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raven-at-the-writing-desk · 1 year

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Hello🤗! It's the anon who has a geeky mom!

Made it through chapter 5 and here's my Mama's thoughts. Warning: she cried A LOT.

She's kind off curious about Mickey and wondered if he could be important in the future. She got upset when no one knew who he was lol. "Mickey Mouse was my childhood! How could they?!" She cried. She also got really worried for Yuu and the Overblots. She's surprisingly quick to guess that Vil was about to overblot because of the epilogue from last chapter.

She was excited that the school held festivals because her school did that.

My mom screamed when she saw Riddle and Kalim again. She wanted to know if Riddle was able to get through with his mom. I should mention she wants to adopt the overblot victims.

She kept on roasting Vil throughout the chapter, especially whenever he acted mean towards Epel. "I'll show you who's a potato you Bratz doll rip-off!". She legit said that.

She thinks Rook's creepy 🤣. She also wanted Leona to sing.

She instantly fell in love with Ortho.

My mom, ever the music lover, started jumping excitedly during the audition. She even clapped and cheered for all of them.

She thought the songs were bops.

Neige and the Dwarves are adorable to her.

During Vil's overblot and flashback, her disgust towards Vil turned to empathy. She especially felt bad when Vil was being bullied. On a lighthearted note, she wished my dad was like Vil's dad.

She's so proud of Deuce she literally cried tears of joy.

She thought that Malleus and Yuu's friendship was cute. She wished there was an option where we could call Malleus MalMal instead of Tsunotaro.

She was kinda down when NRC didn't win but was happy for RSA nonetheless. She called it karma that Vil was forced to sing with Neige. She felt bad for Jamil though.

My mom legit bursted into happy tears when she saw Mickey in the flesh but that joy turned to fear and worry when Grim attacked us. "What happened?! Is Yuu alright?!"

And now she thinks Idia is sketchy. She refuses to believe Ortho is in on this. "Nooooo, not the cute robot boy!"

As a sidenote, she said that if I ever went to NRC, she's pulling me out immediately 😂.

[Here’s the other installments for the Mom Anon: Ep 2 / Ep 3 / Ep 4]

Don’t ask where Ep 1 is; I don’t actually recall having received an ask specifically about that—

Good, feed TWST your tears 😊

Your mom can join the rest of the TWST theorists on the true nature and meaning of Michard Mouse who has lost all of his fame and extensive media empire in this world 😩 I think at this point the pattern for OBs has been well established (though the festival setting is certainly new and provides an added element of public exposure to the threat). djsvwjxnkss Imagine being some happy-go-lucky festival goer and you witness a celebrity causing chaos 😅 I think you’d just drop your cotton candy and run for the nearest authority figure at that point… Good thing the NRC boys were able to keep the OB contained though!

Yeah, it’s always exciting to see old characters return in later episodes your mom’s in for a treat with episode 6. We can see how they’ve changed since we last saw them. Unfortunately, we don’t get to hear of the aftermath of the conversation Riddle had with his mother, but it’s nice to just catch up with the dorm leader that started it all. (And, of course, Kalim is also present being a good boi 😌)

Mmm, I don’t think Vil acted the nicest (especially not this episode) but 🤔 I do think it’s interesting to observe how much harsher the criticisms made at his expense can be. I get the sense that people think it’s okay to call Vil out for his cruelty, but hesitate to do the same for others (such as Riddle), even when those characters have all done/said abhorrent things. I wonder if that justification comes down to Vil being the type of person who doesn’t like to show when he is hurting or being affected by negative comments (versus other characters, who are more overtly emotional or reactive). It comes with the territory of being a celebrity: you need thick skin to survive in the entertainment industry, where everyone will be judging you at all times of the day. It must bring him a lot of distress, and it also leaves him in a tough situation where he often cannot outwardly express his frustrations.

I don’t know, it makes me feel slightly uncomfortable seeing Vil in particular receives certain kinds of vitriol from the fandom, because I’m sure he’s also getting that in-universe from his “haters”. No matter where he exists, he must be facing intense public scrutiny (sometimes on very superficial things too), and I don’t know how he manages to deal with it. Like, even in the comment quoted, it’s not Vil’s character being insulted but his appearance (even if his appearance is totally unrelated to the situation). I guess it’s easy to roast celebrities when you only really get to see slivers of them in various media or maybe they’re seen as living “perfect” lives, but I don’t agree with being mean to them (or to anyone, really 💦). Confident people can still be hurt, and those in seemingly glamorous positions have valid issues. That isn’t to defend their missteps, but rather just me being sad about a general lack of empathy 😔

Let Rook beeee 😭 I won’t stand for this huntsman slander— Funnily enough, the game has teased Leona singing a few times before (most recently in Endless Halloween Night), but we’ve never actually heard him do it.

The VDC auditions were so cuuute 🥰 I really enjoyed the variation in their performances, as well as the characterization of Rook and Vil that we got through it. Rook is the positive judge that can see the charm points in each individual, but Vil is the more critical judge that can really “read” what is at the core of each person’s performance. For example, he mentions that Cater’s performance doesn’t seem to have heart behind it and that Lilia’s performance makes him seem older than a high school student. MY FAVORITE ONE WAS ORTHO THOUGH, his was so cool!! They patched his scene so that he sounds like a Vocaloid while singing, which was an excellent touch 🎵 (Great job with that one, Idia!)

Mmm, I personally don’t care for the songs in episode 5 (with the exception of Piece of My World, if that counts), but I’m glad that others enjoyed them so much! I feel similarly towards Neige and the Dwarves; there’s nothing offensive about them, they’re just a little… bland for my tastes. Cute, yes, but ultimately bland.

Vil and Azul have similar backstories in that they involve being bullied and then using that experience to fuel their efforts to better themselves and to prove their worth to their peers. I think this is why those two are able to garner sympathy (but not always empathy) from the fandom. Oddly enough though, I usually see people not forgiving Vil for his actions while also exonerating Azul for his. This… has always been weird to me, because I see Azul as someone who has done much more damage over the years than Vil has—and what’s more, Vil is one of THE most apologetic OB boys of the cast and clearly owns up to his wrongdoings. I think this difference comes from the perception of each boy; again, Vil is often viewed as harsh and overly critical, and not a lot of the general public can relate to his being a child star, so he earns less empathy overall 💦 Some of this perception also comes down to a misunderstanding of his reasons for Overblotting; I've seen many label it as shallow or driven by vanity when... well, that's not entirely true. He's ultimately looking for approval and validation of his identity and the work that he does, and that's something I think everyone wants. I just wish more people were open-minded when looking over Vil's backstory. Just because he had a successful career and a supportive father doesn't mean Vil didn't struggle to get to where he is today. Even then, he's not entirely happy with himself. That's not Vil being spoiled or entitled, that's Vil thinking he can be even better. It's that ambition and drive that defines him.

aiudbaidbabsd Vil's dad though 😫 the real OG... It must be hard for a big star like him to make time for his child, and yet he still manages to do it. It's also just nice to see a supportive parent for once in these flashbacks instead of people like the Viper parents and Mama Rosehearts (or not really involved in or aware of the formative trauma like the Kingscholar parents and the Ashengrotto parents).

When I first played through episode 5, I wasn't expecting Deuce to get his unique magic at all. Now that it's said and done, I think we can all share in his pride and excitement. We've followed him on this journey for so long, and he finally gets this big payoff and he gets to rub it in Ace's smug face.

Episode 5 is a big turning point in terms of Malleus and Yuu’s relationship; this is when his true identity is revealed to them and everyone else becomes aware that they know each other. As I’ve said before, I don’t find myself convinced by their friendship due to how little they interacted during the main story, but I guess that’s just a consequence of the writers trying to keep Malleus “mysterious”. I’m sure plenty of people find him and Yuu endearing in spite of that.

I believe the significance of Malleus being called “Tsunotaro” even after his true name and title are revealed is that it calls attention to Yuu just treating him like a normal person. There’s no option to call him some variant of his actual name because “Malleus” is inherently associated with big titles: the dorm leader of Diasomnia, crown prince to the Briar Valley, one of the strongest mages in all of Twisted Wonderland. These isolate him from others, and it’s of great importance that Yuu is an exception to this and treats him like an equal.

Haha, there’s always that initial hit of disappointment when the results come out. It’s good that your mom didn’t linger on the sadness and the defeat for too long and was happy that the nice RSA boys cinched the victory. Everyone singing and suffering together at the end was the perfect way to conclude the Pomefiore arc~ (Jamil’s deadpan tone and face were 👌)

cbssksnsn That’s a first 😂 I don’t think I’ve seen many people get excited at the idea of meeting Mickey; I feel like most TWST fans (myself included) are quick to meme on him or theorize, or they’re just put off by his presence at all. It certainly feels a little “out of place” with the aesthetics and the world (at least until it gets further explanation).

I was worried about Grim attacking Yuu too but 😔 it ultimately just amounts to nothing more than a cat scratch, which I found disappointing (as it’s really low stakes despite how serious the situation is framed). That’s probably a relief to others though, I can’t imagine that most would be eager to see Yuu and Grim in pain.

… Since when has every end of episode preview for the next ever made the next OB boy NOT look sketchy?? 👁 👄 👁 It’s okay, no matter how sketchy Idia may be, Ortho’s there to balance it out with his innocence.

Isekai’d into Twisted Wonderland with your mom?? 😂 I don’t think the main story would be able to happen if any sane, responsible adult was actually present long enough to keep the kids out of trouble looking at you, Crowley.

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musette22 · 1 year

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plz tell me im not the only one who loves the idea of steve being in love with bucky during his teenage years and vice versa and then one of them confesses. you get the idea but still i need to know if im along or not

also look what i found on tik tok

Oh NO, I completely missed this ask, I'm so sorry!! I did not mean to ignore it, I swear, I just somehow managed to not see it when you sent it and then neglected to scroll far back enough until just now 🤦🏻‍♀️

ANYWAYS, I actually can tell you with complete and utter certainty that you are not the only one who likes that trope, lovely, because a) it's one of my personal faves too, and b) there are thousands of fics about it! 🥰🥰 Childhood friends to lovers, baby!! 💕 And aawww those memes, I love some of them a lot!! The 'can't cook - can't cook either' one rings especially true 😂 Interestingly, I think canon Steve as the happy or sunny one is kind of a misconception, as is Bucky as the raincloud or grumpy one, but it sort of depends on what time in their lives you catch them in, of course. I think Steve isn't so much sunny as 'the sun', in that he's bright and hot(headed) and powerful, steadfast and captivating and other 'planets' orbit around him, and he can both warm you or burn you, depending on the circumstances. I do love that analogy! ☀️

And while were on this subject, Bucky, I feel, started out as the earth 🌎 Flourishing and hospitable and varied and supportive of all kinds of life and things, and, not least of all, in the sun's orbit, needing the light and warmth of it to survive. But after he'd been deprived of that for so long, used for other people's gain, very nearly extinguised and kept from growing and blooming for so many years, he kind of turned into a moon: in shadows, barren, visible only when illluminated by the sun 🌒 But at his core, he's still 'earthy' - he's got so much to give, and so many hidden depths which are just waiting to be (re)explored, and he's incredibly resilient. Ugh man, now I've made myself emotional 🥺

I'm so sorry, you weren't asking for all of this at all, were you 😂 Anyway, thank you for your ask and sending me those memes and I hope you're doing very well, lovely!! Sending hugs ❤️❤️

#don't look to hard at my flawed science here #they're just metaphors :p #stucky #minnie answers

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jenniferdiazisatransgirl · 3 months

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I think I’m straight!

Hey,

So mental health is still kinda shit but I want to make this post. It does feel kinda cringy to come out as straight, but at the same time it has taken me a long time to figure out and like I think I finally have figured it out.

For those who’ve followed this blog for a while, you’ll know I’m a trans woman and when it comes to my sexuality I’ve never really had it down. I have had times where I thought I did, but it changes a lot.

For the past few years I have identified as demisexual and I think that comes down to the fact I’ve imagined I can have a relationship with a woman, but there would need to be a strong emotional bond for something more. But when I think about the potential of dating a guy, that need for a strong emotional bond doesn’t seem to be there.

Not sure if that really makes sense, but I guess if and when I imagine being with a woman in a relationship. My brain has to do a lot of extra steps and gymnastics to be like, “Yeah, that feels like it would be right.” Whereas if I imagine being with a man in a relationship, my brain is instantly like, “Yeah, I can see that happening.”

Like feels weird to say, “I don’t need a strong emotional bond with a guy”. Cos that kinda isn’t true in many respects. Like I need to be in a relationship with someone I trust and who I share interests with, etc. But of course, as we all know attraction doesn’t necessarily play by the rules of what would be ideal in a partner. You can find someone initially attractive and then their personality puts you off. And God, does that happen a lot. My one date with a dude and straight dude at that, he confessed that he’d love to meet a WWII NAZI in real life and I’m just like sat at the table in the coffee shop terrified going, “Riiiiight! Make no sudden moves. Just get through this and then never talk to this guy again.” Wasn’t the only red flag with that dude. He seemed to be one of those people who wanted to hear people out just because and it is like, “You don’t need to know the reasoning of what a NAZI is doing to know what they did is awful.”

Sorry, bit of a tangent there.

I have found this difficult to come to terms with though. Like when I was younger and I first remember experiencing any attraction it was to women. Like at 10 years old, I figured out I should be a woman but I also started experiencing attraction to women at the same time.

Someone pointed out yesterday though, that my attraction to women could have likely been envy. And I guess when I look back on it, that was very likely true. I think the huge issue I had between 10 to 16, is testosterone can really muddy the waters on attraction. Especially when you are trying desperately to understand yourself. And like I get confusion in your teen years especially is part of life, but I think testosterone and being a guy when that felt really wrong just caused the wrong kinds of confusion. Like I at least knew since 10 that transition was possible. I didn’t know what it entailed but I knew one day I could be a woman if that was how I really felt. Sadly that did not mean I had an accepting Mum, just that I had one who was honest when I curiously asked, “Mum, can people change sex?” in my clunky 10 year old vocabulary. I asked her that on the bus to my Grandma’s 😂 She said, “Yes.” Probably putting it down to childhood curiosity. I guess it took away some of the confusion. Like at 10 I figured out I should be a girl and I could at least latch onto that, not thinking it was totally impossible. But then there was still envy for my female classmates which my testosterone fuelled brain at the time clearly mistook for attraction.

And when it came to figuring out I like guys, my attraction was dampened for other reasons. Without going into details, events that took place during my childhood made me extremely fearful of men. I remember in primary (elementary) school, having a male supply (substitute) teacher and being utterly terrified of him. And like for a few years, social services was involved in my life, they used to pick me up from school every week. It was usually a woman who came to pick me up, but one week two men came to pick me up. I seriously was terrified as hell and I had it in my head these guys were kidnapping me. When I got to the centre I think I ended up telling my social worker how scared it made me being picked up by two men. Plus I spent a lot of my school years being called “gay” and bullied for being perceived as such. Like any desire to explore my attraction to men was dampened by fear and while weird to say, given the topic of this is me coming out as straight, internalised homophobia.

I mean while from 10 I knew I was a girl, from the outside I was a guy and exploring being a guy who likes guys was not something I wanted to explore. Being perceived as gay never really sat right with me though. Like I readily admit there was some internalised homophobia there, but I also despise misinformation about myself. Like, all I could think is “I’m not gay. I like women.” And I knew my classmates meant gay as in I was a guy who likes guys. And let’s imagine the fact, that they were half correct, I do like guys. I was not a guy who likes guys, I’m a girl who likes guys. But of course, without coming out, exploring my sexuality in any meaningful way at school would have given the wrong impression about me. It would have just backed up that idea I’m gay. Which not bad in anyway, but I didn’t want to be viewed as gay.

And look, I can safely say that was my brain hating misinformation. I kinda got outed at school, but the news didn’t reach everyone. I came out to one guy and he told enough people that by the next day most people at school knew. The news missed a few girls I hung out with though. I was dating a bisexual girl at the time and the reasoning they had assumed for me dating that girl was basically, “You’re a typical guy. Dating a bi girl for a threesome.”

Like I hated that so much and with already so many people in the school knowing I was trans anyway. I was just like, “Okay. Let’s stop this rumour before it even starts. The reason I’m dating a bi girl is cos I’m a girl.”

And that is likely another reason I didn’t explore my sexuality much at that age. When I finally came out as trans in school, I was in a relationship and one that lasted nearly the remainder of my time at school. Also super weird note, but you know that thing where it is said you are more attractive when in a relationship? Despite being outed to the entire school as trans, so many girls were interested in me and clearly expressed it during that time. There was one lass I had to watch out for in the corridors as she’d side swipe me with hugs from a run that made me nearly fall over. That was an interesting time.

If any guys expressed interest for me during that time though, I think it was safe to say I was oblivious to it. I did dance with a guy at my prom, but I feel safe in saying that was platonic. The song was “Mr Brightside” by The Killers though and it is still a memory I look back on fondly. Weirdly enough, the dance was with the guy who outed me. I think I’ve said before, he was hard to stay mad at during the time, as being outed actually caused a lot of bullying to stop for me. It was like my being trans took away a lot of the power my bullies had over me and then I had a girlfriend so calling me gay was a lil weak.

I do remember one of my bullies approaching me one day though and just going, “So all these years we were calling you gay. You’re a lesbian, so we were technically correct.” I think my response was something along the lines of, “Technically, yes.” And thinking internally, how he’d made me miserable along with the rest of my bullies so it was kinda beside the point.

I think I’m just rambling now though. Main take away was my head was filled with a lot of confusion and at times still is. I do think I finally have enough clarity on it all to say I’m straight though.

Enjoy my post!

#my life #trans woman #transgender #miscellaneous

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vendetta-if · 2 years

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Hello, Author. Hope you're having a great week. Anyway, I've seen the "childhood pregnancy" reactions. Now I'm curious about the reactions IF the MC and Ash are pregnant for real (married or not). Hope it's not a lot to ask.

First of all, yes, the ROs want children (but wouldn’t force MC to have one if they don’t want to)😄 Some will want to have children more than the others, especially Rin and Skylar. Ash would be more than happy to have one with MC as well while Santana wouldn’t mind.

Ash

Would be surprised, excited, and anxious all at the same time 😂 They would be excited to have a ‘tiny MC’ running around the house but then they also worry about being a parent. What if they’re not ready? What if they’ll do something wrong while raising their child? Maybe they should start researching and reading articles and watch videos. If only their mom or Viktor is still alive, they would just go to them and bombard them with questions and all of their worries 😔 Would be really protective of their kid and spoil them a lot. So, when Ash’s kid tell their peer that “My dad/mom can beat your dad/mom!” They better believe it as a fact and not take it as a challenge! 🤣

Rin

Very happy, satisfied, and proud. If their marriage to MC hasn’t bound their two families tighter than they already were, then their child with MC will make sure of that. Of course, that’s not all.

They would also secretly be really hyped to play and teach their child about things they found interesting at their age. They would start asking their mother questions on how she used to raise them and start collecting some of the children’s books that they used to read. Would be willing to sit through all those youtube kids shows and annoying songs repeatedly for their child 😂 They would also probably often ask their kids questions like, “Is there something new you learn today?” And all that type of stuff. Would also be spoiling their kid, buying them everything they want.

Santana

Would be happy, but instantly filled with worry, mostly about whether they will be able to provide for MC and their kid with their shitty job in the police force that’s going nowhere. Sure, MC’s side of the family is filthy rich, but they don’t want to rely and ask for money from them too often! They have some dignity.

Also, they might not be able to spend much time with their kid if they keep getting overworked. Maybe it’s time to change career now? Would totally be… the most normal parents out of all the ROs? Idk how to describe it 😂 Like attentive, caring, but can also be strict when needed.

Skylar

Elated and enthusiastic! Would start researching names immediately, renovating a room for the baby, going to the baby stores to buy some clothes and other stuff that a baby needs. Never mind that it will probably be months until the baby is due 😆 Would totally be that type of parent that will want to bring their kid on a road trip and go hiking and camping in the national parks! Would also totally spoil their kid 🥰

As for the ROs’ reactions if it turns out to just be a joke/prank:

Ash

Would pout disappointedly. And then shyly ask MC: “U-uh would you want one, then?” Their face beet red and their temperature skyrocketing. 😳

Rin

Cock their eyebrow in an unimpressed manner before clicking their tongue. But then immediately their face shifts into a naughty smirk, “How about we make one now then, MC?” 😏

Santana

Frown in confusion before actually settling on relief. The prank has actually made them start thinking about their career and future and that if they want to start providing for MC and their children in the future comfortably while still have time to spend with them, they will have to start looking for other job or career. They still have time to do that. Good.

Skylar

“What a mean joke, MC! You really had my hopes up for a second there!” They gasp and then pout. “Don’t you want to have one with me, MC? Please…🥺 I want one. Let’s make one, now, if you want MC 😍”

And sorry, I’m not really comfortable with answering the last question about how the ROs would feel if the baby isn’t theirs.

#asks #anon ask #if: vendetta #full cast ros #ro reactions #ro: ash #ro: rin #ro: santana #ro: skylar #if game #if wip #dashingdon #choicescript

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the-sisters-madrigal · 8 months

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Hi! Love your blog! My sister and I love love love Encanto (me more so) and it's my favourite ever Disney movie ever!

I have the headcanon set in modern times that after seeing the barbie movie, Luisa buys herself an emotional support barbie so she gives herself the childhood she didn't get. Also in relation to this, after the events of the movie, Pepa and Isabela bond over the trauma of having to suppress their gifts and being seen as perfect to keep up appearances. Isabela finds her old dolls from when she was a kid and seeing how she's not that girl anymore, she goes ham in destroying them and essentially pulls a Sid from Toy Story. Pepa helps in this therapy by using her lightning and its beautiful.

Other hcs include...

Mariano still being a himbo! One Christmas, Alma says they had an important visitor and Mariano deadass asks if it's Santa. It's padre fransico from a neighbouring church. This one is based off my sister at work, who, last Christmas, asked if the special visitor they were getting was Santa as 'christmas' and 'special visitor' usually means him. It was safeguarding people.

Behind the donkey shed is a popular place for couples to have alone time together. Both Pepa and Luisa can attest to this.

Dolores was adamant about wanting a baby sibling for Christmas, to the point where she held the baby who was the baby Jesus in the nativity hostage. Pepa and Félix did not think that negotiating with a three year old would be on their parenting duties and yet there they were.

Antonio is an oops baby. Very much welcomed, but an oops baby nonetheless. Pepa and Félix swore that after Camilo, there was to be no more. Cue Dolores' quinciñera where they had too much to drink and figured they were too old to need protection. The morning sickness five weeks later proved otherwise.

Thank you so, so much! I love me some Encanto, too 🥰 I took a little break for a while, but I'm back on it now 😂

And my goodness, these are some awesome headcanons!! I'll address each of these and number them so I can keep track 💗💗💗

I have honestly never much considered an modern AU for this group, but I have to admit, that's a really intriguing idea! And Pepa and Isabela bonding is pretty awesome, too, even if it's something I've never thought a lot about either (a lot of my thoughts belong to the three sisters 😅) However, I have to admit, the thought of Isabela destroying Barbie's in Sid-like fashion is the stuff that horror movies are made of 😂 However, I could very much picture it 🤣

I absolutely love Mariano being a himbo. He is literally the sweetest and he's got the spirit, but idk 😂

Now all I'm picturing is Luisa walking up after a hard day of gathering donkeys that she shouldn't have to gather in the first place and coming upon Pepa and Félix back there behind the donkey shed 🤣 Poor baby Luisa gonna be scarred for life

My goodness, I could definitely see Dolores wanting a baby sibling 🥺 And holding the nativity Jesus baby hostage is hilarious 😂💖 The question is did she want a boy or a girl or was she good with whichever? I kinda picture her being cool with either, but that might be based on my own experiences as a little kid wanting a sibling.

And my gosh, it's crazy you say this because I was literally telling my dad this the other day. I was forcing him to look at some of the Encanto characters (as you do) and I was looking at those kids thinking, "Dang, somebody done had an oopsie." 🤣

Thank you for sharing these delightful headcanons! 🥰💗💗💗

#encanto #dolores madrigal #pepa madrigal #mariano guzman #luisa madrigal #antonio madrigal #isabela madrigal #disney encanto #the madrigals #headcanons #headcanon #encanto headcaons #encanto headcanon

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cinamun · 1 year

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After reading the ask about Darren’s emotions & the flash back pics of him being a father figure to Elliot…

This is heavy! And there’s so many emotions for a father to process. Like Elliot taking his life is one thing…but him essentially trying to take his daughters as well. I know forgiveness is important (and Elliot needs help) but he literally suffocated his daughter and left her there to die and/or potentially watch him take his own life…

My mind keeps going to those nightmares of Darren’s childhood friend that he wasn’t able to protect. Time is a blur (because it’s the sims), so IDK if that’s something he’s fully handled/processed/worked through BUT the things we haven’t healed from have a way of resurfacing at the most high stress/traumatic times…which can cause us to do some things without giving it a second thought.

Although Elliot is someone he cares about and knows his story/struggle, I think for Darren (or any active father), that shit goes out the window. He put his hands on his daughter and tried to take his life. Also, Street logic is an old habit that dies hard.

That’s just my observation, of course. That’s was made me go straight to Big D losing his shit and kicking somebody’s ass. In my mind Indy may have to be his voice of reason. Part of me thinks this way because I’m thinking of how my dad was about his girls. Chillest dude you’d ever wanna meet but he didn’t play about his girls. No matter who you were.

ok, I’m going to find food now…because I’ve been sitting in the same spot for TWO hours now 😂😂😂😂

Street logic never goes away, and neither does the instinct that comes with growing up in the streets. Darren is an OG who is pretty much an expert at street shit, but put in the work to make his actions a little less reactionary.

He will never be over Sherrita, friend. What he *has* worked through is gaining an understanding for why he was the way he was with Indya (because of unresolved remorse for Sherrita).

So... I agree, old habits die hard. And we have yet to see Darren's reaction. No one knows this happened except for EMS, Hope, Jayce and Elliot. But if Hope is being encouraged by literal paramedics not to speak, she can barely speak, she's hoarse but manages to say "Don't let him die" something tells me that she would not want her father to finish him off if he does manage to survive this.

WHEW! Issa lot....

But stay tuned tho so we can find out.

#story stuff

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i-can-even-burn-salad · 10 months

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Writer Q&A

I was tagged by @clairelsonao3 and I think I'll leave it an open tag, because it's a whole lot of questions and I am tired and can't think.

What is your absolute all-time favorite idea you’ve ever had?

What if I started writing in English?

More under the cut, template at the end.

Is there a question you’ve been asked in the past that really stands out to you, and you still think about sometimes?

Ok so. Kinda two. One was basically "but does he have to be gay?" about a side character (Cedric) who just arrived with packed bags and a husband. It annoyed me so much, I made sure there wasn't a single confirmed straight char in the next book.

The other was also about Glass Shards, the first version of which was very similar to the current one, including the two scenes of SA. Which got basically a concerned "do you want to say anything with that?"

Which yes. I had a lot of frustrations back then, but not like that. And I get the question for the SA. No one asks me about the childhood trauma or any of the other shit. The possibility of people jumping to conclusions is always at the back of my mind when I think about sharing what I write.

What is your favorite part of being a writer? What parts could you take or leave?

Creating something. Just. I made something. I can hold it. I can share it. It exists, and it will not un-exist.

Fuck editing, though, I don't like it, and fuck worrying about putting it out there.

What is your greatest motivation to write/create?

The story I want to tell does not exist, so I need to write it.

What is the best piece of advice you’ve ever read or been given as a writer?

Not a piece, but a very dear friend once went through the trouble of leaving so. many. line. edits. on two of my chapters when I had just started out writing in English. I truly believe that has done more for my style than all the "don't use adverbs! :)" — "don't listen to them! >:(" posts ever could.

Half of those edits could probably be summarized as "please remove this and" 🤣 I like to think I've since gotten better at uh, balancing sentence structure and length 😬

What do you wish you knew when you were first starting out writing?

I think I answered something similar to this before, and it boils down to... I don't know. I think my progression was fine. There's no glaring problem that could have been fixed by a glorious piece of knowledge. Yes, I "wasted" years of my life trying to worldbuild, but I don't think I would have been ready to write a story I was happy with anyway, so whatever.

Without the hundreds of books I've read, without the roleplays I did, without the friends I found, without the games I played, I would not be where I am today, and I like where I am today. The time I spent experimenting, and the time I spent away from writing, doing other things I enjoyed, was not wasted.

What is your favorite story you’ve written to completion? Link it if you’d like and can!

Should I cheat and count the Glass Shard saga as one? I mean technically it starts at Nuisance and ends at Fancy Boots :)

I only wish I were done editing already, I know the first chapters especially can be better. But alas, it asked for story, not prose :p

Which of your characters would you say has the most controversial mindset? Why do you say so, and how do you personally feel about their ideals?

I mean, if we leave the bad guys out of this (I am sure hoping no one here agrees with Ed! 😂), Cedric is fun in fiction, but I actually do not think a murdery criminal is a good role model, no matter how kind he is to people he likes.

If you, when you first started writing, met you now, what would younger you think?

"Whoa, cool. Can I read that?"

Is there a question you’ve been asked in the past that really stands out to you, and you still think about sometimes?

What is your favorite part of being a writer? What parts could you take or leave?

What is your greatest motivation to write/create?

What is the best piece of advice you’ve ever read or been given as a writer?

What do you wish you knew when you were first starting out writing?

What is your favorite story you’ve written to completion? Link it if you’d like and can!

Which of your characters would you say has the most controversial mindset? Why do you say so, and how do you personally feel about their ideals?

If you, when you first started writing, met you now, what would younger you think?

#salad-tag #I mean yeah write what you want is always a mentioned advice here but #I already kinda did?#I guess I've gotten a bit braver and more graphic but eh not that much I'd have to waste a whole answer on that :p

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acacia-may · 1 year

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Hello there! Not a request, I was just wondering. You love Jerza, I saw that, but when you first watched Fairy Tail, did you first shipped Erza with Simon shortly before it was with Jellal? Because that happened to me and while I love Jerza, I loved Simon too and I wouldn't have mind at first if he ended up with Erza. But well, he died tragically pretty soon and Jellal got his redemption, so...

Hello! Thank you so much for the ask! 🥰 Aww...poor Simon! Bless his heart. 💕 He was such a good person, and I really loved his character. I've been rewatching some of the Tower of Heaven arc recently and really remembering just how wonderful he was. 🥺 I can definitely see the appeal of a Simon and Erza ship. He had a lot of genuine care and devotion for her which is very sweet, and I think that the sacrifices that he made for her are incredible and very admirable.

Overall, I agree with a lot of what you said, and, like you, I also would not have minded if he and Erza had ended up together (if circumstances were different and that's what they both decided they wanted for themselves). However, I wouldn't say I shipped that first, for a couple of reasons which I'll discuss under the cut because of spoilers.

(Warnings: Spoilers for Fairy Tail).

(1) I didn't experience Fairy Tail in what I would I consider the "normal way." I actually watched some of it out of order including the entirity of the Tower of Heaven arc. I also had a lot of spoilers just in general going into the series, one which was that Jerza was an endgame (canon?) ship so I at least figured Jellal was headed towards a some sort of redemption arc somehow even though I had absolutely no clue what was going on with him until (I don't even know...) the Oracion Seis arc? Edolas? Somewhere in there... (Those spoilers would have probably been helpful, but I didn't actually know anything about his arc except that he and Erza would eventually end up together so there was a lot of theorizing and trying to make sense of that). But I think knowing that he would eventually end up with Erza, I gave him more of the benefit of the doubt than I would have otherwise, and I was always really fascinated with Jellal as a character. He was definitely one of the ones I was most interested in, especially early on, but I made a lot of jokes about how I didn't understand him at all.

(2) On kind of this same point, I had a very strange and compartmentalized view of Jellal and kind of saw Jerza as multiple different ships (in a way) because I really had this "there are actually several different people who we think are all Jellal but are not actually the same person" theory. I really ran with that for a while, and my sister and I were actually (jokingly) keeping track of the many different "Jellals." We got up to, I think, 7 or 8 different Jellals in total by a certain point, and we would make jokes about it like: "Oh I could imagine Jellal #6 and Erza together, but Jellal #3 is bad news. I don't ship that!" 🤣 My favorite iteration of Jerza at that point was probably Erza x Jellal #1 (that is the Jellal from Erza's flashbacks/childhood before he was brainwashed and whatever his adult counterpart was, of course). That said, my personal favorites of all of the Jellals (besides Jellal #1) were always Jellal #4 (that's Mystogan) and Jellal #7 (Tiny Mystogan who was such a good big brother to Wendy! So precious! My son!! 💙), but I never shipped Edo!Jellal (Mystogan) with Erza Scarlet. (Now Edolas Jerza is totally different story and I adore that ship but I digress...) Here are some actual screenshots just to give you an idea of what I'm talking about and to prove that I’m not just kidding… 😅😂

(A/N: Clearly some of my theories were incorrect 😂😅)

Of course, ultimately, there were not actually 7 different "Jellals," but I did feel very vindicated when it was revealed that I was at least partially right and that Jellal and Mystogan were in fact two separate people. But I think having this very compartmentalized and fractured view of Jellal as a character made it much easier for me to get behind the idea of Jellal and Erza as a ship (in a very weird way). In most basic terms, it was very much, "I ship her with the good Jellal not the evil one" in my mind because I genuinely thought they were separate people 😂😅 (A/N: I really am a goofball sometimes and my theories can be very out there...)

(3) I am not a usually a big fan of relationships that feel one-sided in general. In this case, for instance, it is clear that Simon has romantic feelings for Erza, but she is still kind of wrestling with these complicated feelings she has for Jellal and dealing with a lot of her own personal trauma that is preventing her from being ready and even wanting to pursue a romantic relationship at that point. That isn't to say that she couldn't have grown to love Simon had he survived, but at that particular moment in their lives (during the Tower of Heaven arc), it really felt like an unrequited love situation to me. It is usually a much harder sell for me to get behind those kinds of ships in general, and it definitely takes a while (much longer than we were given with Simon, unfortunately) if there isn't some (obvious) indication that that other person is at least open to idea of returning that affection. It's usually just a personal preference for me to kind of take a "wait and see" approach with those kinds of ships before jumping on board and actually shipping it. Unfortunately, Simon's arc was cut short, so I didn't really get the time to make up my mind about that ship before the story kind of made up my mind for me (by axing him and removing him as an option). So it is really only upon reflection and looking back that I truly appreciated what could have been between them.

But ultimately, I love Simon, Erza, and Jellal as characters, and I want nothing but good things for them. Obviously what happened to Simon is incredibly tragic, and I think in a certain way, we'll just never know what could have been and there is a tragedy in that. But I think in my mind, I prefer their friendship, and I do have lingering questions about whether or not Erza would have ever returned his romantic interest in her even if he had survived. (I can almost guarantee you, however, that no one would ship that harder than Jellal--my poor little guilt-ridden, self-deprecating boy. I can just see him urging Erza to pursue Simon instead of him because he is the type of man who is worthy of her (at least in Jellal's eyes). That said, I do not like love triangles/shapes so I am actually kind of glad this didn't happen).

Thank you so much for the ask and for indulging my ramblings! Please feel free to drop by any time with any more Fairy Tail questions. I've definitely got a bit of brain rot for it at the moment! Cheers!! 💖

#fairy tail simon #erza scarlet #jellal fernandes #jerza #jellal x erza #simon x erza #fairy tail thoughts #answered anons #acacia's ramblings #thank you for the ask

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villanesus · 8 months

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Masooooooon 🤗 for the let's get personal I'd love the answers to:

17, 18, 23, 26, 28, 35, 49, 72, and 79

Thank you, beloved Pistachio! This took me a minute 😅 (Send asks, folks! Pistachio has left you all at least 2 questions from that list.)

17: What was the last lie you told?

Gosh, straight for the throat. 😂 Hm. Oh, I know. Replied to a work message saying “sorry I didn’t see this until just now!” I saw it, I just didn’t want to answer. 🙃

18: Do you believe in karma?

I’d like to (I have a strong sense of justice [an autistic trait]), but I don’t think it’s real. Or at a minimum I don’t think it’s consistent.

23: How do you vent your anger?

As an adult, I usually just vent to a friend. If I’m super furious I will find a minimally destructive activity like tearing up scrap paper or cardboard boxes.

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

For the most part. I’ve realized that every few years when I reflect on my younger self I always feel like that person was an ass clown (no matter what age). But I’m starting to cut them some slack.

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

I feel like there’s a couple different kinds of what ifs. What if X never, what if Y in the future.

What if I had a better childhood is one I think about a lot. I experienced Some Things and had an undiagnosed disability. So I wonder how I would have turned out with more support and less baseline terror.

My forward facing what if is equally a bummer. A lot of my what if energy is spent on what if I end up unhoused? Which is probably a direct consequence of the aforementioned what if. 🫠

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

I’m not sure there is one. That is to say, I don’t think there is inherent meaning so it is whatever each person makes of it. I mostly try to find small things to enjoy and try not to be an asshole.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

A few times. My favorite was during undergrad. I was one of the top students in my CS program. The program was almost entirely men and the popular rumor was that I only did well in classes because I was providing sexual favors to the male professors. 🤣 I didn’t look overtly queer at the time, though I’m sure most other gays would have clocked me instantly. It was really infuriating (still is on some level), but if you’ve ever met me you’d immediately find that rumor terribly laughable. Graduated with an award and honors, though. 🙃

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

That’s just a sneaky way of asking three questions, but I’ll allow it.

a) Probably. I think context and transparency are important and my behavior would change so I wouldn’t want people to worry (about the wrong thing?).

b) Assuming (unrealistically) that I will be in perfect health until the moment I drop dead, I’d use all my vacation time (why quit when I can force the company to pay for my last month of fun), make an effort to see some friends, ensure my estate stuff is in order and there’s a good home for my dog, maybe finish writing some things, and eat whatever I’d like. If I were going to die a really painful death, I might consider other arrangements to end things in advance.

c) Not exactly. I dislike pain and loss of independence, so if those are part of the experience then I would be afraid of that. I don’t think anything happens after death other than the electrical and chemical interactions in my body ceasing, in turn causing my conscious mind to cease. For folks around my age and older, I have always pictured it like the way tube televisions used to turn off. The screen goes blank, there’s an odd hum, and you can sense the shift of static electricity dissipating from the machine.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

I think my career choices. I work in a field I’m really passionate about and it’s afforded me a decent life in the hellscape of late-stage capitalism. I’m stressed out a lot, but if I’m going to be stressed out regardless, at least I can do work that feels meaningful.

#thank you beloved pistachio #i always love answering these #asks #ask games

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coffeebanana · 10 months

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for the weirdly specific and unrelated asks to know someone well (https://www.tumblr.com/coffeebanana/724329160620867584), 7, 9, 10, 11, and 27?

7. what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

i guess penguins if they have them? i would say dolphins or orcas because when i was younger those made me the most excited, but i don't actually think they're happy in captivity so :(

9. do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)?

haha uh...yes and no? i've gotten really lazy about it over the past couple years but i'm trying to get back in the habit. so when i'm actually doing everything... 2-4 steps probably? depending on the day and morning vs. night. nothing super extreme

10. on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice?

haha, neither? i usually ask for water lately 😂

11. anything from your childhood you’ve held on to?

see there probably is but i don't actually know what's left? i moved across the country for undergrad close to a decade ago, and so a lot of stuff is still back in my childhood home...but my sister definitely stole some stuff and the dog destroyed some stuff and my mom's been slowly going through my things to get rid of some the past few years so aksjfbsdkj i don't know!

27. what’s your favorite or go-to outfit?

at this point whatever is easy, so probably just leggings and some sort of tshirt/tank top--preferably something i can go braless in LOL because i've started doing that lately and it actually feels kinda nice

thanks for the ask!! 💜

#ask response #anonymous

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khaleesiofalicante · 1 year

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( Regarding the childhood BFF dilemma )

Oh Dani ... Dani ... Dani .. *sigh* where do I begin? I'm deciding to vent it all out to you (and your followers coz everyone here likes these) just so I can get a third person perspective.

Speaking about my childhood BFF. He is literally my childhood friend. We met when we were 4 or 5 years old at kindergarten, had sleepovers at each other's houses when we were younger, Always friendly at school, and then ... Our folks asked each of us to have an eye on the other ... This was during middle school. Initially it was silly, and we had fun with it coz our parents asked us to do it and we had lots of laughs. But as middle school got tough, the "keeping an eye" became sort of like a blame game and we started to keep scores... And intentionally and unintentionally we hurt each other... (Flashbacks from my POV are a little too many). Eventually we stopped talking to each other, so that our parents won't have dirt on us at what we do in school. We made our own friend circles even though we were in the same batch. as time went by, we drifted apart further naturally, having multiple mutual friends. 4 years of high school we were in the same class and we never acknowledged each other. Coz that's how it was.. very normal .. he didn't speak to me and neither did I to him. We went on with our lives and exams and moved away for University.

Again, never kept in touch during our uni years. We were in two different cities. We had each other's numbers, only to send bday and holiday greetings. Very formal. Just like it was. What was funny is both our families are close. So I would get info about him from his parents and vice versa. Like, I got to know he started a business on his own in his mid 20s from his parents, and he got to know I passed uni from mine. Mind you, we were close buddies when we were 10.

A decade or so later, I was speaking with his mom on the phone when I was visiting my parents. He got to know I was home and suggested we meet up. It was like I was meeting someone new for the first time (this was pre Covid). And it was a good time. He drove around the city, had food, drove more, and we got to know each other how our uni life was. Our individual plans for future, masters, settling down, etc etc etc. He did talk a lot about himself (which was something new I noticed back then), and about his exes. We talked about school, how we tried to sabotage each other. Some of the stuff we both didn't remember properly. I even asked him why did we stop talking to each other. We both do not know the answer to that question. Well I don't. Maybe he does. So we said our goodbyes and wished the best. But I do remember one moment when, he was driving on the highway, and we both were quiet. Like comfortable in the silence. We talked a lot, but we had more to talk. But that few minutes felt safe and comfortable for me, with him. We both didn't fill the silence with awkwardness. He drove and I sat next to him...

Post Covid, we met again last year. I started working and I got to know he was in a LDR. We laughed a lot. (Again he was driving) And I told him why I cannot see myself being friendly with you like how we were. He was adamant to hash it all out for once and to clear the air between us. Again, it felt natural. There was no gaps to fill with small talk with him. He suggested some guys for me to date from his friend circle (and he himself said they are all shit so don't bother 😂).

I told him about the time I went ice skating with a guy and how it felt like a "hangout" rather than a "date". He said "if I take a girl out for ice skating, I'm gonna make sure the girl KNOWS it's a date and a second date is on the table." I was like "well I didn't get those vibes so I don't think it's gonna happen again". It was random banter back and forth.

We never had any romantic tension between us. I mean, we never were close during our growing ages. But I have to tell the truth, every now and then I wonder what could be the possibility of us? Like a fleeting thought. We both have a lot of unresolved issues tbh. I don't trust him that much. Ive never felt safe and to be able to be myself with any other men I've come across in my life. Maybe it's the pre-added notion that we've known each other, but we DO NOT KNOW one another ( you know what I mean?)

So yeah. I'm just in a rut. Which makes no sense. To me. And the Malec Childhood BFFs to Lovers was bittersweet for me to read.

Whadya think Dani? Am I an insane woman like how all women women generally towards the bare fucking minimum???😂😆

omg thank you for the tea 🙊

first of all. this line "if I take a girl out for ice skating, I'm gonna make sure the girl KNOWS it's a date and a second date is on the table" goes SO hard. Oof.

It's entirely up to you as to what you want to do and what this dynamic means to both of you. But right now it seems like you are enjoying each other's company (you are still getting back to each other so to speak) and maybe enjoy that? when we have something good and comfortable, it's very normal to want it for longer or on a permanent basis. So, I can see why you are wondering about a possible relationship. If this is something you continue to feel in this relationship, then perhaps it's time to drop some hints. I only hope you will be better at it than Alec lol.

It's truly so lucky to reconnect with childhood friends and find friendships that can survive time. I'm happy for you 🧡

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the-pale-goddess · 2 years

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So I got this ask that kind of made me go...wow. Most of us HC Tobias to be a player, lady's man, commitment-phobe, or something of that nature. It's kind of just a given. Yet, there is really no basis for it in canon. So, how the hell did we all end up here? So, I'm asking you...

How do you see your version of Tobias? And why?

(Sending this to those who have written for or HC'd Tobias, but anyone, please feel free to answer.)

I know you don't have a lot of Tobias, but I enjoyed your characterization so I'd love your take on it. :)

Full disclosure: I’ve never thought of a solid background for Tobias before, so this is just me rambling. I’ve decided to delve into his past a bit because I believe that some events could have influenced his view on relationships.

It’s definitely much more than you asked for, dear Elsa, I just hope that it’s coherent enough and you’ll find the answer somewhere there jsgksgksg

I’ve seen a few responses to this ask while scrolling through my dash, and I have to agree on one fundamental matter—Tobias is a natural flirt, charming his way through life without even trying. That’s the part of his personality he is absolutely grateful for and often takes advantage of—especially when chasing women lol His confidence, however useful and effective, tends to be dangerous as he often verges on posing as an egocentric douchebag. But then again, it never fails because he does it criminally well…Who doesn’t love a charismatic asshole 😂

In addition, he’s extremely driven and competitive, and I imagine that these traits are not the default setting, but have been planted in him—perhaps this perpetual restlessness stems from his childhood? Perhaps his parents didn’t appreciate him enough and he had to constantly prove himself to get their attention? Much to think about. But in my opinion this scenario could explain some of the morally questionable things he’s done. He’s never afraid to play dirty to achieve the desired outcome, but I don’t really see him doing anything with malicious intent. Instead, Tobias strikes me as the type of guy who doesn’t waste time thinking of the consequences, and it definitely permeates into his love life.

For a long time, young Mr Carrick was the best at everything, stealing girls’ hearts and, inevitably, breaking them for breakfast. That was just the part of the game. He was never afraid of commitment—he simply wasn’t ready to settle down. Casual, no strings attached dating was an exciting and convenient addition to his hectic schedule and big dreams.

Med school surprised him with a plot twist: he finally met a worthy opponent. And in the blink of an eye, Tobias was no longer the best.

The harmless competition between two friends—both extremely different from each other and yet oddly similar—slowly turned serious, and though Tobias never considered himself to be a jealous man, envy infused his blood with vibrant green whenever Ethan was one step ahead of him, whether it was just a friendly poker game or the final histology exam.

He was banging some girl whose name he can’t even recall nowadays when Beatrice appeared in their lives. She was a wild card, with mind and mouth as sharp as a dagger. She could easily cut them, but chose to befriend them instead.

Tobias quickly noticed the sparks flying between his best friend and Miss Solden, anxiously assessing how to approach this new situation and deal with the uncomfortable feeling eating him alive.

At first, he would flirt with her just to mess with Ramsey. But the seemingly innocent, one-sided attraction turned into shameless teasing that left him confused and put his friendships at risk. Though Beatrice and Ethan were never officially a couple, Tobias knew Ethan’s past, his weaknesses and insecurities, he knew how difficult it was for him to open up and how deeply Grumpsey cared for Bea. He knew all that, and yet he couldn’t stop himself from pursuing her…Not to beat Ethan out for a change, but to win Beatrice’s heart. As soon as things between Ethan and Tobias got too problematic and their brotherly friendship began falling apart, Beatrice ghosted both men, then moved away, leaving them both heartbroken.

Hoping to mend his wounds, Tobias would continue seeking pleasure in temporary, casual relationships with both parties 100% comfortable with the agreement. Since that was (more or less) the nature of his affair with June, this dating style is still valid when we meet him. He likes variety, flavor, spice and feels safe in this bubble where there are no expectations and he’s always in control, half-way through the door, always ready to take off to embark on a new adventure.

Perhaps deep down he still wants to reconnect with Beatrice to see if they would ever work? To claim his final win?

Once Tobias finds himself ready to retire from the competition aka the endless pond of opportunities or finds someone capable of domesticating him, then I’m quite certain he’ll be the most thoughtful and devoted partner.

Is he a player then? In a sense, yes, but he’s playing his own game. And his fuckboy days are long gone lol

That’s what I came up with about Tobias, based on the scraps PB has given us in the second book and the parts of OHTY I’ve managed to get through before I’ve given up on the mess 😅

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Thank you for always thinking of me, Elsa! 🥰 It means the world that you liked my characterization of Tobias in Compound Fracture—this is the highest form of praise coming from our Tobias Queen 🥹❤️❤️❤️ @jerzwriter

#tobias carrick #ethan ramsey #and that med school lover…#beatrice solden #i didn't proofread this

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thestalwartheart · 1 year

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#7 and/or #40 for the fic writer ask game? :)

Ask me questions!

Hi Nonnie! Thanks for the ask. 💜

7. tell us about the plot of the first fanfic you ever wrote.

Oh my god 😂 It was like fifteen years ago. Some Marauders-focused found family thing from HP (I know, I know - please don't think too harshly of me) where, while they're all living in Grimmauld Place, Sirius tells Harry about his own childhood and how his friends saved him from his family. Regrettably, I was really into those books as a kid/teenager, though I haven't touched them - or the fandom - in years. I had a real thing for Sirius Black, you know? I also had a real think for Aragorn (I've had fine taste in DILFs from a young age), but was too scared to write in the LoTR fandom at the time. Tbh I'm still scared of it!

If you're after my (much better) first fic from the James Bond fandom, it's living on the fault line, which I wrote right after seeing NTTD. In it, Bond has a close call on a mission while Q is guiding him. He thinks he's going to die, so he asks for a moment alone with Q on the comms. Happily, there's no actual character death in it, and there are three marriage proposals.

40. best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten.

This is so hard because so much feedback sits in an equally sacred place for lots of different reasons. Whether it's because my writing made someone laugh, touched a really deep part of them, helped them deal with trauma, or made them see canon in a different light, I'm just so lucky that people like my work enough to send me comments and messages about it.

The feedback that taught me the most was my high school English teacher crossing out whole swathes of a story I once wrote. She then circled a particular paragraph and wrote something like, "Beautiful - focus on this. Some of the best writing out there is about a single moment."

#ask box

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queerauntie · 1 year

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December Reads

As the end of the year comes to a close, I wanted to reflect on my latest hyperfocus- books! It's been a lot of fun the past few months diving in deep and enjoying a wide variety of stories, and December was no exception. This year rounds us out with a total of FOUR books! And the titles are, in order of when I read them:

A Gathering of Shadows by V.E. Schwab

A Conjuring of Light by V.E. Schwab

Ten Steps to Nanette by Hannah Gadsby

I Think I Love You by Auriana Desombre

Witchful Thinking by Celestine Martin

I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter by Erika L. Sánchez

Every Body Shines Edited by Cassandra Newbould

The Complete Maus by Art Spiegelman

ain't i a woman by bell hooks

Let's start with the Shades of Magic series. This series was absolutely phenomenal. I couldn't put it down, that is to say, my friend and I sat in silence for 12+ hours (for each book) so I could get through them. From the characters to the plot twists, this book is God Tier and definitely is going in the "Read Again" file of books to enjoy when I feel like revisiting that magnificent world. After reading The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue I was sure I would enjoy the series and was more prepared for the world-building I knew would require my attention. It did not let me down!

Ten Steps to Nanette by Hannah Gadsby was a really enjoyable read, it made me learn some things about myself, connecting those childhood dots to their adult patterns. My friend always asked me if Gadsby's special, Douglas, made me feel as autistic as they did when I watched it, and while I didn't quite get what they meant, in this memoir, I completely understood what they were asking. Hannah goes into even more depth about how their diagnosis came around (and all the signs that should've been picked up on) and it hit very close to home. It was frustrating and hilarious and heartbreaking. It gave me even more respect for my queer elders and the road they've paved for us. For any fan of comedy, autism, and lesbians, I highly recommend this book.

Now, I Think I Love You was a completely different tone shift from the previous books this month, I picked it for two reasons. I saw it here on tumblr looking for lesbian love stories. and secondly, because of all the books I saw, this was the only one that was available instantly in the Libby App. All that to say it wasn't one I was extremely invested in and therefore I didn't pay extreme attention to it. Similarly to sitcoms, I tend to zone out on additional characters and scenes and then tune back in when it's the main character talking, the plot is pushed forward, and conflict is being created and resolved. I did enjoy this story, while some teen fics hit me hard, this one did feel like it was for the younger (middle school) grades. But while no tears were shed, I did enjoy this sweet story!

Witchful Thinking was a book I put on hold around October (Halloween theme). It was another book I saw at Target, so now we're getting a feel for the Target Tier as I am now calling it! I would say it's a 3.75 on my personal scale. I really really like the books, but I just can't say that I loved them. This book was right in there, and I honestly don't even believe it's the book's fault. I am quickly discovering that books that don't include or center queer characters are really boring. The trials and communication problems that cishet characters go through are a little tired out for me. I love a will they won't they, but when it's high school sweethearts and he's too cool to commit, and she's scared to get what she wants... It's like nah that's not my vibes thank you though! Now what I was NOT expecting was for the breeders to get hot and HEAVY! Suddenly nipples were getting hard and thrusts were being matched, I was wholly unprepared and thankful I was in private 😂. All in all, it was a fun ride and I'm certainly glad the girl got her happy ending. Good for him too I guess but who cares about a MAN?! I swear we're going for all non-male protagonists for next year lol I can't stand myself!

I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter was a book that caught me off guard a bit. I don't read the book trailers or try to learn anything about a book before getting into it, I like the surprise you know? I thought this book would be very relatable, and it was, but it wasn't from my perspective, family dynamically speaking. While I am the oldest, the third parent, and the one whom all the expectations were put upon, my character was dead. So, this book felt a lot like reading from my younger sister's perspective. When my parent's gaze falls off me, who would they have next to target? It worked through a lot of cultural family dynamics that were very relatable. Julia goes through the hardest thing imaginable and doesn't come through unscathed.

Every Body Shines was a random book that I picked up because I saw a teacher that I follow on twitter was hosting the book club for this book, and I had a day to read it so, challenge accepted! What I didn't know is that it was a series of short stories, not a non-fiction about body acceptance. Now, I have tried reading collections like this but the short stories just always fall a little flat for me, that being said, there were a few stories that stuck out to me so it was worth the read after all. What was the most disappointing was I couldn't find out access to the book club so I ended up not getting to read others' thoughts which was what I was really looking forward to!

I came across The Complete Maus at the library and grabbed it without a second thought. I remember when the last school year started and certain (read antisemitic and racist) people were trying to ban this book in schools. I ended up reading over 70% of it in one night and finished it the next morning. It was beautifully told, devastating to witness, and immensely kind. I have continually used that word to describe books, but it's the highest compliment I can give a story. In this age of shock culture, it's a popular trend to create untrustworthy stories and be deceitful as writers. It's been ongoing for years now, and it's scary when you don't know if you can trust that a writer will be mindful of your emotional journey. But Spiegelman does a phenomenal job showing his capturing of the story within the story. It helps the reader to ease in and out of these extremely difficult and dark moments. It was also beautiful to be able to get into the author's head a little more as he tells his story. I think it's insane that it was ever attempted to be banned and instead believe it would be a great alternative to The Boy In The Stripe Pajamas which is taught in middle school! Regardless, it's a very good piece of writing and art.

We're here, the last book of the year! I finished ain't i a woman by bell hooks earlier today and will definitely need to read it again because i was distractedly cleaning while listening. But it was a really good read, discussing how Black Women have been left out of both Black liberation movements and White Women's feminist liberation movements. I don't know what I could say that hasn't been said far more eloquently and it's just the tip of the iceberg for me, so keep an eye out for more thoughts as I get through her writing. But just from this first exposure, I can already tell that hooks is going to be a brilliant teacher in the next upcoming year.

Well, that's it y'all! 32 books in 6 months! I am very impressed with myself, this has been such a fun journey and I am so excited to continue this lovely hobby into the new year. This averages around 5-6 books a month which is so wild and very sprinty of me, so I'm going to be subtly ambitious with my first intentional reading goal: 50 books in 2023! I'm looking forward to sharing them all with you and getting much better at these reviews along the way! If you have any suggestions for me please feel free to drop an ask or send a message!

Happy New Years to everyone celebrating the gregorian calendar and I hope we all have a fantastic adventure ahead of us!

Yearly Book Count: 32/32!!

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Hi Christina! ❤️

💖 What made you start writing?

For the first time? I was really little—4 or 5. My childhood involved a lot of things I had to sit still and be quiet for. Writing stories and illustrating them kept me occupied and let me flex my creativity muscles. If that’s partly why I live so much in my own head nowadays, well…there’s no help for it now. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

More recently, my writing career has been fueled by three things: curiosity and care and spite. If I come across something in a story that makes me curious, I write about it to investigate. If I care deeply for a character or relationship that hasn’t been properly explored, I write about it. If I am angered somehow by a story (or its fanbase), I write my own version out of spite.

👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

Oh man. I hate to be a disappointment, but…I’m in a bit of a dry spell when it comes to writing 🙈

The only thing I can even count as being a WIP is the sequel to my Tangled AU, and that’s by virtue of lots of things in the fic already being established by the first installment. I have no outline at present, just a handful of scenes meant more to evoke emotion than anything resembling a plot.

Anyway. About the fic itself—Al has escaped his tower and his abusive fake father. He has found happiness with Ed, and they’ve both found a home. But Al hasn’t dealt with all the trauma Father put him through, and his relationship with Ed is still very new and untested. There are so many questions unanswered, about the alchemy that stole the boys’ limbs, about what Father was, about transmuting without a circle. It’s essentially a road trip to answer those questions, with some couple bonding in between. That’s…as much as I know. 😂

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

I think…a certain set of physical affection pops up, no matter what characters I’m writing. Forehead touches. Gentle kisses, whether they be romantic or not. I like characters to be hands-on!

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

Of mine? Not really. Some fics are sadder than others, but I wouldn’t say any of them are heartbreaking, because I always wanted that. Having my heart broken by a fic indicates that something in it happened that was “out of my control,” and I’ve never been on board with that type of writing where the characters “show” the author where the story goes. I’m in control, and I decide what happens! If I want something to be sad, it will be—but it won’t be my heart that breaks. I’ll leave that to the readers 😉

Send me writing asks!

#asks #about me #writing is hard #whitedahlia13 #thanks for sending this in christina!

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