a backtrack. Don't get me wrong, I do quite like this piece, but contrast-wise it doesn't have as much visual clarity as I would like. Regardless, a good learning opportunity!

September

Fun fact, I rendered this one entirely in greyscale! This was the start of me getting back into hatchetfield after being reminded of NPMDs release, and lets be real this part of black friday was chilling so I had to do something about it! I consider this piece a landmark in terms of my art journey.

October

Once again no real finished pieces, I was too busy watching nightmare time while waiting for the group watch of npmd. I did do a lot of studies of star wars characters from their live-action shows though, which was a fun learning experience!

November

This was the piece where I applied pretty much everything I had learnt throughout the year. contrast, colour themes, interactive environments and poses, the lot! and also. its them. how could i not

December

A perfect piece to wrap up the year with! Another step up from november, this applied lots of what I had learnt and pushed my boundaries even more. I have been aiming for more realism to actor's faces and body types, not out of it-has-to-be-canon-sake, but rather learning how to accurately depict someone's likeness from a few photo references. good practice for both live-action and animated characters!

Overall last year was absolutely wild. I can't wait to share my journey with you all as we go into 2024 strong!

#art #my art #art journey #art progress #the owl house #nerdy prudes must die #black friday #hatchetfield #artfight #fnaf sb #furry #oc art

[satoruhour]

t!!! i am dropping by with some good music and new year wishes! 🎶🎉 thank you so much for being part of my 2023 🥹 you’re always so friendly and so kind 🥺 i adore your energy so much!!!!!

as a year end pick, my favourite read from you is: spidey!gojo omg 🥺 he is so adorable PLS

if i may ask!! 🥺 (pls feel free not to answer if uncomfy!!) how was 2023 for you? what’s a favourite thing (anything) you discovered this year? do you have any reflections from the past year? any resolutions for the next? 🥹

MY LOVEEEEE aw tysm! i hope everything good in your life comes to you in 2024, both resolutions and wishes and wish u to have a long nice time with ur bf 🥹💟 tysm for being part of my 2023 too im so glad to have met a mutual like you 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

THANK YOU BSHDHASH i honestly wrote that half asleep and a little awkward since its been long since ive written but thank you sm for liking it 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i will need to read more of your stuff pls ive been so busydfys

2023 was okay i guess 🥹 neither that great nor bad - other than grieving, it's been a fun mixture of work and then transitioning into university and just a year full of new experiences (and also more tattoos) i learnt some lindy hop, made loads of friends @ uni, taken the leap the go back into studying. but ig you gain some and you lose some which i wont be gg into detail but its part of life!!

im not too sure on favourite thing but in general ive discovered that i like writing lore a lot on my fics. it's unavoidable!!! my laptop also needs servicing. im slow at reading and i wish i had prepared more for uni, i shouldve at least asked this person out for a casual lunch, im getting more broke, but like. WHATEVER ya know ..... i think its both unfortunate and lovely that i get to experience all these things bc then itll just prepare me for the next round something similar happens ! i dont know, im not good with putting my thoughts into words 🥹

i usually dont set resolutions much, but if it's something i think it's to be less anxious of what people think of me as a person and to just dress / act how i want. shame is a social construct, embrace the cringe, etc. and also i wanna keep a consistent journal LMAOOOO

ty for the questions sel, theyre always such a joy to ponder over and write out sel 😭😭😭😭😭 you are my twin, my 🥹 enjoyer (albeit the other one, but its ok) bc youre so real for loving the emoji tbh. i love it too!! so much! may 2024 be immensely good to you throughout and i hope u rmb im always here for you, ty for being my mutual 🥹💟

#asks #satoruhour's mutuals #shotorus-interact #shotorus

[aayo-whatt]

heyo ayo ^-^

pick a blorbo that is close to you heart and just word vomit about them, im very interested in your favorite characters and the reasoning behind them ^-^ (if you dont want to thats okay too lolol)

*sorry if this is a lil random and out of the blue aaaa*

hihi :>>> and i dont mind random stuff, it just makes me happy seeing ppl in my inbox-

uh- ok hold on, theres gonna be like three (maybe more i cant count-) bc i cant choose between them-

Supernatural i think the shows actually kinda old, but do i care? not one bit im also only at the end of the fourth season, and ive got ten(ish) more to go sooo- (if you know what the show is ignore this, but if not read on: its essentially about these two brothers (sam and dean) who fight supernatural beings title lol -- things like demons, ghosts, monsters, etc basically anything from old mythology from all cultures) anyway- love love love this show bc 1. characters are so good, and like well developed (continuing to develop throughout the show as well) like omg- 2. plot is literally amazing like wth, theres usually a bunch of plot twists 'n stuff, so it keeps you hooked alotta the time and 3. it might be dramatic, but it has its funny moments too (also the fandom is still like *aggressively* active with all the ships-) favourite characters so far- dean, older brother, loves food (like me sometimes), and the reason for most of the jokes in the show (as in he makes them, and ppl make some abt him) honestly hes just really funny and i love him platonically second favourite (he might actually be my first but-) castiel, he doesnt appear till the start of season 4 but its worth the wait, i think ppl find him annoying at first but hes so pretty and i aggresively simp for him platonically, hes also kinda dry but that makes it funnier- (fun fact, ppl ship dean and castiel together -- destiel -- so its funny that they're my two favourite characters-)

Merlin show got cancelled but used to air on BBC, its set in medieval times (king arthur, is legit a character but hes not king yet), so its got magic, sword fighting, the whole thing love the show bc again characters are amazing, plot is amazing, and while its dramatic it has its funny moments (also even though the show ended like ten years ago, fandom is still active and i love that)my favourite character is probably gwaine, i cant explain why he just is (if you watch the show you'll understand)

finally (but *definitely* not least) Haikyuu- idk why i think its mainly just bc the eng dub makes me smile every time i watch one of its episodes- and also probably bc i simp for so many of the characters (shhh-) also recently learnt im a bokuto kinnie do with that what you will *major* sakusa simp, he's just so pretty and i cant handle it, and idc if people think hes distant and moody and stuff bc i literally love him(you can probably tell that by the amount of kiyoomi content i reblog)- i also simp a lot for suna, just bc have u seen him hes pretty as sooo- its also bc i find him funny and i just love him ok? (also low quality suna pics i legit love for some reason-) a character from haikyuu i love but in a more platonic way, is bokuto, again he's pretty- but its also his personality is just so chaotic and i love him for it- especially when him and kuroo are together, it just makes things all the more funnier for me

uh- there's more shows, but this is all i can think of rn- also sorry its so long, i tend to ramble a lot sometimes-

what about you? favourite blorbo/s? feel free to ramble, people being happy makes me happy

#my question has been questioned

[saatvicksaxena]

Saatvick’s Summer 2022

This year’s summer was actually quite memorable, last time I remember having such a summer was in 2018,

The year I visited Singapore, played an Asian Tennis Tournament and got International ranking. 2018 was also the last year I spent in Delhi before moving to Shillong because of my father’s posting . He is in Army and I have been to quite a lot of places with him.

2022 Summer was great because this summer was probably the first summer closest to the summers before Covid.

I did travel a lot during covid but not one of my trips were as long as this one.

Summer began with a sense of relief as my first Board exams ended, I was now a Highschool senior with way more responsibilities than before. I had a more clear direction of what I want to do when I grow up and have had the chance to revive many hobbies activities since my 10th was all academics. I did a lot of career counselling .

This summer, that I cant thank enough, was a checkpoint, it made me more calm. I had time more than enough to organise and orient myself and my activities.

The first thing I did when the exams ended was to fix my sleep schedule and sleep peacefully for a few days. After a week full of binging the series I missed out on I scheduled a daily and weekly routine which included swimming, reading, working out and Tennis.

It was a very hard motion to set for me to play tennis straight after breaking my wrist in 2019, I was willingly not playing tennis because of one simple reason, regret of not playing for an entire year and I kept on running away from it till this summer.

I visited my hometown and met most of my relatives which made me feel loved, we could not participate much in family events recently over the last few years because of our busy schedules so this was also a once in a blue moon kind of an adventure for me. We visited many more cities with our buddy Woofy, he is a Labrador . We went on long drives to a few other places.

I also met a lot of my friends during the vacation.

Then on we took a tour of Delhi, the place where we live. I got an electric guitar too which I used to annoy everyone within the range of my amplifier. It was a great experience for me maybe because I was out of the same old cycle, that I followed for an year.

10th grade sure did teach me discipline and consistency. 

I visited my father, who is posted in Manipur, I travelled through flight alone .  he is posted at an extremely remote region which is about 30 km from Myanmar. That was a great way to escape the Delhi heat at its prime( It was 45 degrees when I left).

Hiking, football and travelling to numerous places were the highlight of this trip.

Life is simpler on hills, nature finds its way to one no matter what.

I cant even count the number of places Ive seen and people Ive met. I gained experience and knowledge.

It was cloudy all day there with bright sunshines intermediately, comically the heat of the sun was comforting since it was raining everyday there. We could hear the wind whistle at dark where no lights could be seen far off. The  clouds even visited the habitants who had settled at the top of the mountains. Rivers, waterfalls and tribal villages were the best part of the trip.

Every glimpse was a painting.

I followed a strict Detox diet with my father and was forced to eat and drink stuff I couldn’t even pronounce, did yoga and meditation.

I have had the habit of touring whatever work my fathers been appointed for, he was in DRDO & RCI once, from where I picked up the interest of aeronautics and astronomy. Currently he is in NHAI so I got to learn various processes involved in making roads, believe me its not as simple as just laying concrete down on fields, it took me five days to just process what I saw there.

I visited museums, monuments and labs.

I tried to play video games but they bored me.

I could only bake till the day I learnt to cook food and learnt recipes and become more self reliant .

Music has been a companion to me throughout this journey.

And social media too, I posted literally everything even after the several attempts I did to reduce it influence on me, but I dont regret it either way because my vacation was productive and I enjoyed it.

I grew taller over the days and starting smiling more frequently. I learnt a lot of things, and revived old habits.I finished school syllabus for the first exams before school started.

I came home to find our two turtles greeting me with their intense paddles in their pool and raise their necks high up to see me. My Summer was very rewarding. It was spent exploring and discovering the very little of life that I knew of.

I returned to Delhi a day before the school reopened and hyped myself to start a new academic year with hardwork and devotion. I finally created a list of things I wanted to achieve by the end of 2022.

#summer

[ms-taurusvenus]

I believe that having high standards for yourself is a good thing! My aunt would always say 'high standards save you from low quality experiences' and I think when you set standards you are knowing your worth and value as your energy and time are sacred and not everyone should have access to that energy field around you. I do think there are beautiful souls out there tho so keep an open mind! At the end of the day what you decide doesn't have to make sense to anyone but yourself as well x

Thanks for this anon! It’s deeply appreciated! 💞💞 You and a your aunt is so right!! Sending you positive energy.

I’m very protective of my energy because I know that if I’m not, I am in risk of having people with bad intentions have access to me and my energy. I’m very conscious of who I put my energy into because (IMO) my energy is powerful and sacred. Ive been proven about it too. I’ve had peoples live change see their life differently for the better. (I hope I don’t sound egotistical, I’m just saying my energy is so sacred and why I protect it so intensely because of the things I can and does do to people who I put my energy into). It’s something I learnt once I entered my pre-teen years. Example, this onetime in high school I was letting my black tourmaline, this girl who wanted to be popular (you know those girls) were provoking me and that really fucked up how I felt, my mood, & energy. Why did they provoke me? Because they wanted a reaction out of me because they wanted to see what someone who is calm and keeps to themselves can do so they can laugh at me and say shit about me. It’s been a pattern throughout my life. (Capricorn in 3H things). One thing about me, you can’t get a reaction out of me. At least not easily. If someone idc about can make me feel that way, who knows how a man that I love and care about can make me feel when they provoke and mess with me. I’ve been through a lot of experiences and life changing periods in my life where I’ve felt unworthy, doubting myself, many phases of bad-severe depression + anxiety, etc, etc. Those all lead me to periods where I transform and blossom and I’ve now become the person who I am. Especially in terms of love because if there’s one thing I’ve learn from a young age, the wrong man can fuck anything up. Including/especially you. Which leads to my high standards, if no one is willing to meet my standards and expectations, I don’t want it. It’s a way for me to never settle down for less and a way of protecting myself. I wasn’t taught half of the shit that make me who I am, I know I’m a strong, independent woman and is able to manage life on my own which also contributes to this. All that a man will do is spend my life with and be the companionship that I desire ever since I was a kid.

Going back into my energy being so sacred, the more time you spend growing, reflecting, doing shadow-work, etc the more powerful you become IMO. It’s as if the universe sees you understanding you may not be perfect, you have your both wrongs and goods, and that you’re willing to heal and become better even if it means going and facing into that shadow side that you have. In which the universe rewards you, “here is all of the abilities you can do, you know wyz, use your abilities to better others because you can do it with/for yourself”. Also this makes your aura nicer too (IMO). Before my aura used to be blue, and apparently my aura is a combination of blue-purple-pink. This is really rare if anyone doesn’t know.

Every person who’s told me to lower my standards have always had odd intentions upon both me and my loved ones, and just bad people. Take that how you can.

Although, my guides and ancestors always tell me not to worry about anyone because they got my back 😅. This onetime a girl looked at me up and down and was giving me attitude, unprovoked when I was waiting for a friend and guess what? 1 week later their leg broke for and had a cast on for 6 weeks lol. You never fucking know lol. I do always remember my ancestors have my back which is why I always and am one of the biggest preachers of “you never know who’s protected by who”.

#this got so vulnerable for no reason lol #personal #vent

[marz-likes-palaces]

i think, that yesterday was the actually first day when i thought about myself as aro without any question marks or notes under the line

which is so interesting. cuz

a) ive known about me being ace for 3 years this year BUT if you explained the term to me at an earlier point in life, i think i always knew i wasnt "normal" (ive known since elementary school that i never want kids. when i learnt that kids come from sex, i knew i never want sex. its not just because of the kids, but that was definitely the baseline for me understanding that this is something i never want). questioning if i was ace didnt exist for me really. the first time i read the explanation for what it was, i knew i was ace

b) i think ive heard about aromanticism at a similar time as about being ace. and time and time again whenever i heard/read about it i thought to myself "thats a cool and neat label" and didnt think more on it

c) ive used arospec labels (idemromatnic and later on quoiromantic and from time to time i even said "aro(???)ace". good god) for over a year now, but i never thought about them more than "hm those are some cool labels for sure. shame im not actually aro" but always waved those thoughts off like "no, i would know if i was aro, right?" and for years now i was thinking "hm, maybe i might be aro, but like??? im not???" (i was so stupid. it would be so much quicker if i thought about it)

but to be fair with myself, it was still very, very hard to discern sentiments that i felt because im ace and ive always knew im ace. cuz like! of course, i didnt want to kiss anyone! and of course, i dont really care about dating! and i have a hard time understanding my feelings towards others! those are all normal and valid ace feelings! right? probably no. theyre still normal and valid, but i dont think those are "normal" ace feelings

it wasnt made easier by the fact that i still want a partner and that i thought i had multiple crushes on people throughout the years. im still confused, but i think its fair to say that im aroace. without question marks and without doubts (ill have plenty time to doubt it in the following days and months, but i think it to be true rn

#marz aces it #and now also aros it #(im not funny someone please stop me) #marz rants

[missfingers]

Uhmmmmm hunt wound and ghost for Dyheri (?) hope that is spelt right

thank you anon !!!!! lets GOOOOOO

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

its been so long that he isnt constantly on guard or anything. like in a literal sense dyheri is hypervigilant but its becauses hes a rogue and a thief so he Has to be alert to survive. but specifically the person whos hunting him is so far in the past and he believes he never even cared for him at all so dyheri would have no idea that his fathers even looking for him. the regret haunts him definitely, he wonders if he did the right thing running away, but then quickly will stamp the feeling out with resentment instead. meanwhile his dad khnorvir HAS been hunting him since the day he left hes just never found him to the point that he thought he was dead and began practicing necromancy

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

the two most obvious answers are the trauma from his childhood and while not a "wound" in the practical sense more like a gradual adjustment into disability his blindness. normal wounds are treated with the appropriate amount of lone practical care to keep him moving and hes pretty detached about them. his childhood however fundamentally changed how he views relationships - he was born to parents who didnt care fully for him and unintentionally or not taught him by sending him on rogue jobs with their associates that rhe only way to get affection was by doing service for other people and all love was conditional and temporary. so not only did that cause him to run away from his foster father out of abandonment issues, now long into adulthood he doesnt trust anyone and solely shows platonic affection through trying to awkwardly share his spoils with those he likes / doing tasks for them.

his blindness. he came from the underdark so already has sensitive eyesight attuned to pitch black + was born with albinism which made them even more sensitive so when he ran away from home and found his way to the surface he quickly learned to start covering his skin and eyes to prevent injury. but more than a century in sunlight with delicate eyes like his will worsen his eyesight no matter how resilient he was. hed probably have a lot of internalised ableism about it at first - fear, mainly, because hes afraid of relying on other people and believed losing his eyesight would disadvantage him and make him lose his independence and Have to depend on others. through surviving on his own throughout this change however he'd realise this isn't the case, he'd adapt his own ways to accommodate his new needs and additionally meet a faerie dragon named scrimp that would become his service familiar. by the time he's lost the majority of his eyesight he's made peace with it as much as any newly disabled person can - he still has spells of despair and frustration but on the whole he copes well and is now used to thinking even faster to keep ahead of those wanting to use it against him.

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

simple! his foster father kh'norvir. as ive said before dyheri had very uncaring birth parents but theyd hang around a tavern where a gloura bard played. he saw how badly mistreated the child was and through his charms managed to get the parents to pass custody under the guise of an apprenticeship and raised him as his own. dyheri though had already learnt that the love he was given was conditional so was convinced khnorvir would get sick of him and give him away like anyone else had. he acted out on purpose to make this happen quicker but it of course dient happen, so in his teen elf years he finally decided that if he ran away first then khnorvir wouldnt habe the opportunity to abandon him. so he did

on the whole hes successfully let his mind paint khnorvir as just as villainous as his parents and their colleagues over the decades so hes convinced himself he was right and doesnt miss him. he gets lonely so often because of his inability to let people in but he just resigns himself to believing this is how he has to live to survive in a cruel world

smile !

#thank youuu!!! #lucy.txt #dyheri

[m1sss1mp]

omg hi

sorry if this is invasive but i was wondering if you're african american?

i finally left twitter and been looking for black army bloggers.

i saw you use AAVE; ive been trying to find a safe space that doesnt make fun of the way i talk --tumblr has been chill for the most part but i def found myself on some weird niche of 'leftist' antiblack blogs-- but also im lookin' for someone who i have community with.

other than black-centric blog decor, language has been the only thing i've been able to recognize other black blogs 😭 plus i found out there's no algorithm (kinda cool) so i'm not getting recommended that much stuff. i've been trying to like and reblog and you popped up.

thanks 💖

Okay so im sorry but im not african american 😭 im from the balkans. I didn t know the way i talk is attributed to a culture and it s mostly how i ve been picking up english throughout the years. Im so sorry you ve been finding bad blogs, from what i saw people here are pretty chill, and if you d like to you can check out some of my friends and the people i follow , they re very nice i can assure you. Here you can be whoever you want and talk however you want, you just have to be respectful. Im sorry if the way i talk lead u on or sumn it just the way i learnt english. I d be glad to be your friend tho, and if you have any questions pls doj t hesitate to ask 🩷❤️

[cubedmango]

I’m crying we’re literally the same like that’s what hurt because he didn’t even have to finish speaking you already knew that he was going to say that’s why ‘I love/like him’ like you KNEW and his feelings were clearly so evident throughout that whole scene like that for me too was when I knew things were Serious for him also the way he literally had to pull himself away from adachi when he had finished wrapping the scarf around before he gave it one last soft squeeze);£:!:!:OOOOF I CAN’T like God. The yearning… the Love… and then not to mention the way adachi had realised first hand that actually yeah someone Was and will continue paying attention to him, along with admiring him from afar PLUS been so enamoured by his very existence that they’ve learnt all these little quirks about his personality already like for him to have that Oh moment right then and there that ‘oh this person really cares about me? Genuinely?’ Had me WEAK and yeah let’s not even. Cause I love following sensei ofc but ooh the way my heart nose dives whenever I see anything about /that/ like please let me live in blissful ignorance PLEASE😭 also idk why but this is more proof that elon musk is an evil evil man because videos of them from their fanpages keep getting recommended to me when I don’t interact or follow anything related at All??

YEAH YEAHHH the way kurosawa just kept lingering and taking his sweet time w that scarf when he couldve wrapped it in like 5 seconds easy but he Didnt bc when does he ever get chances like this???? like how many times in those 7 years would he have been able to just be near adachi not for work but just bc he Can be and he wants to help adachi any way he can even if its as little as lending his scarf ....... and adachi seeing how kurosawa had noticed even his most unremarkable moments and seen them as his good qualities when adachi himself had been full of self-deprecation basically the entire day . i am never getting over this scene i swear to god

musks new twt algo knows exactly what u dont want to see and then fills ur fyp with Only that thing its so bad..... luckily ive only been interacting w jp fans now so i dont see any of those fans anymore but it sucks so bad that theyre everywhere invading the tags still..... i guess this is just how its gonna be now :(

#i made like a really really really long twt advanced search thing that leaves out all keywords related to those guys which is kinda better #but even w that the tags been p dry recently so i havent had much reason to check it lol #maybe w more anime stuff itll be alive again but who knows how long until that.. sigh........... #still the drama for us to rewatch in the meantime tho !! im like over 2/3 way done w the movie subs redo too ill also finish that hehe #my answer

[livingbutamireally]

AY2021/2022 Y3S2 Module Reviews

Atap sem saur pretty chill i took only one mod together with the internship. Maybe i will talk about the internship a little too. 

Anyway now that i’m back here feels surreal that IVE GOT TO DRAG MY ASS BACK DOWN TO SCHOOL AGAIN after what. two years. Not having to study for half a year feels too good its going to be so hard to get the grind back again I dont even wanna think

Overview

IS4228 Information Technologies in Financial Services

BT4101 Industry Experience Requirement (ATAP)

IS4228 Information Technologies in Financial Services

Lecturer: Prof. Carter, Keith Barrett

Weightages

Individual assignments (5 * 7% = 35%)

Mid term test (30%)

Group project (35%)

To take a class during your atap, you need express approval from both your manager and the professor i think. And at most 2 too. You are responsible for being able to manage your time well between work and acad so please take the time to consider if its for you workload wise etc.

Lectures are held online on Zoom, compulsory attendance 630-930pm aka after office hours so its safe for the interns. I requested for wfh on Tuesday to make it for the class bc travelling takes too long or if its wfo then i leave earlier. No tutorials for this but if i remember correctly you are placed in breakout rooms to for some mini hands-on group work.

This module is my actual first foray into the Financial aspect of my specialisation track i think BT4012 is also the same basket but not so much financial in content? Needless to say all the financial stuff was hard to grasp from the get-go. 

Here you learn about stuff like concept of Money, terms like ROE, NIM, NII, fiddling with APIs, bonds, forex, traditional/digital banking etc, stocks - candlesticks, equities, portfolio management, assets, cryptocurrency. I would say the mod strikes a good balance between both the tech and the theory side because you would deal with some basic coding and at the same time understand the math aspect (calculating financial related stats). However personally I was new to FIN it could get a little messy (you dont need financial knowledge to take this module!) just that you probably need more time to get some adjusting to.

The assignments were spread throughout the semester the pace was pretty okay and I didnt really have to spend too much time outside of class to complete them, except for the final one that was coding out a RPA with UiPath, to automate some stock pulling process. At least 2 of these assignments were making slides on the content learnt. Other than that you really learn all the fin terms and stuff from what i remember, and those you would need for the midterms but overall its a p chill mod.

ATAP

Six month internship - pass/fail 

Deliverables

Monthly report

Interim report (after 3 months)

Final report 

Final presentation

I will try not to divulge too much about my internship lest i expose myself but anyways my internship was pretty chill i guess. The role wasnt heavy on coding so its both a good thing and bad thing. Good because i dont have to wring my brain juice dry but bad because i didnt had to put myself out there (character Growth -1000), i still learn stuff and definitely had a more holistic understanding where i am and where i can put my strengths to use. Anyways definitely please go through glassdoor reviews when you are choosing your offers. I almost ended up somewhere with staff mistreatment, really go find out whether a certain work culture is for you or not.. and ofc dont be afraid to voice out to the school if you feel something is wrong. Dont overwork yourself!! 

Final presentation is online with your assigned prof mine was quite chill i think the only time i was stumped when they asked how what i was doing was bringing any benefit to the company but like... maybe it was clear to me but i didnt make it clear enough to them? Other than that my final report wasn’t too much different from my interim.

#y3s2

[introvert--weeb]

Hi!! I would like to request something angsty, a headcanon/drabble/fic about Izana and an older sister reader, she taught him (and maybe kakucho too) everything about delinquents alongside Shinichiro. She took all the bullets that was meant for Izana, it's your choice if you want reader to survive or not. Thank you and good luck on your interview!!

Why does everyone want to break my heart with these angst requests? 😭💔 But I do like the idea so it shall be written!

A note about the reader. I am thinking of her as more a fellow orphan who is seen as the older sister figure to the younger orphans, mainly by Izana. After all, the bond between orphans means more than anything and that's the only way I can see Izana reacting but not Mikey. Sorry if that's not what you wanted...

Thank you for requesting and I hope you like it!!

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Izana with an older sister!reader who protects them (angst)

TW: mentions of violence, gun shots, blood, mourning, canon divergence, manga spoilers

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You had been a constant in Izana's life. When he had first been left at the orphanage, you had taken him under your wing like you had with every other child that turned up. It was mainly because you had been at the orphanage the longest and so knew what it felt like to just suddenly end up there.

Izana was hesitant to get close to you in the beginning, especially since you were a bit intimidating. You were only two years older than the blond boy yet you had probably experienced a lot more than he had.

It was only when he saw you fighting off a gang of middle school boys that were bullying him, did he want to get close to you. He thought you were amazing in that moment. The way you kicked at the boys had him wanting to learn how to fight like that. And so, he would ask you to teach him.

From there, the two of you created a strong bond. And when Kakucho had arrived at the orphanage, Izana had dragged him into the lessons you would give. Through the lessons, you would explain how you had once met an older boy who had told you all about the ways of a delinquent and how that had influenced your decisions.

The boys would follow you around, doing their best to keep you safe. After all, you had quickly become an older sister to them both and they refused to let anything happen to their older sister. They had even showed your their secret plans for the kingdom they were going to make, saying how you would be in charge of keeping it safe. Izana was the king, Kakucho was the servant, and you were the protector.

It was when Shinichiro turned up out of the blue to talk to Izana that had made a slight rift in your relationship with him. He would actively seek out his big brother instead of you, something that both made you happy for him yet broke your heart a little. After all, you had been with him since he was a young child and had taught him what you could.

Shinichiro had expressed his gratitude for you helping raise Izana. You simply explained that's just how it was and that promised the older boy that you would protect his younger brother with your life. Over the months, you had gotten close to Shinichiro and learnt new ways in which to follow the true delinquent path.

Years had passed and a lot of things had changed. Shinichiro had died, Izana and Kakucho had formed their kingdom, and a strange boy of the name Kisaki had entered the lives of your brothers. While you questioned some of their new friend choices, you remained with Izana. After all, an older sister was meant to protect their younger siblings with their life if needs be.

Now you were standing a little behind Izana as you both watched the battle that was happening below. 50 members of Toman were going against the kingdom of Tenjiku, being led by a boy that reminded you so much of Shinichiro it was crazy. Kakucho was currently fighting him but it was proving difficult to knock him down. You really couldn't help but admire the blond for not giving up even when his face was swelling and covered in blood.

Kisaki must have had enough as he had finally gotten down from the platforms. You were uninterested until a gun had been pulled out. Wasn't this a simple brawl? Why the hell would Kisaki bring a gun? After noticing it, you couldn't shake the bad feeling that filled your chest. Something was definitely going to happen with that gun being here.

Kisaki shot the blond boy in the foot, and yet he still didn't give up. That is what piqued your interest even more. It was as if the spirit of Shinichiro Sano was placed into that boy after his untimely death. Tears were threatening to fill your eyes as memories danced throughout your mind. You almost missed Izana standing up from where he sat.

You quickly followed Izana down to the battlefield, remaining just a little way behind him. After all, he was the king and you were simply his protector. It was all going well until another gunshot rang out. You turned your head only to find Kakucho bleeding from his shoulder.

Anger clouded your judgement. How dare that piece of trash shoot at one of your brothers?! However, your mind went blank as you saw Kisaki go to pull the trigger again. Izana had pushed Kakucho out of the way while you covered the younger male with your body. There was no way you were letting harm come to Izana. After all, he was your life.

Three bullets entered your body.

Everything went in slow motion for the three siblings. Kakucho watched in horror as the scene played out. Izana was confused on why he felt no physical pain until he looked up to find you smiling down at him. Blood was trickling down your chin, dripping to the ground below.

"Y-Y/N?" If your mind wasn't screaming at your pain, you would have tried to comfort the poor boy in front of you. Instead, you used your energy to simply keep that smile on your face as you fell forward.

Izana couldn't catch you. His body was frozen and he was panicking. You and Kakucho were his only family and you were both bleeding from gunshot wounds. He didn't know what to do except shout for someone, anyone to call an ambulance. Maybe they could save you!

"Izana..." The boy had to kneel down and lean close just to hear you. "I'm so glad you're safe. I don't know what I would have done if you got hurt." Your words were separated with heavy breathes. If this was anything to go by, you were about to leave this world at any moment.

Kakucho had crawled his way over to where you and Izana was, tears flowing easily down his cheeks. He had to be there for Izana, even if it was too painful seeing you in that state.

"Why did you do that?" The platinum blond croaked out, trying his hardest to push the lump in his throat down. He refused to cry, especially when you were the one in immense pain. Izana had to be strong for you.

"Because I am your older sister. That's what we do." With that, you had gone silent, a smile on your paling face. It was moments after that the paramedics had arrived. Kakucho and you were placed into the back of the ambulance while Izana followed Kakucho. He needed his friend to comfort him.

Hours had passed by since arriving at the hospital. Kakucho was fine, he just needed a few stitches and some IV fluids to rehydrate him. The doctors had delivered some bad news to the boys. You had not made it.

No-one spoke as the news set in. You had died. The protector of the kingdom of Tenjiku. The one who had practically raised them. The girl who welcomed them with open arms when they arrived at the orphanage. You were gone.

Izana didn't know how to handle the news. He felt like his world was crumbling around him. Why had you saved him?! But that's when your last words popped into his head. Why did every older sibling end up leaving him before their time?

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers izana #izana kurokawa #anime drabble #tokyo revengers scenarios #angst #requested