#yesterday ( i think?) she said that

[nazumichi]

neurotypicals are so funny sometimes. “well, just don’t forget it next time.” holy shit. you’ve done it. you’ve fixed me. who knew memory problems could be solved so simply? i am no longer autistic, i am ready to join you at the social function. by god.

#/sar #raii talks a lot #i think it’s a combination of the autism and the adhd but an irl said “i am no longer autistic” yesterday when she got through small talk #and i haven’t stopped thinking about it. anyway if i’d known i could “just remember” i wouldn’t have signed up for this oh wow /j #attacking my math professor is always morally correct. it is always the right thing to do

[swagveryswagamazinf]

FIRST TIME IN A BOAT WITH MY DAUGHTER AFTER SHE WENT TL HELL CAME BACK AND RETURNED WITH A WEIRD ACCENT LIFE IS GOOD

#my art #qsmp #qsmp fanart #slimecicle #qsmp slimecicle #qsmp juanaflippa #juanaflippa fanart #juanaflippa #always havieng problems w the tags I think I'm forgetting something #ANYWAYS V HAPPY TO SEE HER YESTERDAY I MISSED HER SO MYCH #everybody acting weird after she destroyed the sign that said code monster SHUTT UPPPP SHES JUST A CODE APOLOGIST BUT THATS THE REAL JUANA #TRUST ME THATS MY BELOVED EGG

[oatbugs]

last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum. #also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭 #but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

[turnipoddity]

my saw fanart folder hit 300 files. I think I’ve never been this insane over anything

#like on god. i think i have gone nuts #no #how long have i been nuts #the GRIP saw has on me is insane #also FIRST fandom that ever got me doing nsfw. insane #im like #so normal about it #my coworker yesterday said she likes saw and im like oh me too 🥰 completely normal about it #im just a casual enjoyer like you are my dear colleague #KAHSKDJDKFKFKFKFKG #random stuff #delete later

[harvestmoth]

more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw

#everyday im like i wanna draw :] and then i just end up with this thing on the page #i refuse to draw hands holding. because i cannot and im too lazy to figure it out #oh yea a couple of these i havent posted before because theyre lame to me but ill put them here for now #anyways!! #i was gonna say something about a couple of these but i forgot #oh well #pokemon rejuvenation #does she. lose her ribbon in blacksteeple. i forgot #she still has it to me.. #to me her c15 hair tie is a torn part of the ribbon #anyways again. yesterday i finally figured out what the rejuvrp is. very cool stuff im so incredibly intrigued by it #i have no idea whats going on! but it looks so cool ill try to read it more later. #oh right again about the rejuvrp thing. the character designs ive seen are so so so cool i want to draw them so bad #i think i have to ask about that first though and there is! no way i am going to do that!!! i do not want to bother them #and i think my heart would explode from the fear of it all before i even typed the message. #that and im very lazy! theres a very good chance i wouldnt even draw it in the first place #anyways unrelated but i think if i get another comment from someone on something i Will Actually Explode. #i see someone said something and it kills me on the daily. what is happening... thank you.. i appreciate it very much... #sorry to whoever read all of that. um. hi youre really cool and i hope you have a good day/night #i think being on twitter has done something to me i have to leave it immediately. anyways back to twitter #wait actually i should go back to playing rejuv. im still in the grove from when i first posted the gym leader melia au. im afraid to leave #also play pokemon rejuvenation no i will not stop saying that everytime i post one of these

[redgoldblue]

i'm. sobbing [x]

#i say this like i haven't been metaphorically sobbing since watching it two hours ago #but !! people KNEW #THIS feels so much like... validation without pandering #yeah some people are going to be surprised this isn't a sudden flip of everything that's happened before #and it's not a 'you were idiots for thinking it probably wouldn't ever happen' #but ALSO some of his family basically already knew! it's also a 'you weren't idiots for seeing it all along' #everything oliver's saying is that and god bless him for it but this is confirming the SHOW ITSELF will also say that #also i have got to assume one of the not surprised people is probably Maddie and i cannot wait #i also can't wait for Hen to find out she's gonna be so proud #911 #911 spoilers #Buck Bothered and Bewildered #Evan Buckley #Oliver Stark #mine #god I had an exam this morning and it’s almost 3am I should be exhausted #*this morning and yesterday #but the adrenaline rush. I’m still flying #as someone else said and I feel nov 5th in this chilis tonight

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[disposal-blueeee]

really really small guys

edgar belongs to jhonen vasquez

scriabin belongs to @zarla-s

png ver. for some reason

andddd the sketch. for some reason too

#vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #scriabin vargas #zarla s #scriabin #look at themmm #scriabin looks so so so pretty here #i have a specific image of an angry scriabin on my head #and i think this is the closest i'll get it #even if he's not angry here. but. just add some angry eyebrows and tadah ! #my eye is swollen for no reason aaaghhh help me #my little sister was watching peppa yesterday #and there was this one scene of them making flower crowns #she said something about wanting to draw scriabin like that #(she knows the characters because i can't stop talking about them hahah) #so i decided to sketch something with this idea and. we have this. credits go to my little sister for the idea. #she literally asked me like FIVE TIMES if i could give her credits on the post. sooo #this is so funny i didn't expect this to look so pretty #it's even better that the drawing i've been working on for the past THREE MONTHS #and this one only took five hours. alright #if anyone's concerned. my mental health is way better now :D #i convinced like five of my friends to read vargas too so that also makes life interesting. #also they're making fan art and it's such a nice sensation #i'm still kind of blocked though. i'm wasting precious vacation time !!! aaagggghhh !1!! #unhhh probably i wrote something wrong here but i don't want to check #i almost forgot edgar's scars hahaha i didn't drew them at first because they looked like eyebags on the sketch #also i wanted to draw edgar's eyes but it didn't look good soooo #i wanted scriabin to look angry?? but he looks flustered instead. #alright thats way too many tags. i should go to sleep now (i won't)

[aeide-thea]

#don't ask me how i ended up here ('was it a fic‚ K?' 'yes‚ obviously it was a fic.') but #this poem somehow makes me think of plath's 'black rook in rainy weather' #not because the poems are at all similar but because it's that feeling of a dull ruinous landscape suddenly illuminated #like. the sestet here is SO workmanlike and wearisome #yesterday. grey. eyes. wise. 'one that is ever kind' right okay you're making up the syllable count. etc etc #and then—'the fire that stirs about her‚ when she stirs‚ / burns but more clearly.' #'o she had not these ways / when all the wild summer was in her gaze.' #like. my god. #the sudden wild white beating of swan's wings. the lift of my battered enraptured heart. #anyway. 'did you know famous poet william butler yeats had his moments‚ actually??' you heard it here extremely not first. #(i mean. that said—imagine writing a poem that ascribed any qualities to a woman you couldn't reassign to a horse.) #(like. billy boy. do you love anything about her but her beauty and her ~spirit~. is she intelligent. is she funny. is she fiercely moral.) #(ah well.) #poetry #w.b. yeats

[beeg-bark]

pinning someone down and they're struggling against you and then they hit you with the dom stare, and so you don't really want to let go but you're excited to see what will happen so you loosen your grip a little bit and they say "you're loosening your grip" and you say "yeah i wanted to see what would happen" and they hit you with the "don't let go" with the fucking dom death stare look in your eyes so you have no choice but to obey and then they spend the rest of the time criticising you and making you readjust your grip ughhhhh

#dogbone #asexual kink #fear kink #this is the same fucker who gripped my leg with theirs and uhhh #told me how entertaining my reactions were #bro gripped my chin with their hand #and when that got a reaction out of me #went #ooooooh im good at this! #in like a delighted tone #like #did you think you were bad????? #why are you surprised?????? #we went to a concert this weekend #and during the opening band #there was a lyric that said 101 dalmations and i still want that one dog #and she tilted my chin up with her finger and made me look at her during it #and uhhhhhhhhh #it bluescreened me #it wasnt this weekend actually it was yesterday #i lied #sorry beeg bark nation #im like high as shit rn #and whoo boy #kink and weed are a beautiful beautiful combination let me tell you #monster kink #t4t nsft #listen man #excellent day to be a monsterfucker head over heels in love with a monster #sometimes i worry that she secretly hates me and then she pulls shit like this

[leoleolovesdc]

Steph: Hey dad, can you pass me the salt?

Tim: She didn't!

Jason: Oh my god, she totally did

Cass: No...

Duke: [Snickering] Holy shit!

Bruce: [Passing the salt] Here, sweetie

Dick: He didn't!

#i love bruce and steph beibg awkward abt their not-father-and-daughter but also not-not-father-and-daughter relationship #but my new fav hc is that everyone is awkward abt it except for them #they dont care abt what they are to each other it doesnt matter that much #but literally everyone else is gushing abt it like “omg did u see? bruce said that steph isntbhis daughter” #“omg yeah but yesterday she called him dad and he tots accepted it” #idk #silly hc #i like steph and bruces relationship bc i think it kind of fluctuates in between stuff #but either way i like writing them in a way they CARE about each other #not ob a superficial level #like when i say care i mean “i would die for you” sorta way #dc comics #batman #dc #batfamily #batfam #stephanie brown #bruce wayne #the spoiler #dick grayson #jason todd #cassandra cain

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me?? #said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds' #i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts? #this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great) #she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

[t4tsurge]

Fucking. Hi. Hello Stickurge nation. Here's a fan kid.

Here is Bramble. He's been in my brain all weekend and I started drawing again just so I could get her out. Um. Do not ask me if it exists in the Boom universe or the regular game/comic universe because I don't know <3

#bramble has no lore he was just born yesterday <3 #also it's a hybrid so. badgerec #she's mostly fluffy but he does have quills if you dig deep enough #it also inherited surge and stick's fucked up gender swag bc i said so. gender fluid king #surge the tenrec #sticks the badger #stickurge #my art <3 #bramble the badgerec #sonic oc #sonic fanchild #proto endless possibilities au #nobody's gonna see this next tag so it's just for me but #reach for the stars au #<<< maybe? i'm thinking

[raininyourblackeyes]

My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.

#what happened was that i was feeling really down these past few days #like mental health dead in mariana trench #and i went to visit her because she lives like 10 minutes away and has a cat i can play with #but yesterday morning a friend of mine made a fanart (i guess i can call it that) of a fanfic i am writing for the five of them #she sent it to me and said she's also working on an actual painting on a camvas of her fave scene from my original story #and i was so surprised and exicted #that's actually a too mild description #and when i was visitting my cousin i showed her the pic of the drawing on my phone and explained it to her and she just said ....ehh.. #and started texting someone #i was sitting there feeling stupid and thinking wow you could have at least praised my friend's art sytle or something #and when i was getting ready to leave she asked me if i was aware my writing has no artistic merit and fantasy is trivial literature #so i should just stop wasting time on that and focus on developing my art style more for her future poetry collections #i do the art for her book covers #and added how we already have an established writer in the family so i should focus on my role - becoming a good pharmacist #and she knows how much i hate that i'm studying pharmacy like it's the no.1 cause of me hating the direction in which my life is going #finished it off by saying she feels like what she's doing in going to be really great and important on a large scale one day #and how she wants me to continue being her shadow that follows and supports her #i left went home and started at a wall for hours #i just feel so dumb for getting excited over a silly drawing of something not more than 5 people will ever read #i genuinely hate the idea of people reading anything i write so most likely writing will just remain a hobby for me #and now i feel like the most stupid person on earth and am this close to deleting all my word documents from both my laptops

[incorrect-league-of-villains]

Toga: [running towards Tomura with open arms]

Tomura: [moves out of the way]

Toga: Hey, why'd you move?!

Tomura: I thought you were going to attack me.

Toga: I was going to hug you!

Tomura: Why would you hug me?

Toga: WHY WOULD I ATTACK YOU?!

#incorrect lov #i think that's a fair assumption tbh #there are many reasons to attack tomura #for example he destroyed her in mario kart yesterday #he prevented her from buying too many strawberry shakes #he said no to the gucci belt #he screamed when he saw the hairstyle she gave him while he was gaming #himiko toga #shigaraki tomura