#why am I wasting my time tagging this

[lieximhuman]

Uhmmm… can someone tell me why I’ve been getting mental illness bungo stray dogs content on my reels?

I don’t watch bungo stray dogs.

[no one cares about you

- Yellow September

Suicide prevention month]

Who is this man. Why does he want me to end myself???

#bungo stray dogs #bsd #osamu dazai #-> apparently that’s him #(I hope I’m right lmfao) #tw #tw suicide #suicide mention #mental illness #like I get it that my reels know how fucked up my mind is #but #what’s going on in this anime??? #bruhhh #dazai #why am I wasting my time tagging this #god I hope this reaches the right audience im so confused

[nyxofdemons]

THE WAY THAT THEY INVENTED ROMANCE WITH THIS SONG???? HELLO?????

#'i don't know why you waste your time on me' 'baby; all i got is time!' OH MY *GOD* #WHY IS THAT THE MOST ROMANTIC THING THATS EVER HAPPENED #im screaming and crying knowing no one else will ever have what they do #like i am so serious ive never REALLY cried at this show before but this song got me so bad #theyre so fucking cute. im going to lay on the floor and be overwhelmed by yearning #mine #fave #<- yes im tagging my own posts w this #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #fizzarolli #asmodeus #fizzmodeus #helluva boss fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #asmodeus helluva boss #helluva boss asmodeus #e: mammon's magnificent musical mid-season special

[emdotcom]

Idk why the fucken... Divide between "it was alternate universes" & "Paul is just trans" ideas for Petscop has to be torn into a cavern. Paul being trans DOES make sense, but requires you to ignore huge details that immediately make it not work. The alternate universes DO kind of make sense, but require you to extrapolate out a lot of info purposefully left unshown.

It's hard to describe what i want to say, here -- i do think Paul being trans makes sense, 'splains why he & Care "look eeriely similar," you could argue he's just thoroughly blocked out that part of his life enough to have forgotten Care entirely, etc. I like it, & i keep it as i also say "Yeah, it's that & the universes theory." It's not two switches that demand you can only flip on one of them -- you can have both. You can have neither. Do whatever

#em.txt #petscop #i think my big thing is just that. I don't think it was intended #& it is not my job as a queer person to sweep up crumbs from under the rug for proof that is not there #if a creator wished to create a trans character i would enjoy if they would say as such. but mr. petscop has not said as such #& while i love the theory. if i see one more mfer say 'this is OBVIOUSLY canon & if u say otherwise ur LYING' #or 'omg ppl gotta make up crazy theories before they believe a queer story is queer 🙄' i will bite you. #i understand you are used to no queer rep so you take these scraps of dust as truth. #but do not mock people that don't agree with the plate of nothing you're serving. #discourse #yeah i think I'm being petty enough to deserve this tag. i am sorry for being mean #paul transgender is inherently based but u r stretching as much as me #I don't think the universe theory is canon or intended. I don't think there is an answer to petscop #i think it just exists & doesn't matter what it was abf #the plot of it is chasing windmills & ending up nowhere forever & ever to waste your time & be miserable #why do we want a conclusive answer from that? the explanation of petscop is this: #idk wtf was going on here. but i sure am glad Paul got tf outta there

[kickassfu]

what if?

and i mean what if

i just got my ass out of the chair

got dressed

put the clothes out to dry outside

and did something?

what if?

huh?

what if

#why does this seem like a poem? LOL #and i need to got to my 'sister's' place to take care of her dog after lunch #because she has to go to work and the dog is a ball full of anxiety and can't be alone for too long #so i should try to get something done around the house before i go #and the longer i take to put the clothes outside the more i'm wasting time and then the clothes won't dry properly #why am i like this #why aren't the meds a fix all #why can't i just do things #why must i hate myself like this lol #i'm just bitching dont worry #i'm going to get my ass up right now #ig i just needed to say it to do it #i'm breathing i'm doing it #cool #mine #ig i'll tag it as one of my poems hahaha #might as well make something out of nothing #my poems

[ell-vellan]

Vibes Only Tag Game

Insert a photo that you already have in your gallery that best describes you. saw this in the "tag game" tag

@midnight-coffee94 tagged me and thank youu, I have other tags I need to also get to but this one was easy hahah

Tagging @thegoblinwitchqueen @not-so-dead-fandoms @shretl @thebookworm0001 @rhonuscorner

#tag game #i use up all my words when writing #at all other times i am kevin from the office #why waste time say lot word when few word do trick

[orbmanson7]

:(

Very bad grade in therapy today

#thought i could make progress this year and yet here i am having done jack shit by now #what has even been the point #i just wanted to do something today that didnt feel awful like try to encourage people to watch a show or play a game #and now im just right back to Why do i bother staying alive? im never going to make any progress #and even if i do I'm going to just be worthless the whole time and waste precious resources others could be using #oh yes just try saying a nice thing to yourself for once! yeah sure that will help when i cant do anything worth a damn #i want to help people but i have no skillsets and no money to further my education and teaching myself gets me right where i already am! #continuing like this is like spitting in the face of anyone who is actually out there pursuing their dreams and thats not fair to them #they put in all that hard work and im over here being a whiny ass bitch bc i want so badly to do better and learn more #but the only thing holding me back is that im a dumbass who cant do anything right and no one will ever think differently #why am i trying to make myself something i can never be? what is goddamn point if its just a waste of everyones time and effort #i just... it feels like the least i can do is just stop taking up space #free up some oxygen for someone who really needs it and shelter for someone who truly deserves it #i shouldnt even have these things and yet i complain about how much gas i have to pay to commute to my jobs #like such an asshole #and i said i so much in these tags bc im such a selfish jerk who coearly doesnt care enough nor has a worthwhile vocabulary to say otherwise #theres just no fucking point to any of this #... #its cold today #might be a good day to do my favorite plan #actually yeah fuck it im gonna go #hope you all stay kind to yourselves and enjoy your 2024 #you absolutely deserve it and everything you can get out of it #keep being amazing yall #see you on the flip side or whatever #orbs thought bubbles

[adustoflove]

My parents did NOT like me 💀

#personal #vent #and now I will stop oversharing #but its so genuinely sad to me #even my grandma asked why my parents didn't appreciate how good they have it because we're like.. #pretty decent kids. we don't ask for a lot. we don't expect a lot. we try our best where and when we can #we did well in school and BOTH have ambitions in life that were completely ruined and wasted from a childhood #of living in a broken home and being verbally beat down into a grain of salt and made to feel like nothing #no wonder I always view things as a competition half the time because my own DAD saw me as a competitor against him #why are you calling your daughter a dumb bitch and telling her you had way more friends and fun than I did #like?? okay??? #are you having fun now? acting like I'm not your own flesh and blood and instead someone to be better than? #....... #I ranted in the tags iMSORRY #or no. i am not. view my uncomfortable oversharing and pain

[risingsunresistance]

my inbox is piling up :(

#i've been tagged in 2 tag games and i have Many Asks across my blogs #but when i get back from work my social battery is in the negatives (except for my irls you guys are special) #so i just keep like. ignoring them- #BUT THEN ON MY DAYS OFF IM USUALLY HANGING OUT WITH PEOPLE #SO I JUST NEVER GET TO IT ;-; #why cant i verbally answer and ask and it just gets beamed to the person who sent it #anyways im going to bed i have a 10am tomorrow but it'll probably be very easy #today was very chill it was so nice even tho it was a really early shift for me #weekend good... i would not mind more weekend work #im also gonna have so much money i cant wait to buy this desktop #my laptop is struggling a bit more i dont know how much time it has left in it kjghdfk #chat #should i spend my paychecks on a desktop? ehh probably not it feels wasteful #but what in the world am i gonna do without a laptop #not even in a chronically online way i just have most of my stuff stored on here #my phone is kinda useless besides being portable #so it feels a bit like a necessity tbh... #anyways i just wanted to ramble bc i havent done much today. going to bed (probably) gn o/

[badolmen]

Babygirl I have. So much to do this week send me spoons.

#ra speaks #personal #grad school #gonna make that abstract I’ve known about since before last Wednesday tomorrow morning (when it’s due) #gonna finish my stats homework and the quiz some point tomorrow afternoon (and turn the hw in/double check my quiz answers before class) #gonna read 4 chapters of a book on scientific writing before class Wednesday #gonna check my DUR1 1.1.1 isolates and make sure they’re growing so I can do inocs thurs/friday #gonna remember to pick up my new snowshoes and ink and whatever else the mailroom has been emailing me about #gonna have a friend over for the weekend and be super good at socializing and human-ing #I am. so tired. and I can’t even waste time on tumblr comfortably bc of the UI update! that’s why my posting has been isolated to my queue! #mostly. sometimes I live reblog/queue but 97% of my likes go to drafts. where I won’t tag or edit them until the UI changes

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends

#i think im just going to talk in the tags for a moment. got a lot on my mind #for starters. the fnaf movie comes out soon. really looking forward to that. think its gonna be awesome and amazing and I'm super excited!!! #secondly. waiting on funds so i can buy that mask i saw the other day and some Halloween candy from Walmart #i . want to do little goodie bags for the kids in my building. but im too scared to go up to their parents and ask candy preference and #allergy concerns. so. idk. maybe I'll just save it. I think it's a cute concept but it makes me feel like my mother. #she loved to do little gift things for people. but it was always people that didn't like her. i don't want to be that way #i know my value. i know my time and energy means something. i don't want to waste it on people who don't give a shit. ya know? #not saying the kids are those kinds of people. not what i mean. but just as an overall thing. i don't like being like her. #...yeah. i dunno. you get raised by one person your whole life. you pick up some of their characteristics #i can't sob without sounding like her. safe to say i am a little emotionally constipated. so i seek other means to relieve that feeling. #like yesterday when i threw up. i played it off like that was a blunder on my body. but i know what i did. #hey. at least it's not the other method. right?. .. yeah. okay. i know. not great either #but it hurts. and I'm so fucking sick and tired of crying over her. genuinely. it's exhausting crying all the time #but that's the only way I can get those emotions out #I've tried to do the counseling thing. but other things made that impossible. then i moved. #and i tried the grief thing but instead i just got a talking buddy? he helps me get out of the house yeah. #but we dont talk about her #... i dunno. I'm just here. #guess i waited long enough. now you get a mini secret. every time i make an i love my friends post. I'm reminding myself why I'm still going #I'm usually sitting around somewhere in my apartment (desk couch bed) crying. alone. thinking about you guys. #so uh. thank you. #i love you guys so much. and i don't know where I'd be without you #probably dead. #💖 #vent

[nivq87]

related thoughts:

my butterfly chasing has me tinkering with my tumblr blog page, and it's a wip atm (the html needs a LOT of adjusting atm) and my about and tags pagers are pretty out of date. so, I'll try and work on that over the week I suppose

my complaining tag hasn't been used in a few years. at first I thought I was just trying harder to keep the negativity off my blog (which I also do) but then I was actually reading some of the posts and. oh gosh. those were some Big emotions I was dealing with. Glad to not be That guy anymore. Your 20's really just kinda suck, but since you're out of your teens it feels unfair because you should be Beyond such angst. but. nope. apparently it'll keep going a bit longer. Fascinating collection of posts over the years as a retrospective.

#ftr the complaining tag isn't and won't ever be listed in the tags page #while I'm working on these I might also go back and make them all nonrebloggable too #probably my covid whining could've gone in the complaining tag #but like it sucked but the timing of it was so atrociously bad I kinda also came back around to being funny. #one of those posts that i was looking through from when I was... I guess about 24ish? #idr what the context was but I was apparently mad at my family to the point of being invited to leave #and i elected to sit there visibly and uncomfortably seething so that my upset could be witnessed. #I just DO NOT have that kinda energy anymore lmao? #which is a relief #I don't think I'll ever Like my birthday but maybe now that I don't have the energy for such Big Feelings #about shit that doesn't actually matter. that maybe my birthday introspection can keep this kinda tone going forward. #I don't mind this kind of thing. it's interesting for sure to look back #but so many of my birthdays in my 20's I just was so depressed and those feelings of like #wasting my life away and not doing EVERYTHING #getting another ticker on my age tally right when the calendar really compounded that feeling #so many of those birthdays were spent on crying jags. like. covid. but I didn't cry this year! woo! and I just teared up slightly last year #growth! I hope! #why am i rambling

[deus-ex-mona]

it started as a simple song-inspired fic, how did it end up like this

#aka i finally remembered why i don’t write fics anymore: the musical #man i just had a really weird day. first i woke up from this messed up dream #in which i filled a half-full bottle of perfume with water and then sprayed said concoction into my mouth when i got thirsty #i remember that ​the perfume-water tasted fragrant though. like the taste spreads through your entire mouth and around your airways #and then i cleaned my room in a ‘my mind says no but my body says yes’ kinda thing. sadge #i wanted to sleep my holiday away mans…. :((((((( what a waste #oh right the song that inspired this fic was one of my favourite songs from my childhood. and it’s 20 years old this year i think… #though. even though it’s 20 years old. there is somehow???? no proper english tl of it??? like???? lol????? #there are only semi-accurate machine tls s o b s the song deserves better fr #the cg animation in the song’s mv did n o t age well though lmao. still love it though~~~~ #then again. the only reason why it even inspired this fic is bc i misheard the chorus as ‘aizo aizo’ after looping it one too many times #i hate my life i hate everything how did it come to t h i s #i want my holiday back. i shouldn’t have wasted it cleaning my room of all things. sadge… #it is suiyoubi my dudes #added to my personal cringefic compilation #g od how am i still able to find that tag when i have to type out literally every other compilation tag hello??? tagging system??? you ok???

[selfproclaimedunicorn]

Playing Inquisition for the first time (past finding Skyhold) for the first time 9 years after it came out is so fucking wild.

I know, vaguely, what's going on due to the nature of Spoilers Don't Matter After A Few Years/seeking out spoilers bc they help me determine if something is worth my time/general (casual) fandom osmosis...but also it has been years since I looked into anything seriously/people discussed anything in a way that's not at all dissimilar to ASOIAF Fandom Decade Long Wait Brain Worms, so I am just being blindsided by half the information I feel like I already knew at some point (& probably had hidden deep in the recesses of my brain).

#personal #i still take massive umbridge with some story choices #(do not upset the lore/tell me information i have known as The Rules of your setting are secret lies actually! #it makes me feel like i wasted my time) #(but if i don't get bogged down in that before i even get there & ignore that it plays very differently from dao & da2 #i DO have a lot of fun. like i am enjoying myself...my gripes are just waiting to come out though) #(also a few not We Upset The Natural Order story gripes are there too) #(like bioware wanted you to be a human warrior who's a hardcore andrastian so bad in this one it makes them look stupid #they always wamt that imo but it was BLATANT in this one) #(also why is morrigan here? i wanted to be done with Morrigan) #(& the ending technically being hidden behind dlc that i cant access on the only platform i have atm...a lot of the dlc gripes are ea tho) #enough complaining tho im not EXPLICITLY in the tags to gripe #i also need to say that i accidentally made my inquisitor be free marcher!white woman!dorian & thats hilarious #i have not separated them since his personal quest I'm pretty sure that's her emotional support tevinter at this point #misa plays dai

[mildmayfoxe]

so at my job we have wholesale & in-store hand-bound journals & spiral-bound notebooks & sketchbooks, right, and we make those. more specifically, i, PERSONALLY, MYSELF, ONLY ME, make all the hand-bound journals. and i am not paid enough to make them but i shant get into that on this post. suffice to say i make them all myself. ME. and they're available for wholesale purchasing. and i was not consulted before that decision was made. but i shant be getting into that on this post either. but let it be known that last week my boss asked me to go through some 6x8 paper she'd cut & was going to punch for spiral notebooks. asked me two days in a row if i'd taken paper yet. so i finally did; i went through the paper she'd cut and i put my selection aside with other 6x8 paper that i MYSELF had cut, in a place where i had clearly been putting paper for MY use, for the hand-bound journals, many times in the past. imagine my surprise when, today, i went to go retrieve MY PAPER, the paper that i had put aside after being ASKED to do so, and the paper that i personally had cut for this express purpose, that i was going to bring home tonight to start assembling journals, because my boss wants 6 6x8 journals by next week, and i take them home and work on them in my own time on top of my regular work hours, and wow! what's this?? all the 6x8 paper that had been put aside??? it's GONE???? say it's not so!!! because apparently MY BOSS, LESS THAN A WEEK AFTER MAKING SURE I HAD EXTRA PAPER, FOUND SOME PAPER IN A PLACE WHERE I PUT PAPER, AND WAS LIKE "WOW! WHATS THIS! UNPUNCHED PAPER! BETTER PUNCH IT!! I HAVEN'T ASKED ANYONE RECENTLY TO PUT PAPER ASIDE FOR ANY REASON THAT I CAN RECALL!! THERE'S NO REASON THAT ALL THIS PAPER WOULD HAVE BEEN PUT IN THIS LOCATION, UNPUNCHED, THAT I CAN THINK OF!!! NOTHING IS COMING TO MIND!!"

#FUCK this. ABSOLUTE fucking waste of my time. i AM going to talk to her about this tomorrow. what a fucking WASTE OF TIME!!! #now i have to CUT ALL THAT PAPER AGAIN; i had a huge stack of personally selected & cut paper for these fucking journals #i'd gone through & cut some pocket folders so the covers could have pockets AND THEY ALL GOT PUNCHED ON THE WRONG SIDE SO THE POCKETS ARE #FUCKING USELESS!! COOL #like you expect me to make you wholesale HANDBOUND JOURNALS and pay me like DIRT for them and then TAKE ALL MY PAPER???? #i mentioned this to my coworker and she was like 'this is why i hide everything important on my desk' #WE SHOULDNT HAVE TO HIDE THINGS!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID!!! #i also CANT leave anything at my desk because it's too central & all my shit DISAPPEARS CONSTANTLY #FUCK !!! #ok. i'm not going into this any further. i could keep screaming about job shit in these tags but i will spare u all. christ #work tag #chatpost #complaint tag

[findstenicht]

waging psychological warfare against my lecturer for no reason by asking for feedback on whats potentially the worst paper ive ever written

#nina.txt #i feel like this post is Cringe but ive been writing and editing and rewriting this gd paper for basically 12 hours straight #so my brain is fried and also who cares. this is my diary #anyway. how is it possible that ive never had this much fun writing a paper when the end result is so.??? idk it *could* be good but i dont #think it is #why did i decide that this paper in particular should be the first time in my academic career where i take up a lecturer on their offer to #provide feedback #also hello why does tumblr suggest this tag in particular to me -> #why did the nhs waste three mins asking my 74 year old dad if he was pregnant? #who wrote that what is it doing in my recommend tags i am losing my mind

[emdotcom]

I think it is my moral obligation to this world to fill it with good, terrible, unmarketable ideas.

I've personally thrown away hours trying to follow trends, making art I was proud of but for things I haven't cared about. I've also created things I love deeply. Regardless of effort or work, whether your art gets seen or popular is a crapshoot -- you can chase current content all you want & come away with nothing, having only wasted your time. You & I don't get to decide whether the things we make end up in the starlight, not in the slightest.

The only thing you get to decide, here, is whether you make something you enjoy making or not. Why make something that you don't care about or have any fun doing, just to gamble on whether it'll get notes?

Anyhow. I'mma make unlikeable art on purpose.

#gale chatter #it's been like a long time since i made one of these weird almost-encouraging posts where i wax poetic about life & art & creation & etc #this was specifically spurred by a family member who i love very much #who‚ knowing i am surrounded by big ideas i never make wanted to encourage me to pursue one of them #but only if that idea was marketable or palateable. not any weird or indulgent ideas. #so they basically gave me homework under the guise i would create something i could put in a portfolio #something i never wanted & still refuse to do for very hard to communicate reasons #anyhow. boy howdy is he about to find out it is impossible to get me to do anything i do not expressly want to do #100% okay to rb btw ignore these tags #yeah maybe from outside perspective it looks like i haven't pursued trends too hard -- that's somewhat true #but i stg i have & on rare occasion it goes decently well & other times nobody sees it #so why do i waste my time creating that which i do not love? i would rather waste time on something fun