#you can ignore those you don’t like

[spoopy-fish-writes]

@vioisgoinginsane gift 🤲

#that’s my hand btw. jus so you kno #this fucking girlguy again… no escape (the exit is next to me I’m just ignoring it) #u have to have your brightness up to see anything btw… bc I’m stupid… #and my phone is always on lowest brightness #or like. half brightness #u can see all the imperfections at full brightness don’t look at those #ikepri #ikemen prince #ikepri gilbert #ikemen prince gilbert #gilbert von obsidian #ikemen prince fanart #ikepri fanart #ikemen fanart #ikemen gilbert #ikemen series #ikemen series fanart

[aforgottenthing]

Do you think Lawrence took up smoking after the bathroom trap?

#listen… chainshipping appeals to me in a very specific way #something something a part of him was left behind in that bathroom. was it it his humanity? was it his goodness? was it the man he knew for #only six hours? #I find Lawrence and Adam so interesting because it’s specifically the idea that these are two men who barely know each other. Adam know more #about Lawrence solely bc he was hired to follow him but he doesn’t KNOW him. #they definitely weren’t chatting during those six hours. and yet. #everything they felt together led to that final moment. where Lawrence crawls away from the exit so he can touch Adam #it’s this moment of raw humanity between two people who have been trying desperately to *ignore* their shared humanity #and it is something that haunts Lawrence. #I don’t think he lied to Adam. I think he meant to come back but he was bleeding out and delirious and most definitely passed out from the #pain #and I don’t think he ever forgets Adam #it is a love story. but in the way that a ghost story is #there is a love for what is not there #and so I ask: do you think Lawrence took up smoking after the saw trap? #to feel like he is even slightly closer to KNOWING what is not there? #anyway. I’m tipsy #saw #saw 2004 #lawrence gordon #dr lawrence gordon #adam stanheight #Adam Faulkner-stanheight #lawrence x adam #chainshipping #I’m gonna be real I find chainshipping wayyyyy more interesting when Adam stays dead

[skyward-floored]

Logically I know it’s been five years so it shouldn’t be surprising that I do actually look older then I do in the pictures from 2019 my mom is sorting through but also. those five years aged me a lot

#I mean I don’t look old now I’m not worried about that #it’s more like... #I just look happier #like I didn’t go through like three disastrous experiences and also have a crisis or three #idk #things have generally been better for me but life was just #easier then #I wish I could grab my past self’s shoulders and be like ‘DON’T GIVE UP ITS GOING TO BE HARD BUT DON’T OKAY PLEASE #AND YES THE DEER WAS INTENTIONAL #that would’ve been nice #sorry photos always get me in a weird mood you can ignore this #rambles from the floor #delete later #not to mention the crushing reality that I have done basically nothing in those five years but we don’t have time to unpack all that—

[youregonnabeokay-kid]

ADHD information for fanfic writers:

Diagnostic Process:

the diagnostic process is different in every country, but this is a basic overview

- an ADHD referral can come from any type of doctor, unlike referrals for other neurodivergences

- the wait list depends on where you live and how old you are. typically the younger you are, the shorter the wait

- ADHD has to be diagnosed by a psychiatrist or by a doctor who has taken a specialized course to be certified in diagnosing and handling ADHD

- most doctors will make you fill out a questionnaire about your mental health. these questionnaires involves sections about family history, personal history, and statements that you have to agree or disagree with

- a good psychiatrist won’t diagnose you with ADHD during your first visit. they will instead spend the first few visits getting to know you and the state of your mental health

- most people are assessed for depression when being assessed for ADHD. this is because depression can present itself in similar ways. if diagnosed with depression and open to medication, the psychiatrist will first prescribe antidepressants and see how those affect you before moving on with the ADHD assessment

Meds:

- most ADHD meds are taken in the morning since they normally wear off after 8-12 hours

- when meds wear off we go through what’s known as a “crash” or “medication rebound”

- ADHD crashes are pure hell which is why some people with ADHD choose to only take meds during the week or they do nothing on the weekend as a reset of sorts

- basically, when our meds wear off all of our symptoms come back at the same time and we get overstimulated to the point of exhaustion

- some people have smaller doses of their meds that they take at the beginning of the crash. this means they can prolong the crash by a couple hours

- for some people, the first time taking meds is hell. the change is very noticeable and abrupt. i wouldn’t stop talking because it was “too quiet” (it being my mind)

- your dosage is not based on body type or weight and just because you take a high dose in one drug doesn’t mean you take a high dose in all others (my ADHD meds are 10mg higher than the highest prescribed amount but my antipsychotics are .5mg lower than the lowest prescribed dose)

- vyvanse is most often prescribed to people with combo ADHD, ritalin to those with hyperactive ADHD (especially those with impulsivity issues), and adderall for inattentive (no, this is not something that is typically disclosed or well-known but if you’ve talked to enough people w/ ADHD you begin to see a pattern) other ADHD meds are available but less likely to be prescribed

- other meds are also taken into account when getting a prescription for ADHD. vyvanse is the most versatile and is usually the one prescribed if you’re on other medications

- ADHD meds are stimulants which means doctors will never give you refills (if they do, they could lose their license)

- since they’re stimulants, for the first year you have to go to the psychiatrist’s bi-weekly for the first few months, then monthly after that so they can see how you are doing

- ADHD meds are known for lowering sex drives and increasing hunger (sometimes the opposite may happen, as with most drugs, but these are most common)

- it takes about 1/2 hour to an hour for meds to kick in and many of us are able to tell the exact moment they start working

Other Substances:

- the neurons and chemicals in the body of an ADHD person are fucked. this means that many substances and medications have either no effect on us, or the opposite effect of what they are intended for

speaking from personal experience:

- caffeine makes me tired

- melatonin and other sleeping aids like dextromethorphan, which can be found in many cough syrups, make me hyper

- weed makes me feel lighter, but it never affects me more than that. i never get a “proper high” like other people (ie; i find no more joy or fascination in bright colours or moving objects than i usually do)

- while “sugar highs” in general are a myth, they’re real for people with ADHD! they stimulate our dopamine and opioid receptors which gives us a burst of energy

- additionally, people with ADHD are more likely to be addicted to illegal stimulants like cocaine because it calms them down (yup, you read that right. when someone with ADHD does cocaine their mind quiets and they mellow down instead of the usual hyper-active high that neurotypicals get)

Additional Information:

- we’re lacking some of the neurotransmitters in our brains so it takes us longer to process information, and we have “more” thoughts than neurotypicals since our additional thoughts aren’t processed out

- we get what’s called “executive dysfunction” or “ADHD paralysis” where we are physically unable to do things despite no real physical limitations (for non-ADHD folks: try putting your hand in fire. you’ll notice that you are either physically unable to or that your body somewhat restrains you from doing it. this is what executive dysfunction is like. for ADHD folks: do not try this since we’re also less likely to have self-preservation instincts)

- basically, i can sit for hours thinking about doing the dishes, screaming at myself in my head to just do them, but i’m still unable to

- we leave trails! we have so many thoughts going through our head that we forget them all the time, so when we get a thought like “i think the printer is low on paper, i should check” we abandon all tasks in favour of the new thought. however, the remains of those tasks stay where we left them, and thus, an ADHD trail is made

- we have both the worst and best memory of anyone you will ever meet. i might be able to tell you the exact outfit you wore on a specific day five years ago but i won’t remember what i ate for breakfast

- when we get bored, we get depressed. like, life is meaningless and i want to curl up in a ball and die depressed. sometimes we need someone to physically force us out of bed to get us out of our funk (and sometimes all it takes to get out of the funk is doing something fun which makes us feel ridiculous when we think about how depressed we were prior)

- since boredom is detrimental to us, we have to constantly be having fun which, in and of itself, is not fun. this is also why a lot of us end up doing shift work or working dangerous jobs

- we’re adrenaline junkies. this isn’t even a “most of us” situation, it’s all of us. the only difference is how we get that adrenaline. (some get it by jumping out of a plane, others get it by working on assignments in a time crunch)

- we’re social beings. even if we’re introverts, we thrive on social interactions. without them our dopamine plummets and we, once again, get depressed

- all silences are awkward to us. it doesn’t matter if you’re the person we’re most comfortable with in the world, silence is always awkward. or, more specifically, we feel like we need to fill it which is why we often ramble

obviously there’s far more to ADHD than just this and everything can change person by person but i hope this helps to gain a bit more of a general understanding on ADHD

#obviously this can used by writers in general but i specifically made this with buck in mind #hence fanfic writers #writing #adhd #911 abc #evan buckley #buck #fanfiction #ao3 #writeblr #long post #oh boy is it #911 fox #tv: 911 #i feel like a lot of people don’t actually know much about adhd #even those who have done research before writing (we love you for this! but it doesn’t actually give any good knowledge) #since most of the articles and websites are made by neurotypicals #you can always tell when a fic was written by someone who doesn’t have adhd vs someone who does #and it’s not the non-adhd-er’s fault! not at all! #it’s just an impact that society has mixed with loads of misinformation and ignorance regarding adhd

[spicyicymeloncat]

SOMEONE EXPLAIN TO ME WHY I HAVE SEEN NO CHARLIE X VAGGIE SHIP ART AND WHY 50% OF THE HAZBIN HOTEL TAG IS ALASTER THE ASEXUAL DEMON X CHARLIE’S DAD?

#fandom try to not oversexualise men and try to not ignore women challenge IMPOSSIBLE #my god #this is just me scrolling through the tag #hazbin hotel #and yes Ik ace ppl can be in relationships it’s just not implied in the show that Alastor is going to be one of those #with rosie’s joke that he wouldn’t #i don’t even have that much of a problem with the ship it’s just it’s 50% of the fan content :/ #like besties #there’s so many interesting and awesome parts of the show and you already flanderising ok #let’s talk about vaggie who was actually well written #or velvette I like velvette #or lute love lute #the women characters are a little under appreciated imo #whatever #hazbin hotel spoilers

[elderdragonblu]

I feel like the owl house fandom sort of glossed over the fucking fact that Amity has worn that pink necklace that her mom used to control her since she was like seven or some shit. Like what the actual fuck I feel like this isn’t talked about enough

Imagine you’re emotionally (and probably mentally) abusive and controlling mother fucking puts this necklace on you and she’s constantly in your head and making sure you act the way she wants you to act like ???? That’s literally so awful to think about

#the owl hosue #amity blight #odalia blight #I guess #bitch is awful #I feel like most people just ignore how bad Odalia is #like people know it but they don’t really #like how controlling do you have to be to control every aspect of your child while also getting in their head #and also making Amity do those showcases for their security products??? #like guys idc if Amity is a witch in the boiling isles with decent magic use her parents are fucking using weapons on her #what age did she have to start doing this shit??? #I have thoughts as you can tell

[samuraisharkie]

that virtualtoybox person literally told me they aren’t reading what I said and then tried to talk to me w about as much in their tags lol. i never understand people that go ‘I’m not reading all of that but you should read what I have to say” bc like. imagine how infuriated ur gonna get when that response is leveled right back at you? and judging by their tags they didn’t read past my very first line. bc they started comparing animals and animal rights to eugenics which is EXACTLY what I was saying is extremely dangerous to do. That’s exactly how people start calling things that happen to animals a ‘Holocaust’ and I’m positive such a statement is made in that book they told me to read. I’m disabled too. I know what I’m talking fucking about too. In the animal section, I for SURE know more than you do! Because if you knew and truly cared about animals and their welfare, you wouldn’t be talking like PETA. Here’s a trick to other disability activists: learn about animal welfare by volunteering on farms and educating yourself on breeders and the industry rather than getting involved in PETA! And another critical trick: NEVER compare animals to people! That’s exactly what the freaks that think any living thing with a deformity that should die are doing. These people would clutch their pearls the moment they hear farms cull undesirable animals bc they can’t afford to keep every single one and have to streamline their breeding and raising to what will help keep the farm running. That doesn’t mean these farmers want to do the same to people, because the animal is NOT a person and doesn’t live like one. Our lives are not even remotely comparable! People like OP are the people that keep a wild bird with an amputated wing alive bc in their mind it would be insinuating all amputees should die if the bird is put down, and next thing the bird is on the Dodo as inspiration porn. Duex Face is an exception to two headed animals, not the rule. Don’t tell me to do my research when you’re spouting talking points from people that have caused more problems for animals as a whole second only to the commercialization of animal industry. Maybe you need some research (field research) instead! They’re going to block me and I’m assuming that’s why I can’t rb the post anymore even if I wanted to (like I said I didn’t want to start a fight so like. I’m not going to be yelling and acting like an asshole. I swore a bit in the tags initially bc I feel very strongly about how animal rights activists have fucked up disability activism by acting like there’s equivalency in our existences, but that’s not targeted. Most was going to respond telling them that if they feel this strongly they need to be reading more about the animal industry rather than relying on people that are in no way experts on animals talking as an authority on them, and using that to tie with their human rights activism as if animals rights and humans rights are even remotely the same in any way. Whatever though at least the tags are there if anyone who cares enough actually reads them and thinks about them. Will most likely just attract militant vegans and ARAs like the op but whatever)

#ableism tw #why are people caring more about animal rights than human rights. acting like an animal has the same existence a human does #why aren’t we instead pointing and making books about the HUMAN eugenics happening right in front of our eyes. #why do we have to talk through fantasized anthropromorphized animals #why do you people have to imagine an animal feels like you do in order for people to care. #to an extent I’m sure there is a level to which you can say ‘yeah this person is ableist’ judging by how they talk about outside subjects #and I agree that the people who want Deux Face put down are ignorant and a few likely are ableist #but treating it like there is ZERO NUANCE and that every person who holds concern for whether the animal is suffering or not is ableist #is ignorant and harmful #this situation is way way more than what op made it out to be and you can already see in the replies how ARAs have latched onto it #to get on their soapbox and declare that anyone that treats animals as anything less than human are ableist eugenists #(while simultaneously disrespecting people that are actually living through those situations aka comparing animal culling to a Holocaust.) #it doesn’t matter if you’re part of the demographic that’s being harmed and you have no problem with it you don’t speak for all of us #and despite being an activist you CAN be misinformed and fueled by bias! #if animals are fur babies with human emotions to you than of course you will prefer the ‘beast of burden’ argument #I’ll check that book out honestly. would be good to know how to refute what OP built their beliefs off of

[hi-there-buddies]

Certain fanfics: don’t focus on the timeline it’s kinda messy lol, just read the story!

The timeline: so fucked beyond repair that it doesn’t even make sense in the scope of the plot the author is trying to tell

#I can’t just ignore the timeline #that’s not a thing I can do #pls #just put it in a filler episode😭 #no hate to the authors that do this #but some fanfics man #all those fma fanfics #where Ed still has his alchemy #but Al has his body back #like WHAT??? #I CANT IGNORE THAT PLS #there’s only so much you can mess with the timeline #before I just stop reading #fma #fmab #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fullmetal alchemist #‘Maes Hughes lived’ #ok #not reading #look I love Hughes #but that literally destroys so much of the original story #sorry this is just my ocd going haywire #it’s completely ok to do this!! #my mind just won’t let me comprehend it enough to enjoy it #every change to the original plot has to have a long detailed explanation I don’t make the rules

[vakarians-babe]

critical mass reached one too many icks had my baldurs gate fandom consists entirely of the people I dm about it 💗

#not forgiving anyone for hyping up racists drawing wyll #I think people should learn the difference bt I don’t like this and it’s inherently problematic #bc it’s leading to a common repetitive occurrence of saying that characters having boundaries is bad writing #wyll and astarion having boundaries around relationships can coexist with critiquing the writers #but ignoring those boundaries bc it’s bad writing or whatever is the quickest route to a block from me #plus it has to be said but if you treat characters more like people than you do people who disagree with you then that is also bad #bg3 #IM PUTTING IT IN THE TAG FOR ORGANIZATION AND BLACKLISTING NOT TO START FIGHTS PLEASE GOD

[polarisbear]

i’ve been in a mood.

[image id 1: a sketch of dr. radio, aventurine, and ruan mei. the men have had slight redesigns while ruan mei has a whole new outfit.

image id 2: a sketch of sparkle from honkai star rail. she’s been slightly redesigned.

image id 2: a sketch of two redesign ideas for the vivid bad squad version of hatsune miku. one has an asymmetric button up while the other is an adjustment of the 2nd anniversary design.]

#honkai star rail #project sekai #art archive #i’m not tagging anyone specific you can ignore this #anyways. lemme talk #dr ratio’s leggings look. weird. i don’t like them #so i switched them over to shorts to emphasize the greco-roman look #i think aventurine just looks better with flared pants. i don’t like the slacks they give everyone #ruan mei is completely different #she takes Extremely vauge inspo from tang dynasty clothing #mostly i wanted her to look a bit more professional and like she Could be a biologist instead of just pretty #nothing. is wrong with hanabi she’s just using the same silhouette every other woman is so i chopped off her sleeves and gave her shorts #i think this would look better with her kicks #miku. i don’t like the new redesign for her. it’s not very good. #the cropped jacket in the front with the long coattails is just So janky #she looks super bulky too #and those fucking white thigh highs. #the brand logo look is also used. badly #so i wanted to keep that street wear look but make it less aggravating

[consumed-by-fandom]

I think something I wish I’d make more obvious whenever I write about p1 is how he’s not entirely innocent to his actions in Postal 1. Yes he’s deluded into thinking whats going on around him but even then it takes a certain person to just instantly be ready to slaughter hundreds in the name of survival. Deep down he enjoys the violence, the control, the feeling of having no choice. But he can’t ever admit that to himself because it would destroy him mentally. So constant denial over how he feels 24/7.

P2 is where all that gets funneled into, because he’s certainly honest about his sadism and he doesn’t give a shit. He doesn’t make any excuses for his behaviour. So when p1 feels that way and wants it to go away its a trigger for p2 to front and enjoy it so p1 doesn’t have to deal with the guilt.

P2 doesn’t like how he hides behind him about it. Will just tell him outright he shares the feeling and enjoyment and that he should just accept that and if he feels so bad about it? Stop doing it. Which to be fair after 1997 p1 tries to be a better person, but he WILL use any excuse to fall back into acting that way, all for his safety, all to keep himself safe. But that’s just hiding his desire for it.

Don’t get me wrong p1 wants to be a good person and he’s better morally at some things than p2, AND in those violent moments it is fear leading him. but that doesn’t mean he won’t give into his urges. He’s a deceiver especially to himself. Its something he doesn’t know how to control. Doesn’t mean he can’t though lol.

I love writing characters that aren’t good or bad all the dudes are morally grey and they all have good and bad qualities to them!! Fuck yeah!!!

#its less ‘oh i wanna kill people for funsies lol’ and more ‘i feel like you’re going to hurt me so I’m killing you out of self defence’ #or ‘you’re stressing me out and i need you to disappear’ and the only way to do that is by shooting them point blank in the head lmao #HES NOT LIKE THIS 24/7 but i think he’s not… always lucid. he has moments of poor thinking and these are those moments #anyway saw a lotta cool p1 discussions recently so heres my contribution :p #oh yea this is didude related but you can ignore those parts of this if you don’t subscribe to the system dude hc #headcanons #postal #postal dude #postal 1 #postal 2

[im-still-watching-anime]

haha as a fic writer i’m obviously very familiar with my own works it’s not like i have to go and look them up to remember the titles of my own fics *sweats*

#oof #just had a moment #i dont know any of my fics actual titles #titles are the last thing i do #but then if anyone ever talks to me about them they USE that title #and i just #do Not know them #my bsd fics are especially bad #i can probably recite half the fic for you without looking but god please don’t ask me the title #i dont know it #on one hand that was embarrassing #but on the other hand it gave me a chance to reread some of my fics and!! #i like them!! #i usually try not to think too hard once i publish them #cause i get overthinking and in my own head #but taking a chance to actually fully reread them after time has passed was fun!! #i felt bad for ignoring how much i love them #real ‘i abandoned my boy’ moment from me tonight #like!! those are mine!! i made them!! i love them so much!! #anyway leaving hating my own stuff in 2023 i love them all again the good and the bad😤 #having revelations at 4 am ig #i love all my written children even though i do suck at remembering their names sometimes rip😅 #i have to study whenever people want to talk to me about my fics lol

[the-fear]

As an aro person, I’m not unfamiliar with the fact that canonically aspec characters are few and far between, but the way that some people regard people shipping arospec and acespec characters is kind of annoying.

Like you do realise that fanon shipping isn’t always going to reflect canon, right? Shippers aren’t erasing canonically aroace characters by shipping them with others. If characters are aroace in canon, they will most likely continue to be so* even if fans shipped them with other characters.

The way that some people regard aroace characters as “off-limits” from shipping when their orientations are confirmed in canon also ignores the fact that some (e.g. romance/sex favourable/indifferent, partnering, oriented, angled) aroace people do in fact choose to enter romantic/sexual relationships regardless of their orientation.

Also, fandom is pretty much built on non-canonical ships. Some of the largest early slash ships were between characters who were textually straight (or at least not textually percieved as non-straight). It didn’t matter if those ships didn’t become canon, because you can enjoy fanon/headcanons without wanting them to become canon!

I can of course agree though that fandoms are on the whole extremely amatonormative/allonormative, especially with tropes like “everyone has a soulmate” or “Pair the Spares” or “more than friends”, so it can be annoying to see canonically aroace characters treated in that way. However, this is a wider issue not just acertaining to fandom but to pretty much all popular media, so it would be unwise to blame only shippers for the abysmal lack of aspec representation. Instead of focusing on what characters “should” and “should not” be shipped together, maybe the focus should be on creating fandom communities where shipping is not the only goal.

*(of course, there is the problem of aroace characters’ identities being erased in canon, for example Jughead Jones from the Archie comics, but this was an unfortunately terrible choice made by the producers of Riverdale, not by fans of the Archie comics. There is a very significant difference between characters’ identites being erased in canon and fans making alternate fanon versions of characters, and I hope you all can recognise which is worse for aspec representation and knowledge of aspec experiences within wider culture.)

#by aspec in this post I was mainly referring to arospec and acespec characters (but mostly arospec) #I know the label covers far more than that but I don’t really know that much about how other aspecs are treated by fandoms #so I won’t make the choice of speaking for them #I guess I’m just annoyed by what I’ve seen in the aro tag recently when people are talking about aroace characters #(or those percieved to be aroace by a majority of fans) #of course you can choose to ignore this because I’m just a random person on the internet but #fandom is a way to explore ideas that will not and most likely cannot be present in canon #it’s a sandbox to make your own creations using outlines and characters and plots from other media #of course fandom has its own merits but it is not really on the same scale as official media when it comes to representation #fandom #aro characters #ace characters #aroace characters #shipping #shipping discourse #anti anti #(<- does that last tag apply? I’m going to say it does) #long post

[gentlemanbutch]

How does one monitor their heart rate if they can’t afford a smart watch?

Wanna track my symptoms but idk the best way to do it.

#not to be like omg I think I have xyz #but I am…concerned I may have pots #which is not new it’s just worse and I can’t ignore it now. and it also makes more sense if I also have eds #I MAY actually have a local cardiologist I can see but I wanna track my symptoms first #I can take my pulse on my phone but idk how accurate that is #my parents also have one of those …idk what they’re called. it’s a board you lay on and can tilt back to stretch your back #so I can probably do a homemade tilt table test on that lol #but yeah I just…don’t know what to track and people in a group I asked in were being rude #pots #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #undiagnosed chronic illness #undiagnosed disability #eds #ehlers danlos syndrome #chronically ill #chronic pain #disabled

[sailforvalinor]

Just had a reverse “you think about your old writing through rose-colored glasses but when you go back to read it it’s kind of terrible” moment, I went back and read some of my pre-uni/pandemic writing fully expecting it to be terrible and was like “oh this is…pretty good actually?”

#there are certainly things I would fiddle with but not as horrific as I was anticipating. honestly I wrote so much faster back then #it was narnia fanfic btw #sadly probably never something I will ever go back to (even though my oc’s for it are very very beloved to me) as it was something me and #my ex-best friend were writing together and now she hasn’t talked to me for two years #it was also a bit sad to read because in some ways I’m not that girl who wrote that anymore. like I am and maybe in some ways I could get #her back but it’s been more than three years. that girl was dreamy and idealistic and was so happy to write something that might never be #published and now I still like to think I’m dreamy and idealistic but I’ve become so bitter and I don’t like it and writing is so much #harder (you think studying for a degree in it would help but it has the opposite effect) #and I don’t really have anyone to talk to about my writing irl anymore and I think part of the problem is that it’s all bottled up inside #and can go nowhere but the page (and that’s so much pressure!) #anyway ignore my tag rambling #maybe I’ll incorporate those narnia oc’s into something else because I really did pour so much into them #it seems a shame to let them die