#thoughts_of_a_lazy_mind

[im-that-random-girl]

I wish, I wish,

I was more.

More than who I am today,

To do more, to be more,

To help more, to love more-

To give more and to receive more.

I wish, I wish,

I knew how to be less.

To take less spaces,

To be less loud,

To be less of a problem.

I wish to do everything and to fade away to nothing.

I wish to be freed from this pity party I'm hosting.

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[acollectionofwordsunspoken]

2021/07/15

Rage

A fit of anger-

I might step out of line.

I may spew crude words to you,

Before my tongue found the time to refine.

Sharp truths laced with my pain,

May find you before you can defend.

But please forgive my actions,

I only cared about you till the end.

But today you fill me with rage-

And all you will witness is a smile.

I take all control back from you,

And all beautiful moments intertwined.

If you thought you could ever see my cry,

Oh, I regret to say- for you, misery lies ahead.

I'll make sure you see me happiest, my dear,

While all I see is red.

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[im-that-random-girl]

I hope you are happy with the decisions you made.

I hope that your regrets don't keep you awake.

I wonder how your regrets changed from the past year?

I wonder if your conflicting emotions finally cleared?

I hope you stay happy with the decisions you make.

I hope you aren't only left to ponder over your mistake.

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[im-that-random-girl]

How did it feel?

When you kept yourself guarded-

Stone faced and iron hearted.

How did it feel?

When they barged in, all things disregarded.

Brought in sunshine and your walls melted.

How did it feel?

Running through flower fields

And being more happy than you thought you could be

Now how does it feel?

When they pulled all of that from under your feet?

They came in like a storm and left with the breeze.

Traces left behind on your skin like feathers on your fingertips

How does it feel?

Do you feel cold and empty?

Do you again keep yourself guarded?

Stone faced and Iron hearted?

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[im-that-random-girl]

Oh misery,

Have you come to take over my life again?

Oh melancholy,

Do you wish to inspire my art again?

Come through open doors

I've missed your presence.

I've realized my mistake,

My apologies for shunning you out dear friends.

Please accept my grievances-

For you are all I have left.

Bring back colour in my colourless life,

I've been floating blind in this darkness in me.

Spill back your black and blue ink through the emptiness.

Anything

Anything is better than this hollowness inside.

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[im-that-random-girl]

I'll never wish bad on your heart,

I promise.

Break mine, let it shatter-

Then deny it all.

Make me the bad one to curse you.

But I'll never wish bad on your heart,

I promise.

I wish for karma to play it's part,

I hope you only get what you deserve.

Lest you never broke my heart,

May yours never even chip.

Fear nothing my dear.

But if you find karma in your path-

Let it let you fall in love-

Let it break your heart.

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[im-that-random-girl]

26/05/2022

-

And nothing takes away the pain,

Nothing lessens the ache.

So I go back,

If the burning desn't seize,

I'll set myself on fire-

Combust to ashes, scatter by wind.

I hope no one finds me hereafter.

I hope I don't find myself.

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[im-that-random-girl]

Victims of those to whom giving out love is easy.

How did it feel?

When you kept yourself guarded-

Stone faced and iron heart.

How did it feel?

When they barged in, all things disregarded.

Brought in sunshine and your walls melted.

How did it feel?

Running through flower fields

And being more happy than you thought you could feel.

Now how does it feel?

When they pulled all of that from under your feet?

They came in like a storm and left with the breeze.

Traces left being on your skin and feathers on your fingertips

How does it feel?

Do you feel cold and empty?

Are you left empty and drained?

Do you let go?

Or do you go chasing the storm again?

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[im-that-random-girl]

The path you choose

You've wondered too far,

You've forgotten who you are.

Let down the ones you love-

Yet given up too much.

//

You once made a deal with time,

But it's slipping by too fast.

Now you can't borrow from the future

To make up for the past.

//

You forsake all you hold dear,

For a dream that is not your own,

For you would rather live a lie

Than to face yourself alone.

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[im-that-random-girl]

Love//Patience

Once I learned that love was patience,

I finally understood-

Why I was convinced,

I was unlovable.

Why I loved more than anyone,

More than they loved me back.

A million pieces fell into place-

I finally understood

That love was patience.

And in the haste to be perfect-

In the eyes of the world,

I forgot to forgive and wait for my ownself.

I no longer accept sweet words with empty calories,

Unless you can wait for me at my most bitter.

Now that I understand -

That love is patience.

You are welcome to sit beside me,

While I no longer strive to be perfect,

And navigate this new found world.

And maybe I'll sit beside you,

Patiently.

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[im-that-random-girl]

What a gamble

Will I get better?

Will I get worse?

Will I get break before I can break the curse?

Come watch the thrill of this comedy-

A satire of an unfortunate tragedy.

This life is a joke

That lost it's humour long ago.

Twists and turns- this story doesn't lack.

Will I get through before the screen turns black?

But the theatre is empty, no witness in sight

The curtain closes in the dead of night.

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[im-that-random-girl]

I am suffocating.

Maybe I'll be gone by tomorrow.

I am suffocating.

Every minute seems borrowed.

I am suffocating.

But for the love of God,

I can't seem to care.

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[im-that-random-girl]

If you never treated me bad,

Then I hope someone treats you as well as you do.

I hope that you fall in love with them.

I hope you fall so deep that you don't even remember my name.

But I hope you remember what I said.

I hope they give you all of what you so righteously gave me.

I pray, that you get the fairytale you presented to me.

May you forget my name

May I forget yours.

But may you learn the same lesson,

That I learned

The hard way.

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[im-that-random-girl]

It's just a bad day.

I'll survive, I'll get through.

Just like yesterday,

And the day before,

And like the days that came before that.

Im losing count of the battles in my head.

Or the hypocrisy I live.

Because-

The days will keep coming,

And I'll keep fighting.

But I know I'm at my limit.

As this year will end,

I'll take all my decisions at once.

Wish I was was stronger,

But I'm not.

Or maybe I dont care enough to be.

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[im-that-random-girl]

Oh how bitter I am

I want you to be happiest.

But I hope you forever remember the pain you caused me.

But oh what wishful thinking

You heartless piece of shit.

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[im-that-random-girl]

How to say, I want to die?

How to explain that I'm still looking for reasons to live.

//

I dont want to be me.

Can I peel the skin off my bones,

Take on a new identity?

But what about the memories

That will still haunt me?

//

Run.

Run.

Run.

Don't think.

Run.

Run.

Run.

Don't breath.

Run.

Run.

Run.

Let your lungs collapse.

Run.

Run.

Run.

Feel every fibre scream to stop.

Run.

Run.

Run.

How do I run away from myself?

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