#why not procrastinate my work with some shit post art
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Hey! I know you get tons of asks daily, but I saw you reblogged my old anon post lol (this one > https://at.tumblr.com/cinefairy/long-post-ahead-the-4d-is-the-only-real-reality/us69phf7wzjv idk how to link it bc I’m on mobile) but anyways I just wanted to update everyone to say that I’m doing so very well. Back then I was so stressed and idk I TRULY didn’t understand the law and I was still looking outward and I was stilll reading Neville and over consuming and not actually being a doer but I just wanted to update that all of those things are behind me and that I’ve manifested a lot of things now so I’ll list the ones I’m comfortable with sharing
1. I got into my dream college, I was orginally planning to go to an Ivy League but I realized I truly never really desired that and I just wanted to get in for the aesthetics and for my ego but deep down I wanted to go to this local small private art school near me and I got in! And I’m a top student as well. My teachers love me, recently one of my teachers used my work as an example for others and gave me extra credit!
2. Everything in my life has gotten so much easier. I’ve realized that I am the cause and if I am the cause of the bad things then I can also be the cause of the good things so I completely got rid of my inner critic and my fears/anxieties/worries and I am no longer surviving but thriving!
3. Making friends has gotten so much easier and my relationship with myself and my inner man it’s so amazing. Like yesterday I was shopping for perfume for myself with family bc it was my birthday and one of the workers complimented my vintage jeans and she was like she really loved vintage jeans and she told me all these places where she gets her vintage stock and I told my mom and she’s taking me and a friend to the places next week!
4. I manifested two of my ideal lululemon define jackets and flares! I asked my brother for it for my birthday and I really only asked for the jacket but I told myself he’s gonna give me two sets. So when my birthday came around he gave me a lululemon gift card and I opened it and it was for $400! Which I was able to order the two jackets and flares.
5 . I can easily play whatever I want on my guitar. I used to procrastinate on my guitar bc I thought it would be sooooo hard and that I would never be like my inspirations like Eddie Van Halen and Slash but once I went back to my roots and started back living in my imagination (NOT in a daydreaming way, wishing I could be just like them NO I assumed I was wayyy better than them ALL) it all became so much easier
6. I have fully accepted the laws of the law of assumption yk the basics like your imagination/inner man is the cause of it all and all of that crap (thanks to Edward art btw). I think that’s really a crucial reason why I think I really was “stagnant” with manifesting and just running in circles I truly didn’t understand the law. All I was doing was “trying” to get something and I was going 3D > 4D and I was affirming on loop just doing shit.
7. I finally got my learners permit lolz. I took my test and only missed two questions out of 40.
8. I finally realized what I truly desired. Now this one is so crucial because I remember reading on here about how some people are imagining things they truly don’t want and then Edward art said that you have to imagine what YOU want and not what OTHERS want from you and I did some deep diving and I realized I didn’t want what I wanted like I didn’t want fame, or fortune, or for people to be obsessed with me, or a baddie lifestyle, or men to flock at me, or a hypergamy lifestyle. I realized that was just who and I was using those lifestyles to fulfill the ego and I really view the ego as a bottomless pit like it’s only gonna get bigger and bigger until you just ignore it or pop it yourself. Like I didn’t want all of this designer crap like all I wanted was a life like the movie “dazed and confused” where I party til I drop on the weekends and I study like Rory Gilmore on the weekdays and I have this nice 70s-early 2000s rock/metal sound track vibe (I can’t explain this part but I just made a playlist and imagined my scenarios to it) and my own unique vintage style and I got that. 🤷🏾♀️ like if you desire something “odd” or “wonky” or “not so popular” like that then GO for it. No one is stopping you but self.
But now my inner man is fulfilled and if I desire something no matter how small or large I fulfill it instantly! Bc that’s what I’m here for anyways 🤷🏾♀️
Anyways I believe that’s really all I want to reveal. The law is really really easy peasy like when people say that they 100% mean it. Like no you don’t have to affirm 500 times, no you don’t have to mediate 5 times a day. All of it is coming FROM you not AT you. You are the cause of it all. Edward Art really helped me open my eyes more than they already were opened. He’s really the only law of assumption source I really trust other than Neville and a couple of blogs on here. But if you are still “stuck” (which you never are), I would 100% check out Edward art on YouTube and Reddit bc his wisdom freed me from a lot of things that I didn’t even consciously know I was doing. But you HAVE to apply it. You can’t be a hearer only. You have to apply the wisdom.
“The only real illusion is your disbelief that you don’t have your desires”
this is so amazing anon. im so happy for you. and i relate to you so much on the last point, go for the desires YOU TRULY DEEPLY WANT. do not alter your desires based on what other people popularise.
glad you’re living the life you want, you deserve it, im proud and you’re incredibly smart and inspiring ❤️
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Episode four! I missed the bad kid’s insanity so much <3
Episode four of every season they’re shy!
In space no one can feel you dying 💀
“What’s the drinking age?” “You guys have murdered SO many people”
Kalinaaaaaa
Hiiiii
Oh she’s an actual cat now!
She/they pronouns for Cassandra are back!
Kristen’s middle name is on her character page now!! Kristen Chilis Applebees!
Catchin me on my left foot hereeee gato.
Ooh they’ve got other offers
Why would you SAY that
That definitely circumvents the truth in a cool way……
When your only two followers fight :(
Just stop saying it pleaseeeeee
Say a n y t h i n g other than that
Hot.
Oooh the mall!
Why would you SAY THAT
So many of them have stars in their hats! And I have stars in my body! :D
I love Cassandra so so much
Aaaaaaaaaaaaa Kristen when you’re in the dark she’s there holding your hand. She gives you forehead kisses
KVX BANK????
Oh well that makes it all okay then!
:(
Oh my GOD
What the fuck Bill
CHUNGLEDOWNNNNN
God the fucking. D20 directly reflecting my life experiences.
Simeon du Vayne the new lunch lad. What’s your vibe
Ooh third eye is sick
I love that they’re never gonna say her name right
Scabby!!
Gorthalax! Hi!
On my first day of high school this guy yelled fresh meat at all of us and he continued to be a pain in the ass all fucking year
Fig. Fig no.
It does seem like the rat grinders might be direct foils to the bad kids. Let’s see how this goes!
Kipperlilly did not come at y’all nearly as hard as Kristen went aggro at her
Is it the sack of rats trick?? Is that where they got the name???
IT IS THE SACK OF RATS TRICK. FUCK.
I love how pissed they all are about this
THIS is what riz has never been more mad about ❤️
Girlie!!
The bad guy this season is just xp leveling 😭😭
God how high level are they????
Kindlesnap Whatsherface
Dome!!!!
He’s just a guy!
Please please nat 20
Crushing. That’s crushing
I love ripped jeans gorgug <3
That is SO much
Corsica Jones is HOT
Kristen and Riz dynamic duoooo
Riz Gukgak character of all time
FIG
Archaeologist Siobhan Thompson!!
Really emphasizing the ‘sorry what’ thing that post was talking about
Fig barbarian level!
That energy is more intense than anything fig tried to imply from goldenhoard
If the cig figs break up I’m gonna be fucking devastated
Oh yeah the junior year eggs. Okay.
Can I have some of your girlfriend’s hair? I need it for school.
I love that we all called the kill mum idea
She really should get paid for the elven oracle shit
Inclusive kinggggg
Ooh maybe I’ll wear my owlbears sweatshirt tomorrow. (Best holiday gift I got!
Ah the epic highs and lows of high school bloodrush
Max Durden!! He’s so cute.
Love that for him tbh
THIRTY FIVE
Who is this motherfucker
What the fuck are you doing
(Zac wheezing in excruciating pain)
Don’t align yourself with her Riz
What!
I love that everyone is going so aggro on the buttcrushers. Absolutely demolish their asses.
“You don’t have to call me coach” oh OUCH
Bucky Applebees!!!
Love the paladin repppppp
Oh kiddo
Oh Kiddo :(
I’m not trying to be cool I’m trying to be president
RATGRINDERS CLERIC IS HELIOIC
The BUTTFUCKERS? ALLY.
She’s had a lot of jobs but not that many of them were… legal.
Fabian’s so lonely :(
Bad kids study party!!! Real and confirmed!!!!
Aww I was so excited for Adaine to work at Basrar’s but the mall is fun too
Hmm. Sketchy!
German shepherd mode <3
Emily and Ally are having SO much fun with this
The procrastination is so fucking real
I’ve deeply missed you
WHAT what does that mean why is this the case
Oooh okay I’m really getting the sense that that blue mall battle set is the Synod
Sunglass kiosk. Palm tree. Mall things.
Ooh I just noticed seacaster manor in the background of the dome art
Strudel dimension, don’t put your hand in it. Don’t! Put your hand in it!
We don’t know if the strudel is infinite it just hasn’t ended yet.
I’m obsessed with this guy.
I’m so obsesssed
Mazey Phaedraaaaa
Oh my godddddddd
“I’m from hell” girly I love you to death but you are from downtown elmville
Ooohohohohoh she’s good at this
I love dnd mechanics manifesting as real elements of life within game
Awww
I don’t know as much about warlocks as I should really do this is great
That’s SO SICK I LOVE HER
Ragh!!!
Babe you cannot make student government cool. You just can’t.
Oooooof
What is this energy
Crab kinggggggg
We’re so fucking back
I’m Christian Delnore and I have Children!
OOP
Kristen’s energy is SO wild this year. She said she was trying to move past chaos and then came out the gate with This energy
Tracker’s dating the fucking Princess. Of course.
Messy high school relationships :)
That’s how it goes!
The intense side eye I am giving the whole situation
Kristen do you wanna fuck Kalina
What do you want with the president??? (To say hi)
Hell yeah gsa member Kristen Applebees
Torek with the button press!
I love them SO much I missed the bad kids SO FUCKING MUCH
Ohhhh this is the backstory of that button from the merch drop ok
They’re so unhinged
WHAT ARE YOU ON ABOUT
Torek Railgrinder Theater Kid!!
Oh noooo
WHAT
Oh fuck
Why would you volunteer ANY information
She was a fucking turncoatttt
The name keeps getting further and further from anything
Stone cold
So excited for the party
HOT
SHE’S SO HOT
Oh god
Zero separation of church and state
Oh FUCK
What oh no oh god please no
AAAAAAAAAAA okay I guess next weeks is the mall fight!
I am so scared and so excited.
It’s our time! It’s our year! It’s all gonna be okay!
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I posted 4,396 times in 2022
958 posts created (22%)
3,438 posts reblogged (78%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@the-starryknight
@sitp-recs
@stavromulabetaaa
@lqtraintracks
@ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm
I tagged 3,753 of my posts in 2022
Only 15% of my posts had no tags
#asks - 561 posts
#anon - 336 posts
#drarry recs - 231 posts
#drarry art - 205 posts
#fave - 151 posts
#drarry - 121 posts
#to read - 108 posts
#ask game - 93 posts
#drarrymicrofic - 91 posts
#signal boost - 76 posts
Longest Tag: 116 characters
#interacting with adults at that age could have gone terribly wrong but i was lucky to find good people along the way
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Hey! Can you please rec some fics by authors with the most unique, beautiful writing style? I’ve read some works of fandom legends like tepre, aideomai etc, maybe there are writers that are not so widely known but very talented nonetheless? Thanks 💓
Hi anon! We are blessed with so many talented authors in this fandom it blows my mind every time I think about it. As someone who knows very little about writing styles, my opinion here is 100% subjective and largely influenced by the fics that came to my mind when I read your ask. I’ll linked them below, together with the authors’ AO3. Enjoy!
@blamebrampton | AO3 | My rec
@corvuscrowned | AO3 | My rec
@drarrytrash | AO3 | My rec
Frayach | AO3 | My rec
@graymatters | AO3 | My rec
@harryromper | AO3 | My rec
@jackvbriefs | AO3 | My rec
Omi_Ohmy | AO3 | My rec
@potteresque-ire | AO3 | My rec
RurouniHime | AO3 | My rec
Seefin (orphaned their works) | My rec
@shealwaysreads | AO3 | My rec
@tackytigerfic | AO3 | My rec
@the-starryknight | AO3 | My rec
thistle_verse | AO3 | My rec
@vivantesopales | AO3 | My rec
And whoever wrote Emerald in the Sky - are you on this list MA???? Let me love you!
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#4
shit-recs
Fill this out pls
287 notes - Posted January 30, 2022
#3
Did you see the update from GallaPlacidia (her email newsletter) that she’s deleting all her fics and podfics 10/1? I mostly most Good Omens stuff so I doubt my followers have read her stuff. I just want to pass along the word so people could download if they want to save her works. They’re all so good! I’ve always loved your posts and you seem to have a wide audience so figured I’d reach out to you, if you’d like to share the info. And if anyone has suggestions on how to save her podfics that would be helpful! I listen to them on my phone and have no idea how to download them. 🤪
Oh no, that’s heartbreaking news! I don’t receive her newsletter so I had no idea. How sad, I know lots of people love her work and will be truly devastated 😰😰 thanks for reaching out and sharing this, I am definitely saving my favourites and I hope everyone has the chance to do the same. Oh and good question about podfics, I’ve never downloaded any either but maybe my followers have some tips to share? Thanks again for this message, I think I’ll pin it for the time being so more people can see the news. Have a lovely week!
GallaPlacidia’s AO3
The GallaPod
@geesenoises has kindly put an archive of GP’s works together, you can access it HERE!
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#2
Happy New Year! Surprising absolutely no one I wasn’t able to finish this in time for NYE, oops!(And that’s why ‘stop procrastinating’ is on my resolutions list 😂). This post probably has tons of typos still so please bear with me, I promise I’ll be back later to correct them!
Simply put, 2021 was a train wreck - I struggled in many ways and decided to take a step back in some regards, including fandom. It’s been a bumpy road but despite the low amount of recs this blog has survived and there were definitely some things to celebrate, too! Once I stopped making reclists I got more free time to read, and I’m proud to say I’ve read a lot. I haven’t felt very confident about my reccing lately, but as I went through my bookmarks and noticed how much I read last year I thought why not spread a bit of love for these works?
Without further ado here are my favorite reads of 2021 featuring Drarry, rare pairs and some gorgeous artworks. This is not intended to be an ultimate list - the works below were chosen solely based on my personal preferences and they reflect very little of what’s been made last year, and what a year it was! Between brilliant microfics, Tumblr drabbles, top notch quality fests, there’s some amazing and varied content to be explored all around. I hope you guys enjoy these works as much as I did, and don’t forget to leave kudos and comments!
The Drarry fandom gave me so much last year; it was there to mend my heart and help me bounce back when I needed it the most. Even the smaller things can make a huge difference in the big picture, and I’m immensely grateful to those who have somehow been a part of it. I wanna give a special shoutout to my friends for your endless love, patience and support. Here’s to a gentler 2022! See you soon ❤️
Drarry:
Phoenix in the Fire by @fw00shy (Explicit, 1.4k)
Their first time was an accident. "Sex pollen," Draco claims, though everyone knows it was too much Ogden's after Puddlemere beat the Tornados 240-230.
This is truly a masterclass in short form, I think I hadn’t read a short fic so gorgeously written since Still Life. Fwoosh took my breath away with the precise choice of words, the subtle way the scenes blend into each other, the sinful smut full of sharp want, the smooth pacing and fabulous dialogue including delicious dirty talk and beautiful punchlines.
The Long Fall by @tackytigerfic (Mature, 3.6k)
It's supposed to be a simple house renovation, and maybe it's just the paint fumes, but Harry is feeling dizzy around Draco Malfoy. And what's the real meaning of family, anyway?
One of my favorite comfort fics, I’ve reread this more times than I can count. Tacky captures romance, wistful pining and the sense of belonging like no one else, I was moved by this devastatingly realistic portrait of married and parenting life. Sensitive, brutally honest and so very tender, this story hits right in the feels - it’s a pleasure to follow every exciting step of this big adventure Harry and Draco get to share.
Two Starts, One Finish by @lqtraintracks (Explicit, 5.4k)
I feel him before I see him. Nobody stands this close to me while I’m playing, and I’m about to turn to tell him so when he says, “You’re a tough bloke to track down,” and then leans against my baby grand.
When I first read this fic I did it three times in a row. I was so charmed and moved by this particular brand of angst: the gentle wistfulness of Draco’s voice, his yearning for Harry, their quiet domestic life and their intense chemistry made my heart burst. Lqt develops their emotional arc through the passage of time with precision and heart - nothing feels rushed, dragged or unimportant. One of the most romantic fics I’ve read this year.
Inside These Walls by @jackvbriefs (Mature, 5.6k)
The year before Draco moves to Los Angeles, Harry Potter disappears. Draco doesn't mean to find him. He's just doing his job.
This fic has one of my favorite premises ever, so creative! The roller blade magic blew my mind and I was obsessed with the intriguing atmosphere and the tension build up. Delicious eerie vibes mixed with an unusual setting, a dark mystery surrounding Harry’s job and his oh so casual sexy display of power, yes please. This suspense is a feast to the senses and will leave you at the edge of your seat until the last line, craving for more.
heavy by @onbeinganangel (Explicit, 6.5k)
Potter isn’t nearly as slick as he thinks he is, is all Draco can think about through the alcohol haze and the dizzying atmosphere of the club. He really, really isn’t. Potter is across the club, surrounded by his usual entourage, looking at Draco when he thinks Draco isn’t looking back.
There’s something to be said about a BDSM fic featured on this reclist as I rarely read this kind of smut. Trust Mari to turn my world upside down with one of the most touching love stories ever. This conflicted Draco and his devotion to Harry -subverting the D/s dynamics we usually see- caught me off guard and made my heart ache for this hot, tenderly vulnerable and unapologetic kink exploration delight.
The Other Cottage by @corvuscrowned (Teen and Up, 6.5k)
If Pansy wasn’t shagging Ginny Weasley, Draco would never have been dragged to Luna’s ridiculous Halloween party in the first place - meaning he wouldn't be sitting in the corner of the room with Harry Potter all night.
One word: chills! Yet another mind blowing suspense, this fic gave me palpitations - the smooth and clever narrative builds a disturbing atmosphere, the creepy sense of unease looming over our heads while watching a tender romance unfold. Crazy, right? Such skill! Really creative concept and a jaw dropping ending, this one is a banger.
A Grey Shrike Alighted upon my Wishbone by @opalesqueopioid (Explicit, 7k)
Cursed to forget everything about Harry Potter, Draco has to kill if he wants a cure.
Gosh, this stunning fic wrecked my heart and soul with its quiet devastation, gorgeous prose and brilliant execution of a quite unique suds concept. Draco’s sharp personality took my breath away and I was equally undone by Harry’s sweet longing, the back-and-forth banter and the raw, inevitable heartbreak. Here’s a poignant portrait of a collapsing relationship, the best pick for angsty days.
Merlin's Kitchen by @writcraft (Explicit, 12k)
Merlin’s Kitchen is a shit nightclub but having sex with Harry Potter might improve things.
Everything by Writcraft has the heart kick factor for me, as if especially crafted to meet my tastes. This sexy clubbing fic has a delicious lively pub atmosphere that makes you feel like you’re right there, watching a carefree and smooth Harry charm Draco with his openness, and be charmed back. Fabulous characterization and gorgeous dialogue, with a mature tone that gives it a thrilling sense of intimacy and promise.
The Virtues of Hygiene and the Binary of Labour by @piarelei (Explicit, 14k)
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My #1 post of 2022
It’s fascinating how some people dismiss smut as something frivolous, vain, lacking substance and therefore value. To be clear, sex is not (and should never be seen as) mandatory in fic, and I feel heartbroken that some authors think they need to include it in order to have their work read or appreciated.
But in my opinion PWPs can be just as deep, nuanced, evocative and narratively powerful as any other story. In fact, they make for excellent character studies and can get you inside a character’s mind in a very particular way. And smut scenes in long fics can be just as useful as narrative tools, often translating dynamics too complex to be explored otherwise. Plus, they’re great for sad horny nights 😔🙌
1,849 notes - Posted March 31, 2022
Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →
#hahaha 4 is my forever fave#little bitch form ✌🏼#not that many recs this year I guess#I’ll do better next year#my 2022 tumblr year in review
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ok I don’t know how long my caption is allowed to be, but here it is! The promised fan art! I REFUSE to be self-deprecating here because I actually do like these a lot. Basically, I read this amazing story called ACP- The Agency for Cryptids and the Paranormal, (https://whumper-in-training.tumblr.com/post/673130936584568832/acp-the-agency-for-cryptids-and-the) and I totally fell in love with the character of Zak. This STORY MAN! It broke my heart in half and then lovingly stitched it back together, like multiple times, and I think that’s the ESSENCE of a good story. So yeah I made fan art.
I was in the car on a fairly long trip, and I had my sketchbook, and I was like, hey, what should I draw? Fuck it i’m drawing Zak. So I drew Zak. I originally didn’t want to deal with how the hoodie would work with all the weird perspective and just gave him a tee-shirt, but then I yelled at myself: “COWARD! Draw the hoodie!” And so I erased the shirt and drew a hoodie. I figure that the hoodie in the picrew isn’t how the hoodie actually looks, it’s just the closest approximation you can get with a picrew, so I put an alien on it because yes. While I was drawing it though, I hit a fork in the road with the pose. I was going to draw him with his hand clawed and the other on his hip, but then I was like “what if he had his arm up instead?” And so I made two versions.
I drew werewolf Zak hell ya! I spent FOREVER inking this. Okay if was only like two hours, but inking is kinda boring and thus I procrastinated, and so it took me like three days to ink it. It took much longer than usual Bc I went over each line a bunch of times to make it look like fur/hair/eyelashes, but you can’t even see it Bc the colors are so dark! Argh! Usually color more than doubles the amount of time I spend on a drawing, but this time I just quickly threw down some color in only like an hour! I was so sure I was gonna say, “it’ll be quick” and then spend another six hours on it, because that ALWAYS happens, but it actually WAS quick so yes.
Last but not least, I drew the gang all together! Technically I drew this second, and colored it first, but you get the idea! This drawing filled me with all the happy chemicals the whole time making it y’all. After several hours it kinda wore off, but every time I zoomed in on Max’s face I got a fresh rush of serotonin. I decided to draw that one scene where they all fall asleep together because it was SO WHOLESOME! I wanted to draw the whole group, but didn’t know what kind of context to do. Then I scrolled through the blog, found that scene, reread it and was like “yes! That’s the one!”. And so I drew it. I did have to look up “do Muslim women sleep with their hijabs on?” And i’m glad it was a google search and not asking a real person Bc the response I found was basically: “No, you dumbass! Why would we do that? That makes no sense-” and several sarcastic responses to the same question on Quora and i’m just like: “:’D” I did look into it a bit more and realized the hijab has to stay on Bc while they are like family, they’re still not her mahrams. Also I figure that if I was gonna post this, even if she was alone, drawing her without it would kinda be violating her privacy yk? Like i’m exposing her for the whole internet to see. Kinda like drawing her naked would be. Anyway, I love this drawing, hope you love it too!
Ok, still keep your expectations to an army crawl because I never finish stuff, but fanfic is in the works. I am probably gonna wait until it’s finished to post it though, that way I can edit things and change earlier chapters. Also! I’m a total novice writer! So it’s probably crap! I don’t care! I have this policy that I would always rather make the cringe fanfic, wear the ugly clothing, make the stupid drawings, the cursed memes, shout all the embarrassing shit, do all the dumb things that teenagers do (as long as it’s not harmful or permanent obvi), sing all the bad karaoke, embarrass myself a TON, etc, and regret it later, cringe so hard in ten years, than to never let myself do anything, constantly hold back, never reach my full potential and regret THAT in ten years. Thank you for listening to my TED Talk. I still might very well be too shy to post it though ahhhhh. For some reason i’m WAY more shy online than irl, that makes no sense. Like I can walk up to a random person and talk to them no prob, but I get super anxious going in someone’s ask box. Maybe Bc I can’t read their body and face language like that? Idk. Like I said, just don’t expect anything.
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BANG
Started watching Inuyashiki, enjoying it a ton. I'm weak to pretty boys...even if those pretty boys would probably just murder me
This blog used to be my thoughts on art and to track progress, so just that boring shit under the cut. Otherwise, I'll finish Inuyashiki post Christmas (hopefully)!
Alright, this is half beating myself up, and highlighting issues that pretty much cripple my art ability.
I'm a procrastinator and a huge overthinker. That goes for things I want to do. I had originally wanted to pair Hiro with another character, but I got so frustrated whilst drawing that I basically gave up halfway through.
This comes down to me refusing to do a warm up sketch. I don't know why, but everytime I go to draw, I think about how I have to spend 20 minutes warming up, and then in the end I just don't draw. It's a terrible process and I know it's stopping me, but it's hard to break the cycle.
Today when I was drawing, the only reason I even got this much done was because I was watching a show whilst doing it.
First I tried to draw my OC, then got frustrated because it (understandably) looked like shit. Then I gave up for about 10 minutes and then the process rinsed and repeated for about an hour before I was actually warmed up and created something I was confident in.
I know this is not even an art thing for me to work on, it is a mental thing. And, by working on the "boring" parts of creativity, I know I'll be happier. Not only with my work, but with my life.
Ah, but now the technical aspect of the art work. I was basically trying something new, since I struggle with visualising squares and boxes. So I just blocked out shapes and then erased them to create what I thought looked beliveable.
To be honest, this worked well. I'm not sure if it was because I'd finished my arm up, or because it's actually an effective method. Since I hate my family, I will test out my hypothesis tomorrow.
Something to seriously work on is my layering. I fucked up the layering so phenomenally, I couldn't really make any drastic changes. I ended up working on one layer like an idiot, and with the strangest brushes imaginable. It is not a process I intend to repeat again.
I wanted to do some cool lighting which I couldn't because
1. my layers were horrible and I couldn't be bothered to do the whole erasing my background ect.
2. i don't paint often, or properly so it turned out quite....bad.
Here are some progress shots that I spammed anyone willing t o listen with.
Well, there are my thoughts on this art work lol. Thanks for reading this if you did, since it's mostly just for my to put my thoughts into words.
To an actually fruitful year, where I create art! Happy holidays otherwise :).
Ps. I wish hiro would "bang" me hah!! So funny, jk (/srs).
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I posted 79 times in 2022
That's 79 more posts than 2021!
10 posts created (13%)
69 posts reblogged (87%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@what-aboutno
@fallow-foot
@saphflare
@silvsarts
@koyukoyukoyukoyu
I tagged 16 of my posts in 2022
#outsiders smp - 7 posts
#letters on the fridge - 6 posts
#koyu’s fridge art - 5 posts
#mcyt - 4 posts
#outsiders smp fanart - 3 posts
#mcyt art - 3 posts
#important koyu post - 3 posts
#krowfang - 3 posts
#owengejuicetv - 2 posts
#ggacho - 2 posts
Longest Tag: 94 characters
#ngl the monochrome color scheme does have its appeal but. sometimes all we need is a teal wall
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
hi again outsidersblr. i asked people on twitter to send me clothing items and a c!outsider for me to style that clothing item in. i still have some that i need to do because procrastination but still take them
under the cut bc this post is LONG
:readmore:
if this (readmore) doesn’t work then oh well at least i tried
c!mohwee and c!ori requested by bees on twitter @/PogchampBees
clothing item: crocs. matching crocs
See the full post
27 notes - Posted June 27, 2022
#4
i come out of my little hole to bring treats
YAHOO KOYU BACK WITH ART
AFTER BEING LOCKED UP FOR LIKE IDK 2 MONTHS,,,,, I CAN FINALLY POST IT
this is the piece I did for the outsiders fanzine !!!!! go check it out now !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time: 10 hrs 49 min
layers: 373
canvases used: 3
the outfits explained here (a tweet bc im too lazy to explain it here
anyways toodaloo I got nothing else to say
45 notes - Posted November 18, 2022
#3
✨its ayngel and krow time✨
here outsidersblr, i painted ayngel and krow together a few days ago! speedran the skin and clothing but i rlly love the hair :0
52 notes - Posted May 20, 2022
#2
heehee hi hello outsidersblr (or whatever it’s called)!!! im koyu and I just joined tumblr !!
im an artist and i’ve done some promo art for owen’s outsiders streams!! im pretty sure they weren’t posted here so i’m doing myself !!
yes if you check twitter they are all the promo art for every stream where c!owen murders a c!outsider who is a demon. i have become a harbinger of c!death
See the full post
60 notes - Posted May 14, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
Carpe Diem.
WOOOOO THIS SHIT TOOK SO LONG (click pic for better quality)
happy wednesday outsidersblr! how are we doing after the Angst Hell that was the Finale Part 2? i haven’t coped from that! but whatever! im making a fic of post-finale shit!
i made this hell of a group art piece and posted it on monday but i was too lazy to post it on my other socials so im doin it now. also my friends and i are still wondering why a) they are inspirations to the outsiders and b) how im not included in the artist section despite doing art for like 4 lore streams and an animatic when we all saw the end credits
the world may never know.
anyways
layers: 573
time: 45 hrs 26 min
canvases: 6
AND YES. i did put them in designer clothing. im too lazy to attach it to this post so here’s a tweet of it
also a lil bit of lore: this piece started out as initially a redraw of this art but then i decided to make things worse for me
153 notes - Posted July 27, 2022
Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →
#tumblr2022#year in review#my 2022 tumblr year in review#your tumblr year in review#I AM SO WEAK AT TUMBLRING
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I’m procrastinating working on the next chapter of my comic by... sketching the main characters lol
Their anatomy is kinda off bc I didn’t sketch before “lineart”. Also on Abigail I added the legs after I finished the torso completely...
I do love how their faces ended up looking. They both look very serious and cool.
I also ironed out a style for flowing fabric when I drew Abe. There’s going to be a type of entity that has a lot of fabric like that, and I didn’t really know how to make it interesting up until now.
From Shep’s drawing I found a way to render liquid that makes it look magical. The liquid on their hand was supposed to be water but I... don’t know how to render water in this style lmao so I winged it and it looks nice so I kept it
I would also like to apologize for disappearing, both from my blog and my comic. I have a lot of things to figure out with uni (finding a good place to stay at is hell, literally all the websites are fucking broken in some way) and that stuff is time sensitive so it takes priority. I’ve been working on the next chapter and I’m at the final stages (just backgrounds left). In general I aim to post once a month, and whenever I miss a month I feel really bad, but I need to remember that I have about a million other things I do, and the style I use for the comic is pretty detailed. I don’t want to rush it. It will take years to finish, but I’m content with that.
I don’t talk about it much but (and here’s a trigger warning for suicidal thoughts)
I’ve been suicidal for a very long time now. Death is both something I’m afraid of and find comfort in. I’m afraid that I will leave nothing behind me, and be forgotten. That my death won’t have an effect on anyone. I started really getting into art when my mental illnesses got worse, and when I felt like every day is the same, and it’s not worth it for me to keep going, I told myself “there is no one out there that will tell the stories in your mind. You must keep going.“ and I kept going. And I’m at a better place, with people I care about and who care back. I have more reasons to go on now, but I will always remember the story that made me keep on fighting. And I still fight, and sometimes lose, but I won’t let the fucking illness in my head win.
I uh... don’t know why I started talking about this. I think I just wanted to say it here since I use this blog as a sort of journal, a record of my process.
Maybe I wanted to leave this for when I’m gone. One amazing thing about being an artist is that you leave so much behind you when you die.
To know that I leave something behind makes death less scary. For better or for worse, considering I’m still suicidal maybe I should be more afraid of death lmao
Alright enough depressing shit. Probably shouldn’t post this online for everyone to see but it’s not as if I never talked about this lol.
#Daughter Of Death#abigail#shep#original art#I'm back on my rambling bullshit#the atmosphere is very nice#and the rendering style in general#i might use it again in the comic for like gritty moments#the brush I used has nice textures for that
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Everyone else is sending asks so I will too :3
When did you make your Christmas ocs? Can you tell us a bit about their stories? I started following for your Omori art but I really like your style so I stayed :]
(Btw are you doing ArtFight?)
I created my first drawings of the two main characters (Ellie & Grotty) in January 2019 I think? :0 There was an assignment at my vocational training where we had to imagine a game that doesn't exist yet. Perfect time to make some OCs after Christmas time (which I hate lol so I am gonna make my "villain" in the story hate it too xDDD)
I would love to talk more about the characters but I feel tired rn... Procrastinating sleep again and shit :' )
But all I can say is that I try to work a little bit on this project everyday. I really want to make a video game (rpg, like omori. Omori is actually the reason why I was motivated to work on my story and turn it into a game omggggg) :D
I never posted any test screenshots or pixel art stuff (its basically just shitposting and testing mechanics in the engine)... Also a lot of concept art is in my folder that I just don't wanna post...) But I might post something if people are interested.
It makes me really happy to hear that you like my style!!! It means a lot to me!! :D I am not doing ArtFight. The only thing I did was the Inktober challenge for the last few years.
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Sometimes I think about the fact that I totally COULD do like ~ spicy fanart and have real fun with it or do other actual good art. Or at least decent stuff id be proud of. I totally could because there are a few things I managed to do over the years that show me I HAVE the ability. But I am simply so stressed and exhausted with existence ever since I started studying that I just don’t have the energy for that. Good thing is I have my masters degree now and im officially done and out of uni. But trying to find a job is super duper exhausting and scary for my socially anxious ass as well! Who would have thought! So now - when I actually would have time - compared when I hopefully do find a job and have no more free time much - I can’t do art because I spend all my days procrastinating applying to places (I did apply already but going on keeps being scary as hell).
I don’t know why I post this lol, it’s not like anyone reads this stuff here 😂 but I feel like I have to say it. Somewhere where people will maybe understand. Or have the same struggle. I know it’s actually not that uncommon to be so exhausted by these tasks. Really, social anxiety is such a bitch. Like I don’t even have problems with normal social interaction, it just comes up with carrier and academia and paralyzes me with fear out of the blue. Thanks dad. You gave me so many tools for life! To fail at all the basic tasks! While constantly feeling like crying and puking for months. So cool. Raised me really good yes yes I’m so well behaved (paralyzed by fear).
Sorry for the rant I’m just so sad and angry that I can’t seem to get a hold of my life. I just want to have a stable life consisting of a small flat, a job and some friends. Why is it so hard for me? Like I want to work at that one hospital lab but I’m soooo scared of the job interview? And I am scared that they will call instead of mail and I’ll be stupid on the phone because if someone calls me who is authority I suddenly forget how talking works.
And I tell myself, and I KNOW, it doenst really matter? I’m gonna fail the first few interviews anyway. And I don’t care, I’ll learn, and get better at it. This is what my brain thinks. Because in reality, after whatever event I f up, I usually don’t really care for longer than a day. I tell people, laugh at myself, done. And yet, beforehand, I need to panick for weeks and months. Whyyyyy. It’s just not fair I want this to be gone! I swear, I’m sooo competent and hard working and all that. I just f up small talk. God, why is this irrelevant shit always the most important thing for them. Like ohhh tHe FiRsT iMprEsSiOn! sELL yOuRSeLf! SaY tHe RiGhT ThiNgS! ??? Fu! I can’t even say the right things to the cashier when I buy groceries (although here I don’t have a care in the world) but how am I supposed to manage it in such an important situation!!!
Ah sorry again. Rant.
PS: if anyone reads this and related. Please let me know. You would make me feel like … 1000% better.
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01:37 16/02/2023
Well... its obvs been a while since i updated huh. reading back on some of those .. some of its nice ig and some of it is quite articulate but looking back on some of it with my perspective now, idk its sad but also a little cringe lol. but thats the point of a diary to keep it cringe and truthful to how im feeling in the moment. well anyway
its 2023 woooo im in my second year of uni and things are pretty okay i guess. im still a litlte lonely dont get me wrong but im sure things will get better. um. ive got an essay due at midnight on the 16th (technically today) and im like a third through it? but the first 1/3 is the easiest part cos its just explaining the concepts. anyway im behind on a lot of uni work. for no reason. at all. like theres no good reason behind it other than i need medicated i guess. maybe i really should get meds im an adult now so im hoping they can. its genuinely really affecting my uni performance i cant get out of bed most days during the winter cos its so so cold. why is the world so so cold. my feet are also so so cold. can you tell im procrastinating :P unis still lonely but also i barely go anyway so what would i know anyway. i got some hobbies i guess. anime has revived my want for a tumblr blog so in november i made a new blog for anime ToT. its fun tho i really do enjoy it its so fun and silly and i can be as insane as i want to over fictional characters. better than twitter by a mile cos well yeah. it has also reignited my want to make art, cos then i can post it and other people who are also insane about the same characters can enjoy it too. even if its kinda bad idgaf. the whole 'oh shit two cakes' meme constantly runs through my head.
ahh anyway i also like playing video games too, or ig the difference is i have the money to buy them and a decent laptop to run them on. so that helps fill the void of community im missing. i really miss people. and im a huge introvert for the most part (unless im drunk but shhhh) but i miss not being in my room 24/7. i guess the theme of this update is i need meds ToT. not that it will necessarily be a perfect solution sometimes theyre not but ig it doesnt hurt to talk to a doctor about it. that depends on if i can actually get an appt ahhhhh. i dont have too much to talk about ig just that im alive and barely staying afloat but not actively suicidal so *thumbs up*. i really do need to write this essay i would dislike to get an extension because then i would just put it off again until next week lol. im such a good procrastinator :D this definitely isnt detrimental to my non-existent work ethic.
maybe i can talk about something thats itching at me from my philosophy course. my essay isnt exactly on this topic but i rlly wanna formulate some thoughts on it lol.
so we're talking about what exists in the world right? things people would easily say exist are things like tables, chairs, frogs, dogs, atoms and molecules. things that are a little harder to figure out if they exist are things like love, morality, goodness, numbers, gender. the lists are not exhaustive but that kind of thing. and there's this concept of Ordinary Objects(OO) and Extraordinary Objects(EO). the first list has almost all OO, which are defined as being highly visible objects right before our eyes (that do not escape our notice). the atoms and molecules make things tricky in philosophy as nothing can ever, ever, be simple in this subject. anyway. EO are objects that are also highly visible objects that do escape our notice. you're thinking how can an object, a physical object, that is so obviously in front of us, escape our notice??? well you're not alone in thinking philosophy just makes up things along with justifications of said things just for shits and giggles, and calls it a day, cos that's exactly what i thought when i heard this the first time. and genuinely so much of philosophy is just postulating and theorising about this thing and that thing but its done with such earnestness and sincerity that i get endeared by these stupid dead guys. ANYWAY. the existence of EO are obviously controversial (of course) and even OO are argued too. but yes what are EO exactly? the example given in the reading was a Trog - an object that is composed of a dog and a tree trunk. no, they are not connected in any way, and no they don't even have to be near each other but they can compose this object called a Trog. this is what you can call an EO. it is highly visible (assuming the dog isn't microscopic and the tree is not invisible) and it is right before our eyes yet we never notice it. well of course, who would? but the question is do EO really exist or is it a baseless theory. well...
another example of an
#oh well i guess i did try and update in between 2021 and now but i never finsihed my philosophy rant and i never will tbqh#because i do not remember what i was gonna say but im sure it wouldve been interesting to re read it cos i loved learning philosophy#anywya
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My 100 Day Project and 5 Tips To Do Your Own
Last week, I finished my 100 Day Project - one new digital drawing everyday for 100 days straight.
I learned a lot and wrote a bit about that here:
This post is more about how I did it and if someone else is interested, how they can do it and be successful at it.
So! My 5 best tips if you want to complete a 100 Day art challenge:
Identify Your Goals: Why do you want to draw (or paint or sketch or whatever) for 100 days? For me, I had A LOT of goals. But the main goal was to develop my style and create a large body of work I could use for marketing, my portfolio, and social media. I think having that very specific goal - and being passionate about my goal - helped tremendously.
Know Your Parameters And Stick To Them: I chose to work with a limited color palette, a very specific subject, and only a handful of design elements or "special effects" within Photoshop to make every picture. It forced me to be more creative since I had to work within these borders. Let the challenge of your 'rules' push you to think more creatively.
Find Accountability: I posted each new picture to Instagram every evening before midnight. I told my boyfriend, my parents, and my therapist. The more people know, the more they can encourage you, check in on you, and provide feedback and words of support. It felt like I really had to follow through and keep my word. Also - don't do this in complete isolation. Working in secret makes your artwork feel like a secret. Give others the chance to be proud of you.
Make The Time: In the beginning, I had no idea how much time I would need to commit to this project for it to be successful. I underestimated the amount of energy needed each day to complete a picture. I was surprised by how many hours I would spend on a piece, how difficult it was to do two pictures in one day, and how exhausted I was by the end. Whatever amount of time you think you will need, double it. Maybe even triple it if you're a procrastinator or a perfectionist, like me.
Accept Your Limitations: There were some days I simply couldn't produce the kind of art I wanted to make, no matter how hard I tried. You will have off days, sick days, and low energy days. This is essentially a three month long project. I wasn't always satisfied by what I made. Some days the picture was ugly. Some days I wanted to start over but didn't have the time. Shit happens. You don't have to love every piece. The better you are at accepting things the way they are, the more successful you'll be in the end.
In short, every picture wasn't a masterpiece. Every day wasn't perfect. But I finished it. And a week later I'm still riding the high of accomplishing such a challenging and ambitious goal for a 'new' artist.
I already have the next 2-3 projects planned out in my head. That's the best thing of all when completing a project like this: I have this abundance of energy and confidence. It's like, if I could do 100 drawings in 100 days, then why can't I do _?
This blog will be getting a facelift soon and I'm going to try to post more art quotes this month. I have the time now! Until next time.
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So tonight I’m going to write some stuff out just because it’ll help. I doubt anyone will read this so I’m fine just putting it out here.
When I was a much more depressed and non-medicated for ADHD art major I had a lot of bad habits. Obviously most of these stemmed from my state of mind if not all of them, I never realized why I found it to work on something so hard that I said I “liked to do”. I didn’t do anything too complex, I wasn’t an illustrator or was I as talented at drawing as some of the people I know. But I knew my craft when it came to image manipulation and making something interesting. I remember in high school I took a lot of pride in editing skins for the games I was playing, editing signatures for the forums I frequented. Just you know, nerdy shit back then. I got pretty decent at it so I thought “hey why not make this a career ids basically kind of like being a graphic designer”.
So I did. It didn’t go well, I didn’t really deal with the way the academic structure was for being an art major. Every time we had a project I stressed over it and procrastinated because I just couldn’t accomplish my goals in the way I had imagined them in my mind for my work. (This was obviously a bigger issue now). A majorly bad thing I did was take up smoking, but you know I didn’t smoke that much all things considered. A pack or two would last me a fucking year, kind of half-assed that. But unfortunately what I did get a fascination for was fire. Slowly and slowly I started putting it closer and closer to my skin. Mostly on my fingertips cause those are tougher than normal since I played an instrument.
It was around this time that I started to pay more attention to people getting cigarette burns in media. So you know what my little depressed brain thought to do when college wasn’t panning out? Yeah you guessed it, I started figuring out ways to give myself cigarette burns without leaving a mark. You see I had two reasons for this. The first being in HS there were nasty rumors about me committing self-harm and wearing clothes to hide that — idk how I just dressed like a normal post-hardcore skater dude with a wallet chain. My hair was long and at some points in an “emo fringe” because I saw Leon S. Kennedy’s hair and Russell Lissack from Bloc Party rocking the fringe. So I decided I wanted one too. Being able to flip my hair was fun. But this is me sidetracking.
Back to the reality. I self-harmed. I hid it. I didn’t really tell anyone about this save for my ex (didn’t think I’d be calling her my ex but life is full of unpleasant surprises). I never really committed to doing complete contact into my skin though, I wore jeans and did it over that, did it over some ratty clothes on my body and under arms. Nothing that would really show. I was afraid of being judged for scars because I was already judged for who I am and how I look — or at least it feels that way. This brings me to two years back in November, this very month.
I was visiting the girl that had my heart at the time for the longest amount of time, things were nice because we were long distance. Yeah we obviously had our issues but being around each other was more important to me and outweighed what was wrong. It was precious time I didn’t really get because of distance. So, one afternoon while my ex was having her remote dnd session we end up getting hungry. We had just gone to the grocery store recently and had some pizza to warm up in the oven. So she asked me if I could go take care of it and I did. Mind you my dumbass did not ask very important questions about using that particular stove or where the oven mitts were you know things you should ask. Things that I already knew because shit I love frozen pizzas and make them at home all the time. So I have issues because I didn’t put it on a tray aside from what it came with — this was already step one in a step of huge fuck ups. When I get this pizza out I’m distracted as ever because you know — my brain works like that unmedicated. Focus is my big weakpoint. I’m busy thinking how I’m going to cut this pizza up and plate some pieces for my girl to enjoy and whatever stupid joke I’m going to make as I walk back upstairs into her room. See, I was doing this while opening the oven and getting ready to take it out so my focus needed to be on that. When I reach for the pizza I didn’t realize that this particular pizza’s crust was a little on the softer side so the fucker starts to slide off the tray it was on. Me being a dumbass instead of thinking about being careful thinks “fuck I don’t want to make anyone clean this up, I don’t want to look stupid in front of my gf and her folks” so I panic and save the pizza. Hardly any spillage onto the oven except one glob of cheese. Crisis averted. Nope crisis’ not averted I just burned my left forearm it’s a pretty gnarly first degree burn. I see the white skin — showing around my darker skin and I don’t necessarily yell about it I just calmly put the pizza on the counter top make sure everything isn’t a mess and turn the oven off. My mind is racing this whole time but I just quieted it down. I didn’t want to tell my gf’s folks because I felt like an idiot. I just wanted to clean my burn, find something to help it stay cool and go upstairs to get some comfort. I go upstairs and she does get worried — but she doesn’t like tell her group that she’s going to be out for a little bit because I had an accident. So I’m just sitting there letting things finally sink in, finally feeling the pain because the shock wore off. She gets her mom to come up and give me some aloe to put on it consistently. Still in session though. I just remember sitting there thinking of how dejected I felt at not being helped. I don’t expect her to not panic at a situation — especially since I think I matter a lot to this girl at the time. But still just the most intrusive and negative thoughts happened during what seemed like an eternity. I start to panic that my burn might be more serious. I start to remember the times I would give myself “kiddie” burns with those cigarettes and I just start to feel completely and utterly sad. Here I am in the room with the woman I love, but I feel alone at that very moment. The thoughts were just way too strong. In hindsight this moment should have been my wake-up call to where my mindset exactly was at that time. I wasn’t in a healthy place at all even though I was head over heels for this girl. I hadn’t taken care of my mental state in years. I should’ve realized how bad I could unravel at that point in time. I wanted to do badly talk more about what was going on with me at that time but I just grit my teeth and withstood the pain, I cried in front of her which is something I didn’t normally do. It wasn’t because of the pain I was feeling physically though.
I make a lot of mistakes and do a lot of things I know I’m gonna regret unfortunately
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#the mandalorian#mandalorian#grogu#luke skywalker#dinluke#skydalorian#mine#why not procrastinate my work with some shit post art#luke: idk if I can train him I don't want to fail din or him but the dark s-#grogu: mmm yomm y#21k
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vent or smth
Hello everybody, Starbles here. Some of you noticed I left Tumblr for months and recently started posting again. I feel like I should be honest to you about that.
Read if you want (...to watch me show off my terrible english skills) B]
Alright uh, I answered an anon earlier explaining why I went inactive. Yes, I was indeed busy w/ school and work. Yeah, I moved to Twitter, even though it’s hell. But I won’t lie about the fact I was avoiding Tumblr
This might seem strange to hear, since I also said in the same post I miss this platform. It’s true, I really like being in here. It often feels nostalgic because I officially started posting my art here but... idk, I felt uncomfortable at some point
Back when I opened my requests for the first time I was so scared of people. I remember finishing art for the sake of someone’s satisfaction rather than doing it for fun. I was overwhelmed and unprepared for that stuff (I should have realized that way before)
I’d try to sketch as many art requests as I could in one single day for some reason. Imagine my shock when I woke up the other day with +99 messages in my inbox (O_o)
y’know, before I claimed Behind The Codes as my official FNaF project, I tried to write a script for a FNaF webcomic. I remember spending a lot of my free-time working on designs and exploring ideas. I even had the first page. I really wanted it to be a good story and all, y’know?.
I remember telling myself “this will be THE ONE and ONLY project. If I can’t make it, all this time will be gone to waste and I’ll be a failure”. I just didn’t want to disappoint anyone. I NEEDED to do great stuff. Always.
ofc that mindset hit me like a brick when I realized I lost all motivation to finish the webcomic. A month had passed and tbh I was going through some really bad shit. Something just wasn’t right. I was avoiding talking to my friends, procrastinating on finishing homework, often losing track of time, having trouble sleep and feeling generally exhausted.
I went to a psychologist and we dug up everything that was making me upset and boy... I feel much better nowadays, for real (if you are going through something similar, please consider seeking for professional help :])
Idk if whoever is reading this even noticed any change in my behaviour, or if you care about me at all, but I just want to say I’ve been holding this back for A LOOONG time lol
things have changed a lot recently, for good :D
ty for reading till the end 💖
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Stuck with Heartslabyul
I also procrastinated on this for so frickin’ long. I made two other series of being home dorm quarantined with other TWST characters like Octavinelle and Savanaclaw which you can go read if you want! I hope you enjoy this one! ^^
Riddle Rosehearts
He still somehow carry out his dorm leader duties-
Let us shed a tear for this young boy-
also there is from head to toe neatly
V e r y neatly
placed in order
organized files, books, documents-
What tf is this an office or a dorm room?????
well whatever-
He thinks that this is the perfect opportunity to bake things.
With you!
Well, truthfully he can’t really bake as well as Trey but he tries,
and if you are by his side baking,
he feels a little bit more confident, and a lot more happier!
Unbirthday parties can’t be carried out since
ya know,
no social contact :’)))
so, he’ll just have daily unbirthday parties with you!
And lemme just tell you,
after so many hours of baking,
he’s getting the hang of it-
And you realized he’s actually really good in setting a tea party atmosphere.
Like he knows how to arrange the teacups,
he prepared frickin’ napkins my lord this Ciel Phantomhive kid is extra-
But not going to lie,
It’s really pretty the set up.
AND HE GOT THEM ROSE PETALS ON THE TABLE-
EVERYTHING IS ARRANGED SUPER PRETTY-
Buuuut, his baking still needs some work going-
D A N G THO-
“RIDDLE, THAT’S A LOT OF SUGAR-”
“Oh? R-really? Didn’t it say 5 tablespoons?”
“You poured 5 whole cups-”
“Ah-”
Trey Clover
Listen,
being stuck with Trey is the best option-
He bakes
A SHIT TON OF PASTRIES-
And I’m not saying he baked a lot of pastries equivalent to how much he bakes for unbirthday parties-
Oh no non no-
It’s frickin’ thrice the amount-
THE ENTIRE ROOM SMELLS LIKE EVERY SWEET PASTRIES OUT THERE-
He experimented a lot-
From baking macrons, chiffon cakes, frickin’ candy art-
You are blessed when you’re stuck with him, s/o-
seriously-
“Holy shit Trey, what is that??”
“Oh, I’m just carving the chocolate.”
“Honey, that looks like you just created Van Gogh shit, that looks fancy and really hard to do-”
“Sugar, I’ll make your food look and taste like ‘Van Gogh shit’ for you anytime.”
“OH MY SHIT YOUR SO SWEET, I CAN’T-”
Cough cheesy Trey cOuGH
And he’s like a housewife not gonna lie-
he wakes up earlier during quarantine surprisingly,
maybe cuz he always finish schoolwork MUCH earlier now-
and he doesn’t have much to carry out as Vice dorm-
so he wakes up early,
and cooks frickin pancakes whatever delicious shit that comes to mind for you to eat for breakfast
cbdhidcchnff hnf
W H A T-
Also brush your teeth after you finish eating-
Cater Diamond
Man-
Cup noodle game is strong-
Unhealthy, yes-
but you do all sorts of things with it,
to which he’ll always post on Magicam.
Like you guys make curry instant noodles,
salad with the dry instant noodle bits for salad toppings--
list goes on my dude-
bruh-
and not only that,
he posts all those like daily life at home (or in this case his dorm room-)
and he’s gonna be posting about E V E R Y T H I N G
From what you both had for breakfast, what you guys did at 3 pm,
Every. Second. Of. Being. Stuck. With. You.
B R U H
“CATER, I LIKE SOME PRIVACY-”
“I know, that’s why I’ll post it in my private account which is my diary btw~”
“First off, your private account has like at least 1000 people in it, secondly, buy yourself an actual book diary, and thirdly, I’m liTERALLY IN THE TOILET WITH UGLY ASS BAGGY PANTS TRYING TO FIX THE LIGHTS-”
“BUT BABE-”
Because of this incident, you bought him a plain writing book online.
You know he wouldn’t like writing with a lot of words,
soooo
Scrapbooking! *Cue the glitter filter*
he has so much fun!
Decorating, pasting all the photos he took with you and printed them out.
He loves it so much! Being stuck with Cater is productive and maybe a little tiring, but hey! Works for the both of you!
Deuce Spade
This boy-
Oh my god-
He’s absolutely so sweet and adorable-
I can’t-
He’s not the best, he knows,
sometimes he wonders why you would ever want to be stuck with him-
but this man puts in more effort than he can to make sure you are comfortable during the pandemic time-
like his cooking went from a C to S class dear-
Although they are egg based dishes, there is
A w i d e variety in each dish-
And it really tastes good-
But you can tell he’s really tired trying to perfect his dish,
he wished he was Trey my lord-
DONT EVER THINK THAT BBY
YOU ARE PERFECT JUST THE WAY YOU ARE VSJVSWEADFGFHFTYKV-
Cuddle him please,
every day at every hour at every second just pleaseeeee
he needs it-
and he wants it-
but is just shy about it-
GIVE HIM THE CUDDLES-
ahem sorry-
continuing,
he surprisingly took up knitting and wanted you to join in after browsing online for more recipes to which randomly stumbled upon knitting basics videos
So arts and crafts time!!! ahh children-
He knits a very simple cloth at first-
which escalated to become scarves, blankets , mittens, sweaters like-
w o a h
Grandma Deuce-
and he also found these charity organizations who sold homemade products online to collect money to raise funds to give to people in need.
Let us put it as it’s not a scam website.
Soooo he published some of his hand made scarves, blankets and sweaters online-
And I swear this man is so sweet I can’t-
“Well, we have to do something to help these people! And they’re giving us a chance to give them our support!”
YES DEAR U ARE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT
YOU ARE GONNA BE MODEL STUDENT EACH YEAR-
He also used the first handmade blanket he knitted with you as your official sleeping blanket.
With shit tons of cuddles.
Being stuck with Deuce is honestly just so sweet and wholesome.
Ace Trappola
This idiot-
This absolute h e a t h e n-
I just wish you good luck man-
He just absolutely LOVES to prank you.
“ACE WHAT THE FUC-”
“What the fck what?”
“YOU PUT THIS WATER BALLOON ABOVE MY DOOR DIDN’T YOU?!”
“Huh? What makes you think that?”
“WE’RE LITERALLY THE ONLY ONES IN THIS ROOM WHAT YOU MEAN HOW WOULD I FCKING KNOW-”
You just gotta survive by pranking him too.
Also this man-
LOVES
G A M E S
And not just video games,
Oh non no no-
Hide and seek, chase-
ya name it.
At every hour-
You also play virtual UNO with the whole Heartslaybyul gang sometimes-
“WTF GIVE ME A GREEN-”
“AHAHAHAHHAHA-”
“Riddle, lower your microphone level-”
“TREY SHUSH, I’M NOT LETTING THAT ACE BASTARD WIN, SO I WNT THIS STUPID CARD DECK TO GIVE ME GREEN-”
*Pulls a green card*
“FINALLY!”
*You put in the green reverse card*
*Switch back to poor Riddle lmao*
“NOOOOOOOOO, WTF GIVE ME A GREENNNNN-”
“AHAHAHA NICE ONE S/O-”
Cuddles
every night-
moving on,
He’s also the type who will make memes of the two of you when being stuck together lmao-
As for food-
either take out or you cook-
He cannot be trusted with the kitchen-
he can’t take one step in it no joke-
All in all, being stuck with Ace is really just crack level head energy soraing through the sky with his love dovey antics.
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a lot of you have asked how I actually use notion in my day to day life, so I’ve broken down my task manager for all of you! hope this helps :) happy notion-ing! 💖
my other posts on notion: goal setting 📚
edit: i’ve made my template available for everyone to duplicate here! happy notion-ing!
entire post below!
how I use notion to time manage, prioritize, & get shit done
how it works
all tasks (and I mean ALL!) are sorted into 12 categories in a 4 x 3 matrix. this method was adapted from @howtomusicmajor’s post, how to handle having too much to do, which i’ve linked in the post below. i’ve changed things slightly to fit my own personal preferences.
every row is how long a task takes. I’ve got the following: 5 min 30 min hours future
every column is when they are due. i have the following: today tomorrow later
future refers to my tasks that are more abstract, fit are kind of like goals, and aren’t as tangible as ‘Chapter 1 homework’. this allows me to write down everything I have the intention of doing in the near future without trying to quantify them right away. examples of tasks that go in future include:
create new portfolio website (takes a while, not a priority, but I’d LIKE to do it) submit to poetry journals (not pressing, but I want to do it in the near future and having it on my to do reminds me to make time for it) learn cinema 4d (again, kind of abstract, relatively large undertaking that I want to remind myself of)
what are these numbers?
the numbers refer to what order I do the tasks in. 1 is first, 2 is second, and under future, which are more abstract/ long term, the order goes from later, even later, and one day. the core of my tasks are in 1 to 5 for each day, and I move around the rest of the tasks as I see fit.
example of where these tasks go:
chapter 11 stats questions → 30 min & today or tomorrow
water plants → 5 min & today
make portfolio website → future & later
why sort it this way? why notion?
i use this method for 3 reasons:
prioritization: a grid allows me to discern from a glance what I have to do at any given moment, whats important, and what’s not. I also need to be able to move things around, so using a digital resource is better for me.
scheduling: I find that I work better when I can see all the tasks that I have to do in the next few days vs. one day only. I also don’t typically schedule out my days because I find it really difficult to estimate how long tasks take, so I will put tasks I think I can focus on for one day and move them around as needed. it allows for more flexibility in my days!
breaking up tasks: I’ll usually break up my ‘hours’ tasks into pieces, which I then put under 30 min, which allows me to avoid procrastinating. I only need to follow one rule: the numbers! always knowing what to do next with a way to break up tasks makes it a lot easier to tackle things.
how to actually build yourself a grid in notion
sometimes it’s a little hard to build your own customized page in notion, so I started off with a template that would let me speed up my process. I used the weekly agenda template under the Personal category, but any page similar will be fine for you. from there, I just moved around each block until I got a 3 X 4 rectangle.
make it something you WANT to use
some ways that I make my task manager cute and enjoyable to use (you have to like your system or you won’t use it!)
cute cover photos every few days (change things up to keep your tracker fresh!)
recent excerpts from poems I read (inspiration!)
emojis that follow a theme & fit my current mood (tip: you can also use any image or transparent art that you want, so it’s super customizeable!)
and that's it!
finally, what’s most important is that you customize the manager so that it works well for you. if you notice that a process works better a different way, definitely change it! this works remarkably well for me because I alter it as I encounter better solutions. that being said, I hope this post was helpful! changing to this tracker has helped me much better manage school, being vice president of two clubs, my hobbies (like this blog!), sleeping enough, and making time for what’s important to me :)
references:
adapted from: https://howtomusicmajor.tumblr.com/post/130098710517/how-to-handle-having-too-much-to-do
art: https://hugolemonnier.tumblr.com/post/189172150081
poem by yang chia-hsien: https://aaww.org/summer-of-many-smokes/
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