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I have two chronic illnesses that are known for seizures and blacking out. How is it that I haven't blacked out in years and my little sister twice in about 3 months??

She literally asked me "why am I fainting? You're supposed to be the one that does that." 💔

Even though I'm so grateful for being (kinda) seizure free for 7 years I would do anything to take her place.

#epilepsy #fnd #chronic illness #lowbloodpressure #fainting #seizure free #sorry

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Designing something for/about yourself is so hard when you don't know who you are.

#designing #identity crisis #logobrand #Why cant I just figure it out #design #quoteoftheday

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Teachers not trusting that I'm good at something just because I know someone with that specialty <<<

#I dont steal people's work!! #this wouldn't have happened if I were a guy. #creative major that likes coding #just trust me #I've worked so hard for someone to tell me I didn't do it #everytime I write code!!

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Working really hard on something just to have someone tell me I stole it...

I had to go to the hospital for a week and I'm taking care of my sister who just had surgery and I still finished my project, please give credit where credit is due.

#everytime I write code my teachers tell me I stole it #if you think know me well enough to know if I write my comments in English or native #you should know i dont cheat #also have the fun #fnd #epilepsy #chronic illness #disabled

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I wanted to say like a good line or sth, but honestly all I have to say is:

I'm in so much pain and I can't deal with it right now. I can't deal with it anymore.

#epilepsy #chronic illness #sore muscles #headaches #all the fun stuff #tired #im in pain #mental health #actually epilepsy

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Wearing his hoodie >>>>>

#crush #cute #i like him #love quotes #i miss it #i had to give it back... #i miss him

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I don't want to say that I'm good, because if I'm good, it means that I won't get better.

#epilepsy #chronic illness #im so tired #mental health #im doing better #just not good #i feel pathetic #and ungrateful #quotes #quoteoftheday

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Epilepsy is more than seizures.

Smaller symptoms, meds side-effects, doctor appointments, avoiding triggers etc...

#lucky #so much respect to the people with seizures #actually epilepsy #epilepsy awareness #epilepsy #seizures #no seizures #one of the ones #some meds do work #not everyone with epilepsy has seizures #im so tired #im exhausted #sensory overload

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Not sick enough to complain, but too sick to function...

#best case scenario is still not a good scenario #epilepsy #no seizures #daily impact #chronic illness #sensory overload

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Liking a close friend is so weird. I want to be around him all the time, I want to let him know how I'm feeling, but i don't want to lose what we've got now. We're in a small friend group that I can't lose (I'll leave if one of us has to) I can be with him and have fun and listen to him tell his stories or explain sth complicated, but I can't hug him or randomly smile and watch. I can't visibly melt whenever he says, honestly, anything.

I miss him and I saw him little less than 12 hours ago. I missed him right after I saw him tbh.

#i really like him #i miss him #best friends #more than a crush #crush #just writing my brain empty tbh

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I'm not able to go on a school trip, because it's a show with a lot of stimuli and probably flashing lights. It really hurts. I don't even have seizures and epilepsy is hurting me in more ways than one.

So much respect and love to the people who have to go through seizures, big and small.

#epilepsy awareness #sensory overload #epilepsy #overwhelmed #neurodivergent #actuallyneurodivergent #actually epilepsy #im so tired #mental health #chronic illness #odd one out #at least my classmates are sad i cant go too

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Anyone else in pain with wayy too many A's ??

#overwhelmed #epilepsy #im exhausted #im so tired #mental health #depression quotes #chronic illness #migranes #too much

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I'm so done surviving. I just want to live...

#overwhelmed #depression quotes #quotes #health #mental health #chronic illness #im exhausted #surviving

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Can't we just let humans be humans.

Stop talking about people you don't know and stop pretending you have the right to know and say everything.

We all deserve freedom.

Don't take it away from others because you want to know who you can ship them with.

#let humans be humans #kit connor #joe locke #freedom #respect #honestly some larries too #stop speculating #not your business #love is love #heartwrenching #not only celebrities #celebrity

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Life is like going through mountains and valleys right??? That means there have to be mountains around the valleys for the valleys to be a thing??? That means that life has to go upwards some day right???

#we need a break #everything is so hard right now #this is gonna be fun for my future #im so tired #life is hard get a helmet #overwhelmed #mental health #mentally fried #life

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Okay but people that listen to 'lifeline' by Joshua Bassett on repeat, are you guys okay??

#mentally unstable #lifeline #joshua bassett #music on repeat #are you guys okay #im not crying you are #mentally done #kinda depressed #i can't do this on my own #therapy

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Something that just made me feel seen :)

I (18f) was walking outside at night with my sister and we noticed that a guy behind us started walking faster with a good bow around us, making sure we didn't think he was stalking us. In the same 10 min a guy who was smoking made sure to keep distance from us to let us know we were safe. Not all guys are bad. Some guys do understand.

I would not have felt safe around either of them if they would've treated me like it was bright daylight. So them acknowledging that most women don't feel safe at night really gives me hope :)

#not all guys are bad #late night walks #people are actually listening to each other #feeling safe #safety #feminism #does that fit here? #hope #hope for the future #faith in the future #faith in humanity #humanity #good people