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forgot to post this little Croco sketch I did the other day

#messy sketch #as always I draw my faves with my headcanons #one piece #op #sir crocodile #crocodile one piece #tw scars #scars #trigger warning #smoking #claws

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working on a little something atm - I promise I haven't forgotten my fave moondad 🌙

#(I haven't slept in days lmao) #wip #preview #sketch #saix #isa #kh #kingdom hearts

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what do you think about the concept of haunting the narrative? like a character's whole thing being how Not There they are and yet they still influence how the story goes. it makes me think about a lot of things personally, like how people who aren't in my life anymore still affect how I act and the things I like, they haunt the narrative of my life basically. (sorry if this is strange new/old thing came up in the current hyperfixation that still has me in a stranglehold that made me think about it)

SORRY I meant to answer this far sooner - I've been rotating the answer in my head a lot haha! Gonna do a read more as I am sure I will ramble.

So I wanna say that I try to make sure that in all of my longfic series there is an overarching sense of that exact feeling, of there being someone unseen that we hear about and sense and we see their aftermath even if we don't 100% see them, or at least don't see them right away.

In my Stardew Valley Withstanding The Tide series, its most definitely Elliott's biological family. For context: Elliott, the writer, finds himself having to take care of his friend, Braeburn's, farm after a series of horrible incidents lands them both in trouble of various kinds, physically, financially, and emotionally. Elliott struggles deeply with his worth and his ability and if he and Braeburn are even friends because he simply cannot grasp the idea of him being worthy of someones time, space or energy. For the entire first part of the series we don't get a lot of information about Elliott's past at all, but I really wanted there to be a sense of 'oh this man has such a warped view of himself and there was absolutely a reason for it'.

As the second part of the series, Redamancy, goes on, we get more and more information until we meet Elliott's mother in the flesh, and I really wanted it to feel like a solid heart-stopping moment. Like this mythical, foreboding woman that has twisted Elliott's sensibilities and has only been passively mentioned is suddenly here and she is just one normal human person but she is terrifying because of the way she has had her claws sunken into what is essentially our protagonist for not only his whole life but the entire story so far. I think I even have him describe her as a hydra after the cliffhanger haha. Elliott's father is absent from the story, but that only really adds to the grief he feels; is it better to have someone you have removed from your life be entirely gone, never to return? How do you describe the feeling of knowing that someone who ought to have loved you is still just out there somewhere, living their life, unburdened by what they did to you? I write from my own experiences and I really hope that it shows - the abstraction of familial ties makes a person both desperate and terrified to form new connections to people. Elliott's familiy and their mixed intentions and twisted expressions of 'care' are things I really wanted to hang over him, even if it isnt explicitly talked about in the first half of the series.

For my DQXI Open Wounds series, there is just so much dread hanging over Hendrik, but the most obvious haunting of the narrative is by that of Norberto. For context: the world has ended and Hendrik is tasked with guiding The Luminary through the wreckage so that things can be made right again, and along their journey they reconnect with The Luminary's missing friends. However, Hendrik has secrets of his own, and has been in a state of grieving for practically his entire life. Norberto, a boy he had grown up with and idolised, vanished into the night without warning, and ever since then, Hendrik has carried the weight of that very personal loss in his heart. So as he and The Luminary make tracks across the ruins of the world - ruins that Hendrik had part in making - he thinks of Norberto. Norberto who has to be dead, he has to be, he must be dead and gone, something out there killed him because he was so good and just vanished. He never wrote. He was never heard from again. Norberto is long dead and Hendrik adored him, has never gotten over him, has never loved another. Hendrik has long lost his faith and struggles with the idea of there being an afterlife anymore, if there ever was one to begin with, but he wants so badly for Norberto to be out there, somewhere, up above, looking out for him, waiting for him, guiding his hand as he marches through the land in search of light... only to find Sylvando. Sylvando, who left in the middle of the night nigh on fifteen years ago and has changed his name, taken up a new profession, and is ecstatic to see his old best friend again. Hendrik, naturally, is torn apart. Someone who mentally he had envisioned as this unshakable, wonderful young warrior forever gone has been alive this entire time, and now lives as a travelling entertainer. He's different. Vastly different. Everything is upside down. Hendrik's worldview is shaken so many times over, people he thought he could trust have betrayed him and this boy, this person he had internalised as an angel sat on his shoulder, is now in front of him, laughing at him and being a bit of a dickhead. Hendrik already has so much grief, has seen so much loss - having Sylvando in his life ought to feel like a win, but he cannot help but just be so upset by all of this.

There's other characters thematically haunting the narrative of course - Jasper, Mordegon, the other sentinels of course - but I really wanted this harsh tone of Norberto being seperate to Sylvando, to Hendrik's own focus on this boy having haunted him for his whole life. But at the same time it is him, and he's the same, but he isn't. Would Hendrik have behaved the same if he had known the truth? About anything? How would life had been different if Sylvando had at least said goodbye? Is it too late? Were they doomed from the start? Does Sylvando even give a shit about what he's done - does he even know what he's done? Hendrik by nature is a stern and quiet character that broods and self-flagellates and struggles socially, so to be met with someone who is his equal in many ways and yet his opposite, one who he has such a history with, one who knows how to love and love so openly.... Hendrik has been carrying around a ghost for the last twenty years, only to find out that its body was still wandering around out in the big wide world, laughing and smiling and celebrating while he mourned.

And of course for my KH Left Foot Over The Right series you know it's Xemnas. I think he's mentioned in every single chapter. While Xehanort was the one who caused such ripples in the universe and put so many horrible plans into action, Xemnas is the one who had such a personal, intimate stake in Saïx and therefore Isa, let alone poor Terra. For context: Isa wakes up newly reformed and overwhelmed by humanity, crippled by guilt and unsure of what to even do with himself - Terra recognises him and their two groups come together as one as they try to figure out a new life together. Memories of Saïx and Xemnas haunt them both. Again, like my Open Wounds series, I really wanted this separation of Who They Once Were and Who They Are Now; that the past is the past and who they used to be are dead and gone and they're different now, it's a new life, change happens and this is real and things can be better - but I really hope that in my lfotr series that it's obvious that Xemnas is ingrained so deeply into everyone's psyche, not just Isa and not just Terra but the kids and Lea and everyone else; the amount of damage he did, whether conscious or not, is unavoidable and everyone is living in the aftermath of it all. Xehanort's war, the Realm Of Darkness, Nobodyism, they're all fresh and still healing and it is a lot. There are a lot of moving parts in the KH series canonically and every little thing has meaning and can cause other things to happen. Ansem The Wise, Eraqus, the entire Organization, they each influence the story, let alone the main cast of Sora and co; I find the side characters and their influence over the canon story far more interesting! Saïx canonically does so much behind the scenes that we never fully see, and he has been my special interest for eighteen years now haha - he has simply gone through so much and to suddenly be thrust back into a position where he can not only see the aftermath of everything he's done, good and bad, but feel it truly for the first time in his entire adult life? It's hard. Existing is hard. Learning is hard. Healing is hard.

Lfotr, to me, is fully about healing and how vicious is can be. While ofc there's other themes and feelings I want to portray, the path of becoming yourself and coping and reaching out and connecting is my main focus. There are good days and bad days, times when your history is a little too close for comfort, moments when the future seems far too big and far too open. Again, I write from personal experience and use my fics as a way to kind of channel my thoughts. After going through intense periods of trauma and hardship, sometimes you behave in ways you don't want to, sometimes you think in ways you know aren't healthy, sometimes you find solace in strange places and sometimes you latch onto people a little too much because they give you hope. Terra and Isa have both been impacted by what Xemnas has done, and I hope the flashbacks and memories of both him and Xehanort really make it clear that after going through so much for so long that the impact was deep and irreversible. Isa's body will always have memories of Xemnas and what he did, how he was, what he wanted. And Terra's body will always love him, despite everything.

There is also, of course, The Presence in the Realm Of Darkness :) Haunting the narrative, hm....

Life is made of cycles and patterns and things coming back - but it's also made of change and things slowly, almost unrecognisably shifting until its too late. I really hope that in my writing (or at least my longfics where I have time to ramble lmao) that the feeling of the past and its effects prevail, and I really want there to always be a sensation of a bigger, wider world being out there beyond the words I write. I want the characters I portray to feel real and human (where applicable) and for it to really seem like they've lived lifes full of lots of different feelings and memories and that all of them still bear scars in some ways.

The absence of a person can be as impactful as their presence. Sometimes even moreso. The actions of one person, the presence of one person, the smallest and most simple aspects of a person, it can all feel so grand when you focus on it - and can feel even more grand when, suddenly, they're not there anymore. I think very much that my work feels rooted in a human angle of grief - I find it very tricky to write fluff you know! - but I think our experiences around sadness and heartbreak and change help ground us in reality, and that's certaintly the vibe I would like my fics to have. Even if I am writing about yknow disney werewolf keyblade wielders and fantasy clown knights fighting dragons lmao

#long post #text post #answer #thank you for asking me things 👉👈 sowwy for rambling #my fics #dqxi #kh #sdv #fic links #lfotr #open wounds series #wtt #sdv elliott #elliott #hendrik #sylvando #isa #saix #terra #xemnas

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everybody knows my fave lil stardew guy

gonna make these into buyable stickers for my merch store, watch this space!

#stardew valley #sdv #elliott #elliot #stardew elliott #sticker design #merch #captainbobbin

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hilariously i have made this exact same joke before

so long suckers! i rev up my motorcylce and create a huge cloud of smoke. when the cloud dissipates im lying completely dead on the pavement

#kh #shitpost

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so long suckers! i rev up my motorcylce and create a huge cloud of smoke. when the cloud dissipates im lying completely dead on the pavement

#kh3 manga spoilers #kh3 manga #saix #xion #lea #roxas #sora #shitpost #I'm not sorry

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I decided to do a little bookcover type doodle for my crocosan fic, The Front heehoo uwu - it was written all in one sitting for my february challenge and its one of my faves! can't wait to work on the next chapter of it...

#can you tell that I love visual storytelling #crocosan #sir crocodile #sanji #black leg sanji #sanji black leg #vinsmoke sanji #sanji vinsmoke #op #one piece #captainbobbin #fic art

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#poll #shitpost #reblog #look theres nothing better than a collared pathetic villanous clown down on his knees

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A little Xion chibi to celebrate my buddy Mood's birthday! 💜

#xion #kh #kingdom hearts #chibi #(mood gave permission for this to be a sticker in my merch store soon 👀)

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So I'm currently sorting out a merch shop and wanted to do some interest checks! So, first of all, I have this art that I'm thinking of making into a charm -

dont worry - for those who aren't into crocosan/one piece, the store is also gonna have sdv, kh and dq stuff on it heehoo

#I mispelled acrylic I am such a dummy #poll #one piece #crocosan #merch #op #crocodile #sir crocodile #sanji #crocodile x sanji #vinsmoke sanji #sanji black leg #sanji vinsmoke #sanji one piece #black leg sanji

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It's been a busy time the last few weeks but I'm currently setting up a merch store!

I'll post available art and links soon, but yeah, watch this space, things are underway...

#art store incoming #watch this space #captainbobbin

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Either our time zones are different as hell or you sir were up at 2:03 am for some reason-

The idea of Bunnymoon you have will now sit in my mind to be remembered whenever I’m trying to remember something important :)

And fun fact that I’m not sure if you know but bunnies can purr, hiss, and scream and now all I can think of bunnies being are vegetarian cats

sorry for being chronically British lmao

what are you doing up at 2am, brother? Go to bed hahaha

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Oh don’t worry they did find me well-

Though because of your cat Isa art I was wondering what animal you’d view Saïx/Isa as more. Personally I see him as more of a rabbit considering 3ds days has

Whatever this claymore can be called-

That claymore is called Bunnymoon! Saïx gets that in Days if you equip him with the Mystery Gear, which is said to "draw forth its wielder's personality". I think it's really charming and actually very telling of Saïx's character tbh - that deep down he's a kid that grew up far too soon, that looked to the skies and romanticized space and travel (the rocket) and also is fond of soft and cute things deep down (the rabbit). While the alternate weapons level of canon-ness is dubious at best, I really love how much each weapon shows off aspects of the characters they equate to. The name of Saïx's weapons are very interesting, but Bunnymoon and Just Desserts are very much faves of mine haha

The rabbit motif also comes from the tale of The Rabbit In The Moon, which is an Asian folktale; in said tale, if I remember correctly, a rabbit offers all it can to help a beggar in need, and then offers to sacrifice itself by walking through fire. The beggar turns out to be a god of the sun, and carves the rabbit's likeness into the moon, and so the dark spots on the moon are meant to represent the rabbit's noble nature. Which. feels very fitting to me in a lot of ways haha. There's also Saïx's hair lowkey looking like floppy bunny ears lmao. I like the rabbit connection and I think its a super interesting angle but I tend to relate him to other animals!

Theres obviously the wolf/werewolf motifs and I am always a sucker for that. I'm a gay furry that likes big hairy beasts what can I say. Werewolves 100% do it for me and I really like writing Saïx as wolfish - a pack animal that struggles with such a lack of familiarity around him and so lashes out and forces itself to work so independently, much to its detriment.... I love that Saïx's journal text in KH2 talks of him having a 'savage nature' and, in my writing and lfotr especially, I often characterise Saïx's ability of Berserk as its own thing, a sentient part of him, a werewolf-esque part of his personality that he consciously can understand and interact with almost. Everyone in my chat will tell you tho that I very much have a catboy Isa agenda lmaoooo. Listen. Listen. it stems from the werewolf angle but hear me out. He deserves to purr when he's happy and comfortable. He deserves to knead biscuits on those he loves as he gets comfortable and fall asleep against them. He needs to show affection by gentle headbutting as he goes past. He needs attention, and will hunt for you and bring you gifts, and he should secretly enjoy being petted and that man is a cat hahaha

#Saïx #isa #ask #text post #I love discussing lore and kh thoughts #thank you so much for the ask I love chatting #captainbobbin

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we finally have hot water :') it has cost literally all my savings but. At least the boiler is repaired now.

#personal #text post #my queue is still open for coms btw #I'll have more art out soon;

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com for my friend Ab of their tiefling character!

#commission #tiefling #bg3 #baldurs gate 4 #dnd #dungeons and dragons

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#just felt like doodling a sketchy babygirl late last night #sir crocodile #crocodile #one piece #op #captainbobbin

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Wondering what you think about XigDem. Especially considering the theory that Demyx is the Master of Masters theyd be an interesting dynamic with dumbass mentor x possibly mentally unstable student. Also the dummy’s were my second ship when I joined this hellfire of a fandom

(referring to this ship ask meme)

Makes Sense, Doesn't Compel Me - yet.

Admittedly, my knowledge on the Union Cross era of the KH lore is patchy at best. I really like what I've seen of Luxu and MoM but truthfully I have a few too many gaps in my familiarity of them to really imprint headcanons or specific feelings on them, if that makes sense.

In terms of just regular ol' Xigbar and Demyx, I like them both seperately and together! I think its pretty cute and an easygoing kinda lazy mentor-playful student kind of vibe (which from what I've gathered is essentially flipped on its head with the MoM theory haha). I like Xigbar being kind of lackadaisical due to his age and experience and resigning himself to just having a good time where he can while he can, and Demyx is pretty fun company that doesnt ask too many questions. Their personalities feel like they line up interestingly, but it feels very much like a temporary 'relationship' rather than anything lasting or that would leave an imprint, especially on Xigbar. Very much a fling that goes on a little too long and is a friends-with-benefits hangout-and-see-what-happens kind of thing to me!

I need to go back and rewatch a lot of the MoM stuff and I'm really interested in what reveals may come from this entire section of the series. Demyx deserves more screentime and Xig is probably my 3rd fave Org member behind Saix and Xemnas so its always a treat to see what hes getting up to haha. I like XigDem but I don't have any particular deep thoughts on it just yet, but perhaps soon after I re-familiarise myself with the more conspiracy side of things! :)

#ask #ship meme #xigbar #demyx #xigdem