#wishing you the best possible care :)

[fickes]

hiiiiii

as a pre top surgery transmasc i adore your art so much. it makes me so happy and gives me hope that someday i too will be able to get top surgery!

okay so i like asking peoples personal experiences, so what were the most interesting things about getting ready for top surgery, the surgery itself or the recovery process in your eyes?

also how long did it take to get off of the binder after the surgery? thats the part i worry about the most bc i cant wear a binder bc my lungs are inept (affectionate) so i worry how thatll go but i mean itll be worth it obviously.

anyway whatever you are comfortable sharing about the surgery process, id love to hear it!!! have a great rest of your day

Thanks so much :) I'm answering this publicly in case other people find this information useful, but let me know if it's a problem and I'll take it down right away. Also feel free to message me with any follow-up questions.

I should let you know a lot of my comics are a bit dramatized for comedic purposes. I don't lie at all but sometimes I phrase things to be funny, not accurate ;)

Let's get into it - first of all, speaking as someone who needed top surgery but felt it was a pipe dream for soso long, I'll say a) it was well worth the wait and b) it wasn't nearly as hard as I expected it to be, both logistically and physically. I had the advantage that I live in a pretty liberal state in transgender law and financial aid, but the disadvantage of having a few medical conditions that I expected to make the surgery pretty hard on me (and that blocked me a little in terms of getting medical permission). If you live in the USA, I may have more specific legal guidelines for you if you want it.

In terms of the binder! I actually have a chest deformity that made wearing a binder extremely painful and probably damaging. I usually had to opt for sports bras etc., and this was a big concern for me, too, in terms of the binder that you have to wear after surgery. The vest the hospital gave me was problematic because it didn't fit me right and was causing a lot of pain. I'm not sure if my deformity had to do with it or not. But the point is: I told them the problem, and they gave me the option of just going out and buying Under Armour compression sportswear. This SAVED me, and it was FAR less painful than any binder or binder substitute I've ever worn. I could wear it 24/7 and barely even notice the pain, and it was only about $20 online. This is definitely worth asking about ahead of time to any potential surgeon. Even if this particular solution doesn't work for your case, they probably have others. There are a lot of us with bad lungs/ribs!

I was required to wear the compression shirt for 6 weeks. After that, I've chosen to continue wearing it on and off because I still have a little swelling. They expect that to be done by 6 months.

The worst parts were the vest (before I replaced it with the sportswear) and the drains. The worst part about the drains is they do hurt, and if the tubes shift at all you can feel it inside your body (BAD feeling). Unlike everything else, they were gradually hurting more the longer I had them. I got them out after a week, and after that recovery was no problemo at all. The drains are the hard part - I think most people agree with me on this one. Some people experience pain getting them removed, too, but for me it just felt a little weird.

The most interesting thing to me was the result itself. The wound, the bruising, the stitches, the glue, and the scars. Watching my own skin heal itself into a new shape was fascinating! I was allowed to change the dressing on day 2 and it was a pretty gruesome sight, but it also felt RIGHT. I was expecting a difficult adjustment. Even with the gender euphoria, a lot of trans people say they felt woozy or strange when they first saw the results. It can take a long time for your brain to adjust to your new shape. But for some reason, for me, it just immediately felt right. It's already hard to imagine my chest having ever been different.

#ask #top surgery journal #wishing you the best possible care :)

[uncanny-tranny]

Do you think that terfs will calm down with hating on trans women once womb transplants are a thing? Because their whole argument is that "trans women aren't women because no womb uwu"

No, because that frankly isn't their whole argument. They don't argue against trans women solely because "no womb," and if womb transplants were a viable and safe measure, that would absolutely not be a good argument to calm their grievances - a transphobe doesn't deal in a genuine care for others, it a disgust response.

Transphobes already have issues with trans women getting FFS, vaginas, and hell, they even have issues with trans women being fem (or masc), even if they say, "we're okay with gender nonconformity!" as a cover. Because, again, it is a disgust response that blooms in response to their own transohobia, it isn't about being able to debate them, really.

Additionally, with my experience of dealing with that kind of extreme reactionary transphobe, they don't fucking care if they're wrong. Like, do you know how many times I've talked to a TERF who tells me I only transition because of misogyny, only to then talk in circles once I say, "misogyny against me had only increased since I have transitioned to male, plus, I never faced misogyny before I transitioned," because again, it isn't about the trans people themselves per se, it's about this viseral disgust response. It is them trying to reason with their discomfort with hatred. That isn't going to go away when trans care expands or becomes even more advanced.

I really want to stress how important it is to not whittle their whole argument down to "[trans women*] don't have wombs," because you will end up missing a lot of trans people who are affected by this type of extreme reactionary transphobia.

#ask #anon #transphobia #transphobia tw #terf tw #terf mention tw #like... hatred toward trans women has existed for a *long* time not at the fault of trans women either mind you... #...but because of that... a surgery alone will not change the hearts of a person already stewing in their hatred of trans people #and frankly... i wouldn't care about changing their minds really because at some point there is only so much you can do #but like... i have had terfs wish death and assault on me for being a trans guy and it's like... #...surely if their WHOLE grievance about trans people were 'no womb' that wouldn't be a thing right? #and what about intersex trans women who may well HAVE a womb? do they get treated well by them? #no because intersexness AND trans people are something abhorred in spaces like that #so it's in our best interest to defend and include as many of us as we possibly can #i'm not angry at anon btw u guess i'm kind of... intrigued at how the reasoning works #this rant is more general which is why it is in the tags. #if i posted a fraction of some of the anons i've gotten lol....

[dmclemblems]

people before three hopes: rodrigue doesn’t care about his son

my son

my son

thank you for taking such good care of my son

how fortunate he’s my son all the same I’m glad he has you to look after him

#Three Houses #Rodrigue #rodrigue calls him ''my son'' at every possible opportunity and i think that is very nice for him #if he truly wanted to distance himself from his own child then he would use his name and not refer to him #as specifically his child bc it would remind him/others that they're father and son #don't know why yuri knows what he knows but u know what it's yuri so i won't question it he just knows shit #but look rodrigue has always wished the best for felix even if felix didn't want anything to do with him #he never stopped trying to be a father to him or have a relationship with him #even with felix being so snappy and rude rodrigue still acknowledged him every chance he got and cared abt him #he's happy that byleth is his teacher bc he feels that he can't get through to felix and he's happy someone is around felix who can #in he can't do it he just wants to know someone else is out there who can care for him in the ways he can't #imo it's always been very clear and obvious that he loves felix and i don't think he was ever a BAD father #ppl just love smacking on that bad dad label without even paying attention to what's going on #it's not even fckn subtext lmfao it's literally right in your face #it's not his fault if felix doesn't want to talk to him and pushes him away. there's only so much he can do about that #he can at least still care about him and appreciate others being there for him #if you have a child who doesn't want to deal with you then as a parent you can still cherish them and see them as your kid #you can still want the best for them and talk about them to others and see how they're doing #no matter how much grief felix would give him anything at all rodrigue was still a parent to him #he didn't just call off being a parent to him bc of felix's feelings. he just dealt with it and continued doing what he could #you don't just stop being a parent bc your kid acts like that. rodrigue certainly didn't stop even in houses

[amarantoestrella]

Had my first patient pass away today.

#tw death #she was on hospice and it was her time #I feel at peace that she is no longer suffering. I wish her eternal comfort a peace. #I know she was very loved #and she lived a very long life #and I did ny best to keep her as comfortable as possible #still… my heart is so heavy and full of hurt #and God knows when I gave her family members hugs I needed them just as much as they did #please know that even though we don’t stay in your lives for long.. your nurses truly do care for you with their whole hearts #I really do come to love all of my patients

[boltgunkiller-archive]

time to watch born this way aka the most irritating episode ever

#NOT ACTUALLY. i enjoy this episode. i have fun with it #but will’s treatment of emma’s ocd makes me genuinely furious #forget everything else the fact he pressures her so heavily into putting ocd on her shirt is egregious #with carl you could see he genuinely cared for emma and wanted to help out the best that he could #i honestly wished they were endgame #but with will??? he literally was like “air out your mental health struggles that you’re still struggling to get support with. Right now. t #a ton of possibly judgemental teenagers. this is definitely going to help you. Also i’m going to trigger an ocd panic attack but it’s fine #because i DEFINITELY know what i’m doing because i have a crush on you.“ #also might i add will’s the definition of that “consensual work-place relationship” thing ned from try guys had going on #like multiple times he was so. weird for that (ignoring literally everything else he’s done btw like he’s very obviously weird #in other ways too…) #ughhhh. the way he treats emma makes me so MAD. he wasn’t supportive at all and clearly didn’t want her to get help #he wanted to fix her but he ended up making her even worse #idk why they just let that happen either but Okay #sorry 🫤 i am so irritated by him. freak #gleeposting

[lecliss]

I finished the special story in Connections and it got me to bawl my eyes out so bad. That story was so much more meaningful and emotional and impactful than the entirety of Naruto itself. What the fuck do you mean it was written by Kishimoto????? He did NOT write something for a side story in one of the ultimate ninja storm games and make it better than anything he's ever done before. There's just no fucking way.

#i fucking hate when filler and non canon side stuff is like. better than canon lmao #and not cuz like. filler doesnt deserve it ooo fuck filler whatever NO!!!!! BECAUSE IF ITS GOOD PEOPLE STILL DONT WATCH AND THEN CALL YOU #A LOSER EVEN BOTHERING WITH FILLER!!!!! FUCK OFF!!!! FUCK NARUTO AND FUCK SASUKE AND YOU KNOW WHAT. EVEN FUCK OBITO #NO THIS IS ABOUT BORUTO AND NANASHI AND HOW THAT WAS THE BEST NARUTO AND YES EVEN BORUTO CONTENT EVER CREATED #AND NO ONES GOING TO CARE BECAUSE WAAAA FILLER IS STUPID AND IT SUCKS WAAAAA SUCK MY COCK #the best most emotional arc in bleach is fucking filler. the connections side story is barely even filler when its for a fucking VIDEO GAME #ITS NOT FUCKING FAIRRRRRRRR!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #that was the best naruto content ever. better than even blood prison by a loooooong shot #it just fucked me up man. it really really fucked me up and REALLY got to me #i started getting pissed off how far down the rabbit hole it is of content people actovely DONT want #its an original side story in a game people play for the pvp. its boruto related. ITS FILLER as in no relation to the #plot written by ikemoto #its boruto and its filler and what could people possibly hate more? boruto filler. #but nanashi was an amazing character and bort proved once again that hes the bestest boy in the whole wide world #and not to mentiom merz was really really hot when he took the bandages off his face. im SORRY BUT ITS TRUEEEEE LOOK AT HIM!!!!! FUCK DUDE #and message was so so beautiful and so was the animation and the effects. and just. GOD. they could have made that a movie #MAAAAN i wish it was!!!! that woulda made an INCREDIBLE movie!!!!! #im not gonna get over this. i will always be obsessed with this. holy shit #also im sorry mitsuki but i ship BoruNana/BoruHika now. #at least with nanashi i dont have to worry about her whole character getting thrown to the wayside since her story's already over #now this is reminding me of the anime throwing ryogi away even tho his relationship with shikadai made me feral #just cuz that wasnt an arc in the manga!!! WHICH WAS STILL TOTALLY IN AN ERA OF THEM HAVING ALMOST NOTHING TO DO WITH EACH OTHER #thats what fuckin shoulda happened. the anime and manga should have stayed wildly different stories #i hate how all the original plots that the anime started with got shafted to follow the manga's story #ryogi didnt matter. KAGURA DIDNT FUCKING MATTER CUZ THEY KILLED HIM OFF LATER CUZ I GUESS I NON-MANGA CHARACTER DOESNT MATTER #FUCK OFF!!!!!!! #i hate it here. i fucking hate naruto. leave me alone i need to wallow. im going to wallow brb. i need a wallow sesh #personal

[roselise]

I'm praying for your fast recovery, my dearest friend 🙏🤍

✿ ⊹゜・．🧸 ♡

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⊹ . ˚ . 　🎀 . ♡

　　

　 🧸 ⊹　✿ ˚ . * . 🤍 ~ !

I am happy squealing right now . . it’s my bestie !!!

*My bestie my bestie my bestie* !!!!! ♡ ♡ ♡

Eee !! I always get so excited when I see you hehe :D

There are so many words in my head, and things I want to say now!

(Hugs ! More hugs ! Also *more* hugs ! My Reis bestie is amazing ! I am so happy we’re friends ! I feel so blessed to know you ! You always know just when I need encouragement ! And I’m *so* grateful for that ! I am so happy right now . . meep! Too many thoughts ;-;)

Mostly though, I just want to say I love you and thank you more than I could ever say !!

Cus it genuinely means a lot to me to have a friend like you who cares about me ♡ ♡

*Aaand* that I’m praying for you, too, always !! For you to be safe, have bright & beautiful days, and that you find lots of little moments of happiness all throughout your week :D

Okay . . ! I’m shipping myself off to you now with lots of love, strawberries, and my puppies !! ♡

(Pepper and Nutmeg say ‘hi’ by the way! Not only am I doing better, but they’re doing great, too !! They have so many cute new sweaters I gotta show you when I find time! )

Take care, my kind, wonderful, and truly special friend! I wish you the absolute best day ever today ~ !!!

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XOXO ~ ! 🤍 ⊹ . ˚ . 🎀 . ♡

#<3 #ask #reis bestie ! :D #thank you for checking on me <3 #you always know when i’m not feeling good #and you’re always there <3 #i’m recovering very well !! #i think because i’m trying as much as possible to take it easy for once #and actually take care of myself !! XD #it means the world to me that you cared and wished me well <3 #thank you more than I could ever put into words #for being such a good friend !! #i adore you to the moon and back :D #and to the stars !! #sending hugs hearts and so much happiness to you !!! #take care and all the best to you ~ !! <3 #xo ! <3 #🧁 ♡ * . ⊹ ˚ 🧸 🤍

[catboyrightsdefender]

personal pet peeve: when ppl add a (bad) image description to an artwork that isn't theirs

#.txt #artwork by an artist who is still alive it goes without saying #first of all describing an artwork‚ even more in the case of a description aimed towards visually impaired people‚ is a skill you have to #learn (unless you're the artist‚ then you can do what you want even though it's always nice to learn the basics and be able to describe your #art with the best possible words to convey what you wish to convey) #a description should be done with care. i see so many bad descriptions lol its almost giving the artwork a disservice #+ there's the problem of AIs. adding descriptions to artworks might make them easier to be 'stolen' and used by AI. maybe the artist cares #about that #personally i wouldnt like it if someone added a bad description to my art #but that's just my opinion etc etc

[franzmasc]

i would love ace attorney if people could be the slightest fraction of logical about it come on guys

#sorry. my friend keeps sending me screenshots from the aa5 video essay and it makes me so incredibly mad #just 5 hours of repetitive vapid points with little to no meaningful insight delivered in the most mind-numbing format possible #5 hours. no audio. you have to sit down for five hours to receive takes about juniper and clay being good characters actually #about how the issue with apollo in aa5 is. misogyny ? but actually turnabout academy is the best case... #moth gets tumblr cancelled arc. i don't CARE #i DO love ace attorney but i wish i still wanted to actually talk about it publically #mothposting #might delete later ^_^

[i-am-the-balancing-point]

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#suddenly you meet a person and from the very first second you care so much and so deeply about them and you begin to discover the affection #and attraction is mutual #then one day #you learn they were brought up in a cult and the implications of it hit you like a truck #how much has been taken from them by a stupid fucking cult #their entire childhood sacrificed to a cause with no purpose #almost teenage years too and still parts of their adulthood #I am so incredibly angry at the people who failed to care for them the way they were supposed to #the hate has been burning through my guts like coals #and despite all that has been done to them they are still so incredibly kind #so thoughtful #so loving #and I cannot help but become even angrier because I am certain they were or could have been #such a joyful child #carefree and radiant #instead they deserved nothing of what they got #all the abuse they had to go through #I wish I could turn back time and protect them #and while they seem to cope with it in the best way I assume possible #my anger remains and it is tearing me apart #more of what I could describe and and with words rn #Gigi babbles #we love our silly fictional video game cult but the reality of it is unimaginably painful

[bookwyrminspiration]

Response to an ask from Ophelia:

(this is the hopeless one)

Hey, you don't have to apologize for anything. i know it's super easy to do because sometimes (or more than just sometimes) it's hard to exist, but you don't ever have to apologize for going through something or struggling. Not to me, and not to anyone. Apologies are for when you've made mistakes and hurt people, and that's not what you're doing.

I don't know what happened or what's going on, but I think it might help you to find something steady. It's easy to say that everything is falling apart, but how much is really falling apart? It might be a lot of things, yes, but it can't be everything. Everything is so many things, it's highly improbably that all things are falling apart, even when it feels like it. Finding something or a few things that are consistent might help negate that feeling--for example, I'm still here. I'm still posting silly things about the books I read. Your room probably looks similar to how it always has. The sun is going to rise and set at about the same time tomorrow as it did today. There are things that are still going to be as they are, which I've found helps me recuperate when other things feel like they're all changing and out of my control and falling apart. I don't know if it'll help you too, but I figured I'd suggest it just in case

It could also help to count what's wrong or upsetting you, if you're like me and that kind of organization is helpful. One time I had an absolutely horrible day and wanted nothing more than to absolutely collapse into bed by like 2pm and not doing anything else, but the day was still going and things were still happening and I still wasn't enjoying any of it. But when I went back through the day in my head, there were only 3-4 things that'd made it like that and they'd taken over my head. A bad appointment, a second appointment in a new place I was nervous about, and a headache that made everything more exhausting. But it was three things on one day, which isn't as bad as I thought it was when I put it in perspective. Can three be a lot? Yeah, but I gave that day a number and it made it easier to understand. It also helps me stop the "everything is awful and overwhelming" feeling, because I know it's those specific three things and they have names now, it's not just persistent inscrutable bad everywhere. It might not help you, but it's another option to try and deal with things :)

As for the hopelessness, that's gotta be one of the worst emotions to get stuck with. It's just so...pervasive. It gets everywhere and just settles into your body and suddenly everything gets dim. But it is an emotion, not a permanent state of being. It likes to trick you into thinking it never ends, but it does. It comes and it goes, and no matter how bad it is right now that's not how it'll be forever. That's what I usually remind myself, that no matter what I'm going through right now, it's not going to be like that forever. I know that's hard to believe, I know that I just sound too optimistic and naive and probably like I'm repeating a useless rhetoric, but I promise you that it isn't permanent. There is another side to it all, no matter how bad it gets. And that's true for you too; if you can't believe it, I'll believe it for you until you can <3

So I focus on the little things, because they're simple and easier to find and they're a reminder that there's better things on the other side, no matter how bad I feel. How pretty that flower is, a comforting smell, the feeling of your favorite outfit, a warm shower, colorful bookshelves, stunning art online of things I like. It doesn't have to be anything big, but finding little things makes it easier to find bigger things, and that makes it easier to get through.

I'm so so sorry that you're going through this, and I wish there was more I could do to help. And if what works for me doesn't work for you, that doesn't mean that nothing will work and that it's useless to try. Everyone responds to things differently and no technique is universal. Even for people with a lot in common. They're there as suggestions to try and give you starting places or inspiration for your own coping mechanisms, should you want to try them.

I hope the hopelessness fades soon and you can take a breather. Emotionally, I am dimming the lights and putting on your favorite song (if you have one) to try and help you through this

#quil's queries #ophelia nonsie #long post #not knowing what to do is the worst. it just leaves you so stranded with so many possibilities and also nothing at the same time #and no clue how to proceed but desperate to get out of there #it's terrifying #it's sharp and stings and expands in the back of your head and yet it's so dull you can't do anything about it #at least that's how it feels #you can do things #you can cope and you can get through it #and it is worth it #all this to say that I care about you and hope that you're safe. i'm wishing you the absolute best

[rosicheeks]

I think (unless tumblr has changed) you can block anons and then it'll pop up in your blocked people's list and you should be able to see who sent it. Atleast that's how it went a while ago.

Yeah I’m pretty sure that’s how it was awhile ago but I have no clue if it’s still like that.

#also there’s no way of really knowing who sent it #i have so many people in my blocked list it’s ridiculous #you’d assume they would be the one on top but who knows #also I don’t really care who sent it #i just hope they get the help they need #and I really hope they don’t send shit like that to someone who’s in a dark place #I’ve gotten plenty of rude and creepy anons #and a few anon hate #i feel like it’s just apart of being on tumblr which fucking sucks #it’s just………. #sending anon hate is a big *yikes* #that’s some teenager shit #and if you’re a teenager? get off my blog cause no minors are allowed #and if you’re an adult? #i feel bad for you #i genuinely wish the best for everyone I meet #life is hard enough #my goal in life is to spread as much love and happiness as possible #so I hope that previous anon figures out why they felt the need to send that #but whatever #they blocked ✌️ #thanks for the suggestion hun #💖💖💖 #ask #anon

[littlehollyleaf]

So. Those Dead Boy Detectives, huh?

#gay love confession as part of an ~escape from (super)hell? #who knew it was possible! #(also listen i went into the show 100% thinking the boys were brothers #i cannot even tell you the ~delight at Edwin's romantic feelings not only being genuine #but the development of them being a core part of the plot #i mean damn) #epic found family stuff was on point as well #and ~all the relationships being explored not just romance #the utter lack of a love triangle despite several options for one #with it always being crushed by the relevant parties genuinely caring about the love interest enough to wish them the best even with another #and Edwin just caring about Crystal himself anyway #Monty ultimately caring for Edwin more than having his feelings requited #and all the antagonists who ended up being all complex and shit and not just villains actually #(except David fuck that guy :p and Ester as well really though she did ofc have a notable backstory) #Cat King a fascinating example since his behaviour is so predatory/controlling/toxic at times #~and yet - he obviously does care for Edwin and helps out #so much about everyone dealing with their own trauma/issues #how that can make you yourself toxic/unkind/etc #and yet how everyone is capable of change - of regretting their past and working to be better #as seen in Crystal #but also minor characters like Edwin's bully Simon #aaah so much to love #my heart is aching over this #season 2 when #?? #(and i haven't even started on Ruthie!!)

[fandom-fae]

i already lost you but i can’t let go. i think a part of me knew it years ago already that it’s over or that it’ll be over. i miss you. you’re not gone yet. i want you to come back and i never want to see you again.

#moi #vent vent vent #irl #friends #kinda?? #not anymore ig #fuck idk #i hate this #ive never cried over another person as much as you. youve hurt me so much and i don’t think it was ever on purpose #i tried so hard but i failed completely #i almost wish you had ghosted me instead like all the others #why was i not enough for you? i tried to be the best friend i could possibly have been and yet you still never seemed to care #why not? are you just bad at conversations? or was i just not worth it??? TELL ME #ANYTHING. i need to know. do you hate me? like me? tolerate me? value me? do i irritate or annoy you? #what do you think when you see my name pop up on your screen? do you roll your eyes or are you happy i reached out? #i wasn’t enough for you and in return you weren’t enough for me #i want to jump off a bridge #(i won’t do it. but for hell’s sake i want to)

[neo-nomatrix]

Sunshine and Midnight Rain

Luke Castellan x Apollo kid!Reader

word count: 851

summary: Luke castellan and the daughter of apollos love story

a/n: “remember who the enemy is” IM TRYING

Luke Castellan held your heart since the day you met, and you held his.

You arrived at camp a few months after Luke. You were one of the lucky ones, claimed within an hour of being there. Your godly father is Apollo, god of poetry, the sun, music, narcissism, idiocy, stupidity, all that. You had assumed the gods would act superior to all, no matter if they were or weren’t. But Apollo was on a completely different level. You didn’t know why he had taken such a liking to you.

“You remind him of himself,” Your half sister, Kayla, had told you, “an archer who never misses, healer who fixes every wound, gifted singer, and somehow picked up the lyre in a day. And yet, you still ask why Apollo loves you the most?”

“I wish he wouldn’t,” you twirl the golden arrow he gifted you.

“y’know, that hermes boy has been staring since the moment you stepped foot here,” she smiles, nodding to the tan boy sitting on a picnic table.

“Great, more attention,” you keep your sights on the boy, lucas? Luca, maybe?

“His name’s luke castellan,” kayla says, ah luke, that’s it.

“He’s handsome,” you say matter of factly.

“Don’t trust those Hermes boys, all they do is lie,” Kayla leans back and rolls her eyes.

“It’s a good thing I play the lyre.”

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“You’ve got a great shot,” a deep voice says from behind you.

You’ve been at the range for around an hour, it’s 4:30, you always practice when no one else is around.

“The whole reason why I come out here this early is so i can be alone,” sure, it sounds mean but you swear you’re not trying to be.

“Sorry, once I see you it’s hard to look away,” you’re not looking at him but you can tell me has the biggest smirk on his face.

“Funny,” you tell him bluntly.

You set down your bow, keeping the arrow in your hand, and sit on the nearby grass. He lays down beside you, you follow his lead and put your hands behind your head.

“That arrow, it’s like it’s made of the sun,” He says amazed.

“A gift from dear old dad. No matter how far I shoot it’ll always come back. Supposed to be a sign of his love or something. But I think he just constantly wants me to be annoyed by him,” you inform him possibly too much.

“Most people would be grateful if their godly parent cares that much,” he says.

“It’s different with Apollo, there is no such thing as true altruism with him,” you bite your inner lip.

“I get that, I’m just tryna say- Hermes never showed up for me, and I'd kill to just have him tell me he cares,” His eyes furrow.

“Guess we both have different priorities,” you smile.

“Opposites work best don’t they?” He smiles back.

“Isn’t it opposites attract?” You wonder.

“Hey, your words, not mine,” he laughs.

“That one’s Orion,” You point up at the constellation.

“He was always my favorite,” he adds.

“Mine has always been Cassiopeia, but you can never see her over here,” You look back up at the sky.

“That one’s Taurus, and then Sirius below, and Gemini above,” you point each of them out.

Even though he hums in acknowledgment his eyes are locked on you.

“You’re staring, again” You mention.

“I told you I can’t help it, especially when you glow like that,” he reaches out and touches your face.

You reach out and grab his hand, running your fingers against his slender digits.

“I’d like to be a constellation when I die, maybe my father will fulfill that wish,” you say to him.

“That’ll be my last wish too, we can lay in the stars together.”

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It’s been a day since Percy Jackson came to Camp Half-blood. It just so happens to be your favorite day of the year, capture the flag. You have led the archers on the blue team for years, you’d say you’re doing well for what you’re given. Besides your siblings in Apollo the rest of the kids weren’t as gifted in archery.

As the first conch shell blew you were preparing for your mock-battle. Annabeth in charge of the plan and Percy, Luke with company, and you with the archers. You knew you could, no- would win. The archers took the trees, helping stray company from the skies.

“Today feels like a winning kind of day?” Annabeth asks luke.

“I’ll see you on the other side,” He smiles.

“Luke!” You pull him aside for a moment.

You cup his face the best you can through his armor. “You don’t get hurt okay? I don’t feel like healing anymore wounds from you. Understand?”

“Oh but I love to see you healing” he holds your hand and smirks

“Archers! Move out!” You call your team, eyes still locked with his, smiling.

“so… you and her?” Percy asks the taller boy.

“how could I not? She's perfect. I mean, I genuinely believe I could live without the sun if I just had her.”

And maybe, just maybe, he could.

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Yandere! Game Show Host Hcs

Warnings: Obsessive Behavior, Yandere Thoughts, Bad Writing, Stalking, Possessive Behavior, Reader is Referred as ‘You’

A/N: I saw this request and was like this is such a cool request but what if we made him an evil game show host. Like one that would put contestants in deadly scenarios.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host who kidnaps all of the contestants and forces them to play this twisted game that he created for money. Don’t worry though, he rigged the entire game to be in your favor. It was discreet enough for the viewers not to really care but apparent enough for you to notice the favoritism. Did you care? Hell no!! As long as you were getting paid you and survived this whole ordeal could give a rats ass about what happened next. Even when you do manage to get certain questions wrong, he will just brush it off and pretend that it was just a warm up question. The contestants are definitely seething whenever they see this happening.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host is a psychopath by nature. In each round, he presents the contestants with morally ambiguous dilemmas, enticing them with promises of grand rewards while dangling the threat of dire consequences for failure. Whether it's forcing them to choose between betraying a fellow contestant or facing a treacherous obstacle, he revels in their anguish, relishing the psychological torment he inflicts.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host is doing everything in his power to make sure that you win the game. He can’t have his poor baby feeling upset if they fail to win the grand prize. He would absolutely give out the most insane questions that practically no one knows the answer to. The punishment for getting a few questions wrong is mutilation of certain body parts and if you get too many questions wrong then you’ll end up being sent to your death. While everyone is basically being tortured in their punishments, he’d never allow that to happen to you. At most he’d probably just flick your forehead and call it a day. I imagine that most of the people watching the show are people who paid for the contestants to be kidnapped and be brought there against their wishes. Everyone who is put onto his show is a horrible person, including yourself, and have done something to be warranted to be there.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host bends all the rules of the game for you, providing subtle hints or covert assistance to ensure your safety. Although he has a strong desire to see others in pain and suffering, his love for you is stronger. At first justifies these actions as preserving the "entertainment value" of the show, but deep down, he's driven by an inexplicable desire to protect you.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host would baby you during your time there. He’d make a fuss whenever you tried to do anything remotely dangerous or touch some blood. I could totally see him using a baby voice to try to convince you to stop what you're doing. He has no shame, and everyone is looking at him with utter disbelief/confusion on their faces.

Yandere! Game Show Host: “Oh No! Please don’t go over there! You might slip from all the blood on the ground! Come here let me carry you across.”

Viewers: “…”

The contestant with their leg cut off: “…”

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host thrives on the power he wields over his contestants, reveling in their suffering as they navigate his challenges. As the game progresses, his demeanor grows more twisted, enjoying the contestants' internal conflicts and emotional turmoil. He taunts them with mocking laughter, reveling in their discomfort and manipulating their decisions to heighten the drama. God forbid that you manage to develop a crush on someone while you are there. He’d absolutely lose it and do everything in his power to crush them. You best believe that he’s going to keep them alive for as long as possible and give them the worst punishments known to man.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host has cameras everywhere and when it's time for the contestants to rest for the night he’s going to be observing you. He’s a loser who doesn’t really know how to act around you without becoming a mess. In his spare time, he likes to just watch you through the cameras and imagine himself right next to you. He’s absolutely delulu about your feelings towards him and believes that you feel the same way. Even when you do manage to win this fucked up game, he’s not letting you go. There’s no way that he’s letting you leave after you managed to steal his heart. After this is all over, he’s taking you to his house and locking you there.

🌟 Yandere! Game Show Host holds pride in knowing how many people are at the mercy of his hand. Has a minor God complex and has this skewed mindset about how everyone else is beneath him besides you. Believes that you were made just for him and that you're his one true love. Would rather die than give you up or allow anyone to “take you away from him”. He’s like an annoying roach and almost impossible to get rid of. He’s making sure to stay with you for as long as possible.

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Yandere! Game Show Host strides onto the stage with a wicked gaze, his piercing gaze fixed on the contestants. His voice, a chilling blend of charm and malice, booms through the speakers as he welcomes the participants with a mocking flourish. Thom who were strapped onto a table with heavy objects over their heads.

Yandere! Game Show Host: “Alright contestant number one, what is the mass of the Sun divided by Planck's constant in nanometers.

Contestant One: “HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT!?!?!”

Yandere! Game Show Host: “Unfortunately, that's not the correct answer. You’ll now be facing the consequences.” In a matter of seconds, the heavy object comes flying down with alarming speed. Upon impact, it mercilessly crushes against their skull, unleashing an overwhelming and unimaginable force that distorts bone and flesh. Yandere! Game Show Host then makes his way towards you and begins to speak.

Yandere! Game Show Host: “Alright, it's your turn now. No pressure, I know you’ll do great just take your time. Okay what’s 1 + 1?”

You: “2.”

Yandere! Game Show Host: "Talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever done before, unafraid to reference or not reference, put it in a blender, shit on it, vomit on it, eat it, give birth to it."

Other Contestants: “What the hell!?!? How is this fair!?!!

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