#tumblr replies with my personal

[isbergillustration]

Looming

#penance for posting fanart #painting #acrylic painting #eldritch angel #artists on tumblr #my art #illustration #i know my paintings look like other people's rough sketches but #actually there's no counter argument to that #they do #anyway i do like this though someone let me design book covers or posters like this (for money) #person who emailed me about doing a book cover but never responded to my reply if you’re out there

[otrtbs]

i delete any hate comment on ahb! that i see bc i’m not the one except for the for the very first hate comment ever. which came directly after i uploaded the final chapters of that story. ironically, the person who left it was the first person to read the whole fic in its entirety (ouch! but i digress). i keep the little hate comment up as a relic. the first hater ever if you will. imagine there’s a gold frame around it.

#and now they bear the weight of standing in for every ahb! hater #every now and then someone will comment smth like #‘fuck you. u worthless person’ #and i’m like 🧍‍♀️ jesus what did i do now? #but it’s just them responding to my first ever hater #i blocked them on ao3 tho so they can’t comment on my fics lmfaooo but people can still reply to them 😭 #it makes me giggle #anyway ao3 user DARKRISE if ur out here on my blog on the tumblr-sphere what’s up? #lmaoo

[cinnamonest]

Also sorry for the temporary delay! Basically last week my phone completely died. I'd had it for 6 years so it was at the end of its lifespan, the battery suddenly went from 80% to 10% in the span of about 20 minutes and wouldn't charge, so I had to go buy a new one (and communicated with my family via skype in the meantime, and used my microwave as a wake up alarm, improve adapt overcome lmao)

Unfortunately since I was logged out on PC and I use 2FA, which is unique to the device it's implemented on, I quickly realized I was totally locked out of my Tumblr, but staff came through for me in less than 12 hours and helped me switch to 2FA on my new phone.

Thank you Tumblr staff 🙏

#...now i feel bad for all the staff slander ive ever engaged with #i mean it WAS deserved for tumblr live #but Tumblr staff's support is so much better than other websites. its fast and a real person #with other sites trying to get user support is screaming into a void and praying that at least an AI generated bot will even reply at all #but yeah i. had to buy a wireless charger so i can slowly transfer my files over in the 20-minute bursts my old phone lasts #before it needs to be recharged to 100% again

[faunina]

happy TWO YEAR anniversary to everyone who attended the destiel wedding!

and happy valentines day to the rest of you guys <3 click the image for a surprise!

if you’ve ever seen that one post (i’ll link it in the replies) about the parallels between the rodeo scene in 12x11 and the movie “urban cowboy” and it entirely broke your brain, then this post is for you. and also i’m kissing you on the mouth

[ID. Digital art of Dean Winchester done in black and white. He’s is laid back on top of an electric bull. One hand rests on his hip while the other hovers in mid-air, fingers slightly curled, and he seems to be looking at it. When clicked, the transparency shows Castiel standing behind him. Castiel is holding Dean’s hand to his lips, while his other hand supports the back of Dean’s head. Castiel has a visible halo and wings that he has curled protectively around Dean. End ID.]

#destiel wedding anniversary #destiel #destiel fanart #spn #spn fanart #dean winchester #castiel #ficta et picta #a personal blogging experience #PLEASE NOTE THAT THE SURPRISE ONLY WORKS IN LIGHT MODE #if you clicked the picture and nothing changed then you're using the app/website in sth other than light mode and thatll just not work sry #anyway shoutout to tumblr users nottherealdean and sagegarnish ill hopefully remember to add their post in the replies in a minute #but thanks to them i have not and WILL never be normal about that scene. #nearly TWO YEARS this concept has been swimming in my head and now FINALLY i had the skills and idea to fully COMMIT #also im ngl this is one of those pieces that i only meant to quickly sketch out and then work on later #and instead it turned into a one-time five-hour sorta hyperfocus tunnel job #and i was so IMMEDIATELY pleased with the outcome and i still am. this has absolutely become one of my favourite destiel fanart pieces #that ive ever made. <3 these idiots are ruining my life and its chronic

[impossibledial]

i hate the idea that being with the doctor made clara “lose her humanity”. she may have become more or less desensitized to death but she was still the kindhearted woman the doctor met in series 7. she always put others before herself, the only difference is the stakes got higher in series 8/9. the doctor didn’t “corrupt” her, he just made her believe she was invincible.

she convinces the doctor to “save the day” in every one of her series since she stopped him from destroying gallifrey in day of the doctor.

in series 8, she makes the doctor realize that earth is his home and it’s his duty to help protect it when it’s in danger. in series 9, clara stops the doctor from destroying the universe just to bring her back.

clara was never a selfish character. even when she lies to danny, she says it’s for *his* own good and i think she truly believes that - she just doesn’t realize she’s lying to herself too. much of series 8 is clara denying herself what she truly wants due to expectations she puts upon herself.

part of this is because she knows what to expect from a routine life, routine job, and a normal boyfriend but she doesn’t know what to expect when she’s with the doctor. it’s enticing like an addiction as clara puts it.

unlike other companions, clara is wholly aware of the risks of being with the doctor. she won’t let herself drop everything on a moments notice to fly off with him because she knows there’s a chance she won’t make it home for dinner. she tells him that they will only travel together on wednesdays. she doesn’t stand for the doctor putting her in danger without her knowledge. she doesn’t stand for the doctor treating her as if she’s second fiddle to him.

unlike other companions, clara knows that being with doctor can’t last forever.

one of clara’s greatest lines is, “nobody’s ever safe…tomorrow’s promised to no one doctor but i insist upon my past. i am entitled to it. it’s mine.”

and much of series 7/8 is clara putting distance between her and the doctor to keep herself safe - not just physically but emotionally too. falling in love with the doctor has the ability to wreck her. considering her reaction to eleven’s regeneration, it’s no wonder she put even more of distance between them in series 8.

she’s trying to move on and she gets herself a boyfriend. of course, twelve makes this difficult even though he’s doing his best to do the same thing she is. if they don’t put a label on what they feel for each other, they can just as easily pretend it isn’t there. clara can pretend that she isn’t hurting danny when she lies to him about where she’s been. the doctor can act like seeing clara with a new boyfriend doesn’t hurt him deeply.

the central conflict between clara and the doctor in series 8 is miscommunication not corruption. clara wants to believe that the doctor makes her worse just as the doctor does because that’s easier than admitting that they make each other better. it’s easier to think they were better off when inevitably one of them gets left behind.

their dynamic is interesting because of the role reversal.

for once, the doctor is the one forced to deny his feelings. the doctor has to wait (until wednesday) to see clara. the doctor forgets that this thing between them can’t last. the doctor is the one risking the universe for the person they love.

#most of my tumblr posts are now criticizing people for misunderstanding clara’s character arc. wow. #clara oswald #twelfth doctor #eleventh doctor #twelveclara #elevenclara #doctorclara #whouffaldi #souffez #whouffle #doctor who #doctor who meta #clara oswald meta #if you’re the person who replied to my earlier post - this is not meant to disagree with you. #you’re free to have your own interpretation #i just needed to ramble #belle’s ramblings™️

[chat-dank]

#angbang #shitpost #I'm trying to reply to another person regarding the recent drama but tumblr keeps telling me that they have trouble processing my post #so in the meantime here's the soldier meme I promised earlier

[fictionadventurer]

Sometimes I think I have run across all the types of nihilistic despair that exist in the world.

And then someone new tries to argue on one of my pro-life posts.

#went to bed late #woke up earlier than i wanted to and can't get back to sleep #check the tumblr for some mindless scrolling fun time #see reply attacking the pro-choice arguments post that in no way refutes any of my points #consider very briefly engaging with the stupidity #look at the blog bio #see that the person calls themself an anti-natalist #has an entire blog devoted to the concept that it is wrong to bring new life into the world #understand with expanding levels of dread that there is no earthly way to drag someone out of that level of despair #that they have purposely chosen and advocated for this absolutely hopeless worldview #and i do not in any way want this person interacting with me ever in my life #block immediately #and then start praying for their soul

[unpretty]

not being able to blaze posts that are already being blazed is a major flaw imho. if you're looking at the post normally and not seeing the blazed version there's no indication that's what's happening so the post just looks unblazable. also i want the option to see something being blazed onto my dash and immediately make it worse.

#original #did i send an unhinged ask to tumblr support about hobbit love? maybe so. #anyway i have to wait for the current blaze to wear off #which i did not realize at all until support politely informed me of the facts #in general i would like if all versions of a post (including the ones reblogged onto my dash normally) #showed some indication that it's 420 somewhere #also i hate that i don't know if i can reply to support saying 'thank you and good job' without throwing off a metric somewhere #i know some support things are like. you should only reply if they didn't fix the problem the first time. otherwise it's bad. #can i send a kudo to the support person

[ingravinoveritas]

Here get booped

Ahh, thank you! I wholeheartedly and enthusiastically accept your drive-by booping. Or, since this is the second actual boop I have received, I can now call it "Booping 2: Electric Boopaloo." Allow me to also offer my own David style boop to you in return:

#yami-no-kokoro #reply post #apparently this was some kind of April Fools thing is my understanding #but April is also World Autism Month so I am out of the tumblr loop #however the boops are appreciated nonetheless #booping 2: electric boogaloo #tumblr #personal post

[squidsquire]

the smith siblings go shopping

also gonna give kai headcanons nobody asked for.

- he had an mcr phase

- really liked the joker movie until nya made him see the light

#ninjago #ninjago kai #nya ninjago #kai smith #nya smith #fanart #digital art #ninjago fanart #weekend whip #squidsquire draws #idk if this counts as nya and kai bonding so im just gonna reply to the person who rqd thst w another drawing #bc this is kai centric #art #my art #artists on tumblr

[yohankang]

hiiii besties i'm back <3

#god it's been almost a month of me not posting?? (except for my personal updates) oops #i just wanted to say i just passed my last exam #i passed all of them with flying colours hehe #but i haven't slept for more than 6 hours at night for more than a month and i feel like i'm getting sick #work has been tough too and i failed one job interview... i have less than 3 weeks to find another job but i'm not giving up!! #also i already told everyone at work that i'm leaving and i cried A LOT this week... #but don't worry it was because they were so sweet and supportive :') #so today i'm going to watch a movie and relax #and tomorrow i will finally go for a walk!!! a long walk!!! #and i'm going to waste my time on tumblr (i say that with love) and reblog all the posts i've missed for the past month #and reply to your messages and asks <3 #i missed you!!!! #k.txt #oh wait nvm i forgot it's sanremo finale today asdfghjh i'm going to have fun reading my italian mutuals' posts

[fisheito]

hey kids! time to explain!

#FISHEITO TRIVIA TIME!!! WOWEE!!!! #i started fisheito as a side blog under an older account #an account that accumulated numerous past fandoms and followings #i intended to keep eito as a true sideblog. a separate tiny island to post my art and just. keep my distance #unfortunately... there were too many nuca opinions i wanted to reply to (positive) from the ppl interacting with my art #every time i wanted to join the convo... i held back. bc i didn't want to associate fisheito with my defunct old tumblr #i think requiodile going off about hot slit summer was the breaking point #i could no longer keep my silence. #THESE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME. THEY UNDERSTAND MY NEEDS. I MUST ENGAGE WITH THEM MORE PERSONALLY!!! #which pushed me to create an entirely new main account (fishnineo) and transfer ownership of fisheito to it #because. eight. nine. sequential. it came after the eito #so i could freely reply to nuca stuff with a blank slate #you'll see responses from fishnineo/fisheito interchangeably bc tumblr changes the blog source depending where i respond from #idk. i think if i respond from the dashboard it's nineo. and if i respond from my activity page it's eito #it doesn't matter which account u @. i'll see activity for both when i log in #i keep the main (fishnineo) blank in case i ever need it for non-nuca purposes #because as we know too well by now... changing mains is a pain

[mattodore]

i’ve been pretty quiet on here and avoiding my activity and dms these last few weeks because october was easily one of the worst months i’ve had in a very long time and i lost my family dog of seventeen years and had a medical scare for not only myself but my cat and just all these things happened at once that felt incredibly hard to bounce back from mentally… but aside from being sick atm things are starting to get better for me and my family so hopefully i can actually start being. normal. again soon 🧎

#river dipping #i don’t think i get personal on here very often just bc. the pd. um #but i figured i should say something bc my avoidant personality disorder is uhhhhhhhh #certainly Avoiding. #i’m so sorry if you’ve messaged me or @ed me or just tried interacting in any way #ik i wrote in my pinned navigation that yea i take breaks and avoid my activity and it’s nothing personal #but i still just wanted to reiterate it #i tend to keep notifications off for tumblr and my activity and everything like i only ever check when i’m mentally prepared for the State #my brain goes into when interacting with people #it’s not that i’m ignoring you!! my brain is just. very bad. #and i have a lot of trouble actually replying #especially in private messages #i’m much more comfortable talking publically which is why discord is so not for me 😭 #i really have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone a lot this past year and it’s certainly helped a ton #but still. it’s a disorder i’ve had my whole life so 🤷 it’s still sticking around ykwim #so i’m sorry 😔 but i’m also incredibly thankful toward everyone who’s taken the time to talk to me and interact with me and just thought of #me in general even when i’ve been so isolated recently #ummmm but on the bright side i moved out finally and am at a place that isn’t gonna poison my brain anymore so ‼️ #it took a few horrible days for my pets to get used to the house but things are fine now and i’ve set up my room and am :) doing better #surprisingly my panic disorder has been absent since the move… which is very weird for me #i fr think my previous place might actually have been poisoning me like i’m serious #……..i might delete this post in a bit if i start feeling too crazy abt being vulnerable lmao. um. #but for the people that’re online rn! my beloved friends and lovers yk #there’s my little update

[tourettesdog]

Trans people are amazing; I see all of your trans Danny fanworks and love each one dearly <3

#danny phantom #danny fenton #just had a run in with a transphobe in the Phandom now I gotta go cleanse my palette with some good trans content #The person's Tumblr is Aikoiya if anyone wants to block a transphobe #one of their most recent posts has a long convo with me in the replies that gives plenty of evidence #the post itself had red flags too #dogposts

[zukkaoru]

i hate when i see banger art on twt and the person doesn't have a tumblr. please i need to scream in the tags about this. passively retweeting isn't enough i need to keyboard smash so violently you're concerned for my health

#K.UNICHUU ART.. LET ME SCREAM AT YOU I AM HERALDING THE REVOLUTION ON TUMBLR I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE #hello grace here #also twt replies are too public. i don't need everyone else to see my reaction. that is between me and op #and maybe the person i'm reblogging from

[starlightshore]

Thanks for the Measured Response™. Unfortunately the character limit doesn't allow for much nuance in asks. My issue isn't so much with the character's actions as the way their conflict is framed. It always feels like we're supposed to judge Asriel way harsher - for ghosting the person responsible for their trauma - than Chara, who is actively trying to hurt them. I know you don't want to trivialize abuse, but the story still botches the subject pretty badly. Still, good luck with the rewrite.

(sighs) please anon, while I do appreciate the effort to acknowledge the lack of nuance in the previous ask, I would much rather you approach me more reasonably. I don't appreciate you coming to me, a complete stranger to both of us, with this attitude of already guilty. can you please learn to talk to people more reasonably? like, I'm living my life out here and you come and accuse me in a really rude way of promoting abuse or whatever the far-fetched conclusion that ask could come across as.

I am more than happy to accept fault over my writing and do my best to improve, but I want to do so on friendly, acceptable terms. please withhold condemnation and explain how and why you feel the story was mishandled. You do so really nicely in the second ask and I appreciate that.

Ultimately, regardless of my intent, my story didn't convey the message and that's, at the very least, mostly my fault. I can try to explain why I'd argue I didn't fuck up as badly as you paint me as, but I will accept that the story I wrote was not emotionally paced well made it weigh more towards cruelty without the hope and understanding I wanted the story to be read as.

I want to stress that I take abuse deadly seriously. I'm a victim of emotional abuse myself and this is something I am desperate to portray in all of its ugly, dirty detail and I want to do it without hurting people. I obviously failed when I first wrote this and I want to say thank you for coming to me about it, even if I feel there is still some friction here I want to express that gratitude. But also please be aware of how you approach people. (referring to the OG ask here).

Anyway

i wanna defend myself here a little and say I think you're missing the bigger picture of the framing of that scene. I feel you forgot the context of that scene and where it's placed in the story. It's this post.

Previously, that entire chapter had Chara idolizing the Asriel they knew as a child. Their timetravel ability being removed meant they longed for that power to control the narrative and live in the past. its like, metaphorical shit for how when growing up its hard to move on from the past and accept that you're aging.

That scene was the point where Chara realized that Asriel wasn't perfect -and has never been. The story is framed by Chara's POV exclusively and navigates Chara's feelings about their separation from Asriel. The "abuse" of that scene is the feeling of an older sibling telling them to "fuck off" and "stop acting like a victim" which are like... like devoid of the context of Asriel's perspective (which we didn't have at this point in the story) is a very hurtful and emotionally damaging thing to say to someone. I can see how someone reading that, who could have been through a similar situation, would react very badly to seeing that in the comic. Thus the content warning. I honestly don't know if "abuse" is the right word here, but what is someone going to have blacklisted for this? Like I said, my goal is to avoid hurting so I'm not going to not tag it. It's an issue of vocabulary vs. accessibility. I still wouldn't know what to tag this tbh.

the overall narrative of the comic is that Chara's perspective of Asriel was holding themself back. they were wallowing over a perfect picture that never existed -which reflected how they hate themselves for not living up to the perfect angelic ideal that they obviously could never have lived up to.

Chara condemning Asriel for being Flowey and being a jerk is the first step towards chara acknowledging their own blame in the equation. pretending the problem doesn't exist and that you're inherently awful doesn't fix things. Immediately after tossing out Flowey, they realize they are a flower as well. (literally becoming the thing they just condemned Asriel)

Once The two reconcile with the help of Actual Adults in the situation, the story changes POV to Asriel. It's then we're given context to Asriel's perspective and to show, that yeah, both of them Suck as people. That both are capable of majorly fucking up. And that's because the tools they're given a life of trauma and being reborn into a world that doesn't understand your damage is in itself traumatizing.

so idk man. the framework here serves a purpose and while I plan on showing a more nuanced and balanced pace -I really need to show the characters having more things going on than their larger conflict + be happier with each other. (the problem with writing for an askblog is that its very reactive and its easier to lean into tension and relationship drama than focus on the lighter but necessary moments. I know for sure the redraw will be better at this)

But yeah the framework, as it stands, feels good to me. Maybe in the details of how it's shown I'll be able to handle the nuances more gracefully but with the larger goal in mind, I'm not sure how I can change that? I would really love to hear your thoughts on that.

#personal stuff #sams replies #uhhh man irony about a post discussing tagging but do i tag this as #negative #because there's some harsh criticism and feelings in here on both ends so #idk really #i gotta say idk how i feel about tumblr being the method we discuss this as honestly i feel this kinda conversation would be better suited #in DMS. because I don't want this to be a public topic because its very clearly a personal one for both us #i DON'T like discussing abuse so casually... its honestly a painful topic. in the abstract like this its not too bad but its defs not ideal #i'll grant you the need for anonymity tho so i don't mind but i'd prefer we talked privately somehow? eugh. hate writing long posts #i hate how i feel like i gotta word vomit to get my point across without being misunderstood its the woooorst #long post