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"I am melting my heart into gold, so that it will be worth something when I give it to her. I pick out every flinch and fear that kept me from doing this sooner. I am ready for her. I am ready."

Ashe Vernon

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I looked to you

With the hope

Of God

I worshipped you

And kissed the

Solid streets of gold

You walked

-God is a woman

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A fist and persuasion

Aren't that different

She's afraid of him

I'm afraid of you

His next strike

Your next move

His screams

Your silence

They take away

The same things

Our freedom

Our love

Trust

And vitality

-of boys that hurt us

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a poem a day keeps the therapist away.

written and submitted by @the-sleepy-poet

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i bent in strange angles

folded, i sharpened the edges

this mind was a paper squared away

to let loose warm water

[ on these origami bones

to let everything fall slow

& have it all melt to a colorspewed mush

...i am papier-mâché, in a way

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Starlings in Winter by Mary Oliver

Chunky and noisy, but with stars in their black feathers, they spring from the telephone wire and instantly they are acrobats in the freezing wind. And now, in the theater of air, they swing over buildings, dipping and rising; they float like one stippled star that opens, becomes for a moment fragmented, then closes again; and you watch and you try but you simply can’t imagine how they do it with no articulated instruction, no pause, only the silent confirmation that they are this notable thing, this wheel of many parts, that can rise and spin over and over again, full of gorgeous life. Ah, world, what lessons you prepare for us, even in the leafless winter, even in the ashy city. I am thinking now of grief, and of getting past it; I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings.

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this is the poem:

i am here now.

i hang up cuttings from plants in little glass jars to take root on my window, and this is the poem. i bake bread for my friends, and i sleep with the windows open. every winter, i forget how the birdsong carries, and every spring, the birds return.

this is where my friends come when they need someplace to go, and this is the poem. we share meals and music and sit on the floor watching movies together, because what else are you supposed to do in a world like this.

this is the poem: five years ago i didn't think i would ever get here. here, in this life that's soft and calm and mine. sure, i had to carve this out with my bare hands, but it's mine, and i have a moss green rug and i can dance and sing in the kitchen now, i can laugh without thinking about it twice. i don't have to hide.

my life is my own now, and this is the poem.

i am here now.

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Hopefully Somewhere in this Everywhere seeds of peace germinate gradually into a grand garden of universal euphoria

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Dear Diary

I write to you

faithfully

but get no reply

So this is a warning:

Either I hear from you

by sundown

or I withhold

the awful details

of my heart’s

dismal dreams

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If You Wish It

You never crossed the Lethe, so you cannot forget. I could make you forget.

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What wins out when love is strong as death?

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I remember climbing a wide stair straight from an opium dream

to a room holding all sound close with thick-woven secrets,

the blackened bedstead hinting of vulnerable skin.

I remember how fickle time slowed for a bashful, forceful god.

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What wins out when death and love are one?

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Sleep. Lighter than a feather is the brush of flesh with the universe.

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I found your laugh today, while I was  in the attic. Still wrapped in tissue  paper, packed safe in a cardboard box.

I labeled it 'Books’ by mistake.

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The turn of your lips

electrifying

The melody of your laughter

Magnetizing

The curves of your hips

Oh so satisfying

From head to toe,

Darling, you're tantalizing

Giggles bubbling

From my throat

Heat rising

To my cheeks

Energy traipsing

Down my skin

Oh Darling,

I'm falling fast

-Exposing the soft parts

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What if giving another person a second chance

Was the only love you ever saw

What if those who were forgiven

Are the only ones granted names

The only ones blessed

Of the words in our mouths

Happy. Perfect. Memories.

Except those between us

Those memories

Forgiven without word

The scars and bruises

They gave us

Painted over with white

What if that was "I love you"

Would you give your love

A second chance?

-on generational trauma

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From the moment you met my lips

I was salivating

Sipping salaciousness

And sin

As you scoured my tongue

My mouth longs for you

And My body aches for you

The rise and fall

Of your chest against mine

The mountains

And valleys of your skin

Every cell

Erects in your presence

Every nerve

Sets ablaze

I was ravenous for you

-Savory

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Your name stings.

Like a child

I hopscotch around

To avoid the sound

But I trip

Or misstep

And the swarm rages out

Im attacked by

Every smile

Every kiss

Every tear

Our memories like venom

Course through my veins

And for a moment

I remember

What it feels like to die

-yellow jacket love

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"Lil peep is someone you listen to when you wanna off yourself"

I don’t know why that rang so true

I don’t know why I didn’t notice 

I don’t know why I let you treat me the way you did for so long

It wasn’t all bad

But at the end everything was clearly crumbling around us

We tried to hold on for so long

But there was nothing left to grab onto

Nothing to sink our feet into

And now I listen to him when I wanna think about you

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I hope I crawl through your brain like a fungus

And i poison EVERYTHING.

I want my arms to reach every deep dark crevice of your mind

Squeezing toxins into your synapses and soaking up every ounce of serotonin sitting in your cerebellum

I hope I travel from cervical to sacral

And you feel me EVERYWHERE

in your fists

In your throat

In the tension of your muscles

I.

Hope.

You.

Feel.

Me.

As the heat

And the knots

And the rigidity in your jaw

I hope I break teeth

And burn the skin of every lover you caress

And that the boiling blood pumping through your chest reminds you of me

-the last of us

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