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I've decided I simply will not anymore. That's all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.

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I got a from dress and new boots from prom and I cannot tell y'all my level of excitement. I get to bring my partners too!!!

The dress is this really pretty dark blue and black with stars all over it! aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA

It gives me euphoria >:)

#gender euphoria #alphabet mafia #lgbtq community #lgbt pride #gay pride #nonbinary #prom night #high school #new dress #new outfit #new fit

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someone needs to remove my emotions immediately. a person is starting to make me a little too happy. bitch stop making me smile when i’m alone i hate it

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Just p e r i s h

#they/them #they them #nonbinary #gender #lgbt #they/their

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Dear reader,

I haven't posted in a while, and I had some time to self improve and get through some of my shit. Getting through life's hard. Shits hard. I guess I had to get my shit together.

So I'm here to tell you that you got this. You'll make it through whatever shit you're going through, and you'll come out better on the other side. Maybe it'll take leaving behind whatever shit you have going on in your life, maybe it's gonna take a near death experience even. You'll figure things out. Things will maybe have to get worse before they get worse.

Just set goals for yourself, set boundaries in your life, and have discipline in your life. Figure out what taking your "first step" is to getting better.

So dear reader, I hope you get through whatever you're going through. I hope you're nice to yourself. Please, remember to take care of yourself.

Signing off,

Eli <3

#bpd problems #bpd recovery #bpd tag #bpd stuff #things will be okay #things will get better #ill be ok tho #i'll be okay #mentally ill #mentally exhausted #mental health #recovery #depressiv #anxienty #suicudal

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Hi, I'm sorry to bug you but I'm in a pretty shitty situation. If you would be able to reblog my donation post it would mean a lot to me https://theluckybeliever.tumblr.com/post/674963806179524608/you-want-trans-healthcare-go-fuck-yourself

I reblogged your post good luck with everything homie!

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“You want trans healthcare? Go fuck yourself”

So says my place of work anyway… I brought up having to be put onto light duties after top surgery to my manager, and ended up having to give my two weeks notice. This is my only source of income and I cant rely on my family as they are extremely transphobic. I’m trying to find something I can do from home but I don’t have experience in anything except manual labour so I haven’t had any luck yet. I don’t know how I’m going to survive the recovery period. If anyone is able to help, I would be more than grateful. Even if you aren’t in a financial position to donate, if you shared this post it would mean a lot to me

https://paypal.me/jonjonftm?country.x=CA&locale.x=en_US

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Birf day is tomorrow ?!?!? :D

#happy birthday to me #happy birthday #becoming an adult #i feel old #birfday #alphabet mafia #genderfluid #lgbtq community

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Reblog if you're an absolute SIMP for Luz or Amity from TOH

#the owl house #the owl lady #amity blight #luz x amity #luz noseda #im a simp #toh amity #toh luz #toh lumity #lgbtq community #lgbtq #lgbt memes #why am i so gay

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Dear reader,

Hello! I apologize, for I have abandoned my account for a while! I'm back, but I'm honestly unsure for how long 😅 but I'll explain!

My 18th birthday is in 9 days, and from the time of around Thanksgiving to now, everyone in my life has been getting covid. Unfortunately, I dear reader, have also recently gotten covid and am still recovering from it. I go back to school tomorrow though! During that time period, I've also gotten a very rude awakening, with being threatened to be kicked out of the place im staying, and it's come to the point that I'm moving out on my own, fearing that if I don't they will kick me out. So... I'll be homeless for a good few months, or possibly even up to a year.

My minds been racing with anxiety at the thought of being homeless, and I've lost a lot of people close to me recently as well. I'm keeping my head up though! Despite the shit-storm I've been endearing these past few months, I'm still kickin'! I'm alive and that's all that matters. I'm almost convinced that life's trying to kill me though 😅

As far as the job situation, I still don't have one, and the ones I'm looking at, I have to be 18 for. I think I can manage for 9 more days before I start sending in applications.

I'm just very thankful for the people who are in my life. I have some wonderful friends who are willing to let me crash on their couch when I need to, so I'll hopefully be able to avoid sleeping in my car for the most part. I haven't told my mother that I'll be sleeping in my car at all, as I'm too ashamed to. I'm just happy, that even if I will be living in my car, my friends are willing to let me use their showers, wash my clothes, and help me out with gas money.

Overall... I'm just hoping to get a job, and I plan on working my ass off to get on my feet. I realize that some people aren't as great as what I once thought, but it's not entirely their fault. It's just the way they were raised. I just need to make the best of my situation, and hope that my hard work will pay off. Be thankful that I'm still here and.. healthy, for the most part.

So, dear reader, while I tackle these next few months with the challenges that have been thrown my way, I hope that I find time to come back here, and maybe even here some inspiring words from some of you. I hope all of you, even if in a bad situation, make the most of it and keep going in this uncertainty of life. If not for yourself, for others around you who care about you. It's really hard not to crack under the pressure, but I'll be damned if I give up before I get where I want to in life. I'll keep working towards building a better future for myself, and keep working on cutting off the toxic people I come across, filling the spaces with people who will lift me up. I hope you, reader, can do the same.

Thanks for listening to my stupid lil rant, and I hope y'all have a good day :)

Best regards,

Eli 🌻

#figuring things out #homeless #positivity #im still alive #im still here #im alive #life is uncertain #i hope things get better #i love my friends #lifes hard #life sucks sometimes #but its okay #ill get there #everything will be okay #im going to be homeless and it's really scary but its okay because ill make it through this #happy birthday #happy birthday to me #birthdays kinda suck tbh but its fine

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I love when people reply to me with long messages and details and keep the conversation interesting like yes tell me everything I'm listening

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Happy holidays to all my fellow trans people (closeted and uncloseted). If you're in a bad situation with transphobic/homophobic families at home. . . I've already picked up your adoption papers, now let's go drink hot chocolate and watch cheesy Christmas movies.

Your new internet dad,

Tyler

P.S. - I'm not the owner of this account, I just thought you guys could use some cheering up. <3

#merry christmas #happy holidays #trans tag #closet #closeted trans #transgender #lgbtq community #internet dad #im adopting each and every one of you #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia

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Finals are here and I'm not Mc fuckin lovin' it

#fuck my liiiiife #fuck my life #fuck finals #im so confused #girl help #what the fuck #finals week

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Barry is just doing his job to ward off other things that may scare you shitless. He doing his best.

My autistic brother created a new family Christmas tradition

Okay, so last year, my mom bought this Christmas moose that she lovingly named Barry

This is him

Cute, right?

Well, for whatever reason only known to my brother, he decided that he wanted to put Barry in different rooms of our house and it usually scares the shit out of whomever happens upon Barry; usually the person who finds him is the person that my brother wanted to scare.

So far, Barry has been found

On our dining room table

On my dad's side of my parents' bed

In my parents' closet

Outside their bedroom door (at 5 in the morning and scared my mother shitless)

Near the kitchen door

Near my fucking bed

At the bottom of my sister's stairwell

In our bathroom

And down the hallway

This has gone on for 9 days and it doesn't seem to show signs of stopping. Most of the time we know who gets Barry because it's always followed with a very loud "FUCKING BARRY!!!!!"

My brother is the funniest fucking person I know.