#totally what i did lol

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[cozylittleartblog]

a little Postlet. . because i Miss them

#deltarune #queen #rouxls kaard #lancer #art #doodles #comic #rouxls is a leetol different. for fun :) idk i drew him like that and i didn't hate it #Twelve Percent More On Model Than Usual #i have lil bits of dialogue scrawled down everywhere and i found that second one i thought it was funny #i have so many drawings and doodles and entire posts that ive started. that i just don't finish for so me reason #no energy. why do i have the energy to start them and go 'omg this is gonna be IT ill TOTALLY FINISH THIS' #and then i don't lol. why don't i just finish something instead of starting something else #its da adhd babey!!!! #anyway thats why this post is small #normally i sit and over-analyze things before i post them. are all the layers on. did i forget anything. does anything is badly drawn. etc #i'm not doing that. i am scheduling this for atime when i am asleep and it will be posted by the time i wake up #and whatever is in the art is what is posted. it is what it is.

[orcelito]

showing off the commission i got from @ruporas for my fic, In the Next Life!

i'm still so incredibly excited about this. it's been some months since the story event that caused these scars, but i wanted SO BADLY to be able to see what they'd actually Look like... & Here They Are.

ruporas rendered the scars So Well, i just cant stop Looking at them... there's a Fresh & a Healed version, which ruporas was kind enough to give me without additional charge (Thank U Again😭😭) so i get to see what it looks like at different stages.

Lichtenberg Figures. in terms of actual scarring, lightning strikes that people survive don't tend to leave permanent scars, but the lichtenberg figures that they (usually temporarily) leave behind are just So Cool... Now, what happens when you get someone who can survive an amount of electricity/lightning that would be Frankly Lethal to any normal human person?

This :]

#speculation nation #trigun #vash the stampede #vash #in the next life #itnl shit #itnl art #there's a certain amount of Suspension Of Disbelief surrounding this whole injury #do i think it's necessarily realistic? not really. but the fun thing about fiction (especially for a nonhuman character like vash) is #I Do What I Want. #and so i DID shoot him with (what shouldve been) a lethal amount of lightning and it DID leave him with (what wouldve been) 4th degree burn #but his healing ability is fucking insane so it really only put him out of commission for a week or so #functionally. he's still dealing with pain from it though (not that he's gonna admit That to anyone) but yeah #im so in love with how ruporas drew the scars overlapping. he mentioned he did research for it and MAN it really paid off #and. man. vash really does look Chewed the Fuck Up huh #ultimately tho just one more scar for the collection! it just happens to be.. the most extensive single scar lol #but he'll be fiiine he's totally fiiine (pay no attention to the world-weary look in his eyes)(he's totally fine guys everything is Fine) #alternate caption for this commission piece: Chewing on him Chewing on him Chewing on him #god ruporas's art is so fuckin good. best money ive ever spent

[xamaxenta]

@itsthefandommash aaaangel im so sorry this took me so long i was suckerpunched by the depression this past weekend and i was struggling with literally everything and all basic tasks and its been exhausting and disheartening but i enjoyed the small serotonins in drawing marcoace 🥺❤️ thank you for commissioning me and forcing me to draw two characters together it was rough i definitely need more practice but this is a start

#marcoace #marco x ace #xam doodies #xam commissions #i….may have totally skipped anatomy bc my brain is just wholly unwilling to focus and work #its something and i really want to do so much more #but yikes whatever this bout of depressonesspresso whatever bs fucked me so bad #a sketch is still a sketch and i should learn to love them #what a horrible time to get overwhelmed lol #marco the phoenix #portgas d ace #i like cried twice and then picked up my ipad and did my best #god knows i can do better but thats not rn and im disappointed i cant bring my A game to these comms rn #ajdnakdhdb im gonna shut up now im beinf cringee #ALSO THEY GOT YAOI HANDS

[v-toast]

domesticated (changed my mind lol not finishing this)

#id in alt #also yeah i lied about having a vision i totally did forget spearmaster doesnt have a mouth in the wip i posted LOL #in my defence i havent played downpour or even finished survivor and i dont really understand whats going on B^) #there was gonna be a background but i gave up lol #rain world #slugcat #art

[jazzy-a]

A cute, random idea I had:

Kaz will do random things to make sure Jesper pays attention when he's explaining stuff (AKA because Jesper has ADHD energy lol.)

He'll spin a coin on the table repeatedly while telling him what he's supposed to do that night at the Club because Jes will get distracted by the table he's at otherwise.

He'll randomly do sleight of hand while he explains an intricate job- something where he makes, like, a pen disappear in one hand and then reappear prob- and do the trick over and over because he knows Jesper will literally stare at him the entire time if he does.

Sometimes he'll tap his cane against something or drum his fingers on it in a weird pattern so Jesper will look back at him when he starts to lose focus in busy places.

(He's ridiculously good at keeping him engaged at this point.)

#shadow and bone #six of crows #kaz brekker #jesper fahey #kazper #kesper #polycrows #i think it's cute in a brother or friend way too #Kaz taking care of his crows #i just think it would be a cute idea bc of all the ADHD things i see for Jes #plus i have ADHD so i can vibe so hard lol #Jesper doesn't even know Kaz is doing it on purpose #it would be hilarious if nina or wylan are there as new crows and just see jesper get totally sidetracked by something #only for kaz to start silently doing coin tricks while he talks and Jesper to immediately look back TOTALLY entranced #and Nina or Wylan being like 'omg what did you just do!?' #and inej not even thinking about it bc this is so common for them

[buwheal]

eeeyyyy, got bored and tried to draw you from memory.

how good is my memmory?

#goldfish equivalent /j #Love this one too lol hes so shapely #as neat as these types of asks are they are SO HARDDD to create a response for cause i dont want him to be a total asshole about it #because that'd suck and im not THAT THAT evil #anyways we're (kinda) back in it #i finished this yesterday but didnt have dialogue written yet lol #man this ask is oooollld #sorry i took so damn long with doing the askbox again :-P #if this one seems off then its the dialogue idk what whats up with it but i was struggling cause something was weird but no clue what. #Maybe its just been too long since i did the last one so im thrown off idk. #spamton #[you've got mail!] #spamton g spamton #deltarune #deltarune spamton #deltarune chapter 2 #spamton fanart #wtf Bu actually does the askbox for once?? outrageous.

[yendts]

absolutely obsessed with @rewritingcanon ‘s fic Magic Hour and had to make some art for it ✨

please go check it out you will not regret it:

#don’t mind me SCREAMING about this fic in the comments on ao3 i’m totally Normal and Fine about it #this drawing is based off the your name posters so i don’t claim full creative direction over it lol #but i did redraw everything myself and the background had me Frustrated lol but im pleased with it now #also the scorpio constellation is in the sky but it might be hard to pin point cause i think i accidentally covered up part of it with the #comet but oh well lol #oh wait! i didn’t cover it up you can even still see my faint lines that i drew to connect the stars but then forgot to erase lol #this will probably come out blurry as hell cause tumblr hates me but what can you do #scorpius malfoy #albus severus potter #albus potter #scorbus #hp #harry potter #harry potter and the cursed child #the cursed child #ccsquad #scorpius x albus #albus x scorpius #scorbus fic #scorbus fan fic #scorbus fan art #scorbus fanfiction

[quackle]

*stares at this with an intensity like no other*

#i mean. real. but also. i'm scared. because which ship is this directed to. #terry total drama mcgurrin. just what did yall cook in that writing room... i must know...... #maybe if we pretend it's about [REDACTED] instead of [REDACTED] we'll all be ok 😁 #total drama #i wonder if he's giggling at his phone again #i genuinely hope so because twt is freaking out LOL

[loupy-mongoose]

regarding the old comic, i realized something but wasn't sure if i was right Peirce(Percy) the cyndaquil is shiny(?) yeah? i don't think we have any other shinies in the current comic aside from 2(?) *akoya and Sulfur i think. if your counting the current / liden roots and also BLH. that and given we've seen clover's redesign and Jamie's will we ever get to see them in the comics current (LR/BLH,etc) my next ask i'll seperate from this one to avoid spoilers <3

I'm afraid you're off with the shinies. Akoya and Sulfur are, yes, but so are Tol the Chimecho and Linda the Roserade.

However Pierce is not shiny. (I think I would've pushed myself harder to finish the comic if that were the case, lol) And just for clarity, Percy, the Crobat, is also not shiny. (Amazingly, I did end up getting a shiny during that Nuzlocke, but it was late in the game and one I knew I wouldn't use. A Diglett I named Button--The rarest option of the Route~)

I have to point out that the "By Lavender's Hand" arc is ended--it ended with Randy's transformation. That feels so long ago aaaaa However, when the story picks back up, the Lindens will still be in Kanto, and I would love to include Jamie into the mix someday.

#peppercosmos #ask #I have to wonder why shininess is relevant? #Other than because you're curious #Which is totally valid! #Just wondering. #Shininess is just determined by what I have in the relevant games lol #I did manage to soft-reset for a shiny Cyndaquil in recent years though! #His name is Phoenix. #I may include him into the cast. #But he is cursed to forever be a Quilava. #..........I wanna make a plushie of him some day.

[pepperpixel]

got to see the total eclipse in person!!! heres some art commemorating that! cuz getting to watch 2 celestial bodies make out sloppy style was inspiring what can i say, also it was just rlly beautiful and cool and amazing to get to see ghg- but also! its like?? basically the moon finally getting the suns undivided attention... and thats got some vibes to it,, some energies... that i could not ignore lol.

#original art #eclipse #solar eclipse 2024 #total eclipse #doodles #original #artists on tumblr #ok sorry these r probably kinda sloppy looking. 1 paintings very difficult. #and 2. my brain wouldnt let me work on other shit before finishing these but i have other shit i NEED TO DO #so im deciding they r now finished i dont wanna spend any more time on them lol #i think they turned out ok tho #i recorded the process of me drawing them too so #there might..be a speedpaint. possibly #last time i said a picture would get a speedpaint was like 2 years ago and it didnt get one cuz my computer hated me lol #but! i have a new computer now... #if i find the time / energy to make that speedpaint.. then there might be a speedpaint #we shall see lol #i kno the height difference i gave them isnt acurate at all to actual sizes. the sun is bigger #but... this is what i wanted to draw gghgh- #if it makes u feel any better i did come up w a headcanon while drawing that they can just shapeshift freely n be whatever heights they wan #right now the moons just taller #cuz i said so #also sorry they kinda resemble my tak and gaz a bit… that wasn’t intentional… I just wanted the moon to be gothy and the sun be spiky #but #they kinda do look a bit like them ghg-

[brachiobrutality]

..👉👈 hello @noahcue

i read 'an endless dance' and then i saw the art and i had the irresistible urge to draw noah in the dress (◍°∇°◍) (ft. aleheather rating noah in said dress <3)

hope u don't mind (ó﹏ò。)

#td noah #total drama #tdwt #noah td #fanart #i did in fact add a tiny mole to his mouth #sorry not sorry #help lol #like third post ever idk what im doing </3 #technically alenoah and alenoaheather #noah total drama

[mamawasatesttube]

bart and his yellowy-golden speedster eyes... do you think as a civilian he ever has to wear colored contacts to hide them? its either that or preston and all his other friends are just like this is bart. he wears colored contacts every single day bc he likes anime

#rimi talks #i feel like bart would think that contacts are a sensory nightmare. so he might just be like #haha yeah im wearing yellow contacts right now for the aesthetic. yeah. totally #preston vc bart what color are your eyes really?? #bart vc uhhhh bluewn. #preston: oh that's a funny way of saying hazel! bluewn lol #max watching: ????? how did that WORK???? #it's just that bart has advantage on all charisma checks with his civvy friends bc they all just think he's cool #bart

[todayisafridaynight]

whatever //blasts your old man with the butch beam//

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #yakuza series #jo sawashiro #genderbend #snap sketches #sorry. #i laid in bed for three seconds and i dont know what happened i saw a vision and thought to myself 'how can i make my mommy issues worse' #unrelated ramble time my dad. texted me and he did the whole 'you need to eat' bit #and then i told him i was goin to my moms this weekend for a hot minute and he was all 'oh ill send you miso soup :) quick an easy :)' #like thank you...... i. LOVE. water. #i actually do like miso soup but it just seems like a funny thing to me idk LOL #immediately after that he was like 'wait ill just give you money for groceries' #which i felt bad bout since i always feel bad gettin money from my dad. not my mom tho she's a witch #see this is. why we're here tonight this ramble is NOT totally unrelated LMAO #anyway. i have a genderbent ichi doodle too but i figured one (1) instance of me being ill is enough for tonight #so with that im gonna look at the wall more and think of women BYE

[teethkid67]

KLOKTOBER D5 (ABIGAIL) CRINGETOBER D5 (MSPAINT) AND FANTOBER D5 (STAY) ALLLLLLL TOGETHER !!!!! plus some abigail doodles from when i was figuring out how to draw her .....

im just saying besties who get tortured together probably stay together ........ MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW MEOW

#kloktober2023 #moxysfantober2023 #cringetober 2023 #things i make #metalocalypse #metalocalpyse fanart #toki wartooth #abigail remeltindtdrinc #dethklok #doomstar requiem #idk they r lowkey important to me lol i hope to god they had a little sesh hanging out after the whole proposal thing with nathan #'HE DID WHATS' 'I KNOW RIGHT' idk theyre totally gossip buddies right i cant be the only one #traumabonded. etc #also i dont think nayone saw but yep. repost i forgot the boring little design exploration #just wanted to get some sort of face down for her before i tried anything

[ashtonq247]

(Yes you do…)

Bonus: ft last ronin Casey’s

#it’s funny how similar last ronin and the bad future on rose r #like last ronin had a female Casey #daughter of male Casey #now rise has male Casey son of female casey #and Leo was Casey’s sensei in rise #Mikey was Casey’s sensei in ronin #…well except he wasn’t for long lol #any who I totally knew she was gonna be his mom #because that’s what ronin did with casey #tmnt #rottmnt #tmnt casey jones #rottmnt casey jones #rottmnt cassandra jones #rottmnt movie spoilers #rottmnt movie #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles movie #last ronin #casey Marie jones #that’s her name I think #there was no time travel in ronin to prevent the angst #unfortunately #you know this is also reminiscent of SAINW #bc of the time travel #and I guess the post apocalyptic world in 2012 #I’m gonna draw it #I have so much ideas and stuff I already drew… #tmnt fanart #casey jones #casey jr