#where's the sanity

[tiffanyachings]

what’s important to know about palamedes is that he got stuck in a tiny room in complete isolation for 8 months not knowing if he would ever be rescued. and he responded to this psychological torture by writing trashy romance novel fanfic

#there’s a tma ep where a guy goes insane in a similar scenario. clearly he didnt consider the sanity-preserving powers of fanfic #god he must've lost it when he moved into cam’s body. tragic #palamedes sextus #the locked tomb

[originalaccountname]

My turn to be skk-posting

in my ideal vision, when they finally get in something resembling a relationship (as adults, they were Not There as teenagers), it's because they both want it, which means they unlock previously forbidden features with each other like sharing a bed instead of a couch (you all know about my weird obsession with skk and couches), but also freely touching.

Dazai is a rather tactile person; my guy is freed after 2 weeks in prison and the first thing he does is dance, poke at, lean/hug and play with the hair of the first non-evil person (a stranger) he meets. Being with Chuuya, he constantly finds himself in Chuuya's bubble, and indulges in ways he usually can't with others. That often means direct skin contact, not even with ulterior motives, but really just because he is allowed and he wants to.

Chuuya on the other hand has never done something gently ever: he is fierce, he cares and loves intensely, and he never lets go, but he barely knows the concept of a reassuring gesture (working on it). Dazai being in his bubble wouldn't bother him at all by that point, but the handsy part? it's awkward. needs some getting used to. It's a learning opportunity.

And when Chuuya gets used to it and finally makes a move to return the favour? it's Dazai who short-circuits.

#probably a mix of it being someone else initiating touch instead of him and said contact being (finally) gentle #we're getting off-subject but i'm convinced there's a difference for dazai between casual or violent touch and purposefully gentle touch #after all his way of showing affection is primarily by being a menace and being annoying to those closest to him. which tends to come with- #-threats of violence if not attempted/executed violence (kunikid.a repeatedly choking or drop-kicking him for his repeated offences) #AND a difference between being touched with and without bandages (it's like a second skin) where *with* bandages it's mostly whatever #this man flirts off-screen like his life depends on it he does not mind physical touch BUT (<- your cue to make some headcanons) #on a tangent do you think dazai's fingers would be cold asking for chuuya's sanity #bsd #skk #soukoku #apparently i talk sometimes

[tooruuwuu]

oh come on.

#“cut them they're in our way” “sure” #HELLO??? #WHAT ABOUT MY SANITY?? #where's the warning disclaimer?? #one piece #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #zolu

[yet-another-haven-of-dollya]

*Tap mic*

Yes, it is I - your poor little Dollya

As some of you may have known already because of my constant whining and bickering for the past few days, my original blog was flagged and I'm trying to appeal. Things seem to not be on my side, though, so I figured a new blog is a must.

I won't delete the og blog, there are too many things going on over there and I simply can not. All my contributions to the DoL fandom, my AU and asks and stuffs,... have all been hidden away from the tags.

Not gonna lie I was terribly discouraged and couldn't pick up a pen to draw or do anything for several days. Terrible, just simply terrible, to look at the ask box or that stupid default avatar icon... But, well, you know, it is what it is, no point just weeping around so might as well make a new place to post stuffs!

This is a sub-blog with the same email address as the flagged one, I think I would still use the same tags as the original flagged blog: Dollya art, Dollya ask,... and I won't repost my higher interaction posts here either, that's just bitter.

I will post more "community-friendly" kinds of stuff here, so spicier asks or requests oughta go to the original blog' ask box... I don't really know, I guess things will kinda fall into the right places after some time... What do you call it? Settle down?

Anyway, I'll try to be positive. After all, the Pandora box was opened, so if I don't hold onto the tiny hope left behind, I will have nothing.

Let's just hope for the best.

#dollya art #dol pc #robin the orphan #dol robin #dol fanart #degrees of lewdity #dol #You can already tell I'm still very sad :( and I'm gonna be a bitch about it to the day Tumblr un-flagged me that blog is my everything #I didn't spend every last thread of my sanity drawing and answering to be flagged fuck it I haven't even opened any commission slot yet #I won't let that blog go what if my mutuals come back one day and wonder where am I?? Some of them've gone for a while I want to wait #my face is exactly how my icon looks: fucking bitter and can't do anything #Lya the Blossom #Lyah the Emancipated

[swordmaid]

cers 👑👑

her pose is based off this screencap of shiv succession just because i thought it fits [:

#cersei lannister #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #mine. #i wanted to do something detailed so i can get back in the groove again.. however.. underestimated the 'detailed' part #tbh the cape is supposed to have brocade too but my sanity 😭😭 #and the fashion inspiration for this is everywhere but has ice and fire ever claimed they were historically accurate? no? exactly. #i usually put her in green but i thought red would be fitting this time. tbh i was debating that colour bc that seemed typical for her alas #i craved. and i actually had like 3 more sketches for her hair + outfit but this one took so long i dont think ill ever get around #to rendering those loool. and this is also why i dont draw her often. she just has SO much.......... SO MUCH details #i cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #but i do like this series tho. where its more like a fashion exploration. i feel like redoing cat's to give her a better outfit #but i should do someone else lol

[luxrayz64]

like we were so fucking robbed of seeing perez in the wake of saw vs events I want to see her getting out of the hospital and flipping tables and pointing a gun in ericksons face after being told that strahm is the lead suspect. I want to see her having a breakdown after strahms fingerprints come back dead. I want to see her hand twitching over her gun everytime she sees hoffman. I want to see her fucking losing it and desperate to avenge her friend and partner and to clear his name. I want to see the thought process that lead to her inviting known serial killer mark hoffman to the basement lab just so she could torture him psychologically before she had a legitimate excuse to shoot him. I want to see more of her and I want to see how strahms death impacted her the way the reverse impacted him.

#lindsey perez lindsey perezzzzz #we did not see nearly enough of her #she was so overshadowed by strahm in iv and then didnt even get to be a main character in vi #she showed up. psychologically tortured hoffman. and then she died (again). #realistically she's way better at hiding her insanity so I think she wouldn't lose it nearly as bad as strahm did #but I want just one little moment where she's on her own and she fucking loses it #forced to let your boss tell your best friend you're dead. he goes missing. is declared a suspect. turns up dead. no body to bury #more of her pov on these events please. please. please. #it would be so sanity inducing cause she KNEW it was hoffman. her last words to strahm was hoffmans name #and she knew him so well.... she must've known strahm went after him in the wake of her 'death'. the fucking guilt she must have felt #espeon cries #saw #i am so so sick in the head about her today

[little-pondhead]

I’m Not The Sun

—

Y'know, when Kon ‘died’, do you think a grieving Tim could have mistaken Danny for his best friend? Do you think that, in a moment of desperation and exhaustion, he might've kidnapped a floating Danny in an attempt to bring Kon home? And when he realized he kidnapped a random civilian, do you think he still kept Danny for a while as a replacement for Kon?

Do you think Danny got tired of being called 'Conner' after the first week but was too distressed himself to correct Tim? Trying to leave or tell the fellow teen his name was Danny was obviously sending the kid into a spiral. He seemed to think Danny was the dead spirit of his best friend. Maybe if he played along, this Conner guy would show back up?

Hopefully, before Tim completes his cloning research. Danny's been doing everything he can to sabotage the equipment, but even with ghost powers on his side, Tim is a smart person. Every time Danny sets him back one step, Tim takes two steps forward. And since he's well outside of his haunt, Danny is starting to feel weak and ill from lack of ectoplasm. He's running out of time.

Do you think Kon would feel upset that his best friend replaced him?

#dpxdc #pondhead blurbs #like #crack can happen #but i just want a gut wrenching story about tim's emotional breakdown #and he's smart but everything he's doing is making everything worse and worse #danny doesn't know he's red robin #he can't leave the nest or where ever tim took him to #he just knows he's getting weaker by the day #using invisibility has never been harder #the one time he tried to sneak out #tim found him in an hour #and spiraled so hard danny panicked and promised not to leave again #well guess what ghost boy? #promises are important to ghosts :) #he physically cannot leave tim now even tho it is causing him harm #tim is just off the rails with grief #he eventually realizes danny isn't kon but keeps calling him such to keep a thread of sanity #and continues with the cloning attempts #danny is just horrified and doesn't know what to do #i'm opening this up for some super angst on danny's side too #like imagine he had a bad reveal and he messed up with this powers #and now tim thinks he's the dead spirit of fucking superboy come to reincarnate into the shell of an empty clone #danny's powers are getting weaker and his control is slipping #so it's not exactly helping his case #queued post

[t00thpasteface]

i desperately need everyone who talks cutesy or silly as a quirk, for whatever reason you might do so, to understand that is still very possible to be rude no matter how twee and childish you're talking. in fact sometimes it's disrespectful specifically because you're being childish about it. the correct way to refer to your lab TA is "the TA", not "that lady", and it is not polite to ask how old someone is by asking "how many old do you has", nor is it polite to respond to their answer with "wow! you has a LOT of old!"

like i get that you're autistic, but i am too, and that's why i need you to say "kidney" and "scalpel" instead of "flappy-flap" and "pointy stick".

it shouldn't be unreasonable to ask that you talk at a high school level of grammar and syntax at minimum when you're a taxpaying adult in your 20s and handling sharp objects and dead animals

#my allotted weekly haterpost sorry #i just get so frustrated like there really is a time and place for everything but lab is where we need to act our age #and this is coming from someone who owns a tamagotchi and plays online competitive pokemon! #when the sharp metal objects and carcinogenic chemicals come out the babytalk needs to leave. for our safety and our sanity #shebbz shoutz

[dandelionfool]

things alfie daydreams wistfully about when it's been too long since he was last almost-killed by tommy

#alone in margate on a lot of drugs and missing the homoerotic death threats etc #tommy x alfie #periodic drawing of Them required for my sanity #just endlessly obsessed with alfie's #“look i've been a (not very) good dog thomas and i think we should get to play the game where we go to hell together now please. as a treat #and then obviously tommy's “oh no i was just dealing with this at home how have i ended up with two of you” #all very compelling to me #tommy shelby #alfie solomons #peaky blinders #my art

[a-dreamworld-fool]

part 01 - part 02

part 01 - part 02

#my reaction when i saw that scene #where the fuck did he get those? from the kitchen? #spent way too long making lao's stupid hat i think i lost my sanity #by stupid i mean stupidly GLORIOUS #i would never slander something so magnificent. ahem #gods give me strength to make the later parts #planning for kung lao x reader and maybe johnny cage x reader with this #mortal kombat fanart #foolie's art #kung lao #kung lao's hat #razor-rimmed hat #so... where did all the knives go?

[carlyraejepsans]

“Sans isn’t violent in most runs because he’s too lazy and depressed to act, but when he is motivated into action he ends up fighting us to the death” this is missing so much and I have no idea how to put it into words so I just have a word salad of nonsense In my head and am foaming at the mouth. this is where 70% of fanfics about sans fall into the deep hole of “almost sans but not quite” if that makes any sense at all. Anyway heard this said as a way to discredit sans pacifism and I just am sobbing over the loss of the parallels between sans and paps and their versions of pacifism and sacrifice. 

sans IS non-violent in most runs because he doesn't see a point in fighting us. part of that derives from helplessness due to his cosmic horror like knowledge of the anomaly. but a much, much more substantial part of that is 1) his personal sense of ethics and respect towards toriel's promise, and deep down 2) his genuine sympathy towards the anomaly's situation and trying to understand its point of view.

i wouldn't call sans a pacifist per se. there are times where it seems he WOULD be willing to resort to violence if circumstances were different, and he can get pretty self serving when things start to get rough. but to act like he enjoys violence and conflict, he just genuinely doesn't care enough to fight is just. congrats! you fell for his act <3

#every time sans says he doesn't care about something he is lying to himself like a dork #as a deliberate conscious decision made for survival to maintain his mental sanity in a world where his agency doesn't ontologically matter #answered asks #undertale #sans

[3-aem]

Idk if anyone's said this but if your kitty had tiny black sunglasses they'd totally be gojo cat lolll

;-; yea i know—

#for sanity reasons his name is not gojo though #he’s just my bappy boi #i also think he’s a lil too affectionate and sweet #and a lil dumb #sweet child runs up to strangers he meets like OMG HI A NEW FRIEND?!?!?!! #like bro where are ur prey instincts!!!!!! #ask

[buttercupbuck]

opinion no one wants to hear perhaps but until i see everything in full you couldn't catch me dead banking on marisol leaving the show by a certain episode. as a veteran i have served my time in the trenches predicting break-ups by xyz episode just for that to not happen

#i’ve gotten like. a decent amount of anons about her end date #and i’m sorry but im just not the one #IVE BEEN HERE BEFORE!!! #with taylor and ana especially i have done it all already!! #and i have absolutely noooo interest in going into every episode expecting a breakup just to get all pissy #if she leaves by episode 7 that's sooo swell #but idc!!! i truly don't. im good with where we're going so this isn't even me being negative about the show #i just value my sanity lol

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

#positivity #pro aging #also i hate you 'anti aging' scams that capitalize on fear of aging. death by 1000000 papercuts for ye #saw a hair video where they restored the salt-and-pepper colour in an older clients hair and it looked SO GOOD at the end #i love when people throw in the towel and embrace their aging however that looks #it isn't productive to shame people who are ashamed of aging and i just want to. celebrate aging #in a world that simultaneously venerates youth and adulthood and hates BOTH you need to find some sense of freedom #as a Young Adult(tm) please please PLEASE older folks seeing this/following me know that i look up to you #older folks i need you to know that your worth NEVER diminished when you added a new number on your birthday cake #and your body and mind and soul NEVER lost worth because it started to creak a little at the joints #and i might be wrong about this because i'm still young but it can be SO tempted to miss your youth when you feel like... #...you've somehow LOST part of yourself by growing older. and so much of aging is about change and some things don't stay the same... #...and that IS scary and i will never once fault somebody for that. but please don't fall into the trap that because you've aged that... #...you somehow have forever lost fundamental pieces of Who You Are and you could never come back from that... #...for your own sake and sanity you deserve to find comfort and solice and understanding in who you still are... #...because you are still - at the core - the same. you can never take this away from yourself #and i know this might ring hollow because i just don't get what it's like to be older #but i have looked at my elders and felt awe at their age and their experiences #and i know what that is like and it's awesome. i just wish more older people knew that so many of us look at you with awe... #...and - if you can believe it - some of us ENVY your age or experiences or even body #i'm watching an 'older' content creator (older by internet standards 🙄) and i envy him for how eventful his life was #i envy that he experienced a different world - one that i have only heard about from my dad because i was too young to remember it #and i admire this person for their wisdom and thoughts because they've come from his experiences living in a Different World #it's that type of stuff that makes me unafraid to keep on living #inspired by following somebody like. twice my age posting about their excitement abiut growing older and !!!!!!! YEAHHHHHH #didn't realize they were closer to my dad's age but that's so cool???????????

[brungeons-and-bragons]

Need a Timkon fic where the world resets again and Kon is unwritten from time again and no one remembers him but Tim who is going actually crazy trying to find any evidence that his totally-just-best-friend ever even existed.

#like The cloning but he has literally nothing to work with #give me Red Robin but it’s about Kon and no one believes him #give me photos that have an empty space in them where Kon should be #give me one measly little hint the universe forgot to erase. a conspiracy theory or tabloid article that Tim clings to for his sanity #give me that self-exile again but from literally everyone #i dont care how it ends I just need like #40k words of Tim going crazy #tim Drake #robin #Superboy #Kon el #Conner Kent #red robin #young justice #young just us #timkon

[tooruuwuu]

rewatching one piece rn and noticed how robin used to call everyone by their titles and i

from captain, doctor, navigator, cook, swordsman, long nose to just luffy, chopper, nami, sanji, zoro and ussop wHAT IF I END IT ALL

#DO YOU THINK THE STRAWHATS NOTICED THE DEVELOPMENT AND COLLECTIVELY CRIED THEMSELVES TO SLEEP #her calling ussop long nose cracks me up #i can't wait to reach that particular part where she'll start calling them by their names #need to see it for my own sanity #robin has come so far it honestly makes me sob #one piece #strawhat pirates #nico robin #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #black leg sanji #nami #ussop #chopper