First art of the new year is all about re-structuring your internal monologue.
In my early 20s I was working full time in London with many social commitments and a variety of hustles and side projects.
In my later mid 20s I cater to many sensory and social drain needs I have and indulge in special interests while respecting my lower energy reserves and celebrating my different way of processing the world.
Did I get more autistic? Nah. I got less fake.
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[Art description: Three panels showing figures on a black background. Long descriptions follow.
1. A drawing of OP as a person with hip-length hair and a dress standing sadly with her hands clapsed together in front of her. She is coloured a muted rainbow gradient. Behind her, two pairs of nondescript figures chat while smiling. White text says, ‘I’m getting more and more autistic the older I get.’ 2. OP’s colours are brighter, and her expression looks happier. Crayon-like scribbles have crossed out the text from the previous panel. 3. OP’s colours are vibrant, and she balances on one leg and throws her arms out as she dances. The text above has changed to say, ‘I’m becoming more and more myself the older I get.’ \End descriptions]
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OB!Nightbringer expectation: their avatars changed their nice angel personalities as soon as they fall, causing them to be very mean and scary in the past.
OB! Nightbringer reality: the brothers are nice and (still kind of) good because they're still adjusting to being a demon in the past.
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https://www.tumblr.com/moonshynecybin/744318694337970176/the-spectrum-of-vr46-riders-opinion-on-marc-is
Please break it down 🙏🏼🙏🏼
scholars in the replies to my original post @topnotchquark and @xoxogossipzoe... we were actually communicating telepathically here
like. its incredibly revealing in terms of their sense of self and what they think is important wrt vale and the interplay of their own identity… it’s about how they individually— as people who idolize, know, and owe humongous amounts of their success to valentino rossi— conceptualize themselves as separate entities from him. do they want to be their own person (luca). will they take his vendettas unto themselves (bez). is it worth it bc they owe him. is it worth it bc they want him to be proud of them. is it not worth it at all. do you think it’s normal to hate marc bc he wronged vale eight years ago. when you were a child.
the other biggest part is like. marc is fucking annoying. he pisses people off all of the time. and they’re vr46 riders, so everything that they do concerning marc will be seen as a message from vale’s camp. they are all looped in together under the vr46 brand. a united front. they are his legacy, and in many ways his proxy within the sport whether they want to be or not. so they also have to weigh if its worth it to get into that grade A 100% high quality premium BEEF. do they want that smoke from a pr standpoint (pecco does not). and do they want to make an enemy of a CRAZY MAN who is the only one to permanently get under valentino rossi’s skin. all of the academy’s members in the premiere class have individual answers to these questions and i think they’re VERY revealing in terms of their character…
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Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow
hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.
like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.
anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better
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shock. horror. awe. i drew prusty again. totally out of character for me
photo that this is based on under the cut :3
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good omens broke me so now i’m learning how to paint nebulas (wip. still a loooottt to work on)
[Image Description: A digital painting of a nebula/nebulae. At the top left corner there’s red dust forming a little heart. The rest of the drawing is still unfinished and shows nebulae of different colors like light blue, orange, yellow, and green. Behind the nebulae, little and big stars are visible. Second image is close-up of the top left corner. /end ID]
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you make a derisive comment about me as i walk past
"what was that?" i demand, swinging around
in fear you try to insist it was nothing
"no really, say it again, i dont think i heard you right" i insist menacingly
everyone holds their breath in terrified silence as i glare
no one knows i have audio processing disorder and im not even sure if whatever you said was directed at me
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IVE GOT MY FIRST PROPER EXAM TOMORROW OOOOOOUUUAAAAGGGGHHHGGBBBHHHHHHHHH
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my boyfriend made a shit ass fruit tier list so i, who am seriously allergic to nearly every fruit that exists, am making a correct one!
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