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celaenaeiln · 8 months

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something i’d love to see more of is angsty rebellious teenage dick grayson. i don’t know why i enjoy the trope but the image of dick “golden boy” grayson getting plastered with roy as he slowly sinks into depression before somewhat getting his shit together is an interesting picture

also he just seems like the guy to get impulsive piercings. dunno why

oooh yeah that fantasy's a guilty a pleasure of mine.

I am 1000000000% an enforcer of Dick was not an angry robin. And he wasn't because the comics show just how happy his demeanor was and how fun he is. But angsty teen Dick? 16/17 year old Dick?

I LOVE IT.

Again throwing a little bit of canon in

"When we started this you were open and encouraging. You were my father...but these last few years...all you've been doing is trying to control me even more."

This is so loaded.

The anger Dick feels when Bruce is trying control him, trying to lock him in a cage in the batcave because of worry, has so much ao3 potential.

Like angsty teen dick is so complicated to think about because Bruce acts a bit like an alcoholic father and Dick's compartmentalization issues come from his parents' death. So what would this result in?

I have no fcking clue.

Because Dick would totally get wasted with Roy, hazy blue eyes staring emptily into space, watching with a flushed cheeks as his short black hair fans out on the back of a beaten blue couch at Roy's place, just breaking down quietly as Roy rants and screams about life's injustices in the background, slinging an arm around Dick and jostling him.

Or maybe he and Roy would also go bar hopping, both of them sloppy drunk, laughing and crying at the same time while they max out their daddies' credit cards and then crash somewhere in someone's pool. Maybe they end up inadvertently on Katy Perry's Friday Night music video.

Or maybe Dick would be a hurricane of disaster, lashing out with knives of sharpened words stabbing the deepest, sorest spots of pain in people, his anger alighting a fire in all. He would be magnificent, ferocious, and catastrophic.

He could be any of these three and all three at once.

He would feel the need to act out if Bruce was becoming more controlling.

BUT AT THE SAME TIME, Dick raised Bruce and that perpetually sense of responsibility he's instilled into himself from a young age as well as his self-sufficiency is never erased so one night he would be blacked out from the excessive alcohol but next morning 6'o clock his body's walking up and he's going through his morning routine like a machine and out the door to work. He just keeps going like this day and day until he collapses and the titans intervene or Bruce drags him back to the manor, screaming in love and fear and Dick screams back and the cycle begins.

Nightwing (1996) Issue #135

Like canonically Dick ran away from home at 16, got a job, got caught up in a major anarchist group, and did a whole freaking investigation while Bruce sulked in the cave because Dick ran away.

There's so much angsty dick potential that could go in so many ways because he's such a complex character that all of them apply.

LOL!!! I totally think he would get impulsive piercings too. Maybe when he's drunk and pissed and then the next day he would wake up be like wtf. He'd sit in turmoil and a little regret for a while and then be like whatever because these piercing are freaking cool.

Bonus: no one (except the og titans and Alfred bc Dick never keeps anything from Alfred and the titans are family) ever find out about the piercings and it's kept a tightly guarded secret until a decade later when he does something in the batcave and one of the batkids notice and they're like, "DICK YOU HAVE A PIERCING?!" The rest of them just about break their neck whipping their head around to look at him. Dick just shrugs nonchalantly because time has tempered him and goes, "oh yeah. I guess. I forgot." Bruce passes out and wakes up on the floor to Dick hovering worriedly over him while the rest of the family watches in amusement at his predicament and also half brokenly because their golden boy big brother has piercings. Plural.

Bruce gasped out a pained breath, "Piercings?"

Dick stared at him silently, gemstone eyes holding his gaze as the quiet of the cave melted the seconds into hours. His eyes slowly slid from Bruce's to where the rest of the family was standing, watching them with bated breath for his answer, before they met Bruce's hopeful ones again.

"No." Bruce, with all the strength left in his body after recovering, raised a questioning eyebrow as Dick continued, "I don't have any piercings and never did."

"Hmn." But he swore he could've seen-

The kids erupted in protests.

"Dick, come on!" Jason hollered, pushing forward. "We clearly saw it there-"

"Where?" Dick asked, spreading his arms wide and invitingly, offering them to see for themselves.

The piercing they had all gotten the barest glimpse of was gone from where they had seen it on Dick.

"But you said you! You said, 'yeah. I guess so. I forgot.'" Stephanie put her hands on her hips, "Admit it Boy Piercing!"

"Boy Piercing?!"

"Fess up, pretty boy!"

"Steph," Dick visibly bit his lip to keep from laughing, "I was joking. You guys should've see your reactions - they were so funny!! Dick has a piercing. OMG. You people were hilarious."

Damian clicked his tongue. "Enough Richard! Did you implement metal into you skin like a heathen? Richard, how could you?! Who dare touch-"

"No Dami!" Dick quickly interfered to prevent a possible murder on his behalf, "I was just kidding, okay? Besides, did you guys even really see it? Like full on?"

Harper crossed her arms. "Close enough."

Dick quirked his eyebrow at that. "But you didn't actually see it right? You thought you saw something shining and turned to look. C'mon you guys know what it is - peripheral vision hallucinations. Things you see in your peripheral vision that aren't real because you are tired," He pinned a look at each other, emphasizing the words, "and stressed."

Dick pressed his lips together and folded his arms. "Time for bed. Now. I know you all haven't been sleeping for the past few days so you all are going to bed. At the manor." Dick finished, shooting Jason a look when he tried secretly shuffling toward his bike.

The rest of them were unmoved for a moment but quickly caved under Dick's patented "I'm mom-ing you."™ stare as Jason liked to call it.

They trudged upstairs while Bruce and Dick watched in companionable silence.

Bruce turned to look at Dick as the sounds of their bickering and footsteps faded away.

"How did you do it?"

Dick hummed distractedly and tilted his head to look down at Bruce still sitting on the floor. "Do what?"

Bruce growled, impatience, annoyance, and apprehension swimming in his voice, "Don't lie. To me. How did you hide it? Now. And for so long?"

Bruce watched tensed as the tip of Dick's tongue ran over the ridges of his top row of teeth, the first sign of anger he had seen from him in weeks. The pink flesh of his tongue barely avoiding cutting itself on the slightly too sharp canines that Dick loved to call his vampire teeth since he was little. He had even threw a veteran-dentist-scaring-tantrum in the dentist's office when the man suggested shaving them down once.

Bruce watched warily as Dick crouched down, balancing on his balls of his feet like a cat on a fence, and forcefully tamped down the sudden urge to pull out a hidden batarang when the boy grinned, eyes lighting with the wild fire of joy and madness from his robin days that still had Bruce on edge for decades.

"How did you it?" He asked again, not sure if he really wanted to know anymore but the principle remained. There was no way Dick's activities could be hidden for so long. He didn't invest in his detective following skills for something like this to escape his observation. But at the same time Dick had evaded his tracking skills when he was seventeen and ran away from him. But something so obvious as a piercing would never escape his notice. But a whole 17 year old boy also shouldn't have escaped his notice. However, Bruce had improved. He had gotten better at his job and his skills. Right? Right, of course, he was the best in the world. Dick definitely did have a piercing. But...on the off chance...what if he really had just seen a flash of light? Sweat on a body? The edge of a birdarang? Peripheral vision hallucinations? "Do you?"

"Do I what?"

You already know what I'm asking. Bruce thought, frustrated with Dick for lying. Frustrated with himself for not knowing if Dick was lying.

"Do you have piercings?" Bruce ground out.

Dick laughed, his voice echoing like choir bells in the spacious cave and bouncing off the stalactites to create a ringing, haunting melody as he leaned in closer to Bruce.

"C'mon, B! You know every showman's got his own tricks," Dick grinned brightly.

And you're the whole damn circus. Bruce hissed viciously in his mind.

Dick's eyes twinkled back at him.

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trick-of-the-troubles · 5 months

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i feel like the most annoying kind of pain to wake up with is the kind where you don't actually feel it until you move

oh you thought it was a no/low pain day? HA! fooled again!

#if this post makes less sense than usual its because i literally Just woke up #disability #disabled #physical disability #physically disabled #cpunk #cripple punk #heds #chronic pain

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youngchronicpain · 10 months

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feeling very very bad gets very very boring pretty fast

#I woke up to my back being out this morning #so I've been clawing at the walls of my brain all day because I cant move or do very much rn #:(#chronic pain

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lunareclipses-moments · 23 days

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SPOILER FOR THE HSR

THEN WAKE UP TO WEEP

weeping fr

THAT'S IT GUYS

The stupid FUCKING quest ends here for me

WHHHHYYYYYY

God WHYYYYYYY

LIKE WHYYYYYYY MY SON

NO HE IS A REAL BOY AND HE IS GOING TO EXPLORE THE GALAXY WITH THE EXPRESS AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#i hate my life #FUCK YOU IPC #WOKE UP LOOKING FORWARD TO KICK SUNDAY ASS ENDS UP WEEPING FOR 3HR STRAIGHT #GOD pleeeease why #wake you then weep #they know what they're doing #mish my so we don't deserve you #god please take his pain and give it to the ipc #because whhhy him #from all the people why misha #misha is my son #he doesn't deserve this #fuk you hsr #why does genshin characters live and honkai not #god life is so unfair #honaki star rail #misha hsr

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yumedoca · 3 months

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Was supposed to be drawing today but stuff happened and now I'm not in the mood so I guess I'll be watching UY movie 5..

#stuff refers to the monthly torture aka periods #i woke up to the worst pain ive had in a long time #it was so bad i had to take painkillers which i dont usually do #because of that im fine now but im scared about the situation once it wears off #oh right and because of usual mood swings i had an entire dilemma in the morning which basically went like 'WHY DOES GOD HATE WOMEN?'#« this is kinda funny now that im better but the statement still stands #im sorry but i needed to get this out of my system #wouldve put it in the actual post but im too embarassed..

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skunkes · 3 days

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mentioned before I havent felt any tangible significant benefit from meds yet which is fine bc it takes a while to kick in but one small good thing i have noticed so far is even when I get little sleep I feel less tired when I wake up

I don't feel completely incapacitated and in need of being in bed all day, fighting off the urge to nap, to recharge.

I also 1. actually get "Sleepy" now... instead of just feeling very hollowly "Tired" and like i Should be going to bed to try to sleep even though I don't feel like it, because it's about time to be doing that I guess, leading to tossing and turning for 3 hrs before finally succumbing to sleep.

and 2. I actually doze off. Instead of forcing self to try and initiate sleep...this has only ever happened during my rare Naps where im so tired that sleep puts me down by force. Never in actual night time sleep setting... im like dropping my phone and struggling to stay awake sometimes now. At night!!!

None of this is in any of the results I've seen for the medication so i dont even care if its some weird placebo somehow 😭 im jst glad its happening

#talkys #a week before i started taking it i had one day where i just never felt ''sleepy'' despite taking 2 melatonin #and feeling very Tired so i just didnt fall asleep. and then when night came again I still went to bed at 5 am and struggled to fall asleep #now we get to 3 am and my body is like ok start wrapping it up im sleepy i want to go to bed i want to go to bed #last nite i didnt fall asleep until 6 am but that was because I forced self to stay awake for comms + got engrossed in phone #time and also the dogs kept howling outside. i woke up at 12pm and did I feel tired? yeah #does the tiredness feel like extreme pain behind my eyes and a hollow aching empty head that keeps me from moving? it does not...!#its like in the very back of my mind...its present but not demanding all my time #in college i would go thru a daydream to fall asleep and i wouldnt even make it to the end before i dozed off #that hasnt worked in years and now its working again

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sparklecarehospital · 3 days

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please take as much rest as u need,, we're here for u <3

Thank you so much ;_; 💖 I'm probably gonna rest more tomorrow than I did today

#i also woke up extremely early because of pain and nightmares which Didn't Help #i might also just be sleep deprived #making everything else worse #unrelated

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8bit-mau5 · 9 days

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He would anyone like to send me a quick [10 dollar] so i can get smth to eat for my grandpa and I? I only have 5 bucks left after getting my HRT 😭

#8bit beeps #BOOST #I’m not sure if I have time to make adopts today because I’m in a lot of pain )’: woke up with #rlly bad shoulder and wrist paints<//3 #pains *#normally I’d make us eggs but Maki hasn’t been laying and neither has Bean (<- new silkie)

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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 6 months

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holy fuck, this gives the zenin so much more lore than what we got in the manga. like the potential is right there to have this great inter-clan generational dispute and cold war but gege just breezes past it and then gets rid of it completely.

with all this cool new shut we’re getting about them, im almost glad that megumi was born a boy. like could you imagine just how much worse the zenin would have been to him if he was a girl? they already have the whole misogyny thing going for them and then their version of jesus pops up and it turns out that it’s a girl who wields their prized technique?

god, i can’t imagine just how much more controlling they would be towards megs, although im still not sure if the whole training until ur bones fall off would still happen. i feel like naoya would be different towards megs but we also know that the zenin are totally okay with incest so i hate where that would go.

It would have been bad.

See, I think the entire training until your bones fall off thing would still happen, but there would be an added layer of cruelty towards it. Because megumi was a little boy who was being trained in a way that even adults couldn’t have handled, so of course he spent a lot of time getting hit and a lot of time crumpling under the pressure and exhaustion. There are very, very few instances where he remembers actually leaving the training room on his own two feet. He usually was pushed until he collapsed and woke up later in the room they kept for him. But if he was a little girl in the same circumstances? They’d make every “failing” about her sex. They’d blame her being a girl for it and constantly use it as a source of sneering superiority.

It would also be bad because she would very much be seen as a source of descendants. Boy Megumi wouldn’t necessarily be exempt from that, but it would happen sooner for girl Megumi.

Bloodline is very important to the Zenin. Inheriting power, techniques—they want to continue the flow of power through the generations. And most of the Zenin clan (and the wider jujutsu world) believe that Megumi is the most powerful Zenin alive right now, if not Gojo’s equal, and the only reason why hes being graded as a Grade Two sorcerer is because gojo’s purposefully sabotaging his development. Like. Mindset is a huge amount of jujutsu ability. Yuuta went from getting beaten up by normal high schoolers to having some combat ability but needing inumaki to handle a semi grade one to being the second most powerful person alive in the span of a few months. He absolutely blitzed the previous second most powerful person alive when he would have lost that same fight a few hours previous. There’s a lot of people convinced Megumi’s on Gojo’s level but he’s been keeping him on a leash since childhood. But the powers still there in his blood.

That’s power the Zenin want to pass on, regardless of gender. But as a boy, Megumi’s got a little bit more leeway—men are accepted as warriors first in the clan, and age won’t affect his ability to procreate. If megumi was a girl? She’s got that goddamn biological clock ticking down. As the ten shadows, I think the Zenin would still expect her as a warrior, but they’d also have a fucking quota she needs to fill before the clock hits zero. And they’d have some very proprietary concerns about making sure no one outside of the clan has a chance to become involved with her. They’d want her to stay within the clan with her partners. And they’d be absolutely creepy and weird about how they went about it. It’s a little bit of a mercy that Megumi’s a boy.

#sea glass gardens #the Zenin already see boy megumi as their property #girl megumi? she’d be doomed #they already see women as property #they’d take a fucking hit out on yuuji I can tell you that #I’m a shameless itafushi shipper and while I don’t really write genderbend I don’t see a reason to change shipping them if I did #yuuji has this angry scary pretty girl who for some reason is down to hold his hand and then her fucking cousins hire a sniper #editing tags because I have more to say it’s one of my flaws #there’s so much of Megumi’s situation as a kid that was just horrible and miserable and full of pain #there were so many times he woke up in that stupid room too beaten up and bruised and exhausted to move #he was too tired to summon his dogs for comfort #and the Zenin hated when he treated his shikigami as pets anyway #I like to think megumi was actually scared of the dark when he was a kid #he was a child who saw monsters and didn’t have an explanation for them #they terrified him #his sister had a monster in the hall closet that wanted to eat her and he tried to be brave but he shook every time it came out #and it only came out at night #he was six. he was afraid of the dark.#he never told the Zenin but he could tell they somehow knew #his room was always kept so dark and there was never a nightlight permitted #he’d just wake up in the pitch and never know if anything was in there with him #he was hurt. he couldn’t move. and he was afraid of the dark #and sometimes megumi feels like he’s still that fucking six year old who got lugged from the training room unconscious and dumped in #the dark alone

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sanshofox · 6 months

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I firmly believe now that I must have pinched/jammed smth in my left shoulder blade.

Third week now and it’s coming and going stretching pain in the rhomboid muscle area. It’s only occurring in certain positions/movements (like turning my head to the left). Rest doesn’t help and stretching exercises either. Only thing that seems to help is warmth and sometimes massages. It’s so random sometimes when it flares up again. Like for awhile it could be all well again only to flare up the next minute like wth.

#i know smth like this could take a while so imma be patient before trying for a doctor‘s appointment #because getting a near-term appointment is a rarity where I live and will be close to nonexistent this time of the year #i once had smth similar years ago and i lied on my hair band #maybe smth similar happened this time because the pain started when I woke up and wanted to move

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kakyogay · 6 months

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What if you wanted to enjyo a nice long break but god said woe perdiod be upon ye

#woke up at 6 am again and just imediatly sclorped #making me go all the way upstairs with no pants no nothing trying to get a replacement pair because no one else is awake #I also have a headache making it hella worse #great thanksgiving so far I'm totally thankful for being biologically created with a pain machine yeah great job #haha sorry for all of this haha *kapow explosion*#anyways finished something yesterday uhhh I'll try to post it soon after I pain no more prolly

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themyscirah · 3 months

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Thinking about how Wonder Woman in the Pérez run/early 87 series really needed a secret identity. (Stick with me here!) Now, this isn't something that as a reader i would want (I've never had much interest in "Diana Prince") or that would be helpful for Diana's mission, and I actively think a true secret id would be something Diana would dislike immensely and hate to use and maintain. But I honestly think having one, at least at a limited level, would have saved Diana and her loved ones SO much pain down the road. Because while they loved Diana, her presence in their live brought so many villains back to their home which in turn hurt the people she cared about

Like I just think about all the horrible things that the Kapetelises (especially Vanessa, she was used as such a punching bag) went through just by virtue of loving Diana... Its truly awful the unintended consequences that came with loving her and taking her into their home, just because everyone knew she was Wonder Woman. Like this was very public knowledge, they were on the news all the time and newspaper and magazine covers and everything together

Which while cool still was damaging! I mean Nessie was in MIDDLE SCHOOL of all places and everyone knew she was hosting Diana. It was shown that whether or not most people at school wanted to be around her directly and saw her as interesting or desirable depended directly on Diana and if she was in town with them! And that's really just the tip of the iceberg there with Vanessa but she was put under so much pressure and given such awful conceptions of herself through her peers knowing she was close with Diana.

It's just such a mess. And like I don't think a secret identity would be something that she would ever think of having realistically at this point, especially because she's so new, and there isn't a strong and visible need for one, (and her public identity as ww was already attached to her loved ones) but I do think that many things may have turned out better for the Kapetelises later if they were publically joined by Diana Deneiros, Julia's niece from Greece, as opposed to Wonder Woman

#diana of themyscira #julia kapatelis #vanessa kapatelis #blah #just more thoughts on this #the vanessa stuff especially messes me up because like it gets so bad with her and everything #like yes there were very clearly other external factors at play there and we hate them #but it fucks me up how in a pretty great part vanessas life got so fucked up later because of the way this world treats young women #and how that got escalated towards and around her because of her association with diana #and its something that has very much almost always been present in her arc long long before they decided to do the whole silver swan thing #but at the same time its such a big character thing that i know just leads to that and so much pain #im losing coherency here so ill stop this post but yeah. vanessa #hopefully this makes sense bc i slept almost 6 hours in the middle of writing this and just woke up #wonder woman

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