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Bloody Valentine

Pairing: jaehyun x reader, winwin x reader Genre: horror, angst, fluff Warnings: horror themes, gore, character death, swearing, mention of suicide, food mention, alcohol consumption Words: 16,406

Valentine's Day. The day that you hated with a passion. You hated seeing people in love, being all affectionate and lovey dovey in public. Why can’t people just do that in private? Whenever you saw people being in love, you felt sick. You don’t know why, maybe it’s because you didn’t have a great relationship with your parents, so you became this sort of affectionless person.

You didn’t have many friends in school, always staying by yourself. You were known as the ‘loner’, a nickname which stuck with you. You just didn’t really like people, always preferring to stay by yourself, avoiding all sorts of conflict with others.

Every year when it was Valentines, you would see people throughout school giving love letters to their admirer, or sneakily hiding letters in someone’s locker for them to find. People never understood why you hated Valentine's Day so much, but you never told them why. Honestly, even you didn’t understand why, you just thought it was because you didn’t know how to love someone.

It was a few days before Valentines and, yet again, you were dreading it. You were sitting at the back of your class, doodling in your notebook while the teacher talked about something relating to society. Suddenly, the door opened and in came a boy that you don’t recognise, panting. It looked like he had run a marathon.

You had to do a double take because, who was this boy? A feeling inside your stomach that you don’t recognise bubbled up inside you. “Mr. Jung, why are you late?”, the teacher asked. “Sorry miss, I uhh missed the bus and had to run here”, the boy said, trying to catch his breath.

“Just, don’t do that again please. There’s an empty seat at the back there next to y/n”, the teacher said as she continued on with the lesson, the boy sitting next to you. You took sneaky glances at him every now and then, wanting to get a good look at him. How have you never seen this boy in school before?

Here you were, at 18 sitting in the back of a classroom, admiring a guy that you’ve never met before. This was a new feeling for you and honestly, you were confused. Hell, you don’t even know the guy's name, only his last name. You felt stupid for feeling like this.

The guy next to you was looking through his bag, trying to find his pencil case, only to find out he forgot to put it in his bag. The only option he had was to ask you for one, but he felt nervous to talk to you. He always saw you by yourself and sorta felt… sorry for you? He didn’t know why. He wanted to talk to you but didn’t want to be rejected by you, so he opted not to. Only now, he had to talk to you.

“Uhm, y/n? Sorry to bother you but, do you have a pen? I forgot my pencil case at home”, he said, interrupting you from your doodling. You slowly lifted your head and looked at him, seeing him looking at you. “Uhhh, yeah, here you go”, you got a pen out of your pencil case and handed it to him, before going back to doodling.

You suddenly remembered that you didn’t know his name so you stopped doodling in your notebook and turned to the boy next to you. You tapped his shoulder and he stopped writing, looking at you. As he looked at you, you noticed a sparkle in his eye, his orbs a chocolate brown. His lips twitched up into a small smile as you continued to look at him, not saying anything for a few minutes. A chuckle broke you out of your trance, shaking your head and looking at him with wide eyes.

“You ok there? You were staring”, he started smiling and you noticed he had dimples, which you just wanted to poke. Stop y/n, why are you thinking like that about someone you just met?

“Oh uhh yeah. I forgot to ask you. What’s your name?”, you asked after clearing your throat. “I’m Jaehyun. Nice to meet you, y/n”, and he put his hand out for you to shake, which you did. You shook his hand, which lasted for a few seconds. Everyone around you looked at the both of you, shocked by the fact you were actually interacting with someone.

You wanted to have a full conversation with him but you were scared, so you didn't talk to him for the rest of the lesson. The sound of the bell ringing alerted you, making you pack your things into your bag and dash out of the classroom, avoiding Jaehyun. You didn’t like the feeling bubbling up inside you and you wanted it to go away, so you avoided him, hoping that would work.

You continued on with your day as normal, sitting alone in the library when it was your break, and pretended as if Jaehyun didn’t exist. Jaehyun, however, continued to look at you from afar, feeling kinda hurt that you’re avoiding him. Yeah, he knows you’ve only just met and that you weren’t used to hanging out with people, but he still felt hurt.

The last bell of the day rang, telling you school has finally finished for the day. You dashed out of the front doors and ignored the shouts of your name, putting your headphones in and listened to music loudly.

Cars drove past you as you walked home, music playing loudly in your ears. You were minding your own business, watching your feet as they step on the cracks in the pavement. You suddenly started thinking about Jaehyun again, his smile and dimples imprinted into your mind, butterflies forming in your stomach. You tried shaking the feeling away, but nothing worked.

10 minutes later, you finally got home, unlocking the door and closing it once you were inside. You took your shoes off and placed them on the shoe rack, taking your headphones out of your ears and walked further into the house.

You saw your mother in the kitchen, cutting up some vegetables. Your father was nowhere to be seen, which didn’t surprise you. Your father was always working, so you never saw him. You didn’t know much of the company your father works for, but you do know that it’s something important, hence why you hardly see him.

Your mother felt a presence behind her, and saw you standing in the doorway, your backpack still on your back. “Hey, love. How was school?”, she asked as she continued focusing on chopping up some vegetables. “It was ok. Same old, same old”, you replied, not bothering to mention the boy who you met, wanting to forget about the new sudden feeling that still isn’t going away.

Your mother just hummed at your response, not bothering to turn around to look at you. You’re not surprised at this point, turning back around and heading towards the stairs. Before you took one step, your mother called your name. “Dinner will be ready in about an hour”, she said, making you hum in response and heading up the stairs to your room.

The only time you and your mother talk to each other are when you’re sitting at the dinner table, eating, whether it’d be breakfast or dinner. Other than that, you’re locked up in your room, listening to music or scrolling through social media, or sleeping.

You headed into your bedroom, closing the door behind you. You put your bag on your chair and jumped on top of your bed, sinking into the softness of your duvet.you laid on your back, staring up at the ceiling. You suddenly felt yourself smiling, thinking about Jaehyun. His cute smile and his dimples, his eyes filled with stars and his cheeks that look squishy.

No, y/n, stop it. You literally only just met him. He might be a creep for all you know.

After lying down for a few minutes, you thought it would be a good idea to get changed, so that’s what you did. You got up off your bed and went to your wardrobe, grabbing a pair of sweatpants and an oversized t-shirt. You stripped your current clothes off your body, threw them in the laundry basket and slipped on your sweats and t-shirt.

You continued to lie on your bed, scrolling through social media. You scrolled through twitter, some kind of drama happening but, what’s new? It’s goddamn twitter, there’s always some sort of drama happening. You’re not sure how long you were scrolling through, but the distant sound of your mothers voice could be heard through your closed door, telling you that dinner was ready.

You got off your bed and left your bedroom, opening the door and patting your feet against the floor, you wandered downstairs and headed into the kitchen, seeing your mother putting two bowls onto the table. You sat down at the table, the aromas of chicken and vegetables hitting your nose. You grabbed a spoon and ate a spoonful of the soup, noises of content leaving your mouth.

You both ate in silence, the silence deafening, but you liked the quiet. The only noises that were heard were the sounds of slurping as you happily ate the soup. Though you enjoyed the quiet, you felt the need to tell your mother the truth about what happened in school.

“Mum? I need to tell you something about what happened in school today. I met a boy and I don’t know, I keep getting this feeling in my stomach whenever I think about him and I don’t know what to do about it”, you said to her, your mother looking at you. Your mother only chuckled at that, the first time you heard her chuckle in a while, which made you confused.

“That feeling that you’re experiencing? If I’m correct, I think you’ve developed a crush”, your mother said as she put her now empty bowl and spoon in the sink, washing them both before putting them away. She then walked out of the kitchen, leaving you alone at the kitchen table. You just sat there, your empty bowl just sitting there in front of you. You thought about what your mother said, and honestly? You were scared. You’ve never experienced having a crush on someone, so this is all new to you.

You tidied up and went back to your room, lying face down on the bed. You shoved your face into your pillow, and screamed into it. Luckily it was muffled so your mother wouldn’t hear it. You suddenly felt really tired and wanted to sleep, so you closed your eyes and drifted off.

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It was finally Valentine's Day and for the first time in your 18 years of living, you were sort of looking forward to it? Maybe it’s because of this new feeling you were experiencing. You did your usual morning routine and went downstairs. You didn’t bother getting any breakfast and rushed to put your shoes on, going out the door with your back hanging off of your shoulder.

You managed to reach the school, seeing a couple of people walking through the doors as you followed them inside. You didn’t see a certain boy anywhere, and headed towards your locker. You put the things you didn’t need inside your locker, making sure nothing fell out. Suddenly, you felt a tap on your shoulder, and you turned around.

There stood the person who has been occupying your mind the past few days: Mr Jung Jaehyun.

You just stood there, frozen. He had a small smile on his face, and his dimples were showing. “Sorry, did I scare you? I didn’t mean to”, Jaehyun chuckled at your expression. You cleared your throat and stood up straight, fixing your bag on your shoulder.

“No, you didn’t, it’s fine. What’s up?”, you awkwardly asked, not used to talking to someone, let alone a boy. “I was wondering if you wanted to be friends? You don’t have to if you don’t want to, I understand that you like to be by yourself”, Jaehyun said, not wanting to be too forceful with his words.

You thought about his question for a moment. On one hand you wanted to agree. Like, yeah, you love being by yourself but at times, you do get lonely. On the other hand, you don't want any conflict if you do become his friend, since you’ve seen a lot of people around you have arguments with their friends. You opted for the first one, cause he seemed really sweet.

“Sure. I mean, I do get lonely at times so it would be nice to have someone to talk to. Besides, having a friend might bring me out of my shell and I’ll learn how to, you know, not act so cold”, you said, laughing lightly at the end of your sentence.

The bell suddenly rang, indicating that you should be in your first class of the day. “You have English first, right?”, Jaehyun asked as you both walked together. You nodded in response to his question, and saw him smile in the corner of your eye. “I do too. Let’s go”, Jaehyun said and lightly grabbed your arm, speed walking towards your class, nearly tripping in the process.

You entered the classroom, sitting in the back. The both of you sat down, getting your things out of your bag. “You remembered your pencil case today, right?”, you asked cheekily, remembering that he forgot his pencil case last time. And that he forgot to give you back your pen. Jaehyun chuckled at you, lightly kicking your leg so it didn’t hurt you.

Throughout the lesson, instead of doodling in your notebook, you spoke to Jaehyun and interacted with the class, surprising everyone. They weren’t used to seeing you so talkative, but they weren’t complaining. Even the teacher was happy to see that. You don’t know how you changed from this quiet, cold person to a happy, talkative person in a matter of minutes of becoming Jaehyun’s friend, but you’re glad.

As the day progressed, you felt yourself becoming more and more happier with yourself, and made you forget about why you hated Valentine's Day. You ate with Jaehyun, hung out outside instead of the library, opting for a change in scenery and environment. You can’t remember the last time you laughed so much. You didn’t realise how much you needed someone to talk to, and someone to be friends with. Luckily you managed to find that person.

The end of the day finally came, and you and Jaehyun were walking out the doors together. You were walking side by side, laughing at something he had said. You walked out the school gates and before you parted ways, Jaehyun stopped you. “Hey uhm I was wondering if you’re free on Saturday?”, he asked while shifting nervously on the spot. “I think so, why?”, you asked, your curiosity getting the better of you.

“Is it alright if I take you out on a date? Just to get some coffee or something, it doesn’t have to be a date if you don’t want it to be”, he scratched the back of his neck nervously, waiting for your answer. You thought about it for a moment, wanting to tease him. “That sounds nice, I’d like to”, you answered with a smile, looking forward to the weekend.

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Saturday came around quickly, and you were sitting on your bed, wondering what the hell you were going to wear. You were only going for a coffee so you didn’t want to dress fancy, but you also wanted to make an effort. You end up choosing a pair of jeans, a simple blouse and a jacket, just in case it gets cold. You decided to put on a little bit of makeup, something that you don’t usually do. You wanted to at least look decent. Just some concealer, eyeliner and mascara, and some lip gloss.

You went downstairs, a slight spring in your step. You put your boots on and grabbed everything you needed, like your phone, purse and keys. You went to head out the door but your mothers voice stopped you.

“Where are you going?”, your mother asked. You never went out of the house unless it was for school, so she was confused. “You know that boy I told you about? Well, we’re going to get some coffee”, you said as you scratched the back of your neck. Your mother smiled slightly and told you to have fun, and at that, you left the house, closing the door behind you.

Before you parted ways after Jaehyun asked you out (as friends or lovers? We’ll never know), you exchanged phone numbers and Jaehyun texted you the coffee shop you’ll be meeting at. Luckily it was within walking distance so you didn’t have to get the bus, which made you happy.

You arrived at the coffee shop in a span of 5 minutes, heading inside. The bell chimed as you opened the door, seeing no sign of Jaehyun. You decided to order your coffee while waiting for him. You ordered your usual coffee, which was a salted caramel latte, loving the combination of bitter and sweet. You also ordered a slice of chocolate cake to go with it, the sudden urge to eat something sweet. You sat down at a table near the window, waiting for your order to be ready, and for Jaehyun.

A few minutes had passed, and your order was ready, but still no sign of Jaehyun. You sat there, eating your slice of chocolate cake, humming happily at the sweetness. The sound of the bell chiming caught your attention, a certain brown haired boy walking in. Well, more like, running in. You called his name, his head turning to find you, sitting by the window. He smiled as he waved with a smile, going to order himself a drink.

After he ordered, he sat down opposite you. “Sorry I’m a bit late, I received a present this morning and I couldn’t wait until later to open it so I did it this morning before I left”, he explained, making you confused. Present? Jaehyun could sense your confusion as he chuckled at your expression.

“It was my birthday a few days ago. More specifically on Valentine’s Day”, he said, making your eyes go wide. “You’re literally a Valentine’s boy”, you said out loud, not expecting Jaehyun to hear it. But he indeed did hear it, as he laughed. Suddenly, the barista called Jaehyun, and he collected his drink, which was a standard coffee.

During your time inside the coffee shop, it was filled with laughter and smiles, getting to know each other better. You found out he loves sports, and he loves singing. You also found out he lived in America for 4 years, so he’s fluent in English, which you found interesting. You’ve always wanted to learn another language, you just never found the time.

You spent a couple of hours inside the coffee shop, just talking. After the third hour, you both decided to leave the coffee shop and go for a walk in the park. The park only had a few people in: children and their parents, as well as an elderly couple sitting on a bench. You walked in silence, hands slightly brushing against each other. It wasn’t an awkward silence, it was rather comfortable.

You saw little kids playing together, giggling as they chased one another. You chuckled at the sight, though it was more of a sad chuckle since you didn’t experience that as a child. Jaehyun could sense the change in your mood as he stopped.

“Hey, you ok?”, he asked as he held your hand gently, squeezing it. The sudden gesture made you want to hug him, but you didn’t want to scare him. Also because you were afraid. You’ve never actually hugged someone before so you don’t know how to do it. “Sorry, I just saw the little kids playing over there and felt sorta sad since I didn’t experience that as a child”, you said sadly, Jaehyun nodding at your words as he hummed.

“It’s not too late, you know?”, he said as he suddenly walked away from you, making you confused for a moment. You then caught on to what he was on about as he ran away, giggling. “Jung Jaehyun, you little shit”, you laughed as you ran after him, people in the park looking at the two of you. You laughed as you chased after him, your laughter being heard throughout the whole park.

You finally caught him as you came up behind him, wrapping your arms around him. The gesture made him jump as he stumbled, falling to the ground, bringing you with him. You both fell into a fit of laughter, lying on the ground, looking at each other. The people who didn’t know you would think that you’ve known each other for a long time when, in reality, you’ve only known each other for less than a week.

“How do you feel now?”, Jaehyun asked, lying on his side while looking at you. You were looking up at the sky, calming down from your laughter. “I feel good. Great, actually”, you said with a smile, now looking at Jaehyun. His smile appeared, his dimples showing.

Jaehyun got up off the ground, helping you up. You dusted yourself off and started walking out of the park, Jaehyun walking behind you. He caught up with you, walking beside you now. You gently took your hand, hoping you would allow him to hold it. You looked down and up at him, closing your hand around his palm, a small smile on your face. You were slowly opening up to affection, it made Jaehyun really happy.

Jaehyun, like a gentleman, walked you home and didn’t let go of your hand the entirety of the walk. You reached your house, standing in front of your door. The both of you shuffled awkwardly on your feet, not sure what to do next.

“So uhhh I guess I’ll see you then”, you said, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear while looking down. “Yeah, I’ll see you in school”, Jaehyun replied and was about to turn around until a question popped into his head.

“Is it ok if I hug you?”, he asked nervously, hoping you would agree. Fortunately, you did agree and you awkwardly opened up your arms for him to hug you. He wrapped his arms around you and you froze, not sure what to do next. “You wrap your arms around my neck, or waist if that makes you more comfortable”, Jaehyun said gently, you doing as he said. You opted for his torso, resting your head on his shoulder.

This is the first time you’re actually hugging someone and you’re enjoying it. Jaehyun felt really warm, and he smelt like vanilla. You couldn’t stop smiling, not wanting to let go of the hug.

The hug lasted for a few minutes, neither of you wanting to let go of each other. Though you had to let go of each other some time since you needed to head inside, so you were the first one to let go. Without thinking, Jaehyun kissed your cheek, making you let out a squeak. Jaehyun’s eyes went wide when he realised what he did, apologising profusely. You held the cheek that Jaehyun kissed, and started smiling.

“It’s ok, I-i liked that”, you said, suddenly feeling shy after admitting it. After reassuring Jaehyun that you liked it, the guilt left him and he now felt happy. He kissed your cheek again before saying his goodbyes, making sure you were inside before leaving.

For the rest of the day, and night, you couldn’t stop smiling. Your mother isn’t used to seeing you smile so much, but she wasn’t complaining. It was nice to see you smile, especially after everything. She didn’t want to ruin this for you. Not now.

She couldn’t tell you why your father isn’t coming home. Not yet.

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It’s been a week since your ‘date’ with Jaehyun, and you’ve gotten closer. You’re on the line between friends and lovers, confusing everyone about your relationship with each other.

You were in the middle of class, when someone knocked on the door. The teacher allowed the person to enter, and everyone, including you, turned to look. It was the head teacher, which made you worried for some reason. “Sorry to disturb your lesson but, can Lee y/n come to the front office please”, she said as everyone turned to look at you. You got up out of your seat and left the classroom, following the head teacher.

When you reached the front office, you saw your mother there. It looked like she had been crying, which worried you even more. “Mom? What’s going on?”, you asked, the worry evident in your voice. “y/n, can we both go outside for a moment? I need to talk to you about something. It’s about your father”, she said as she took you outside. You leaned against the wall while your mother thought of the right words to say.

“Do you want to know why your father hasn’t been around the past week? I know I said it’s because he’s been working a lot and he comes home when you’re in school and works all day and night on the weekends. But that’s not the truth. The truth is…”, your mother choked up on her words and you had tears in your eyes seeing your mother so upset.

“Mom, what happened?”, you asked softly, already having an idea about what happened but not wanting to believe it. “Your father died in a car accident. I got a phone call about a week ago, saying that he had been hit by a drunk driver and he died immediately. I didn’t want to tell you because you looked so happy, I didn't want to ruin that for you”, your mother crouched down to the floor, not able to say anything else as she broke down in tears.

You on the other hand, you were frozen. You couldn’t believe it. You wanted to scream, but you couldn’t. You wanted to cry, but you couldn’t. You wanted to feel upset, but you couldn’t. You just felt numb, empty. While your mother was crouched on the floor, still crying her eyes out, you walked back into the school, your face expressionless.

You walked down the empty hallway, going back to your class. You entered the classroom, everyone’s eyes looking at you. The teacher thought you were just going back to your seat so they carried on with the lesson, but when you reached your desk and started packing your stuff away, they got confused.

You ignored the chants of your name as you left the classroom, dragging your feet against the floor as you headed towards the front doors. You didn’t bother looking back as you left the school, the cold air hitting your face again. Your mother was in the distance, walking out of the school gates. You assumed she was walking back home so you didn’t run after her, not having the energy.

You walked away from the school, heading out the metal gates as you just kept going, not knowing where you were going but at this point, you didn’t care. You just wanted to be alone, away from people, just you and your thoughts.

You went wherever your feet took you, and you ended up at the park. Luckily the park was empty so you could be left alone with your thoughts. You know you shouldn’t since being left alone with your thoughts could potentially make you do something stupid, but you didn’t care at this point. You were tired, numb, empty. You didn’t know what emotion to feel. You might not have seen your father a lot since he worked most of the time but, you still missed him.

You missed seeing the smile on his face whenever he saw something he liked on the TV, or when he enjoyed the food your mother cooked. It was rare, the three of you eating together but when you did, it was sometimes special. There would be laughter, the occasional joke from your father. You can’t remember the last time you spent time together, all three of you having an actual conversation.

You sat on a swing, putting your school bag on the floor. You looked up at the sky as you swung slowly, the sky suddenly getting cloudy, the once white clouds turning grey. You continued swinging, the swing squeaking with every movement. You sighed, your voice shaky. You had the sudden urge to scream, so you stood up and looked up at the sky, and screamed. You tugged your hair, messing it up. Your throat hurts from screaming at the top of your lungs.

Suddenly, you felt a drop of rain on you, then another and another. It then started pouring down with rain, drenching you. The sky turned dark as the rain got heavier, your clothes now sticking to your skin. The sudden sound of people alerted you, making you turn around and seeing people walking from school.

It’s the end of the school day already?

You continued to just stand there, not knowing what to do. You didn’t want to go home yet, but you also don’t want to be alone anymore. You suddenly heard the shout of your name, not bothering to turn around as Jaehyun ran towards you.

“y/n! Where were you? You weren’t there at lunch? Wait, are you ok?”Jaehyun asked question after question, noticing the gloomy look on your face. You went to talk, but your words got trapped in your throat, causing you to make a noise that sounded like a sob. Jaehyun pulled you into him for a hug, holding the back of your head as you buried your face into his neck.

You stayed like that for a few minutes, Jaehyun continuing to stroke your hair. You finally pulled away, looking at Jaehyun. He looked worried as you looked at your expression. “You wanna tell me what happened?”, he asked softly as he stroked your cheek gently before cupping it. “M-my father passed away. He was in a car accident and d-died on impact”, you said, stuttering due to the cold. You suddenly started crying, the tears falling down your cheeks one after another. You finally broke down after a while of not being able to, Jaehyun watching you as you crumbled.

Your sobs got louder as you hugged him again, burying your face in his neck, trying to hide your face. You’ve never cried in front of anyone before so you were sort of embarrassed. He rubbed his hand up and down your back, trying to calm you down. Jaehyun felt your pain, having lost a family member in a car accident before, so he understood the way you were currently feeling.

You’re not sure how long you were in that position but it felt like hours. You pulled away from the hug and Jaehyun cupped your face between his hands. “You ok now, sweet?”, the sudden pet name made you smile a bit as you nodded. You kissed his palm and put your hand over his hand.

“Why don’t we get you home, yeah? Get you where it’s nice and warm”, Jaehyun said and you nodded. You grabbed your bag and held his hand, and walked out of the park. The rain had subsided, the rain now lighter.

You finally reached your house, unlocking the door. Before you opened the door, you turned around to Jaehyun. “Do you want to come in?”, you asked softly, hoping to get him out of the rain too. Hopefully your mother wouldn’t mind. Jaehyun accepted your offer and went in after you, closing the door behind you.

You took your shoes off, replacing them with your slippers. Jaehyun took his shoes off too, walking in with just his socks on. “Mom, we’re home”, you said, saying ‘we’ instead of ‘you’ without thinking.

You continued to call your mother, but to no avail, there was still no sign of her. You went upstairs while Jaehyun stayed in the hall, waiting for you to find her. You checked in all the rooms, seeing no sign of her, making you worried. The last room you had left to look in was the bathroom. You slowly made your way to the bathroom, seeing the door closed. You opened the door, not expecting to see the sight inside, making you scream.

Jaehyun suddenly heard you scream, running up the stairs to see what happened. He looked around to see where you were, and noticed you standing at the end of the hallway. He ran over to you and looked in the bathroom to see your mother on the floor, her wrists bloody as they continued to gush. There was a knife lying on the floor, the blade covered in blood.

“Call an ambulance”, you ordered, Jaehyun getting his mobile out of his pocket. You dropped to your knees in front of your mother, grabbing hold of her arm. She was cold, like she’s been lying there for hours.

“The ambulance will be here soon”, Jaehyun said as he sat next to you. “It’s all my fault”, you sobbed as you felt the guilt eating you up inside. “What do you mean? You didn’t do this, did you?”, Jaehyun asked, wondering why you said it was your fault. “I know but, if only I came home straight away instead of going to the park, I would have prevented this. If I came home straight away, I would have stopped my mother from killing herself. Now both of my parents are gone”, you shouted, your breathing getting heavier, making it hard to breathe properly.

Jaehyun noticed immediately and brought your body closer to him, no space in between the two of you. He tried calming you down, rubbing his hand up and down your back and whispering comforting words to you. After a couple of minutes, you managed to calm down as your breathing became normal again.

Suddenly, the door went, telling you that the ambulance had arrived. Jaehyun went downstairs to let them in while you stayed in the bathroom, holding your mothers hand. Two paramedics came up the stairs and stood behind where you were sitting. “What happened?”, one of the paramedics asked as they put your mother in a body bag, zipping it up once she was in.

“We came home and I just found her like this. I-i wouldn’t have suspected she would do something like this. She seemed fine. Unless she was really good at hiding her emotions”, you said to the paramedics. “First my dad, and now my mom. Could this day get any worse?”, you started crying again, hugging Jaehyun.

“I’m so sorry for your loss. Hey, if you need to talk, don’t keep it all bottled up, ok? It’s better letting your emotions out than keeping them in”, the paramedic said before taking your mothers lifeless body away, heading down the stairs and out the house, Jaehyun closing the door after they left.

As soon as you two were alone, Jaehyun went over to you and gently grabbed your hand, leading you towards the living room. He sat down and made you sit on his lap (not before asking you of course, he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable). You sat on his lap, wrapping your arms around him. You buried your face in his neck, getting comfortable. He kissed the shell of your ear, making you smile slightly.

You stayed like that for a long time, just sitting in a comfortable silence, neither of you wanting to say anything. That was before Jaehyun broke the silence. “Hey, y/n?”, he asked, hoping you didn’t fall asleep. “Yeah?”, you replied.

“W-what’s going to happen now?”he asked cautiously, not wanting to say anything that will trigger you. “I’m not sure. I know I’m 18 but I’m not sure I’ll be able to live on my own yet”, you said before sighing, not looking forward to the whole ‘looking for a place to stay’ situation. That worry went away when Jaehyun asked a certain question.

“Hey, how does coming to live with me sound? I mean, only if you’re comfortable, since we have known each other for, like, almost 2 weeks”, he continued to ramble on as you just sat there, smiling. You suddenly placed a hand on his cheek, stopping his rambling. “That sounds like a nice idea. What would your parents think though?”, you asked, slightly worried his parents would be against the idea. “Hopefully I can convince them”, he said, making you laugh slightly.

The atmosphere around you changed slightly as you both just looked at each other. You could still see the sparkle in his eyes, his pink lips suddenly look so kissable, but you didn’t want to cross any boundaries, just in case it could ruin something between you. It was when Jaehyun asked a question when you knew he felt the same.

“Can I kiss you?”

And at that, you leaned in and placed your lips on his. His lips were soft and pillowy, his lips moving against yours. The kiss was only short, but it was sweet. It was your first ever kiss, and it was something you’d remember for the rest of your life.

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It has been a year since both of your parents passed, and a year since you moved in to live with Jaehyun and his parents. Jaehyun’s parents were so supportive, immediately taking you into their home after what happened. A year later and you’ve grown closer to them. They attended the funeral with you, comforting you and making sure you weren’t alone.

You were currently in your bedroom (which used to be a guest room, but Jaehyun’s parents converted it into your bedroom), lying on your bed, staring at the ceiling. You suddenly felt lonely and bored in your room, so you left your bedroom and headed downstairs.

You saw Jaehyun’s parents in the living room, watching some TV. It was some drama you’ve never seen before, but you still sat on the other sofa, wanting to have some company.

“Hey Mr and Mrs. Jung”, you said as you sat down. “Hey, there, kiddo”, Mr. Jung said, taking his eyes off the screen to look at you. Ever since you moved in with them, he always called you kiddo for some reason, not that you minded. “Where’s Jaehyun? I haven’t seen him since this morning”, you said, noticing his presence is nowhere to be seen.

“He went out somewhere, though he didn’t say where, he just said he’ll be back later”, Mrs. Jung said, the screen now paused as both of their attention is on you. You nodded at their words as you suddenly got up and left the living room. You headed into the kitchen to get yourself a glass of water, feeling thirsty all of a sudden.

You grabbed a glass from the cupboard and filled it up with water, downing the water. You put the empty glass in the sink and left the kitchen, heading upstairs towards your bedroom. You closed the door behind you and laid down on your bed, sleepiness starting to take over you. You closed your eyes and drifted off to sleep a few minutes later.

While you were asleep, Jaehyun came back home about half an hour later, holding a few bags and smelling of perfume. His parents saw him and greeted him, but stopped. “Why do you smell of women’s perfume?”, his father asked, suspiciously. Jaehyun froze, not sure what to say. Should he tell the truth or make up a little white lie? He didn’t want to spoil anything so he chose the second option.

“I like wearing women’s perfume?”Jaehyun said, his voice not sounding convincing, but luckily his parents didn’t say anything else. He made his way up the stairs, heading towards his room. Before he opened his door, he heard a door open and the sound of your voice, making him stop in his tracks.

“Jaehyun? You’re back. I haven’t seen you all day, I missed you”, you said sleepily, only being asleep for half an hour until you heard the sound of the front door closing, waking you up. You sleepily walked over to him, going to give him a hug. That was until you smelled the scent of a woman’s perfume, stopping you.

“Is that women’s perfume on you?”, you asked, taking a step back. Jaehyun went to say something but you were already back in your room, closing the door. You laid back down on your bed, just thinking about how Jaehyun was wearing women’s perfume, which wasn’t yours. You felt silly for feeling hurt cause, yeah you weren’t in a proper relationship but the feelings were still there. You ended up going back to sleep, pretending like nothing happened.

Over the next few days, you avoided Jaehyun, which you knew was a silly thing to do, but you didn’t know what else to do. You couldn’t just confront him about it, because what if you ended up getting even more hurt? So you just decided to avoid him. Which was kind of difficult since you lived together.

Whenever Jaehyun entered a room, you left the room and went into a different room. Jaehyun was confused about why you were avoiding him, making him frustrated. That was until he did something about it.

On the fifth day of you avoiding him, he knocked on your door. You, thinking it was one of his parents, you told the person to come in. When you saw it was Jaehyun, you went to leave your room when he stopped you.

“Can you please stop avoiding me?”, he asked sternly, narrowing his eyes at you. You just stood there, not looking at him. He sighed, gently holding your hand, hoping you wouldn’t push it away. Luckily you didn’t, missing his touch. “Get dressed into something nice and meet me downstairs”, he said before walking away, heading to his room.

You were confused but listened to what he said anyway. You went to your wardrobe and looked through it to find something to wear. You chose a simple black dress, which reached your knees. You changed from your comfy clothes into your dress, choosing a black leather jacket to go over it. You chose to wear some light makeup: foundation and concealer, some eyeliner and mascara, and nude lipstick.

You chose a pair of black heels, slipping them on your feet. You checked yourself in the mirror, feeling happy with how you looked, and grabbed your purse and phone, before leaving your bedroom. You headed downstairs and saw Jaehyun leaning against the wall. He was wearing a simple black button up shirt, along with black jeans that fitted his legs. The both of you ended up wearing all black, not even realising it.

Jaehyun looked up from his phone and looked at you, before looking down again. He did a double take and ended up staring at you. “Wow, you look beautiful. I mean, not that you’re not already beautiful because you are”, Jaehyun continued to ramble on, which made you giggle.”You look very handsome, Mr. Jung”, you said teasingly, giving him a wink. You completely forgot about how you were supposed to be avoiding him.

Jaehyun’s parents walked out of the living room, seeing the two of you dressed up. “Well, what’s going on here? You two look very fancy”, Mr. Jung said as Mrs. Jung stood beside you. “My dear, you look beautiful”, she said, making you blush. “I assume you two kids are going on a date so, have fun. Don’t do anything we wouldn’t do”, Mr. Jung said as he winked, making Jaehyun roll his eyes, making you laugh.

Jaehyun grabbed your hand and headed towards the front door, grabbing his keys from the basket before opening the door. You headed towards his car, him opening the door for you. “Wow, such a gentleman”, you said as you kissed his cheek, which shocked the both of you, since you’ve never done that on your own before.

You got in the car, Jaehyun closed the door once you were inside and buckled up. Jaehyun went to the driver's side and got in, closing the door. He put the key in the ignition, starting the car. He drove off, going to the secret destination that Jaehyun won’t tell you about, saying ‘it’s a secret, now hush’.

Jaehyun drove for about 20 minutes, you looking out the window, admiring the scenery that went past. Suddenly, the car stopped and you noticed you were near an entrance to a little garden, flowers surrounding the area. You were amazed that Jaehyun found this.

Jaehyun got out of the car and went to your side, opening the door for you. He held his hand out, you taking it as you got out of the car, Jaehyun closing the door behind you. “Oh my god Jae, where did you find this? It’s beautiful”, you said, your voice full of admiration. “Oh, you know, I am a man of many talents. And that includes finding places like these. Nah I’m kidding, a friend of mine told me about this as he took his girlfriend on a date here”, he said, taking your hand again and walking you towards the entrance.

You both walked through the garden, admiring the flowers as you walked through it. Jaehyun picked out a rose and put it behind your ear, smiling at the image in front of him. You looked like a work of art, wanting to admire you for the rest of his life.

Suddenly, a pergola came into view, decorated with fairy lights. The sight was beautiful, making you cover your mouth. There was a table under it, along with a bottle of wine and two wine glasses. “You did all this?”, you asked him as you tried taking it all in. “I did. I wanted it to be special”, Jaehyun replied, kissing your cheek. “Oh and that perfume you smelled on me the other day? The reason why I smelled like that was because I was trying to find a perfume that I think you would like but uhh I don’t know what kind of perfume you wear”, Jaehyun added, playing with his fingers.

So that’s why he smelled of women’s perfume. You thought he was secretly hooking up with someone.

Jaehyun led you towards the table, moving the chair for you to sit on it. He sat down opposite you, opening the bottle of wine. He poured the wine into both wine glasses, you taking a sip. The fruity taste hits your taste buds, you make a noise of content. Jaehyun suddenly grabbed some bags from on the floor near the table, putting them in front of you. “I didn’t know what you liked so I got a couple of things”, he said nervously, scratching the nape of his neck.

The first bag contained a little box, tied with some silver ribbon. You opened it gently, revealing a beautiful necklace with your name on it, coated in silver. The second bag contained a bottle of perfume, which had the same scent as the one Jaehyun had one a few days ago. The last bag, and the biggest out of the three, contained a couple of books, ranging from romance novels to thrillers. You loved reading so you felt really touched that Jaehyun did this for you.

“I-i can’t believe you did this for me. Thank you, Jae”, you said, feeling yourself tear up as you stood up and went over to him, hugging him and kissing his cheek. You sat back down in your seat and took another sip of your wine, when Jaehyun got up and stood behind you. “Do you want me to put your necklace on for you?”, he asked sweetly and you nodded, giving him the necklace he got you. He put it round your neck, clasping the necklace together.

Once the necklace was on, he went towards a bush, making you confused. That confusion soon went away when he grabbed a basket. “How many more surprises do you have?”, you jokingly asked, making him chuckle. “I know it’s nothing fancy but, I hope you enjoy the food”, Jaehyun said as he opened the basket, taking out some sandwiches, cheese and crackers, some cupcakes and strawberries.

He sat back down in his seat, grabbing a strawberry. He went to eat it, but he offered it to you instead. You opened your mouth, Jaehyun putting the strawberry on your tongue. You ate the strawberry, the juices hitting your taste buds. You smiled in content as you swallowed the sweetness, giggling happily. Jaehyun looked at you in admiration, thinking that you’re the cutest person in the world.

You ate the food in front of you, the both of you just talking while drinking wine. Your laughter was music to Jaehyun’s ears, his dimples showing whenever you laughed. You never felt so free in your life.

You finished eating the food that was on the table, feeling satisfied as you sat back in your seat, patting your belly. Jaehyun thought that was adorable as he continued to chuckle at you. “Yah, why are you laughing at me, Mr. Jung Jaehyun?”, you said teasingly, narrowing your eyes at him. “You’re really cute, you know that?”, Jaehyun said, shocking you. You felt your cheeks heating up, blushing from the sudden compliment.

About 2 hours later and the sun had gone down, replaced with the moon. Stars painted the sky, you admired them while Jaehyun admired you. You both had 2 glasses of wine, the now empty wine bottle in the basket along with the empty wine glasses.

Suddenly music could be heard, the soft sound of classical music being played from god knows where. That was until you saw Jaehyun holding a remote, realising he was the one who played the music. He got up out of his seat for the nth time, going over to you. “May I have this dance, m'lady?”, he asked as he bowed, making you giggle as you took his hand. You got up and walked further away from the table, standing in the middle of the garden.

You took off your heels since your feet started to hurt, but also because you didn’t want to hurt Jaehyun’s foot if you stood on it, so you went barefoot. Jaehyun placed a hand on your waist and held your hand with the other, whilst you placed your free hand on his shoulder. You started slow dancing, looking into each other’s eyes.

Jaehyun twirled you around, the both of you laughing. Thankfully you didn’t step on his feet, which you were happy about. The song came to an end and you both stood there, just staring into each other's eyes. “Can I ask you something?”Jaehyun suddenly asked after a few minutes of silence, making you nod.

“I’ve been meaning to ask you this for a long time now, but I just couldn’t find the right time to ask. I think now is the right time. Will you do the honour of becoming my girlfriend?”, he asked nervously, patiently waiting for your answer. Instead of answering, you smiled widely and leaned in close to Jaehyun, pressing your lips on his. You could taste the mixture of wine and strawberries, your lips moving in sync.

The kiss got more passionate, Jaehyun pulling your body closer to him. He placed his hands on either side of your waist, gripping it slightly. You wrapped your arms around his neck, playing with the little hairs at the nape of his neck. The kiss was passionate and sweet, neither of you letting the kiss get heated, just enjoying the moment.

Jaehyun was the first to pull away, trying to catch his breath from the sudden passionate kiss. “That was… amazing”, Jaehyun said with a smile, adjusting the rose that was behind your ear, stopping it from falling. “So, did that kiss mean yes to my question? Or are my lips just so kissable that you couldn’t resist?”, Jaehyun asked teasingly, making you roll your eyes.

“Well, it was a yes but if you keep teasing me, mister, I’m going to change my answer”, you said, pretending to be angry, as you turned around to put your shoes back on. But Jaehyun stopped you, wrapping his arms around your waist, burying his face in the crook of your neck. He placed a few kisses along your neck, making you sigh. “Ok, ok, I accept your offer of becoming your girlfriend”, you said, stopping Jaehyun from kissing your neck, the feeling in the pit of your stomach making you nervous.

“Yes! I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time”, he said, picking you up and spinning you around, making you squeal. He put you down, your feet hitting the floor. He placed a kiss on your nose, causing your nose to scrunch up. You parted from Jaehyun to put your shoes back on, slipping them on your feet.

“So, what did you think of this evening? I hope you enjoyed yourself cause I sure enjoyed it”, Jaehyun said softly but loud enough for you to hear, packing up everything ready to head back to the car. “I enjoyed tonight, thank you for everything”, you replied, kissing his cheek. Jaehyun held the basket in one hand (along with the empty bags that had your gifts in), and with the other hand, he held yours.

You both left the garden, heading back towards Jaehyun’s car. Once you reached the car, Jaehyun opened the door for you, letting you inside. He closed the door as soon as you buckled yourself in. He opened the trunk, put the basket inside and closed it, and got inside the car himself. He put his keys in the ignition, starting the car and drove away, going back home.

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On the drive home, Jaehyun noticed you had fallen asleep, the sight beside him making him smile. He turned the radio down, loud enough that he could still hear the music but quiet enough so it wouldn’t wake you from your slumber.

He arrived back home, parking the car. He stopped the car and got out, closing the door gently. Before you got you out of the car, he took the basket out from the boot, taking it inside. He knocked on the door, which opened a few seconds later, revealing his mother. “Where’s y/n?”she asked, seeing no sign of you. Jaehyun explained that you were fast asleep in the car and wanted to bring the basket in first, wanting to make sure that he didn’t disrupt your sleep as soon as you arrived.

Mrs. Jung took the basket off him, taking it inside as Jaehyun went to get you. He opened the door, gently taking your seatbelt off and carried you bridal style, closing the door behind him. He brought you inside and closed the door behind him, accidentally slamming the door. Luckily you were a heavy sleeper so the loud noise didn’t wake you up, which made Jaehyun sigh in relief.

He headed towards the stairs, walking up them carefully. He managed to reach the top, going towards your room. He walked into your room, carefully placing you on your bed. He took your shoes off, placing them in your wardrobe. He then left your room and went towards the bathroom, grabbing some makeup wipes and moisturiser. Walking out of the bathroom, he entered your bedroom again, seeing you in the same position that he left you in.

Being careful not to wake you, he gently used the makeup wipes to wipe off your makeup, making sure it was all off. Grabbing the moisturiser, he put some on his hands and applied it to your face, being gentle and careful. Heading back to your wardrobe, he grabbed some comfy clothes for you, taking your current clothes off, putting them back in your wardrobe.

Once you were in your comfy clothes and barefaced, he put you under the covers and kissed your forehead. As he was about to turn around to leave, he felt a hand grab his wrist. He turned to look at you, seeing your eyes still closed. “Please stay”, you said sleepily, not letting go of Jaehyun’s wrist. “Baby, I need to get changed myself”, Jaehyun said, moving a piece of hair out of your face. “Don’t be too long please”, you said before letting go of his wrist, snuggling further under the duvet.

Jaehyun made sure he wasn’t too long, going to his room to get changed into comfy clothes, which consisted of his favourite sweats and a plain black oversized t-shirt. He entered your room again, closing the door behind him and walked over towards your bed. He got under the covers, wrapping his arms around you as you snuggled up to him, burying your face in the crook of his neck. The sudden gesture made him smile as he got comfy. The sound of your snores made him giggle, the adorable noise coming from you is something he could get used to. He soon felt himself drifting off to sleep, closing his eyes, and entered dreamland.

While the two of you were asleep, Mr. and Mrs. Jung both went upstairs, checking on the two of you. Mrs. Jung opened your bedroom door and saw the two of you asleep, cuddling up to each other in bed, the only sound coming from the room were your snores. They smiled at the sight in front of them, closing the door gently as they headed back down the stairs.

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The sunrays shone through your curtain, hitting your face. Your eyes fluttered open as you adjusted to the brightness. You realised that you fell asleep cuddling up to JAehyun, making your heart skip a beat. You looked at Jaehyun, noticing he is still asleep, which gave you time to admire his face properly. The sun hitting his skin made him look more ethereal, his honey skin glowing. His long lashes fluttering against his skin, his nose begging to be kissed as you looked at it, and that’s what you did. You lightly kissed his nose, seeing it scrunch up, making you panic as you thought you woke him up. Luckily he didn’t as he continued snoring lightly.

You continued to admire his face, leaning on your hand as you moved some hair out of his face. You were like that for a few more minutes until Jaehyun woke up, noticing you looking at him. He smiled as he saw you, bringing your body into him, burying his face in your neck.

“Good morning, love”, you said, playing with his hair. He hummed in response, still feeling tired. He placed kisses on your neck, tickling you, making you squeal. “Ok mister, let's get up”, you said as you went to get up, but got pulled back down on the bed. “No, let’s stay like this for a few more minutes, please”, Jaehyun said, his voice hoarse from sleep. You knew he wasn’t going to let you get away that easily, so you laid back down with him for a few more minutes, hoping you weren’t going to fall back asleep.

Luckily for you, you didn’t fall back asleep but the sleepy boy next to you did. Instead of leaving him there, you decided to climb on top of him, straddling his waist. You leaned down, pressing kisses all over his face, trying to wake him up. You felt him stir underneath you, but didn’t wake up. You pouted, opting for a different solution.

You remembered at one point, he told you that he was ticklish, and you smirked at the memory. You moved your hands to his waist, digging your fingers into it before tickling him. Jaehyun suddenly woke up, his body thrashing around as he started laughing. You didn’t stop, enjoying the sound of his laughter.

“Ok, I surrender, p-please stop”, Jaehyun said through laughter. You stopped the tickling session and got off him. “I’m hungry, can we get some breakfast now”, you pouted, earning an eye roll from him. “Let’s get some food in that cute tummy of yours, shall we?”, he said as he patted your stomach, making you chuckle.

You both went downstairs and headed into the kitchen. You sat down on the counter while Jaehyun prepared everything to make some breakfast. He started frying some bacon in a frying pan, putting some bread in the toaster while the bacon was frying.

Once everything was prepared, Jaehyun plated up breakfast. He placed 4 plates on the table, which had bacon, toast, eggs and sausages. Mr. and Mrs. Jung suddenly walked into the kitchen, the smell of food waking them up.

“That smells nice”, Mr. Jung said as he looked at the breakfast on the table. The four of you sat down at the table, digging into your breakfast. Small conversations between the four of you happened round the table, the atmosphere peaceful. “I could get used to this”, Jaehyun said, looking at you with a smile. “Waking up with my lover, cooking breakfast for the both of us”, his words made you smile as you continued eating your breakfast.

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Almost five years later, and you’re still together. You moved into an apartment together, you got yourself an office job. Yeah, you didn’t like it but it was good pay. Everything in your life was going well and it was perfect. Well, it was until recently.

It’s a week or so before Valentine’s Day, and you and Jaehyun had gotten rather distant. You argued a lot, the arguments mainly about not spending enough time together due to your job. You worked long hours, making it hard for the two of you to spend time together. Whilst you worked in an office, Jaehyun worked at a small coffee shop close to your apartment, so he didn’t have to walk far.

You both worked 9 to 5 jobs, but Jaehyun only worked 3 days a week, whilst you worked 5. You sometimes worked the weekends, but that was rare. Because of that, you only spent time together on the weekends, but you were too tired to do anything so you just spent time inside.

Also recently, you’ve noticed that you’ve slowly started falling out of love with Jaehyun, and honestly? It scared the shit out of you. You were worried this was going to happen to you eventually, and now it has, and you’re terrified.

The both of you were currently in the middle of another argument, Jaehyun yelling something along the lines of you not taking care of yourself and working extra hours. You were sick of it, all you wanted to do was rest but the moment you came home, he started yelling at you out of nowhere.

“Jaehyun, please, I’m tired. Can we do this another time?”, you asked nicely, not wanting to anger him even more. “You always say, ‘can we do this another time, ‘I’m tired’. Of course you’re fucking tired, you’re overworking yourself. I’m worried about you”, Jaehyun yelled, making you hold your head.

“You don’t need to worry about me, I am perfectly fine. Now can you please shut up, you’re annoying me with your constant shouting”, you said through gritted teeth. Jaehyun didn’t like the tone of your voice as he held the bridge of his nose. “You know, I hate us arguing all the time. It seems like the only thing we have been doing recently. I miss the old us where we used to go on cute dates and have fun”, Jaehyun said as he walked over to you slowly, putting his hands out to hold your hands, but the sudden gesture made you flinch slightly. You hoped Jaehyun didn’t notice it, but he did.

“Woah, what’s wrong?”, he asked, rather concerned. You took in a deep breath before clearing your throat. “Do you really want the truth?”, you said, not ready to tell him, but you had to. He nodded his head for you to carry on and you felt yourself welling up.

“The truth is… I feel like I’m falling out of love with you and I’m terrified. I’m terrified of losing you and losing myself”, you managed to say as a single tear trickled down your cheek. You saw the change in Jaehyun’s facial expression. From anger, to worried, to sadness.

Before Jaehyun could say anything, you ran towards the front door, grabbed your purse and keys, and opened the door, slamming it behind you. You walked towards the elevator, pressing the button. You waited for it to open, impatiently moving on the spot. You heard the sound of your name being called as the elevator opened, not bothering to turn around as you entered it.

You pressed the ground button, the doors closing. The elevator music was the only thing you could hear, the music annoying you. You reached the ground floor, the doors opening. You left the elevator, heading towards the front doors of the apartment building. It was then you noticed you’re still wearing your work clothes, but you didn’t care. The sound of your heels clicked against the pavement as you headed towards the nearest bar, wanting to drink to forget about your problems.

You reached the bar, opening the door and going inside. Luckily it only had a few people inside. You made your way to the bar, sitting on a stool. “Just a double vodka and coke please”, you asked the bartender, not taking a proper look at him as he made your drink.

You looked around the bar while waiting for your drink, noticing a few couples sitting at tables. The sight of the couples being all lovey dovey made you scowl, turning back around. “Here’s your drink, ma’am”, the bartender said, and that was when you looked at him. You grabbed your drink and just stared at him. He looks like an angel, one of his ears pointed, which you thought was cute. You didn’t realise you were staring until he cleared his throat.

“You ok, there? You uhh were staring”, the bartender awkwardly smiled at you. You apologised and downed your drink in one go, putting the glass back on the bar. “Another one please”, you asked, the bartender getting straight to it.

Another few double vodka and cokes later, you were starting to feel the effects of it. “You ok? You look rather stressed”, the bartender asked, looking rather worried for you. “Not really. Me and my boyfriend have been arguing recently and we had another argument before, and I admitted to him that I think I’m falling out of love with him and I’m scared”, you rambled on, the bartender listening to you.

“I’m sorry about that. Hey, this might sound strange since we’ve literally only just met but, how about I give you my number and you can call me if you ever need someone to talk to, ok?”, he said as he gave you a piece of paper, which had his phone number and his name.

Dong Sicheng

You may have had a few drinks, but you’re sober enough to know that his name sounded… different. “I hope this doesn’t come off as rude but, you’re not from Korea, are you?”, you asked as you tilted your head to the side. Sicheng laughed. “No, I’m actually from China, but I moved here a couple of years ago. Most people actually call me Winwin”, Winwin said as he smiled at you. God, that smile gave you butterflies in your stomach.

“Well, Winwin, I am y/n. And I’ll gladly take your phone number. I’ll give you mine, one sec”, you realised you didn’t have a pen on you, until Winwin gave you one. You grabbed his hand (with his permission of course), and wrote your phone number on it with a smiley face, making him chuckle.

You spent a couple of hours in the bar, just chatting to Winwin. The way he didn’t even try making you laugh, but you were laughing at everything he said. Maybe it was because you were drunk, which everyone around you could see, since you were laughing loudly.

“Ok y/n, I think you’ve had enough to drink, don’t you think? I don’t want you feeling the effects in the morning”, Winwin said rather worriedly, caring about your health. He may have only just met you, but it feels like he’s known you for ages. You were about to protest when you saw the look on his face, pouting. “Ok, I won’t have any more”, you said, huffing. Winwin snorted at your behaviour.

You went to get up to leave, but you ended up stumbling over, grabbing onto the stool. “Ok, you’ve definitely had enough to drink. Hey Kun, would you be able to look after the bar for a while, so I can make sure this young lady here gets home safe?”, Winwin said to his coworker, to which he agreed. Winwin came out from behind the bar and held you, making sure you didn’t fall over. He helped you leave the bar, an arm slung around your waist while your arm was slung over his shoulder.

He asked you where you lived, which you replied with your address, and he walked you home. You managed to reach your apartment building in a couple of minutes, mumbling out random words that Winwin can’t make out. The both of you went through the doors and headed towards the elevator, Winwin pressing the button for the doors to open.

You both got inside, Winwin pressing the button for the floor that you live on, the doors closing. The elevator started going up, the both of you waiting to reach your floor. “Are you going to be ok once you reach your apartment?”, Winwin asked you, hoping you were listening. “Yeahhhh, I’ll be fine. I just hope Jaehyun doesn’t give me shit for drinking”, you said, Winwin nodding along.

The elevator reached your floor with a ding, the doors opening. You both left, heading towards your apartment. You reached your door, Winwin knocking on it. You waited for a few minutes, the door opening to reveal a shirtless Jaehyun, his hair wet.

“y/n? Where the hell have you been? Why do you smell of alcohol? And who the fuck are you?”, Jaehyun asked, not intending to sound harsh, but he was worried when you randomly stormed out the apartment a few hours ago. “I’m Winwin and I was the bartender that gave y/n her drinks. Don’t worry, she’s not too wasted, she only had a few drinks before I stopped her. I wanted to make sure she got home safely so I came with her”, Winwin explained to the man in front of him, Jaehyun thanking him before taking you off him.

“Thanks again, man. I was worried sick for the last few hours”, Jaehyun said, Winwin nodding as he left, heading back towards the elevator. Jaehyun closed the door behind him and took you to the bathroom, cleaning your makeup off you since you were too tipsy to do it yourself. “I was worried sick when you randomly ran off like that. Just don’t do that again, ok?”, Jaehyun said, making you look at him.

“Yes dad”, you said with a laugh, Jaehyun rolling his eyes, kissing your now bare face. “Let’s get you changed and then get you a glass of water”, Jaehyun said softly, taking you towards your shared bedroom. He got a pair of comfy clothes, undressed you from your work clothes, threw them in the laundry basket, and put your comfy clothes on you. While you were sitting on the edge of your bed, Jaehyun went to the kitchen to get you a glass of water and some painkillers, so you didn’t have a major headache in the morning.

He went back to your shared bedroom, finding you now lying down on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. He went over to you with a glass of water and painkillers, asking you to sit up so you can take it, which you did. You took the painkillers and drank the glass of water, accidentally spilling some down yourself. You put the empty glass on your bedside table and lied back down again.

“Do you want me to lie down next to you? Or will you feel more comfortable if I laid down on the couch?”, Jaehyun asked, remembering what you said before you stormed out of the apartment. You didn’t respond as you were already fast asleep, little snores escaping you. He wanted to respect you so he took a blanket and a pillow and went to the living room, lying down on the couch.

He just laid there, looking up at the ceiling. All he could think about was your words. I feel like I’m falling out of love with you and I’m terrified. I’m terrified of losing you and losing myself. While you were fast asleep in the bedroom, Jaehyun couldn’t fall asleep for hours, his mind not shutting off.

He managed to fall asleep during the early hours of the morning, the clock striking 3am. The both of you slept until the afternoon, you waking up with a headache. It was bearable, but it was still annoying.

“Ow, my head. Why did I drink so much last night?”, you said as you stumbled out of bed, heading towards the kitchen, not even bothering to notice the body still asleep on the couch. You grabbed a glass and filled it with water, downing the whole glass. You put the glass in the sink and headed back towards your room, not even taking a glance in the living room.

While you were in your room, scrolling through your phone, you got a random message.

From unknown: hello there :D you probably don’t remember me but I’m the bartender that helped you last night, Winwin hehe. I hope the hangover isn’t too much for you

You vaguely remembered someone helping you last night, but it was still a blur. Still , you replied anyway.

From y/n: hello :D i remember you vaguely but since I had a bit to drink, everything is still a blur lmao. Thank you for helping me last night ^^

You replied back instantly, feeling yourself smiling as you waited for him to reply. The sound of your phone pinging indicates that he replied back, making butterflies form in your stomach. You texted back and forth for god knows how long, your focus on your phone as you block everything out. Well, that was interrupted when the bedroom door opened.

“What are you giggling at?”, Jaehyun said as he rubbed his eyes. You didn’t even realise you were giggling before he told you. “Oh, the guy that helped me last night? Well, he texted me asking me if I’m ok and he’s really sweet”, you said as he told Jaehyun about him (well, at least everything you remember).

You talking about another boy in front of him made Jaehyun feel annoyed. You’re still his girlfriend, why are you talking about someone else that isn’t him? You continued to talk about this ‘Winwin’ guy until he had enough.

“OK! Please shut up about him, you’re annoying me”, Jaehyun said, sounding more harsh than intended. You frowned at the sudden outburst. “Sorry, I guess I just got carried away”, you said softly, rubbing the back of your neck. Jaehyun felt guilty for lashing out at you, sighing. “Sorry for lashing out at you, I’m just tired”, he said, which wasn’t exactly wrong. He was annoyed at you, at himself, at the world. Maybe your words were the cause of it all. He just doesn’t want to lose you, but it seems like he already is.

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Over the next few days, you got more and more distant from Jaehyun as you talked more to Winwin. You actually ended up spending more time with him than you did in your own apartment. After work everyday, you went to the bar to have a drink, but mainly to talk to Winwin. You found yourself falling for him. The more you talk and hang out with him, the more you realise how sweet and kind he is. There’s only one thing you have to do though in order to be free.

You have to break up with Jaehyun.

After you left the bar (thankfully you were sober this time), you headed back to your apartment, thinking about the right words to say to Jaehyun. You entered the elevator, your heart beating faster as you got closer to your apartment.

The elevator dinged, alerting you that you’ve reached your floor. You left the elevator, walking towards your apartment. You opened the door, taking a deep breath as you went to find Jaehyun.

“Jaehyun?”, your voice sounded shaky, like you were about to start crying any minute. He walked out of the bathroom, sweaty and his tank top sticking to his body, his abs showing through. His muscular arms were on show, making your mouth water. It looks like he’s not long come back from the gym. That didn’t distract you from the main issue though.

“I-i need to tell you something”, you said, making Jaehyun furrow his brows. “What’s up love?”Jaehyun let the pet name slip, not realising it until you flinched. “I’m sorry that I have to tell you this but uh… we need to break up”, you said as you closed your eyes, not wanting to see the look on Jaehyun’s face.

“I knew the time was going to come eventually but, a few days before Valentine’s Day? That shit sucks”, Jaehyun said, chuckling bitterly, which shocked you. You were expecting him to be upset, but he was far from that.

“You’re not even upset? What the fuck?”, you asked confused. Surely he feels a bit upset over the breakup. “y/n, you’ve literally fucked me off and gone off with another guy. I’m more annoyed than anything else”, Jaehyun rolled his eyes at you, making you scoff.

“Ok mister, I have NOT fucked off with another guy. I literally told you that I’ve fallen out with you, unless that slipped your mind”, you said, your voice lower than usual. Jaehyun just laughed at that, which sounded rather sad. “Oh I remember that perfectly clear”, he said, walking towards the kitchen.

“Look, it’s not my fault I’ve fallen out with you. It just happened. That happens to a lot of people and honestly? Just be fucking glad I actually told you instead of cheating on you”, you huffed, making Jaehyun turn around to look at you.

“What is that supposed to mean?”Jaehyun asked as he narrowed his eyes. “I was at the bar today, the one that Winwin works at? Yeah, I was going to kiss him, but decided not to because even though I have fallen out of love with you, we’re still in a relationship and I didn’t want to cheat, because that’s fucking wrong”, you explained, making Jaehyun sigh.

“So, what are we going to do then? We still live together, you know? It’s going to be awkward for us since there’s only one bed”, Jaehyun said, of which he has a point. You thought about it and an idea popped into your head. “We have the spare room, right? One of us can sleep in there”, you said as Jaehyun thought about it.

“Tell you what. Before either of us finds somewhere else to live, why don’t I sleep in the spare room. Unless you want to kick me out”, you said, the last sentence rather bitter.

“As much as I would love to kick you out, you can sleep in the spare room”, Jaehyun said as he walked away, leaving you alone in the kitchen. You sighed, feeling slightly glad that you managed to do it, but also feeling guilty. I mean, it was for the best, right? You didn’t want to lead him on, so you had to break up with him.

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It was now Valentine’s Day, and Jaehyun’s birthday, and to say you were excited was an understatement. It was your day off and you were going on a date with Winwin. You also remembered the gift that you got for Jaehyun, which was under your bed.

“Happy birthday Jae, I hope you like your present”, you said as you gave him a small bag, waiting impatiently to open it. He opened the bag slowly, finding a velvet box. He opened it to reveal a silver watch, his eyes widening. “You got me a watch? Thank you y/n”, he said as he smiled. “Ok, I gotta go get ready now”, you said as you squealed in excitement.

“Get ready? For what?”, Jaehyun asked, his eyebrows furrowing. “I have a date with Winwin. He’s taking me to a fancy restaurant and I’m excited. I’ve never been to a restaurant before”, you said, your voice filled with happiness as you got yourself ready. Jaehyun felt jealousy bubble up inside him, seeing you happy about going on a date with someone, a few days after the both of you broke up. He suddenly felt angry, but decided not to show it as he put on a fake smile.

“That’s great. I hope the date goes well”, he said as he entered the spare room, slamming the door. The sudden loud noise made you jump, your body froze. You didn’t know that you going on a date would make him angry, but you didn’t blame him. Maybe he was still getting over the break up.

You looked through your wardrobe, wondering what to wear. Since it’s Valentine’s Day, you wanted to choose something red. You found a red dress, which you haven’t worn before, and took it out. It was an above the knee dress with a v-neck. You put the dress on the bed, getting everything you need to get a shower.

You headed into the bathroom, making sure the door was locked before un stripped your clothes off, putting them inside the laundry basket. You turned the shower on, making sure it was the right temperature before getting in.

You stepped under the water, the warm water running down your back, relaxing you. You grabbed your fruity shampoo and squirted some in your hand, and lathered it into your hair. You washed it out, and proceeded to do the same with the conditioner.

You finished washing yourself in the shower, and then got out, wrapping a towel around your body. You left the bathroom, heading towards the bedroom quickly, not wanting Jaehyun to see you like that. Yeah, he’s seen you naked before but you're not in a relationship anymore.

You sat in front of the vanity table, drying your hair, brushing through it. Once your hair was dry, you proceeded to get yourself ready. You slipped on your red dress over your underwear, zipping up the back. Unfortunately, your arms aren't long enough so you couldn’t zip it all the way up. That means asking Jaehyun for help.

You left the room and knocked on the door to the spare room, waiting for the signal for you to go in. “Sorry to bother you but, could you please help me with my dress?”, you asked as you turned around, moving your hair so the zipper was easier to get to. The sight in front of him made him gasp. He tried to keep his hormones in check as he helped you with the zipper, trailing his fingers up your back in the process.

Once the zipper was up, he put his hands either side of your neck, squeezing the skin. You suddenly felt uncomfortable as you flinched. “Ok, thank you Jaehyun, I’ll leave you alone now”, you said quickly as you left the room, closing the door behind you. Jaehyun smirked at the way you reacted, sitting back down on the bed.

You entered the bedroom again, sitting back down at the vanity table to do your hair and makeup. You did a simple brown smokey eye, applying the eyeliner and mascara on. You then did your foundation and concealer, and contour your cheekbones and jawline. You then did a bold red lip to finish the look.

You curled your hair and added accessories to your outfit, like a necklace and earrings. You looked at yourself in the mirror for a moment, holding the necklace that you were wearing. It was the necklace that Jaehyun gave you the night he asked you to be his girlfriend, and you were contemplating whether to wear it, or take it off. You loved the necklace, but it also brought back memories. You weren’t together anymore, so was it worth keeping it?

You took it off and replaced it with a simple chain, putting it on. You took another look at yourself in the mirror before standing up, going to put your shoes on. You chose a pair of black heels, and grabbed your black leather jacket (the jacket was sort of your signature look). Your phone pinged, receiving a message. You checked your phone and saw a message from Winwin.

From Winwin: I’m outside :D I’ll see you in a bit xx

You find it adorable how he always used emojis whenever he texted you. You grabbed your phone, purse and keys, and put your jacket on. “I’m leaving”, you shouted to Jaehyun, seeing him come out of the spare room. He took a glance at you, and his eyes shifted to your chest. He saw your cleavage, and he suddenly got jealous that someone else was going to see you like this. He didn’t like that, but he didn’t want to cause a scene.

You noticed he was staring at you for a bit too long, and you cleared your throat. “My eyes are up here, you know?”, you said, feeling a bit uncomfortable. Jaehyun finally looked at your face and a fake smile was plastered on it. Well, you didn’t need to know that it was fake.

“Bye! Enjoy your date with lover boy”, Jaehyun said rather sarcastically, making you roll your eyes in annoyance. You left the apartment, slamming the door behind you, the loud noise making Jaehyun jump. His anger started to show as his eyebrows furrowed and his breathing got heavier. He punched the wall beside him, making a hole in the wall. He let out a scream of frustration, hurt and anger.

You were too far ahead to hear the scream as you entered the elevator, pressing the button to the ground floor. The doors closed and started going down, the elevator music, once again, annoying you. You really wished they changed the damn music.

You reached the ground floor as the doors opened, leaving the elevator. You made your way to the front doors, seeing Winwin standing in front of his car. You didn’t realise that he was rich as standing before you was a red Ferrari, a very handsome and dressed up Winwin leaning against it. Your jaw dropped, making Winwin chuckle. “I didn’t want you riding in a pickup truck to a fancy restaurant, so I thought it’d be nice if we rode inside a ferrari”, Winwin said as he took a good look at you.

“You look beautiful, m’lady”, Winwin said as he bowed, making you giggle. “You look very handsome”, you said to him, making him blush. You’ve never made a boy blush before so you felt happy. During your relationship with Jaehyun, he was the one who always made you blush, so making someone blush made you feel powerful in a way.

Winwin let you in the car, opening the door for you. He closed the door when he saw you were buckled up, and got in the drivers side. He started the car, the engine roaring as it came to life. He drove off, heading for the restaurant.

Whilst you two were having fun at the restaurant, Jaehyun was in the apartment getting all worked up, the feeling of anger and jealousy getting stronger. He was sitting in the living room, balling his hands into fists. The glass coffee table in front of him just annoyed him for some reason, so he tipped it up, the table shattering into tiny pieces, some of the shards hitting his arms and face, grazing the skin.

That was what turned a switch on inside of him, making him destroy the entire apartment. Broken picture frames, glass shards all over the floor, furniture flipped upside down and the entire apartment was a mess. He let out a scream, not caring if he disturbs his neighbours. He was beyond caring at this point, his anger and jealousy taking over him.

You and Winwin were happily eating a meal together, drinking wine. The night was going well. You were sitting on a balcony, overlooking the city of Seoul as the sun got replaced with the moon, stars shining in the sky. The food was amazing, the staff were really sweet and the whole atmosphere in the restaurant made you feel comfortable.

The date was unfortunately coming to an end as Winwin paid for the meal, thanking the waiters as you left the restaurant. You walked hand in hand, going for a walk before Winwin took you home.

“I don’t want this night to end, I’ve enjoyed spending time with you. I hope I get to see you more”, Winwin said, smiling at you. The way his hand fits in your perfectly, the warmth and softness of his palm making you not want to let go.

“I really hope I get to see more of you too”, you said shyly, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear. Winwin placed a kiss on your cheek, his lips warm against your skin. They lingered on your cheek for a moment, Winwin contemplating whether or not he should give you a proper kiss. That was when you decided to be bold and moved your face, his lips pressing against yours in a short but sweet kiss.

The sudden gesture made the both of you shy as you both giggled, heading back towards Winwin’s car. You both got in, and Winwin drove off once you were both buckled up. The radio was playing, some rock band playing on it. The windows were open, the breeze hitting you in the face as Winwin drove along the road.

You reached your apartment as you were laughing at something Winwin had said, and the car stopped. You both got out, hand in hand as you entered the apartment building. You entered the elevator and went up to your floor.

The elevator reached your floor as it dinged, the doors opening. You left the elevator, walking hand in hand towards your apartment. You grabbed your keys, put them in the keyhole and unlocked the door. The door opened and all you saw was black. Everything was dark since all the lights were off, confusing both you and Winwin.

“Jae?”, your voice wavered as you called out to him, entering the apartment, Winwin following behind you. As you walked further into the apartment, trying to find the lightswitch, you felt something break under your feet.

“Ah, I see you’re back. And you’ve brought lover boy with you”, the sound of his voice was close, but you couldn’t find him. “You know, I was going to enjoy my time with you after you came back after your date, but since you brought your lover boy, I’m going to have even more fun with you”, Jaehyun’s voice sounded different. He sounded more sinister and his voice deeper than usual.

“Jae, where are you?”, you asked, still trying to find the light, but it was too dark so you couldn’t. Plus, you have had a bit to drink, so your coordination wasn’t the best. Thankfully Winwin was still behind you as he grabbed your hand, squeezing it.

Suddenly, the lights turned on and your eyes adjusted to the brightness. That was when you noticed the mess of the apartment: glass on the floor, broken picture frames, furniture tipped over, a hole in the wall.

“Hello sweetheart”, was the last thing you heard before everything went black.

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When you came to, you found yourself strapped to a chair in your bedroom, Winwin nowhere to be seen. “Winwin!”, you shouted out, hoping he would answer you. He didn’t answer you, but he was thrown into the bedroom with you, Jaehyun pushing him to the ground.

“Now, you two be good and stay there for me, ok?”Jaehyun said as he left the bedroom, heading somewhere inside the apartment, which you were too scared to find out. You heard banging coming from the kitchen, wondering what he was up to.

He soon came back with a few sharp knives, a scalpel (you don’t even know why you have that) and some duct tape. That made you fucking terrified. What the hell is he planning? All different types of scenarios ran through your head, making you panic even more. You’re not ready to die yet.

Jaehyun could sense the fear in your face as he chuckled. “Oh don’t worry sweetheart, I’m not going to touch you. At least, not yet”, he smirked at you as you whimpered. He put the tools on the bed and then went over to Winwin, dragging his body over towards the bed, letting out a scream.

“If you stop screaming, this will be easier for me”, Jaehyun said, Winwin still screaming. “Get off me, you fucking psychopath”, Winwin kicked him in the face, making him fall backwards. As Winwin was about to leave the room, Jaehyun grabbed him and threw him on the bed. He then grabbed the duct tape and taped Winwin’s mouth, his screams now muffled.

“Jaehyun! What the fuck is wrong with you?!?”, you asked, voice laced with anger, fear and disbelief. “Oh baby, don’t act all dumb. You know you’re the reason I’m like this. Now shut up”, Jaehyun snarled at you, shutting you up.

After he finished taping up Winwin’s legs, and tied his hands together, he unbuttoned his shirt to reveal his toned chest. He then grabbed the scalpel, gliding it across the skin, making Winwin whimper. “JAEHYUN, STOP! PLEASE!”, you cried out, not wanting him to kill Winwin. “I-i’ll do anything. Hell, I’ll even go back to you, as long as you don’t kill Winwin, please”, your makeup now ruined from crying, you pleaded for him to stop.

“Aww darling, you really think I’m going to believe that?”Jaehyun said, digging the scalpel deeper into Winwin’s chest, earning a muffled scream from him, you struggling against the restraints.

A trail of blood appeared on Winwin’s chest as the scalpel cut him open, making him feel faint. He passed out within a few minutes, making Jaehyun disappointed. “The poor boy passed out on me! I was hoping he would stay awake to see the fear on your face, but guess we can’t get what we want all the time”, Jaehyun said as he chuckled darkly, earning a scream from you.

As time went on, the scene in front of you got messier. Blood splattered on you and Jaehyun, covering your clothes. The Jaehyun in front of you was unrecognisable, you didn’t even know who he was anymore. You kept screaming, hoping your neighbours would hear you and do something.

Suddenly, Jaehyun ripped Winwin’s heart out from his chest, making you scream out of terror. “You can’t date lover boy if he doesn’t have a heart, can you?”, Jaehyun said as he got up, walking over to you as you were shaking in fear.

“Happy fucking Valentine’s Day, baby”, Jaehyun said as you were whimpering, tears still streaming down your face. The sound of police sirens could be heard in the distance, hoping that one of your neighbours had called the police.

Your gut feeling was right as, not even a few minutes later, the door was busted down, a police officer tackling Jaehyun to the ground, handcuffing him. A female officer untied you from the chair, helping you up. “You ok, ma’am? He didn’t hurt you, did he?”, she asked you, to which you shook your head no.

“We only broke up a few days ago. I went out on a date today and everything was going great, until we came here. My ex boyfriend murdered my date. I didn’t even get to say bye to him”, you were a crying mess, the female officer comforting you.

Winwin’s dead body was taken away in a body bag, you watching them as you continued to shake. You literally have no one to turn to now, feeling all alone. Your father died in a car accident, your mother killed herself, your ex boyfriend got arrested for murdering your date.

The only thing you can do now is start a new life by moving somewhere that nobody knows you. You don’t think you’re going to be in another relationship for a long time. Or ever. Because of what happened, Jaehyun has ruined the experience for you, and ruined your life.

It took you a long time to recover from the traumatic experience, and you were left with nightmares and panic attacks. You had to see a therapist because of it, and luckily, your therapist was really patient with you and made you feel comfortable. Your therapist's name was Johnny, and he was only 2 years older than you. You found him rather attractive, and whenever you were around him, you felt safe, the safest you’ve been since that day.

Little did you know, he was secretly a murderer, and you were his next victim.

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